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This episode was recorded in 2020 when I was at the lowest and darkest point of my addiction. PLEASE proceed with caution as I held nothing back.

WARNING: I talk about

Drugs while pregnant

babies born addicted to drugs

suicide

self harm

I mean the worst of the worst is in the episode and many more to come. If I could put what addiction is in the form of an mp3 file, this would be it!!!

and if you personally are feeling how I felt in this episode, PLEASE please please reach out for help!! I know you wont believe me now, but there is HOPE FOR YOU I PROMISE!!!

Suicide & Crisis Lifeline DIAL 988

SAMHSA’s National Helpline is a free, confidential, 24/7, 365-day-a-year treatment referral and information service (in English and Spanish) for individuals and families facing mental and/or substance use disorders.

1-800-662-HELP (4357)

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