testimony with Lola Sheen

Summary

Podcast Summary: Christ With Coffee On Ice Episode: Testimony with Lola Sheen
Host: Ally Yost
Release Date: August 15, 2025

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Introduction

In this heartfelt episode of Christ With Coffee On Ice, host Ally Yost welcomes a very special guest, Lola Sheen, to share her inspiring testimony of faith and transformation. This episode delves deep into Lola's personal journey from a life overshadowed by anxiety and public scrutiny to finding hope and purpose through her relationship with Jesus.

Background: Growing Up in the Public Eye

Lola Sheen opens up about her upbringing in a family immersed in Hollywood, with both parents working as actors. Despite the fame and constant public attention, Lola always felt disconnected and out of place.

[04:38] Lola Sheen: "I come from a family who's in, like, Hollywood, like, the public eye... I never really felt like that was meant for me."

She discusses the challenges of growing up as the daughter of celebrities, feeling like she was living in the shadow of her parents, and struggling to establish her own identity.

[08:08] Lola Sheen: "I always felt like on the outside, I always felt like I was just made for something else, but I never knew what it was."

Life Before Faith: Struggles with Anxiety and Isolation

Before embracing faith, Lola's life was marked by significant mental health struggles. She recounts her battles with anxiety and depression, particularly during her high school years.

[10:35] Lola Sheen: "In high school, I started experiencing pretty bad anxiety and depression... I felt pretty lonely."

The public nature of her family added to her difficulties, making it hard for her to form genuine friendships. Lola often felt that people sought her out for the wrong reasons, leading to a sense of isolation.

[07:13] Lola Sheen: "I had a really hard time making friends and trusting people because I would go to school and my friends would come to me and tell me something that was in the news that I didn't even know."

The Turning Point: Moments of Despair

Lola describes a particularly dark period in her life when her mental health deteriorated significantly. She experienced severe panic attacks and felt trapped within her own fears.

[22:30] Lola Sheen: "I had a really bad panic attack one night, and it sent me into just, like, a such an isolation because I was so scared to have that again."

During this time, Lola's prayers were directed towards her nana, not yet fully aware of the presence of Jesus in her life.

[24:09] Lola Sheen: "I started praying really hard on my Nana because I didn't know God... but little did I know, it was Jesus."

Encountering Faith: The Arrival of Jesus

A pivotal moment occurs when Lola watches a video by Ally Yost, which portrays the transformative power of faith. This encounter plants a seed in Lola's heart, leading to a profound personal experience with Jesus.

[38:50] Lola Sheen: "I didn't even know how to pray... I looked up on Safari because I didn't even know how to pray. I prayed it and I remember, I just... that's so crazy."

Lola shares how she felt Jesus' presence filling her room, providing warmth and a sense of being embraced.

[39:11] Lola Sheen: "I remember just, like, I turned to my left and I was like, my eyes were closed and I felt like Jesus just hugged me."

Building a Faith Community: Connecting with Ally Yost

After her encounter with faith, Lola's path crosses with Ally Yost's in a serendipitous manner. Their connection leads to Lola attending church and becoming an integral part of Ally's faith community.

[46:35] Lola Sheen: "Ali, it literally changed my entire life... I prayed every day for one sister in Christ and a spiritual family. I was like, that's all I need, God."

Ally recounts how her interactions with Lola were guided by a sense of divine purpose, leading them to meet and build a supportive friendship rooted in faith.

[45:29] Ali Yost: "I felt led to ask you if you had any kind of community or if you were going to a church... And you lived very close to where I lived, which was crazy."

Transformation and Hope: Living a Faith-Filled Life

Since embracing faith, Lola has experienced significant personal growth and healing. She shares moments of joy, finding purpose, and overcoming past struggles through her relationship with Jesus.

[47:37] Ali Yost: "You're so special, and I'm so excited to see what the Lord does with your life."

Lola expresses profound gratitude for the support and community she has found, highlighting the continuous journey of faith and the strength it provides.

[49:25] Lola Sheen: "It was literally the biggest gift of my life."

Conclusion: A Story of Redemption and Community

The episode concludes with mutual expressions of love and support between Ally and Lola, emphasizing the importance of community and faith in overcoming life's challenges. Lola's testimony serves as an inspiring example of how faith can transform lives, offering hope and purpose even in the darkest times.

[50:25] Ali Yost: "We love you guys. And I will see you in the next episode."

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Notable Quotes

1. Lola Sheen on Feeling Out of Place:

   "[08:08] I always felt like on the outside, I always felt like I was just made for something else, but I never knew what it was."

2. Lola Sheen on Prayer and Jesus:

   "[24:09] I started praying really hard on my Nana because I didn't know God... but little did I know, it was Jesus."

3. Lola Sheen on Transformative Faith Encounter:

   "[39:11] I feel like Jesus just hugged me."

4. Ali Yost on Community Impact:

   "[47:05] It's so cool to witness... how faithful God is."

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Final Thoughts

This episode of Christ With Coffee On Ice offers a deep and moving exploration of Lola Sheen's journey to faith. Through vulnerability and honest conversation, Ally Yost and Lola Sheen illuminate the profound impact that embracing Jesus can have on one's life, providing listeners with hope and encouragement to navigate their own challenges.

Transcript

[Ali Yost]

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[Lola Sheen]

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[Ali Yost]

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[Lola Sheen]

Hi, everyone. I love.

[Ali Yost]

You guys. Lola is. I know. We're holding our coffees.

[Lola Sheen]

We have.

[Ali Yost]

We have our coffee on ice.

[Lola Sheen]

Ready? Cheers. Take a little sip.

[Ali Yost]

I got you what I got. Because that's what you said.

[Lola Sheen]

You said, oh, so good. I've always wanted to drink out of one of these.

[Ali Yost]

I forgot what I got some type of cinnamon something. Do you like it?

[Lola Sheen]

Sugar?

[Ali Yost]

Yeah, that's what I got.

[Lola Sheen]

It's really good. So good.

[Ali Yost]

Lola is so funny. She'll be like, I don't know, whatever you like, whatever you get, whatever you want. And so I'm like, I don't even know if you're gonna like what I get, but okay, I trust you.

[Lola Sheen]

It.

[Ali Yost]

Okay, good. I'm glad you like it.

[Lola Sheen]

Me too.

[Ali Yost]

Lola, hi.

[Lola Sheen]

Hi, Ellie. Thank you for having me.

[Ali Yost]

Oh my gosh, it's a joy.

[Lola Sheen]

I'm so excited.

[Ali Yost]

I am too. I think the coolest thing that we could talk about is obviously your testimony of how you came to the Lord.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah. So I Guess my first question for you would be, what was your life like?

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

Before knowing Jesus.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

What I really want to ask is, like, who did you think Jesus was before you met him? Did you believe in him? Had you encountered him before? Or were you just, like. I didn't really have a relationship with God. What was it like before you encountered him?

[Lola Sheen]

So I grew up Catholic, and I went to this Catholic school, but I never, like, I would go to church sometimes, but I never knew why I was going. We would go to church on Christmas and Easter, but it was never, like, I never knew the Holy Spirit. I never knew Jesus. You know, it was always God. Like, I never knew of Jesus. Wow. Yeah. And I never felt the presence of the Lord before when I would go to church. I never really knew why I was going, you know? And the Bible seemed like. I don't know, it never seemed like actually like it was the word of life. I felt like it was just like, I never knew what the Bible was either. And so, yeah, I didn't know Jesus in school. I would just go to church with my friends, but we had to, you know. Yeah. And then I would just come home, and that was really it. Yeah. So I didn't know anything.

[Ali Yost]

So you're saying it was more so like, God focused rather than Jesus focused.

[Lola Sheen]

I had never felt like I never knew the Holy Spirit and I never prayed really. And when I did pray, like, at church, it was kind of like. Like a specific prayer. Yeah. It was nothing, like, personal for me.

[Ali Yost]

Right.

[Lola Sheen]

You know?

[Ali Yost]

Yeah. So you never were, like, in your bedroom on a random day being like, hi, God, it's me. It was, like, more kind of religious, I guess, where they're like, the words were given to you to pray rather than you coming up with your own words to pray.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah, okay. Exactly. Allie. I always feel like it had to be, like, a perfect prayer, you know? Yeah. But I would pray to my nana a lot, so I always pray to some, you know. Yeah. But I didn't really know what I was doing, you know? But in moments where I was, like, having a hard time, I would just look up and ask my nana to help me. Yeah. So I was looking.

[Ali Yost]

Oh, I bet Jesus heard that.

[Lola Sheen]

I know. Me too. I always think about that. So. But yeah, I never knew the Lord, like, actually knew him. Wow.

[Ali Yost]

And also, too.

[Lola Sheen]

I guess.

[Ali Yost]

I don't know, should we. We should also introduce, like, who is Lola?

[Lola Sheen]

She.

[Ali Yost]

Who is sweet Lola Sheen if you guys don't know her. So, Lola, tell us more also about, like, where you come from and who you are and all of that.

[Lola Sheen]

Okay. I come from a family who's in, like, Hollywood, like, the public eye. And so. Yeah, my parents, they're both actors. And I never was really, like, felt like that was meant for me, you know? Yeah. And so. Yeah. But I come from a family who's very in the public eye, and I never really. How do I explain? Almost, like, open to this stuff. Like, I never had, like a. It was never, like, around me a lot. Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

So you grew up in a family where there's a lot of, like, attention and cameras and all of this stuff. And how did that make you feel growing up? Like, did you feel kind of like a black sheep or you're like, I don't know. I just don't feel like that's my calling. Or were you like. I love this.

[Lola Sheen]

I always felt like on the outside, I always felt like I was just made for something else, but I never knew what it was, you know? Do you know yet? I kind of. Kind of.

[Ali Yost]

Okay.

[Lola Sheen]

You know?

[Ali Yost]

Yeah.

[Lola Sheen]

Now that I have Jesus, I'm like, he was what I was looking for. But I know, like, I was just. I just never was, like, wanted to go that way.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah. You didn't want to, like, act or anything?

[Lola Sheen]

To act. And then when I was around, like, cameras, because my whole life was basically public.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah. That's crazy.

[Lola Sheen]

So crazy.

[Ali Yost]

Like, from the get go. You were born into that, which I can't even imagine.

[Lola Sheen]

So crazy.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah.

[Lola Sheen]

I just remember, like, whenever I would deal with, like, paparazzi or stuff was in the news, like, it never felt right to me. And like, I get so many questions. Like, when I was younger, like, oh, this is like, what you're gonna be like. And I was just like, I don't know. I always, like, did my own thing, kind of. I always sort of stayed out of the way. Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

And you have siblings too, right?

[Lola Sheen]

I have siblings, yes. Tell us. I have an older sister, her name is Sammy, and then a younger sister, and her name is Eloise. And then I have a stepdad, his name's Aaron. And then my mom's Denise. And then my dad is Charlie.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

I love that.

[Lola Sheen]

Okay.

[Ali Yost]

So. Yeah. So growing up, we're in the public eye. Everyone's looking at you. We're growing up Catholic, or at least, like, going to Catholic school. Don't know Jesus. We know of God. We know the things to say to God. Don't really know the Holy Spirit. You don't have intimacy with God. So what was that like? Even with just the way that you grew up, like, in school and everything.

[Lola Sheen]

What.

[Ali Yost]

What was it like making friendships? What was it like finding your hobbies or the things that you. Tell me about all of that, too.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah. I had a really hard time making friends and trusting people because I would go to school and my friends would come to me and tell me something that was in the news that I didn't even know. And I don't know. I always felt like people were just friends with me because they just wanted something.

[Ali Yost]

And what made you feel that way? Like, did you feel that that was actually something you found out about certain friends, or was it just the way that they would act around you and then behind your back? Like, what made it so hard?

[Lola Sheen]

A lot of it became about money, like. Like going on trips and, like, sort of just taking. I felt a little like, maybe taken advantage of by some people, you know, but it's. I'm sure a lot of people can relate to that. But, yeah, I had a hard time with friends also. Some people weren't allowed to be my friend.

[Ali Yost]

That's a crazy thing.

[Lola Sheen]

Isn't that crazy, Ally?

[Ali Yost]

Because of your family.

[Lola Sheen]

Wow. Because there was just so much stuff public.

[Ali Yost]

They, like, they didn't want to be associated with it.

[Lola Sheen]

Wow. And then even with hobbies and stuff, like, when my dad would come to my, like, soccer games or my, like, horseback riding or whatever it is, there's always paparazzi there or everybody would talk about it and stuff.

[Ali Yost]

About him being there.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah. Yeah. And so those things were a little interesting. I always felt very, like, looked at. Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

Okay. I have another question, too. And don't let me project this if this wasn't the case. But I would. I'm just like, if I were to put myself in Lola's shoes, and I'm thinking about, like, how that would be. Obviously you love your parents.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

They've been successful at what they do. But at the same time, would you feel as if. If you were kind of like, living in a shadow or like you just weren't able to even have your own identity where you're like, I'm just Lola, you know?

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

Was that hard or. I can only imagine. I feel like people would be like, oh, you're so and so's daughter before just saying you're Lola?

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah. Yes.

[Ali Yost]

You know?

[Lola Sheen]

Oh, wow. That happens all the time. Yeah. Even now it happens. But I always did feel in the shadow. Yeah. I never feel like I was known for me, you. And they actually wanted to know me. Yeah. I feel Like, I was just known.

[Ali Yost]

For, like, where you came from.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah. Yeah. Wow. Yeah. Yeah. I did not know who I was before I found Jesus.

[Ali Yost]

So we have a lack of identity maybe during this time, which makes sense. We all. If we don't have Jesus, I did, too. I didn't know who I was, or I think I had theories of maybe who I thought I was. But it's hard without Jesus, so that makes sense.

[Lola Sheen]

I think as I was listening to what so many people were saying online, it was like, that became how I saw myself. Okay. You know?

[Ali Yost]

Yeah. Here, should we take a sip of our coffee?

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah, should we?

[Ali Yost]

Why is mine look lighter than yours when we got the same thing?

[Lola Sheen]

Wait, it does? Oh, what's that about? Maybe they put more milk in yours.

[Ali Yost]

Maybe. Okay, so that's like middle school, high school.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

So what was your experience like in high school, growing up? Also, did you have, like, an idea of what you wanted to do with your life? I didn't. No pressure. If you did it. I had no idea. But, like, at this point, do we have any more vision? Like, where are we at when it comes to friendships? Like, what we want to do with our life? I guess, like, press, like, all that stuff. In high school.

[Lola Sheen]

In high school, I did have, like, some friends. Yeah. These, like, girls that I was friends with. It never felt like it was, like, deep friendships, you know?

[Ali Yost]

Yeah.

[Lola Sheen]

But I don't know. I had a really hard time in high school. That was when I started experiencing pretty bad, like, anxiety and depression. And I also felt like in high school, I was still on the outside. Like, I never, like, had someone that was like, wow, like my friend, you know, like a good, good friend. But, yeah, I did feel a little like I felt pretty lonely in high school. I also felt like I was kind of following what everybody else wanted to do, and I tried really hard to fit in. I remember, like, I never really did things because I wanted to do it. Like, I would just agree because I wanted to be liked, I guess. Yeah. And then I started to want to model. Model in high school. But I don't know if that was because I. I really wanted to or it's just because my sister was getting into modeling. And then my mom did, too. Yeah. And I was like, oh. I feel like I felt like Ali also was going to say, like, I always felt like the only way I could be successful is if I did something that my mom did. Wow. Yeah. So in high school, I started trying to model, and I think God was really protecting me because it never Worked out. I had so many.

[Ali Yost]

It totally could have been his protect.

[Lola Sheen]

His protection.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah.

[Lola Sheen]

So yeah, I tried modeling so many times.

[Ali Yost]

And what is that? When you say tried to model, what does that mean? Like, were you signed with like an agency and stuff or.

[Lola Sheen]

I tried.

[Ali Yost]

Okay.

[Lola Sheen]

I tried to get sign. They never wanted me.

[Ali Yost]

I love that. It can be like such rejection. Like there are times where I look back in my life and I'm like, wow. They like really were like. No. There was even a season where I tried to model too. And really, I mean I did a little bit, but it was like, for like rooms to go. It's like a furniture company and I mean it was the coolest thing at the time actually, because that's so cool. I would just model on couches. So I would like sit on a couch and I'm doing it right now actually. But we're just for the pod. But yeah, I would model on couches and then it would come in our newspaper and my parents would be so they'd like cut it out and put it on the fridge. That's the kind of modeling I got into.

[Lola Sheen]

That's so cute.

[Ali Yost]

But there were a couple agencies that were like, you're too short, you know, whatever. And so it really didn't like work out a lot for me either. But that's okay. You know, we try things and if there's not a grace, then there just isn't a grace. So modeling. You're beautiful. You're beautiful. You could be a model, but there just wasn't a grace for it. And that's okay.

[Lola Sheen]

I never felt like I could do it right.

[Ali Yost]

Your heart probably wasn't even totally right. Were you like, I can't wait to be a model or were you like.

[Lola Sheen]

I didn't feel like that.

[Ali Yost]

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[Lola Sheen]

Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

So. Yeah. What was that like?

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah, I remember. I think my mom, she did try her best to, like, keep me protected from what people would be saying. But then I would come to school, and then people would tell me things there. And so.

[Ali Yost]

So you would find out anyway.

[Lola Sheen]

I would find out anyways. I did read a lot of stuff. There was a lot of stuff going on with my dad in elementary school, and so I was still very unsafe. Like, I felt like stuff was just always being said.

[Ali Yost]

I wonder if that's what made you such an anxious being. I know that, like, that kind of environment of, you know, would make me very anxious. So I can imagine, like, how, you know, just going to school every day and not knowing.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

What people are thinking or what they could be saying or what they're going to tell you next. Like, that's not a very peaceful environment.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah. It's so true. I always think about that. Ali. Yeah. Like, I asked the Lord a lot why I experience so much anxiety. And I think it's just, like, the way my brain was wired was just being, like, fight or flight in case, like, something happens, you know? Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

Because of your environment.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah, because my environment, totally. There was a lot of stuff, like, being said. I would have helicopters over my house. Stop it. Isn't that crazy?

[Ali Yost]

That's crazy.

[Lola Sheen]

I know. And, like, stalkers, too, because when your stuff's online, people just, like, you know, they see you. And so people can be really. It's wild.

[Ali Yost]

I like, for. I, like, don't. I forget how much people could be obsessed with your parents. I get. They are like.

[Lola Sheen]

I forget.

[Ali Yost]

I'm like. I guess they're really famous.

[Lola Sheen]

I forget all the time.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah. Oh, I bet. I mean, they're just your parents to you. Even to me, I feel like they're more so like, famous and maybe my, like, my parents generation, like, you know, so. Yeah. I, like, forget. They're kind of. I guess they're like, a big deal.

[Lola Sheen]

I know, but that's Crazy.

[Ali Yost]

Like helicopters and stalkers. I'm like, oh my gosh.

[Lola Sheen]

Crazy.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah, that's. No, that's. That's hard for kids.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah. Yeah. But I forget a lot that they're famous. Yeah. I bet it happens with my dad a lot where I'll just be with him and I realize and I'm like, wait. It's like, so.

[Ali Yost]

Wait, so what makes you realize? I don't know, like, are people staring or like, what?

[Lola Sheen]

Sometimes I just have little moments where I'm like, wait, you're so famous. It's so weird.

[Ali Yost]

Wait, dad, you're like, so famous.

[Lola Sheen]

It's so weird.

[Ali Yost]

It's true. I guess he is very famous. Yeah.

[Lola Sheen]

He even visited my work the other day. Oh, he did? Yeah. I love that. I know, right? It was so cute. But then the guy that was like buying stuff, he turned around, he yelled so loud, he was like, can I get a photo?

[Ali Yost]

Oh, bless.

[Lola Sheen]

Oh, it was really sweet.

[Ali Yost]

Did they take a picture?

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

Oh, that's sweet. Yeah. So in those moments you're like, oh, yeah, yeah. Famous dad.

[Lola Sheen]

Exactly.

[Ali Yost]

That's crazy. Lola. So when it comes to like, looking at this stuff online again, like, are we setting any boundaries? Are we just consuming all of it?

[Lola Sheen]

I think I was kind of consuming all of it, yeah.

[Ali Yost]

Cuz it was through people, through school and. Yeah. So even as you're trying to, like, avoid it, it's still being said to you anyway?

[Lola Sheen]

Exactly.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah. And so it was in high school that you really started to feel kind of more anxious. Can you tell us more about where you were at, like, mentally?

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah. There. I remember when I was in ninth grade, I was like. I was. Okay.

[Ali Yost]

Also, like, are you dating? Are there boys in your life or what? Tell me about that part.

[Lola Sheen]

Wish, Allie. I wish there is someone that I have a crush on right now. But, you know, I was talking about high school, Lola. But I want to talk about now too. Okay? Stop it. No, wait. Are you ready? Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

[Ali Yost]

We'll talk later. Sorry, guys.

[Lola Sheen]

We'll talk later.

[Ali Yost]

We're gonna talk about this later. So at the time, in high school, I'm curious to know, like, how was your dating?

[Lola Sheen]

Like, that's so funny, Ali.

[Ali Yost]

Because here, here's the thing. For me, this is on such a smaller scale. My dad was a cop growing up, so like my whole life, and he. He would drop me off. Actually, I kind of. I felt really cool at the time. But also it made sense that no boys wanted to date me because they were scared. I was literally physically being Dropped off to school in my dad's cop car before he had to go to work. He dropped me off on the way there. No, but I didn't get asked to prom. Yeah. So, anyway, this isn't about. On that level. Like, no one would want to date me. But I wonder, like, what was dating like for you? Did your family or where you come from affect that at all or.

[Lola Sheen]

Okay.

[Ali Yost]

Like, did you have boys in your life?

[Lola Sheen]

I definitely had in elementary school, boys that were, like, weirdly, like, obsessed. But it was just because they wanted to get to know my dad. Like, they wanted to get to be able to go to his house.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah. So it's kind of the same theme as, like, friends.

[Lola Sheen]

Yes.

[Ali Yost]

Where you're like, okay, no one's really looking at me. Like, just Lola.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

I'm, you know, the daughter of so and so. Yeah. Yeah.

[Lola Sheen]

And so. I also never really got asked either. I think boys were kind of scared.

[Ali Yost]

Hey, listen, I think it was God's protection.

[Lola Sheen]

I think so.

[Ali Yost]

Is that what we're going to say every time? Just to, like, help our egos and be like. No, no, no. It was definitely God protecting me.

[Lola Sheen]

It definitely was.

[Ali Yost]

No, I think it was, though.

[Lola Sheen]

Right.

[Ali Yost]

Because if they didn't have good intentions anyway, then it's like, you might as.

[Lola Sheen]

Well just not exactly. I did have one boyfriend, though. You did? I did. Oh, what was his name? His name was Will. Will. His name was Will. We were. I was 16. This was in 10th grade.

[Ali Yost]

Okay. Was he your first kiss?

[Lola Sheen]

No.

[Ali Yost]

Who was your first. When was your first kiss, lila?

[Lola Sheen]

I was 15.

[Ali Yost]

Okay.

[Lola Sheen]

I was 15.

[Ali Yost]

That's really good, actually.

[Lola Sheen]

Really?

[Ali Yost]

Was. I. I don't know how old I was when I had my first. Yeah. I feel like people have their first kiss at, like, 10, like, 9.

[Lola Sheen]

Is that crazy? Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

I think I was scared to kiss boys.

[Lola Sheen]

I was so scared. Were you scared? Yes. I was like, what's gonna happen? I was like, I have no idea what I'm doing.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah, that part.

[Lola Sheen]

It's so funny. I would still be scared. Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

I still am sometimes.

[Lola Sheen]

You know, I had one boyfriend. It didn't last very long.

[Ali Yost]

Okay.

[Lola Sheen]

But that's okay.

[Ali Yost]

That's okay.

[Lola Sheen]

I don't know if I ever told you about it.

[Ali Yost]

I've never heard about Will.

[Lola Sheen]

Never.

[Ali Yost]

This is just me asking at this point. I don't know if anyone else cares, but I was like, wait, Lola, tell.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

Okay, so we had one boyfriend.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

Freshman year of high school, then.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah. This was sophomore. Okay. Yeah. Sophomore year.

[Ali Yost]

Okay.

[Lola Sheen]

But, yeah, that was It. And then I did, like, you know, I had crushes in high school. I had one crush, but we never really dated.

[Ali Yost]

Would you, like, write his name a million times in your journal? Girl? I was weird like that. I'd be like, josh, Josh, Josh, Josh.

[Lola Sheen]

I journaled Will's name a lot.

[Ali Yost]

You did?

[Lola Sheen]

I was always journaling that. That's so sweet. So funny.

[Ali Yost]

Okay, so back to where you were at mentally, though, in high school. Okay, so let's talk about the stuff that. Because I do know your story for the most part, but the stuff that really basically led you to Jesus. Right. Like, all these things that you kind of started to struggle with and face.

[Lola Sheen]

What was that like when I was 16, I don't even know what, like, triggered this or what happened. I think just, like, maybe just high school in general, but I started to really deal with depression. The only other time I dealt with that was when I was 10. I know.

[Ali Yost]

Did you know that it was depression.

[Lola Sheen]

When you were 10?

[Ali Yost]

Okay.

[Lola Sheen]

My mom, she was, like, very concerned. But I love your mommy. Me, too. I love her. Yeah, she's the best. I think you guys would be friends.

[Ali Yost]

I think we're gonna be.

[Lola Sheen]

I think you are. But, yeah, I, like. I really started to deal with depression. And when I was 10, it was like, I came out of it very fast because I was so young. I was obsessed with the show, like, H2O. Okay. And so I remember it. I started watching that, just like, distracting myself. I always just felt. I think it was just from feeling like a shadow, too, you know? And so when I was 16, I started to experience really severe depression. Yeah. I don't even know why. I feel like I couldn't really control it. And I think a lot of people with depression maybe can relate. Yeah. Or who's dealt with it. It feels like it's like it just completely overtook me. Wow. And then I remember I had a really bad panic attack one night, and it sent me into just, like, a. Such an isolation because I was so scared to have that again.

[Ali Yost]

And what were you doing? Were you just, like, in your room and it just kind of came?

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah, I was in my room. I remember I had school the next day, and I was really nervous to go to school a lot. It was really hard for me to, like, get to school. Yeah. And so the night before, I had a really bad panic attack, and I ended up isolating myself for, like, three months. Wow. I had, like, Life360 on my phone, and it was, like, two months. I hadn't left the House still. And people started, like, showing up my friends, and they were like, lola, why are you still home? Like, what's going on?

[Ali Yost]

And you said your mom was worried at this point?

[Lola Sheen]

My mom was worried. My dad was really worried. I was living with my dad, and he would ask me every day to, like, go on walks and just, like, get myself out, but I literally could not leave my room. It was so crazy. Like, I was just, like, stuck. Like, I was so scared of every little thing. And I became a really bad hypochondriac, too. I always thought there was, like, something wrong with my body. And so I think also when you're, like, isolated for so long, I kind of felt like I was going crazy. So my life just felt very, like, depressing because I would wake up and then I was scared to go outside. So it was just like, the same thing every day, you know? Yeah. Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

You're, like, living the same day over and over.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah, exactly. And so I remember this one week. I was now in my bed for, like, three months, and I was like, okay, life just does not seem like it's getting better. I never saw myself coming out of that room. Like, I was like, I think my life is just going to be these four walls forever. Wow. And this was actually before I met Will. And I remember saying I was like, I'm never going to be able to get a boyfriend because I can't leave my house. And so I. To get my mom. This was, like, a very hard thing for me, too. I remember because I wanted to see my mom, but I couldn't leave my house. Wow. She would text me like, I miss you. And I'm like, it was really hard for me because I was like, I miss you so much, but I literally am terrified to leave, you know? So I started to experience really bad. Just thoughts of just not wanting to be here. And then, yeah, I don't know, I started to get really suicidal. I remember there was this one night, and I was like, I just don't see myself coming out of this. And I started praying really hard on my Nana because I didn't know God.

[Ali Yost]

It's funny that you were praying to your nana.

[Lola Sheen]

I would, like, write her name down. And I was like, nana, like, I just need you to help. And so I made her my screensaver. Oh, my gosh. So sweet. And I was like, little did I know, like, God was Jesus. I know he was just right there. It was Jesus. It was Jesus. I think I had a lot of open doors because during that time, I was going to psychics and I had crystals. Wow.

[Ali Yost]

What were the psychics telling you? Do you remember any of the things.

[Lola Sheen]

That they told you? You know what's so funny, Al, is the. The only thing they would always say is, like, you're gonna be like an actress or something. And they would always just talk about, like, me acting.

[Ali Yost]

How did that make you feel? Were you like, oh, or were you.

[Lola Sheen]

Like, no, I was. I remember I walked out and I was just like, I think they knew who my mom was or something, or my dad, but I also don't know. But I just walked out and I never walked out being like, oh, my gosh, Like, I have so much hope for my future. I have all the answers now.

[Ali Yost]

I know my purpose. Yeah.

[Lola Sheen]

It was never, like, I never felt fulfilled, obviously. But yeah, during that time, I was like, looking to just find things to make me feel like I had a purpose. You needed an anchor. Yeah, I needed an anchor. Yeah. Yeah. I got really dark. I actually wore all black all the time.

[Ali Yost]

And now all you wear is white. All you wear is white. Jesus.

[Lola Sheen]

That's so crazy.

[Ali Yost]

It's amazing.

[Lola Sheen]

It's so crazy.

[Ali Yost]

Ally, you're a new creation, my girl.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah.

[Lola Sheen]

So, yeah.

[Ali Yost]

Lola in all black. That's crazy. Ali, I don't even know who that version of you is.

[Lola Sheen]

I don't either.

[Ali Yost]

Who is she?

[Lola Sheen]

She died.

[Ali Yost]

She died.

[Lola Sheen]

She did.

[Ali Yost]

She died. Hallelujah. Thank you, God.

[Lola Sheen]

We love her.

[Ali Yost]

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[Lola Sheen]

I did come out of that though. My friend Sarah, she would show up and she got me out of the house. I actually started going, well, I won't say my work, but I started going to the job that I have now.

[Ali Yost]

That's a good idea.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah, right.

[Ali Yost]

I started going to my work at this place, address. My hours are so funny. I know. I was thinking about it too this morning. I was like, about the questions I was gonna ask you and I was like, oh, I should probably not like, say like where she lives or like even, you know, the details of our life, you know, and her life.

[Lola Sheen]

So I've done that, Ally. And I've had like, in other interviews, I've gone and they've had to cut a lot of stuff out because you're.

[Ali Yost]

Like giving away your address.

[Lola Sheen]

I just got a job here. My phone number is. That's so funny, Howie.

[Ali Yost]

Sometimes we get a little too comfy.

[Lola Sheen]

It's okay. Exactly.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah.

[Lola Sheen]

But yeah, I did come out of it. I finally left my house and I started Sweet Sarah. Yeah, she really did help me. And so I moved back in with my mom because I just wanted to leave that room that I was in. But yeah, I still didn't know the Lord.

[Ali Yost]

Like, were you feeling better at that point or. Okay.

[Lola Sheen]

I did get a therapist during that time. My dad called a therapist and then I started seeing her and it did help. It was never like, I had like a lot of like hope, obviously, but it was like I was better. Sure. I didn't feel like I wanted to.

[Ali Yost]

Like, not, not be here anymore.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

There are resources in the world.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

Aside from Jesus, that can help. That's real. It's not like it's Jesus and nothing else can help.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah, yeah.

[Ali Yost]

There are things that can help. But I think what the difference is between the help of the world and the help of Jesus is the help of the world can only go so far.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah. Wow.

[Ali Yost]

There's help in it. There is. Like, I believe that therapy has help. I believe that there's resources and things that you can go to that can help.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

But when it comes to the help of Jesus, he can help you as far, like, it's infinite. As far as he can actually bring complete healing. That's why we need him. It's not that the world can't bring healing or help, but it's like, do you want complete healing? Do you want all the help that you need? Do you want full deliverance? And sometimes it's beautiful when those things come together where it's like therapy with Jesus, therapy that's Christian based or whatever. But it's like, maybe there can be a misconception where it's like, it's not that there can't be help. But it can only take you so far. So it's interesting, like, your story testifies to that, where you're like, yeah, it helped me, but you still didn't really have hope.

[Lola Sheen]

Exactly.

[Ali Yost]

Weird.

[Lola Sheen]

That's so crazy, Ali.

[Ali Yost]

So then where's the hope?

[Lola Sheen]

Exactly. Okay, keep going. Yeah. And so I remember everything was very, like, temporary, you know, which, like, makes sense. I remember I fell in love with Hawaii. And I went on vacation one time, and I remember I was so happy there. And then I came home and I was like, how do I feel that, like, happiness again? You know, like, it was always, like, temporary little things. Yeah. It was never, like, joy all the time.

[Ali Yost]

Totally.

[Lola Sheen]

You know? Yeah. I remember I was, like, 17 now. I started doing homeschool because I was so anxious, I was too scared to go to school. Wow.

[Ali Yost]

Okay.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

So you started getting homeschooled because you're like, I can't go to school anymore.

[Lola Sheen]

Wow. Yeah. It was when I was afraid to leave my house. I decided to just go online because my school was like, where is she? She's failing. She's failing school. No. I literally had to do, like, three extra months because I didn't do anything.

[Ali Yost]

Well, that's awful.

[Lola Sheen]

I know, Ally.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah.

[Lola Sheen]

But. Yeah. And then when I was 18, I was doing better mentally. And then something happened. When I turned 18, I went to Hawaii for my 18th birthday. And then I started dealing with a little bit of anxiety again, like, pretty bad. And then I came home from Hawaii, and I don't know what happened, but it was like everything just, like, hit me again. I think what felt so hopeless in this time, too, was because I was already in therapy. I feel like I had already, like, tried everything I could. Yeah. And so I was like, why am I still feeling this way? And then I started having bad panic attacks again. And I would call my mom, asking to take me to the hospital. Hospital a lot. Because I thought I was gonna die. Yeah. And it was just so much fear that I felt like I was, like, trapped in. I noticed the first thing I think the Enemy always liked attack was to isolate me totally. You know? Yeah. And so I started isolating myself again.

[Ali Yost]

Because you're even more vulnerable when you're. When you're isolated.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

Like, he has, like, full reign to speak whatever he wants. Like, you're alone, which is probably the most dangerous place you could be.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

But for some reason, when you're in that space, you're like, no, this is what needs to. Like, I need to be al.

[Lola Sheen]

Yes. Exactly.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah.

[Lola Sheen]

So true. Ali. Because no one, like, can help you when you're like, that isolated, you know? Like, that's how I felt. But I also felt like I was too much, like, to ask for help, which I also think is why I isolated myself. Yeah. And I also didn't tell anybody that I was struggling this time. So, like, nobody really knew. And so, yeah, I was in my room probably for like two months. Wow. Again.

[Ali Yost]

So we're going through this again.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah. Wow. And I was like, okay, I'm back where I was like three or two years ago. And I was just so scared. It started to get very dark. Everything around me just felt really dark. I remember I saw my friends, like, they would all hang out and be really happy and I would just be like, I'm never gonna get there. Wow. Yeah. Like, that's how it felt. I was like, I don't think I'm ever gonna genuinely laugh. And. Yeah, I was just so depressed. And I think also, like, the way I saw myself when I was depressed was really bad. Like, I just didn't have any self worth, you know? And, yeah, I was in my room leading up to, like, me meeting the Lord. I feel like there's a difference of, like, feeling like you don't want to be here, but then actually being like, okay, this is my only answer. Yeah. You know? Yeah. I didn't see anything past what I was going through. Right. Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

And it's hard, too.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

Like, I mean, I've never experienced what you. What you went through, but I can imagine that it's probably really hard to see past all of that when it's so distracting and loud and dark and foggy. Like you have no clarity probably, of mind.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

And those feelings are so heavy that it's like I can't even hear anything else.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

I'd imagine that that's.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

Is it? Would you say that that's kind of how it was?

[Lola Sheen]

Yes. Yeah. Yeah. I couldn't hear anything. My mind felt very, like. Like, just so consumed of, like, darkness. Yeah. Any light. I just like, couldn't even, like, imagine feeling any better. Wow. Yeah. And so I remember this one day I just like, realized that this was like, I'm never coming out of this. Yeah. But I always felt something in my stomach. It was like a little light. I always felt, you know, I always felt something that was like, keep going. And it was like I knew it was Jesus. And that happened like, three days before I found him. Wow. Yeah. Because I was like. I was really being like, no, I'm never Gonna make it out of this. And I thought, wow. Yeah. I never thought I was gonna turn 19. And I remember always, like, hoping that I would make it to that age. And, Yeah, I don't know. I was very scared. And then I started to experience really bad nightmares, which also makes sense, you know, I think when your mind's just so, like, anxious, it was just the only thing Now I was like, I have anxious dreams, too.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah, you're like. Even when I go to sleep.

[Lola Sheen]

Even when I go to sleep. Yeah. And then I was just, like, scared to go to bed all the time. But I was also scared of being alive, being awake so bad.

[Ali Yost]

It's not funny, but it's okay.

[Lola Sheen]

You have to laugh sometimes, you know?

[Ali Yost]

Yeah.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah. And then I remember it's like, yeah, this is it. Like, I don't know. I'm never coming out of this. I just made the choice and I thought that it was going to end my life, but I never knew. Like, I just thought I was gonna die from, like, fear or something. And then, yeah, one night I was like. It was really dark. I was really scared for the morning. What year is this?

[Ali Yost]

Is it last year?

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah, last year.

[Ali Yost]

2024.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah. This was like, middle of me being 18, kind of. And so, yeah, I remember I was in my bed and everything was so dark. I was on my phone because I was always just on Tick Tock because I had nothing.

[Ali Yost]

My favorite app.

[Lola Sheen]

I know. It still is.

[Ali Yost]

Whatever.

[Lola Sheen]

It still is my favorite. I mean, it's my favorite. It's so crazy. I was on Tick Tock and I remember I was, like, scrolling through and.

[Ali Yost]

What was the kind of content that would come up on your feed?

[Lola Sheen]

It's so funny, Ali, because a lot of it was like. I also was kind of. I think I still had eye crystals in my room and stuff. And so some of it was like. Like those weird, like, Tarot card videos.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah, that would come up on mine, too.

[Lola Sheen]

Really? Bcl? Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

Or like, psychics would go live. I loved going into those because they'd be like, comment. And I'll tell you.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah, I thought it was so cool. Yeah, me too. Yeah. And so, yeah, it was like just Tick tocks like that. Or like, just, like, my friends videos. Just like. I don't even know. I would watch a lot of Gilmore Girls. I remember that's what I would watch, too. So some Gilmore Girl stuff would come up. But then, I don't know. It's so crazy because I feel like you have to be on Christian TikTok to See a Christian video?

[Ali Yost]

Yes.

[Lola Sheen]

Right? Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

That's why I asked, because I'm like, would anything of, like, religion come up on your feed? Really?

[Lola Sheen]

No. Isn't that so crazy, Ali? Like, nothing. And it wasn't even, like, I was against God. I just didn't even think about God. Yeah. Like, I remember I would always be really scared. I just never knew what happened after you died, too. Like, I was like, nothing. Like, I just never die and you just die. That's it. So that's probably what I. Well, I don't know. Heaven? Yeah.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah, I guess. Maybe for me. I. I don't know what I'm, like, thinking about, like, what I thought. I'm like, I don't know what I thought.

[Lola Sheen]

Wow. Yeah. It's so crazy. Or I thought it was, like, I would just be with my Nana somehow, you know? Your sweet Nana, But. But, yeah, this one night, I was, like, on my phone and this video of you came up. And it was like you were looking in the camera. And I remember you were wearing this, like. I think it was the red dress video. You're wearing this red dress. And Ally was like, she was crying into the phone and you were saying something about. I remember you said something about, like, being alive. And you were like, hey, like, just don't give up. Like, God is such a good plan for you. Like, you're meant to be here. And I remember I saw. It was just like a light in your eyes, you know, so sweet. I always say this. Allie has, like, so much like, love in her face. Like, anytime you, like, smile, I just, like, feel like Jesus is, like, smiling through you. It's so sweet. So I remember I would watch her video, and it was like, the first time I felt like, some sort of, like, light. Thank you, God.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah.

[Lola Sheen]

It's so crazy. Even, like, sitting here now got so crazy. Ali? Yeah. I saw the video and I was like, oh, my gosh. Like, who is this girl? Like, I was like, she's such a light, like, in her eyes. Like, I need that. And I remember, like, sitting for a second, and I was like, wait, I've never thought about Jesus. Like, who is that? Yeah. And I remember I went to bed that night with, like, a small smile on my face, and I was like. I don't know. Something, like, felt kind of different. And then the next day, I was. Was scrolling on my phone. I started going on your tick tock more. And I was like, this girl loves God. This is crazy. So crazy. I was like, she loves God. You make these videos I remember, like, the high Jesus, like.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah.

[Lola Sheen]

You know, like the journals. Yeah. And those is what really, like, caught my attention so much, too, because I started journaling. Well, this is after. But I don't know, I just watch all these videos and I was like, she loves Jesus so much. And I remember, like, I was just so open. Like, I felt like my heart was like, wow. You know? Yeah. It wasn't like, I was like, oh, I was just so, like, intrigued. Wow. Yeah. And I remember I was laying down to my right side and my window was open. So, you know, Jesus probably didn't come through my window.

[Ali Yost]

He might have.

[Lola Sheen]

He might have.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah.

[Lola Sheen]

My window was open. It was like, midnight, and I wasn't on my phone, and I was going to bed, and I was laying to my right. And I remember for a second I was like, wait, I'm so scared to have, like, a nightmare or something. And I literally don't know how to explain it other than, like, it literally was like, Jesus came in my room. Like, his presence, like, filled my room.

[Ali Yost]

And you've never experienced that before?

[Lola Sheen]

Never. I never felt the presence of God, but I knew that it was him. Yeah. Which is so crazy. Yeah. You know, and so my room was filled with the Holy Spirit. And I remember just, like, I turned to my left and I was like, my eyes were closed and I felt like Jesus just hugged me. It was like I felt like warmth on my hand. Like, I don't know how to explain it. And it felt like, you know how we both hear God a lot. So it felt like. Which.

[Ali Yost]

I'm so proud of you.

[Lola Sheen]

Thank you, Ally.

[Ali Yost]

You've grown a lot in that.

[Lola Sheen]

I love you, Al.

[Ali Yost]

It's so cool to witness.

[Lola Sheen]

And it's so. It's. I don't even think you'll be like, I think.

[Ali Yost]

I mean, I heard God say this, and, you know, I heard him say that. And you're like. You're always like, I heard God blank. And it's just so cool that you hear him so much now.

[Lola Sheen]

Wow. Thank you, Ally. It's literally like, you help me realize that, though. So I don't even think I realized it.

[Ali Yost]

I think it takes, like, believing it, like, when you hear those kind of that, like, still voice that comes into your mind, like, believing that it's God. And I think also, it's just really, like, in time, too, you know? Know where it's like, you kind of learn God's voice, where you're like, okay, wait, last time that happened, and I heard this, like, it was God. You know, and you just kind of. Would you say that that's, like, how.

[Lola Sheen]

Yes.

[Ali Yost]

It's like you learn.

[Lola Sheen]

Exactly. You also help me because you said something how it won't go against scripture. Yeah. It's true, right?

[Ali Yost]

Yeah.

[Lola Sheen]

And also, like, it's never going to be a voice that's like. Like, it's never. I'm, like, doubting it, you know? I'm like, okay. Like, it feels, like, peaceful.

[Ali Yost]

Yes.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah. That. Yeah. And for me, I'm like. Like, if I'm like, oh, was it. Would I say that? But it's never something I was even thinking, you know? That's the best, right?

[Ali Yost]

Yeah. It's so cool when you're like, that couldn't have even been my inner thought. I wouldn't have even.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah, exactly.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah.

[Lola Sheen]

I feel like the Lord told me. I just heard Rescue. Like, that was the word. And so I fell in love with the song Rescue by Lauren Daigle. Yeah. And then the next morning, I had no idea what I was doing, because.

[Ali Yost]

Were you like, was that a dream?

[Lola Sheen]

Yes. So great. It's like, was that a dream?

[Ali Yost]

What did I just experience last night?

[Lola Sheen]

I remember I woke up and it was, like, obviously supernatural, but I was like, I don't even know what I'm feeling right now. So crazy. And so I also felt the Lord a lot when I woke up. It literally felt like he was, like, sitting on my bed in front of me. So sweet. And I remember being like, okay, hey, Jesus. Like, I know I just met you last night, but I don't know what I'm doing. But I know that it was you. And I looked up on Safari because I didn't even know how to pray.

[Ali Yost]

Literally, me, girl. Google discipled me, too. I was like, really?

[Lola Sheen]

Ally?

[Ali Yost]

What kind of Bible do I get? Where do I start in the Bible? Like, I also didn't have a lot of clarity.

[Lola Sheen]

I also didn't even know what a testimony was.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah, same. No, same. I didn't even know what that word meant. I had to Google that.

[Lola Sheen]

Me. You taught me. Yes.

[Ali Yost]

Because people would be like, what's your testimony? And I'm like, what does that mean?

[Lola Sheen]

That's so funny.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah.

[Lola Sheen]

And so, yeah, I looked up, and then I looked up. How do I. A prayer to give my life to Jesus. And I prayed it. And I remember, I just, like, that's so crazy, Lola.

[Ali Yost]

That's awesome.

[Lola Sheen]

I know. You were my shepherd.

[Ali Yost]

The Lord used me. Yeah, you're right.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah. Like. Like everything I did, I was just, like, following in your footsteps. And then this podcast I would watch almost every night because I.

[Ali Yost]

This one.

[Lola Sheen]

This one.

[Ali Yost]

Stop.

[Lola Sheen]

Did you know that, Ali?

[Ali Yost]

I don't know if I knew that.

[Lola Sheen]

You watched it every night, Ellie. I watched it every night. That's so cool that the second I walked in, that's why I was crying. I was like, what is going on?

[Ali Yost]

Full circle.

[Lola Sheen]

Wow. So full circle Alley. I watched it all the time because I had no idea what I was doing, and no one in my family, like, I couldn't go to them. So every day I'm like, okay. Like, I just literally did what you did. And then you got, like, the idea of church in my mind, and you made a video about, like, hey, like, I don't know if it was one of your lives, but I'd also go in your lives and read the Bible with you. I don't know if I ever told you that.

[Ali Yost]

I haven't done one of those in a long time.

[Lola Sheen]

I bought the Bible that you had. And the Bible was so intimidating because I was like, I have no idea what I'm doing. Yeah. And so I started reading Matthew on one of your lives. And then, yeah, I'd watch his podcast because it was just, like, my safe space because no one else around me knew Jesus, but it was kind of like just me and the Lord and then you helping me. Yeah, but, yeah, then I went to church for the first time, and I was so scared to go alone. But you made a video, and you were like, like, if you're nervous to go alone, just do it. Because, like, you said something that, like, Jesus is with you there. And I was like, oh, my gosh, you're right.

[Ali Yost]

What's crazy is, like, everything I was saying was because also, the Lord had either just recently walked me through that, or I was also walking through that at the same time. Like, I remember when I would be encouraging other people to go to church alone, I'd be like, because I'm doing it, and God's walking me through that, you know? So it's just. I think your story just testifies to how faithful God is with, like. Like, he doesn't just want one. I mean, he'll leave the 99 for the 1, but he also has a plan to continue to save more of his kids. And so as he's, like, walking me through it, and apparently there was a grace for me to then broadcast every step I was taking on the Internet. It was also leading people like, you too. It's just so cool to see that the Lord, like, really was walking Us through that.

[Lola Sheen]

That's so sweet.

[Ali Yost]

Together, kind of, you know, Literally. Yeah.

[Lola Sheen]

That's so cool, Ali.

[Ali Yost]

I love that. Okay.

[Lola Sheen]

So specific. Like, who he chose.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah, he is.

[Lola Sheen]

Yeah. Yeah, yeah.

[Ali Yost]

Because he knew, for whatever reason, you would connect with me, I guess, which is cool.

[Lola Sheen]

So cool.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah. Okay. And so then we should probably fast forward to the part where we connected.

[Lola Sheen]

Yes.

[Ali Yost]

So how are we sitting on this couch together right now? Wait, I can kind of take this for a sec.

[Lola Sheen]

I was gonna say, I feel like you should make it.

[Ali Yost]

So whatever. However, many months ago, when you had your interview.

[Lola Sheen]

Yes.

[Ali Yost]

With. Was it the 700 Club? Who was it with?

[Lola Sheen]

Oh, who was it with?

[Ali Yost]

Cbn.

[Lola Sheen]

Cbn.

[Ali Yost]

Cbn.

[Lola Sheen]

Also, I was getting so convinced not to do that interview.

[Ali Yost]

That's crazy.

[Lola Sheen]

I know.

[Ali Yost]

Wait, what? People were telling you not to do it?

[Lola Sheen]

People told me not to do it. Wow.

[Ali Yost]

That's the only reason that we're connected right now.

[Lola Sheen]

I know.

[Ali Yost]

Isn't that crazy? I'm so glad you did it.

[Lola Sheen]

Me, too.

[Ali Yost]

No, but. So your interview went live.

[Lola Sheen]

Yes.

[Ali Yost]

And I was getting all of these people tagging me in one of the social clips that they had posted on Instagram, and I was like, what is all of it? I was even getting DMs about it where people were like, Lola Sheen. And all due respect, I didn't know. I had never. I love you, but I didn't know who you were. I was like, who is Lola Sheen?

[Lola Sheen]

So funny.

[Ali Yost]

Oh, my gosh. Sweet Lola Sheen. But, yeah, so I'm watching this video of you, like, sharing your story, and you had mentioned me in your interview, and that's why people were tagging me so much, because they were like, ally, you have no idea how much you were a part of Lola's testimony and her story of being saved. And so when I saw that video, I had clicked on your page, saw that you also lived here. I think I. I, like, I sent you a voice memo just encouraging you and being like, what the heck? This is such an honor that the Lord used me in such a way. And then I felt led to ask you if you had any kind of, like, community or if you were going to a church. And you told me that you were cut. You were, like, going to a church at that time, but you didn't have, like, a ton of community, and it was still not super certain about where you were going. And so I was like, well, where do you live? And you lived very close to where I lived, which was crazy.

[Lola Sheen]

It's so close.

[Ali Yost]

Insane. And you were actually physically on the way to church of where me and Ash go to. And so that was on a Saturday. And I was like, well, I guess we're picking you up tomorrow and we're all going to church. And so we picked you up the next day, and we went to church the next day, and the rest was history. And now you couldn't be more intertwined with our community at church. And also, how. How has that experience been, like, since being plugged in at our church?

[Lola Sheen]

Ali, it literally changed my entire life.

[Ali Yost]

I'm so glad.

[Lola Sheen]

Like, I have so many moments, Ali, where I'm just, like, with God. And I'm just like. I don't say anything because I'm like, I just don't know how to thank you.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah.

[Lola Sheen]

I prayed every day for one sister in Christ and a spiritual family. I was like, that's all I need, God. I just want one sister that I can just walk with. And I pray for spiritual parents. And then he gave me so much.

[Ali Yost]

Give you more than that.

[Lola Sheen]

And not only did he give me, like, a sister in Christ, but you. I was like, you're so sweet.

[Ali Yost]

That is crazy.

[Lola Sheen]

I still can't fathom it.

[Ali Yost]

And I'll say one more thing. Oh, we could literally talk for, like, another hour, but we can't. We're rapping. Is that video that I made in my kitchen. I was, like, in the middle of literally sweeping my floor or something, like, doing the most normal, mundane, like, dishes, whatever it was. And all of a sudden, out of the blue, I just felt this burden from God. It physically brought me to tears. Like, I was, like, almost on the floor about it. That's how burdened I felt. And I didn't even understand it. Like, I didn't know what it was or why I felt so burdened out of nowhere. But I felt the Lord be like, you have to make this video, and I need you to give people hope. I believe it was me, too. You for sure. God was like, I need you to reach my girl Lola. But I can't even. I don't. There's had to have been more. But this is just so crazy for me to witness. Cause a lot of times it's like, you know, we do things and we feel burdens from God to do, but we don't always see, like, the immediate impact, which is fine. You know, it's really. It comes down to just obedience, being like, okay, God, I'm just gonna do this. But I felt the Lord's heart for you with making that video. Like, I know that that was the heart of God for you in that it's just as rewarding for me being able to be like, oh, my gosh. Because of that burden I was feeling, and I didn't even understand why. Like, it was also the grace of God that he let me see why.

[Lola Sheen]

I know. He let me see why and meet.

[Ali Yost]

You and become friends with you.

[Lola Sheen]

I know.

[Ali Yost]

So it's just really sweet of God.

[Lola Sheen]

That's crazy, Ally.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah.

[Lola Sheen]

Like, I never would have thought I'd be able to because I always prayed and I would ask God if I can run into you and be like. I'm like, I need to tell her you used her to save my life. Yeah. And I would pray all the time about you all. And I'm like, little did I know, you saw us being here today.

[Ali Yost]

It's crazy. It's supernatural, actually.

[Lola Sheen]

I could literally talk about it for the rest of my life.

[Ali Yost]

Thank you, God. Sister. I'm so proud of you. I'm also so proud of you because I know that it hasn't been easy. And I just want to honor you in how much you really are so hungry for Jesus. Like, every day, you're like, I just need him. And I'm telling you, you will be able to do anything in your life as long as you're in that heart posture of, like, all I need is Jesus, and you're doing it.

[Lola Sheen]

Thank you.

[Ali Yost]

I'm really proud of you. And he's so proud of you for how much you really value, like, you fear God, like, above all else. It's crazy. Like, the 180 of you coming from a place of, like, all you did was fear people and, like, what people had to say. And I'm sure there's still temptation for that. But what I see from you the most is, like, fear of God. Like, you really just want to do right by God and you want to do what makes him proud. And so, yeah, I'm just really proud of you for that.

[Lola Sheen]

Thank you.

[Ali Yost]

You're faithful, honey. And you're so special, and I'm so excited to see what the Lord does with your life.

[Lola Sheen]

That means everything to me. Thank you for having me. Thanks for coming. This was literally the biggest gift of my life.

[Ali Yost]

Thank you, Jesus. This was so sweet, Lola.

[Lola Sheen]

This was so special.

[Ali Yost]

Guys, you can also find Lola on socials. She has her own podcast as well. Will you tell us the name of your podcast?

[Lola Sheen]

Where could we.

[Ali Yost]

We find it.

[Lola Sheen]

Love you, Ally. It's called Heavenly Bonded. I only have two videos.

[Ali Yost]

It's on YouTube.

[Lola Sheen]

It's on YouTube. You can find it there.

[Ali Yost]

Yeah, you guys should check it out. I love you, Lola.

[Lola Sheen]

I love you, Ally, you need to open your stuffed animal.

[Ali Yost]

I know, I didn't. Is it a stuffed animal?

[Lola Sheen]

Wait, I don't.

[Ali Yost]

Oh, my gosh. It literally when I. Lola brings me a gift on my own podcast. What is that?

[Lola Sheen]

It was a gift to be here. What do you mean? But. But you're so sweet. You didn't have to do this.

[Ali Yost]

All I did was get you a coffee. I feel like it's not fair.

[Lola Sheen]

Stop. This is so pretty. When I saw this, I was like. That just reminds me of Ally. It's perfect. Isn't it? So cute. I love him.

[Ali Yost]

Is it a boy or a girl? I think it's a boy.

[Lola Sheen]

I think it's a boy. Oh, he's everything. So cute.

[Ali Yost]

Right, Lola?

[Lola Sheen]

Thank you. Of course. Ally, is he a mouse or a bear? I think he's a bear.

[Ali Yost]

Wait, I'm gonna just put him. I'm gonna put him on my shelf.

[Lola Sheen]

A lot of stuffed animals there. Their faces are kind of look funny.

[Ali Yost]

Okay, this one was the least funny looking. That's why it reminded you of me.

[Lola Sheen]

Like. No, but they all look funny. Oh. But it took me 20 minutes to pick the right one.

[Ali Yost]

Oh, my gosh. Well, I love you. Thank you.

[Lola Sheen]

Thank you for everything.

[Ali Yost]

Oh, my gosh. This was so fun. Guys, thank you for being here. Thank you for tuning in. Thank you for loving my sweet girl, Lola. Guys, can we do something cool today? Can we show somebody how cool Jesus is? Can we walk more like him? Talk more like him, be more like Jesus? We love you guys. And I will see you in the next episode.

[Lola Sheen]

Bye. Bye.

[Ali Yost]

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