
This week, the very funny Jon Rudnitsky joins Mike to answer listener submitted questions. The two of them discuss how long it was before they started earning money from comedy, the complete loss of dignity required to make it as a stand-up, and what it is that keeps them showing up every day. Plus, how Jon caused what he believes to be one of the greatest mistakes in SNL history.
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Mike Birbiglia
We're here with John Rudinsky. This is working out. I'm Mike Birbiglio. Okay. Here's what I'll say it. This morning, I watched the unreleased documentary that you made about being a road comic post snl.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
Your cast member for one season. Then you went on the road as a comic and documented yourself performing in, like, challenging clubs. Very like.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah. And clubs is even a generous for a lot of these places.
Mike Birbiglia
Hotel ballrooms, motel ballrooms.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
And it's. These are hard gigs. It's actually like, so much like my movie Sleepwalk With Me. Like, so much like it.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah. That's why I was really excited for you to see it, because I knew you could relate to the. The struggle. Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
And it's. And.
John Rudnitsky
And it's.
Mike Birbiglia
And it's.
John Rudnitsky
So.
Mike Birbiglia
I'm excited for people to see it when it comes out. Hopefully some. Someone's watching this who will buy it and distribute it. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
John Rudnitsky
So I can stop doing these gigs.
Mike Birbiglia
But Holy how it is. You're so funny.
John Rudnitsky
Thanks, Mike.
Mike Birbiglia
It's so miserable. And also it is in. In, like, makes you feel good about being alive and being a comedian at all.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
It's. It hits these themes that we talk about on this podcast all the time. And. And today's is going to be interesting episode. Cause we. We took questions on Instagram for you and me to talk about. And what's funny is some of the.
John Rudnitsky
Who is John Ranitsky?
Mike Birbiglia
That's gonna be the first half hour. But I actually do think, like, a lot of the questions tie in to your documentary, which I think people will love. But also, we can kind of talk that out here. But it's. I have to say, like, I don't want to give anything away about your special. Like, I. But I. I will say, like, man, was I moved by it. And I feel like I'm very rarely moved by a comedy special. It is. I mean, how. I don't want to get into too hard because it's like, people can't see it, but it's like, how long did it take to shoot?
John Rudnitsky
Took like, four months.
Mike Birbiglia
Wow.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah. With my buddy Noah, who's in the doc. He was my. Oh. He is my opener. And, you know, the dream is obviously to have a Netflix special. And it's clearly, I'm so far from that in this documentary. And I, for the last 10 years or whatever have been like, what do I have? These fucking gigs. I got to get out of these fucking gigs. And then I got good at these gigs and Then I thought, yes, well, I'm kind of think I might be better at these gigs than I would be at, like, a gig where I'm set up to succeed in a way. So I'm like, what if I shoot the special at these terrible places where they're half filled and they don't know it's a special? Because why would anyone shoot their special there? And they don't even know who I am. And I have to earn their respect because that's how all my shows are. And I just thought, yeah. Cause most special comedians are trying to look cooler. They're high fiving their most famous friends backstage. And I was like, what if I do the exact opposite? What if I am walking through the most poorly lit hallway past people doing a puzzle in the lobby and, you
Mike Birbiglia
know, at one point there's. Your name isn't even on the marquee. No, the show is that night. And you're like, when do you change the marquee? And they're like, it's two hours before the show. I mean, it is, it's. Yeah, it's great. And it's great. I look, I. And it's so funny. And you are so good at doing those gigs. Like, you're performing for 12 people in like, Oklahoma. And it's like. And I'm like, the audience is lucky. That's a funny show. That is a good show.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah. Thank you, Mike.
Mike Birbiglia
It gets to the heart. That movie really gets to the heart without giving it away of like, what, you know, working out and my career and your career and all these comedians. Like, it's at the heart of what we're even doing, which is like stand up comedy. It's simply the art form of one person speaking to two or more people. That's it.
John Rudnitsky
Mm.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah. And you do get confused when you see these flashy comedian specials where it's like an arena or whatever.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
Of like, wait, maybe it's that. And it's like, no, no, it's not that.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah, yeah. Because if. If that's the win, you're gonna kill yourself. Like, because that's not what. What it's like. That's just not what it's like.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah, yeah.
John Rudnitsky
And I actually think getting SNL and losing it and getting to this point where I made this thing, which, you know, who knows where it's going to land. It was just like, I'm like, grateful actually, that I. That I've been on this journey so that I can make this thing wherever it lands. Because I'm like, this is worth it. And I learned that, like, the wind can't be getting the thing because I've had it, lost it. And if that was all that there is, then. Then it's over. So you have to be like, hey, I said something new tonight. That's the win. I have a joke that worked tonight.
Mike Birbiglia
No. And people are happy, and people are. Audience. People are happy in this way that I found, compared to other specials, to be totally convincing, because you show people who are disinterested so that when you show someone who's happy, you go, well, that's real.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah. Yeah. I literally have to earn their respect every time.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah.
John Rudnitsky
Because they're not there to see me. They're there because that's the option for something to do in that town that night.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah.
John Rudnitsky
And even then, a lot of people come. It's empty.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah. Yeah. It's. It's called. So when it comes out, it's called Special Boy.
John Rudnitsky
Special Boy. It's great because of my. My mom telling me I was a special boy. Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
Again, I don't want to give it away, but, man, you talk about being on SNL and. And how it gave me so much anxiety watching it.
John Rudnitsky
This is, like both of your movies, in a way.
Mike Birbiglia
It is. It's like, don't Think Voice meets Sleepwalk With Me. It's.
John Rudnitsky
That's how we should pitch it. Will you come with me to hbo?
Mike Birbiglia
It's Don't Think Twice, Meet Sleepwalk With Me, except no one's famous, and it's a documentary. Are you with me? Who's with me?
John Rudnitsky
Who's with me? Who wants to go to Kenosha? Who wants to go?
Mike Birbiglia
But you were on snl, and you were. I mean, it's literally what they describe as actor's nightmare, which is there's a scene going on live on television all over the world, and you're supposed to be in it, but you're not on stage. You didn't realize you were in that scene. There's an empty seat in the scene, and then you.
John Rudnitsky
We can laugh about it now. We can laugh about it now, right? It's fine.
Mike Birbiglia
Ten years ago. Ten years ago.
John Rudnitsky
Ten years Ago. Ten years ago.
Mike Birbiglia
Ten years ahead.
John Rudnitsky
You think you're never gonna get over something like that. I mean, granted, I still wake up in a cold sweat thinking about it, but empty seat.
Mike Birbiglia
Then you run on New York, sweaty, out of breath. You do the rest of the scene,
John Rudnitsky
and then you come off and you
Mike Birbiglia
see the Kenan, who's, I think, been on the show longer than anyone in history.
John Rudnitsky
Fifteen years or so.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah. You go, you've seen stuff like that before, right? Goes, not like that.
John Rudnitsky
He goes, yeah, not like that. Not like that, man. And the thing is, you know, everyone's. Oh, my God, everyone's pissed off at snl. You know, like, even the people that have been, you know, been there eight years, they're pissed. More pissed off than anyone because they feel like they deserve some sort of respect. Keenan's in the best mood.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah. Yeah.
John Rudnitsky
Keenan's like, gives me a hug. Every time I would see him, he'd give me a hug, you know, you're doing great. He's the only one that would make me feel reassured. And that moment, he was like, not like that. I was like, oh, how does that even happen? Oh, the show's only been on 50 years and that's the worst. Anyone's up. No big deal. No big deal.
Mike Birbiglia
What is it about you that made that happen?
John Rudnitsky
Yeah, well, it's the same reason I'm sweaty right now. Because nothing's changed.
Mike Birbiglia
Because you came through.
John Rudnitsky
This was an empty chair and I was supposed to be here.
Mike Birbiglia
Because you came through the next parade.
John Rudnitsky
Cuz I came through the Knicks parade and I said, and the trains were delayed. I'll take a bike. And then I ended up in the middle of the parade. And then I was surrounded to the point where I couldn't even maneuver the bike. Wow. And all these guys are smoking a blunt and looking at me. Go, bike boy. Look at dumb bike boy over here.
Mike Birbiglia
You are bike boy.
John Rudnitsky
I'm bike boy.
Mike Birbiglia
You are bike. Getting picked on.
John Rudnitsky
I got picked on on the way here, like in high school.
Mike Birbiglia
In like, the Peace and Love Parade.
John Rudnitsky
In the Peace and Love Parade, they could all agree, we hate the spurs and this. We hate the sp.
Mike Birbiglia
We hate bike boy.
John Rudnitsky
We hate bike boy. Bike boy. And I'm like, I got to get to Mike Riglio's podcast. He's the only one who's seen my documentary.
Mike Birbiglia
Oh, my God. That is a dilemma when only one person has seen your documentary. You. Really?
John Rudnitsky
And he's willing to have on his. Willing to have me on his podcast. And I'm bike boy, and I'm in the middle of this thing. It was a journey to get here. But yeah, I guess, to answer your question, what is it that makes me that guy?
Mike Birbiglia
It's all connected.
John Rudnitsky
It's all connected. I.
Mike Birbiglia
It's everything everywhere, all at once.
John Rudnitsky
It's everything everywhere, all at once. I actually want to make a movie about.
Mike Birbiglia
That's a good idea.
John Rudnitsky
But it's called. But it's called nothing nowhere, ever. And it's true. Because I feel like I think nowhere.
Mike Birbiglia
Not at the same time.
John Rudnitsky
Yes. Not at the same. Because I feel like I'm in Uncut Gems, but I'm just trying to, like, reset a password while I'm trying to get a cup of coffee, and somehow it's like full blown panic. Oh, my God, I gotta move to Carol Gardens. Maybe that'll help.
Mike Birbiglia
Everything is funny through a certain lens.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
Even your movie's a good example of this. Like, you're literally playing for, like, 10 people in a lot of cities in, like, junky places.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
And it's really funny.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
And through a certain lens, it's really sad. Like, you can't afford to even be there. You're paying more in rent and gas and car rentals and flights than you're even being paid.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
And it's funny.
John Rudnitsky
I know. It is both. It is both funny and sad. It's everything everywhere all at once is the truth. And I do feel like. I don't know if you feel this way or if you felt this way when you were playing gigs like that, but it really is like a full emotional arc. Like, I feel like I love a full movie every time I go on the road. Cause I get there, I'm like, what am I doing with my life? And I'm in the back of the room and the opener is just bombing. And you're like, I can't do this anymore. And then you go up there and you turn the show into something. And. And then somebody comes up to you afterwards and they're like, I was having a rough week and you really made me feel all right. And then you're like, all right. I guess that. That's why. And then you, like, you leave and you're like, I'm happy I did that. And then the next weekend you forget and you're like, I can't believe I'm fucking doing this shit again.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah, it's every. If you're. If you're watching this or listening to this and you want to know what it's like to be a performer, but you're not a performer, walk out on the street and start performing.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
That's what it's like.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
By the way. Always, like, you get to five years in, it's pretty much that.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
You get to five days in, it's pretty much that. You get to 15, 20 years in, it's pretty much that.
John Rudnitsky
You feel that way.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah.
John Rudnitsky
Now 100% sold out theaters.
Mike Birbiglia
Those shows are better. But I do often. Do you do the benefit shows and this and that, where you go like, oh, that sounds not good. You know, the announcement before me is sad and morose about some kind of announcement. Someone dying or someone having a stroke. And please welcome Mike Birbiglia. It still happens. That never ends.
John Rudnitsky
It never ends.
Mike Birbiglia
No, I don't think it ever ends.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah, but I guess we get our funny from that a bit because if it's all cozy, then it's harder to draw from things. I suppose I.
Mike Birbiglia
This put things in perspective. Once I did a benefit for the David Lynch Foundation.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
And I think it was me and Mulaney, a few other people and I did. I. It's, you know, it's conference. It's not conference room, but it's like a ballroom. People eating. Most people kind of don't know who you are. You're kind of doing your best to get a few laughs.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
And then after me, there was like a sit down conversation with Seinfeld being interviewed by someone. He didn't do a set, but he was like, interviewed. And I see Seinfeld afterwards and he was like, ah, man, I wanted to do a set like you. Oh, man. You go, oh. Like, even in a situation where it's not a great gig, the real true people, the true comedians are like, I want to do that. Even though it's not ideal.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah, yeah. And also you think, I mean, at this point, because of 10,000 hours of terrible gigs, you're like, I think I could do it. Yeah, I think I could.
Mike Birbiglia
I could try to win them over.
John Rudnitsky
I think I could turn this into something. I think I can make this all right. I think I can make them love me.
Mike Birbiglia
Okay, so we're going to go to questions. This is from. Sometimes we do this every few months. We get questions.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
PK Smash says, how long were you doing stand up until you started earning money?
John Rudnitsky
I'll let you know.
Mike Birbiglia
Set your clock.
John Rudnitsky
What's crazy is it really fluctuates, you know?
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah, sure.
John Rudnitsky
It really fluctuates because you get a private gig or something that's normally tougher than a club gig and it pays ten times what a club gig would pay.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah.
John Rudnitsky
For five shows or something.
Mike Birbiglia
Right.
John Rudnitsky
It can really change, you know, but.
Mike Birbiglia
Okay. One of my favorite things about your movie is that you keep kind of explaining that you're just not good at marketing. You're just like. You're just like. So much of being a comedian is Marketing and, like, I'm just so bad at it. And then you're like, watching people do crowd work on Instagram. You're like, that makes people big. Then you try to do that. But then you're pretty good at groundwork. Like, you literally do it. You're like, oh, this is good.
John Rudnitsky
I try. I try. I think. I think I am good at it. But it's a little too late, I guess, to, you know, how is it
Mike Birbiglia
that you're doing everything right and it's going somehow?
John Rudnitsky
That's what I'm trying to ask you. Do you. Did everyone do you know? What would you say?
Mike Birbiglia
Here are my guesses. I actually don't. I actually don't know.
John Rudnitsky
You don't know?
Mike Birbiglia
I think is that this is. This is hard because it's like, you're such a good comic. I think it's gonna happen.
John Rudnitsky
Okay, great.
Mike Birbiglia
I think you're gonna break.
John Rudnitsky
Okay, great, Great.
Mike Birbiglia
That's my feeling.
John Rudnitsky
I love this. I it all.
Mike Birbiglia
Because first of all, I saw you in Cassie David's movie.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
I love you forever.
John Rudnitsky
Yep.
Mike Birbiglia
You're great.
John Rudnitsky
Thank you.
Mike Birbiglia
I asked you to come over to my apartment, do a reading of my next movie. You're great. I see you do stand up at the Cellar. You're great. I see this dog eventually.
John Rudnitsky
It's got a head, it's got a hit. It's got, like, your mom said yes. And then I'll have to figure out a new shtick other than I don't know what. I'm not good at marketing. Yeah, it'll hit, but. But it takes time.
Mike Birbiglia
You're gonna come. As of today, you're gonna come do my show in Nantucket in July.
John Rudnitsky
I'm very excited to come to Nantucket.
Mike Birbiglia
Gonna be me, you, Gary Simons. That's.
John Rudnitsky
This is my win for the summer, Mike. You just kind of threw it out there for me. I'm like, well, I got Nantucket coming up. You know when they say, what do you got going on this summer? That's what I'm gonna say. I have a documentary nobody's bought. To Nantucket with Mike Riglia. What projects you working on? That's it. That's what I got.
Mike Birbiglia
So.
John Rudnitsky
Oh, my God, I hope it wasn't an empty offer, cuz I don't know. I'm living for Nantucket now.
Mike Birbiglia
Look at the logistics. I'm not sure it's going to work.
John Rudnitsky
No, no, no, no, no, no. Don't do this to me. No, don't do this to bike boy on camera. Right now it's been a tough day.
Mike Birbiglia
I'm just not sure.
John Rudnitsky
Oh, no.
Mike Birbiglia
I have to. I have to call a few people, get some no's, and then see if that comes through.
John Rudnitsky
Okay. All right, let me know.
Mike Birbiglia
You're fourth.
John Rudnitsky
You're four. Okay, so now I'll tell people when they ask me what's going on. So I'm in the running to open for Mike. We're waiting to hear a couple no's for other people.
Mike Birbiglia
Okay, we'll get another question. That was a long answer for I forgot what?
John Rudnitsky
The fucking question.
Mike Birbiglia
Long until you start earning money.
John Rudnitsky
Oh, man.
Mike Birbiglia
Okay.
John Rudnitsky
Fluctuates.
Mike Birbiglia
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John Rudnitsky
No.
Mike Birbiglia
No, I don't think so at all.
John Rudnitsky
No. Those shows can be great.
Mike Birbiglia
Your documentary gets this. Hopefully people get this from my tour and stuff like that. It's like, I think there's like a deep misunderstanding of the country sometimes.
John Rudnitsky
Totally.
Mike Birbiglia
Where people are like. People are like, oh, red states with Midwest must be. No, it's great.
John Rudnitsky
It's great.
Mike Birbiglia
Like, what are you talking about?
John Rudnitsky
I mean, there's a totally other. I mean, I have hundreds of hours of footage from this documentary and there is. And it was going on during the election. I'm like, there's another version of this movie where it. Is that. Where you kind of see that it's like.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah.
John Rudnitsky
That people aren't really what we make them out to be a lot of the time.
Mike Birbiglia
Here's what I'll say.
John Rudnitsky
People are just getting bad information.
Mike Birbiglia
A hundred percent.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
Ton of people getting bad information. Yeah, sure.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah. You.
Mike Birbiglia
Me. My experience is you meet a lot of kind people everywhere.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
A lot of nice people everywhere in the country. Ever in the world that I've gone.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah, I know.
Mike Birbiglia
Like, more often than not.
John Rudnitsky
More often than not. It's true. Yeah, it is. It's. It's wild. It's wild. So. Yeah. And I also. I mean, I also don't go very political with my act at all, but in.
Mike Birbiglia
And you look a little maga.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah. A MAGA passing until I start talking and I'm like, oh, God, I don't know. I got caught up at the airport. But I did get chased off stage in 2016.
Mike Birbiglia
Oh, yeah.
John Rudnitsky
A woman at the Muskegon Bowling Alley.
Mike Birbiglia
For what?
John Rudnitsky
I was performing at a bowling alley in Michigan and. Yeah. And I did do a Trump thing and she did chase me out of the venue. That's how the show. That's how the show ended.
Mike Birbiglia
Chased you?
John Rudnitsky
Yeah, yeah. She just got over and she ran on stage and I ran out and just waved goodbye and I never came back. Never came back. Really? Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
Did she catch you?
John Rudnitsky
I don't know if you know Jake Nord when he writes at snl.
Mike Birbiglia
He was.
John Rudnitsky
He was my opener then, and he remembers it well. Me us getting chased out of the Muskegon Bowling alley.
Mike Birbiglia
So she was like, you got back here. She was she drunk?
John Rudnitsky
Yeah, she was hammered.
Mike Birbiglia
Oh, she had.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah, she had plastic cup stacked rum and Cokes stacked in front of her.
Mike Birbiglia
Wow. Yeah. This is Tay League says. What was the process of getting passed at the seller?
John Rudnitsky
Five minute audition. Yeah, that was it. SD watches and hard to get, though.
Mike Birbiglia
Who. Who. Someone has to recommend you. Right? Who recommended you?
John Rudnitsky
Yeah, well, Emma Williman.
Mike Birbiglia
Oh, that's nice.
John Rudnitsky
Without me asking, by the way.
Mike Birbiglia
Oh, that's nice.
John Rudnitsky
Which was so nice. Yeah. And Chris decephano had reached out as well. I think maybe Santino did, too. But I don't know if she got back. And then Emma Williman did it without me asking, and then she was like, yeah, great.
Mike Birbiglia
Super nice.
John Rudnitsky
It was so nice. And I remember I didn't even showcase when I was on SNL because I was still nervous about doing the seller. And I. I feel like when it happened, it happened at the. At just the right time, you know, this is my.
Mike Birbiglia
And what was your once per episode plug of the comedy seller? I just think it's the best comedy club in the country.
John Rudnitsky
It is the best.
Mike Birbiglia
I mean, it's unbelievable.
John Rudnitsky
It's unbelievable.
Mike Birbiglia
Food's great.
John Rudnitsky
The hang is great.
Mike Birbiglia
The hang is great. The staff is nice. The comics are the best. Comics. Like, I just think it's, like, fantastic.
John Rudnitsky
It's the best. And it's. It's like. Yeah. You feel like I made it.
Mike Birbiglia
I always tell New York tourists, people are like, I'm coming to New York. What should I do? I always say the comedy seller.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
Because it's also not even. It's hard to get reservations. You gotta do well in advance.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
But it's not that expensive.
John Rudnitsky
No, it's a. It's an incredible night.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah.
John Rudnitsky
And I love, like, sitting and having dinner. How is it over that room? Oh, it's good.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah.
John Rudnitsky
And then you're running in between shows and hanging out. Wait, what was your story of getting past?
Mike Birbiglia
I. I think it was Tom Papa recommended me.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
I'd open for him in Jersey.
John Rudnitsky
Okay.
Mike Birbiglia
And how many years didn't go well?
John Rudnitsky
Oh, it didn't go good.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah, I was like, 23. I started when I was 19.
John Rudnitsky
That's crazy.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah. So this is like 45 years ago.
John Rudnitsky
It was like.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah, it's like 20, 25. Years ago.
John Rudnitsky
The feeling's the same, though.
Mike Birbiglia
That's insane. I'm literally just realizing that it's my birthday this week. Happy birthday this week. Wow. Thanks, man. Yeah. 25 years ago.
John Rudnitsky
That's crazy.
Mike Birbiglia
Didn't get past.
John Rudnitsky
Oh, you didn't get past.
Mike Birbiglia
No, I auditioned three times.
John Rudnitsky
Oh, yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
And it was so painful.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
Because I was just so sad. Every time I didn't get past. I was just so sad.
John Rudnitsky
Do you feel like when you think back to your 23 year old self, like, oh, I wasn't ready or.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah, of course.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
No. And by the way, actually ties into your documentary and doing hell gigs in the middle of nowhere for 10 people. It's like I actually needed to do that more.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
So that the nerves are gone in any situation.
John Rudnitsky
Yes. Bombing at an SNL table read helps.
Mike Birbiglia
You know, you're like something very few people have experienced. Yeah.
John Rudnitsky
You're in front of like all your heroes and a different movie star every week and you're just eating and then you're like, crazy. Like, I guess this. Yeah. Showing Kenosha is not so bad. Not so scary. Anyway, we have a great job. We get to just hang out with funny people, watch them go up. It's inspiring.
Mike Birbiglia
Which segues into this next question from everything is pop. Are all comedians mentally ill?
John Rudnitsky
Yeah, I think so. But I've been wondering, I've been wondering lately, aren't we all mentally ill and we just talk about it.
Mike Birbiglia
That's right. That's a good question too.
John Rudnitsky
And. And we take our mental illness and we found a way to channel it.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah.
John Rudnitsky
That's what I'm wondering. Or maybe some people are fine. Are some people okay?
Mike Birbiglia
I. I don't think so. I don't. My experience with comedians is no one's okay.
John Rudnitsky
No one's okay.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah, you got to. If you probe enough.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
On the surface, they seem good. And then you probably. Oh, okay.
John Rudnitsky
I'm trying to think of, like, who might be okay. I think Adam Sandler seems great. I don't know him at all, but I'm like.
Mike Birbiglia
Does seem good.
John Rudnitsky
He seems good.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah. Agree.
John Rudnitsky
Conan seems good.
Mike Birbiglia
Conan seems pretty good. Yeah.
John Rudnitsky
I guess I'm describing billionaires.
Mike Birbiglia
The billionaires seem to be doing well. But you know what's funny about that is I thought that. And you don't have to have seen your documentary to kind of identify with this idea. I think one of the things that your documentary kind of zooms out to is the cultural conversation right now of like, there's a declining Middle class. Yeah. And it's like there's the big winners and there's the big losers. Yeah. In America. And I think that that's true in comedy also.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
It's like there isn't really a comedy middle class.
John Rudnitsky
You're either like selling out MSG or you're in those shitty rooms. Because the clubs are also like actually for the MSG people to kind of work out their stuff now it feels like. Or just YouTubers who have a huge following. And I mean, I'll get weekends at some of those clubs, but a lot of the, A lot of those weekends are going to people with a following who haven't even been doing stand up that long.
Mike Birbiglia
Completely.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah. Anyway, but, But I feel good. Is mentally ill. What do you think your mental illness is if you had to build pinpoint it?
Mike Birbiglia
I will say I identify with
John Rudnitsky
what
Mike Birbiglia
Conan talked about in. I think it was Fresh Air interview.
John Rudnitsky
Okay. Okay.
Mike Birbiglia
Like years ago.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
Where, where he's, he's, he, I think he describes himself as like a high functioning depressive.
John Rudnitsky
Oh, wow. Okay. So I was wrong about Conan. I said Conan and I didn't even know.
Mike Birbiglia
But it's funny. Like he, he talks about it and I was like, wow. Every now and then someone says something in interview. You go, oh, my God, that's exactly how I feel. Like he goes, I didn't used to say I was depressed because I felt guilty.
John Rudnitsky
I totally get that.
Mike Birbiglia
Because my friends who were depressed couldn't get out of bed, couldn't leave their house.
John Rudnitsky
Right.
Mike Birbiglia
Well, I can leave the house.
John Rudnitsky
High function.
Mike Birbiglia
I can get out of bed. Yeah.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
And so that's sort of how he, I think evaluated it in the long term.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah. And I relate to that because I look at the, I look at my life and I'm like, I get to do the best thing.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah.
John Rudnitsky
I actually love my life, but I am often mostly freaking out. But I, I feel like I get to at least like on the way here when I'm being called bike boy. I mean, this is, this should be a nightmare. But I'm like, well, this is a funny thing I get to talk about.
Mike Birbiglia
This is my lead story.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah, yeah, yeah, exactly.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah.
John Rudnitsky
So the fact that we get to channel it into something is, makes it okay. It feels like.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah, I agree. I mean, I, I find that like when I'm not doing well, mental health wise, it's not because I'm not getting on stage or something, it's because I'm actually not writing in my journal, like writing my journal actually Is like. It's. It's. It. It lets out pressure.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
Because I'm like. When I write it, I've said this in one of my specials, but it's like when I write down what I'm angry about or sad about, I can look at it as someone else's story and be like, oh, well, you don't have to get that upset about that. That's not that bad.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah. Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
For this guy. And it's like, this guy's you.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah. Oh, man. Damn.
Mike Birbiglia
But usually it takes a. Like a month or two to look back at the old journal entries to be like, oh, okay, I was being irrational in that moment.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah. And that you can be like, well, this is not so different than that moment either. Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
Anyway, I'm cured.
John Rudnitsky
We're all good.
Mike Birbiglia
We're all good.
John Rudnitsky
We figured.
Mike Birbiglia
And your question is bullshit. Yeah. All right. This is uvi weed. Lodlo. When the question is, is social media the only way to make it in comedy? Now, that's what we were just talking about. It's not the only way, but it's a. It's a function of connection, period. Right. So, like, when I started out, I was a door person at the DC Improv in the late 90s when I was in college.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
And I saw that there was, like, these comedians. I think it was like, Brian Regan and. And like, Jeff Dunham, who had the puppets.
John Rudnitsky
Of course. Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
And. And I think a lot of them would have, like, like, little cards on the tables asking for people's mailing address.
John Rudnitsky
Sure, sure.
Mike Birbiglia
Or. Or email address. And then they would just, like, stay in touch and it would build a following. It's the same as social media. It's just an exponentialized version of it.
John Rudnitsky
Totally.
Mike Birbiglia
That's like the analog version of what it became. But those comedians who did that, like, mailing us back then did well. Yeah. They figured it out. Yeah. But also, like, it's. If you think about it, sense of humor is just subjective.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
So it's like my experience of your documentary is I was alone, laughing out loud in my bedroom watching it. Someone else might not laugh. They might not go, I don't. I'm not on that frequency.
John Rudnitsky
Right, right.
Mike Birbiglia
So it's like the analog version of you would be like, here, sign up for my mailing list in the 90s. The now version is like, follow me on Instagram or whatever the hell is the next thing. Totally social media.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
But, like, I think that the mistake is not extending yourself.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
To who is looking to possibly be on your frequency.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah. Yeah, totally.
Mike Birbiglia
You know what I mean? Like, I think I feel like a lot of times I'll see people and they'll be like, I'm not doing social media. And then. And they're really good.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
And it's like, that's fine. But also you have. The other end of that is, like, you might. People who have your frequency might not find you.
John Rudnitsky
I mean, these shows for 10 people, whatever. It's like, I can cut a clip from that, and it can get a million likes.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah.
John Rudnitsky
You know, that doesn't always happen. Often doesn't happen. But that fact that. That. That you can do that for that few people, but it can reach that many is. Yeah. Makes it feel like it's worth it.
Mike Birbiglia
And it's also like. It's a specific sense of humor. It's like. It's like. I'd say you and I both are people who just have a specific sense of humor. We're not for everybody.
John Rudnitsky
Right.
Mike Birbiglia
So if you're not for everybody, which is most comedians.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
Most musicians.
John Rudnitsky
My favorite comedians are really not for everybody.
Mike Birbiglia
Exactly. Then I think you have to figure out. Okay, I got to figure out how to get this to a lot of people so that the 1% of those people is who.
John Rudnitsky
Like this.
Mike Birbiglia
Like this.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
Are like, I should go to his show in Brooklyn.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
So that's why, like, the necessary evil of social media, I think, like, has to exist if you want people to watch what you're doing.
John Rudnitsky
So I think.
Mike Birbiglia
So this is Funky. Kong is asking how much of a joke is scripted versus improv? It's a good question.
John Rudnitsky
How much of.
Mike Birbiglia
Of, like, your jokes or my jokes are scripted versus improv?
John Rudnitsky
Oh, yeah. What would you say?
Mike Birbiglia
For me, it starts from a place of, like, 50. 50.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
By the end, when I'm filming it, it's pretty much like, 90% screen scripted.
John Rudnitsky
Right.
Mike Birbiglia
Right.
John Rudnitsky
Oh, even when you film it, there's still a level of or.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah, 98, 95. Like, it's mostly.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
It's mostly scripted by the end, but in the middle of the process, like, I find that, like, a lot of times I'll. It's like these cards. Like, I'll. I'll bring an idea up where I'm like, I know this line is funny.
John Rudnitsky
Yes. Yes.
Mike Birbiglia
But, like, I have to figure out what it's about.
John Rudnitsky
That's. That's how I work too.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah.
John Rudnitsky
I think I, like, have one line that's an idea, and I think I can talk around it for a while.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah.
John Rudnitsky
But it really varies set to set. But I know that the sets that are more improv heavy I enjoy more because it feels like I'm more just in the moment. It's harder to be in the moment when you're like doing your bits that you've worked out.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah.
John Rudnitsky
So yeah. I'll even try to improvise within the bit just so I can. It can feel fresh to me and I can find new things within it. So I'd say it's like 50, 50 when I go on the road, like I try to do like 20 up top. That's just not before I go into my jokes.
Mike Birbiglia
You try to improvise for 20 minutes?
John Rudnitsky
I do, I do. I tried.
Mike Birbiglia
That's impressive.
John Rudnitsky
In Ohio recently, I did like 40 before I got into any jokes.
Mike Birbiglia
Wow.
John Rudnitsky
You know, which is. It's fun.
Mike Birbiglia
Susie Chicago says I am a late in life comic. Started at 69. Am I crazy to pursue this at my age?
John Rudnitsky
No, no, no. My mom started doing shows really a while back. She stopped now but like, like 10 years ago when she was 59 and she was like. She just wanted to do it for fun.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah. I always think it's like, it's a fun experiment.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
To just stand in front of strangers and just say things that you thought of. Yeah. If. Even if it's an open mic or whatever.
John Rudnitsky
I mean it's just. It's the journal thing.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah.
John Rudnitsky
You're getting it out. There's something very cathartic about it.
Mike Birbiglia
KM Brody says, what actor do you wish would try performing stand up? It's a great question.
John Rudnitsky
None of them stay the away from us.
Mike Birbiglia
Exactly. You heard it here.
John Rudnitsky
You got your thing, you got your.
Mike Birbiglia
Dude, Rudnitsky wants you out.
John Rudnitsky
We don't need any more.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah, yeah. They always say that. When Tom Hanks was getting ready for Punchline.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
He's acting as a stand up comedian. Punchline the 80s. He went to the Comic Strip and learned stand up. Like he got up.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
And everybody always says he's really good.
John Rudnitsky
He was.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah, of course. Of course he was. Right.
John Rudnitsky
Of course he was. Of course he was. That makes a lot of sense. Yeah, I think. Yeah. I think it's hard to want to do Stan. You have to really have a sickness because if you're making it as an actor, that's such a much cozier existence.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah.
John Rudnitsky
You know, whenever I'm on set, I'm like, this is lovely.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
John Rudnitsky
Can we, can we get anything? We just need you to say something. We wrote in like six hours. Do you want some food? Yeah, sure.
Mike Birbiglia
This is Larry. Ma says, do you get nervous before going on stage?
John Rudnitsky
Every time.
Mike Birbiglia
Every time.
John Rudnitsky
You do
Mike Birbiglia
half the time
John Rudnitsky
for me. Every time.
Mike Birbiglia
Every time?
John Rudnitsky
Yeah.
Mike Birbiglia
For how long?
John Rudnitsky
I mean, until I'm up there.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah.
John Rudnitsky
But I feel like. I always think I'm, like. My body thinks I'm jumping out of a plane three times a day.
Mike Birbiglia
It's funny because I'm prepping for the next movie I'm directing right now. And what I've realized about prepping for something is that to prepare, you're thinking of all the things that could go wrong at once. And then when you do the thing, only about three things go wrong.
John Rudnitsky
And it's not as bad as you
Mike Birbiglia
thought it would be, which is not. It's inherently not as bad as all things going.
John Rudnitsky
Totally. And when those things go bad, you're like, I got this.
Mike Birbiglia
I got this. I already planned out everything going wrong.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah. Yeah. Well, that's why you plan it out.
Mike Birbiglia
I know. There's no getting around it.
John Rudnitsky
There's no getting around.
Mike Birbiglia
Yeah.
John Rudnitsky
We're sick. We're mentally ill.
Mike Birbiglia
I think. I think that's the ball game. Do you have any shows you unplug or anything?
John Rudnitsky
Oh, my documentary is premiering at the Galway Film Festival in Ireland.
Mike Birbiglia
Really?
John Rudnitsky
That's where it got in, Mike. It's very random, but that's where it's gonna be.
Mike Birbiglia
That's really cool.
John Rudnitsky
It's very cool. I'm excited.
Mike Birbiglia
I'm gonna go to my God. When is that?
John Rudnitsky
That's gonna be July 11th.
Mike Birbiglia
Oh, our Irish. Our Irish listeners have got to go.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah, July 10. July 10.
Mike Birbiglia
July 10.
John Rudnitsky
Yeah, July 10.
Mike Birbiglia
That might conflict with Nantucket.
John Rudnitsky
It's not. You said July 30. July 30.
Mike Birbiglia
You said, we'll be right back.
John Rudnitsky
No, we get a shot from up here. Drone shot.
Mike Birbiglia
So this summer, I got Galway, I got Nantucket. I got Mike singing today. I'm on the list for it.
John Rudnitsky
Nobody's going from Galway to Nantucket, by the way. This is a first.
Mike Birbiglia
Oh, yeah. Maybe we'll get the double. The double header. Galway, Nantucket crowd.
John Rudnitsky
We got it. I'll bring them.
Mike Birbiglia
That'd be cool.
John Rudnitsky
I'll bring them all in.
Mike Birbiglia
Be the one, be the one, be the one.
Date: June 22, 2026
Host: Mike Birbiglia
Guest: Jon Rudnitsky
This episode centers on the realities of being a working comedian, with Mike Birbiglia and Jon Rudnitsky delving into themes of failure, the struggle for recognition, performing in challenging venues, and the truth behind the comedy grind. They answer listener questions on topics from breaking into stand-up, navigating social media, mental health, and the comedy club scene, blending personal anecdotes with honest (often hilarious) insight.
Casual, self-deprecating, honest, and full of camaraderie and inside-baseball humor about the realities of the comedy world. Both Mike and Jon speak warmly, with an undercurrent of resilience and humility, offering real talk about the ups and downs of trying to “make it” in comedy.
Summary by Podcast AI – Your friendly guide to the comedy trenches.