← Cancelled with Tana Mongeau & Brooke Schofield
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- [00:00]
Tana Mongeau
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Brooke Schofield
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- [01:39]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah, squash the rumors. I am not yet kicked off the canceled podcast, dude.
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Brooke Schofield
So first of all, I was just in Europe and a couple days ago I shot an episode with Paige and Amari and I said everything that I'm about to re say again. But then obviously I flew home and I was like, why am I gonna put out another episode that's just gonna like fuel these rumors more and like get a bunch more hate?
- [02:04]
Tana Mongeau
And I think we're really beefing.
- [02:06]
Brooke Schofield
I mean, obviously that just comes with this whole thing, you know, that people think a bunch of that's untrue. But this is definitely one of the heights of that in my entire life, like just opening my whole phone and every single thing I read about me, you, and us in this podcast just being like the furthest possible thing from the truth. And I can like resay all of that. I mean, I was gonna just post that episode, but I felt like talking about it with Paige was kind of like gonna cause the same problem as it did last week.
- [02:33]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah, we've had a little bit of issues with Paige and, like, Paige is getting really badly bullied.
- [02:38]
Brooke Schofield
It's really frustrating to me because it's like, I thought in the previous episode that I made what I was saying abundantly clear. But. And not to go like, all third person narcissist on you. When has Tana Mongeau ever said anything and made it abundantly clear and didn't. It didn't get misconstrued and people completely understood to her point and yada yada.
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Tana Mongeau
Like, I hear I make some bad points sometimes, too.
- [03:02]
Brooke Schofield
Hey. But all I was trying to say in that episode was, I'm giving Brooke the week. Like, I want Brooke to have the week, obviously. So then Paige subbed in for that episode and all of the comments are, we want Brooke. You're replacing Brooke. You just jumped ship so fast. Yada, yada, yada. And it was literally just one episode.
- [03:24]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah. Wait. And I also want to be clear. It wasn't like a, like, because it. The way it sounded was almost like, like, Brooke needs a second. Like, or needs a week. Like, I just wanted to really, like, intake the situation and understand what was happening. And it just didn't feel, like, appropriate for me to sit down on the couch so soon.
- [03:42]
Brooke Schofield
I said this in the episode that we shot, and I'll probably keep referencing that, but I'm just, like, reiterating how I've been feeling and call me the villain for saying this. Okay. Like, people might not like what I'm going to say right now, but I think that the situation was very much damned if you do, damned if you don't. Like, if you and I sat down and filmed an episode and it went out and we were just on the couch talking about anything at all. Yeah.
- [04:09]
Tana Mongeau
I think it would have been really distasteful.
- [04:12]
Brooke Schofield
So angry at that. So then it's like you film with Paige and people are mad. Like, it was just one of those where I felt like, it's like, yeah.
- [04:17]
Tana Mongeau
And we should clarify.
- [04:18]
Brooke Schofield
There was no hand.
- [04:19]
Tana Mongeau
Like, Tana and I, obviously, we were communicating about it and I told her, I'm like, listen, I understand. You need to say that what I said was wrong. Of course, because it was. It was so wrong.
- [04:28]
Brooke Schofield
And I even said in it, like, I'm not coming at this from a holier than thou perspective.
- [04:32]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah.
- [04:33]
Brooke Schofield
Like, I don't. I'm not sitting here with the gavel saying, like, you know what I mean? Like, that I get to condemn anyone. But it's like, I don't know, people Just took it that way.
- [04:41]
Tana Mongeau
And I know it was just, honestly, a lot, it was a lot of people coming from a lot of different directions. Rightfully so. But I, I, I did, like, it's a frustrating feeling to feel like, so misunderstood, especially like our dynamic.
- [04:54]
Brooke Schofield
I just want to say no one's getting canceled off the canceled podcast. And I have said this and will always say this. I truly believe that this podcast has amassed the success that it amassed because of our dynamic. That, and forgive me, it's not a word word police. But our dynamic is irrecretable. And I am not a word. And I'm so, But there is a word for that.
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Tana Mongeau
So we got to find it and.
- [05:22]
Brooke Schofield
We could, you know, but I just think it's irrecreatable. What you and I. Yes. But like the, I couldn't, it couldn't be recreated with any other two people.
- [05:33]
Tana Mongeau
Okay.
- [05:33]
Brooke Schofield
And I'm so well aware of how spiritual special that is and what you and I have been through together on and off camera, on and off stage, just in life in general. I think most people would blow up in flames. And I think we have somehow come out of it with the strongest trauma bond sister bond money can buy. And I wish so badly that people didn't do what they do to our relationship online because it is very highly damaging. It's hard to read a million things that aren't true about how, like, the. You know what I mean?
- [06:07]
Tana Mongeau
But weird to. It's so strange because you almost start to intake it and it, like, starts to become true because it's like them. If I'm reading a thousand comments that say, like, Tana hates Brooke, all of a sudden I'm like, oh, my God. Tana hates Brooke.
- [06:18]
Brooke Schofield
Yeah. And it's like, it's just, it's not.
- [06:20]
Tana Mongeau
It'S just not now. It's not natural. This isn't something that, like, it's not.
- [06:23]
Brooke Schofield
That I'm bitching about because it comes with fame, it comes with money, it comes with this shit. I'm not. I understand that. But I can also recognize that sometimes that is emotionally incredibly difficult to handle.
- [06:35]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah.
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Brooke Schofield
And yeah, it was just one episode. And then I had to off for a second, like, and I'm really sorry. Shit's late. But I. It was that or the ward folks.
- [06:48]
Tana Mongeau
I feel bad that I kind of dragged you back into it because obviously you've done your whole. I mean, you've come back from like all of your scandals and cancellations and stuff. And I feel like I kind of.
- [06:58]
Brooke Schofield
Like I've Made apology videos for my apology videos. And I. I did.
- [07:04]
Tana Mongeau
I did that too.
- [07:05]
Brooke Schofield
Yes. And I am fine with doing that for the rest of my life. I. For everything I have ever said or done wrong, I have apologized for and, like, will continue to. So there's no blame towards you. Like, those are still my actions. It's just like.
- [07:20]
Tana Mongeau
Right. I don't know. I just. I mean, obviously I appreciate everyone who's holding me accountable. I, like, I know how horrible it was. You know what I mean? Like, and I knew how horrible it was even before it, you know, blew up in my face. But I mean, obviously it's like a just shitty situation and I felt bad that so many people were hurt by it, but also, like, it need, like, you know what? Like, I needed to be held accountable.
- [07:45]
Brooke Schofield
And obviously I'm. How do I say this? Well, I guess what I'm wanting to say is, like, I'm proud of you. I think that you, like, stood at the forefront of all of this and you are willing to continue to. And you understand that there will be a lot of people that won't forgive you, but you also will never stop trying. And, yeah, I appreciate that.
- [08:07]
Tana Mongeau
I did. I spoke about it a little bit on Tick Tock, but, like, there is, like, honestly, a typical, like, PR formula, obviously, for this kind of situation.
- [08:13]
Brooke Schofield
I think this is being a more, well, human.
- [08:17]
Tana Mongeau
I just. I, like, I did feel, like, really remorseful and like, I. It sucks that, like, you know, I put out my first apology and it was, like, so hyper emotional, and it was. I pretty much said all the wrong things. You know what I mean? But it was like, that was truly, like, my natural reaction. And, like, everything that has come in after that is just, like, how it's really happened for me. But I don't know, like, it just. It didn't make sense for me to just, like, ignore. Like, I couldn't have ignored it because it was like. Like, I. I feel so much shame over that already, and I have felt shame over that. And like, these tweets aren't, like, something that's new to me. I've known about them. You know what I mean? So it made me feel, like, just horrible. And I wanted to make sure that people knew. And, like, of course I know, like, how much I've changed and how much, like, my thought processes, like, have changed since I've, you know, grown up and got away from, you know, Arizona and my family and stuff. And, like, I can't expect everybody else to know that.
- [09:08]
Brooke Schofield
But I said this on the Podcast with Paige. But, like, I went to your apartment a couple weeks ago and there was a stack of books up to the side size of my head on you continuing to want to do research. And I'm seeing all of the active things you're doing behind the scenes, so I know that. And like I said in the last episode, the Brooke that I have known is not that person. But acknowledging that there's always more growth to be done is beautiful.
- [09:30]
Tana Mongeau
And I think sometimes, too, there's like, a lot of shame sometimes, like. Like to be ignorant. Like, sometimes people don't want to ask questions and stuff because they feel like it's like, oh, you're too old to not know this. But, like, I, like, obviously, like there, you know, I was a Republican or whatever. Like, I don't. I didn't know anything about politics until I was, like, an adult. You know what I mean? I didn't know anything about what I was talking about, but I wanted people to think I knew what I was.
- [09:54]
Brooke Schofield
Talking about me every day.
- [09:56]
Tana Mongeau
That's. Yeah, and that's the thing. It's like, it comes down, like, to, like, a common theme uncanceled anyways, just, like, my need for validation and attention and people to think I'm smart and you know what I mean? So, like, that was, like, kind of what it all stemmed from. And, like, I didn't just now start doing the work. You know what I mean? I've learned so much, like, in the time, especially since I've been in la, because obviously, like, I'm ashamed that it took me that long. And, like, I was like an adult when I really started to, like, open my, like or understand everybody's different perspectives, but I did. And so, you know, that's just the honest truth.
- [10:30]
Brooke Schofield
Well, listen, again, I feel like I have said all of this, but I will always love you. And I think that everything I've seen off camera, I think that you are taking the proper steps and not trying to just flaunt it for TikTok and the podcast as well, which I really respect. And I'm excited to have you back on this couch. And I think had we done it when I sat down with Paige, that would have been a whole different Armageddon. And I also just have a lot to say about the hate towards Paige and women in general on the Internet right now in a second. And my thoughts on that and some things that I feel like I've learned in the past couple weeks that I don't necessarily think I was thinking about before all of this, but I'm just happy to have you back on this couch.
- [11:20]
Tana Mongeau
And I'm happy to be back. And I just want to. Like, there's no. I said this on TikTok also, but, like, there's no definitive end. Like, there's no, like, time when you just know everything that you know. So obviously there's things like I'm going to continue learning down the line, and I have learned, and you know what I mean? It's like, there's always going to be more. And I, of course, am doing it. And again, like, like you said, I don't want it to, like, to seem like I'm doing it because I got caught or because I got canceled. Like, I really, truly, like, I. I had, like, so many people who were so helpful to me and like, explained their experiences, like, from their end and stuff. And it was like, it was eye opening. It was like, it was special. And I, like, I don't know. I do feel like there's a lot that I've learned from this situation, and it makes me think very, very differently.
- [12:06]
Brooke Schofield
And we are more than friends.
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Tana Mongeau
We are friends.
- [12:12]
Brooke Schofield
God damn it. It's also just. I was saying this to Paige as well, but even just on the level of hate that she received for sitting in on one episode on her character when, like, she is a good person and always has been and we have no.
- [12:26]
Tana Mongeau
Just has to show, you know what I mean? She just has to do what she has to do. Like, it wasn't even, but even, like.
- [12:30]
Brooke Schofield
Coming at her like, she's like a fame monster. Like, if she wanted the fucking fame, she would have gotten year one. Like, she's been working for me behind the scenes for years. Three years. And anyone who knows her know she's not that kind.
- [12:40]
Tana Mongeau
And Paige is the funniest, smartest, like, person literally alive. I love Paige. So much.
- [12:45]
Brooke Schofield
Wrong thing in her life.
- [12:46]
Tana Mongeau
It was kind of frustrating, too, because, you know, it was like, us against each other. Like, people were kind of, like, trying to pin us against each other. Like, make it feel seem like we didn't like each other. I am. Paige and I are so close.
- [12:56]
Brooke Schofield
Like, I was also saying, like. And I feel like I. I've been doing this a lot lately, but, like, think about when George and Mike and Logan had that huge fallout. No one's attacking people's looks. No one's, like, coming at people's necks like that. Like, it's just like, even the amount of, like, Brooke, I opened my DMS one day and there were, like, 100 DMS that were like, you kicked Brooke off the podcast. That's why you're fatter than she is. Or like, I'm going through my fucking for you page. And it's like, well, now that everyone's hating on Brooke, we can say we hate slick back buns. And it looks like. And it's like, this is not what the conversation is about. And this would never happen if we were two men. And like, even just seeing all this with the like, redhead right now on Tick Tock, it's like once a proper take on someone's wrongdoing has gone viral or 10 properties, it invites everybody to.
- [13:49]
Tana Mongeau
Do just whatever they want.
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Brooke Schofield
And it opens these doors for so much hate that no longer has anything to do with what the real conversation was about. And it's so many people, like, bandwagoning just to bandwagon, you know? And it's like, I've never had disdain for it. I think I've been a part of that problem up until right now.
- [14:08]
Tana Mongeau
So that's what I was just going to say. I was like. Because I experienced it obviously with my Clinton series, because obviously, you know, I do a 14 part series. It gets like 200 million views. And now there's tens of thousands of videos about how he's hideous and he has shark teeth. They're like, what? Whatever it is. But it's like, it's horrible because it's like, that's. That wasn't the point and that wasn't the problem. And Alyssa, shit.
- [14:33]
Brooke Schofield
Like, I had my take. I still stand by those beliefs once everyone else has had. There's been a viral take or 10 about it. Like, there's just a point where I'm just like. Even with like the Blake Lively, it's like, Blake Lively's obviously wrong as like, I like your bump. I like your bump. That made me need a bump. Like, that was so awful. Sorry. Bad cocaine joke. Kidding. Not on cocaine.
- [14:57]
Tana Mongeau
I didn't get it. I didn't get it first. Did you see?
- [15:01]
Brooke Schofield
It was just a joke. But like, it's like, eventually Blake is either going to see these takes or not. And, like, just the way society isn't moving on with like, hate to women as of late.
- [15:13]
Tana Mongeau
I know, but I also don't want to make it like we are the victims because. Well, especially in. I don't mean. I know, but I'm just, just, just to be clear.
- [15:21]
Brooke Schofield
Yeah.
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Tana Mongeau
I know that I am not the victim in this situation.
- [15:25]
Brooke Schofield
I'm not saying that. I'm really not saying that. I think I just.
- [15:27]
Tana Mongeau
But it is, you know, things happen differently for men than they do for women.
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Brooke Schofield
I just don't want to be a part of a bigger problem.
- [15:33]
Tana Mongeau
We have been a part of the bigger problem. So that's a conversation to have. We were being the accountability police.
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Brooke Schofield
Yeah.
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Tana Mongeau
For like we were just really going high and mighty. Just canceling people left and right.
- [15:43]
Brooke Schofield
Two wrongs don't make a right. Like, I do still think all of those things are true. In the episode with Paige, I essentially said like, this podcast reaches so many people to the point that I do want to recognize that and use it for better.
- [16:00]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah.
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Brooke Schofield
And people took that and ran. Like, no, we just want to hear about your lives. Like don't become some woke podcast, some this and that. That's not what I'm saying. I just think there's no.
- [16:09]
Tana Mongeau
I don't want to hear that from us. But it is like we have like a cool opportunity because like we reach so many girls. Like I mean, obviously more than just.
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Brooke Schofield
Girls, but young, young girls, gays and they's young.
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Tana Mongeau
And people with that level of influence. Like we should be trying to at least like do something right.
- [16:26]
Brooke Schofield
Better. And I know.
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Tana Mongeau
And not be bullies.
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Brooke Schofield
I think it's like expressing things that happen to you or commenting on some wrongdoing. Okay. But I think that in my opinion we definitely teetered over the line, especially with the like Alyssa and Clinton.
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Tana Mongeau
Yeah.
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Brooke Schofield
And I want to dial it back a bit. And that was kind of my point in the page episode. And people took it as like this is going to be the new cnn. And obviously that's not what I meant.
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Tana Mongeau
It does bother me like, and I, you know, like, who is a Brett Neustrom, he honestly had a good take about. It's like these girls just bully, bully, bully. And it's like I don't feel like like anyone who actually watches Canceled. I don't think that that's what they would take from it. Cuz like it really hasn't been. It's just like the viral on here. That's not the concept of the cancel podcast. We don't just get on here and cancel people. Yes. It has happened a couple times lately and they've been big ones. Okay. But that's not. It's never been the nature of our show and it's not going to be in the future. We're not like, I don't think we're like just these mean girls. But to your point, I. If someone does me like really fucking dirty or does me wrong, I'm going to talk about, like, you don't. You know, I have a microphone in front of me once a week.
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Brooke Schofield
I just think that there's, like, I know my character. I know I'm not a fucking mean girl to anyone that I ever come across in my life, ever. But I can see how trying to be the cancellation police could be misconstrued as that. And I. Again, it's not that I'm changing the entire format of this show, but I'm definitely gonna dial it back and use it for a little more good. And, like, be more mindful, I think, of lobbying hate.
- [17:56]
Tana Mongeau
I just also think, like, we have more potential than that. Like, I don't think we have to.
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Brooke Schofield
Like, rely on that.
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Tana Mongeau
Yeah. Come for people to have an entertaining show. And I think that, like, that's something that we've learned.
- [18:06]
Brooke Schofield
And also, maybe we do, and they can say it sucks.
- [18:09]
Tana Mongeau
And we are not promising that we're never gonna do that again. Because if somebody really does me dirty, I am coming on your hair, and I am doing exactly what. What I've done to others.
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Brooke Schofield
But I think I'm just maybe not.
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Tana Mongeau
Like, that serious, though.
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Brooke Schofield
Yeah, not that serious.
- [18:23]
Tana Mongeau
There's something to be said about weaponizing our audience, too. We have millions. That's my people who listen. And it is, like, that's not the same as, like, talking with your friends. You know what I mean? It's not. Sometimes it feels that way, and that's how we get ourselves in this trouble. But, like, it does. Like, I. Like, I truly did feel bad about, like, the amount of hate that Alyssa Violet got. I actually, like, I did and I told that to her because it's like.
- [18:45]
Brooke Schofield
Again, once she sees the. The viral take, you can either choose to grow and learn from it or not. Like, there's no point in just. That's the same exact way I feel about the. Like, obviously, she's wrong.
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Tana Mongeau
No, I don't think we're supposed to.
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Brooke Schofield
Say, oh, but, Ken, you're excited.
- [19:02]
Tana Mongeau
Well, I think Grace O'Malley said is, like, offensive rats. Redhead. Yes, she's a redhead.
- [19:10]
Brooke Schofield
It's just like, again, she obviously sees all of the, like, takes, and she can either learn from that and her wrongs. Like, I'm just. I don't want to keep being a part of the problem of seeing, like, beating shit into the ground. That's just hating on women when I'm, like, all for not doing that.
- [19:26]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah.
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Brooke Schofield
Like, it. There's.
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Tana Mongeau
But, like, we, you know, we have to take accountability. Like, we have been doing that.
- [19:32]
Brooke Schofield
That's what I'm saying.
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Tana Mongeau
Yeah.
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Brooke Schofield
I think that's one of the most valuable lessons I've learned recently that I just want to be a little more careful with.
- [19:40]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah. To be honest, I feel like I got like, a little bit too confident there for a second. You know what I mean? Like, I feel like I was kind of on this. Like. I mean, you know what I talk about all the time, like, validation as currency. And like, when I put out that Clinton series and it was like such an. Like a massive amount of support and validation and attention. I got like. You know, my. Like my head got big and I. All of a sudden I felt like I could just fucking. You know, I could talk shit about Alyssa. I could do this. I can do this. And like, I just got like, this confidence that I didn't have before and I needed to reel it back a bit.
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Brooke Schofield
Well, that's the.
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Tana Mongeau
I needed a humbling. And I. I got one that's the.
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Brooke Schofield
Internet telltale story as big as time. When the pendulum swings so far that way, it almost always swings back the other way.
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Tana Mongeau
Yeah.
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Brooke Schofield
And that's why I've always said you can't place your validation in too much of the good or too much of the bad.
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Tana Mongeau
And I know, it's just. It's something I'm struggled with. It's like. It's something like. I really am actively, like, working to reframe in my. Like, in my mind. But it's. It's always, always, always been the theme of my life. Like, attention and validation is the only thing I do anything for. And it's. I. That's so embarrassing to say out loud. But it's. It's the truth. And that's how I've gotten myself into this. This situation. That's how I've gotten myself. You know what I mean? Like, all the. Every problem I've caused for myself has been stem from because of that. And I want so badly to just place value in like, things that matter.
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Brooke Schofield
And I mean, I'm happy you're recognizing that. And I believe you will put in the work on that. My sweet Carrie Bradshaw.
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Tana Mongeau
I know she know, like, it is. And I'm rewatching Sex in the City right now. And it's like, I am Carrie. Like, I can't shut the fuck up about myself and whoever I'm dating. And like, I'm like. You know what I mean? I just. Like, there's assets to my personality that, like, you guys don't like. And I don't like either.
- [21:34]
Brooke Schofield
Like, but listen, like, everyone else who has something to say about your personality is also not sitting down, being scrutinized for millions. And don't take that too much to heart. Figure out what you don't like and work on it and grow and change. Lord knows I've had to do that 10,000 times.
- [21:49]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah. And it's hard. Well, it's hard to explain to people because it's. Obviously, this is a really unnatural situation. But, like, I. I explained this to Paige because obviously Paige has been, like, struggling because she's getting so much hate. And obviously I, like, we. We've all dealt with that. And like, I told her, it's like you can't read it. And funny coming from me. But, like, I compare it to, like, how. How, like, confident are you, like, in your personality to sit down at a table full of people you've never met? Like, you know, you can slay that. You know, you can, like, make everybody laugh and you can entertain everybody and, like, it's fun and you have a good time. But if you go and you sit down at a table full of people you feel like hate you, your behavior is going to be completely different. So when I read those things online and then I sit down here, I feel like I'm talking to a bunch of people who hate me. And so that's where my person. You know what I mean?
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Brooke Schofield
Like, personality shifts.
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Tana Mongeau
So it's kind of shitty because then I'll watch an episode and I'm like, that. That's literally not even who I am.
- [22:41]
Brooke Schofield
Yeah.
- [22:41]
Tana Mongeau
And I also, like. I mean, it's hard because it's like, people only know as much as you give them. So it's like, how can I really be upset about feeling, like, misunderstood if I am not sharing, like, the things that matter? So, like, I don't know. I just want.
- [22:58]
Brooke Schofield
It takes years to, like, truly master not feeling much about what people who don't know you have to say about you. And you and I were talking about that, you were like, I feel like you've had eight months of this really heavy microscope on you now, like, maybe a year. And I'm like, I had to do that eight times to. And still this last round, this cancellation right here, the. This round on Tik Tok still got to me. Like, we're still like, you're a human being at the end of the day, and it's very hard to read that much about yourself. But at the same time, like, I personally know that I have people around me who love me for me, and Know me for me and have for 10 years, as do you. And that's all that matters to me.
- [23:45]
Tana Mongeau
I don't want to pretend that didn't happen. I. I did. You know what I mean? Like, I did say those things. I did grow up that way, like, and I'm glad we're out of there. You know what I mean? I'm glad I'm past it. And I missed you. I'm happy to be back on the couch. I don't want anybody to think that I'm just pretending nothing happened. I will take accountability as long as I need to take accountability, and that will is honestly, forever. You know what I mean? Like, I'm never going to pretend that didn't happen. I appreciate. I really like. And I sound stupid, but I do really appreciate everybody who's held me accountable because it, like, there's something just. There's like, I learned a lot from that alone. You know what I mean? Just, like, people sharing, like, why it was so wrong and stuff. Like, even though I already have felt shame about it, it, like, reinforced it and it, like, you know, I really. I feel like I understand better now.
- [24:34]
Brooke Schofield
Like I said, growth is not just an overnight thing. It is a lifelong thing. And you are acknowledging that, showing up to the forefront, sitting back here and ready to continue to show your character, your current true character, and that can be appreciated.
- [24:52]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah, and it's not.
- [24:53]
Brooke Schofield
No one's getting canceled off of the canceled podcast. God damn it.
- [24:57]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah. And we lost for me.
- [24:58]
Brooke Schofield
She said, God damn it. Rats. I'll try again next week.
- [25:01]
Tana Mongeau
I love you guys. I'm true. Like, I genuinely am so sorry to everybody who, like, was affected. Obviously, like, specifically, like, the tweets were targeted towards, like, black people. And obviously we have a lot of black girls who listen to canceled, and I feel, like, really, like, sick over the fact that they think that that's my character. So I just hope moving forward, like, you can see that's not who I am. And I'll. I'll try to prove it forever, you know, some crazy.
- [25:25]
Brooke Schofield
Just, like, random crazy shit that happened to me yesterday.
- [25:28]
Tana Mongeau
What?
- [25:29]
Brooke Schofield
And this feels like deja vu because it's like, the exact same thing, but in a different font. You're gonna get a kick out of this one. So tomorrow, I am going back to Vegas to play in yet another poker tournament.
- [25:41]
Tana Mongeau
You are a rolling stone, my sister.
- [25:43]
Brooke Schofield
I got it. I got to secure my other career. I've never been so jealous of these fucking influencer fucks that just, like, bought houses in Vegas and are now making more money off gambling than being an influencer.
- [25:52]
Tana Mongeau
Like, but are they making, like, a lot of money from gambling?
- [25:56]
Brooke Schofield
Yes. The other night, like, just randomly, like, Steve will do it, Walks up to you $25,000 and goes, thanks for being friends with my girlfriend. I love you. Like, it is like that disposable of currency to all of these influences that are like, no. Makoa had to give a social. Like, we had to cash it out like that. Like, it was nuts. I was like, what?
- [26:17]
Tana Mongeau
Like, that is insane.
- [26:19]
Brooke Schofield
And that's my hometown. I want to go back home. Like, you know what I mean? I don't know. Whatever. Yeah, not yet. I know, but. So last time we talked about my mother, we were in a similar situation. Right. She. My birth mother, she showed up to my poker tournament.
- [26:34]
Tana Mongeau
Yes.
- [26:35]
Brooke Schofield
In Las Vegas. Right. And yesterday I land from my 18 hour flight home, and I didn't have Wi Fi the whole time. I slept the whole time. I was just like exhausted. And I get off the plane and I open up a text from my friend Josie Canseco. And it is a screenshot of a FaceTime call on her father's phone. And it is a screenshot of my birth father. And she says, is this your dad? And I said, well, carry the four, subtract the two. I, you know, erage now, but I'm. I. I classify myself as a steward, but I guess at one point I was.
- [27:13]
Tana Mongeau
That was firm, you know.
- [27:15]
Brooke Schofield
Sorry.
- [27:17]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah. Why she. That got. That got weird, like, for no reason.
- [27:21]
Brooke Schofield
Yeah. It wasn't. It was so unnecessary, but I was like, yeah, what's up? And so Josie's dad, Jose, my best friend.
- [27:28]
Tana Mongeau
You're.
- [27:29]
Brooke Schofield
Yeah.
- [27:29]
Tana Mongeau
I love Jose.
- [27:31]
Brooke Schofield
Hey, people. I love them. Go back and watch the video if you know. You know, Jose was playing in a poker tournament in Vegas, like at a random casino, and he somehow gets seated next to my father.
- [27:43]
Tana Mongeau
Wait, haven't you told. Is this. This just happened.
- [27:46]
Brooke Schofield
This just.
- [27:47]
Tana Mongeau
This is something really similar. Like your mom sat next to somebody.
- [27:50]
Brooke Schofield
No, it's something identical happened with Ari's family. But I'll.
- [27:53]
Tana Mongeau
Oh, okay.
- [27:53]
Brooke Schofield
We can. We can circle back to there. And Jose's sitting there, and my dad is just on a tangent about how much he hates me.
- [28:02]
Tana Mongeau
Oh.
- [28:03]
Brooke Schofield
And about how Tana Mojo is his daughter and she's famous and everything she says is a lie, blah, blah, blah, yada, yada, yada. And Jose's like, wait, I know her. Like, you know what? Like, that's.
- [28:14]
Tana Mongeau
That's my kids.
- [28:15]
Brooke Schofield
Like, yeah, great friend. I've Spent more Thanksgivings in the last 10 years with Jose Canseco than Richard Mojo. Okay.
- [28:23]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah.
- [28:24]
Brooke Schofield
And so Jose FaceTimes Josie to get her to, like, watch this happen. And Josie gets on the phone, and my dad is, like, turning, and he's like, tana, yada, yada, yada. And Josie Canseco cusses out my father.
- [28:36]
Tana Mongeau
That's. That's. I love Josie for that.
- [28:39]
Brooke Schofield
Hangs up on him. Wait, like, where the do you get off? Like, you're just going to sit there and talk about me to Jose, who, like, loves.
- [28:48]
Tana Mongeau
Really, like, so bold. Do you think he knew that Jose knew you or. No? Do you think he's seen the I Hate People I Love Them video?
- [28:56]
Brooke Schofield
I don't know. If I had to guess, he probably still has a flip phone, so. No, but he obviously probably knows who Jose is and, like, maybe knows he has a daughter. And, like, maybe he knows we're friends. I mean, I really. I really don't know, but. And I was just writing about this in my book a lot so I can, like, get into it. I will get into it eventually. But my dad was just the type of person growing up who would tell, like, the checkout clerk his entire life story for, like, narcissistic validation and then, like, go home and, like, beat my mom. Right? Oh, it just doesn't surprise me that he's good, like, to this day, going around to, like, strangers, like, and his whole stick, I guess, is, like, that I lied. And I'm like, dude, where the fuck would I get off lying, saying that, like, I grew up in, like, a shitty household with, like, cockroaches and horrible parents. Like, I would almost rather have just lied saying I had a great childhood and, like, never opened the can of worms for myself.
- [29:48]
Tana Mongeau
I need to know what that is. I almost feel like it's like, like. Like they feel absent because I have the same situation where my mom will be. Like, what trauma? Like, what are you even talking about? And I'm like, it's just extre.
- [29:59]
Brooke Schofield
Narcissism. It's extreme, like, to the fullest.
- [30:01]
Tana Mongeau
Like, they blacked out or something. And, like, don't remember.
- [30:03]
Brooke Schofield
Like, I don't know.
- [30:04]
Tana Mongeau
So frustrating to me, too.
- [30:05]
Brooke Schofield
And he was saying, like, she said, we're crackheads. And I. I never. That was never my shtick. Okay, that was your.
- [30:11]
Tana Mongeau
That's my.
- [30:12]
Brooke Schofield
Like, I just said that they were abusive, bad people. They were. They are. They sued me. It's all in the duh. No. Where would I get like. And why would I have. At 13 or 14. Been taken in by Amari's family, who, like, vouches for that. If I had, like, a stable, perfect home, like, where the. Would I get off lying about that? And it's so.
- [30:30]
Tana Mongeau
For what benefit? You know what I mean?
- [30:32]
Brooke Schofield
Because I'm. I sit here now and I'm thinking about the thousands of strangers in Las Vegas, Nevada, who have, like, heard this story from him and probably believe it. Yeah. And it's just like, can you croak already?
- [30:46]
Tana Mongeau
Okay, that's a little.
- [30:47]
Brooke Schofield
And I really mean it. And I know that that's, like, a crazy thing to say, but it's like, how are you still doing this?
- [30:55]
Tana Mongeau
How frustrating you are? Sorry.
- [30:57]
Brooke Schofield
And it's just. It's like, in what crossover world would Josie be cussing out my birth father on FaceTime?
- [31:03]
Tana Mongeau
No, it's like. Like, slay Josie. It's just like, one second she's walking. Walking the Victoria's Secret fashion show, and.
- [31:09]
Brooke Schofield
The next minute she has my back. Like, I appreciate it so much, but it's. And it's so crazy because I love going home to Vegas, but it's like, I hate knowing these little gremlins, they're just crawling around. Yeah. And, like, won't stop. And it's like. I don't know. I guess as of late, apparently my mother, like, left my father. Like, he's like, I hope so. You know, whatever. And that's like, I guess, good for her.
- [31:32]
Tana Mongeau
It's hard to do, like, even, I mean, bad, you know, people aside, like, it's hard, you know, that's a hard situation.
- [31:39]
Brooke Schofield
It's just. I don't know. Obviously, the abuse was just tenfold. I am kind of, like, waiting for the book to really air it all the fuck out. Like, just because it's so much. I'd be on this couch for literally ever, like, discussing the details of my childhood. But to just be roaming around saying that I've, like, lied about it all is, like, so infuriating to me. And this happened before with Ari's family. Like, Ari's uncle or aunt. I forget.
- [32:05]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah.
- [32:06]
Brooke Schofield
Was sitting at a poker table. My dad was doing the same thing. And they were like, wait, my, like, nephew is best friends with her and lives with her at the time.
- [32:15]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah.
- [32:15]
Brooke Schofield
And. And then my dad, like, went on this whole tangent, was cussing them out, like, knowing it's been, like. And that was probably, like, four years ago. Like, knowing that it's just, like.
- [32:22]
Tana Mongeau
It's just. That's his whole. That's his. That's his elevator Pitch?
- [32:27]
Brooke Schofield
Yeah, like, that's so fucking insane to me. And I just. What a crossover episode. I'm about to see Jose on Saturday and I'll get more, but I can't.
- [32:35]
Tana Mongeau
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Tana Mongeau
And I'm so glad I did.
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C
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Brooke Schofield
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- [33:36]
Tana Mongeau
I'M having a similar situation kind of going on because I had to obviously unblock my mother in order to tell her to stop fucking commenting on people's tiktoks. Okay.
- [33:47]
Brooke Schofield
And they should just start a small group. They can honestly get a couch. They could do exactly what we do. Well, you know, they get along.
- [33:54]
Tana Mongeau
She accuses me of, like, of making up trauma to. To like, match you. She says, I know you want to be like Tana so bad, but, like, you're just making things up. And I'm like, if. Bless your heart, but I am sparing so, so many details, so many fucking.
- [34:12]
Brooke Schofield
It's literally. That's like. That's the gag. I'm like, if everything I've ever said about my parents online, and I mean this. Sorry to cut you off. I mean this so hard, genuinely. I mean this with everything. Take my blood. I put this on Amari's life. Like, I put this on everyone I love, everyone I love's life. Everything I've ever said about my child and my parents online is 1% of who they are and what happened to me.
- [34:37]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah, like, that's. It's so infuriating. And that's why I'm saying what I'm saying, where it's like almost like they blacked out. Of course, my mom was literally on crystal meth the whole time. So it's, like, shocking she doesn't remember it, but it's so infuriating because she's. She. Her. Her favorite thing to say is like, you're making up all this trauma. And I'm like, I. If anything, I am sparing you so much. It's like, you know how Janette McCy, like, her whole. I. I haven't actually read her book, but I should have.
- [35:01]
Brooke Schofield
So amazing.
- [35:02]
Tana Mongeau
And she talks about how, like, there was a lot that she felt ashamed to say while her mom was still alive because it's like, obviously, like, Like, I. I still love my mom and stuff. And, like, there. I don't want to. You know, like, if I told the truth, like, it would be crazy. You know what I mean? But it's so frustrating to be in a text thread with only me and try to convince me that I'm making things 100. It's. Oh, my God. It, like, literally so bad. And she. Her favorite. I don't know. I don't. I didn't want to unblock her. I don't want to be in contact with my mom at all. But she was going, you know, of course she's.
- [35:34]
Brooke Schofield
But you gotta just let them at this point. You know what I mean? Like, same with that shit. Like, I'll see Jose and we'll laugh about it. And it just, like, is what it is. I really do. Word to Jeanette McCurdy. I don't know if I've. We've probably talked about this before, but I just appreciate her book title and her opening that door to being raised by, like, true abusive narcissists and being happy when they died. Because I'm just sitting here watching this, like, still cause trauma and turmoil. Like, no, like, for my life. And I'm just like, yeah, I just like, what a horrible man who has never once. How do you not feel sorry for abusing, like, your little daughter? Like, that's so sad because they'll convince.
- [36:07]
Tana Mongeau
Themselves it's not true and it never happened. Like, I don't know. My mom wasn't abusive. Well, she was abusive to, honestly, everyone but me. But I was the only one who didn't get hit. I don't know why go off queen. But I, like, I mean, obviously there was just. There's so much to it and, like, I want to spare. Like, I love her and I, like, it's a really, like. Like, it's a struggle I have, and that's how I feel. Like, I keep ending up in These, like, really emotionally abusive, like, situations or relationships and stuff, because it's like, that's what I've known always.
- [36:38]
Brooke Schofield
And, like, no, breaking that cycle was the hardest thing I've ever done.
- [36:41]
Tana Mongeau
It's hard to block her. And, like, my sister and I, like, Megan, this is my. One of my sisters has had my mom blocked for years. She has two kids. My mom's never met either of her kids. And, like, she reached out to me and she was, like, really helpful because it's like, she's like, of course it's hard to do, and you feel so guilty and, like, if you feel horrible. But it's like, at what point is it like, I don't want to be a victim of this anymore. I'm. I'm about to be 20.
- [37:02]
Brooke Schofield
And the sad thing is, like, that's genuinely why I think Jeanette said that, because it's like, here I am. I haven't spoken to this man since we were in court. And even before that, we hadn't spoken for five years. Like, fucking at all, really. Before that. Unless I was victim to just, like, abuse that I wasn't warranting. You know what I mean? Like, I wanted away as soon as possible, and it's still causing me turmoil. Like, so long as he's alive, it will cause me turmoil. And, like, that is such a sad thing to say.
- [37:31]
Tana Mongeau
It's just not fair because we didn't choose to get born.
- [37:34]
Brooke Schofield
Like, I remember being 10 and saying.
- [37:36]
Tana Mongeau
I had this conversation today, like, I didn't choose to be born. And it's like, now I have this, like, huge responsibility to parent somebody who didn't parent me.
- [37:43]
Brooke Schofield
No.
- [37:44]
Tana Mongeau
And it's just like, I feel like. It's just so frustrating and, like, I don't know, the greed, like, that. That's what it is for me. It's like, I just. I feel this, like. Like there's a sense of entitlement and greed, like, that I don't understand. And it's like, I like, for what? What did you ever do to deserve what I've earned for myself?
- [38:04]
Brooke Schofield
They think because they gave birth to you that you are an extension of them. And they are entitled to that because of how sick they are, regardless of whatever they endured. And I think there is something to be said as well. My dad's about to be 80. I'm like, please, soon. Hopefully.
- [38:19]
Tana Mongeau
That's crazy. You do have, like, older parents that.
- [38:21]
Brooke Schofield
He grew up in a generation where it was like, kids could be so abused. And they were still just. They. They were still in, like, they were owing their parents regardless. And so maybe that, like, generational gap, it is.
- [38:36]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah. I mean, it's trickier when somebody's a little bit old. Like. Yeah.
- [38:39]
Brooke Schofield
All I know is if I ever bring a child into this world one day, I will do everything in my power to make them feel loved, seen and heard, and taken care of.
- [38:48]
Tana Mongeau
It's kind of special, though. Like, I literally was just having this conversation, but it's like, it's exciting that we get to, like, make our own families 100%. And my clock's ticking. I gotta get started.
- [39:00]
C
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- [39:34]
Brooke Schofield
I obviously just got back from Europe and how was it? It was really amazing. I mean, I always say this about Makoa, but, like, getting to show him things that I've seen or see things through his eyes, like, you know what I mean? Like, I could even cry thinking about him seeing the Eiffel Tower, like, light up for the first time, like, looking at it, like, through his eyes. Like, being in all these beautiful places that I've been so lucky enough to have been was definitely the highlight and beautiful. And last year, at this exact time, Paige and Ty and I were in the exact same places. And we kind of spent the whole year saying, like, one year from those dates, like, we'll be back in Europe together. And, like, we got to do that and kind of create new memories in places that we loved a year ago. And that's why we stayed out there. That's the thing is, it's like I'm getting all these comments like, come home now. Film now. And I'm like, dude, I've been praying on this trip for 365 fucking days. And, like, I mean, I talked about it in the Leah episode, like, where I was talking to Leah and you were with Bibi. But, like, my mental health has been and is in Arguably one of the worst dates of my entire life.
- [40:49]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah.
- [40:49]
Brooke Schofield
And the way I deal with that is very scary. Tina was definitely quite unlocked. And, you know, I knew that I wanted to drink for my birthday. And then I even was saying on my birthday, like, I'll probably drink here and there until Europe and in Europe and then stop when I'm home. And I think that was a beautiful plan. I was not accounting for all of the things that would then go down. And then when you're already drinking and shit's just going down and you're stressed and you want to die, it's hard because that's a coping mechanism I've always, always leaned on. And yeah, in a perfect world, I probably would be at Passages Malibu. And I think I was doing really well with being pretty moderate until. And I'm not like, blaming anything on that. Like, I. That's just myself and my chemical makeup. Just, like, as my mental health declined, I noticed myself falling into the same coping mechanism that I have and always will love, which is substance abuse. I'm definitely in a place right now where I want to kick that, but I'm always in that place, you know?
- [41:59]
Tana Mongeau
I know, but listen, you've done it before and you can do it again. It's like, it's a cyclical thing. It's not like you haven't, like, ruined it forever. You had a little stint and then you can fix it.
- [42:09]
Brooke Schofield
And I think all of all about a sobriety journey and a journey with a healthy relationship with alcohol is giving yourself grace and knowing that every single day is a new day. I think that just even being on this trip that I so badly wanted to be on and being with the love of my life and getting to, you know, experience all those things at the same time, I do feel like I'm like walking with this little dark cloud over me. And I hope to not be. I. I do hope that life eases up. And I've been saying this now for three months and maybe it never will. And maybe I just have to learn how to navigate a very high stress lifestyle where I feel like a lot of people expect a lot of things from me when I have nothing to give. But I don't know.
- [42:53]
Tana Mongeau
I think what you're doing just fine. I'm proud of you. I don't think. I mean, listen, it's hard. Like, it's. It's so hard. And there's people who can never, ever stop. And you've done it and you've been like, you know what I mean? You Were sober for so long and.
- [43:08]
Brooke Schofield
I'm happy to like recognize all of my patterns and obviously I, I'll learn more every day but like understand who I am psychologically at a young age. I was talking about this with Trevi last night. Like some people don't hit the brick walls. I've hit until they're 50 and they've ruined their kids lives and their, you know, whatever, whatever.
- [43:28]
Tana Mongeau
Grateful for that. You told me that it's like some people don't come with the self awareness pack.
- [43:32]
Brooke Schofield
Yeah. And I have it cripplingly.
- [43:35]
Tana Mongeau
But it's a good, it's a good thing because you, I, you know what's wrong and that's like, you know what I mean? Like, that's first step in is admitting you have a problem for sure. They say.
- [43:44]
Brooke Schofield
And I'm doing my best now, I mean with everything coming up and I.
- [43:49]
Tana Mongeau
Think it's going to be really special. I think it's going to be really cool for us and I think there's a lot of good things coming. You know what I always say is when a bunch of horrible things happen in a row, it's always followed by like a bunch of really, really amazing things.
- [44:02]
Brooke Schofield
It's not even horrible things happening. Like I think so many good things are happening again, it's just harder to see them.
- [44:08]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah. You feel.
- [44:09]
Brooke Schofield
And I was saying this to my managers, I was like, my dream world right now would be to go into a dark room for three months and be off my phone entirely, have no obligations and like heal and breathe and sleep and not owe anyone but myself anything. And I said this in the last episode I filmed with Paige as well. It's very different because any other time I felt like this in my life, my main source of income or where I was posting content or where the people wanted me to show up was my own YouTube channel. Right. With no fucking schedule. Sometimes I would upload fucking daily and sometimes I would upload once a week. So when I was in a bad mental state at those times I could just take the four month break and I would always say, I hate people be like, where are you? Where were you? And I, you don't want to make.
- [44:59]
Tana Mongeau
Videos when you're not.
- [45:00]
Brooke Schofield
Yeah, I hate sitting down in front of a camera and pretending anything and just pretending point blank. So to have this obligation of a weekly show and touring and that has nothing to do with you. I'm just saying just, you know, it is what it is. Is very hard to like show up when I don't feel Like, I have the show up in me, and I'm doing my best to navigate it, you know?
- [45:24]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah, I'm. I don't know. I understand that I'm the same way where it's like, you feel. Not. Not that we feel tight. This is, like, my. I'm most grateful in life, literally, for the canceled podcast. But I. I get what you're saying. When, like, sometimes it's like, you have to film and, like, that's just not. That's how you have a bad episode or that's how, like. You know what I mean? Like, sometimes I'll come on here and I'll have the shittiest personality ever because I'm having a shitty day and, like. And I'm, you know, just mentally unstable, so. But I'm so much better. I'm on mood stabilizers.
- [45:55]
Brooke Schofield
I think I'm just. Yeah, I'm emotionally drained. Very emotionally drained. Not workload drained, but just.
- [46:01]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah, you need something to fill up your cup again, which. But it's not alcohol.
- [46:07]
Brooke Schofield
Yeah. Yeah. It's funny that that's like a pun, like, fill up your cup, you know?
- [46:11]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah.
- [46:11]
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- [46:43]
Brooke Schofield
Well, I actually really do want to talk about bedbugs.
- [46:45]
Tana Mongeau
I want to always validate your experience, but I don't think you had bedbugs.
- [46:50]
Brooke Schofield
Well, here's the thing. Neither did I, right? I woke up covered in a bunch of red dots, and I thought it was hives. That was my og Thought I was like, I am so fucking stressed right now and, you know, just battery on zero that I'm covered in hives. And so I'm itching them, and I'm, like, looking up hives, and I'm like, oh, I have hives. Whatever, right? And then someone makes it known to me that the number one bedbug outbreak in the entire world was in Paris so bad that they had to shut down the airports. The airports.
- [47:21]
Tana Mongeau
Because people were Bringing them home, huh?
- [47:24]
Brooke Schofield
I think they're downstairs and you'll find out. I guess then they're just too itchy. And they're not hives, because hives would be more all over. And, like, obviously, like, I learned a little more about how hives work. And I'm like, these are bug bites. So then I'm looking up mosquito bites versus bed bug bites. Mosquito bites, they're clear. They're. They're more the size of a penny. Okay? And bed bug bites are, like little red sharpie dots. And here I am in little red.
- [47:52]
Tana Mongeau
Sharpie dots in Paris, in the bedbug capital of the world.
- [47:56]
Brooke Schofield
Thank you. Makoa has a few. But then I'm on Google and I'm like, can you sleep in a bed next to someone and you be covered in bed bug bites? And they're not. I find out that not only bedbugs, but mosquitoes as well feed on type O blood.
- [48:15]
Tana Mongeau
I know. That's why I don't get bit. I think I'm ab.
- [48:18]
Brooke Schofield
Whoa. I am type of blood.
- [48:21]
Tana Mongeau
Wait, aren't you O negative, too?
- [48:24]
Brooke Schofield
I don't know. All that.
- [48:25]
Tana Mongeau
Probably. I think maybe are. I think you're O negative, which is like. Wait, I don't know if I'm being. I don't know. It's been a while since I've been in school, but that's the universal blood donor. Amara, I think, too.
- [48:34]
Brooke Schofield
Yes.
- [48:35]
Tana Mongeau
And it's really special because you can donate blood to anybody and their body won't reject it.
- [48:39]
Brooke Schofield
Anyone can have mine.
- [48:40]
Tana Mongeau
You would be really, really valuable at the blood bank. And they're. They're in a shortage. They call me every day.
- [48:44]
Brooke Schofield
Well, they might get some bedbug venom, but I'm more than happy to do that.
- [48:49]
Tana Mongeau
You know, they stopped letting me donate.
- [48:51]
Brooke Schofield
Why?
- [48:53]
Tana Mongeau
An array of reasons.
- [48:54]
Brooke Schofield
Okay, well, we can unpack that, but so here's the thing. So I'm laying next to Makoa typo blood, and they are feeding on me like a sushi boat. And he has a few. I then call my friend Hunter, who has done a lot of world travels. He tells me about a time that he was in Barcelona laying in bed next to someone, and he woke up covered in bed bug bites. And the person next to him didn't. He also enlightens me that he, as well, has typo blood.
- [49:22]
Tana Mongeau
Oh, no.
- [49:23]
Brooke Schofield
So then I'm like, awesome. And I don't know how to say this without. I'm just going to say it. Okay. I'm staying at the nicest hotel In Paris. It has been my dream my entire life to stay there. If you ever told the. With the dirty door making YouTube videos that she could fucking stay there for one fucking night, she would fucking die and pass out. You know, And I just. I'm more so. I'm thinking about all the places I've stayed in my life. I'm thinking about the Luxor, Las Vegas. I'm thinking about house. I'm thinking about my own houses. Okay, that was no shade to house. There's just some vermin coming out of there. You know, think about house. I'm thinking about my old house, you know, where when Noah Cyrus bought me those big flowers and then the house.
- [50:05]
Tana Mongeau
Was covered in fruit flies. No, you had an infestation that had. You had to move out.
- [50:12]
Brooke Schofield
So you're telling me that at the nicest hotel I've ever stayed at in my entire life, that is where there's going to be bedbugs. I then find out that the protocol for bedbugs is to throw out everything you own. You have me so up. They are coming home with me and renting the room next to me before I'm throwing like the. The bed bugs can wear my mew mew crop tops. Like I'm not throwing out all my. Then you can wash it all on hot. But that just ruins it all. Yada, yada, yada, right? So Tina calls the hotel staff and I have them come to my room.
- [50:51]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah, I heard about all of them encounter.
- [50:54]
Brooke Schofield
And I'm def. I'm covered in these bites and you can't scratch them as well because it can release the venom. And if you're already allergic enough to the venom to have all the red bites and like be feeling all the itch and whatever, you can go into anaphylactic shock. So now I have Amari's EP. Such a fucking bummer.
- [51:13]
Tana Mongeau
Does he bring his EpiPen? Oh, he should. Of course he should.
- [51:15]
Brooke Schofield
Yeah. And so then they're taking off all the sheets and they're ironing the sheets because that's how bedbugs come. And you should have seen me, Brooke. I didn't believe them. I was like, they're going to try to gaslight me obviously, into telling me their hotel doesn't have bedbugs. So I heat up my curling iron and my flat iron and I'm beside them at the edge of the bed, just. Just really making sure on my bath. Okay. And eventually they tell me like, yeah, you were clearly bitten by something that isn't a mosquito. We don't know. We don't think there are bed bugs here. They wash all my beds. They send a Parisian doctor to my hotel room.
- [51:50]
Tana Mongeau
Honestly, that's service. That's good service.
- [51:53]
Brooke Schofield
This man shows up in an Adidas T shirt with a cross earring.
- [51:58]
Tana Mongeau
Hey. And I mean, he's educated. He's educated.
- [52:01]
Brooke Schofield
Okay. But then I'm going to show you.
- [52:02]
Tana Mongeau
We don't judge here. He looks at me, actually do judge a lot here.
- [52:06]
Brooke Schofield
And we're working on that. He looks at my bites. He goes, beds bugs.
- [52:14]
Tana Mongeau
Really good.
- [52:15]
Brooke Schofield
And then he takes a dirty bottle out of his pocket. I have a photo. I'm happy to insert it. Why does it look like that? And says, take this. No. What the fuck is that? What the literal fuck is that?
- [52:30]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah. No, not takes this.
- [52:32]
Brooke Schofield
And it's just this white pill. There's no, like, markings on it. I'm like, I can't even pill report this shit. Okay.
- [52:37]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah. And you're. You have, like, major med anxiety, which.
- [52:40]
Brooke Schofield
Is weird thinking about, like, the street perks I've taken in my life. Yeah, they don't go hand in hand.
- [52:44]
Tana Mongeau
It is. But sometimes you're just not consistent, and that's fine.
- [52:47]
Brooke Schofield
And 100%. So he gives me that. I call my doctor. My doctor, like, essentially calls in some fucking hydrocortisone cream for me. So now instead of, like, having fun Parisian sex with Makoa, he's like, putting hydrocortisone all over me, which is super hot. After they cleaned the bed, it kind of went away. Then we went to the sex toy store and I got a bunch of whips and chains, and I decided that I'll show the bedbugs I bite back. Now I'm home and I think, there's bed bugs in my room, but I don't know.
- [53:18]
Tana Mongeau
Well, there's no way I could have predicted that ending. You bite back was crazy. That was criminal. And I. You should get in trouble for it.
- [53:28]
Brooke Schofield
I know.
- [53:29]
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- [53:45]
Brooke Schofield
But TSA almost stole from me. Okay, Is that enough to go on a tangent? They didn't steal from me.
- [53:50]
Tana Mongeau
Wait, let me see what I got.
- [53:51]
Brooke Schofield
I bought this Louis Vuitton dog collar for Winnie to bring home from Paris, and I had them wrap it in, like, Gift wrap to open it up. Duh. Like, when I got back here, and when we got back, the box was empty. And so then I'm like, where the is this dog collar? Like, there's no way some TSA agent somewhere is yelling shoes off. With my Louis Vuitton dog collar on. And it was, like, essentially unwrapped. And then the dog collar was in my opposite suitcase that it was never in. So I think that a TSA agent essentially, like, opened my up, like, thinking it was like a fun wallet. And then they were like, eh. And like, almost.
- [54:29]
Tana Mongeau
They do open your stuff, though.
- [54:31]
Brooke Schofield
But just how did it end up in the opposing suitcase? British Airways or tsa? I'm not actually sure who I'm mad at.
- [54:37]
Tana Mongeau
I'm never sure who I'm mad at. Well, I mentioned earlier that I'm on new medication. It's making me really stupid.
- [54:47]
Brooke Schofield
Well, I'm stupid, so that can work.
- [54:50]
Tana Mongeau
No. So when I was younger, I had, like, horrible migraines, and I took a medication called Topamirate or Topamax. People call it dopamine because it makes you stupid. And it's an anticonvulsant. So like a seizure medication, but it's really helpful for migraines. But it also makes all your hair fall out. Doesn't matter. I was on that and I had to get off because I was. One time I literally did you, Mr. Clean. No, luckily, I didn't have the side effect, but I did have the side effect of being an absolute idiot. And I drove my car away from the gas station with the pump still inside, and I dragged it down the street. Okay? So then I was like, you know what? I have to get off of dopamax, all right? And my new mood stabilizers, which I got on as a gift to you.
- [55:33]
Brooke Schofield
He's real. I know he's real. He answers some of my questions.
- [55:36]
Tana Mongeau
No, it was something I needed because, listen, Wellbutrin, obviously I have a lot of emotions, okay? And I'm very, very emotional.
- [55:44]
Brooke Schofield
But what you're like, if the inside out characters, like, had a bunch of sex and there was like, 70 of them.
- [55:49]
Tana Mongeau
Okay, Normally people describe it as, like, having, like, a ton of nerve endings, like, outside your body and everything affects you a lot more anyway.
- [55:58]
Brooke Schofield
I like that more.
- [56:00]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah. So I. WhileButrin helps, only really one of my emotions, Which. Well, actually two, sad and anxious. Okay? But those are two of 17 emotions that I have, so I was like, I gotta cover the rest. All right? So I did get on a new mood stabilizer but it is also an anti convulsant. See?
- [56:18]
Brooke Schofield
And now I'm imagining all the inside out characters. But, like, Joy's barred out. Who said.
- [56:22]
Tana Mongeau
Who said there should be one that's horny?
- [56:24]
Brooke Schofield
Absolutely. An addiction. Just a big giant monster who wants.
- [56:30]
Tana Mongeau
Addiction is not an emotion at all. Anyway, it's making me really stupid and I can't spell. I remember the other day I spelt like, owl or something and I spelt like. I put, like, awol. And I was like, what's going on? And I've been stumbling over my words and, like, stuttering and like, I just have been having a hard time, like, articulating my thoughts and I'm worried I might have to get off of it and we might be back to square one.
- [56:55]
Brooke Schofield
We can have a smooth transition into a new friend.
- [56:58]
Tana Mongeau
No, but it's. I think they call it, like, titrating like you. It's like there's like a risk of developing, like, a really, really crazy rash that's like, deadly if you take a high, like, dose right away. So they have to titrate you. Like, where I take, like, right for the first, like, weaning. Yes. But, like, it's so serious and it says a day on it and you cannot get it wrong. So I've, like, I've been taking one pill for 16 days and then now I'm taking two pills and then all the way, like, I. Until I get to the point where I'm like, stable as fuck, but you guys are not even ready for me to pop out.
- [57:34]
Brooke Schofield
Stable as hell. Stable those horses. She is the stable.
- [57:38]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah.
- [57:38]
Brooke Schofield
If it makes you feel any better, Tina, I don't have split personality disorder, by the way. That's just me hammered. I forgot my own phone number.
- [57:47]
Tana Mongeau
Oh, I remember it. Three, one. Oh, I remember it.
- [57:52]
Brooke Schofield
So our two little brain cells can just rattle around like walnuts.
- [57:57]
Tana Mongeau
I got a new debit card and my last four digits are the last four digits of Clinton Kane's phone number.
- [58:03]
Brooke Schofield
I'm like, checking if I have his phone number. Ordering some new mew mew for the bed bugs.
- [58:09]
Tana Mongeau
You're gonna have to guess the rest. And there's not much money in there these days.
- [58:15]
Brooke Schofield
I keep seeing all these things that you're dating Rob from Love island or that you dated Rob from Love Island. Have you seen that?
- [58:20]
Tana Mongeau
I know. And if you actually watch the bit, like, I almost got convinced.
- [58:23]
Brooke Schofield
Me too.
- [58:24]
Tana Mongeau
So, like, kind of crazy, cuz. Because I did. I talked about him on the podcast, like, long before he was on Love Island. I was like, I met this guy because we sat next to him at the streaming.
- [58:32]
Brooke Schofield
Okay, so that is the same guy.
- [58:34]
Tana Mongeau
Yes.
- [58:35]
Brooke Schofield
We sat next to Rob from Love island at the streamies.
- [58:37]
Tana Mongeau
But he wasn't from Love Island.
- [58:39]
Brooke Schofield
Yeah. He was just Rob from the Snakes.
- [58:41]
Tana Mongeau
Yes.
- [58:41]
Brooke Schofield
And you were saying he was a really sexy snake whisperer.
- [58:44]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah.
- [58:44]
Brooke Schofield
So you were talking about him.
- [58:46]
Tana Mongeau
Yes. But I knew at the time, in my head, I knew that one of my friends was seeing or, like, had seen this guy named. Or I didn't know his name, but he was a snake whisperer. And I'm like, how many snake whisperers, like, hot snake whisperers, can there be? So in my head, I just, like, it was automatically, obviously, this is him, so I can't talk to him. And I didn't. But I posted that in my vlog. I was like, there's a hot guy at our table. And then I talked about on the podcast, and I said he was a snake whisperer or whatever. And then BB makes a video about how, like, her. One of her friends dated Rob from Love island, which wasn't. Yes.
- [59:23]
Brooke Schofield
Okay.
- [59:23]
Tana Mongeau
And they. Earlier, they had, like, a situationship or whatever. But, like, everyone started thinking it was me. And honestly, I watched the video, and I was like, all of this checks out. Like, honestly, I'm convinced.
- [59:33]
Brooke Schofield
It's so wild to me that. And I really only mean this about the man. And here I go. But, like, to think, like, Harry Jowsy had a life before too hot to handle or was just, like, roaming around. Like. Like, it's so weird that we were in the vicinity of, like, Rob from Love island, but he was just robbed from the snakes.
- [59:49]
Tana Mongeau
But what was he doing at the streamys? And he had a great seat.
- [59:52]
Brooke Schofield
So was he an influencer before?
- [59:54]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah, he was. Yeah, he was. He was doing snake content. Also, what is. That's another problem I had, too, is So I had just posted all these videos with these. This snake that I found on the road. And everyone was like, she's clearly trying to get Rob's attention. I'm like.
- [60:09]
Brooke Schofield
And you're, like, always wearing overalls, too.
- [60:13]
Tana Mongeau
Let's be so serious. I grew up with reptiles. I have a terrarium in my house at home.
- [60:18]
Brooke Schofield
I grew up with reptiles.
- [60:20]
Tana Mongeau
I did.
- [60:20]
Brooke Schofield
I had.
- [60:21]
Tana Mongeau
I had geckos. I still. At home, I have monitor lizards. Like, I've. I've always grown up with aquariums and a terrarium with reptiles. So I am a snake. Like, I love.
- [60:30]
Brooke Schofield
I was raised by two reptiles.
- [60:31]
Tana Mongeau
My favorite teacher had a ball python that I would literally just hold my entire class. I love. I love snakes. But it. I was, like, really, like, offended that everyone's like, all she does is, like, try to get a guy's attention. I'm like, so true.
- [60:46]
Brooke Schofield
I was seeing where you're gonna take.
- [60:49]
Tana Mongeau
So true. But.
- [60:50]
Brooke Schofield
So he's. Rob is single, right?
- [60:52]
Tana Mongeau
I don't know. I don't know him. I've never met him. I, like, we sat across from each other at the stream because we didn't speak a word.
- [60:59]
Brooke Schofield
I wonder what will come of this. I think he's single. I've been, like, seeing a lot of, like, he's just. He's doing the real LA reality star dating trope, right?
- [61:08]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah. Honestly, I ran into Harry yesterday. He was really nice. That's good. Yeah.
- [61:14]
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- [61:46]
Brooke Schofield
What's going on in pop culture is. It is all of these things that I don't know if I have anything to add to. Like, Blake Lively, the redhead.
- [61:54]
Tana Mongeau
You know what? I have some insider information on Blake Lively. Okay. I have somebody who knows her really well that I was in a room with the other day, and she told me she was like, this was a long time coming. She's like this. She's one of the worst people I've ever met, which is so disappointing because I was such a Gossip Girl, like, super fan. Did you watch Gospel?
- [62:12]
Brooke Schofield
Of course.
- [62:12]
Tana Mongeau
I was a super fan, and I loved her so much. But, like, looking back, there's no one who really has any good stories about her. But it really disappoints me because I really love her and Ryan as a couple. I think we have a new couple that we're supposed to love.
- [62:24]
Brooke Schofield
I think it's interesting, like, because I think that Gossip Girl was so amazing. And maybe this is just, like, from someone who loved it, but everyone was, like, the way she played Serena was so amazing. But I guess what's coming to the forefront Is she was more, like, typing cast. Yeah.
- [62:39]
Tana Mongeau
Like, she said that in an interview. She was like, I'm not somebody who can cut. Like, just go in. She's not that type of actor. She was like, I can't go in and, like, become somebody new. Which is kind of crazy because that's, like, literally the job. But who am I to judge?
- [62:52]
Brooke Schofield
I. I'm just.
- [62:55]
Tana Mongeau
I am disappointed because I just. I. Like, she's so funny, and her and Ryan, like, they're, like, little relationship has always been like. Like, I always, like, looked up to it.
- [63:02]
Brooke Schofield
Yeah. Like, their speeches and were always very cute about each other.
- [63:05]
Tana Mongeau
And I'm surprised the swifties haven't saved her because, you know.
- [63:09]
Brooke Schofield
Yeah.
- [63:09]
Tana Mongeau
Like, they're the biggest. Biggest and strongest community in this entire world.
- [63:13]
Brooke Schofield
I've been seeing a lot of these takes lately on, like, how. I don't know. The way the Internet and the culture is changing is that people value and favor relatability so much more than being, like, out of touch. And it's like, you're really gonna say Lorraine Schwartz is your comfort blanket, like, that. It. It's just.
- [63:32]
Tana Mongeau
I didn't know what she said or I didn't. I don't even know who Lorraine is.
- [63:35]
Brooke Schofield
Diamonds. A diamond maker while she's doing interviews about a movie.
- [63:40]
Tana Mongeau
I am relatable. Like, I'm like, who's Lorraine?
- [63:44]
Brooke Schofield
Like, that's just. But also, like, why would they wait? Do you remember past Blake for, like, this role in this very serious movie if she wasn't passionate about it and was like. Like, did anybody run the PR by. No.
- [64:01]
Tana Mongeau
So I read the book. I loved the book. The book was amazing. Everybody else in that movie was so perfectly cast. Okay. Like, Atlas, like, Ryle. Like, everybody's perfectly cast. But it was so distracting to me that it was Blake Lively as Lily that I, like, literally, I couldn't think of anything else the entire time. So it was really interesting that they had chosen her, but more so. So she produced the movie, and there were, like, two versions, I guess. Like, Justin Baldoni also had a version, and his was, like, more serious. And I think his approach was just more serious, and it should have been serious.
- [64:33]
Brooke Schofield
Well, even seeing how he's like. I saw a clip of him the other day going to a theater after the movie, and the lights came on, and he was like, hey, if you see anyone alone who's been affected by this, like, maybe go talk to them. And, like, I don't know. It's just.
- [64:47]
Tana Mongeau
I guess maybe she's just lucky enough to not have ever had to experience. Experience something like that or had someone close to her experience something like that. And like.
- [64:53]
Brooke Schofield
But then why.
- [64:55]
Tana Mongeau
But it's your job, like, if you are involved in a project, like, that is your job to understand, like, the severity of that issue. And it's been done. Right? Like, that's the thing. There's like, so, like, big little lies, for example. Have you seen it? It's amazing. But, like, there's no, like, you know, like, cutesy branding for big little eyes. Like, it's, it's. It was promoted as, like, kind of a dark show, and it is a dark show, but it has a lot of, like, domestic violence. Like, that's what you have to do. Like, you can't. She says, put on your florals and come see us in theaters.
- [65:26]
Brooke Schofield
I'm like, blake, I saw this tick tock the other day where it was like, you know how in bathrooms they have those things of all the tabs that you can pull with phone numbers if, like, if you're in a domestically violent situation, like, pull one of these tabs. And it was someone going through all the stalls in a woman's bathroom and every single tab was taken.
- [65:44]
Tana Mongeau
That's horrible.
- [65:44]
Brooke Schofield
And again, it's something I've been very personally affected by in my life, so I'm very passionate about it. But it's still like, how could you ever be cast in that role and then not take that?
- [65:55]
Tana Mongeau
Because she's a huge star.
- [65:57]
Brooke Schofield
Seriously though, that's the problem.
- [65:59]
Tana Mongeau
I feel like she just got this, like, ego. I mean, I mean, I don't know her. So, like, I, like, I don't want to, you know, again, I don't want to contribute.
- [66:05]
Brooke Schofield
I also, this take has been said a million times, so I'm just like, so over.
- [66:09]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah, well, it does. It's probably just really frustrating. Like, I've never experienced, like, domestic abuse, obviously, but, like, I can't imagine if I had watching this all pan out and like, the roll out of this movie and the press that they've been doing, I would have been infuriated because it's like, how can you make this such an unserious thing? Like a light hearted, like, cutesy thing. Even the, like, you know, the photo, like, like everything about it has just been done wrong.
- [66:34]
Brooke Schofield
Yeah. I think until all of this, I definitely thought that it was just like, even the promo, like, with my tears ricochet and everything. Like, I thought it was just like another, like, drama rom com.
- [66:44]
Tana Mongeau
Well, a lot of people thought it was like a cutesy, like, Romantic movie. Like, I had read the book, so I knew how traumatizing it was, but. So I've read a lot of Colleen Hoover books, but do you know the drama with Colleen?
- [66:53]
Brooke Schofield
Mm.
- [66:54]
Tana Mongeau
So she wrote it ends with us, and she got, like, a lot of backlash because she was putting out, like, it ends with us, like, coloring books and stuff. Like, really, it's like, wait, that's like, not. You know, it's not really appropriate. But so she had. She come forward and said, like, this is actually my mom's story. Like, I wrote this, like, about my mom's experience. This is. Someone told me this story, so I hope I'm not getting things wrong. But it came out that her parents have been. And she was like, one of my first memories of, like, in my life is, like, my dad's throwing a chair across the room at my mom, and she's saying all this and, like, you know, she's talking about how her mom was, like, abused. Come to find out, her parents have been separated since she was 2 years old. She's never even, like, literally been in the same room as both of her parents. So she just, like, made that up to save face for, like, for a fact.
- [67:43]
Brooke Schofield
Made that up. Like, there's.
- [67:44]
Tana Mongeau
I mean, this is. She was around them together, was told to me. So I don't know if I'm, like, doing a game of telephone and telling it, like, wrong, and that's dangerous. I do that sometimes. But if that's like. I think there's just been, like, a lot of controversy, like, around her in general, because it's like, what, you can't make a cutesy. Cutesy, like, hehe. About a domestic violent. Like a serious domestic violence.
- [68:03]
Brooke Schofield
I guess I'm just. I don't know enough of Colleen Hoover's lore. I can't read a fiction book if I try.
- [68:07]
Tana Mongeau
I read literally every book that she wrote. And I was a. I was a fan, like, a big fan of hers. But that I don't. That doesn't sit right with me. Did you know that Olivia Ponton is in the movie?
- [68:16]
Brooke Schofield
I was hearing that I might go, like, after all of this. I honestly want to go see it.
- [68:21]
Tana Mongeau
It was. I thought it was well made. Like, I liked the movie. I. If Blake wasn't in a no Shade. I, like, love to see Blake and other things, but she wasn't supposed to.
- [68:28]
Brooke Schofield
Be Lily, and now I just want to see her in.
- [68:31]
Tana Mongeau
But it's. It is enough to see Rylan Atlas just stare at them. Oh, my God.
- [68:37]
Brooke Schofield
It's really Crazy that the film was. Correct me if I'm wrong. I haven't seen it. Here I go talking about a movie I literally haven't seen. But you watch it from the woman's perspective where you're questioning, like, oh, did. Did he do these abusive things? And then in the end, you see it from his perspective. Right? And you know that he did those things. Like the. The scene where.
- [68:58]
Tana Mongeau
No.
- [68:58]
Brooke Schofield
She's grabbing the hot pan and then he.
- [69:01]
Tana Mongeau
Well, I think she, like, was. You know, it's. It's common. It's like you try to convince yourself that it's an accident or, like, you know, you believe what they're saying, but.
- [69:07]
Brooke Schofield
Then the ending shows that it all wasn't an accident.
- [69:09]
Tana Mongeau
Well, she just comes to terms with, like, this is what's been happening, you know? But I don't think she ever doubted it. I think she just, like, chose to not believe it. But it's. It's a beautiful book. Like, it's an amazing book. Whether, like. I mean, obviously a lot of things have been done wrong, but it's a really, really, like, oh, my God, it ruined me. You don't like fiction books. That's so interesting to me. I can only read fiction.
- [69:33]
Brooke Schofield
Like, I just prefer, like, even in this case, I would rather read someone's real story from their perspective because it moves me, because it's real.
- [69:40]
Tana Mongeau
Like, yeah, I don't know. I feel like. But my, like, goal with reading is to, like, literally escape life. That's why I look like sci fi and stuff so much. Because I, like, I want it to feel so far away from my world that I am literally no longer.
- [69:51]
Brooke Schofield
I'm here. I'm so the opposite. Like, I cannot even get into it if it's not like, an autobiography, really.
- [69:55]
Tana Mongeau
Like, I'm so into Sarah J. Maas right now. She writes, like, all the. Like, she wrote the Acotar series. You don't know. Well, it doesn't matter. But it's all, like, sci fi. And it's, like, very, like. It's, like, mystical. Like, none of it's real.
- [70:06]
Brooke Schofield
Miss Me without motherfucking wizards and Warlock shit.
- [70:09]
Tana Mongeau
No, I love it because it's so unreal. It's like Harry Potter. Like, you know what I mean? It's like, it's something you can't. Don't gag at Harry Potter.
- [70:15]
Brooke Schofield
Like, why am I gagging Harry Potter? That is on me. We've had this conversation on this couch before. I. That's so on me. Like, I wish I could. I wish I had the Attention span. I wish I had the joy for things.
- [70:26]
Tana Mongeau
You know what's crazy? Sorry. I just completely. I. I loved Harry Potter. Me and. Me and my grandma went to see every single Harry Potter in theaters. And it was like, my favorite thing. And I was so young that now I could rewatch it. And it was. It's like I've never seen it before.
- [70:41]
Brooke Schofield
I think that when I have a kid, I'll. You know. But then that's the most exciting page. And I talked about this, like, so, like, I don't. Maybe I'll just shut up.
- [70:49]
Tana Mongeau
They will have, like. Honestly, what's crazy is Harry Potter was a long time ago. They will have remade Harry Potter probably, like, within our lifetime, don't you think?
- [70:58]
Brooke Schofield
With Daniel Radcliffe?
- [71:00]
Tana Mongeau
No.
- [71:01]
Brooke Schofield
So it's like Milo Mannheim. We're done. We're done. I don't. I don't need any. I'll watch it. Honestly.
- [71:11]
Tana Mongeau
He would be a good Harry Potter. But they will redo it. If you think about it, like. So what was I talking about today? A movie. Oh, Twisters. I didn't realize that Twisters was a remake.
- [71:23]
Brooke Schofield
I didn't know that. Same with Thanksgiving. I didn't know that.
- [71:26]
Tana Mongeau
Oh, I didn't. Well, I didn't. I went to the premiere. Actually went to the premiere for both of those. But outside. The Twisters premiere there with PETA was protesting outside. And I was like, what's going on? But it's. Because in the original Twisters, there were cows flying around.
- [71:40]
Brooke Schofield
Real cows?
- [71:40]
Tana Mongeau
Yes. I mean, not like. No, but like. Like, it was depicted in the film, but, like, there were no cows harmed in the making of the new Twisters, and I did love it, so there were.
- [71:51]
Brooke Schofield
Okay, I know nothing about this, so I don't even know why I'm like. So there were cows harmed in the og I don't know what we're talking.
- [71:55]
Tana Mongeau
No, like, you know how, like, the. There's, like, an image that we have of tornadoes, like, and we picture a little, like, cows flying around. Right. So.
- [72:04]
Brooke Schofield
Peter, I picture, like, old ladies.
- [72:05]
Tana Mongeau
What?
- [72:06]
Brooke Schofield
When I think tornado, I think of, like, an old woman flying in, like, a twin bed.
- [72:10]
Tana Mongeau
Amazing video of that woman who, like. Wait, I don't want to call it amazing because it wasn't, like, an amazing video, but. Well, yeah, it was. She. Her house had just been destroyed. I don't know if it was a hurricane or a tornado. And it was, like, nothing but rubble. But she'd been standing there for days, like. Or she'd been looking for her dog for days. And the news was covering it. And literally, as they were talking to her, they hear the dog, and she pulls it out of the rubble.
- [72:33]
Brooke Schofield
I have seen that, actually, it is the most. I'm on hopecore.
- [72:36]
Tana Mongeau
Tick Tock forever, me.
- [72:38]
Brooke Schofield
Every time. I want to not cry at Tick Tock for one day, but I never will.
- [72:42]
Tana Mongeau
I do cry lots at Tick Tock. My boobs are healing nicely. I can lay straight on my stomach.
- [72:48]
Brooke Schofield
Can you?
- [72:48]
Tana Mongeau
They are no longer. I. I think that they're no longer looking like they're bolted to my chest. They still have a ways to drop, but they're, like, starting to move a bit.
- [72:56]
Brooke Schofield
I am so in love with your tits in the straightest possible way. I really love them that I put on a Bombshell bra today. I was like, I can't even sit next to them with whatever the. I'm working with. I. You could, like, shoot me. You could stab me in the tit right now, and there's enough padding to, like, stop that.
- [73:14]
Tana Mongeau
I. You're safe. And I love that.
- [73:15]
Brooke Schofield
Like, you know in Scream, when Carmen Electra gets stabbed in the tent?
- [73:22]
Tana Mongeau
What scream is that? That is like, one of my boyfriends is in Scream.
- [73:25]
Brooke Schofield
That's exactly what I'm having to do. He better not be your boyfriend anymore.
- [73:28]
Tana Mongeau
He's not. I haven't spoken to him still. You're gonna be so proud of me. What were we talking about? Oh, yeah, I can do full mobility. I took a dance class the other day.
- [73:38]
Brooke Schofield
I love. I can do full mobility.
- [73:40]
Tana Mongeau
I don't. Yeah, that wasn't quite. Quite right. I'm telling you. Meds.
- [73:44]
Brooke Schofield
So arms are raised.
- [73:46]
Tana Mongeau
Arms are raised. They. They don't hurt at all. Everything is like. Everything's a. Okay, shout out, Dr. Barrett. I don't know.
- [73:53]
Brooke Schofield
I'm going next. I really am. Well, I literally have to leave for Las Vegas so soon. I need to pack my little poker fit. I need to study. I bombed last time. I did. So horrible. Like, in what world am I gonna let Stiney and Zach justice knock me out of a poker tournament? I'm ashamed I left there with my tail between my legs. And Tomorrow I have 81 people to beat.
- [74:19]
Tana Mongeau
You have to redeem yourself. You will.
- [74:21]
Brooke Schofield
I am.
- [74:22]
Tana Mongeau
I'm sending you good vibes. You know what? That. You know what happened. Retrograde's over. As if. I think today.
- [74:30]
Brooke Schofield
That's weird. I really felt this retrograde. Like, everything they said would happen would happen.
- [74:35]
Tana Mongeau
Like, I felt this retrograde as well.
- [74:38]
Brooke Schofield
Like, just, like, communication issues with everyone close to you as a Cancer, specifically. I, like, felt like everything I was saying to everyone, like, it just wasn't what I was trying to say. Everyone? Makoa you. Everyone in my life. Like, I don't know.
- [74:52]
Tana Mongeau
I personally was the cow in the tornado.
- [74:55]
Brooke Schofield
Yeah. The bedbugs were a really big retrograde staple for me. I'm definitely gonna go see if they're in my corsets after this.
- [75:02]
Tana Mongeau
I've been really struggling with my raising my children together. They hate each other. Well, they don't hate each other, but.
- [75:07]
Brooke Schofield
You talking about your cats?
- [75:08]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah.
- [75:10]
Brooke Schofield
You gonna talk about that or.
- [75:11]
Tana Mongeau
No, no, we don't have to.
- [75:13]
Brooke Schofield
We can.
- [75:13]
Tana Mongeau
I got a lot of hate when I got Mouse. Like, she. She doesn't even know what.
- [75:16]
Brooke Schofield
Having a bang.
- [75:17]
Tana Mongeau
Like, I knew what. Like, what I was in for. You know what I mean? Because Bengals are very, very different than regular cats. They're, like, active. And now I have to start feeding him raw because he's about to be.
- [75:26]
Brooke Schofield
Six months feeding him raw. Like, carpaccio.
- [75:29]
Tana Mongeau
Raw meat. Like a wild animal. Yes.
- [75:33]
Brooke Schofield
So what. What?
- [75:35]
Tana Mongeau
But, like.
- [75:35]
Brooke Schofield
Like, you buy. Like. Like. Like pursuit. You buy. No, you buy, like.
- [75:39]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah, Like, I'm actually not 100. Sure. I have to look into that. But. So he. I told the whole story already, but he ate a Wellbutrin and then a 300 milligram Wellbutrin. He's only four pounds, okay? Because he. I think he has, like, pika or something. He will eat everything. Like, pika, where you, like, like, people who eat, like.
- [76:02]
Brooke Schofield
In animals?
- [76:04]
Tana Mongeau
Yeah, like. Like. Like, not food.
- [76:06]
Brooke Schofield
I'm close to pika.
- [76:07]
Tana Mongeau
So he. He, like. Like, he ate an entire bouquet of roses the other day. Like, there's nothing that he won't eat. You know what I mean? So if he hears a tap on, like, I dropped my pill on the ground. I'm not even kidding. I didn't. I don't even think it hit the ground before it, like, was down his esophagus. And I freak out, obviously. So then I go on this emergency pet service. Like, I literally Google, like, emergency, like, poison control, and I find this service first thing I find, and I. You have to pay for it first. Which already, like, what the fuck do you mean? I'm gonna have to type in all my information if I think my animal is about to die? Okay?
- [76:39]
Brooke Schofield
It's like those websites where you try to find people's phone numbers. And. Yeah.
- [76:43]
Tana Mongeau
So I start talking to this girl, and she's, like, tablespoon of hydrogen peroxide. Okay? Because that makes animals throw Up. So I didn't have it, but Amanda had. Amanda's not home. I have to have the person downstairs come up, unlock her unit. I'm sifting through her cabinets. I get hydrogen peroxide, and I give him a tablespoon. Okay. And he's just doing flips around the apartment, all right? He is not throwing up there. Nothing about it. And time is passing, and I'm like, oh, my God. Like, I'm freaking out because he's not throwing up. So I'm messaging this person. They ghost me. Completely ghost me. So then I start obviously sending them death threats because I'm like, what the fuck do you mean? You're an emergency veterinary service? I tell you that my animal is maybe poisoned, and you're just ghosting me? They wrote me back, literally, like, an hour later saying, like, sorry, I had a family situation. I'm, like, suing. Doesn't matter. By that point, I'd already obviously called aspca. ASPCA told me to go to the animal hospital. I went to the animal hospital. They said, no, you need to go to the emergency room. So I took him to the emergency room, and they go take him back. They assess him, whatever. They come out and they tell me, you know what? He needs to spend the night. Why does he need to spend the night, you ask? Because he had a tablespoon of hydrogen peroxide, not because he had a 300 milligram Wellbutrin. Okay? That woman, that stupid idiot woman, and I won't name her by name because we're not bullying anymore. She gave me advice that you. You give that to a dog. Like, that's what makes a dog throw up for cats. Like, they were like, he can have, like, ulcers. Like, there's a lot of things that can happen. So we just want to monitor him. Guess how much money I spent for him to spend the night in the hospital that night?
- [78:15]
Brooke Schofield
More than 5,000.
- [78:17]
Tana Mongeau
$5,000. $5,000 because some lady who had an emergency pet service told me to give him hydrogen peroxide. But, like, I'm happy he's okay. I'm just.
- [78:28]
Brooke Schofield
What was the emergence? Was it like, my animal is sick?
- [78:33]
Tana Mongeau
It was like, poison control. It was literally like a poison control. Like. Like, forum. Like, situ. I don't even know, but I should have just immediately called the aspca. I didn't even think about it. I do have pet insurance, so I will probably be mostly reimbursed. But he's been to the vet, like, a hundred times now because he's just like, he. You could tana. He can open the fridge. He can open the trash can. Today I found him eating a chicken samosa. Okay. He can't have grains. He's like Bengal.
- [79:02]
Brooke Schofield
He.
- [79:03]
Tana Mongeau
He can do everything, you know, in every drawer. He can open every cabinet. He's £4.
- [79:08]
Brooke Schofield
He's gonna be £20 barred out eating perfume. Like, what?
- [79:13]
Tana Mongeau
Like.
- [79:14]
Brooke Schofield
But it's really, like, I don't. How do people have, like, nine bangles? I feel like everyone I know has a Bengal.
- [79:19]
Tana Mongeau
I think it has to do two with obviously him being a kitten, but, like, I. I've never had a kitten. Like, Murphy wasn't really a kitten when I got her. She was a. She was an old kitten. She was like seven months. So I just. I'm not used to that energy combined with him being an actual wild animal. I did get him a wheel, so I try to get him to run on his wheel as long as I can. But, like, he needs so much stimulation all the time. And, like, I'm playing with him all day, but he just doesn't get tired. But I love.
- [79:47]
Brooke Schofield
And he just wants to eat, like, tart blush. Like, that's awful.
- [79:49]
Tana Mongeau
Eats everything. And he growls. Like, growls.
- [79:53]
Brooke Schofield
What does think of all this?
- [79:55]
Tana Mongeau
Murphy is fucking furious. I. I have to spend at least, like, two hours a day with him in the room so that Murphy will, like, engage with me.
- [80:03]
Brooke Schofield
Mmm.
- [80:03]
Tana Mongeau
Because, like, it's really put a strain on our relationship. She does like him. They play.
- [80:07]
Brooke Schofield
I just like, Murphy's energy is very much like, even as a kitten, she was giving, like, wise old grandma. Like, you know, she's like, set up.
- [80:14]
Tana Mongeau
The cats, like, do have different personalities, and she's a girl, and she's just, you know, she's choosy with her energy. She. She does like him. I caught them cuddling this morning. I have the cutest photo. But most of the time, she. Well, it's like if she comes and sits in my lap, he'll just come and ruin it and he'll come and push her off, and then I'm heartbroken because Murphy and I don't have our special bonding time.
- [80:33]
Brooke Schofield
She's protecting her piece, honestly. And what a queen for that.
- [80:35]
Tana Mongeau
I know. But I just don't want her to feel neglected. I don't want her to feel like I don't. Like, she's my first love.
- [80:40]
Brooke Schofield
Yeah.
- [80:41]
Tana Mongeau
And if at any point she says the word, I'm dropping that second one off at the fire station. I'm just kidding.
- [80:47]
Brooke Schofield
I think over time, it'll be fine. And, like, good for you for putting the work in. And I think the work of pets.
- [80:51]
Tana Mongeau
I'm just like, I'm so. I'm so not used to it, but it's been, like, fun, kind of, because it's like having a puppy. But why can he open?
- [80:59]
Brooke Schofield
That's why people get, like, puppy blues. Like, I just feel like any new pet, it's like, it can be very hard, you know? Yeah, I want a goldfish. Even Makoa says no to that.
- [81:08]
Tana Mongeau
Goldfish are hard to take care of and they don't have very good memories, so they just eat too much.
- [81:13]
Brooke Schofield
I'm literally a goldfish.
- [81:14]
Tana Mongeau
My old dog died of obesity because my grandma has dementia, and she was feeding him over and over and over and over again. Pancakes and cereal. Anyway, also, she was a girl. I don't know why I just said that. She was a boy.
- [81:32]
Brooke Schofield
I do have some things to say over on the Patreon. Patreon.
- [81:36]
Tana Mongeau
Still can't say I'm totally kidding about talking, by the way. I'm turning over a new leaf. I'm gonna talk about my new boyfriend. That it literally is not dating me.
- [81:43]
Brooke Schofield
At all, but he might be soon. I'm hopeful I can talk about my current one. I do have some. Yeah, all kinds of things to say. But we'll go over there and we love you guys so much. And, you know, I always want to put out an episode every single week. And I'm very sorry for my mental health getting the best of that. And please just. I want to ask people to stop speculating, but I know that comes with my life, so keep on speculating. But we're here on this couch and we love you guys so much. And no one's getting canceled off the canceled podcast, and we just appreciate everyone who listens and supports us and always has and always will. And I hope to come back to you guys next week with a better mental state, a poker win, and some fun announcements.
- [82:34]
Tana Mongeau
Yay. I love you guys.
- [82:50]
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