Podcast Summary: "i just don't think i'm good enough"

Christ With Coffee On Ice
Host: Ally Yost
Date: March 7, 2025

Episode Overview

In this warm, candid solo episode, Ally Yost explores themes of vulnerability, self-worth, and faith in the face of life's challenges. She provides personal updates, shares raw reflections—including her ongoing journey with confidence and insecurity, particularly around her singing voice—and highlights the importance of obedience and trust in God’s plans. The episode radiates Ally’s trademark authenticity, offering encouragement to listeners who may share similar struggles and questions, especially about relationships, creativity, and feeling “good enough.” She also debuts her first original song, exemplifying the message that God can work powerfully through our small offerings.

Key Discussion Points & Insights

1. Hearing God and the “He Is The Icon” T-shirt (00:00–10:00)

• Ally kicks off the episode humorously, describing her “He Is The Icon” merch, adorned with various depictions of Jesus. She shares lightheartedly about how she senses Jesus responding to her in these moments, reinforcing her unique, personal relationship with Him.
• Explains that artistic representations of Jesus (often as a white man) aren’t important compared to what the images represent—love, reverence, and relationship.
• Notable Quote:

  “It’s like when your kid draws a picture of you and they just draw you in a way that’s like, that’s not really me, but, like, I love it. And I’m going to put it on my fridge anyway because it’s what it represents, you know?” — Ally (09:30)

2. How God’s Voice Differs from Condemnation (10:00–13:00)

• Ally distinguishes the voice of God—described as always kind, peaceful, and non-condemning—from the accusatory, shame-filled voice of the enemy. She cautions listeners not to attribute self-critical, shaming thoughts to God.
• Notable Quote:

  “God’s voice is peaceful and it’s kind and it’s never condemning… If anyone’s trying to make you feel like an idiot, it’s definitely the enemy.” — Ally (12:10)

3. Inspiration from Music & Role Models in Worship (13:00–18:00)

• Shares her love for Elevation Worship’s “All of a Sudden,” specifically praising Tiffany Hudson as a worship leader who embodies qualities Ally aspires to. Discusses her desire to worship unapologetically and her admiration for those who do.
• Ally plays a snippet of the song, engaging enthusiastically with its musical arrangement.
• Notable Moment:

  “I love drums. Y’all, listen to the drums. Ram Sam. So good.” — Ally (16:55)

4. Struggles with Insecurity and Singing (18:00–30:00)

• Opens up about her struggles with insecurity around her voice, as seen on her YouTube series “Jesus Freaks.” Describes how the enemy attacks her confidence despite others’ praise.
• Discusses the paradox of pride manifesting as “false humility”—being too focused on her own perceived shortcomings rather than the gifts God’s given her.
• Notable Quote:

  “One of the biggest ways the Enemy gets in our head is by getting us to look at ourselves. Pride doesn’t always sound like I’m better than everyone else. Sometimes pride can be false humility… like, I’m not good enough. I, I, I, me, me, me, I suck. It’s still looking at ourselves, which is a form of pride.” — Ally (21:40)

• Explains how true freedom in singing came when she stopped thinking it was “about me,” and instead focused on worship and obedience.

5. Songwriting and Offering Your “Little” to God (30:00–41:00)

• Announces and plays her first original song, “I Thought You’d Miss My Voice by Now,” written and recorded with minimal resources. Describes the songwriting process as “supernatural,” facilitated entirely by the Holy Spirit.
• The song is deeply personal, drawing from her past struggles with feeling unloved or “not enough” in relationships, a theme that once drove her to Christ.
• Notable Quote:

  “If I have the Spirit of God…with me while I’m creating, I can do anything. Because He can do anything. The Spirit of God is a songwriter.” — Ally (33:30)

• Encourages listeners not to wait until everything is perfect or they feel “equipped”—God can work with the little we have (like two guitar chords and a closet studio).
• Anchors the message with Luke 16:10, underscoring God’s principle of faithfulness with little leading to trust with much.
• Notable Quote:

  “Whatever you have, God can work with that. Even if you feel like you’re not equipped…Ask God. And if He’s like, no, I can work with that, that’s enough, that’s actually all I need—then I say, walk out in obedience and just do it.” — Ally (39:40)

6. Vulnerability About Godly Dating & Not Settling (41:00–56:30)

• Updates listeners on her dating life, sharing she went on a date with a “man of God” but ultimately didn’t feel total peace. Uses this candid story to encourage women not to settle for less than God’s best, even if the person is wonderful in many ways.
• Affirms that respectful, faith-filled men do exist, and women deserve such pursuit—but it must be accompanied by the peace of God.
• Notable Quotes:

  “This really is the standard though. This is actually what I deserve. And if any other guy comes around that’s just not willing to do these things, then it’s definitely not it.” — Ally (49:10) “Sometimes you’re settling can look like being with a really great person, but for some reason it doesn’t feel like your heart was made for them, and their heart was literally made for yours.” — Ally (53:40)

• Emphasizes trusting God over the fear of “what if I don’t find someone else,” calling that mindset “not from God” and encouraging faith in God’s ability to provide.

Notable Quotes & Memorable Moments

• “He is the icon. We are not allowed to have any idols outside of Lord Jesus himself. He is everything I want to be in life.” — Ally (03:50)
• “If there are voices in your head that are saying you should be so ashamed of yourself...No, it wasn’t [God]." — Ally (11:45)
• “I guess I could have made a bunch of excuses that I needed more… but I actually felt the Lord lead me to just do it. And He said, you have a microphone. You have your laptop, you have your voice, and you have your guitar, and you have two chords. It can be simple. It can be raw. It can be stripped back.” — Ally (39:15)
• “If God has trusted you with very little, like, this is all you have… If you can prove yourself trustworthy of the little, He will then trust you with much.” — Ally (40:30; referencing Luke 16:10)

Important Timestamps

• 00:00–10:00: Jesus “the Icon” merch, personal ways of hearing God, issues with depictions of Jesus
• 10:00–13:00: The difference between God’s voice and condemnation
• 13:00–18:00: Elevation Worship, Tiffany Hudson, role models in worship
• 18:00–30:00: Insecurities around singing, the battle against self-focus and pride
• 30:00–41:00: Songwriting debut, “I Thought You’d Miss My Voice by Now,” encouragement for creative obedience
• 41:00–56:30: Candid talk on dating, not settling, trusting God with relationships

Episode Tone & Style

• Casual, intimate, and confessional.
• Encouraging with a strong sense of community and solidarity ("I am literally you, you are me, we are all the same").
• Blends humor with honesty, balancing deep spiritual wisdom and lighthearted storytelling.

Takeaways

• God delights in our efforts, even if they aren’t perfect.
• Shame and condemnation are not the voice of God—trust His kindness and leading.
• Offer what you have to God; He can multiply your “little.”
• Don’t settle for less than God’s best in relationships or calling—trust His timing and provision.
• Courage, faith, and obedience open the door to deeper freedom and fulfillment in Christ.

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