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Healed-ish
Hosted by Jubilee Dawn · EN
Welcome to Healed-ish! A podcast about the messy, beautiful, and sometimes insane process of healing. Each week, host Jubilee Dawn (@jubileedawns) sits down with survivors of betrayal, religious trauma, catfishing, toxic relationships, and more to unpack the chaos and growth that comes with starting over. These are the stories people don’t always tell — honest, raw, a little funny, and fully human.
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67. From Megachurch Pastor to Skeptic Pastor (Jeremy Steele's Story)
1w ago01:36:17Tap to summarizeWhen Jeremy Steele was a growing up, a woman at church told him God wanted him to become a pastor. From that moment on, he devoted his life to Christianity, eventually attending seminary, becoming a youth pastor, and spending 12 years working inside a megachurch system.In this episode, Jeremy shares the bizarre and harmful youth group culture he witnessed, including a game involving frozen spoons passed underneath teenagers’ clothes that he immediately shut down. He also opens up about the financial practices inside megachurches that deeply troubled him and the questions that slowly led him to reevaluate his beliefs.Now known online as “Skeptic Pastor,” Jeremy joins us to unpack and challenge some of Christianity’s most debated ideas, including hell, the rapture, and whether being gay is actually a sin. We also talk about curiosity, uncertainty, and creating space for people reexamining their faith without fear.-Jeremy’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@skeptic.pastorJeremy’s Book: https://jeremy-steele.com/ritualsJeremy’s podcast: https://unbeliefpodcast.com/Jeremy’s linktree: https://jeremy-steele.com/links-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Transcribe →66. Racism, Grief, and My Experience at Bethel: Part 2 (Krys' Story)
2w ago01:17:28Tap to summarizePart 2 of 2Krys shares her experience attending Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry, where she and her brother were deeply involved in the community and on the worship team. What began as a calling eventually became something much more complicated. In this episode, she opens up about the moments that didn’t sit right, including being discouraged from speaking about racism and social issues, and navigating situations that were often downplayed or dismissed. During her third year, everything shifted as her mom battled stage 4 breast cancer. As Kry chose to step away to be by her side, she was made to feel like she was doing something wrong. After her mom passed away, she was met with silence from leadership. This is a conversation about grief, identity, boundaries, and what it looks like to walk away and rebuild your beliefs in a way that feels true to you.-Krystal’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@thequeen.krysKrystal’s podcast: https://tr.ee/HhQtrD3IE0-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Transcribe →65. Racism, Grief, and My Experience at Bethel: Part 1 (Krys' Story)
2w ago01:14:03Tap to summarizePart 1 of 2Krys shares her experience attending Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry, where she and her brother were deeply involved in the community and on the worship team. What began as a calling eventually became something much more complicated. In this episode, she opens up about the moments that didn’t sit right, including being discouraged from speaking about racism and social issues, and navigating situations that were often downplayed or dismissed. During her third year, everything shifted as her mom battled stage 4 breast cancer. As Kry chose to step away to be by her side, she was made to feel like she was doing something wrong. After her mom passed away, she was met with silence from leadership. This is a conversation about grief, identity, boundaries, and what it looks like to walk away and rebuild your beliefs in a way that feels true to you.-Krystal’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@thequeen.krysKrystal’s podcast: https://tr.ee/HhQtrD3IE0-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Transcribe →64. Ex-Christian Nationalist: When 2016 Changed Everything (April Ajoy's Story)
3w ago01:14:20Tap to summarizeApril Ajoy joins me to talk about growing up in Christian nationalism, where fear of the rapture, politics, and faith were deeply intertwined. She shares what it was like to be raised believing the end of the world was always around the corner, including a moment where she thought she had been left behind.We talk about her experience singing on conservative TV, making campaign videos, and the turning point that led her to start questioning everything. April now uses humor and satire to process it all, and we get into what deconstruction looked like for her and how she rebuilt her faith on her own terms.-April Ajoy’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@aprilajoy?lang=enApril Ajoy’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/aprilajoy/-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Transcribe →Purity Culture Dilemma: AITAH for Saying My Wife’s Virginity Didn’t Matter?
4w ago01:20:31Tap to summarizeBethany Joy (a past Healed-ish guest) joins me to react to some wild and messy Reddit stories. We get into purity culture and a husband who said his wife’s virginity didn’t matter, a destination wedding dilemma, and what to do when someone calls themselves your husband’s “work wife.”We also talk about whether it’s ever okay to tell your sister she brought her situation on herself after a series of bad choices. Lots of opinions, lots of chaos, and definitely some moments where you’re going to pick a side.-The Overshare Hour: https://open.spotify.com/show/4rhjrn5AYvOKJnN0gIeSLm-Bethany’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@bethany_joyfulBethany’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/bethany_joy_ful Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns
Transcribe →63. No Holidays, No Sex, No Questions: Inside Jehovah’s Witness Life (Micki’s Story)
4w ago01:20:17Tap to summarizeMicki grew up as a Jehovah’s Witness after her mom joined when she was a child. From going door to door and studying The Watchtower, to missing out on birthdays, holidays, and normal milestones, her life was shaped by strict rules, purity culture, and fear of the outside world.At 35, everything started to unravel. After falling down a Reddit rabbit hole, Micki began questioning what she had always been taught and ultimately made the life altering decision to leave. What followed was devastating. She was shunned by her entire community and lost nearly everyone she knew.Now known as Apostate Barbie, Micki shares her story online. She documents her deconstruction, reclaims her identity, and explores her sexuality for the first time.-Micki’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@apostatebarbieMicki’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/apostatebarbie/-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Transcribe →62. The Cost of Being Devout (David Archuleta’s Story)
Apr 1401:09:27Tap to summarizeDavid Archuleta joins me to talk about his new memoir and everything that shaped the person he is today.We get into what it was like growing up in the LDS church, the pressure he faced from his dad at a young age, and how that carried into his experience on American Idol. David shares how much of his life felt like it was being lived for other people, and what it took to start questioning that.We also talk about his journey with identity, coming to terms with being queer, and what it looked like to finally choose himself after years of trying to fit into a version of life that never fully felt like his.-David’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@davidarchieDavid’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/davidarchie/?hl=enDavid’s Website: https://davidarchuleta.com/-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Transcribe →61. IBLP and The Umbrella of Authority: Part 2 (Bethany’s Story)
Apr 701:22:32Tap to summarizeContent warning: This episode includes discussion of domestic violence and sexual abuse.Bethany was raised in IBLP, the same belief system associated with the Duggars, where teachings like the “umbrella of authority” shaped her understanding of marriage and submission. As one of eleven children, she was expected to help raise her siblings and follow strict gender roles. When she met her ex-husband, their relationship quickly moved toward marriage under intense pressure from purity culture and family expectations.What followed was an abusive marriage marked by control, gaslighting, and betrayal. With the help of a therapist, Bethany began to recognize the reality of what she had experienced, including abuse that had been normalized in her upbringing. Today, she is no contact with her dad, many of her siblings have deconstructed, and she has built a safe and healthy life with her partner.-Bethany’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@bethany_joyfulBethany’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/bethany_joy_fulBethany’s Poetry: https://www.instagram.com/this.is.not.a.train-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Transcribe →60. IBLP and the Umbrella of Authority: Part 1 (Bethany’s Story)
Apr 701:13:01Tap to summarizeContent warning: This episode contains mentions of domestic violence and sexual abuse.Bethany was raised in IBLP, the same belief system associated with the Duggars, where teachings like the “umbrella of authority” shaped her understanding of marriage and submission. As one of eleven children, she was expected to help raise her siblings and follow strict gender roles. When she met her ex-husband, their relationship quickly moved toward marriage under intense pressure from purity culture and family expectations.What followed was an abusive marriage marked by control, gaslighting, and betrayal. With the help of a therapist, Bethany began to recognize the reality of what she had experienced, including abuse that had been normalized in her upbringing. Today, she is no contact with her dad, many of her siblings have deconstructed, and she has built a safe and healthy life with her partner.-Bethany’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@bethany_joyfulBethany’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/bethany_joy_fulBethany’s Poetry: https://www.instagram.com/this.is.not.a.train-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Transcribe →59. Abused by My Therapist for Years (Mia Chard's Story)
Mar 3101:26:21Tap to summarizeContent Warning: This episode contains discussions of physical & spiritual abuse, self harm, and suicide.Mia was born and raised in the LDS church and experienced childhood sexual abuse that deeply impacted her mental health. As she struggled with self harm, an eating disorder, and thoughts of ending her life, her bishop referred her to a therapist she was told she could trust. She saw him for nine years. What began as therapy turned into abuse. He told her she was being oppressed by a demon and needed his help to be set free. Over time, this escalated into physical abuse, including suffocation and injury, all under the guise of helping her.Mia eventually told a friend and reported him, beginning a long fight for justice. Her case was later covered by Rolling Stone. Today, she has built a safe and healthy life for herself. After everything she endured, she is now in a loving relationship and preparing to get married. Her story is one of survival, truth, and resilience.-Mia’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@madmncMia’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/madmnc/-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
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