Ketamine Queen w/ Farrah Abraham | First Date with Lauren Compton

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Podcast Summary: "Ketamine Queen w/ Farrah Abraham | First Date with Lauren Compton"

Episode Details:

• Title: Ketamine Queen w/ Farrah Abraham
• Podcast: First Date with Lauren Compton
• Host/Author: YMH Studios
• Release Date: July 8, 2025

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1. Introduction to Farrah Abraham

The episode opens with Lauren Compton welcoming Farrah Abraham, highlighting her multifaceted career as an MTV icon, teen mom, New York Times bestselling author, and a three-time AVIAN Award winner.

[00:18] Lauren (A): "My guest today is an MTV icon, a teen mom, OG, A New York Times bestselling author, and a three time avian winner. Give it up for Farrah Abraham."

Farrah greets Lauren warmly, emphasizing her excitement for the first date format of the show.

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2. Farrah’s Background and Personal Life

Farrah shares her roots and current residence, providing listeners with a glimpse into her personal life.

• Hometown and Current Residence:

  [00:38] Farrah (B): "Where am I from originally? OG status? Iowa."

  [01:03] B: "Austin, Texas, baby."

• Duration in Austin:

  Farrah has been intermittently living in Austin for over 13 years, a realization that recently dawned on her.

  [01:06] B: "Oh, shoot. I think it's been going on 13 years now, off and on, and I didn't realize that till lately."

• Pet Companions:

  She mentions her mini horse, a 13-year-old, which serves as a reminder of her time and experiences in Texas.

  [01:15] B: "I have a mini horse... so it's like I got the horse and I come and go see her and it reminds me of like, how old and how long we've been in Texas."

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3. Relationship Status and Reflections

Farrah discusses her current single status, attributing her contentment to personal growth and the joy of raising her daughter.

• Embracing Singleness:

  [02:00] B: "Turned 34 and I am feeling just amazing. I feel like it's meant to be that I'm single."

• Birthday Celebration:

  Farrah celebrated her recent birthday with a cruise organized by her daughter, highlighting their bond and her appreciation for quality time together.

  [02:39] B: "My daughter chose to go on a cruise. So. Icon of the Seas is like a sports club on the ocean."

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4. Insights on Relationships and Dating Preferences

Farrah delves into her approach to dating, influenced by past traumas and a desire for meaningful connections.

• Scarcity of Long-Term Relationships:

  [03:09] B: "Probably not, to be honest with you. I mean, I can count my relationships."

• Qualities She Seeks in a Partner:

  Farrah emphasizes the importance of spirituality and financial support, seeking partners who can contribute to her personal and professional growth.

  [04:51] B: "It's between spirituality and money."

• Red Flags and Turnoffs:

  • Self-Identified Red Flag: Being "too kind," which can lead to being overly generous and vulnerable.

    [05:07] B: "I am too kind."

  • Biggest Turnoff: Men acting immaturity, worse than teenagers.

    [05:30] B: "The biggest turnoff that a guy can have is when you... act worse than my teenager that I will like about face and eject you from my home."

• Approach to Open Relationships:

  Farrah does not engage in open relationships, valuing her high self-worth and independence.

  [08:09] B: "I don't do those straight up. I don't do an open relationship."

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5. Personal Growth and Trauma Recovery

A significant portion of the discussion revolves around Farrah's journey of self-improvement and healing from past traumas.

• Turning Point Through Trauma Program:

  Participating in a 28-day trauma program in Austin was pivotal for Farrah, helping her redefine her approach to relationships and personal boundaries.

  [18:43] B: "When I went to a 28 day trauma program... I got to see men and women for like 28 days, like kind of find themselves."

• Ketamine Treatments and Health:

  Farrah discusses her experience with ketamine treatments, which she paused due to severe side effects like motion sickness.

  [10:20] B: "I was doing ketamine, but I just like, I've just taken a break from that too."

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6. Family Dynamics and Independence

Farrah touches upon her strained relationship with her family, leading to her prioritizing her well-being and independence.

• Distancing from Family:

  Due to her family's inability to accept her growth and changes, Farrah has chosen to limit interactions and maintain her privacy.

  [36:40] B: "They don't know where I live. Really. They don't."

• Impact on Her Daughter:

  Her daughter has witnessed these changes and admires the new, non-toxic version of her mother.

  [38:21] B: "My daughter just had to witness it, all. She was just like, oh, my God, she can't get enough of her new mom."

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7. Health, Wellness, and Lifestyle Choices

Farrah's commitment to a healthy lifestyle is evident through her sobriety and wellness routines.

• Sobriety:

  She identifies as a "sober queen," having abstained from alcohol to protect herself from public vulnerabilities and abuses.

  [09:23] B: "I'm a sober queen."

• Vices and Addictions:

  Farrah declares that she has no vices, attributing this to her disciplined approach to health and wellness.

  [10:20] B: "I have no addiction. I have no addictive personality."

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8. Future Projects and Ambitions

Looking ahead, Farrah shares her academic pursuits and creative projects, hinting at exciting ventures on the horizon.

• Educational Endeavors:

  Farrah is completing her master's in digital marketing and plans to pursue a JD, integrating her education into her personal brand.

  [28:50] B: "So I'm studying digital marketing for my master's. I'm about to graduate. And then I'm rolling right into my JD."

• Upcoming Media Projects:

  She teases an upcoming Lifetime show centered on women overcoming low self-esteem and its impact on their lives.

  [43:36] B: "There is an amazing show... about women who have gone through a lot... It's going to be on Lifetime."

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9. Reflections and Life Philosophy

Throughout the conversation, Farrah underscores a philosophy of gratitude, resilience, and continuous self-improvement.

• No Regrets:

  Farrah maintains a positive outlook, viewing her life experiences without regrets and focusing on personal growth.

  [39:49] B: "I have no regrets about life in general."

• Daily Practices for Gratitude:

  She shares her nightly routine of inventory-taking to release resentments and foster gratitude.

  [40:03] B: "I just, like, let go of any resentments, confusions, like, anger, getting gratitude."

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10. Closing Thoughts

In the concluding moments, Farrah expresses her appreciation for genuine connections and being truly seen by others.

[41:38] B: "I like when they're so intuitive that they're like, you are a star... I like really being seen, and I like real time together. Yeah, that's a gift."

Lauren wraps up the episode, thanking Farrah for her openness and sharing insights.

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Key Takeaways:

• Personal Empowerment: Farrah emphasizes the importance of self-reliance, setting boundaries, and prioritizing personal growth.
• Authentic Relationships: She seeks depth, spirituality, and mutual support in her relationships, steering clear of superficial connections and manipulative behaviors.
• Health and Wellness: Farrah's commitment to sobriety and mental health showcases her dedication to a balanced and fulfilling life.
• Future-Oriented: With ongoing education and creative projects, Farrah is focused on expanding her influence and contributing positively to society.

This episode offers a candid glimpse into Farrah Abraham's journey of self-discovery, her approach to love and relationships, and her unwavering commitment to personal well-being.

Transcript

[A]

I'm so excited to see you tonight.

[B]

First Date, baby. First date. I can't wait. First date.

[A]

Hello, everybody, and welcome back to another episode of First Date. My guest today is an MTV icon, a teen mom, OG, A New York Times bestselling author, and a three time avian winner. Give it up for Farrah Abram.

[B]

The superstars in the building. How are you doing? Oh, my God. Great.

[A]

Where are you from?

[B]

Where am I from originally? OG status? Iowa.

[A]

Okay.

[B]

Okay.

[A]

Do you ever go back?

[B]

I used to when I wasn't, you know, when I was having like, trauma bonds still. But I am not going back just because I'm breaking those habits. But I love the Midwest. Shout out to Iowa. Shout out to the big O. Nebraska. Miss you.

[A]

Where do you live now?

[B]

Austin, Texas, baby.

[A]

How long have you lived here?

[B]

Oh, shoot. I think it's been going on 13 years now, off and on, and I didn't realize that till lately.

[A]

It, like creeps up on you. Yeah.

[B]

I have a mini horse, like the first year we moved here. What? Yeah. And so she's 13 now. So it's like I got the horse and I come and go see her and it reminds me of like, how old and how long we've been in Texas. So it's really cool.

[A]

That's. I have a dog and she's eight and a half. And that reminds me how long I've been divorced.

[B]

That's nice, too.

[A]

Yeah, that's good. Every time I think about, I'm like, how long has it been? I'm like, well, my dog's 8.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

Almost none.

[B]

Yeah. Kids, pets, they'll remind you of, like, how much time flies.

[A]

Are you dating anybody?

[B]

Oh, my goodness. I'm not dating anyone right now. How does it feel? It feels really good. I actually just had a birthday too.

[A]

When Was your birthday?

[B]

May 31. Gemini season.

[A]

Y', all, happy belated birthday.

[B]

Thank you. I appreciate it. Turned 34 and I am feeling just amazing. I don't know, I feel like it's meant to be that I'm single. I know that might sound weird, but. No, it's meant to be. I feel so amazing. I love like all vacation long while my daughter's with me. I love that every husband was like being scorned at hit dirty looks by their wife or their wifey and it's just funny. So I love that I'm single and I don't have to deal with much.

[A]

What did you do to celebrate your birthday?

[B]

So my daughter chose to go on a cruise. So. Icon of the Seas. Shout out to Icon of the Seas. I normally don't shout out cruises, but Icon of the Seas is like a sports club on the ocean. And, like, it is amazing. It's beautiful. The spa. There's spa whores out there. Wow. It was amazing.

[A]

So have you been in a lot of relationships?

[B]

Probably not, to be honest with you. I mean, I can count my relationships. I think I just have had so much trauma that I actually go spurts. I go long times of, like, being single, but I don't mind it.

[A]

How does it. How does a guy get you to start dating him to be interested? What does it take?

[B]

Yeah, man, I think it's pretty easy. I think. I think it's pretty easy to get a girl, like, hooked on the. Hooked on the fish line, you know, I think just. I'm really looking forward to a man who can, like, teach me things, which is a rarity. I. I can't, because you know what? A lot of my girlfriends have amazing husbands. And so when I see other men literally, like, funding their careers, helping them flourish, taking them to next levels in their career, I think that's what I have missed for 30, 34 years on the planet. And I really, like, had a reconciliation about that. I was like, I am no longer paying for things. I mean, I literally have men who reach out to me and are like, you're a sugar mama. And I think that needed to change. And so I'm like, that door that's down, and I no longer am, like, funding relationships of any sort, either in my family or in dating. Like, it's a big thing that I'm holding myself to right now.

[A]

Yeah. What is the number one thing you're looking for in a relationship?

[B]

I could say a lot of things to this. It's between spirituality and money.

[A]

Those are two very drastically different things, though.

[B]

Yeah. So I. I mean, maybe not one, but two at the same time.

[A]

What's your biggest red flag about yourself?

[B]

I am too kind.

[A]

Like, you're kind of gullible when you're too kind. Like, you're too giving. You're overly generous.

[B]

Yeah. Too giving. I think it's a mom thing.

[A]

Yeah. What is the biggest turnoff that another guy can have?

[B]

Oh, are you ready for this?

[A]

Yes.

[B]

The biggest turnoff that a guy can have is when you. I don't know how this is gonna come out, but it's gonna come out as it sits. When you act worse than my teenager that I will like about face and eject you from my home, that's. That's the biggest turn off. It's. And it's sad to see a grown ass man, like, worse than a teenager.

[A]

Yeah. What if you found a guy that was super wealthy, wanted to, like, help you flourish, but he wasn't spiritual?

[B]

I mean, like.

[A]

Like, he was atheist. He was, like, straight.

[B]

Oh, yeah. I can't. I mean, I got tons of friends who are atheists, but I can't be someone who's atheist. I have to also limit my friends who are atheists. So I know how that's gonna go.

[A]

I have four. There's no room for the fifth.

[B]

I love everybody for whatever they want to do. Like, I've dated so many cultures, so many religions. I've really, like, given everything a go because I've had so much time. And, like, it's like, I'm a PhD in dating. But yeah, I know I need someone spiritual who has reparented themselves, who has money, and that's just what's up. I'm not picky. It's just. I know what I know. It's gonna work. When you have a man around a woman who has reparented herself, who has done everything on her own, who is actually independent and successful, she's not just faking it. She's not lying about it. She just is the real deal. She's transparent. With you, that can make men insecure. And if I think a man gets so insecure, he starts actually going nuts and getting abusive. So that's when I've, you know, I've just had to, like, close out relationships.

[A]

Yeah. What do you think is the best kind of job a man can have?

[B]

Own the company. Make sure you got big equity, baby, just like me.

[A]

What is the biggest turn on for.

[B]

You in, like, what sense? What department of dating are we talking about?

[A]

Let's say you go on a first date with someone and you're getting. You're asking them questions, you're getting to know them. What is something that they can either do or say that kind of sparks you? And you're like, all right, I'm into this.

[B]

Okay. I would say when someone's like, oh, I don't really have to. I can make my schedule. I can work from home. I can. We can go on trips. Like, I don't have to be anywhere. No stress. That's a turn on.

[A]

Yeah. How do you feel about open relationships?

[B]

I don't do those straight up. I don't do an open relationship. I, like, know I am a high value, like, person. I've invested in myself, my worth, and so, yeah, I mean, I'm going to just say it as it is. My boyfriends can't even keep up with me. So, yeah, I don't think they need an open relationship. I need, you know, the grass is green where it's at. They need to like water it.

[A]

Are you very forward when you meet someone by telling them what you want, what you're looking for? Are you straight up?

[B]

Nope, I'm not.

[A]

Gotta let them figure it out a little bit.

[B]

I think I let them ask me if they need it straight up, you know, like, how do you want your drink shooken? Like straight up or like sell it on the rim? I am just very much like, let's. I don't even talk about it. I'm not like a talker when it comes to chemistry. I'm like. I don't know, I'm like such like a intuitive, feel good, follow that kind of a person. So I feel like sometimes people can talk and just like ruin my vibe. It's like some people need that though. Oral lubrication. I don't.

[A]

Do you. Do you like to drink?

[B]

I'm a sober queen.

[A]

Are you?

[B]

Yeah, I'm a silver queen, sister.

[A]

Amazing. Congratulations.

[B]

Cool.

[A]

How long have you. Have you ever been into alcohol or did you just.

[B]

I've drank enough for everybody. I've done so many nightclub appearances, I've done so many tours, but I realized after being attacked so many times publicly that every time I looked back, people took advantage of me when they knew I had alcohol. And I think like, that's super dangerous for women. And like the next project that I'm creating is kind of like focused on that and like what people do to women when there's alcohol. So I just decided no more alcohol. And yeah, when you look at your life, do an inventory about how alcohol has played a part, whether it's people or you. But yeah, no alcohol.

[A]

Do you have any vices?

[B]

Like, what's a virtual? I don't do vices, I guess. Oh. So I have no addiction. I have no addictive personality. I would say, like, I am adhd, so that kind of leads to like addictive things. I think more so from what I see is I'm just really like about my health and wellness. Like, if, if that's like a vice, but like I was doing ketamine, but I. I just like, I've just taken a break from that too. I just like go and do my own thing. I don't really crave anything. I don't really need anything. And then I Just do everything kind of in moderation. But yeah, I don't know. No vices. Some people are like, freaked out by that. They're like, you gotta have a vice. No, there's no vice.

[A]

What do you. If someone were to ask you what you were like, if you wanted to go out on the weekend, what are you typically doing on the weekends?

[B]

What am I doing?

[A]

What do you like to do?

[B]

Oh, so, yeah, I mean, I like to travel. I think that's, that's why my daughter like picked like this seven day cruise of like five different places. Oh, she picked it. Yeah. My daughter picked out the birthday plan. And yeah, I mean, I think, like from seeing my daughter knowing me, I think it's just very much like, I will go to adventurous things and I will keep mixing it up. I will say I am very disciplined as a person. So if I don't find anything that piques my interest to go out or whatevs, I definitely will be home and working. Like, I got so much work, I can't get enough of work. But I also love, love what I do and where I'm at in my life.

[A]

So.

[B]

Yeah, I mean, a lot of men try to ask me on dates right now, but I'm like, is it cool? Is it? What's up? Like, what are we doing? Yeah, is it worth me getting away from my projects? So I kind of like weigh my options.

[A]

How do you meet guys?

[B]

How do I meet guys? Sometimes I've met people on apps, but it's very hard for me to stay on an app because my profiles are always being like, targeted and like flagged as like a scam or like not a authentic dating profile. So, like, honestly, right now I've just let everybody flag my online profiles and I just actually didn't like, even care to be like, hey, I got flagged again. So I've just been like, meeting people out. Like, I have no problem meeting people. Yeah, well, like, I'll go out today and it's like, I already got hit on like 10 times this morning. I have no problem in real life or dating, like online life. I love dating, though.

[A]

Well, how do you pick someone to go on a date with though?

[B]

In which arena? Sorry?

[A]

So if you, let's say you get hit on like 10 times in a day.

[B]

Yes.

[A]

Is there, at which point are you just, instead of just being like, how do you pick someone to go out with?

[B]

You know, I'm always very, like, kind to people who have enough balls to like, pay me a compliment and, you know, hit on me in person. That does take a lot of like good assumption. But I will say, you know, I don't know if I'm ever really like open to that. Sometimes I actually do feel more comfortable being able to see someone's dating profile and like research them. Like background check that just because of like just where I'm at in my life. I don't like. I literally make people who just like go on dates with me sign an NDA.

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[B]

Like I am, I just want privacy. I want no more drama in my life. So, yeah, I, I don't know. I don't know if.

[A]

Where do you go on a date? Where do you. What's your ideal first date?

[B]

I really loved one of my first dates where it was like. And again, it's adventurous. So we started off in la, we took a private jet, we went to like a boxing match, which was like a historical event and had a good time in Las Vegas. And then I came back home. Like, I love some like creative big dates. When guys though, ask, like even on your dating profiles, like, you'll have, oh, what's like the greatest date idea or what's like your favorite date idea? I almost feel like if men were to ask that and then hear about me dating someone else, I'm like, why would you do that to yourself? So when men ask you this on dates, I say, I think we need to focus on how great our date can get rather than me making you almost insecure right about now. And I've had like men just show up with like renting like Lamborghinis and like acting like they had this whole alternate universe and life that they lived, which is kind of sad putting on a front. But like I said, know it. I'm intuitive. And I think like, that's the scary thing about dating is like, I can impact people so much that they will show up with like a fake life to just go on a date with me. And I love love bombing. Love bombing is like, let me have a fantasy date, let me go do that. But I think I'm in, I'm just in such a position right now that I'm like, I don't like to waste my time on love bomb love bombing. Me enjoying love bombing. I don't want to waste my time dating like that anymore. So, yeah, I've kind of like pushed that down a little bit.

[A]

What was the turning point for you where you decided that you weren't into love bombing anymore and you wanted something different? Did something happen?

[B]

Yeah, for sure. When I went to a 28 day trauma program. I'm going to just say it like how it is actually like Austin, Texas has one of the best. That's why I ended up, moving back. And I got to see men and women for like 28 days, like kind of find themselves.

[A]

You just go and observe.

[B]

Oh, no. I was in the program. I did a 12 step binder. I loved it. I did like a relationship inventory and I got to see how it impacted people. But I think that's when I was like, I don't need anyone who looks at my identity that like the world has put on me to get to know me in dating. I really need them to be like, this is who, like, this is the person. And I don't like to put anything on somebody else's identity when I meet them. I really just like, see it for what it is. I've heard many of times though, when men are on dates with me that they're like, oh yeah, I get to like look up everything, watch you. Like, I really kind of like, know what I'm getting. But you don't. And I think like, that's where I'm like, this is actually like a waste of my time then because I'm like, someone thinks that they can hold back, play games, make me wait. And I'm just like, if you're lucky enough to have a transparent, authentic woman to date and you try to like ruin that lie, manipulate it, and not like kind of just again, be honest with your identity. I just, I just say I'm out, like as soon as I see that and I hear it sounds like that's.

[A]

Been a common thing for you guys trying to like, they're like, oh my.

[B]

God, I'm on a date with you. And then they just like start talking about all this stuff and their lies and their manipulations and what they think about. Yeah, I mean, I'm really easy to talk to. But also I know that men innately, I think, have been taught whether it's like their brotherhood to lie to women. And I think like, I am just so far out of like woman's suffrage from being so independent that. And they can tell. I can tell that they're lying. That and manipulative. And I think like, they just don't want to give up that power. And they're like, I don't like how Farah makes me feel because she can see right through it and it's okay. So it's like, do you want to give up that power and be authentic and live a good life with a good woman, or do you want to just go bro, hooded up and like one suppression it up? And it's not like one or the other, but I do See that? And it's in our, like, mass media of men saying that. So I'm not, like. Not a secret. I don't think it's a secret.

[A]

Do you? How long do you date someone until you introduce them to your daughter?

[B]

Well, I do have a big rule about a year. And it's very. It very much upsets me when, like, someone I date cannot respect that, and they get pushy. They want to, like, get a house together soon. You know, it's like, a whole thing. So I don't like people not listening to what I'm saying about that.

[A]

Sounds like guys just trying to move things along quickly so they can, like, hook you.

[B]

Yeah, I'm. I like to, like, watch things, so I'm a big believer in, like, let's not rush again. Love bombing. Love bombing is rushing.

[A]

Yeah. Trying to just hook, line, and sinker you.

[B]

Yeah. And this bitch don't sink, I'll tell you that.

[A]

Are you an only child?

[B]

No, I have a half sister. Yeah. And I was, like, raised with my cousins. Yeah.

[A]

Do you want any more children?

[B]

I can't say I want more children. I don't think I'd sign myself up to adopt a child and do it all on my own again, to be honest. I know there's, you know, a whole group of women out there who decide around 40 to go, like, adopt IVF, you know, the whole thing, and then, like, have a child on their own. I think I just did it at 16, and. And now I really am enjoying my freedom, to be honest, so. Yeah.

[A]

Yeah. What's the next trip you're gonna take, do you think?

[B]

Ooh. We were talking. I know. This is crazy. We were talking about Alaskan cruise. I don't know what. I love Alaska, and we haven't done, like, a Norwegian cruise. And I don't know. There were so many people on this. The cruise that we just got back from the Virgin Islands that we're just talking about and raving about their Alaskan cruises that I want to stop by there probably by, like, the end of summer.

[A]

I wish I could go on. I get seasick.

[B]

Oh, my God. You're like, oh, like, this makes me sick.

[A]

Really, really bad. Really bad. The first cruise I ever went on, I was young. I don't even remember how old I was, but I went with, like, my grandparents, and my mom and I got so seasick. And there was a group of college guys that were, like, next door to our little room or whatever, and they had smuggled on alcohol in mouthwash bottles.

[B]

Oh, wow.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

This.

[A]

They weren't.

[B]

This is like.

[A]

I think it was a Carnival cruise. Like, it had to be Carnival. And they told me if I drank some of their alcohol, I would feel better. I was definitely not of age to drink, but I did take a shot of the vodka, which tasted like Listerine. And I don't. You know, it didn't help with the seasickness. I think it actually made me sicker.

[B]

Yeah. Cause then I was like, you had something in there.

[A]

Yeah, it wasn't my vibe. And then I went on another cruise a couple years ago with a girlfriend of mine, and I got seasick again. And the thing about being seasick is, once you're on the water, you're fucked.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

Unless you have Dramamine or, like, a patch or something. Which I was just like, oh, I was young. It was just like, whatever.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

And then I got sick again.

[B]

Seasickness is, like, authentically very hard to deal with. And it's like, I feel bad. So, like, my dad, I used to invite him. Like, Even for my 30th, I got, like, a yacht. I wanted to go out, Jet Ski and have fun. And, like, my poor dad. And I used to live in Miami, too. And he would just be. Cause I'm like, it's gonna be so fun. Like, I got. You. Just come on out. Puke over the side. And my dad is just so kind. Cause he's got major seasickness, and. Yeah. So he's always puking when he comes.

[A]

That was me. Yeah.

[B]

And I totally understand that, but. But I do have a newfound thing for, like, seasickness or, like, sickness of any sort with, like, motion. When I was doing ketamine quite often every week, I actually had to start having Dramamine. And then one day. And, like, I never got sick when I was pregnant. Planes. Like, I'm going down. This shit's gonna crash. Like, I never puke. I never get sick. Like, I'm, like, totally fine if it's gonna. If we're going down, we're going down. But, like, I literally was, like. It felt like I was gonna projectile vomit and, like, get sick from the ketamine. Cause they said, oh, this is, like, the one side effect. And, like, I never knew. Like, it was so intense for, like, my dad and other people who get sick. And. But then she gave me these Dremamine things, and she's like, okay, let it dissolve. Like, it's gonna stop. And I'm like, holy shit. This is crazy. But I guess if you just swallow the Dramamine, too Fast. You can also get sicker or something. So I, like, actually didn't wait for them to dissolve. I just, like, threw them down my throat. Cause I just needed it to stop. And then I actually got more sick, and I was like, okay, I think I need. So that's actually why I'm taking a break from ketamine treatments, is cause, like, motion sickness and, like, weird stuff was going on. I can't imagine just always having that. I would literally stay away from anything that gave me that. I don't know how long I can stay away from ketamine, but I would say, yeah, I just don't even invite my dad anymore now that I kind of know that's the cure. Yeah, I kind of know what he goes through. And I'm like, that sucks. Like, me in a car after ketamine treatment's like, whoa, is this person crazy driving me? Or am I just having, like, some really bad situations going on? So, yeah, it's crazy.

[A]

I also would get altitude sickness. I only got it one time, and I was in Argentina.

[B]

Oh, wow.

[A]

And I was like, hiking in Patagonia.

[B]

Get a girl.

[A]

And I got really bad altitude sickness. Like, I started kind of feeling, like, woozy, kind of like how seasickness would be. And so the Argentine. Argentine, Argentine, Argentinians got coca leaves, like, cocaine leaves. And they would roll them up, and you chew on them. And it doesn't make you high, but it balances your equilibrium.

[B]

That's nice.

[A]

It was wild. And so that was. I. I was, like, chewing on these leaves, and they didn't taste really like anything. And that. That was, like, the most natural approach to a sickness.

[B]

Okay, so you're saying we only get sick because our equilibriums get off?

[A]

I think it has something to do with your equilibrium.

[B]

Okay.

[A]

I'm also saying, chew on coca leaves. Okay.

[B]

I'm like, how can I counterbalance this in my ketamine treatment? Take it down a notch. Yeah, I'll look into that. Science.

[A]

Well, going back. Let's go back to your school days.

[B]

School days? What kind of school days? Girl, I'm still in school.

[A]

What are you studying?

[B]

So I'm studying digital marketing for my master's. I'm about to graduate. So that's why I've kind of been on the down low. Like, not so much about, like, public work. Like, so everyone can see me working. Yeah. I'm about to graduate. And then I'm rolling right into my JD That I got approved for. So I am just, like, about that hustle right now. What do you want to do with my degrees? I mean, I usually just roll everything into, like my brand.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Am I selfish?

[A]

No, not at all.

[B]

Like, people are always like, manage and like, you know, be an agent and like all these things. But I just really just take my time, use it for me. And there's other, like, social, like justice, like social impact kind of things and change that I like to use these things for. So yeah, that's just like my vibe. I don't want to like, say too much because I feel like I don't need anyone coming for me or blocking me, but I just love to do good with everything that I have.

[A]

Yeah. What is the longest relationship you've ever been in?

[B]

And it can't be off and on or could.

[A]

Could I guess what you would consider your longest term relationship?

[B]

I almost feel bad for saying the longest term relationship because I was so not nice to the person. I was so screwed up as a person at that time. But I did date him on and off for three years and he wrote me a letter like years later thanking me for everything, even though I was so not kind to him. And so I don't really know if that's like a good thing, a three year on an offer. But I think like, consistently I think like, I don't Even know, like 10 or 11 months, like consistent like dating someone straight. Probably that which is not long at all. Like, the one relationship that impacted me the most again was off and on. And it was my, my daughter's father and I only knew him for like maybe a year and a half. So I've not really had like, long relationships. Like when I hear my girlfriend's like, they're like, we've been dating for like three years. I hope he'll like, propose. I'm like, holy. Three years you've been with this guy. Holy. I don't know if I could do it. So my girlfriend's 8 years, 10 years, not asking for a ring. I'm like, I just, you know, do.

[A]

You want to be in a relationship like that? That's not.

[B]

So I can't be in a relationship like my girlfriends. So that's why I love that they do whatever they want to do and however they want to do it, right. You get to pick whatever relationship you want, how you want a relationship. There's like a whole book on different kinds of, you know, partnerships and relationships. And there's some that I want to stay the hell away from. But yeah, I can't date like they did, you know, like, they don't have children. They have different job situations. Like if you live in New York and you're my girlfriend over there, you're going to date different, act different, be different. Like the whole thing's going to be different. And so like I just totally respect how anyone wants to date, but like, can't do that.

[A]

Yeah. How do you feel about going back to an ex? Do you ever do it?

[B]

So I don't like going back to an ex that I think that long like on and off thing because of like my, I think it's called like a negative response because of my ADHD and my negative response. Yeah, it's not depression, but it's just like you, you will have a negative response to something. And yeah, me going back to an ex is like I am psychologically gonna make myself spin because if I keep thinking like, oh, I'm such a love, I'm such a lover. Like I love romantic movies. I like write a romantic movie for that relationship.

[A]

What's your favorite? What's your favorite rom com?

[B]

Oh, what's my favorite rom com? I guess I like anti, Anti romance. Like Wedding Singer was great. I don't even know. I really just think of anti romance things. You've Got Mail.

[A]

That's a good one.

[B]

I like some cheesy, easy movies.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

I don't really know anything else right now, but yeah. So I think sometimes I just like get in this like rom com vibe for a relationship and then be like, oh, I want to play out the movie for this relationship and go back and forth and. But I'll just have like a negative response to the person. So. So yeah, that's just like driving myself crazy. But with ketamine treatments you are not allowed to go back and they like say that every week when you're there. And I think that's why I've had so much growth since like December of last year when I started ketamine treatments that I'm just like, like full, full view ahead. And like when I date people, I just really have to say that up front. Like if you're, if you're going to talk to me, if you're going to date me, it's either like you are getting to know me properly. This will not go back and forth. I can't do the back and forth. Yeah, they just say also just is like not good for your brain to do that. It's like toxic.

[A]

Yeah. You said earlier that you think that one of your biggest red flags is that you're too kind. Do you consider yourself Very forgiving.

[B]

Huh? I can forgive, I guess, when we're.

[A]

Saying you don't have to. Fuck it.

[B]

I don't know. I forgive. And that's probably why I used to go back and back and back and back. Yeah. Torture myself.

[A]

Yeah. I don't forgive. I'm really bad at forgiving in relationships.

[B]

I think, because I had such a fucked up upbringing with my parents. Dysfunctional at its finest. And seeing them go back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. Being in the middle of it over and over for years. Right. 16 until I got pregnant. My dad divorced my mom. And I think, like, if you're around something habitually like that growing up, you need to reparent yourself because you'll just. You'll just have relationships like that. You think it's normal, and it's like, totally not.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And I think that's why I looked at my parents as like, I don't need to take dating advice from you. I don't need you weighing in on who I date. I don't even need you knowing if I date. And that's how I've kind of, like, been changing my dating life. And I think that's why I don't visit home even if my dad lives in Austin. My dad also lives in Austin. They don't know where I live. Really. They don't. They don't know what I drive. They don't know what I do. And I mean, like, I'm serious. Like, I learned how to live and be so happy. And they did not really. They didn't want to be down for the new Farah. And I was just like, why?

[A]

The new Farah sounds great.

[B]

The new Farah is easy. The new Farah's, like, not toxic. And I think that's. I think that's boring. I think our society in America loves toxic, hates someone who has her stuff together who kind of like, is boring. And I have learned that from traveling all over the world with my daughter and seeing such peaceful, nice communities. And, like, I'll have to check myself and I'll be like, whoa, this is so great, like, we should move here. But I'm like, but it doesn't have that energy. But the energy is toxicity and drama. And I think, yeah, my family was never and will never be ready to accept the new Pharaoh, which is totally fine. And when I started getting locked out of houses and not able to come over and not be invited anymore, I was just like, okay, why would.

[A]

Why are you getting locked out of houses?

[B]

Yeah, I don't Know, I'm like, hey, I'm on my way over. Like, I have a gift or I want to check up on my animals. Like, they would have them at their houses and like, I no longer was allowed in. Like, door locked. And I think when they call me and when they text me now I'm just like, I can't help you anymore.

[A]

Door locked.

[B]

But I don't say, I don't try to act like them. Yeah, door locked. Like, I can't act like them. I'm just like, huh? I just won't respond. So my daughter just had to witness it, all, right? She had to witness like this huge change of her mom and she loved it. She was like, oh, my God, she can't get enough of her new mom. But. But yeah, she just blocked everybody and she, like, doesn't even care about the family. Like, so it's just kind of like, was I too addicted to toxicity? Was I being too nice? So, yeah, I had a hard time and she was just like, black. I don't know what that is. Yeah, it's inspiring.

[A]

That's great.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

Do you learn a lot from your daughter?

[B]

I think so. I mean, I, like, she's been in like the biggest growth, like ages of my Life, from like 16 to 34 right now. And I'd say I'm always just so grateful that I've had a daughter because, like, the world won't teach you certain things and invest in people in certain ways. But it's like, oh, because I had a daughter, I could like, reason and understand things better and, like, know where I need to be disciplined and like, focus. So, yeah, I think it's like a really good thing. My parents had me, like when they were like 36, and I think, like, maybe that's why it was so dysfunctional.

[A]

Do you have any regrets in your dating life?

[B]

I have no regrets about life in general.

[A]

That's a great way to be.

[B]

Yeah. Loving it.

[A]

Is there anything that you would do.

[B]

Over, like, do it again?

[A]

Like if you could go back and change some. No, not repeat.

[B]

Sure, girl. No, I don't need a do over. I don't need a regret. I mean, thank God, I guess I've gone through everything that I've gone through and I'm talking like, no one would be grateful for, but I am grateful for it, like to a crazy ass extent. And I think, like, that's just like you're flipping the coin in life. It's like, do I want to be sad? Do I want to play victim? Do I Want to sit in this. And I again, like, I just keep things moving. Like, I sit with myself. I understand why I'm mad. You know, I understand why I have resentments. And then I, like, do an inventory about resentments I get in gratitude. Like, how can I help people, you know, thinkful about that. And I keep it moving. Like, I literally have an inventory in my bathroom cabinet. So, like, at night, when I open it to, like, wash my face off, I, like, see an inventory and I, like, let go of any resentments, confusions, like, anger, getting gratitude. And, like, I got an amazing sleep ahead of me.

[A]

Yeah. What is the nicest thing that anyone has ever done for you that's been genuine that that, like, has meant something to you?

[B]

Man.

[A]

It sounds like people do nice things for you all the time.

[B]

Yeah, I was actually, like, lighting up about something even on the trip recently. I love when I catch people off guard. They don't know my name. They don't even know I was gonna see them that day. I'll be, like, on an island where they don't have tv. And I love when they're so intuitive that they're like, you are a star. Like, I feel like that is an innate gift to give as a compliment to someone, and it happens all the time to me. But I think that is such a gift and, like, I'm a person who doesn't like gifts on their birthday. I don't do parties anymore. I used to do huge parties, but I don't believe in, like, again, over giving to have friends. I almost feel like that was so fakery of me growing up. But, like, when I did grow up, now I really appreciate, like, those little compliments, those, like, awarenesses of me. Like, I think when you can be seen fully by someone, that is a gift. I'm like, oh, my God, thank you so much. Like, I don't need you to buy me, like, designer bags. Like, I don't need any of that. I like fully being seen, people being curious about me. And, like, yeah, those islanders, like, talked to me the whole time we were fishing, going underwater, and they were so helpful. They were so kind and talking about, you know, oh, should we kill a fish? And they, like, eat it together. And, like, I think I just like genuine time. I'm like, such a person, like, love languages, but I love real really being seen, and I like real time together. Yeah, that's a gift. That's nice.

[A]

I love that.

[B]

Yeah. Well, where can people find you online? The Internet, the World wide web?

[A]

Is there anything that you want people to look out for. Coming up, I'm not allowed to talk.

[B]

About certain shows and things. I feel like the TV industry just like, so everybody knows the TV industry is just so like all over right now with like sales and mergers and acquisitions and so yeah, there are tons of projects coming out. People are always like, when am I seeing you next on tv? And I think I, I'm really looking forward to like my screenplays, my films, like, my things that I really want to do. But there is an amazing show, I believe it's going to be on Lifetime and I can't say the name, but it is about women who have gone through a lot of their life with like low self esteem. It's impacted their sex lives. And so I can't wait for that to come out on Lifetime. So any lifetime, that whole platform online. So check that out here. Hopefully by the end of summer. And then again, just like online, I'm always posting up comedy things. I'm always posting up new shows, interviews, fun podcasts, like easy stuff. So I'll be in touch.

[A]

Thank you for coming on, guys. Thank you so much for watching another episode of First Date. We'll see you next time.

[B]

Bye. First Date.

[A]

Baby, are you really drinking a glass of milk with dinner? You told your mom about me? Delete my number. First Date, your parents are your roommates.

[B]

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