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UnBecoming Part 3.2 - 911: The Sound Before the Fall (May 15, 2026)God. God. God. You begin to hear the Name of God inside, even as your mom's cry joins your own, it's as if God is calling you, crying out to you from the depths of you, calming you, stilling you, and yet carrying you out of your childhood bedroom, out of that boat, and onto the water of the hallway. It felt a mile long. His legs looked lifeless and still; the moment stood still. Was this that moment? CONTINUE...https://www.curlynikki.com/unbecoming.htmlLove’s Provision To support the daily devotional and the work of The Cure: Donate to Love https://www.paypal.com/donate/?hosted_button_id=EC6DCGW3CRP5G

UnBecoming Part 3 - The Hallway. (May 14, 2026)You look over at the light streaming in through your bedroom window. It's not the soft light of the moon; it's artificial light. Street lights. You're not home, you're back home. In the same twin bed you slept in during high school, watching the same trees dance in the wind, the same shadows play on the same hardwood floors you played on, talked on the phone in circles on, those floors have witnessed you.And now you kneel on them. You pray on them, whispering down toward them, you walk in tight circles on them, not on a call, but as a form of meditation, feeling God's Love in every step. Calling His Name with every step. Asking to be shown, to be provided the next step- whether to divorce or not. Whether to move or not? To the beach, perhaps.You're conflicted. But the floor is not. The room is not. It's bare. It's clean. It's small, but tidy. You can hear yourself think here, even as you are trying to get out to that place beyond thoughts, where the real answers come from. The Peace you feel as you listen past your thoughts and look over their shoulders, brings about sleep.Just as you drift, you are startled awake. Was that a crash? Did something fall? Did someone fall? You listen… for the children. For your parents. Acute. Aware. It was nothing. You soften back into the mattress, resting on your back, not yet asleep again,CRASH.Definitely something that time. Definitely someone. Your heart rate rises faster than you can. You jump up, grabbing your phone with shaky hands, instinctively yelling, 'DAD!' the one you worry about the most. The one you've called on the most. The one who understands. Before you can even enter the hall, you see his feet sticking out of his door. God. >>>> UNBECOMING.https://www.curlynikki.com/unbecoming.html

UnBecoming Part 2.3 - No Brakes. (May 13, 2026)In a haze of "what if" thoughts, you make your way across the parking lot to your car. A safe haven. You lock the door, depress the brake, and push the start button just to get the air flowing. You notice that despite the fearful thoughts, the Name is still flowing inside, like two competing radio stations. Your attention is torn, a war between the flesh and the spirit.You try to give your attention to the Name, to the Love, to His Presence, but you watch yourself reach for your phone. You are aware that this is not what you want to be doing, yet you watch as your fingers swipe to Safari, then to Google, and begin typing words related to the doctor’s visit and potential findings. CONTINUE...https://www.curlynikki.com/unbecoming.html

That's the face of permanent Grace.UnBecoming Part 2.2 - The Automatic Practice (May 12, 2026)They don't respond. You adjust your posture, looking awkwardly down at your feet. You begin to feel the Light emanating from them. You close your eyes. You feel the Feeling. The practice is working. You hadn't consciously turned to it; but God started it. You could hear His Name starting inside, going round and round like a prayer wheel. It was in your voice, yes, but It was going without your effort, automatically, spinning off the cacophony of other thoughts that were trying to invade your inner space. CONTINUE...

UnBecoming Part 2 - The Waiting Room (May 11, 2026)You definitely don't feel like an adult. Not like your parents did, or like their parents looked. And yet, you definitely have forgotten how to play. You can't remember the last time you relaxed. Not even on vacation. You've been in a sleep deficit for at least 10 years, and you feel as if you can only feign responsibility, trying to keep up with the world, which only seems to be speeding up. It's always trash day. The bills are always due. It's always tax season. It's always Christmas again. Your birthday, again. Monday, again. Annual visit, again? You skipped it last year. CONTINUE...https://www.curlynikki.com/unbecoming.html

UnBecoming Part 1.3 - The Wake Up (5/10/2026)

UnBecoming 1.2 (The Release) - "You open the text app. But your gaze is soft, not focused. You take it all in at once, seeing some very familiar names you were told not to worry about again... some from 15 years ago. Some new." CONTINUED HERE.

Your heart is racing... you're about to check their phone like you've done before, countless times, having found something every time. And yet, you've stayed, every time. For years. Nearly two decades. Out of loyalty. Out of the morals that were instilled in you by others. Out of face-saving. Out of not wanting to become a statistic. But out of love, too. You love them, deeply, even through the ice-outs, the crash-outs, the deep sadness... there've been good times. You hesitate. Not wanting to feel that familiar hurt again, but already experiencing it. Your stomach hurts. You can hear your heart beat in your ears, it feels like it may burst out of your chest. As your thumb hovers over that app, you hesitate. You're holding their phone, but you realize the only thing you're actually holding is your own fear. (UnBecoming- Part 1: The Phone)Let's look at Today's Cure. We'll sit with the rest of your story, tomorrow.

What experience will you provide yourself with today?What emotional state?Will you focus on the clouds or on the Son?Can you still hear My Voiceeven when I’m not using this mouth?Even when you’re not listening to a recording?Can you still feel the relief?The answer?Can you still be the Curewhile praying for one?THIS IS HOW. https://www.curlynikki.com/

4:30am spiritual practice, done. Kid drop off, done. Fatigue, on lol. I told myself I'd nap before coming here to be with you, but the legs walked to the studio. They walked to the door behind the microphone, and the left hand rose to pull back the black curtain. The ocean was seen. The rising sun was seen. The spark of inspiration came. Love wrote this one first. Then, this body spoke it. This body will enjoy an espresso now, and probably still nap lol. I love you!