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Healed-ish
Hosted by Jubilee Dawn · EN
Welcome to Healed-ish! A podcast about the messy, beautiful, and sometimes insane process of healing. Each week, host Jubilee Dawn (@jubileedawns) sits down with survivors of betrayal, religious trauma, catfishing, toxic relationships, and more to unpack the chaos and growth that comes with starting over. These are the stories people don’t always tell — honest, raw, a little funny, and fully human.
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78. The Voice, Deconstruction & Coming Out After Purity Culture (Jordan Rainer's Story)
4d ago01:14:40Tap to summarizeJordan Rainer (The Voice, Team Reba) joins me to share her journey from Southern Baptist purity culture to deconstruction. We talk about suppressing feelings, navigating a difficult marriage shaped by church advice, choosing divorce, coming out, and rebuilding relationships after leaving her faith. She also shares how she is telling her story through her newest music.-Jordan’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@thejordanrainerJordan’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/thejordanrainerJordan Rainer’s Newest Album: https://jordanrainer.bandcamp.com/album/the-outlaw-revival-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Transcribe →77. Everything Was A Punishment From God (Shelly's Story)
2w ago01:49:05Tap to summarize*CW* emotional abuse, suicidal ideation, parentificationShelly grew up believing that every hardship had a spiritual explanation. After her parents' dramatic conversion to Christianity, they were convinced that her health problems were punishment for her mother's past, and later blamed Shelly's own suffering on her sin. As she navigated parentification, the loss of her brother after he was kicked out, and eventually a high-control ministry she had to secretly flee, Shelly spent years trying to earn love that always seemed conditional.In this episode, we talk about religious trauma, deconstruction, chronic illness, high control ministries, setting boundaries with family, and why going no contact ultimately became the healthiest decision she ever made. -Shelly’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/thetangledandtrue/Shelly’s Substack: https://thetangledandtrue.substack.com/-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Transcribe →76. The Bible Led Me To Atheism | Eve Was Framed (Promise's Story)
3w ago01:27:10Tap to summarizePromise, known as Eve Was Framed, was raised in charismatic Christianity where speaking in tongues, prophecy, mission trips, and supernatural experiences were a normal part of life. She eventually attended Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry (BSSM) and expected her faith to continue growing.But when Promise began studying the Bible more deeply in hopes of answering questions from her atheist friends, she instead found herself wrestling with passages and beliefs that no longer made sense to her. In this episode, we discuss charismatic Christianity, BSSM, deconstruction, becoming an atheist, and her new book, Gospel of Lies. We also talk about what it looks like to walk away from toxic beliefs while helping others navigate their own deconstruction journeys.-Promise’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@eve_wasframedPromise’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/eve_wasframedGospel of Lies: https://medialabbooks.com/products/9781964487557_gospel-of-lies-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Transcribe →75. My Youth Pastor Dad Had an “Affair”... At Least, That’s What They Told Me (Carley’s Story)
4w ago01:36:15Tap to summarizeCarley grew up as the daughter of a youth pastor and has many fond memories of church, faith, and family. But when she was young, her parents sat her down and told her that her father had an emotional affair and would be leaving the church. Little else was said, and life moved on.Years later, Carley discovered that the truth was far more complicated. In this episode, she shares what it was like to uncover that her father had groomed and been inappropriate with a minor for years, the difficult conversations that followed, and how speaking with the victim changed her understanding of her family's story.-Carley’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@carleyymaeCarley’s Photography: https://www.instagram.com/carleymaephotography/?hl=en-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Transcribe →74. What Purity Culture Never Taught Us About Women's Bodies | ft. Azriél Patricia & Dr. Ashley Jeanius
Jun 2301:01:47Tap to summarizeDid purity culture leave you with more questions than answers about your body? In this episode, I sit down with Azriél Patricia and Dr. Ashley Jeanius for an honest conversation about women's health, anatomy, and all the things many of us were never taught.We discuss purity culture's obsession with hymens, debunk myths about virginity, explore birth control options, break down the menstrual cycle and hormones, and talk about how painful a period should actually be. Whether you grew up in purity culture or simply missed out on comprehensive sex education, this episode is full of practical information and healing.-Azriél ’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/azrielpatricia/Azriél ’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@azrielpatriciaDr. Ashley Jeanius’ IG: https://www.instagram.com/drjeanius/Dr. Ashley Jeanius’ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@drjeanius-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Transcribe →73. Raised Pentecostal: Hell, Healing, and Heartbreak (Bailee’s Story)
Jun 1601:49:21Tap to summarizeBailee was raised as a pastor's kid in the Pentecostal church, where speaking in tongues, prophecies, and miraculous healing were part of everyday life. She was taught that God always wants to heal, so when her father was diagnosed with cancer, her family fully expected a miracle. After he passed away, she began to question some of the beliefs she had been taught.In this episode, we talk about growing up in the Word of Faith movement, the lasting impact of teachings on hell, her time at IHOP and Oral Roberts University, and what it looks like to embrace curiosity after years of having all the answers. Today, Bailee is the co-host of Praise Be To Pod, where she continues exploring religion, doubt, and deconstruction.-Resources for embodiment - Cole Arthur Riley: https://www.instagram.com/colearthurriley/?hl=en- My Grandmother’s Hands: Racialized Trauma and the Pathway to Mending Our Hearts and Bodies by Resmaa Menakem - Between the World and Me by Ta-Nehisi CoatesResource for progressive christianity / deconstruction- Kristian Smith: https://www.instagram.com/thekristianasmith/?hl=en-Bailee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/paynebailee/Praise Be To Pod: https://open.spotify.com/show/3XkmQGWnGRq7SalxjjtOmDPraise Be To Pod IG: https://www.instagram.com/praisebetopod/Praise Be To Pod Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@praisebetopod-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Transcribe →72. God Told Me To Marry Him (Ashley’s Story)
Jun 901:43:11Tap to summarize*Content warning: emotional abuse, animal abuse*Ashley, co-host of Praise Be To Pod, didn't grow up deeply religious. After attending youth camps as a teenager, she dove headfirst into evangelical Christianity and even encouraged her own parents to become more involved in church. Eventually, she found her way into charismatic Christianity, where she experienced speaking in tongues, witnessed healing miracles, and spent time as a missionary.But Ashley's story took a complicated turn when she met the man she believed God had chosen for her. Despite her doubts and a relationship filled with criticism, she felt convinced that God was telling her he would be her husband. She describes it as feeling almost like an arranged marriage by God. In this episode, Ashley shares how her marriage eventually unraveled, how divorce gave her permission to ask difficult questions, and how she found her way through deconstruction, remarriage, and co-hosting Praise Be To Pod-Ashley’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/thisashley/Praise Be To Pod: https://open.spotify.com/show/3XkmQGWnGRq7SalxjjtOmDPraise Be To Pod IG: https://www.instagram.com/praisebetopod/Praise Be To Pod Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@praisebetopod-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Transcribe →71. Reclaiming Testify to Love (Michael Passons' Story)
Jun 201:11:56Tap to summarizeMichael Passons spent years as a member of Avalon, one of the most successful groups in Christian music. In this episode, he shares his journey from breaking into the industry and rising to fame, to navigating life as a gay man in a world that taught him his sexuality needed to be changed. Michael opens up about undergoing conversion therapy, the impact it had on his mental health, and the pressure of trying to reconcile his faith with his identity.We also talk about what happened when Michael was ultimately removed from Avalon, the grief of losing a career and community he loved, and the healing that followed. In the last few weeks, Michael rereleased Testify to Love with his close friends, reclaiming the song with an affirming message of inclusion and belonging. The project has been deeply healing for many LGBTQ+ people who grew up in Christian spaces believing they had to change themselves to be loved by God. -Michael Passons’ Website: https://michaelpassons.com/Michael Passons’ IG :https://www.instagram.com/michaelpassons/?hl=enMichael Passons’ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@michaelpassonsmusic-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8https://www.patreon.com/TheOvershareHour
Transcribe →70. A Bill Nye Debate Sparked My Deconstruction: Part 2 (David's Story)
May 2601:14:09Tap to summarizeIn this episode, I’m joined by David from Deep Drinks. After a powerful encounter with God, he became a youth pastor at just 19, but being pushed out of ministry led him into a season of questioning everything.We talk about his experience with OCD, including intrusive thoughts and compulsions to confess, and what it looked like to finally seek treatment.Then we dive into his deconstruction, including how a Bill Nye debate on creationism unexpectedly became a turning point in his beliefs.-Deep Drinks Podcast:https://www.youtube.com/@DeepDrinksDeep Drinks IG: https://www.instagram.com/deepdrinkspodcast/David’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/davidmcdonald89/-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Transcribe →69. A Bill Nye Debate Sparked My Deconstruction: Part 1 (David's Story)
May 2600:59:35Tap to summarizeIn this episode, I’m joined by David from Deep Drinks. After a powerful encounter with God, he became a youth pastor at just 19, but being pushed out of ministry led him into a season of questioning everything.We talk about his experience with OCD, including intrusive thoughts and compulsions to confess, and what it looked like to finally seek treatment.Then we dive into his deconstruction, including how a Bill Nye debate on creationism unexpectedly became a turning point in his beliefs.-Deep Drinks Podcast:https://www.youtube.com/@DeepDrinksDeep Drinks IG: https://www.instagram.com/deepdrinkspodcast/David’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/davidmcdonald89/-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
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