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I suffered all this time in pain. I lived my life 90% in pain. And so while I was still giving to the world and helping people birth things and helping people do things, I wasn't able to give wholeheartedly to my own business like I was doing to others. But I also wasn't able to give birth to a child. And it wasn't until years later and I was told I had less than 1% chance of conceiving a child. My daughter's now 9.
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You have been gifted with artistry. You've been gifted with being able to design websites, register while on camera. Well spoken. You've been given these gifts to now pivot and be essentially a beacon.
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I didn't go through that for just me. I went through that for all the many other women that still don't have a diagnosis, still don't. You know, still trying to conceive, still trying to birth. And the cool thing is, my name.
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Is Rudy Moore, host of Living the Red Life Podcast, and I'm here to change the way you see your life in your earpiece every single week. If you're ready to start living the red life, ditch the blue pill.
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Take the red pill.
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Join me in wonderland and change your life.
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Welcome back to another amazing episode of Living the Red Life Podcast for Inside Success. I am Ray Gutierrez. Joining me today is Diana Nicole Murray or Murray.
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It sounded great the way you said.
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We'Ll do Murray, a woman in power. You're literally on. On the cusp of filming your episode. I was able to grab you and do your podcast today. Welcome to the Red Life. How are you?
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Thank you for having me. I feel great.
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Fantastic. Welcome to Miami. It's very warm today, as it should be. But the real reason why it's warm, you see that segue? It's because of you. What are we going to learn about you today in your Woman in Power episode?
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We're going to learn about essentially my why, why I do the things that I do, why I'm so passionate, why it's ingrained into my soul. I don't just do it because I like it, but that I'm called to it. And so I'm excited to share it.
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I love how you're. How you've recognized the signals that you're being called to something and that you recognize your why, but you weren't born with this knowledge. Let's figure out the moment you figured out your why, who were you? The day before you figured out your why, who were you?
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I was a kid that loved to Create. I knew that I always had a passion for creating, making what was in the mind and that was thought of a vision, a creative idea and making that tangible. Like I knew that as a child and fell in love with it. What I didn't know was that it had a deeper meaning to that. So. Which is why you'll, you know, you'll know more about my story through the episode that I'm doing because it's going to be talking about how those two worlds of design and women's reproductive health, how they merge and how it's all about birthing something great.
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Right on. Well, I gotta admit, I'm a very visual person and I was, I was taken aback by your look. I love the hair, love your vibe. Talk about your morning ritual. I know this is a bizarre question, but there's a, there's a point here. What's your morning ritual? When you wear your exterior, when you wear your coat of armor, when you put this together, who are you?
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It's interesting because my look is just an outward expression about who I am internally. And first and foremost, I'm a believer of Christ. And so what is inside that inner beauty, I want that to exude on the outside. And so, and on a day to day, I'm not completely beat face, I am so chill and relaxed. I love to throw on some sneakers and rock out that way. But this outward especially like my locs. I love my locs.
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I was just gonna say yeah.
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And I didn't. This is actually today is my lock. Versary is how they say today. Actually it'll be four years today that I decided to have locs. And when I look back at all the different hairstyles that I've had, I always feel like this suits me. Like I feel like it's, it's my natural hair, but I get to style it and do different things. And me being an artist and I started in fashion so I can tell.
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That'S why I'm asking.
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I love to look good, I love to experiment. I love to showcase who I am and what I wear and what I do.
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The reason why I ask and the reason why I picked you in fashion is because you're, you're, you're wearing where you wear very well. And it's not just the Alphabet, your hair, but the energy is exuding off of. You're very magnetic. So that's, that's, that's one of the hard parts. That's something you can train. No matter how much money you throw at a coach, you either Got it. You don't. And when you don't got it, it's okay. You just got to work just a little harder and you're on a different path. But when you've got the magn, the magnetism that you do, it's, it's you, You've obviously been blessed. And as a, as a fellow Christian, as someone that was saved at nine, you're basically given the power of every single angel now in heaven because you truly are saved. And welcome to the kingdom of God. So you're quite in it.
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I appreciate you saying that, because my prayer every day, and I pray that over myself, over my daughter, over my family, that when you walk out into the world, that you shine the Lord's light in everything that you do through the cracks, through everything, that no matter what you do, that he walks with me. And so the fact that you can just see that it's something you feel.
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Absolutely, yeah, for sure. I feel you, homie. And that's something that folks don't quite understand. That's, that's. People call it the Matrix, call it the code, the divine. There's all, there's energy. Everyone's got an interpretation of it. We only use 10% of our brain because we're just tiny little creatures in the name of the Lord. But we use our brains to sort of interpret reality at the 10% level. I can just imagine how powerful we'd be at the 90% level when we really see the, the, the, the, the energy there. But enough about energy. Let's refocus. Back to you again, your why. And obviously it's religion, the source, the download, be it our Lord and Savior. When you found your why, where did you begin? Who was the first person you wanted to change and go, look, the force is real, the energy is real. Let me give you my divine download. When did that begin and what did it sound like?
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Well, I, I, I feel like it was clearer when I switched over to women's health, because like I said as a child, I just was always creating. Like, that was me. So you know how people struggle to figure out what do they enjoy doing or what is their purpose? People would always look at me and say, you already know, like you're truly gifted in creating and drawing. I mean, I was always drawing and making things. And when I went to, went to go to college, it's a different age now. Kids can just go online and search different things. And that was kind of new. I'm kind of telling my age a little bit. I know I look Younger than I really am.
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You'll never guess what my age is.
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It's fine. So I went into fashion. That's how I ended up going into fashion, sure, but I enjoyed fashion. But something was calling me to something more, and so I knew I needed something deeper. And so for me, going into really getting to know people, it became when I was talking to people, when I was able to share and really have them walk into their purpose. And so that's when I realized, yes, I'm doing fashion. And then I went into graphic design. Then I'm building websites, which I still do. Hell, yeah.
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Good for you.
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And so I get to help other people when they have ideas, help bring that and give that to the world, help them give birth to the thing that they're supposed to do. And so going through what I went through with my reproductive health, I suffered all this time in pain. I lived my life 90% in pain. And so while I was still giving to the world and helping people birth things and helping people do things, I wasn't able to give wholeheartedly to my own business like I was doing to others. But I also wasn't able to give birth to a child. So I was inwardly suffering every day, grieving what I never thought that I could have. And it wasn't until years later. So I'm talking from age 11, when I got my first cycle. Extremely painful. I did not know what was wrong with me until I was in my 30s, and at that point, finally met a care team that listened to, because I went through years of not being listened to. And they then told me, well, we got to have surgery, you know, and while that wasn't what I wanted, it was like someone's finally listening, like there's something wrong, and someone is actually looking to figure out what it is. And so I winded up getting cysts removed, fibroids, endometriosis, scar tissue. A fallopian tube had to come out. And I'm thinking, I'm finally having a breakthrough. And I was told I had less than 1% chance of conceiving a child. And so my daughter's now nine.
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I love how you just casually drop that.
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I'm giving you the faster version, Right?
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No, it's a great. It's a great, great teaser trailer to your episode.
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She's nine now.
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Wow.
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And she's a prayer warrior. Her name is Ariana Elise. Beautiful. Which means most holy pledge to God. And so she. Her very existence is a blessing, my daily reminder of God's grace. And so going through that process. Like, if someone would have asked me when I was a kid, you're going to go into women's health? I would be like, no, I'm not. I'm an artist. Like, I'm a fashion designer. Like, no, I'm not doing that. But now I'm passionate. I didn't go through that for just me. I went through that for all the many other women that still don't have a diagnosis, still don't. You know, still trying to conceive, still trying to birth. And the cool thing is it's not just the physical thing we're talking about here. The concept of someone being barren, stuck in a, in a dried season that can actually walk into a fruitfulness is, is what I get to help women do.
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How are you, how are you communicating this to, to the normals, to just like when you kind of shake them and be like, the energy, it's all about energy. Like that. That's my, my, my personal, selfish opinion. What's, what's your opinion of what's really happened to you? Like, the transformation? Like, you have been gifted with artistry, you've been gifted with being able to design websites, register while on camera. Well spoken. You've been given these gifts to now pivot and be essentially a beacon, a messenger. How does that feel? Does it feel a little bizarre?
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It's scary.
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Scared as shit.
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It's very scary. Oh yeah. Makes me sweat.
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I lose sleep.
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I'm like, like the first year that I really thought, like, I thought, okay, Lord, I, I, I must be. I have a story to tell. You know, I'm writing a book. You know, I thought it was just a book. And then I realized, no, I'm calling you to go out, like. Cause you've taken a long time with this book. And there are people on their knees, there are people crying, there are people stuck. There are people thinking that they're forgotten and they're not. They're chosen. And so it's just me saying, I'm getting chills. Just the mere thought that there are people not walking in their calling, not walking in their purpose. And you're choosing me to help them get up. Because that's really what it is. It's like, get up. Like, you are a special child of God. You need to get up and walk in your, your calls. Like, that's what, that's what the enemy wants. He wants you to just, you know, you're forgotten, you're broken, you're stuck. You're never going to be, you're never Going to be anything. You're not going to do it. You can't.
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The enemy will even take body parts out of you to test your will, to just test you and be like. But this doctor that spent all this time is telling you no, that you're not going to create life. No, no, no, no. And in reality, that doctor is going to walk off and be the dark energy spirit that was there to test you at that very moment. Here you are, nine years. You're. You created a miracle. That's nine years old. Now.
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She's nine.
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How does that feel?
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It's beautiful. Like I said, you know, every day I look at her, like, before I go to bed, I come in, I look at her, and it's like, this is your creation. You know, you came from this broken womb. I had. I had her with one fallopian tube.
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Good for you. That's amazing.
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That's one fallopian tube and a less than 1% chance. And, you know, I know the doctor, he was an awesome doctor, you know, I had an awesome care team. And he has to tell you the statistics, but I know my God has another number in mind. So, you know, and even in that moment, I felt like, you know, it might not be in the cards for me. It might not. So I continued to pour out, you know, but it was. Even in that season, he showed me what, like, what he gave me a comfort even in that season, like, still placed. I have a. I call her my sister. Daughter. My husband's sister came to live with us when she was a teenager. And that was during a time when I was, like, so broken. Like, just you think about it, every time I got my cycle, every month, I went through a depression, so. And I was in between jobs, so I just was home with me and my thoughts.
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Wow.
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And they weren't positive at that time, for sure.
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Especially as an artist.
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And my sister, my daughter, who. She calls me Mom. She was the first person to call me mom showed up at our door and she needed us. She lost her mom when she was 3. So I always, you know, we have a special bond and a special connection. Like, I was the. The childless mother and she was the motherless child. And we like, to this day, that's my baby, you know, And I was thankful for. Because he didn't have to do that. He knew I was really hurting, and he knew, I'm gonna bless you and something's coming your way. Not only am I bless you, but I'm calling you to do something greater. But in the meantime, I'm gonna give you some comfort.
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I gotta ask. And don't reveal her age because I won't reveal mine. I feel like we're the same. We're in the same decade. Let's for say now that you've discovered your superpower and you're looking at the time like, wow, I got way more time now in life. Like, now you're truly, like, I'm alive. I definitely wasn't thinking this way into my 20s or my 30s, which precursor. I'm in my 40s. But now that we've. We feel aligned and we remove that shame of being gifted of the divine. And now we're truly walking in our purpose. Now what? Like, now what? You wake up and you're Superman. How do you. What are you doing in your day to day that's getting you out of bed? Yes, you are a mom to two beautiful daughters, a beautiful family, but what are you doing to give back? How. How are you representing your why now? Day to day?
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It's in everything. Like, honestly, Great answer. It's not. It's not for me. That's where I'm at in life now. If it, if it's not serving that purpose. And that's the thing, having a discernment to know what things to say no to, that's where I struggle. Because I'm also a people pleaser. I like to give and do for everybody. And what I'm learning is I can't do it all. I'm just coming out of a season where I was like running off of fumes, like, just tired, depleted. And you can't serve. You can't serve from an empty vessel. And so what I'm learning is you gotta say no to some things. Because if you're saying, if I'm saying yes to everything and everybody, then without even realizing it, I'm saying no to him. And so then I'm not walking where I'm not doing what I'm preaching. You know, I'm not walking where he's called me to be or I don't have time, I'm too busy.
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I get a vivid visual of he who should not be spoken. Because we don't want to alarm the energy here. It's very spooky. I know. But let's, let's say the, the negative energy is essentially almost like doing a checklist. Like, let's just throw things at her to slow her down.
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Oh, I'm strong.
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Let's make sure to. Let's make sure. Oh, he was even stronger now. Strong Every day it's a battle. Yeah, you're being cut off in traffic, someone cut you off. You're being constantly tested. Do not take anything that happens to you every single day as a coincidence. It is the battle of the fifth dimension fighting the third dimension. You just gotta believe. And once you start believing and you start spiritually educating yourself and you, quote, unquote, pick a side, you'll start to see the reality. Just go.
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It's deep.
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It's real deep.
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It's real deep. It's interesting because just last weekend I was going to a retreat with my sisters, this organization that I'm a part of called Faith Me. And. And the idea is that you are, you know, we live in a society where everything is, I'm self made, I did this, I did that. And the thought is like, no, he created me. He made this, he made that. And so we were coming to a retreat. Very powerful, very powerful. When I tell you every obstacle that could come, because this was just. This was the prayer warriors. Like, we were coming to pray. We were coming. And I was so late. Some of us didn't make it. My plane was rescheduled three times. Like, it was like down to when I finally landed after the third attempt of a plane ride. When I landed, it started pouring. And then the Uber driver got canceled three times. The final driver that came to pick me up, he was like, well, maybe you shouldn't be coming. I said, are you scared now? Are you scared to drive me? But he was like, that's crazy. I was like, listen. Cause something mighty is about to happen when people come together in this way and, you know, you gotta. That's why they say you gotta put on the armor of God. Because I gotta stay armored up. I gotta stay prayed up, you know, prayed up.
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I love it. I'm sure there's a shirt out there somewhere that needs to be made. I'm sure you're gonna make it. Gosh. I gotta ask you, how much do you hate or love Canva as a designer? I saw the eye roll.
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It's interesting because although I don't design in camp, Canva is really for the person that, that doesn't want to design. But I might deal with a client that they can upkeep something in Canva. So I might design something and export it to, like, if it's social media, something like that that they can. I'll load it in and brand it for them. So, like, if you're going to use this tool on a daily basis, so I think it has it serves as. It's a great tool for people that need it. But, you know, I always say. And, you know, with. I'm. I teach design as well.
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Very cool.
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And, you know, sometimes, you know, with AI and all these different tools, people get scared, like, if they're going into design, like, this job is not going to be needed. I'm like, people can't duplicate you, you know, so they can have the AI, they can do all those things, but you still have to have a skill and an eye. And if you don't have it, you don't have taste. Yes. Like, you don't have it. So I'm never afraid of those things.
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Good. I'm glad. I'm glad you perceive it that way, just because I feel like AI is just going to make the human experience and the human touch and the human art far more valuable because it was designed by a person with a soul, even though a digital soul is a thing. But it's the year still. We'll talk about this in the year 2035. In 2025, we still have souls here. This is going to age poorly. Before we wrap up, what can folks look forward to in your episode?
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Authenticity. I believe in authenticity. I love to, like, the things that I go through don't happen in a bubble. I go through it not just for me. So I'll be sharing my story. I'll be sharing a little bit more of my journey into women's reproductive health. I'll be sharing more of why I'm walking into design advocacy and some of the things that I'm building. You know, I am. I went back to get my master's. I'm telling my age now. In my 40s.
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Oh, right on.
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Cheers to that. And every day I was like, why am I doing this? But what I built in my thesis is something beautiful. So I. I want to share a little bit about that. And, you know, I have. I have planners. I've done visionary planners that kind of marry design, scripture, and vision.
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Yeah.
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T shirts. Like, I do a lot to help build people up, so that's beautiful.
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You got to put scripture. You got to hide scripture in plain sight.
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Yes.
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That's one of my favorite tiktokers is this priest that basically is pointing up to goes, look, these lyrics from that one Evanescence song is straight from the Bible, and it is verse by verse. I'm like, yeah, there it is. The holy scripture hid it in.
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In plain sight right here.
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Yep. I was just going to bring that up. That's amazing. That's beautiful. Very cool. Well, I, I, I'd hate to wrap this up. I appreciate your divine energy. D. I'm going to call you D. You absolutely can. How can folks find you? How can folks be, be a part of your journey?
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You can follow me on Instagram at Diana Nicole. You can also find me at Baron Fruit and that's B, A R R E N Fruit, as well as Dianna Nicole Design, if it's easier. I have a website that's justdiannicole.com and it points to everything.
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Dianicole.com that's the place to find her. De Such a great time.
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Such a great time. Thank you.
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Cheers to being in our 40s and looking great and looking fantastic. In the name that wraps up another episode of Living the Red Life Women in Power edition. For Inside Success, I'm Ray Gutierrez.