Bawdy Storytelling Episode 89: "Eunuch" (Nichi Hodgson)

Date: September 18, 2019
Host: Dixie De La Tour
Storyteller: Nichi Hodgson

Episode Overview

This episode of Bawdy Storytelling highlights a unique, provocative, and heartfelt story by British journalist, author, and former dominatrix Nichi Hodgson. Hosted by the irreverent and sex-positive Dixie De La Tour, the podcast is known for showcasing real sexual experiences and unvarnished storytelling.

The main story, "Eunuch," recounts Nichi’s experience with a client whose sexual fantasy centered on castration roleplay. What begins as an unusual professional encounter unfolds into an intense, complicated affair—blurring the boundaries between dominance, submission, love, and revenge.

Key Discussion Points & Insights

1. Setting the Scene: From Journalism to Sex Work

• Nichi introduces herself as a journalist who turned to sex work—primarily domination—to supplement her unreliable journalism income.
• She sets a candid, humorous tone about both worlds:

  "I'm not really a dominatrix... but I don't switch, so don't fucking ask me." (08:51)

• Initially found escorting boring, so moved to dominatrix work as a "better use of my education." (10:09)

2. The Fantasy Client: Scissor Role Play

• Nichi receives an email from Sebastian, a highly polite, eloquent man with a very specific fantasy: he wants to listen to stories about women castrating their unfaithful male partners and then enact a safe, consensual “pinectomy” (castration fantasy) using scissors.
• Sebastian arrives with a dossier full of newspaper clippings on the topic—his personal arousal trigger.

Memorable Description of Sebastian:

"Imagine David Bowie in Labyrinth without the wig and the frock coat, crossed with Jonathan Rhys Meyers, plus just a smidgen of Victorian street urchin. This is the most beautiful man I’ve ever seen." (12:16)

3. Power Play, Attraction, and Vulnerability

• Despite being the dominant, Nichi is immediately attracted to Sebastian and struggles to maintain professional detachment.

• She details the roleplay, the cues, the exchange of power—culminating in a vivid scene where she clamps scissors (gently) around his shaft:

  "I grab hold of his balls and put the scissors round the base of his shaft and clamp very gently. I mean, they're not sharp. They're only kitchen scissors." (16:05)

• The fantasy play leads to sexual satisfaction for Sebastian—described with a mix of bluntness and humor:

  "There’s cum everywhere, glinting on the scissor blades. I’m quite satisfied with myself. My Jesus Christ, that man is so hot." (16:31)

4. From Fantasy to Reality—An Ensuing Affair

• After the session, Nichi finds herself enamored. They start dating, but the power dynamics shift—Sebastian begins to dominate her emotionally.

• She experiences heartbreak, as his attention wanders to women stereotype she can never embody:

  "He'll tell me about all the beautiful women in the room—or the ones that he's fucked, or the ones that he wants to... they're always dark-haired and sort of pointy and like Indian or Arabic or something that I'm just never going to be." (17:41)

• Feeling desperate, Nichi seeks to win Sebastian's affection by taking his fantasy further, purchasing "poultry scissors" for their next rendezvous.

5. Attempt at Ultimate Fantasy & Self-Realization

• Nichi describes an intense, almost violent session, poised on the edge between danger and catharsis:

  "I grab him by the balls and put the scissors right round there and they really are sharp and nasty and kind of squeeze a little bit like that. ...then there's blood. Yeah, there's blood. ...Well, I don't cut his cock off, obviously, do I?" (20:34)

• She recognizes the futility and irony of giving everything for love that is unrequited, and finds her own revenge/story by writing a book about him.

6. Closure and A New Connection

• To find closure, she travels to San Francisco—the city of his origin. There, she meets a new lover with a comparatively "tame" fetish:

  "He just goes, I like feet. Feet, feet. Is that all? Because I tell you something, I’m no Queen Rania, but I have got perfect feet." (22:47)

Notable Quotes & Memorable Moments

• Consent Ritual:

  "Consent." — Nikki Hodgson (00:12), echoed by Dixie

• On Dominatrix Clients:

  "All the clients are different and yet entirely the same." (10:09)

• On San Franciscans:

  "When you get one of you in London town with one of us, we think we’re in for like the whole hottest, filthiest, nastiest, most fucked up night of our lives. Your reputation precedes you." (13:50)

• On Despair and Irony:

  "I don’t fucking hate you, twi—I fucking love you. And this is why I’m doing it for you. Can you not see the irony in this horrible situation?" (20:34)

• On Fetishes and Perspective:

  "Feet, feet. Is that all? Because I tell you, something. I’m no Queen Rania, but I have got perfect feet." (22:47)

Important Segments with Timestamps

• [08:10] — Nichi begins her story.
• [12:16] — Vivid introduction of Sebastian.
• [16:05] — First scissor-play session described in detail.
• [17:41] — Nichi reflects on heartbreak and unattainable ideals.
• [20:34] — The second, more intense roleplay scene.
• [22:47] — Meeting a new lover in San Francisco; comic relief via foot fetish.

Tone & Language

The episode is raw, irreverent, brutally honest, and laced with British wit and sexually explicit humor. Nichi’s storytelling is confessional and self-deprecating; Dixie’s interjections are supportive and playful.

Closing Note

Nichi’s tale is about far more than kink or sex work—it's a meditation on power, vulnerability, heartbreak, and the absurd measures we sometimes take to seek love and approval. The blend of humor, self-reflection, and emotional rawness makes it both memorable and deeply relatable, even for those who've never played with kitchen scissors in the bedroom.

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