A Late Discovery Adoptee: From Hidden Identity to Advocacy with Melissa, the Adoption Educator

Summary

Podcast Summary: Cate & Ty Break It Down

Episode Title: A Late Discovery Adoptee: From Hidden Identity to Advocacy with Melissa, the Adoption Educator
Host/Author: PodcastOne
Release Date: May 14, 2025

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Introduction

In this poignant episode of Cate & Ty: Break It Down, hosts Tyler and Catelynn Baltierra engage in a heartfelt conversation with Melissa, a transracial and late discovery international adoptee. Melissa shares her deeply personal journey from discovering her adoption identity in adulthood to becoming a passionate advocate for adoptees and adoptive families. Through candid storytelling and expert insights, the episode delves into the complexities of adoption, cultural identity, familial relationships, and personal trauma.

Melissa's Background and Discovery of Adoption

Melissa opens up about her unique adoption experience, identifying herself as a transracial and late discovery international adoptee. She reveals that she was adopted from Colombia as an infant and raised in an Italian-Portuguese household, unaware of her adoption until the age of 19.

“I didn’t find out that I was adopted until much later in life. So for me, I was 19... and totally integrated me into their Italian Portuguese culture.” (Melissa, 00:43)

Melissa discovered her adoption when she stumbled upon her brother’s adoption paperwork, which inadvertently referenced her adoption status. This revelation marked the beginning of her journey to uncover her true identity.

“I found my brother's adoption paperwork that referenced me being adopted. And so the cat was out of the bag.” (Melissa, 00:52)

Impact on Family Dynamics

Upon confronting her adoptive parents with the discovery, Melissa describes the intense emotional turmoil and denial she faced.

“I know I'm adopted. And then, oh, my God, she started screaming like, how dare you go in the office and look at the papers?” (Melissa, 05:58)

Melissa recounts the emotional abuse and racism she experienced within her adoptive family. Her parents had normalized their Italian-Portuguese culture while simultaneously suppressing her own racial identity.

“They ingrained me... like, this Italian and Portuguese... culture, the language, the food, like, everything. Like, I was working on my dad's Italian restaurant... But race wasn't represented.” (Melissa, 06:17)

Cultural Identity and Racial Issues

Melissa highlights the challenges of navigating her racial identity in a predominantly white environment. She shares instances from her childhood where her racial background was either hidden or downplayed by her adoptive family, leading to feelings of isolation and confusion.

“There was racism... So I was like, why did you adopt two Latino kids?” (Melissa, 07:31)

Melissa emphasizes the importance of cultural representation for adoptees in fostering self-esteem and mental health.

“It ties in with self-esteem and just like your mental health later on.” (Melissa, 08:13)

Trauma and Mental Health

The episode delves into the psychological trauma associated with late discovery adoption and maternal separation. Melissa discusses her struggles with depression and the lack of adequate support during her formative years.

“I went through a crazy mental health crisis in college... And I was there studying psychology and criminal justice, just trying to understand the world.” (Melissa, 28:18)

Melissa also touches upon the concept of maternal separation trauma, explaining how being taken from her birth mother immediately after birth deprived her of crucial early bonding experiences.

“I didn't have the golden hour... Which then when I had my baby, they told me how important it is.” (Melissa, 18:29)

Melissa's Advocacy and Writing

Driven by her own experiences, Melissa became an advocate for adoptees and adoptive families. She authored "What White Parents Should Know About Transracial Adoption", which has sold over 6,000 copies and serves as a vital resource for understanding the nuances of transracial and international adoption.

“My goal... isn't just to say like, oh, nobody should adopt ever. My goal is to help us address the tough topics and get comfortable being uncomfortable.” (Melissa, 51:18)

Melissa continues to write, working on projects that explore the intersection of adoption, social media influence, and legislative changes regarding adoption records.

Reconnecting with Birth Mother

A significant milestone in Melissa’s journey was meeting her birth mother in Colombia. This reunion was both emotionally overwhelming and healing, allowing Melissa to piece together parts of her identity that were previously shrouded in secrecy.

“We hugged. And for me... like, this is where I should have been and like, this is where I was meant to be, but also, like, I have a huge part of me that isn't here.” (Melissa, 36:02)

Despite the emotional strain, this reconnection deepened Melissa’s understanding of her birth mother’s circumstances and the systemic issues surrounding international adoption.

Current Projects and Future Work

Melissa is actively engaged in expanding her advocacy through various projects. She is collaborating with her brother on a memoir that contrasts their vastly different life paths post-adoption. Additionally, she is developing books that examine the role of social media in shaping adoption narratives and influencing policy changes.

“We have completely taken off this sheet of secrecy, off our story... We're working on a memoir between the two of us.” (Melissa, 39:16)

Conclusion

Melissa’s story is a powerful testament to the enduring impact of adoption on personal identity and familial relationships. Through her vulnerability and dedication, she sheds light on the often-overlooked struggles of transracial and late discovery adoptees. Her advocacy work aims to foster a more honest and supportive environment for adoptees and adoptive families alike.

“Adoptees are the most important people. Once those papers are signed, that completely flips and they... are completely just taken over.” (Melissa, 48:39)

Melissa’s journey underscores the necessity of open dialogue, cultural recognition, and comprehensive support systems in the realm of adoption, paving the way for meaningful change and healing.

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Notable Quotes:

• "I can't believe you lied to me. Because for me, it was not like, oh, you're not my real parent, right? To me, it was like, no, you lied about my identity." (Melissa, 05:56)

• "It's super important that you teach them about their culture and where they come from and the food and the music and all of that." (Kate, 07:50)

• "People are choosing ignorance... because you can find proof that it's really important for brain development." (Ty, 21:42)

• "My goal isn't just to say like, oh, nobody should adopt ever. My goal is to help us address the tough topics and get comfortable being uncomfortable." (Melissa, 51:18)

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Resources Mentioned:

• Melissa’s Book: What White Parents Should Know About Transracial Adoption
  Available at adopetthoughts.com and major bookstores.

• Melissa’s Website: adoptiethoughts.com

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Transcript

[Melissa]

Foreign.

[Ty]

Welcome back to another episode of Kate and Ty. Break it down. We appreciate you joining us today. We have Melissa, the adoption educator, which I am so excited you're here. I appreciate you so much for taking the time to just come out here and, you know, be a part of this whole discussion. It's important.

[Melissa]

So, yeah, thank you so much for having me. I'm very excited to see what we get into today.

[Ty]

Yeah, obviously, adoption's a huge. The whole thing that we're kind of trying to elevate voices here. And you're an adoptee, so can you, like, kind of just like, give us the summary?

[Kate]

What is your.

[Melissa]

The broad over?

[Ty]

Yeah. Yeah.

[Melissa]

Okay. So I'm all these fancy labels to say I'm a transracial adoptee. I'm also a late Discovery international adoptee.

[Kate]

What does that mean?

[Melissa]

So that means I didn't find out that I was adopted until much later in life. So for me, I was 19. Oh, wow. And my parents whitewashed me, essentially, for 19 years of my life and totally integrated me into their Italian Portuguese culture. And then at 19, I found my brother's adoption paperwork that referenced me being adopted. And so the cat was out of the bag. And so not only did I find out about myself, but I had to tell him because now I was just like, wow, this is huge. So. So that kind of started my adoption journey of, like, coming out of the fog. And then over the next few years, like, I tried to, like, understand it in college, go to counseling there, but they had no idea how to help. And it just kind of really hit me when I was pregnant with my first child. And that's when I really dug into, like, telling my story and learning more about it and doing deep, deep research into it. And that's how I got my book. So it all led me here to the work that I do now to help other adoptive families, because I don't want transracial adoptees to go through the struggles that I have and that many others have.

[Ty]

So do you feel like when you. When you got pregnant, did that, like, spark something? Because, I mean, you're having your. I mean, technically, it's your first biological relative. Right. So I'm assuming that had to have hit you.

[Melissa]

Oh, my gosh. Yes. I think it was during the worst part, I think, was the birth, because it was in those moments that I was like, how could you let someone take your baby?

[Ty]

Right.

[Melissa]

And that was like, the first, like, wisps of, like, anger I had towards my adoptive. My birth mom. And then after that's when I dug into it because I'm also autistic. So I love researching, like my special interests. And so I went for it, reading all these research papers, reading perspectives from birth mothers. And then I learned about the multi billion dollar adoption industry and how it even affects international adoption. And so I learned about why women place in Colombia. That was where I was adopted from. And I just knew that, okay, it wasn't really a choice. Like, my birth mother did what she could with the resources that she had, which were nothing. And. Yeah, so that's. That's kind of what sparked me to like, really try to find out more. And I went through like a deep d. Depression. And then I got pregnant with my second child and I just knew that I needed to process it more. So I use writing as an outlet.

[Ty]

And that's kind of how the books and all that. Is that kind of how it started?

[Melissa]

Yeah, I actually, back in 2019, so my youngest was 2 at the time. I wrote my first essay about finding out that I was adopted and my parents hiding my race and ethnicity. And I wrote that for huffpuff's Personal. And it took off like crazy viral all over the world. I had like BBC, mpr, like, wow. And I was just like, whoa, didn't expect that. And I was very new to the, like, publishing space and just like journalism and all that stuff. So I was like, I don't really know what to do with this, but I know I want to help more families. And then I just kept writing. I wrote a lot of op eds, a lot more personal essays. And then eventually I was connected with a publisher at North Atlantic Books, and that's how my books what White Pair Parents Should Know About Transracial Adoption came about. And it's been a few years now, and we've sold over 6,000 copies. So I'm very excited that it. It has been well received and been helping families.

[Ty]

Yes.

[Kate]

So when you found these documents. So I take you. So your adoptive parents obviously adopted your brother also.

[Melissa]

Right.

[Kate]

So when you find your. You find these documents randomly, like, how did you bring that up to your adoptive parents? Or did you not for a while?

[Melissa]

Oh, I straight up did. Oh, okay. Okay. Yeah, yeah. So I was 19, visiting home with my husband. He was my boyfriend back then, and I was just kind of just trying to show him, like, old report cards and just. Yeah. You know, like. And then he sees something and he passes it to me and he's like, you need to read this. And that's when I read the Line like their adopted daughter Melissa.

[Ty]

He actually.

[Melissa]

He saw for, like, a millisecond before me, like, completely shocked, and like, what are you supposed to do with this? Right? So he showed me, and we turned my house upside down trying to find my adoption records. And then nothing was there except for, like, a few pieces of my brother's paperwork, which I had stumbled upon a few years prior. But Italian conservative families, you keep that stuff hush, hush. So I was like, well, I don't think he's ready to deal with that. And he was already having some other behavior problems. Problems. So I was like, I don't want to be the messenger, because.

[Ty]

Right.

[Melissa]

The messenger. Never.

[Kate]

Yeah, right, right.

[Ty]

Yeah.

[Melissa]

And so when my mom came home later that day, I had to wait, like, hours and hours. I just remember her walking in, and I was just like, I know I'm adopted. And then, oh, my God, she started screaming like, how dare you go in the office and look at the papers? Like, you had no right.

[Kate]

And it's like, how dare me?

[Ty]

Oh, dear. You.

[Kate]

Yeah, for me, my whole life.

[Melissa]

Yeah. So the gaslighting was real, and you could just see, like, the fear in her eyes. And, like, immediately I was like, you need to give me my paperwork, and if you don't, like, I'm gonna get out of here and you're never gonna see me again. Because I can't believe you lied to me. Because for me, it was not like, oh, you're not my real parent, right? To me, it was like, no, you lied about my identity. Like, you ingrained me, like, this Italian and Portuguese, like, culture, the language, the food, like, everything. Like, I was working on my dad's Italian restaurant. Like, like, we grew up with all those, like, traditions, and it was always, like, beaten into me to, like, show who my family was and being a good representative of that. And so to find out that, oh, so your culture matters, but mine doesn't, right? And then understanding that, oh, they pushed mine aside because they actually don't like people of color, and they were actually very racist. And so that was, like, a huge hurdle that we had to come across because I was like, why did you adopt two Latino kids?

[Kate]

Right, yeah.

[Melissa]

And think that race wasn't going to be a problem? And my mom was like, well, I just didn't think it mattered. And my dad was like, yeah, you're not one of those.

[Kate]

So, okay, like, no, but I am one of those.

[Ty]

Well, in a way, it's almost kind of hypocritical. So you talk about, oh, represent Italian, you know, and this. But. Yeah, but not. You know, it's very. I mean, to me it seems very, like, hypocritical to be so, you know, let's. Let's elevate this culture, but minimize that one. And that must have been, like, that must have been really hard to hear.

[Kate]

I also, from some of just the books that I've been listening to about adoptees and stuff, they say it's very important if you are, you know, getting a child that is from a different culture, race, anything like that, that it's super important that you teach them about their culture and where they come from and the food and the music and all of that. Like, it's super beneficial to them. Like, duh.

[Melissa]

Yeah, it ties in with self esteem and just like your mental health later on. And like, for me, there was questions since I was like, in kindergarten. And I remember because I used to spend way more outdoors, so I was a lot darker than I am now. And there was this little girl came up to me and she was like, you can't play with us at recess because you're brown. And I went home and I was like, what does she mean? Like, what do you mean I'm brown? She's like, oh, well, you know, your. Your great grandfather, you know, he's from a town in Portugal, and he gets really tan because they had similar olive complexion. And like, at certain points throughout my life, like, especially in the winter, I was pale enough to pass enough with my Italian family because, like, if you think of Jersey Shore, especially in the early 2000s, like, yeah, it was tan, black hair.

[Ty]

Right.

[Melissa]

Like, a lot of makeup and stuff like that. So it. It was enough that they had me pass. So then my brother was able to pass because he was darker than me and looked more different, but we looked alike. So they. They got away with it for a very long time. And they had everybody in the family, like, in on a secret. Like, everybody knew except for me and my brother.

[Ty]

So everyone family you were raised with, they knew you were adopted.

[Melissa]

And we were like the youngest of the cousins, so. And we were kept pretty isolated. We weren't really allowed to hang out much with, like, friends and even family. And I never, like, understood why. I was like, why. Why do we get treated differently? Like, we're always more strict. And it was largely because they were afraid that someone else in the family would let the secret out.

[Ty]

Wow. So did you. Are you in contact with them as an adult?

[Melissa]

Yeah, my. My dad has since passed away a few years ago, but my mom and I are really close. And honestly my work and that kind of inspired us to have these deep conversations where they weren't in conversations at first. It was screaming matches. And we would just go into it about like how I felt, how she felt. And it took a long time, but I think as my kids got older and I started to understand her position as a mother and like have a different perspective on my family and the fact that, you know, she immigrated here as a teenager and my dad immigrated here and then learning about multicultural different things and racial identity and how like the constructs and microaggressions happen, that it was kind of giving me some peace of mind because I was like, oh, I know where she's coming from. I know where my dad's coming from. And it was a little easier with my mom in this case because she was just taught in that culture to listen to the man. Like her job was to get pregnant, get married, have kids, take care of them, take care of the house. That was her sole job. And so the fact that she couldn't carry kids, I was very shameful, painful for her. And so I had dealt with some infertility problems. I have endometriosis and pcos. And so the doctors told me that like my chances of having kids were like next to none unless I tried early on. So that's one of the reasons why we had children so young. And at that moment I was like, oh, okay, this, this is what it feels like for her. Like she was afraid that she wouldn't have kids. And so that allowed me to have more empathy for her and of want to bridge that gap between adoptive parents, adoptees and just the whole community.

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[Ty]

A way it's almost like, you know, your mom was a first generation immigrant. You were like a first generation immigrant from both, like in multiple, like, ways. That is like, that is crazy. Did you know. So did your, did you said your brother's younger?

[Melissa]

Yeah, he's about two years.

[Ty]

Okay. So in the, in they adopted from.

[Melissa]

The same area or the same area, Same orphanage, but.

[Ty]

So it was an orphanage?

[Melissa]

Yeah, it was an orphanage in Colombia.

[Ty]

And you were an infant or.

[Melissa]

I was about five months old at the time. The, the paperwork is always completed, but as soon as I was born, the, the nurses swiped me away and my birth mother wasn't allowed to hold me or anything. And so then I was put in the orphanage and my brother was adopted from the same orphanage, but they had since upgraded. So in 95 they moved to a bigger facility. So that's the one that's still there today. It's called Fauna. And Yeah.

[Kate]

So do you know any backstory of like, why they just took you, took you from your birth mother so far?

[Melissa]

Yeah. I actually was able to reconnect with my birth mom a few years ago and found out more of the story. And basically what happened with my adoption is that you go to the hospital and they pretty much just take the kids away right away and have them sign the paperwork because they're afraid if the moms hold the baby that they're going to change their minds. So a lot of times they'll be in the like, maturity section of the orphanage and like where they say they help women learn skills and stuff like that. And, and occasionally they'll teach some sewing skills and like reading and writing and stuff like that. But my birth mother was in many abusive relationships when she had her children. And she had already placed two of my siblings up for adoption a few years prior to me. So I have two elder sisters that were placed before me and an older brother who has since passed away. But she raised him, but with one kid with nobody to help her and just abusive men that took advantage of her. She had nobody to help her and she was abandoned as a child. So when she, she was introduced to the orphanage, like, people were just telling her, like, oh, they'll give your kids a better life, so this is what you need to do. And so it was pretty much that she was just like, I don't want my kids to suffer. I want them to have more than I do. And that's the only option she saw. And that's what happens with a lot of mothers and parents in these situations, especially international adoptions. About 80 of orphans have living parents and relatives, so.

[Ty]

So they already go. So the. So the. You know, the women already go to this place knowing that they're placing the baby for adoptions. Like, yeah, okay.

[Melissa]

Yeah. They usually try to go like, oh, we know somewhere that can help you with your baby.

[Ty]

Okay.

[Melissa]

And then you go there, and they're like, oh, here's some food. Here's this. Okay. This is the program. So you get free housing and free food. And then a lot of these women have other children, so they're. They're multiple mouse to feed. So all of a sudden, they have a safe home to bring the baby to, like, a safe place to. To. To live for however long they're pregnant for, and then a few months after. And so there's that sense of obligation there. Right? It's just like, oh, you don't help you anymore then, you know, well, then I guess you can't stay here. Like, who's gonna feed your kids? Like, so I wonder, do these places.

[Kate]

Get like, a cut of the money?

[Melissa]

Oh, there's something making bank, like, right now, I think international adoption still. It's like 60, $75,000.

[Kate]

Right. But I mean, like, even, like the orphanage in Colombia, because, like, what it sounds like, it's like if the mom is saying, oh, I'm not having. You know, I'm thinking, maybe I don't want to do this. And they're like, oh, well, then you don't want us to help you anymore, and you're gonna have to leave. So, like, I wonder, are they getting a cut? Some of the birth mother.

[Ty]

No, the orphanage.

[Melissa]

Oh, the orphanages are definitely getting.

[Ty]

Okay.

[Melissa]

Yeah.

[Kate]

I'm like, that sounds really pushing.

[Melissa]

They call it donations to the orphanage. And then the orphanage gets, like, a glass mural. And then they're like, oh, this place was donated by so and so this family. I actually walked through the orphanage last year, and we went on a tour, and you just see, like, cots of, like, toddler beds lined up, and we're like, where's the blankets and stuff? And they're like, oh, they. They really don't get cold here. Oh. And I'm like, you're inside with ac. They're. They're toddlers. They need a blanket. And they're like, oh, well, they have a stuffed animal and a sheet. And I'm just like, okay.

[Kate]

How did you feel walking through that same place?

[Melissa]

Oh my gosh.

[Kate]

That had to be emotional.

[Melissa]

I feel like, yeah, it, it. I was kind of numb, but also just like angry. There was a lot of anger simmering below the surface because I would ask questions and I'd be like, oh, so like when a family is chosen, like, how do you prepare the child if they're older? Because they're going to a different country. Because Colombia adopts out to sometimes Italy, sometimes Greece, sometimes like other countries. So, like, the language is obviously different from French to like English or Italian or whatever it is. They're like, oh, well, we give them a few language classes or if like they're going to America, we teach them a few things. But we just tell the family that just love them. That's. That's enough. That's all they need to do. Just give them a home. And I'm like, okay, so there's no education on adoption, transracial adoption. You're not preparing them at all? Like, no. Nothing.

[Ty]

That seems so, like, it just seems like a corrupted and just like, like you had to have gotten a really eerie feeling walking through something like that because knowing that you are a little five month old in there. I mean that. Because honestly, I think it's. It's different than obviously domestic infant adoption because it's rad. I mean it's five months is. So I'm wondering, like, how does that play into adoptee trauma, like being. You know what I mean? Because you're immediately like, it's got to be intense.

[Melissa]

People think that like newborns are like this blank slate. The blank slate theory and then statement ever. But is while my birth mother had me and she was going through this crisis, like I was in her womb, you know, nine months. I was listening to the things that were going around her and feeling the stress that she went through. And then I was immediately taken and placed in an orphanage. So I didn't have that. What's it called, the, like the golden hour. Yeah, the golden hour time. I didn't have that. Which then when I had my baby, they told me how important it is and like how it helps regulate body and the temperature and all these amazing things. And that's why I'm just like, okay. So I didn't get any of that. And okay, I was immediately on formula. Yeah, I was taken care of by nurses. But there's like 12 other babies in. In the infant section, so there was definitely a lot of crying. And, you know, they can only console so many at once. And then my mom, my adoptive mom, she was like, yeah, when. When I had you, like, as a kid, like a baby, I would be over your crib patting you and, like, trying to get you to sleep, and you would just cry and cry and cry. Those are often signs of that, that maternal separation. Because even if you are a baby, you still recognize, like, your birth mother. Like, they've done studies where they'll have a mother and then have, like, a blanket and then the mother can recognize which one is their babies and vice versa. Like. Like, it's very intuitive and, like, these moments and are especially important for development. So for adoptees like me, it often takes us a while to kind of dig into the layers of trauma that there is, because it's not just, like, one thing. It's. It's multifaceted. Yeah.

[Kate]

Multiple things.

[Ty]

Yeah. Because like you said, I mean, that's something that only biology can do. You can't get the gold. You can't get the golden hour. You can't feel all that stuff without biology being involved. So even if these people are taking care of you, quote, unquote, it's like. Like, it's just not the same. And I think people. People don't really know a lot about maternal separation trauma. They. And some people even, like, try to, like, don't believe in it, which I think is just. I'm like, it is 20, 25. There are enough studies out there. You're just being. You're choosing ignorance at this point because you can find proof that it's really important for brain development. And I even read a recent article that kind of talked about how that it's a traumatic brain injury. They're considering it to. For these adoptees to actually not have that even. They said even. Even three hours of the baby can regulate. And when they don't have that, how does the brain develop? The foundation of what they're developing on is. Is trauma.

[Melissa]

And if you just look at families, like, families who are. End up in the nicu.

[Ty]

Right.

[Melissa]

Babies sometimes don't have that opportunity because medical attention needs to happen. But then the nurses and the doctors all encourage it because it's so important for the baby's health, their physical health and their mental health. And it's like, l. Any other family structure. If you heard a story of a mom giving birth and then the baby just Being snatched away, you wouldn't go, oh, right, Lucky how great that baby is now set for the rest of their life, happily ever after. Any other situation and you would be like, yeah, it's so wrong.

[Kate]

Right.

[Ty]

Obviously, you know, being more farther in your journey with your mom, who obviously. You sound like you've repaired some stuff. Does she. Did you, like, explain maternal separation trauma, why you cried so much as a baby? Did she, like, yeah.

[Melissa]

And it took a while for her to understand because adoptive parents are really clinging to this. You are saving a baby in need. So for me and my mom, she explained it like, oh, well, you know, I was told that there were babies in need in Colombia. I knew, like, a lawyer who had adopted from there before, and. And, you know, we got this picture of you. We knew you didn't have a family and that your mother couldn't take care of you, so we. We brought you here to even a better life. Yeah. Even though I had a family and like, I think the immigrant part, too, because my dad and her, like, were whole. Like, American dream is. Anything is possible. You're here, you can work from the ground up. Like, we brought you to America. America is going to give you the best opportunities here. So, like, obviously. And there were moments when I would try to explain to them, I was just like, yes, I had food, I had shelter, I had a family that loved me despite its faults, but I did lose a lot of things, too. And originally my dad and her would say things like, well, if it wasn't for us, you would be on the street selling yourself or, you know, selling drugs or whatever it is.

[Kate]

And it's like, how do you know that? You don't know that you know, but that.

[Melissa]

There you go. That's the. The misconceptions and the prejudice that many adoptive families have. And if you look, adoptive families, especially families adopting transracially to another culture, they will have a lot of bias about the. The race and ethnicity their child is coming from. And we'll see the child as the exception to the rule.

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[Ty]

Oh, that's interesting because I, I think the transracial adoptee space is something I'm not too familiar with, but I've heard enough to where it's like it adds a whole extra layer of the trauma that adoptees feel, you know, versus domestic, you know, infant. So it's like yeah, it adds a whole nother layer because now I have to, I have to undig this whole culture that was hidden for me. Yeah. And like learn it, understand it in a way. Having to learn it because I was robbed from it. Yeah, it's a totally different thing to handle me.

[Melissa]

It was completely like wiped away and I had so many moments throughout my childhood where I was questioning things. I was like, huh? Like people keep coming up to me and speaking in Spanish. That's odd.

[Kate]

Oh really?

[Melissa]

So I'd be like, mom, dad, what's going on? They're like, ah, you know, they're just. People just ignore what they're saying. And I was kept very, very isolated. Like, I was only allowed to have, like, a few friends that, like, were Italian. And, like, when I went over to, like, play with them, my brother had to come with me. And it was just, like, I wasn't really exposed to other families and understanding, like, how typical American families function until, like, high school. And that's when I started working and getting out more. And then that's when I had more people come up to me and just speak in Spanish and, like, just ask me where I was born, and I'd be like, oh, yeah, I was born in Colombia, but, you know, my parents are Italian. Portuguese.

[Ty]

Yeah. Yeah.

[Melissa]

And I'm like, what?

[Ty]

What?

[Melissa]

Because once you're told something every single day of your life, like, it's hard to believe. Like, why would someone lie about that? It's so odd. But looking back, like, I was just like, yeah, yeah, there were signs. Definitely missed a lot of them. But I feel like things happen for a reason, and I wouldn't go back and necessarily change it. But I definitely think there are things that my parents could have done to supported me more. And even in just, like, adulthood, like, there wouldn't have been as many struggles if there was at the very basis honesty.

[Ty]

Right.

[Kate]

Because that's what I'm thinking. Like, one thing do you think that they could have done differently was just raise you knowing you were adopted?

[Melissa]

Yeah.

[Kate]

Like, I think that's super. I couldn't imagine. And being 19 and then just finding out, like, that's a huge traumatic thing to happen that just alone, like, I.

[Melissa]

Went through a crazy mental health crisis in college, and I was there studying psychology and criminal justice, just trying to, like, understand the world and, like, why things. Why people do the things that they do. And, yeah, just, like, crying out for help. Like, I tried to talk to friends about it, and they were just like, yeah, well, you're adopted. Who cares? Years, like, whatever. Their parents. And then.

[Ty]

Which must have been a lot really hard, because you're like, listen, I'm trying to like, hello? And you're just, like, minimizing it.

[Kate]

Like, these things. I'm struggling.

[Melissa]

And then the Catholic guilt for my family, for my adoptive family. I had an aunt reach out to me. He's like, I can't believe you and your brother are doing this to your mom. You know, you could have had it way worse in life. And that we go again, like, yeah.

[Kate]

You need to be grateful because, remember, you were saved. You know, it's that's sickening that that was the.

[Melissa]

The whole thing. And so for a year, I didn't talk to my mom. I. I just couldn't. I talked to my dad. I still felt that obligation because I knew despite, like, his issues with, like, racism and stuff, he wasn't like, the mastermind behind this. It was my mom. And she admitted to it. Like, that pushed him into saying, like, let's not say anything. And then it just kind of kept going from there.

[Ty]

So wait, at a point, your dad kind of wanted to be honest.

[Melissa]

He said that if I ever asked or, okay, have told me. But the thing with my dad and like, a lot of Italian men is just like, his main job wasn't rearing the children, it was providing. So he was working 12 hour shifts, like, Sunday through Saturday, like, all the time. And so I only really saw him Monday evenings or on the weekends occasionally. And then we do yard work together or, like, help with family stuff. And so, like, he wasn't the one, like, teaching us, like, relationship things and just, like, basic things. So that all was left to my mom. And so she took charge and that's. He just went with whatever she said. So I had a little less anger in that department towards my dad because I was just like, I'm mad at you because you went along with it. But my mom, I feel like she should have known better. And she also had a little bit more education than my dad. My dad couldn't read or write well because, like, he came to the States and, like, didn't speak English, and then he couldn't even finish high school. But my mom, she's very intelligent, and. And so I knew she had a better grasp on things that it made it harder to forgive so fast.

[Kate]

Okay, so you did. So you took a. A year break. Separation.

[Melissa]

Yeah.

[Ty]

In that year break, did you, like, is that when you kind of just, like, did you deep dive into all the things that you felt like you needed to or.

[Melissa]

I tried.

[Ty]

Yeah.

[Melissa]

Back then I was really digging into, like, Facebook groups because those are the only things in, like, forums about adoption I'd be googling, like, found out I was adopted.

[Ty]

Right, right.

[Melissa]

There weren't many resources. And I remember posting, I found an adopted from Columbia group on Facebook and I posted, like, oh, my God, like, this just happened. I just found I was adopted. And that's was like a big reality check where I. I saw that even the adoptee community was completely split down the middle because half were like, how could this happen to you? Like, that's so ridiculous. I Can't believe they did that to you. And the other half was, shut up, up. You were given a better life. And it came from adoptees, and I was getting messages after messages. So then I kind of let it go for a little bit because I was like, I can't deal with this. And I tried to lean into my Colombian roots. My husband is actually half Colombian, so we joined the Latino seniors at college, and we would go to these meetups, and there would be people all of a sudden that look like me, and they would come up to me and just say, hola, Como estas? And I'd be like, hi, I'm Melissa. And they're like, where are you from? I'm like, Colombia. And they're like, oh, but where are your parents from? Like, that's a long story. And it just got really uncomfortable because there was this huge, like, gap between, like, my culture that I was raised in versus the culture that people expected me to know. And then.

[Ty]

So did you feel kind of, like, almost rejected a little bit and. Or not belonging in this group, but not that. You know what I mean?

[Kate]

Yeah.

[Melissa]

I was too much of one, not enough of the other at different opportunities. And I remember going to one of my cousin's weddings a few years after that, and it was like this huge Italian bash. There was grandparents and uncles and aunts from Italy everywhere. And then there was a song. It's like, everybody who's Italian, stand up. And me, I just look at my husband. Fiance at the time, and I'm like, I'm not standing up. This is my family, but this isn't who I am anymore. And I'm not going to pretend.

[Kate]

Right.

[Melissa]

For the comfort of those around me. And. And still to this day, I would say 90 of my family doesn't talk about it to me and has it.

[Ty]

Oh, really?

[Melissa]

About it. And I'm very polite.

[Ty]

Yeah, right, right. Well, almost a little bit. Not. Not a protest, but I'm not. I'm not gonna fall into this or keep the light facade or, you know, I'm not gonna stand up and do this. Right. I think it's almost in a way of, like, I'm gonna make a stance a little bit by not standing, you know, in a way.

[Melissa]

Yeah.

[Kate]

So obviously, you've mentioned that you've been back to Columbia. Right. Have you. You met your birth parents at all?

[Melissa]

I met my birth mother. I went last November.

[Ty]

Oh, recent. This is.

[Melissa]

Yeah. Oh, yeah. So we went. She lives in a little town about four or five hours from Bogota, the major city in Zara Kira. And she has been married since for, like, I don't know, 28ish years now. And she has a few other children. So I have two younger brothers and a younger sister and a nephew there. And we got to meet.

[Kate]

We.

[Melissa]

We don't really know much, my. Me and my sisters that were adopted about our birth fathers, but we're not really interested because of the hardships our birth mother went through. And there was a lot of abuse in those situations. But I always wanted to know, like, if I had other siblings. And when I went to Colombia, I actually didn't expect to have as much of a reaction as I did to my birth mother. And, and it was like a very surreal moment where all of a sudden we were coming up the street and she was outside crying. And then I was just like, I have to get out there. And like, we hugged. And for me, like, especially as an autistic woman, like, I'm not big, like, hugging and touching even my adoptive mom, like, occasionally. And so for that to feel natural, it was a very surreal moment that, that it felt like another puzzle piece clicked into place. And it was like, this is where I should have been and like, this is where I was meant to be, but also, like, I have a huge part of me that isn't here. We had to leave my kids home with my adoptive mom during that time so we could go for the week. And I like, because people say, though, like, why don't you just move back there if you're not happy? And it's like, like, because I have family there and I have family here, and it's not that simple. Like, I wasn't raised in that culture. My Spanish isn't great. And, like, I'm not gonna just pack my kids up from everything they've known to, to go on this other adventure in a country where, you know, we don't know what life would be like entirely. And so being back there, it was just very traumatic in a way. And I think the hardest part for me was leaving because we were saying goodbye to my, my birth mother and she. We were giving hugs and, like, talking to everybody, and she just fainted.

[Ty]

She fainted?

[Melissa]

She fainted. She was so overcome by emotion. He just completely fainted. I barely caught her in time. And she's this tiny little woman a little shorter than me, and I was just like, oh, God, like, she cares. Like, she loves me. She doesn't want me to go. And then, then I was just kind of putting myself in her shoes. I'm just like, oh, imagine never expecting to know your children, to meeting them, and now having to say goodbye again.

[Ty]

Again. Yeah.

[Melissa]

And it's not just like, I'm going down a few blocks.

[Kate]

Right.

[Melissa]

I have to take a plane. I'm not going to be back there for how many years? And I was the only one of my sisters that was able to go for the trip, too. So it was like having to reschedule because, like, the crisis, like Covid was going on around the time that we planned. And so it was just like a lot of different factors that went into this. That just seeing her faint, I think that really just nailed the. The coffin into me is just like adoption. There's loss. There's such loss there, and it's for every single side of it.

[Ty]

Yeah.

[Melissa]

But there was also a moment of joy that I didn't expect to have. And I had called my mom, my doct mom while we were there, because it was Thanksgiving back in the States and we were talking to my kids, and then my. My mother and my birth mother are both there on, like, the little WhatsApp video call. And my mom, my adoptive mom goes, you are her mother. And my other mom, my birth mom goes, you are the first mom. I'm the second mom. We're both her moms. And they just had this moment of connection where I would have never in a million year's guest that would happen, that my mom, my adopted mom would have such empathy and such a heart for my birth mother. Because it was always jealousy, right? It was always like, oh, no, she's gonna leave me. She doesn't want me to be her mom anymore. She's gonna reject me. But I think finally seeing me there and then hearing from me all the time, she was like, she's not going anywhere.

[Kate]

And that's the thing, too, about, like, adoptive parents. I feel like, like, you know, if you are a very safe and positive adoptive parent, even though your adoptive parents did some things that maybe weren't the best thing that they should have done and were wrong, but, like, they raised you, I feel. I feel you're always going to have a love for those people, you know, and you're always going to have a love for your birth parents because that's also your family. Like, I feel like if adoption could all just be, like, there's just all these people around this child that love this child, child, that's how it needs to be. Like, open and honesty and love and care, and the more people that love this child, isn't that better? Like, that's how I want every option.

[Melissa]

To be like, you know, I know.

[Ty]

And that's how they. Honestly, in a way, that's how society sells it, especially with this new, you know, trend of openness or whatever. They kind of sell this whole pitch or whatever. So did your, so did your younger brother. Has he had any contact with him? His.

[Melissa]

No. And for like the longest time, I would say even until like last year, he didn't want to really do anything with adoption. And a lot of adopted men, like, they, they don't talk as much as women in this space. But since he's currently incarcerated right now, but he's due to finish his sentence in a few months and come home on a work release program, We've been emailing back and forth like a few times a week and doing phone calls, walls. And we've just been kind of reflecting on our childhood. And he started opening up about the adoption. He's like, oh, yeah, I would want to. To know more. I would want to do like a DNA test. And he actually, I sent him my book in there, so he was reading it, we were talking about it. And now we're. We're working on a memoir between the two of us, because between our stories, I kind of had. Had, well, the trajectory of like, oh, she was adopted. She had a happily ever after. She had a college education, she got married, had the 2.5 kids, whatever, has a beautiful house in the suburbs. And my brother, he struggled with drug addiction. He was in and out of jail, incarcerated, and currently incarcerated. And, you know, he is essentially what. What my parents feared Latinos to be. He is one of those Latinos who ended up selling drugs and ended up being incarcerated and being in these tough spots that embarrassed the family. And I think when push came to shove, that really showed where the rest of the adoptive family lied. And I think that's also a way that me and my mom got closer because she finally realized you guys are being treated differently. Everything I had feared because part of it was like, we don't want the rest of the family to treat you like we treat other people and look down upon. And I had aunts who would say, like, oh, you can't go out with those people, or like, what would you do if your daughter came home and like, dated a black man or a Latino man? How would you react?

[Kate]

I wouldn't care.

[Melissa]

Yeah, that was Nazi.

[Kate]

But also, too, it's interesting because. Because even if your adoptive parents knew and maybe were educated about the statistics of adoptees when they were adopting, they would have known that, you know, the possibility of any of you kids dealing with drug addiction or mental health stuff is actually very high.

[Melissa]

Yeah. And it happens of incarcerated individuals too.

[Kate]

Like, yes, the foster care, mental health.

[Melissa]

And then even like, adoptees are crazy numbers in the incarceration. And so I think that's why me and him have really started to bond a lot more because we have completely taken off this sheet of secrecy, off our story. And him and I are very, like, honest people. Like, after growing up in a very, like, Catholic immigrant household, we were told hush, hush, kids to be seen and not heard. And now to have like, this place where we're not being butting butted heads against each other, like, we're not being compared anymore. Because it was like, oh, he's the guy. Like, boys will be boys. They can get away with anything. Anything. And then for me, I was the eldest daughter of an immigrant family, so I had a lot of responsibilities. I was responsible for how my brother acted if he got in trouble. I was responsible for, like, watching him and all these things and like, being taught over and over and over is good. Like, we came to America, we got a better life. We did this for you, you know, we gave you everything.

[Kate]

A lot of pressure for kids.

[Melissa]

And it just took a while to kind of understand where my parents were coming from, why they had these ideas, and then also kind of figure out where that lies in, like, my upbringing and like, being raised in America and like, seeing other American families and being like, they're not like her.

[Kate]

Yeah, right.

[Melissa]

But do you.

[Ty]

So when you mentioned Catholic. So does that played a big role in kind of like the function dynamics of the family a bit.

[Melissa]

My, my parents are like holiday Catholics.

[Ty]

Okay, okay, okay.

[Melissa]

But we still did like, ccd and like, we were taught, like, no sex before marriage and all that stuff. And like, and like, you know, shame, like, it was like, anything wrong, like, oh, God is watching you. And like, don't, don't embarrass us because, like, you need to do good in front of God. And we had like, our confirmations and all those things. So it was just like always like church and God was used as a way to just shame us into listening. And so that also, like, when I found out that I was adopted, it was like that Catholic guilt. And I was like, I'm not talking to my mom. Mom. I'm ungrateful. My mom did everything for me. Like, she took care of me. She took me to the hospital when I needed to. Like, she. She raised me. She changed my diapers how could I do this to my family? Like, you know, your. Your parents come first. Like it's God, then your parents.

[Ty]

Yeah, right, right, right. But that's also part of like the fog, which I think people don't really know a lot about. But that's part of the guilt which you feel. Like I have these internal feelings, but I feel guilty for even having these internal feelings, which means I can't even externally act on those feelings. And it's a whole like when actually.

[Kate]

Your feelings are completely valid guilt with that.

[Ty]

Yeah. I mean, it's just crazy how the more stories that I hear, I just seeing a lot of similarities with religious pressure and then like familial pressure. And then I just feel like the most unfair thing that I'm hearing is that adoptees are expected to hold so much like the whole world together. And it's like, how are we, like, how are we all just pretending that this is okay? Like were they're the ch. They're literally the most affected innocent, never asked to be there, but yet we're telling them to be the pillars to hold this whole crazy thing up.

[Melissa]

If you saw my family or heard them on the day that like my HuffPo article took off and all of a sudden thousands and thousands of people are sharing it and they're seeing my face on TV on Tamron hall and stuff, you would have thought that I set their most beloved pet on fire. Like somebody got God awful. And then ring, ring, ring. Oh, talking to my mom's like, oh, how could she do this to you? She is so ungrateful. You were such a great mother. You loved her. And she, you know, she's a like shaming our family on public tv. Like, I can't believe she said these things. We are not racist. And I'm like, dad had a Confederate flag in the garage.

[Kate]

Oh my.

[Melissa]

Did. Did you just black out like the year 0 to 18 and all the like, slurs they would say and all these things, things that were just normalized. And like in school you learn like, oh, golden rule, everybody treat everybody this right oh ever. Like we're all equal. And then coming home, my parents and just like my dad would say some out of pocket stuff and I'd be like, you're not allowed to say that word.

[Ty]

Right.

[Melissa]

And then again we were told, be seen, not hard. Like, shut up, be quiet. It's not your right to say that. And so when I approached them and I was just like, well, you know, you guys really don't like black or brown people. We are Latino.

[Ty]

Yeah.

[Melissa]

And my parents looked me in the dad in the eye and they go, no, you're not. You're. You're Italian. Portuguese. And like, I went so far as, like, they hid scholarships that were like Hispanic heritage scholarships from school, so I couldn't do them. And like, I had trouble when I was going to school. My Social Security card, because they didn't change one thing. Luckily, my citizenship was fine, but, like, they had never updated it. So, like, the school was always questioning, like, oh, are you United States citizen? I'd be like, why? Why is that happening? And then when I found out I was adopted the year, then the next year I was like, oh, that's wonderful. Yeah. And so it's just like they, they had like, completely changed the story in their head and partially. It's because, like, that narrative, that's pretty little butterfly narrative is what the media shows and adoptive parents and foster parents, like, they' told that, you know, it's a beautiful thing. And like, there'll be some struggles, but don't worry about it. Love is enough. And even, like, some agencies now are being like, defensive of this, like, new wave of adoptees and foster youth and birth parents speaking out. And so they're trying to do, like, campaigns, and I see them in, like, campaigns, campaigns, campaigns to like, re. Establish how positive adoption is. So it's just like, we're looking for adoptive families and adoptees that are happy and satisfied with their adoption to combat the negative narrative that is.

[Ty]

I wonder if that's why we're receiving so much backlash, because they're part of this. Like, they feel maybe. And I honestly feel like a lot of the adoptees that I'm hearing from, and I'm not, I, I refuse to label anybody, but I'm like, are you, like, I want to talk to you in five years from now or maybe 10 years from now and see if you feel the same way, because maybe they feel obligated to defend adoption because they're. Maybe their parents are talking about it. And I just feel like, like I said, even the, Even your family calling your mom said, how dare you? How could she do this? Who is that centering? So it's like another, Another instance where it's like, why are the adoptive parents prioritized in the. In. In the scope, in the, in the. In the language? It's like, it's really like, I just. We're not centering the right people.

[Melissa]

Adoptees are the most important people. Once those papers are signed, that completely flips and they. We Just take a backseat. And as soon as we're old enough to form our own opinion and they don't align, we're completely just taken over. And then we're the troubled adoptee, we're the angry adoptee or the ungrateful adoptee, and we get pushed to the back. And like, usually, like before social media, we were able to kind of just hide there no matter how many times we, like, screamed for help or, like, tried to raise awareness about this. But now, I think especially with tech talk and Instagram and all these different avenues, we have now been able to connect our stories with other stories. And people are realizing that, oh, like Natalia Grace, that story was awful. Oh, Micah Staver. Oh, terrible things are happening here. There's more to this now. And so it's. It's progress, but it is slow. There's still a lot of anger. I still get angry messages from people all the time. I get threats. I get told to go back to my country and, wow, you know, like, I'm grateful or I should just go, you know, sell drugs with Pablo Escobar, like some crazy.

[Ty]

But do you. Do you think that most of those. Is that coming from adoptees mostly, or is it coming from, like, adoptive parents? What do you. Where do you.

[Melissa]

I would say a lot is like, adoptive parents and family members. Occasionally there'll be a few adoptees here, but usually my content is typically adoptee and foster you centered. So I'll get a lot of, like, messages like, oh, thank you for helping me me talk about this. I got my parents your book, and we're. We're listening to your podcast now. So, like, we're connecting. I have. I had a really special moment where a Colombian adoptee's father reached out to me about a year ago, and he would just send me email updates. He's like, we listened to this up this episode and we talked about this. And then this past year, his daughter actually went to Columbia. And so he was like, I. I think she needs some more support. Would you reach out to her? And I was like, you have to ask her first if she wants to talk to. But if she's open to it, like, sure, send me a message. I gave her my email, and then we talked for a little bit. And then he still sends me updates to his days. Like, I'm still able to talk to my daughter because you gave me a different perspective what adoption is. Oh, and so, like you said, like, those moments are so special because no matter how openly I talk about the struggles of adoption, my goal Isn't just to say like, oh, nobody should adopt ever.

[Ty]

Right.

[Melissa]

My goal is to help us address the tough topics and get comfortable being uncomfortable because the more we talk about these things, the more we can give proper support to families as a whole. Because we can't just help adoptees. We have to help everybody in this community to make progress. And to do that, you know, we have these conversations. This is how we're making change.

[Kate]

Or you write books.

[Ty]

Yeah.

[Kate]

And like what. So what is your book called and.

[Sponsor]

What is it about?

[Melissa]

Yeah, so my books that are out right now are called what white parents should know about Transracial Adoption and the accompanying workbook. There are two. The first, I, my mom wrote the forward, my adoptive mom just to kind of like introduce our story. And it goes into the nuances of transracial and international adoption, the history, like the politics around it. And then it really digs into like racial identity. Because with transracial adoption, people think just like, oh, you're with your family, you know, race doesn't matter, love is enough. But helping people understand how your racial identity develops, how you perceive yourself as a woman of color or a man of color growing up in a primarily white environment is different. How those have struggles. And so it goes through that. And then the workbook, it has like a bunch of activities and different just discussion points that you could have with your spouse or partner to spark these difficult conversations before you adopt, Right?

[Ty]

Ideally, yeah.

[Melissa]

And then hopefully after. And I have two other that I'm working on right now. I'm also digging into the adoption influencing world and so like how powerful social media has been to. To spark these conversations and how it's really sparked new change and like laws for privacy records. Like now there's more open adoption records in different states and how adoption influencers, how they can influence the perception of things and how it can also be a dark place and how different ways you can connect. And then so my agent has that book right now and then I'm working, keeping busy with my next one with my brother, which is a memoir from like a dual POV of his story and my story and his kind of like how he got led down the bad track and became my parents worst nightmare of what a Latino kid could be and how I became the ideal example of what could be and how both of us struggled and how both of us are still struggling to this day. And just, it's just a lot of nuance there. More door stories.

[Kate]

Where can people find and get your first book?

[Melissa]

Yeah, you can get it from any bookstore. You can Google my name or the title of the book. And I have everything on my website linked adoptethoughts.com to my social media. You just search me at adoptiethoughts and you'll find me.

[Ty]

Great. And, you know, I have to say, you said your mom wrote the forward in your book, and I had, like, that. Let's honor her. That is such a huge. From what. What you've said about the past and how she was at first. That's huge that she was involved that intimately with. With. With that book.

[Melissa]

I think people just hear my story and they assume that I hate my fantasy, but people don't understand that. Like, yeah, they have faults. They hurt me. There were different things that were terrible. But she's my mom, and I love her. And the fact that she did this work, that she was willing to have all of these conversations with me, like, that's what an adoptive parent needs to be able to do. And so I hope that she is a good example for future adoptive parents. And, like, we've done a few interviews together, her and I, and so I think that has inspired a few different adoptive parents to. To finally do the work, even though it's a little later than we would have thought.

[Kate]

Right?

[Melissa]

Yeah.

[Ty]

But it's still really important, I feel like. Because that was my next question, was like, what would you know? What would you. What advice would you have to prospective adoptive parents on how to handle it the right way? And it sounds like your mom has done the work. And I think that's what it comes down to is that they're going to just do. Willing. Willing to be vulnerable, willing to be hu. You know, humble enough to say, I did something wrong. I want to learn something new. And I think that's, like, the biggest thing.

[Kate]

Like, she got over the anger and the hurt, probably. I'm sure she was hurt, and it.

[Ty]

Was valid on her.

[Melissa]

Yeah. Yeah.

[Kate]

You know, but she got through that, and then she put in the work to learn. And that's awesome.

[Melissa]

Awesome. Yeah. And I think just having parents and foster parents being willing to say, like, I didn't know. Yeah, I wasn't prepared and just realizing that, like, oh, the adoption agency left that part out.

[Kate]

Right.

[Melissa]

Made sure to send me the bill, but they totally forgot to tell me that I would need to know all this information to help support my child. And I. I think that also is helping families these days breach these conversations, broach these conversations, because they are now aware that, like, oh, yes, we had responsibility here, but it wasn't just us.

[Kate]

Right.

[Melissa]

Because adoption isn't in a vacuum. It's not, not just the birth parents, adoptive parents, the child. There's the adoption agencies, the social workers that are pushing people through home studies even though they know they're not prepared, not hating people. Mepa, the Multiethnic Placement act, and then people trying to take laws like the Indian Child Welfare Act. There's so many different areas here that it, it's not just like this, this narrow scope, it's all interconnected. And that's why, you know, the, these conversations are far from done. They, they need to be more often.

[Kate]

Well, I really look forward to hearing about your next ventures and your next books. And I think what you're doing, you know, for adoptees and the community alone is very powerful and I think it's awesome.

[Melissa]

Some.

[Kate]

And I just appreciate you being vulnerable and coming on here today and talking with us about everything because it's important. We have to talk about it.

[Ty]

Like you said, be, you know, get used to, you know, being uncomfortable.

[Melissa]

Yeah.

[Ty]

Being comfortable being uncomfortable. And that's, and that's like what we're doing here. So we just. Oh, I'm so thankful for you. Thank you so much for coming here and sharing your story.

[Melissa]

Thank you. I appreciate it. I, I think hearing from birth parents is very important. And like, because of the platform you guys, guys have, it's allowed other adoptees to be like, hey, like, you're over here.

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[Ty]

Yeah. The good.

[Melissa]

Yeah.

[Ty]

All of it. Yeah.

[Kate]

You know, but no, but really, thank you for joining us today and having this conversation and I look forward to your new book.

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