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110: BRUNO MARS TOOK TANA’S PHONE AT A GRAMMY PARTY - Ep. 110
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A
Hello and welcome back to the cancelled.
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B
Podcast I love on your.
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A
I can't stop with the Ooh, it's so you. Hello. Okay, can I say something?
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B
Sure.
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A
So I think this studio is haunted.
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B
You were saying that. But I think it's possible you just.
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A
Have anxiety, and that's actually probably exactly what it is. But last time I came here, I was having a panic attack during the Canceled Awards. I unpacked it on the Patreon afterwards, but I was, like, really losing my mind. I had to, you know, medicate and, like, come back for no reason. And just whenever I walk in this building, I feel like the Long island medium. I feel like.
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B
Okay, I don't want to be a skeptic, but could it have been a caffeine overdose that day? Maybe you had a Big Gulp this high in hand.
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A
That's my sodi.
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B
That Sodi has caffeine in it. Yes.
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A
Does it have a lot of caffeine?
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B
I don't know. You know what? I'm gonna go back on that because I don't believe soda has caffeine.
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A
Because, like, I'm gonna have my soda at 1am If I want.
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B
Remember, that was a thing, like, your parents wouldn't let. Well, honestly, your parents probably just wouldn't let you in general.
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A
They just would buy it.
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B
That was like, a thing, like, parents would be like, no soda before bed.
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A
Oh, but because kids don't like sugar, though. I don't know what. Oh, the caffeine. There's probably. Is caffeine in soda.
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B
Just like a sugar high is real.
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A
Yeah, I do.
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B
I don't believe in it.
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A
Well, so I also. I have had no caffeine today. That's why I'm a little low energy, I think a little calmer. That's a lie. I had a yerba, but no coffee.
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B
Yerba has more caffeine than, like, 3 Celsius. Remember that one time I Like a yerba? Like, took me to Mars one time. I really had no idea. It's because you can. It, like, is so. It's not, like, carbonated, so you can drink it so quickly. And it's like. It's like a. Like a lemonade. Like a charged lemonade.
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A
No way.
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B
Like, no, it's not. It just made that up.
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A
Because in my head today, I was, like, thinking I was having, like, a green tea.
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B
No, it has less. It technically does have less than Celsius because I looked into it. I was like, this is literally crack. But I think it's because you can literally drink it. Like, so fast.
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A
If you're comparing it to the charged lemonade, though, wow, I might get really addicted to them. For a second there, I was like, charge lemonade's number one customer. It was like I was doing, like.
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B
It was fun, but I did exactly what I like did that time. We tried it for the first time today. Drink a Celsius. Like, after already having drank a coffee and I had to hang my head out the window. I had Uber everywhere all day today.
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A
Why'd you have to Uber?
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B
Cuz my garage is broken.
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A
Oh, slay. I love the head out the window moment, but. So I shot up Manjaro, right? And okay, this is sincerely and obviously every single time I've ever talked about this, I've prefaced it with that I use these Hollywood concierge services.
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B
No, I don't think there's even a shortage anymore. I don't think, like, I don't think you have to even explain yourself, okay?
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A
Because I've said it a million times. Like this. These vials are never going to, you know, like, anybody. They're going Nick Vile. You know, that was good stray, though. Just leave Nick Vile alone. And this is the biggest public service announcement to the whole wide world to never, ever, ever do it. I have been dying this week. Like, dying. Like, crawling on the floor enough like Zofran for breakfast every single day. So nauseous, gripping the walls like, I don't want to get into the. The bowels. But they are not regular. They are not regular. They're not okay or too regular. It's like I slept for, like. And I like to sleep for 12 hours now and again, but not more than two days in a row. Like, I really have been.
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B
Please check that, Aaron.
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A
I promise. And I just. And I think I have osteoporosis now because of it. Like, I'm serious. It's like, what are your symptoms? My knee keeps locking in and out of place, and I have new cracks.
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B
That's a joint.
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A
But that affects your osteoporosis is your.
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B
Holes in your bones. But we know I spread misinformation all day long, so I could have made that up.
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A
I don't know what's going on. I just know that I should not have done that. And, like, it's just like, anything that's a quick fix. Like, obviously anything that's a quick fix, it works well.
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B
Are you feeling tiny?
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A
I lost, like six pounds in two days. And, like, was just really enjoying eating my proteins and stuff. But I'm also. I am done with it. I don't think I'll ever do it again because it's like the way I felt all week has truly been like, yeah, I had two days off. Luckily, like, had I had work or had to do anything during those days, I would have had to quite literally cancel. I don't know, it's just, it's like vaping. I say that as I'm about to hit a vape, but obviously doing anything where you don't know the side effects of 10 years of it is horrifying. And slay. It is holes in the bones slay. Nursing major and I'm trying to become a gym girly. I've been working out and I've been doing. I just wanna build healthier habits. I think now that we've got the alcohol and the relationships unhealthy. I think that my next thing, because we were. We had a meeting, you and me, in Beverly Hills last week. And I'm on my way to this meeting and I had to stop two times. And I'm talking, I'm sitting at the wheel of like I'm sitting with Paige at the wheel and I'm like, pull over now, pull over now. Like I'm going to explode. Like, that's embarrassing. And then it's like it happens again. And then I'm late to the meeting. And then the meeting I kept leaving to have to go do it again. And Greg Goodfree looks me dead in the eyes and he says, tana, what did you eat last night? And I have to look this grown man, my colleague, in the eyes and see Burger King. Burger King. Okay, no, but I was getting all the sides, all the poppers, all the cheese, all the whiz, all the MSG jalapeno poppers. Like they have churro fries. Why are you having churro fries and regular fries? This, I have to stop doing that. And it really is, it's like I know all the like Liv Schmidt girlies and the fucking anno crazies and stuff. I'm not trying to say that, but I do just. See sometimes it's like I'm not a dog, I'm not a beagle mix. Like, stop rewarding yourself with pizza. Like that's. I just need to change my relationships and I should be eating for nourishment. I'm just, it's like I'm over it.
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B
It's the grown up realization that like I never wanted to have. But like, oh no. Like taking care of your body, like actually does have benefits.
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A
Uh huh. And it really matters.
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B
And, God, like, it sucks to start, but once you're in it, it's like, oh, my God. I feel I literally could run a.
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A
Marathon, and the last thing I want to be is 40 and looking back at, like, 26, and it's like you're shooting up Manjaro and SN Burger King. Zesty sauce. And, like, it's the healthiest time of your life. Like, you should appreciate it. I think I needed a will to live to feel this way. So now that I got that on under my belt, you know, I don't know, though. Yeah, it's just. It's been a rough week, and it's like you literally watched the substance. Tana. Like, what are you doing?
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B
Well, listen, all. All that really matters is you're in the healthy mindset. So eliminate Manjaro and keep it pushing and.
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A
Absolutely.
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B
And you'll be amazing. I'm so proud of you.
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A
Yeah, it's just. It's not the vibes. It's really not. And it's like, I felt so amazing, too, and then I shot it up, and then I've been, like, crawling on the ground. Like, Demi Moore actually, like, having to feed a limp version of me. Feed Alix Earl in the closet.
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B
It's actually funny you say that, because did you see that I got the substance finger this week?
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A
Yeah. What happened?
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B
I don't know. I literally was driving, and I don't know what I did. I was doing a little. A little dancing, and I literally looked like this. And my whole finger was purple.
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A
No, I think I injected enough that maybe you were catching it in the air around me. Like, I thought I was Jared from Subway. I was going to have the pants. Like, it's like, I'm done, dude. I'm fucking done. Should we talk about the Grammys?
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B
Yes, absolutely. We should talk about the Grammys. It was so excited. I actually didn't watch the Grammys all.
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A
I watched, like, half of it, and then I decided to go out.
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B
I know, like, the important things, like, Olivia and Sabrina hugged.
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A
Olivia and Sabrina hugged. We've imagine you told us on the gray couch two years ago that there would be harmony like this. Like, I'm just. I'm so happy. Obviously, you always hate to see two women against hello pitted against one another.
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B
Yeah, I agree. I feel like they probably, like, worked it out on the remix, like, three years ago and just let it ride.
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A
I would love to see, like, a collab song now. I would love to see.
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B
Well, I was thinking about it the other day because I was like, I was really like, explaining, explaining, like, all the lore behind like, driver's license and then skin like the original one. And then because I like du boy, like, her actual, like, the real response OG hits and how it was actually just so mutually beneficial. Like, like, you know what I mean? As Sabrina, of course, like, frustrating in the moment, but also like, so much attention.
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A
Yeah. She said, I am that blonde girl and he was with me all because I liked a boy. And it was, it was just such a crazy time. They're both so talented, so I love to see.
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B
What did she say? I'm too late to be your first love, but I'll always be your favorite. I'm sorry if I were Olivia sliding down the street by her bangs.
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A
Yeah, that's actually wild. I'm happy though that they could, like, work it out on the remix. I want to talk about Bianca Sensory. My immediate thoughts upon seeing it were much more light hearted. Right. Okay, first of all, it's just like, what is she getting out of this? You know? Like, that is crazy. Like, so. And then to find out that they weren't invited is just diabolical. Like, I guess if I was Kanye west though, like, I would use my face card too and just like, places. She's so beautiful. But then the more I started to think about it, like, psychologically, it's got to be one of two things. Okay, maybe she's got this crazy. I'm just imagining you, like, discharge too, though. What, what, have you started your period?
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B
Maybe she has like a. A tampon shoved. Because, like, have you ever cup? The diva cup is all the rage.
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A
Imagine, imagine that feeling though, like, clit out on the Grammys carpet.
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B
First of all, I couldn't. I just simply couldn't. It would be. There would be friction. It would be horrible.
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A
No, I don't even like wearing girls who go commando. Girls who go commando in jeans. You are fudgeing like American Psycho. Like, I don't even like feeling my, like, lips go like. No, I like, I need. Like, it's crazy.
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B
I actually told you about, like an instance I had of this other day. I had to leave the Grove because I was having. I was having such a Libya issue. I'm not even, like, I'm not even being funny. And like, again, like, with the oversharing, like, this is just as bad as talking about ourselves. But, like, I'm not kidding. There was nothing that could be done. Like, I had to just literally go home, go to sleep, and start again the next day.
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A
No, I'm Not. Sometimes a real chafe happens. Like, I feel you, like, things just.
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B
I was sitting on it. It was like. It was a mess.
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A
It's. That's what I'm saying. Like, it's just. I can't actually imagine that feeling even. Just, like, whatever. So anyways, though, it's either a kink or she is in such an emotionally abusive situation, or she's into the weird. They have some artsy vision that we don't. Did you see him post her dress after? And it's, like, quite literally just like a stocking. And he's like, one of one. And it's like, you took a tweezer man to Hanes. Like, what do you mean, one of one store that.
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B
That you can find it again?
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A
Yeah, like. Like make some 350s again.
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B
Well, it's just. Are we, like, in saying that it's like, a big power balance and, like, she's being held hostage? Are we, like, reducing her to, like, just a girl? Like, what if she's like, I have the fattest tits of all time.
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A
My body is so amazing.
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B
Let me go naked? And he's like, sure, yeah, this is liberating.
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A
And they're on an art kick and an art journey together. But even just him standing there fully clothed, like, with her, then it's like.
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B
Yeah, she was him in that. In that sheer stocking. Okay, exactly.
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A
Like, if she. If it was more liberating, like, I feel it be more solo in my head. And then it's like, I saw someone to say that even, like, a bush and armpit hair would change up the whole message.
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B
A bush would have. Well, honestly, a bush would have brought it back to Julia Fox. I feel like she would have slayed the bush. Not that I think Julia Fox has a bush, but I think that she would get behind the bush movement.
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A
I 100% agree with that. I also just imagine being Julia and Kim and being like. Like, imagine Kim Kardashian seeing that for the first time on her phone. Also, just on a sad note, like, what about, like, North?
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B
I don't know. She's a visionary. I think she probably sees the vision that, like, she sees something we don't.
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A
Oh, I. I just. And you're right. Like, it is to immediately diminish Bianca by writing it off as this abusive thing. But to me, it just doesn't feel. I don't know. It doesn't feel good. It doesn't feel right, and it doesn't feel. And Kanye obviously is notoriously quite controlling and controlling of his Partner's images, and he.
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B
Yeah, he wants to choose the clothes.
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A
Yeah. So then it's like, why. Like, why was she barefoot at Disneyland?
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B
I was. It's so crazy. I was just about to say that. I was gonna say what really got me going was when she was in Star wars land with no fucking souls on her feet. But what changed my mind was, like, I saw. I just saw from the other night a video of her, like, having the time of her life in the club, like, laughing, and I'm like, oh, my.
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A
God, it is nice to see her emote. It makes it feel less.
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B
That's what I think is so EAS about it all, is like, that she's always just.
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A
Yeah. Like, just looking like, help me, please. Yeah, but it's still. I don't know, it just still doesn't sit right with me. I think she's, like, one thing away from hitting, like, the help me hand. Like, I. I don't know. I don't like it. It's crazy as fuck that they were uninvited. Like, what type of manic. And he's definitely, like, tear teetering the line of manic. Like, he was only following Taylor Swift.
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B
He posted this on his story too. Like, she beat the Grammy winner's search on Google Trends. I mean, see, they're doing something right, though. Like, that's the thing.
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A
Like, okay, yes. Like, we can all go down the rabbit hole of. If you have your lip out on the Grammys carpet, you're gonna be more searched than, like, Teddy Swims win, you know, like, obviously. But, like. And I have this. I had. I'm honestly, when I was seeing it, I was like, I'm surprised I never did this. Like, I did have an arrow where, you know, I would do it.
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B
These days I feel like. I don't know, it's kind of camp.
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A
It's crazy, because if she were alone, I don't. I think the conversation would be entirely different. It's just, you know, the Kanye would also.
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B
Maybe she's just like. She's going home and laying on a pile of money, and she's just like, oh, my God, as soon as I get out of this.
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A
I'm gonna serve. That is fair.
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B
I want to see her, like, pop out with just, like, the loudest personality ever.
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A
You know what I mean?
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B
Because, like, we don't have anything from her so far.
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A
Yes. Yeah, that's the thing. I would love to know more about her. And I am just hoping and praying that they're just on some weird visionary that like, we don't see. But I'm scared.
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B
I'm crossing my fingers like this that we get another Julia Fox on her. Like, not that there would ever be another Julia, but, like, we got Julia out of that, man.
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A
Yeah, I guess that's true. Like, he did popularize her.
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B
She was Julia long before Kanye. Yes, we got. I knew of her because of Kanye.
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A
Yes, I agree with that, actually, completely. He tweeted, trump's back in office. Yay's back. A billionaire. The world just might be okay.
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B
Was he not a billionaire there for a second?
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A
I think he wasn't. He tweeted, the world is so lucky to have me. Me when I have a good spray tan. Like, I. I, you know, retweet. Calling X Twitter is like calling Yay, Kanye. I don't want to hear nobody call Twitter Twitter. I mean, X. Don't call X Twitter.
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B
Do you think Elon paid him to say that?
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A
I don't know. I speak in third person from now on. This is not a clone. Or is it this emoji? I really liked that one. That's going to be my next cop out when I do some dumb. I just would love to be in that Kardashian group chat. What else happened? Nikki Glaser looked amazing. Benson. Boom.
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B
Well, I shouldn't say got to. She pulled off Benson's little outfit.
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A
I loved that. Her and Heidi Klum doing that. He slayed. I love his little flips and his little Elvis.
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B
I love when Benson flips around so much.
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A
I loved all of it. I think him, like, messing with his junk. Being a moment was funny.
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B
I didn't see that.
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A
I need to put the phone down. They made a hawk to a coin joke at the Grammys.
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B
Oh, my God. I forgot to text you back about that. Do you have. Can you tell me what it was?
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A
I think it was saying I. I dead ass think. And I could completely be making this up. But I think that he was saying, you can donate any form of money except for hawk to a coin, and then it just cuts directly to Taylor Swift. I was like, what kind of of like scary movie 4 is this? Like, that doesn't feel like a real timeline.
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B
So funny. But also, I feel so bad for her. Yeah, me too.
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A
I mean, we've. We've unpacked that, like, so much.
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B
But just like, imagine you're. She's just minding her business, like, at home, quietly. She puts on the Grammys and she's.
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A
Like, well, I feel like, no, I think that's, you know, not if what.
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B
Everyone in the world is accusing you of. Like literally a insane rug pull extreme, like half a billion dollar scheme.
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A
It's like one good thing out of it though. Like a Grammys mention, like worldwide notoriety. Think about how much that costs.
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B
What if they got on there and they were like, oh, well, I guess there's nothing they could really say about you that would.
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A
They could say anything and I'd be like, yes, half the people in that room probably hate me anyway. I'm trying to think of anything else that happened at the Grammys.
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B
Taylor Swift, when Kendrick won his award and she did the stanky leg.
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A
Most important moment that she stands up and dances though. Me too.
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B
Like, I love that she just does not give a. Like, she does not.
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A
Like during Sabrina's how everyone was sitting, like boring, boring Hollywood drone. Like Taylor was up dancing, vibing, supporting Sabrina. Like imagine being Sabrina looking out and the only person standing up is Taylor Swift dancing. Like that's. I love that she's so. She's so free and so, you know, she's serving. I don't want to piss off the Bay Hive. I love Billy and I love Taylor so much. I really honestly thought Billy was going to take it home. And am I just so lost in Billy world that it doesn't make sense to me? Am I so lost in tortured Poets world that it doesn't make sense to me?
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B
Like, I saw something that said that Birds of a Feather was streamed more as a singular song than that entire album was combined.
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A
Yes.
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B
And I could have. That could have been made up.
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A
I just. I don't know. It's kind of crazy too, like how you told me before the Grammys that like Billy and Taylor would like not win anything, go home empty handed. I just can't believe it.
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B
I don't know. I. Well, again, I don't know who won what. I know Beyonce won best country album. That had to hurt some feelings.
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A
And it's. I. I wanted her so badly too, to like just play into the joke. Like imagine Beyonce herself was up there and she was like. And by the way, I need to thank Beyonce, you know, Like I just almost. I guess they can't play into that shit because it's like some serious Illuminati allegations. But even last year how Jay Z kind of made a speech and I forget his exact speech and I don't want to misquote it and like spread misinformation towards that, but the air of his speech was kind of like, we do a lot for you. Like my Punch card is stamped, like, you know what I mean? It was. It was basically like, how is that she's won every award, been nominated for out of the year, four, four or five times and never won it. Okay, exactly. So it's like Jay Z is sitting up there essentially saying the year before that Beyonce's never won album of the year. Now she wins.
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B
Maybe they were afraid that the Carters would never come back if she didn't win this year. They can't lose them. I just not saying she didn't deserve it.
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A
No, I know. And that's. That's the thing, too, is it sucks that it's like a pitting women against each other's situation, because obviously everyone in the category is so talented. I was just very surprised someone got.
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B
To lose it, though, you know? And, like, if it weren't. If Billy won, Beyonce would have lost an award, which is like, also, like, could be crazy. Like, Beyonce.
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A
Yeah, I guess that's true. I loved Chapel Roan. I love her so much.
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B
She's so.
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A
The Grammys felt like we were in a different timeline for a second there too. Like, it was just nice hearing Gaga and Chapel Roan, like, speak up for trans rights and. And just all of it, like, it was. It made me really happy. I loved Chapel. Even just using, like, going up there, imagine you win a Grammy and you go up there in front of all those people and you call out all the label heads for mistreating their artists.
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B
It's so bold because, you know, they're all just sitting there like, oops.
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A
I would need all of the gabapentin in the Los Angeles area. Like, after that, like, imagine walking off stage and being like, oh, my God. Like, that's so bold and iconic. It's so.
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B
And she just does, like, I would do anything to have whatever she has that makes her just, like, literally. Fuck you guys.
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A
Yeah. I'm gonna say what's on my mind, and it's just awesome. Chapel Roan, to me, feels like the future, and she's just everything. I loved the Grammys. I was obsessed. I went out afterwards.
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B
You did? So did I.
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A
And, yeah, we were both out. I wish I knew that we would have, like.
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B
I thought you were coming. I was so excited the whole time I was waiting for you to walk.
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A
Through those doors, and I. I almost wish I did. So you were at Steven Tyler's Grammy viewing and then after party.
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B
Yeah, well, it's a Janie's fund auction. It's for, like, the organization that he works with, but it's like a huge live auction that goes on for, like, eight hours. And then afterward, they have, like, everyone perform. They had Steven Tyler, Billy Idol, Joan Jett, Marcus King, who, you know is like, my literal favorite artist in the world. It was just the most insane thing ever. I was like, no one would believe me.
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A
Like, yeah, I made a mistake. I think I would have maybe caught a vibe even more had I been at some. More a. More of an old Hollywood vibe, because that is, like, the vibe that you want to capture. Going out is like seeing iconic people. What? I literally went to Bruno Mars this party, and he performed. I don't know what I'm saying.
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B
I don't sleep on Bruno Mars. I fuck so hard with Bruno Mars.
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A
I love him.
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B
He just made a joke about how, like, I'll be out of debt in no time. Did you see that?
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A
I was literally in my head thinking about all night, like, if I ended up running into him and we talked it, like, look, I have a gambling problem too.
- [21:42]
B
It wasn't real. He's not really in debt with the casino. That was a rumor.
- [21:45]
A
You know what's funny is I know that. And I, like, refuse to subscribe because it makes me feel better. Anyways, I think I would love that.
- [21:51]
B
Rumor being spread about me, because it's like, oh, my God, you guys think I have $12 million.
- [21:55]
A
Yeah, you're right. It is. It is a rumor. Yeah, I went to his party. It's the first party I've been to in Los Angeles maybe ever. Or at least in a really long time, where they took our phones, put them in the lockable pouches, and, like, didn't have a phone.
- [22:13]
B
Who was there that they needed to lock phones up for?
- [22:15]
A
So I. Let me. Allow me to get into that in a second. Okay. After all the diddy shit, I'm like, we're locking phones in 2025. But then I start thinking about myself, you know, having an issue with phones being locked. And then I realize I am quite literally the poster child for why they.
- [22:33]
B
Have to lock phones away.
- [22:34]
A
Yes. Like, I. I am literally Bruno Mars biggest fear. Like, me with TikTok open.
- [22:38]
B
Well, doesn't matter so long as you have what's up here. And now you're about to share with us. What happened anyway?
- [22:45]
A
Well, he was. There was a moment where he was playing the bongos, and he's just so cute. I was like, I would have made a TikTok of this. Y'all are so right for locking my phone. No, it was really interesting. I don't know, So I got like coerced into going out. Everyone was like, come to this party. We'll go to Charlie XCX's. Like, Lady Gaga is gonna be at Bruno Mars's. Like, yada yada. And then I get to this party and the most important people in the room are David Dobrik and Zach Bia.
- [23:14]
B
Okay. And I'm like, David Dobrik, who is not my favorite person on the Internet, by the way. I think I should just go ahead and say that I am not, I am not a David Dobrik super fan.
- [23:26]
A
Yeah, that's good. Get that, get that, get that one in there. It's funny, the promoter who was putting it on was like texting me before and was like, I was going to invite David. Do you still want me to? And then I like said no. And then I was like, actually invite him. Like, I just want to see like what happens. Like, I was trying to purposefully trying to like gather law. Yeah. It was just interesting to me. I was like, I didn't know what Bruno's goal was. Like, he was just like singing on stage the whole time and it was like a lot of influencers and I was just like, you know, really funny.
- [23:50]
B
Concept to throw a party, like for people to come watch you sing.
- [23:54]
A
Yeah, that's. It was just, it was very much that. And then everyone too was in like wife beaters and like mini skirts and jeans and I'm in like a floor length, bedazzled, see through, gown and I was like, I'm just not at the right place, you know, so I should have been, I should have been. Dream on.
- [24:09]
B
Well, I went to the Dream on party and last year it was different than this. Like last year. So it's like it's an auction, so you buy tables and stuff and if they don't sell the tables, then they like, that's when they start inviting people in. Last year there were a lot of influencers there and like, honestly, low key hookers, which nothing wrong with that at all. But like, I got to dress accordingly. Last year I went in like a full sheer, like nude dress. So this year I was like, oh, let me go ahead and dress like a hooker again. Not a single person, like below 30 in sight. And I absolutely looked a mess. People were staring at me like, this is for charity.
- [24:43]
A
I Brooke, this exactly happened to me at Seth MacFarlane's Christmas party. I'm like, oh my God. And I almost wore some whore ass dress. And in the final moments, I changed and I had like The Sabrina Carpenter heart cut out, like, under boobs. Like, nipple ring peeking through. And I get there and everyone is in like, moo moos, like. And just like, the dirty looks. I will. I. I literally received like 50 dirty looks. It's the worst feeling in the world to be like, the whore's here. It is.
- [25:10]
B
I was. I was like this the whole time and I'm just like, oh, my God, what was I even thinking? Like, yeah, yes, Brooke. It's a charity event for like, for, like, women too. Which I was like, God, you are a disgrace.
- [25:20]
A
No, I. But listen, Bianca Centauri set the tone though. I was in a black G string under my dress.
- [25:26]
B
And I'm not gonna lie, it was a hit. It was a hit. And I was honestly doing that thing where, you know when you're like, in the movies or like, my. My number one goal in life is to be, like, picked out of a crowd, right? So imagine Steven Tyler on stage. Dream on. And I'm in the crowd and still. So just trying to get the light to catch my face, right?
- [25:48]
A
Tits out, mewing, haven't taken a breath in five minutes. Do you know the CEO of BUC EE's son was charged with all these actual crimes for putting secret cameras in the Buc EE's bathrooms?
- [26:01]
B
That checks out. Completely checks out. That doesn't shock me.
- [26:05]
A
I feel like I've done some really embarrassing in a Buc EE's. I just had to tell you that. Do you remember that time of life where the egg was famous? Do you remember?
- [26:13]
B
Like, yeah, it's the Instagram egg.
- [26:15]
A
Yes. And they made the account for just an egg and it got to like a million followers. And then like, Faze Banks would bring the egg out to the club and like, everyone up to take photos with the egg.
- [26:23]
B
It's. I hate that we were a part of that.
- [26:25]
A
No, I thought about that the other day. Cuz I've really just been reflecting on my partying era and obviously just getting ready more and more too, to just expose it more book and just life and everything. And I was thinking about, like, we really lived in la and we'd be like, oh my God, the Instagram egg is throwing a party tonight. And then we'd like go and like, the egg would have signs being brought. It was an egg. It was just like, like a. Yeah, that was a.
- [26:48]
B
That was a dark time. Like we were going to like, Warwick and like, Poppy and like, I was so excited to see Long neck.
- [26:54]
A
The long neck guy was always there.
- [26:56]
B
Yes.
- [26:57]
A
We got to Put in his photo.
- [26:58]
B
Him. We had ghost of the Graham who, like, just went out in a mask every night. The club scene was just like, what were we doing?
- [27:04]
A
No. And I thought it was the most fun thing in the world. I, like, recently got invited to a birthday party, and it was in Silver Lake. And I drive, like, 30 minutes, and I get there, and it was Alexander's birthday party. And normally I feel like he has.
- [27:17]
B
Like, how dare he not invite me, by the way.
- [27:19]
A
He didn't personally invite me. So I get there and he's throwing, like, a red solo cup Project X Rager. And I'm like. But in the past, he's thrown very intimate parties where you get to, like, talk and, like, vibe. And it's like, at a venue. And I was like, what did I sign up for? I walk in and it's like, I don't even want to say the people I saw hammered because it's just rude. There's no need to be rude.
- [27:40]
B
No, I can infer, because last party I went to of his, I was like, what are all these people doing here?
- [27:45]
A
And it's the most, like, random crossover, like the.
- [27:48]
B
But it feels like the Grammys.
- [27:49]
A
Yes. I'm like, wait, yes.
- [27:51]
B
Sabrina, what are you doing?
- [27:52]
A
Yes.
- [27:52]
B
And, like, no, Sabrina. But.
- [27:54]
A
But I was there and I just, like, my heels are poking in the grass and, like, Soulja Boy is playing and, like, beer is getting spilled on me, and I'm, like, having a conversation with Dixie D'Amelio in the corner, and I'm having to yell at the top of my lungs to, like, tell her things and, like, whatever. And, like, I just, like, left. And I was like, I used to live for this shit. Live for this shit.
- [28:16]
B
And what changed, dude?
- [28:19]
A
And it's like, now it's like, for me, I think it is being sober, but it's like, it's so crazy. Like, we'd be blacked out. Everyone ever's doing blow, sleep all day, the next day, wake up and do it again, and then again and then again and then again. Living for. It's like, now I'm so excited to have, like, a Saturday. Like, that life, to me now is so sad.
- [28:38]
B
Yeah, but I don't. I honestly, I don't think it is your sobriety because, like, like, I'm not sober. And I feel like, what the. I don't want to go there.
- [28:45]
A
Well, the problem with me is the second that I drink, I take 10 shots and, like, I actually would have, like, a night with this vase. Like, me and this Vase would be up until 6 in the morning having a heart to heart, you know what I mean? So I like lose all consciousness of what Tana likes, you know?
- [28:59]
B
Yeah.
- [29:00]
A
But I don't know, it's just even going out the other night, I was just like, why did I do that?
- [29:04]
B
Like, you know what's hard to understand? Like, it feels like since we stopped doing it, it stopped happening and like. No, it didn't.
- [29:11]
A
No.
- [29:11]
B
And then it still happens every night. Like, there's still. People were going every night.
- [29:15]
A
No, the other night, like, the Nelk boys were all out in their happy dad hats. Mind you, I'm in a fucking gown and heels. I'm like, literally I could have been in a snapback and they're all like hammered and like in a loop. And I was like, oh, my God. Like, it's crazy because normally I would have like been in this loop.
- [29:29]
B
It's nice to be out of the loop though.
- [29:31]
A
Like. Yeah, no, it's so nice. It's just. I don't know, it's. It's just so crazy. Yeah. It's just still happening. And it is just sadder and sadder over time too, to see the same guy, like, wearing the same chrome hearts. And like now they're 40 and it's like, your sperm's gonna dry up.
- [29:47]
B
Well, what happened to me? As I got older, it like made me realize, like, oh, these guys were losers on everyone.
- [29:53]
A
And then they just keep preying on the new yeah.
- [29:56]
B
Rounds. And it's, it's kind of crazy because you don't think about it. I remember like, the coolest of cool guys. Like, I'd be like, oh, my God, I hope he's at Hyde tonight. And now I'm thinking about, I'm like, he was 35 at Hyde every night and he has like $100 million, like, go home.
- [30:11]
A
100%. 100%.
- [30:14]
B
Like, what do you, what business do you have there? Except for to pick up some 21 year old girl, which is just so.
- [30:19]
A
I'm really at the point. Yeah. Where I'm just like praying. It's so sad for all those girls because it is like the same men preying on these new groups of like 21 year old girls and like new famous people and like, just whatever. It's so weird and it's just not fun. Like even just yelling over music. I'm like, oh, my God, my, my temples hurt. I want to feed ducks. Like, I want to take up new hobbies.
- [30:41]
B
I want to feed dogs.
- [30:42]
A
I just can't believe that my life has ever gotten to this point. But it feels so good. You know what I mean?
- [30:46]
B
Now I'm so happy for you. And now that you know what it's like, I feel like you won't regress. I feel like before it was like you never got far enough to the other side to not want to like go back.
- [30:53]
A
100, 100. And it's. It's so nice. Speaking of not being able to party anymore, do you know what I've been seeing online and I'm truly like baffled by? This is Alex Earl's 24 hour party.
- [31:07]
B
She amazes me.
- [31:08]
A
And I've done that without like calling it that right. Like in Miami so many times where like truly, like the night just carries into the day and then you do the boat and you do it again. And then all of a sudden it's been 48 hours. And like that's why I haven't been to Miami sober. And I utterly refuse. I'm sure there's a different side of Miami that I could see and it's beautiful and water and beach and love and laugh. But all I know is like actual cocaine hookers. And like you.
- [31:34]
B
I haven't been back since you and fought so bad. I literally had to practically walk home from Miami to just not be in the same room as you.
- [31:41]
A
That whole it's trip was brutal. Like it. My. It's just brutal. It's. It's such a demonic place Miami is. But again, I'm sure like I'm from Vegas and I love it. I'm like, Vegas is the light of the world. So it's like, I'm sure that like Alex Earl has a different experience than like I have.
- [31:58]
B
Wait, so she's doing a 24 hour. I. I saw in her story, like hour 12 of 24 or something, but I can't see her. Tiktoks.
- [32:04]
A
Oh, cuz you're. Yeah. So her best friend. It was her best friend's birthday and they decided to throw a 24 hour party starting at 7pm until 7pm the next day. And they're talking about all of this online and I am not even remotely putting an air of accusation on anyone there. And I think anyone who can, anyone who can do that without cocaine is like a superhuman. Like, no, you can't. What do you mean? I'm not putting that allegation on her because I even saw her in her comments saying like, we don't do that. But like, I guess I don't know if it's just like The I've seen in LA would, like. You know me, I always say, like, I think everyone does cocaine. Everyone does cocaine in la. And like, I just.
- [32:44]
B
How again, yeah, I don't want to accuse her of anything.
- [32:47]
A
Yeah, I don't want to accuse her. I guess I like, should literally just ask her instead of podcasting about this. But there's no way you're going for 24 hours, all of you, and no one ones hitting the slopes.
- [32:57]
B
Or maybe there's nap time.
- [32:59]
A
That's. Yeah, they had a nap, they got an iv and I'm. I'm not meaning to project that on her. I'm truly just like, I can't even wrap my head around trying to think.
- [33:05]
B
Of what could get me to stay up that late. Like, literally nothing. I can't. I. The second it hits 9pm, I start going, no.
- [33:12]
A
There was like a time in my life where I truly was doing that without a label. And like, it's just so. But again, obviously with drugs and it's so wild.
- [33:21]
B
She's also young, young, very young.
- [33:23]
A
That's. But still, she's like 23, 22, which is 24 hours of partying without cocaine is actually like. That should be break dancing. The next Olympics. That should be a category.
- [33:34]
B
I agree.
- [33:35]
A
I just. I can't even believe it. Trisha Paytas, she went on Broadway. I'm so proud of her.
- [33:41]
B
I'm just, you know, like, the, like, progression of her relationship with Rachel. Right?
- [33:46]
A
Yeah.
- [33:47]
B
Like, how she went from being like Rachel is like, literally absolutely horrible. Like, but it was just like. Like, I think she was just like, kind of trolling to being like such a Rachel superfan to Rachel being in her show is like, the craziest.
- [33:58]
A
And her love for Ben Platt, also the Empire State Building pink. Like, you are just. I mean, obviously I always say it, but you are just that, like, I'm so happy for her. I was sobbing the entire time watching it.
- [34:13]
B
It's so inspirational. It's. She's just literally perfect. She deserves every little bit of it. I love that she was the star. I love that she's on stage with like, literal legends and she is the star.
- [34:23]
A
Yes. And she is. She truly is just a legend. And it's. I think it's so cool to just. I don't know, she is like the face of the community for us broken girls, you know? And it's like, you can do anything and she deserves it. So. I want to cry right now, just.
- [34:39]
B
Like, feeling like things are like the lowest of lows and then now she's, like, just on Broadway, and she's just.
- [34:43]
A
So fabulous and just deserves. And just documenting all of that. Like, truly always being so authentic with where her mental space was at, I think allows for her fans as a community to feel something so special that most people will never let you into. Like, most of your favorite people, you will never be let into, like, the deepest depths of their darkness, you know? So to do that and then everyone get to grow with her. Like, even just seeing the video of her, after all the people around her, I was just like, I'm so happy for her. I can't even believe Empire State Building pink is so.
- [35:14]
B
It's. And I just feel like what's crazy is, like, that feels like, oh, my God, the greatest it could be. And I feel like the next thing she does, we're gonna build. Like, oh, my God. Like, I just feel like she. The world is her oyster right now. She could do anything that she wants.
- [35:27]
A
I'm so happy for her and so proud of her. I wanted to go so bad. And then in the last minute, I, like, didn't. I wish we did. It would have been fun.
- [35:33]
B
Would have been so fabulous.
- [35:34]
A
But I watched Baby Girl, the movie, last night.
- [35:37]
B
How was it?
- [35:37]
A
Have you seen it?
- [35:38]
B
I haven't seen it yet, but I want to.
- [35:40]
A
You have to go home tonight and watch it. Well, first of all, me watching that movie while moa's out of town is the most diabolical shit. I lost my vibrator charger. It's. It is so. It's the horniest movie I've ever seen. I need to show you. Honestly, look at this video. I'll insert it into the podcast.
- [36:00]
B
I don't know how this could possibly go well. Like, what do you mean? Look at this video.
- [36:03]
A
No, no, no, no, no.
- [36:04]
B
It's so horny. Check this video out.
- [36:06]
A
No, no, no, no. It's not bad, I swear. Look at everyone in the theater. Look at everyone's faces.
- [36:10]
B
Oh, my God. This is like guys watching porn with their friends. It's like, why are you trying to all get horny together?
- [36:14]
A
No, we all got so horny together. Like, we didn't think it was going to be that crazy. And then it's like Nicole Kidman, like, walking on all. All fours, like, drinking out of a bowl while the guy says, good girl, and then he blows her back out. It was the. It was so insane. I feel so bad for Makoa. He's gonna come home to our room. Like, you're like a sexual bowl of Milk? No, I'm quite literally not even kidding. And then every single person, the second the movie was over, just went to their rooms and you could like, hear us all on FaceTime. It was like some real, like, imagine.
- [36:42]
B
Just from the other room.
- [36:43]
A
It's like, no, I'm not even. I had to. I had to go acoustic. I had Makoa on the phone. Doing tricks isn't real.
- [36:49]
B
Like, because I can't do it. I refuse to believe anyone else can.
- [36:52]
A
No. And then tell me why I had, like, palsy of the hand after going acoustic. Yeah, that's like.
- [36:56]
B
That'll give you arthritis for sure.
- [36:58]
A
No, I'm not even actually kidding. It's like, there's something so humiliating about your vibrator dying and you needing to get a nut off so bad that you have to cool and, like, go acoustic. It's so embarrassing.
- [37:13]
B
Have you ever had, like, where it dies, but, like, if you turn it on for one, it'll go again for.
- [37:18]
A
Like three seconds and then you ride out to three seconds. Yeah.
- [37:22]
B
So you're just like, I just have done that, like, so many times to where it's like, okay, that was almost like one full 30 second stint.
- [37:27]
A
Yes. And you're like, edging yourself. No. And then I was trying to have, like, FaceTime sex, and that's like a whole thing. Like, it's like, not that hot, you know, like, you have to really try, like, the angles. Like, afterwards, I couldn't lift my arm. Like, my arm was, like, tired.
- [37:39]
B
What are the angles? I don't think I've ever done it, actually. No, I haven't ever done it.
- [37:42]
A
Well, it's just, I'm long distance right now, so obviously, you know, you got to be spicy. You got to put on the sexy set and you got to be like, oh, miss me, daddy? But it's like, really?
- [37:52]
B
I don't think I could do that after. I think it would. I would. I would get imposter syndrome doing that. Like, if I were to do that, I would be like, who do I think I am?
- [38:01]
A
I. I definitely was feeling that way. But it's like after, like the, like, week and a half, two week mark of not being together, like, I start losing vision in my right eye. Like, I need dick. I need. I need stimulation. I need, you know? Yeah. Like, it's just. I can't even, you know, consistent. Yeah. I'm just. I don't feel like the same person. But Baby Girl was insane. It truly was insane. I don't think we all realized that we were Actually going to be watching porn essentially together and you have to watch it.
- [38:29]
B
I'm so excited.
- [38:30]
A
Like if you see me drinking in the corner out of a bowl of milk next week on all fours, like mind your business. It's camp.
- [38:35]
B
Do you believe in cow's milk?
- [38:37]
A
I do, but I also believe in bubbling the house down. You know that I'm gonna say something that's just brutal and disgusting about, you know, know. But you've gassed yourself out in the car a few times, I'm presuming. And that's just where I haven't. That's where I'm at with cow's milk. Alabama Barker and Bhad Bhab continue to give us a topic each week. It's crazy. This is now three podcasts in a row where it's like I have to write it down again.
- [39:01]
B
Are they gonna send us a cease and desist?
- [39:04]
A
I think that they need to focus on sending each other a cease and desist first. Right?
- [39:08]
B
Yeah.
- [39:09]
A
So Bhad Bhabie puts out her song.
- [39:11]
B
Implying that Alabama got pregnant by Tyga.
- [39:15]
A
If that is true, she's definitely gonna.
- [39:17]
B
Send us a cease and desist.
- [39:18]
A
Recently I found out that Tyga went and said that he hates one of my friends simply because they are friends with me. We have no idea who it could be. It's totally not Brooke. And I understand why he doesn't like me obviously because I go to do this, but it's like if you're fucking Alabama Barker and you got Alabama Barker pregnant like that it just. It's everything I've ever always said about him. Like what I will say he went.
- [39:47]
B
On, he went online and he. Not that like you can always believe a man, but he went online, he was like, I can't believe I even have to address this. But like absolutely not. Have I ever had a physical relationship with Alabama Parker? And I do like as. As much as you could say about Tag. Like how could anybody be so stupid as to a hook up with somebody who's underage but also who's underage and is in the family of your ex?
- [40:07]
A
Yeah, I don't. Well, she's not underage and like he loves.
- [40:11]
B
Oh, she's not under, you know, doesn't matter. She's too young.
- [40:14]
A
Yeah, I hope, I hope it's not true. That is crazy.
- [40:17]
B
Way too young.
- [40:18]
A
I. It is just wild too that like I don't know. I saw Bad Baby, like making a video just being like, like Alabama was coming at Bhad Bhabie saying like you asked for My lip combo. You asked for this. You asked.
- [40:30]
B
Yeah, that baby's like, yeah. I thought you, like. I thought you were my friend.
- [40:32]
A
Yeah. It's wild to, like, defend that behavior, you know?
- [40:37]
B
I did. I feel like, you know, when you're in it and, like, you can't see it for what it is. Like, Bhad Bhabie. I saw her say, like, I don't even care that he's cheating on me. And I'm like, we should.
- [40:45]
A
Dude. I saw Ava Louise have, like, a really, really profound take on what having issues with your mother can do to your relationships with other women. And the way that you. You know, when your mom. When you're born into your mom being your first hater and your mom, you know, not loving you and not in your formative years, not receiving that unconditional love from women, what it can end up doing later on in life. And that. That is it. It's just one of those situations where it's like, everybody just needs, like, a hug. Like, everyone, you know, like, it's. It's actually, like, a sad situation, just. Overall, Alabama's diss track, people are speculating was Ghost written by mgk.
- [41:25]
B
He's still writing raps.
- [41:27]
A
The flow is very mgk. That's another person who probably right now at home is like, tanith, get my name out of your mouth. But it was giving MGK to me, and I was like, damn, you know, kind of crazy.
- [41:39]
B
Well, I guess it, like, there's the Travis Barker MGK kind of.
- [41:44]
A
Yeah. Affiliation. That's what I'm saying. Like, it's not too far away. It's kind of wild. We forgot to talk about Kendrick at the Grammys, but he, you know, he's the first diss track to ever win a Grammy.
- [41:53]
B
It's so fabulous. Like, winning a Grammy for being just, like, a petty.
- [41:56]
A
Yes. So iconic. Like, imagine you're in this beef. And there was a point in time, too. Like, remember we had Kiefa on trying to educate us and, like, there was a point in time.
- [42:06]
B
One of the first to know.
- [42:07]
A
I feel like, yes. But there was, like, a point where, like, people were debating who's winning. Right? Like, Drake fans were like, oh, team Drake. Team this. Whatever. Like, imagine the feeling of, like, I just want a Grammy for my diss track.
- [42:23]
B
Like, if I'm Drake, I'm boycotting the Grammys forever.
- [42:26]
A
Forever and ever and ever. It's crazy, too, that the Weeknd was boycotting the Grammys and then ended up just going out on stage. Yeah.
- [42:31]
B
How much do you think they paid him?
- [42:33]
A
That's me as fuck though, though, being like this brand, this shit and then like they come with a correct check and I'm like, I love this brand. Like, oh my God. Yeah, they had to have just paid him an insane bag. It's kind of iconic too, just in general, like coming back together with someone that you once.
- [42:49]
B
I also just like love the idea of like Grammys, like crawling back to me and being like, no, please come. Yeah, like, like, okay, fine, yeah.
- [42:57]
A
It's honestly, honestly iconic. Michaela Testa versus Anna Paul.
- [43:01]
B
Oh, this is another one of those things. And like it happens to me really often where like I can watch a video in full and be like, oh my God, I can't believe it. Like, I'm so on this person's side and then I see that a next person's video and I'm like, oh my God, I cannot believe it. I am so on this person. So like, I don't. I can't figure out who is being honest.
- [43:20]
A
Huh?
- [43:21]
B
Or are they both being honest and it's just like different versions of their own truth, you know what I mean?
- [43:25]
A
Like, I don't feel like Michaela test a lied a fucking bit in that video. But then obviously her saying that she had the receipts and then being like, actually I'm going to take the receipts to court and if she does then like slay down. You know, the things Michaela was saying, it's like you just don't make up that interaction of someone calling their fans fat. Like you're not going to sit down as Michaela and be like, she called this person fat if she didn't call this person.
- [43:53]
B
Yeah, that's true. Because Michaela's gotten so much hate from like, just like, yeah, their stands in general because like obviously they have such a, like loyal like or like a cult fan base.
- [44:02]
A
Also just whenever I see certain videos and listen, I. It is so funny me even daring to say this because I have posted some ton apologies in my day. So this is quite literally the pot calling the kettle black. And I, I shouldn't, I don't know.
- [44:16]
B
Tony was amazing.
- [44:19]
A
Like, I have posted some wonky tonky clarifications, you know, so it's like I'm not trying to, to be the person putting the gavel down, but I. You always just think like after watching Michaela's video, I was like, somebody watched that and like the whole like I feel broke thing, like, was crazy. Like, like it's an emotion on inside out. Like it's like, like broke in the corner.
- [44:43]
B
Like, hungry. Like, dude, like, what do you actually mean they should add broke to inside out?
- [44:49]
A
Like, it's.
- [44:51]
B
Yeah. That is crazy. That's like saying like, I. Yeah, there's.
- [44:55]
A
Nothing that it's like. Like it's like, you know, it's like. So I. Either you are or you aren't if you have a mansion on the water. I do understand that struggling to pay rent can teeter the line of like, whatever, but also like, you probably were glamorizing. You know what I mean? Like, what's the word? Fluffing up how little money you had for Internet sympathy and views.
- [45:18]
B
I feel like. It's so interesting to me because I feel like at least in my lifetime the goal has. Or like my angle was always, like, pretend I had more money than I.
- [45:27]
A
Had and not like, flex your way out the trenches.
- [45:29]
B
Yeah. You know what I mean? Like, my thought is never to be like, oh my God, I was so broke. Like, I just.
- [45:34]
A
It just fits her brand. So like, I could see where she would financially benefit from.
- [45:41]
B
Yeah.
- [45:42]
A
You know, embellishing coming from the trenches story. And that's sucks.
- [45:47]
B
But at least if even one actual broke person saw it and felt inspired. Okay, slay.
- [45:52]
A
I also just wish she touched on all the Addis stuff, cuz it's kind of like saying, yeah, I'm sure about that. Is.
- [45:59]
B
That's the thing. I know I don't have all the information here. Drop this. Honestly, Michaela DM me the receipts. I love Michaela.
- [46:06]
A
Yeah, it's funny. Michaela hates my guts, but I think, is she. Well, there it's, you know, Tommy Arnold. I don't think you do, but he. He's just one of those boys, like, friends with like Bryce hall and shit. He used to do hot tub streams. I ended up becoming decent friends with him because he taught me a lot about poker and he does videos where he'll just interview influencers with tiny mics. And he asked her one day, like, least favorite influencer. And she was just like, tana Mongeau. I hate Tana Mongeau.
- [46:33]
B
And I was like, damn, I remember this. But I. Was she trolling or what? I think actually we know. We did. We did get to the bottom of that.
- [46:39]
A
And I do also understand why, you know, she's friends with Corinna. And like, I know Ari went on a trip with them. And like, Ari came back saying, like, people didn't have the nicest things to say about you. And I think sometimes it's like, you Know, if you really hated someone that I didn't know, like, and you were on a whole tangent, I would probably be having your back in the conversation. So, like, I understand that, I guess, but I don't know. I really don't know.
- [47:05]
B
I don't know. I. I guess. Yeah, you're right. Like, I. There's no reason for her to just like outright lie out of nowhere.
- [47:10]
A
But then obviously also not with the essay stuff. Okay. Like, I understand holding that in for as long as you need. You know, it's your own story in your own time. She. She was kind of saying that Addis financially abused her and also sexually. And the even just taking 50 of her income, like that is so up, like you're not in the Os content. You're not. And then thinking about your boyfriend convincing you to give him 50 of your of income is wild because it's like there had to have some trail of emotional, of course, abuse there to even get you to do that. Because anyone managing should never take more than like, I guess 30 at most, let alone just your boyfriend who's running your account, like.
- [47:54]
B
Right.
- [47:54]
A
So then that makes me believe. Well, obviously I already was just believing everything she was saying, like the. The essay stuff. But I wonder what took her so long in the. You know, because you kept kicking it it with Anna while she's calling her fans fatties, which is crazy. But. Well, but then again, I guess she was in a really emotionally abusive situation with Addis, so I'm assuming.
- [48:17]
B
Yeah, it's hard to say or like, know what you would do in that situation. I don't know. Without all the information, I cannot have a take. And I learned my lesson. I'm not defending anyone here.
- [48:27]
A
And it's just one of those things where I'm sitting here with a hunch about Anna Paul and I don't really know.
- [48:32]
B
What I hate is finding out that someone I like, like, believed to be like any sort of like, amazing, nice person. Like, finding out that they're not. I hate when that happens. And it happens so often.
- [48:43]
A
It does. I think she really did a good job on selling the like so giving give back I love my fans act. And that's always like, anyone who's mean about their fans or doesn't like their fans is an automatic in my book. Like, it's like where the do you get off off like that just. And I don't believe Michaela was lying. So it's kind of wild. It is really wild.
- [49:07]
B
Oh, Anna.
- [49:08]
A
It is just wild though on the opposing end If Michaela were lying, the way the Internet is, you know, and it's like, I'm not even trying to, like, pit women or do any of that. It's like, even if Anna. Let's say Michaela was completely lying and Anna fully sued her for slander, those damages are irreparable.
- [49:25]
B
Yeah. Yeah, exactly. Like, because there's. There's going to be such a large percentage of people who be. Never even see it get cleared up. So that's just what they think. And even if they do see it get cleared up, like, psychologically, like, you already believe that about this person.
- [49:38]
A
Yeah. Which is just wild that it's. I think after the Blake Lively thing, it just like. And obviously I still. New things come out about that every day where I think that's enough.
- [49:49]
B
That's what kind of what I'm saying, where I'm like, I have whiplash. Like, I can't even look into this anymore because it's like, I don't even understand what's going on.
- [49:56]
A
I just have, like, had to really check myself on being so quick to believe a woman is bad on the Internet because it happens every single day. But then it's like half these creators getting exposed for being shitty people are. And so I just.
- [50:08]
B
I. What I will say I did agree with in Anna's take is, like, people just straight up kill themselves over stuff like this, like, so often. And so that's something to keep in mind. Like, they call it, like, weaponizing, like, you know, like suicide or whatever. But it's also like that that is what happens. Like, we see kids, like, not even just kids, but people kill themselves all the time over bullying, and then we just bully people anyway.
- [50:30]
A
No, it is. It is wild and it is. I was thinking about this too. Just like the all emotions and actions and accusations and everything aside, just the PR of it all. Anna could have said anything, and her comments would still do. I think that video is bad. Yes. Do I think of the video as the absolute perfect response to that, that she's still like. I think there are just situations like that where it's like, she could have said anything and people were still going to find a way. Like, people believe what they want to believe. But it's hard, too, because it is that. It's like Michaela is sitting down raw as spitting facts. Like, nothing to lose. Like, you know what I mean? And then like, you're setting up the camera and sitting on the floor and all of your videos are contrived. Like, it's hard. Hard Just positioning wise to get anyone to believe you anyways, you know?
- [51:20]
B
Yeah. Need more information? Need receipts.
- [51:24]
A
Yeah. I'm honestly.
- [51:27]
B
Maybe I need to just shut my mouth because what does it matter what I think about it?
- [51:30]
A
I respect you for feeling that way. And even with the Dobrik thing, I was trying to, like, explain to people that I understand being so Switzerland.
- [51:39]
B
Well, okay.
- [51:39]
A
Well, afraid, but also confused.
- [51:43]
B
No, petrified is what it is. And that's what I will call it. It was petrified. I. It's, like, hard because I. It happens to me so often where I'm so afraid of saying the wrong thing that I say exactly the wrong thing. And, like, in that situation, it's like, you're sitting here and you're saying, like, essentially, like, this man doesn't deserve a career, which, like, that. You know what I mean? Like, that's what you think. And, like, that's probably true. But my fear is, like, I say that and then my. I just get absolutely, like, reamed in on because it's like, who the fuck do you think you are? You don't deserve a career.
- [52:12]
A
Yeah. And, like, I honestly completely understand how that, like, like, feels. I've caught myself in that feeling of life so many times. And then it's like, you are contractually obligated to come sit on the canceled podcast and talk about people and cancellations and stuff. The more that I think about it, though, I think that it's a growing game. Right? Like, so long as you are growing as an individual and still having to sit on this microphone, I think you're entitled to an opinion. But that's the thing. I get it. Like, being afraid of. Of having an opinion until you're in a situation like the Dobrik one, where then you don't have an opinion, and then everyone cooks you for it. Like, it's. It's hard because it feels like a loser situation.
- [52:55]
B
But even I watch it back and I'm like, no, it looks like I do have an opinion. It looks like I have the wrong one. But, like, it really is just like, I'm. I'm like, I cannot. I'm so afraid of saying, like, the words. Like, no, he shouldn't have come back. He should. Because here I am. Talk. Talking.
- [53:08]
A
Yeah.
- [53:09]
B
You know, like.
- [53:10]
A
But it's different. It is.
- [53:12]
B
I know. I know situations are different, but I know it's different. And, like, it's just hard. Like, again, it's just a mental thing. Like.
- [53:18]
A
Yeah. Having to train your brain to get back into the canceled mindset. And just showing up every week, but I knowing there are going to be people upset with you no matter what, or saying negative things about you, like, that's tough.
- [53:29]
B
That's what it is. And like, it's weighing the two because, like, no matter what, I could have had either one of those two options, and I'm going to get hate regardless. And it's deciding, like, which kind of hate I want to get. You know what I mean? So, like.
- [53:38]
A
Like, like, that's wild. It is.
- [53:40]
B
I know it's. And it's like, it's part of the gate. Like, we've always gotten it, but it's just. It's like, like, can I choose the right side for once?
- [53:47]
A
No. And I mean, it is just like, a tough scene. Even you and I have been, like, mapping out how much we want to tour and, like, what we want to do and, like, I don't know, just like, navigating everything is so hard. And, like, I completely understand your head space because it's like, what can I say? What do I do? What do you want from. I'm just a girl, you know?
- [54:10]
B
Yeah. And, like, I know a lot of people want me to shut the fuck up, but, like, I got. I have to show up to work.
- [54:16]
A
That's the thing is it's like. And you and I obviously have been having conversations too, about, I don't know, the future. And, like. Cause even just, like, in our sober, healthy relationship lives, there are some weeks where I'm like, fuck, I. I have nothing to report and I. I'm not in the mood to come just stand in the line. You know what I mean? And like, at what point will we feel like we are elevating to something that fits our lifestyles more? You know what I mean?
- [54:49]
B
Yeah. I'm like, just like, I don't know. And it's hard. It's hard because, like, there's not, like, before we sit down to film again, there's not enough time to even, like, assess, like, what just happened. Like, I don't know. Yeah, my cup doesn't fill up enough by the time I sit down again, like, since the last time I was here. And so it's just like, it is really interesting.
- [55:08]
A
I still am enjoying this, but I do, like, eventually see a world where we have solo, wholesome podcasts and still cross over all the time.
- [55:16]
B
I know, and I think people, like, get freaked out by that, but, like, we don't.
- [55:19]
A
So, like, I know. That's the thing too, is that people take every. Like, if you and I, at the end of this contract, decide, like, I'm gonna have a solo podcast. I'm gonna have a solo podcast, and then we're gonna podcast together all the time. Because at the end of the day, I love the chemistry that we have on camera. Camera. And I don't. I always say irrecreatable, but I.
- [55:36]
B
Not a word.
- [55:37]
A
I don't think it is, like, I have no desire to fill that with anyone else. I enjoy the chemistry you and I specifically have and always will, and I think we'll always make content together for that reason. But people get so weird about the idea of canceled ending.
- [55:53]
B
Well, it's like, I think, like, another huge element of it is, like, the fact that, like, it's frustrating. It's so frustrating, like, to the audience that we, like, aren't as consistent as, like, other podcasts and stuff. But it's like, it literally, like, there's so much pressure about it. If we could really just sit down once a month or something and make an episode, like, a really good episode, it might feel different. But, like, knowing that we do have to do it every week, I feel like it's been like.
- [56:16]
A
Well, and just even, like. Like, we just filmed the Kids Awards, and I went back and I watched the edit, and I was like, if I put out this raw episode, we would have 17 scandals. Because it's like, the nature of what we're talking about. You have to say the exact right thing about all of these different scandals and these things. And whether people believe that or not, it. It is a difficult thing to mentally navigate. Like, you have to really have your ducks in a row. And then, like, I know.
- [56:41]
B
And, you know, there's so many people who are like, well, that's what you sign up for when you're an influencer and stuff. But it's like, kind of just like any job. Like, if you're getting harassed and bullied at your job, it's not like, oh, but you. You signed up for that.
- [56:51]
A
Like, it's also not nature of this podcast. Like, the pop culture and the addressing coming back every week.
- [56:58]
B
Honestly, talking about people.
- [56:59]
A
Yes, exactly. It's like that. To me. It's not podcasting. It's the. The content, the meat of what this one is so true.
- [57:06]
B
Like, I know Alicia, Marie, and Remy do not have this problem.
- [57:09]
A
Yeah. And then it's like, of course we'd put out the raw episodes on time, but we have to have 17 people helping us to make sure we're not idiots.
- [57:16]
B
Like, yeah. And there's two of Us, like, both of us are saying the wrong thing. So there's like.
- [57:20]
A
And it's like. Because that's. And it's also one of those things, too, where it's like. Like, a lot of my takes, it's not that I don't stand on them, but the things that you want to say with your friend are not always the things that need to make it to the Internet. I'm excited to see the canceled chapter fully through, but I don't know if that's our, like, lifelong journey, you know.
- [57:40]
B
We know it's not. It just. I. I guess what you said is, like. Like, seeing how it. Like, what's the word?
- [57:47]
A
Transpires.
- [57:48]
B
Yeah. Or like. Like, when it changes into something else. Better.
- [57:52]
A
Evolves. Yeah.
- [57:53]
B
Oh, yes. What would I do without you?
- [57:56]
A
And I think that's. I. Yeah. I guess I just see the threads in the comments, and people make everything so negative about our personal relationship. And it is, like, so. Not that it's like, you and I had a call literally this week where we, like, just after all this Dobrik stuff, where we're like, oh, my God, like, we have to figure out how to continue to figure out how to navigate these things every day. And it's very interesting.
- [58:18]
B
I have my moments. I'm like, oh, my God. But it's fine. I can take it. And then I'll call you and I'll be like, I'm gonna die.
- [58:23]
A
Yeah. And that's. I mean, that's just what canceled will probably always bring, due to the nature of what we talk about.
- [58:28]
B
Yeah, I know. Sometimes I wish, like, I could just take a. I want to disappear. And a lot of people say, you should disappear. I want to disappear. And I, so far have not had the option. So just know as soon as it comes across my desk.
- [58:44]
A
That was how I felt. Even in the episode that we did Joint where I was in Hawaii, I was like, I'm gonna rip all my hair. Where I, like, had called Leah from Love island and I was on the Zoom and you or whatever at that point, after touring and all the Cody Cohen, the Alyssa, like, I was gonna rip my hair out. Not because I don't love the fans, not because I don't love podcasting with you, but sometimes the contractual obligation to quite literally yap and talk about people when you're not in the right space is the worst thing ever. It's the worst thing for you mentally, you know? Know. It's just like, it is what it is. And podcasts also have their, like, little Seasonal breaks. And we just. We just keep cooking, you know, Breaks. Have you seen the girl who after that conversation, me actually saying these words? Have you seen the girl who. A thousand guys in a day.
- [59:34]
B
Yeah.
- [59:36]
A
Or no, she did a hundred guys in a day and now she's going to do a thousand guys?
- [59:40]
B
No, I think she did a thousand. Right.
- [59:43]
A
Can we fact check this?
- [59:44]
B
Because I saw that photo of her.
- [59:45]
A
On the bed after and then now she. She's beefing with another girl.
- [59:49]
B
Beefing.
- [59:50]
A
Bonnie Blue is the girl who did it and now she's beefing with a girl, Lily Phillips, who looks exactly like her.
- [59:56]
B
Yeah. Okay.
- [59:57]
A
For also doing the thousand in a day.
- [60:00]
B
Oh my God, I'd be so pissed if I just did. Went through all of that just for some other to beat my record.
- [60:06]
A
Yeah, it's kind of crazy.
- [60:08]
B
Did she do a thousand? 1,057 people in 12 hours.
- [60:14]
A
1057 dicks in 12 hours.
- [60:18]
B
Oh my gosh. I can't get that many story views in 12 hours.
- [60:21]
A
Like. Like I'm actually like the wheelchair I would need. And then what? They all use a condom.
- [60:29]
B
Yeah, I got it.
- [60:30]
A
Do you think each guy just got one pump?
- [60:32]
B
Yeah, it would have to be one pump. So yeah.
- [60:34]
A
Like there's no way it was 1057 men to complete.
- [60:37]
B
They were lying. Yeah, they were lying lined up. No, not to completion.
- [60:40]
A
She filmed with Steiny. She said that there was a queue.
- [60:42]
B
Of guys and like they just line up like a train. Yeah, I saw the line. It was like an actual thing.
- [60:48]
A
What?
- [60:49]
B
And she said she was really going all out for all of it. Like do different positions, everything. It's not like she was just laying there.
- [60:54]
A
What? I'm just imagining those men like standing in line like. So what brings you here? Like it's like it's one of those things where it's like more power to her.
- [61:01]
B
Do you think they're playing like heads up in line?
- [61:03]
A
Yeah, like that's what. What I'm saying. It's like, like nothing against her. Like get. Get your record. Get. It's crazy. But I'm more so just baffled by the type of men that that would attract.
- [61:17]
B
I just hate it cuz it's like, you know, every time you see someone involved in something like this, you see five years down the line where it's like I hate myself for doing that.
- [61:24]
A
And this is why I think I'm really. Tara's world recently spoke out about how. How she congrats to her by the way on getting engaged. That was very, very cute. And sweet even that seeing the Internet pick that apart. I hate people so much. Like it's like what's to pick apart? They like the snow was crunching wrong. Someone was walking in the back of the proposal and people were pissed. It's like, oh my God. Oh, your boyfriend is chatting on you right now. Bethany. Like you know, it's just like what boyfriend? She spoke out recently about how how she started doing of and obviously the jump financially from being a TikTok creator to being an of creator, especially one that people are really interested in oftentimes is drastic. Hers was. And then she bought this multi, multi, multi, multi million dollar house and now she obviously has to pay off the multi multimillion dollar house and she's saying that she doesn't even like doing it anymore, but she's accrued this lifestyle that financially. Yeah, that's hardwires it. And it's like even when I look back the other day, even today, Annelie was here newly Paige and I have been, you know, hiring people and I was in my closet and I was like, hey, just letting you know I'm about to change. Like my tits are about to be out. And I had this flash to myself at weed lake and I would be in a room with 27 people with my tits out. Like how hard I took that era is and just ever I'd be at the club doing this and like you know this, this pose carried me home. Like it is just so wild. Like once you go so far into that world, like you can't take it back. Yeah, it's nutty.
- [63:03]
B
It's like. But you can though. Like you can like Trisha Paytas never done it.
- [63:09]
A
I guess that's true. It's just with yourself, like the self reflection, like the amount three times a week at minimum. I was wearing a mesh see through shirt and getting popcorn. Paparazzi like they've seen them, Tana. Everyone's seen them. Holy. Like so wild. I don't know. Can you talk to me about Raise your Yaya.
- [63:26]
B
Raise your. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Okay, here's the thing about Racer Yaya. I found her first, okay. Because I talked about her on this podcast. Remember I saw that video of her teaching someone to sing. And I came on the podcast and I was like, you're gonna die. You have to see this video. And we spoke about her and then she sent me an email and she said that she would do a private singing lesson for me.
- [63:49]
A
And this was like years ago.
- [63:51]
B
No, this was like last year, over a year ago.
- [63:53]
A
This was. Yeah, like, it was a while ago. Like, you were very much. And now raise your Yaya is everywhere, and you were very much ahead of the curve.
- [64:01]
B
I thought we all knew about Yaya.
- [64:02]
A
No, I did not know. I didn't put the two together until.
- [64:05]
B
How many. How many singing coaches are there? I guess a lot.
- [64:09]
A
A lot. Yeah. There's a lot of singing coaches. And the Yaya, she's different. Okay, she's different, but, like, that's what.
- [64:16]
B
She'S always done is where she, like, helps people, like, enunciate differently so that their voice sounds different. Like, that's her whole shtick.
- [64:22]
A
We should raise our yaya's with her.
- [64:23]
B
I want to so bad. And that was the mental battle I had before because it's like, I want to raise my yaya and I'm too shy.
- [64:31]
A
I think we should do it for the Patreon. It would be really, really, really, really funny.
- [64:34]
B
I know, but I like, I know myself and, like, it's one of the things I hate the most about myself. But it's like in a situation like that, I would just make a joke of it and, like, I would just waste someone' because I'm like, if you won't commit, I'll commit.
- [64:45]
A
I just had to react to my own music. Nothing is off the table, okay?
- [64:48]
B
Oh, my God. I should have written down questions that I had because I had some.
- [64:51]
A
Can you please honestly think of some questions?
- [64:53]
B
My first question was, first of all, I've never seen you unironically twerk. Like, I've only seen you twerk, like, like, in a joking way, kind of. So I guess to see you just, like, unapologetically, like, just throwing it back, that was different. And then, then more than that, I noticed it was made by Hunter Moreno Productions. Even that like productions was Hunter on.
- [65:18]
A
The ground because the angle he would commit so hard. There was. On the W music video shoot, there was a point in time I didn't actually get to tell the story in the video because it's just like, a long story. I'll try to make it short, but I mean, like I said in the video, like, Hunter's been my bestie for so long. And, like, when I met him, he was working at ICM and he had trouble with that. Like, he was an injury intern. There was staplers flying. I don't want to, like, tell his life story for him, but, you know, he sees me and I just have this money and I'm so willing to spend it on quite literally the most Embarrassing out.
- [65:52]
B
But obviously paying for a humiliation ritual is, like, so funny, by the way.
- [65:57]
A
No, it's insane. It's. Think.
- [65:59]
B
Not that it's humiliating, Brooke.
- [66:00]
A
Yeah, you can say it. It does not offend me in the slightest. When I got done reacting to my old music, I. I took a Benzo. And I'm going to say that, and I'm going to say it proud. Like, I was having a panic of a century. I can't think about the headspace you be in to be unironically doing that. Like, I am so far. I am five times over, a different person. I've become a different person five times since that time. But anyways, Hunter obviously was so committed to, you know, like, in my head, we were like Taylor Swift and Jack Antonoff. Right? Like, just we were a duo in this, you know, and for the W music video shoot, one of the days I look at Hunter and this is. He was on the floor. I was twerking in front of a car I couldn't drive. You know, a whole nine. And. And I was like, hunter, you're doing great and all, but, like, this video is missing something. This video is missing a drone shot. And so he has to go get a drone, and he, like, flies it over the hills, and then the drone glitches out and crashes. And, like, he couldn't afford to, like, not return the drone, so he had to, like, go in the mountains. He was, like, covered in blood. He got hurt, like, to get the drone. Like, it's so funny to think happy.
- [67:10]
B
He'S in a better place.
- [67:11]
A
Yeah. He's such a different person now. Shooting Teddy swims at the Grammys, like, killing it. It's so funny, though, to think that time. And it's so wild, too. Even in the video, I was just cooking everyone. Like, the fact that there are actually, like, people who want that still to this day blow my mind.
- [67:26]
B
I get it, though, because you, like, it wasn't all bad. Like, it really wasn't FaceTime. Somebody should have intervened.
- [67:34]
A
I. When I tell you, like, I actually mean that I was with Monsign in the corner, like, just making noises. Like, our. At the time, literally would be me being like. And then he'd be like, that sounded like you said, let's go. And then, like, that would be how the words came about.
- [67:54]
B
Literally, like, hitting, like, random words.
- [67:56]
A
Yes. Like, this melody can be those words. It's so wild.
- [68:00]
B
But you hit like. Like, I've never heard you, like, talk even that fast, because I feel like sometimes you're not you're not on a.
- [68:10]
A
Delay, but, like, at that time, I definitely on a delay.
- [68:12]
B
Oh, you know, you talk fast. I guess you talk fast, like on the podcast and in your videos and stuff. But, like, if I were to try to get you to, like, read or recite something.
- [68:19]
A
Yeah.
- [68:19]
B
Even from memory.
- [68:21]
A
Yeah.
- [68:21]
B
Like, it was amazing to me how fast you were rapping. It was like I was listening to Bhad Bhabie herself. I don't want it to go unnoticed that I went with you to film the sequel to Hefner. Hefner Part two.
- [68:31]
A
Hefner. Yeah. I was gonna do that. That's how I met Chris Miles. He was writing Hefner, and I physically.
- [68:36]
B
I sat with t of in the Stew, and it was a mess.
- [68:41]
A
It's. And it. It's just. It's brutal. It really is. It was drugs, though.
- [68:44]
B
It wasn't like. It wasn't. You were a mess. You would have slated, but it was so she had to do it syllable by syllable. Like, she couldn't say, like, Hefner. It was like she would have to record her over and over again saying, hef, hef, hef. Nerve. That's it just nur.
- [69:04]
A
It's wild to me. I can't believe it. I think that narcissism was the main drug that was the problem with all of this lack of people telling me no and then just. Yeah, it really was just a case of also being, like, dick fluenced. Like, I was fucking these musicians and I was like, I am one now. You know what I mean? And, like, that's. It taught me valuable. You don't always have to do what the person that you're into is doing, you know? And it's just. I don't know. I mean, I literally texted Ma the other day, and I was like, it would be funny if we did just, like, cook up something and, like, played into this whole, like, lore. But I don't know.
- [69:42]
B
Please. Because now. Now in the state of mind, I feel like you could come out with some, like, Miley. Like, I do.
- [69:48]
A
I don't. I really don't know. I mean, even without you, like, the biggest shout out to mod Forever for that song. I know. People really love it. Like, making that song was so. It's hard. It's really, really hard work. Like, it. I was like, quite literally locked in a street studio. That's how we ended up dating. You know? It's like.
- [70:03]
B
Yeah.
- [70:03]
A
I don't know. It's a whole thing.
- [70:04]
B
Although the voice isn't the problem. Like, the Music's not really the problem. I think it was just like.
- [70:10]
A
Well, I think now, too, I have a lot more people in my life who will tell me if something is good or bad.
- [70:18]
B
Ari never would have let any of that happen, by the way.
- [70:21]
A
But it's hard because the checks were coming in. That's. Do you know what I mean? Like, even. Just even Amari was kind of. His take on. It was kind of like, well, I'm mean, if she knows, let her cook.
- [70:31]
B
Yeah, she clearly knows what she's doing. He did make a good point with that.
- [70:34]
A
Yeah. The confidence was crazy. Like, I really. I had to get humbled a few times.
- [70:38]
B
But it's camp, and it's part of your story. And, like, I genuinely. I think you said it, but, like, really did bring you where you are.
- [70:44]
A
I agree. I wouldn't change it for the world. I think I walked so Alabama Parker can run.
- [70:49]
B
In fact, I think she started music because she saw you do it. Yeah. Yeah, no, thanks.
- [70:56]
A
Skinny jeans are back, and I want to die about it. And that's why. That's actually what started my workout journey. Because the fact that. That you're afraid of a jean tana, you're afraid of a pair of pants.
- [71:05]
B
Wait till you find out you don't actually have to wear them because they're bad.
- [71:10]
A
Dude. Paige and I have this whole conversation, too, where I'm just. I am literally a sheep to the trends, and it is so bad.
- [71:16]
B
So am I. If Alex is doing it, like, so am I.
- [71:18]
A
No, and it's like, I see her with the boot, and I'm like, that is so. It's more so that I'm not prepared for them yet. You know, like, she's eating, and. But I'm eating, so it's like. Like, the skinny jean movement does have me back in the gym because I want to pop out in a pair of skinny jeans. One time, I.
- [71:34]
B
With skinny jeans, but I'm just, you know, me built like an ice cream cone.
- [71:38]
A
I think I could see you slaying that, though. Like, I just, like.
- [71:42]
B
I like a baggy jean because it offs. Like, I feel like it balances out my proportions a little.
- [71:46]
A
I guess that's fair. And I. I wonder if I'll ever get to a point in my life where I'm not a sheep to the current trends. But, like, even today, I was. I was on a merch call, and you were podcasting, so I was pitching merch ideas for us, and, like, I went to have a few ideas, and I was like, oh, we should. We have to put leopard there. And then I was like, oh, dial it back, you know?
- [72:08]
B
Yeah. Because that's how you get regret.
- [72:10]
A
That's.
- [72:10]
B
That's how you end up with assets. Chops in your. In your fridge.
- [72:13]
A
Yes.
- [72:13]
B
In your closet. I'm starving.
- [72:17]
A
I'm really trying to build a capsule wardrobe and become more of a. Just. Just, you know, have a. Have a style that I'll love in. In some years. Good. I say that with red glasses on my face.
- [72:28]
B
Are timeless.
- [72:29]
A
It's fine.
- [72:30]
B
Also, leopard is timeless.
- [72:31]
A
That's true. Oh, my God. I want to talk about Joey graceffa.
- [72:34]
B
Okay.
- [72:35]
A
And I'm not even kidding you. We have enough podcasts to move over to the Patreon. But, like, I. I specifically want to bring this to the front lines.
- [72:44]
B
Yes.
- [72:44]
A
Okay. And maybe I'm gonna regret this and it'll end up getting clipped for the Patreon. We'll see. But I think I have been way too nice about how people act toward me when I talk about something bad that has happened to me at the hands of a man. And I made light of it, and I was like, it didn't deeply bother me for me personally, with the Cody Koshi. I've already talked about that. Like, with people being like, well, it's Tana, so she deserved it. You know what I mean? Like, that never bothered me so much for me, because I'm healed and I don't need people's validation. But it bothered me so much thinking about my young things fans out there who have maybe gone through something traumatic, and then they see comments like that, and then they're afraid to speak up in their own environments. You know what I mean? Like, it just societally, and it does. Doesn't hurt my feelings personally, but it does kind of make me angry because it's like I have just the right to speak out about something as everyone, like anyone else does. Right. And I talked about my experience on Escape the Night with you on Patreon, and even that, like, I left it on the Patreon because I was. Was like, I am going to talk about this because this was an awful experience with a man in Los Angeles that I had. And I think it's important to speak up about these things. And I really was so incredibly uncomfortable on that set due to those men. It has nothing to do with Joey. I went above and beyond as well to still say that, like, I love Escape the Night and I love Joey, and it had nothing to do with him, and so on and so forth. Right. Like, I. I think that I was very clear in separating the two things that I did not think. What that man said to me. You know what I mean?
- [74:20]
B
Yeah.
- [74:20]
A
Was Joey's fault. However, it still happened and whatever. And then he ends up breaking my pinky. And it's like, that was just like a whole, like, very, very awful day and awful experience for me. You know what I mean? And just being fake chained up in a meat freezer and a guy is telling you completely off camera that he would love to have you chained up like this with a mask, with horns on, and no people are 100ft away. And again, again, just the mental state of thinking, like, what if that was Rosanna Pansino instead of me? What if that was just someone who didn't comment the guy back? What would have happened? My phone's on sos. It was a very scary, awful situation. And then Joey Graceffa goes on just Trish, and says, and I quote, when Tana brought it up on her podcast, I was like, honestly, whatever. She can complain. It's bringing attention to the project.
- [75:06]
B
That's a real quote.
- [75:07]
A
That's a real quote.
- [75:09]
B
He said that on just trip. That's like, a really bold choice.
- [75:13]
A
And I understand that I'm always on a rant and a tangent, but once again, you infuriating.
- [75:19]
B
No, you were so specific about, like, not making. It was, you love him. It had nothing to do with him. It's not his fault. So, like, hello. Normal response, like, I am. I am so upset. And like.
- [75:32]
A
And like, sorry, complaining is crazy. And then almost like, diminishing, like, the pinky thing. You know what I mean? Like, I don't know what he said to Trisha exactly. If it. It was like, ask her how her pinky is. And it's like, okay, but this man who just, like, literally, verbally, is that sexual assault?
- [75:48]
B
It's harassment.
- [75:49]
A
Sexual harassment. This man who just sexually harassed me on a set, then just, like, broke my pinky. Like, that shit fudgeing hurts. Yeah, like, you know what I mean? Like, that's so ass and so annoying.
- [76:01]
B
And smash your pinky.
- [76:03]
A
And like, Joey, I also have a podcast, and you know that when inviting me on. And I would have never said anything. I would have never, you know what I mean? Even brought it up until it came out had that that not happened. But, like, that happened to me. And once again, had that been so many young, sweet YouTubers and influencer girls, I know that situation could have very easily gone so differently because they're not necessarily as outspoken of People as me even. I found myself so afraid in this situation that I almost, like, fawn to the man, you know? So it's like to write that off as just complaining is, like, so fucking.
- [76:40]
B
But how can you even even, like, like, interpret it as complaining? Like, there's nothing. Like, it's not like you were like, oh, my God. And I hated being there and it sucked, and I had the worst day.
- [76:48]
A
I mean, I was, like, bitching about being in downtown L. A. Early in the morning, but that's.
- [76:52]
B
Nobody wants to be in downtown.
- [76:54]
A
Also. Those two things are completely separate. Like, you know what I mean? Like, it's like I'm just very at the point in my life, I think, that I have grown so much as a person, and I've also shown my growth so much online. For people to then, like, oh, it's just tana me over things that are fucking serious enrages me.
- [77:11]
B
Yeah.
- [77:12]
A
Because it's like, you didn't have to go say that you like. And I, I, like, loved Joey Graceffa. I don't know. Like, I just, like. It's like, okay, bet.
- [77:22]
B
It's just good to know, I guess, like, moving forward. No more escape. The night for Tana Marie and they're it.
- [77:28]
A
Honestly, I should have just let it die where it died. And that's the thing too, I think why it's so infuriating to me because I was, like, doing it it for my friend Joey and, like, for the fans who love it. And I'm still happy for that and all, but it's like, I don't know. I just. I wasn't expecting that to be what he had to say about that. You know what I mean?
- [77:46]
B
Yeah. I feel like he had a really good opportunity to just be like, oh, my God, like, that. It's so shitty that stuff like, that happens. And like, yeah, obviously, like, I'll.
- [77:54]
A
Yeah. Like, just because it's not on him, it's on the production company, what you feel.
- [77:59]
B
Or you should at least. At least feel like some. You know, like, if that happened, like responsibility on a project that I was working on, I would feel like, oh.
- [78:05]
A
My God, like, yeah, I'm responsible. Yeah. And it's like, yeah, exactly. Like, if I had a girl with a podcast on my set and then she went to do that, I would be on the podcast the next week being like, yeah, men are awful, and I'm really sorry that happened to you. Not. She can complain.
- [78:20]
B
All women do it.
- [78:21]
A
So I will not be escaping the night any further. And that's the tea. Honestly, I just, I just don't think we're in an era where because women, even just with Ava Louise, the way people are to her, I think her series like really opened my eyes on that. It's like just because women have problematic past. Even with Blake Lively in this, it's like two things can be true. You cannot like someone or you can think someone's problematic and outspoken, but if someone's speaking up about something that happened to them, like that is.
- [78:45]
B
That's the whole thing. Like perfect victim.
- [78:47]
A
It's just sad. I don't know. I don't want to end the podcast on like such a note, but like, I didn't want to put that behind a paywall.
- [78:51]
B
No, I'm glad you said said it.
- [78:52]
A
Because it's like, okay, Joey, like, damn, are the girls fighting? Like that's, that's kind of wild.
- [78:57]
B
You know, I'm fighting.
- [78:58]
A
And it's like just everything I had to say about that as well. Even down to people coming at me for saying that Rosanna Pansino wasn't saying that she was smoking her parents ashes. It's like, where the ever living hell do you people think I would get off making any of that up? Like it is such an out of bounds story to make up. Like in a meat.
- [79:16]
B
Just a little too specific.
- [79:17]
A
Like smoking the parents in the meat freezer. Like, it's like I, I'm creative but.
- [79:22]
B
Like, did she have anything to say about that?
- [79:25]
A
No. Cuz I think she did do it. And like Rosanna Pansino's the sleigh. I wasn't coming at her. Like that was just a funny. But then people were accusing me of making that up and I'm like, again, just.
- [79:35]
B
I wish you made it up.
- [79:37]
A
It's just. Yeah, it's. I don't even know. I really don't. But thank you guys for tuning in to another episode of the canceled podcast.
- [79:44]
B
We love you so much, Bianca.
- [79:45]
A
Sor. Please reach out, everybody. Go watch Baby girl honestly and jack off after this. That's all I've got to say. We love, love you guys so much. And we will see you in the next episode of the canceled podcast. What? Wow.