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Amira Despain
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Amira Despain
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Amira Despain
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Amira Despain
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Amira Despain
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Kirby Johnson
Los angeles hi, kirby. Hi, sarah. Welcome to los angeles.
Sarah
All right, everyone. Today's guest is a model, influencer and television personality who got her start as beauty director of Paper magazine. She's broken barriers in fashion and television by being the first black trans model to walk in the Victoria's Secret Fashion show and and the first full time trans cast member on Bravo. You've probably seen her sharing her best makeup and hair tips while slightly dragging herself in the process. Amira Despain, welcome to Gloss Angeles.
Amira Despain
Hi.
Sarah
Stunning. Stunning.
Amira Despain
Thank you.
Sarah
Snaps round of applause.
Amira Despain
I'm so happy to be here.
Kirby Johnson
We like, the glow is blinding.
Sarah
We first met Amira two years ago at the night before party, which is this big annual Oscars party. And I mean, you are a model, but you could tell you were a model because everyone was just like looking up at you. Star.
Amira Despain
Thank you. Thank you.
Sarah
We're so happy to have you because there's an influencer, right? And there's models and there's pretty faces, but you have brains.
Amira Despain
Thank you.
Sarah
You have big brains and you are one of us. You come from the editorial background of working at Paper magazine. And I think that's what was so sexy to us about having you on the podcast.
Kirby Johnson
Totally.
Sarah
Before we get into all of that, we would love to know, Amira, what is on your face?
Amira Despain
What is on my face right now? I'm obsessed with the lawless gloss. I have it on. It is like the shiniest, glossiest gloss ever. And I use the shade Strawberry Popsicle Gorge. What else is on my face? I feel like I will always be a Tatcha Dewy skin cream Stan till the day I die. Like, it's crazy, right?
Kirby Johnson
It is like my number one as well.
Amira Despain
Yeah.
Kirby Johnson
I think it's the number one moisturizer at Sephora.
Amira Despain
Like that makes sense. Yeah, yeah.
Kirby Johnson
Yeah.
Sarah
And it works for every skin type. I'm oily and I love it.
Kirby Johnson
So I go through like jars and jars.
Amira Despain
It's like disgusting how much I go through that. Like, it's crazy.
Sarah
They just need to make a giant tube and like kind of squeeze it
Kirby Johnson
out of my body into. That'd be great.
Sarah
I'd love to know what your skin situation is right now because I love when you're like your under eyes look like fucking shit.
Amira Despain
Yeah.
Sarah
So what currently are you using for your under eye?
Amira Despain
Ooh, for my under eye? For concealer. I've been loving the new Charlotte Tilbury concealer. I was like pleasantly surprised because I feel like Charlotte Tilbury. Sometimes it's like a little too heavy for like the complexion. But that one is like the perfect amount of like, not too matte, but still like actually glam, you know?
Sarah
Yeah.
Amira Despain
Obsessed with it, love.
Sarah
And then do you have a powder that you like to set with?
Amira Despain
The Huda beauty powder is like forever the most blurring, iconic, snatching powder ever. But the Kosas one for like the everyday is like really good with a brush though, not a puff.
Sarah
Yes, exactly. Over light brush moment.
Amira Despain
Yeah.
Kirby Johnson
What about this blush?
Amira Despain
This blush is the new actually. Sorry, not new, very old. Bare minerals blondes are like the original blonder shade from bare minerals. Love. Love and OG Love and OG and then house labs, rose quartz. I love like a glowy blush.
Kirby Johnson
Yeah.
Amira Despain
You know.
Kirby Johnson
No for sure.
Amira Despain
Yeah.
Sarah
You mentioned your gloss. Do you have liner on?
Amira Despain
It's the makeup for everyone that doesn't budge no matter what you do.
Sarah
Yes. So not the artist pencil.
Amira Despain
The artist color pencil. Extreme. Oh, she does not budge. Like, it's crazy. I'm like scrubbing it off in the bathroom. I'm like, get this off, please.
Sarah
I mean, hey, that's a great endorsement for it.
Kirby Johnson
Okay, so as Kirby mentioned, you were at paper. You were both in marketing and editorial and then you were the beauty director. So you have this writing background. You're one of us. Then Victoria's Secret reached out. Why did you feel comfortable making that leap from that full time job to content creation?
Amira Despain
Honestly. So my, my mom's an immigrant and like that's like number one immigrant parent rule is like if you're not a doctor, a lawyer. Like my mom's like, what are you doing? Like, both of my parents are. You're not quitting your job, Are you crazy? And I was like, just hold on. Let's think about this, guys. Like, this could be like a major moment. So I guess after some Convincing to my parents. And like, we started, like, really thinking about, like, where my career could go from this moment. And yeah, I think that I sold it to them. And then they were like, all right, yeah, quit your job. And things started picking up because when I was a paper, when I was a beauty editor and then beauty director, I had my own show, like within paper, like on Snapchat, called Snatch Rule. And it was so funny and like, that did numbers. But then I started getting a following of my own from that show. And so that's how I, you know, started like, building an audience, getting brand partnerships and everything. And then it was very obviously gonna become a viable career, so.
Kirby Johnson
Totally.
Sarah
Did you feel held back at all at Paper? Because one thing when I was reading your story is I was kind of impressed that paper was allowing you to grow your own socials on the side
Kirby Johnson
because that was not happening at the other publications. Like, I mean, both Kirby and I, you know, were at these digital brands, even who you would think would be a little bit more progressive, but it was always sort of a conflict.
Sarah
Yeah, if it wasn't about the publication, you weren't doing it right.
Amira Despain
And I've had so many editor friends at, like, Hearst and all the other big companies, they had to leave because they wanted to pursue that full time. And, you know, I was so blessed with Paper because they really did, like, see the value in me and they. They loved me. Like, they're incredible. I love my. I still am friends with my team at Paper that some of them are still there, some of them are not. My old boss and I are still friends. Like, I think it's great. Like, they really championed me and I was the only person leading the beauty department because it was all so new. And yeah, they were just excited, you know, to be part of it and have me be there. And I had been there for so long, I think they just knew that, like, whatever I did, it was with paper's best interest at heart.
Kirby Johnson
Totally. And I just don't understand how. Well, now when you're looking at the beauty editor and beauty writer, like job postings or job listings, it's like if you have a following, that's actually detrimental to. Yeah, no, they're.
Amira Despain
They're positive. They want that.
Kirby Johnson
They're looking for people who have a following and you're like, see, we told you. Yeah, that's crazy.
Amira Despain
Cuz see, back then it was not that way at all. Yeah, it was.
Sarah
No, we want to take you and make you into something so then we have something to kind of hang over your head. Well, we did this for you, right? Right now job listings are like if you have on camera experience, if you have a following of your own, they're hiring talent coaches at places like the Washington Post and New York Times to teach people how to do what we do.
Amira Despain
That's crazy.
Sarah
Isn't that bonkers?
Kirby Johnson
Yeah.
Amira Despain
So Paper New, they're always ahead of the game.
Sarah
Totally. And what did you study in school?
Amira Despain
Marketing.
Sarah
Marketing.
Amira Despain
I would tell you. For marketing?
Sarah
Yes. Okay, so I love this because we are a decade older than you, Amira, but when I was in school we didn't have like a social media or like even like digital plan. There wasn't there a trajectory like that didn't exist. So I studied advertising and public relations and I feel like your marketing background has probably really helped you with the social media side of things.
Amira Despain
Totally.
Kirby Johnson
Yeah.
Amira Despain
I did communications within NYU and then I also did marketing, so I double majored and they like that combination. I feel like has set me up for not only like the paper side of it, which obviously got me to where I am now, but then even now I still use some of the things that I learned in school.
Sarah
Yeah, 100%. How did being the beauty director at Paper help you become a better content creator and influencer? I think that something about you is you have that edge where you didn't just leap into content creation. You didn't decide, okay, I'm graduating from high school or I'm in high school, I'm going to do this. You went to school, you had a different career idea of what you maybe you wanted to do.
Amira Despain
It's cool because I feel like I treat my content like the same way I would treat an editorial piece. And I feel like you guys probably identify with this too. It's like it's, it's like a different way of thinking. And I try to make sure that my audience will always walk away either educated, entertained, or you know, just inspired in some way. And I feel like I would do the same when I would write. So. And I love writing so much. I do miss it. But it's also a double edged sword because now sometimes it's hard to then showcase the like lifestyle. Like people are like invested in you as a person, not only just your advice and the things that you're talking about. So yeah, I have to find the balance.
Sarah
Do you feel like it's been harder since you joined Next gen, where people are really now wanting to know everything about your personal life? Because I remember when I first started following you it really was because you were giving amazing tips and tricks, makeup wise, and I thought you were funny, but you weren't really, you know, sharing a lot of details about what you were going through behind the scenes.
Amira Despain
You know, I feel like I kind of now treat them like two separate worlds. And I think that's been really helpful. Is like, when I'm on the show and when I'm, you know, sharing my life on Next Gen, that is the moment for my audience to, like, take that all in because it truly is the most unfiltered it could ever possibly be. Like, that's just how it is. And then my content, my beauty content, and every now and then, like, the lifestyle stuff, like, that's just like, things that I love and that I find enjoyable. But it's not everything, you know, like on Next Gen, especially this next season, like, you'll get the good, bad and the ugly. Like, it's everything.
Kirby Johnson
Do you feel like you turn it on a little extra for the show or like that's who you are in real life?
Amira Despain
I actually think I. That's who I am in real life, 100%. And I think I turn it on more when I'm creating content at home because I know it's going to be like, you need to be, like, engaging, entertaining. Like, it's so fast and you have to be, like, funny and quippy and snappy and on the show, it's kind of nice because I can just like, breathe and be like, okay, I'll let them do their thing. How they're ever. They're going to edit it and make us look good, look bad, whatever.
Sarah
Oh, my gosh. I would have a hard time letting go of the reins and having an edit.
Amira Despain
Yeah.
Sarah
Being handled by someone else.
Amira Despain
Yeah.
Kirby Johnson
What was that like for you?
Amira Despain
That was hard. I mean, in the first season of the show, I obviously, I was really busy, so I wasn't able to be in it as much. But that was definitely, like, a real anxiety that I had and I still do now, you know, like, it's like I'm so used to controlling my own content.
Sarah
Yep.
Amira Despain
And letting it just all go to someone else is crazy.
Kirby Johnson
How did you like how you were shown after the first season?
Amira Despain
I think I liked it. I was, like, sad that I was not able to, like, be in more, you know, group things. And I was so busy because we shot a lot of it during Pride and so I was, like, traveling a lot and I had a bunch of, like, work stuff and it was like working both of those commitments and Just being in summer in general, it was difficult, but I think then this next season you'll see a lot more of me because I managed to balance the two way better.
Sarah
We've learned from our fashion friends that one of the big trends this spring is something called classic coastal.
Kirby Johnson
I am always trying to embrace the classic coastal lifestyle, if I'm being honest.
Sarah
Why does this remind me of Diane Keaton? And something's got a gift.
Kirby Johnson
Again, like that is. That is the lifestyle for us, 100%.
Sarah
Think crisp stripes, airy linen pieces that effortless. I might get my own boat energy.
Kirby Johnson
I say let's. Let's get a yacht.
Amira Despain
Wow.
Sarah
Okay. Dream big.
Kirby Johnson
The nice thing is Macy's makes it really wearable, like clean silhouettes, breathable fabrics, and those nautical details that make everything feel. Feel just a little more polished.
Sarah
Basically, the vibe is relaxed but put together, which is exactly how I'd like to look this spring. Head to Macy's to get your classic coastal vibes on. One thing that I've read in interviews that you've done in the past is you are a trans woman, but you don't like to focus on that. That's not the thing that you lead with. And I almost hesitated putting that in your intro, you know, with Victoria's Secret and with Bravo. But you are proud of it and you've talked about that. When it comes to things like Pride, how do you decide if a partnership is actually worthy of you being a part of it or not?
Amira Despain
That's such a good question. Because this is something that I really do think about and take a lot of time to, like, process. You know, I really think it's about whether or not the brand or the company champions me year round. And it's not just like, you know, a one off thing or like, it's not just like something where they can tokenize me and it becomes more of like an addition to something bigger we're working on. That, to me, is like, always the most meaningful because then it's not only meaningful to them, it's meaningful to me. It's like, wow. This brand that I love and like, work with all the time actually also knows this side of myself and, like, I'm happy to share that with my
Sarah
audience, you know, I'm curious, does your rate go up during Pride month?
Amira Despain
During Pride, I honestly don't know. Like, I. I know that's like, crazy to say. I really don't know. Like, I want to say yes. Like, I assume that my team, like, will do that.
Sarah
You're in Demand. And I'm sure, like you said, there's probably brands that are, like, not walking the talk, and they're like, oh, Amira. Yeah, this one worked for us. She's stunning. And, you know, like, checks these boxes.
Amira Despain
Yeah.
Sarah
Then you're like, pay up.
Amira Despain
That's right. And I've turned down some really big checks because I've just been like, I don't really feel like you guys would do this if it wasn't during Pride 100. You know, like, this is kind of sketchy.
Kirby Johnson
Is there a partner that does support you year round that you love working with?
Amira Despain
Honestly, l', Oreal, I think, is, like, one of my favorite brands to work with. I feel like every beauty creator loves to work with l'. Oreal. Like, it's just like, they're the best. Like, the team is amazing. They, like, know exactly how to get their message across without, like, infiltrating on the creator's, like, Persona and vibe. Obviously, Victoria's Secret, love working with them year round. It's like, they're the best. The best team. And, yeah, those are my faves.
Sarah
I wrote this question and so I'm hoping it doesn't come off the way that I'm now reading it. I'm like, I hope she knows this is a positive thing. Okay.
Amira Despain
Okay.
Sarah
So you mentioned Victoria's Secret. You've modeled for them. Like, you've worked with them in social capacities. You've been on reality tv, but you also graduated magna cum laude. Okay, yes. Pre influencing. Surely you've been doubted by optically being the hot girl.
Amira Despain
Oh, yeah.
Sarah
And the girl on social media. But behind the scenes, how do you operate? How does business Amira operate?
Amira Despain
Business Amira is very control freaky. Like, I. I take my business very seriously, and it's like monitors on monitors in my apartment. I have, like, I do all my own admin stuff. I do all my own editing. I, like, I'm so OCD about it that I. I don't know, I just. I don't let it go. And I think I play up the ditzy, like, oh, like, I don't know, like, what in, like, meetings and stuff. Because it really does, you know, no one wants someone who's just, like, so overbearing on everything. But, like, my team knows when it comes to the finance stuff, that's the one area that I don't touch because I think they know better than I do. But majority, I feel like I lead the charge on everything.
Sarah
I love that.
Amira Despain
I love that. I respect them so much and I love that they let me do that because that's not common.
Sarah
Oh, my God.
Kirby Johnson
I can't believe you still do all your admin stuff too.
Amira Despain
Yeah.
Sarah
That's incredible. Is there an example of a time that you've been underestimated, that you kind of went back and had your Pretty Woman moment? Like, big mistake.
Boost Mobile Representative
Huge.
Amira Despain
I mean, I think just, like, getting into being on reality tv, like, prior to Next Gen, there had been multiple shows that were like, I auditioned for. I, like, you know, like, got the calls for and they wanted me on. And then they were like, I don't know, like, she. Her life seems a little too crazy. Like, I don't know if, like, she's the right fit for this. Like, this and that. And then finally when Next Gen came, then I was like, okay, yeah, well, obviously. And then last year, I think I was like, the most requested. Like, they wanted to see more of me. And I was like, well, okay, there you go.
Sarah
You're like, well, here we go. And also, I have to say, you handled yourself so well. And watch what happens live.
Amira Despain
Thank you.
Sarah
Because I feel like sometimes Andy can be a little snarky to the women. Although I love Andy, but honestly, like, sometimes when I'm watching, I'm like, yeah, he's oogling and googling over all the boys. And then when it comes to the girls, he's kind of a little bit more catty in some ways. So I was like, mira, she said, yes, Respect me.
Kirby Johnson
Amira, is there a reality show that you would love to go on?
Amira Despain
Ooh. Honestly, Traitors. I was going to say, I think I would die.
Sarah
Like, no, you would win. I would win the sponsorships that will come out of that.
Amira Despain
Oh, my God, you crazy.
Sarah
You could just retire. It would be crazy. I actually. Wait. Let's get the camera traders.
Amira Despain
Traders, where you are? NBC. Come on.
Sarah
Come on, NBC. It's all in the family. It's all in the family.
Amira Despain
That's right.
Sarah
Okay, I want some influencer tea.
Amira Despain
Okay.
Sarah
When you're attending an event on behalf of a brand, what do most people not know about that experience for you versus what they are seeing?
Amira Despain
Visually, I think that it's really difficult if you don't have someone going with you. And it's so awkward because a lot of us are mutuals online and especially, like, the younger, like, I'm 29, but I feel like a lot of, like, the NYC influencer girlies are like, you know, in their, like, early, early 20s. Like, 21, 22. Everyone's just kind of like, awkward. And I'm like, someone has to, like, break that tension. And, you know, you're not just going to be like, hey, like, can you take this video of me? I have like a deliverable for this brand. Like, I'm like, do you mind? Exactly.
Sarah
It's a lot of awkward interactions.
Amira Despain
Yeah.
Sarah
Even though it looks glam and you're having this once in a lifetime experience. For the most part.
Amira Despain
Yeah.
Kirby Johnson
I mean, that's why plus one is always a good thing.
Amira Despain
Yes.
Sarah
100.
Kirby Johnson
When it comes to your content right now, what performs best for you? Is there something where you're like, okay, this is gonna do well?
Amira Despain
My series, your makeup looks like is, I think my. It's not only my favorite series to film, but I think it's the best performing. It's just so relatable that I think, like, everyone has had those moments and I've had many moments of like, my makeup looking like shit. I've taught myself how to do my own glam over years and I've had very documented public instances of, like, bad makeup. So, yeah, I think that that's my favorite series and people love it.
Kirby Johnson
Is there anything that you had to, like, give up or, like, stop doing because you're like, this is not working.
Amira Despain
I mean, Get Ready with Me is. I feel like I started out with the Get Ready with Me is and they did so well because no one else was doing them like back in 2020. And now I feel like everyone does the Get Ready with me. I do them every now and then because they're so fun to film. I love filming them. I think they're so entertaining because it's like the perfect blend of lifestyle and then like beauty content. So I don't do them as often, but yeah, I feel like I've kind of toned them back.
Sarah
Okay, money question.
Amira Despain
Oh, no.
Sarah
She grabs the water. Wet the whistle, babe. What's the most you've ever made from one partnership?
Amira Despain
I mean, I think it was like mid six figures.
Kirby Johnson
Wow.
Amira Despain
Yeah.
Sarah
What were the deliverables?
Amira Despain
It was a lot of deliverables. It was over the course of a year.
Kirby Johnson
Okay, okay. Was it beauty?
Amira Despain
It was beauty.
Kirby Johnson
Okay.
Amira Despain
But it was great. I mean, like, it did really well. It was like a long term partnership. And, you know, I still work with them today. It's like turned into a multi year thing.
Kirby Johnson
Amira, if you could fix anything on any social platform, what would it be?
Amira Despain
Content Being shown directly to followers more often. I don't even care about it being pushed out to new people as much like I just want my audience to make sure that they see the stuff that they want.
Kirby Johnson
Like, why is that so hard?
Amira Despain
I don't know. And, you know, the comment that always breaks my heart or like, makes me so frustrated is when people say, hey, I haven't seen you in so long. I'm like, you're like.
Kirby Johnson
I'm literally posting all the time.
Amira Despain
Like, what do you mean?
Sarah
You're like, okay, clock me. This sucks. No. Have you tried the new feature on Instagram that's show to your followers for 24 hours?
Amira Despain
No.
Sarah
I started doing this. Emira. It is game changing.
Amira Despain
Really. TikTok needs that feature now.
Sarah
They do, they do. Instagram is wanting to compete with TikTok and one day just popped up because, you know, you have. You can do trial reels, you can do close friends, whatever, but it was just this little toggle and it said, show to your followers for 24 hours. Like, only as, like, the first people to receive it. My engagement, 10 times higher. It's worth doing it.
Amira Despain
Oh, I have to try that.
Kirby Johnson
Because what it does is it, like,
Sarah
it feeds it literally to your followers
Amira Despain
only for the first 24 hours.
Kirby Johnson
But it, but it blocks it for. So it says, like, this piece of content or whatever is only available to Kirby Johnson's followers for 24 hours. So you're like, oh, what is it?
Sarah
So then you click someone. If someone that's following me shares it with someone else and they're not following
Kirby Johnson
me, they can't see it.
Sarah
It's incentivized.
Amira Despain
Yeah.
Kirby Johnson
So it's the FOMO of it all.
Amira Despain
That's cool. I'm going to start trying that. Do it.
Sarah
It's been a game changer, but I agree, I think, I mean, even TikTok has changed so much.
Amira Despain
So much.
Sarah
I developed a following based off of specific basket of content I was doing. And it's really hard, it feels like, to break out of that box of if you want to try something new and you want to introduce your followers to something else, you really can't because it just diminishes your views.
Amira Despain
Yeah, it's such a bummer.
Sarah
What is the hardest lesson you had to learn about your job and what did you take away from it?
Amira Despain
I think the hardest lesson I've had to learn is probably, and I'm still working on it, is being able to, like, delegate, you know, things that are bogging me down. There are so many aspects of this job, like, people don't see, and I feel like you have to be able to, like, push things off to people to be like, hey, I can't do this right now. Like, I actually really do need help from my team on how to figure out this thing or whether it's, you know, hiring a videographer for something specific or bringing on like friends to help with, like a specific, you know, project, whatever it may be. Like that I think is like something that I have had to learn.
Sarah
And then finally, what are your top three tips for somebody who wants to become a content creator? A successful one.
Amira Despain
A successful content creator. I think, I feel, really do feel like you have to love it. Like you have to love whatever your niche is, whatever your category is. Like genuinely do it for yourself and for the love of it. You can't just do it because you want to make money. You can't just do it because you want to be famous or whatever it, you know, I think that's tip number one. Tip number two, I would say is get an incredible team. Like, I think that is really half of this job. And tip number three, I would say just like always make sure you're having fun when you do it, because once it stops being fun, then you shouldn't do this anymore.
Sarah
When you say team, do you mean manager, agent, that or do you mean videographer?
Amira Despain
I mean, I mean, I guess all of the above, but I mean more so like manager, agent, publicist, that type of stuff. But if you're not even there yet, like when you're just starting out, like, if you have, like your mom is going to help you create all of your content, like, that's incredible. Like you need to have someone like that who's like on your side and going to help you with everything, especially in the beginning because it gets so overwhelming.
Sarah
Oh, wait, I said last question. But I do have a follow up
Kirby Johnson
and I actually have one more.
Amira Despain
Okay, okay.
Kirby Johnson
Who is your favorite person to follow right now? And yeah, I'm putting on.
Amira Despain
I honestly really do have been loving Michaela's like, post divorce moment. And I think it's so fun to watch because I love her so much and I really do. I know that she's going through it, but I think it's great that she's sharing it with the world. And you know, she gets so much hate and so much love at the same time. I'm sure it's so overwhelming, but yeah, it's so fun to watch.
Sarah
I saw her post and she said, okay, well I have some new people here. And she posted a screenshot of her analytics. 2 billion insane.
Amira Despain
Isn't that. I saw that too.
Sarah
Everyone in the comments was like, with the B, this is crazy. So she's like, so I'm gonna introduce myself. And it was. It was a really interesting video because she acknowledged a few things. She's like, I'm not everybody's cup of tea.
Amira Despain
Yeah.
Sarah
I do turn on my accent more, but I'm a mass hole. I have an accent, but when you watch me, Kim Kardashian, I'm going to bring it out. So it was very. I felt like it was. You could tell she was going through something last year in a very sad way. So honestly, I think it's nice that she has gotten it all out in the open and she's moving forward.
Amira Despain
I mean, it takes a lot of balls to do that. Like, I think she's, like, really, like, owning it. You know, we're friends. We're not, like, super, super close. But I think it's great that she's able to share that with the audience, but then also, like, for herself to be like, oh, damn, this is like a new era of me. Like, I'm gonna, like, rebrand or enter this next chapter.
Kirby Johnson
Yeah.
Amira Despain
I think it's so sick.
Sarah
One thing that she said during that video that struck me was even haters or. I don't know how she put it, so don't quote me. But she said, even haters help me.
Amira Despain
Yeah.
Sarah
And I said, that is the exact type of mindset you need to have to totally be in this, Succeed in this.
Amira Despain
In this industry. Yeah.
Sarah
100. Yeah. On that note, do you go to therapy? Do you need a therapist? Are you good? Not that I think you need one, but, like, no. I mean, really large following that where people just yelling things at you without permission.
Amira Despain
Yeah, I. And, you know, I am so grateful. My audience, I think, is very defensive for me. Like, I feel like they're very culty and they, like, will tear someone apart.
Kirby Johnson
Do they have a name?
Amira Despain
The Country Barbies.
Sarah
Yes, the Country Barbies.
Amira Despain
And if they. You know, I feel like if someone starts to comment something negative, they'll just, like, rip them to shreds. And I'm like, okay. Period. Like, I don't even need to jump in. But, yes, I do go to therapy.
Sarah
Love this for you.
Amira Despain
And I feel like it's, like, important. Like, this industry in general, just receiving that much attention is not normal. Yeah. It's something that, like, you have to be very grateful for and, like, excited about, but at the same time, take with a grain of salt and say, like, okay, like, I have to prioritize my mental health over creating content, you
Sarah
know, and it's not even just the amount of people. It's also seeing yourself every day.
Amira Despain
Oh, my God.
Kirby Johnson
Yeah.
Sarah
We are not conditioned as the human race to look at ourselves in a phone. I can see my reflection in my
Kirby Johnson
iPad, like, you know what I mean?
Sarah
Anywhere.
Kirby Johnson
You just looking at that TV screen right now.
Sarah
There's so many ways to see yourself at any given moment that I feel
Kirby Johnson
like they were doing this 50 years ago. Literally 20 years ago.
Sarah
No, absolutely. Yeah.
Amira Despain
That's so true.
Sarah
Okay, well, you're absolutely fabulous.
Kirby Johnson
You look good from all angles.
Sarah
Amazing at all angles.
Kirby Johnson
It's okay.
Amira Despain
Thank you.
Sarah
Thank you for coming on Los Angeles. Amira. We adore you and we hope to see you again soon.
Amira Despain
Yes, absolutely. Bye.
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Episode: From Beauty Director to Influencer — Emira D’Spain Breaks Barriers and Shares Influencer Secrets
Hosts: Kirbie Johnson & Sara Tan
Guest: Emira D’Spain
Date: March 13, 2026
This episode features model, influencer, and television personality Emira D’Spain, known for her trailblazing work in beauty, fashion, and media. The conversation dives into Emira's journey from a beauty director at Paper magazine to becoming a major influencer and television personality—breaking multiple barriers along the way as the first Black trans model to walk in the Victoria’s Secret Fashion Show and as a Bravo reality star. The hosts and Emira discuss the evolution of beauty media, influencer strategies, setting boundaries in public life, the reality behind glamorous events, brand partnerships, and tips for aspiring creators.
Notable Quote:
"I sold it to them. And then they were like, all right, yeah, quit your job. And things started picking up..." — Emira, [04:25]
Notable Quote:
"They really did see the value in me...they really championed me." — Emira, [05:45]
Notable Quote:
"My content...that’s just like things that I love and that I find enjoyable. But it’s not everything, you know, like on Next Gen...you’ll get the good, bad and the ugly." — Emira, [09:09]
Notable Quote:
"It’s about whether or not the brand champions me year round. And it’s not just a one off thing...That, to me, is always the most meaningful." — Emira, [12:23]
Notable Quote:
"I think it's the best performing. It's just so relatable...I’ve had very documented public instances of bad makeup." — Emira, [17:50]
Notable Quote:
"This industry in general, just receiving that much attention is not normal...I have to prioritize my mental health over creating content." — Emira, [25:10]
Upbeat, candid, and genuinely informative—this discussion showcases Emira D’Spain’s wit and transparency about both the glamour and grit of influencer life. She offers both an insider’s look and a dose of practical wisdom for next-generation content creators, blending humor with real talk on business, boundaries, and staying grounded in the public eye.
Summary prepared for listeners and readers seeking insights and practical takeaways from Emira D’Spain’s multifaceted journey in beauty, fashion, and digital influence.