Podcast
Lowkey Chaotic
Hosted by Zoë Lilou · EN
☀️Currently on summer break. Season 2 loading…☀️
Lowkey Chaotic feels like sitting inside Zoë Lilou’s mind as she tries to untangle love, shame, identity, ambition, and self-destruction in real time - raw enough to make people feel exposed, but honest enough to make them feel less alone.
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I'm Tired of My Own Narrative
3d ago00:40:16Tap to summarizeBefore disappearing for summer, I wanted to leave you with one final thought: I think I'm tired of my own narrative.In this episode, we're talking about sobriety, growing pains, outgrowing old versions of ourselves, and why I think I've reached the point where I need fewer revelations and more experiences.Thank you for spending this season with me.See you after summer.
Transcribe →Why Do We Want Validation From People Who Don't Care?
3w ago00:46:10Summary readyI met someone in LA and immediately found myself doing what so many of us do: trying to prove I was worth getting to know.In this episode, we're talking about validation, attention, self-worth, and why one person's indifference can sometimes outweigh the appreciation of hundreds of others.Because the question isn't why they didn't see us.The question is why we keep letting strangers decide whether we're worth seeing.
SummaryI Think I've Been Wrong About a Few Things
May 2800:48:37Tap to summarizea little life update from california.in this episode, i share a realization i've been having about how my first relationship - and the abuse that existed within it - may have shaped my relationship to intimacy in ways i didn't fully understand until now.we also talk about procrastination, routine, perspective shifts, and a few things that have been making more sense lately.
Transcribe →I Want To Feel Seen
May 1400:51:52Tap to summarizeThis episode starts with me attending a physiognomy class and somehow ends with me unpacking wanting to feel understood.We talk about the loneliness of being hyper-observant, the difference between attention and recognition, and why so many women feel deeply unseen despite constantly being looked at.
Transcribe →She Still Lives In Me
May 600:40:16Tap to summarizeThe girl that used to willingly make very self-destructive choices still lives in me. Nowadays the craziest things I do are nothing compared to who I used to be… but she still lives in me.And she came out a little this morning.
Transcribe →Why Do I Feel Wrong All the Time?
Apr 2800:53:37Tap to summarizeI get into:hypervigilance and constantly reading between the linesfeeling like you have to “solve” every interactioninternalized shame and always assuming you’re the problemand how these patterns might come from the environments we grew up inThis episode is about what happens when awareness turns into self-blame and why everything can start to feel personal, even when it’s not.
Transcribe →A Convenient Escape
Apr 2000:42:03Tap to summarizeIt’s interesting how loud people get when it comes to correcting misinformation but where is that same energy when the information is actually correct? An episode about how statistics can become a convenient escape and how the focus shifts from the point to the detail.
Transcribe →Cheating Doesn’t Automatically Make You a Bad Person
Apr 1400:45:32Tap to summarizeApparently I’m pro-cheating now. All because I said that cheating once doesn’t make you a horrible person forever and people did not like that. So let’s unpack it. What even is cheating? Why does it trigger us so deeply? Why do we need it to mean something so clear? And why are we so uncomfortable with the idea that people are more than their worst moment?This isn’t about defending cheating. It’s about understanding people without losing your boundaries.
Transcribe →The Fear of Being Cringe
Apr 400:40:10Tap to summarizeIn this episode, I talk about the fear of being seen, why we’re so scared of being cringe, and how it’s affecting the way we connect with each other.From moral superiority online to constantly judging each other, to feeling like everything is “too much” or “too weird” - it feels like we’ve created a culture where it’s safer to perform than to be real.(and in the spirit of all that: my debut single Starving Heart is out now 🤍)
Transcribe →I Quit Drinking and Realized I’m Depressed
Mar 2200:28:49Tap to summarizeI quit drinking and thought everything would get better. Instead, I realized alcohol was never the problem - it was depression. In this episode, I talk about what depression has looked like for me, what sobriety actually reveals, and why I’m questioning whether I want love… or just someone to fix how I feel.
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