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Sometimes we have to disrupt ourselves. We have to purposely go and disrupt our life. You know, there comes a time when we've built this life, and, you know, we formed these habits and we crafted an identity, but then it starts to suffocate us. It starts to feel like a cage. And doesn't mean something is necessarily wrong, because it's actually, we built something nice. Just means something is missing and, like, the rhythm of our days, you know, we have carefully orchestrated them, but they begin to feel repetitive. You know, we can get bored of ourselves, not because we lack creativity, but because we've put ourselves in a box that we refuse to break. And when we experience success, often what happens is we get new connections, validation for the version of ourselves that we built. And then sometimes it just makes sense to stay the same because it worked. But one thing I love about artists, and we all have an artistic spirit in us. We all have an inner artist. Artists, true artists, evolve and push the boundaries. And so must. And so must we with our. And we need to do the exact same thing with ourselves. Sometimes we have to disrupt ourselves. You know, this weekend was my birthday, so I decided to go out into the city and just, you know, walk around. And I wasn't really in the best mood when I woke up. I'm kind of like that on my birthday. I'm, like, not really a big celebrator. I'll still, like, you know, chill. But, like, I'm not really, like, telling people it's my birthday. Like, I'll go do my own thing. But instead of. Instead of staying in that funk, you know, I went into the city, pulled up to my favorite tea shop, and when I walked in, the lady behind the counter recognized me, and she was full of energy. Like, she was smiling. She's animated. Her mannerisms were so fun. Like, she was just. We were just, like, dancing in our shared love for tea. And it completely transformed my mood. Like, I was in a very meh type of energy. And when I walked out that store, I was, like, high on new vibes just from the exchange of energy. Even bought a beautiful new tea set. I think I spent, like, $250 on tea stuff. But in that moment, I realized, man, like, lately, life has been extremely isolating. My environment that was once so much open space and solitude, and I. And I cherished it has now become repetitive where that extreme isolation and solitude really isn't as fun. And then I kept walking, and I'm just reflecting on, like, you know, what do I want to do? Where do I Want to be, you know, where do I want to live? And I always had, like, these different goals and destination points for a few years down the road, right? A few years down the road when my daughter gets a little bit older. But then I realized, I'm like, you're putting life on pause a little. A little bit. Way too much. Always saying that there will be a better time, a better day. I just asked myself, I'm like, the life that we're living right now, can you live this way for another 18 months? And then I just had, like, this deep sigh. I was like, no, I need change. I need something new right now in my life. I need to disrupt something. Even if I want to create new things, I need to be in a new environment. I need to see new things. I need to have a different morning routine. I need to hang out at a different cafe. Maybe I need to drive longer in the morning to bring my daughter to school. But listening to my favorite podcast, maybe I need a new routine. Whatever it may be, we can disrupt our life even in the smallest ways that inspires beautiful change. So then I had, like, this, like, intuition where I was like, you know what? What if I just go and I find a beautiful space that I truly want to live in? Like, one that I feel like I would be so excited to move into downtown. Don't even wait. Just. Let's just do it now, me and my daughter, we go live downtown. Yeah, we'll have to drive a little bit longer to school, but that's okay. And I go look, and I see a spot. I'm like, wow, this is beautiful. And I was like, how would that feel to be in there? And I'm like, man, I can already see. I'd be a lot more creative. I could walk outside, two minutes. The beach is right there. I was like, let me go see this place. Within 24 hours, I saw this place and secured it. Just like that. Just like that. Something that I've been telling myself that I have to wait years for, that I put on pause. I just went and I got it done because I realized it was time to disrupt my routine. Everything has gotten too repetitive to the point even my inner world was starting to feel repetitive. Like I was getting tired of myself. That can happen. And then that day, my birthday, I just went on throughout the city, just having, like, beautiful engagements, realizing that's what I want. I want to be able to wake up and get outside and just have these, like, natural little conversations and connections and engagements with strangers just at the coffee Shop or over here or over there and just take that energy with me and play with it. And where I live right now, I don't have those opportunities because I'm like, in the forest. It's really just me. But, you know, I went to sushi, had, like a beautiful culinary experience, had some more conversations there, Went to the barber shop, a new barber shop. And when I walked in, a few of them recognized me from the YouTube channel. So that was nice, you understand? And then by the end of the day, I was just full of so much energy. And it wasn't because I did anything extravagant. It was just because I allowed life to happen to me in a new way. I wasn't allowing to happen before. Humans, we are very much like creatures of habit, you know, and once we find, like a good habit and routine, sometimes we just become obsessed with it because it's working. And we find safety in the known, in routines that keep life manageable and predictable. And there's comfort in knowing what comes next and having a defined role and meeting expectations that we have set. But sometimes too much comfort can be a slow sedative. Too much of it and we lose the hunger to explore. We start mistaking ease for peace, forgetting that real fulfillment also comes from challenge, change, and disruption, right? Like, when was the last time you truly disrupted yourself? Surprised yourself not by external achievements, but by your own evolution? When was the last time you let yourself become something so different, so unfamiliar even to yourself? You know, we often crave new experiences, yet we resist becoming new people ourselves. We want to change without disrupting our identity. But growth is a form of disruption. You know, like, to evolve, we must be willing to let go of sometimes what we built or who we are and be a little bit more flexible, even if that version of ourself brought us pride and joy. Like my current environment I'm in right now, it was literally perfect. I crafted it perfect. The most perfect ecosystem. And I've been here for four years, but now it's become incredibly redundant. It's not inspiring. I'm like, I need to switch it up. And I also noticed something. My whole life, I've never lived in one spot longer than four years. By the time I was in Grade 2, I went to five different schools. So my body naturally starts to get this itch, like, yo, it's been four years. We need to move. And if I don't listen to that call, everything in my life becomes a little bit more bland. I even experienced this with my own social media. You know, like, I get Bored very easily. Like, I kind of birthed a new genre on social media like back in 2020. And often people send me pages and say, oh my God, this person reminds me of you. Or this person seems like they were inspired by you. And 99% of the time the person's following me. And once I started to see my own influence in the world, I got extremely bored of myself because I'm like, oh, like I, I like doing something different. I, I like being even a contrarian to myself if I have to be. And now that I'm going to be exploring in a new environment and just completely like changing my home and going to be decorating a whole new place and having a new morning routine and instead of waking up and going into the forest, now I'm going to be waking up and going to the ocean. I'm disrupting my norm. Every day will be new again. Even in the small micro engagements. Disrupting your life doesn't always mean making drastic changes. You don't have to quit your job or like, move to another country. Sometimes it's just about designing your life in a way that invites more curiosity and, and spot and, and a little bit more spontaneous. Like engagements and events, like, you know, more connection, more life switching up. Or maybe you're in the reverse, right? Like, maybe you've had so much stimulation and you need a season where there's more open space and quiet and isolation like I've had for the last four years. But even just switching up your daily routine in the smallest ways can shift your energy. Like when I was in that tea shop with the lady me, we were just like vibing. I was like, man, energy is so contagious. And I love, like, I, I love just going out and I can have the best time by myself, but go out about and just like engage with like random strangers at different shops, like, and stuff like that. Like to me, like, it's a great time, but I was only doing that like once a month and I'm like, no, I kind of need that like on an everyday basis now. Even just like changing your, the route you take to work or working in a different cafe or ordering different food on the menu from your favorite restaurant for once, or rearranging your home, like just disrupting whatever you can to see what happens. Walking through a new neighborhood, you know, stopping in a new bookstore, or just like choosing a completely random restaurant that you've never been to in your life, right? It doesn't even have to be planned, just a little bit of disruption. It's really like building something new. It's. It's a new construction. Society celebrates consistency and consistency so good. But not all consistency is beneficial. Like, staying true to your core values is different from staying trapped in an outdated identity or, like, lifestyle. We should ask ourselves, are we being authentic or we. Are we just being too repetitive? Are we committed to our truth or are we just afraid to change? Are we making excuses again? I've been making the excuse that I can't move anywhere out of my little environment that I crafted for like two years. And then one day on Saturday, I just decided, no, I'm gonna not. I'm just gonna change that. And like, how often do you decide you go and get a new place and within one day you get the place that you truly want. You know, it's like I made that, you know, I just, I made that intention. I had conviction. And then it's like it all came together beautifully. And look, I'm so excited. I'm actually really excited to create content in there as well. I'm still gonna keep my studio in the forest, but then I'm going to have my house in the city. These are just the questions we need to explore with ourselves. Are we committed to our truth or are we just afraid to change? We must allow ourselves to evolve, to disrupt our own patterns, to surprise ourselves. Evolution isn't betrayal, it's necessary. Rumi once said, try not to resist the changes that come your way. Instead, let life live through you. Let life live through you. Are you allowing life to live through you? Are you blocking life yourself? And for me, I realized I was blocking life. I was blocking life. And to evolve, we must surrender to the flow of our own becoming, even when it dismantles the version of ourselves we once took pride in. A lot of us will build a beautiful version of ourselves, and then we will outgrow that version. Then you have to have the courage to expand even further. It means stepping away from what is expected of you and embracing the unknown. We are not meant to live as a single version of ourselves for eternity. I think we are meant to unfold, to shed skin, to walk through the doorways we never knew existed. But unfortunately, often we just remain trapped within our own limits. And then we accept it again. It doesn't have to be a drastic shift. Maybe will be a drastic shift, but it could be tiny shifts throughout your day that will spark inspiration and more creation. You know, even FKA Twigs, she mentioned she can't make new art if she is surrounded by past versions of Herself. And that's how I felt in my home right now. I'm like, this home just has a lot of old, stagnant energy. And I'm like, it's suffocating me. Like, suffocating. I'm like, I need to get out of here. And once I realize I need to get out and move, boom. It just happened. When you feel yourself outgrowing or growing restless, when your days begin to, like, blur into one another, and when inspiration no longer visits you, it is time to disrupt yourself. It is time to disrupt something in your life, Change it up. Time to move in a new way that feels uncomfortable. To allow yourself to change in ways that even you don't fully understand it. You know what's interesting? Even myself, I was like, oh, you know, I'm going to put on events one day and go tour and stuff like that. I'm like, why don't I even do that in my own city? I'm like, I could just do that in my own city first. Like, I could do these things. But again, I had life on pause. Let go of the idea. You must remain the same. To be loved as well, to be respected as well, to be understood again. Some of us have built ourselves up so beautifully, but we're growing past that version of ourselves. But we're afraid because we were loved for this version of ourselves. We were respected for this version of ourselves. But we had to have the courage to expand past, to understand the ones that love us will come closer, and the ones that don't can simply move another way. Even if it's just like adopting a new spirit in this season. Speaking differently, dressing differently, Move differently. Let your thoughts contradict your past beliefs. Allow yourself to be new. Allow yourself to have a new creation form within you. We often think we must find ourselves before we can change. But through change, we can truly meet that new version of ourselves. And that's where we just step into discomfort with reverence, knowing that discomfort is a doorway to something even greater. When was the last time you placed yourself in an unfamiliar space? Not to prove something, but just to simply expand? The Sufis say you were born with wings. Why prefer to crawl through life? Our lives shrink to the size of our habits. And if we are not careful, we will confuse repetition for mastery. Now, repetition is beautiful. It is good in many ways. But I believe true mastery is also fluid. It is adaptable. It moves with the seasons. And we need to move with the seasons as well. We are not the roles we have played, the labels that we have worn Or. Or the expectations that we have carried, we are something much wilder, much freer. You are allowed to change your mind. You are allowed to outgrow what once made sense to you. You are allowed to step into a version of yourself that you don't even fully understand yet. Think of the great artists, poets and thinkers. They did not become who they were by staying the same. They allowed themselves to be misunderstood, to be experimental, to let go of the old ways for something much deeper. They embraced disruption as a necessary part of the creative process. And we are artists as well, of our own lives, our own becoming. So if you feel stuck, restless, or uninspired, it's not a sign of failure, but it's a call to movement, to reinvention, to break this shape you have been holding for too long. Because you are not meant to remain in whatever box you're meant to stretch, to evolve, to be reborn again and again and again and again. This is not an act of losing yourself. It is the most profound way of finding yourself. Who will you become next? I really didn't realize how much my environment was draining me until I stepped out of it for a second, because I crafted it so beautiful that it looked beautiful, it made sense, but there was something missing. And it just reminded me that life isn't always about these big moments, but it's those micro moments, those little things throughout your day that can just, like, heighten your mood. The tiny shifts that create a ripple effect. You know, like this podcast is a ripple effect. That's why I make it that I hope 10, 15 minutes of your time can elevate your mood, and then you carry that energy with you throughout the day. And maybe you have a conversation with a stranger and you're in just good energy, and now you've heightened their mood, and we just keep the energy flowing. And just remember, if you're feeling stuck, maybe it's not you, but maybe it's your environment. Maybe you just need to shake things up a little bit. So this is your invitation to disrupt yourself. Not in a way that feels overwhelming, but in a way that feels exciting. I actually told myself, I'm like, I will not move into a new place unless I'm utterly excited about the place. And luckily, I am. So step outside of your norm. You know, break the pattern if you feel like you need to create space for something new to find you as well. Because at the end of the day, life is meant to be experienced, my friend. And sometimes all it takes is a small shift to open up a whole new world. We might as well actually live it. And you done know in hindsight every ting gonna be alright. It's a vibe ting I'll be powered by. See you soon.