S4 E11: When Worlds Collide

Summary

Podcast Summary: How I Died – S4E11: "When Worlds Collide"

Original Air Date: November 19, 2025
Podcast by: Audiohm Media

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Episode Overview

In "When Worlds Collide," Springfield's bodies are stacking up, raising questions and tension. Forensic pathologist Dr. Jonathan Spacer, cursed and gifted with the ability to talk to the dead, discovers his powers are gone after being dosed with a mysterious serum. As he grapples with the loss of his identity and expertise, a new case and increasing pressure from colleagues push John to find new ways to solve murders—and find himself—without the one ability that's always set him apart.

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Key Discussion Points & Insights

The Aftermath of Losing the Gift

• John is told that Ilya is dead and, disturbingly, there's no ghost present, marking the first hint that his powers are failing ([01:06]).
• John’s inability to see ghosts is discussed with growing alarm—it's implied the disappearance is sudden and perhaps linked to a vaccine or serum administered to him.
  • "Ilya is dead. And there's no ghost yet."—Dr. John Spacer ([01:06])
  • "I can't see ghost."—Dr. John Spacer ([01:45])

Medical Mystery and Fractured Trust

• John’s colleagues, especially Alex, Dan, and Officer Gibson, try to work out the medical implications, referencing tests and monitoring his condition ([02:34-03:25]).
• John feels isolated and betrayed, specifically confronting Alex for not being truthful with him ([01:29]):
  • "You lied to me again. I can't trust you."—Dr. John Spacer ([01:29])

Desperate for a Solution: Remote Forensics

• Dan suggests that John walk new crime scene tech Z Phillips through a remote investigation via video, hoping the familiar process might "jump start" his lost ability ([05:05–06:30]).
• John resists, frustrated at being forced into remote work and the bizarre suggestion he could spot ghosts over Zoom.
  • "Am I just supposed to see a ghost through the computer?"—Dr. John Spacer ([06:07])
  • The vignette exposes both the reliance John had on his supernatural gift and his discomfort with so-called “normal” forensic work.

Crime Scene Analysis – A Test of Real-World Skill

• The group investigates the gruesome case of a young man struck by a train—John must apply regular forensic skill, identifying body parts, interpreting tattoo evidence, and suggesting investigative steps, all while grappling with self-doubt ([07:14–12:19]).
• Dan exposes John's professional shortcutting via his ability:
  • "Most anyone doing your job would need to learn how to ID based on evidence. You don't have to."—Dan ([10:20])
• John snaps back, but admits he's "rusty," underscoring his reliance on the supernatural:
  • "It's been a while."—Dr. John Spacer ([10:31])

The “Gift” is Gone—And So is John’s Confidence

• John’s sense of self-worth is shaken further by the revelation that his blood is now “normal.” Dr. Lewis confirms the mutation’s absence:
  • "You're cured, Dr. Spacer. No more seeing ghosts. Ever. As far as I can tell. This is great news."—Dr. Lewis ([16:28])
• John reacts poorly, feeling grief, not relief—others, like Huck, explain how they look forward to losing their mutated senses, baffled by John’s anguish ([17:08–18:42]).
  • "I can't wait to get my vaccine."—Huck ([17:15])
  • "You don't get it. I needed my look."—Dr. John Spacer ([17:48])
  • "It wasn't a burden. I... I did this because I could talk to them. Bring them closure."—Dr. John Spacer ([18:04])

Moral and Existential Struggle

• John’s loss reveals how much he relied on his gift—not just to solve crimes but also to give meaning to his work and life.
• Huck challenges John’s defeatism:
  • "So you can't hear them. So what?... Now it just sounds like you're scared of change."—Huck ([18:17–18:42])

Looming Disaster and Final Bonds

• Alex reveals a machine—“Crochet”—is about to trigger another disastrous storm, the same phenomenon that led to Alex’s impending death ([19:46–20:11]).
• John confronts Alex about secrets, impending death, and what it means for their connection.
  • "After you die, even though I can't see you, you'll still be a ghost. I know you can't talk to me, but I can still figure out who killed you."—Dr. John Spacer ([21:45])
  • "I believe you."—Alex ([21:58])

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Notable Quotes & Memorable Moments

• On Losing Powers:

  • "I can't see ghost."—Dr. John Spacer ([01:45])
  • "You're cured, Dr. Spacer. No more seeing ghosts. Ever."—Dr. Lewis ([16:28])
  • "You don't get it. I needed my look."—Dr. John Spacer ([17:48])

• On Trust and Betrayal:

  • "You lied to me again. I can't trust you."—Dr. John Spacer ([01:29])
  • "Were you ever going to tell me?"—Dr. John Spacer ([12:59])

• On Coping and Identity:

  • "It's pointless."—Dr. John Spacer ([08:47])
  • "This is the way things worked for me and I just suddenly can't help it. Doesn't work anymore. How the fuck do I move on from that?"—Dr. John Spacer ([09:03])

• Dan’s Challenge:

  • "Most anyone doing your job would need to learn how to ID based on evidence. You don't have to."—Dan ([10:20])

• Huck’s Perspective:

  • "It's super annoying. And I can't wait for it to be gone."—Huck ([17:30])
  • "You can live your life however you want now. That's what I want to do."—Huck ([18:04])
  • "Now it just sounds like you're scared of change."—Huck ([18:42])

• On the Looming Storm:

  • "It's creating enough storm."—Alex ([19:52])
  • "I know you can't talk to me, but I can still figure out who killed you."—Dr. John Spacer ([21:45])

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Important Timestamps

• 01:06: John learns there's no ghost after Ilya's death.
• 01:29: John confronts Alex about betrayal and trust.
• 03:10: Medical evaluation; hints at a vaccine connection.
• 05:05–06:30: Dan introduces remote crime scene walk-through.
• 07:14: Crime scene with Z Phillips; John must rely on traditional forensic techniques.
• 10:07–10:55: Dan suggests John’s “cheating” at his job.
• 12:19: John admits he has no answers; struggles with feelings of inadequacy.
• 16:28: Dr. Lewis confirms John's mutation is gone; John officially loses his power.
• 17:08–18:42: Huck offers a contrasting, positive view about losing his abilities.
• 19:46: Alex shows John the active machine responsible for the oncoming storm.
• 21:45: John and Alex's emotionally loaded exchange about death and unfinished business.

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Tone & Key Themes

• The episode is dark, introspective, and laced with gallows humor. John’s world is upended; he oscillates between despair, anger, and resignation.
• Themes include trust, identity, the nature of scientific “cure,” and what it means to help or save others when forced into ordinary limitations.
• Interpersonal friction between John, Alex, Dan, and Huck highlights the diversity of responses to trauma, power, and change.

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In summary:
This episode explores what happens when an extraordinary individual loses their most defining trait. "When Worlds Collide" presses Dr. John Spacer to question not just how he solves crimes, but who he is at his core, as an impending disaster and broken trust threaten the lives, souls, and very existence of everyone in Springfield.

Transcript

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[Dr. John Spacer]

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[Dan]

John.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Ilya is dead. And there's no ghost yet.

[Narrator/Announcer]

This is a problem.

[Alex]

How long does it usually take?

[Dr. John Spacer]

There's no ghost.

[Alex]

John.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I can't.

[Alex]

I know you can't see a ghost. Does it usually take time?

[Dr. John Spacer]

I can't talk to you when I'm dead.

[Alex]

I realize this is bad.

[Dr. John Spacer]

No, you. You lied to me again. I can't trust you.

[Narrator/Announcer]

Get John to the med bay immediately.

[Alex]

You think this is a side effect of the vaccine?

[Dr. John Spacer]

It can't.

[Narrator/Announcer]

I can't move him now. We need to figure this out.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I can't see ghost.

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[Officer Gibson]

Vitals look normal.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Ow.

[Officer Gibson]

Oops.

[Alex]

Missed the van for the third time.

[Dr. John Spacer]

What can I say?

[Officer Gibson]

How do you feel?

[Dr. John Spacer]

I'm broken.

[Dan]

I'd love to get a peek at that brain of yours right now. Perhaps just a little biopsy.

[Alex]

A little procedure that requires you to cut into his skull.

[Dan]

Nonsense. Unliving people. We just use forceps up the nose. Got it.

[Officer Gibson]

I'm not seeing any changes in blood pressure. Heart rate.

[Dan]

EEG's normal, too.

[Officer Gibson]

Maybe when Dr. Lewis looks at the blood, she'll have an answer for us.

[Dr. John Spacer]

If you start to feel like you're growing a third arm or an extra.

[Officer Gibson]

Eye, let us know he's right. Any headache or pain in the extrem? Dr. Spacer?

[Dr. John Spacer]

John, can you leave?

[Alex]

What?

[Dr. John Spacer]

I don't want you around me. You're not getting a piece of my brain.

[Dan]

Fine. I have another idea for how I can help. Let me take you to my lab. I know of a fairly fresh cadaver. We can get you into an environment that feels familiar and see if we can jumpstart those Neurons.

[Dr. John Spacer]

There's no point. It's gone.

[Officer Gibson]

Maybe he's right. Dr. Spacer. Now, it's possible that the serum doesn't completely remove the effects, but maybe it just inhibits them. We haven't tested any on live subjects prior, but it's not like the creature suddenly turned back to human afterward. Submerging yourself into a situation where you were used seeing ghosts may help you, for lack of a better word, unblock it.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Amelia didn't suddenly become sane again after she cured herself. It's worth a shot.

[Officer Gibson]

And there isn't anything else we can do for you here until Dr. Lewis has time to look at the blood sample. And she is currently dealing with some administrative issues.

[Dan]

So what do you say, John?

[Dr. John Spacer]

The fresh cadaver is in Amelia. Right?

[Dan]

Heavens. Now.

[Dr. John Spacer]

What the hell is that?

[Dan]

It's a telecommunication network, Dr. John. Some people call it zoom.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I meant why am I in your office on a video call?

[Dan]

Turn off your blurred background, Z.

[Huck]

Sorry.

[Z Phillips]

There we go. Is that better?

[Dan]

She's a crime scene. Yes. Now, do you think you can walk through your process remotely?

[Dr. John Spacer]

Like to tell her what to do?

[Z Phillips]

I'm well aware on what to do. Mostly from the textbooks.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I'm sorry, Dan, this was a mistake.

[Dan]

This is Z Phillips, a friend of a friend who is newish to the San Francisco Police Department. A crime scene technician who is assisting the coroner.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I'm not doing this.

[Dan]

Again, well aware of what to do from the textbooks. From the textbooks, and you could use a little jolt. It's not like I could charter a helicopter and whisk you away to a crime scene. Iris would never allow it.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I can't just walk her through this job remotely. I need to be hands on.

[Dan]

Hands in someone, you mean. Is that what gets you going? Metaphorically speaking?

[Dr. John Spacer]

Am I just supposed to see a ghost through the computer?

[Dan]

I don't know the logistics of your ability. Do they not work in HD?

[Z Phillips]

Ghost?

[Dr. John Spacer]

Nothing.

[Dan]

Dr. John here can speak to the dead.

[Z Phillips]

Seriously?

[Dr. John Spacer]

He's joking.

[Dan]

You're still not accepting it?

[Dr. John Spacer]

You're supposed to be the skeptic.

[Dan]

Skeptics doubt, I disprove.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I'm sorry for wasting your time.

[Dan]

Z, if you could take us over behind the tape, please.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I'm not doing this. There's supposedly another fucking storm coming. This place is a nightmare.

[Dan]

Will it help ease your mind if I just confirmed it for you? Yes. Okay. There's another storm coming, but they'll evacuate us with plenty of time.

[Dr. John Spacer]

What? It's coming here?

[Dan]

Pick a priority, man. Seeing ghosts or stopping the storm? Go ahead. Zoom.

[Z Phillips]

Okay, heading in. You signed this off for detective.

[Officer Gibson]

Of course.

[Dan]

Of course. Just pan us around.

[Dr. John Spacer]

This is unbelievable.

[Z Phillips]

So right down there are the tracks.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Tracks?

[Dan]

I thought you weren't interested.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I'm not.

[Z Phillips]

A little slippery down the hill. Here we go. Can you see this?

[Dan]

It's dark.

[Z Phillips]

The sun's not fully up yet, but the first conductor out here called it in. Some kid, maybe 20, Latino, stepped right in front of the train. Obviously the driver couldn't slow down in time, so.

[Dan]

So the parts you mentioned are literal parts.

[Z Phillips]

Parts and pieces scattered all over. It's gonna be a hell of a time collecting.

[Dan]

I can imagine. Officer Gibson was first on the scene.

[Z Phillips]

That's right.

[Dan]

Ruled as an accidental death.

[Z Phillips]

Or someone ending his own life.

[Dr. John Spacer]

How the hell is this supposed to help me then?

[Dan]

Everything's give and take, John. That's life. We give a helping hand. Hopefully you can get your spark back. Or admit that there never was one.

[Dr. John Spacer]

And there we go.

[Z Phillips]

Alright, so I've got a hand here.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Jeez.

[Z Phillips]

Pretty mutilated. I think it's a hand.

[Dr. John Spacer]

It's a left hand. There's a fingerprint down the smaller joint. So you can tell that the thumb was on the other side.

[Dan]

What a gift.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Can you mute us, please? Do you know how crazy it makes me sound to tell someone I don't know that I can see ghosts?

[Dan]

Technically you can't anymore, right? Unless there's a 20 something Latino male we can't see floating off to the side of the tracks.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I told you I don't know how it'd work on camera. Even if I still could see them. It's pointless.

[Dan]

You're quite quick to give up.

[Dr. John Spacer]

What do you want me to do? Will it back?

[Dan]

That'd be a start. If it's true.

[Dr. John Spacer]

It was true.

[Dan]

Feel better?

[Dr. John Spacer]

You don't get it. How am I supposed to cope with this? This is the way things worked for me and I just suddenly can't help it. Doesn't work anymore. How the fuck do I move on from that? Uh, guys?

[Z Phillips]

Are you still muted?

[Dan]

Sorry about that.

[Z Phillips]

Everything okay?

[Dan]

Peachy.

[Z Phillips]

I got part of the neck. It looks like maybe a tattoo.

[Dan]

That'll help you I.D. this kid, right?

[Z Phillips]

Maybe. Dr. John.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I don't know how to help you, Z. Oh, okay.

[Z Phillips]

I just thought that maybe you had experience with identifying. Based on tattoos.

[Dan]

I think it seems like Dr. John never had to learn how to do that.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Stop it.

[Dan]

Excuse me. We were mid conversation.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Be right back.

[Dan]

Are we in some sort of power struggle with the mouse?

[Dr. John Spacer]

This isn't funny, Dan.

[Dan]

I honestly think it's kind of hilarious. Are you actually bad at your job?

[Dr. John Spacer]

What are you talking about?

[Dan]

That's it, isn't it? Say for a second that your gift was real. You can talk to the dead. So you can either see them or ask him directly who they are, right?

[Dr. John Spacer]

Right.

[Dan]

That's cheating.

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[Dan]

Most anyone doing your job would need to learn how to ID based on evidence. You don't have to.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I still learned.

[Dan]

How did you. When's the last time you had to use it?

[Dr. John Spacer]

It's been a while.

[Dan]

So you're rusty. Are we not here to unrust you?

[Dr. John Spacer]

God.

[Alex]

Z.

[Dr. John Spacer]

You can take part of this skin as a sample. Look under a microscope to identify the type of ink used in the tattoo. That'll give us a first start if it was a legitimate tattoo or maybe something made while in prison.

[Dan]

Did they teach you racial profiling in your studies, too?

[Dr. John Spacer]

It's not. It's standard testing procedure. Once we know the type of ink, you can try to piece parts of the skin back together to make a clear picture. Then we have an officer ask around the local shops for identification or show it to families, people who reported anyone missing. Piece it back together if you find enough parts. Did you scrape the cow catcher?

[Z Phillips]

The what?

[Dr. John Spacer]

The front of the train. The grill. It's called a cow catcher because the old trains used to. Did you scrape it?

[Alex]

Not yet.

[Dr. John Spacer]

It's just a good place to look for more skin.

[Dan]

Look at you, Dr. John.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Do you know how the guy was hit? Like where?

[Z Phillips]

Straight on, according to the driver.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Straight on?

[Z Phillips]

Yeah, he just kind of stood there or kneeled there in front of the train. Didn't even try to move.

[Dr. John Spacer]

That's odd.

[Dan]

Not if he wanted to end his life.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I mean, statistically, it's weird. People who do this, especially in front of trains, they're usually the kind that throw themselves in front of it. Like it takes a. Like it takes a big burst to actually do it. It's a lot to convince yourself to step in front of one, let alone stand there and not move. Was he injured?

[Z Phillips]

It's gonna be hard to tell with all his stuff everywhere. So, murder, Accident. I gotta let the coroner know.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I don't. I don't have an answer. It's just a hunch. I could be wrong.

[Dan]

So nobody's telling you I killed him?

[Dr. John Spacer]

No.

[Alex]

Iris asked me to get you.

[Dr. John Spacer]

We're working on something. John.

[Alex]

She's finished looking at the blood sample.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I'll come when I'm ready.

[Dan]

Dr. John.

[Dr. John Spacer]

What?

[Dan]

Your instincts on this were strong. Maybe you never had anyone else telling you that after all. Except that gut, that brain.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Shut up, Dan.

[Alex]

John, wait. Wait up.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Were you ever going to tell me?

[Alex]

Iris asked to fill you in?

[Dr. John Spacer]

Not about the blood test. I know so. Well then we have nothing to talk about.

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[Narrator/Announcer]

Dr. Lewis, back here. I have great news.

[Dr. John Spacer]

What do the results say?

[Narrator/Announcer]

It's remarkable. Truly remarkable.

[Dr. John Spacer]

You can still see the mutation in my blood, right?

[Narrator/Announcer]

No, I. Alex, did you not prepare him?

[Alex]

Good news for Iris isn't the same as good news for you, John.

[Dr. John Spacer]

You were hoping to see that the mutation is gone.

[Narrator/Announcer]

And it's absolutely amazing. Look for yourself. Your blood cells look healthy and normal.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Normal? With no trace of mutation. To my eyes.

[Narrator/Announcer]

None at all. It's like it never even existed.

[Alex]

John.

[Dr. John Spacer]

No.

[Alex]

John, Sit down.

[Dr. John Spacer]

You're sure? It's completely gone.

[Narrator/Announcer]

You're cured, Dr. Spacer. No more seeing ghosts. Ever. As far as I can tell. This is great news. You're our first successful patient. And now we can have our lab work on synthesizing a similar vaccine.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Do you want some water?

[Alex]

Maybe we should get the med bay guys. Iris.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Don't touch me.

[Narrator/Announcer]

Oh dear. He's turned white.

[Alex]

John, you look like you're gonna pass out.

[Huck]

And how do you feel about it? Silly question. I could have guessed by the whole passing out thing. But for real, what's the big deal?

[Dr. John Spacer]

It's a huge fucking deal.

[Huck]

Why? No, I'm serious. I can't wait to get my vaccine.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Really?

[Huck]

Do you know how annoying it is to see heat signatures on everything? You know those really cheesy looking spy movies where they use like a thermal scope or whatever? Oh, like Call of Duty. You ever play those?

[Dr. John Spacer]

Just leave me alone.

[Huck]

Well, it's like that whatever someone touches just glows.

[Nordstrom Shopper]

Red.

[Huck]

Then orange, yellow, white. And it finally fades. I can't even see the real color of half the things inside just because somebody's been near it. It's super annoying. And I can't wait for it to be gone. I'm guessing that whole being pestered by ghosts thing was similar. Like, aren't they everywhere? No, but still annoying.

[Dr. John Spacer]

You don't get it. I needed my look.

[Huck]

If you were doing your job before because you felt like you had to, or you were supposed to, and your power's a burden, then fine, you can do something else. You can live your life however you want now. That's what I want to do.

[Dr. John Spacer]

It wasn't a burden. It. I. I don't know. I did this because I could talk to them. Bring them closure.

[Huck]

And why exactly can't you do that now?

[Dr. John Spacer]

Weren't you paying attention? It's gone.

[Huck]

Oh, quit sulking. So you can't hear them. So what? They can still see you. You know they Exist. So what's the problem? People die. You do your job and maybe talk out loud a little, and you know you're helping someone. Nothing has to change. Except maybe you have to work harder to find an answer. Now it just sounds like you're scared of change.

[Alex]

Sorry to interrupt.

[Huck]

We were just finishing up. I'll leave you two to talk.

[Alex]

How are you holding up?

[Dr. John Spacer]

You're gonna die soon.

[Alex]

Less than nine hours. Does that make you feel better at least? Maybe you hate me a little less. Come with me. I. I want to show you something.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I'm done with you and your secrets. All I've been doing for weeks now is being blindly led around this place in the dark. Fuck you. Fuck your secrets. Fuck this place.

[Alex]

Please, John. After this, you never need to talk to me again. Literally. Down the other hole with all the scientists. This is what we're all working for.

[Dr. John Spacer]

That's. What did Mike call it?

[Alex]

Crochet?

[Dr. John Spacer]

It's active.

[Alex]

It's creating enough storm.

[Dr. John Spacer]

When?

[Alex]

Soon.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Is it what kills you?

[Alex]

Not according to the timeline. The storm is in a few days. Everyone here will be leaving. It'll be a small blast, very little dissipation, according to the. The team.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Great. So only a few hundred people will die.

[Alex]

No one will die. I made Iris promise.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I'm sure that did a lot of good.

[Alex]

I'm sorry, John. You wouldn't understand. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have lied.

[Dr. John Spacer]

How can you be okay with this? Knowing what you know, knowing what the storm did to you? I.

[Alex]

I don't think I am.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Why are you showing me?

[Alex]

Because I think. Sorry, I. I can't stay here. Because I think that it's time for a change. I'll be in the lab with Huck and Eugene tonight. He still doesn't believe me. Heck, he thinks if I'm right in the center of the room, he can keep an eye on me. Huck doesn't need to sleep. I'll see you around, John. It was nice to get to know you.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Are you. I don't know. Ready?

[Alex]

As I'll ever be, I guess.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Would Dr. Lewis care if I came to the lab tonight, too? Even though I can't.

[Alex]

You know, she's busy with the vaccine team.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Alex, if something happens to you. Definitely will. Well, when? Just stick around, okay?

[Alex]

What do you mean?

[Dr. John Spacer]

After you die, even though I can't see you, you'll still be a ghost. I know you can't talk to me, but I can still figure out who killed you.

[Alex]

I believe you.

[Dr. John Spacer]

How I died is an audio Media Original production written by Vince Dejani with layout and sound design by Chris Harris Beachy and executive produced by Michael Freiberg Theme song created by Silent Mike Music Starring Shana Waring as Sheriff Crowley Luis Bermudez as Eric Mendez Kaitlyn Roberts as Amelia Chris Harris Beachy as Officer Hart and Agent Squires Guancarlo Herrera as Alex Juliet Ann Jelly as Dr. Iris also featuring performances by Albie Robles, Anthony Morales, Maya Murphy, June Yoon, Bea Gnar, Nicholas Contreras, Alejandro Pedroza, Mick Wheaton, R.E.M. isaac Monroe, Nassim Enelcore, Nick Bean, Angela Yee, Ray O', Hare, Gauthier Horber, Vin Vox, Melissa Lusk, D.W. draffin, Patrick Langner, Robert Echols, Karen Heyman and Tyler rudis. Check out patreon.com howidied for bonus content, ad free episodes and exclusive exclusive miniseries. If you're enjoying the show, don't forget to rate on your preferred podcast app. It really helps us get in front of new listeners. Until next time, try not to die.

[Vulgar History Host]

Oh the Regency Era. You might know it as the time when Bridgerton takes place or the time when Jane Austen wrote her books, but the Regency Era was also an explosive time of social change, sex scandals and maybe the worst king in British history. And on the Vulgar History podcast, we're going to be looking at the balls, the gowns and all the scandal of the Regency era. Vulgar History is a women's history podcast and our Regency Era series will be focusing on the most rebellious women of this time. That includes Jane Austen herself, who is maybe more radical than you might have thought. We'll also be talking about queer icons like Anne Lister, scientists like Mary Anning and Ada Lovelace, as well as other scandalous actresses, royal mistresses, rebellious princesses and other lesser known figures who made history happen in England in the Regency era. Listen to Vulgar History wherever you get podcasts.

[Narrator/Announcer]

There are names that echo in the world of true crime. Names that carry unanswered questions. Oakley Carlson, A five year old girl who deserved safety, protection and love. Yet the system built to protect her failed and Oakley disappeared. Her community still calls her name.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Or Ellen Greenberg, found in her locked apartment with 20 stab wounds, a case declared a suicide. But how does a locked apartment tell two different stories at once?

[Narrator/Announcer]

These are not just cases we have covered. They are people. They were loved and they mattered.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Their stories deserve to be told with care, with depth, with truth.

[Narrator/Announcer]

I'm Ashley.

[Dr. John Spacer]

And I'm Ricky.

[Narrator/Announcer]

We are the husband and wife duo behind Crime Salad.

[Officer Gibson]

Every week we uncover stories of the.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Missing, the silence, the misunderstood.

[Officer Gibson]

We ask the questions that were left behind. We refuse to let these stories be.

[Narrator/Announcer]

Forgotten, because behind every case is a family holding on, a community seeking answers, and a story that deserves to be heard.

[Officer Gibson]

We invite you to listen to Crime.

[Narrator/Announcer]

Salad, your healthy portion of true crime. Wherever you get your podcasts.