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Healed-ish
Hosted by Jubilee Dawn · EN
Welcome to Healed-ish! A podcast about the messy, beautiful, and sometimes insane process of healing. Each week, host Jubilee Dawn (@jubileedawns) sits down with survivors of betrayal, religious trauma, catfishing, toxic relationships, and more to unpack the chaos and growth that comes with starting over. These are the stories people don’t always tell — honest, raw, a little funny, and fully human.
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72. God Told Me To Marry Him (Ashley’s Story)
2d ago01:43:11Tap to summarize*Content warning: emotional abuse, animal abuse*Ashley, co-host of Praise Be To Pod, didn't grow up deeply religious. After attending youth camps as a teenager, she dove headfirst into evangelical Christianity and even encouraged her own parents to become more involved in church. Eventually, she found her way into charismatic Christianity, where she experienced speaking in tongues, witnessed healing miracles, and spent time as a missionary.But Ashley's story took a complicated turn when she met the man she believed God had chosen for her. Despite her doubts and a relationship filled with criticism, she felt convinced that God was telling her he would be her husband. She describes it as feeling almost like an arranged marriage by God. In this episode, Ashley shares how her marriage eventually unraveled, how divorce gave her permission to ask difficult questions, and how she found her way through deconstruction, remarriage, and co-hosting Praise Be To Pod-Ashley’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/thisashley/Praise Be To Pod: https://open.spotify.com/show/3XkmQGWnGRq7SalxjjtOmDPraise Be To Pod IG: https://www.instagram.com/praisebetopod/Praise Be To Pod Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@praisebetopod-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Transcribe →71. Reclaiming Testify to Love (Michael Passons' Story)
1w ago01:11:56Tap to summarizeMichael Passons spent years as a member of Avalon, one of the most successful groups in Christian music. In this episode, he shares his journey from breaking into the industry and rising to fame, to navigating life as a gay man in a world that taught him his sexuality needed to be changed. Michael opens up about undergoing conversion therapy, the impact it had on his mental health, and the pressure of trying to reconcile his faith with his identity.We also talk about what happened when Michael was ultimately removed from Avalon, the grief of losing a career and community he loved, and the healing that followed. In the last few weeks, Michael rereleased Testify to Love with his close friends, reclaiming the song with an affirming message of inclusion and belonging. The project has been deeply healing for many LGBTQ+ people who grew up in Christian spaces believing they had to change themselves to be loved by God. -Michael Passons’ Website: https://michaelpassons.com/Michael Passons’ IG :https://www.instagram.com/michaelpassons/?hl=enMichael Passons’ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@michaelpassonsmusic-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8https://www.patreon.com/TheOvershareHour
Transcribe →70. A Bill Nye Debate Sparked My Deconstruction: Part 2 (David's Story)
2w ago01:14:09Tap to summarizeIn this episode, I’m joined by David from Deep Drinks. After a powerful encounter with God, he became a youth pastor at just 19, but being pushed out of ministry led him into a season of questioning everything.We talk about his experience with OCD, including intrusive thoughts and compulsions to confess, and what it looked like to finally seek treatment.Then we dive into his deconstruction, including how a Bill Nye debate on creationism unexpectedly became a turning point in his beliefs.-Deep Drinks Podcast:https://www.youtube.com/@DeepDrinksDeep Drinks IG: https://www.instagram.com/deepdrinkspodcast/David’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/davidmcdonald89/-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Transcribe →69. A Bill Nye Debate Sparked My Deconstruction: Part 1 (David's Story)
2w ago00:59:35Tap to summarizeIn this episode, I’m joined by David from Deep Drinks. After a powerful encounter with God, he became a youth pastor at just 19, but being pushed out of ministry led him into a season of questioning everything.We talk about his experience with OCD, including intrusive thoughts and compulsions to confess, and what it looked like to finally seek treatment.Then we dive into his deconstruction, including how a Bill Nye debate on creationism unexpectedly became a turning point in his beliefs.-Deep Drinks Podcast:https://www.youtube.com/@DeepDrinksDeep Drinks IG: https://www.instagram.com/deepdrinkspodcast/David’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/davidmcdonald89/-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Transcribe →68. When Everything Stopped Being Black and White (Stephanie Stalvey's Story)
3w ago01:06:18Tap to summarizeIn this episode, I’m joined by author and artist Stephanie Stalvey to talk about growing up in the church, navigating purity culture, and what it looks like to begin questioning the beliefs you were taught.We also talk about how becoming a mother shifted her perspective on God, identity, and love, and why some of those beliefs no longer felt aligned with the life she was living.Stephanie’s graphic novel Everything in Color explores her journey of healing and finding herself again.-Stephanie’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/stephanie.stalvey.artist/Stephanie’s Website: https://stephaniestalvey.com/-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Transcribe →67. From Megachurch Pastor to Skeptic Pastor (Jeremy Steele's Story)
4w ago01:36:17Tap to summarizeWhen Jeremy Steele was a growing up, a woman at church told him God wanted him to become a pastor. From that moment on, he devoted his life to Christianity, eventually attending seminary, becoming a youth pastor, and spending 12 years working inside a megachurch system.In this episode, Jeremy shares the bizarre and harmful youth group culture he witnessed, including a game involving frozen spoons passed underneath teenagers’ clothes that he immediately shut down. He also opens up about the financial practices inside megachurches that deeply troubled him and the questions that slowly led him to reevaluate his beliefs.Now known online as “Skeptic Pastor,” Jeremy joins us to unpack and challenge some of Christianity’s most debated ideas, including hell, the rapture, and whether being gay is actually a sin. We also talk about curiosity, uncertainty, and creating space for people reexamining their faith without fear.-Jeremy’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@skeptic.pastorJeremy’s Book: https://jeremy-steele.com/ritualsJeremy’s podcast: https://unbeliefpodcast.com/Jeremy’s linktree: https://jeremy-steele.com/links-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Transcribe →66. Racism, Grief, and My Experience at Bethel: Part 2 (Krys' Story)
May 501:17:28Tap to summarizePart 2 of 2Krys shares her experience attending Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry, where she and her brother were deeply involved in the community and on the worship team. What began as a calling eventually became something much more complicated. In this episode, she opens up about the moments that didn’t sit right, including being discouraged from speaking about racism and social issues, and navigating situations that were often downplayed or dismissed. During her third year, everything shifted as her mom battled stage 4 breast cancer. As Kry chose to step away to be by her side, she was made to feel like she was doing something wrong. After her mom passed away, she was met with silence from leadership. This is a conversation about grief, identity, boundaries, and what it looks like to walk away and rebuild your beliefs in a way that feels true to you.-Krystal’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@thequeen.krysKrystal’s podcast: https://tr.ee/HhQtrD3IE0-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Transcribe →65. Racism, Grief, and My Experience at Bethel: Part 1 (Krys' Story)
May 501:14:03Tap to summarizePart 1 of 2Krys shares her experience attending Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry, where she and her brother were deeply involved in the community and on the worship team. What began as a calling eventually became something much more complicated. In this episode, she opens up about the moments that didn’t sit right, including being discouraged from speaking about racism and social issues, and navigating situations that were often downplayed or dismissed. During her third year, everything shifted as her mom battled stage 4 breast cancer. As Kry chose to step away to be by her side, she was made to feel like she was doing something wrong. After her mom passed away, she was met with silence from leadership. This is a conversation about grief, identity, boundaries, and what it looks like to walk away and rebuild your beliefs in a way that feels true to you.-Krystal’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@thequeen.krysKrystal’s podcast: https://tr.ee/HhQtrD3IE0-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Transcribe →64. Ex-Christian Nationalist: When 2016 Changed Everything (April Ajoy's Story)
Apr 2801:14:20Tap to summarizeApril Ajoy joins me to talk about growing up in Christian nationalism, where fear of the rapture, politics, and faith were deeply intertwined. She shares what it was like to be raised believing the end of the world was always around the corner, including a moment where she thought she had been left behind.We talk about her experience singing on conservative TV, making campaign videos, and the turning point that led her to start questioning everything. April now uses humor and satire to process it all, and we get into what deconstruction looked like for her and how she rebuilt her faith on her own terms.-April Ajoy’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@aprilajoy?lang=enApril Ajoy’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/aprilajoy/-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Transcribe →Purity Culture Dilemma: AITAH for Saying My Wife’s Virginity Didn’t Matter?
Apr 2401:20:31Tap to summarizeBethany Joy (a past Healed-ish guest) joins me to react to some wild and messy Reddit stories. We get into purity culture and a husband who said his wife’s virginity didn’t matter, a destination wedding dilemma, and what to do when someone calls themselves your husband’s “work wife.”We also talk about whether it’s ever okay to tell your sister she brought her situation on herself after a series of bad choices. Lots of opinions, lots of chaos, and definitely some moments where you’re going to pick a side.-The Overshare Hour: https://open.spotify.com/show/4rhjrn5AYvOKJnN0gIeSLm-Bethany’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@bethany_joyfulBethany’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/bethany_joy_ful Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns
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