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Welcome to the Crazy Love podcast. In Exodus 33, Moses tells God that he doesn't want to go to the promised Land without God's presence. In today's episode, Francis challenges us to consider if we have that same heart. Are you so in love with the person of Christ that you would rather be in the desert with him than in the promised Land without?
Francis Chan
I want to share a story about.
Guest Speaker
Something that happened about two months ago. I have a stepmom, so some of you guys know my mom died when she gave birth to me. And then my dad remarried, but then my stepmother died when I was 7.
Francis Chan
And then my dad remarried, and then.
Guest Speaker
He died when I was 12. And there was a woman that took care of me, my third mother. And she took care of me till I was in. Till I was about 18, and she.
Francis Chan
Kicked me out, and I had nowhere to go.
Guest Speaker
And this couple took me in. Mike and Vicki Otto. And Mike was such a stud. He showed me what it was to be a husband, to be a dad, this young guy. And I respected him because he. He pitched in the College World Series for Pepperdine way back then, back in the 70s.
Francis Chan
And anyways, he just became like a father figure to me and the example.
Guest Speaker
Of what a husband and a dad were supposed to be.
Francis Chan
But that mom, that third mother who.
Guest Speaker
Took care of me till I was.
Francis Chan
18, she just turned 90 two months ago. And so we flew in, my sisters, you know, I rented out a Chinese restaurant, obviously, and all our. The greatest foods. Everyone, all these relatives came in. We spent, like, thousands of dollars, and so excited, because I just want to bless her. But then she didn't show up when she refused to come. And so I'm like, well, I guess this is still cool. We get to have dinner with some of our old relatives or whatever. But at the end the night, I'm just like, that was so stupid. We wasted thousands of dollars and all this effort. My point in that story is, you know, when I came here, and I think when a lot of us come here tonight, we just assume that this is gonna be awesome. We're gonna have thousands of people in Malibu worshiping with Cody Carnes. What could go wrong? I mean, when's the last time you went to something where Kerry Jobe was leading worship and you thought, oh, that was dumb. Like, it's a guarantee success. But do you really look at it like, but no, God, we don't care about that. We want your presence. I was just thinking, gosh, this could be, like, my mom's birthday, where we got everything There, but she doesn't show up. Man, I am so hungry for God to show up tonight. And we can't be content just because we have great worship leaders. We can't be content just because thousands of us showed up and we're singing and there's energy and there's. So, believe me, I'm excited to see Pepperdine worshiping. I used to preach here, like, 20, 25 years ago. No one was worshiping. I mean, it was crazy. That's why I'm sitting here going, this is insane. I can't believe I'm at the same college. So, okay, so I love that. Don't get me wrong. What an amazing night.
Guest Speaker
But at the end of the day, is God himself really going to show up? See, otherwise, I could maybe teach you some things, maybe talk you into doing some things, but it's not going to.
Francis Chan
Last unless God himself does something invisible.
Guest Speaker
In your heart that he changes you.
Francis Chan
Because the Bible says otherwise. It's like there's a verse in 2nd Peter 2 where he says sometimes. It's a really gross verse. He says dogs sometimes throw up and they'll walk away. Then they'll think, I want to go eat that, and they go back to their vomit.
Guest Speaker
That's a great verse.
Francis Chan
And then he says, and pigs, you can wash them clean, but what they do is they run back to the mud right afterwards. Why does a pig do that?
Guest Speaker
Because he's a pig.
Francis Chan
When you wash them off, you don't change their nature. Their nature is to run to the mud. And in the same way, in the church, I feel like sometimes we'll come to an event like this. Maybe I'll talk about sin, maybe I'll talk about repentance. And we'll spray you off and you'll get all hyped up and you'll get convicted. Like, yeah, I'm going to break up with my girlfriend. Yeah, I'm going to stop looking at whatever it is. And you make that decision. But then it doesn't last. And a few weeks later, you run right back to your mud. Why? Because you're still a pig.
Guest Speaker
Your nature didn't change.
Francis Chan
And what the Bible says is that when the Holy Spirit enters into you, so God has to show up and come into your very core, your very heart. Because the Bible says when the Holy Spirit enters into you, you're no longer a slave to sin. You actually become a sl. Slave to righteousness. It's. It's like you. You may be tempted by the mud to go back, but the moment your Feet get in the mud. You're like, this doesn't feel right. I don't, I can't enjoy this. I feel sick. I feel gross. I know it's wrong.
Guest Speaker
And you suddenly hunger for righteousness.
Francis Chan
See, that's not something I can do for you. See, when I was a teenager, I.
Guest Speaker
Heard the gospel and something changed in me.
Francis Chan
I didn't need a big crowd and all these people worshiping for me to worship. Because something inside of me wanted to worship. My youth pastor didn't have to beg me, no, get up in the morning, I'll call you, set an alarm, whatever, No, I wanted to be with God. I wanted to read this book. I wanted what was right. And there was a process. I mean, I went through.
Guest Speaker
College was a bad time for me.
Francis Chan
But it's just the sin and everything else, but everything in me was leading towards following him.
Guest Speaker
It was inside because God did something. That's what we're desperate for tonight, okay? That something would happen inside of you that I don't talk you into something.
Francis Chan
Carrying Cody don't move you into something.
Guest Speaker
But God himself says, I'm going to put a fear of me in your heart. I'm put a desire in your heart. So that even if no one else at Pepperdine worshiped again, you couldn't stop.
Francis Chan
Even if all your friends, your parents walked away from God, you couldn't stop.
Guest Speaker
Because he did something in you. So I've been walking with him for 45 years and it just keeps getting better. I was just thinking as we're singing, I'm like, God, there's no way I could walk away from you. And as I saw you guys singing, worshiping, I was praying for you going, God, please make it it last. I've had too many friends walk away, too many other pastors, peers who are just done. And I'm like, God, make it last in this generation. See, there's a verse in Exodus, you know, we just sang that song.
Francis Chan
Nothing else will do.
Guest Speaker
I just want you. I'm caught up in your presence.
Francis Chan
It's what Moses said in Exodus 33.
Guest Speaker
I love this passage.
Francis Chan
In Exodus 33, verses 2 and 3, God says to Moses, I'll send an angel before you and I'll drive out the Canaanites, the Amorites, the Hittites, the parasites, the Hivites and the Jebusites. Go up to a land flowing with milk and honey. But I will not go up among you, lest I consume you on the way.
Guest Speaker
For you are a stiff necked people.
Francis Chan
So this is what God is Saying to Moses, he goes, okay, I told you I would send you the promised land. I'm going to send you. In fact, I'm going to send an angel. And he's going to destroy all the other people so you can go and you can take that land. So you got everything you wanted. You want this land, you got this land. He goes, but I'm not going. And I love what Moses says.
Guest Speaker
A few verses later, he said to.
Francis Chan
Him, if your presence will not go with me, do not bring us up from here. For how shall it be known that I have found favor in your sight.
Guest Speaker
I and your people?
Francis Chan
Moses says, I'm not going. I'm not going. I don't care about the land. I don't care if you send an angel. I want you with me. And so I would rather be in the desert with you than going into the promised land with an angel. See, my hope is tonight that you're not content with a worship team.
Guest Speaker
That.
Francis Chan
You'Re not content with. Pretty good speaker, you know, you just go, that's not enough. I mean, what if I said, look, going to be here in Malibu, and we're going to start singing and an angel's going to come down, okay? Imagine afterwards, Carrie and Cody and I, we're worshiping, all of us are worshiping. And an angel comes down here in Malibu. That's a pretty good night, right? You go home, you tell all your friends about it.
Guest Speaker
Moses says, that's not enough. I'm not okay with that. I have to have your presence. Is that your heart right now?
Francis Chan
Where you go, God, I gotta have you tonight. I've gotta have you change me. I need your presence. I'd rather be in the desert with you. The desert of relationship. God, I'd rather be single with you than get into a relationship that is absent of you. I'd rather be with you. Okay, so I'll never have children. That's okay. As long as I'm with you, I gotta have you. The land doesn't matter. The angel, I mean, that's cool, but it's just not. I can't do it without you. Just leave me here in the desert with me.
Guest Speaker
With you. I don't want the promised land if you're not there. Is that your heart tonight, man?
Francis Chan
Do you see God as a real person that you love, Man? I knew it was going beautiful tonight. I love Malibu. I love this area. But honestly, I'd rather be in a gas station in Compton if Jesus is there, right? And I could be with eight people in the bathroom in a gas station. And if his presence shows up, I'm like, okay, I would rather be there.
Guest Speaker
Than out here in this beautiful place.
Francis Chan
Is that really hard? Like, how real is he to you? Honestly?
Guest Speaker
Do you love him like that? He goes on. A few verses later, in verse 17, the Lord said to Moses, this very thing that you have spoken, I will do, for you have found favor in my sight, and I know you by name. Moses said, please show me your glory.
Francis Chan
So when Moses tells God, like, I'm not leaving. I'm staying in the desert. I don't care. I'm not going to. I have to have you. It says that God loved that Moses found favor in the sight of God. God saw that. Moses like, no, I really mean that. I really mean that.
Guest Speaker
And then God says, okay, I'll go with you. And then Moses says, okay, okay, okay. One more thing. Can I see your glory?
Francis Chan
Can I see you in all of your glory? Think about this. This is Moses who spoke to God on a burning bush. This is Moses that went on this mountaintop with him. This is Moses talking to him in this tent of meeting. Like, you're with God, so somehow and you're hearing his voice. And then Moses goes, that's not enough.
Guest Speaker
I want to see you in all of your glory. See, that's what it's like when you really know him. You can't get enough of him. All the things in the world just seem like, I really don't care about that that much. I don't care about that that much. Can I get closer to you? And then God says something very important. A few verses later, in verse 19, he says this. He said, I will make all my goodness pass before you. Okay, make sure you catch this.
Francis Chan
And I will proclaim before you my name, the Lord. And I will be gracious to whom I'll be gracious, and I will show mercy on whom I will show mercy. But he says, you cannot see my face, for man shall not see me and live.
Guest Speaker
And the Lord said, there's a place.
Francis Chan
By me where you'll stand on the rock. And while my glory passes by, I'll put you in a cleft of the rock, and I will cover you with.
Guest Speaker
My hand until I've passed by.
Francis Chan
Then I will take away my hand.
Guest Speaker
And you shall see my back, but my face shall not be seen. You have to understand this about God.
Francis Chan
God says, no human being can look at my face and live. Do you understand that? Sometimes when we talk about God or we pray to God, it's Just like, oh, God. Thanks. And we just talk. Do you understand that you're talking to someone who is so holy that if right now he would just tear open the heavens and let us see his face, we would all simultaneously die? Like, we're talking about a being who's so different from us. I'm breathing right now. There's someone up there who's determining whether I breathe through the rest of this message. And Moses is like, can I see you? He goes, no, you can't see my face and live. The Bible says he dwells in unapproachable light. Do you get that?
Guest Speaker
But God says, here's what I'll do. I'll hide you in a rock, and then when I pass by, I'll reveal myself to you. Okay? And then this. These are some of the most important verses in all of scripture. In Exodus 34, starting in verse 5, it says, the Lord descended in the.
Francis Chan
Cloud and stood with him there and proclaimed the name of the Lord. The Lord passed before him and proclaimed the Lord the Lord, a God, merciful and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness and keeping steadfast love for thousands, forgiving iniquity and.
Guest Speaker
Transgression and sin, but who will by.
Francis Chan
No means clear the guilty.
Guest Speaker
Visiting the iniquity of the fathers on the children and the children's children to the third and fourth generation. Okay, you guys need to memorize that passage. Okay?
Francis Chan
This is God revealing himself to Moses. And the first thing he says, he goes, I'm the Lord, the Lord. First thing he says, a God, merciful. Isn't that great news? Like, that's the first thing he says. Here's this God who says, you can't look at me and live, but let.
Guest Speaker
Me tell you about myself. I'm merciful. Do you know what that means? He loves to show mercy. That is some of the best news.
Francis Chan
So that holy God in heaven, he loves to forgive. That should be great news for us, because you're probably sitting there going, oh, that's cool.
Guest Speaker
Because I love being forgiven, right?
Francis Chan
I mean, that's a beautiful thing. That's why we come here tonight. It's like you've got this holy God in heaven who's looking down and going, going, man, I want to forgive someone. I want to forgive someone. And then you've got 5,000 people on this field going, well, I want to be forgiven. I want to be forgiven. The Bible says he's rich in mercy. That means on the cross. That's not something that he just did one time, that he was being merciful. The Bible says that he's rich in mercy. That's the first thing he wanted us to know, that those of you who.
Guest Speaker
Are guilty, and you probably even came here with some shame and guilt during the week. God says I'm merciful. The Lord, merciful and gracious. That means he loves to give to us things we didn't earn. So that holy God loves to give, he loves to forgive. And he says he's slow to anger. Isn't that great news? Because we've all done some things that we just go, he's got to be so angry with me. And God says, I'm merciful, I'm gracious, I'm slow to anger, and I'm abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness. This is our God. He goes, I'm, like, overflowing with love. Like, I want to be in a love relationship with you. I want to forgive you, show my grace. I'm slow to anger. I can forgive you, and I just love you and want you, but I'm also holy, and you can't see me and live. Amazing. But then he goes on and he says, but I'm also a God who does not leave the guilty unpunished.
Francis Chan
See, people ask the question, well, if God is a God of love, then how could he punish? How could he? Cause if he's a God of mercy, how can he punish? And I'm going, well, just read the Bible. He says that he's a God of mercy, a God of grace, God of love. And he doesn't leave the guilty unpunished, and he'll punish them to the second or third generation. I mean, that's just what God says. And I don't know. I don't know why we go, well, if he's a God of love, I don't think he can be a God of wrath. God just said it. That's the first thing he tells Moses. This is who I am.
Guest Speaker
I'm a God of mercy, but I also am a God of wrath.
Francis Chan
We can't do that to God. We can't use our own logic.
Guest Speaker
It's like me telling you, hey, I'm actually a really good driver, and I'm Chinese.
Francis Chan
And you're like, no, no, you can't be both.
Guest Speaker
I am.
Francis Chan
I just am. It's who I am. It's the same idea here. And I'm not good at math, which is weird. You know, it's so. I don't play violin, piano, nothing. And. But here's the thing, is God's just telling us, look, this is who I am.
Guest Speaker
I'm a God of wrath, but I'm a God of mercy. I'm a God of grace. I'm a God of love. Here's what I want to do with my remaining time, Okay? The Bible says, okay. Earlier, I talked about how I've been walking with him for, like, 45 years, and I'm going, God, I don't understand why I'm still standing and I still love you so much, and I could never leave you, and so many of my friends have walked away. And there was a verse that I. A passage that I looked at a while back, and I'm like, oh, that's why it's in Jeremiah, chapter 32. He says this.
Francis Chan
I will give them one heart, one way that they may fear me forever for their own good and the good.
Guest Speaker
Of their children after them.
Francis Chan
I will make with them an everlasting.
Guest Speaker
Covenant that I will not turn away.
Francis Chan
From doing good to them. And I will put the fear of me in their hearts that they may.
Guest Speaker
Not turn from me.
Francis Chan
When I read that, I go, oh, that's what happened. You did something. When I was in college, you put a fear of me in your heart. Like. Like, that's why, man, I. I'm always aware of, like, my mortality. I always think, man, I could die tonight and I'm going to stand before God. And that's the. That's, like, intense for me. I mean, I know he loves me. I know I've been forgiven, but there's still a terrifying thought of, like, wow.
Guest Speaker
Seeing him for the first time, like, that's in me.
Francis Chan
Every time I start drifting even little ways towards sin, I'm just like, there's a fear of God in me. I can't go there. God made a promise. He goes, I'm going to put a fear of me inside of your heart.
Guest Speaker
So that you may not turn away from me. When I read that, I'm like, God, that's what you did. Thank you. That's why I want to pray for you tonight, is that God would put that in your heart. When's the last time you prayed that? When's the last time you said, God put a serious fear of you in my heart so that I'll never turn away from you. And then one other verse I want to read Romans 5, 5. And hope does not put us to.
Francis Chan
Shame because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit.
Guest Speaker
Who has been given to us so.
Francis Chan
Another verse where God says, okay, I want to put the fear of me in your heart, but I'm also going to pour my love into your heart. This one was huge for me because I grew up just, you know, my dad rejected me, didn't want me.
Guest Speaker
Some of us grew up like that.
Francis Chan
Our parents didn't want anything to do with us. And then you start believing in this God. You're supposed to believe that he loves you, even despite all the junk in your life.
Guest Speaker
How does that happen? God says, this is what I'll do. I'll actually literally pour my love into your heart.
Francis Chan
See, all these objections you have in.
Guest Speaker
Your head, I can bypass all of that and make you know at the core of your being that I love you. See, this is why I go, God, I've got to have your presence here tonight. Cause I can't put anything in your heart. I can't put the fear of God in your heart.
Francis Chan
I can't change your nature and have the spirit. That's something only he does. I can't make you know that God loves you and that he's a God that will forgive you of everything.
Guest Speaker
That's why right now, I'm going to ask God to show up here. In fact, I've asked Carrie and Cody. They're not gonna sing right now. They're just gonna come up with me. And we're just gonna be up here silently praying for you. We're gonna be praying that God just comes and meets each one of you. And see, that's the thing is we don't know what you need. Some of you, you don't fear God. You don't treat him as holy. Others of you, man, you don't trust that he loves you.
Francis Chan
There's this little insecurity, like, gosh, if you were to die today, you don't know what he would say. When you come into his presence, you don't know his mercy. Some of you are stuck in your sin and you're holding onto it. And you're in relationships that are wrong. And God wants to change that. So God may be convicting you of sin today. He may be showing his love to you today. He may be putting a fear of him in your heart so that you'll never turn away. Some of you, maybe you never truly had a relationship with Him. It was just something you grew up with, something you were taught and is all in your head.
Guest Speaker
And maybe he wants to change that tonight. Some of you might even need to be healed tonight of some things. I don't know what it is, But we're just going to leave some space right now for God to do whatever he needs to do. In your heart, those of you who are distant from him, he may draw you so close to him right now. I was just over at Cody and Carrie's house, I don't know, like a month or two ago, and we were just seeking God and we're just saying, God, we just want to see you. We just want to see you move. We're tired of the show. We repent of all of our little tricks to try to move people. We've got to have your presence. So just right now, if you'll just bow your heads, Everyone, And ask God to meet with you.
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Episode: Desperate for His Presence | Francis Chan
Date: November 3, 2025
Host: Crazy Love Ministries
Guest: Francis Chan
In this heartfelt episode, Francis Chan passionately explores what it truly means to desire God's presence above all else, drawing inspiration from Exodus 33 where Moses refuses to go to the Promised Land without God Himself. Francis challenges listeners to reflect on their own longing for God—not just His blessings, not just a great atmosphere or worship experience, but a real, transformative relationship with God. Through personal stories, vivid biblical teaching, and direct appeals, Francis unpacks why God’s presence is absolutely essential for lasting change and spiritual endurance.
Francis Chan calls the audience—both present and listening—to pause and actively seek the presence of the living God, above all outward signs and experiences. He urges a hunger for the real God: His love, His fear, His glory, and His transforming presence. Only God Himself, says Francis, can do the deep, lasting work in our hearts.
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