93: Leah from Love Island exposes the WHOLE show

Summary

Cancelled with Tana Mongeau & Brooke Schofield – Episode 93: Leah from Love Island Exposes the WHOLE Show

Introduction In Episode 93 of Cancelled with Tana Mongeau & Brooke Schofield, released on August 1, 2024, Tana Mongeau opens up about her current mental health struggles while broadcasting from the serene landscapes of Maui, Hawaii. The episode marks a significant shift as Tana introduces Leah Kate from Love Island, fulfilling fan requests for a deeper dive into the realities behind the glamorous facade of influencer and reality TV personalities.

Mental Health and Personal Struggles The episode begins with Tana Mongeau addressing her audience from an unconventional setting—Maui—due to unforeseen circumstances preventing her from hosting from her usual studio in Los Angeles. [01:00] Tana expresses vulnerability, revealing that she has been on the brink of a mental breakdown despite her outward successes, including a top-ranked podcast and a sold-out tour.

"I’m praying on my hands and knees that Brooke and BB or Brooke and Paige or whoever, the shooting at home carries this episode on their back because I'm shooting from an iPhone in Hawaii," Tana confides at [02:15].

She discusses the overwhelming pressure of public scrutiny and constant demands from fans, which have intensified her mental health challenges. The stress from events like the United Airlines ordeal exacerbates her anxiety, underscoring the toll that fame can take on personal well-being.

United Airlines Rant A significant portion of the episode is dedicated to Tana's harrowing experience with United Airlines. She recounts a traumatic flight journey fraught with cancellations, extreme heat, and unprofessional conduct from airline staff. [05:00] Tana vents her frustration:

"United Airlines needs to get on their motherfucking zoom, okay? Because the travel experience I had getting to Hawaii caused me 100 times more stress than anything ever should."

This rant highlights not only travel frustrations but also reflects Tana's broader struggles with maintaining composure under pressure.

Introducing Leah Kate from Love Island Midway through the episode, Tana shifts the focus to meet Leah Kate from Love Island. [18:37] Leah, alongside Brooke Schofield, joins the conversation via Zoom—a departure from the show's usual dynamic. Tana expresses excitement and relief:

"I think Leah saved everything... I’m so grateful Leah got on her Zoom and I do have some content to provide you today."

Brooke Schofield’s Insights from Love Island Brooke Schofield, a close friend of Tana, shares her Love Island experience, delving into the emotional and psychological challenges faced during the show. [20:42] Brooke opens up about her initial expectations versus the reality of being on the show:

"I thought everyone hated me... But Miguel came into the picture, and everything got better."

Brooke discusses her relationship with Miguel, emphasizing the importance of having a supportive partner during the intense environment of reality TV. Their bond serves as a beacon of hope amidst the chaos.

Navigating Relationships and Public Perception The conversation between Tana and Brooke deepens as they explore the complexities of relationships formed under the public eye. [22:58] Brooke reflects on her relationship dynamics post-show:

"Miguel is the most compassionate, understanding person ever. My family keeps saying they couldn't have dreamt of someone better."

Tana adds her perspective on maintaining healthy relationships despite external pressures:

"I can't imagine what it does psychologically, especially with no phone... You’re set up to fail and to end up prevailing is like, so strong and intelligent."

Handling Public Scrutiny and Personal Boundaries Tana and Brooke address the invasion of privacy that comes with fame. They recount instances of being harassed in public and the difficulty of establishing personal boundaries. [40:32] Brooke shares a distressing encounter:

"I was sitting by the pool, and a random man screamed in my face about Cody and Co. It's just... I feel like we're surrounded by so much negativity."

They emphasize the importance of mental health and taking necessary breaks to protect themselves from the relentless public and media attention.

Friendship and Support Systems Throughout the episode, the strength of Tana and Brooke’s friendship shines through. They discuss how their bond has been a crucial support system during challenging times. [51:58] Brooke expresses heartfelt gratitude:

"I love you. You're the best."

Tana reciprocates, highlighting the mutual support that helps them navigate their turbulent lives:

"Your support is the one driving factor of that I'm okay... We have something beautiful here."

Leah Kate’s Journey and Authenticity Leah Kate provides her perspective on Love Island, sharing personal anecdotes and the emotional impact of the show. She speaks candidly about the manipulative aspects of reality TV production and the pressure to maintain a certain image. [35:21] Leah addresses the emotional toll of being on the show:

"It was really toxic... It put me in a headspace that I haven't been in a very long time."

Her honesty serves as a counter-narrative to the often glossed-over struggles of reality TV contestants, offering listeners a more nuanced understanding of the behind-the-scenes reality.

Conclusion and Future Directions As the episode concludes, Tana reassures her listeners of her commitment to mental health and the continued evolution of the podcast. [99:22] She teases future collaborations and episodes that promise more in-depth conversations and guest appearances.

"I love you guys so much... We'll have a Tana B.B. Brooke episode. I love you and Miguel so much."

Notable Quotes:

• Tana Mongeau [02:15]: "I’m praying on my hands and knees that Brooke and BB or Brooke and Paige or whoever, the shooting at home carries this episode on their back because I'm shooting from an iPhone in Hawaii."

• Tana Mongeau [05:00]: "United Airlines needs to get on their motherfucking zoom... the travel experience I had getting to Hawaii caused me 100 times more stress than anything ever should."

• Brooke Schofield [22:58]: "Miguel is the most compassionate, understanding person ever. My family keeps saying they couldn't have dreamt of someone better."

• Brooke Schofield [40:32]: "I was sitting by the pool, and a random man screamed in my face about Cody and Co. It's just... I feel like we're surrounded by so much negativity."

• Leah Kate [35:21]: "It was really toxic... It put me in a headspace that I haven't been in a very long time."

Key Takeaways:

1. Mental Health Awareness: Tana's candid discussion about her mental health struggles underscores the importance of prioritizing personal well-being over public image and obligations.

2. Reality TV's Hidden Costs: Both Brooke and Leah highlight the emotional and psychological toll of participating in reality TV shows, revealing the often unseen challenges contestants face.

3. Support Systems: The episode emphasizes the crucial role of supportive friendships and relationships in navigating the pressures of fame and public scrutiny.

4. Authenticity Over Image: Leah’s honesty about her experiences encourages a more authentic portrayal of influencers and reality TV personalities, moving beyond superficial narratives.

5. Future of the Podcast: Tana hints at evolving the podcast’s format to include more diverse interactions and guest appearances, promising deeper and more meaningful conversations.

Final Thoughts Episode 93 of Cancelled with Tana Mongeau & Brooke Schofield offers a raw and unfiltered glimpse into the personal lives of influencers navigating fame, mental health, and the pressures of reality TV. Through heartfelt discussions and the introduction of Leah Kate from Love Island, the episode provides listeners with a more profound understanding of the challenges behind the glamorous surface of social media stardom.

Transcript

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[Leah Kate]

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[Tana Mongeau]

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[Leah Kate]

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[Tana Mongeau]

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[Leah Kate]

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[Tana Mongeau]

Hi guys, it's Tana Mongeau. Welcome to the canceled podcast or welcome back to the canceled podcast. As you can see, I am in a very different setting and I want to start off with an immediate apology, which, you know is just my favorite thing to do, right? Like, hey guys, it's me, Tana. Sorry again. Right. Today's episode of the podcast is going to be kind of similar to that one that we shot a while ago where Ty Pa I were in London and Brooke and Amari were at home in the studio. And by the studio I mean my house because I am in Hawaii. I am in beautiful, gorgeous Maui right now. And I unfortunately am not able to make it home to shoot. And I did just want to talk to you guys about that for a second. I am praying on my hands and knees that Brooke and BB or Brooke and Paige or whoever, the shooting at home carries this episode on their back because I'm shooting from an iPhone in Hawaii. And I'm so sorry, you guys. I'm so sorry that this is going to be the quality of a blender, but I had to do it for my mental health. And I don't know if you guys saw. This is not a Patreon plug, by the way. This is not me telling you to go subscribe or not subscribe. I'm just saying it because it happened. But last week on the Patreon, I kind of got into my life and my mental state a little bit and I ended up crying. And you could just kind of tell in that episode and in my real life, if you're around me at all that I've been teetering the verge of a mental breakdown. Like, I'm on the edge of a Hawaii mountain, right? Just a little men tb. And that has nothing to do with all of the positive in my life right now. Like, you guys, this podcast is number three in the world right now. Our tour is completely sold out. There's all these, like, good, amazing, beautiful things happening. But I also feel like I'm in this place in life right now where so many truths and serious things and beefs. I've been saying on the podcast every week that I just need two weeks of mental health clarity and nothing insane and to be underwater or I'm going to lose it. And it's like, I don't want to. Like, even this Cody Co situation, like, I don't want to talk about it. Like it's a bad thing. Because at the end of the day, that's something shitty that happened to me. And now the truth is coming out and I am able to help so many young girls and stuff, but at the same time, I can't open my phone or go anywhere in LA without seeing a million things about it. And I think that you can only intake so much about your own self before you go insane, right? Like, it's just not mentally healthy to intake that much content and opinions about your own self, right? And it's like. And even just being. I went out in Los Angeles the other night, and like, as much as I love my LA friends and shit, like, I was out for like four or five hours, and every single person I talked to is coming up to me, like, what's going on with Alyssa? This is my experience with her. Can I come on the podcast? What's going on with Cody Cole? This is my experience with him. Can I go on the podcast or can you come on mine? Can we do this? Can we do that? Can we? And it just feels like I'm being pulled in a thousand directions. And I finally get home at the end of the night and I'm like, oh, my God. I just felt like I was on the canceled mic for five hours. This is my first time breathing, right? And then on top of that, obviously, just being home is like, there's a lot more access to me, you know, it's like, oh, Tana's home. Can she do this shoot and do this and do that? And a million people relying on me for their income and moral support and to take care of them when I don't have any taking care to give for even myself, you know? With so many good things coming, I knew that I needed to kind of get the out of LA and protect my health and my mental health and myself so that I can execute and deliver for all of you. And I don't want to cry. It's like 9:00am like crying at 9:00am is never fun. But like I said on the Patreon last week, I just want to say thank you again to everyone who has ever loved me, because you are the one sole thing that has kept me alive and pushing and kicking all these years. I hope you can forgive me for today's episode being toaster quality because just know your girl had to come be underwater and shut her phone off. And I've been here for a week and I'm still, I've been working so much here, I'm trying for the rest of today to go jump in the ocean and just breathe because I know that's what I need. And I already filmed this beginning take the other day to give you for the podcast and I went on this 40 minute tangent about my United Airlines experience getting to Hawaii. United, listen, I love you, okay? You've gotten me from A to B my whole life and I think you have a lot of redeemable qualities as an airline, okay? I really like the blue, I really like the logo. I think flying Polaris is really nice. You've got some good lounges all over the world. But United Airlines needs to get on their motherfucking zoom, okay? Because the travel experience I had getting to Hawaii caused me 100 times more stress than anything ever should. And I was already at my wits end, sobbing, just trying to get here. Like, get me out on the first fucking flight. I woke up sobbing and booked a flight. And I don't know if you guys saw online everything that was happening with flight gate, United flight gate. There were like no flights taking off at all from all the major airlines. Like, my flight got canceled. Sorry about the sirens. It's like United Airlines is coming to get me essentially. I don't know what the fuck happened. Listen, I'm not an air traffic controller, but what I do know is every flight in America, including mine, was just randomly canceled because there was a windows error. Which is just crazy that there's one fucking person on a computer with windows open. And that's like how all the flights are controlled. Getting on a new flight and then everything that transpired from the moment I walked into the airport is probably one of my most traumatic LAX experiences to date. This shit made me barking at that woman seem like A cakewalk in the park with rainbows and unicorns. Okay? I almost got arrested on my flight. Our brakes were broken. Like, a few men may or may not have verbally assaulted me in the airport. A flight attendant wanted me dead. Like it is just. And I was going to include that all in today's podcast. And that was going to be my section. I gave you guys like an OG Tana storytime rant. I was literally screaming. Like, I don't think Maui has ever heard screams like the ones I was giving. Explaining this rant to all of you. And trust me when I tell you I will give you every single word and detail of this. And listen, maybe I'll get spunky in the edit and insert a few seconds of that rant right now just so you guys know where my headspace was at mentally and still is, honestly, towards United. But I'll just show you. Another hour goes by. An hour goes by. I'm not kidding, you guys. Like, I am like tit sweating enough to fill up a fucking jug, okay? Like, it is so hot. People, babies are crying, people are screaming. Eventually I decide I'm going to go on a walk to the front of the plane because I'm about to pass out with how fucking hot it is. I walk up to the front of the plane and one of the flight attendants standing there has the gall and the wherewithal and the balls to look at us and say, why do you guys want off the plane so bad? I don't know. It's 110 degrees in row 30B and we've been here for an hour and a half. Mind you, with the four hour delay, it's a hundred. It's so hot. He goes, oh, I haven't been back there. I didn't even know. Must be nice being in Antarctica up here, you fucking asshole. I'm doing a little better than I was in that clip. But however, something happened, okay? A bombshell entered the villa and she came to save the motherfucking day. Bitch. I'm not kidding. If I had to upload that to Quality Rant as my back half of the canceled podcast, I'm pretty sure I would lose every fan.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Like, it just.

[Tana Mongeau]

It wasn't what this episode needed. Okay? Angry Tana ranting about the airport yet again, right as I've been out here in Maui. All of my tick tock comments, every single one. I don't think we've ever had a higher requested guest on the canceled podcast than Ms. Leah from Love Island. And I watched her on Call her daddy. And I was like, they're still a lot of. I want to talk with her. If you have or haven't been keeping up with Love island, like point blank if you haven't. I'm just gonna give you the quick rundown. She is that. She is that every tick tock sound you hear for the next six months is her talking every outfit that had on in Love island, like, okay, stunt queen. The way she handled so much that was happening to her mental health and all kinds of crazy. Like, the way she's just handled all of this. Like, she is beauty, she is grace, she is Miss American Race.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Okay?

[Tana Mongeau]

I. She's my president. Honestly, Brooke and I really still want to have her sit down on the canceled couch and just kick it with her. Like, aside from asking about all the Love island drama, like, I think she's just a dope ass bitch. And the most well received episodes of Canceled are always going to be, you know, us with our friends or us talking to someone where it's not like an interview or anything crazy. And I think she like fits that mold tenfold. And I'm so excited to have this new iconic friend, but I might as well have been getting death threats from all of you to get her on the podcast now to talk to her about other shit that she didn't on call her daddy or she hasn't talked about yet and just kind of introduce her to the canceled audience. And that is what I did for you guys today. I just got off zoom with her. Never in my life did I think I would do a Zoom interview for the canceled podcast. I'm just, I'm not a big zoomer. Okay? I'm never giving. Girl, get on your zoom. I did what had to be done. And I called, called this and I'm about to insert that. And I'm so excited for you guys to see that. And I think it's just 10 times happier of a light hearted episode having her on than me actually cussing out the phone about United Airlines. And don't worry, we will get there. I will never actually let go of that travel day that I had. I never will. I will remember it when I'm 80. So either in next week's episode or a story time on my channel, if you guys just want like an OG Tana story time, I've got it for you and the bag. And again, I just want to say, I know I'm beating a dead horse with what I'm saying, but, like, I'm so grateful for you guys and every single opportunity that you have brought me in this life. And I am so sorry once again that my half of this episode is coming from an island shot on a phone, Zoom interview style. But it was that or a psych ward. And your girl has got to protect her mental health so she can get on her Zoom for tour. And for everything else that's coming. Like, the reaction in response to this podcast is the most life changing, important, valuable thing in the world to me. And I want you to know that at every second. And that's why I'm here. I'm just trying to protect myself so that I can show up for you guys every single week. We all got to do it in life sometimes, you know, I needed to get away from the general population. Like, I don't know what's in the air right now, but I just feel like my whole life and traumas and everything are so public and even just going out in public. The other day I was sitting by the pool at a hotel here in Maui and this random man walks up to me, pulls his camera out, doesn't say hello, goodbye, nothing from Adam or Eve, and screams in my face, cody, co, am I right? And I'm like, I mean, I guess I did do that, but I'm gonna kill myself because of people like you. Like, and that's just. I feel like that sentiment has been encompassing so much of my life lately. Like, one of the things that happened while I was at the airport were these like all these 18 year old kids coming up to me, guys like, barking, literally barking, like growling and barking. Which I guess is a funny full circle moment now that I'm thinking about it, maybe karma from my barking at lax, but barking, telling me to post more feet pics on onlyfans and imagine me like, there is no worse peril in your entire life than being surrounded by like six 18 year old boys barking at you about your feet. And I was like, because it's never, it's never the fucking sweet, cute, hot IMG addressed like long, real hair, cute earrings, girls who come up to me and tell me that they love me and that, you know, that I saved their life or whatever it is that they're telling me. Because I feel the same way towards y'all. You know, I feel the same way towards all the hot girls. I'm like, there's no higher compliment than a hot girl calling you hot. There is no higher compliment than the girls and the gays and the days coming up to me and showing respectful love. There's Just been a lot of other out of pocket shit I think that comes with this life happening to me lately and I just need a giant break, you know, Like I was telling Trisha the other day, like it's not that I'm not grateful for everything, but I would love to leave the Tana mongeau suit for four days, right? Just not waking up to 100 texts of everyone needing everything ever under the sun. Not going out in public and getting harassed by men and out of pocket strangers and. And again not you guys, not the support. Like just seeing a million people commenting on like really serious things going on in your life or people starting beef with me. Like I just, I got to breathe in and out. That's what I'm doing here. And I like really really fucking hope you guys can understand because I hate letting you down or feeling like I'm giving you this half ass shitty toaster version of an episode. But I had to do what I had to do and I think that Leah saved everything. Like when I was filming the other United storytime rant every two minutes I was saying like skip to 39 minutes for Brooks half. Don't even fucking watch this. So I'm so grateful Leah got on her zoom and I do have some content to provide you today. But just know like I'm not half assing or bare minimuming just because I can. I just, I really need a little break see for my men tb. I know I'll be back and better than ever. Cuz at the end of the day I think my life's purpose is to show all of the young girls and gays and they's who were dealt similar hands to me in their early years or are dealing with similar battles to me currently that we will prevail. And that is what I am doing. Doing my best to prevail. Seriously. Let me know in the comments below where you would like this United story time to live. Should I put the OG one on Patreon? Should I refilm it and put it on my YouTube channel? Or do you want to hear that next week on the canceled podcast either on the couch with Brooke or zooming in or calling in or whatever because I've got to get it off my chest. But I do think that it's better that we just do a little bit of a light hearted episode because the last thing I need is beef with United Airlines this week. I'm trying to just take it easy, call this hot bombshell and keep it pushing. I love you guys so much and I know I've said it five times in this but you always thank me for saving your life and I can't thank you enough for saving mine and being there for me through everything. The good, the bad and the fucking fugly. Now I am going to get the off my zoom and jump into that pool. I love you guys so much and I will talk to you in the next episode of the canceled Population Podcast. Make sure to subscribe to this channel and our Patreon below. I think I'm gonna grill Makoa on our relationship for this week's episode, which he's gonna love by the way. But I love you guys so much and I will talk to you soon. Bye.

[Leah Kate]

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[Tana Mongeau]

Glasses are too expensive. So they set out to change that. By designing glasses in house and selling directly to customers, they're able to offer prescription eyewear that's expertly crafted and unexpectedly affordable. Warby Parker glasses are made from premium materials like impact resistant polycarbonate and custom acetate, and they start at just $95 including prescription lenses. Get glasses made from the good stuff. Stop by a Warby Parker store near you.

[Leah Kate]

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[Tana Mongeau]

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[Leah Kate]

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[Tana Mongeau]

My kids absolutely love.

[Leah Kate]

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[Tana Mongeau]

Your kids will love Jelly Blocks.

[Leah Kate]

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[Tana Mongeau]

Oh My God, you look amazing.

[Brooke Baldwin]

You look good. You look airbrushed as fuck. I'm like, I look weird.

[Tana Mongeau]

No. And, like, the dress, the outfit, just wait. I have so much to fucking say to you. I'm so gagged. I'm so. Thank you so much.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Oh, my God, thank you for having me. I knew we would have a ball.

[Tana Mongeau]

And this is just the beginning. I can't wait to actually get you on that fucking. Like, Yumi and Brooke.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Like, I'm sitting on the floor because I wanted to get everyone the best lighting. So just don't mind me.

[Tana Mongeau]

No, you look fucking amazing. Leah is here, Everyone. Welcome to the canceled podcast.

[Brooke Baldwin]

I'm fucking elated to be here. I was dragged through the Internet saying, why aren't you there? And I said, bitch, here, now get on your zoom. And bitch. We took that literally, honey. We got on our zoom.

[Tana Mongeau]

It's so funny. In the history of this podcast, I have never and probably will, will never zoom interview someone again. But, like, I don't think we've ever had a more requested guest ever.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Really?

[Tana Mongeau]

Every comment, everything was like, tana, if you don't fucking get that bitch on.

[Brooke Baldwin]

The podcast, you're gonna die.

[Tana Mongeau]

I'm so happy you're here. It's fucking insane.

[Brooke Baldwin]

It's funny.

[Tana Mongeau]

I think the viewers will enjoy this one because they know the peril that I went through. Leah and I are on the phone yesterday, and I'm like, at any time you want, by the way. The bitch is booked and busy. She just got her phone back. Okay, like, let her do her thing, right? And you're like, how does 1pm work? And I'm in Hawaii. And I'm like, oh, that's perfect. Oh, my God, it's 4:00pm It'll give me the whole day. It's 9:00am like, so stupid. It's crazy.

[Brooke Baldwin]

We were like. And I was like, yeah, totally. That's amazing. Like, we're just dumb as fuck. Just, like, agreeing.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like, it's always two delusional bitches telling each other. Yes, exactly.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Yes, Colleen. I was like, oh. Tana texted me after, and she was like, wait, I'm dumb as fuck? And I was like, well, I'm dumber because I was new on.

[Tana Mongeau]

So it's like, we can't be hot and know all the time zones, okay? Like, we've got enough on our plate. And you're here, and I'm so fucking happy. First of all, how do you feel? I'm back.

[Brooke Baldwin]

I'm okay. I want to. I'm okay. Like, I Feel like it's. It was a lot more. I was preparing for, like, the absolute fucking worst me. It's taking a bit to settle in. I definitely think, like, it'll take a minute with the whole, like, nitpicking. I think it's a bit difficult when, you know, I went into the villa, like a very normal human being, and I came out and everything I do is being overanalyzed.

[Tana Mongeau]

And I can't imagine what it, like, psychologically does to you, especially with no phone. Because it's like, if you had a phone, you would be, like, gradually seeing this, like, slowly accepting it. Like, you don't have a fucking phone for that long, and then you come out and you have millions of followers overnight and you're the top bitch. You're the head bitch in charge, like they. Everyone wants.

[Brooke Baldwin]

And I told you I thought I was the bottom barrel bitch. Like, I was like. I literally was like, I ruined my family's life forever. I don't think I should have come on this show. I've done. Like, I literally was like. Because the way. There's the way I felt in the villa. I keep saying this, but it's just because I'm in such shock. Like, the way I felt in the villa versus, like, the love that was waiting for me out here. I could not have guessed it in a million years. I'm sure everyone can tell from my reactions to every time I got picked. Every time I got picked, I was like, what the fuck? Like, I thought everyone hated me. It just. The villa, like, the whole. It was just a lot.

[Tana Mongeau]

It's got to, like, fuck with your head. You know what I mean? Especially because, like, in the villa, like, if, you know the other girls are jealous or feeling some type of way or treating you some type of way, and you don't have a phone, you're like, fuck, they hate me. Everyone hates me, whatever. And then to come out and have the exact opposite, though.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Like, I really did love all the girls in the villa and I do feel, like we had, like, such a close friendship. Like, I know, like, obviously ppg, like, Serena and Janae, like, were my clothes in there, but I did feel really close to everyone else. Nicole is a really good friend of mine, Daniella. I love her. Even Andrea. Like, on our off days, we would hang out and, like, we did. There was, like, a day where we did, like, each other's makeup. We were, like, around. And, like, same with Liv. Like, Liv. I have nothing bad to say about Liv, ever. Oh, Caylor. I love Kayla. Please don't. I'm trying to remember everyone's names I love.

[Tana Mongeau]

No, you don't have to remember everyone. We all think you're nice. Like, I believe you.

[Brooke Baldwin]

You know, I loved all of them. So then I was a bit put off when I come out, and I'm like, oh, I thought.

[Tana Mongeau]

And now everyone's trying to pit you guys against each other, and, like, you had a great time, and that's because it's like, men are so fucking stupid. Like, all you really can hope for from that experience is a couple good girlfriends for life. Right?

[Brooke Baldwin]

Like, and I got that and then some, so. And I also got Miguel, which is, like, I couldn't have asked for more. Like, I just feel very, very, very lucky.

[Tana Mongeau]

Okay. I was letting you say it first, and now that you've said it, I have so many questions. So we're back in real life?

[Brooke Baldwin]

Yes.

[Tana Mongeau]

We're with Miguel. Yeah. I love we. Like, I'm not. Okay. But, like, we.

[Brooke Baldwin]

He's our man.

[Tana Mongeau]

Are you with him?

[Brooke Baldwin]

Yeah. Yes.

[Tana Mongeau]

And how is that going? What is it? What is, like, the biggest difference of the two of you in the real world versus.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Oh, are you saying, are we together at the moment? Like, in person together?

[Tana Mongeau]

No, no, no.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Like, together, like, no. Yes. Yeah.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like, he's your boo.

[Brooke Baldwin]

He's my boo.

[Tana Mongeau]

Is it different now, trying to, like, date and be cutesy and shit? Like, in the real world, Is it better? Is it scarier? Like, how do you feel?

[Brooke Baldwin]

Exactly the same. I feel like we just have such a special bond that I just feel like if you guys saw the whole thing pan out, you would. You would get it. Like, we are, like, so in tune, and I just feel like he's, like, the most compassionate, understanding person ever. And my family just keeps saying, like, they couldn't have dreamt of someone better.

[Tana Mongeau]

For me, so I have full goosebumps. That's actually so sweet. I thought that by the time we got to the zoom, you were about to be like. Because that would just be me. I'm so turbulent. I'd be like, fuck everyone. I hate every single guy.

[Brooke Baldwin]

I keep saying I hate. Like, I'm like. I just hate, like, the way everything panned out. I hate that. But, like, Miguel was the only. People are like, oh, my gosh. Did you have fun on Love Island? And they're like, I bet you had the best summer ever. And I'm like, I literally hated every moment, like, except for the moments with Miguel and pg, like, period.

[Tana Mongeau]

That's actually, like, so fucking sweet that it Ended up like that. And I feel like he is like a good guy. And you guys obviously like all the edits of you guys. I'm like their.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Oh, we sit up on FaceTime until 5 in the morning, just sending them back to each other.

[Tana Mongeau]

Wait, I'll literally actually cry.

[Brooke Baldwin]

We love them so much.

[Tana Mongeau]

We think, how does that feel too? Like, dude, I've been on TikTok and my for you page is literally just edits of you. Like doing everything, every sound easy. Yeah, but you're that bitch. Like, you're like, I don't think I'll.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Ever come to terms with this. Like, I, you don't understand. I was spiraling in that villa. Like, it's going to take me years a to recover from this. Like, I was traumatized. I still am. I think in like a lot of things. I'm realizing, like, oh, fuck. Like, I am going straight to therapy. Like, drop.

[Tana Mongeau]

I was going to say, like, does Love island offer like the therapy pack out?

[Brooke Baldwin]

But you know what? I don't want theirs. So you're like, actually, I'm going to.

[Tana Mongeau]

Need eight life coaches and a psych ward. Yeah, get that. I can't, I can't fucking imagine. I mean, at least you did come out of it. Like, and overall the reception is good, but still, you've got to make sure your mental is right, being able to handle all of that.

[Brooke Baldwin]

And like, no, my mental is in hell right now. I need to, I need to build it back up for sure, like coming out and no, I can't. But the thing is, the things that are helping are my supporters. Like, I, I, I don't deserve them. I think that they have given me. Like, I'm, I'm fucking honored. I literally am honored. Like, I night and day from the villa to.

[Tana Mongeau]

I really think that you do deserve them, though. Like, you're fucking so iconic. Every single person that is supporting you, there's a fucking reason. Like, from the outfits to the shit you have to say, anyone navigating through, like, what you went through across that fucking show for 36 episodes, I know I would not do it with that much grace or intelligence or any of that. Or you could. The house would be on fire. You fucking killed it. And you deserve everything. And I just, like, again, it's probably so hard, like, feeling so low in the villa and then coming out and feeling so high and trying to figure out this, like, middle ground to be at. But I'm proud of you and the people love you.

[Brooke Baldwin]

It literally means, like, more than you know, it really does. Like, the support is like, the one driving factor of, like, that I'm okay these people, like, I can do it for them. So I just feel like, so lucky.

[Tana Mongeau]

So you're her. You're that bitch, though. Like, just don't fucking forget that. I'm serious.

[Brooke Baldwin]

It's crazy.

[Tana Mongeau]

And it's like, everyone has so many questions and, like, I don't even. I do just want to say for all the canceled viewers, like, we've been talking about this a lot off camera. Like, this is not ending at a zoom. Like, I want you on the couch beat up, talking shit. Like, whole nine. Whole nine.

[Brooke Baldwin]

We'll bring the tea. We'll do our big one.

[Tana Mongeau]

Are you planning on starting your own podcast at some point? I feel like the people want it so bad.

[Brooke Baldwin]

I know that the people want a podcast and I know they want it. They would love it with ppg. And you guys, if you have heard our conversations, oh, my God, we are unfucking hinged. I know people would love it. I know it. But I think we are also. There are things coming. Like, there are a lot of fun things coming, for sure. Nothing is, like, set in the books, but we are definitely, like, looking at a lot of stuff. I know that. I'm like, and my girls, they have a lot of great shit coming for them. All well deserved. Literally deserve the whole world. And then I know for.

[Tana Mongeau]

You're like, also like, hey, I might want to meditate for two weeks.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Yeah, I think, right. I'm just trying to settle. But I. There are for sure a lot of fun fucking things.

[Tana Mongeau]

And I mean, just jumping straight from, like, that filming that show has got to be so much work. Like, trying to be entertaining. Like, the mental game in your head of, like, you know what I mean? Like, I'm on camera at all times. I need to be funny.

[Leah Kate]

I need to look.

[Brooke Baldwin]

No, I stopped caring how I looked on, like, day two, you guys. You could literally see, like, the frizz in my hair. It was like, I literally was telling everyone, I don't give a fuck anymore.

[Tana Mongeau]

It's.

[Brooke Baldwin]

That is what they're going to get. And if you don't like it, then fuck it. Because what you're getting.

[Tana Mongeau]

It's so crazy because you say that, but, like, I was watching. So, like, the outfits. Can you walk me? I'm sorry if this is. I know all the people.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Whatever you want, please. I'm dead.

[Tana Mongeau]

It's bullet point. All my comments were like, ask Leah about Rob. I'm like, no, I want to know about the outfits.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Let's talk about my clothes.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like, way more important first of all, like, order of fucking operations here. How many suitcases?

[Brooke Baldwin]

Okay, four suitcases. Two in the villa.

[Tana Mongeau]

And then did all the other bitches have four suitcases of shit? Or were you, like, you really came to play?

[Brooke Baldwin]

You know, Caylor had a lot of clothes as well. Serene. So fucking funny. Serena would. Every night would be like, leah, I'm going to go shopping in your closet tonight. And she's like, open it up. And I'm like, go. Like, I feel like I'm one of those people, though. I love, like, sharing clothes and I love, like, matching with my girls and I love that kind of stuff. So, like, it made me so happy, like, seeing everyone wear my clothes. And, like, I also like my shoes. I brought. I think I brought like, 15 pairs of shoes and shout out Bottega, because that was a very big amount of.

[Tana Mongeau]

I swear to God. Sharing is like the biggest fucking serotonin in the world. Especially when a bitch has a wardrobe like yours. Have you always been, like a designer fashion queen? Like a vintage fashion queen? Like, when you. You walked out in something, Roberto Cavalli, and I damn near fucking fell to the floor and died. I was like, these bitches could never. You didn't even have to talk like your outfit was speaking for you.

[Brooke Baldwin]

No, I fucking love that dress. My sister sent it. My sister is behind all of my clothes. I can't dress myself for shit. I always tell her, like, when I try and dress myself, I will stand in front of the mirror and panic. You know that scene of the Grinch where he's, like, putting on his clothes and he's like, no, hate it. That's me as fuck when I try and dress myself.

[Tana Mongeau]

But when I'm sweating, screaming, crying, throwing.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Up, I always say I need to have, like, I plan one hour of a mental breakdown before I go out so I can have a mental breakdown of, like, body dysmorphia. And then I'll be like, okay, cool, now I'm ready to go out.

[Tana Mongeau]

Absolutely. Like, I look in the mirror, I see Jabba the Hut. I breathe about it for an hour, and then I'm.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Yeah, and then, like, I'll just get drunk and pretend like I'm not feeling that way.

[Tana Mongeau]

So it's like looking in a mirror, like, like, me as fuck.

[Brooke Baldwin]

But, yeah, no, I credit give all. Run my sister her fucking credit. She's behind all the outfits, she's behind all the vintage pieces, she's behind all the looks. She is she has, she. She gets fashion. Like that shit comes to her so easily. So that's all on her.

[Tana Mongeau]

A built in stylist as a sister is the actual dream. But it's crazy because you just wear it all so effortlessly. Effortlessly. Hello, the body, like you just kill it. I don't know. I'm like beside myself with all of that.

[Brooke Baldwin]

I love so much.

[Tana Mongeau]

I was wondering like one of the episodes, Kaylor. Or did Kaylor get voted off and she was wearing your dress or like you got like, like was everyone sharing.

[Brooke Baldwin]

A lot of people. Like, so you're not. You don't. You don't have to share with everyone like what. Those are yours. So yeah. Want people to wear your clothes. Like they can wear your clothes. A lot of the girls were sharing with each other and I, I told them like they. On like day two, I literally was like, y'all, don't. You don't need to ask me for anything. Like, I know we would call my section on the vanity the pharmacy because girls would literally go and like just take all my out. And I would be like, don't. You don't need to ask me. Like they. The first few days, like, they'd be like, can we. Can I borrow this? Can I borrow. Because I'm like, take.

[Tana Mongeau]

Take it by day eight. You're like, take the bronzing.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Oh no. I literally. Oh, they're. Kayla took my. Kayla currently have my hairbrush. She's like, she literally has it now. I saw, when I saw her at the airport, like, she was like, oh, by the way, like, I have it. And I was like, I know you do. I stole. I stole a Dyson hairbrush from the, from the villa.

[Tana Mongeau]

Because real as fuck, that's some financial.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Hair was intertwined in that hairbrush for like two months. It was funny as.

[Tana Mongeau]

That's so funny. Like, I just. I love when a hot girl wants to share too. Like not a gatekeeper. It's so. It's the best thing. I think it's so funny because all the people probably want me to ask you so much about tea and I'm just talking to you about.

[Brooke Baldwin]

No, you can. You literally ask me whatever you.

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[Tana Mongeau]

Well, I just have a few questions for myself and I'll cut them all. Okay, I know. I'm getting you on the couch. Like, I'm in.

[Brooke Baldwin]

No, I know, I know. Let's save some for the couch, too, because I want to give you an Brook the piping hot.

[Tana Mongeau]

Absolutely. And we need Brooks commentary for, like, so much.

[Brooke Baldwin]

I know my girl was going through it. My sister was trying to update me on it, and I was like, I gotta. I need. I still haven't looked at it. I need to. I need to get caught up. I need to get caught up.

[Tana Mongeau]

I just realized the amount, like, I think I'm like, you had no phone.

[Leah Kate]

Yes.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like, oh, my God, I didn't even think about the amount of. You. Ms. Long story short, he's like an awful lying lizard. He said his mom is dead. His mom is alive. 30 part series he made. You don't have to watch it. It'll make you want to die. Like, just watch Brooks and.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Oh, no, no. I don't give a. What he has to say. I just wanted to. Yeah, for sure.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah. You're gonna die, though. It's so nuts. These men just. I don't know. I mean, I guess speaking of playing blind, cheating men. I don't know. I don't know the lor. So forgive me if I'm just so wrong on this right now. Talk to me about Rob. Okay? Like, where did you two leave off? Like, you're like, cameras are off. You're all finally going home. Like, where are you two at?

[Brooke Baldwin]

We're good. I do think people are supporting something that doesn't exist. As friends, we are great. He is a good person. As a friend, basically. We don't click. We frankly never did in that way. I was miserable every second. I always was living with, like, sheer anxiety and fighter mode. And as someone who kind of is very used to that in a relationship, due to past relationships of just, like, trauma, it was very triggering every day. And the fact that the way it all played out was even more triggering. It was very painful. It put me in a headspace that I haven't been in in a very long time. It made me do things that I haven't done in a very long time.

[Tana Mongeau]

If you've ever been with A man before who like, lacks reassurance. Even if you go years without being with a man like that, you can immediately like, fall back into those patterns.

[Brooke Baldwin]

It's literally like miserable and.

[Tana Mongeau]

Sorry, I'm getting a fucking call. I don't know why anyone would ever try to call me right now.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Right now they're disrupting.

[Tana Mongeau]

I'm on my zoom anyways.

[Brooke Baldwin]

But yeah, like, I get it. I do. I. I get it. Like, we were so, like, in sync at the beginning and like, we were very, like, into each other. But some moments felt very theatrical, some moments felt very. He just. I don't know, it just felt like fraudulent day was so scary and I was waiting for the other shoe to drop. And then, you know, everything happened the way it did after he was saying, like, you're never going to be left in the dark. And then he stood up there and I just went, oh, my God.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like, we really will let a man in overalls tell us that we'll never be left in the dark and then still get left in the fucking dark as bad. And like, that's what's crazy. I didn't know his. Well, you also are from California, right? Yeah, but I didn't know that he like, was in LA before this.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Like, I don't. Is. Was he? I have no idea.

[Tana Mongeau]

I think I. Some girl I know was saying he was like, in some awful situationship with this LA girl I know. And I was like, that would just check out. So then I see him like in the car with Nessa Barrett. I'm like, leave Nessa alone.

[Brooke Baldwin]

I saw that too. But again, like, I do think he deserves to be happy, just not.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, 100%.

[Brooke Baldwin]

What I'm telling you, I was fucking miserable. I was crying every day. I had terrible anxiety every day. I'm literally like. Was like a mess up until the second I'm coupled up with. Honestly, the second Miguel came in, like, I feel like it literally was just like, just starting as our friendship and then there as a friend and like, just having someone who was like, so funny and just didn't care what other people thought of me. Because in the villa, it was a bit like. It kind of felt like everyone was scolding me a little for the Rob situation, minus my girls, of course. Like, they were there for me, but aside from everyone else, it kind of made me feel like I was the one who did something very wrong and only me. I did something wrong. It didn't feel like I felt like I was the only one being held accountable. Yes, Rob and I both did things wrong, but I just was like, well, why am I the only one kind of being scolded for it? And it felt like that from everyone. It felt like every. Like my feelings were being very downplayed by the producers as well. And I know that the producers keep telling me not to talk about them, but, like, it was like, just, like, such betrayal in every realm. Like, they're like, we care about you. And I was like, but I'm dying and you don't care.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, that's.

[Brooke Baldwin]

That's me saying that. But, like, I don't care. That's how I fucking felt. So.

[Tana Mongeau]

No, you're realist. Fuck. For that. I think Brooke and I talk about this, like, a lot as well. But, like, even if, like, TV producers are humans, too, and I'm sure in their hardest of hearts, like, they do, they want to care about people, but their whole job is to literally, like, up your mental state.

[Brooke Baldwin]

There was a moment where Liv and I were crying so hard, and they were like, hold on. Cameras aren't rolling. Can you hold this? And me and Liv's freaked out.

[Tana Mongeau]

We said I would lose it.

[Brooke Baldwin]

We were.

[Tana Mongeau]

It's like, it's not my fault you can't turn the camera.

[Brooke Baldwin]

I get it. This shit's entertaining to you guys. I get it, I get it.

[Tana Mongeau]

I get it.

[Brooke Baldwin]

It's a TV show to you guys. But this is our real lives.

[Tana Mongeau]

This isn't.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Yeah, we're not having fun right now, frankly. I'm miserable and I want to go home. And I feel like I'm here. I can't talk to anyone about it because everyone already mad at me about Rob. And I'm just sitting here like, oh, my God. Like, could this get any worse? And then it kept getting worse until Miguel. Then everything got better.

[Tana Mongeau]

I love the fairytale happy ending again. I feel for you so hard, though. Like, phoneless, fucking heartbroken. The only people you can talk to are people who just want to film you at your worst.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Like, and they kept telling me, like, if you want to talk, we can. And I'm like, no, because you're going to make me say it on camera. And it's going to, like, literally, like, make me look like I'm, like, a suicidal, like, fucking freak. Which was getting weird in there. Like, I was very upset.

[Tana Mongeau]

And it's like, you're not a licensed therapist and you can't even.

[Brooke Baldwin]

It felt more like they wanted to gossip versus, like, check in on.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah, like, you're like fucking animals in a zoo. And that's so, like, again, so much therapy, so much peace and relaxation. I was so fucking mad the other day on TikTok. Don't get me wrong. I appreciate, like, for you, I love seeing all the support and winning, but obviously, some people take it too far. And I was like. I saw some shit about, like, your address or your house or something, and I was like, you're really, like, this girl just went through fucking hell on national television, and people really want to try you like that. And that's, like, the dark sides of fame.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Like, that's especially because I don't even live in this house. I have an apartment. It's being renovated right now. My family lives here. My poor family lives here. My parents, who have no idea about social media, who have no idea about fame or attention. My animals are here. The people I care about the most are in this home, and people are.

[Tana Mongeau]

And it's like, your only safe space.

[Brooke Baldwin]

And even that is getting violated.

[Tana Mongeau]

But I am just, like, really grateful that you are in such a good spot with Miguel, where you at least feel like you have one person from this experience and who's going through something kind of similar to what you are right now online who, like, gets you and sees you. Like, oh, my gosh.

[Brooke Baldwin]

She's literally giving me, like, Dr. Phil type advice. Like, I think, like, I could.

[Tana Mongeau]

God, yeah.

[Brooke Baldwin]

No. My sister is, like, obsessed with everything the advice he's been giving. Like, she's like, he's fucking wise. And I'm like, I'm telling you guys this, man.

[Tana Mongeau]

I love when a straight man does something. Okay? When any straight man does something. Like, that's my favorite. And thank God I saw that. So what's his take on? Because obviously you're, like, so mature about all this Rob shit. Like, and not even being petty at all. You're like, we're friends. Everyone's like, does Miguel follow Rob? How does he feel? Like, how does. Do you know how he feels about, like, shit that went down to you in the house?

[Brooke Baldwin]

I know he. Seeing it is not his favorite thing. Like, he definitely feels for me of seeing everything from the beginning. Like, clearly there were a lot of things he didn't see that went down between Rob and I. Of, like, how. Like, I just went through a lot. Like, it's hard, even myself, seeing myself like that. I have to skip through it. It's very triggering. It is very triggering. Like, I started. I saw a video of myself, like, sobbing, and I just started crying my eyes out. I don't want to re. Watch it at all. I. I know I embarrassed. I know I was being a pick me, whatever for Rob, like, but the.

[Tana Mongeau]

Pick me allegations are also crazy. Like, just again, to everything.

[Leah Kate]

I.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like, if you put anyone in that situation, like, you can't blame yourself and be like, oh, I embarrassed myself. No, like, if you put me with 80 fucking wide shots on me, like. Like, I would be. I'd be, like, farting and disgusting and, like, losing it. Like, it's like you're set up to fail and to end up prevailing is, like, so strong and intelligent.

[Brooke Baldwin]

It's ridiculous. It's like, I'm so lucky. Like, I am so thankful for everyone like, that they saw it the way they did. And I do remember there was a moment in the villa, I told Rob, I said, when you come out of here and you see the way I actually was towards you, you're going, where are we now? And I'm even more sick. I was saying the other day, I said, the more I see the way he was talking about me, I start to get even more upset. And the more he probably sees the way I'm talking about him, he probably starts to, like, think, like, fucking shit about it. Yeah, exactly. Like, she was actually genuine.

[Tana Mongeau]

So it's crazy, too, because wasn't he. And I could just be making this up. Forgive me, but wasn't he on, like, a Love island season before? Like, he's like, he's done reality shows.

[Brooke Baldwin]

He was last season, and I didn't watch it, so I didn't know who he was when he came in. But the girls were saying, like, oh, my gosh, isn't that Rob from last season? And I was like, I would. When we first, like, got together, I would, like, make jokes about it, and I would call him, like, the veteran of Love island. Like, okay, like, tell me how to do this. Oh, what should we do now? And he knew. He knew. I don't know. I don't know. He's a really good guy. I just don't think, like, he's a good guy for me as, like, relationship romantically. I honestly, out of, like, respect for Miguel, kind of don't even want a friendship at the moment.

[Tana Mongeau]

I get that you're, like, listening, but.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Just, like, from afar, I think.

[Leah Kate]

Yeah.

[Tana Mongeau]

And I think that's, like, the absolute best situation. Like, you are in the best case scenario, which is crazy. Will you ever. You'll never. I am gathering. At least I like it. Would I be scarred? Like, would you ever do a dating show again?

[Brooke Baldwin]

Never. They called me the next day and said, would you go on Love Island. I said no. I didn't even let them finish the sentence. I said, no.

[Tana Mongeau]

No at all.

[Brooke Baldwin]

And I don't need to go on a dating show.

[Tana Mongeau]

I found my.

[Brooke Baldwin]

I'm good.

[Tana Mongeau]

The next. The next thing filmed is the fucking wedding bitch. Okay. Or the birth bitch. Stop. Do you want kids?

[Brooke Baldwin]

I do. We both want, like, four kids.

[Tana Mongeau]

Oh, my God, stop. And you're gonna have such a cute. Like, I can just see where does he live?

[Brooke Baldwin]

He's like a nomad for sure. But he's like, definitely. Like, right now he's in the uk, but he's coming here soon. We have a lot of fun, like, trips planned together. We have so much we want to do. Like, and I'm going to see him. Like, I'll see him soon. I'll see him very soon.

[Tana Mongeau]

I'm folding, like, a lawn chair for this. Like, the simp in me is just like, oh, this is scenario. And I'm so happy for you.

[Brooke Baldwin]

You're the best.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like, you just. Now that this is. This trauma is over, like, you're just. I feel like you're such a smart girl and you're going to fucking figure it all out. And you're so blessed with this, like, huge new platform that you deserve, like, a motherfucker. Like, go off, bitch.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Thank you.

[Tana Mongeau]

Seriously, like, and that's the thing is it's like you can't accredit any of it to anything. But you, like, you fucking did that.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Wait. It's everyone out there. Like, they.

[Tana Mongeau]

They see. Like, they recognize that you are that bitch.

[Brooke Baldwin]

It means everything. It literally means everything. Serious, like, for. You should have told me we were day drinking, bitch. I would have brought my bottle of tequila.

[Tana Mongeau]

I really. I swear, this actual canceled episode is going to be so heinous. I wish you were here in Hawaii with me right now. I'm like, on camera.

[Brooke Baldwin]

What? Drunk interview? Or is that so messy?

[Tana Mongeau]

I will get drunk with you. I will get high with you. I don't. Whatever. We can take mushrooms and get fucking philosophical.

[Leah Kate]

I don't give up.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Whatever that is.

[Tana Mongeau]

Even today, I was like, yes, I have questions and shit. But, like, you've already done the, like, big ringer interview. And I feel like it's like, that's not what the people want from you. Like, they want to see you talk about, like, random shit. Yeah. And, like, that's what I'm excited to have you on for, is just to come like, Kiki and talk about random.

[Brooke Baldwin]

I'm so excited because I know you guys, like, we are all like, I know our personalities just vibe so well. I'm so excited, man.

[Tana Mongeau]

You know what? I just remembered that I need to know from you because I was thinking about our personalities literally vibing, and I was thinking, like, I just feel like your thoughts in your head during Love Island. Like, I would. I would pay a billion dollars to be a fly on the wall in your thoughts. And I wanted to know, like, do you have any memorable icks that you got from any of the guys in this show?

[Brooke Baldwin]

Memorable icks? Everything.

[Tana Mongeau]

Even if it's like, some stupid shit.

[Brooke Baldwin]

I'm like, what wasn't an ick?

[Tana Mongeau]

My biggest ick, I always say, is watching a guy chase a ping pong ball. Like, I mean, like, literally, like, a.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Lot of them chase ping pong balls. It wasn't bad. Swear it wasn't. It wasn't. I see a lot of people say that, actually. I do. They. They picked it up gracefully. That one I won't say I don't love. I have the. All the guys in the villa know this, and Rob actually did a. Pulled, like, a joke on me one time, like, when we were going to the doc. Like, the guys had him do it as a joke. I hate. Hate hates a strong word. I dislike when men wear, like, a full. Like, a nighttime outfit with sandals. Like, thong sandals.

[Tana Mongeau]

Toes out. As a man. Why are your toes out?

[Brooke Baldwin]

Yeah, it's a bit. It's a bit freaky. So then, like, he. When he pulled me to the dock and he. And I looked down and he. And I was like, oh. And I. He knows this. And I looked up and he was like, he's just started dying laughing. And he was.

[Tana Mongeau]

You're like, your fourth toe has a hangnail.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Connor told me to do it as a joke, and I was like, thank God, because I was actually about to say, like, we can't be together anymore at all.

[Tana Mongeau]

See, that's the type of shit I needed to hear. That's what I give a fuck about.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Yeah, I literally like that. Like, when men wear like. Like, I fucking love Aaron, but Aaron every night would wear, like, a full outfit and then just like, thong sandals, and it's like, okay, pop off, queen. But again, though, he's European. He gets. I guess. I guess it, like, it goes off. I like.

[Tana Mongeau]

My thing is I'm, like, really big on. Like. Like, if a guy has really good style, I'm immediately. I'm gravitating. Especially like, you're a bitch with style. So you see it like, I feel like when Miguel walked In you were probably like, oh, my God. Finally, like, someone with some, like, swag.

[Brooke Baldwin]

When I thought he was so fucking hot. Like, from the second, like, he walked in like that, the dimples just.

[Tana Mongeau]

They knew what they were doing. They were like, we need, like, their.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Big one bringing him in, like, point blank period. Like, thanks, guys. The one thing you did right. Yay.

[Tana Mongeau]

Right? You're like, you can live for now.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Love island live right now.

[Tana Mongeau]

Honestly, look, I'm not kidding. I had all of my, like, roommates and friends give me a list, like, what they wanted to know, and I'm like, I. I feel like we just need to wait for the canceled podcast.

[Brooke Baldwin]

I know. We can just.

[Tana Mongeau]

I. I'm not getting. Like, half of this was just me checking in on you. I wanted the people to know that, like, I saw their comments and, like, I'm alive.

[Brooke Baldwin]

I am semi okay. I will be okay. Don't worry about me. You guys are the reason I am okay. I love you so very much. Don't worry about me. I'm a big girl. I'm a tough kid. I can handle it. I am good. I love you.

[Tana Mongeau]

See, like, I have chills. Like, just boss ass bitch energy. I'm so excited for the start of this psychotic friendship.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Oh, we got you.

[Tana Mongeau]

Me and Brooke on that couch is actually gonna be lethal. And I'm, like, counting down the minutes.

[Brooke Baldwin]

I'm excited, man.

[Tana Mongeau]

Like, I'm so mad that I'm on a rock in the middle of the ocean while all of this. You're lucky.

[Brooke Baldwin]

That's like, I. Well, actually, yeah, maybe I don't want to be somewhere tropical for a minute at all.

[Tana Mongeau]

Next vacation. Next vacation is in the snow at a lodge, bitch.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Yeah, I'm okay. Actually. Like, the view now that I'm looking at the water and the palm trees in the back, I'm getting a call. I should.

[Tana Mongeau]

I'm gonna fucking go.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Hey, so it's so nice talking to you.

[Tana Mongeau]

Yeah. I love you so much. And, like, thank you for making this work. Yesterday you were like, we've been going back and forth on the day, and I thought you wanted to do. Yesterday I. Running out of the ocean like a wet rat, bro.

[Brooke Baldwin]

I. I was dying. I literally was like, oh, why'd she get so excited about me saying tomorrow? And then I look and I was like, oh. I said, let's do today. I was like, no, no, no.

[Tana Mongeau]

I'm wet rat running out of the beach. Like, I gotta get on my zoom.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Get on our zoom. No, I love it that I got to Talk to you. I'm fucking. I'm excited for this. This is about to evolve into something. No.

[Tana Mongeau]

I'm just so obsessed with you. And I love that you are my whole for you page. I never want that to change. And I'm so excited for it to now be us on my whole for you page in a couple days. But this is the start of something beautiful. And like, actually, thank you for taking.

[Brooke Baldwin]

The time wanting me on here. Thank you so much.

[Tana Mongeau]

I swear to God, I think not only did Brooke and I want you on canceled so bad and again, we have to sit with Brooke, but, like, if I didn't get you on this zoom, the comments, like, I can't, I can't. I don't even know what they would have done to me. I was like, I gotta give the people a taste of what they're gonna get when I'm home.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Yes. I'm so excited. I'm so excited.

[Tana Mongeau]

I love you so much. I love you and Miguel so much. I'm just so happy for you that you're out of the villa with a phone bitch. And some therapy.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Yes. Here she is in all her glory.

[Tana Mongeau]

And some more fucking cavalry dresses and no overalls.

[Brooke Baldwin]

It's Miguel.

[Tana Mongeau]

Stop.

[Leah Kate]

I love you.

[Tana Mongeau]

I love you so, so, so much.

[Brooke Baldwin]

I love you for it. And I'm so excited to sit down and talk to you. It's gonna be.

[Tana Mongeau]

I'm honestly calling you after this so we can talk more shit off camera, please.

[Brooke Baldwin]

I love you. Love you, love you, love you.

[Tana Mongeau]

I actually don't know how to leave the zoom.

[Brooke Baldwin]

I do. Peace.

[Unknown]

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[Leah Kate]

1, 2, 3. Hello and welcome back to the cancelled podcast. Oh, you ate that up.

[Unknown]

Did I?

[Leah Kate]

All right, you guys, clearly we don't have our normal situation today. Tana is not beside me. She is in Hawaii, living her best life and getting her ducks in a row.

[Unknown]

Okay, jealous.

[Leah Kate]

So she, I believe, filmed her Half already. And she got Leah Kate from Love island, which makes me so fucking jealous. I wanted to do it together so bad. I was DMing her yesterday, like, begging her to be my friend. But I have here in front of me one of our most requested guests of all time, which is Ms. Brooke Baldwin, also known as BB. You know, a lot of people think that BB and Brooke Baldwin are two different people.

[Unknown]

No, I didn't know that. They do.

[Leah Kate]

I don't know, because we, like, I use you, like, interchangeably. And people didn't understand that it was the same thing. But this is my best friend on the entire planet. My longest friend in la and the only person I would say, if the world was on fire, obviously I would save Tana as well, but she would be second. Just kidding.

[Unknown]

I would save you too. Don't worry.

[Leah Kate]

Welcome to the pod.

[Unknown]

Thank you. I'm so. I'm honestly, I've been so nervous, and she's really nervous.

[Leah Kate]

But I like, we just went to dinner before this, and I was like, bb, this is literally exactly what we're doing right now. You have a conversation, except there's a microphone in front of you. You're not on a stage.

[Unknown]

It's okay. I feel better now that I'm here.

[Leah Kate]

First of all, I tweeted a bunch of things. Well, first of all, I tweeted, like, what. What do you guys want to hear from bb? And they had lots of questions for you, but first and most importantly, they want to know how the fuck where you came from. Okay, where I came from. How do we know each other?

[Unknown]

That's my favorite thing is, like, I see comments all the time saying, like, she just came out of nowhere. Like, where did she even come from? I'm like, guys, I literally have known Brooke for, like, six years. We've been best friends for six years.

[Leah Kate]

Yeah. And, like, really openly, too. Bibi showed up in my living room one day. So she was living. We lived, like, at the time, we lived at an apartment or an apartment complex called the Ava in Toluca Lake. We lived. We have obviously the same name. We lived on the same floor in the same building.

[Unknown]

There's 26 buildings in this apartment complex. It's huge.

[Leah Kate]

Yeah. It has A through Z. And we both lived in Building U. We lived on the same floor, same name, same time. We didn't know each other until one day, randomly. I don't know why and I don't know who brought you there. You were in my living room and Brooke sobbed. I did. She. She started singing for Some reason, she was like one of those who just, like, sang out of nowhere.

[Unknown]

Well, okay. Singing out of nowhere is, like, actually crazy. But we both shared the love for Billie Eilish.

[Leah Kate]

Yes.

[Unknown]

And it was. What was that? 2018 or 2019?

[Leah Kate]

It had to be 2018. I moved in. 2018.

[Unknown]

2018. And I sang. What song was that?

[Leah Kate]

A Billie Eilish song. And I literally sobbed my eyes out. I do that every time someone sings to me. Honestly. Obviously. Even if they're bad. But you're lucky you're good.

[Unknown]

Was I bad?

[Leah Kate]

No, you were fabulous. But we've been best friends ever since I knew her before any of this happened, Obviously. You've been my little ride or die with the exception of one. Really? I have to bring it up because, honestly, it's important for the listeners to know about.

[Unknown]

Honestly, it's a. It's a big part of my lore.

[Leah Kate]

Well, listen, so especially since, like, like, obviously they're up to date on my whole Clinton situation. We talk a lot about emotionally abusive relationships, which. I'm not sure if you would identify your ex as an emotionally abusive person, but this is what I will say. BB Was banned from seeing me and hanging out with me for a really long time. Why don't you tell us about that?

[Unknown]

Okay. So I did a guy for a couple years, and he hated Brooke, Hated her. They hated each other. It was really. It was on and off, really toxic. Whatever. I. I moved across the country. I'm from California. I moved to Charlotte, North Carolina, for this man. Okay? I moved there. I was there for eight months. It was really scary.

[Leah Kate]

They got a dog together. More importantly, she blocked. She moved without a single word, blocked my number and didn't talk to me the entire time she was gone because her boyfriend didn't like me. I don't give a fuck.

[Unknown]

Okay? But to be fair, I'm not. You weren't mean, but I didn't like your opinion on it. I just didn't. And I was.

[Leah Kate]

That I didn't like your loser boyfriend.

[Unknown]

That. That was. That's totally valid. I see it. I see it now. I see it now. You were super valid. But also at the same time, I was like, I love this guy.

[Leah Kate]

I guess when you love someone, like, I feel like you wouldn't do it to me. More importantly, I actually just talked about this on another podcast. How I, like, regret how I handled it.

[Unknown]

Because, like, you're gonna pretend like you told me you wanted to get back together with Clinton Cain and I wasn't mean to you about it.

[Leah Kate]

You're right, you weren't.

[Unknown]

And you know, it's so funny about it is when she was going through the whole Clinton thing, so I was there for the entire situation. I told her, I said, how does it feel? I'm like, you're so lucky that I'm. I'm being nice and letting you, like, letting it run its course because honestly, you're not going to leave or you're not going to stop talking to someone just because someone else does. Like, you're going to leave when you're ready. Realistically.

[Leah Kate]

Yeah, it's. And that's how you, like, end up, like, hiding shit from your friends and stuff is if, like, if your friends are really hard on you about it. I don't know. I experienced that too, because, like, there was a certain point where I wasn't even telling anyone that I was talking to Clinton because I was ashamed of it. And I knew my friends would, like, literally, like, slice me open if they know, but not you.

[Unknown]

Yeah. No, you told me everything. You for sure told me everything. And I feel like I was still supportive. I didn't want you to do it, but, like, at the end of the day, you're still going to do it no matter what.

[Leah Kate]

I like that you won't judge me. Same thing with this last situationship I just had. I'd be like, yeah, I'm with him again. She'd be like, oh, I liked him.

[Unknown]

Until I didn't like him.

[Leah Kate]

Same. So felt good about you until I.

[Unknown]

Didn'T shout out, gracie Abrams, we love you.

[Leah Kate]

We do love Gracie. We talk a lot on the Cancel podcast about how BB has, like, odd jobs. That's been a thing since I've met her, obviously. She's like, like, you'll do anything for a dollar. Which is, like, very admirable. But, like, what the.

[Unknown]

We're hustling out here. I had. I have to, like, can you talk.

[Leah Kate]

About some of the jobs that you've.

[Unknown]

Had so I can. During COVID I learned how to make rugs.

[Leah Kate]

She had a rug making business.

[Unknown]

Yes. It was called Lovesick Gallery. And I was all about.

[Leah Kate]

She was love sick.

[Unknown]

All right. I was sick. I was down.

[Leah Kate]

I was.

[Unknown]

I was mentally unstable at that point. But, yeah, I learned how to make rugs. That was fun. I've done tooth gems. I learned how to tattoo.

[Leah Kate]

It's so funny because, like, I don't know where I'll get followed by an account that's like, tooth gems by bb. And I'm like, well, there you go. New. New Business unlocked the way.

[Unknown]

That's actually my tooth Gem account.

[Leah Kate]

When we were, when we were first, like, obviously we were like both really broke when we lived here. Like, first lived here. Baby was living in the living room with Lila. That's also another misconception. Misconception because Lila always says, like, I was living in the living room with Brooke, but that's, that's broke me. I lived a few doors down in a bedroom, but we were really broke. And I would drive around BB all day long while she drove for Uber Eats. And we would drop, we would pick up and drop off all her orders.

[Unknown]

We would go, we would go to Glendale and my little Volkswagen Bug, we.

[Leah Kate]

Were, we were hustling and half the time it didn't work. It would just be like smoking out the, out the front and we were like waiting.

[Unknown]

One time I was with Lila and we were Uber eating and we were like almost back to our house and my car started smoking and I had an. I had like Burger King in my car and I fully had to pull over. I called a night to cancel the Uber.

[Leah Kate]

Oh, they were probably so distraught because I.

[Unknown]

And I messaged them. I go, I'm so sorry my car broke down. They probably thought I was lying so I could eat it 100%.

[Leah Kate]

But I feel like if you were going to steal someone's Uber eats, you wouldn't choose Burger King.

[Unknown]

I, I think I might.

[Leah Kate]

BB also worked. I do like Burger King a lot, honestly. Like, let's not slander chicken fries. She also worked as a paralegal. She called herself a paralegal. That was like something like your mom got you into, right?

[Unknown]

Yeah, my mom was a paral and then she was a office manager at a law firm. So that's kind of how I got that job. And honestly, it was fun. I liked it. It was extra money and I was driving down Orange County a few times a week to do that.

[Leah Kate]

It's so funny to me. And honestly, it's admirable because I don't like transitioning. Like, I don't like change. So I don't like to have a new job ever. I want you to have a new job. I want you to be a full time friend of mine. I want to talk about some things that are going on online right now.

[Unknown]

Okay.

[Leah Kate]

First up, I Spice and her poop fetish.

[Unknown]

Poop fetish.

[Leah Kate]

You know. You don't know about it.

[Unknown]

No.

[Leah Kate]

First of all, I Spice is on my shit list right now. I'll tell you why. Obviously we have the whole situation going on with Central C and Mads, if you guys are not up to date. Mads was in a relationship for the past three years with Central C. He started posting with Ice Spice. They had a song coming out on his verse. He was, like, talking about how he's a serial cheater and he loves cheating on his girlfriend and he loves cheating on her with Ice Spice. Okay.

[Unknown]

It's insane.

[Leah Kate]

And so then he pops out with Ice Spice at Chrome Hearts and, like, it's a whole thing. Whatever. Mads makes her videos about it. She makes like four videos or something. All of them have, like 50 million views. And for the most part, people are very supportive of her the same way they were of me. Like, very on her side. Because, like, no one likes to get cheated on. No one likes to get lied to. Yeah. Okay. And I didn't like the situation because I was not loving the way that everyone was coming for Ice Spice. Because I'm like, we don't blame the girl. We blame Stench. Okay.

[Unknown]

Yeah. Until she started posting things that were. She's definitely not a girl's girl.

[Leah Kate]

That's exactly right. So I'm over here like, no, it's not Ice Spice's fault. Like, I love Dice Spice. I was such a fan of hers, ironically Mad or Madeline. And I went to her with you. Oh, yeah. Like, that was our number one priority at Coachella was to go see I Spice. Madeline even said it in her blog. She was like, the only person we cared about this day is Ice Spice. Like, we were so, like, we loved her.

[Unknown]

We left Billie Eilish's set at the do lab to see I Spice.

[Leah Kate]

I got my phone stolen and I did not care because I was not missing Ice Spice for shit. Okay, tell me why Ice Spice posts a video the other day doing three bad, bad push ups, by the way. Not even proper push ups. Caption mood when I steal Hub Man's.

[Unknown]

Oh, no, Ice. That's embarrassing.

[Leah Kate]

It's humiliating. Well, she could have just sat back and I, like, everyone would have been like, still, like, still liked her. But now I'm like, you're weird as. And so now I feel no guilt talking about her poop fetish. So what's the poop fetish she can't stop talking about? She mentions poo in every single one of her songs.

[Unknown]

It's giving John Mayer.

[Leah Kate]

It's giving John Mayer. I told that story one time on Canceled. I didn't say his name, but now you know.

[Unknown]

Oh, sorry, yeah. John Mayer has a poop fetish about. He likes this is what I've heard. I don't really know anyone personally, but apparently he likes when girls on him.

[Leah Kate]

Yeah. Or on tables. And he'll sit below it.

[Unknown]

Ew.

[Leah Kate]

That's what I heard.

[Unknown]

I mean, hey, you like what you like?

[Leah Kate]

I guess I think, like. Do you think, like, people in those, like, scenarios, they just have sex with so many people that they just, like, run out of, like, things they can on. Yeah.

[Unknown]

That's like Leonardo DiCaprio has to have sex with headphones on. Did you know?

[Leah Kate]

I get that, though. Maybe he's, like, listening to it. Maybe he's listening to the canceled podcast Number three in the nation.

[Unknown]

I wouldn't blame him.

[Leah Kate]

We just came across a tick tock where I think I touched on this a little bit in the last episode. I was like. Because people were accusing Clinton of fabricating the texts in his, like, receipts. And he fabricated some stuff, but not the texts. Okay? I was unfortunately saying, saying those things. Like, I said one of the texts was like, good morning, princess. Which I thought was, like, funny. Like, that's, like, degrading. Like, good morning, princess. I can confirm it was real, but I will not allow you to slander me about it because you unironically called your ex boyfriend Pooh, short for Pookie.

[Unknown]

Okay? I was ahead of the curve, okay? We called each other Pookie Poo for short. It was a whole thing for years. I would.

[Leah Kate]

It'd be one thing if you were just, like, in the privacy of your own home talking to him, but it was like, she'd be like, well, I can't. Poo's coming over.

[Unknown]

Like, I would say, it's so dead ass. Like, embarrassing. Okay, to be fair, we started dating when I was 19, okay? Give me a break.

[Leah Kate]

If somebody called me Poo, I would literally kill myself on the spot. And I know we don't make suicide jokes.

[Unknown]

He liked it. But he ate that shit up. That poo up. No. Sorry.

[Leah Kate]

I hate him so much. Keep posing in front of cars.

[Unknown]

Seriously, thank you to my ex boyfriend for my dog. That's the only thing I have to say.

[Leah Kate]

Speaking of motherhood, I got another cat.

[Unknown]

She got another cat. What's his name?

[Leah Kate]

I got another cat. I named him Mouse. But I need to explain to everybody how it happened. And BB can back me up on this, because I did get my cat from a breeze breeder, okay? Which is, like, something I've been openly against. Like, obviously, I adopted Murph, and that's what you should do.

[Tana Mongeau]

There are so.

[Leah Kate]

There are literally Tens of thousands of cats, if not more, that need to be adopted and are not being adopted because of stupid backyard breeders. Okay? And I know that. And I. I've been, like. I've been so open about that.

[Unknown]

All right?

[Leah Kate]

That being said, I did accidentally buy a cat from a breeder. And let me tell you how it happened.

[Unknown]

We were. We were spiraling that day.

[Leah Kate]

I was spiraling. It was after we filmed. We sat down to film. Last time. BB Was here, but we filmed. It was me, Tana, and Paige. Earlier that day, I'd had a meeting, a meeting at, like, my new agency. And I. Like, it was an amazing meeting. It was all, like, really good news, but it really overwhelmed me. And I was in, like, already a phase of being, like, very overwhelmed. And I was talking to BB about it.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Like.

[Leah Kate]

Like, I cannot believe this life is real. And it, like, really. It just. I just get so emotional over it, and I, like, cannot handle it. And, like, can't. I just. I can't ever handle my emotions generally.

[Unknown]

And every time you cry. To cry. That's the night we were crying at Cheesecake Factory.

[Leah Kate]

Yeah. And so maybe me and BB she's just as emotionally unstable as I am, sometimes more so. She was my girl. And we went to the Grove. That's our happy place. That's where you see babies and you see dogs, and you go if you're sad.

[Unknown]

So Brandy Melville, we went to the Grove.

[Leah Kate]

We're walking around, and we pass. Well, I didn't even see him.

[Unknown]

Yeah. So I saw a cat on a table, and it was just sitting there, like, so perfectly. And I go, oh, my God, Brooke. Because first of all, first of all, I'm not a huge cat girl until I met Murphy, but I obviously know Brooke is. So I was like, oh, my God, Brooke, look.

[Leah Kate]

And it was a tiny little baby Bengal kitten.

[Unknown]

So tiny.

[Leah Kate]

And I said on just Trish. I was like, I wish I could get a bangle, but, like, people online would kill me. And so that was a bad setup for me, like, stepping out all of a sudden with the bangle because it looks like I. Like, it was premeditated, but I swear to God, you guys, it wasn't. I know now that this is, like, a scheme that they have going on. Like, these guys sit with one Bengal at a time at the Grove until someone buys it, and then they bring another one and another one. I didn't know that at the time. I was like, oh, my God, this is their last bangle.

[Unknown]

Yeah, I have to have this.

[Leah Kate]

Yeah, that's A thing. I know. I know, because Ari was at the Grove the next day, and he had another one, and he had a different one.

[Unknown]

You're kidding.

[Leah Kate]

Swear to God.

[Unknown]

That's so crazy. Like, you're. Like, I would never get a bangle unless it was literally just placed in front of me. And it was.

[Leah Kate]

Yeah, well, I said if it fell into my lap. This one didn't fall into my lap. I paid a lot of money for it.

[Unknown]

But it was still at the Grove at the same time as us on the same day.

[Leah Kate]

I was. I was going through such an emotion. Like, it was just so emotionally overwhelming, like, what I was already going through. And, like, I saw the cat, and for some reason, like, the universe convinced me, like, this is a sign, and I know it's wrong, but also, where was that cat gonna end up? Like, someone had to get that cat.

[Unknown]

Yeah.

[Leah Kate]

He doesn't want to go to the Grove every day.

[Unknown]

No. And I think we were talking about this, and it was so calm. We think that the breeder was sedating him to go to the Grove.

[Leah Kate]

I hope not.

[Unknown]

I hope not either. But he was so calm, and then we took him home, and he's not.

[Leah Kate]

He's not calm. He's a Bengal. And he's exactly like, having a puppy. He literally. I saw him eat an entire in and out burger the other day.

[Unknown]

He ate all the Kylie cosmetic crumble cookies, so.

[Leah Kate]

Okay, well, first of all, he didn't eat that. He's trying. I'm not let. I'm. I'm not a bad mom.

[Unknown]

No. He's so cute.

[Leah Kate]

And now he's my little baby, and his name is Matt. We have Murphy and Mouse, and they love each other. They're getting along so well. They're finally allowed to be alone together.

[Unknown]

I love them so much. I love Murphy.

[Leah Kate]

Kamala Harris used my sound on Tick Tock. And not only my. Like, it's not just a regular sound. Like, Kamala Harris used me shading Clinton Kane, like, literally saying that he needs money for therapy in an attempt to shade Donald Trump, like, on her actual, like, Kamala headquarters account.

[Unknown]

I think Donald Trump and Clinton Cain should be friends.

[Leah Kate]

I think. No, I don't think Donald would even like Clinton.

[Unknown]

I don't think anyone would like him.

[Leah Kate]

But honestly, I think that's, like, the final boss. You know, when you, like, don't even know what your real revenge plan is until it happens. Like, that was mine. Like, that poor man had to see, like, literally, Vice President Kamala Harris, like, future president, perhaps.

[Unknown]

He had to have seen it. Right?

[Leah Kate]

You know what's so funny? He's, you know, he's like, in his series, he was like, six. My. I've had these friends for six years. Yeah, they messaged me and they were like, this is fucking hilarious. Obviously, Kamala herself is not sitting on tick tock and, like, making edits of herself. So I, like, I can't identify that, but, like, it doesn't matter. It's all the same to me.

[Unknown]

But she has to be seeing it too. That's hilarious.

[Leah Kate]

That's. That's an odd job that you should pick up. Is like, being one of those, like, people who's behind those social media accounts.

[Unknown]

Because, like, they're like, ollies, Chili's, hire me.

[Leah Kate]

Seriously. No. Honest to God. Like, the Empire State Building, for example, has shaded Clinton like, six different times.

[Unknown]

So funny.

[Leah Kate]

The actual real social media accounts of the Empire State Building have posted in favor of me, like, five different times. And then they messaged me and said, do you want to come tell your story at the top?

[Unknown]

Social media is so unserious now. It's just like. It's so good.

[Leah Kate]

It is. And, like, how do you explain this to, like, imagine us even right now? Like, imagine us explaining this to our children. No, to ourselves in 2018. To, like, imagine me explaining this to you. Living in the living room with my red curtain.

[Unknown]

It was a bed sheet.

[Leah Kate]

She had a bed sheet that separated her room from Lila's room.

[Unknown]

The craziest part is that that's when I had a boyfriend, and he would come stay, and it would just be me, him, and Lila.

[Leah Kate]

Oh, that's their heart.

[Unknown]

Honestly, I loved that era. It was really fun.

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[Leah Kate]

Have you seen the Ballerina Farms? Everything that's going on at Ballerina Farms, I saw some.

[Unknown]

I have no idea what it is. Like, I'm confused.

[Leah Kate]

I don't want to. It's. It's a lot to explain, but a lot of people are asking us to talk about it on camera. Canceled, basically. Like, it was this article that was written about this girl. I forget her name, but she is a ballerina. Okay? And she had been admitted to Juilliard on a full ride scholarship, which Juilliard is, like, extremely hard to get. Into you get in. Like, it's like a 5%, 5 to 8% admission rate.

[Unknown]

That used to be my dream.

[Leah Kate]

Yeah, me too. And I like, like Brooke.

[Unknown]

Yeah. But I was like, I can't relate to that.

[Leah Kate]

I like, literally I was a ballerina, though.

[Unknown]

That's so cool.

[Leah Kate]

They wanted to go, so. But it doesn't matter. She gets. She gets admitted and then she meets this guy and basically he like really persists. She wasn't interested at first. And then he like, coerced her. His dad owns an airline. Like, he's comes from a billionaire family, owns an airline. And he like literally strategically planned to be seated next to her on a flight so that they would like, get to know each other. And that was their like, first date. And like, slowly but surely, like they got to know each other. It doesn't matter. He coerced. Coerced her is the way that it is portrayed in the article to marry him. Okay.

[Unknown]

Okay.

[Leah Kate]

Doesn't go to Juilliard. Instead moves to a rural farm.

[Unknown]

Me coded.

[Leah Kate]

You going to North Carolina?

[Unknown]

I would do that.

[Leah Kate]

I think. I think we would do this. This is like why. This is like, interesting. So she. She drops all her dreams that she's been working toward her whole entire life and now, now she's living randomly on a farm doing every like a full trad wife like does. Makes everything from scratch. She's drinking like milk straight out of the utter. She has eight kids. No, Nara Smith is not a real trad wife. She just wears a dress.

[Unknown]

She's iconic. I love her.

[Leah Kate]

I love her so much too. But she's not a try. She's not on the phone.

[Unknown]

Yeah, yeah, but I mean like making.

[Leah Kate]

I don't even know what trad wife means, by the way.

[Unknown]

Oh, but.

[Leah Kate]

But it's kind of shitty because like the way that the article is written, it's like. It's like the writer of the article had an agenda. So it's like they're. No matter what they were going to portray this to be like kind of like an abusive situation because it makes like the reader feel like she's trapped. The ballerina is trapped and she has no other choice. And she's. Her life has been ruined by this man who has millions of dollars or billions of dollars and instead makes her take care of these eight kids on a farm by herself.

[Unknown]

I'll trade places his with her because he's a billionaire.

[Leah Kate]

He doesn't spend any money on her. Guess what he got her for his. Her birthday.

[Unknown]

What?

[Leah Kate]

Guess. The people at home Are like, she's never going to guess. He got her a. All she wanted to do was go to Greece. Oh, the only thing that she wanted to go to do was go to Greece. She's been talking about it non stop. His family owns an airline. Brook Baldwin. Guess what he got her.

[Unknown]

I'm scared.

[Leah Kate]

An egg apron.

[Unknown]

An egg apron?

[Leah Kate]

An apron that holds eggs so she can hold like 12 eggs at once.

[Unknown]

I was thinking like, I was imagining.

[Leah Kate]

Like, eggs on the apron. So was I. Yeah. I had to do my yellow eggs.

[Unknown]

Okay.

[Leah Kate]

But it's kind of shitty. That's their family.

[Unknown]

Oh, this.

[Leah Kate]

But this is like a good example of the way that I am a vict. Like a. An extreme victim to, like, I don't want to say propaganda. I, like, I believe everything that I read online. Okay. And it, like, I can so easily be swayed either way because, like, I read that article and I was like, oh, my God, this woman is trapped. She's a victim. She. Her dreams were crushed and ruined and now she's like, literally tied down to this stupid farm with eight kids. But then I started watching other videos about it and people were like, she chose to do that. No one's holding her captive. Like, I mean, she has eight kids. That's a beautiful life. Like, it's not like this whole negative thing. And like, she didn't know that the writer was like, gonna make the article seem that way. Like, she kind of got got.

[Unknown]

Yeah.

[Leah Kate]

I don't know how I feel about it.

[Unknown]

Your life could be so much worse than having eight kids on a farm.

[Leah Kate]

My question to you is, do you think that that would happen to you? Do you think that a guy could get you to give up your dreams, your whole. For your whole life just to go to a farm?

[Unknown]

Because I think if you would have asked me three years ago, I would have say. I would say yes. But now, no.

[Leah Kate]

You don't think so?

[Unknown]

No, I don't think so.

[Leah Kate]

I think I still would.

[Unknown]

Oh, I think I still have, like, farms.

[Leah Kate]

No, not even just the farm of it all. It's like you could tell me like, you're taking me to a spaceship and I'd be like, yeah, I love spaceships.

[Unknown]

I think it depends. I think if it was like a healthy thing, like, yes, and like I wanted like peace and quiet, then maybe. But I don't think as of right now, as a 25 year old at living, she loves.

[Leah Kate]

She loves the city. Every time she goes to city, she'll be so excited. She would vlog and she'd Be like.

[Unknown]

I'm in the city.

[Leah Kate]

I'm so happy. Yada, yada. And then the very next clip would be like, oh, we rented a farmhouse outside the city because, like, oh, that's sad. Like, he doesn't like to be in the city, but she does.

[Unknown]

It kind of reminds me of my mom. I mean, I feel like most people just kind of, like, settle, and that's what I'm scared of. Like, personally, I just don't want to, Like, I am sure I'm not exactly, like, excited about, like, that's really sad.

[Leah Kate]

I would much. I just saw a clip of, like, Julia Fox and Drew Barrymore. She's talking about, like, Drew is like, what if you end up like me, like, my age and you're still single? And Julia's like, yeah, and you're happy.

[Unknown]

Yeah.

[Leah Kate]

Oh, right.

[Unknown]

I am so right.

[Leah Kate]

Like, most. Most people are like, no, I don't. I don't want to say most, but a lot of people who are married aren't happy.

[Unknown]

Yeah, that's facts.

[Leah Kate]

And so it's like. Like, we aspire to that. But I know way more unhappy married people than I know happy married people. And same thing with relationships. I know way more people who are unhappy in their relationships than I do people who are happy in their relationships. But why is that the number one thing I strive for? That's why I said. I said one time that I have the best kind of relationship that you can have, which is a strong, perfect, flawless, amazing female friendship.

[Unknown]

Quite unfortunate.

[Leah Kate]

And she would never leave me for a man again, now, would she?

[Unknown]

I would never. I, like, a hands down, would never do that again. I didn't leave you for a man. I would, like. I was down. I was down bad. Okay? I like.

[Leah Kate]

For a man who poses in front of cars. Okay, that's my, like, one, like, biggest ick is like, a man who poses in front of cars. And it's not even your car.

[Unknown]

Hey, he's happy now. It's fine. Whatever.

[Leah Kate]

Yeah, he's happy.

[Unknown]

I'm better off. He's better off.

[Leah Kate]

Do you watch Sex in the City?

[Unknown]

I have watched a few episodes, and I'm gonna tell you that I did not pay attention.

[Leah Kate]

Okay, well, you need to start it. And I know I said it to you about. Yeah, I do know that I'm Carrie. And, like, not in, like, a stylish, like, way or, like, good writer way. I'm Carrie in the, like, I can't shut the fuck up about my own self kind of way. Can't stop talking about Myself can't stop talking about my problems and my men. That's my. And I notice it about myself.

[Unknown]

I'm definitely Carrie. I think you would love the show, though.

[Leah Kate]

But what I. What I'm. I bring it up because they are all, like, a lot older than us. Like, even at the start of the show, they're a lot older than us, and all of them are single. And that's, like, a thing in New York. I feel like in New York, it's, like, kind of similar to la, where everyone settles down a lot later. But it's hard, like, because you see the people from your hometown and you're like, why do you have four kids already?

[Unknown]

But also, like, I see people from my hometown that are married and divorced already. At 25, I'm like, I'm good. I'll pass.

[Leah Kate]

Yeah, it couldn't be me.

[Unknown]

But also, they, like. They seem happy, though, too, because they have, like, little child running around and they're happy, whatever. But personally, could not be me, I guess.

[Leah Kate]

I had one of. So I, like, you know this about me already. I have, like, literally, like, seven people that I can name on my hands that I've, like, been obsessed with in life. Like, because I've always. I always have to have somebody that I'm, like, like, painfully obsessed with, debilitating, like, to where I cannot function. Like, there's always somebody. There's somebody right now. There was somebody last. You know what I mean? Like, there's always somebody. And one of the. My seventh grade, like, like, love of my life, like, it made me so sick. I would, like, throw up about it. Asked me if he could come to our Arizona show.

[Unknown]

Oh, my God, is he coming?

[Leah Kate]

He's coming.

[Unknown]

You're coming backstage. You can. You can come to the meet and greet.

[Leah Kate]

I can't help it.

[Unknown]

No, I'm the same way.

[Leah Kate]

Yeah, you're, like, psycho.

[Unknown]

Like, no, I'm the same way. I had, like, this crush in high school that was, like, actually, like, it took over my life, and we were family friends, and I was just so in love with him. And I remember being so excited about, like, fifth period because I had photography class, and he was in band class at the time. And I had the power because the band teacher loved me. So I would go in there and be like, hey, can I borrow da da da? And he'd be like, yeah. And so then me and my little crush would go run around, and he used to drive me home from school, and I was just, like, so happy about it.

[Leah Kate]

And now.

[Unknown]

And he didn't want anything to do with me. Okay, well, I think he had a crush on me. But, you know, in high school, like, he was. He just wasn't gonna date me. He was dating, like, five of my friends at the same time. And now he hits me up all the time and is in love with me and literally doesn't leave me alone. So it's very, like, so satisfying, validating, and.

[Leah Kate]

But I was just like that too, where I'd be like, oh, my God, I'm gonna see Christian broadest on the way to seven Spirit. That's such a bad example. Like, but, like, I would. I love having a crush. Like, it's my favorite thing on the planet. We were talking about this at dinner. But, like, I. Like, nothing makes me more excited than having a crush. Like, literally, I don't care if I'm 27 years old. I want. I have a crush right now. You know, my crush.

[Unknown]

Yes.

[Leah Kate]

And it's like, it literally, I. That's what I think about, like, morning, noon, and night. And I don't know this man at all.

[Unknown]

Oh, my God.

[Leah Kate]

And I'm just thinking, like, everything I do, everything I post, everything you guys have seen me post lately is with intent to get this man's attention. Just know that. And it has not worked.

[Unknown]

She's over here posing on her Snapchat story.

[Leah Kate]

Wait, that's a different one. No, I do have. You know which one's the athlete. Athlete. Because he's got me posting on Snapchat.

[Unknown]

Well, my crush has me had me downloading Snapchat about a month ago.

[Tana Mongeau]

Who is this?

[Leah Kate]

Oh, you know, you know, I mean, you don't have to, like, say, say.

[Unknown]

You know the one that, like, broke my heart just yesterday.

[Leah Kate]

Yes.

[Unknown]

Oh, yeah, I know. He had me downloading Snapchat about a month ago, and I purposefully Snapchat him every day. I don't Snapchat a single other person.

[Leah Kate]

I don't even have. Like. Like, I don't use no shade to Snapchat. But, like, Snapchat was like my college thing. You know what I mean? Like, I haven't used Snapchat since then. So it's so funny because I'm like, like, why am I logging into Snapchat?

[Unknown]

Yeah, I deleted my Snapchat four years ago. And I'm like, I'm that down bad that I'm downloading Snapchat for my crush.

[Leah Kate]

But I'm like, anything to talk to him, but that's my second crush. He's second on the second on the Lineup right now, but he. At any point, he could be bumped up to first.

[Unknown]

Okay, wait, who's the first one?

[Leah Kate]

Oh.

[Unknown]

Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, I know. I don't know why that went over my head.

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[Leah Kate]

I have a story that I want to tell on Canceled. But I. I don't think I can tell it on Cancel, but I can tell it on Patreon. I can. I can tell a story really quickly about.

[Unknown]

It's so good.

[Leah Kate]

Something horrible that happened to me, Tana or Bibi and I went to a role model concert the other night. Okay. And after the concert, we got, like, pretty drunk and we went to Mel's Diner. Trigger warning. Well, Mel's Diner. We stayed for an undisclosed amount of time. It's really unclear, and I'm careful not to state that these days. We go to Mel's Diner, we order everything on the menu. Doesn't matter. We're having the time of our lives. And I'm blacked out. So I'm just feeling. I'm feeling spunky on Instagram and I see one of my old crushes, like a guy that I had a crush on probably two years ago, post a story, and I'm, like, feeling funky. So I'm like, you know what? Let me slide up on this story and something subtle. I said, I am in love with you. Okay. Which could have. Could have been smoother than that, but I chose not to. I said, I am in love with you, Aaron. Do you. Would you like to know what he responded to me?

[Unknown]

You're gonna die.

[Leah Kate]

He said, brooke, on a rest in peace story.

[Brooke Baldwin]

He was getting a tattoo.

[Unknown]

Versus for a loved one that just died.

[Leah Kate]

It was a rest in peace story that I fucking responded to. I literally slid up thirsty as fuck. On a rest in peace story. I. I'm not kidding. I've never been so mortified in my entire life. I was like, there's no fucking. I literally shriveled up. I'm never having sex again. I'm literally like, no longer even. Like, I have no crushes ever, because how fucking disturbing and disrespectful.

[Unknown]

It was hilarious. But to be fair, though, like, it was.

[Leah Kate]

He was getting attacked. It was not clear to be, like. It was literally like Love you so much. Yeah. Angel.

[Unknown]

Hilarious, though.

[Leah Kate]

It's not funny. Of course it's not funny. But, like, just the fact that that happened to me, I was like. I was so mortified, I could not believe it.

[Unknown]

He ate it up.

[Leah Kate]

And that was only one of two horrible things that I did online this week. But what the second story. I do think I have to stay safe for Patreon because it's pretty, like.

[Unknown]

Yeah, it's bad. Say it last.

[Leah Kate]

They want to know the pressing. The pressing question is your favorite thing about me?

[Unknown]

Oh, my favorite thing about you? Oh, you.

[Leah Kate]

Wait, that was cute how you were ready to answer.

[Unknown]

Yeah. I have a lot of favorite things about you. I don't really see much wrong with you, if I'm being honest, but I have always loved how emotional you are and, like, you cry at the same things I cry about. And, like, you're just so grateful and just, like, really genuine, and I like that you also. Wait, stop.

[Leah Kate]

I'll cry right now. Don't cry.

[Unknown]

No. I don't know. I feel like we just have similar, like, morals and. And you're just very cute and happy and sweet.

[Leah Kate]

That's my favorite thing about you, too, I think, because sometimes I feel crazy, and I know if I come to you with something, you're gonna just be.

[Unknown]

Like, yeah, but also, I like when I come to you and I'm like, am I being crazy? And you're like, yeah, you're being crazy. But I'm like, you would do the same thing.

[Leah Kate]

Yeah, but that's how I know. Yeah, I. I can identify it, because I can. I've seen it in myself.

[Unknown]

But you're just. You're very supportive and. Don't cry. I won't. You're very supportive and, like, oh, like, is this gonna be a fan edit of us touching toes? No, you're just really supportive, and you're very vocal on, like, how much you love people around you, which I really love. That is so nice. I don't know. I just love you. I think you're the best.

[Leah Kate]

I love you. That's so nice. She's my favorite. I mean, it's makes me really happy.

[Unknown]

Okay, wait. What about me?

[Leah Kate]

My favorite thing about you is you're the best friend ever and you don't ask for anything in return. Like, I feel like you always, like, go above and beyond and, like, do things for me that, like, I would never even, first of all, even ask you to do. And second of all, like, just nobody would just, like, do out of nowhere, like, you Know what I need before I need it. And you're like, I don't know. You're just the best. And, like, you said, so emotional. So, like, I can count on you, like, meeting me there?

[Unknown]

Yeah. Oh, I think. I think it's just mental illness.

[Leah Kate]

I don't know. I think it's like. But I think it's something different because it's a positive thing. Like, I think we love to be as emotional as I am.

[Unknown]

I think we also have, like, some kind of, like, soul connection, though, that, like, makes us, like. Like, when you cry, I cry. Like, there's just, like, no way that you're crying.

[Leah Kate]

I've never, like. I've genuinely never felt. I always say this, but, like, closer to a person because I, like. I don't know. I've just never had a friend that I feel that close to. But I, like, it was immediate. Like, you know. Do you remember that first time we ever, like, I'm pretty sure literally the second time we ever met, we had a sleepover and just cuddled the whole night.

[Unknown]

Was that my house? Yeah.

[Leah Kate]

Yeah. In your living room.

[Tana Mongeau]

And, like, I had a room.

[Leah Kate]

Like, why were we sleeping in the living room? I don't.

[Unknown]

You had the master bedroom. What were we doing?

[Leah Kate]

But we were just, like, already in love, and I just have loved you ever since.

[Unknown]

Oh, I love you.

[Leah Kate]

Let's see what else people want to know.

[Unknown]

You can ask me that question again.

[Leah Kate]

People want to know what? What's the status on you and Bobby?

[Unknown]

I love Bobby. He's cool.

[Leah Kate]

Who? Comment down below if you BB and Bobby.

[Unknown]

Oh, God.

[Leah Kate]

I do.

[Unknown]

I love Bobby. I love Bobby.

[Leah Kate]

Bobby's a cutie. And I like his big, baggy pants. Yeah.

[Unknown]

He looks like Paul Walker.

[Leah Kate]

He does look like Paul Walker. Rest in peace.

[Unknown]

Rest in peace.

[Leah Kate]

What is your craziest hookup story?

[Unknown]

Oh, God, my craziest hookup story. It's not really, like, a hookup story because I didn't really hook up with the person, but I one day was. I was hit up by this musician, and I was out with this girl who was a really good friend of mine, and he wanted to Uber me to his house to hang out. And I had previously hung out with him like a year and a half before this. And so this girl that I was with at the time was hooking up with his childhood best friend. Friend.

[Leah Kate]

Right.

[Unknown]

Okay. And he was like, I'll call you an Uber. I was like, okay, cool.

[Leah Kate]

And you, like, love this guy?

[Unknown]

I don't love this guy.

[Leah Kate]

Yeah, but, like. But you're, like, excited?

[Unknown]

Yeah, I was excited about it, obviously. Like, it was cool, like, whatever. But every other was excited. You know what I mean? Yeah. So anyway, so she was like. And I was deep in the Valley at the time, and my friend was with me, and she was like, do you care if I come with you in the Uber? Like, I'm gonna Uber from his house so it's closer to my house. And I was like, yeah, of course. No problem. And so we're getting closer. And she was like, I have to pee really bad. Like, do you think I can come inside and pee really quick and then I'll leave? And I was like, like, sure. I guess, like, kind of weird because I didn't tell him that she was with me. And so she comes inside, we're hanging out, she pees. She doesn't leave. I'm like, okay. Like, it's fine. Whatever. We're vibing because we're playing guitar and, like, singing and stuff. And then we all go into the room. Me, her, and him. It's him, me in the middle, and her. I fall asleep for about 45 minutes to an hour. And I wake up, I'm in a panic because I'm like, oh, my God, where am I, by the way? It was like, probably 7 or 8 in the morning. I forget. I wake up, she's gone, he's gone. So I'm like, where am I? I get up, I run into him in the hallway, and he goes, oh, she left. Like, let's go lay down. I was like, okay, cool. So him and I go lay down, and he starts kissing me. And I'm like, okay, I'm confused. Like, because originally I thought that's kind of what the vibe was. And then it, like, wasn't that vibe. And then it was anyway. And then he gets up randomly and was like, I don't feel good. I'm go lay in the other room, whatever. And I was like, okay. And so I go check on him. He's sleeping. And I'm like, what the. So I'm like, I'm gonna Uber, my ass. See you later, okay? And I tried to wake him up, and I was like, concerned. Honestly, I was like, is he breathing? I'm like, chapter checking these polls, and I'm texting her, and I'm like, I can't get an Uber to save my life. I'm like, up in the hills somewhere. And she's like, oh, I'll come pick you up. Long story short, two weeks later, I find out she comes over and she tells me, hey, I've been meaning to tell you this for a while. I felt so guilty. No, I fucked him. She fucked him while I was asleep in the bed.

[Leah Kate]

And then he proceeded to invite you into bed?

[Unknown]

Yes.

[Leah Kate]

Hook up with you.

[Unknown]

Made out with me. Thank God I didn't hook up with him. Like, I just made out with him. That's it. Didn't go any further than that. That is the biggest blessing. Death, but also so disgusting. You just literally fucked a girl in the same house that I was in. That you. First off, you invited me here. You didn't invite her here.

[Leah Kate]

Yeah, what the fuck? So.

[Unknown]

But the whole time, she obviously was trying to weasel her way in. And by the way, literally two weeks before your shit. BB Talk. My. Two weeks before this, we were at his show at the Greek Theater while she's hooking up with his childhood best friend. His childhood best friend brought us to the Greek Theater to see him.

[Leah Kate]

Oh, she's. She goes. She hit the whole team. And so.

[Unknown]

But I think that was her plan all along.

[Leah Kate]

Like, genuinely, like, she was doing that to get to him.

[Unknown]

Yeah, thousand percent.

[Brooke Baldwin]

Ew.

[Unknown]

What a.

[Leah Kate]

Like, so weird.

[Unknown]

So crazy. Honestly, it broke my heart, though, because, like, I would. I considered her to be one of my, like, closest friends, and I didn't think that her out of, like, anyone would do that to me.

[Leah Kate]

That's so terrifying, though. Like, I can't imagine, like, if I knew you were into somebody and, like, even if the guy was, like, making any, like. Or maybe he was, like, interested in me or whatever, I would just shut it down immediately. You know what I mean? Like, yeah, and that's happened to me before. Remember? I was like. I was hanging out with you. You know this story. But I had a friend for a while. Like, she was, like, a close friend of mine. But, like, it would happen often where, like, I would bring her around guys that I liked or, like, I was talking about or whatever, and, like, they would take interest in her because she was, like, perfect and gorgeous and beautiful, and she would, like, feed into it so hard, and I'd be like, wait.

[Unknown]

It's like, why are you. Why are you entertaining it? Yeah. What?

[Leah Kate]

I remember one time I, like, I. I went to go meet up with a guy, and I brought her with me, and she was like, oh, my God, you guys be so cute. Like, this is everything. Like, I'll come with you. I'll ease it up. Like, I'll make it less pressure. Whatever comes with me. He's sitting on his lap, like, no.

[Unknown]

It has to be, like, an insecurity.

[Leah Kate]

Started fully dating him after that.

[Unknown]

Yeah. That's crazy.

[Leah Kate]

I was like.

[Unknown]

I mean, I. I give her the credit of, like, her coming to me and, like, telling me the truth and.

[Leah Kate]

Like, no, but that's too late. She picked you up that night?

[Unknown]

She picked me up, she fucked him, and then left and went on a hike, then came back, picked me up, and then let me talk about it for literally two weeks.

[Leah Kate]

That's what gives me, like, that. I hate that you're gonna let me talk about this guy. And, like, oh, my God. That's also, like. It just goes with, like, anything. Anyone who knows something that you don't. So embarrassing. It's like people know you're getting cheated on or something, and you're like, yeah.

[Unknown]

And you're, like, posting the person, like. Like, I'm just so grateful I didn't hook up with him. And I. Not only did, I feel like, first.

[Leah Kate]

Of all, I can name five people that he's given chlamydia. So we're gonna say. We're gonna go ahead and say, I dodged a bullet.

[Unknown]

He's a. He's a nice person. Like.

[Leah Kate]

And we are gonna see him this weekend.

[Unknown]

Yeah, we're gonna see him this weekend at two separate festivals.

[Leah Kate]

Oh. Me and Bibi are going to Canada this weekend. I've never left the country. We're going to Montreal. Wait, how do you say Montreal?

[Unknown]

Montreal.

[Leah Kate]

Montreal. Montreal. I don't know. I said it in my video, and everyone was like, wrong.

[Unknown]

Montreal. Montreal. Montreal.

[Leah Kate]

Montreal.

[Unknown]

We're going to Chicago. We know. We're going to Lollapalooza.

[Leah Kate]

We're going to Lollapalooza for one day, and then we're going to Oshiaga Festival in Montreal for three days.

[Unknown]

So we're really excited. It's gonna be good. The lineups are, like, pretty.

[Leah Kate]

Like, I'm so excited. We're gonna see Renee, Rub, and Chapel.

[Unknown]

You don't like Chapel?

[Tana Mongeau]

Run.

[Unknown]

Like, I like Chapel.

[Leah Kate]

I do. Knee deep in the passenger seat and.

[Unknown]

You'Re eating me out. Is it casual? And it's Never Guys is my favorite song.

[Leah Kate]

And I showed it to this man who was ruining my life recently, and now I know he's probably showing it to some other.

[Unknown]

You know what's really funny? So my current situationship that's happening, that's, like, literally ruining my life. I called my ex situationship, the one prior to this, the one who lives in a garage, the one that lives in a shack. Of course we love him. Though honestly, she didn't tell me until.

[Leah Kate]

A year in that this man lived in his garage. Not that it's like no shade living in your garage, but I feel like that's something you tell your friend.

[Unknown]

Saving so much money.

[Leah Kate]

Yeah, I mean, no. And he shares it. He shares the garage. It's like, no, there's no shame in that. But it's just something I would have liked to know from the beginning.

[Unknown]

He's so funny, though. Like, I just love him. Like, I just love him as a person. So, like, whatever. But I'm over here calling my ex situationship about my new situationship being like, what the is, like, what is going on?

[Leah Kate]

Well, that's honestly, like, a really smart idea because it's like, if anyone knows what's going through his head, it's him.

[Unknown]

Yeah. And he told me because he wanted anything to do with me. Oh, that brings me to a subject.

[Leah Kate]

He doesn't know anything.

[Unknown]

No. I literally go, you're delusional. I'm like, I think I'm the delusional one. But that brings me to my next topic. The almost girlfriend. And I am the queen of the almost girlfriend.

[Leah Kate]

I am too. I think. I fear we. We stand on that throne together.

[Unknown]

We're good luck charm for our guys.

[Brooke Baldwin]

It's.

[Leah Kate]

Yeah. What is. What do they call it? Good luck, Chuck. When you're like, the person somebody dates before they end up in a, like, committed relationship. That's what happens to me every time too.

[Unknown]

Every single time, without fail. I am always the girl right before a guy gets into a relationship. And it's always like, I'm just not ready. I, like, I don't want a girlfriend right now. Yes, you do. You just don't want me.

[Leah Kate]

Yeah, that's what just happened to me. Are you kidding? I go, 11 months, I'm not ready for a relationship. And the second he's ready, he's got someone else lined up.

[Unknown]

Yeah, Thousand percent. I mean, I was talking situationship and he was telling me about this girl who he's so heartbroken over, and she's fucking with him and, like, seeing other people and, like, sleeping with other people. And he knows about it. And I look her up and she's the complete opposite of me. She's literally like, clean girl, blonde, like, you're hot.

[Leah Kate]

Thank you.

[Unknown]

No, but it's just. That's not the point. She's still hot, but, like, it's just the point is exact opposite of me.

[Leah Kate]

Like, was I not.

[Unknown]

I guess that helps though.

[Leah Kate]

Like, I. It's So much better, in my opinion, for it, like, to see a guy end up with somebody who's no one, nothing like you. Then some, like, end up with somebody who's just like me. And, like. And then it's like, why was it not me?

[Unknown]

Exactly? No, yeah, I would. I would rather it be someone so complete opposite from me because it makes.

[Leah Kate]

I want the bitch to be doing sound baths. Yeah, like, you know what I mean?

[Unknown]

Going on hikes.

[Leah Kate]

You know what I mean? Like, hey, I hike. I hike.

[Unknown]

You go to aloe, I hike.

[Leah Kate]

I literally wrangled snake yesterday right off the street.

[Unknown]

That was crazy. Was it a garden snake?

[Leah Kate]

No, he was a bull snake.

[Unknown]

Call Rob.

[Leah Kate]

If I see a guy. That's happened to me a few times where, like, a guy will end up with somebody who literally is like, just like me or does the same thing in the same field, and, like, I'll be like, wait, okay, then I. It must be me. My personality just sucks.

[Unknown]

I don't think your personality sucks. I think what it is, because I also have that doubt about myself. But then I'm also like, I low key am that bitch. Like, you know what I mean? Like, you.

[Leah Kate]

It's not low key. It's not low key at all about it.

[Unknown]

I am that bitch. But I think it honestly has to do with, like, men not being able to handle, like, a big personality and, like, them being insecure and, like, weird.

[Leah Kate]

I know, but then it's like, are we one of those people who are, like, they just. We're just too much for them. We're way too funny and smart for them.

[Unknown]

I'm gonna choose to believe that that is that.

[Leah Kate]

I know, but am I living my life in delusion? Like, we. Don't answer that. Okay, answer that.

[Unknown]

We are. But honestly, I'd rather be delusional than have my feelings hurt all the time.

[Leah Kate]

Yeah, that's true. I don't like to feel insecure, and I honestly don't feel insecure. That's the thing. Like, I have transitioned into, like, if a guy doesn't want me, I think it's a him problem. I think he has bad taste.

[Unknown]

It's a. Yeah, if for sure has bad taste. I think it's a him problem. I think there's nothing wrong with us at all.

[Leah Kate]

We're perfect.

[Unknown]

Literally at all. But I don't know. I. Yeah, I'm always almost girlfriend. I'm used to it at this point. Or it's like I'm in a situation.

[Leah Kate]

How many. Okay, look at that guy, for example. That we were just talking about. You're not your last situationship, but the one before it. You look at him and you're like, God, thank Jesus Lord that I did not end up with him. I look at every single guy I've ever talked about on this podcast and I think that same thing. Like, what was I thinking? Like, I would never want to end up with that guy. Yeah. So I feel the same way about the guy that I just ended things with. I know that, like, in fucking six.

[Unknown]

Weeks, you're gonna be like, I'm gonna.

[Leah Kate]

Be like, hopefully less than six weeks. Honestly, I'm gonna think, what a loser.

[Unknown]

I made a tick tock about this, like a couple weeks ago about how grateful I am that every guy that I ever wanted to date didn't want to date me. Like, you waste two years of your.

[Leah Kate]

Life on some dude who, like, is like, you're not gonna marry him. And I have. I always, like, all these guys have been guys with qualities that I would never, ever accept in a husband. So it's like, why would I waste. Why would you?

[Unknown]

Like, you see, you know, the tick tock trend right now. It's like when you see him doing this and it's like, you immediately know that's not your husband. Like, your husband.

[Leah Kate]

My husband would never make me, like.

[Unknown]

Yeah, yeah, your husband would never make you, like, sweat about, like, I don't know, being somewhere he's not supposed to be. Like, I don't know, some stupid.

[Leah Kate]

Some your would do. Some Pooh would do something Pooh would do while he's posing in front of some car.

[Unknown]

How's Poo? Is he good?

[Leah Kate]

Poo sound off in the comments.

[Unknown]

He has a new girlfriend. He's happy. Wow. Well, I don't know.

[Leah Kate]

I'm sorry. This wasn't our traditional format of episode, you guys. Tana and I are working together to do it right. And sometimes it just doesn't work out. But she'll be back in the stew pretty soon and we'll have a Tana B.B. brooke episode.

[Unknown]

And Paige.

[Leah Kate]

And Paige. I think the four of us be a fun group. I know Paige wanted the week off. We wanted to have Paige on with us. And she's. She's taking a breather.

[Unknown]

Yeah. Because she's send this one out.

[Leah Kate]

Yeah, she's been doing a lot of canceled.

[Unknown]

She went to Barney's Beanery last night. Did you know that?

[Leah Kate]

Where you belong.

[Unknown]

I was jealous.

[Leah Kate]

I love it.

[Unknown]

I lived at Barney's Beanery. That was like my.

[Leah Kate]

We know. That's what BB stands for. Well, we love you guys.

[Unknown]

Love you.

[Leah Kate]

Thank you so much for listening. We miss you. See you next week.

[Unknown]

Bye.

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