Poet and essayist Carol Ann Davis (Fairfield University) joins Evan Rosa for a searching conversation on violence, childhood, and the moral discipline of attention in the aftermath of Sandy Hook. Reflecting on trauma, parenting, childhood, poetry, and faith, Davis resists tidy narratives and invites listeners to dwell with grief, healing, beauty, and pain without resolution.

“I don’t believe life feels like beginnings, middles, and ends.”

In this episode, Davis reflects on how lived trauma narrows attention, reshapes language, and unsettles conventional storytelling. Together they discuss poetry as dwelling rather than explanation, childhood and formation amid violence, image versus narrative, moral imagination, and the challenge of staying present to suffering.

Episode Highlights

“Nothing has happened at Hawley School. Please hear me. I have opened every door and seen your children.”

“And that was what it is not to suffer. This is the not-suffering, happy-ending story.”

“I’m always narrowing focus.”

“I think stories lie to us sometimes.”

“I think of the shooting as a nail driven into the tree.”

“I’m capable of anything. I’m afraid I’m capable of anything.”

“I tried to love and out of me came poison.”

About Carol Ann Davis

Carol Ann Davis is a poet, essayist, and professor of English at Fairfield University. She is the author of the poetry collections Psalm and Atlas Hour, and the essay collection The Nail in the Tree: Essays on Art, Violence, and Childhood. A former longtime editor of the literary journal Crazyhorse, she directs Fairfield University’s Low-Residency MFA and founded Poetry in Communities, an initiative bringing poetry to communities affected by violence. An NEA Fellow in Poetry, Davis’s work has appeared in The Atlantic, The American Poetry Review, Image, Agni, The Georgia Review, and elsewhere. Learn more and follow at https://www.carolanndavis.org

Helpful Links and Resources

The Nail in the Tree: Essays on Art, Violence, and Childhood https://www.tupelopress.org/bookstore/p/the-nail-in-the-tree-essays-on-art-violence-and-childhood

Songbird https://www.weslpress.org/9780819502223/songbird/

Psalm https://www.tupelopress.org/bookstore/p/psalm

Atlas Hour https://www.amazon.com/Atlas-Hour-Carol-Ann-Davis/dp/1936797003

Carol Ann Davis official website https://www.carolanndavis.org

Show Notes

Carol Ann Davis recounts moving to Newtown, Connecticut just months before Sandy Hook, teaching a course at Fairfield University when news of the shooting first breaks
Her young children attended a local elementary school
Confusion, delay, and the unbearable seconds of not knowing which school was attacked
A colleague’s embrace as the reality of the shooting becomes clear
Parenting under threat and the visceral fear of losing one’s children
“Nothing has happened at Hawley School. Please hear me. I have opened every door and seen your children.” (Hawley School’s Principal sends this message to parents, including Carol Ann)
Living inside the tension where nothing happened and everything changed
Writers allowing mystery, unknowing, and time to remain unresolved
Naming “directly affected families” and later “families of loss”
Ethical care for proximity without flattening grief into universality
The moral value of being useful within an affected community
Narrowing attention as survival, parenting, and poetic discipline
Choosing writing, presence, and community over national policy debates
Childhood formation under the long shadow of gun violence
“I think of the shooting as a nail driven into the tree. And I’m the tree.” (Carol Ann quotes her older son, then in 4th grade)
Growth as accommodation rather than healing or resolution
Integration without erasure as a model for living with trauma
Refusing happy-ending narratives after mass violence
“I don’t believe life feels like beginnings, middles, and ends.”
Poetry as dwelling inside experience rather than extracting meaning
Resisting stories that turn suffering into takeaways
Crucifixion imagery, nails, trees, and the violence of embodiment
“I’m capable of anything. I’m afraid I’m capable of anything.”
Violence as elemental, human, animal, and morally unsettling
Distinguishing intellectual mastery from dwelling in lived experience
A poem’s turn toward fear: loving children and fearing harm
“I tried to love and out of me came poison.”
Childhood memory, danger, sweetness, and oceanic smallness
Being comforted by smallness inside something vast and terrifying
Ending without closure, choosing remembrance over resolution

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Production Notes

This podcast featured Carol Ann Davis
Edited and Produced by Evan Rosa
Hosted by Evan Rosa
Production Assistance by Macie Bridge, Alexa Rollow, Zoë Halaban, Kacie Barrett & Emily Brookfield
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