130: THE END OF THE CANCELLED PODCAST - Ep. 130

Summary

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Cancelled with Tana Mongeau & Brooke Schofield

Episode 130: THE END OF THE CANCELLED PODCAST – Ep. 130

Release Date: September 29, 2025

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OVERVIEW

This landmark final episode of Cancelled marks the end of Tana and Brooke’s wildly influential, four-year podcast odyssey. Through laughter, tears, and unfiltered stories (both infamous and intimate), the hosts reflect on their journey — the evolution of their friendship, dramatic ups and downs behind the scenes and on the tour road, what the show has meant for them and their fans, and the multitude of lessons learned from “living out loud” online. In a moving (and messy) farewell, they address memorable controversies, apologies owed, the myth of closure, and why ending the pod on a high note feels both bittersweet and necessary.

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KEY DISCUSSION POINTS & INSIGHTS

1. The Emotional Weight of the Final Episode

• [01:24–08:39] The reality of ending the podcast hits both hosts hard; the mood swings between humor and heartbreaking vulnerability.
• Tana and Brooke discuss the show’s end as “the longest breakup ever.”
  • "There have definitely been points of my life…where I begged God for this day." – Tana [06:12]
  • "Leaving this podcast today feels like leaving the casino when you’re up, up." – Brooke [09:19]
• Both reflect on the ways the pod strained and healed their friendship and mental health.
  • “Now...with the podcast ending, we’ve reverted back...to how we once were.” – Tana [07:49]
  • “We get to just be ourselves again.” – Tana [08:57]

2. Celebrating Growth and Change

• [10:08–20:17] Conversations about personal transformation and gratitude.
• The podcast served as a living “time capsule,” capturing weekly milestones, changes, and messy self-discovery.
  • “We sat down every single week and...shared everything that we shouldn’t have.” – Tana [13:30]
• Both marvel at their younger, “crazier” selves and express pride in their present-day maturity and resilience.
• “Those girls have died in the best way...they’re still in there, but hopefully really, really, really tucked.” – Brooke [17:51]
• Tana expresses difficulty feeling her own accomplishments until reflecting with closure.
  • “I really suck with feeling accomplishments as they happen.” – Tana [21:01]

3. Touring, Friendship & Vulnerability

• [12:27–18:49, 67:10–88:34] Hilarious and tender memories from life on the road: green shorts day, meeting fans, technical disasters, the notorious “George Gate,” and more.
• Deep dives into their “trauma bond” and how performing together through tough personal events solidified their friendship:
  • “We’d have to carry each other on the other one’s back.” – Tana [67:34]

4. Content, Controversy, and Oversharing

• [13:59–30:41; 51:04–56:47] Candid acknowledgment of the risks and regrets of hyper-personal, drama-focused content.
  • “I know that whatever I do...will not be that” – Tana [14:20]
• Both have matured in empathy, apologies, and understanding the “weight of the platform.”
  • “It’s taught me a lot...you can’t do anything in the height of your emotion...” – Tana (re: Ashley “Turks” episode) [55:45]

5. Greatest Hits: Scandals, Segments & Apologies

• [100:51–141:38] The hosts play “Sorry, Not Sorry: Cancelled Edition,” revisiting past beefs, controversies, and sharing which ones they regret.
• Notable recurring feuds revisited: Alyssa Violet, Tessa Brooks, Zach Sang, Clinton Kane, Boatgate and more.
  • On Alyssa Violet: “Everything I said was true about her demeanor...but it taught me a lot about the weight of the platform.” – Tana [103:14]
  • On Tessa Brooks: “I do think the weight of the podcast made a person receive way too much unnecessary hate. For that, I apologize.” – Tana [109:43]
• Both acknowledge fun, sometimes reckless oversharing about friends, lovers, and wild LA nightlife (pool boy, coke stories, wardrobe malfunctions, etc.).

6. Games, Laughs, and Lighthearted Farewells

• [145:14–193:39] The Jeopardy! and Newlywed games prove they know each other well (with some hilarious lapses).
• Favorite moments and fan interactions are celebrated.
• The gift exchange: Tana gives Brooke a scrapbook and ornament from their journey.
• “We both, like, really did that shit.” – Tana

7. Parting Thoughts & Impact on Listeners

• [193:35–198:55]
• Immense gratitude for the audience’s support, vulnerability, and connection.
  • “You guys have made us feel so seen for who we are across this.” – Tana [195:26]
  • “I hope you guys know that we’re so excited to put this to bed so that new things can come.” – Tana [198:43]
• Both hosts find comfort in knowing this isn’t ‘goodbye forever’, just an evolution, and affirm plans for future solo and possibly collaborative ventures.

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NOTABLE QUOTES & MOMENTS

• “Leaving this podcast today feels like leaving the casino when you’re up, up.” – Brooke [09:19]
• “I know I’m going to look back and be so eternally grateful for this time capsule of our lives.” – Tana [18:41]
• “It was you and me against the world, and against each other sometimes. But we did it.” – Amari [15:57]
• “If you’re in your early 20s – you will find your happy ending and new, crazy beginnings.” – Tana [196:46]
• On vulnerability: “We’d have to carry each other on the other one’s back.” – Tana [67:34]
• “The only reason this podcast ever worked is because there were thousands of broken girls and gays...who saw themselves in us.” – Tana [195:26]
• “Justice for Paige.” – Brooke [70:48]
• “We are so trauma bonded to this shit.” – Amari [20:35]
• “We did that shit.” – Tana and Amari [11:02]
• “I owe Mod Sun an apology.” – Tana [98:50]
• “Justice for Ashley.” – Brooke [54:34]
• “At the end of every show, we looked at each other and thought, ‘holy fucking shit, I can’t believe this is our lives.’” – Tana [195:33]
• “I’m never deleting this podcast.” – Tana [18:41]

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TIMESTAMPS

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• 01:24 – Final episode cold open, emotional “funeral” theme
• 06:12 – Tana’s ambivalence: wishing the podcast would end during dark periods, but feeling differently now
• 09:19 – “Leaving the casino when you’re up” analogy
• 13:59 – Hyper-sharing, and how much they “bled” for content
• 21:01 – Tana struggles to appreciate her own accomplishments
• 67:10 – Performing on tour while going through personal heartbreaks
• 79:11 – “I shit myself & threw up in my lap” (on tour lore)
• 100:51 – “Sorry, Not Sorry” canceled edition (“Are we sorry?”)
• 145:14 – Jeopardy & quiz games: reliving the wildest and weirdest memories
• 193:35 – Moving last thank yous to fans; “broken girls and gays” speech
• 196:46 – Advice for listeners in their “messy 20s;” the beauty of growth and endings
• 201:20 – Heartfelt gift exchange (scrapbook, ornament) and breakdowns
• 206:13 – Closing thoughts: It’s been a trauma bond, the best privilege, and lasting legacy

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STRUCTURAL HIGHLIGHTS

• Raw candor: No topic off-limits; Tana and Brooke address their own faults, regrets, and growth without flinching.
• Emotional authenticity: Tears, nostalgia, laughter, and awkwardness are all present in real time.
• Inside jokes & chaos: References like “green shorts day,” “George Gate,” “pool boy,” and “labu gate” (plus a “ghost” in the studio) evoke the unfiltered DNA of the show.
• Call-outs & apologies: Multiple segments devoted to setting the record straight, issuing real (and comedic) apologies to those wronged via the podcast’s reach and influence.
• Fan appreciation: Above all, the hosts prioritize gratitude and empathy for their devoted, complex audience.

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SUMMARY

The final episode of Cancelled is a joyful, messy, cathartic goodbye. Tana and Brooke lay bare the journey: the toxic highs, transformative lows, real-life lessons, unfiltered vulnerability, and the privilege of growing up in public. Their honest appraisal of the show’s impact on themselves, each other, and their audience is both a time capsule and a love letter. As the curtain falls, Cancelled ends not with a scandal but with immense gratitude, hard-won wisdom, and deep affection for the “broken girls and gays” who found themselves in Tana and Brooke.

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For anyone who has never listened to Cancelled, this episode provides a raw, complete portrait of the show’s wild ride — and the lasting bonds forged along the way.

Transcript

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[Tana Mongeau]

Hello and welcome to the final episode of the cancelled podcast that was way harder for us than it should have been. I know.

[Brooke Schofield]

And said with too much enthusiasm. Now that I'm thinking about it.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, I didn't like the up the upturn of that. It should be like hello and welcome to the.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah, for the edits at least.

[Amari]

Wow.

[Tana Mongeau]

I don't even know where to begin. And this doesn't feel real. And of course we are in some dumb ass garb.

[Amari]

One thing we're gonna do until the.

[Tana Mongeau]

End is have some get up on.

[Brooke Schofield]

Speak for yourself. I look amazing.

[Tana Mongeau]

We are giving funeral realness because that is what we are doing today. And I just don't even know how I want to approach all of this because it's.

[Brooke Schofield]

I think it's lighthearted, it's fun. Until it isn't because if I start crying now, I won't stop for the rest of the episode.

[Tana Mongeau]

I honestly, I fully agree and I'm like I'm having anxiety because I don't know, it's hard because you and I have been talking a lot about this that it's like been the longest breakup of all time. Like I feel like you and I almost cried together and like felt all of the things like four months ago, you know what I mean? And now the day is here and it's so. I just feel very like, out of my own body. I can't believe that this is real. Yeah, I know, I know. Cuz it's like. I know.

[Brooke Schofield]

I'm like, so Amaya and Brian broke up.

[Amari]

That's the other thing is I do.

[Tana Mongeau]

Have, like, random topics and yeah, there's.

[Brooke Schofield]

Certain things that we have to address. Obviously there's one like.

[Amari]

But I don't know if we do.

[Tana Mongeau]

Because do we really want to look.

[Amari]

Back at this time capsule and be like, Amaya Papaya posted on Instagram?

[Brooke Schofield]

No, but there's a timeless mention of the Queen getting engaged.

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh, that's true. Taylor Swift did get engaged. And we're happy for her. Of course, I don't have anything.

[Brooke Schofield]

She, like, you're not a swifty.

[Tana Mongeau]

I am a swifty through and through. But like, she's been engaged to that man in my eyes, like this. Just like, duh. They were always getting married.

[Brooke Schofield]

I feel like she's copying me, but whatever.

[Tana Mongeau]

Correct me if I'm wrong and I will, but I don't know if I have it in me to like, just discuss random topics today because I know they're not on my mind.

[Brooke Schofield]

You're right. Like, fine. I just don't want to. I just don't want to ruin my whole episode right in the beginning and sob my eyes out, because you know I will.

[Tana Mongeau]

No, I know. And same, honestly. But I mean, do we have tissues.

[Brooke Schofield]

By the way, just like, for future?

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, we're going to. We're going to need some tissues for sure. But I mean, it's true. Brooke, I think it's okay to like, feel the emotions because it's like I'm just realizing how late I am to, like, processing things. First of all, like, last night I laid down and like, finally was like, oh, my God, I'm shooting the final episode of the canceled podcast tomorrow. And I. Then I got high and it all just hit me. Like, I felt like I was genuinely in, like, Back to the Future. That, like a time capsule was like, just playing like before my eyes. Literally, like a fucking projector on my ceiling. Of these past four years and how jam packed they've been and like, how much this.

[Brooke Schofield]

Anyone have tissues? I'm already growing.

[Tana Mongeau]

It's so weird because.

[Brooke Schofield]

Oh, thank you.

[Tana Mongeau]

We should have got a black tissue box.

[Brooke Schofield]

It kind of sticks out like a sore thumb. Sorry. I swear I'll come. I'll just.

[Tana Mongeau]

No, Brooke, I. Me too. And I think that it would be not human to sit Here and just be like. Like, you know.

[Brooke Schofield]

Huh. Just don't be surprised if I literally don't pay attention to you. But sometimes when I'm trying not to cry, I have to go like this.

[Tana Mongeau]

No, I completely understand. I think you should just feel what you feel. Be. Feel what you feel and be real. It's weird to me, too. I'm gonna say something that might actually come across as fucked up. I don't think it'll make you cry, but I. Please. I wonder if you relate to me on this. Obviously, you and I have gone through an extreme emotional roller coaster across this, you know, and just our relationship has changed so much, and now we're in this beautiful place and we will get to that. We will talk about that. But. And just obviously everyone has seen all of the episodes and we've expressed some of our frustrations with what this can do to your mental health and whatever. There have definitely been points of my life in the last year and a half where I begged God for this day. Like, where all I wanted. It's all I could think about. There was a point in my life where this was consuming me, this coming to an end because of the things that I felt like it was negatively doing during certain times. Not all times. Like, there were lots of positive times. You know what I mean? But I mean, genuinely eating me alive. Like, about. Like, this just has to end because I hate what it's doing to us. I hate what's happening on the Internet. This. I don't resonate with certain things anymore and whatever. And I was so convinced that on this day. And in the end, I would show up and pop a bottle and a firecracker and fireworks and I'd be like, finally. And like, what. You know what I mean? Like, that's. Yeah, there were points where I want. Was 100% sure that was what my energy was going to be today. And then today has come, and I could not feel more different than that. Like, yeah, I wish I could go tell that girl, like, that you're not going to feel like that at all. Like, these past few weeks have been so interesting too, because it's like, we're not working on anything for Canceled. You know, we have, like, we had a few episodes coming out and stuff, but we finished the tour. And it's almost really interesting to me too, how immediately you and I have reverted back to how we once were. Like, it's almost.

[Brooke Schofield]

It didn't even have to truly end for us to, like, feel the relief of it.

[Tana Mongeau]

I almost feel like and like, we're calling each other and we're having these like, five hour calls and you're touring houses and we're going together and we're skipping around and we're like. I don't know how to explain that. Just all of the strife and everything, like, it's like it almost like, didn't fucking happen. And it, like, we were right. We knew that, like, having this baby together and trying to agree was like, what was hard and putting a strain. And now it's like I just finally, like, see without the cloud. You know what I mean? Like, just the immense gratitude that I have for you and for this era and for this time in our lives in this podcast. And like, I just, I didn't. For a minute there, I didn't know that I would feel this way. And, like. And I'm just, like, so fucking excited for our friendship and our future. And, like, me too.

[Brooke Schofield]

I've been having so much fun and.

[Tana Mongeau]

It'S like, so cool because I don't know if there were versions of us that, like, could see this. You know what I mean? Like, this time of our lives and this, like, chapter, and it's just, like, very wild to me. I don't know where I was going with that. I lost my train of thought.

[Brooke Schofield]

No, I think it's really very. Of course it's sad and it's depressing and everything, but it's also so exciting. And we've said that so many times, but I really am starting to feel. Feel it. Because it's like. Yeah, it's just like, so much is changing.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah. And it also. On the, like, flip side of that, it is very hard though you said something and I. I've been talking about it all day and I probably will forever. Brooke and I were on the phone today, as we do now as well.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah. You guys, I don't think you understand, like, when we say I've. I think we've spoken more in the past, like, two weeks than we have, like, in the last two years.

[Tana Mongeau]

Because it doesn't feel like we have to call each other and, like, work out 90 million business things. We get to just be ourselves again. And I don't know, it just like, it's very nice. But on the phone today, I was telling you, because now it's. Now that we are, like, just vibing and there's much less stress and just like, in these beautiful places of our lives and the podcast is still happening, there is this part of me where I've always sucked at leaving. What's comfortable, you know, and there is a sense of, we know this very well. And it is like you said today, you said. What I truly think to be one of the greatest analogies I've ever heard in my life is leaving this podcast today. Feels like leaving the casino when you're up, up, and it really does. And Lord knows I struggle with leaving the casino when I'm up, and. But I know it has to happen.

[Brooke Schofield]

And, like, I think just, like, it almost is more understandable to us because we know how many times we've tried to leave this podcast when we were down. You know what I mean? Like, when either you and I were just not seeing eye to eye and, like, could not get along or whatever it was, there was a big fight. There was a big scandal. Like, there have been so many times where, like, this has to end. And this is the first time it's ending when you and I are like, wait, but, like, I know we're getting along.

[Tana Mongeau]

And, like. And, like, life is. And it was always gonna end that way. I'm like.

[Brooke Schofield]

No, don't.

[Tana Mongeau]

We just didn't know that. We didn't know it was always going to end this way.

[Amari]

And, like, be so happy and, like.

[Tana Mongeau]

I'm so happy for you and so happy for me. And, like, it's. I don't know if you want to talk about your house or just anything like that, but, like, we both, like, everything is so set up for us to, like, go off into the sunset and be best friends and be like, holy fudge, we did that shit, too. And I think I really suck. I really suck with feeling accomplishments as they happen. I'm always, like, just thinking about the next thing or what I did wrong or just, like, I. And I just have trouble sometimes, really internally with giving myself, like, props, you know, like, just. That's a mental struggle. And last night, for the genuine first time, I was laying there and I was like, holy, we did that shit.

[Amari]

We did that shit.

[Tana Mongeau]

I was like, just everything. I mean, everywhere we went for the last four years of our life, girls all over the world came and stopped.

[Amari]

Us and said, I love the canceled podcast. And, like, that is so insane. Like, every. I'm Grocery store fucking everywhere I went, that is what people had to say to me, you know? And, like, oh, my God.

[Tana Mongeau]

And just, like, I was thinking about all of our, like, random biggest moments. Like, there was a day where you and I are on tour.

[Amari]

We're in the green room. We FaceTime Gypsy Rose Blanchard, who is fresh out of jail. We're talking to Gypsy, we're like whatever. We get these big cheese block hats.

[Tana Mongeau]

We put them on our head and we walk out and we do a Show to like 4000 people and like we break the venue's decibel level. The venue and had so many iconic people had performed there. We were the loudest show they'd ever had in Milwaukee.

[Amari]

And then we just like went to the tour bus and we ate Taco Bell and we laughed and like we did it again and again and again and again. And like in the moments you're not like holy like you know you just like you're in it and like just.

[Tana Mongeau]

Looking back at like and even just like how far we've come, like like thinking about our first ever show and like we would take a Sprinter everywhere and I had 19 SoundCloud rappers on the Sprinter and like we're blacked out and like just the girls that we were and like the mess. I want to get into like all of those memories and to then like.

[Amari]

Touring the world only staying at the Four Seasons with like a fabulous like.

[Tana Mongeau]

Setup and like these massive shows and like flying in lay down seats with our boyfriends to like do this international.

[Amari]

Tour and like you know what, it's.

[Tana Mongeau]

Just like the, the progress across this too. Like I've so sorry. I have so much to say. I'm just firing.

[Brooke Schofield]

Okay. I'm not speaking because I literally can't speak without crying.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like please cut me off at any point. I'm just like everything is like flooding me. But I was talking about this to Makoa last night and he compared it to take like how people do that thing where they like take a photo of themselves every year of their life and then it shows them like slowly changing across that like that's what we've done. Like never will we ever document this much change and this much of our lives. We sat down every single week and like.

[Brooke Schofield]

I was like tell that to audio.

[Tana Mongeau]

Boom.

[Amari]

We sat down every other week.

[Brooke Schofield]

And.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like just shared everything that we shouldn't have about every single detail about our lives to this like community of girls. And like now we're like done with that.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah, but like yes and no. I'm, I'm. I don't think we'll ever stop over sharing. I think we'll stop maybe sharing about double ended dildos and anal and all of that. But I think that there's like we're always gonna have some level of like sharing more than the average person. I agree with that.

[Tana Mongeau]

But I mean Like, Brooke, like, we'll get into. We have a bunch of segments planned for today. The stories that we told about our day to day lives and other influencers.

[Brooke Schofield]

Or just like other actual, like normal people. And like, that's a problem I had in the beginning is like, I wasn't speaking about influencers. I was speaking about like stranger. Like, yeah, you know, normal people who don't do social media. Like, you can't do that.

[Tana Mongeau]

Just anything that, anything that happened to us across a 10 day period, we would write down and come and sit down and talk about it. Like, I know that whatever I do, at least I can't speak for you. Like, will not be that. No, you know what I mean? Like, it's like truly sharing your lives and like bleeding for the people to see. And like, just everything I think about, even, like our parents, like, how much you and I healed each other's like, familial wounds across this podcast and like, how much. Stop looking at me. We got to like, do that for other people. Like, I was even thinking about the meet and greets and it was like, no matter what, where you and I were, right? Like, if we were in the best place ever, in the best of friends, or if we were fighting or if we were stressed or no matter what was going on in our lives and outside world, there would be an hour and a half that we had to lock in and got the pleasure and the blessing of meeting people whose lives were changed by this podcast and. And you know, sometimes that can feel a little performative on a bad day or whatever, you know, but other times, you know what I mean, you're fully in it. It doesn't matter. No matter what, we would lock in and you and I would stand there and like, girls would come up and they would like, share their darkest demons and their, their mother wounds and their relationship wounds and their struggles that we also were going through. And there would be those moments where then you and I would just look at each other and make eye contact.

[Amari]

And no one else was there. You know, like, it was you, like, feeling. We got to feel so much of just like, as corny as it is, because obviously, like, we also talk about gussets and. But like, how much this did change people's lives, including ours, you know, and like, I will never have that bond with another person. Like, for all the good and for all the bad and for just everything. Like, it was you and me against the world and against each other sometimes. But we did it. Like, we did it and we were like Coming out, genuinely holding hands, walking off into the sunset against all odds.

[Tana Mongeau]

Every single odd was for us to fucking, like, want to kill each other. And I'm sitting here and, like, I don't.

[Amari]

And I love you so much. And I'm so proud of the woman that you've become and, like, the life that you've built. And, like, I just.

[Tana Mongeau]

Proud of us. Like, it's. I don't know, it's crazy. It's really crazy.

[Brooke Schofield]

I think it still is you and I against the world.

[Amari]

I agree. And I think that that's, like, just sickening. Just fucking sickening because it just.

[Tana Mongeau]

I don't know.

[Amari]

I can't believe it.

[Brooke Schofield]

No, it's. It's actually crazy. I think too. Like, I'm also in such an emotional period because, like, where I started at the, like, I mean, you were. You were rich and famous, you know what I mean? Like, when I started this podcast, like.

[Amari]

At what cost to the honeybee?

[Brooke Schofield]

But you know what I mean? Like, like, actually, this has been like, the most transformative thing, obviously of my lifetime, you know?

[Tana Mongeau]

I'm so proud of you.

[Brooke Schofield]

I love you. Thank you.

[Tana Mongeau]

And I'm sure that you feel the same way, but, like, when I'm really thinking back to the studio, like, the person who was sitting across from me, like, and same for you, like, those girls have died in, like, the best way, like. Like, thank God somebody take them out sooner, you know?

[Brooke Schofield]

But, like, no, we haven't. I mean, they're still in there, but hopefully, hopefully really, really, really tucked.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yes. 100. Like. Like there are parts of us and our souls and stuff that are there, but the growth and just coming into ourselves and navigating so much while, like, arguably too. It's so funny because across these four years, I can say, like, canceled has been the only consistent thing. You know what I mean? Like, everything else was just ever changing around us on a week by week basis to get us here. And like.

[Brooke Schofield]

But I think that's so cool and so special because we really had that check in. Like, I always say this, but I'm not a journaler. I've never been able to, like, write in a diary or, like, jot anything down. So to have this, like, forever, you.

[Tana Mongeau]

Know what I mean?

[Brooke Schofield]

To, like, refer back to and like, oh, this was happening. Like, sometimes I don't remember things, but I can watch a clip and be.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like, oh, and that. It is so funny, too, because I was thinking about that last night too, and it's like, I will never delete this podcast.

[Amari]

Like, I can't even express to you, like, who.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like, just now being sitting here in this, like, I'm so, so grateful for it. And I just, like, I can't believe the way that it has changed our lives. And I have, like, lists of so many random memories that we can, like, talk about if you want.

[Brooke Schofield]

I would. I want to. I want.

[Tana Mongeau]

I can't believe it's.

[Brooke Schofield]

But I am. I. I got. I hope there's more positives in this episode, because I. I can't even. No, this isn't sustainable. I will literally be sick.

[Tana Mongeau]

No, it's weird because it's all positive. It just. It is. It's leaving the casino when you're up.

[Brooke Schofield]

I know.

[Tana Mongeau]

And it's hard. And that's what makes you sad, because it is, like, it is sad.

[Brooke Schofield]

It's just everything. Like, even when it's for a good thing. I'm thinking about this too, because. Wait. I have a surprise. I got my house.

[Amari]

Why would you tell me? What. I'm in the game. Congratulations. I don't even know. Oh, my God. Congratulations.

[Brooke Schofield]

Thank you.

[Amari]

I'm like, that is the canceled house. That's the canceled casa Villa. Like, that is so crazy. Amari said something like that today.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like, you know, just about Maui and me going there in that property.

[Amari]

And, like, thanks. Canceled. And it's, like, so true. Like, it's just, like, how cool that it, like, facilitated the next chapters of our lives.

[Brooke Schofield]

It did. And I was thinking about it today because, like, it's. It happened so quickly, and now I'm like, I'm getting so sentimental about, like, where I live now because I just love it so much. It's been so special to me and stuff. And that's kind of how I feel about the podcast, where it's like, I want to move on and I want to get to the next thing, but it's so sad for me to leave.

[Amari]

We are so trauma bonded to this shit.

[Brooke Schofield]

I know. I already have.

[Amari]

Like, we are so. Because it's. It is so true.

[Tana Mongeau]

It is so true. And that's. That's what it is.

[Amari]

We're like, this is all we've known. Like I said, it's the only thing that's inconsistent. It's all we known.

[Tana Mongeau]

And, like, walking away is very weird. And I do find such incredible peace and comfort in knowing that neither one of us is actually dying.

[Amari]

I know.

[Brooke Schofield]

And more. So we're now neighbors.

[Amari]

Yes.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like, we're. Oh, my God. Like, and how cool is that, too? Like, again, just against all odds that we're touring these houses and we're like, I hope you get this one.

[Amari]

So we can live by each other.

[Tana Mongeau]

And, like, we can hang out.

[Amari]

Like, I just want to tell George gate girls, like, oh, my God, it's y'. All. I can't, like, imagine going in and telling those girls in the middle of that green room during Jord Skate in fucking Cleveland.

[Brooke Schofield]

Cleveland that you like.

[Amari]

Like, I wish I could show them a flash of this. Like, y' all are going to want to be next door neighbors so bad.

[Brooke Schofield]

Like, I wouldn't believe you. I'm sorry. Gun to my head at all.

[Amari]

And like, that's so. That's just so sickening. I can't stop saying it, but it is, like, sickening.

[Brooke Schofield]

Remember, this is supposed to be timeless. You're gonna look back and be like, was I really saying sickening?

[Amari]

That is so marvelous. Yes.

[Tana Mongeau]

And so, like, moving. And just like, this is a very big lesson to me, too, that everything does just end up working out exactly the way it's supposed to. And so much of life that you spend ruminating is wasted.

[Brooke Schofield]

Like, you know it is. But it's also just like, God, if things can be. Feel so negative, like, this was feeling so negative. And I was like, I was really. I feel like having a harder time with it than you were a little bit. Because it, like, I felt good about it. Was like, I wanted it. I wanted it, I wanted it. And then when it came, I was like, oh, oh, no.

[Tana Mongeau]

100%.

[Brooke Schofield]

Now I have this big thing that, like, it's made me excited now again.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah.

[Brooke Schofield]

For.

[Tana Mongeau]

And it's just like, the future. I agree. And I, like, it's like, even, like, I just look back at our old vlogs where you'd come over and we'd, like, cook something or, like, whatever. And like, I'm so excited for you to have a show and me to have a show eventually. And, like, that's so cool, too. Like, I'm going on Brook's podcast today, and then, like, I'm going to. Then the vision. What for? Whatever it is, is your vision, and I'm obliging and same otherwise, you know what I mean?

[Brooke Schofield]

This is my show.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yes, exactly. But, like, dead, dead.

[Amari]

No.

[Tana Mongeau]

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[Amari]

I have this list.

[Tana Mongeau]

I can't believe you got your house.

[Brooke Schofield]

I know I was you asked me today and I I've known for a couple. Well actually I've only known since yesterday but I didn't want to tell you until we were on the podcast. So I just had to lie to you today.

[Tana Mongeau]

I'm so happy you did, because it's, like. It's just so cool. And it's so cool.

[Brooke Schofield]

I've been so emotional over. I just literally can't believe.

[Tana Mongeau]

And it's beautiful, and it's so you. And it, like, quite literally fell into your lap. It feels so universal.

[Brooke Schofield]

I know.

[Tana Mongeau]

It feels so. You know what's weird, too, by the way, is, so we filmed with Chelsea Handler, right. And I'm just thinking about, like, synchronicities, and I wanted to share this with you because it's so strange to me the way that this happens and this means absolutely nothing to her and everything to me, like, what I'm about to say. I assume we film the podcast that she's on, and you already know that's the end of my book and the greatest day of my life. And just, like, you know, with writing my book and just, like, how I want to move in the future, I'm very inspired by her. She's my idol. And we messaged a little bit after the podcast, and then, like, we didn't really talk unless it was, like, funny comments on people's photos. And then the day I woke up to leave on our flight for Australia, she messaged me out of the blue, and she said, hey, I'm thinking of you today. Like, how's everything going with the touring? Like, just, like, you got this, like, type of thing. And I felt so, like, moved by that because I was in the place where just, like, after Europe, I was scared and, like, whatever. And then Australia ended up being fabulous and so emotional and, like, the best ending of our touring for now and. Or forever, we don't know.

[Brooke Schofield]

But, you know, Jonas Brothers are back.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah. And that's. I want to get into that, too, but just. I don't know, it felt very synchronic that she messaged me that day, and it almost calmed my anxieties. And we've never spoken on the phone or anything like that. And I'm getting ready today, and right after I hang up from you, she calls me. She just calls me out of the blue, and she's just like, how are you? Like, just asking me all these things and just, like, asking about the podcast and, like, whatever. And I'm like, actually, I'm going to film the last episode. And, like, it just felt so synchronicity, like, because she didn't know. You know what I mean? And then she just, like, called me, and I was like, that's special. I don't know. It's so special. And then you got your fucking house today. Like. Like, that's just, like, so cool that, like, the universe is opening, like, as we part in this way, it's opening these two beautiful, like, pathways, rewarding us for doing, like, what is correct.

[Brooke Schofield]

I think so, too.

[Tana Mongeau]

And, like, that's just, like, so interesting to me. Even though, like, not a crow with a raven, like, on your balcony. And we were. We went. I went with her to tour your house.

[Brooke Schofield]

Oh, yeah, we didn't. We haven't even talked about that.

[Tana Mongeau]

And there was an owl, right?

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah. I brought Tanic because, I mean, I don't have any other friends who buy houses. So, like, I wanted your opinion, obviously.

[Tana Mongeau]

And I'm, like, selling her on this one because I'm like, neighbor, like, I.

[Amari]

Don'T care if it's a fucking dump. You're getting this one.

[Brooke Schofield]

No, but I just really wanted you to see it. I was so excited. And the instant we went in the backyard, a big owl came.

[Tana Mongeau]

And if you actually watched last episode of the podcast, when you're talking about the raven, I said, like, I had this owl following me for a long time, and which is just, like, weird. Like, that was my response to you. And I have not seen an owl since that time of my life.

[Brooke Schofield]

I don't think I've ever seen an owl in my life.

[Tana Mongeau]

And we're in your backyard, and an owl pulls up my backyard. Yes. And, like, the. An owl signifies, like, extreme change and new paths and all of those things. And it was, like, really cool. We just looked at each other and it was like, holy.

[Brooke Schofield]

Like, I'm so happy.

[Tana Mongeau]

Just, we did it, and we're on to this next chapter. And I am so excited to not have to talk about other people.

[Brooke Schofield]

Me, too. That's, like, my biggest thing.

[Amari]

I can't wait.

[Tana Mongeau]

I went on.

[Brooke Schofield]

Except for when something horrible happens, in which case I will be talking about people.

[Tana Mongeau]

I guess that's true.

[Brooke Schofield]

I, like, I never want to. I would never want to secure myself to that. I, like, I don't want to say I'll never do it again because, like, there are circumstances.

[Tana Mongeau]

I went on Jeff FM yesterday, though, and he's just a pot stir.

[Amari]

And, like. Yeah.

[Tana Mongeau]

And I was calling him out and kind of just like, addressing. Because every other episode, I'm, like, hearing my name, your name, all these things.

[Brooke Schofield]

So I went, I can't open YouTube without seeing my name in a thumbnail. Someone's thumbnail.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah. And, like, I Said it was just like, damn. Like, after I left, my takeaway was like, you know what I mean? I'm like, I did that podcast and that happened. But I'm so happy that I no longer have to do a podcast where, like, that is what I'm doing and talking about drama and, like, start, like. Because I already know when his episode comes out, like, it's gonna start some. And I'm so happy that that's, like, no longer going to be. What we're doing is, like, being like, oh, that was good. That's gonna start some. You know, like, that's. I'm so excited to just.

[Brooke Schofield]

It's so funny because it's actually been a really long time since I've left an episode and been like, that's gonna start some. Sometimes I'll say, like, literally something I think is no biggie at all, and it starts some.

[Tana Mongeau]

You know what I was laughing about? Today is on Friday, I'm going to do Pilates with Trisha. And I had Meg just, like, book a gym. Like, just like, I was like, find a gym that we can, like, film us trying Pilates for the first time in. And it's the gym that, like, kicked me out. Yeah, like, that whole.

[Brooke Schofield]

Wait, are you sure?

[Tana Mongeau]

I. What's the name of it? Meg?

[Brooke Schofield]

Oh, no, no, no, it's.

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh, it's not.

[Brooke Schofield]

No.

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh, I thought it was. Amari said it was so never mind to the rest of what I was gonna say, but essentially just even that, like, you just, like, sat down and you were like, I wanted to go.

[Amari]

To this gym and like, have this whole tangent. And then like.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like, I know.

[Brooke Schofield]

Not to mention me going on a whole rampage about my building manager. And now I'm trying to get out of my lease.

[Amari]

Like, just.

[Tana Mongeau]

Just all of the random things. Like, we remember, like the big moments, but like, it was something like that. Like that gym every week, like, hold.

[Brooke Schofield]

A lot of bridges, we'll tell you that much.

[Tana Mongeau]

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[Tana Mongeau]

Oh my God. I just went to the Fray concert and Landon Barker opens for them and they invited me back like side stage and I walked to side stage and I'm so excited to see the Fray perform. And then I see that just Landon standing there and I'm like, you know what? I'm gonna watch from the crowd until he like goes on. Let me not just be standing there, just me and Landon Barker and we like don't have beef. Theoretically. Landon and I, like I've just heard through the grapevine. And he said, like, I have to. I, you know, like, Tannis, chill, but I have to like ride with my sister. And that makes sense. And then I go backstage eventually and I go use their green room bathroom and I'm walking back up the stairs. And for some reason, Landon is like walking down the stairs at the same time as me and we bump shoulders on the same stair and I just like walked away. And I was like, just thinking about all of the people that like the canceled podcast has, like, like if I put them all in a room, I could throw a party. Like, you know what I mean?

[Brooke Schofield]

The amount of people, everyone's so connected. It's so funny you say that because. Because yesterday, like yesterday morning I did Pilates, just me and Atiana, like Landon and Alabama sister. And it wasn't until literally 45 minutes into the session she mentioned Alabama. And I go, oh my God. I. I didn't even think about them being sisters. I'm like, she probably hates me.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like, how just. And there's so much of that. And we're in the segments that we're going to do, we are going to get into these specific instances and if we owe people apologies or if we still stand on what we're feeling, I.

[Brooke Schofield]

Apologize to Alabama Barker.

[Tana Mongeau]

I wish the best for Alabama Barker.

[Brooke Schofield]

I think that's my answer as well. I really, like, I have a feeling she's gonna have a major, major resurgence.

[Tana Mongeau]

And I think I am actively trying every day to be a different person in the ways that I once was. And that girl still lives inside of me. She does. You know what I mean? But I think that even with like Vanna from. I'm bringing her up again, but I know that that episode will have just come out. Like, I can now look at that situation and be like, like I was 21 years old once and I would have been 10 times worse. And she was actually really graceful and really kind to me in the end. And I would have never even sent that message. 21 year old me would have made a 50 part series about that, you know, and just like, I look at things from such a different lens now. And like, even Jeff's yesterday, like, I kind of went back and forth with like Todd and I think that will be one of the last times that like, I do anything like that. Like, he called him in and I didn't know. So I just like, you might as.

[Brooke Schofield]

Well hail Mary, get it all out while we still have canceled and then it can just break off right at the end.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, I Don't. I don't think I will. Yeah. Like, just. I have. I have so much more empathy now, I think, as you get older for human beings and their mistakes and shortcomings that we once had, none of, like, oh, my God. Just.

[Brooke Schofield]

It used to always be really hard for me to empathize with somebody who I couldn't relate to. Like, if I. If I hadn't felt the specific thing, like. Or, like, experienced the thing were going through, it was hard for me to put myself in the position. And, like, obviously, the more that happens to me, the easier it is for me to, like, understand people. And I feel like that's where it comes from. Like, a lot of the people I look back on now, I'm like, God, like, I was too hard on that person.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, yeah. Lots of, like, humbling across this, too, which is so important. Do you know what I was thinking about in the vein of humbling, too, is in the last episode, and I think I ended up cutting it. But you were telling a story that is 1000% true. I just wanted to elaborate on it a little more. And so I cut it because I didn't, like, like, how I responded. Just about a time in the beginning of Canceled where you had to come to my house and drag me out of bed, and I was such a evil bitch about it. And, like, just thinking about in the beginning of Canceled, like, how the way I was, like, the way I would just not show up, and I was drunk, and I was just, like, a mess and a horrible business partner. And, like, I was. I don't think that I. And we've talked about this, but, like, I. I didn't respond to the way that you would kind of come at me for that. So then I would come at you back. But looking back on it now, it's like, doesn't matter how the. She wanted to express to you that what you were doing was wrong. It was wrong. And, like, she was trying to help make you better and she could have.

[Brooke Schofield]

Eased up on the tone of the it.

[Tana Mongeau]

No, but, like, still, like, I was an insufferable business partner in the very beginning. And then I think post your tweets resurfacing you and I had, like, a lot of. That was kind of like, during that time, that was where we really, like, were just going at it the most. You know what I mean? And not seeing eye to eye. And for some reason, I just had this, like, dawn on me. Like, after you said it, it was like, yeah, Tana, the way that you felt like, Brooke was being to you during that time is when 1000% your karma for how you were to her in the beginning. Like you were such a bad business partner, Tana. Like do you know what I mean? It's like it all like karmatically now. Like just everything, every argument and every like era where like one of us was maybe a little off. Like it all comes together and it's.

[Amari]

Like a pretty even playing field and like it's.

[Tana Mongeau]

You know what I mean? Like it just. And that I couldn't see that at the time. And it's like I wish I could even just go to me like Brooke was such a bitch to me this day and be like.

[Amari]

Yeah and remember when you wouldn't get.

[Tana Mongeau]

The fuck out of bed like boy, you wouldn't.

[Amari]

Yeah.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like what? Like just humbling. You know what I mean? Just like that girl needed some fucking humbling and I appreciate.

[Brooke Schofield]

Well, you can't ever see anything like I mean I hope this gets better with age but it's so hard. Like what is they say, what did they say? It's like hindsight.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah.

[Brooke Schofield]

2020. I actually don't know what that hindsight.

[Tana Mongeau]

Is like when you like when you look back you have 2020 vision.

[Brooke Schofield]

Oh yeah, hindsight. That's what I mean. Like you're never gonna see anything for what it is like as it's happening. You can only like look back on it sometimes. It takes a long time.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, I agree with that. It's just. It's so crazy like that just. And I am so happy. No matter how we felt we. We still like we fought for this and we even in our like low points we fought to like walk off into the sunset. And I think there are many times where you and I were sitting in meetings or talking about walking off into the sunset and we weren't feeling walk off into the sunsetty. It was like this thing that we were manifesting but that's not how we felt in that moment. And to be like holy. Like we fought for that. We fought for that walk off into the sunset and like now we're here and we are.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah, I think timing is right. Like I mean it's never going to feel 100 right. Like that's just how like things like that work. But I feel like. But never been a better time than now.

[Tana Mongeau]

Obviously. You and I also worked so well on cancel than how we were because you and I can be both very.

[Amari]

Outspoken and volatile and all of the.

[Tana Mongeau]

Things but we never fully. We never turned on each other and we never you know what I mean? Like, I think that a lot of people thought that it would be some. I don't want to compare it to anyone else.

[Brooke Schofield]

They still do. Yeah.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah. But, like, thought it would be that. And we fought so hard for it to not be that. And like, we won that fight.

[Brooke Schofield]

It was hard.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yes.

[Brooke Schofield]

Wasn't easy. And sometimes, like, honestly, sometimes when people are like, they fucking hate each other, I'm like, like, they're right.

[Tana Mongeau]

We might have in that week. And. And then that was the thing too. It was just such an emotional roller coaster because we'd have the worst week and then we'd have the best week. And then, you know, it's. I don't know, it is like, just very wild to me. Like, I'm very happy that, like, we're up. Yeah. Like, yes. Like, I don't know. And to see it without the clouds, like, the amount of love and gratitude that I have for you in this very moment, it's the highest amount of love and gratitude I've ever had for you. Like, and it's too. That's so sickening.

[Brooke Schofield]

That's so marvelous. No, I, I agree. I would love. I feel like we should lighten up the mood.

[Tana Mongeau]

I have, I have. I just, I'm gonna start going. I'm gonna just, like, I'm just gonna say things to you and tell me your thoughts on them or just. These are. These were just my high thoughts.

[Brooke Schofield]

Okay, okay. Okay.

[Tana Mongeau]

Just to touch on our day to day early lives. Like, like, how funny is it that, like, we would frequent the Saddle Ranch and BOA Steakhouse everywhere we went. We would wear mesh see through tops with our nipples fully out. Our, like right now, like, all of the people in that room would see our full tits.

[Brooke Schofield]

And I just had no problem with it. And now I'm like, wait, what I always think about, like when you lived at Weed Lake, like, us getting ready. She had. I mean, it was like the clout house or whatever. So you had this insane closet. I would just go in there, wear whatever I wanted. We'd go to boa. You'd call the paparazzi. I'd be trailing in the back.

[Tana Mongeau]

And like, that was our regular. Like, that was our regular lives. And then we would go to these places like Saddle Ranch and boa. I don't think that we ever were like, no, well, I shouldn't say that. We would definitely be like, this would be great lore for the podcast. Like, we would know what we were doing sometimes.

[Brooke Schofield]

I still live with the podcast in mind.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yes. But like, like 70 of the time we were just doing what we genuinely wanted to do, which was hook up with Harry, Josie or Bryce hall, which.

[Brooke Schofield]

Was like, it was really shameful in the beginning.

[Tana Mongeau]

Pool boy. Like how funny is that? That like we should have had him on today. 100% like that we genuinely like, like on some. I don't even know what the word is. Like Lady Dawn, There's a ghost.

[Brooke Schofield]

There's a ghost.

[Tana Mongeau]

There's a ghost. Well, we'll come back to it in the edit, but those balloons just moved in a way that air conditioning could not possibly do. It was from the bottom up. Like as if someone just hit them from the bottom up. Whatever.

[Brooke Schofield]

Anywh who I'm sorry, we're.

[Tana Mongeau]

And they wanted to be here for.

[Brooke Schofield]

The finale, you know, just the three of us.

[Tana Mongeau]

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[Tana Mongeau]

Some lady dawn shit. I'd be like, I have him Wednesday. And you'd be like, and I have him next Wednesday. And then I have him next Wednesday.

[Brooke Schofield]

It was like that.

[Amari]

It so was though, like it's.

[Tana Mongeau]

Or just like almost like we would. Like, I'd be like, oh yeah, when he stick. Like, you know what I.

[Brooke Schofield]

Like we would like, I will say we treated that man like, in a way that, like, it would not be acceptable for a man to treat a woman like. We treated that man like he was a piece of meat. Like, we talked about him like he.

[Tana Mongeau]

Was a piece of meat and just, yeah, like, and just like the sharing of it all. And like, it was genuinely a funny bit to us. Like, that was a real way that we, like, lived. Like, we were like, haha, pool boy. Like, he'd be somewhere and he'd come up to like, both of us and.

[Brooke Schofield]

We'D be like, ah.

[Amari]

And like, we'd all hug and like, like, what do you fucking mean?

[Tana Mongeau]

Imagine doing that now.

[Brooke Schofield]

I can't. I can't imagine doing that then like, how crazy. We were just so drunk all the.

[Tana Mongeau]

Time and just diabolical even just when Canceled took its first break and we came back like that lunch dinner. I will never forget.

[Brooke Schofield]

Oh my God. I will never forget that lunch dinner either. Because we were supposed to. I. I swear we might have had 30 seats at this table, which in a normal world, you might say like 10. Brooke. 20. Tana. Okay. Tana invited 60 people. There's only 30 seats. It was a nightmare. People are literally sitting, lapped up, sitting on each other, sitting on the table. Like people can't fit in the room that it's in.

[Tana Mongeau]

And it's so. And it was at BOA Steakhouse, which obviously we had no respect for that environment. So I was like, crazy. Well, I'm trying to think if you ever did the amount.

[Brooke Schofield]

Oh, probably. There's very few places, restaurants that I haven't Done coke, honestly, in Los Angeles. And it's so crazy that one day I just did coke for the last time and I didn't know it.

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh, I knew it.

[Amari]

September 21st.

[Tana Mongeau]

Really?

[Amari]

Yeah.

[Brooke Schofield]

I mean, it probably was the last day I did it too, because I don't. I don't think I've ever really done it without you.

[Tana Mongeau]

It's the last time you did blow. The last time I did blow, the.

[Brooke Schofield]

First time I did it was with you, ever.

[Tana Mongeau]

That's so funny.

[Brooke Schofield]

Most people start in college. I am so good. Because most people don't start, by the way. Don't.

[Tana Mongeau]

Well, yeah, I mean, but also that, like, we lived in LA where everyone did it, and we were the only two people who were down to then come on the podcast the next morning with the coke hangover and tell the stories of all the things all the other people did on coke. Right. Like how I know we were really.

[Brooke Schofield]

Snitching on people, too. Like, we weren't, like, fully on drugs too. I. And that.

[Tana Mongeau]

That was taboo. It's never like we said, like, we did a bunch of blows.

[Brooke Schofield]

We've always only spoken about that and in the past tense because, I don't know, I had a moment. I think I've said this before, but when I just was like, oh, my God, people die from this. And I can't believe I haven't. Yeah. It's not like I was doing it that often. I've done it. I've only done Coke 10 to 15 times.

[Tana Mongeau]

Lindsay Lohan, referencing her. She's nice.

[Brooke Schofield]

But, you know, it kills people sometimes the first time. So it's like, let me not mess with this anymore.

[Tana Mongeau]

No. And we also, like, came into the. I don't want to go too deep into all of this.

[Brooke Schofield]

This.

[Tana Mongeau]

Because we have and stuff. Don't ever do it, ever. We came into this time in la, this party time, where it was so normalized and kind of came into it when the fentanyl thing really started to become prevalent. Like, there was a time where no one even, like, thought about that being a thing when you did a bump and it was just another party drug and like, whatever, you know? And now I know and I tell everyone, I. Even now I'll meet young influencers, tick tockers and stuff, who are just, like, moving here, and they're like, I was so cooked out last night. Now my mind, like, I see myself in them and I'm like, please don't do that.

[Brooke Schofield]

Wait. You know what's crazy, though? Jenzy doesn't drink well, because I think.

[Tana Mongeau]

That the conversation about alcohol being kind of poison or bad for you or anxiety is. This is the first generation where it's, like, normalized, which is cool.

[Brooke Schofield]

I know. That's really cool. I just think it's so crazy. I didn't even, like, really notice until recently. I'm like, damn, no one's drinking.

[Tana Mongeau]

I know. Which I like. I love, obviously, even that, like. But just coming into sobriety across a weekly podcast is nuts.

[Brooke Schofield]

So it was trial and error. It's kind of cool. Like, it's not cool, of course, but, like, no, it is. You know, we saw your first and second and third try.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yes. And the falling and getting back up. And, like, even looking back at that Turks and Caicos episode, I just. That's one of my biggest conversations. That's both. Mindy. Things are one of my biggest regrets. I will say with yours, I think that. I don't know. I'm not. That everything happens for a reason and that. Whatever. But I wonder, like, if we didn't have that big gate and then, like, miss each other so much and then, like, remember how much like. Like, even your response video, I remember thinking, like, God, no matter how angry I am at her, whatever it is, the bitch is good. You know what I mean? And, like, I wonder if Canceled would have ever, like, like, happened if it wasn't for that. So, like, there's a part of me that, like, sees that one a little more.

[Brooke Schofield]

I don't look back. Like, I. I don't want to say I look back fondly on that time, because I certainly don't. But I definitely don't, like, wish it didn't happen.

[Tana Mongeau]

I agree with that. Whereas Ashley's. I. I think I up so horribly, and I don't know if I've ever.

[Brooke Schofield]

Said that you haven't, and I know that we should.

[Tana Mongeau]

You guys have maybe an. Is irreparable a word irreparable. But isn't irreparable? Does that mean something else?

[Brooke Schofield]

Like, we've done irreparable damage.

[Tana Mongeau]

Okay, you're right. You and Ashley may have an irreparable dynamic. You know, like, you guys may never be friends.

[Amari]

I think she.

[Brooke Schofield]

Honestly, she might. She put it better than that. I think it's, like, it's not, like, irreparable because it's, like, not something that was, like, broken that needed to be repaired. We just, like, literally were never close. It's up in the air. Why she blocked me, but that doesn't matter. Also, I want to go on record and say that that photo that she used about of me in the Guess who Gave Me is hilarious. And I loved it.

[Tana Mongeau]

And I. And there were lots of other also hilarious photos. I'm.

[Brooke Schofield]

No, Like, I. I'm not even being funny. Like, I saw it and I was like, wait, that's hilarious. And I've done it. If a full transparency, if the roles are reversed, she would have had a bigger head than that.

[Tana Mongeau]

I love that. That everyone can kind of just laugh at that. And it wasn't that big of a deal. I will. Her and I are going to play it at some point. And, like, I want to show that, like, 90 other people have just silly photos that she used from their Instagrams. And it wasn't like, like, this insane direct attack. That's not my. That's not my beef, though. You know, that's not my to. Whatever. And. But anyways, whether you guys have an irreparable relationship or not, I think that I was drunk. I think that I left out a lot of details and a lot of details of that story that makes it so much different than it came across. And then it ended up doing a lot of damage to her career and character that I regret. You know what I mean? Because the same thing as the, like, the original Mindy video with you, like, we were able to kind of reconcile and, like, do damage control of that. And people's takeaway wasn't like, oh, Brooke is a horrible person for doing that to Tanner. Like, whatever, you know what I mean? And I don't know how to, like, put it into words other than, like, that was just, like, me really misusing the platform. Like, I was getting out feelings that I had, and that's what I did on Canceled every week. But I heavily regret putting that out there because I think that, like, I was drunk and there was so much more to say and, like, just that I love her so much. And just like you, like, we ended up making up and coming back together. Like, that's my sister. And she. She does love me so much and never had an ill intention or malice or just anything. Like, it was such a layered situation that needs so much more explanation than it was. And that's one of my biggest regrets across this podcast because I think she's a wonderful woman. And obviously in my dream world, you guys.

[Brooke Schofield]

I agree. Justice for Ashley, but you know what.

[Tana Mongeau]

I mean, Just in my dream world.

[Brooke Schofield]

No, I don't.

[Tana Mongeau]

I mean, but I also think it's okay if two people just aren't friends.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah. I think that's it's totally normal.

[Tana Mongeau]

I know that's. And I know that you probably have a million more things that you want to say to that. I just, I thought about it.

[Brooke Schofield]

No, I don't, I don't have anything negative to say about Ashley except for like unblock me. Seriously.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah. I think that situation is just so much more layered. But I wrote it down. I wrote down the Turks episode because I really. People were also commenting that and I, I do heavily, heavily regret that. But that that was also in the time even I don't think I really learned the lesson of the weight of the platform until Alyssa Violet.

[Brooke Schofield]

No, you know what? I.

[Tana Mongeau]

Even though I should have, I still.

[Brooke Schofield]

Learn lessons about it and it's like again, kind of like you just said you want to come on and you want to vent and like, even if you tell a story sometimes in like the most light hearted way, you don't understand that people are going to, you know, interpret it however they're going to interpret it and like, you know, run pretty far with it. I've just experienced it with Boatgate. Yeah. And like I shouldn't have told that story because like, as funny and light hearted as I thought it was, it didn't turn out to be that way. And you know. Yeah, I regret that. Like I there, there's been a lot of things like that where I'm like, did you really like, was it really worth the story? Yeah.

[Tana Mongeau]

And also like it's taught me a lot about it. Even specifically that Ashley thing. You can't do anything in the height of your emotion because like I look back at that now and it's like I was very emotional and I had a right to be be. But I also like when I filmed that I still hadn't talked it out with her and then she ended up telling me so many more things about that situation and that man. And like all of those things that like made it a completely different scenario, you know what I mean? And like I just. You. You know what I mean? I wish I knew all of that before I filmed that and did that damage because I would have said so many different things that are now like you, you can't just take these backsies. You know what I mean?

[Brooke Schofield]

No, it's like when you tell your mom to something bad about your friend and then she never forgives. I feel like that's kind of the audience. Audience.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah. I mean that, that was the lesson across canceled. That took me far too long to learn, you know what I mean? And still is a learning lesson. Because again there even just with me saying that I wanted to delete everything. There is an element too where we just sit down and we start talking to each other and you do like forget the weight of the things that you say.

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[Tana Mongeau]

I was going to talk about our NFT era, but that just kind of is the same thing as the Boa Steakhouse of it all. Just like I thought we were going to be rich, loaded, noted billionaires, they.

[Brooke Schofield]

Gifted us those NFTs. I'm like oh my God, we're sitting on a gold mine.

[Tana Mongeau]

And just like the how before you said it the other day. But in the whole first season that's always what we were doing. We'd get ready, we'd put on our mesh see through tops, we'd film canceled and then we would go do that like just like how different of people we were and we would do these black mirror ass NFT ceremonies ceremonies is so funny because it literally was like it was so black mirror everyone standing around clapping for like like someone whatever. Joe and Chris rough times.

[Brooke Schofield]

Joe. Joe was just a funny situation because like that was one of like many I mean one of probably 10 guys in my lifetime that I have like like become completely consumed by that is not my boyfriend is not that serious. Like I just. That's my personality so funny now to look back on it and be like, brooke, there's no way, like, you were losing sleep over this situation. Like, I was sick.

[Tana Mongeau]

But that's where your heart was at. Like, when you started that podcast. Like, how crazy is that?

[Brooke Schofield]

Oh, my God, it was, like, all consuming. I literally thought, like, the sky is falling, the world is ending. He kissed Carly.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah.

[Brooke Schofield]

You know, like, I can't believe this, which is.

[Tana Mongeau]

You know, it's funny that I've never talked about, and I still. I get anxiety talking about it. And I'm always in some garb, too, when I want to bring him up, and the ghost always acts up when I want to bring him up, so we'll see what happens when happens. And I'm saving a lot of this for the book. Okay. And I know everyone's eyes. So sick of hearing that, but when I started this podcast, I was so in love still with Jake Paul. And, like, I never thought I would get over him. And, like, that was always our conversations, like, off camera. Like, you and I've never talked about that, like, anywhere. And I mean, and it still. It gives me so much anxiety to talk about. And I don't know why, because I don't think I've ever, like, admitted it on camera, like, how madly. And I, like, literally, my heart's racing out of my chest, even, like, saying it right now because I just keep it, like, so close to me. And I want to, like, go into detail about that in the book, but it is weird. Like, I've never said that, but, like, you and I talked about it off camera every day for years. Like, I was so heartbroken and thought he was the love of my life. And, like, you know what I mean? Just, like, now thinking back that, like, that was where I was at that for years and years, and now where I am, like, that's just, like, so wild.

[Brooke Schofield]

It's so wild, but it's so refreshing because it shows you. Like, sometimes when you think something is the biggest, most, like, catastrophic thing in the world, it turns out to be just so minuscule in the grand scheme of your life.

[Tana Mongeau]

Well, I mean, I don't know. I. I don't know about minuscule in the grand scheme of my life because, like, there is a part of me that he was, like, my first real love. I've really never said anything I shouldn't say minuscule.

[Brooke Schofield]

I just. I just mean you. You get over it.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yes, exactly. Like, and just, like, everything is happening. And I'm also, like, I'm not speaking on him. It could be unrequited. It could be whatever it is to him. I don't know what he thinks of all of that, but I know that I was like, a mess over him for so long and, like, genuinely convinced that, like, that was like, right person, wrong time and all these things that, like, just ended up not being at all and, like, led me obviously, to Mokoa and, like, I now know that, like, where. Where my life is supposed to be up. But that's so funny because, like, just like, how wild that time was and even just like the Chris, all of that, you know, like, thinking that was going to be the be all, end all and like, being in and out of that whirlwind across canceled for so.

[Brooke Schofield]

Long. I knew that wasn't your end all, be all time.

[Tana Mongeau]

And, like, love him. He's. He is like a great friend and human being. Like, we were just like, we were never meant to. To walk down the aisle and get married. You know what I mean? In that whole. He's sober now.

[Brooke Schofield]

Could you imagine by the way you would be wearing the outfit that you're wearing right now if you marry Chris Miles?

[Tana Mongeau]

It's so true. Like, so true. And, like, that's so wild to think about. He's sober now.

[Brooke Schofield]

I know. I just saw that. Congratulations.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah. Which is like, we love you. So cool. And that relationship also taught me so much about addiction and the person I. I mean, Chris is the first person, I think who ever really got through to me and looked at me and said, you're an alcoholic. And like, I remember being like, no, the. I'm not, like, you know what I mean? But it stuck with me, like, and he really, like, drilled that into me. So I'm so thankful for him. I think he made me, like, realize I was an alcoholic, you know what I mean? Which is crazy. And everything happens for a reason. The old podcast studio and what went down and why we ended canceled the first time and why it stopped being at that studio and started being at my house in Laurel Canyon.

[Brooke Schofield]

There was a lawsuit. So how much can you say my.

[Amari]

Bad for doxing that guy on that boat.

[Brooke Schofield]

Should we talk about that?

[Tana Mongeau]

Yes. I mean, I wrote him down too. Like, there's. There's a list of your suitors that obviously, as your friend and being beside you through that, like, seeing all of the people before Miles that you were pursuing and God, it just like, I.

[Brooke Schofield]

Think obviously just being with Miles is such, like, I never would look back on those, like, the way that I do if I weren't with him. Because Miles could Not be more different than all of these guys. But the fact that, like, that was so recently, almost, like, literally makes me sick to my stomach because, like, what do you mean? I was, like, letting myself be treated that way. And it wasn't even, like, necessarily like, oh, he was treating me so bad, but I was, like, genuinely, like, voluntarily putting myself in a position to be just, like, so miserable.

[Tana Mongeau]

And being your friend through the roles.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah.

[Amari]

Was. Oh, my God.

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh, my God.

[Amari]

Was hard at times, obviously.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah. So we made a joke. I think we were talking one time about how Tana, like, checked find my friends. And. And I was, you know, on a.

[Tana Mongeau]

Boat in a marina.

[Brooke Schofield]

In a marina. But we used the screenshot with the exact coordinates of his BO and it was on the real episode of the canceled podcast. I never told him, and thank God he never found out. I mean, he'll probably know.

[Tana Mongeau]

And then we took it out in.

[Brooke Schofield]

Post, but everybody knew, like, what it was or people had already posted it. I don't know.

[Tana Mongeau]

He's.

[Brooke Schofield]

His boat is long since gone from there, but.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, but that's so crazy. We don't talk about that too. Like, the internal. Like, that's. Sometimes that is what we mean as well when we say, like, it's not like Brooke and I were just like, I hate you as a person. I hate you as a person fighting. It would just be, like, tense mo. Like, like, I'm put.

[Amari]

You told Aaron to kill himself.

[Brooke Schofield]

I didn't.

[Amari]

But that's okay.

[Tana Mongeau]

He left it in.

[Brooke Schofield]

And that.

[Tana Mongeau]

That's what it was. We were in a dramatic, volatile.

[Brooke Schofield]

Well, it was like I was in such, like, a distress, unsettling, like, place with him that I was like, oh, my God, could you imagine? I just doxxed the man.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah.

[Brooke Schofield]

Especially because he didn't. He didn't even like to be talked about on the podcast, which is hilarious for me to be doing it now. I haven't seen him in a year and a half.

[Tana Mongeau]

But now looking back, too, though, it's like, that deserved that. And ten times it was.

[Brooke Schofield]

You know, I look back, like, we're talking, by the way, about, what did we call him?

[Tana Mongeau]

Mr. Big.

[Brooke Schofield]

Mr. Big.

[Tana Mongeau]

Because he was. You were carrying.

[Brooke Schofield]

But yeah, I mean, it wasn't like him necessarily doing anything wrong. He was so honest that it was like, it really. I was just so embarrassing because it would really be like, yeah. And I went on a date with a girl yesterday, and I'd be like, thank you for respecting me enough to be honest. And it's like, respecting you, like, Please, Brooke.

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh, my God.

[Brooke Schofield]

It makes me sick.

[Amari]

Yeah, I. I agree.

[Tana Mongeau]

I. Like, I'm agreeing with everything that you're saying, but I also do think that.

[Brooke Schofield]

There was also some deception. Like, there was also some omission, like, where it wasn't like, he didn't.

[Tana Mongeau]

You didn't fully say, like, oh, we're.

[Brooke Schofield]

Dating, or, you know, we're exclusive. And he certainly never would say that, but, yeah.

[Tana Mongeau]

Or just like, I'm doing the exact same. I think he always made you feel like you were his, like, main hug.

[Brooke Schofield]

God, at the very least. Yeah.

[Tana Mongeau]

And then, like, you would come to find out he was kind of doing the same exact things he was doing with you with everyone else, and low.

[Brooke Schofield]

Key with, like, one girl looked like, literally exactly like me. It was like. It was dark. I remember there's a photo of me, like, one of the most, like, recognizable canceled photos. It's me holding up a picture of me crying, and I'm hysterically crying. And it was like we. Right before we had gone on stage. I forget what city we were in, but it was our last city on tour, and. And I got attacked, or I. Somebody sent me a girl's story, and it was like they were together and.

[Tana Mongeau]

He had just come to see her on tour.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah, he had just come to see us, like, was with us on tour, and then just literally flew directly home to, like, be with some other girl. And, like, I see her stories, and I can see that they're together. And I text him about it. He's like, yeah, totally. And I. And then I go on stage. And the whole time, like, I remember sitting on stage and just thinking to myself, like, thinking about. About it the whole time, just ruminating. And, like, literally, I wanted to throw up, but I just had to do the show.

[Tana Mongeau]

A lot of that, too. We don't talk about that enough. I think that's another one where I really bought, like, our. It brought our bond so close together because that would happen a lot, right? We did damn near 200 shows where something would happen in our personal lives that would be, like, up. And one of us would be, like, sobbing right before we had to go out on stage. And then we'd have to go out there and, like, I don't want to cry.

[Brooke Schofield]

Don't do it.

[Tana Mongeau]

But, like, carry each other on the other one's back, you know? And, like. And you're out there on the road and you're living together on this bus, and, like, you have each other, you know? And, like, that.

[Brooke Schofield]

It's just such A vulnerable experience that, like, will likely never experience again. And I think it's cool that we got to do it together because a lot of people don't. A lot of people go through and do the exact same thing, but they don't. They have teams and stuff with them, but it's. No one's going to ever understand exactly what it's like. And to be a duo. Same. Yeah.

[Tana Mongeau]

You know what I mean? And just like, what are you going to wear today? And like, I got really emotional, like, even just thinking about that.

[Brooke Schofield]

Like, not that we ever got on the same vibe with that at all.

[Tana Mongeau]

Except for Green Shorts day, which goes down in history.

[Brooke Schofield]

We talk about green shorts ever.

[Tana Mongeau]

I. We had to. Yes. There's no way.

[Brooke Schofield]

It embarrasses me so bad. But, like, I'm not getting. Just recently I saw a comment of somebody, like, I think they were complaining about, like, I got this at the show and, like, we didn't get anything. And like, blah, blah, blah. And somebody commented like, well, yeah, well, I saw them in this city and they just fucking came out dressed. Dressed like track stars and barely get all.

[Amari]

My God. We.

[Tana Mongeau]

They said, like, they looked like they.

[Brooke Schofield]

Were going to a track meet.

[Tana Mongeau]

No. 100. There was this day where Brooke and.

[Brooke Schofield]

I WORE Patrick's Day.

[Tana Mongeau]

St. Patrick's Day. We wore these little green running shorts and, like, I had camel toe. Like, no one's ever had camel toe in a pair of track shorts ever. And eats us alive to this day. Like, so many just footy outfits which did, like, bring us closer because we were bonding over that. You know what I mean?

[Brooke Schofield]

But, like, mind you, we didn't buy them together. We both individually walked into a store, saw those shorts, and we were like, perfect show outfit.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yes, yes. And then wore them. And then, like, we changed before the show. I remember we saw the meet and greet photos and we were like, what the fuck? I'm not walking on.

[Brooke Schofield]

And I can never untake those photos. And there are people who paid money and have to live with those photos.

[Tana Mongeau]

And, like, we didn't stop there either. I think four shows later, we did two sets of shows in Bucky's onesies.

[Brooke Schofield]

No regrets. I don't regret that one at all.

[Amari]

I looked.

[Tana Mongeau]

I mean, I've never looked funny. Good for you. I looked like Bucky. Like, I.

[Brooke Schofield]

Well, yeah, goals.

[Amari]

Like, I just.

[Tana Mongeau]

I can't believe the things that I would willingly put on and walk. And I remember Paige was so funny that day because we were fighting over a lip line liner. The lip liner.

[Brooke Schofield]

My Lip liner.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yes. That Brooke did introduce me to. I don't remember.

[Brooke Schofield]

I don't mean, like, oh, my color. I mean, it was mine. Oh, and you swore it was yours. But I knew it was mine. It was mine.

[Tana Mongeau]

And then that's the thing, too. So many things were just sisterly. And then the way that we both fight sisterly is very different. And then it would be like, you two are in a real fight over a lip liner, and you're in Bucky's onesies, you imbeciles. And, like, I just imagine being all the outside people, and it's like, oh, they're doing that thing again.

[Amari]

Where they actually pissed over something as.

[Tana Mongeau]

Trivial as a lip liner. And Paige would just be trying to get us to fight harder because, like, what else do you do? It's so funny.

[Brooke Schofield]

Paige is such an instigator. Like, death to Paige.

[Tana Mongeau]

No, that too. Like, we haven't even talked about that. But just the page of it all and the way people were to her and, like, that was so crazy.

[Brooke Schofield]

I know. But justice for Paige.

[Tana Mongeau]

I was gonna start talking about all of the other. Because I wrote this down. Like, Hannah, Thomas, Ellie, Emma, Allison, Br. Like, the Richard. The amount of normal, unassuming people who had to get on these buses with us and try to make this, like, shit show a business and a show. And all of the tour managers and the things that they saw.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah. The staff at the House of Blue, Cleveland.

[Tana Mongeau]

We've talked about it a lot. George Gate. But I am 100% convinced that George Gate would have never happened the way that it did if. If Thomas was our tour manager, Bri was our tour manager. Anyone else?

[Brooke Schofield]

Like, so many moving parts that had to be, you know, figured out.

[Tana Mongeau]

But, like. And just so many people who came in and, like, either added to the drama or took away from it or, like, you know what I mean? Like. And eventually, by the end of it, we had everything completely figured out, and we had everything.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah. There were a lot of things wrong with. Like, Lila was on tour with us at that time. Like, Olivia Kaiser was there. Like, why? You know, it was just so. We were so random.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yes. So because we weren't.

[Brooke Schofield]

It was very unserious at the time. It was like, oh, my God, are we. Like, what are we doing?

[Tana Mongeau]

It wasn't until we got on the bus that I started really being like, wow, this is a business, and this is a profitable business, and this is beautiful. And this can turn into something huge, and you have to take it seriously as such. Those beginning shows just Felt like. And we were. We were still in our Boa steakhouse, like, drunk era. It almost felt like we were just bringing that city to city, which did make for insane shows because we were hammered. It was like, Toad's Place.

[Brooke Schofield]

Come on.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yes. And exposing everyone on stage and bringing whoever on stage and figuring out what the shows were gonna be and you know what I mean, like, of that, like, I. Again, I wouldn't change everything. I mean, would I have done coke with venue owners? Probably not, but, you know, no, that.

[Brooke Schofield]

Was a fun show.

[Tana Mongeau]

That was right after I'd fallen out of this.

[Brooke Schofield]

So hyped.

[Tana Mongeau]

I had just fallen out of the Sprinter from being too drunk the night before. That's the thing, too. It's so crazy to me that we would, like, take Sprinter vans because we didn't have the budget like, that. We didn't know if we could sell tickets like that. And, like, from, you know, city to city.

[Brooke Schofield]

But it's overnight, so it's like, we're supposed to sleep. But why are there six additional people? Then? We're supposed to be in the Sprinter van, and they're all Tanner's people.

[Tana Mongeau]

And the party. Yeah, it was just about the party for me because I. Well, even now, I couldn't sleep on a Sprinter.

[Brooke Schofield]

Well, that was like, the start of our, you know, like. Like, just the animosity because I'm like, I want to sleep and, like, I can't. I'm not gonna be the one fucking boner that's like, shut the fuck up.

[Tana Mongeau]

No, but. And you were real for that. And then I remember we came home, and on that, I called Brittany today, and I'll never forget it. I came in because that was after I fell out of the Sprinter. I was arguably so injured that someone shouldn't do the sh.

[Brooke Schofield]

Show.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like, I'd, like, broken my wrist and, like, was covered in, like, a bloody injury, but I'm in peak alcoholism. I'm waking up, I'm chugging Casamigos. Go to the venue. I know the owner has coke. So we do it, and we go out on stage and we give them a show. And it was a show. It was. You know what I mean? And we come back, and I remember, I. My managers brought me into the office.

[Brooke Schofield]

Office.

[Tana Mongeau]

And it's, like, serious. Like, I'm in the office in Beverly Hills, and I'm sitting there, and they are all like, this can never happen again. If you want this, this can never happen again. And then that was when we started taking touring seriously. We had meanings about parameters of what could happen and what could not happen.

[Brooke Schofield]

And my protections.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yes, 100%.

[Amari]

A lot.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like, and just crazy. And it's. It's crazy too, even just thinking about how far those protections, like, sometimes went. Like, just in the peak of times that. And this was way later down the line. You know what I mean? But when we were like, I think this was post tweets and, like, just really, like, we were really fighting, and there was conversations of you and I of continuing canceled, but you and I have having a mediator to speak in between us. Like, if I had something to say, I would tell the mediator, and then the mediator would tell you, and if you had something to say, you would tell the mediator and they would tell me.

[Brooke Schofield]

What are you talking about? I've never heard that before in my life. Was that your idea?

[Tana Mongeau]

No, like, it was, but it just, like, it was only thing.

[Brooke Schofield]

For the episodes or for just for everything.

[Tana Mongeau]

Because every time we would have a conversation about business, we would. It would be a blowout or like.

[Brooke Schofield]

A big summer blowout. Yeah, I get that.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like in.

[Brooke Schofield]

In just conversations life. I thought you meant, like, on the episodes. I'm like, that wouldn't have been anything.

[Amari]

No.

[Tana Mongeau]

Imagine they're just in the room. No, like, if we. If we had to plan a shoot or anything, like.

[Brooke Schofield]

No. And that. That time period, too, was very obvious, I think, to the public also. I think, like, that was one of the times where I'm like, everyone was pretty much right about, like, what was going on. Dark. But it. But it was before that. Almost like we had already been, like, really struggling. And that was just like, you know, the straw that broke the camel's back. But.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, and like, we. We want. We were going to tour with two separate tour buses, like the city girls.

[Brooke Schofield]

That was.

[Tana Mongeau]

That was.

[Brooke Schofield]

That was six weeks ago.

[Tana Mongeau]

That would still be nice for. No, but that would still be nice for, like, luxury reasons. But, like, it was for morale reasons. And, like, that's.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah, like, we were genuinely, like, willing to be out hundreds of thousands of dollars just for fear of, like.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah. And, like, I was so genuinely convinced that you hated my guts.

[Amari]

You know what I mean? And, like, maybe you did.

[Brooke Schofield]

Who.

[Amari]

Who knows?

[Brooke Schofield]

Well, I think it was one of those things where it was like, which one of us hates the other? It's like, I thought you hated me, so I hated you, and you thought I hated you, so you hated me.

[Tana Mongeau]

And looking back, too, now I can just, like, Brooke was going through a lot and, like, hadn't figured out how to like, you know what I mean? Navigate that. And like, and now I can. Like, I have so much. Like, I just want to go back to that time and just like hug that brook and be like, oh my God, it's going to be okay. Okay. But now, I don't know. It's just like, it's so cool to me. Now I have a stupid ass veil on my head and life is cool.

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[Tana Mongeau]

We don't have anything else to say about gates. Or do we?

[Brooke Schofield]

I think they've seen enough gates. Like, at what point is like, okay.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, I just like toilet gate, Skunk gate. They don't even know about skunk gate.

[Brooke Schofield]

They don't know about skunk gate. I'm still mad about myself Gate. But yeah, that's beside the point. It's funny because, like, I'm having one of those photos blown up, like, and because I truly do love it.

[Tana Mongeau]

What photo?

[Brooke Schofield]

One of us on the side of the road. But, like, I know the lore behind it and it's like, no, I did myself and threw up in my lap that day.

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh, that day. Oh, my God. And we fought because then that was after tart trip gate. Like, our tart trip gate had happened right after that. That was like, oh, it was tart trip gate. Like, I got invited and you thought I didn't tell you and you were like, so.

[Brooke Schofield]

Or was it, was it Taylor Swiftgate?

[Tana Mongeau]

What's Taylor Swiftgate? No, no. Oh, because Taylor Swiftgate was on Managers, I think. Yeah.

[Brooke Schofield]

But I thought it was a whole thing.

[Tana Mongeau]

That was the hardest time for me. That was like we just could not like holy. But that photo shoot is so funny because it is just like you and I outside of a trailer eating hot dogs, like giving a usa like we're touring the USA photo. This is us, we're hitchhiking and it was like the worst day ever.

[Brooke Schofield]

Well, I shit myself and threw up in my lap. And Tana says, you have to be.

[Tana Mongeau]

There, you have to be there, you.

[Brooke Schofield]

Have to be there. I get there and then she's an hour and a half late and we have four minutes of sunlight. So imagine me sitting there that whole time. No bathroom, no means of, of relieving myself anywhere. And then just for her to show.

[Amari]

Up, I sorry I had to stop and get a vape.

[Brooke Schofield]

And it was a whole thing. She kept having to do outfit changes.

[Tana Mongeau]

But there's, there's more to this there like and then I could go in.

[Amari]

On my side and maybe we'll fully agree on that. And I think the point is that it's over and it's beautiful.

[Brooke Schofield]

I was going to say there was a new gate after that when I only received four images from the shoot.

[Amari]

There is a whole part of that too. Like why were those fucking photos $20,000.

[Tana Mongeau]

But I think that we just. We digress on that one.

[Brooke Schofield]

Let it rest.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, let it. It's dead. It's good. We're good. I have like so many more. Like the Sex Bed Club with Mike Maylock night, Dolby Projector night.

[Brooke Schofield]

Cuz that was another one of my like not so shining moments. I think I texted in our work group chat and said like somebody's going to die today.

[Tana Mongeau]

But honestly looking back on that, you were kind of valid. We did that. I don't know if people like because the people who attended the show know this, but arguably one of our most. I think you were completely valid in saying that. Like now looking back, I didn't want you to get caught up. I think was my thing. I was like, don't say that in case you get in trouble. But you were valid on telling people that. Anyways, we had two sold out shows at the Dolby Theater in Los Angeles and it was the end of the US tour and you and I, we're in a good place at this point too and but we're so excited for These shows, it's this most, the most massive crowd ever. It's in la, so we're constantly talking about it in la. We're inviting everyone in la. We knew that Trisha Paytas was coming out for night two, the final night and we're so excited and we knew the people were going to be so excited and we were so grateful. Grateful and just mind blown that we did two nights there, but grateful too because that meant that night one we could kind of make sure it was the perfect show with the Dolby so that by the time Trisha came for night two, it was flawless and it was this flawless execution. And we get to the Dolby theater, bells on to finally do our LA show. And there's also an element to the LA show where maybe you invite a few people who doubted you.

[Brooke Schofield]

I invited every single person I know to that first LA show.

[Tana Mongeau]

Literally, literally.

[Brooke Schofield]

Friends, family. Friends of family. Like family of friends.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like yes, every person we know. And 20 minutes before show the projector, the entire show. I have goosebumps even thinking about it right now. The entire show we're playing this game where the wheel spins and then whatever it lands on, we tell a story in relation to that topic. Okay. And telling the craziest stories, mind you. But the show was so heavily reliant on the things on the screen behind us and the Dolby. I don't know if it was our people's fault or the Dolby's fault. I don't remember. Technical difficulty of the century. Black stage go out in 20. Girls, here's your mic. Figure it the out.

[Brooke Schofield]

So 100% visual show turned into her.

[Tana Mongeau]

And I just having, having to do stand up and just talk through it and like almost joke about how the thing. Because everyone knew at that point that we would do the show with the screen behind us. So we're having to joke about it not working but still try to carry the best show ever. But it's like no matter how good you do, it's not your show that you've been doing for 40 shows and you're so upset and like, yeah, you.

[Brooke Schofield]

Know, again it's everybody you care about was like, oh my God, everyone we.

[Tana Mongeau]

Know they're gonna see all of our agents like hoping we get another tour. There, there. Everyone we know is like watching this black show and like we do, we did our best. Like again, I'm so proud of us. Like, and how many moments like that happened, like technical difficulties that were out of our control and you and I would still go out there and give it our all and like kill it.

[Brooke Schofield]

But like yeah, it was rough and.

[Tana Mongeau]

Thank God night too. They got it working and we had Trisha Paytas come out and we had the best show of our fucking lives. Like it was the greatest. Like but those night one people like I, it's like I know still to.

[Brooke Schofield]

This day I'm like one day they.

[Tana Mongeau]

Got a very different show because then we almost had to carry for no projector by exposing more things. And you know, it's. I, I don't think it was necessarily a bad show. It was just the way that we felt that was so crazy. Like oh my God, what else is there? The stage rushing girl.

[Brooke Schofield]

Oh my God, that was crazy. But honestly, like is there anything left to be said about that girl? Poor thing.

[Tana Mongeau]

Thing, No. I mean yeah, it's, it's nothing about her specifically but I think that changed everything too. That was one of those moments that changed everything. Like the girl rushes on stage, I run off. Brooke freezes. You all know that that was a very classic psychological display of freeze versus flight and just whatever. We get off stage, we find out that she was not in her right mind mind and it was not like just a crazed drunk fan trying to get a tick tock moment or more light hearted things like someone, oh, someone dared her to do that or like whatever that it was actually someone who was maybe trying to do something that was not good. And I already have a lot of fears with that and stalkers and people doing weird stuff to us and lots of other weird things that had happened to us across tour that people did and following us and following our bus and following cars and I'm very paranoid. Paranoid. And then finding out that her intentions, that she wasn't in the right mind and her intentions were dark and that that was. She rushed the stage and whatever. And then I don't know if we've ever talked about this. I think we have. But we get off stage immediately. I'm in the car, it's just you and me in the car and we're on our way to the hotel and we're sitting there, I'm having a full blown panic attack about it and Brooke's kind of being broke. She's trying to talk me down off of it and she's much lighter about it. I'm freaking leaking the out in this car and all of a sudden across the windshield the biggest loudest just thud. And I look up and it's a body, it's a body of a girl who threw herself at the Windshield of our car, trying to, like, have a moment, think.

[Brooke Schofield]

Not like, oh, like, he. She got touched by the car.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like she flew over the windshield, like, as if we hit her going 100 miles per hour, but she charged at it. And I just remember, like, I remember instantly. And they're like, like screaming, like, being so scared. And then that was the moment that we upped our security to fucking Fort Knox level. And then every other show that we did since Ray and Lincoln. Hello.

[Brooke Schofield]

It was Ryan Lincoln. And then Ray and Craig.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yes. Sat behind us like, you'll see the mo like, on stage. And just like, how funny that dynamic was. Like, we never talked about that because then we'd leave stage every night and it's like they were on stage the whole time too. You know what I mean? So we're all, all fist bumping and like they're hearing these up stories from our lives. And like, I know every time I'm.

[Brooke Schofield]

Like, Craig, like, especially like, I don't know, like, they have, like, kids and they're probably so ashamed of us.

[Tana Mongeau]

No, they love. They really do love us so much. But I know that both of those men had only ever really toured with big musicians. Ray worked so heavily with, like, Ashanti and.

[Brooke Schofield]

No, I'm with. I'm with Craig. I'm like vintage shopping with Craig. And he goes, I was on that tour and I look and it's Britney Spears tour in 2000.

[Tana Mongeau]

I go, Greg, like, that's all they'd ever done. And now they're on stage and I'm. We're telling up sex stories and up just like insane. The things we could never share on the podcast, truly, you know what I mean? And that was just like such a funny dynamic. And I'm so grateful God brought me Ray. He, like, just still is my bodyguard and protecting me. I'm going through a lot right now, by the way. I don't think I'm gonna podcast about it, but he's back and he's back and LAPD doesn't give a. But I'm stay at my house. Yes, I can. And don't make sure that you do all the. Well, then again, look at me. I took every precaution in the world to not have not be found by this one person. And none of it worked.

[Brooke Schofield]

So.

[Tana Mongeau]

But yeah, like, Ray's helping me through that. And so everything does happen for a reason. I don't know what I do do without him. I had buc EE's nights and drunk girls leaving the shows. Like, I wanted to just touch on our buc ee's memories. Like, that was so fun. That was, like, the most fun you and I ever had.

[Brooke Schofield]

Touring on a bus was just the most fun that we've ever had. It was as. As much as I loved and appreciated Europe and Australia, it was, like, definitely special and, like, nothing I'd ever done before. It was such a different dynamic because there's no, like, camaraderie. Like, there is.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yes. It's like living separately, kind of like when you're hotel and flying. Like, Whereas, like, you. You live together. Like, we live together.

[Brooke Schofield]

Like, on the European and Australia tour, we would go sometimes, like, five days without seeing each other.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like, off days, and just, like, all the things.

[Brooke Schofield]

Which is totally fine because you wanted to spend time at home, and I completely respect that.

[Tana Mongeau]

And just resting. You know what I mean? Like, I just. I. I needed rest across that. I was definitely, like, tired, you know? Yeah. The bus was crazy. Like, we genuinely lived together for months at a time with all of these other people, like, and Toilet Gate and Bucky's nights and all of those things. Things came from that. And, like, even just thinking about Bucky's nights and, like, all those, like, cute things that we would do and, like, have so much fun.

[Brooke Schofield]

And it was so much fun. But then at the same time, I'm like, damn, I wasted so many of those nights going through somebody's following and trying to figure out where they all were. Like, Brooke, I'm so happy. Honestly, I'm just. More than anything in the world, I'm so grateful that I will never feel those feelings ever again.

[Tana Mongeau]

You're engaged.

[Brooke Schofield]

I know.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like, that's engaged.

[Brooke Schofield]

You know what's crazy? I was just telling someone this yesterday, but on July 6th of 2024, or wait, I don't know. Yeah, 2024, I posted my Clinton Kane, like, who? The did I marry? Series. And then on July 7th of 2025, I got engaged, like, literally exactly a year later. And also, like, you know, I'm buying a house a year after that. Like, it's so interesting how much can change in a year. Like, that was such a huge moment where I, like, literally thought it was, like, the biggest deal in the world. And only 365 days later, I am marrying someone that I hadn't even met.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yet, who treats you so amazingly, by the way.

[Brooke Schofield]

Like, I could.

[Tana Mongeau]

Who worships the ground you walk on.

[Brooke Schofield]

Just never imagine, like, ever even knowing somebody like him. Like, I just had no idea we were buying a house together, and we're getting married, and I'm like, what the hell was I doing?

[Tana Mongeau]

I don't know if you want to talk about it at all, but. So you can cut this but. And just how much you two had to go through together in this time of, like, being engaged in, like, so many things about him being untrue and, like, you writing for him. And, like, I. I wonder, and I hope that at some point, because I know the, like, truth and the backstory of that whole situation. I've seen it all with my own. Nice.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah.

[Tana Mongeau]

Which is why even when I get comments, you know, oh, my God, you're an apologist and you're this and you're that. I would never, ever, ever allow you or stand by you if I thought you were marrying a person like that or an evil.

[Brooke Schofield]

I also just never would. You know what I mean? Like, and it's hard to say that, because especially when people already feel, like, some type of way about me.

[Tana Mongeau]

Well.

[Brooke Schofield]

And people possible to be like, no, but, like, that's not my character, because everyone, like, is like, well, your character sucks.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah.

[Brooke Schofield]

Like, I just truly, in a million years, I would never, ever. Like, especially because I. I think what's kind of hard is because, like, I've had all these, like, absolutely horrible, like, horror stories with the guys that I've dated to where it makes me, like, makes people question my judgment a little more than you would another person.

[Tana Mongeau]

But what I think is the hardest is, again, I've seen all of these things, so that's why I'm speaking on it, is that there you can't speak for someone else or air out receipts that you have or air out. You know what I mean? And you're stronger than I. I think that in the sense that, like, yeah, you. I don't know. It's. It's a touchy, hard thing to talk about, but it's like, you. You know the factual truth, you've heard it out of the mouth of the people.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah.

[Tana Mongeau]

In that all of the people. Every single person, every.

[Brooke Schofield]

Every person involved, every person who was a spectator, every person, you know, around at the time. Like, I think the entire time, I just had this mindset of, like, like, the truth prevails. You know what I mean? Like, eventually, I just, like, assumed it would either people would have enough, like, discernment to be able to be like, okay, well, obviously this isn't true, but obviously that never happened. And I also. I don't know. I don't know what I thought was gonna happen, but I definitely didn't think that.

[Tana Mongeau]

But Me knowing everything that I know and getting to witness your dynamic and knowing who he is as a person. And also in the beginning, like, when things first started coming out, like, I very much did my own digging and, like, did my own, like, me too.

[Brooke Schofield]

Hello? Like, you know, as much as I can love somebody and be, you know, infatuated by somebody, you don't have been wrong before.

[Tana Mongeau]

Hello?

[Brooke Schofield]

You guys saw my series. I've been so unbelievably, like, wrong about who somebody was. So I like, oh, my God. I did not take that lightly. Are you kidding? I literally, I knocked every wall down.

[Tana Mongeau]

You know, and like, even if she was calling me, being like, I'm knocking every wall down and that wasn't good enough for me, I still had to go, like, fucking find out on my own, you know, I mean, to make sure that the person who is my friend that I love is not marrying this person. And then eventually, yeah, like, I found out everything. And it's so crazy, like, because you guys are obviously being very private in your relationship, but I get to see it. And he is an amazing person, person who loves you so much and takes care of you so well and is the perfect match for you and all of your intricacies and your craziness. He is like, just like, almost like the way Mokoa is to me, you know, just so patient and loving and wanting for, like, our growth and chill and just like all of. All of the magical things that I would have dreamt for your partner when you were crying in that studio about Joe, you know, and me too. I hope people get to see that and that the truth does really fully come out to light because it's a beautiful thing. And I can say that because I know every single detail and every single truth. And I, you know, me too.

[Brooke Schofield]

I don't know it. Like, it's been obviously fucking horrible and it literally made me so sick for so long, but I now can kind of look at it and be like, wait, what a positive it's been for me to have, like, a relationship that I. I was the only person involved in. You know what I mean? Like, I got to. I shouldn't say got to. I didn't want to. I don't want to keep my relationship a secret or not talk about things or not post things. I don't want to do that. But just to protect my own peace, I've had to do that. And it was. It ended up being like such a positive.

[Tana Mongeau]

And I think that even just in the end, it taught you a Very big lesson about privacy is power and about phone down, you know, and about like over consumption of opinions wrong or right about you, you know, and responding to them. And like, yeah.

[Brooke Schofield]

And just like it. I learned a valuable lesson about like if once people have made their mind up about somebody, something, there's nothing that can come out, nothing that you can say that'll ever make people feel differently. So it's like I have to surrender. Like. Yes.

[Tana Mongeau]

And that's. But that, that's what peace is. That was me across so many of my things. Like, I know there are people to this day that still hates me for a plethora of reasons. Right or wrong, things I did that were wrong or things that maybe I see differently. And you know what I mean, like yada yada. Like, but yeah, finding. Eventually finding peace and acceptance in that and knowing that I'm growing and I'm doing the inner work and like I've become a person that I'm proud of. Like, that's, that's all that matters. And I, I'm very happy to get to see you there and actively working on that because like there was so much time where I wanted to substance style, go in your back and go in your brain and like operate through things for you.

[Brooke Schofield]

I wish I didn't want to be in there. Yeah, I was. Oh my God. Even like, I mean, so recently as like the Australian tour, like I literally was gonna admit myself somewhere. I was like, I was so unwell, like specifically because I mean, obviously I just posted that I was engaged and it was not. Not good. But yeah, I feel better.

[Tana Mongeau]

But I feel like that ended up teaching you a lesson that like, you know the truth and you know your life and like, you know, you know that not everyone needs to see everything and like, oh, and just like it.

[Brooke Schofield]

Sucks because like something I, you know, I wanted so badly and looked forward to my whole life, I allowed to be ruined by people like by, by just like an imaginary. Yeah.

[Tana Mongeau]

Who. Who don't know the truth.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah. You know, I mean, and it's all.

[Tana Mongeau]

It'S almost like too you can like mentally give grace to those commenters because it's like if we just saw a TikTok about someone else or whatever that might form our opinion, you know what mean I.

[Brooke Schofield]

That truthfully, like that does help me. I have to think about like what I would think about somebody if I thought all of those things to be true. Like if it. If the same, you know, another influencer were in the same situation. And I like, I saw this this and this. And I was like, oh, my God, obviously that must have happened. I would 100% feel differently about that person. I just would. Naturally. It just sucks because it's like, you know, it's. It's hard to be, like, when you.

[Tana Mongeau]

See people say things about you, you know what's true and you know what isn't. And now learning that privacy is power, this also gives. Like, at some point, you could write a beautiful book about, like, going through these times of your life and, like, what was true and what wasn't. Or, like, have an entire portion of your podcast be about navigating mental health and. Or navigating mental health in the public eye. Or, like, you know what I. Like, there's. You have so much power, like, because of these things. You know what I mean? Like, and things can be so powerful because of that, which I think is very cool.

[Brooke Schofield]

You know, I'm not all the way out of the woods yet. I'm sure I'll have some sort of. I have, like, an episode a month, but sometimes.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, but that's. You're honest, and that's, like, beautiful as well. And you're trying, you know, Like, I think some people wake up and, you know what I mean, are like, I am this way, and I don't want to ever change or ever grow or anything. And you are not that person, and you want to grow and want to. So that's. That's fabulous. That's all we can do. That's sickening.

[Brooke Schofield]

I'm in therapy, and I just bought a new workbook for the highly sensitive person.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah. And like, that's, like, just. That's sick, though. Like, dead ass. Like, that's sickening. I had a whole thing about just how much of a I was. Like, again, it was.

[Brooke Schofield]

It was the vibe with the Coachella 2016.

[Tana Mongeau]

He left me at the Red Rock.

[Brooke Schofield]

And that. He did.

[Tana Mongeau]

And how upset I was over that relationship.

[Brooke Schofield]

That was such a funny relationship because, like, what the hel.

[Tana Mongeau]

I know. And I like that I was going to marry him. Like, genuinely, like, how funny is that?

[Brooke Schofield]

You just really cracked me up. Like, you just randomly. I swear, you met him and you started dating, like, the next day.

[Tana Mongeau]

I know. It's because there was a lot of lore there. You know, he was. He grew up in Vegas and was childhood best friends with one of my best friends. So it, like. You know what I mean? It, like, worked. And, like, just so, so funny that one was. And such a genuine crash out Christmas. You can bleep this, but. Oh, like, that happened on the canceled podcast and I was walking the dog and we just told this story in full on stage, actually, because I was talking about people, like, people I dated and the victims of my actions and all of that and just all of the things, but that one was crazy between Chris and I. And then I was publicly dating Lil Xan and like, all of that happened over across cancelled Pool Boy, Mod Sun, Sahara Ray and Avril Lavine.

[Brooke Schofield]

Sorry, Mod Sun, I told you I would never talk about you on the cancel podcast again.

[Tana Mongeau]

I owe Mod sun an apology as well. I really do. I. It's funny, I posted a tik tok the other day, the one where I was addressing like, deleting canceled and like, I. Like I posted just saying that, like, I no longer want to delete it. Obviously I struggle with digital footprint sometimes. And Mod commented on it and he.

[Amari]

Goes, there's a episodes of the canceled podcast I'd love to have deleted.

[Tana Mongeau]

And I was like, you are so real for that. Like, and even just if I ever see comments now because obviously, like, I. Same with the. I think that was the same episode as Ashley.

[Brooke Schofield]

God, that was quite the episode. It's our most viewed episode.

[Tana Mongeau]

Which. Oh, it makes me sick now because even Mod, I think I left out so many things. I. I was equally as awful. And like, he was actually such a great loving partner and person and you know what I mean? Just like, so he is such an amazing human being and I hate that I ever contributed to people thinking anything other than that. Like, you know what I mean, as anything that he did wrong, I did something just as wrong. And like, so many of the things that he did were also results of things that I did. And like, Mod sun loved me so much and was such a genuine person. And I loved him so much.

[Brooke Schofield]

And I loved him so much.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, like, he deserves the. One of the biggest apologies probably of just all of the people that I've said things about. I never want to contribute to anything. But good words towards that really good person who was just normal and like, had flaws like me. And like, you were also just a stupid drunk whore, Dana. And like, bringing Avril Lavigne into it. All of that, like, just shut the up. That is the episode that. That is the climax of just to make podcast equipment more expensive.

[Brooke Schofield]

Who else do we need to apologize to? Who else have we really beefed with on this podcast? Junie B. Jones.

[Tana Mongeau]

Juni B. Jones. Oh, yeah. I think.

[Brooke Schofield]

Do you.

[Tana Mongeau]

I think that Devin has a lot of games that will us. Okay. You Guys, we have ran through some notes and ran through some memories and ran through some feelings and we're gonna take a beat on that. And we have prepared a lot of segments that just encapsulate what the canceled podcast was and I think it will jog our memory on some different things that we don't even remember. We're really just out here apologizing for the big ones and talking about the big ones. I did want to talk about life during Clinton Kane though. Like not the actual episode in the series, but what our life was like during that. Remind me to do that. So this first game is Sorry, not Sorry Cancelled Edition where Brooke and I will be discussing if we are sorry or not sorry. Alyssa, Violet, Feud.

[Brooke Schofield]

I'm not sorry.

[Tana Mongeau]

I'm not sorry in the slightest. I hated life after it. It's. I wanted to talk about this too like at one point our podcast and I've never thought about this at all any more than when we talked about it and we posted an Instagram story about it. And again this goes back to what I was saying earlier about just kind of being like not able to understand the weight of achievements and accomplishments or just certain analytics or whatever it is until it's over. Our podcast podcast was number two in the world. The only podcast that was bigger than us at the time was Joe Rogan. Like I remember opening the charts and literally just seeing Joe Rogan and canceled with Tana Mongeau and Brooke Schofield.

[Brooke Schofield]

What was that about?

[Tana Mongeau]

And that is so crazy now being out of it to look back on Holy. And that was during this time.

[Brooke Schofield]

It was. It was right off the. The heels of the Matt Rife. It was Matt Rife, Alyssa Violet, Clinton Kane and Zach Sang all got it in like in like a 11 day period.

[Tana Mongeau]

And I see why people were tuning in. I mean I definitely understand. It is wild now especially to just think about all of the beautiful things we could have done with having the number two podcast in the world.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah. But instead I wanted to play Whack a Mole. Yeah, it was. I don't know what I was on with Alyssa.

[Tana Mongeau]

I stand on everything I said and I think she that her making that tick tock laughing in that drive thru and all of that and you know shaming me for of and all of those things were diabolical.

[Brooke Schofield]

I think I might feel sorry about it.

[Tana Mongeau]

Do think that I had so many, many experiences and hurdle battle. Everything I said was true. Everything I said was true about her demeanor and whatnot. But it did in the end teach me a lot about the weight of the platform, and I don't condone the amount of, like, hate she got, but she also made that TikTok, and, you know, you're standing in the kitchen, and that's the heat, so it's hard. It did teach me, though, a lot about the weight of the platform. I will say that.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah, I think maybe I would have done it slightly differently, but I will say I. I don't think. I think she liked it, and I think she's still feeding off of it. She's still engaging.

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh, yeah.

[Brooke Schofield]

Like, to this day.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah. Oh, yeah.

[Brooke Schofield]

And, like, maybe it's like, okay, well, yeah, we were awful, so, like.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, no, she thinks it's funny to be mean. Yeah. No, but I think she does.

[Brooke Schofield]

I think she likes the attention where she would have let it die.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah.

[Brooke Schofield]

And then I would have said, alyssa, Violet, I am sorry. Sorry.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, I'm. I'm not actually.

[Brooke Schofield]

Alyssa, you want to come on the podcast? You asked me yesterday. No, I guess. I'm sorry, Alyssa.

[Tana Mongeau]

I'm not.

[Brooke Schofield]

I will say, well, maybe if we're not sorry, I'm gonna say something nice about her. She might be the most beautiful person I've ever seen.

[Tana Mongeau]

So gorgeous.

[Brooke Schofield]

And that sucks. Only. And I have. I have to live with that.

[Tana Mongeau]

Only on the outside, she is gorgeous. And she was funny. Like, the fact that she filmed that apology video, and then it was. It was.

[Brooke Schofield]

And I.

[Tana Mongeau]

Exactly.

[Brooke Schofield]

I didn't even clock it.

[Tana Mongeau]

That was funny to the tone of your Mindy video. Like, it was that. That's really funny that she did that. And. Yeah, you're. But you were right. She, like, liked all of it, and it's fine. And it is what it is. And if I went back in time, I probably would do that one very similarly, because I was very disheartened by her sentiments.

[Brooke Schofield]

Was it. What was I mad at her about? I don't even know.

[Tana Mongeau]

I think you were just writing for me.

[Brooke Schofield]

Oh, then, yeah.

[Tana Mongeau]

And like, a testing to the. The mean girl of it all. You know what I mean?

[Brooke Schofield]

The.

[Tana Mongeau]

The. Yeah. Tana barking at a waitress.

[Brooke Schofield]

I'm sorry. I wasn't even there.

[Tana Mongeau]

Is this calf on the table?

[Brooke Schofield]

It's probably calf on the table time. Yeah, I think it was.

[Tana Mongeau]

Foot on the table was not put on the table.

[Brooke Schofield]

Should your legs ever be on a table in a restaurant?

[Tana Mongeau]

You know what, Brooke? That restaurant in LAX is one of the. The grimier restaurants in that place, and people sleep on the floor, and kids are smearing things and whatever. And I have scoliosis and my back hurt and I was having a God awful day and it was just the near end of my knee and I'm going to point in the visual, this part of my leg no further was on the edge of that table and I think that that woman might have been having a bad day and took it out on me. And I'll never understand instilling fine dining level rules and etiquette in a place where like somebody is like asleep on the floor yelling like Kanye lyrics.

[Brooke Schofield]

I think you should respect her boundaries because what if you were to go to a house that's not that nice but that person who owns that house wants you to take your shoes off? Would you say, well, this is a shitty house?

[Tana Mongeau]

No, I would never do that. But I think those are different situations because this is LA where anything goes. Anything goes. And I wasn't even at a nice restaurant in lax. And again it was like my knee, arguably it was like my upper half and I don't know what it was. I like, I don't. I think she was having a bad day and it like, you know what I mean? Barking's a little crazy. But I will say that I do think that this scenario could happen again today. Like I was sober and like I said, like again, this part of my leg, I don't know how the corner of my shin is bothering you while some lint liquors wiping their snot on the table over there. Like you do not have to be so mean.

[Brooke Schofield]

Maybe she yelled at them too.

[Tana Mongeau]

She didn't. And I, oh my God, I hope this isn't just me not apologizing the whole time. Like I'm sorry to that.

[Brooke Schofield]

That waitress.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, I.

[Brooke Schofield]

Only because I'm like the number one to be like get your leg off the people and.

[Tana Mongeau]

But I just can't stress to you enough. It wasn't like my leg across the table.

[Brooke Schofield]

I just had, I just had a moment. Honestly. I just, I just snapped at you at the airport when we were on our way home and then I felt bad about it the whole way home. What? But it's cuz you just sat down right in front of the check in, check in desk, like front of where.

[Tana Mongeau]

They were weighing the luggage. I sit on the floor. But you're right, this is an Ellers Donlos or like scolios thing where I'm like in pain. So I like alleviate my pain by sitting on the floor and, and like no one like, and especially you, you're. You're clean. You look very clean. You're dressed very clean. Like, and then like I can see.

[Brooke Schofield]

Myself as a mother being get up.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah. Like, and your friend Tana sitting on the floor and like I might be a floor sitter wherever we are, wherever we go. And that does. I can understand how that can ruffle some feathers. So I guess I'm sorry there's time and place. You know I was about to apologize, like about to be like, I'm really sorry that you feel that way.

[Amari]

Like.

[Tana Mongeau]

No, but that's not what I mean. I mean I wish I was like posture on 10. Sitting classier in an airport will help you with that. Yeah. And honestly, like, I hope to not be a floor sitter for the rest of my life and I, I wish that woman was nicer and therefore I would have been nicer. LAX is a mad house.

[Brooke Schofield]

Next.

[Tana Mongeau]

Tessa Brooks feud.

[Brooke Schofield]

I. I personally feel uninvolved in. In this.

[Tana Mongeau]

Me too. But then, then we could probably go back and we said words that would make us involved. I don't remember what I'll say.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yes, I'm sorry to this because I definitely don't think she did anything wrong enough to warrant like the amount of hate that she got for it. It was like her interaction with Paige. But to this day I really think like there could have been a misunderstanding not to discredit Paige in any way, shape or form because I love Paige. What was said she said she like didn't know Paige.

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh that's what I was do gonna to say. Didn't she call Paige? I believe Paige. I'm always going to ride for Paige. No one should ever treat Paige that way. Paige is so, so nice and kind and I know her heart. She's never. Paige will never be like rude to anyone or anything like that.

[Amari]

Yeah, I guess I did your.

[Tana Mongeau]

This is one of those. This is one of those where I do think that the weight of the podcast made a person receive way too much unnecessary hate hate. And for that I apologize. I think we could have maybe made it lighter. But that's also what canceled was at the time. And I will say that I've also like spent a decent amount of not a crazy amount of time, very la influencer type of interactions, but around Tessa Brooks. And also people have bad days and bad interactions and that doesn't mean that they deserve thousands of people sending them awful messages messages. And like she is a sweet girl and even now I just see her like making her content and like just being like I just saw a video of her like trying on her outfits at home and like, hanging up cute shoe racks. And I would never want her to think that, Like, I wish the worst for her. I think she deserved all of those comments or anything like that.

[Brooke Schofield]

No, I don't. I don't at all. I never want to send a hate train on anyone. And also, I think maybe because of what I know about her was why I was like, that has to be a misunderstanding.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like, maybe it was, like, sillier than intended the way it came across and stuff like that. I. Yeah, like, remember the time I.

[Brooke Schofield]

Texted in our work group chat and said somebody's gonna die today? Yeah, I thought it was funny, silly. But they could have said I threatened them.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yes, I. Yeah, like, I 100% agree that it could have been one of those. Or maybe she thought she was being funny, silly. Paige left with her feelings hurt and just weight of the podcast. Wait, I am like, so, yes, I am sorry. Weight of the podcast. I'm sorry. I. She did not deserve hate.

[Brooke Schofield]

Hate. But also, Paige is not just in case.

[Tana Mongeau]

In case Zach sang take down.

[Brooke Schofield]

I hate to say it, but I am sorry.

[Tana Mongeau]

Why?

[Brooke Schofield]

Because I think he kind of got.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like, the brunt of, like, shrapnel in the Clinton situation. Is that what you're trying to say?

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah, I think, like, I had. I had a lot of pent up energy that should have been targeted at Clinton and Clinton alone. Of course. Like, you know, there were things that I was not really happy with him doing. And I don't really, like, think that he's necessarily somebody who I would not want in my life today, but the amount of hate that he got, I don't think it was warranted. And for that reason, I do apologize. And I think that he's a very, very talented interviewer. I think he's very smart. I think. I think he's not a bad person. I think he just wanted a good story and he got one.

[Tana Mongeau]

You know what? It's. It's canceled. And it's gonna be canceled until the very end. So I'm gonna say what's on my heart and like, what I. What I truly. I'm gonna say my truth. Right at that time, I knew some things about him, and then later on, I found out more things about him and nothing to do with you. More to do. And we can bleep this, but more to do with like and shit. Maybe he did not deserve what you said to him for those reasons. Maybe he did not deserve the hate for those reasons. Like, do you know what I mean? Like, maybe you were angry and you said those things and it could have been said differently or done differently but if I were to play God and look at the karma of the things after finding out other things that he has done in Hollywood and just with people, the dating world and just different things that he has done karmatically, he did deserve that, but maybe for other reasons. And that's my takeaway.

[Brooke Schofield]

That's fair, I guess. Yeah. I'm proud of myself for sticking up for myself though because I feel like I definitely stuck up for myself.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah. This one is interesting in murky waters and I don't have a sorry or not sorry cuz it wasn't really me. I was kind of just there. But like do I think that he's a phenomenal person?

[Brooke Schofield]

No. But it's also it's not a takedown. He's still slaying. So whatever, let him do his thing.

[Tana Mongeau]

But if some of the things, some of the whispers I've heard about things that he's doing, if those are true, then we'll see. Leah KB Coachella Dress Gate Another one.

[Brooke Schofield]

Where I don't feel involved personally but I do say sorry same.

[Tana Mongeau]

And you know it's funny I'm. I was making my tart PR list yesterday and Leah Kateb was one of tart's suggestions and I really don't know where her and I stand. Like I don't know if she hates me or. And if she does I honestly I kind of think it's valid.

[Brooke Schofield]

Like yeah, I think so too. I just. Oh God, it sucks like because.

[Tana Mongeau]

But yeah, I love her. Like I'm such a big fan of her.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah. As just as a fan. Like I love her and I love loves like how who she is and what she does for animals.

[Tana Mongeau]

Same. And like her, her fashion sense is so insane too. Which is so funny that like that that's what this like is about.

[Brooke Schofield]

I think it's pretty lighthearted to say someone has a shitty dress.

[Tana Mongeau]

You know what? I will say this, this one, it's not sorry versus sorry. It's the tale is oldest time that reviewing fashion is always going to get you in way more trouble than you think in the moment that like you know what I mean? And I again it was. She, she was, it was more between her and Paige. But I know she unfollowed me too so I know she felt some type of way about it being aired on the podcast and I do think it's valid to review fashion and I wish it was light hearted the amount of times I have seen people or even like Like a Chris Clemens or someone say, like, oh, my God, Tana looks like in that. And that's so horrible. Why the would she wear that? She has no brain. She looks awful. She looks disgusting, all of the things. And then I don't hate those people. Like, I think Chris Clemens is so funny. And like, he was right about all of those takes. Like, even if he. Even if I don't think he was. And I still think it was the best outfit ever. I. But I also have been doing this for a very long time and I have very thick skin. Very thick skin. Some. Another person could be like, damn, why is this? Why are these girls talking about me and talking about my outfits? And she also has such amazing fashion sense that I think I can also empathize with the fact that she's like, you don't even. I was wearing this to a fucking revolve party and I'm a well dressed bitch. Where the hell do you guys get off? Yes, yes, exactly. And like, I. And at the AMAs I ran into Janae and I saw her and she.

[Brooke Schofield]

Looked justice for Janae.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yes. And she looked beautiful. And we were just having a gaggy, fun moment because we'd never met and.

[Brooke Schofield]

It was like, hi.

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh my God. And we're hugging and we're complimenting each other, whatever. And then Leah FaceTimes her and I pop in and I was like, please don't hate me. And she was like, I don't hate you. So I think that, I think that we're good. And she also. I understand her just wanting to, like, disassociate with Ken canceled. Like, she was the last episode before the tweets. And I can imagine her too being like, I'm coming on and just like doing a light hearted thing after Love Island. And now everyone is saying, like, the canceled podcast Let it Burn and I'm the last episode. Like, yeah, as reference.

[Brooke Schofield]

I understand that. And then I also flippantly, like, I think we were on a live one time. Like, right after she'd unfollowed me, which she had unfollowed me. Obviously, I. After the tweets, very valid reason to unfollow me. And I said, like, she blocked me. I was like, yeah, she blocked me. Like, I flippantly said that. And she hadn't blocked me, she had unfollowed me. But I think I would hate me as her after that. I mean, if she had already before.

[Tana Mongeau]

So I wish, I wish there was.

[Amari]

A category of like, like, it's not.

[Tana Mongeau]

Sorry you're not sorry. Like, I'm looking at Leah Kitub's name.

[Amari]

And I love Leah Katab.

[Brooke Schofield]

And my literal reaction is like, yeah, no, I still. I. I shamelessly follow her. I love everything that she does. And now I just pretend that never happened. Some people. Some people things like, actually hurt me to think about, so I have to pretend they never happened. Like, I have quite a few examples of those.

[Tana Mongeau]

And we love you, Leah Kateb. And you looked fabulous in that yellow dress. And you were going to a revolve party before Coachella.

[Amari]

And that is the perfect thing to wear to that.

[Brooke Schofield]

Not sorry.

[Tana Mongeau]

I wish we went harder. I wanted to make a documentary exposing Clinton Kane.

[Brooke Schofield]

I am most certainly not sorry.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, I. Because I think that that was one of those things too, where it's wild to me that the justice system has no parameters or laws or rules about compulsively lying to the point that it ruins other people's lives.

[Brooke Schofield]

Well, deception on that level, I think actually should be punishable by law because it is like, it's weirdly like, I mean, just the way that I felt after that. Like, that I was, you know, dating, living with, sleeping with, like, somebody who was imaginary like that. It's very, like. I can't explain the feeling. I'm not sorry. I. I won't. I'd be lying if I said I don't feel bad about it sometimes. Like, of course, like, any life level.

[Tana Mongeau]

Of any person with a heart, like, you know what I mean? Like, you dated this person and they ended up being totally not the person that you thought they were, but you still were with a. A person who he really is.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah. And, you know, you have to assume that somebody who is able to do that and. And feels like they have to do that is another level of mentally unwell. Which makes me feel bad because you don't, like. I mean, I don't want anyone to be.

[Tana Mongeau]

Be that mentally ill. Yeah.

[Brooke Schofield]

At all. And I. I just think I look at it more as, like, a me standing up for myself and like, me getting to tell a story that was like, very, very traumatic for me. And for that reason, I don't regret it. And like, I hope he's doing well, whatever. Don't. Yeah, I don't.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah. And it, like, it happened. And like, you. You probably helped a lot of girls also, like, stand on business in certain things in certain ways.

[Brooke Schofield]

I mean, he's still, to this day, he'll be like, she's a lie. She's a lot.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah. Which is crazy because you are not I know every detail, and I did. It's funny now looking back, I was really about to invest, like, a hundred thousand dollars in making an entire documentary about it because that's how passionate I was. Because I watched it all unfold from the moment that you met him.

[Brooke Schofield]

There's also so much that I, like, didn't say I, but I would. I like. I think being with Miles has helped me realize, like, how unserious that relationship was. Whereas, like, in the moment, I felt like it was the most serious thing in the entire world. And I think. Think, like, that was like, the disconnect. He's like, I barely know her. And I'm like, that was the love of my life. Yeah, well.

[Tana Mongeau]

And just getting cheated on so rampantly. I think there's also a part of me that feels horrible for his fans and horrible for people who actually lost the lives of their parents. That resonated so much. I. I hate anyone who does like, that is like sham lying to profit off of broken people.

[Brooke Schofield]

Now he has a new angle. You know, all his music is about how, you know, the neglect led him.

[Tana Mongeau]

To that point and of mentally killing off someone who's alive.

[Brooke Schofield]

He has a line in his new song where he says, like, I told the whole world where they could find your grave. And, like, talking about how he, like, lied about it because they were so bad. And, like, you know what? More power too. Yeah. Go off.

[Tana Mongeau]

I don't know. I don't know. Especially just with knowing Alex Warren and seeing someone with that real story and how much he does help people and move and like, you know what I mean? It's like, you can't pick that story. I also want to talk about scrapped episodes at some point. Justice for Alex Warren. Hi Bachelder, Harry Daniels. The lla and Stassy scrapped episode. And we got high with all of our friends. Those are our scrapped mainly.

[Brooke Schofield]

Like, when did we get high with.

[Tana Mongeau]

All of our friends on tour in that?

[Brooke Schofield]

Don't remember.

[Tana Mongeau]

We went to, like, they went to. It was in Nashville. Aaron flew out.

[Brooke Schofield]

Oh, I've never heard of that. But it's because every time I get high, I get, like, so absent that, like, I wasn't there.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, that's. And. And it was just everyone else, like, yelling. And then, like, Ari got super angry and uncomfortable on camera and it was like, super.

[Brooke Schofield]

Oh, also Gate.

[Tana Mongeau]

Labu Gate was scrapped. That and thank God. It's funny because Labubu Gate actually ended up turning into Labu Gate is still rampant. Yeah, like. Like, yeah. God damn. If we Ever. Like, I. There's a part of me that wants to keep that and one day show it to the people. I have never, like, I've never been so scared for my life on a podcast. Podcast.

[Brooke Schofield]

Just. I've never on a podcast, gotten actually so angry to where I, like, in the middle of the episode, I was like, we need. We have to stop because I'm getting so mad.

[Amari]

Yeah.

[Brooke Schofield]

And I don't even really get mad like that. Like, I guess I get mad, but.

[Tana Mongeau]

And it.

[Brooke Schofield]

It was just like, I just.

[Tana Mongeau]

It just. Oh, my God. The scrapped episodes. Major apology to Harry, Halle and Alex. Like, Hal.

[Brooke Schofield]

Those all should have just come out. Yes.

[Tana Mongeau]

Harry was. He's so sweet and young. Tick tock generation. And it was like a lot of adhd. No tangents, like, got finished. And it would have taken us, like, weeks to, like, edit it together to make sense. And then, like, a lot of people got exposed and I didn't know if, like, he'd end up actually being okay with that. And I think he was also just, like, really excited. And he had a friend there who was really excited, and they were just, like, talking over each other and it was like, crazy laziness. And after Meghan Trainor, I never wanted to put someone else in a situation again where, like, the adh. Because sometimes that's what it is. You sit down with people and it's so ADHD lore and it's like, fun in real life, but then people can't consume it.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah. It makes people angry.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah. And I didn't want to do that. Halle was so, like, funny and amazing. She came on and she, like, had so much lore about Noah Centineo and, like, just random, like, funny things and whatever. But then we collectively decided that this podcast was coming to an end and that the final episodes needed to be just like, us talking. And that was why that one got scrapped. We love you. Hi, though. You're amazing. Alex Warren. I just.

[Brooke Schofield]

That.

[Tana Mongeau]

I have no idea.

[Brooke Schofield]

You just let that slip through the cracks. Look at him. So much more successful than us. And we just scrapped his episode like.

[Tana Mongeau]

He was worth nothing and he's worth everything. And he came on and he shared the most beautiful sentiments about his. His hard life and story. And it was one of those cases where then we filmed something else that was current. And we kept letting the currents never, like. You know what I mean? Like, we didn't find a space to fit it in. We kept wanting to put out current events. Cuz was happening. Justice for Alex Warren and I love you so Much MATT R. Cheating scandal.

[Brooke Schofield]

I'm going to go sorry on this one. I am. I know I am. Because this was kind of another. I think again, my current relationship has made me feel so differently about a lot of things that I used to think were serious that were not serious because to me it felt like such a big deal. And I really liked him so much that like I was really hurt when it ended. And then like to find all that out, I was very like. I was actually really sad. As much as I wanted to make it like this like you thing, I was really upset. But also another case of just like, girl, he doesn't like you. And that's fine.

[Tana Mongeau]

I could not disagree with you more, Brooke.

[Brooke Schofield]

Amber.

[Tana Mongeau]

I could not disagree with you more.

[Amari]

Which common theme for us, you know.

[Tana Mongeau]

But because I think that someone who is doing that to women, like, you know, he was saying to other women at that time, I'm gonna go be with my grandma. And then the grandma was another woman, you know, and. And having seven partners at once and telling them all the exact same. And sending them the exact same photos and the exact same things and saying, you know, like he was. He was love bombing the. Out of you saying I want to be together forever. And I don't know his exact verbiage, but it was on some. I want to marry you.

[Brooke Schofield]

I had fun though.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yes. But who you are as a person, to do that to you and seven other people.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah.

[Tana Mongeau]

Is not okay. And you should be stopped. And I think think that to do that makes you a narcissist, maybe a liar. I'm not going to. I cannot diagnose him as a sociopath, but I think that some of that behavior was very sociopathic. The only way to hurt someone who possesses some of those traits is by doing what you did. And I think he hurt you and seven other women. And, and he should not have been allowed to go around and parade around like he is the good guy. And let us not forget God left the tag on.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah.

[Tana Mongeau]

I think you cannot hook up with women while then making vile jokes like that.

[Brooke Schofield]

You. Yeah, but then, but then I laugh at other things that are like. Like really fucked up jokes. You know what I mean? I laugh at other people. Like if Shane Gillis were to make that joke, it'd be like haha, I guess.

[Tana Mongeau]

But also like feelings matter. You know what I mean?

[Brooke Schofield]

I'm not. Again, I kind of did this on the last episode too. I'm not like trying to be an apologist. I think I just, I think that.

[Tana Mongeau]

You Are embarrassed of what you did.

[Brooke Schofield]

I'm embarrassed. I'm embarrassed. And I also like the wor if the worst thing that he did was just like, you know, kind of be deceptive. Like, he was be deceptive. Yeah, he was sneaking around and stuff. But I think I've been so, like, people have done so much more wrong to me than that. I'm like, let him live.

[Tana Mongeau]

You know, I think that can be two different things. You can be like, oh, my God, I was crazy. And I. I never want to be like a quote unquote crazy ass bitch again. Right? Or like, I don't align with being that way now, but I think he deserves that and more. And I think that, like, have you never.

[Brooke Schofield]

Okay, nevermind. Well, now I am being a Matt Rife apologist. I don't know why I've, like, had this, like, major change of heart about it recently. I think just because I'm like.

[Tana Mongeau]

I think the embarrassment is clouding it.

[Brooke Schofield]

But I. I think, God, yeah, I guess I just. He's one of the only people that I look back on and I'm like, okay, well, he was. He to me, was like, always really great. Wait, what am I.

[Tana Mongeau]

What the hell am I talking about? No. Liar. Liar, liar. Lie to your face. Lie to your face and think about how much more has come out here. I don't even know women. Like, I. It's your guilt complex. X embarrassment clouding the fact that two things can be true.

[Brooke Schofield]

I think I started putting all these guys. Guys, like, in a line, okay? And then it was. I was like, I put Clinton KANE and then Mr. Big, I put them up here. So then it, like, it knocked Matt rife down a couple notches and, like, it kept happening to the point where I was like, okay, you know what? What he did wasn't so bad.

[Tana Mongeau]

I can understand that. You can be like, oh, my God, he played me. And in the grand scheme of things, guys do that all the time. And he played me and whatever. It's not that deep, but my opinion, horrible person, deserved it.

[Brooke Schofield]

All right? Yeah. I guess that's the takeaway, is that I just feel like it wasn't that deep. And, like, maybe I didn't have to go on such a rampage, but it was the part at the time. And you know what? It was how I felt at the time. I was really hurt by it. I was upset, rightfully so. And I was like, even then, I felt like I was kind of like I was defending him really hard on the podcast at that time because he was Going through a lot like with his cancellation and stuff. So, like, whatever. We've talked too much about him. Let's go. Guys shouldn't get away with talking to a bunch of girls at once. But I also don't think, like, maybe I should. Okay. It doesn't matter. Bringing TV on tour. Sorry. Next.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, I'm not allowed to speak on.

[Amari]

Well, it's also.

[Tana Mongeau]

It's on some Team Bryce shit. It's not my beef. You know what I mean?

[Brooke Schofield]

It's not my beef either. I don't even know what it's about.

[Tana Mongeau]

I saw someone the other day, fucking make a tick tock. And they're like, all of Tana's friends are so this, that and the other. And it's like I'm making fudgeing blueberry muffins at home with Ashley, Amari and Isabella, who, like I have been with since birth, you know, who, like, like, just. I don't know. Like, it's so funny. I get dragged so into these things that genuinely do not. Like, I'm no part of this and.

[Brooke Schofield]

I'm no part of that either.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah. And you also, I'm very proud of you because I know your brain and I think that you're taking the high road by not taking this to social media. Media.

[Brooke Schofield]

Well, here we are anyway.

[Tana Mongeau]

George Gate. I'm sorry.

[Brooke Schofield]

I'm sorry. Oh, but.

[Amari]

But me.

[Tana Mongeau]

I think we.

[Brooke Schofield]

We've exhausted George Gate.

[Tana Mongeau]

I almost.

[Brooke Schofield]

I kind of feel bad for the viewers if we talk about George Kate any further.

[Tana Mongeau]

I kind of agree with you. And I think just ending take. We came to a conclusion on both of our faults in that scenario. Some grander than other others. And how we could have been better in that scenario. And I would not change it. It only made us stronger. And now it's like just a forever funny. I'll never hear the word jorts without laughing.

[Brooke Schofield]

That's hilarious.

[Tana Mongeau]

And that's. I'm George McGee and her phone, it's engraved on a Cartier bracelet that I will never take off. Sleeping with pool boy.

[Brooke Schofield]

Are we sorry. I'm not sorry.

[Tana Mongeau]

I'm not sorry.

[Brooke Schofield]

Hawkeye.

[Tana Mongeau]

Hayes Greer. Next.

[Brooke Schofield]

And we love you, Hayes Greer.

[Tana Mongeau]

And I will just say he also has.

[Brooke Schofield]

I don't knows. It's haze. We've posed like we. Everyone knows.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, that's. That's very true. He was. We, like, I don't. We don't talk to Hayes a lot now. And he's in like a very different era of life and I'm sure he doesn't like Want any of this, but, like, he was nothing across it. And we beat it home, too. Like, the pool boy mentions on the podcast, we beat them home. And he was nothing but a good support. He attended the second canceled launch. He was there that night.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah, Came to the launch, sweetheart. He didn't deserve to be a character.

[Tana Mongeau]

But, like, was also just down and funny and sweet about it. And, like, I think he made a TikTok, like, cleaning the pool. Just like, good sport, you know, like. And yeah, like, it was a vibe at the time.

[Brooke Schofield]

Wine tour. I'm so deeply sorry. And I wasn't even there.

[Tana Mongeau]

I am also sorry. It was the worst day of my life, but I. I am so sorry for omitting details about that person. I should have never done that. Sorry.

[Brooke Schofield]

You should have omitted details, but instead.

[Tana Mongeau]

You are not omitting. That's not the word I meant. I am so sorry for sharing details about that person and the scenario and, And I. It's so funny.

[Brooke Schofield]

It's so funny. I'm pretty sure you gave her coordinates.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like, it's. I handled that. I could have told that exact story from that exact day in a different way, and it would be something that to this day I'd be proud of, and it would have been funny. And I had the storytelling skills to do that. And I chose to be a stupid, drunk, petty, and. Oh, my God. On tour, J Rod and I were editing together the montage that was going to play. Have you ever seen scene Brooke? I remember right after this happened, Babel, who is a. Oh, they made a. They made a statement, a public statement denouncing me. And they, They're a language app. That's what they do. They teach people other languages and about other cultures. And that was the ad that was in this podcast where I'm ranting so poorly about what happened to me in France or what happened in France. I shouldn't just say happened to me. Hold on one. It's going to take me a second to find Brooke, but it is so worth the time.

[Brooke Schofield]

Oh, man. Hate to be publicly denounced by a brand. Rest in peace, Chili's Rest in peace. I'm like, damn, can we post the pictures? We looked amazing.

[Tana Mongeau]

Watch this and I'll, I'll send this right now. But this.

[Brooke Schofield]

Do you. Are you, like, talking about it and then you go like, babble Liza. Honestly, I loved it. Like, I, I kind of want dead. No offense.

[Tana Mongeau]

No, I, I literally, I, I, I absolutely want her dead. At the hands of me.

[Brooke Schofield]

Well, okay, so was that your only negative experience at Least, yeah, that's good.

[Tana Mongeau]

Other than the fact that I can't walk. But that. That was a positive before.

[Brooke Schofield]

I don't know if we call that negative.

[Tana Mongeau]

That was a positive before. It was a negative. Estas distrutando demi podcast thanks to Babel. I know what that means. Do you? Recently, I've been learning to see me.

[Brooke Schofield]

Oh, God.

[Amari]

You'Re lying. That. That is a real excerpt of the podcast. And then I remember they denounced me, and I was. I could. I was aghast. I could not believe that they did not want to work with us any further. You lost ass.

[Tana Mongeau]

You are so stupid, Tana Marie Mojo. And I'm so happy that you are no longer this person. And, oh, my good. Well, same.

[Brooke Schofield]

I'm the one saying, I wish she died. I don't even know this woman.

[Tana Mongeau]

And just, again, I could have told that story. And it was like, there are certain things that she said and did that were, you know, so wild. And it was like, a horrible experience. Horrible day for me. I had a horrible, horrible day. I was saying, like, to Paige recently that, like, obviously under all. All, like, serious, actual worst days of my life, like deaths and funerals and whatnot. And like, actual horrible days of my life. Like, if I had a list of just anecdotal, like, stupid, shitty, worst days of my life, that would be the worst day of my life.

[Amari]

Like, I.

[Tana Mongeau]

And I don't give a. I was. I was so unhappy and miserable. But I. I cannot believe I was that stupid and inconsiderate. You know, this is like the height of that stupidity. But there are so many moments across canceled where I should have told things in such a different way. And for that, I'm definitely sorry. Even that. That goes for most of these, you know, just, like, there are certain anecdotal things that should have been said with so much more wisdom and grace and empathy and kindness and class and if only, if only.

[Brooke Schofield]

You know, my worst day of my life? The day I. My pants. Brooke peed in the middle of Coachella. Was I in trouble for that?

[Tana Mongeau]

You peed in the middle of Coachella?

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah, I did. I did.

[Tana Mongeau]

I feel like you do that now.

[Brooke Schofield]

With Madeline rgb and we peed in the middle of Coachella.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, I feel like you do that now.

[Brooke Schofield]

It was last year.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah. So not sorry.

[Brooke Schofield]

I'm not sorry I had to pee. I didn't pee, like, anywhere where, like, someone would step or something. I was in a corner. I am not sorry. I would do it a thousand times over. Feeding Marianne and not Myself, why would I need to eat if Marianne can.

[Tana Mongeau]

Eat, that is Marianne is now also. People asked a lot for Marianne updates. And she is good. She is fed. We kept making the joke on tour that she's driving a Maserati. And we don't know that, but we know that she is good and that she's still.

[Brooke Schofield]

We're still supporting Marianne.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yes. And I love that. And thank God for those White Fox halls because they keep Marianne fed. And that is one of the greatest moments of the canceled podcast. And every time I see that clip, I do not skip it. I don't know why I had a fuck ass Bob like that. Fuck ass Bob like that. It's not about having a Bob Lob.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yes.

[Tana Mongeau]

It's not about having a Bob. That was just a ass.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah. And make make sure you clarify. It's never about the haircut. It's about the execution.

[Tana Mongeau]

I don't know if that was about your micro bang. I'm saying I love micro bangs.

[Brooke Schofield]

I apologize deeply. Is micro bangs on here? I am sorry to the woman with the micro bangs, but in that photo, they were pointing in every which direction. She quickly proved me wrong by posting a photo with her with her microbang styled, in which she looked absolutely gorgeous. Okay. As all people with microbangs do.

[Tana Mongeau]

I think you guys should come together. Like, if you ever, like, run into something, like, you should do a funny video or you put in bangs.

[Brooke Schofield]

It was a weak moment. She made a couple of videos in a row about, like, obviously the mild situation, which we know is not true, but she doesn't know is not true. And it frustrated me because it was feeding this whole thing that was just like. It was this huge, horrible thing that just like, I don't know, was affecting my life a lot. And so I'm sorry I took it out on your bangs. And it was never about your bangs. Yeah, but in that video, they looked awful.

[Amari]

I'm totally kidding.

[Brooke Schofield]

No, I'm totally kidding. I'm kidding.

[Tana Mongeau]

And I think a lesson that, like, had you maybe left a comment defending the situation versus I did.

[Brooke Schofield]

It was at the end.

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh, I, I, I said maybe leave that out.

[Brooke Schofield]

No, I said this, this, and this. I hate that you use my mental illness. I said all this. And then the last line was, and you can't talk to me with bangs like that. And I could have left it out, but it was what I felt in the moment. And you know what? You have to just sometimes go with.

[Tana Mongeau]

Your, this is, this is me and Lax. You wish my leg wasn't on that table. And I wish you left that comment out. And that's okay. Yeah. I have always struggled with. Because like I said, like someone commented on my video saying like, you. You have up teeth or something. And then I went and I green screened that person's teeth and I took it down and I ended up working it out and like all of those things. But it is. I'll never know the correct answer because there is the platform of it all. You know what I mean? Like. Like doing that on our platform is, you know, but if someone can say something.

[Brooke Schofield]

Well, her video had like 12 million views.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah. Like that. That's what I'm saying.

[Brooke Schofield]

It was a horrible, hateful video about me. Gorgeous girl, great haircut. Once styled.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah. And I think that you hit the nail on the head by saying that, like, you know, that things aren't true. You know, and so that's where your frustration.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah. It's just. Was a bigger issue than her. It was like all these videos being made with such conviction. Like grown adults who can make a video saying something as absolute truth when we know it's not true.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah.

[Brooke Schofield]

How frustrating that is to be on the other side of it and just like see video after video after video. I still see it today. I still get thousands of comments about it a day.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah.

[Brooke Schofield]

That are like, you are doing this. You're supporting a man who does this when it is actually just factually not true. So I was. I was really caught up in it. She's a beautiful girl. Her haircut is also gorgeous and beautiful.

[Tana Mongeau]

And that's. That Bloodgate on her crush. Was this on Alexander?

[Brooke Schofield]

Oh, yeah, it was.

[Tana Mongeau]

This is. This is funny.

[Brooke Schofield]

That's not even the most embarrassing thing that's happened to me with this guy. I'm gonna just be honest.

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh yeah. And you told this the. The full story on stage. Do we talk about that at all in this episode? By the way? Like, like stories that we told on stage that like what was.

[Brooke Schofield]

I don't even know what it was. I just can assume that that wasn't the worst because K Pop.

[Tana Mongeau]

Jacket.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah. No regrets. I would bleed on him again. Well, I. I won't and I wouldn't. But.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like, I wouldn't.

[Brooke Schofield]

I should say I wouldn't take it back.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yes. And we love him.

[Brooke Schofield]

He has a funny line. Cut this. But he has a song that says, and now my sheets are covered in red. Red. I'm like me stuff.

[Tana Mongeau]

You should leave. Please leave that in. I'm hell begging. It's the last episode. You have to leave that in.

[Amari]

That's so funny.

[Brooke Schofield]

Well, I forget what the actual line is, but it's like something along those lines. That is so funny. My sheets are painted red or something. I'm like, yeah, like that was me swearing at the.

[Tana Mongeau]

The streamies. It is the streamies. Yes.

[Brooke Schofield]

So funny.

[Tana Mongeau]

Not sorry at all.

[Brooke Schofield]

I just reposted it.

[Tana Mongeau]

So funny. I literally, like, I do feel bad for the girl who was standing next to me.

[Brooke Schofield]

I never saw her reaction until the other day when I watched the video. It cracked me.

[Tana Mongeau]

But truly, like I was dead sober. That is what makes it so fucking funny. I can't guarantee if put in the exact same scenario. Well now actually I would probably take a quarter bar before it so that I'm not having the panic attack that I'm so clearly having on stage. And I would commit, commit to like using my ad read voice and just read. That's what I would do today. I would, I would medicate and then I would like gaming as a da da da and like do my best. But I was just having a panic attack and genuinely. Who wrote that? You know? And like, who. Having Tana Mojo present an award in the gaming category is diabolical. And I don't even think the streamies are that mad. And even if they were, like, it was a very viral moment of their award.

[Brooke Schofield]

It was very funny.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yes. And I don't. One thing about me is if I have an embarrassing moment, how I look will always play into my perception of it in my head. Like even knowing I accepted the Streamys creator of the year and that lime green fucking God awful pantsuit. I found it the other day in my storage unit, by the way. A relic that will eat me alive. But I was serving and that is. I'm fine with it for that reason.

[Brooke Schofield]

I love that. I feel like we can skip this one. Who cares?

[Tana Mongeau]

I have like a funny from the other night that I want to talk about. But like, if you don't want to talk about about it from. This is about Becca Moore, right?

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah. Can we.

[Amari]

But you guys never told her.

[Brooke Schofield]

You never said her name on the pod. Everyone knew.

[Tana Mongeau]

Which is so. Because now you guys are friends.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah.

[Tana Mongeau]

And I think that's so cool and it's so funny because we talk about this a lot. You always talk about this in reference to Mod sun and I talk about this just in reference. Like a lot of this happened across Canceled too. Where it was like your beef with someone, you know what I mean? And like then I would go in on it and I would have to ride for it. And then. Then, like you always say with Mod Son. Like, it was my beef with him, but you had to ride for it. And then, like, you'd run into Mod Son, and it's like, yeah. Or almost like. So we see her the other night. She's at Brooke's hair launch. And this is one of those cases, like, I always talk about this with Nick Vile, where, like, I didn't remember what I said or why I was angry or why I was whatever, but I would see Nick Vile and I'd be like, but I didn't even know why I was like that. And she came the other night, and I was like, I'm on. She's talking to you. And I'm sitting there with Miles, and I'm like, what happened? What did she do to Brooke? Like, why. Why do I still harbor this? Like, why do I feel this way? I'm looking up your guys's like, tick tock past, trying to figure it out, and I, like, couldn't figure it out. And I was just, like, sitting there, and I was like, this is one of those that I'm just gonna have to eat. You know what I mean? Like, I rode for my friend so hard that, like, I don't know if her and I will have her, you know?

[Brooke Schofield]

No, it was definitely, like, both of us just, like, being stupid. In another case of, like, me talking, like, she flippantly said something about me on her podcast with no names. And so then I went ahead and, like, did something worse, like, on our podcast.

[Tana Mongeau]

But I. I remember it was like, cockroach, right? Like, she missed a meeting because there was a bug.

[Brooke Schofield]

Well, but it was like, she said she was in a business relationship with somebody, and then she had a bad, bad feeling about it. And then she found out later that. That this person was, like, a bad person. So that's what she had said. And then I, like, went in and said, like, all that.

[Tana Mongeau]

That's what I was trying to get you to tell me the other night, but. Because that is.

[Brooke Schofield]

But then she just recently or just the other night, like, when I saw her, she was like, do you want to know what it was that made me think that you were a bad person? And she told me, and I was like, oh, my God, So valid. I don't know. I think it was all pretty stupid. But I. I look past it. It's water under the bridge to me because. Because of everything that I've, like, gone through in the past year and how much, like, I've struggled mentally. Anybody, especially somebody who like doesn't like me or who I have like a bad relationship with, if they reach out to me and they're like, hey, I hope you're okay and stuff. I like really appreciate that because. Because I needed it. Yeah.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah. And she also is killing it. Like just every time I see a solo clip of her. Like she is very talented at like just. And she went through a lot in like a previous relationship.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah.

[Tana Mongeau]

And that is really.

[Brooke Schofield]

And she got a lot of hate. She got a lot of hate. So I did the same thing, you know, afterward, like when she was getting it, I was like checking in on her and it just like I'm like, who cares? Like Internet beef is so stupid.

[Tana Mongeau]

If you're happy, I'm happy for you.

[Brooke Schofield]

I'm happy.

[Tana Mongeau]

I would go back in time and have Matt rife on the pot a thousand times because I love my Osama bin Laden joke.

[Brooke Schofield]

It's crazy because even in the moment I like didn't know it was a hit that the hit that it was me either really.

[Tana Mongeau]

It was just my thought and it's. It's one of my favorite clips of the canceled podcast of all time. Truly. Because what he was saying was wild. But we. Brooke. Brooke clearly has expressed that she is tired of exhausting this at nauseam and we are moving, moving on.

[Brooke Schofield]

I'm letting him sad. I like wanted to watch the new Kill Tony on. On Netflix and he's just like the front. I'm like, I can't even watch Kill.

[Tana Mongeau]

Tony and I'm really not trying to get that Annabelle hex. But I mean I even made Mokoa make a tick tock with the elf setting spray. Like we're. We're in too deep. I'm in too deep at least.

[Brooke Schofield]

Oh gosh.

[Tana Mongeau]

Our next game is True or false where we will be saying, you guessed it. True or false. This one was heavily requested by you guys in the comments of our tick tock and let's see if we can debunk anything.

[Brooke Schofield]

Oh, are we supposed to not know the answers to these? Cuz I already don't know the answer to this.

[Tana Mongeau]

Brooke told Kevin this. He. This is. He left me at the Red Rock. Sorry to call you out by name. Love you. You're the best. We are still great friends. He left me at the Red Rock for valid reasons. I probably should have led with that. Brooke told Kevin she loved his name the first time she met him.

[Amari]

You look this man dead in the face and you said why the are you named Kevin.

[Brooke Schofield]

Oh really?

[Amari]

And then, and then you proceeded to tell him how much you hate the name Kevin. No way.

[Brooke Schofield]

And then I feel like I like the name Kevin.

[Tana Mongeau]

What? No. Cuz we were on this car ride to Omni and nightclub and for the entire car ride you were just like, it just doesn't roll off the tongue.

[Amari]

Like what T and Kevin.

[Tana Mongeau]

But he's really, he's a really funny guy. So he was super. Like he was down to clown. You know what I mean? Like he was very much, much with the jokes of it.

[Brooke Schofield]

So crazy. Are you sure your answer's right? I think my answer is right.

[Tana Mongeau]

100. We should we call Kevin?

[Brooke Schofield]

No.

[Tana Mongeau]

Tana ran into a guy at Equinox that she once and he told her I didn't recognize you.

[Brooke Schofield]

True.

[Tana Mongeau]

I don't remember. Like do you remember the guy?

[Brooke Schofield]

I think I remember his look.

[Tana Mongeau]

Devin, is this true?

[Amari]

Yeah.

[Tana Mongeau]

And what else did I say?

[Brooke Schofield]

I don't know if you're with Makoa per se, but it, it was just.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, like no, I wasn't with Makoa.

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You didn't have a normal workout outfit on.

[Brooke Schofield]

I think you had sweats.

[Amari]

So you're trying to ignore him but.

[Brooke Schofield]

He also like ended up messaging you or you messaged him and you were like, I saw you at the gym. And then he responded that I didn't recognize you.

[Tana Mongeau]

Who the is. This is true. This is true. But I cannot remember who it was. And that says everything that you need to know about. About that time. Next. Hannah clogged the toilet on the tour of us.

[Brooke Schofield]

Question mark is crazy. We know you did it.

[Amari]

You know what?

[Tana Mongeau]

In. In. In my love for you, I. I am down to succumb and like allow you to have this.

[Brooke Schofield]

Don't make it like that because it's like not. Don't be like, okay, if you need.

[Amari]

It to be true.

[Brooke Schofield]

Cuz it's like it is true.

[Tana Mongeau]

I just don't. I don't think.

[Brooke Schofield]

And they're going to come for me online. They're going be like, no.

[Tana Mongeau]

But also perception is a real thing because like I remember being so adamant about not flushing the toilet paper. But obviously you also walked into a clogged toilet and like you think you heard me.

[Brooke Schofield]

I saw you go in there and I went. I saw you go potty.

[Tana Mongeau]

Saw me in the middle of the night when you go to bed much earlier.

[Brooke Schofield]

Pass by my little dinky little bunk.

[Tana Mongeau]

So you heard me. You didn't see me any.

[Brooke Schofield]

I heard you subway surf all the way down there and then I Heard you go in there, I heard you tinkle, and then I heard you not flush.

[Tana Mongeau]

Okay, Tana and Avril Lavine have slept with more than two of the same people. Why'd you have to go make things so complicated?

[Brooke Schofield]

Who's three?

[Tana Mongeau]

I don't know who three is.

[Brooke Schofield]

Well, this implies more than two.

[Tana Mongeau]

It was false for me, cuz I only got two. Oh, then it might be false. I just.

[Amari]

I'm.

[Tana Mongeau]

I'm like literally guessing in good faith that we don't know who the third is.

[Amari]

But there's a third.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah.

[Amari]

Which is diabolical.

[Brooke Schofield]

I could see it being like goody grace or something.

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh, it definitely could be. I was just talking the other day about how he broke up with me because of paparazzi photos I took with Harry Jowsey. And I remember being like, why are you breaking up with me? And then looking back at the photos, it's like, why is Harry carrying you a taken woman out of BOA while you're like, half unconscious drunk? That's a reason to get broken up with anyways.

[Brooke Schofield]

I think. Is this not a Christian French song? False.

[Tana Mongeau]

It's a Clinton Kane song about you.

[Amari]

No way.

[Brooke Schofield]

What song?

[Amari]

Making a monster.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah.

[Tana Mongeau]

Holy no way.

[Brooke Schofield]

That's crazy.

[Tana Mongeau]

That is so funny. I thought cyanide was a very crisp word. I don't even like that's where my head was.

[Brooke Schofield]

Cyanide. How do you say that?

[Tana Mongeau]

Cyanide used to the taste of your. Damn. That's a cutthroat lyric.

[Brooke Schofield]

Well, it can't be worse than the song called Go Yourself that he wrote while we were still together.

[Tana Mongeau]

That is so fair. You know what I want to do for YouTube and make $0 on Brooke is react to music. You should do it with me. Like, react to songs about us.

[Brooke Schofield]

Oh, my God, I have some. God, I wish it wasn't illegal to play it on on the podcast because I have some real bangers.

[Amari]

I love illegal.

[Brooke Schofield]

It is illegal. I think what to play it's like, especially if it's not put out. Like, go yourself is a banger. But it's not. It never came out true. I'm a scientist. I am amazing. I am gorgeous.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, I feel like the mushrooms make it not literally yesterday, but we. We're chemists over here. When was this?

[Brooke Schofield]

Do you know who just told me to do mushrooms yesterday? Oh, it says Brooke did mushrooms, antidepressants, zofran, and drank alcohol all in one night. Yes, this is accurate because I was doing a little science experiment to see where I could get Myself to the biggest A vibe, but I don't recommend that to my friends.

[Tana Mongeau]

Mr. D.C. was 26 years old when Brooke first started hooking up with him.

[Brooke Schofield]

False. No matter what, he was older. I think.

[Tana Mongeau]

Who makes that song way too old to be acting like that. Acting like that. Young blood next. I would love to.

[Amari]

I would love to. Haley Bieber. Pete Davidson.

[Brooke Schofield]

She and I were wearing matching outfits at our workout yesterday.

[Tana Mongeau]

And that goes in on the list of things I wish I never said. Get that blonde Vegas hooker a muzzle. I'm sorry, Haley. I'm sorry, Pete. I hope you're. You both are living amazing lives. I don't know either of these people, and I just want to put that out there for a final time. There's an episode of Canceled titled the X episode.

[Brooke Schofield]

True.

[Tana Mongeau]

Prom True.

[Brooke Schofield]

I'm pretty sure it did pretty well, too.

[Tana Mongeau]

What is this episode? One of the deleted episodes. One of the deleted episodes. So Hunter was in it. It's episode two or three. So Hunter was in it. And we were just discussing our exes.

[Brooke Schofield]

And we definitely talked about Joe, I think, which is so funny. Like, having to give him a seat at my engagement party is, like, hilarious.

[Tana Mongeau]

That is so funny that he's coming.

[Brooke Schofield]

I know.

[Tana Mongeau]

There's an episode of Canceled titled I Almost Slept with Jeff with.

[Brooke Schofield]

Correct.

[Tana Mongeau]

False.

[Brooke Schofield]

We're so good.

[Tana Mongeau]

There's definitely episodes where I almost slept with Jeff Wittic, but I don't think that was ever a title. And we never. We never said I. That was the giveaway. It was always Tana or Brooke or we. An NBA, NHL and MLB player have all slid into Brooks DMS trying to remember if you were ever hockeying it down, if you were ever with the sticks and the actual ice. Cuz I believe in take me out to the ball game. And ball is life, I think.

[Brooke Schofield]

False.

[Tana Mongeau]

She was never much of a hockey girl anyway.

[Brooke Schofield]

I wasn't.

[Tana Mongeau]

Drake security removed Tana from his section at a club one time.

[Brooke Schofield]

I put probably.

[Tana Mongeau]

I think it was Chris Brown.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah, it's false.

[Tana Mongeau]

Okay. Oh, well, then why am I just saying words? There used to be a headline on the old Canceled set that read, tana.

[Amari]

Mongeau sleeps with 70% of Coachella lions up.

[Brooke Schofield]

True. And I'll tell you how I know that is because I wrote all of those headlines before I was ever supposed to be a co host on the podcast. Tana asked me to write them.

[Tana Mongeau]

And that is so funny, because I remember just being like, she's so funny. She'll kill it. And little did we know a Crush once told Tana to buy a ticket to his concert and then unfollowed her. This is beyond true. And it was. Was Surf Mesa. Am I allowed to say that?

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah. Say it. What? Oh, he was my neighbor.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, he was my.

[Brooke Schofield]

I think I told a story about him as, like, being my hot neighbor.

[Tana Mongeau]

Crush is also like, too deep. You know what I mean? Like, I just was like, let me see what I can do in the DMS right now. I want to go to this concert, whatever. And he said, buy a ticket.

[Brooke Schofield]

That's actually so funny.

[Amari]

It's low key. So fun. Funny like he.

[Tana Mongeau]

Cuz he was your neighbor. There's more, Laura.

[Brooke Schofield]

He was my neighbor. I remember he used to think I was two different people. Like, he would say hi to me if I looked good and he wouldn't talk to me if I didn't. So like, damn.

[Amari]

So funny.

[Brooke Schofield]

I swear.

[Tana Mongeau]

And there's something with Diablo there. I don't know. Amari and Tiana threw a Canada and New Orleans themed birthday party for their respective boyfriends once. The boyfriends went on to cheat that night. True. But it was Canada and Texas. But I. True.

[Brooke Schofield]

You.

[Tana Mongeau]

You're allowed to say true for that.

[Brooke Schofield]

I went to that.

[Tana Mongeau]

They did. Oh my God. And that was like the first time we ever invited Lila to something without her, like just showing up. Like, like her because like all of the other times she'd shown up outside the hookah bar or like something like that. And like, this is the first time where we were like, Lila Gibney's funny. She should come to this. Little did we know how much that would change the trajectory of our life. Lives. T once said, you're going to do this to me. A girl. It was a woman. Brad Sousa is catching so many strays. And I'm trying to stop even. I just have. I've been talking about him a lot recently and like, he's a dad and people turn over a new leaf. And I really genuinely actually do. Just hope he's happy and being the best father and learned from everything. And I think that getting thrown into my world in LA and whatever, like that probably was very jarring and hard for him. Not so hard that he had to cheat and do the things he did. But we were young and dumb and I was just as dumb. So Brooke once sent a text to the wrong man saying, thinking of you. I think this one is true and false.

[Brooke Schofield]

I think it's false. It was Tana.

[Tana Mongeau]

But I, I. The reason why I say false, Andrew, is because Brooke has probably Done something so similar to this.

[Brooke Schofield]

Can I tell you what it is? One time I texted a guy that I used to talk to and said, like, hey, like, I was just randomly thinking about you. I hope you're doing well. Okay. Come to find out that day, his nudes had been leaked. So I, I. He thought that I texted him because his nudes got leaked. Like, I was like, embarrassing him, but, like, I had no idea that his nudes got leaked. I just happened to be thinking about him and I was like, oh, my God. He probably felt so embarrassed and thought that, that I, like, saw his nudes online. Which I wish, but I wish that.

[Tana Mongeau]

There are certain people that have sworn, like we have sworn under oath that we cannot talk about and like, not air out what that truth is. And it sucks. Cuz he's one that I wish so.

[Brooke Schofield]

Badly, but he's another one that, like, didn't deserve the smoke. Like, what a little angel. And I shouldn't say another one, because that's not what I meant.

[Tana Mongeau]

No, he's one that did not deserve.

[Brooke Schofield]

He didn't.

[Tana Mongeau]

But he did flake on you. I don't know. Mine was that I sent a photo of a subway foot long to someone that I thought was a tripod and I sent it to the wrong person. And I love that. It just is what it is. All right, our next game.

[Brooke Schofield]

I'm so excited.

[Tana Mongeau]

We made this game a long time ago for the canceled podcast, canceled Jeopardy. And we never ended up playing it. And we thought we would just fuck around and try to play it today to see if it unlocks any missing lore.

[Brooke Schofield]

Aaron, you look truly gorgeous.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, he looks really good. That was funny too. Just like the time where, like, people found out what Aaron looked like, and then he started getting, like, all the girls sliding in his DMs and stuff. Even, like, when. Well, for even. Just coming up with the name Amish Aaron across the podcast is so funny. And when he was Elvis, like, when you were Moses, I was Trisha, Amari was Barbie, and Aaron was Elvis. Like, that's. We have so many funny memories. Memories with our Amish Aaron. And we love you.

[Brooke Schofield]

Oh, my God.

[Tana Mongeau]

And Aaron and I used to get so blacked out. Like, we'd shoot canceled and you'd leave, and then me and Aaron would just stay up facing wine, talking for hours. Like, I have so many fond memories. What did you say?

[Amari]

I remember that.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yes, we had. We had an era of that. And it was honestly wholesome.

[Amari]

This has been like two and a half years of my life. So it's like really wild kind of think about. Because, like, I came out to LA and immediately got into this.

[Tana Mongeau]

So.

[Amari]

So it's like.

[Tana Mongeau]

And to move to LA and the first thing you work on, you want to be a podcast producer, and it canceled. Falls into your lap. Like, what a whirlwind. You know what I mean? Like, think about how many other just wholesome, normal podcasts he could have produced.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah, he could have been on Girls Gone Bible.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah. Like, holy. Oh, my God. I forgot about that when Severin left me for the Bible girls and I was sick Dick. Very funny.

[Amari]

Are you guys ready?

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah.

[Brooke Schofield]

You remember how Jeopardy.

[Amari]

Plays?

[Tana Mongeau]

Like, I.

[Brooke Schofield]

We say, like, who Wore that for 300? Right.

[Tana Mongeau]

I'm gonna go. Who wore that for 500? Do they get harder as they go down?

[Brooke Schofield]

Duh.

[Tana Mongeau]

Okay.

[Brooke Schofield]

Haha.

[Tana Mongeau]

Ha. So real. Who wore this? Cardi B. It also could be like, Kylie Jenner with, like, a really dark spray tan.

[Brooke Schofield]

Nicki Minaj. Liza.

[Tana Mongeau]

Liza Koshy. That's so. Like, I would never expect Liza Koshy to be in like, a pot stirring, like. And she looks amazing. That's iconic. I would have never gotten that.

[Brooke Schofield]

Okay, Brookie, you pick friends Instagram captions for 500. God, but Gandhi or whoever is watching over me. You're doing such a good job. Keep up the hard work.

[Tana Mongeau]

Can I do that?

[Brooke Schofield]

You can. It's mine.

[Tana Mongeau]

Okay. You know who wrote that?

[Brooke Schofield]

Is it Amari?

[Tana Mongeau]

I'm going to say Lila Gibney wrote that. Who is L? Oh, who is Lila Gibney? Because like, God, Buddha, Gandhi, or whoever is watching me. You're doing something like. You can tell by the cadence and like the capitalization and like that. That's so giver. What the hell?

[Amari]

And also, what a caption for your grid.

[Brooke Schofield]

She's so funny.

[Tana Mongeau]

She came over, I would think.

[Amari]

I would love to see the photo attached to that too, because, you know, just her in an IMG and 2B set, like so.

[Brooke Schofield]

And there has to be something offensive in there, like Buddha and Gandhi or whatever.

[Amari]

I like Friends Instagram captions.

[Tana Mongeau]

I'm going to go friends Instagram captions for 400. I've been to Cabo 11 times in 3 months. Someone get me banned. God, that's. I think I know who did said that too. Just based on who would actually be in Cabo 11 times for three months.

[Brooke Schofield]

That was my guess.

[Tana Mongeau]

Should we do it together? Should we?

[Brooke Schofield]

Well, no, because you have to get your stupid points.

[Tana Mongeau]

Your idea. Should we turn on three? Who is Ari Aguirre? Yes. I like us just, like, doing it together. I don't think. I think it's okay. Good.

[Brooke Schofield]

Because I don't. I was gonna lose. Let's do Fill in the blank for 500.

[Tana Mongeau]

Amari Stewart once said, I love my hot blank men. I don't want to fill in this blank. I think I know what he said, but I don't like that he said it. And, God, if I'm wrong, it's even worse.

[Brooke Schofield]

Me too.

[Tana Mongeau]

Okay.

[Brooke Schofield]

Three, two, one. Oh.

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh, thank God I was right. Because if I just wrote that and.

[Amari]

He didn't say that, I would have had to.

[Brooke Schofield]

Well, I put straight.

[Tana Mongeau]

No, it. It was 100. That was my second guess. It was wider or straight. I mean, he's allowed to his. His preferences, and I'm just happy that I didn't write that out. Out the nowhere, as Ari used to say.

[Brooke Schofield]

Well, now I'm mad that I keep putting 500 and then you get the points.

[Tana Mongeau]

I'm gonna pick Set on canceled for 100, please.

[Amari]

His mom owned Birkenstocks.

[Tana Mongeau]

Who is Brook Schofield?

[Brooke Schofield]

That's right.

[Amari]

Who'd you guess?

[Brooke Schofield]

But, like, obviously like that. He's the one who said his mom's own. His mom owns Birkens.

[Tana Mongeau]

And he did say that his mom owns Birkenstocks, which that also goes down in history as one of the funniest moments on the canceled podcast for me, because Clinton Kane really said that his pomode genuinely.

[Brooke Schofield]

Let's go. Set on canceled 300.

[Tana Mongeau]

That was really my plan A. Plan B was paying.

[Brooke Schofield]

Who is Tana?

[Tana Mongeau]

What was this in relation to? Do we know?

[Brooke Schofield]

I don't remember.

[Tana Mongeau]

Plan B was paying, unfortunately. Oh, her tattoo. She was. She was wanting to fuck for her tattoo. And that's why we love our girl. Fill in the blank for 300. Jeff Wittek once said, well, nothing is ever gonna feel as good as I.

[Brooke Schofield]

Might be going for the wrong middle aged guy. Oh.

[Amari]

You were right.

[Brooke Schofield]

Okay. Heroin. But I was thinking it might be Mike Maylak. No offense.

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh, my God. Also just both of you guys adding the E to heroin. Oh, when there's an E, it's a. It's a female. She's slaying like. Like a heron.

[Brooke Schofield]

Oops.

[Tana Mongeau]

Which was brooke in Washington, D.C. you were a heroin friends. Instagram captions for 300. Are we there yet? I'm almost out of wine. Who you say?

[Brooke Schofield]

Is she right?

[Amari]

What you write?

[Brooke Schofield]

What?

[Tana Mongeau]

What did you write?

[Brooke Schofield]

I started with Tann, and then I switched to Isabella.

[Tana Mongeau]

Ty Collins. That is so Ty Collins. Because I Feel like I would have said dizzy. Like, it would have been in my. Like, are we.

[Brooke Schofield]

Sorry.

[Tana Mongeau]

I'm a dizzy.

[Brooke Schofield]

Busy. I just, like, I love when you do some, like, millennial stuff and you do something.

[Amari]

Friends.

[Tana Mongeau]

Instagram captions for 200. I'm having so much fun with that one. Not checking my Uber rating anymore.

[Amari]

I'm choosing Peace.

[Brooke Schofield]

I mean, I would have to guess.

[Tana Mongeau]

It'S you, but who's that funny? Like, that's funny.

[Brooke Schofield]

Paige. Is that funny? I put Bella again. I don't know what I. Yeah, you're good at this game. You're good at all the games, names. It must be sobriety.

[Tana Mongeau]

I don't know. That's just so page to say fill in the blank for 400. Trisha Paytas once said, I blank everything. I felt so relevant when you guys were on tour. Ready.

[Brooke Schofield]

Or.

[Tana Mongeau]

I think it's literally the word C.

[Brooke Schofield]

I put get tagged in repost.

[Tana Mongeau]

That was my first thought too. And then I was like, no. Yeah. Why would she be living vicariously through our tour while she's doing Broadway at a stage now? Let me just kill myself. What's Next?

[Brooke Schofield]

Let's try 2000s pop culture duos for 300.

[Tana Mongeau]

He was 36, she was 20. One performance would change both of their lives forever in 2013. Janet Jackson wasn't 20 in 2013. Right?

[Brooke Schofield]

You're joking at all.

[Tana Mongeau]

My bad.

[Brooke Schofield]

2013 was 12 years ago. Janet Jackson is, like, in her 60s.

[Tana Mongeau]

No, I should kill myself.

[Brooke Schofield]

Myself.

[Tana Mongeau]

He was 36. She was 20.

[Brooke Schofield]

But I truly don't know the answer to this. I'm gonna guess I've got nothing.

[Tana Mongeau]

I wrote Miley with a question mark. Wait, so did I. Robin Thicke and Miley Cyrus. I forgot about Robin Thick.

[Brooke Schofield]

My friend is literally married to Robin Thicke.

[Tana Mongeau]

I don't even, like, think of Robin Thicke. When I think of that, I only think of Miley and her, you know, because that's the one where she's wearing, like, the thing with the foam.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah, 2013. It feels like it was more recently than that.

[Tana Mongeau]

Okay, set on canceled for 200. No, that's fill in the blank, but that's fine. Brook Schofield once said, you're gonna find love, and it's gonna be good.

[Brooke Schofield]

I have an answer, but if my answer was correct, it would say Ann, so it can't be right.

[Tana Mongeau]

That's so funny, because I just have the same exact thought process as you.

[Brooke Schofield]

Because I was gonna say influencer. Oh, what were you gonna say?

[Tana Mongeau]

I'll wait for you to fill in yours cuz now I think I'm wrong.

[Brooke Schofield]

Go. I just said tiktokers.

[Tana Mongeau]

You have such beautiful handwriting.

[Brooke Schofield]

Neither of us get a point.

[Tana Mongeau]

Blur my board because I directly attacked someone that did not deserve it and it wasn't going to be a musician. You ate with that. That she is a modern day Socrates.

[Brooke Schofield]

Ah. I feel traumatized from who wore that.

[Tana Mongeau]

Can we get 2000s pop culture duos for 500? Okay.

[Brooke Schofield]

Shoot for the moon. Sir.

[Tana Mongeau]

A romantic film starring Amanda Safred and Channing Tatum may have no correlation to these two musicians hooking up, but thank God we got the song title. We both got that, huh? Your handwriting is mogging mine. Best song ever. Okay, next. Next.

[Brooke Schofield]

2000S pop culture duos for 400.

[Tana Mongeau]

This famous friendship once wrote an iconic letter to their friend. If only it had stayed in the drafts.

[Brooke Schofield]

What is Snooki and J? Wow. Oh.

[Tana Mongeau]

What wrote the letter? Oh, the drafts like threw me off. Like I was thinking about actual like Twitter beef and then I was thinking like Taylor Swift and Kim Kardashian. I'm going to go set on cancelled for 500. You guys ever post so much you look back at your feed and just be like man, I need to stop yapping. Damn, he ate with that.

[Amari]

He was ahead of his time without.

[Tana Mongeau]

Trevor Wallace said that.

[Brooke Schofield]

I'm gonna go with set on cancelled for 400.

[Tana Mongeau]

We still own all our masters.

[Brooke Schofield]

I don't know why I keep choosing things. I don't know what the fucking answer to. Okay, whatever. What the hell?

[Tana Mongeau]

The only reason why is because I felt like Megan and Chris would not say our, but I felt like we Bunny and Jelly would like, like Jelly roll so hour coated.

[Brooke Schofield]

Whatever.

[Amari]

Can I say one thing about Jelly Roll really quick? Like the nicest thing ever?

[Brooke Schofield]

What?

[Amari]

He's like the one guest that went out of his way. Like everyone left and he came back upstairs back at the old place just to say goodbye to me like no one else has ever done. I don't. It was just a very sweet and.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like that's actually such a sweet anecdote to like put on this podcast. Like that is like cuz I can't imagine being the producer or like you probably have so much lore of people who like didn't even acknowledge you.

[Brooke Schofield]

I even feel that way, especially from the beginning. I'm canceled.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah. Like people who would sit down and oh my God, that used to be my biggest pet peeve. Cuz I never knew how to like fix it. You know what I mean? Like I didn't.

[Brooke Schofield]

Well, I'm Cognizant of it. Whenever I go on another podcast, I'm so careful to never make anyone, like, feel like that, you know?

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh, my God. I hated those moments where I'd be sitting there, I'd be like, this person is not asking Brooke questions. And it's like, you. I can't tell someone.

[Brooke Schofield]

So get it though. Because. Because, like, sometimes if. If a podcast, especially like at the time it was canceled with Tana Moa. Like, if you think you're going on Tana Moa's podcast and then there's somebody else just there, you don't expect, you don't. Like, you know, I get, I get.

[Tana Mongeau]

But to an extent, I guess. But also, like, whenever I'm in a room talking to anyone, like, I hate when people do that in real life. Like, just. You know what I mean? Like, even if. Even if I ran up to Adam Sandler right now and he was with someone else, I would still introduce myself and talk to them too, because it happened.

[Brooke Schofield]

Like, I noticed it more like a little further down the line with people where it was like, it really was. Was like very obviously, like our podcast where I was like, oh, God.

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh my God. No, that would, like, make me clench.

[Brooke Schofield]

I would just go silent and like, whatever. Okay. But I still get paid for this episode. You. It's real.

[Tana Mongeau]

As set on canceled for 200.

[Brooke Schofield]

Just show me. Yay.

[Tana Mongeau]

That was the best day ever when Moa teabagged me. And he'll never do. But again, he thinks it's so demeaning. And that was a one time thing. So I look back on it fondly and I'm happy that I could share that memory on this podcast.

[Brooke Schofield]

Really? I like to curl up under there at night.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, it's. I just, I love. He's gotten, like. If anything, I think he used to let me, like, hold his balls more.

[Brooke Schofield]

Whatever. Who Wore that for 400?

[Tana Mongeau]

Imagine, I wrote like, Kesha. Like, I don't even remember my life that much. Yeah, this keeps me up in my sleep paralysis.

[Brooke Schofield]

For me, it's just like, why are you doing a full split under there?

[Tana Mongeau]

And can I tell you that my biggest problem is really how my armpit looks in that photo, which has nothing to do with the dress and that.

[Brooke Schofield]

Like, no, the dollar bill.

[Tana Mongeau]

8.

[Brooke Schofield]

I think it's funny. I wish you were like a five dollar bill or something at the very least.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, but I was a $1 bill at the time. I was the human embodiment of a $1 bill that's been stepped on in new York City for like. Yeah, fill in the blank for 100, please.

[Brooke Schofield]

I feel like this is like an ad read.

[Tana Mongeau]

This is an Adam and Eve ad read. And I honestly miss them. They have the best, easiest, most fun ad reads of all time.

[Brooke Schofield]

How come they don't sponsor us anymore? Do we do something? Was it me? You could tell me.

[Amari]

I have no idea.

[Tana Mongeau]

I have no idea because it was.

[Brooke Schofield]

Me for a lot of them, I'll tell you that much.

[Tana Mongeau]

I think Brooke and I both got that. Friends. Instagram captions for 100. This could be. What if I want to ride a horse and a cowboy?

[Brooke Schofield]

Now I have to assume there's a horse in the photo and now I don't know if I'm right.

[Tana Mongeau]

I want to change it, but I wonder, who'd you put? I'm gonna put my second guess underneath it. And then if I'm wrong, I put you originally. Then I changed it to Ari. And now I have my final answer.

[Brooke Schofield]

Is it Amari?

[Amari]

Yes.

[Brooke Schofield]

I don't know why I just had to throw Bella in every single, single time.

[Tana Mongeau]

That's like, what if I wanna is so Amari?

[Brooke Schofield]

But then I like, I couldn't picture Amari with a horse. That's why I second guessed myself.

[Tana Mongeau]

I know. And then I remembered when. Oh, God, there's so many of Amari's exes that I would like. I might have to pay Amari off because I have like, two tangents that I want to go on so bad.

[Amari]

And he will not.

[Brooke Schofield]

Like he should. Any. Everything has a price. Although canceled is over.

[Tana Mongeau]

So I guess, like, no, I'm tick tock 20 part series about one of them. Like, it's a story that if I. I don't get to tell it by the time I die, I'm like, genuinely heartbroken because it was out of a movie. Like, I just. Oh, my God, I would do anything. Amari begging. Are we done or do we finish it up?

[Brooke Schofield]

Finish.

[Tana Mongeau]

Okay.

[Brooke Schofield]

Who Wore that for 300? Paris. Oh, wait.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, Paris.

[Brooke Schofield]

Although, why does it say desperate? Oh, that's probably the actual.

[Tana Mongeau]

That's the actual shirt. People edited it to poor. And she has a major discrepancy with that. Points for both of us. We keep going.

[Brooke Schofield]

I saw Paris yesterday.

[Tana Mongeau]

Where?

[Brooke Schofield]

At the Glen Deli. I did.

[Amari]

I just love that you see people.

[Tana Mongeau]

At the most, like.

[Brooke Schofield]

Well, because every. Like the Glen Deli, like, or the Glenn center, like, that's just. I mean, it's the smack dab in the middle of Beverly Hills. So it's like everybody's always There. I also, like, I have to say everyone, that's.

[Tana Mongeau]

Who else have you seen there? I want to know.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yesterday, we saw the guy with the.

[Tana Mongeau]

Hook for a hand in spongebob in the intro.

[Brooke Schofield]

No, he's like. He's like a famous musician, maybe rapper. I don't know. He has a hook for hand.

[Tana Mongeau]

Who did I just see yesterday? Who's Teen Wolf? I saw Dylan o'. Brien.

[Brooke Schofield]

I love Dylan o'. Brien.

[Tana Mongeau]

He was at Trivia Night.

[Brooke Schofield]

We also saw the. Dylan's talking to this guy, chopping it up. He's like, yeah, my mom says hi, blah, blah, talking to him. We sit down and go, who was that? He goes, the lead singer of Kiss. I go, Dylan.

[Tana Mongeau]

Jean Simmons.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yes.

[Tana Mongeau]

I had so much to say there, but I'll leave my Simmons lore for another day.

[Brooke Schofield]

Who Wore that for 200? Unfortunately, I think it's James Charles.

[Tana Mongeau]

It's definitely James Charles.

[Brooke Schofield]

Wait, it's actually kind of a slay out. I don't know why I'm saying actually, he always kind of slays.

[Tana Mongeau]

Coachella, 2000s pop culture duos for 200. These two singers played in the Super bowl in 2004. Little did they know at the time they would cause an erotic worldwide.

[Brooke Schofield]

We were. She was six. I was.

[Tana Mongeau]

This was Janet Jackson, right? Yes. That's why I was asking.

[Brooke Schofield]

I thought you meant Justin Bieber. I'm like, what the hell?

[Tana Mongeau]

No. Timber. Like, no. But I'm saying that's why I was asking how old Janet Jackson was. Because I was like, I could only that moment. She. You don't know about this?

[Brooke Schofield]

No.

[Tana Mongeau]

She's performing at the super bowl with Justin Timberlake. They were supposed to have a scene. It's actually up. They were supposed to have a scene in their performance. Performance where he rips off her T shirt and exposes her bra. But they didn't rehearse it. And they were supposed to rehearse it. And then he rips her titty out on live television on the Super Bowl. It was so insane. Like. And you know how, like, headlines were then in pop culture and whatever. And then I think that, like, the media, they wanted people to go on and apologize. And Justin Timberlake did. Janet did not go on and apologize at an award show. They want. And because she didn't apologize. Apologize. It actually up her career. She apologized for exactly.

[Brooke Schofield]

Coming out.

[Tana Mongeau]

Exactly. But so 2004. And then it ended up actually up her music getting radio plays and like, whatever. And just adds to Justin Timberlake's scumbag lore.

[Brooke Schofield]

Gross.

[Tana Mongeau]

And she was Robbed. That wasn't her fault.

[Brooke Schofield]

Pop culture duos for 100.

[Tana Mongeau]

This couple dated before the man in the relationship cheated with his fellow co star.

[Brooke Schofield]

I put Brangelina.

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh, but that, like, counts still. That definitely counts. The biggest highway robbery of a woman of all time. I cannot believe that was done to her. Holy.

[Brooke Schofield]

All for him and Angelina to just separate anyway. Now his kids hate him anyway.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah. Diabolical. Who Wore that for 100? The final one. One.

[Brooke Schofield]

See, this is. This is a 500 to me.

[Tana Mongeau]

The. Is her name Haley Bo Bailey. It is her name. And you get that point because I wouldn't have been able to get there. Oh, my God. And then she was, like, staying in that apartment that she rented. Whatever.

[Brooke Schofield]

No, it's. It's not. I have been watching videos about her lately. She's been coming up on my thing. Actually, Haley Bo Bailey is not to be confused with Haley Bailey. Those are two different people.

[Tana Mongeau]

They are two different people, which I.

[Brooke Schofield]

Just found out yesterday. But she pretended that someone else bought her that apartment, but she was paying for it. Oh, she, like, made up this whole thing because she was, like, not getting views. So she made up this, like, imaginary sugar daddy, and then it ended up paying for her apartment for a year.

[Tana Mongeau]

That's actually iconic.

[Amari]

All right, we have one more game or it's up to you guys.

[Brooke Schofield]

I want another game.

[Tana Mongeau]

Okay. I decided for the final game to throw in, and I think we should be as competitive as possible about this. Well, great, because here's. Here's why. You and I have received so many allegations of not knowing each other, not being friends, etc, and obviously we have debunked some of that across this podcast. We had some pain points, but I do venture to say that we are friends and we do know each other very well, and we are going to play the Newlywed Game to see who knows.

[Brooke Schofield]

I hate this because I'm not good at games.

[Tana Mongeau]

Who knows the other better? No, I. I just go blank. You might surprise. You might surprise.

[Brooke Schofield]

Oh, God.

[Tana Mongeau]

And it's honestly also just all in good fun, I think, poking fun at the allegations. Here is the Newlywed Game. The fuck is.

[Amari]

We can't even get this right.

[Brooke Schofield]

See, I don't want to.

[Amari]

We are never beating the allegations.

[Brooke Schofield]

I know. That's what I'm saying. Like, how is this stumping me?

[Tana Mongeau]

So then what happens? Like, let's draw a line in the middle of the board, and then, like, you. Like. Like. Like this. You write your favorite color. Like we write our favorite colors here. And then our guess is for the other here. Right, sure. What the is your favorite color?

[Brooke Schofield]

You'll like, guess this if you really think about, like, me or, like, I don't want to give you any hints.

[Tana Mongeau]

Is denim a color?

[Brooke Schofield]

No.

[Tana Mongeau]

Okay.

[Brooke Schofield]

You know this.

[Tana Mongeau]

I'm struggling between blush pink, oatmeal beige, or burgundy, and I'm wondering if any of those are true or if it's olive green on the off chance or is it a burnt orange? You love burnt orange things.

[Brooke Schofield]

What if I tell you one of those things is right?

[Tana Mongeau]

Okay, ready? Pink, my favorite color. Wait, your favorite color is orange?

[Brooke Schofield]

My favorite color is orange.

[Amari]

Oh, okay. So we both tanked. Tanked down.

[Brooke Schofield]

I thought yours was pink because I'm thinking Peppa Pig.

[Tana Mongeau]

No, light blue or blue is my favorite color.

[Brooke Schofield]

Well, I thought that's your favorite color to wear is like cobalt blue.

[Tana Mongeau]

I do love to wear a cobalt blue, but I love blue. That is my. That Damn. I like. I knew that you love a burnt orange.

[Brooke Schofield]

Do you have, like, a favorite movie that you always tell me is your favorite movie? And I can never remember the name of it because I've never seen it.

[Tana Mongeau]

It's really up. I'm about to eat.

[Brooke Schofield]

I saw what she wrote. Like, I can tell what you wrote. So I guess I'll put that. But it's not my. My favorite movie.

[Tana Mongeau]

Write what your heart desires.

[Brooke Schofield]

Well, I know what you put, and I'm not putting that, so.

[Tana Mongeau]

Okay, ready?

[Brooke Schofield]

Your. No, Your favorite movie.

[Amari]

We're never beating these allegations. It's low key. Just way funnier if we get them all wrong.

[Brooke Schofield]

What would you put? Okay, I put Interstellar for you. I put Happy Gilmore because I just couldn't think of any other Adam Sandler movies.

[Tana Mongeau]

But I will take. I would give you like a half point.

[Brooke Schofield]

You can't take it. Just whatever she got.

[Tana Mongeau]

You also wrote Interstellar out of spite because Interstellar is your second favorite movie and the Greatest Showman is your first favorite movie of all time. You just wanted me to get it wrong. I know it's your favorite movie of all time and I haven't seen it and still was able to remember it. I will take my point. Thank you.

[Brooke Schofield]

Okay, you're never going to guess my favorite city, but I will guess yours.

[Amari]

Cleveland, Ohio, is your favorite city in the world. Have you been to the world?

[Brooke Schofield]

But I'm gonna give you Dublin because. Good point. I put Paris, New York, Vegas, so I got yours.

[Tana Mongeau]

You actually got two of mine. And I almost wrote New York, so that's actually really sweet. Paris, New York City.

[Brooke Schofield]

Did you always say, you know, that's my favorite city in the world? And you'll say, like, 20 of that.

[Tana Mongeau]

I know. I like. Maui was a close second, so it was Malibu.

[Brooke Schofield]

I think we should both get that one, because Dublin definitely counted. But I always do say Cleveland is my favorite city. And I don't know why, but I just do.

[Tana Mongeau]

You wouldn't put anywhere in Arizona even on there?

[Brooke Schofield]

No.

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh, my God. No way. Cleveland.

[Brooke Schofield]

I've only been to Sedona once.

[Tana Mongeau]

Can I just, like, interview you for a second? Why is not that there's anything wrong with Cleveland, Ohio, but I just.

[Brooke Schofield]

I just for. I recall us being in a sprinter van when we were with, like, all your friends, and I looked out the window, and it literally looked like a windows, like, screensaver. It was like, all rolling green hills or whatever. And that was when we were in, like, Cincinnati to Cleveland and whatever. In Ohio. Ohio State. A very beautiful state. But then I went back to go do Bri and Grace's live show.

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh, and that was when they left you high and dry.

[Brooke Schofield]

Well, I didn't see them the whole time that I was there, which is totally fine because they were hard at work, but I had to walk around the city all by myself for, like, three days.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah.

[Brooke Schofield]

And I loved it. I was just, like, so happy and content.

[Tana Mongeau]

Okay, if we're going to add, like, a niche random, I'm also going to go. I love Charlotte, North Carolina.

[Brooke Schofield]

I love Charlotte, too.

[Tana Mongeau]

So we should just go there for the of it soon. I love, love it there. Death row meal.

[Brooke Schofield]

Okay. Me, I don't even know what do I like to eat If I put my real one, like, you would never guess it. And I don't want to play like that.

[Amari]

We're such, like, fatties. Like, I just wrote, like, nine things for you.

[Brooke Schofield]

I spelled my own favorite word wrong.

[Amari]

Okay, ready?

[Tana Mongeau]

Okay. So for you. Sorry.

[Brooke Schofield]

I've been spending too much time with Miles. Okay, I'm gonna add.

[Amari]

What the are you adding? Flip it.

[Tana Mongeau]

No, I'm.

[Brooke Schofield]

I need to add. Because you're right. You're right. I said.

[Tana Mongeau]

Wait, was I right about your death row? And you weren't.

[Brooke Schofield]

You were right.

[Amari]

Oh, my gosh.

[Tana Mongeau]

And you got.

[Brooke Schofield]

You were right.

[Tana Mongeau]

Bulgogi Indian and cream corn. I would say is Brooks Death row meal.

[Brooke Schofield]

Okay, well, I started with hot cheetos just like you. You did? But then I said crunch wrap. And I said sweet green, hot c. Hot honey chicken salad.

[Amari]

Why did you say that? You like it? I like it. Sure. It's a Good salad. What the. I added Nobu wagu mini tacos and split pea soup.

[Brooke Schofield]

Spit piece. Split spit. You love split pea soup.

[Tana Mongeau]

But my real death row meal is just hot cheetos till I'm full. I.

[Brooke Schofield]

So. Oh, wow.

[Tana Mongeau]

I should get an extra point for adding cream corn, because even I knew that that was. And you didn't. Okay, least favorite guest.

[Brooke Schofield]

Mine's a little funky, but it's true.

[Tana Mongeau]

So you wrote yours and mine. I don't know mine. Yeah, you do, because I think mine is Matt. Right?

[Brooke Schofield]

That's right. Okay.

[Tana Mongeau]

I thought you had some niche, my little favorite guest. For sure.

[Brooke Schofield]

M. Well, I have some niche. You need to think about what I would say.

[Tana Mongeau]

I know what you'd say, but I just don't know if you're going to say it.

[Brooke Schofield]

I said it. Good job.

[Tana Mongeau]

We got both of those, right? It was just a joke, but knowing you guys have. I am Switzerland. Favorite LA restaurant.

[Brooke Schofield]

Ooh. Brooks.

[Tana Mongeau]

Go for Field's favorite LA restaurant.

[Brooke Schofield]

Mine's basic.

[Tana Mongeau]

No, but you're so. I will accept that. I will 1000% accept that crown of India I got Brooks. And we hope I will 1000.

[Brooke Schofield]

The fact that you knew exactly what Indian restaurant it was is really.

[Tana Mongeau]

I do know me.

[Brooke Schofield]

I was. I almost put yes about for myself.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yesabelle is so. No. But we Hill Bistro is, like, my favorite, worst place.

[Amari]

You've had sex.

[Brooke Schofield]

I know mine, but you don't know mine.

[Tana Mongeau]

I sure don't know yours.

[Brooke Schofield]

I'm 99% certain, and I think it's because I didn't tell anyone, because I can't tell you why, but I'll tell you where.

[Amari]

Now I have no idea why I did this.

[Brooke Schofield]

Okay, go.

[Tana Mongeau]

I thought that yours could potentially be when you were in a dorm and then, like, you like. Or like a fraternity house. Forgive me, I don't know these things. And, like, you had slept with three people in the same house.

[Brooke Schofield]

That was just a bad day. And it wasn't. I didn't sleep with three people in one house. So let me just explain that for the people really quickly. I. If you're my fiance. Keep scrolling. I had hooked up with or, like, just made out with a guy. Uhhuh. Okay. At a party. Hours later at the party, I hooked up with someone who I'd already hooked up with before. Like my ex. The next morning, I was still at that house, and I hooked up with someone who. And. Yeah, it doesn't sound any better now that I've said it aloud.

[Tana Mongeau]

Or I said Barney's But I know that you only performed fellatio.

[Brooke Schofield]

What the hell? Okay, keep going.

[Tana Mongeau]

And then for me I said on a parked motorcycle because why was I having sex on a parked motorcycle? But I don't know if you know that.

[Brooke Schofield]

Okay, well for you I put rave because I was just like. I know you had that little plur era with your little tiny shorts. I definitely had sex with your little tiny shorts. And mine is awful. I'm going to tell you where. But then you have to guess. What? Okay, okay. Bathroom at a concert. Okay. This was less than a year ago. Who's coming Concert. This is expert level, by the way. You will never guess. You just won't. But it's so funny if you know who it is. Cuz it's like what business do you have?

[Tana Mongeau]

Was it at Steven Tyler's concert?

[Brooke Schofield]

No.

[Tana Mongeau]

Was it at.

[Brooke Schofield]

You're never going to guess Ray. Like a little context to begin.

[Amari]

With. Who.

[Brooke Schofield]

Bleep that? But that is so funny.

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh, and a Porta Pot Potty. No, no, that was a different time.

[Amari]

That you had sex in a party.

[Brooke Schofield]

I went just me and we left in her seat to go have sex in the bathroom and then came out and I punched a man in the face that night. Yes.

[Tana Mongeau]

It was like.

[Brooke Schofield]

You know those movies like. Like the Sleepover or something where like so much happens in one singular night. This was that night. Like I went to. I. I did a whole festival and then left and went to a Ray concert. Went to dinner. Went like. We went so many places that night and they did so many things that it's like, how is that all possible?

[Amari]

Yeah.

[Brooke Schofield]

Missed my flight the next day. Left BB in Chicago so that I could fly to Canada.

[Tana Mongeau]

You need to. And there's way more to this. That was a story that you were telling on stage for a second and it was good. This tea. Oh my God. Good as shit.

[Brooke Schofield]

I want to tell that story so bad. One day. One day uncanceled. I'll tell that story.

[Tana Mongeau]

We gotta come back for it.

[Brooke Schofield]

Worst habit.

[Amari]

Is this our own?

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah, mine's obvious.

[Tana Mongeau]

I just kept it so broad.

[Amari]

She's sitting here for an hour and a half.

[Tana Mongeau]

Okay, well let me add something because I think I know. Know what actually irks you the most? Okay, you ready?

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah, you. But I would never say that because I'm super nice.

[Amari]

She is so nice.

[Tana Mongeau]

No, it's.

[Amari]

It's like a habit.

[Tana Mongeau]

That's the perfect.

[Amari]

You're not a mean person if your bad habit is.

[Brooke Schofield]

No, my habit is not being mean. I'm Mean, when I'm standing up for.

[Amari]

Myself, I wrote disgusting as mine.

[Brooke Schofield]

Just an overall loud, messy, chewing, vaping.

[Tana Mongeau]

See? And that could. That could be categorized as.

[Brooke Schofield]

But reading comments is my bad habit. Thank you very much.

[Tana Mongeau]

That you're right. I could have. I could have put that.

[Brooke Schofield]

And I said mine was obvious, and you still put being mean.

[Amari]

But I. I can't start.

[Brooke Schofield]

Okay, fine.

[Amari]

What's next?

[Brooke Schofield]

I love this game.

[Tana Mongeau]

Celebrity Crush.

[Brooke Schofield]

You want me to spare him?

[Amari]

That's so funny.

[Tana Mongeau]

I have a new one.

[Brooke Schofield]

I have to spare him for the sake of my own personal life.

[Tana Mongeau]

I have a new one that has replaced him. Like, if I were still single and insane and podcasting the same way that I was across my era of my Pete Davidson being my celebrity crush, this would be like my new one where I would be.

[Brooke Schofield]

Well, you're gonna have to give me a hint.

[Tana Mongeau]

I've said it. It's. It's like very, like. And. And it's almost like the. Here's your hint. Like that, like, it is the direct next. Like, if that was my previous celebrity crush, who would like the next one be? You know what I mean?

[Brooke Schofield]

Like, didn't we just talk about this on, like, the last episode or something? I.

[Tana Mongeau]

Maybe. Who is yours? You have so many. Do you want me to give you two options?

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah, wait, I'm gonna. I'm gonna give you two options, too, because my first one, you're not going to guess, but I will say I just mentioned them.

[Amari]

Them.

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh, like, it's not like the chain smokers. It's not like a duo.

[Brooke Schofield]

Right?

[Amari]

Like.

[Brooke Schofield]

Ready?

[Amari]

Oh, Domingo is so real, though. No, because. No, because. No, because you're so real.

[Brooke Schofield]

Because you said new Davidson and I'm like SNL Sexy Domingo.

[Tana Mongeau]

No, you're so real. I meant, like, dying. I was thinking about, like, like, skinny and, like, dying. Oh, Adam. Who? Sandler. Renee.

[Amari]

Rap slash Love Island Charlie. It's even funnier that for you. I wrote old people and then I wrote Owen Wilson or Matthew McConaughey.

[Brooke Schofield]

That's really accurate.

[Tana Mongeau]

And then Pedro Pascal.

[Brooke Schofield]

Owen Wilson is an absolutely not, though. You know he's a bad father.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yes, I do know that. But I thought that you still liked him in his nose. And anyways, I love.

[Brooke Schofield]

I love a nose. I don't love Owen Wilson.

[Tana Mongeau]

Most iconic canceled podcast moment. This is kind of hard.

[Brooke Schofield]

Well, this, like, I mean, for me.

[Amari]

Oh, it's dead.

[Brooke Schofield]

I go s. Dead. Double ended dildo.

[Amari]

Oh, I felt like you loved the.

[Tana Mongeau]

Moment when Trisha thought there was a mouse.

[Brooke Schofield]

Not both of us writing just Osama. Like we're on, like, on first name basis with Osama himself.

[Tana Mongeau]

If you weren't an influencer, what would you be doing for work?

[Brooke Schofield]

First of all, girl, you got to get that checked.

[Tana Mongeau]

Camera ready.

[Brooke Schofield]

Would you put kill yourself? Don't kill yourself, diva. I put nurse or wife.

[Amari]

Oh, nurse is really real.

[Tana Mongeau]

But just like, I have this fantasy.

[Amari]

Of imagining Brooke caring out, managing her apartment building that like, I can't let die.

[Tana Mongeau]

And then I think I'd be a stripper or a. Not a drug dealer. A. I was nice.

[Brooke Schofield]

I said bottle waitress.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yes.

[Brooke Schofield]

Or scam artist.

[Tana Mongeau]

By dealer, I don't mean drugs. I mean like.

[Brooke Schofield]

Wait, did you see what we got tagged in about Jazzy's ex?

[Tana Mongeau]

Yes. That was crazy Dream podcast guest who is alive. Ready?

[Brooke Schofield]

Oh, guy from boat show is so funny. It's Fraser from below deck. Fraser from below deck. That's what I was just thinking of.

[Tana Mongeau]

When you showed me the.

[Brooke Schofield]

The hot. The hot guy.

[Amari]

The hot is so funny.

[Tana Mongeau]

Always. My lame cuz.

[Brooke Schofield]

Fraser is like. Like, I'm very attracted to Fraser and he's just not my. I'm not his type, I should say.

[Tana Mongeau]

Okay, we skipped biggest dick in the industry and most famous because we're engaged. Yeah. And we just felt like that wasn't appropriate for many reasons. But other than that, I have no idea who won. But I think that we both, like, was fun.

[Brooke Schofield]

I think we did. We did well. I think we could have done better. But some of it's like, why would I know your favorite color?

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah.

[Brooke Schofield]

Although you didn't know my favorite color.

[Amari]

Four guesses. And I'm sitting here like I knew it. It's like you guessed four different colors.

[Tana Mongeau]

Crown of India was my favorite. That I got.

[Brooke Schofield]

That was good.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like, that was really good. And I know your favorite movie is the Greatest Showman, and you writing Interstellar just isn't true to who you are. I feel like we are segmented out. It is 10:13pm yeah.

[Brooke Schofield]

We arrived. Arrived here at 4:30.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, we have been here.

[Brooke Schofield]

Okay, fine. We got here at 5:30. Yeah.

[Tana Mongeau]

And it's funny because there is this like, weird part of me right now, like, I'm tired and I want to go to bed and whatever, but it's like sad. It's like I. I want a podcast until four in the morning because, like, we won't ever do this again. And that's like, no, that's not true. I know we will do it in different capacities. And I think that we have shed so many tears like even just the last show we like walked off stage and we were truly.

[Brooke Schofield]

I hope you don't mind.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, you need that. Even the last show we walked off stage and we were truly sobbing and it's been an emotional roller coaster and I can't believe this is actually the moment where things finally come to an end.

[Brooke Schofield]

It's really sad. I guess I wasn't even thinking about it until you just said, well, yeah, I was.

[Tana Mongeau]

No, but I get what you're saying. Like, it's like we were playing these games. I got up to go to the bathroom and I was like, oh my God. Like, it hit me again. And I think it's. It is going to be one of those things that continues to be a wave of different emotions. But how beautiful is that? That something truly has made us feel every emotion you can name. Like, I can't. And I just like, I guess what I want to say, and I'm sure that you share this sentiment with me, but the biggest thank you in the world is to the canceled podcast audience. Like, you guys single handedly changed our lives. And not only that, but as much as you say that we did so much for you, I hope you guys know that you did so much for us. Like, there wasn't a meet and greet that went by where we didn't sob and there wasn't a show that we did where we didn't. I mean, that was one thing that was so consistent. Like, we would walk out every night and see those crowds and look at each other like, holy fucking shit, I can't believe this is our lives. And just all of the crazy things, the amount of like mini little dreams that we had, like, that canceled would like make come true and like, I don't know, just all of the fun that we like, got to have. As corny as it, like, sounds, it's like the only reason this podcast ever worked is because the. There were thousands and thousands of broken girls and gays and they out there who like, saw themselves in us. And it was at a time where like, I don't know, at least I can say, like I felt like nobody could relate to me, you know what I mean? Like, I felt like I was too fucked up or like I had so many issues or I was never going to find love or I was never going to get sober. All these fucking things, you know, and that's been the constant, is that you guys have made us feel so seen, like just so truly seen for who we are across this. And I can't. Words will never begin to describe the way that I thank all of you.

[Brooke Schofield]

We love you.

[Tana Mongeau]

And I mean it when I say that the canceled podcast audience has been the best audience in the entire world. And to anyone who has silently listened to these episodes or just left a nice, sweet comment here and there, I hope you know that across us talking about things that we maybe had disdain for, like, it was never you. And it makes me sad to know that there are moments that hate, like, drowned out love.

[Brooke Schofield]

I know. I really, like. I hope that is the takeaway, because it is. It makes me sad to speak about it that way because I talk about canceled. Like, it's been this, like, overarching, like, very negative thing, and that is so, so absolutely not the case. I've loved it. It's been, like, genuinely, like, the most, like, the biggest privilege of my entire wait.

[Tana Mongeau]

Has been the biggest privilege.

[Amari]

I liked jeopardy.

[Brooke Schofield]

Me too. My favorite color is orange. No, it's been the biggest privilege. But it's just time.

[Tana Mongeau]

Time and how. We already said it, but, like, how genuinely cool to have this, like, up scrapbook of how much the both of us have grown and, like, how cool that we finally get to, like, ride off into the sunset together. And, like, I just. If you're in your early 20s and you're where we were at when we started this, like, I would do anything to go tell those girls in that studio, like, you will find your happy ending and, like, new crazy beginnings that you can never even dream of. You. You will make it through the mess that is your early 20s that you're also sharing with the entire world. And, like, it is time, you know? And the canceled era will just. It'll be forever. And it'll be forever. There's a ghost, and you can't convince me otherwise. How weird was that?

[Brooke Schofield]

Wait, that was really cool because, like.

[Tana Mongeau]

The balloons went off well.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah.

[Tana Mongeau]

And, like, away. Damn it.

[Brooke Schofield]

There's me just stuck in.

[Amari]

No, no, no, no, no.

[Tana Mongeau]

Stuck right where we left it. No. And you know what I will say, too, is. And I think it's beautiful. I'm just moving on. I'm starting to think the ghost is, like, on our side, you know, like, they're just.

[Brooke Schofield]

But that was really crazy. That felt like. I don't know. I can't believe you're not, like, thinking that was a bigger deal than it was.

[Tana Mongeau]

I'm, like, so used to it at this point. That was, like, the third time that we've been.

[Brooke Schofield]

We've been filming for almost five hours, and they just. Now we said, and, you know, we're riding off into the sunset, and they just went.

[Amari]

That is actually so weird.

[Tana Mongeau]

I got chills. I don't know how I feel about it. It's just. It's wild. I will say also, I think it's very cool that both you and I are in this place where. Where when it comes to the future of all of the things that we do, it is very. Never say never. Like, never say never. We don't have some crazy reunion or find some capacity that we are both satisfied with. And, like, I hope you guys know that we're so excited to put this to bed so that new things can come. And we will still be doing stuff together. No one's dying. And we will. We love you, and we will still make things for all of you.

[Brooke Schofield]

You.

[Tana Mongeau]

And just. Thank you. Like, the fact that there are people that just care and will, like, continue to care is so crazy to me. And you guys have no idea how much you have saved our lives. Like, truly, I would be dead if it wasn't for all of you. And I know that, you know, so it. I just. It's like, I don't want to end it.

[Brooke Schofield]

Like, I really.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like, It's. It's actually like I'm having, like, a. I can't, because I know that the sex. Second that we shut off his cameras, we're never doing it again. And maybe, you know, I mean. You know what I mean.

[Brooke Schofield]

Just, it's like, it's really sad.

[Amari]

But it's also 10:20pm and we made this decision.

[Tana Mongeau]

No, but this is the end of the canceled podcast as we know it. And Brooke, Amber, I cannot thank you enough. This would have never, ever, ever, ever.

[Amari]

Ever, ever been what it was without you. And it's. We truly did carry each other on our back, and we fought against all odds. And, like.

[Tana Mongeau]

I'm just so proud of.

[Amari]

Each and every one, everyone in this room.

[Tana Mongeau]

But, like, I know.

[Brooke Schofield]

I know. I'm actually.

[Tana Mongeau]

And thank you for, like, sticking by my side and doing this with me through thick and thin.

[Brooke Schofield]

Like, I'm like, hello. Thank you for bringing me in. You changed my whole life.

[Amari]

But you deserved it because you're the funniest, most talented girl in the world, and you're going to kill it. And I just, like, there are so many moments where you could have easily given up on me and just, like, just so many things, you know, that.

[Tana Mongeau]

Both of us, like, you know, it. They would have been easier to do so many things. And we fought for each other and we fought for this.

[Amari]

We fought to sit here right now and do this.

[Tana Mongeau]

And that's so sick. And thank you guys so much.

[Amari]

And to the Redditors, I hope you.

[Tana Mongeau]

Find something else to write about you sick.

[Brooke Schofield]

I'm like, yeah, what's gonna happen to poor un canceled sub. Canceled pod?

[Tana Mongeau]

Hopefully Tana Mojo podcast.

[Amari]

I hopefully 70 of those people go touch grass.

[Tana Mongeau]

And now I can say it to the 30 that were kind genuinely.

[Brooke Schofield]

Are they okay? I know when you saying like to the listeners, I wanted to be like, minus you guys.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, no, and that's, you know, I'm totally kidding. But I'm so, so, so excited for the future. I have a gift for you.

[Brooke Schofield]

No.

[Tana Mongeau]

Before we go.

[Brooke Schofield]

What? What the hell? Why wouldn't you tell me?

[Tana Mongeau]

Wait, no, it's.

[Amari]

I made one for me too.

[Tana Mongeau]

You know I can't buy anyone a.

[Amari]

Gift without buying myself one.

[Tana Mongeau]

Where is it?

[Amari]

I think it's under Brooks, under my chair.

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh, it's under your chair?

[Brooke Schofield]

I've been here all the time this time and I didn't even check under my chair. Oh, is it a pizza?

[Amari]

It's really cute. And that wasn't supposed to be the COVID at all in Shutterfly and I have serious beef, but it kind of is sweeter than it is the COVID.

[Brooke Schofield]

I didn't even realize it was a book. I was crying cuz it was just the picture. I literally didn't even realize it was a book. I was like, I was actually gonna just be hysterical that you printed out this picture.

[Amari]

That was our first ever show in Arizona to 700 people. I've misquoted it so much. Said it was 30 people once.

[Brooke Schofield]

It was a huge show.

[Amari]

It's all of the photos that we took on the stage at the end.

[Brooke Schofield]

There's just too many images of me looking exactly like this.

[Tana Mongeau]

Shout out.

[Amari]

One size setting spray.

[Brooke Schofield]

No shout out to whoever I'm using. Am I supposed to open it?

[Tana Mongeau]

Well, I want you to see it, but you don't like, have to now. Like, you don't have to like, literally sit and go through it on the pot. I just like, at the end of every single shot show, we took a photo on stage. Oh. And it's pretty much every single photo.

[Amari]

On Facetune, which I'm livid about.

[Brooke Schofield]

So many bad outfits.

[Amari]

So the front was supposed to say canceled forever.

[Brooke Schofield]

It does kinda.

[Tana Mongeau]

I honestly like that the front is the first show. Like, I think it's really sweet.

[Brooke Schofield]

Oh, these are so cute. And like, why can't I fix that pose? It's so Crazy. Cuz there was so many things were like that were like why can't Brooke stop doing that pose? And now I'm going to have to live with it forever.

[Tana Mongeau]

What?

[Brooke Schofield]

This one where I know where I turn my stupid front foot out so far.

[Tana Mongeau]

No, I think it's cute. I've always thought that was cute.

[Brooke Schofield]

I'm in like a big fourth position.

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh my God. All of these shows are so like the memories. Each photo has so many memories. That's so crazy.

[Brooke Schofield]

This is so cool.

[Tana Mongeau]

Thank you, Meg.

[Amari]

Also, Lord knows I did not put.

[Brooke Schofield]

I was going to say that's crazy.

[Amari]

That you did that. Meg Slade.

[Brooke Schofield]

I love this cuz right now we're discovering. Put your flashlights up. I just got to the point where we decided put put your flashlights up.

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh yeah, to make it. I remember it was to piss off someone. We wanted to like make our photos.

[Amari]

As spiteful as possible.

[Brooke Schofield]

I know who I it was and I'm not going to repeat it but.

[Tana Mongeau]

And then I got you a Christmas ornament.

[Brooke Schofield]

Where is it? Oh, thank you.

[Amari]

Now you have to look at what it is.

[Brooke Schofield]

And now I have a house so I can have.

[Tana Mongeau]

Wait.

[Brooke Schofield]

That's actually so sweet.

[Amari]

This will be for your first Christmas in your house.

[Brooke Schofield]

Miles will love this one. It says press for pool boy.

[Tana Mongeau]

It's funny because I bought this, lost.

[Amari]

It and then I ordered another one online. Like I've been so determined. You look gorgeous.

[Tana Mongeau]

And honestly, can I say that that is one of my favorite things. You crying across the cancel podcast because.

[Amari]

You look just like this every time.

[Tana Mongeau]

We don't know how you.

[Amari]

Because like I cried too.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like so much much where I set for crying though.

[Brooke Schofield]

I sat. I sat.

[Amari]

You set?

[Brooke Schofield]

I set. And that's morphe setting spray.

[Amari]

Yeah.

[Brooke Schofield]

Ass. I'm totally kidding. I'm totally kidding. What's this? 40% off of a DoorDash order. She gave me 40% off of a doordash.

[Amari]

Imagine in the end I just gave you hell a coupon.

[Brooke Schofield]

You did.

[Amari]

Like that's so funny.

[Brooke Schofield]

You did.

[Amari]

I. I didn't do that. But they're there.

[Brooke Schofield]

I really appreciate it. I can take any dollar I can get.

[Amari]

Thank you.

[Brooke Schofield]

As you know, I just bought a house.

[Sponsor/Advertiser]

You rich?

[Tana Mongeau]

Rich. And thank Buck. Oh, I'm so happy for you.

[Brooke Schofield]

Well, thank you for my presence. I actually have yours in the car. I have yours in the car. And I did bring them.

[Amari]

They're at the store still.

[Tana Mongeau]

I don't give presents. Did you ever say that?

[Brooke Schofield]

Did you ever say that? Like when when, like when I was poor and I went to someone's birthday, I'd always be like, oh, your present didn't get here yet.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yes, of course. Oh, my God. Or I would, like, steal gifts, like.

[Brooke Schofield]

I always had, like, with the intent in mind, like, oh, I'm about to get their present. But it was always like, bro, you don't have any money.

[Tana Mongeau]

No, I would steal gifts for people, but then the gift in question would be like, why are you getting, like.

[Brooke Schofield]

Hello, Me waking up on Christmas morning one morning and getting a cycling bike. A literal, like, $4,000 cycling bike. Me and my sister. I was only five years old. I can't even reach the ground. I don't know how to ride a bike. And this bike cost $4,000. Somebody had a really shitty Christmas morning, and I'll tell you that much.

[Amari]

Oh, fun.

[Tana Mongeau]

How is fun?

[Amari]

Any Fawn updates in our.

[Brooke Schofield]

Yeah, she just got into a digital marketing class. She's starting to do Tik Tok live.

[Amari]

We're going to be back here next week. Dad, that's honestly my only takeaway.

[Tana Mongeau]

Imagine all of this for nothing. And we never quit. No, but I think. I think it's time we genuinely close out. Do you have any final thoughts?

[Brooke Schofield]

Nah.

[Tana Mongeau]

You know what?

[Brooke Schofield]

I.

[Tana Mongeau]

My final takeaway is that this has been the greatest, most wild, biggest learning experience. Trauma bond. But I mean, I mean that with the best, in the best way of my entire life. And I am so excited for the future. And I love you so fucking much.

[Brooke Schofield]

I love you. And I love you. Except for those on the canceled POD subreddit.

[Tana Mongeau]

Should we do it for the last right?

[Brooke Schofield]

Yes, since I look so gorgeous.

[Amari]

Thank you guys. Till the end, baby.

[Tana Mongeau]

Thank you guys for listening to the laughs. Thank you for listening to the final episode of the canceled podcast.

[Amari]

Foreign.

[Tana Mongeau]

Campbell.

[Brooke Schofield]

From the Rest is Politics.

[Sponsor/Advertiser]

Nish Kumar here from podsafe the uk.

[Tana Mongeau]

And Cristiana Figueres from outrage and optimism.

[Brooke Schofield]

Rising inequality, conflict, climate disaster. It's very hard to find reasons to be hopeful about the future.

[Tana Mongeau]

That's why we're teaming up this September during the 80th General assembly of the United nations along with political currency pod Save the world the Week Junior and more.

[Sponsor/Advertiser]

We'll discuss the stories that give us hope and answer the question, how does hope turn into action?

[Tana Mongeau]

Look out for the B Hope takeover this September.

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