Adderall induced psychosis w/ Eli

Summary

Emergency Intercom — “Adderall induced psychosis w/ Eli” (March 6, 2026)

Episode Overview

This episode of Emergency Intercom features hosts Enya Umanzor and Drew Phillips in conversation with their friend and artist Eli. The main theme is a candid, often hilarious exploration of mental health, growing up on the internet, artistic journeys, and the uniquely absurd experiences of being terminally online. The conversation is driven by personal anecdotes, mutual admiration, revelations around OCD and other mental health diagnoses, chaotic stories from teen fame, and surreal tales of Adderall-induced psychosis, all delivered with signature self-deprecation and irreverence.

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Key Discussion Points and Insights

1. Praise for Eli’s One-Woman Show (03:32–06:24)

• Drew and Enya gush over Eli’s show: They detail how inspired and moved they were by Eli’s performance at Bob Baker Theater, emphasizing its originality, intimacy, and the impact it had on them as artists.
  • Quote: “Seeing you perform and seeing your personality on stage legitimately made us fall in love with you. Like, it was crazy.” – Drew (03:41)
• Eli shares the origin: She started writing the show during a period of dysphoria and self-reflection, channeling feelings she hadn’t come to terms with into an expressive performance.
  • Quote: “I was like, peak dysphoria and I like, hadn't really come to terms with my truth in life, and I was like, why don't I just like, put all those feelings into a one woman show.” – Eli (07:19)
• Bob Baker Theater and puppet segment: The show’s setting and inclusion of a custom puppet (made by friend Abby Sage) add to its charm and uniqueness.

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2. Mental Health, OCD, and Shared Struggles (09:37–13:11; 19:23–20:39)

• Roundtable on diagnoses: The group jokingly compares mental illnesses — with Eli and Inya both having OCD, Kai naming anxiety and depression, plus exchanges about intrusive thoughts and compulsions.
  • Quote: “What mental illness do you have?... I have OCD. And what is the other one? Schizophrenia. Wait, you’re my OCD, you’re my schizophrenia, dude.” – Eli (09:37)
• Managing symptoms: Inya and Eli open up about compulsive behaviors like obsessive hand-washing and skin picking, and the role of medication.
  • Quote: “Look at my hands. Wait, I obsessively wash my hands.” – Eli (09:59)
  • Quote: “Finding out I had OCD alone was genuinely so relieving. It felt like it gave an answer to a question I had always been asking…”– NOCD Narrator (19:23)
• Therapy talk: The hosts highlight the importance of ERP (exposure and response prevention) therapy for OCD.

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3. Growing Up on the Internet & Social Media Tours (31:48–39:31)

• Teenage fame and exploitation: All recount early involvement with social media tours (“Boys of Summer”, “Press Play”, “DigiFest”), highlighting predatory management, lack of compensation, and dangerous situations, including being given alcohol and pills as minors.
  • Quote: “We met on Press Play… there was one called Boys of Summer where, like, a pedophile was running it.” – Eli (31:56)
• Making friends and surviving trauma: They describe how friendships forged in these environments became found family.
• Industry dangers: Eli almost signed a restrictive 360 record deal at 12, only to later have her name/merchandise profited off by adults with no compensation.

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4. The Chaotic Creativity of Terminally Online Artists (27:09–28:53; 56:01–67:59)

• From Stan Twitter to actual stardom: Eli describes being “adjacent” to stan culture but using early internet platforms to self-promote from a young age.
• Admiration for other artists: The group shares music crushes (Lana Del Rey, Beyoncé, Miley, etc.) and discuss supporting fellow artists.
• Pitching themselves relentlessly: The necessity (“life or death”) of constant self-promotion, both as a creative drive and because of financial precarity.
  • Quote: “If I do make it, I’m not gonna take the money... We’re gonna funnel it back into the community. The queer community is gonna rise up, guys.” — Eli (73:01)
• Eli’s “Addison Rae Apology Tour”: She humorously details DMing Addison Rae long, weirdly poetic messages, inspired by a period of creative exuberance after embracing her trans identity.
  • Quote: “I was just non stop posting creative mode Instagram stories, saying the craziest things because I just was, like, having so much fun… finally just, I'm, like, letting myself speak, letting myself cook.” – Eli (65:30)

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5. Adderall-Induced Psychosis & Alien Beliefs (44:05–45:52; 51:39–52:51)

• Adderall stories: Both Eli and Drew describe experiencing drug-induced psychosis after overprescription of stimulants as teenagers, including alien delusions and spiritual encounters.
  • Quote: “I, like, thought I was like, Jesus. It put me in, like, psychosis. I was, like, meditating to like all the gods. Like, I was. I was like David Bowie. I was talking to Freddie Mercury.” – Eli (44:42)
  • Quote: “I was put on like a heroic dose of Adderall and Xanax in high school. And it with my hormones so crazy that I literally genuinely believed I was… an alien.” – Drew (51:39)
• Pamela the Alien: Eli used a “gay grant” to buy a giant animatronic alien for comfort during the worst times, blurring the lines between coping mechanism and whimsical art project.

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6. Surreal Humor, Internet Culture, and Bit Jokes (12:12, 23:14–25:13, 52:24–53:55)

• Emoji restaurant, emoji sock phase: Drew pitches an “emoji restaurant”, and the group reminisce about their emoji-themed fashion obsessions.
• Mocking the trends: They poke fun at social media speak (e.g., “yummers,” “yas,” “tru1”) and reminisce about prank-riddled online antics (“I am blocked by Drake’s dad because I used to spam tweet him in the middle of the night… I would be like, go to sleep, you old fucking fart.” – Inya, 71:29)
• Toys and merch: Drew and Enya mention their own attempts at toy/merch manufacturing and joke about plushies and mascots.

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7. Gender, Identity, and Trans Joy (55:02–59:57)

• Eli’s journey: She describes starting medical transition, the affirmation and euphoria that followed, but also the stress of navigating the music industry while broke and vulnerable.
  • Quote: “I started medically transitioning like seven months ago and I'm giving this. I mean, you are. I think I'm intersex because I think I've always been.” – Eli (57:31)
• Admiration and community: Hosts repeatedly affirm Eli’s beauty, talent, and authenticity.

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8. Industry Real Talk & Tour Announcements (73:01–76:15)

• Financial hardship in the arts: Eli is honest about running out of her record advance, trying to make ends meet, and the reality of live performance ticket sales.
• Call to action: Enya and Drew urge listeners to support “real” musicians and go to Eli’s live shows, arguing her concerts will “ruin” other concerts for you (because they’re so good).
  • Quote: “If you go to Eli’s concert, you will… have like a higher standard and then you’re going to go to another concert and be like, oh, so they let anybody do this? I didn’t realize.” – Inya (75:22)

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Notable Quotes & Memorable Moments

• On creativity and trauma: “I was groomed too. I mean, I think it’s like, a rite of passage for creatives. Question mark?” – Eli (31:39)
• On the simulation theory: “It’s going to be revealed that none of this was real… it’s like the best proof for life being a simulation that we are sentient during the singularity.” – Drew (42:51–43:03)
• On music and inspiration: “I love like a amazing vocalist over like a horrible beat.” – Eli (61:17)
• On internet cycles: “It used to be shameful to like chase a career as an artist and now it is shameful to not do that and to not be in the creative world.” – Inya (75:25)

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Timestamps for Major Sections

• 03:32–06:24 — Eli’s One-Woman Show & Artistic Inspiration
• 09:37–13:11 — Mental Health Roundtable
• 19:23–20:39 — OCD, Intrusive Thoughts & Therapy Discussion
• 31:48–39:31 — The Dangers of Social Media Tours
• 44:05–45:52 — Adderall-Induced Psychosis & Alien Delusions
• 51:39–52:51 — Alien Era, Medication Side Effects
• 56:01–67:59 — Online Self-Promotion, Identity, Addison Rae Story
• 73:01–75:25 — Tour Struggles, Industry Critique, Call to Action

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Final Thoughts

The episode is a mix of raw honesty and comedic chaos, shining a light on the realities behind viral fame, mental illness, gender euphoria, and surviving the entertainment industry as an outsider. Eli’s vulnerability and the hosts’ humor make for a heartfelt conversation about resilience, identity, and creative ambition. If you care about internet culture, queer artists, and the strange beauty of growing up pathologically online, this episode encapsulates it all.

Transcript

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[Eli]

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[Roommate / Friend]

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[Eli]

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[Drew]

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[Inya]

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[Eli]

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[Inya]

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[Roommate / Friend]

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[Eli]

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[Drew]

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[Inya]

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[Eli]

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[Inya]

Rock, paper, scissors. Shoot.

[Kai]

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[Eli]

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[Roommate / Friend]

Hey,

[Inya]

Here with the one, the only,

[Drew]

the wickedly talented. The wickedly talented.

[Eli]

Do you really feel that way? Yes.

[Drew]

Yes. I'm not even kidding. Like, I was like, I'm gonna save this for like, 15 minutes into the episode. But, like, your one woman show, like, I. I literally told Inya, like, that was, like, one of the first times in a very long time I was genuinely, like, inspired to create. Like, it was so special. Like, when I was, like, texting you, like, it was special. Like, that was so major. And, like, we already, like, loved you before, but, like, seeing you perform and seeing your personality on stage legitimately made us fall in love with you. Like, it was crazy.

[Inya]

It literally. I've never been in a room. And I. I also. I'm like, I've been to a concert or two. Like, I'm such a concert goer, so I'm dead serious about it. And if I don't like someone show, I literally just never speak about it because I'm like, ooh. But I. On the two episodes ago, we were literally. We talked about it for, like, 10 minutes.

[Drew]

I've talked about it literally every single episode since I went to the first show.

[Eli]

What is your thoughts? What are your thoughts? Thank you so much. Like, seriously, thank you so much. Why am I, like, suddenly, like, acting like, hi.

[Inya]

Like, hi, hey. Well, no, it's because we're, like, opening the episode. Like, let's just drown her in compliments.

[Drew]

No, what are your thoughts?

[Eli]

Honestly, like, it meant, like, it was like, the fact that you guys came, like, meant the fucking world to me. Like, I.

[Inya]

Because I was. When I saw that you had invited me, I was like, oh. Oh, my God. Because I hadn't seen that you were going to Have a show. And then when I found out it was at Bob Baker, I was just like, this is like, everything that means something to me. This is.

[Eli]

It's so special there. It's so magical. It's like all the good things about Disney World.

[Drew]

The good.

[Inya]

Also your puppet, like, that whole section.

[Drew]

Was that a puppet in the back that you picked out or did they make? No.

[Eli]

So my friend Abby, Abby Sage, she makes music, amazing music, and also has played at Bob Baker with puppets before. And she makes puppets. So she made. I like, begged her to make me a puppet. And. Yeah.

[Inya]

That's so amazing.

[Eli]

It's the cutest puppet. I want to take it like, with me everywhere. The puppet.

[Drew]

Yeah.

[Inya]

So awesome. Wait, how did that, like, come to fruition? We like to say, like, that fruit tissue.

[Eli]

The puppet or the whole show?

[Inya]

Like, what even inspired you to do that?

[Eli]

I like that question.

[Inya]

Yeah, I'm like, that was my random thing.

[Eli]

Really?

[Inya]

Yeah. I mean, again, I. I would like to think that I live a very spoiled life in terms of I'm not only like, close friends with artists, but I get to go to so many shows. And it genuinely is one of the like, most interesting concepts of a show. One, because it's so intimate. Like, it's a very insane thing to set up.

[Drew]

Yeah. I was crying, laughing every time you were like, this is awkward as like, wait, you said like, y' all aren't living or something like that. I literally like, are you all not living in India? We're like, we're living out loud. Just.

[Inya]

Well, I felt like a tweaker in my seat because I was like, literally,

[Eli]

like, I needed it though. Like, when I looked at you, I was like, oh, thank God their living.

[Inya]

I was so happy.

[Eli]

Like, honestly, the show was to make you guys like me.

[Drew]

Thank you.

[Eli]

It was all for us. Okay.

[Inya]

But yeah. How did it come to you to be.

[Eli]

It was January 2024, peak, like taking edible every night.

[Drew]

And I was like, inya's there now.

[Eli]

Yeah, Camino. It was like Camino. And I was just like, I need.

[Inya]

It was a Camino winter. It always is.

[Eli]

And I just.

[Drew]

Your year of rest and relaxation.

[Eli]

You guys are too funny and scared of me.

[Inya]

Okay, okay, okay.

[Eli]

So you're sorry, what did I do? I wrote a song about. No, I think it was just like, I was like peak dysphoria and I like, hadn't really come to terms with my truth in life.

[Inya]

Yeah. Really? Yeah.

[Eli]

And I was like, why don't I just like, put all those feelings into a one woman show. And, like, not only, like, why don't I. Like, I don't also don't even, like, live for one woman shows. And, like, I also, like, felt like I was doing slam poetry at one point, and I just, like, did not. It was like all these things I don't actually, like. Like, I don't. I'm not a theater kid. Like, I wish. I wish.

[Inya]

Well, the great thing is, from the outside looking in, it seemed like something you had done before. I would have assumed that, like, you were a part of some sort of play growing up.

[Drew]

Because it is also.

[Inya]

It really is a big deal being two people who have had to, like, be in front of a crowd, not sing. That's crazy. But, like, to have to balance, like, being funny and, like, entertain, I. That's something I think I'm reserving for

[NOCD Therapist / Narrator]

when I'm in my 40s.

[Eli]

Oh, fire.

[Inya]

Yeah.

[Drew]

I think I have the voice of an.

[Inya]

It's not gonna go anywhere. It's literally just gonna be, like, some really cryptic, scary thing that someone's gonna find like a bird CD of when I'm dead and be like, oh, she

[Eli]

lost her shit 10 on piss 100.

[Drew]

If I made music, you wouldn't have a career. I'll just say that much right now. Yeah. Like, I. I'm like. Well, I've been saying I think I would be a very good pop star. Like, just in general, I would love it, but I think I would actually be terrible.

[Inya]

This is somebody who.

[Eli]

I would be, like, masked singer.

[Ryan Seacrest]

Yeah.

[Drew]

You know, with a bag over my face is what they're saying. I'm ugly as fuck.

[Inya]

Wow.

[Drew]

We walked in. We walked in and Eli, we were like, saying hi, and Eli was like, oh, Kai. Oh, the hot one. What about me in India?

[Inya]

And it didn't look at us for a goddamn second.

[Kai]

It was so. Thank you for bringing that up. I was going to bring that up if you didn't.

[Eli]

Everybody here is hot. No, I'll.

[Inya]

I'll let. Kai needs that.

[Kai]

I do need that badly.

[Drew]

He needed that.

[Inya]

I hear that so often that I'm like, honestly. Yeah, double it and give it to the next person.

[Kai]

I also. I hear it a lot too, but I'm also. I'm like, mentally ill, so it doesn't really absorb. So I do need to hear every day.

[Inya]

No, you have, like, hearing issues and you think you're hearing that.

[Eli]

What mental illness do you have? Sorry, I cut you off.

[Kai]

I have depression and anxiety.

[Eli]

Okay.

[Drew]

Boring.

[Eli]

I have ocd. And what is the other one? Schizophrenia. Wait, you're my ocd. You're my schizophrenia, dude.

[Inya]

Honestly, I'm so like flattered because I also have ocd. So I'm glad that I'm the schizophrenia.

[Eli]

Look at my hands. Wait, I obsessively wash my hands.

[Inya]

Oh, dude.

[Eli]

Girl, it's bad. It's really bad.

[Inya]

I mean I, my nails now are much better and. But I just had to redo them yesterday. But my, my, my fingers and I can't have.

[NOCD Therapist / Narrator]

Thank you.

[Inya]

I can't have cuticle cutters because I like, I literally will have. And growing up I had bad infections on my like fingers because I would like bite them so bad. So I know the feeling. And also here I had bad eczema and I would scratch it so bad. So then I wore zip ups growing up every day in hot ass Florida and I was like, no, I'm actually not hot. Like, I'm literally not hot.

[Drew]

You're like the opposite of the boy wearing basketball shorts in winter. Yeah, like, I'm actually not cold at all. I'm sweating. I'm not dying of humping.

[Eli]

Oh my gosh.

[Inya]

Well, I'm on Prozac for it.

[Eli]

Oh my God. Zoloft Y 150.

[Drew]

Yeah, well, I think, I don't know

[Inya]

Z have like a bigger starting number.

[Eli]

Probably, probably. But I need to go up, honestly.

[Drew]

Really?

[Eli]

Yeah, it's getting bad again.

[Inya]

I mean, real as, bro. Like, yeah, I just have OCD and I, it was like causing anxiety. I had never. I remember one time we were all at lunch and I was like, I've always been really depressive. I have bad seasonal depression.

[Drew]

And like, girl, you have bad every season.

[Inya]

Yeah, I just have bad depression. But it gets really, really bad in winter. Like in winter it's like I can't fight this monster anymore. But every other day I'm like, girl, this is the new normal. Like, yeah, like, yeah, in LA too. But actually in LA is when it got really bad because I'm not even used to like being cold and like having that transition. So. And then like moving here actually made it worse because I used to have no reference of time, if that makes sense. Like there's no seasons in Florida. And then moving here it actually, I think me up because I was like, oh, I can actively see time change, like moving around me for the first time. Like Florida, everyday is so Truman show. But even here it's like, oh my God, the tree out my window has no leave.

[Drew]

What?

[Inya]

Like, like that's.

[Drew]

Who took the color.

[Inya]

Yeah, they turned off the color of my Town.

[Drew]

Turned off the color in my town.

[Inya]

I never had that. That was crazy. And like, hurricanes are like, hey, like that to me. What was. Whatever. But yeah, I think that's when it got bad here. But ocd, I think, was my main issue. That's my main freak elite.

[Eli]

Me and her go together.

[Inya]

Oh, wait, what's your mental illness? But you.

[Drew]

I'm gay.

[Kai]

Oh, yeah?

[Inya]

Yeah. And I shout out to that.

[Eli]

Did you come out?

[Drew]

I mean, I'm not gay. I'm not gay. I literally forgot.

[Kai]

You need to just come out, Drew.

[Drew]

And you need to shut the up.

[Kai]

No, you're right.

[Drew]

You're coming out on my own terms. Come out as what? Queen? No, I'm a queen.

[Inya]

Like the band or.

[Drew]

Yes, Abbott.

[Inya]

Ew.

[Drew]

Uh, no, I just, like, am depressed and anxious, period. But I don't take anything.

[Eli]

I honestly, like, this morning, like, it felt like I was like, about to do, like a confessional, like, with Oprah. My first, like, sit down interview for, like 15 years. I was like, looking in the mirror. I was like, just be honest. Just be honest with them. Like, this is a big deal to me. Like, oh, that must be.

[Inya]

Well, if it makes you feel any better, Drew saying he could be a pop star. Every time we ever do anything public, anything, Drew has the kind of like,

[Drew]

I start subtle panic attack.

[Inya]

That's literally. It's so entertaining to watch.

[Drew]

But he literally freaks out, freak the fuck out. And then I start drinking, like, tap water wherever we are.

[Eli]

He goes to the bathroom and just

[Inya]

goes in the bathroom and just like.

[Drew]

Like, I freak out. And then one time I found out that the water was non potable. So I was just drinking, like, non filtered shit water, basically. And it was.

[Inya]

It was at a college show and he got called out by one of the college students who was like, chaperoning us around.

[Eli]

They were like, have you been drinking?

[Inya]

The water in there?

[Drew]

Was like, yeah, no, the worms are in my pocket.

[Inya]

She was like, you shouldn't be doing that.

[Eli]

That's really bad. Isn't LA water bad? Right?

[Kai]

Yeah, it's pretty bad. Chlorine and Wellbutrin in it.

[Drew]

Oh, wait, the Wellbutrin I live. Yeah, I think they tested it.

[Kai]

There was like, Lexapro and Wellbutrin.

[Drew]

Trace amounts need that.

[Inya]

Well, I saw a video of a girl putting this, like, thing that absorbs chlor. Chlorine and then. Or shows chlorine in water. And she hadn't touched the water from tap water, and it was here. And then the other one, she put her hand in it and then put that same thing in it and it activate. And she was talking about how chlorine seeps into your skin because we're so porous. And the la tap water has like a crazy amount of chlorine.

[Kai]

It smells like a pool if you just smell it.

[Drew]

That's why I have the jolie shower head.

[Kai]

Okay.

[Drew]

Buy it now.

[Inya]

Why are you like a walking black Nero right now? What the fuck happened to you? Like what? Okay, okay.

[Eli]

So I had a fourth grade teacher who literally like would not drink water. And she always poured those like, remember like the like little like lemonade like,

[Drew]

like things in it.

[Eli]

And like I used to go home and cry at night. I used to be like, she won't drink water.

[Drew]

We need to save water.

[Eli]

No, I actually it was like when Nick Jonas got diabetes. Like it was like so stressful.

[Drew]

Wait, was that intense?

[Inya]

She had you on the lookout. I was nervous.

[Eli]

It was really like, I, I remember it still to this day. It's like.

[Drew]

Do you remember when Hillary Duff showed up to. Was it Lindsay Lohan's movie?

[Eli]

Oh my God. I was just on like a rabbit hole about that last night.

[Drew]

I was on the rabbit hole at like 4:30 this morning. But we're locked in. We're locked in.

[Inya]

I don't know about that. To me it's mad funny because I don't have any like necessarily real connection because I didn't grow up watching her show, which is the one that was a huge for her.

[Eli]

Lizzie McGuire.

[Inya]

Lizzie McGuire. See, I didn't grow up like super into Lizzie McGuire. Lindsay Lohan. I mean she's Lindsay Lohan. She's amazing, iconic. But what did they have beef?

[Eli]

She said it was her nemesis.

[Drew]

Yeah, it was.

[Eli]

That was my childhood nemesis.

[Drew]

What was it?

[Inya]

I mean, is it because they were kind of having like look alike wars or something? Like to me, they kind of. To me I'm like, I wonder if that beef comes from the fact that like, at least for me growing up, I mistook them for each other a lot.

[Eli]

Oh really?

[Drew]

Was it someone they like shared a boyfriend or something? They were like in a love triangle.

[Inya]

Oh, everyone's sharing boyfriends.

[Drew]

Yeah, everyone's sharing. But they were also like, it's not

[Inya]

even like, let's accept that. Like let's just accept the reality we live.

[Drew]

I think they were like 15 and they were. Oh, it was, was Aaron Carter. I think one of them dated Aaron Carter. They broke up. Then the other one started dating Aaron Carter. And then like obviously like in a 15 year old's brain. They're both, like, egomaniacal celebrities. Like, they're like, I hate y'.

[Inya]

All.

[Drew]

Do you have roommates?

[Eli]

Yeah, I do.

[Drew]

How is that?

[Eli]

Oh, my God. They're the best. One of my roommates wrote the One Woman show with me. Yeah.

[Drew]

That's so sick.

[Eli]

Yeah, I see.

[Drew]

Who was in front of me at the One Woman Show? Ethan Third.

[Eli]

Oh, my God. Ethan. Ethan. That's my girl.

[Drew]

Ethan is a key, so I actually like, the blue.

[Eli]

The blueprint for everyone and everything. Like, you don't know how, like, deep it goes, really. Like, he, like, made Beyonce. Like, he, like, he is.

[Drew]

That's major.

[Eli]

There are secrets that he'll never tell. I'm like, serious. He just, like, understands music in a way, and then he, like, always ends up in a room with, like, Beyonce and, like, so sick.

[Inya]

I'm like, me. I'm like, wait, I want to go.

[Drew]

Yeah, wait, take us there.

[Inya]

I'm like, wait, are you being serious?

[Eli]

Because I'm like, no, he never met Beyonce. But I feel like he's. He, like, he, like, put me onto Ethel Kane in, like, 2011, like, when she was, like, a child.

[Inya]

Oh, sorry.

[Eli]

She wasn't even Ethel Kane. Like, he's just. He. Yeah.

[Drew]

Do you have any.

[Inya]

I mean, that's like, the ideal kind of friend I feel like, to have, especially as an artist, because just, like, it's like the OG Internet sleuth before it had bad rep to it of, like, random, bordering special interest ass motherfucker who's just like, I want to find a star. And for what? Literally nothing. Like, that's what he's sounding like, is just someone who's like, I would like to know a lot, but for no gain.

[Eli]

No, he's just like. He's also, like, a great songwriter, and he makes music, great artists.

[Drew]

Oh, he makes music.

[Inya]

Yeah.

[Eli]

Such good music. Very, like, ahead of his time always. I love him so much. Peculiar. Ethan.

[Inya]

Okay, yeah.

[Eli]

Save the name, dude. That's amazing.

[Drew]

Save the name Eli, too. I'm not even kidding. I am, like, so bullish on you in a way that, like, when I am, like, like, out, and people are like, what are you listening to? I'm literally like, eli, like, I'm not even joking. I literally think you're going to be a superstar. And, like, I'm like, you know, I was just about to ask you, like, who other musicians that you were, like, listening to before, they were, like, who they are now. Like, one of them's like, Lana Del Rey for me. Like, if you go deep on my Instagram in like 2013, I had said woman Crush Wednesday because I was too scared to be like, Yes, I was. It was.

[Eli]

I did that too. I have them up on my page, though. A lot of women crush Wednesdays.

[Drew]

Yeah, it was Beyonce, Miley Cyrus, and Lana Del Rey.

[Inya]

That's so funny.

[Drew]

They're so hot. Oh my God, they're so hot.

[Eli]

So hot. A bunch of heart eye emojis.

[Drew]

Yes. Yes. Eggplant.

[Inya]

Eggplant.

[Drew]

Eggplant emoji.

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[Inya]

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[NOCD Therapist / Narrator]

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[Drew]

Was eggplant emoji a thing back then?

[Eli]

Yeah, 100% eggplant has always been that.

[Drew]

And y' all know about the robber emoji, right?

[Inya]

Right? Yeah.

[Drew]

Where is it,

[Eli]

dude? Whoa, whoa.

[Inya]

Free all of those girls.

[NOCD Therapist / Narrator]

That's all.

[Inya]

I'll say.

[Drew]

Wait, didn't one of them quit?

[Inya]

That's like. Well, it's a hiatus. But I personally, I'm like, those girls, let those girls go.

[Eli]

Let. Let them go.

[Inya]

It just disturbs you so good. And like it's getting to a point. Like it's just with everything, it's like how we're like, oh, strings pulled. Every sector of entertainment has that, but it gets to a point where it's like, like. And I can see the strings.

[Eli]

Oh my God. How many times have we like, seen like, why this play out?

[Drew]

Also, we're talking about Cat's eye, right?

[Inya]

Yeah.

[Drew]

Okay, I thought for a second we were talking about the girls from K Pop, Demon Hunter, cuz y' all said something about Netflix and I don't know, Cat's Eye and Netflix.

[Eli]

Was anyone a harmonizer?

[Inya]

No.

[Eli]

Okay, never mind, never mind.

[Drew]

Wait, wait.

[Eli]

Just move on. Move on, move on.

[Drew]

No, no, we need to talk about this. Unpack this. We're unpacking it.

[Eli]

Do you know what a harmonizer is?

[Inya]

Yeah, Fifth Harmony.

[Eli]

Oh, yeah. Okay, that's all.

[Inya]

Yeah, I wasn't necessarily a harmonizer.

[Eli]

Five pass.

[Inya]

Whoa, whoa.

[Eli]

Was that it?

[Inya]

Okay, see, I wasn't like deep in like there, but I, I was, I was acquainted. Like if I ended up harmonizer, I'm like, hey, girls. Like, I know the girls as well.

[Eli]

The girl.

[Drew]

Were you deep on like, Stan Twitter, like, during Harmonizer era Sauce, One Direction?

[Eli]

No. Well, it was weird. It was like, I felt like, I always say, I'm like, I was like, adjacent to it because I was like,

[Drew]

sorry, I hide it behind the mic too, period.

[Eli]

I like, I was already, you know, working on my big one. Like, I was like, oh, I'm Beyonce. Sort of like, I use that. Yeah, I just, I was like, I had a Twitter, but I was like, you know, promoting myself at 12 years old. So it was like very.

[Inya]

That's very. That's very chic though. And I'm not even kidding. I'm like, the decorum. The decorum quorum of that is very. No, it's like, it's like you had your little one, two on. You were like, okay, yeah, I fuck with you. But like, let's not get too excited because if I start screaming and shouting, the girls might look at me too.

[Drew]

Were you ever, like, involved with like, Stan Twitter? Because, like, that's what like, stood out the most to me at your show was how funny you were.

[Eli]

Well, I would scroll through it. Like, I would never interact because I was like, I can't make a comment on this because it's gonna get back to me in 15 years. Like, I'm gonna be in the rooms with those girls and look at you now.

[Inya]

I mean, y, my ass.

[Drew]

Zara Larson, Demi, Adela, all in the same room there for you. Literally.

[Inya]

So amazing, girl.

[Eli]

I don't know how I convinced them. And I feel like Demi hates me now because it was so awkward. It really was funny and it was like, it felt like I was like, oh, it's like Nathan Fielder.

[Drew]

Like, exactly.

[Inya]

It was. I. I think it was perfect also because to me, if anything, it goes to show that it's not some like, strings pulled thing of marketing as much as it is like, these people obvious just like us find you interesting, like what you make and they're willing to put themselves in your world of just like, I don't really know what's happening, but I'll go because I with her and I want to see her.

[Eli]

It's cr. I can't process it still. Like, it's very weird.

[Drew]

Did you message them?

[Eli]

Yeah, I was like, I made like. I went on my laptop and I made like photo booth videos. I was like, hey, dummy, you have to leak. I like, made little audition videos for

[Drew]

them and leak those one day. That's going to be amazing.

[Eli]

Apparently one of them ended up in, like, a. A label meeting for an artist or like a management meeting, and they had to turn their cameras off because that was making them so uncomfortable and that that artist did not come to the show.

[Drew]

Wait, I need to know who it is after the fact. That's so funny. Okay. Are you actually all up in Addison Rae's DMs?

[Eli]

Like, is that a 100%? Can I explain this? Because I think I need to, like, put it on the record and. And. And just, like, state my apologies and everything. I. I am so obsessed with the music that she put out. And, like, it just. I was speaking of, like, growing up on the Internet, like, I always hated a who, like, was like an influencer and then made music. Like, I would get so angry. I would get so angry. But that one Baby Ariel. Arielle song. It's like so good. It's like O Baby or something. It's like Michael Jackson is fire. It's so funny.

[Drew]

I don't know that one.

[Eli]

What that's about. So funny. So I was always kind of anti that. Cuz I was like, no, like, I've been hustling like, I was 10 years old.

[Inya]

I think that's real.

[Eli]

I was 10 years old on YouTube. Are you seeing my Q tips and judging me?

[Inya]

Okay. No, I'm looking in your eyes.

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[Eli]

Would you ever kiss a girl?

[Inya]

Oh,

[NOCD Therapist / Narrator]

I've had a tampon string on my chin.

[Drew]

Whoa.

[Inya]

Like, wait.

[Eli]

One time I went down on a girl and started gushing blood out of my nose, and I thought she was bleeding. I get up, I'm like, wait.

[Inya]

And it's like pouring out.

[Drew]

How did they get up my nose?

[Inya]

You sinked with me. We sing fine, actually.

[Eli]

And I was deep. I was like. That was like religious PE. Like, I was 15. It was like. So I was like a son.

[Inya]

And you have ocd, so I know the thoughts.

[Eli]

Girl.

[Drew]

Girl.

[Eli]

The thoughts.

[Drew]

The thoughts.

[Eli]

Can I tell you I lost my virginity 90 on the day of my confirmation because of my OCD. I was like, okay, well, I can once I'm like, with the Lord. You know what I mean?

[Inya]

That's really real. Because I. I actively was like, I'm gonna wait till I'm 18 to have sex. Less than two months after that, I like, actively sought out someone to have sex with because I was like, well, I'm 18 now. I have to do rules,

[Drew]

social, unstruct.

[Inya]

Well, yeah, my original idea of sex too, was middle school to. I talked about this on the podcast. I really thought, because I was Watching media and stuff where, like, teenagers were having sex. I was like, holy, next year I have to have sex. And then I found out you could wait till you're 18. And I was like, thank God. Thank God that guy held back.

[Drew]

Well, I lost my virginity to an army man. And after we hooked up, he looked at me and he was like, that was your first time, huh? And I was like, yeah. And then he was like, like, so, what are you doing? Like, what are you. Where are you going after this? And he was like, I'm, like, joining the army, like, or I'm in the military right now. And I freaked out. And I was like, I'm also joining the army. And I just, like, I literally did stolen valor to this man. And, like, he was like, oh, what branch? And I was so young, I literally had no idea what that meant. And I was like, arm the army. The military.

[Inya]

That's insane.

[Drew]

And then he drove me back to my car, and I. It was also in the parking lot of a Walmart, by the way.

[Eli]

Oh, that's hot.

[Drew]

It is.

[Eli]

Did you think that you, like, something would happen if you weren't working in the army with him?

[Drew]

I just.

[Eli]

I thought he would.

[Drew]

I literally freaked out. I just also, like, we may or may not have to cut this, but I was a child and he was a grown ass man, and I was really scared of him. It was kind of hot, though.

[Eli]

I'm so sorry.

[Drew]

It's all good.

[Inya]

I'm so sorry.

[Eli]

I'm so sorry. I was groomed, too.

[Drew]

I mean, I think it's like, a right rite of passage for creatives. Question mark?

[Inya]

Did you guys ever do, like, expand your mind for creatives?

[Kai]

So funny.

[Eli]

Did you guys ever go on the, like, social media tours?

[Drew]

Oh, yeah.

[Eli]

That's how you. Oh, really?

[Drew]

Yeah. Did you?

[Eli]

Yes.

[Drew]

Which one? Did you?

[Eli]

Yeah, I've done. You know, I've dabbled. I've dabbled in digi.

[Drew]

No, we met on press play.

[Inya]

It was like the tea move.

[Eli]

Wait, that's tea.

[Inya]

We were getting.

[Eli]

No, I was even lower. There was one called Boys of Summer where, like, a pedophile was running.

[Drew]

It was like, oh, ours was ran by a pedophile.

[Eli]

Ours is ran by a pedophile.

[Drew]

It's incessant. It's crazy.

[Inya]

It's really odd.

[Eli]

And it's Scooter Braun's fault.

[Inya]

Yeah, I mean, yeah, he, like, opened the floodgates.

[Drew]

Did your tour manager also try to give y' all drugs all the time?

[Eli]

Oh, yeah. One of them literally handed me, like, I was 14 and gave me like a Jack and rum crazy, like, alcohol cocktail. Like big old cocktail.

[Drew]

And I was like, I was.

[Inya]

I gotta go on stage. I have to go sing Ariana Gro Day. Like, I never drank alcohol before.

[Eli]

Like, it was. There were the stories.

[Drew]

Yeah.

[Inya]

I mean, yeah, ours. One time, was it you or I who had a headache? One of us, like.

[Drew]

No, it wasn't us, it was Christian.

[Inya]

Oh, okay. One of our friends had a headache and the tour manager literally gave him like. Like a crazy.

[Drew]

Yeah, a literal Percocet. And then like, he would give us like muscle relaxers all the time for some reason. And then on top of that, like, like, mind you, all miners would just like give us weed tincture all the time. And then I was it. Did I turn 17 or 18? I don't know. I turned an age and for my birthday he got me Calvin Klein boxer brief, which, like, not that crazy, but like, it's. That's crazy crazy. That's crazy crazy.

[Inya]

It's very creepy. Very creepy vibes. Also, he literally would give us a bunch of alcohol and. And when we would ask to be paid because, cuz, like, we weren't paid or anything.

[Drew]

Yeah. Were you paid? No. Yeah, of course.

[Eli]

At the end of the day, I was. I didn't have money. I was 13, but I was paying somehow.

[Drew]

Yeah, exactly.

[Roommate / Friend]

I know.

[Inya]

Yeah.

[Eli]

I mean, you were because paid an emotional debt.

[Inya]

Like, not only that, but our guy wouldn't like, feed us proper food. We were only allowed to eat like the food that was like, in the hotel banquet hall when we would work there. And like, he had allotted times for

[Drew]

food for us to steal his credit card a couple times. Did you like, make friends with people on the tour?

[Eli]

I got groomed by one of them on the tour.

[Drew]

Oh my God. Well, same with in.

[Eli]

Yeah, but did I make friends? He had a gun too. It was crazy. And he was also, like, he wasn't even like on the tour. Like, he was like the older brother of all the. His little boy, like his little brothers. On the tour you said, did I make friends with anyone? No, I wish.

[Drew]

See, that was like our feeling. We would have like, ran away, but like, we were like, held like, emotionally by all of the friends we made because, like, back home, like, I mean, I was kind of like a fucking loser at this point. So, like, my only friends were like the people I was seeing like every weekend or every other weekend. So that's why we stayed so long.

[Inya]

I feel like we were on that tour for so long.

[Drew]

How long did You.

[Eli]

I guess I did. I did.

[Drew]

And I also. I know Boys of Summer. I've. I've heard of it. I've heard of her. I've heard of her.

[Eli]

Why would they have a girl on it, though?

[Drew]

Exactly.

[Eli]

Very weird. Very weird. Let's unpack that. How long was. It was like, a. I did a summer or two. Oh, my God. And then, like, one of the dads who was, like, funding it for one of, like, the really rich boys was, like. He, like, threatened to sue me because, like, I made my little, like, Pixar poster of, like, I'm going on tour. That was like. I was like, really? Like, I was like, I'm gonna do my own thing. Like, I'm gonna be like, put my name. You know, like, when. Like, a girl. When a girl's, like, opening for Dua Lipa and, like, she makes her own little poster, and it's like, the fans live, like, your little community. And so I was like, I'm gonna do that. And they literally, like, emailed my parents. They were like, like, take this down now. Or, like, we're suing you. Like, this is very. It was like. And I was terrified.

[Drew]

I wonder how much money they were making, like, the people, like. Because, like, ours weren't, like, not. They weren't, like, nothing.

[Inya]

No, they were extremely expensive. It's, like, so up to think about. There was a ticket to stay at the hotel we were all staying at, and I don't think it covered.

[Eli]

Buy a ticket to go to the hotel with you guys.

[Inya]

Dude.

[Eli]

That is.

[Inya]

We would get flown in on Fridays. Again, we got really lucky because, again, this was also the era of the Internet, and because it was such a teu ass, like, tour, it didn't really

[NOCD Therapist / Narrator]

attract too many, actually insane people.

[Inya]

It kind of just attracted what we were, which was, like, other mad, lonely, like, girls. And so luckily, we usually interacted with, like, really cool, like, people. Like, but the closer we got to them, we never really put two and two together, like, how expensive everything was, because we knew, like, there were tickets, but we didn't realize until later on what was happening because we would get there, and then there was, like, a VIP thing, like, sleepover situation where we would land and get, like, 30 minutes to chill. But then we would have to go into this, like, area banquet hall to, like, have dinner slash hang out with

[Drew]

these fans until, like, that spent, like, thousands of dollars.

[Inya]

500 to sit with me.

[Drew]

And Drew also would go to, like,

[Eli]

kind of, like, me writing a show. You know how much I paid your

[Drew]

team or PayPal after this. I do not have cash app.

[Inya]

We have QR codes.

[Drew]

Except Zell. Did you do digi?

[Eli]

I did. Like, the fest.

[Drew]

See, I literally was always so jealous that I never got invited. I never got invited.

[Eli]

I did. I did a. I got asked to do. Sorry to rub it in.

[Drew]

No, I need to know.

[Eli]

Well, you'll be happy. At the end of it. I got asked to do, like, one of the. I think it was like O2L was doing it and I was gonna sing or something on it, and I was like, this is huge for me. I was 14 or 13, whatever, it doesn't matter. And either way, that is.

[Inya]

It's so crazy though, because that is huge.

[Eli]

And I was so fucking hyped. And then, you know what happened? And my parents are so far removed from this and we're like, what the fuck is happening? This is so weird. And why. Why do you have followers? And why did you make an email and put it in your bio and be like, I'm running a business.

[Drew]

Y.

[Eli]

And they were just, like, so confused and uncomfortable, but they suddenly turned into momager. Dadager. They were like, you can't do it because you can't sing a full song. Cause I was like, singing online for like five seconds and like, just being like, oh, yeah, yeah.

[TurboTax Announcer]

In my room.

[Eli]

And so they would, like, hear me just, like, redoing the. Oh, yeah, yeah. Fuck. Oh, yeah. Yeah. Fuck.

[Drew]

Doing all your Shay. Wait.

[Inya]

Yeah, yeah. Okay.

[Eli]

But I would do it so much. And so they were just, like, fed up with me, like, repeating, like, one line in my room that they were like, you're not. You're not going on tour. Like, I don't. Like you're not. And maybe they were using that as an. But I just remember. Let me tell you, I remember I invited them into my room. I was like, let me show you.

[Inya]

Stop.

[Eli]

Sam Smith, stay with me.

[Drew]

Sam Smith.

[Eli]

Sam Smith.

[Drew]

Full circle moment.

[Eli]

So full circle. I was crying over the piano, hunched over, like, heaving. Because I kept stopping. I, like, would be like, oh, won't you. And then my mom and dad, I'd be like, see, you're not doing it. So I didn't go on the tour because I would be like, stop.

[Inya]

No.

[Eli]

Fuck. Like, you know that video of the girl who's like, fuck, yeah. She's singing like, I will always love you. That was.

[Inya]

That was.

[Eli]

That is still me. Like, that is the one woman show.

[Drew]

That was the idea.

[Eli]

Yeah.

[Inya]

That is honestly so, so amazing. Do you look back at that and you're upset or do you look back at that and you're happy that your

[Eli]

parents hadn't let you gone for that one? I feel like maybe I. I mean, now I'm like, girl, I don't give a.

[Drew]

Whatever.

[Eli]

It's the past. So in the past. But I think I was pretty upset until like 18, until morning when I got the offer to come.

[Inya]

Dude, that's so funny.

[Eli]

Yeah. Weird.

[Inya]

I feel like your life would have been completely different if you went on that.

[Eli]

I think there were. There were some. Yeah, there was something. I almost signed like one of those, like, really, like the 360 deal with the person who signed Jojo and like, didn't. Like, she didn't get to release music for 10 years. I almost did that.

[Drew]

Wow.

[Eli]

And like, the guy was like selling merchandise under my name for like two years peak, like virality when I was 12. And like, I didn't make any money. Like, that could have been my savings, bitch.

[Drew]

Like, it's crazy.

[Eli]

I gotta use that the last five years.

[Drew]

Exactly. It is crazy how. How insidious people are. Like, and I didn't. I haven't even realized, like, under fully understood, like, how insane it was. Yeah. And how deep it goes until like very recently as like a grown ass man. And like, people literally just like, see kids and take advantage of them, like, financially. It's like so wild. Like, I knew that was always a thing, but, like, you don't know, like

[Eli]

you're in it exactly.

[Drew]

Until years later.

[Eli]

It's horrible.

[Inya]

And it's like. Yeah, it's a tale as old as time. Like, no matter how smart you are

[NOCD Therapist / Narrator]

or mature you are for your age,

[Inya]

an adult will always be able to pull a fast one on you. Because there are just some things you don't know until you're older and it's too fucking late and it's already happened. But it is unreal too. I mean, it goes back to like what we were saying about even cat's Eyes. Like, we all are growing up in an age where we would like to think we know better, but it's almost even like bystanders. Standard effect on the masses is like, everybody's like, well, if they're doing it. And I feel like that's what they do when they start to take advantage of people. Also, it's just now there's so many people who you can make a quick buckle.

[Drew]

Did y' all see that? They are recently saying that they severely underestimated how many people are on earth.

[Kai]

Wait, what?

[Drew]

Yeah, they're. They're like they said there's a lot of us here.

[Kai]

So I'm like, what do you mean they? Who is they?

[Drew]

Twitter tweets, Jeff Bezos.

[Kai]

What's the difference?

[Drew]

Do they think they just. I just.

[Kai]

100 billion.

[Drew]

Okay, fine. I just read a tweet that said. No, I was just telling Kai this morning, like, I am to the point where I'm falling for AI. Like, literally, I fell for like this Toby Maguire AI photo of him wearing a SpongeBob backpack. And I was like. Or a sonic backpack. And I was like, whoa, this is like that they did this. It was Toby Maguire and I cannot think of her name. Like a Virgin Suicides.

[Inya]

Kirsten Dun.

[Drew]

Yes, it was them two. And they were swagged the out. And I was like, wait, this photo eats. And then I was like, oh, this is AI. And then I looked at the likes and it had like 4 million likes. And I was like, there's no way 4 million people fell for AI. Like, this is real.

[Eli]

No, baby, it's AI going to get so weird. Like, I actually think, like, all of human life, like, what we are living right now, like, it genuinely is going to be revealed that none of this was real.

[Drew]

It is.

[Eli]

And like, then we're. And then we're going to be like, let me know.

[Drew]

The best proof, it's like the best proof for like life being a simulation that we are sentient during the singularity. Like, it's. It's fucking crazy that it's like happening. Like the odds and chances of that is like, genuinely insane.

[Kai]

I realized the other day I have like a core belief that it's either aliens or the simulation will be revealed. I feel like I've subconsciously had that belief since I was like 10. But I'm like, at some point in my life, the lights are going to turn on at night and there's going to be like a big eyeball.

[Drew]

Exactly.

[Eli]

Oh my gosh.

[Drew]

Wait, are you like alien pilled?

[Eli]

I'm not. I. I don't. I definitely think like, oh, maybe, maybe like we just are aliens. Like in this like, time loop sort of situation. Like, I've definitely felt like, I felt myself be like, wait, okay. Like, so I've done this like 700 times.

[Drew]

Same.

[Eli]

And like, so we need to like, work this out. Like, we need to.

[Drew]

I'm right there with you.

[Eli]

Yeah. But I don't know if I'm like, ever like, live. Oh, there was a moment where I like, oh, can I tell you about this, please? I was like, I had a. What do you Call it a psychiatrist. Who gave me way too much Adderall in college.

[Drew]

Same in high school.

[Eli]

Oh, girl, it was so bad. He was like. He called me a. And then he, like, it was really weird. He called me a. Then he gave me 40 milligrams. He was like, take this every day. Like, take as much as you want.

[Kai]

Like, do your thing in the same

[Eli]

sentence and do your thing.

[Drew]

Pretty much a psychiatrist saying that. Call me a. Yeah, that's insane.

[Eli]

You want to call me it?

[Drew]

I'll let you call me it. You call me it.

[Eli]

And what happened? Oh, so I. I, like, thought I was like, Jesus. Like, it put me in, like, in psychosis. Psychosis. I was, like, meditating to, like, all the gods. Like, I was. I was like David Bowie. I was talking to Freddie Mercury. It was really lit. It was like.

[Drew]

And that's why you're a star now.

[Eli]

It was an awesome table.

[Drew]

A star was born, baby.

[Eli]

No, it was really lit. It was so fire. But where did this go? This went to. What were we talking about before that? I wanted to say this. Oh, then, like, I definitely, definitely, like, thought, like, okay. That was when I was like, okay, like, I had this alien named Pamela, and I bought. It was Peak Cove Coven, and I bought, like, a big animatronic alien.

[Inya]

I used.

[Eli]

I used this gay grant that I got for being gay. No. Well,

[Drew]

that's so sick.

[Inya]

And that's exactly where I want my taxes and grand money going. That's exactly.

[Eli]

So cute, though. It was like my. It was like my safe haven.

[Inya]

I would argue it was necessary.

[Drew]

Do you see Pamela? I literally need to see Pamela so bad.

[Inya]

Oh, my gosh.

[NOCD Therapist / Narrator]

Yeah.

[Inya]

I don't believe in aliens. And I also. I can't say that I think the lights are going to turn on or anything. I'm like, no, this is pretty. Like, I. I think this.

[Eli]

The lights will turn off.

[Inya]

No, I think it's as simple as, like, guys.

[Drew]

No.

[Inya]

Yeah, this is pretty.

[Eli]

I know, right?

[Drew]

That was really powerful.

[Kai]

This is just.

[Eli]

This is.

[Inya]

Is it.

[Drew]

This is it.

[Inya]

I'm not necessarily.

[Drew]

Wait, is that the Justin Bieber documentary? This is it.

[NOCD Therapist / Narrator]

Finding out I had OCD alone was genuinely so relieving, it felt like it gave an answer to a question I had always been asking, which is, why do I have so many questions? Why are the questions never ending? And why do all the questions end with me being horrible and I'm gonna burn for eternity for all of the

[Inya]

bad things I do all day, even

[NOCD Therapist / Narrator]

though I don't do anything bad and

[Drew]

don't forget about that skin scrubbing.

[NOCD Therapist / Narrator]

Oh yeah.

[Inya]

Oh my gosh.

[NOCD Therapist / Narrator]

Yeah, that was bad. Real OCD is a serious condition where unwanted distressing thoughts called intrusive thoughts get stuck on repeat in your head and you feel complied to engage behaviors called compulsions to try to make them stop. NO CD is a perfect place to start. It really can help you manage all of your OCD symptoms and get on a track where you can live with things and you don't always have to be answering to that question in your head.

[Drew]

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[Drew]

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[Inya]

I think that's Michael Jackson.

[Kai]

Yeah, that was Michael Jackson. Jackson.

[Drew]

Same thing, same difference. Same same talent, similar situation. I was put on like a heroic dose of Aderall and Xanax in high school. And it with my hormones so crazy that I literally genuinely believed I was. Yes, yes, I genuinely believed I was an alien. Like, I would claim that in school and to my parents and I was like, I'm so famously.

[Inya]

Madison said she's an alien and she's only on earth right now.

[Drew]

And when she said that I became biggest fan. I was like, that's twin right there.

[Inya]

She kept you here.

[Drew]

But fire. She's. She's so fierce. And then, yeah, I thought I was an alien and I would draw aliens on everything. Like, so.

[Kai]

I'm E.T. i'm extra.

[Drew]

It's real. It came from a real place. Oh, wait, Eli, do you want to hear like my rap verse? Oh, my God.

[Eli]

Yes.

[Drew]

I'm E.T. i'm extra. Read all about it. Read all about about it.

[Inya]

You can buy that if you want, by the way.

[Kai]

Yeah, how. How much. How much are you selling that for?

[Eli]

Yeah, how much?

[Drew]

Like, a lot of money.

[Eli]

Did you just write that or this?

[Inya]

For a while now.

[Drew]

I also have this idea for emoji restaurant.

[Eli]

Extra.

[Drew]

Wait. Sing it. It sounds better. I'm going to cry.

[Eli]

I'm extra. Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

[Drew]

Like, why am I literally about to cry?

[Inya]

Drew, seeing his work come to life, come to fruition.

[Drew]

My life's work is that part. What was this thing? Oh, I have emoji restaurant too, which is very major if you want to invest. Get on the ground floor.

[Eli]

An emoji restaurant.

[Inya]

He's been pitching this forever also. Go ahead, go for it.

[Drew]

It's just this restaurant where the smiley fries. Yes. It's like food shaped emoji.

[Eli]

They don't have them anywhere anymore.

[Drew]

It's. It's food shaped like emojis.

[Eli]

Sorry. I, like, really wanted to find the alien, but I can't find it.

[Drew]

We'll find it a little bit.

[Kai]

Wait, would the food be shaped like emojis or be Made. What would it be made out of?

[Drew]

Like, fondant and stain.

[Eli]

Do you have an emoji face? I had emoji socks, emoji T shirt, a bunch of emoji pillows, and I would like.

[Inya]

I like emoji pillows. I can.

[Drew]

With emoji. We would wear, like, emoji tights and stuff.

[Inya]

I had emoji tracks.

[Eli]

Would you guys ever make a stuffed animal that is. Is like a caterpillar that becomes a butterfly?

[Inya]

Would we ever make a stuffed animal?

[Ryan Seacrest]

What?

[Drew]

Yes.

[Kai]

Never, like, unfold.

[Inya]

Would you like that?

[Eli]

I want that.

[Inya]

Okay.

[Drew]

We'll make it for you.

[Eli]

We got you. We have a factory. That's my dream. I feel like you might.

[Drew]

We have a factory.

[Inya]

I mean, we just had toys made

[NOCD Therapist / Narrator]

for the first time.

[Eli]

Well, that's what I'm saying. Like, the toys are so good. Like, can you get into the business?

[Drew]

We'll get you a pair.

[Eli]

Really? Don't play.

[Drew]

We're like. I was hoping we would have had, like, our box sent to us by now, so we. Because we want to give them to, like, guests, but we'll. We'll figure out a way to get it to you.

[Eli]

Can we hang out, like, outside of, like. Yeah.

[Inya]

What the.

[Drew]

I see your close friend story, and I literally, like, show it in.

[Eli]

You know, fully put you guys on the close friends. The minute you came to, I was like, I. I'm not. I swear. I know I give this. But I'm not that bitch who, like, puts everyone on their close friends. No.

[Drew]

I was so flattered. Like, I was so flattered. And I kept showing in. Yeah. I was like, oh, she's a vibe. Like, she's a key.

[Eli]

I have a profound urge.

[Inya]

Wait, what was the situation with all the things pressed up against the door? What happened?

[Drew]

Explain.

[Ryan Seacrest]

It was.

[Eli]

It was really bad.

[Inya]

Are you okay?

[Eli]

I'm okay now. I'm, like, processing it. But, like, let me tell you, the real. The real deal was I moved into a new house while doing the one woman show, which was really stressful.

[Drew]

Wait, that's insane.

[Eli]

Because it was bad.

[Inya]

Is one of the most stressful events.

[Eli]

Oh, my God. Doing the. That's why I was kind of like, did you know you guys didn't come to the second one, right? Okay, so then that was the peak breakdown. Like, Olivia Rodrigo was in the corner, and I was like, I cannot believe this woman wanted to come to my. I didn't ask her to go. She. And wait.

[Kai]

That's.

[Drew]

I. I was curious. That's sick.

[Eli]

Bradley. No, I'm just like, they're the fact, like, I admire her as a songwriter so much and like, it was so scary. Like, I think just like, loving music. Knowing someone who mu. Like, I don't know, it was just like, made me so nervous and that like, triggered the, like, peak breakdown post. Like, moving really stressed out, really, like, like super broke. But like, like, thinking.

[NOCD Therapist / Narrator]

Thinking.

[Eli]

I like. Okay, anyways, this is not important.

[Drew]

No, it is. I'm. I'm genuinely so curious.

[Eli]

Well, I just think, like, being an artist at a major label where everybody is, like, getting a fixed salary and like, has healthcare and is like, there's like 15 lovely, sweet people and sometimes like, really like, having a key with me and like, kind of just like grew up on Stan Twitter. There's a lot of, like, Stan Twitter kids who then become, like, working at a label.

[Drew]

Like a.

[Eli]

Those are my divas.

[Drew]

Like, we have fun.

[Inya]

I love to see I have a job. I. I only have jobs because of that. Like, I literally, like, thank God. Like, the casting directors who hire me are always just like, I've loved you. I've seen online for a long time.

[Eli]

It's a good little. It's a good. And they're not the problem. But the problem is like, this. The system in place is like, I signed a deal like three years ago and like, I. The advance I was giving is gone. Like, I've used it all, like, dwindling. I'm not making any money, but like, I'm like Demi Lovato. Like, please, you came to my show. Like, can you please, like, cash at me? Like, $1,000. Like, I know that glam you did for my show cost a lot. Like, could I have some of it? Or like, they. This was like, so tea.

[Drew]

Actually, mine in Inya's glam was like 15 grand.

[Inya]

Yeah. And we went two nights.

[Eli]

You guys, like, sickening.

[Drew]

Yeah, thank you.

[Eli]

Fresh face, right?

[Drew]

Exactly.

[Eli]

But yeah, the. The thing about the thing on my wal. Maintenance guy like, wanted to me and I was living at first because I was like, this is fantasy. Like, this is.

[Drew]

I was gonna ask you about that.

[Eli]

Yeah. So this is like, validating my newly found acceptance in myself and my transness and my like, femininity because I like, started medically transitioning like seven months ago and I'm giving this. I mean, you are. I think I'm intersex because I think I've always been.

[Drew]

I mean, period.

[Kai]

Yeah.

[Eli]

I just know.

[Inya]

I think I'm not kidd. I cuz when I found you online, I.

[Eli]

You thought I was cis.

[Inya]

I.

[Drew]

No, I. Unironically.

[Inya]

I literally did.

[Drew]

Dead serious.

[Inya]

I just, like, I found you. I didn't realize until, I think you made a TikTok where you had mentioned it. And then I was like, I can't tell if she's being serious or if she's just, like, a lesbian or something. Like, I couldn't tell. And then Drew was like, oh, my gosh. When I started talking about you to Drew because we would, like, talk about your meeting music, Drew was like, oh, my God, I recognize her. And then I was like, from what? Like, what the. And then period. And the beauty is I haven't because I. I wasn't a part of that side of the Internet too. It's like the same thing with, like, Lindsay Lohan and stuff. Like, when you said O2L just now, I had to remind myself that it wasn't YouTube, that O2L was, like, that side of the YouTube. But I. I had no connection to it. I, like, didn't keep up with any of them or any of that. That was, like, very white business online, and I stayed out of it.

[Eli]

Right.

[Inya]

Right. But, yeah. You are gorgeous. Like what?

[Eli]

Like, you're gorgeous.

[Drew]

Stun. Stun.

[Eli]

What are you doing later?

[Inya]

Oh, you know.

[Eli]

What are you doing?

[Inya]

I'm going to the Hannah Montana. The 20th.

[Eli]

The 20th. We actually. Are you.

[Inya]

No, I'm not.

[Drew]

Where is it?

[NOCD Therapist / Narrator]

I don't know.

[Eli]

I'm not invited either. They were literally figure out how to get there. I don't know where it is.

[Inya]

You're like, I'm just going.

[Eli]

I'm just breaking down. Breaking down boundaries, barriers. I'm just walking into the building and saying, I want to make cursory. I know that's not fun, but I love that.

[Inya]

I mean, you act. I love her. I will always.

[Drew]

I love her.

[Inya]

Story, to me, is so real.

[Eli]

It's classic. It's classic. It can never get old. But I hate. I think c. Slay. Yeah. Oh, sorry. You texted me Y. But, like, I'm like. And I know it's probably. There's probably layers. There's so many layers. No irony. I believe it. I understand irony. Everything but, like, yas

[Drew]

layers there. But thank you for calling me out, because I will literally never use it.

[Eli]

I think you need to not use it with me because it just, like. It's like, what I hate.

[Drew]

You didn't text me back for four days after I said yes.

[Eli]

I did it. I was processing. I was not happy. But what I don't, like, also. Did you ever do the, like, one with the exclamation People do like exclamations

[Drew]

with ones and they accidentally typoed the. The. They let up on the shift key or whatever. That was about me.

[Eli]

I ne. That really made me. I also want T R U that you say what?

[Drew]

Yummers.

[Inya]

Oh, I like that.

[Drew]

Yummers.

[Inya]

That's so cute.

[Eli]

Yummers. I'm taking that.

[Drew]

Let's go get some food. Yummers.

[Eli]

So my maintenance guy tried to kill me.

[Drew]

Oh my God.

[Inya]

I would love to know what you're listening to or liking.

[Eli]

I've been on like a big Toni Braxton kick.

[Inya]

Oh, okay.

[Kai]

That's a lot.

[Eli]

Yes. Like I was playing Tony this whole way over. Like I live for like the era where I like there's like 2014, 2015 where it's like the production is so bad and like the snares suck and like everything is just like kind of bad. But she's. Her vocals are still like just.

[Inya]

She's still Tony.

[Eli]

She is Tony. And so there's something that feels very aspirational and like inspiring to me about listening to that because I'm like, okay. Like you can. I don't know, it just feels like a nice juxtaposition that I'm like, ugh. Love. Yeah, I love. Yeah, I love like a amazing vocalist over like a horrible beat.

[Inya]

Like I feel like also maybe. Cuz I assume based on like especially the music you make, you have like a deep love for like 80s. Like end of 80s. Specifically like R and B and like that like weird. Like really. Or maybe it was like early 80s whenever they were like electronic synths. Let's go crazy. So you'll be listening to the greatest Janet song of all time. And then they're like. And let's go. Like the worst production ever. And the thing. But it kind of works. It's like Janet on the back. Like.

[Eli]

Like Tony is like a similar. Thank you music crew.

[Inya]

Tony is a similar thing of like just these great vocalists who. They already have discogs with some of the greatest songs ever. That's.

[Eli]

Yeah. Oh yeah. 100 so it.

[Inya]

Yeah. I could see that. I want to listen. I haven't listened to like any of that era of song.

[Eli]

You should. It's. There's actually some really good ones. Like one of my favorite songs is from. Is from that era. One of my favorite Tony songs is. Is in that era. It's like actually so good. I'll send you.

[Inya]

Yeah, please do.

[Eli]

So that's what I'm living for.

[Drew]

Any movies you've seen recently that are like, do you get down with movie and tv.

[Eli]

I keep remembering, like, oh, my God, movies are everything. Like, letterbox is so fun. I. I mean, like, do I give, like, a real answer? Do I give a pretentious answer?

[Inya]

You can give, literally, if, like, you think of the dumbest movie ever. Because I'm media is really dumb. Like, I've been rewatching the 90s episodes of Pink Panther, and I. And I've just been listening to that, but I'm not even watching. I'm doing stuff while listening to it. I'm like, jim Carrey wouldn't exist if this didn't exist. That's what, like, that's type.

[Eli]

You're writing the essay.

[Inya]

Yeah, I'm literally.

[NOCD Therapist / Narrator]

I'm not kidding.

[Inya]

I'm like, oh, my God. The inflections on, like, Mike or whatever his name is. Voice.

[Eli]

Yeah, that's t. Wait, another thing that happened in my, like, Adderall psychosis was I really was obsessed with the movie Big Eyes, which.

[Inya]

Haven't seen that.

[Drew]

Is it Big Fish?

[Eli]

Big Fish. Tim Burton, I think Tim Burton. I think it might be a Tim Burton.

[Drew]

Wait, I have to see this. Hold on.

[Eli]

It's the. The amazing female painter.

[Inya]

I haven't seen this.

[Eli]

Made all these, like. It's like a real. Based on a real story. And, like, her husband, like, fully, like, took. Took the paintings and ran with it and, like, really fucked her over and was, like, super abusive. And it's. It's a crazy. Crazy. I mean, it's, like, dramatic. Dramatic.

[Inya]

I need to watch this.

[NOCD Therapist / Narrator]

This is one of Rain's favorite artists, the Margaret Keon.

[Eli]

I love the art. I walked past, like, one of the showings of that. Of those paintings, and they're so beautiful. There's a story in the eyes.

[NOCD Therapist / Narrator]

It's also.

[Inya]

No moments like that. I mean, assuming it's one of your, like, hyper fiction.

[Drew]

I do know these paintings.

[Inya]

Thank you so much.

[Drew]

Thank you for coming on.

[Inya]

Well, no, thank you for having me having a swish.

[Drew]

I am literally, unironically, like, a fan of you.

[Eli]

Unironically. I'm a fan. So it means a lot. It means so much that you guys came to the show. Like, it's like, you guys are geniuses. I love your minds. Like, anytime you have crossed my pages, I'm. I'm so. Also, your music taste, like, I'm, like, parasocial. So, like, oh, thank you. Yeah.

[Inya]

Literally, again, we can go back and forth, like, forever. Different tap. But that's how we felt about you. Like, everything you make like you're A great vocalist. You're a really, like, great writer.

[Drew]

Glitter.

[Inya]

I'm not kidding. Going to your show twice, I was like, damn. All I could think is, one, this person is just going to be, like, a huge star. Like, there's no denying that.

[Eli]

And then two, I'll lose my humanity if I do.

[Drew]

No, but, like, in a chic way, I do.

[Eli]

Oh, really?

[Drew]

Yeah, I think in, like, a chic way.

[Inya]

Can we, like.

[Eli]

Can we, like, go to, like, the Mal Deep dives?

[Drew]

Yeah.

[Eli]

Can we, like, go to Bali or something?

[Inya]

Yeah, the mall dives. The mall chives. No, I think you will.

[Eli]

On vacation. You think I will. Tell me.

[Inya]

Oh, I. I think you will in the. In the Addison Ray sense of it all. Does that make sense?

[Eli]

Can I do the apology?

[Drew]

Oh, yes, yes. I'm sorry. Yes, please, please, please.

[Eli]

Addison Rae, can I talk to camera?

[Inya]

Yeah.

[Eli]

Yeah.

[Drew]

I mean, we're not.

[Eli]

Addison. Dear Addison. Dearest Addison. I was in. Okay, this is. Let me just, like, try to make this a short story. I was in peak, like, finally being myself, like, seven months, eight months ago. I was like, let me let my hair down. Like, let me, like, go to a doctor and be like, what are these feelings? You know, like, for the first, like, so like, literally just like, when you're repressed for. When you're repressed for like 23 years of your life, and then like finally or 20 or something years of your. Finally, you just, like, let it out, let it shine it. I was in honeymoon state with myself and I was just shooting the shit. Like, I was just non stop posting creative mode Instagram stories, like, saying the craziest things because I just was, like, having so much fun and I knew I looked crazy and everybody was like, oh, she's manic. Like, get her help. But I wasn't like, I was just like, this is so fun. And like, finally just I'm, like, letting myself speak, letting myself cook. Beautiful, right? Yeah. Okay. And that's my sob story. And that's the context to why I thought it was funny to just kind of like,

[Inya]

just like, send like, journal entries of like, like paragraphs of like.

[Eli]

Of, like, Addison, like, as I eat my salmon bowl from Goop and I picture. And I picture our mom moment of warm and bra. Like, I was just really, like, I thought yourself. I was feeling myself. And like, I just. I heard that. That energy in her music. I heard that freedom of expression.

[Inya]

And I. I fully agree. I literally have a. And I got so much for this because the Lord album and the Addison album, like, kind of had a moment where they were, like, overlapping. And I have the craziest, like, blog post on because I use my YouTube channel like a blog now. And I went on a crazy tangent about how I was. Like, both of these albums really satiate the, like, what it means to be a woman. And there's. There's two sides to it. Like, literally, it is really real.

[Eli]

It's such a vessel.

[Inya]

It's like a.

[Eli]

It's from the. The other side of the simulation. Like, she is pure happiness. She is a demi God sent from another realm to usher in the age of Aquarius. And I'll set it once and I'll say it again. She is the feminine. Like, she is the feminine realm.

[NOCD Therapist / Narrator]

And it's.

[Eli]

It's, like, actually so rare that. That project of three fucking amazing women making.

[Inya]

I know. Yeah.

[Eli]

Music like, that's. That's, like, pioneer shit, kind of like.

[Inya]

No, I mean, Pink Panthers just was the first woman.

[Eli]

Give it up for Pink Producer.

[Inya]

That's crazy.

[Eli]

Why does it sound fresh? And why does it sound vis. Visionary and why? Why? Because it's.

[Inya]

Fuck, yeah.

[Eli]

Oh, it's just so basically, I just, like, was. I'm sorry, Addison, like, if I made you uncomfortable. You don't have to put this in. But, Addison, if I made you uncomfortable by sending you a lot of paragraphs one time, it would just be this thing where I thought we had, like, this ongoing bit where she wasn't really responding. It started with. It started with.

[Drew]

I was like, did she ever respond?

[Eli]

She did. So it started with. I posted this journal entry on my Create. Is it Create mode or Create mode?

[Inya]

Yeah, Create mode.

[Eli]

Create mode. I was like, really in the. Like, oh, these are my. This is my journal. And, like, how profound I am to, like, let people in and, like, really just unfiltered, you know?

[Drew]

Love it.

[Inya]

I fuck with that.

[Drew]

I mean, that's India on YouTube right now, dude.

[Eli]

It's so fire. And also, there's something. There's a switch when you see the colors and you start to. It's like. You can say you're like, just ate a salad and it looks like the funniest thing.

[Drew]

It's so profound. It's so beautiful.

[Eli]

It's so beautiful. Modern art, like, it's like, there needs to be. What? What? Anyways, there needs to be, like, a art showing of, like, create mode, whatever. Um, Addison, I like, post. I just was like, pass me the torch. Like, I know Charlie. Like, like, what Charlie did for you. Like, I'm the next. Like, it was like, a Whole thing. I was, like. Made a whole pitch. I had, like, a good argument. I used, like, my, like, sat. I remember, like, what? The argument. How to, like, frame an argument.

[Drew]

How to structure.

[Eli]

No. And she responds. She was like, you are so sweet. I like, thank you for this. You're. You're going to be amazing. Like, you're such a star. Like, she was so nice.

[Drew]

Yeah.

[Eli]

And then she was like, it's not gonna happen. Like, you're not opening for me. Like, I did not. Like, like, we're not having an opener, babe. Like, love you. And then I would just be like, okay, but, like, hey, listen to this loop pedal, like, version I made of my song. Like, I actually think this would be real. Like, I was, like, ready to be on her stage on the last tour and, like, crystal balls, like, put on, like, a whole show sound bath. I, like. And then she did a sound bath, and I was like, okay. It's also. She's a Libra. I think there's a collective consciousness there.

[Inya]

Okay.

[Eli]

Oh, no, I'm not helping my case. I'm not helping my case.

[Inya]

I mean, you're talking. I literally.

[Eli]

I also fully saw her at all time, and she hit herself. She was like.

[Kai]

She hit.

[Eli]

She was like. Because I think.

[Inya]

I thought you said she hit herself. I was like, damn, she was having a bad day.

[Eli]

No, I think she was hiding from me. I think I took it way too far. And I thought, like, oh, like, she gets it. Like, I'm not actually this crazy. I'm just like. I'm like, it's like a funny online

[Drew]

Persona that, to me, Flo's date Flo, genuinely.

[Inya]

I mean, I.

[Eli]

Are you guys scared?

[Drew]

Saw her do what?

[Eli]

Are you scared me now?

[Drew]

Absolutely not. I literally just wait till you hear about our troll moments that we've talked about extensively on here. One time, like, not calling yours a troll moment, but one time.

[Eli]

There's an element of troll. Yeah, it's like, it's fun and it's like. It's also, like. I don't know. I just think she gets it.

[Drew]

Yeah, she gets it.

[NOCD Therapist / Narrator]

I think she does. She does.

[Drew]

She gets it. But we, like, made a fake fan account for my twin sister on. On Twitter and then took it way too far and acted like we were invading, so. Been taking it too hard.

[Inya]

Yeah, we've taken jokes too far.

[Drew]

We're crazy.

[Eli]

You see? You see the.

[Inya]

I see the vegetable. I mean, I am blocked by Drake's dad because I used to spam tweet him in the middle of the night. And I wasn't saying anything nice. I was being really mean. Like, I would be like, go to sleep, you old fucking fart.

[Drew]

I got a block.

[Inya]

But I'd be like, oh, my God, you whack ass motherfuckers. Stop trying to write on your son's fame, go to bed.

[Eli]

And what? Honestly.

[Drew]

And let's talk about it. I got blocked by Rainy Rodriguez because I reposted this photo of me and her where it says, I'm, He's, I'm. She's like. And would tag her in it like, 100 times until she blocked me. I'm hers. I'm. She's. I'm.

[Inya]

She's literally amazing. Okay, well, I think Addison knows you're joking. I think it's funny, and I think it's a vibe. Also, I know. I love a pitch. Hey, yeah.

[Eli]

You know, also, like. Like, what I was saying about the money thing. And, like, being at a label like this has felt like life or death in the last six months. Like, that's also.

[Drew]

I mean, it. You're hungry. It's working.

[Eli]

Hungry and it's working. I feel hungry. And also, like, I'm gonna live loud and proud and every day, like, I'm gonna pitch myself, you know? I mean, you definitely pitch yourself. Okay. Once again, I know there's gonna be another tour, Addison. And I think, like, having somebody who, you know, self produced, you know, sell, you know, just, like, I feel like I'm also, you know, in this.

[Inya]

Wait, did you produce your.

[Eli]

Most of it, not all of it.

[Inya]

That's still insane.

[Eli]

My best ones. My best ones are just me good. No shade good. I'm not. I don't have an ego. I just have a need to succeed. Succeed. And, you know, also, I really do. If. If I do make it, I'm putting it here now. If I do make it, I'm not gonna take the money. Like, I'm. I swear, the money. We're gonna funnel it back into the community. The queer community is gonna rise up, guys. Like, if I was traveling right now, I'd be, like, giving.

[Drew]

Dishing it out.

[Eli]

I actually think it needs to because they're funneling my business. And then, like, we should. Maybe that's like a pyramid scheme.

[Drew]

And what about it? The gays get in a pyramid scheme. Let's talk about it, okay?

[Inya]

Everyone deserves to be involved in a pyramid scheme. At least some at one point. No, but, I mean, I do fully agree with you. I think that's why, like, me and Drew are people who've always, like, Worked with our friends because like, that really is the core of it is like building out a community of people who. And if you're lucky, you get to collect artists who aren't all white.

[NOCD Therapist / Narrator]

Your whole.

[Inya]

All your whole creative career shouldn't be white. Because then I'd argue, what are you making? But whatever. That's a different thing. But like, it's nice to build out a community of people around you who you just like, believe in. And in that way you start to like slowly build that idea up, if that makes sense. It's kind of like how we're saying like a lot of like Stan cold culture like people or who are working as like a RS and in these systems now. And like, I feel like even through that I know of friends who work in the music industry who. It's like they all came from that and they like were putting their friends are so slowly but surely. Slowly but surely the takeover is happening. I see it. I see it.

[Drew]

Blue wave, baby.

[Inya]

Blue wave.

[Drew]

The rainbow wave.

[Inya]

Rainbow wave.

[Eli]

Well, they're scared of us.

[Drew]

Exactly. I mean, actually though, actually, yeah. But do you want to pitch or like, put anything on that you're doing? I know you're gonna go on tour soon.

[Eli]

I am going on tour. If anyone wants to pull up. There's like four, like a bunch of them sold out. But there's these like, there's four of them where like, nobody's coming.

[Drew]

Been there. Like, been there.

[Eli]

Philly. I'm about to eat a fat fucking Philly cheesecake online stage.

[Inya]

Like you.

[Eli]

30% tickets sold. That's.

[Inya]

Y' all go.

[Drew]

Seriously, I'm not kidding.

[Eli]

It is actually special fucking that I

[Inya]

push going to someone's concert. Please go. It's so good because, like, especially. And again, I just say this not to compare and I'm not saying names but like, we really are living through an era. I understand your frustration because we are living through an era of like, it used to be shameful to like chase a career as an artist and now it is shameful to not do that and to not like, be in the creative world. So now there's an overload of people and they really are almost deteriorating the standard of what it feels like to go to a good concert and your concert is one of those things that I would say, like, if you go to Eli's concert, you will. Then it's actually going to suck for you cuz then you're going to have like a higher standard and then you're going to go to another concert and be like, oh, so they let anybody do this? I didn't realize.

[Eli]

Oh my God. But yeah.

[Inya]

Thank you so much for being on.

[Eli]

Thank you for having me. I love you guys.

[Drew]

Love you, loving you.

[Inya]

Go listen to Eli stage girl.

[Eli]

Hey.

[Drew]

Going band for band.

[Eli]

Ha.

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