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"'I don't think you should be around him, he seems very forceful.' ... I didn't listen, of course."

Navigating visceral physical reactions, self-blame, and denial in the wake of extreme violation, Amy becomes a ghost of her former self, pushing through stories circling about her experience. Supported by her family, she reports her assaulter to the police, and he disappears. After years of numbing herself, she begins to heal with therapy and leans heavily on her support system, sharing her lessons and journey with us today.

Amy McKiernan is the author of the powerful book, More Than A Survivor: Eight Keys to Overcoming Sexual Assault and Finding a Path to Living a Fulfilled Life. In her book, Amy draws on her personal experience to outline the eight keys she discovered for not just surviving but truly flourishing after trauma. Combining a reflective journal with perspectives from her own support system, she provides a rare and valuable resource that survivors, family, and friends can connect with and learn from.

Host: Katie Koestner

Editor: Evan Mader

Producers: Catrina Aglubat and Emily Wang

S9E4 High School Vodka Party Black Out (Uploaded for Spotify)