Podcast
Figuring Sh!t Out
Hosted by Vanessa Fontana · EN
This show is a living archive of becoming.
It’s an ode to awakening, remembering, and reclaiming your creative power in a chaotic, ever-shifting world.
Hosted by Vanessa Fontana - a 25-year-old writer living in New York City - it explores what it means to live in the in-between of not having it all figured out but not needing to in order to live well.
Bridging esoteric wisdom, philosophy, literature & lore, healing, empowerment, and humor, this podcast is your companion to navigate the complexities of adulthood and live more authentically.
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132. Creating Without Validation? Horrifying. Necessary. Life-Changing.
6d ago00:28:23Tap to summarize"If no one sees your art, it is still revolution. You freed yourself, did you not?" - Jayla John In this episode, we talk about how creativity could heal you - if you just let it. And how to let it. And if you need a little more help, JOIN METAMORPHOSIS AS A FOUNDING MEMBER HERE (LIMITED - CLOSES ON MAY 15TH.)DOORS OPEN 5.15.10 DAY CREATIVE AWAKENING & INNER CHILD JOURNEY STARTING 5.18.Metamorphosis is a community-centered membership for creative awakening & self-expression. It's a space to nurture your inner artist & inner child + transform from the inside out.Inside, you’ll have access to:10 day Creative Awakening & Inner Child Healing Journey in Community [Starting 5/18]Weekly live sessions (Artist’s Hours + Shadow-Workshops) (Also recorded)A growing library of meditations, practices, and resources (& Monthly Themes)A private community space for connection, expression, and collaboration25% off future retreats + Free in-person NYC workshops--LEAVE A COMMENT & let me know WHAT this episode provoked in you, what questions you have (bc tbh I may also be having them), what you want to hear next, and how Figuring Sh!t Out has impacted your life.Socials:IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountaininquiries: contactbutterflyfountain@gmail.comAdvertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy
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131. Being SEEN? Perceived???? OH! The Terror! (how to get tf over it)
2w ago00:41:51Tap to summarizelet your tenderness speak, let it lead you into darkness, and let your darkness lead you into light. --LEARN MORE ABOUT METAMORPHOSIS & JOIN AS A FOUNDING MEMBER HERE (LIMITED - BEFORE MAY 15TH)DOORS OPEN 5.15.10 DAY CREATIVE AWAKENING & INNER CHILD JOURNEY STARTING 5.18.Metamorphosis is a community-centered membership for creative awakening & self-expression. It's a space to nurture your inner artist & inner child + transform from the inside out.Inside, you’ll have access to:10 day Creative Awakening & Inner Child Healing Journey in Community [Starting 5/18]Weekly live sessions (Artist’s Hours + Shadow-Workshops)A growing library of meditations, practices, and resources (& Monthly Themes)A private community space for connection, expression, and collaboration25% off future retreats + Free in-person NYC workshops--LEAVE A COMMENT & let me know WHAT this episode provoked in you, what questions you have (bc tbh I may also be having them), what you want to hear next, and how Figuring Sh!t Out has impacted your life.Socials:IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountaininquiries: contactbutterflyfountain@gmail.comAdvertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy
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130. Waiting. Yearning. Chasing. You're MISSING The Point™
3w ago00:40:08Tap to summarizeMy darling, I have news for you. You are here to feel safe enough, trusting enough - to pause, land, and unravel your very existence at the feet of something loving.And if you are, (like too many of us are) living a frantic, disordered life, one that feels like you’re chasing a plot that never comes - If you are clogging your heart with unwarranted worries - If you are unknowingly caught in the hamster wheel of more, more, more - Stop right there.Have you noticed lately: The sky? The tulips? The daffodils? The wind? Have you listened to Figuring Sh!t Out on a good ol' day while strolling softly?Let these things ground you down and bring you back.I love you.--JOIN METAMORPHOSIS: Founding members are being invited first! DM me ‘METAMORPHOSIS’ for early access and the sign-up link.10 DAY CREATIVE AWAKENING & INNER CHILD JOURNEY STARTING MAY 18TH. SIGN UP FOR THE METAMORPHOSIS WAITLIST HERE for updates.Metamorphosis is a community-centered membership for creative awakening & self-expression. It's a space to nurture your inner artist & inner child + transform from the inside out.Inside, you’ll have access to:10 day Creative Awakening & Inner Child Healing Journey in Community [Starting 5/18]Weekly live sessions (Artist’s Hours + Shadow-Workshops)A growing library of meditations, practices, and resources (& Monthly Themes)A private community space for connection, expression, and collaboration25% off future retreats + Free in-person NYC workshops-- LEAVE A COMMENT & let me know WHAT this episode provoked in you, what questions you have (bc tbh I may also be having them), what you want to hear next, and how Figuring Sh!t Out has impacted your life.Socials:IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountaiAdvertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy
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129. Your Self-Doubt Is None of Your Business
4w ago00:29:23Tap to summarizeHow to hear the call of your divine assignment & listening to your Sacred Marching Orders - beyond what the inner critic has to say.SIGN UP FOR THE METAMORPHOSIS WAITLIST HERE.LEAVE A COMMENT & let me know WHAT this episode provoked in you, what questions you have (bc tbh I may also be having them), what you want to hear next, and how Figuring Sh!t Out has impacted your life.Socials:IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountaiI LOVE YOU!!Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy
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128. This is What Happens When You Face Your Fears & Follow Your Dreams
Apr 1100:46:27Tap to summarizeThis episode is your reminder that there is a future version of you who is thanking you deeply for doing it scared.This episode is proof that the first step is always the courage to admit. This episode is proof that you WILL figure it out, even if you have no f*cking clue how. How do I know?Three years ago, I started this show in my bedroom while working full time in Corporate America.Two years ago, the night before I ran my first marathon, I recorded this episode - breaking through a shaky voice to utter the words, "I want to do this full time."One year ago, I was 6 months out of quitting my job to Figure Sh!t Out full time.And today, I can confidently say that I know that I am where I'm meant to be. And that Figuring Sh!t Out along the way is part of the damn process.I did it scared. I am DOING it scared. And this episode is a sign that You can too.Thank you. Thank you.Thank you.----SIGN UP FOR THE METAMORPHOSIS WAITLIST HERE.The best way to show love to this show????LEAVE A COMMENT! ENGAGE! Interact!! Say hi!! let me know how FSO has impacted your life!! Rate the podcast 5 stars, follow it, and share with a friend.I LOVE YOU!!STAY CONNECTED:IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain Yana's MusicIGAdvertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy
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127. Give it UP: Receiving Freedom From Doubt, Worry, & Fear
Apr 500:32:00Tap to summarize"I believe that your highest path lives in the hands of a greater knowing. And the cure to all of your anxieties lies in that subtle desire to reach for these hands when you know you need them most. But what if I told you - that you actually need them all the time? And that they’ve been silently guiding your steps - here, in this moment, to receive these words, so that you can see that you are being given help, direction, grace, guidance - if you just ask for it.So many of us WANT help. We NEED help. But we won’t ask for it. We don’t know how. We don’t know that we can. And the truth is: many of us won't humble ourselves for a mere moment, removing the idea that it’s all up to us, in order to receive it. We are committed to our helplessness, our hopelessness, our story that it’s all us to us - because that means we get to stay in control, even if it means we’re miserable.If there is a small seed of belief in you already, water it with intention. Thank it for existing. And if you worry that it will not grow, that it does not exist - pray for clarity of vision to see it sprout right in front of your eyes, and open yourself to receive it.And I can nearly guarantee - that you will receive that and so much more." - An excerpt from my essay written for this episode This discussion is about the absolute emotional alchemy that occurs when you lean on the power of prayer & give your worries, doubts, and fears up to something much larger, greater, and more knowing than you could ever be. I share how my spiritual journey is changing day by day and what practices and tools I'm leaning on - and how to begin implementing these tools of purification and surrender in your life.---SIGN UP FOR THE METAMORPHOSIS WAITLIST HERE.The best way to show love to this show???? LEAVE A COMMENT! ENGAGE! Interact!! Say hi!! let me know how FSO has impacted your life!! rate the podcast 5 stars, follow it, and share with a friend. I LOVE YOU!!STAY CONNECTED:IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain If you liked this episode, you'll like these, too:The veil is dropping, God is Real Surrender the Clenched Hand of ControlAdvertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy
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126. Your Ideas are BLESSINGS: The Divine Unraveling Inside of the Creative Process
Mar 2900:27:51Tap to summarizeThis episode is being posted live from a jungle in Costa Rica two days after hosting my first retreat. 15 women expressing their most true selves, accessing their inner child, creating art from the depths of their hearts - all because I had an idea for a podcast almost three years ago and decided to act on it.If that's not evidence that your ideas are blessings that must be honored, respected, and listened to - I don't know what is.In this episode, we talk about the divine workings inside of the creative process - from conception, to discovery, to creation.If you know you have more inside of you waiting to emerge and blossom and be let free, if you're scared to be bad in order to be good, if you're scared to be seen but crave to be known -- this episode is the reminder you need to tap into the flow that wants to call you forward.--SIGN UP FOR THE METAMORPHOSIS WAITLIST HERE.The best way to show love to this show???? LEAVE A COMMENT! ENGAGE! Interact!! Say hi!! let me know how FSO has impacted your life!! rate the podcast 5 stars, follow it, and share with a friend. I LOVE YOU!!STAY CONNECTED: IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain If you liked this episode, you'll like these, too:Stop sleeping on your potentialThe Good Idea FairyAdvertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy
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125. Everything You Want Is On the Other Side of Your Creativity
Mar 2100:25:47Tap to summarizeCreativity & self-expression is how you heal.This episode is about excavating your creativity - using your life and experiences as a devoted practice to the creative process and your art as an offering and symbol of your resilience.And on the other side - a powerful, potent, peaceful you emerges.SIGN UP FOR THE METAMORPHOSIS WAITLIST. LEAVE A COMMENT & let me know WHAT this episode provoked in you, what questions you have (bc tbh I may also be having them), what you want to hear next, and how Figuring Sh!t Out has impacted your life.Socials:IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy
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124. The Gift of Enduring
Mar 1400:37:26Tap to summarizeWho told us that we were not supposed to hurt - when to feel is our greatest gift? Who told us that we could have ease - without a little grit?This episode takes you on a journey discussing The Purification Process of the Dark Night of the Soul & the GIFT of enduring the transformation within it.(Spoiler: You Can Do Hard Things & in fact, you were made to.)After all, the darkest hour is right before dawn.----!! SIGN UP FOR THE METAMORPHOSIS WAITLIST.--LEAVE A COMMENT & let me know WHAT this episode provoked in you, what questions you have (bc tbh I may also be having them), what you want to hear next, and how Figuring Sh!t Out has impacted your life.Socials:IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy
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123. The Veil is Dropping: God is Real
Mar 700:52:06Tap to summarizeHonest admittance: I'm a little scared to publish this episode. But what would Figuring Sh!t Out be if it wasn't a testament to overcoming fear, time and time again, by getting as deeply honest as possible and sharing truths from this raw and reflective place?This is Figuring Sh!t Out - in real time.This episode is an existential conversation about God, Existence, and using our critical thinking and discernment when approaching spirituality. (From a girl who has not, up until recently, used a lot of discernment when approaching spirituality.) It is a journey reflecting upon my own - and one that I simply ask you allow to let you question, let you think, let you feel your own inner judgements as they arise, let you wonder about the beliefs you're married to, and reflectively ask: is this my own?Topics covered in this episode: reflections from turning 26: how almost dying at birth gave way to a sentimental thought-daughter with lots of existential questionsi am reading the bible?? for the first time?? ever?? (and tbh i would recommend and if you're immediately like "no," yes that was me too up until last week. lowkey profound.)getting out of the way to receive (including putting your ego aside) and how this connects us to artistry + Godcritically thinking: spirituality / new age as a trend (that i have also fallen into) and why it's not the whole story impure vs pure actions / intentions and how that impacts the quality of the information we receive surrendering: we were never meant to do it all alonediscernmentGod as The Judge vs God as Love: getting curious, seeing beyond religious dogmashattering your own illusions as a ragebait for your inner evolution & growth the fallibility of self-help / development content: you do not have to (and were never meant to) do it all on your ownthe fallibility of our flesh & bone - the necessity of humility & respect how this all helps you do hard things God vs The UniverseThank you for being on this journey with me. LEAVE A COMMENT & let me know WHAT this episode provoked in you, what questions you have (bc tbh I may also be having them), what you want to hear next, and how Figuring Sh!t Out has impacted your life. Don't forget to rate the podcast on your preferred streaming platform!! <3Resources:Episode with my sister.Sign up for the mailing list <3! (you get a free energy protection meditation when you sign up)Socials:IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy
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