Nikki Hodgson (8:10)

Yeah, yeah, that's fine. All right. You're gonna have to manage my accent. I hope that's okay. I've been told up in rehearsal, but here we go. Well, so where to begin? So he arrives at my house and he opens his very large leather briefcase and he slides it out. It's as big as a thesis. He puts it in my hands and I start to rifle through this dossier, this dossier that I've already been told about. It's a collection of hundreds of accounts, of newspaper reports of women having cut off their partner's penises in fits of apoplexy. And he gives it to me as he's told me he's going to. And I check that I've got the scissors right there on the table next to us. He wants to, of course, then enact, play pinectomy after I've read this material to him to stimulate him and, you know, we're all good to go. And I look at his face, face, and he's there and he's quivering and I just think, this is going to be a good night at work. So I've been a dominatrix for about four or five years. I mean, I'm not really a dominatrix. I'm really not. I mean, obviously I don't look like one, but I don't switch, so don't fucking ask me. But really, I'm a journalist. Like, I actually am a journalist. Like, I work for BBC and Sky News and things like that, and I go and explain, like, France and Mali and other shit that I don't really understand and I'm sure the viewers don't, but that's what I actually do do for a real job. But the only problem is I never get really paid for it. So, you know, I'd done all that feminist gender studies bollocks at university, so I thought, well, I'm down with the sex work thing, I can do it, I'll try it out. I need to put my mouth where the money is, so to speak. So I try escorting a couple of times, but.

Dixie De La Tour (10:09)

But.

Nikki Hodgson (10:09)

Jesus Christ, it's so boring. I mean, like pussy and cock, cocky and pussy and. Look, this isn't an ideological thing, don't get me wrong. But I decide I would be better using my education if I became a dominatrix instead. So that's what I did. And it was a better use of my education, actually. But even that got boring, you know, I mean, all the clients are different and yet entirely the same. So it's, please, mistress, I just want you to get, like a fucking carrot and just jab it up my backside and then ride me like a little bitch around the room. Or please, mistress, I just want you to get your nastiest, hottest, bestest friends and make them take my clothes off and just reduce me to nothing but a small penis. I've heard it all, honestly. Well, I thought I'd heard it all that's the thing. So when I get this email from this very polite sounding, eloquent young man asking if I'll enact this scissor play with him and read all this material to him, I think, oh, why the hell not? Especially because it's December 27th, you know, that time of year. That's when, you know between Christmas and New Year, when Christmas is just desperate for New Year and New Year is completely contemptuous of Christmas and you're poor and fat and there's nothing else to do. I know, you know, it's.

Dixie De La Tour (11:32)

So.

Nikki Hodgson (11:35)

I decided, okay, I'm going to see him. What else am I going to do? We arrange. He's going to come for 8 o' clock and bring his dossier. And I just think, oh, whatever, another freak. Carry on, whatever. So he appears at my door and my God, at that moment, I think there is a God. Because imagine David Bowie in Labyrinth without the wig and the frock coat, crossed with Jonathan Rees Myers, plus just a smidgen of Victorian street urchin. And this is the most beautiful man that I've ever seen. And he's there at my door as a client. I just, I don't know what to do. I'm just kind of like lavishing my eyes over his magnificent form. Just going down from his this kind of cobalt blue eyes that he has, down his perfect planes of cheekbones, down his clavicle, down the wool coat and noticing there's the briefcase, as he'd told me. So come in, Sebastian, he's called Sebastian. And he crosses my threshold. We go into the bedroom and I tell him to take his clothes off. Well, I actually say, you're wearing too many clothes, which is what I say to all of them. But this time I really, really mean it. So he starts to undress and he's like some kind of veined pansy, glowing in the light. I mean, just has the most delicious body. I've never seen anything like it. And the thing is like, you know, the guys that normally come to me are sort of 40, 50 somethings, like with cracked heels and kind of like burgeoning paunch and they think they're hot. They think that what we're doing is hot for both of us. And it never is. Like, it really isn't. Because like I said, I'm not really a dominatrix. I'm just good at playing it. And the problem now that I have is that, yes, I'm not really a dominatrix and I just want you to spank me or something. Like, how am I gonna hold this shit together? But I'm gonna have to because it's my job, isn't it? Safe, sane and consensual. That's it. I can do this. I can give this man what he wants and then if. He's a freak, isn't he? He's a freak. How can he be a freak when he's so freaking hot? But apparently he is. And so I ask him if he wants a glass of water or anything and he says no. And then I think, oh, he sounds like he's got an American accent. West coast maybe. Where are you from, Sebastian? Oh, San Francisco. San Francisco. You have to understand, San Franciscans, that when you get one of you in London town with one of us, we think we're in for like the whole hottest, filthiest, nastiest, most fucked up night of our lives. Your reputation precedes you. So I think my fucking San Francisco.

Sebastian (14:28)

What am I gonna do with this man?

Nikki Hodgson (14:30)

I gotta get it together, okay? I can't. No, he's. No, what am I saying? He can't dominate me. I've got to dominate him, right? Just get on with it. So I decided I'm going to get on with it. So I have the dossier in front of me and I start going through the material and he's asked me just to respond in any way I see fit to the content therein. So I start to read it and like I said, it's just a catalogue of stories of women cutting their partner's penises off. Normally when the men have cheated, but sometimes just for random reasons, like dishes done inadequately and that kind of thing. And, and there is a particular concentration of these women in Thailand for some reason. So my first thought, being educated in that way that I mentioned earlier, is that this is clearly evidence of a kind of post feminist, post colonial situation going on where the women are so frustrated about the fact that these Americans have come over and like fucked their daughters for a couple of dollars and sold their sisters to be Thai brides. They're taking it out on their own men, clearly, obviously, right? And so I say this to him and he's like, uh huh. Yeah, that sounds just like it. Uh huh, that's perfect. And I'm thinking, wow, he's kind of smart, this guy. Do you have a PhD, Sebastian? Uh huh. Yeah, I really do. Just carry on. Talk to me. Tell me it. Talk to me. So I carry on reading these stories to him. Oh, look, have you heard about this one? Can you believe it? This Fucker ran off with her sister and was keeping two households going at the same time. And all the money was going between them.

Sebastian (15:56)

God, what a cunt.

Nikki Hodgson (15:57)

I would have fucking cut his penis off, too. Don't you think he deserved to lose his penis, Sebastian?

Sebastian (16:01)

Yeah, I really do. Like, maybe you could show me what it would be like.

Nikki Hodgson (16:05)

So I like, I fight, okay? That's my job, right? So I get the scissors and I've got to do this. And I put the scissors. Well, no, first I grab hold of his balls and put the scissors round the base of his shaft and clamp very gently. I mean, they're not sharp. They're only kitchen scissors. And so he. He begins to. To just like.

Sebastian (16:24)

Oh, yeah, I just. I can't bear to lose my penis.

Nikki Hodgson (16:27)

I know, because I'm the worst thing ever. Wouldn't it be Sebastian? Imagine what kind of man you'd be then. You wouldn't be any man, would you? You'd be no good to anyone. Would you? You narcissistic little cunt. Ah. It's over so quickly. And there's cum everywhere, glinting on the scissor blades. I'm quite satisfied with myself. I mean, my Jesus Christ man is so hot. So, in fact, that was nearly sexy, I think to myself. So he stays for three more hours and we talk about all manner of things. I don't know what we talk about. David Bowie, maybe I don't mention the lookalike on cats and that kind of stuff. And he leaves. And the next morning, I ring my friend and I say, gina, oh my.

Sebastian (17:08)

God, I've met the most incredible man. Like, he's a client of mine and he's into scissor sex.

Nikki Hodgson (17:13)

And she goes, great, and leads me to it. And for the next couple of months, I date this man. And he is beyond fuckery. He is the most fucked up fuck I have ever met in my entire life. He starts to dominate me. I get my due, fine. But the problem is that I'm falling heart wrenchingly, unerringly in love with this person. And he doesn't give a shit about me. He's just using me. Because what's he got? He's got a dominatrix for free, right? Jesus Christ. His sex worker rang him up and was like, hey, do you want to go out sometime? And it's not £200 anymore, so of course he says yes. So, you know, a couple of months pass and I'm just like. My heart is literally just like splitting in two because he doesn't give A shit. And normally when we go on a date, he'll tell me about all the beautiful women in the room or like, talk to me about the ones that he's fucked or the ones that he wants to like. And they're always dark haired and sort of pointy and like Indian or Arabic or something that I'm just never going to be. Like, Queen Rhaenyra Jordan is his favorite. And to be honest, like, come on, look, I'm bisexual and I'm fucking. Like, I'm an orientalist pussy muncher as well. But like, the point is that I, you know, like, I mean, I've got Lahore.com on my bookmarks. Look it up. But the point is that, like, I just, I can't be this thing that he wants me to be. Well, I can't even be it. He doesn't want me to be it. So I'm just kind of paralyzed with misery when he starts to go on about laying Queen Rhaenyra down by candlelight. She doesn't fucking like scissor sex, Sebastian, I always say to him.

Sebastian (18:41)

But.

Nikki Hodgson (18:44)

This doesn't seem to matter to her, to him or to her in his mind anyway. So I just decide, well, what am I going to do? How am I going to make this man fall in love with me? I know I'm going to give him his ultimate fantasy. So the next day I go to the hardware store, I'm scanning the aisles, I'm gonna see it when I. Yep, there we go. And I go to the scissors section and there we have them. Poultry scissors. Have you ever seen these before? I know you know what they are. They have these immense blades like this and a beautiful safety catch which makes a horrible kind of wrenching sound when you take it off. And I just think, here you go, baby, happy birthday. Even if it is your birthday or whatever. So I ring him up, I arrange to meet him and I get to his house and I've wrapped the scissors up in some nice white paper and a red ribbon, which I thought was appropriate. And I hand them to him and he's like, what's this? And so I'm like, yeah, go on up. It's a nice little present for you. And he opens it and he just gulps, like, visibly gulps. Are you ready for this, Sebastian? I'm going to give you what you want. What are you talking about? You know what you fucking want, you twat. You've made me so fucking miserable and now you're going to get your due. So we begin to Play. But he's kind of like getting hot and he's in a kind of like cold sweat. I can see it in him. And, you know, this is just how it's going to be. So I grab him by the balls and put the scissors right round there and they really are sharp and nasty and kind of squeeze a little bit like that. And he's kind of like. He can't help himself. He's just like gyrating against the blades even now. Like, he's that much of a fucked up fuck.

Sebastian (20:27)

Why? Why, why, Nikki? Why do you have to do this to me? Like, what have I done to you? Like, why do you have to do this to me? Why do you hate me so much?

Nikki Hodgson (20:34)

And I just want to shout. I don't fucking hate you, twi. I fucking love you. And this is why I'm doing it for you. Can you not see the irony in this horrible situation that we're. But he can't. So we carry on. And I just keep telling him, like, you know, this is. This is all yours, is everything you ever wanted. Right here, right now, Sebastian. And I just grip a little bit tighter and then there's blood. Yeah, there's blood. And I just take my hand off and grip a little bit more and. Well, I don't cut his cock off, obviously, do I? Come on. You think I'd be here now? I mean, I have thought about pulling a big fraud to go to prison to write my novel, but, I mean, this is. And I'd be some kind of weird feminist superhero. A bit like Valerie. What's that woman called? Yeah, I'm not going to mention her, but you know who I'm talking about. Anyway, so I decide, no, I'm not going to do that. And so instead I write a book about him and I get my revenge that way. And then a couple of months later, I come to San Francisco to lay his ghost to rest. That's what I've told myself. And really to get myself laid as well. It always helps, right? But I do get myself laid with a very nice young man who's from Orange County. And he takes me out and he takes me somewhere around here. We fuck on the roof a number of times. And I've never found it since. But anyway, I'm still here with him now, so it's all good. But he tells me at the end of the night that he's got a fetish. And I think, oh, God, here we go. And he says, yeah, I've got this fetish and I can't really talk to anyone about it. And I'm like, okay, because I've already said that my sex worker, blah blah blah. Everybody thinks they can confess everything to me and I'll do it for them. And I say it's fine, just go on. I just think I have to brace myself another one off the list or whatever. And he just goes, I like feet. Feet, feet. Is that all? Because I tell you, you something. I'm no Queen Rania, but I have got perfect feet.

Eunuch's Lament Singer (23:07)

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Nikki Hodgson (24:28)

I.

Eunuch's Lament Singer (24:28)

Wet the woo oh, the clocks go tick, the bells go bong I'd give my arm for an 8 inch Wong with a hair warm a bomber I want the banger ears I begaroo I am a sexless shepherd bred I'll never prod where others tread With a head a goosea mucha high a gander masha hoosa I masheroom oh, the plums of Italy will never peel their bush for me with hay I mean oh, my feet are flat and not only that I've got no balls to beat the bat with Eh, stupid toodle high bladder baggers egg strudel I beg a roo My nose blows like an elephant's snout Foliage were my trouser trowel With a hay A wiener peeler high tailor nailer hey wiener I name the rule oh, the dames go chit the dames go chat I cannot wipe their welcome mats with hay squeezer neezer Use your imagination Here John de linger had a 12 inch brick it's fellers like him who make mistake With a super drooper I party pooper super hydro Purdue. Well, the time has come to bid good riddance Till the eunuch makes his next appearance With a hay Fuck you, I fuck you and I mean that with all my heart on fuck you in your big wazoo.

Dixie De La Tour (26:56)

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Unidentified Narrator (32:14)

Then I got really horny after a couple weeks because I wasn't getting laid anymore, and I decided to get out of bed, go take a shower, walk outside with some lowered standards, and slowly form a small harem of lovers.