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Good morning, good morning, good morning, good afternoon. Hey. Or maybe it's good evening where you are. You know, today we're going to ground ourselves. Today we're going to make sure that we, you know, that we pour into ourselves because, whoa, I'm not going to lie. I woke up as if my body and my spirit felt a little bruised. Oh, yeah. I woke up and was like, no, not today. You know those type of days, don't you? Actually, man, this whole week, actually, maybe the last two weeks, it's as if I've been, you know, constantly unraveling. But it happens, you know, the human experience. I always say we can't cherry pick the experiences that we just like. Now, at some point, we're gonna have to navigate through the whole spectrum. And I mention this a lot because I think we hear it, we know it, but how often do we fully embody it? You know, we try to escape it. A lot of us, you know, we want the expansion without the contraction, you know, the clarity without the fog. You know, we want the mountaintop. This success without the valley of despair that earned it. But I truly believe that the whole spectrum, all of it, it's strangely beautiful. That's actually a word lately that I love, is strangely beautiful. I'm like, I want to explore the things that are just so strangely beautiful. Not the things that are obviously beautiful, but strangely beautiful. I think there's a lot to uncover there. And I actually think that's where we actually discover things, feel things, we create meaning. And where we meet not just ourselves, but the one whose image were made in as well crafted by as well. You know, I truly believe there's a divinity within us. Even though sometimes I forget as well, you know, there's a spark, you know, we've all felt it, you know, something so powerful that even in our most scattered and depleted moments, you know, I believe it's still there. You are still held, you are still protected. Even in the escape, you are still covered. And this morning, when I felt that bruise to my spirit, you know, I went back to something that I often go to when I feel that, you know, it's a song, it's a mantra by Taurus Riley. It goes, jaja run things. That's the title of the song. And there's one line in there that I've said to myself more times than I can recount. Times where I've been wrapped in my blanket, knowing I gotta get up for the day. But first, just like, wait, Ja guide I nigh be with I, you know, that's it. I will repeat to myself like a mantra meaning the divine God, the most high, guide I, and I, you know, be with I, which simply just means the divine be with me. No separation, no hesitation. Guide me in all that I do. It's kind of like surrender language, but in the most powerful, humbling way. You know, it's kind of strangely beautiful, you know, necessary. And for me, it's always a very honest saying. It's very true. I lean on that line the way you lean on a wall when you're, you know, when your legs are tired, when you just need something solid to, you know, press against. But this morning, I kind of said it slightly different. Just slightly. This morning I said, ja, guide I, and I be with I, and I'm ready to be with you again. And was that ready again? I am ready again. That was. That was the tiny difference that I clocked, because I wasn't just asking to be held and to be protected. No, we're saying that we're ready, that I want to meet you, I want to show up. I'm not just trying to receive, then look away. No, we're trying to return again. You know, there's a difference between asking the divine to find you and help you and telling the divine that you're on your way back. And that word again simply means, you know, I know what it feels like to be fully present in myself. We all do. We've had those sweet spot moments where we're fully available to ourselves and something bigger than ourselves. It's a beautiful thing. But sometimes we drift. Well, not fully lost now, but just elsewhere. Not right here, centered right now. And we've all been there, right, because we're sharing the same human experience. That's why I do this podcast. Just a gentle guide through the human experience, you know. But this morning, something in me said, I'm ready to come back, ready to unravel. And the season before the return, that's what it feels like. The season before the return, before we take flight, many of us need to recognize that truth that you are in the season of the return, that, yeah, you're about to be ready again or you are ready again. It's kind of like a professional athlete or like a football player, a basketball player, soccer player. You know, they go down with an injury mid season, you know, sprained ankle, torn something, whatever it is, and they're out. And like, you think the hardest part of that while they're out of the game is the physical pain, but it's actually not the hardest part is watching the season continue without you. Life moving while you don't know how to move with it or where to move. You're kind of stagnant. You're stuck. You're unraveling. And the truth is, if you jump back in too early, what happens? You risk so much of yourself, so in the meantime, you're left wondering if the version of you that comes back will even recognize themselves or will be even able to come back and play again. You know, the question of who I am becoming becomes genuinely scary. You know, I feel like that anytime I'm not in the content creation game, like, I'm not active, I feel like a piece of my identity is up for question. A part of my becoming is up to question. And sometimes those questions are just frightening. They feel threatening. Like, what if I come back and I just don't resonate the way I used to resonate? What if my love is simply not there for the game as it used to be? What if that fire never burns the same again? You know, And a lot of us have been in those questions in that tunnel, drifting, moving slower than we used to, noticing that our courage maybe isn't what it used to be. And our confidence simply has less evidence. And some of us, our capacity to love and be loved, well, we've been a little bit more guarded than before because we've been unraveling. We're in a season of protection and grief, grieving who we were before the version of us that was so certain, you know, that showed up each day, that had that fire to them. But then the fire dwindled and changed shape, and the new shape is still figuring out how to move through the world. It's natural, right? Like, understand, like, pretty much everything you go through is a natural part of the human experience. It's natural. So if it's natural, it's not wrong. It's just a part of the process. I think many of us may feel like this before a butterfly becomes the actual butterfly. It actually thinks it's dying. Imagine that, you in a cocoon, you think you dying, genuinely believing it's over for you. And then you blossom into the most beautiful thing ever. And then if you actually, like, look into it, like, study it a little bit scientifically, the caterpillar's body, like, partially liquefies, melts. It's like chemical chaos that somehow assembles into wings. Some of us are in our own chaos right now, melting. We actually feel like we are evaporating, unraveling with no clue, no idea how we are going to get up and thrive, but not realizing we are actually about to blossom. We are transforming. Many of us are in that liquefaction phase. Same essence, but different form. But one thing. Growing up, nobody tells you that becoming can feel like disappearing, that becoming can feel like disappearing. Who you are becoming, which is exciting, which is fruitful, which is powerful, which is so strong, at the same time, can feel like you are disappearing because there are major parts of you that are dying. Just like the butterfly, generally thinking it's over, not realizing it's about to fly. But the falling apart is the point, right? The falling apart is. Is the point. The old shape has to go. The old life has to go. The old mindset you used to carry has to go. Because you cannot carry it into where you are going, my friend. It wouldn't fit. Same essence, different form. And the difference is still learning how to breathe in this body and how to be in these seasons. And the truth is the grief of that. Yeah, it is lonely. It is difficult, because nobody around you knows exactly what you lost or what you're losing. They see you, you're still here. You still look the same, you're still moving, still showing up in the same form, but you can feel something shifting. And sometimes the things that felt effortless now take everything out of you. I feel like that, you know, even with this podcast, like, there was a point where this podcast was so effortless. And then there's seasons where it feels like it takes everything from me. Like, just thinking about it, I'm like, no, I can't go there right now. That's why I disappear. But I really do believe there's a new season forming within me where this podcast just starts to blossom beautifully, consistently. Same essence, but different form. But I always like to remind myself that even in that liquefaction phase, even in the dissolving, even in the season where you don't recognize yourself the way you used to, the divine is still there. That spark is still there. It never liquefied. That didn't change shape. That's the one thing that stays fixed while everything else finds its new form. You still and always have that light and that divine protection within you and all around you. And this morning, when I was thinking about it, I was like, maybe the prayer wasn't really about announcing that I'm back or, you know, performing a return. But I realized maybe it's just reconnecting to the thing that was in us all along that never left. You know, that light, that spark, that divinity. That beauty. And then I was looking out the blinds and I realized, yeah, you know, many of us have been in a season where we have closed the blinds to the world, but we've been opening the possibilities to ourselves again. If you think about it, I remember in high school I took photography, we had a dark room and everything. And a photographer in a dark room. You don't expose the film to every light source. You control what comes in and when. Because too much light too fast doesn't develop the image, it actually ruins it. So you see, a lot of us may be thinking that we've been moving a little bit slower. Maybe you've been thinking you haven't been evolving as fast as you would like and the world might be getting less of you right now, but that does not mean that you are disappearing. You are developing. You are in the dark room and something is becoming visible and this return. So if you felt maybe like a little bruise today, you know that's okay. You know, if you've been feeling like you've been moving slower than you think you should, you know that's okay too. If your courage has been quieter and if your confidence has had less evidence behind it, you might just be in a season of protection, of waiting, of healing, of becoming intimate with yourself in a way where those louder, more extravagant seasons simply don't allow for. You might just be in a season of protection, of waiting, of healing, of becoming intimate with yourself again in a way where those latter seasons don't allow much space. For regardless of the space that you are in, even if it's uncomfortable, it is strangely beautiful because it is doing something for you. And you don't have to be fully healed to begin returning. You just have to be willing to move in that direction again. That's enough. You are ready again. And yet, Dan Naunhein said every ting is going to be more than alright.