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Sophie
Call Zone Media.
Robert Evans
Behind the Bastards. That's the podcast you're listening to, right? Right now. Worst people in all of history. We tell you all about them and you know all about them. This has been a rough year for a lot of us here at behind the Bastards. We talked about a lot of pedophiles, and I'm tired of talking about pedophiles. There are pedophiles in this episode, but they're not the primary focus of the episode. Jamie Loftus, how are you doing today? I'm sorry for saying pedophiles right before introducing you. That didn't wind up working well.
Jamie Loftus
And today we're talking to the biggest one of them all. We landed the white whale.
Robert Evans
I just was like, oh, I wanted to go right into the title, but then I hadn't introduced you and I was like, I should introduce Jamie before the title. But I also. Part of me was like, should I introduce the title and then bring in Jaime? I don't know. I did it the wrong way. I'm sure about that.
Sophie
One complaint at the start here, Robert, why are you not wearing a hat?
Robert Evans
I don't like hats.
Jamie Loftus
It's true. Where's your statement hat?
Robert Evans
I don't have a statement hat. But, Jamie, you are wearing a Theranos hat right now, which I am.
Jamie Loftus
A well worn one.
Robert Evans
A well worn one, yeah. Theranos. Has this been around the block?
Jamie Loftus
Rustic.
Robert Evans
Looks like fucking Liz Holmes. Sweat through that thing. While she was waiting to hear, she was actually indicted.
Jamie Loftus
Yeah. I actually contributed to her bail fund and she mailed this to me.
Sophie
Iconic. Um, I'm wearing a hat that fit. Looks very appropriate for today's episode. It says, disappointment awaits.
Robert Evans
Yeah. Yeah. You're both going to get what you want today, because we are, Jamie, talking about a Silicon Valley cult led by a female grifter. And best of all, it's an orgasm cult. It's an orgasm cult, everybody. Beautiful times.
Jamie Loftus
And then the crowd bursts into applause. They're like, you muscled through six more.
Robert Evans
We did it.
Jamie Loftus
Pedophiles. To get to the orgasm cult. We did it, folks.
Robert Evans
Yeah. Yeah. Oh, thank God. It's like washing your face in a stream. Only actually, this is very abusive and a lot of people get hurt.
Sophie
Well, it is behind the bastards, buddy. Disappointment awaits.
Robert Evans
But we get to laugh at, like, Silicon Valley starter fucking shit getting mixed in with, like, traditional cult abuse techniques. It's very fun and we love to
Jamie Loftus
see women in a leadership role, Zach.
Robert Evans
A woman who is really, really hurting and taking advantage of a lot of Men in a way that does even the scales on this show somewhat. Like if you're just sort of interesting, it starts the process. She goes through a lot of guys
Sophie
after Spectre and Savile. Thank you, by the way.
Robert Evans
Yeah. I mean, Savile abused a lot of boys too, Sophie.
Sophie
That's fair. But I want to hear about a woman.
Robert Evans
Let's hear it. Yes. So we are going to call.
Jamie Loftus
Who is this person?
Robert Evans
Yeah, yeah, I'm going to guess there's a good chance you haven't heard her name. She's Nicole Dodone. Like D, A, E, D, O, N,
Sophie
E. How many times is the word clitoris in the script? I see it in the.
Robert Evans
A lot, Sophie.
Jamie Loftus
I see it in the parallel. Can we get a control F on this?
Sophie
Yeah, I just got really excited.
Robert Evans
I avoided it, but I used a couple of synonyms. So here's the thing.
Sophie
12 times. How many times is vagina in the script? Only six.
Jamie Loftus
Only six.
Sophie
Wow.
Robert Evans
The cult is based around this lady comes up with a. Has an idea that, like, if you get a bunch of women in a room and you have a partner masturbate them in a room sometimes with hundreds of people watching, it creates this sort of like magical energy effect that has a bunch of health benefits.
Jamie Loftus
It's like an operating theater approach to Cummings. Yes.
Robert Evans
That's exactly what they do. That's exactly the heart of the grift, Jamie.
Jamie Loftus
Okay, okay, I'm listening, I'm listening.
Robert Evans
It's gonna be really fun. So what's also really fun about this is that this practice, getting all these people in a room, I mean, sometimes it was one person at a time, but masturbating people in public, totally detached from sex. Right. Number one, it is only vaginas and clitoris is being like, manipulated. Right? Like, that's the. This is not like a multi organ kind of deal. And number two, this is not supposed to be erotic. By the end of it, by like the Silicon Valley stage of the grift, we're treating this like you're taking like a bulletproof coffee. And by the way, the bulletproof coffee guys endorsed this business. So. So many beautiful crossovers.
Jamie Loftus
Oh, God. Yeah. Anytime you have a Silicon Valley grift, you have some incredible side players. There's always a great series of Tim Ferriss shows up.
Robert Evans
It's awesome.
Jamie Loftus
Really?
Robert Evans
Yeah. We get Tim Ferriss, we don't get a Navy seal. I was bummed about that, Jamie. I was hoping one of those Navy seals who sells like energy bars would be in this picture, but no. Tragically not.
Jamie Loftus
Oh, this is. Okay, so the. It's sex, but it's not sex. So it's more than sex.
Robert Evans
Yeah, it's way worse than sex. And it's not supposed to be sexy by the end. This does start with a bunch of dudes in like the 70s who it very much is about sex for. But before we get to the dudes in the 70s, we're gonna have to have a little talk because it's very relevant about the patterns that these. This group that's supposed to be kind of like breaking the mold and making this, like, women centric and not abusive fall into. We're gonna have to talk about the history of the female orgasm in popular awareness and medical conception. Right.
Jamie Loftus
There was a part of me that thought you were going to say, we have to talk about the clitoris. Where is it? How do we find it?
Robert Evans
What is it?
Jamie Loftus
Just all be on the same page.
Robert Evans
Got like a laser pointer cut.
Jamie Loftus
So it's like right there, just mining.
Robert Evans
You got no excuse.
Jamie Loftus
So let's talk about it, ladies.
Robert Evans
Yeah, I think I. My sex ed was so bad. Growing up in Texas, I'm fairly certain I learned about the clitoris from the south park movie. Like, I think that was my first encounter with it when I was like nine or ten, something like that.
Sophie
My son said I took it over summer school and they just showed us multiple horrific birthing scenes.
Robert Evans
Oh, great. Yeah, we did see one of those.
Sophie
Just one, not one, not two, maybe four.
Jamie Loftus
God. Well, at least they put in the hours. I didn't. I saw one birth video, but no, I didn't even get like period information. And it was like a running joke in my town how the fact that they did not invest in sex ed. But I went to this massive high school where there was a daycare at the high school. And you just have to think one perhaps led to the endings, might connect it.
Robert Evans
Yeah, I remember. I don't think they even told us orgasms at all existed. They told us that, like, you know, how the act of intercourse happens physically and that it feels good. And I don't even think. I think they were supposed to tell us about, like, semen. But I think the gym coach that was giving the lesson was way too awkward, so he just kind of breezed right past it. We didn't hear anything about that.
Jamie Loftus
It's a part of the great American tradition to be full of visceral fear and think you're dying the first time you come.
Robert Evans
Yeah, it's important. Yeah, it's really crucial stuff. This is an iHeart podcast.
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Robert Evans
So for as long as there have been people, we've understood that sex at least could potentially be very enjoyable for both participants. Right. Like that people have been aware that it can be fun, even if they've hated the idea of that. But there's also been this understanding that people with penises and people with vaginas experience these pleasures so somewhat differently at first. So far as I can tell, I don't think there was a lot of controversy about this idea. In ancient Greek mythology, Hera and Zeus are said to have argued over whether or not men enjoyed sex more than women. And Zeus, who is a prolific rapist, argued that women seem to take more pleasure in the act. And Hera was like, yeah, I'm not surprised you said that. But then she was like, obviously guys enjoy it more. That's why you're doing all the shit you're doing. Zeus, the wide sage Tiresias was brought in to give like, an answer to kind of adjudicate this. And he was like, women feel nine or ten times as much pleasure as men. So he agreed with Zeus. And Hera did some really mean things to him. She did not like that.
Sophie
Gotta be honest, didn't know Zeus slander was on the calendar for today.
Robert Evans
Oh, Zeus slander's always on the calendar.
Jamie Loftus
Love it. Slander is absolutely always on the calendar. And. And we do talk about him like he is a guy that was just a dude.
Robert Evans
Yeah. Like, we met him at a Cinnabon.
Sophie
My only compliment to Zeus is that story about when Zeus birthed somebody from his forehead like a pimple. And that's how I think I got Anderson.
Robert Evans
Yeah, yeah, yeah. Oh, there you go. Yeah, I like the one where he turns into like a swan to have sex with a swan. Because he just sees a swan that's so hot, but he's like, I can't do this as a guy. Like, I gotta be a swan, right?
Sophie
First of all, swans not nice. Second of all, no, beautiful.
Robert Evans
Sure. That's what Zeus said. So because. Because the United States is a culture that was heavily influenced by puritanism and generations in which women were shamed and ostracized for even sexual contact that they had no choice in, it's easy to see that like, oh, the Greeks were like, way more sex positive than like their Western descendants were thousands of years later. Right? That, like, well, that seems like at least a more sex positive view, even though that's still kind of messed up. And there are some ways in which that's true. But. Assistant professor of classics and editor for the journal Eidolon, Tara Mulder makes an important point about what this myth was really saying. And this is relevant to everything that winds up happening in the Silicon Valley days of this fucking sex cult. If the ancient Greeks were supposed to take a message or learn a lesson from this myth, it was that women were the lucky ones when it came to sex. Women could be assumed to always want sex and when they got it, to enjoy it substantially more than men, giving rise to the need for men to control sexual interactions and the sexuality of women. The companion to the ancient Greek and Roman idea that women enjoy sex more than men is the ancient idea that women are sexually ravenous and insatiable. Their sexual appetites couldn't be trusted and had to be reined in by male guards, guardians. So that's going to actually be relevant to every, every modern day orgasm cult. All of which are again wrapped in like, this is all about the women. And all of us are going to wind up recreating that like ancient Greek and Roman shit. Like it's crazy how it's. Nothing changes.
Jamie Loftus
Okay, okay, so we already have. This is maybe a record for you, Robert, of like, we can't talk about this before we talk about ancient Greek mythology and we gotta. I fully believe it. I fully believe it. So is this. I'm guessing this is like, oh, this is actually about like women and women's pleasure.
Robert Evans
Yep.
Jamie Loftus
And women are obsessed with being controlled and need to be controlled. And that's actually hot and liberating.
Robert Evans
It's. It's a little more complicated and honestly dumb than that, Jamie. But I don't want to spoil how dumb it is.
Jamie Loftus
My sex cult is going to be better. This is, this is instructive.
Robert Evans
This is critical to understand before you start a sex cult. And there's a couple more things that we need to understand before we get into this, because there's a lot of patterns the Greeks set up that we just never get free of here in the west, at least. So the sage Ovid advised his readers that women had a nasty tendency to say no when they meant yes. Like, he's kind of the first guy in the Western canon to be like, a no's not a no, brah. Like, that's. That's Ovid, right? Like, he's that kind of guy. And this is endemic all over ancient culture, just as it is like today. Hippocrates, the father of Western medicine, weighed in on the pleasure debate and essentially agreed with Tiresias. And through his descendants, medieval Europe inherited the belief that female pleasure aided in conception. The term orgasm didn't exist, but they knew what one was, and they thought it made pregnancy more likely that, like, if she enjoys it, you're likely to conceive a child. That was, like, a widespread understanding in medieval Europe, which breaks a pretty important misconception about medieval life, right? That, like, they were frightened and ignorant of sex because they weren't nearly as ignorant as a lot of people who would come later, for one thing. And everyone lives in the same room. So you, like, know where kids come from, right? Like, there's no missing that.
Jamie Loftus
You see them being created constantly.
Robert Evans
You're. You're aware of how things work. There's no, like, telling. There's no getting kids to, like, think that sex is not normal. Like, if you're growing up in that environment. Several Catholic scholars, in fact, discussed prostitution positively. There's. There was an idea around, like, Catholic theology in this time that, like, you kind of need prostitutes for society to work, that if they don't exist, things go crazy. Like, that was, like, a fairly widespread idea among some circles, and there were even monks and nuns who published work that was explicitly about sex. One example was Constantine The African, a 12th century figure who wrote a book about sex on sexual intercourse. He was actually translating the work of a Muslim scholar, as is often the case with stuff like this. Ibn Al Jazer. But he filed that guy's name off of the paper for obvious reasons. He was just like, I'm just gonna cut this right off, put this out under my name.
Jamie Loftus
This is my fuck book. Don't worry about it.
Robert Evans
Yeah, this is my book about sex. Don't. Don't think about it. Per a blog called Constantinus Africanus by Monica H. Green, it opens very clearly stating that sexual Function was established by the Creator himself to ensure the propagation of all species. For if animals disliked intercourse, all the species of animals would certainly have perished. Pretty hard to argue with. Many of the same frank attitudes towards sexuality can be found in others of Constantine's works. In fact, we find in later manuscripts of the Constantinian corpus a short work on the potential harms and benefits of sexual intercourse called, again, the Liber Minor Dikoitu, the Little Book of Intercourse. That's. That's all kind of fun, right?
Jamie Loftus
That is fun.
Robert Evans
That's all interesting.
Jamie Loftus
Yeah. Okay. People are so, like, wattpad goes way back. Everyone's always been writing their horny little things.
Robert Evans
Oh, yeah. Forever.
Jamie Loftus
Especially Ovid is, like, spouting the game.
Robert Evans
Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. The first pickup artist, he's like, no,
Jamie Loftus
no, they love it, dude. They love it.
Robert Evans
Yeah. Huge fans. So Jazzer wrote about sex, but he wrote about it purely from the male standpoint. And to the extent that Constantine was interested in gathering research about sexual or stealing research about sexual pleasure, it was only stuff from the male perspective. But they weren't the only intellectuals weighing in on the subject at the same time. You're gonna love this lady. Both of you are. She's awesome. One of my sources for these episodes is the History of Women Medium page by Mary DeVry. And she wrote a really good article on a contemporary of Constantine's, a 12th century Benedictine nun named Hildegard of Bingen.
Sophie
I'm already sold. I'm like, there's a lot of my buzzwords today. Is the nun fucking cool?
Jamie Loftus
We've got a horny nun.
Robert Evans
She's a horny nun. But more than that, she's. Every now and then you read about someone in history and they're from long enough good that you don't get a ton of granular detail, but you can just tell, like, oh, you were smart as fuck. Like, you were a genius. And that Hildegard. So she. She comes into life. She's born into a rich family, but she had. That doesn't mean she has any choice or agency in her life. It actually means the opposite. Right. Because during this time, her family's very religious. And at this period of time, if you're super religious, it's normal to tie the 10th of what you have to the Church. And that's not just money in this age. That means, like, if you have 10 kids, you're given one of them to the priesthood or to be a monk or to be a nun. Right. Like, that's a normal.
Jamie Loftus
I know that extended to flesh.
Robert Evans
That's for the very religious right. I'm not going to say every family's doing that, but a number of them are. That's why there's so many people in the church, right?
Jamie Loftus
Yeah, if you can get to 10.
Robert Evans
Yeah, we get the 10, we'll give one to God. And her parents were also may have been motivated. She started seeing visions at age 3. So that may have been part of why they're like, well, she should probably be in the church. I don't know if I want to deal with this. So I don't know what was going on there. And I actually don't know. Part of me wonders, was she seeing visions or did she realize that if she had visions and talked about them, she could manipulate her circumstances to improve them? And I kind of think that may have been what's going on because the visions are always very conveniently articulated to get her what she wants. Once my interpretation of her story is that the latter is more likely. But yeah, I'm an atheist in a scalawag and I like to see like a clever underdog find a way to win in a religion that's stacked against them. Like, I think that's fun.
Jamie Loftus
That feels like. So you know, that's like the history of women in religion is like, oh, actually a made up told me so you actually, it's like the only. It's like when I am trying to get someone to listen to me and I just respond in like from a separate email and be like, hi, I'm Kevin, Jamie's representative.
Sophie
Kevin is such a great fake guy name.
Robert Evans
Yeah, Kevin's a perfect fake guy name.
Sophie
Kevin could be a guy.
Jamie Loftus
He's a great negotiator. Kevin. If you ever get an email from Kevin, look out, you're about to get mobile.
Robert Evans
You're gonna get. Yeah. So I, I, Anyway, so she gets put up in this. I mean, it's a nunnery that's attached to a Benedictine monastery. I don't know if Benedictine nun is actually the proper term, but she's like a nun and the nunnery is attached to this Benedictine monastery and she's put under the care of an anchoress named Jutta. And an anchor is that that whole thing means that like Jutta is supposed to be anchored to a place. She and her nuns are not ever supposed to leave the monastery. Like the world can come to them, but they're not supposed to go out. Right. And you know, as opposed to like
Jamie Loftus
there are there, I guess, like the. Some nuns are loose.
Robert Evans
Yeah, yeah. Well, they're able to move around, be in the world. They can move to different nunneries or different churches or. Sure. Like, because, you know, the church starts a new church, you gotta be able to send some nuns over. It's gotta be one that's not anchored to a place. Right. I'm not an expert on this. This is just what the reading says and it seems that makes sense. I know, I've heard of anchoresses before.
Jamie Loftus
Your anchor nuns or your loose nuns.
Robert Evans
Yeah, yeah, your anchor nuns and your loose nuns. Your pocket nuns, so to speak. And by the time Hildegard's a young adult, Juddha's died. And it says a lot about how good Hildegard is at the social game that Hildegard gets made anchorous when she dies. Like, Jutta passes the title onto her. So she's in char and she does not like this deal. She does not want to be stuck in one place. As Mary DeVry writes, she wasn't happy being attached to a monastery and asked for permission for the nuns to move away and start their own place. No, absolutely not, said the abbot. Hildegard wasn't having that. So she went over his head to the archbishop. Sure, whatever was his reply. But the abbot was not thrilled with the end run or losing this community of women handily attached to his monastery or the challenge to his authority, or some other reason we can only speculate about. He didn't let the women leave. You could say Hildegard wasn't going to take that lying down. Except that's exactly what happened. Hildegard was stricken ill by God, paralyzed and unable to get up. It was God's unhappiness about the nuns not being allowed to move.
Jamie Loftus
Hildegard told the abbot, I love her.
Robert Evans
Fucking awesome. She's so cool.
Sophie
I was like, love her.
Jamie Loftus
Oh,
Robert Evans
hey, you know this guy you're telling me exists and talks to us. He's talking to me right now and,
Jamie Loftus
oh, I can't come to work if I'm not a loose nun. Sorry.
Robert Evans
Right?
Jamie Loftus
Oh, that's genius.
Robert Evans
It's so cool. She's awesome. So the nuns get to leave the name Hildegard back.
Sophie
It's a banger.
Robert Evans
Hildegard whips. Yeah, I love. She goes.
Sophie
Sorry.
Robert Evans
She finds.
Sophie
When you're talking about a cool nun, that just really, just gets me going.
Jamie Loftus
She's rad, really coming alive right now.
Robert Evans
She's only just begun. So she, she gets to leave with some of her other nuns and they get to found a new nunnery or whatever you call Them, you know, and along the way, while they're. They're doing this journey, Hildegard decides that God had made her sick. And she's, like, around 40 when that happens, because he wanted her to do something that she hadn't been doing. He'd been giving her visions all these years. Totally. She'd been having. But she just had kept him to yourself herself. She never, like, told him to anybody until now, but they'd always been there. And she writes this. Though I saw and heard these things, I refused to write for a long time through doubt and bad opinion and the diversity of human words. Not with stubbornness, but in the exercise of humility until laid low by the scourge of God, I fell upon a bed of sickness, and I spoke and wrote these things not by the invention of my heart or that of any other person, but as by the secret mysteries of God. I heard and received them in the heavenly places. And again, I heard a voice from heaven saying to me, cry out, therefore, and write. Thus, Basically, God's saying, you need to go out into the world and write books. And Hildegard's like, that's what God wants me to do. And she reaches.
Jamie Loftus
God wants me to pivot.
Robert Evans
God wants me to pivot. Pivoting the books.
Sophie
I love this.
Jamie Loftus
It's the same, like, religious narrative we hear, but it's, like, only being used to liberate her specifically.
Robert Evans
Yeah, it's really cool.
Sophie
Yeah, it's cool in the sense of, like. But the same thing happens in, like, the flds, where, like, a new guy's like, yeah, I'm a prophet now. The big guy told me I need 75 wives.
Robert Evans
It worked.
Jamie Loftus
Unfortunately, this is that strategy being used
Robert Evans
in the right way, in the very coolest of ways. So Hildegard reaches out to the Pope, and she's like, this is what God said. She sends what I just read basically to the Pope. And the Pope is like, hell, yeah. God wants you to write, like, here's some fucking money. Why don't you pick out a team of helpers, and they'll transcribe and write out and publish all of your visions from God in books. And so she starts putting out books that are supposedly inspired by God. I don't. I don't know. I didn't look that up. This isn't a story about a man.
Sophie
Anytime there's, like, a pope that does, like, a slight. A slight cool thing, I'm like, noted.
Robert Evans
I should have looked into the Pope. You're right.
Jamie Loftus
Pope W Is few and far Between.
Robert Evans
Yeah, that's what I'm saying. Especially in this period, 12th century.
Sophie
That's what I'm saying.
Robert Evans
She publishes a bunch of books, and one of them is called Cause Et Curae. And it contains what is generally agreed to be the oldest description of a woman having an orgasm. Written by a woman. Right.
Jamie Loftus
Is this told by her, or is this God telling her what an orgasm might feel like?
Robert Evans
She says it's God because she couldn't know, obviously, God. She hasn't experienced what God's like.
Jamie Loftus
You're a nun, so this is so like, I'm just gonna let you in.
Robert Evans
You're missing out on something crazy. It is fucked up if you think about it that way.
Sophie
I love it.
Jamie Loftus
It's like God is taunting her.
Robert Evans
Yeah. Yeah. He's being a real dick here. So here's how Hildegard writes about the orgasm she definitely never experienced. When a woman is making love with a man, a sense of heat in her brain which brings with it sensual delight, communicates the taste of that delight during the act and summons forth the emission of the man's seed. And when the seed has fallen into its place, that vehement heat descending from her brain draws the seed to itself and holds it. And soon the woman's sexual organs contract and all the parts that are ready to open up during the time of menstruation now close in the same way a strong man can hold something enclosed in his fist. So, okay, you know, very Catholic, you know, very 12th century, but okay.
Sophie
I.
Jamie Loftus
Honestly, I'm disappointed. I'm disappointed. I wanted something. I wanted something sexier.
Robert Evans
Something sexier. She's a nun. She's simply a nun.
Sophie
Yes, but if she was alive now, she would have loved that song, Pussy palace by Lily.
Robert Evans
She would have been huge about that one.
Jamie Loftus
Yeah, and the.
Sophie
Yeah.
Jamie Loftus
I mean, describing being horny for a guy as a result of a brain fever is kind of potent.
Robert Evans
It's super funny.
Jamie Loftus
Yeah.
Sophie
Kind of relatable. I think.
Robert Evans
Hildegard lives a great life. The Church sends her. She gets to do all the things she'd always dreamed about. The Church sends her on four long speaking tours where she travels around Europe and gets to talk about her work to learned audiences of learned men. She's super widely respected. Her books are fairly widely distributed. And in addition to that bit about the orgasm, she also wrote out descriptions of the four kinds of men. And this doesn't really directly impact our episode, but I couldn't read these and not include them because some of them are pretty spot on today.
Jamie Loftus
Wait, what? What do men be like? What do men be like? Hildegarden?
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Robert Evans
What do men be like? So you gotta know first. Her writing on this is somewhat influenced by the Greek belief that the body is governed by four humors, earth, wind, air, and fire, as well as something called bile. Right. That, like, the mix of these, the ratio of them, determines and, like, alters behavior and mood and personality.
Jamie Loftus
They missed that nation in Last Airbender.
Robert Evans
Yeah. They didn't have the bile nation. So the first kind of. The first kind of men, Hildegard said, are all fire. As soon as they get sight of a woman, hear of one, or simply fancy one in thought, their blood is burning with a blaze. Their eyes are kept fixed on the object of their love like arrows as soon as they catch sight of it. And these men are terrible people to be in relationships with because all they can do is fuck unless they're balanced by wind, which cools down their fiery genitals and lets them have honorable and fruitful relationships with women. And the second type of man is a man who is a man of fire and of wind and quote, the eyes of such men can meet squarely with those of the women, much in contrast to those other men's eyes that were fixed on them like arrows, which is really interesting. Like, thing to note is like, can a guy just, like, see you as a person? Is kind of what she's saying here, I think.
Jamie Loftus
Right. This is like, she's just describing a man who could be a friend, Right? Possibly. It is also sounding, like, vaguely kind of astrological the way that she's categorizing them.
Robert Evans
Yeah, for sure. For sure. She's. And yeah, she. She also includes an incisive description of toxic men who she describes as being full of bile. Men, It's. It's really fun. They are incapable of having a genuine loving relationship with any being. Through that, they become bitter, avaricious, and full of foolishness and abundant passion in intercourse with women they know no moderation, and act like donkeys. Definitely she never had sex. Definitely she never had sex.
Jamie Loftus
This. Her ex was fuming when he read that. That was. Oh, I do appreciate that.
Robert Evans
Is.
Jamie Loftus
That is, like, a very, like, subtle but important distinction of, like, a man who is just, like, wildly horny and a man who is both horny and really into mind games that are, like, ruinous.
Sophie
Yeah, yeah, let's let the bile retire, fuck boy, and bring back. You're full of bile.
Robert Evans
Yeah, yeah, you're full of bile. That's. That's. We got to do that.
Sophie
Yeah, you know who's not full of bile, though?
Robert Evans
Robert. That's right. That's right, Sophie. I was just about to do it myself.
Sophie
Yeah, but I did it first.
Robert Evans
You did it first. You did it first. And the sponsors of our podcast have no bile at all, honey.
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Bile.
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And we're back. They might have had bio in him. I don't know.
Jamie Loftus
We don't know.
Robert Evans
Who knows what you people listen to?
Sophie
Who the fuck knows who our sponsors are? Not me.
Robert Evans
Yeah, and so here's my favorite thing, and this is something Mary DeVry points out in her article on this is that Hildegard might be the first writer to describe incels in the 12th century. It's fucking amazing because she's the fourth kind of guy. This is she kind of branches out from that to discuss the different ways different kinds of men respond to celibacy. So she lays out the kinds of men and she talks about. Here's how they respond to like, not having sex. And one of these types of men is obviously a gay guy, but she does not understand that. So she's like, some men are fine with it. And it's like, well, yeah, you're missing a piece of the story, Hildegard, but that's fine. But she writes here about men who stay celibate, not out of religious obligation, but because they hate women. Quote, they neither receive any love from their fellow men, nor have any inclination to a social life of their own. All the more since they exhaust themselves with continuous figments of their imagination. Then when they meet people, they are already full of hate, malevolence, and the wrong attitude. So they can't enjoy company anymore. It's amazing how spot on that shit is.
Sophie
She's talking about clavicular.
Robert Evans
That's the 12th century.
Jamie Loftus
That could have been. She wrote that shit 800 years ago, man. We always think that, like this, like whatever generation has really reached the final stage of misogyny and like being socially horrible. But nope.
Sophie
Hildegard described the manosphere all the way back then.
Jamie Loftus
Yeah, you could have told me that was in the cut last week. That's nuts. Yep.
Robert Evans
That's fucking crazy. Now, unfortunately, this is where we gotta leave our friend Hildegard, who's awesome but never did anything wrong. But we are not the show our friend Margaret Killjoy does. So we're not gonna talk about Hildegard anymore.
Jamie Loftus
Margaret, drop the Hildegard episode, please.
Sophie
Margaret, I love you.
Robert Evans
Just as this episode's gonna be kind of downhill after Hildegard, the way women's sexuality was discussed in like, medical literature in the western world went kind of downhill after Hildegard. Unfortunately, there's one bright spot in the word 1660. The word orgasm gets coined for the first time. There's a doctor named Nathaniel Highmore who used to the term to describe what happens during a pelvic massage. Even that early medical professionals were experimenting with the idea that orgasms could treat certain women's diseases. And you know, this is. This is just like any. Anything to do with like, the vagina is women's in this era, like that. That's just the way like all of the writing is in this period of time. Right.
Sophie
Sounds like a fucking Red Bull commercial. It sounds like they're just saying endorphins give you wings.
Robert Evans
Yeah, I mean, that's basically the Idea.
Sophie
Yeah.
Robert Evans
Through the 1800s, in Western Europe and elsewhere, including the United States, it became more and more common to diagnose women with hysteria. This meant that they're like, they're not happy with like, wearing restrictive clothing and hiding from society and like never seeing anybody until they're married and they're like, not being allowed to read, go to school, vote, having to have 11 children.
Jamie Loftus
These, these broads, when are they gonna. I. It is interesting because like this hysteria stuff is so well worn, but it's like even framing it as like a cure of like, like an orgasm for a CIS woman has to be productive in some way.
Robert Evans
Gotta, gotta get, gotta make some shit happen. Yeah.
Jamie Loftus
Can, to this day, cannot just be for fun.
Robert Evans
No, absolutely not. So doctors in the Victorian era did eventually hit upon the orgasm as a cure for hysteria. And some of the first electronic medical devices were invented to aid them. These are the first vibrators. Right. And before these first gadgets, doctors had to use their hands to do this job. In 1891, Durex invented a steam powered manipulator. That's like the earliest vibrator. It was so loud you could not talk.
Jamie Loftus
The steampunk vibrator is so.
Robert Evans
Steampunk vibrator? Yeah.
Jamie Loftus
It's like a horny thing executed in the least sexy way possible.
Robert Evans
Yeah. There's actually, there's a sex store in San Francisco, Good Vibrations, that is a part of this story because this cult winds up briefly involved there that has a vibrator museum. You can see a lot of these old vibrators if you go there, like
Jamie Loftus
where the Victorian vibrators also inextricably had 40 settings that you have to click through every single one to turn it off. Cool.
Robert Evans
Absolutely.
Jamie Loftus
So that's a feature, not a.
Robert Evans
That goes back. Yeah.
Sophie
Cool.
Robert Evans
So the vibrator was the fifth common household appliance to become electrified. It beat the vacuum by about a hundred years. So that's pretty cool.
Jamie Loftus
I think that's priorities.
Robert Evans
That's priorities. In 1948, Alfred Kinsey conducted his first major sexual survey. And people started talking about orgasms of all types. In manners. Much more familiar to the modern sentiment, men and women's sexual desire gradually became a more approachable topic of discussion. The APA continued to diagnose hysteria and prescribe orgasms as a treatment until 1952. But things changed rapidly after this point. In the 1960s, Masters and Johnson started conducting groundbreaking studies on why women orgasmed. As Sarah Mansell writes, they discovered that women could have multiple orgasms from both vaginal or clitoral stimulation, and also realized it took women about 10 or 20 minutes of sex play to reach orgasm, compared to just four minutes for men. In the decade since, we've learned a lot more about the vagina and the clitoris, which is the only organ that exists solely for pleasure. But we've learned even more about the physiological benefits of orgasms. About 60% of people with migraines experience a reduction or into symptoms after one. And there's a bunch of other stuff about, like, it has an impact on you. Right. Including just like, you know, if you have a penis in terms of, like, your urogenital health, doing it regularly reduces the odds of certain diseases. There's a bunch of that that we understand.
Jamie Loftus
So I just want to make sure I'm being clear after that. Eight, nine years of this podcast existing, we are coming and saying clearly, coming is good. Coming is good.
Robert Evans
Coming is great. Coming is never been an anti cumming podcast.
Jamie Loftus
Okay, okay.
Robert Evans
This is just. Usually you don't want to think about cumming when you're hearing about Hitler podcast. Like, that's more why we don't talk about it on the show.
Jamie Loftus
Cumming is medically good.
Robert Evans
Yes, cumming is medically good. Outside of the context that people usually come in behind the bastards.
Sophie
Consensual coming is good.
Jamie Loftus
Yeah, yeah.
Robert Evans
So this actually gets to another really important point about orgasm and sexual desire that we've come to understand more fully in the modern age. In 2015, sex educator Emily Nagoski published an op ed in the New York Times during fallout over the failure of the FDA to approve Fibranscrin, I think is the name, which is a drug that was supposed to increase female desire. That's like the description of what the drug does. I think it's basically a drug that increases, like, vaginal lubrication, I think is kind of the idea. And Nagoski had an issue with this. She wrote that the biggest problem with the drug and with the FDA's consideration of it is that its backers are attempting to treat something that isn't a disease. Her argument was that modern research suggests there are multiple perfectly normal forms of sexual desire. Some people experience more spontaneous sexual desire, which is like somebody with a dick getting hard. Right. Like, that's what generally society sees as male sexual desire. That's not the only thing that male sexual. That spontaneous sexual desire is. But it's the kind of thing you can treat with a pill sometimes. Right? Like that. Or at least you can imitate it with a pill a lot of people are way more into and feel way more responsive sexual desire. And you can't just drug someone into that because it's responsive to a situation and a relationship. Right. Yeah.
Jamie Loftus
I think we'd sooner drug someone than try to have an interesting in conversation with them.
Robert Evans
Exactly. Exactly. Yeah.
Jamie Loftus
Okay.
Robert Evans
And that's. That's kind of Nagoski's point. She writes, I can't count the number of women I've talked to who assume that because their desire is responsive rather than spontaneous, they have low desire, that their ability to enjoy sex with their partner is meaningless if they don't also feel a persistent urge for it. In short, that they are broken because their desire isn't what it's supposed to be. So the road from Masters and Johnson to what I just read you has not been a smoother and even one. Once people started to accept that sexual desire was normal and even good for both men and women, our culture experienced a sexual awakening that took on many forms. A lot of them problematic. Right. Some of what you get is like the free love movement of the 60s and the 70s, and of course, the backlash to that movement, too. Now, our subject for these episodes, Nicole Dodone was born on August 24, 1964, right in the smack in the middle of this massive period of evolution and how we talk about and understand sexual. She had a difficult upbringing. Her father, Joseph, separated from her mother, Beverly, when Nicole was, like, 7. And her earliest memories are of her desperate desire to have more of a relationship with her father than she was gonna have. In the book Empire of Orgasm, Ellen Hewitt writes, he only visited sporadically, and Nicole adored him. When he was away, she stood for hours under a street lamp on her house's cul de sac, trying to stummon him. She invented bargains with the universe, certain that if she sang out loud the songs of Al Green, her dad's favorite, and crossed the street with her eyes shut, spun three times to the left, her dad's car would roll into view from around the latest street. And that's bleak.
Jamie Loftus
Yeah, that's heartbreaking. And also, how many. I'd be really curious how many young girls were regularly singing weirdly romantic songs to their dad? It's a rite of zero.
Robert Evans
Yeah, in a way. Yeah. Honestly, that fucked me up a little bit, just because, weirdly enough, Nicole and I, there's a lot of points where we have, like, very similar beats in our lives. Like, I was very adjacent to this community and some of these cultists. I'm sure it was at the same parties as Some of them just because of the places my life took me and the communities I was in. But when I was, like, six, my dad had to leave us for, like, two years. Like, we were in Oklahoma on the family farm. We had no money. And he got a job in New York City, and he lived on his friend's couch, and he mailed us back money. And I did the same thing. Like, I can remember doing the same thing. Like, being like, if I do this and this, he won't leave again. Right. Like, it's a very normal little kid thing to do. It's very sad story. My dad came back. Hers never did because it turns and it's good. Well, it's good that he didn't because Joseph was a creep and a pedophile. In 1976, he was arrested and charged with child molestation.
Jamie Loftus
Sorry. 41 minutes.
Robert Evans
41 minutes.
Sophie
41 minutes.
Robert Evans
That's seven on mine. Yeah.
Jamie Loftus
Okay.
Robert Evans
Yeah, that's behind the bastion. It's a new shirt. 41 minutes pedophile free in 20, 26.
Jamie Loftus
Most aren't so lucky.
Sophie
Not gonna sell that shirt, but I. I see.
Robert Evans
Yeah. So he does not like shirts that have pedophile on them. I don't understand.
Sophie
I don't want to sell anything. Thank you.
Robert Evans
Yeah. Well, so he gets arrested in 76 and charged with child molestation, including oral copulation with a child under 14. We don't know who that was, but Nicole would have been around nine at the time. And much later, she would tell a lot of people. Like, when she's a young adult, she tells people that her dad did sexually assault her when she was a child. We don't know more than that. She's going to change that story dramatically. Several times. She comes up with a different version of it for every major period of her life. And I just have no more to say than that. Right. I also don't know, was her abuse connected to what her dad got arrested for, or was it something nobody ever knew until she was an adult? Whatever the case, as a little kid, she acts out in some weird but understandable ways. She has a thing for, like, she likes biting knees. Like, she will obsessively try to bite the back of women's knees. She's, like, crawling around and, like, bite her, like, aunt or whatever in the back of the knees. It's like, a thing she's obsessed with. Right. And, you know, she gets yelled at.
Sophie
I liked Pokemon cards, but okay.
Robert Evans
It's weird. It's a little weird. And her.
Jamie Loftus
She does have, like, an ocd, kind of like ritualizing.
Sophie
Yeah, sure, sure, sure.
Robert Evans
Compulsions. She says it feels like there's an animal inside her trying to get out. Right. Like that's. That's how she would later describe it. As Nicole grew up, she seems to have had fairly minimal oversight from her mother and a deep hunger for self exploration and discovery. She dated boys and girls and she had a sugar daddy at age 16. That's all we get about that. But she's. She's not very heavily watched. Right. Years later, when she led an organization often described as a cult, she was described in the UK Times as having grown up, quote, a natural leader who says she didn't want to be followed by. But that's not really accurate, and it leaves out a pretty important detail, which is that When Nicole turned 18, she cut off her father, right. Who is now out of jail completely. She has no more contact with him after this point. She starts telling people, like, whenever she gets to know someone that, like, yeah, my dad did this to me when I was a kid. And this is like a story that she. She tells a lot as she's like, processing it, right. She goes to college, a couple of different colleges, but they don't work out. So she finally winds up back in the Bay Area attending San Francisco State University. The Guardian says she gr, but Hewitt, her biographer, denies this. Either way, Nicole spent her 20s in the bay during the early 1990s, which was both dealing and reeling from the AIDS crisis still, and also experiencing the birth of the Silicon Valley tech set. Right. A lot of things are happening at once. And also Burning man starting in the early 90s, and that is actually a really relevant part of the show.
Jamie Loftus
It's like these episodes of unfortunate.
Robert Evans
It's in the background of a lot of things here. A lot of people in this story meet at. Or even if they don't meet there, they get into experimenting with alternate medicine and all that stuff because they take mushrooms at Burning Man. That's a really common story for the men in this tale particularly.
Jamie Loftus
Every time I talk shit about Burning Man, I get it. Turns out someone beloved in the room is like, it changed my life. And then I have to backpedal in an embarrassing way, even though I meant it.
Robert Evans
I mean, like, I went to the. Like the small ones in Texas definitely had a huge impact on me, but I never wanted to go to the big one because there's fucking cops there.
Jamie Loftus
Yeah.
Robert Evans
Like, I don't want to create my own little city in the woods to take drugs in if there's police officers. That sounds awful.
Sophie
Remember that time they got stuck, mudded in and all that shit?
Robert Evans
I know, that's fine. I got. We all. We did. We had a flood one year that nearly killed a bunch of people. It was fucking crazy. That part's just fun.
Sophie
People die.
Robert Evans
Yeah. Yeah.
Jamie Loftus
I think it's like my inner like New Englander. But when I see pictures of Burning Man, I'm like, get a job. Like, what are you doing out there
Robert Evans
not having a job and taking a lot of drugs?
Jamie Loftus
Or in this case, I'm assuming taking a break from your job in Silicon Valley.
Robert Evans
Taking a break from my job. I mean, we were like everyone I knew there. Like half the people I took drugs with were like fucking ER doctors and shit. Like a lot of, A lot of people with jobs where, like, I have a very high stress job and I need a week to take drugs with my friends. Otherwise I'm going to go crazy.
Jamie Loftus
I'm going to wear some really bad outfits this week to blow off some steam.
Robert Evans
Yeah, I'm gonna dress ridiculously.
Sophie
Good Lord.
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Robert Evans
So Nicole, in her early 20s, starts experimenting with drugs, namely methamphetamine, which she would take by dropping. She's a parachuter. She puts it in like tissue paper and eats it like which is a crazy way to do meth in particular. But you do you honey. I guess she experiments with psychedelics too. She's taken a lot of acid and she's partying with people who are like involved in the first Internet boom and also like and this is Burning Man. Before by the way, it was like a famous Thing that the tech set attended this is when there's like guns, like people are bringing full on machine guns and it's like largely insane libertarians and wizards. What a weird. So it's a slightly different period of time.
Jamie Loftus
What a weird. Yeah, like transitional time in the bay. I feel like, I don't know hear about it very often. Well, the bay used to be before or after.
Robert Evans
The bay used to be a lot cooler and a lot less governed by all of the people who are billionaires live here. Like it was always weird and maniacs lived there, but they were often very cool maniacs who gradually got priced out of the bay. So again, I had a very similar, like 18 to 22 year old Ty. Like I'm going to a lot of parties and doing drugs with people in weird places. And I also feel like Nicole, that I was very let down by higher education, which I'd been told it was fun and there were a lot of parties, but it was mostly just like high school part two. Nicole's also let down by working in retail and food service jobs, which, you know, same. Like it sucks. You're a young adult, you're realizing this shit is not as fun as you thought it was. But periodically you have these encounters and parties with people where you're like spending like two days on acid and time stops existing and you're like, boy, I wish I could just escape regular life. I feel like there's gotta be a way to do that. And some of us write for the Internet to get that and some of us do what Nicole does.
Jamie Loftus
She could. She didn't need to start an orgasm empire. She could have just started a podcast.
Robert Evans
That's right. She could have started writing for Cracked magazine. You know, there were a lot of options.
Jamie Loftus
Yes, yes. Liberated many, many lost souls. Crack dot com.
Robert Evans
So the big difference between like kind of where our paths diverge here is that Nicole starts like she decides that the kind of work that's gonna take me out of this like rat race that I hate at first is like sex work. Right. And she's a highly paid escort. Apparently there's some evidence for that. She's fairly successful. And she realizes she feels really powerful because all of these men with a lot of money who have been much more career successful than her aren't just paying her, but they're often like crying in front of her and like breaking down. And so she realizes, like, she has this very important realization which is that like, oh, it doesn't matter how like rich they are or like, how what Title they have like, men are dumb and I can control them. Right. Like, that's the thing she learns.
Jamie Loftus
That's an important day.
Robert Evans
It's an important lesson.
Sophie
I mean, that's a very common thing. I have several friends who, who are sex workers and that is a very, very common thread that men often just like don't know how to go to a therapist and so they go and seek out therapy from, from a sex worker.
Robert Evans
Yeah.
Sophie
And there's a lot of crying.
Robert Evans
Yeah, yeah, no, I had a, I had a friend who was an escort and one of her regular clients was this like big Russian mob dude who would come in like twice a year and didn't even want to have sex, would just lay on top of her and cry for like four hours. And like that was, that was what this guy was willing to pay for. Just like, okay, that implies some dark things about your day job.
Jamie Loftus
But like, you need to do it. No follow up questions.
Robert Evans
No follow up questions.
Jamie Loftus
Help.
Robert Evans
This help. So she's, she's, she's doing this for a couple of years. And Hewitt writes with each client. She practiced her cold reading, trying to deduce what the man secretly wanted. She quickly learned that her sexual insights held significant economic value. You. So by the time she's 27, you know, this is kind of where she's at. And she gets a call from her mom that her dad is sick and dying in a prison hospital. She had not been in contact, so she didn't know he'd gone back to prison. But her mom tells you, tells her like, yeah, he's back in prison. And that's how Nicole learns that her dad had been arrested for child molestation again, this time for abusing two pre teen girls, including his 12 year old granddaughter who was living with him. Nicole, this hits very hard. She's shocked by this development. She travels to visit her dad and as he dies, she tells him that she forgives him. And again, we know this because she tells the story a lot. I don't know. Again, I actually don't know how true it is, but this is like an important. When she becomes a guru, this is a story she will repeat a lot in the early years of being a guru. Right. And the way she tells it, his death kind of convinces her to fully unmoor herself from mainstream society. So like many of us did, she moved into a warehouse while hers was in San Francisco, where a group of theosophists live and operated a sort of magical commune and largely took a lot of lsd. Right. Many of us have had experiences like this. That's a perfectly fine way to deal with things.
Jamie Loftus
Who among us? It is interesting hearing that, like, she was developing cold reading, too, because it just, like, you hear so many points where she could have, like, you're like,
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Jamie Loftus
Been a fake medium. She could have done all sorts of things.
Robert Evans
Yeah, so many other jobs.
Jamie Loftus
Yeah, she's got so many skills.
Robert Evans
Yeah, yeah, she's got so many skills. And now she's living with wizards in a warehouse and taking acid every day. Now, this may not have been as fun because she would later. And again, she's always saying this as she's like, giving parables to her followers to portray a message, so who knows what's true? But a story she would later relate while lecturing her followers is that she moves into this with, like, a girlfriend of hers at the time. And her girlfriend is, like, very abusive and is basically plying her with drugs until she would burn out, and then she would hand her off to someone else to recover and then take Nicole back and feed her more drugs. And, you know, Nicole would say, quote, until I was insane looking for Jesus in the streets, adding up all the numbers on every house I passed, right? That, like, this. This is a very abusive relationship. And this woman, like, uses psychedelics to kind of, like, shatter Nicole's psyche, you know, make sure you known someone for a while before you start taking drugs with them. Kids, if you're going to take drugs with a. With a romantic partner, don't take ecstasy on the first date. That'll fuck you up way more than acid. Well, boy, what you don't need when you're starting a relationship is a massive oxytocin dump, artificially induced.
Jamie Loftus
And let me guess, all the men calling themselves wizards she lived with weren't helpful.
Robert Evans
I don't think they helped. I don't think the wizards helped.
Jamie Loftus
No fucking kidding. The wizard theosophist didn't help? Fucking hell.
Robert Evans
Oh, man. So in Nicole's case, it led her to remain dropped out of society once she leaves the warehouse. She's around 30 now, and she decides, I'm gonna become a Buddhist nun at a Zen monastery. Like Hildegard kinda.
Jamie Loftus
There is kind of this mad libs approach to her life that I appreciate.
Robert Evans
It's very Bay area in the 90s.
Jamie Loftus
Yeah. I feel like my equivalent of it is when you find out your Los Angeles Therapist was in three episodes of SVU 20 years ago, you're like, right, this is the pivot.
Robert Evans
This was coming when you live up in the Mountains of Northern California in the 2000 teens. And everyone over 40 that, you know in the cannabis business had previously lived in a warehouse in San Francisco where they'd taken drugs with wizards or they were cartel. Anyway, so Nicole found aspects of the nun life appealing, but she was also really anxious about the fact that she was gonna have to give up sex. So she decides, like, well, before I do this, I'm gonna just go wild for, like, a week and have a week of just, like, crazy sex before I become a nun and don't have anymore. Right. So that's her plan.
Jamie Loftus
A Buddhist rumspringer.
Robert Evans
A Buddhist rumsp. In a 2025 article for the New York Times, Karine Ramey describes what happened next. She met a man at a party. There is a practice you might want to try. Nicole recalls him telling her before they headed down to his place, a yoga ashram. Take off your pants and lie down, he told her. I'm going to take my clothes off. I'm going to stroke you for 15 minutes. It seemed insane at first, she says, but she did as she was told. The experience was eye opening, she says. I was walking home at night and just felt so clear. And first off, that's interesting. It really says a lot about kind of where her life has led her that this guy says this, and she's like, yeah, sure, I'll give it a shot. That said, I've also done stuff like that because I met a stranger at a party, so I get it.
Jamie Loftus
Who am I? I feel like it's really luck of the draw of what kind of parties you have access to, what kind of
Robert Evans
parties you have access to, and who offers to take you back to what ashramp. Right.
Sophie
Yeah. And, like, that man could have been very scary.
Robert Evans
Very scary. Apparently, he wasn't.
Jamie Loftus
Yeah, I mean, it's. It's some light yoga culting, you know?
Robert Evans
Yeah.
Jamie Loftus
I think the worst that ever happened to me at a party of that nature was that I briefly pretended to be really into wwe. You just never know.
Robert Evans
Yeah. I lived at a house in Houston with some very strange people for like, a week and a half as a result of something like that. It didn't last, thank God. That ended badly.
Sophie
A week and a half, buddy.
Robert Evans
So, yeah. In other accounts that she's given of this encounter, Nicole emphasizes that before this guy got her started, he just, like, looked at her genitals and described them to her and told her that they were beautiful. And she, like, cried, realizing that no one had ever said anything like that to her before. And this has become like. Will become an important part of like the. The. The. Her theory on orgasmic meditation, which she's going to invent based on all of this later on. Right. This is like one of the steps that you have to go through in this, which makes being in a room full of like 20 people doing this really strange. So she finds this guy again. It turns out he's a dude named Erwan Davin. Right. And he's a student of a practice called deliberate orgasm. And the idea had come from a Bay Area commune started in 1968. The Morehouse community, which had been found a guy named Victor Barranco, or Vic, who was himself a product of the free love and the self improvement movement. He was also a used appliance salesman.
Jamie Loftus
Okay.
Robert Evans
His name is Vic.
Sophie
Context is great here.
Jamie Loftus
That's fun. This is just like a neighborhood rumor. Like you won't have any idea who you've just bought a wrench from.
Robert Evans
Yeah. Where his hands have been. So when I was writing these episodes, I was planning for this to just be a quick two episodes. I think it's gotta be at least three because I had to go into the whole history of the different orgasm cults that have existed in the Bay Area is solely in California. Well, they spread, but they start in California. You damn sure about that? Yeah. So here's how Ellen Hewitt describes Vic's journey. Vic claimed to have learned the meditative clitoral stroking technique deliberate orgasm in his 30s from a self proclaimed witch when he and his wife were seeking help with their sex life. The actual origin of the practice is hard to pin down, but Vick realized the value of the idea quickly. In 1968, he started a commune in Lafayette, California. He picked the name Morehouse because it was the place dedicated to living with more. Here's how one of Vick's lieutenants put. We at Morehouse believe that every day is Sunday. We believe that we are on earth to have a good time, to devote our lives to pleasure. We call it responsible hedonism.
Jamie Loftus
I can't. This is. It's so silly. It's so silly that this is it sounds like a man who realized he never made his wife come in their 30s. And then instead of just making her come was like, I have to start a business.
Robert Evans
Gotta bring a witch into this. Like, there's money in this.
Jamie Loftus
Baby. Baby, did you know you could do that? And she's like.
Robert Evans
Like, yeah, yeah, Vic.
Jamie Loftus
You could have done it at any time.
Robert Evans
Yeah. Married man in his 30s discovers orgasms and Decides there's money monetizing women's orgasms.
Jamie Loftus
Go, let's go, Vic. Let's go, Vic.
Robert Evans
Vic. Oh man. Okay, so this is all occurring as part of an explosion of intentional and utopian communities around the time. And of those, Morrow House is not among the most toxic. This is like on the low end of bad for what things you might call in this period of time. Although it's still pretty bad.
Jamie Loftus
It's bad. And it's also corny.
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Jamie Loftus
Which makes it worse.
Robert Evans
Cults always are and religion always is, folks. And that doesn't mean it can't be an important part of your life. Part of becoming a real adult is an understanding that to be happy you have to do embarrassing things, right? Like that's it folks. Sorry you can't be cool once you're no longer like 19. So give up. So Morehouse sells introductory courses. And these are all called the courses they sell. Like if you sign up and pay, it's called the Mark group. And people are told they're called marks. You're being told that they're jokingly saying you are marks and we are hustling you. Right. That's very open. And they're open about them like we're hustling you. But you'll get something out of it, Right? Like we'll get your money and you'll learn how to have more, better sex. Right, Right. So that's, that's the way they're kind of advertising themselves. Kqed. There's an article in. Sorry, I found an article on KQED News's website. Quote, one notorious Morehouse event was a public demonstration in 1976 of what the group claimed was a woman having a three hour orgasm. And Barranco took advantage of California's loose post secondary education standards to turn the Lafayette commune into More University, which offered PhDs in the humanities and sensuality and conducted what the organization said was sexual research. In 1992, the San Francisco Chronicle reported that the courses cost as much as $16,800.
Jamie Loftus
Oh my God.
Robert Evans
So this is that KQED article came out after like some lawsuits around this, this, this group. And there's a lot of negative reporting that hits like, come like the 80s and 90s and stuff. Barranco over the years sues several newspapers for libel. Those lawsuits all fail, but they make Public Safety some fascinating details about how the group works during discovery. Like that their Moore University's advanced Sexuality class conducted research on engorgement, lubrication, seminal secretion, and that one Purpose of the class was to make friends with another crotch. So they're also gross and corny.
Jamie Loftus
It's starting to sound like a disgusting prison experiment.
Robert Evans
It is, it is. It's pretty gross. Like, they're pretty gross about the wording, but also they're hitting like a bomb in a culture of, like, men who have. Don't know that you can, like, actually please your partner. That like, like that's something that sex can have. So the fact that a guy is being like, no, actually in a very clinical setting, you can just learn how to like, manipulate a clitoris. Right. Like, you could just take that class and there are dudes who are willing to pay money for that. It's a. It's a business. Right. And part because people can't talk about sex and they can't be educated about it really, in this period of time. Very well. So there's a. There's a hunger for this kind of thing. And you know, what's going on kind of within the cult's internal messaging is that the increasing scientific consensus on sex and pleasure is being twisted to argue kind of the same thing the Greeks had argued. Right. This is set up as very. We're trying to, you know, make men better and make you all have better sex and make sure women have a better time. But a big part of the scientific theories they come up with about sex and orgasms is that women don't just enjoy sex more than men. They're insatiable. And so there's nothing wrong with treating them like sexual beings, whether or not they want that. Right. It's the same conclusion 2000 something years later. It's pretty wild when you lay it out like that.
Jamie Loftus
Yeah. And now they're like printing money doing it.
Robert Evans
Oh, yeah, yeah. They buy a big commune.
Jamie Loftus
Very curious about who's. Who's teaching these classes and what the gender split is there. It's. It's so true because it's like that on its face. You know, maybe there's elements to it that are positive and like, are speaking to, like, how puritanical the US was and is about sex and wanting, you know, their partners to have pleasure. But there is this element of like, like the profit. Like profiting off of it is. Is one thing. And it's also just like. It just feels like a stealing of narrative too, of like, not only do I want to be able to like, manipulate a clitoris and, and make. Make someone come, I want to be able to like, brag about it and have a graduate degree in it.
Robert Evans
Have a degree in him coming so
Jamie Loftus
yucky and just feels like still asserting yourself. The.
Robert Evans
You know, I'm imagining, like, a fucking 70s dude with a huge mustache and, like, a bed, but behind it is, like. It's like the wall of a doctor's office with his degrees in sex.
Jamie Loftus
Exactly, exactly.
Robert Evans
So, yeah, Vic's whole thing was, in fact, aping some really lazy interpretations of, like, feminism and, like, kind of modern sex science and twisting those to his own end. For one. He agreed that women shouldn't be expected to wear makeup or shave their body hair. So he banned them from doing those things when they lived in the Morehouse cult compound.
Jamie Loftus
Oh, so thick. So close.
Robert Evans
Yeah, yeah. While he traveled his properties, usually in a golf cart because he hated walking, he was waited on by men and women, and the women were made to wear French maid uniforms. This service was called Mating. When asked why he did this, he answered, sexual liberation. People had very different experiences with the Morehouses. Again, most folks are not joining the cult. They're taking some classes, right? But there are people who, like, live there. And over the years, they start. They build separate morehouses, right? Where, like, they're all over the country and they're selling courses and people are living there and having, like, compulsory sex. Right? Because they're kind of told you have to constantly be having sex. There's, like, quotas and stuff. And Vic keeps a strict in and out list of his followers, and he'll encourage them to exchange sex with each other in order to improve their standards.
Jamie Loftus
How quickly does this, like, escalate? This is.
Robert Evans
That's 10 years or so, I think something like that, you know, I mean, it lasts longer than that, but it's over, like, the first decade. I think that, like, all this is slotting into place. As Hewitt writes, people were assigned job shifts as technicians, and their only duty was to fill a certain weekly quota of tricks or sexual service encounters. The technicians would look within the community for customers to have sex with that day, and they would take payment using the group's internal paper currency. Residents were screened for STDs and forbidden from sex outside the group. Vic was criticized during his life, but the grift never exploded, and some form of this community exists today. As one former teacher later said, the institute is a good scam. We call ourselves hustlers and other people marks. Victor hustles their asses and their souls. He takes their dough to feed himself. But he sees to it that they win, too. Right now, whether or not that's true is something different. People have Very different takes on.
Jamie Loftus
I wouldn't say certainly not everyone is winning this. Not everybody, no.
Robert Evans
But the Morehouse Institute is mostly relevant to our story. Because if, you know, like in 1992, that's when they had like the Morehouse Institute has one of their big legal spats and they get a bunch of bad press. And one of Vic's students, a guy named R.J. testerman, leaves the group to found his own orgasm cult, the Welcomed Consensus, which our friend Nicole is going to join in 19, I think 97. In the late 90s.
Sophie
Okay, so welcomed Consensus.
Robert Evans
The Welcomed Consensus. What an upsetting name. I don't like that at all.
Sophie
I don't like it, honey.
Robert Evans
I don't like that at all.
Jamie Loftus
Yeah. If you have any problems, it's actually answered by the name of the organization. Yeah, so go back to the sign.
Robert Evans
Just tapping the sign. Yeah, tapping the sign. Jamie, you got anything to plug before we write out for a day? Before we get back to orgasm cults?
Jamie Loftus
Before. Yeah, before we cool off. You can listen to the Bechtel cast. We are having our 10 year anniversary soon, which is nuts. You can listen to we the Unhouse. I have a book that'll be available for pre sale sometime in the summer. I'll let you know. Check Instagram. Jamie Kray, superstar, rock on.
Robert Evans
Yep. All right, everybody, this has been the episode. We'll be back with more of us having to say uncomfortable phrases to read in a broadcast. Like clustoral stimulation that nobody wants to sit and read off a script. That's not anybody's ideal day.
Jamie Loftus
I don't know. I think we all had a nice time. Part one is always the fun one.
Robert Evans
Part one is the fun. It's weird cause I've always been a pretty like sex positive guy. And by the end of like the research for this, I was like, stop fucking. Stop fucking. You people are doing it wrong. Stop. And stop doing drugs. You're doing that wrong too. Get a job. All right, we're done.
Sophie
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Host: Robert Evans (Cool Zone Media)
Guest Co-Host: Jamie Loftus
Producer/Contributor: Sophie
This episode launches a multipart deep dive into one of Silicon Valley’s strangest cults: the “Orgasm Cult,” led by Nicole Daedone. The gang traces how ancient myths, medical misconceptions, and the Bay Area’s New Age grifter scene cultivated this abusive, sex-centric group. Part One focuses on the history of female sexuality in Western thought, the medicalization of women’s desires, and Daedone’s backstory—setting the stage for the rise of the Orgasm Cult.
On Ancient Greek Sex Myths:
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On Fringe Commutes and Sexual Grifting:
Part One of the Orgasm Cult saga lays the intellectual and cultural groundwork for understanding how a self-help sex cult flourished amid the dregs of American sex education, gendered myths, New Age liberation talk, and Silicon Valley hustle culture. Nicole Daedone emerges as a deeply damaged, charismatic manipulator, and the Orgasm Cult itself is the latest incarnation of ancient problems repackaged as radical wellness.
Stay tuned for Part Two, where the narrative moves deeper into Orgasmic Meditation's meteoric rise, Silicon Valley endorsement, exploitation, and abuse.