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Ash
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Elena
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Ash
And I'm Elena.
Elena
And this is morbid.
Ash
This is morbid.
Elena
It's morbid in the late morning. I'm tired.
Ash
I know.
Elena
You know when you sleep too, like, not to brag, but you know when you sleep too good.
Ash
It's like when your hair is too soft.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
You know?
Elena
Yeah. It Happens. Actually, guys, my hair was too soft this morning. I had to put some dry shampoo.
Ash
Her hair is too soft and she slept too good.
Elena
I know. And my skin's too clinic. My skin is actually not very good right now.
Ash
You're just really. You're struggling.
Elena
I know. Really out here.
Ash
I have thoughts and prayers, everybody.
Elena
Prayerskel prayers up for me. I have a couple spots on my face that I had to conceal. Don't feel today. So, you know, just like you.
Ash
I say prayers out.
Elena
Just like you. I'm imperfect, Ash.
Ash
She's just like us.
Elena
This is an off putting intro.
Ash
It is very off putting. Imagine if this is the first. The first episode someone chooses to listen to.
Elena
Christ Almighty.
Ash
They're out. Sorry. They're gone. We lost them.
Elena
It was nice knowing you. I'm a good person, I swear. I'm a good person, I swear. No, we're a little silly today. We are a little bit sick silly.
Ash
I'm hungry. So that's gonna play a role in this episode.
Elena
I think I just ate my weight in chia seed pudding.
Ash
Good for you, man.
Elena
It was good. I have pineapple next to me if you want some. She does like you over there. Elena. If you want some.
Ash
Elena. I can have some.
Elena
If I could, I would give you the pineapple through the speaker, weirdo. But I haven't quite figured it out yet.
Ash
Thank you. I appreciate that.
Elena
You betcha.
Ash
I'll wait until after the episode.
Elena
Yeah, it's weird to eat on Mike.
Ash
Yeah, I don't want to give you guys like a misophonia moment.
Elena
That's pretty fucking gross.
Ash
Yeah. If you. Oh, one fun thing is if you haven't listened to the rewatcher yet. What the fuck are you doing, dumbass? We're in the last season of Buffy the Vampire Slayer over there and then we're moving on to another show.
Elena
The way that I was just about to say.
Ash
Yeah, just.
Elena
Boop. No, I was like. We have not announced that yet.
Ash
We're not telling you. But I think it'll be one that you'll be excited about. Cause it's a lot of fun.
Elena
Yeah. And if you don't know what we're talking about, we have another show called called the Re Watcher. We cover Buffy the Vampire Slayer. I've never seen it. Or like I've seen a couple episodes, but for the most part I've never seen it. And Elena has and Mikey has.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
And now we're going into another show that I have literally never seen even a single episode. And Elena has and Mikey has.
Ash
Yeah. This. This one is gonna be even more wild just because Ash, at least with Buffy, had seen, like, bits and pieces. Yeah.
Elena
Just like growing up with you.
Ash
But this one, she's blind. Completely, completely in the dark about. So this is gonna be a real, real experience.
Elena
In fact, I was getting. You guys were talking about it in code earlier.
Ash
Yeah, we were. Me and Mikey were texting. Hilarious moments.
Elena
It was making me Teo'd.
Ash
And we said, don't worry, we'll show you this conversation when they come up.
Elena
You did? That was nice. That was nice of you. Because I was like.
Ash
But there's something really fun with it, too, that we'll get to announce soon. Little added fun thing with that season of the rewatcher.
Elena
Is there?
Ash
Yes, we were just talking about it.
Elena
Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. I was like, what?
Ash
Anyway, so, yeah, go check it out. If you haven't watched the. Listened to the rewatcher yet, it's a lot of fun over there.
Elena
It is fun, and I think you.
Ash
Guys will dig it.
Elena
Yeah. And we do scream, too. So listen to Scream.
Ash
With Caleb.
Elena
With Caleb, we listen to. Or we listen to and watch horror movies.
Ash
We do both.
Elena
We cover them, and we all pick a different one every week. And it gets pretty crazy.
Ash
It does. It gets funny over there.
Elena
Yeah, it gets silly.
Ash
So if you need. If you needed to round out your morbid listening experience, I highly recommend that.
Elena
Just a whole bunch of Elena and Ash.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
In France.
Ash
In France.
Elena
In France. All right, well, I have a weird case for you today.
Ash
Yeah, you do?
Elena
I know this case. Like, I knew of it, but I didn't know all the details. This is the case of Frederick Borden and the disappearance of Nicholas Barclay, interestante. It is an interesting case. It's pretty sad, but fascinating. And you're just like, how the. Did this happen?
Ash
But I'll tell you how I am wondering that.
Elena
So let's start at the beginning, which is June of 1994. Nicholas Barclay was 13 years old, and he got into an argument with his mom over something pretty trivial. Nobody really knows, like, exactly what they were arguing about, but it was a pretty common occurrence between the two of them to be fighting. So Nicholas was definitely a troubled kid. He had a lot going on. We'll get into some of it later, but that's that specific day his mother, Beverly Dollarhyde, was really just in no mood to entertain this argument. So rather than continue it all, she gave Nicholas $5, and she was like, go play basketball with your friends. Like get out of the house.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
A few hours later, after his friends had gone, like all gone home, Nicholas called the house to ask his mother to pick him up. But his half brother Jason picked up the phone and told him that their mom was sleeping and he didn't want to have to wake her up. So he was like, you gotta walk home. And hours and hours passed, and Nicholas never did return home.
Ash
Oh, no.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
What an aw. That's such a sad way to, you know, just the thing that they were. Yeah.
Elena
They were arguing and then also being like, no, I'm not coming to get you. Yeah, walk home.
Ash
Oh, that's sad.
Elena
So sad. So at first, the family thought that Nicholas probably ran away and they assumed, you know, he'd just be back soon. His sister Carrie Gibson said he'd run away before for a night or two. He was mad at mom and said, I'm leaving. I'll find a new mom and a new home. He was not this nice, sweet, innocent kid. He was a very street smart city boy. But Nicholas didn't return after three days. So Beverly filed a missing persons report at that point. He's 13.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
And he's been gone for three days.
Ash
Yeah. That's not.
Elena
The likelihood of them finding him at this point is pretty low. Yeah. So when the news that Nicholas had gone missing was made public, shockingly, it didn't come as a surprise to anybody familiar with the family. According to neighbors, the police would visit the house a few times per month because the arguments between Beverly and the kids or between Beverly and her boyfriend got so heated.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
It seemed to be a pretty known fact that. That Nicholas was a difficult child. He was constantly getting into loud arguments with his mom. He was fighting with his brother Jason, and he had been known to run away from home on occasion. Beverly said he thought he was an adult. We called him 13 going on 30. It was very difficult to discipline him. If he made his mind up, he was going to do something. There wasn't much I could do. So when he was reported missing, no one outside the family seemed particularly alarmed. His disappearance never made the news. It wasn't news to them. It was just news to us. Just sad.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
So weeks and weeks passed, but there was no sign of Nicholas anywhere. No one heard from him at all. The belief that he had had just like run away pretty soon gave way to the belief that actually there might have been some kind of foul play involved. Beverly said, I thought somebody offered him a ride and he got into the car. I think he would have gotten Into a car with someone who kidnapped him.
Ash
That's so scary.
Elena
I know. Those weeks turned into months, the months turned into years, and it seemed like Nicholas was never coming back. Then, out of nowhere, in the fall of 1997, three years after he had disappeared, the family got a call from the u. S. Embassy in spain Saying they had found Nicholas in a children's home and that he was desperate to return home.
Ash
Can you even begin to imagine this? Like, this. Like that would be unthinkable. Like, you're just getting a call from a. From a foreign embassy, and they're just.
Elena
Like, hey, your kid's here. Yeah, Just showed up.
Ash
And how long was this again?
Elena
Three years.
Ash
Three years later.
Elena
Think of how long three years is.
Ash
Yeah. Like, three years is an eternity.
Elena
An eternity. So. And every single day, waking up just, like, filling in the blanks of what happened to your kid, and then you get a call like, oh, he's. He's just here and now he's a come home.
Ash
Yeah, like, you'd be. You'd be. I feel like the mix of complex emotions that you would be feeling would be so overstimulating because you'd be like. It's like excitement, grief for what they could have potentially been through. How did they get there? Who is with them? What have they been dealing with?
Elena
How'd they get all the way to fucking Spain? Or they okay in Texas?
Ash
Yeah. Like, holy.
Elena
Yeah. Well, according to the spanish authorities, Nicholas had told them very little and was, by all accounts, very deeply traumatized by what had happened to him. From what they could piece together, this is like, a little bit triggering. Nicholas had been kidnapped from texas by human traffickers who sold him into essentially sexual slavery until he was able to escape. After three years of enduring that abuse, he ended up being discovered by two french tourists who were in Spain at the time. And they found him by the side of the road near a diner and just called the police after conducting a basic interview with him. The. The authorities were convinced that he was an american, and they were eager to return him to his family. His family obviously was elated by the news that after three years with no answers, Their son and their brother, their loved one, was coming home. Yeah. His sister Carrie coordinated everything with the embassy, and she made plans herself to immediately travel to spain to be the one to bring her brother home. But because of the circumstances of his disappearance, the case ended up being transferred to the FBI, who would now be opening an investig nation, and vowed to capture the men who had kidnapped him in the first place. But this complicates things, obviously.
Ash
Oh, massively.
Elena
Yeah, yeah. So when Carrie arrived in sp in Spain to meet her brother, she really didn't know what to expect. I would have no idea.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
What to expect. From what she'd been told, he had experienced horrific abuse at the hands of his kidnappers. And obviously she knew that going through an experience like that will leave some kind of long term emotional effect on a person.
Ash
Absolutely.
Elena
Like psychological scars. And she also knew that three years had passed and in that time Nicholas would have changed physically. Especially when you think about the jump from 13 to 16.
Ash
Oh, for sure.
Elena
That's a big jump.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
So it seemed likely that maybe she wouldn't recognize him immediately. Despite having prepared herself for the worst, when they finally met in Spain, Carrie didn't have much trouble recognizing her brother. She said he had changed somewhat, but as far as she could tell, he was Nicholas. That said there were things about him that did give her pause. She said he talked with a funny accent, but it was always a whisper, very quiet, like he was hiding. She also noticed that his eyes, which were always a very vibrant blue, if you look up pictures of him, he has like, striking eyes.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
Now they were light brown, so that's weird.
Ash
Yeah, that doesn't happen.
Elena
Yeah. The handlers from the embassy explained that while he was being held captive, the, the abusers would beat him if he spoke English, so he learned to speak in a way that would please them. And they explained that according to Nicholas, the captors had also injected his eyes with some sort of SOL to change their color. Holy. Yeah. And as for his quiet, skittish behavior, obviously Carrie rationalized it by reminding herself that he had been severely tormented and traumatized.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
So that was going to change his behavior around others for sure, you know? So that night she spent hours going through an old photo album with her brother, just giving him updates on everybody reminiscing, pointing out, people, being like, you remember Auntie, you remember uncle this, like mom, you must miss Mom.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
And he said very little, but he seemed interested. And she said she could tell that he loved seeing the pictures. But before they could leave Spain and return to Texas, the US Embassy obviously needed to certify Nicholas's identity. As far as Carrie could tell, it was her brother. But they needed actual, like, information to confirm that this was really him before they would issue him a passport.
Ash
Yeah, of course.
Elena
So the following day, Nicholas met with a judge from the embassy who had devised a strategy to determine if this was in fact Nicholas Barclay. In their Meeting the judge showed Nicholas five photographs of his family, his quote, unquote family, and asked him to identify various people in those pictures. He correctly identified the first four, but he was unable to identify the fifth person. Like the person in the fifth image, huh? Yeah. Now, even though he hadn't been able to identify all five correctly, the judge reasons that four out of five was sufficient. And the embassy issued him a new passport, and he was off to return home to Texas. I mean, I. Trauma.
Ash
That's the thing. I can. I. There's, like, that element of unthinkable trauma here.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
That is playing a role in all of these decisions. I feel like it would play a role in most of my decisions. Three years of being human trafficked. I mean, that's something most of us luckily, fortunately, can never even begin to conceive. Human trauma that would come to that.
Elena
Taught to speak a different language. Injected in the eye.
Ash
Different language.
Elena
Right. Like. Like injected in the eyes. Like, big.
Ash
So I can see how they would be like, okay, yeah, he got four out of five. Maybe he's not gonna. His memory is not gonna be as clear.
Elena
Right.
Ash
You know, you can see it.
Elena
You can kind of see it.
Ash
Yeah, of course.
Elena
So with all the details and the paperwork squared away, Carrie and Nicholas went to the airport the next day, and they were, you know, prepared to leave Spain. To Carrie, he seemed incredibly nervous about the flight or returning home. Maybe a combination of both, she said. I didn't understand why he was so nervous. He was constantly watching people, watching me. He was always watching me. Obviously, she had some kind of strange feeling about it.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
Once they got back home, though, Nicholas was welcomed with open arms by almost everybody in his family. At first, the attention and warmth did seem to be overwhelming for him. To the family, he seemed pretty shy, pretty withdrawn, obviously very guarded. But like Carrie, they reminded themselves that he had undergone a profoundly traumatic experience. So it made sense that he wasn't, like, super duper happy, you know, like he was before.
Ash
Yeah, of course.
Elena
So within a couple months, Nicholas did seem to relax, and he was settling in. He started hanging out with his old friends. They were super happy to have him back, obviously. And he even seemed to be kind of developing a crush on one of the girls in the neighborhood. The change was positive, and it seemed to indicate that he was returning to his old self. But there was still one big hurdle before he and the family would be able to put this whole thing behind them. Because of the alleged kidnapping and the human trafficking, the FBI was obviously eager to pursue the case. And, yeah, they wanted to speak with him immediately. So after letting him get settled back in with his family, they scheduled a meeting with Special Agent Nancy Fisher. And Beverly and Nicholas sat down with her at the Texas center for Missing and Exploited Children. Given what had happened, Nicholas was obviously eager to get through the interview as fast as he could and never talk about what had happened to him again. Can't blame him.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
While that would be easy to understand, though, there was still something about Nicholas and his behavior that struck Nancy Fisher as unusual. Later, she said, not that people can't change in three years, but this person did not appear to be 16. He had a shadow of a beard, a dark beard that I doubt Nicholas would have had at the age of 16 since he had blonde hair.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
And if you do look at pictures of, like, when he was found three years later, he looks like he's in his 20s.
Ash
Oh, 100% like he looks like a man.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
It's shocking.
Elena
It is not to say that, like, everyone differently. Yeah.
Ash
You know, right.
Elena
Like some 16 year olds, you're like, holy, you look so much older.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
This was. This was a little different. But he also obviously appeared to be nervous and uncomfortable, but almost unusually nervous and uncomfortable. But like the others, Nancy was like, he's been traumatized. He's been brutalized. It's gonna change a person, especially in this setting where they're disclosing the most horrific details about their abuse to a stranger.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
So she gave him a little bit of a leeway.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
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Ash
I can't even, like, go there.
Elena
I can't either. Nicholas claimed that he only managed to escape that night because his captors forgot to close the door securely, and that's how he got out.
Ash
Damn.
Elena
Yeah. He said he got out of the building and just ran for hours until he couldn't run anymore. And that's when he was discovered by those two French tourists who obviously called.
Ash
The police, which you wonder, at that point, you're like, so did anyone else try to escape?
Elena
That was my immediate thought. I was literally just.
Ash
Wouldn't we be hearing that, like, other kids showed up?
Elena
Yeah. They left the door open, and one kid's running. I'm assuming most of the kids. Not everyone is gonna run. Obviously, there's fear, but.
Ash
But there's gonna be at least another one.
Elena
More than one.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
So Fisher said later, this was a horrendous interview, and I was shaken by it when I left because I felt all the horrific emotional side effects that go with listening to such a story. So she thanked Nicholas for being super candid with her, and she assured him they were going to find the people who had done this to him and bring them to justice. Before leaving, she reminded the family that because this was an open and ongoing case, they really should avoid speaking with the press because it could compromise the investigation.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
Despite the warning, the news about Nicholas's ordeal and his return home had already gotten out, and the family was constantly getting calls from reporters. About two months after Nicholas had got home, private investigator Charlie Parker got a call from a producer at Hard Copy, the national news magazine program, and they wanted to do a story on Nicholas, but they were having trouble getting in touch with the family. So it was their intention to hire Parker, who worked out of San Antonio, track the family down, and get their consent to cover this story. Parker actually had no difficulty getting hold of Beverly and Nicholas. And to his surprise, they seemed pretty eager to share their story, which was not great because the FBI literally said.
Ash
Literally just said, don't do that.
Elena
And like anything the FBI tells me to do, I'm prob's gonna listen.
Ash
Yeah. If they say don't do that, because it's going to compromise a giant child trafficking ring that they're trying to, you know, eradicate down.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
Listen to that.
Elena
I don't listen.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
No. Just a few days after reaching out to the family, though, Parker found himself invited into the family home. He was watching as the local news taped an interview with Nicholas just sitting in the Living room. In that specific interview, Nicholas is wearing a large jacket pulled up around his neck, a wide brim hat, and dark sunglasses. Okay. Interesting. His responses to the interviewer's questions are very short, very quiet, and delivered with a distinct heavy French accent. Which is weird.
Ash
Yeah. Like, that would make you People questioning this. I get it.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
Like, this is. It's strange. It's strange.
Elena
I can't imagine my. Like. Like my child goes missing three years later, comes back with different eyes, a dark beard, and a French accent.
Ash
That's. It's the eyes that I'm having trouble.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
That I would have. But again, like, I understand desperation.
Elena
Yes.
Ash
Could also be playing a role into this, that you are just desperate to have your child back. And you will just kind of ignore the red flags because you're like, I just want this to be him.
Elena
It's like the case that you covered, the Bobby.
Ash
Bobby Dunbar.
Elena
Bobby Dunbar case.
Ash
Yeah. It's like you just desperately want your child back. So you'll just kind of put yourself in a headspace of like, this has to be him.
Elena
Yes.
Ash
Because otherwise something terrible happened.
Elena
Otherwise, he's gone. Yeah.
Ash
I can't take that.
Elena
Right. And I'm sure, like, in some ways it would feel like, don't rip this child away from me. Like, if they, you know, like.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
They're thinking like, this is my child. Or even like they've convinced themselves. You know, like they've convinced themselves, and it's like, don't take him away again.
Ash
Yeah, exactly.
Elena
So Charlie Parker was watching the interview in a separate room where he could see Nicholas clearly. And as it happened, he also found himself standing next to a photograph, an old photograph of Nicholas on the wall. As he watched Nicholas being interviewed, his eyes just kept darting back and forth between the photograph and the young man in the other room. And the more he examined the photo in front of him, the more he started, you know, kind of noting the differences between the two. He said there was a moment where the hair stood up on the back of your neck and there was just something wrong about it.
Ash
The fact that he just, like, knew.
Elena
He just, like, innately. Exactly, yeah. Not wanting to tip anybody off to his suspicion, though, the next day, Parker asked Beverly if she had a picture of Nicholas that he could borrow to kind of study some more.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
And he remembered that. And this is interesting, he remembered that when Martin Luther King Jr. Assassin James Earl Ray was arrested in London, the authorities used a comparison of his ear in those photographs or in a photograph of Ray in order to confirm his identity. So Parker enlarged the photo of Nicholas and compared it to the photo of 16 year old Nicholas and his passport. And to his surprise, the boy's ears were not even remotely similar in the two photos. Oh, and our ears don't change.
Ash
No.
Elena
It's entirely possible for somebody to dye their hair, change the way they speak, maybe even change the color of their eyes to seem like they're somebody else. But again, our ears are like our fingerprints. They're formed when we're very young. And, you know, barring some kind of mutilation, they just don't change as we grow older.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
So that being the case, Charlie Parker now had compelling evidence that the boy living in Beverly's house was not Nicholas Barker.
Ash
Which also is fucking horrifying.
Elena
Terrifying, horrifying. Like I have goosebumps now. Like, I've read through this multiple times. I have goosebumps.
Ash
I can't.
Elena
So fearing that the young man could be a spy or have some kind of nefarious intent, Parker called Nancy Fisher, Special Agent Nancy Fisher, to report his discovery. And he was stunned to find that Fisher didn't seem too interested in what he had to say. Huh. In fact, the most she was willing to tell him was just be careful that he didn't intrude on a federal investigation unless he wanted to get charged with a crime. Oh, yeah. Later she said, I thought I didn't have a right to question their statement that this was their family member, because how could they be wrong? I mean, no one would be wrong about something like that. Why would you ever take in a stranger, not just a stranger from this country, but a stranger from another country who speaks with a French accent? This has to be Nicholas Barclay, which.
Ash
I, again, I understand that totally. That thought process. Like, I totally get where they're coming from.
Elena
Like I get that. But also you're an FBI agent.
Ash
Well, for sure. That's the thing. Like I, that's, I. This is so fucked up, this whole thing. Because it's like, it's different because she's an FBI agent. That's where, that's where, like, like that's your job.
Elena
It's different because you're an FBI agent. But then at the, like I was just saying that. But then at the same time, when the, do you run into that during your career?
Ash
Well, that's. And it's like at this point, it's so hairy because you are questioning of grieving a family who's been grieving for three years.
Elena
Yes.
Ash
The loss of their child. And it's like, and now they have this hope and they are telling you this is their family member.
Elena
They're, like, steadfast about it.
Ash
It must be a very strange position to be in to know that it is not.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
And to be like, how are you not seeing it?
Elena
Right.
Ash
You know, like, we think of the Bobby Dunbar case and we were saying, like, how can you not know that's not your son? I think, but it's like desperation plays a part of just controlling the part of your brain that logically tells you that is not your child. It just shuts it off.
Elena
I assume that's the thing.
Ash
And I think when. Unless you've been in that position, it's probably hard to understand. To understand. But looking from this point of view, you say, dear FBI agent, question that you gotta question it. If you ruffle some feathers, you ruffle some feathers. You gotta let it slick off your back and be like, sorry, I'm just doing my job.
Elena
Right. Well, you know, we're here talking about it, so, you know, something happens.
Ash
Exactly.
Elena
So Nancy Fisher might not have wanted to believe that they were dealing with a straight up imposter, but there were others who were far less willing to entertain this whole charade. As part of the FBI's investigation into the case, Nicholas was sent to see forensic psychologist Bruce Perry in order to collect more information about his claims about being trafficked. He later said, Bruce said, I introduced myself. And when he spoke back, immediately I thought, something's wrong here. As a contractor with the FBI, Perry had interviewed countless survivors of traumatic situations, actually, unfortunately similar to those that Nicholas said he had gone through. And nothing about the boy's behavior seemed to support his story. Most significantly, Nicholas spoke pretty casually about the details of this abuse that he supposedly went through without showing any of the physical and largely unconscious signs of somebody who's been abused. There was also the fact that he seemed entirely incapable of speaking fluent English or speaking without an accent. Like it seemed like he could not do.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
Perry said that told me about the development of his brain and the development of language. You just cannot be raised for the first six or seven years of your life in an English speaking home and not be able to speak English without an accent. I can guarantee you that this kid was not raised in an English speaking family.
Ash
Which it really is fascinating how people can, like, pick those little parts of your pathology.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
And point to, like. Nope.
Elena
And just proves it.
Ash
You know what I mean?
Elena
And it's so fascinating just how the brain works and how even though you might so badly want to change that, but you just can't. Like, your brain is just wired that way.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
So Bruce Perry reported his suspicion to Nancy Fisher, and along with what she'd heard from Charlie Parker, at that point, she could not ignore the obvious fact that whoever it was who had returned home from Spain with Carrie Gibson was not Nicholas. Barcode.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
So fearing now that the family might be in danger, she immediately called Carrie Gibson, his sister or quote, unquote, and told her what they learned. And to Nancy's great surprise, Carrie seemed uninterested in hearing that the young man living in their house was not her brother and may, in fact, be a dangerous person.
Ash
Oh.
Elena
Later, Carrie said she didn't remember Nancy Fisher putting it in, like, those exact words that this person might be dangerous.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
But the fact remained that no matter how she phrased it, the family was determined to hold on to the belief that their lost loved one had come back to them.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
And it seemed like nothing was going to change their minds. Which you, like we're saying over and over again, you can understand it's a sad situation.
Ash
It really is.
Elena
Very quickly, the $Hyde family had gone from willing participants in an FBI investigation to now a serious obstacle in finding the truth. A few days after Nancy Fisher informed the family about the potential danger, she actually went to Beverly's home to obtain permission to get a DNA sample from Nicholas. But the agents were met at the door with a very uncooperative Beverly. Not only did she refuse to allow them near Nicholas, quote, unquote, but when they pushed the issue, she threw herself onto the floor and started screaming, no. And you can't pick me up and you can't make me.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
Which is sad.
Ash
It's the whole thing.
Elena
It's heartbreaking.
Ash
The whole thing is heartbreaking. I mean, this is awful.
Elena
Yeah. From Nancy Fisher's perspective, though, the change was remarkable. She said she wasn't just apathetic, she was hostile. I no longer saw them as a grieving, victimized family. I saw them as a questionable family. There'd be no reason for them to accept a stranger into their lives unless there was something to hide. Because she's looking at it like, this is a bit nefarious now.
Ash
Yeah. Because I understand that you need to question that. You need to say. Because you have to look at it from a totally unbiased point of view, not living in the emotion of it all.
Elena
You need to be like, why are.
Ash
You trying to keep this If I'm telling you this could be a dangerous stranger. This is likely not your son.
Elena
Right.
Ash
Like, why can't we investigate this? You know? But then you look at the family and you say, well, I don't want you to put my. My loved one, who I think this is my loved one through more trauma.
Elena
Right.
Ash
And I just want to go on with my life.
Elena
Right.
Ash
But you can see how it would look nefarious from the other side.
Elena
Yeah. And the thing, like, it wouldn't be super traumatic to get a DNA test to confirm your identity, I don't think exactly, you know, like. But again, but I've never gone through this experience, so who knows? But while Nancy Fisher and the other fba, the other agents from the FBI, continued trying to work with the family, private investigator Charlie Parker was kind of, you know, in the background there. He was tailing, quote, unquote, Nicholas everywhere he went at this point. At times, he would reach out in the hope of forming a connection that would allow him to get more information. And after about a week or two, his efforts seemed to pay off. One afternoon, Charlie Parker invited, quote, unquote, Nicholas out for breakfast at a local restaurant. And they sat down together. They apparently ordered some hotcakes. And the conversation eventually turned to the night that Nicholas disappeared. Several years earlier, Parker said, you really made your mother mad, referring to the fight that he had gotten in with his mother before he left to play basketball. And at hearing that, the man sitting across from Charlie Parker put his fork down, looked up at Parker and said, she's not my mother and you know it. I would my pants.
Ash
Charlie Parker was probably like, wow. I thought that was gonna be a lot more difficult.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
Holy shit.
Elena
Obviously, Charlie Parker knew. He fully knew. Like, he had gone studied the ears and everything.
Ash
Like, innately he knew you don't go that hard unless you're pretty sure that you're right.
Elena
Right. But then to have somebody confirm it must be just a whole different thing.
Ash
You must be orbiting at that point. Like, I would be shot into the Kuiper belt.
Elena
And then you're also like, okay, cool. Who the are you sitting across from me?
Ash
Who the are you? And two, what the do we do next?
Elena
Yeah, like, what do I do with this information?
Ash
Now I know, right? It's like, is the family gonna take this?
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
And how are they gonna take it?
Elena
Exactly. So once the confession was out of his mouth, it didn't take long for the imposter Nicholas's story to fall apart. Part A short time after that breakfast meeting with Charlie Parker, he was fingerprinted by the FBI, who ran the prints through the international database and almost immediately got a hit, which like, fantastic. Why the didn't you just do that as a precaution originally?
Ash
Okay, thank you. Because my first question was going to be, wait a second, they didn't fingerprint him. Why didn't I think of that?
Elena
We could have started like that. Judge's idea was super cute and like super fun. Like that should have been a long fingerprints. Right.
Ash
Dental records, the whole nine. And what's wild is I didn't question earlier why they didn't do fingerprints or dunk.
Elena
I think I probably just assumed they did.
Ash
I think I assumed they did and now I'm like, wait a second.
Elena
Yeah, no, why wouldn't you do that to begin with?
Ash
Clear as day.
Elena
Yeah. Wow. Certainly is the fact that they didn't fingerprint him to begin with is mind boggling.
Ash
Truly baffling.
Elena
My baffleds are baffled. Truly. So the young man who had been passing himself off as Nicholas Barclay for several months now living in this family's home, was in fact 25 year old, a 25 year old French man named Frederick Bourdin.
Ash
Yeah, so see, there was a reason he looked that old.
Elena
Not only was he 25, he was a fugitive wanted by the Interpol on several counts of impersonating other people all around Europe.
Ash
Oh no.
Elena
They had been living with a fugitive.
Ash
Oh no.
Elena
Can you like, can you imagine, you think your 13 year old son disappeared? Like you're not only. You think he did, he did disappear. Three years later he comes back, the FBI is like, yay, he's back. We showed him some photos, he knows you guys, it's great. And then you find out you've been living with a 25 year old French fugitive. I'd be like, what the. Who did I piss off in a past life?
Ash
Seriously, I'd be like, what the. When does it end?
Elena
Truly, when does it end?
Ash
Holy.
Elena
A 25 year old French fugitive.
Ash
You've just been laying your head down at night with that man in your house.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
Pretending to be your child. And also this guy. What the.
Elena
It's weird.
Ash
This family lost their 13 year old child and you prey upon that. You gotta be, yeah, you gotta be. The lowest form of scum.
Elena
He is a mentally ill human being. He, I will say has a very tragic backstory. It by no means excuses what he did, but there's some psychological thing that played out here.
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Visit carecredit.com to apply and find a location near you subject to credit approval. So in retrospect, it obviously seems unbelievable that anybody would have looked at a 25 year old man, specifically this 25 year old man, and believed him to be 16 year old Nicholas. Like I, you, I was telling you I was doing this case and you looked at the pictures and you were like, how the did.
Ash
I was like, yeah.
Elena
But he had gone out of his way to make himself appear younger. And when it came to manipulating people, he was a master manipulator. Still, the difference between the two people is immediately apparent. Bourdain himself said in a 2011 interview. I mean, who wouldn't see it?
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
He himself was like, yeah, that's crazy. Yeah.
Ash
Like I, when I saw the pictures, I was like, I don't know about that. Yeah, I don't know about that.
Elena
One of these things is not like the other.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
So the revelation that Nicholas was actually Frederick Bourdine was a shock. Shock to many of the people who had, you know, closely followed this story or who, who were involved in this story. But it also raised several new questions. Chief among them, who the was this guy and why did he want to impersonate an American teenager?
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
Given that his history is almost entirely self reported and the fact that he is a consummate liar and con artist, it's pretty difficult to know how much of his personal history is true. But throughout the last decade or so, it does seem like he has this. His kind of remarkable willingness to be honest about his life and his crimes. So it's possible that he told the truth with regard to his history and his motives for this whole thing.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
So Frederick Pierre Bording, or Borden, was born June 13, 1974 to a single mother, Ghislaine Bourdine, in Nanterre, France. France. Why can't I say France, France, France? Why did I say it like a France in France?
Ash
Months.
Elena
Anyway, at the time of his birth, his mother was very young and his father was an older man from Algeria and he was already married at the time, so Ghislaine never told him about her pregnancy. Ah. Not very prepared or very interested in being a mother. Frederick ended up being raised by his grandfather, who he claimed was an abusive racist who treated him very badly because he was mixed race. Frederick said, before I was born, I already had the wrong identity. I was already prepared not to know who I really was, which is really sad.
Ash
That is Sad.
Elena
In a 2008 interview, Ghislaine recalled that her son was like any other child, totally normal in his early years. But she said she didn't have much experience with him when he was young.
Ash
Okay.
Elena
Yeah. Just before he turned three, he was removed from the home and placed with her parents because of her lifestyle at the time, she was a heavy drinker. She usually didn't have a job. She was in no way fit to be a mother.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
And besides all that, according to one relative, she really didn't want anything to do with that child.
Ash
That's sad.
Elena
It is really sad.
Ash
That's really sad. It doesn't give you a right to traumatize people later in life. But no, it's very sad.
Elena
You feel sad for the child.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
When he did see her, Frederick remembered his mother being very dramatic, constantly needing attention. So relatable. While most people would have been happy to see their children and, you know, make their children the center of attention, Ghislaine seemed kind of frustrated when the focus wasn't on her and when, like, Frederick was getting attention but him. So she would feign illness when he was around and especially when they were alone together and make him run and get help. He said to me, to see me frightened, gave her pleasure.
Ash
That's fucked up.
Elena
So she's like, fucked.
Ash
Yeah, that's really fucked up if this.
Elena
Is true, because, again, yeah, I was.
Ash
Gonna say because, remember, he's a con man.
Elena
Right. Caught between his grandfather's abusive, you know, abuse and his mother's disinterest and, you know, whatever was going on there, Frederick started creating fantasies in his head about who his real father might be. And when he entered school, he started telling stories about his father. He told his classmates that his dad was a British secret agent, among other lies. But no matter how outrageous the stories about his home life were, his peers, more often than not, seemed to believe him. A former teacher of his said he had this way of making you connect with him. And they described Frederick as a, quote, precocious and captivating child who had an extraordinary imagination and visual sense, drawing wild, beautiful comic strips. So he, like, there was a lot going on in his mind, for sure. At the same time that his creative side was emerging at school, like, cool, cool, cool. Teachers started noticing other, more troubling aspects of his personality. Not cool. Not cool. Not cool. He was rebellious. He acted out a lot. And he showed what teachers described as signs of mental distress. So something was going on. At one point, he told his grandparents that he had. This is awful. Had been molested by a neighbor. Oh, God. But it doesn't seem like they did anything to report that or have that investigated. So after that, he became even more rebellious and even more defiant. When he was 12, his grandparents weren't able to control him anymore, and he was usually in trouble for acting out at school or stealing from neighbors. So his behavior got him sent to a facility for troubled children. And that's a fact.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
During his time in the children's home, he seemed to get even more creative with the stories that he was telling. He got more dramatic, more detailed. In 1990, when he turned 16, he was required to move to a different children's home for older kids. But after just a few days there, he ran away and hitchhiked Paris, where he invented his first fake identity. He said he was a lost British teenager named Jimmy Sale. Later he said, I dreamed they would send me to England, where I always imagined life was more beautiful. But the problem was he spoke almost no English. So the authorities in Paris didn't believe his story, and eventually he confessed, gave them his real name, and they promptly returned him back to the home.
Ash
Oh, geez.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
So lots of failures here.
Elena
Yeah. So his performance of Jimmy Sale lost British Teen might not have been very convincing to win him a free trip to England, but it did seem to work for like a little bit. Like he was almost convincing them. In fact, if he had spoken English and been able to give some other details and, you know, explain away flaws in his story, he might have been able to pull it off. He wasn't super far from pulling it off. So it was then that he established a strategy of impersonation that he would now employ countless times over the next two decades. By 1992, he had impersonated more than a dozen fictional children and just bounced around from one children's home to the other, just lying about his identity. But now that he was 18, things were different. They didn't send 18 year olds to children's homes, they sent them to prison or just like kicked them out to live on the street streets. And at the same time, he hadn't received any education or life lessons. Anything that you need to live successfully as an adult.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
So he decided he just wouldn't live as an adult. Instead, he continued impersonating children all over France, fleeing when he was found out, only to start his ruse, restart his ruse somewhere else with a new fake identity. By that time, he had accumulated a pretty significant record with the Interpol for lying to authorities, falsifying his identity, falsifying documents. It was true that he had broken the law by creating so many fictional identities, but it also seemed to be one of the few things that he was actually really good at. Like he got caught, obviously, because you could only put up things like that for so long, but he was the.
Ash
Way he got away with it for a while.
Elena
He got away with it for a while. And the way he would manipulate people like they did believe him.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
He had this, this ability to make people believe him.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
Which is really fucking scary.
Ash
Which also makes you question a lot of his background.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
That you can't verify, at least.
Elena
That you can't.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
Well, he kind of said having spent so many years in institutional care, he had a keen understanding of how to elicit sympathy from adults and how to exploit their guilt.
Ash
Absolutely.
Elena
He knew which buttons to push in order to get what he wanted, while also making them overlook obvious inconsistencies in his story. In the time that had passed since his teen years, his fantasies and his stories had gone from, you know, creative play to now criminality.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
But the motive always seemed to be the same. Despite having become an, you know, a straight up con artist and an impersonator, his identities weren't about Money or anything like that, or, like, stealing from people. He just said, for as long as I can remember, I wanted to be somebody else, someone who was acceptable, which is really sad.
Ash
I know that's the thing. If it's like, that's really the case, then that's devastating.
Elena
It. He never got charged with, like, any theft or anything like that. Like, he was always just charged for being a con artist and, like, falsifying documents to be a child.
Ash
Well, and it's like, you wanted to, like, he. He's wanting all these things that he didn't get, and these people treated him so badly. But then he's going and, like, destroying people.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
Lives.
Elena
It's up.
Ash
And it's like, that's not gonna help.
Elena
It's not gonna help. I think he didn't learn, like, compassion and compassion, empathy, like, relating two things to one another. Humanity. And it's like, I think if he had seen a psychologist while he lived in those children's home, he might have turned out to be a very different person.
Ash
Yeah, potentially.
Elena
But like you were just saying, because he had the childhood he did being passed around people who just truly couldn't give a. He never felt wanted or loved anywhere. But when he created stories about being a lost child or sometimes a mute, traumatized teenager, he found the kind of sympathy and care that he always wanted. Even being placed in a children's home, he said he felt more comfortable than he ever had been with his mother or his grandparents.
Ash
Wow, that's really sad.
Elena
He said, nobody ever gave a damn about me. So to be put in a place where somebody really cared about me, I was reborn.
Ash
Wow.
Elena
Which is sad.
Ash
That's real. That's horrifying.
Elena
Yeah. But unfortunately, no matter how good he was, like, we know. The characters and identities he. He made for himself over the years only lasted so long before he was found out and had to move on. In October of 1997, his latest scheme had earned him a stay at a child welfare home in Spain, where a Judge gave him 24 hours to prove that he was a teenager or face criminal penalties. He was going to go to prison. So panicked that now he had overplayed his hand and could wind up in jail. He told the manager of the home that he was an American teenager who'd been kidnapped and brought to Spain, and all he wanted was to go back home. He played the trauma card and convinced the manager to let him be the one to contact his family in private. And he even got them to agree to letting him do it in the Manager's office, like alone. Which is wild.
Ash
How does certain people just have this ability?
Elena
Because here's the thing, like, it is insane, but I know people who I think could pull this off.
Ash
100 that's the thing. There are certain people who just have this ability.
Elena
Yeah, yeah. Con artists are scary people. Because you hear like, there have been people in my life and I'm like, how the did you get away with doing that? And like, how do you not care about hurting somebody like that?
Ash
How do people just let you do it?
Elena
And how do people let you do it? But they do. It's crazy. So this happened the night before he was to be fingerprinted by the Spanish authorities. Fingerprinted the night before. He sent the entire night placing calls to various police stations and cities across the US Every time he would claim that he was a Spanish police officer who had found a missing American boy. But he said the boy refused to speak to them. So he was reaching out on the boy's behalf to find out whether or not this boy matched any of their missing children.
Ash
Wow.
Elena
Which, like, imagine getting that call. You'd be sus about that call.
Ash
Absolutely.
Elena
So he, yeah, he did, like, he struck out repeatedly that night. But then he got a hit at the Texas center for Missing and Exploited Children after providing terrible, what was basically a description of himself. The operator told him the description sounded a lot like that of Nicholas Barclay, a teenager from San Antonio, Texas who had gone missing three years earlier in 93. So Bourdine asked the operator to fax a photo of Nicholas. And he did, or they did. And when the image of the missing boy came through, Frederick was like, this is a long shot. Like, I don't really even look like this kid.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
But I'm gonna try because it's my only hope. Hope, wow. He said he thought to himself in that moment, he's been missing three or four years. I can guarantee one thing, there would be a change. If there's a change, there will be doubt. If there's doubt, then I have a chance.
Ash
That is chilling.
Elena
It is.
Ash
That is so chilling because he did.
Elena
Not give a about what that could do to this family. He didn't even think about it. He just said, I can't go to prison.
Ash
So this is what I, I can't go to prison. So I'm just gonna ruin this family's life.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
Wow.
Elena
So it was then that 25 year old con artist Frederick Bourdine transformed himself into 16 year old missing teenager Nicholas Barclay. While the authorities started contacting the Embassy and the family. Frederick worked fast to make his appearance match that of Nicholas. To the best of his ability. He dyed his hair blonde. He even had one of the other residents tattoo him with the initials that Nicholas had tattooed on his hand and his ankle. Yet even those alterations, like, with those alterations, Tattoos he got. Yeah, he dyed his hair. He got tattoos for this. But even with those alterations, he was sure that he would be found out immediately and sent to prison. He just was like, it's worth a try. Wow. Later, he said, you can't prepare to play a role or be a person you don't know. But when the first interview happened and the embassy official seemed satisfied with the story, it did seem possible. Still highly unlikely, but possible that he could pull it off. Then in the days that followed, he thought surely he'd be discovered as a fraud at any minute. But every passing step, everyone seemed to believe his story with no hesitation. The reality is that obviously, like, a lot of people don't want to question a story like this.
Ash
No, of course not.
Elena
Especially one that he had told where, you know, he'd been traumatized and everything. So it worked.
Ash
So it just. All the cards fell into place. Yeah.
Elena
Yeah. And it was pretty much what he assumed. People were easy to manipulate when you knew what buttons to push. And he did know what buttons to push. The trauma buttons.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
But his biggest challenge, he figured, came when Casey Gibson, Nicholas's real sister, arrived in Spain to pick him up. Frederick was convinced that after days of pretending, he was going to be found out when Casey got there. But he said Casey didn't appear the slightest bit suspicious, so it seemed like he might actually get to leave Spain. In fact, when it came to establishing his identity for the passport, something he definitely thought was going to trip him up.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
It was Casey who prepared him for the test, unknowingly.
Ash
Oh, man.
Elena
The night before, Frederick was to meet with the judge at the embassy again. Remember, they spent hours going through family photos and telling stories.
Ash
Oh, you're right.
Elena
So when the judge asked him to identify those people in the family photos, he had been given all the information he needed, not even 24 hours earlier.
Ash
Wow.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
Just by having it all just kind of fell into place for him. He didn't even have to do the work.
Elena
Yep.
Ash
Wow.
Elena
For years, years at this point, he had passed himself off as dozens, dozens of fake teenagers with varying degrees of success. But this was the first time he had taken the identity of an actual person. And he was still convinced, though, that sooner or later, someone was going to Realize he wasn't Nicholas. And it's obviously one thing to create a fake Persona and like come up with your own backstory, but it's quite another to adopt the identity of a person who had 13 years of experiences with a family.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
And like an American family, you know, that's. It's pretty different.
Ash
Yeah.
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Elena
So when they arrived in San Antonio, he said the dollar had family welcomed him with open arms. Like Carrie, it seemed they didn't notice the glaring differences between Frederick and missing Nicholas because they didn't want to. No, of course they didn't. Each new person he met seemed to adopt the position that since he had gone through this traumatic ordeal, he would almost certainly have changed in some way. And he said if anybody was suspicious, they didn't let on. Wow. Aside from one person who did not seem even remotely interested in entertaining the rose. The ruse. When they knew Nicholas was going to be coming home, the family organized a party and all the relatives and neighborhood friends came over to the house to welcome him. When he got there, the only person who wasn't there was Nicholas's half brother Jason, the one who had called, remember?
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
And Jason said, like, no, I'm not waking up, mom. You gotta walk home.
Ash
That's tough.
Elena
Since Nicholas's disappearance, Jason blamed himself for everything. And he was a heavy drug user for years. Unfortunately, it made him slip a lot further into into his addiction. A couple weeks after the party, though, Jason did finally come by the house to visit with the family. And when he walked in, he gave quote, unquote Nicholas a Hug. But Frederick said he remained very standoffish for the entire visit. And he seemed to be viewing his. His quote, unquote brother with a very wary look. In fact, despite spending hours with the family that day, they only spoke one time. As Jason was preparing to leave the house, he looked at Frederick suspiciously, said good luck, and left.
Ash
Good luck.
Elena
Good luck. Holy chills. You to your core.
Ash
Can you? Fred, he knew, was probably, like, over.
Elena
Oh, yup. Oh, yup. The fact that this is not like it is a movie now, but the fact that this whole story is not just a movie originally is fucking like.
Ash
That this is real.
Elena
That it's real is insane.
Ash
Wow.
Elena
Good luck.
Ash
Holy shit.
Elena
So he'd been doing this for a lot of years, obviously, so he knew when his lies were starting. Like, he could tell when people were realizing, coming onto him when things were gonna fall apart.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
His resemblance was slight at best. And again, he spoke with a very strong French accent. So the lie should have been obvious from the start.
Ash
Pretty much.
Elena
And he said that being the case, within a few months of being in San Antonio, he started questioning if the lie was so obvious, why would the family be so willing to accept him as their missing child?
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
So now he's starting to kind of be suspicious of this family.
Ash
Oh, Lord.
Elena
When Nicholas disappeared in 1994, the authorities assumed, like we said in the beginning, that maybe he had just run away from home.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
And Nicholas actually had been picked up by the police shortly before he disappeared for stealing a pair of. Pair of tennis shoes. And it was possible that the theft and, like, some other things that were going on at the time was going to result in him being placed in a juvenile facility. Oh, wow. Like, he was supposed to go to juvie that summer. Holy. Add that to the fact that, unfortunately, Beverly Dollar Hyde also struggled with addiction, and his brother Jason, like, we know, was an addict at the time and also was frequently abusive to Nicholas. Oh. Like they did not get along well with each other.
Ash
I feel really bad for Nicholas.
Elena
I do, too. He had a very sad life.
Ash
Life.
Elena
But all that gathered together. It made sense to the San Antonio police that he would have run away at the time.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
But years later, as more and more people started digging around in the family's history, some people started to wonder if the family knew more than they were saying.
Ash
Oh, wow.
Elena
And that's maybe why they were so willing to accept this along with the ruse. Yes, exactly. It was clear, obviously, that Jason immediately saw through Frederick, but he seemed perfectly willing to let everybody else go on pretending Which Frederick said struck him as very strange.
Ash
Well, that was when you said he said, good luck and left. I'm like, all right, if you can tell that this is not your brother.
Elena
You'Re not worried for your family, why.
Ash
Are you just letting this go?
Elena
Right. And that's exactly how, guys, that's exactly how Frederick felt.
Ash
Yeah. Which it's wild to be on Frederick's level right now.
Elena
I know.
Ash
I hate it thought process wise, but.
Elena
It just makes sense.
Ash
Yeah. It's a question that you have to ask. Right. You can't just pretend that that's not weird.
Elena
No, it is weird.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
Later, Frederick said it was clear that Jason knew what had happened to Nicholas, which is chilling. And that's, you know, according to Frederick. I'm not saying that he did.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
At the same time, PI Charlie Parker, though, also began to suspect that the family might have been involved in Nicholas's chalipaca.
Ash
Oh.
Elena
In his research, he learned that a few months after Nicholas's disappearance. And this is fact. It's not like. Like alleged or anything. Jason called the police to report that he had seen his brother trying to break into the house one night. But when he called out, Nicholas ran away again and was never seen ever again.
Ash
Huh.
Elena
Parker knew that while sure this could have been true, it also very well could have been Jason attempting to make the authorities think that Nicholas was still alive, which was a kind of strange thing to do. Unless maybe he knew what had happened to Nicholas and maybe knew who was involved or was trying to keep the. Keep it going.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
Getting back to Frederick, though, once the positive ID had been made, he was arrested for lying to the FBI. It's kind of a big deal.
Ash
He should be.
Elena
Yeah. They will definitely always arrest you for that.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
And he was also arrested for entering the US On a false passport, among various other things. Upon being arrested, though, he told the local FBI and the local police and the FBI that he was confident that Nicholas's family had killed him and had welcomed him into the family as a way of further covering up their crime.
Ash
Oh, that's awful.
Elena
Which is. So the accusation, along with other facts of the arrest, were enough to make the family give up their insistence that this was Nicholas and this whole thing finally came to an end.
Ash
Ah.
Elena
Years later, Beverly herself admitted that after a few weeks of having Frederick in their home, she did start to doubt whether or not he was Nicholas. But she kept that suspicion to herself. She said one of the things that tipped her off was, quote, nicholas was always. Was a warm child, always hugging her and kissing her. But she said this person in her house was cold and extremely guarded. She had noticed it the first time that they hugged at the airport. And she never really, like, he never really seemed to get comfortable around her and vice versa. But she said at the same time, she just wanted to believe so badly that it was her son that she went along with it.
Ash
Well, and also, it's like, if he's just been in part of a human trafficking ring, he might not want. Touch you. He might not want to touch you.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
Like, he might not want to be touched at all.
Elena
Right.
Ash
So it's like, that would not shock me.
Elena
No.
Ash
Like, I would expect that, to be honest. I'd be like, you probably don't want anyone touching you, regardless of who they are or what their intention is.
Elena
Right.
Ash
So that wouldn't, like, shock me.
Elena
Wouldn't shock me either.
Ash
And that wouldn't be, like, a weird thing to point out that, like.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
You know what I mean? I feel like that would just be like. Like par for the course with that kind of thing.
Elena
You would think so. I think we also right now have a lot more information about, like, what happens to people and, like, what that all entails. Who knows what she knew about that in that immediate moment, you know? But still, it's weird. I agree with you. So while Frederick sat in a cell, Nancy Fisher started now looking into the claim that the family was responsible for Nicholas's disappearance. Unfortunately, and, you know, not surprisingly, the family was not cooperative with the investigation. I'd be pretty pissed if this happened to me. But Beverly refused to help. She said, if Jason did something to Nicholas, I didn't know about it, and I can't imagine Jason ever doing that. It's just not in his makeup, which, like, he was abusive to Nicholas, so.
Ash
He'S, you know, like, I'm not. I'm not. Again, I'm not. Like, I don't know what happened here. Nobody knows gonna say anything happened. I. To me, that's just a strange way of wording that.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
If I have children, I'm not saying, like, if one of them killed the other one, then I don't know about it.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
Like, that's. That's not gonna be in my vocab. Like, that's not going to be. Even in the orbit of possibilities, it's going to be. Of course that didn't happen. There's no way that would happen.
Elena
Exactly.
Ash
And again, I'm not saying that means that something happened. It's just a weird way to. Strange way to Word that.
Elena
Completely agree.
Ash
Like, I just. I wouldn't have worded it like that.
Elena
I will say, you know, hot dog in a trench coat, take it for what it is. She took two polygraph exams and passed them.
Ash
Okay.
Elena
But then they had her do a third, and she failed every single question on the third one. So that shows you they're. How do you pass two with flying colors and then the third one every question.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
And also, like, if you already passed two, why are they making you take a third?
Ash
Because they know it's.
Elena
Yeah. I'm like, this is a waste of time. But Nancy Fisher said of the third exam, she practically blew the instruments off the table.
Ash
Damn.
Elena
I was like, yikes. Jason himself was even more uncooperative. When Nancy Fisher sat down to interview him a few weeks later, she said he was hostile. He refused to help in any way. Shortly after that interview, he checked himself into rehab for drugs, but he left halfway through before finishing the program, and he died from an overdose a short time later, which is very sad.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
The investigation into the family pretty much stalled because they couldn't find any. The investigators couldn't find anything concrete linking the family to his disappearance. But. But, you know, there were suspicions still. Nancy Fisher said, I do feel like the family knows the whereabouts of Nicholas Barclay. I think Beverly and Jason knew at one time what happened to Nicholas Barclay. And that's just the FBI speaking. I'm not saying I know what happened.
Ash
That's just the FBI saying it.
Elena
Other investigators shared the belief. They cited the history of violence in the home, the evidence of the abuse documented before Nicholas went missing. But unfortunately, to this day, he remains a missing person.
Ash
That's really sad.
Elena
Really sad. After a few weeks of arguing back and forth with the prosecutor, Frederick Borden accepted a plea bargain. And In September of 1998, he pleaded guilty to perjury and obtaining and possessing false documents. When asked why he had perpetrated this crime against a grieving family, he told the judge he was merely seeking love, which outraged the family.
Ash
Yeah. And would.
Elena
Would outrage me.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
That's great. Go find love somewhere else.
Ash
Go figure it out.
Elena
My grieving family.
Ash
That's up.
Elena
Go yourself. The judge actually sentenced him in this case to six years in jail, which is more than three times the recommended sentence for that charge.
Ash
Which is pretty crazy.
Elena
Yeah, it is. When you think about, like, all that goes into the scheme that's the play.
Ash
Like, it's pretty diabolical what he did.
Elena
It's like. But I remember he took a plea, so there were Some charges that were dropped. Yeah, of course, the judge did everything he could. After Frederick completed his sentence, he was obviously deported back to France, where he got right back to his old ways impersonating fake teenagers.
Ash
Did nothing.
Elena
No, literally did nothing. He was continuing to impersonate people. And he actually spent time in prison, like multiple times. Eventually he got out and met and married a woman named Isabel, who he met when he. When she reached out after seeing him on TV discussing his history and what she described as his quest for love.
Ash
Ladies, we have to do better.
Elena
It's true.
Ash
Okay. We have to do better.
Elena
We up.
Ash
We really, really have to do better.
Elena
Yeah, we do.
Ash
Okay.
Elena
They are still married to this day and they did have five children together.
Ash
Wow.
Elena
According to Frederick's mother, when the family got the invite to the wedding, they didn't go because she said no one believed him.
Ash
I wonder why.
Elena
Like, that's bad if you're sending out a wedding invite and everybody's.
Ash
Nobody believes that you're even getting married.
Elena
Like, you've been lying for a long time.
Ash
You're a pathological liar.
Elena
Sad. It's sad. As for his new role of a husband and father, those who know him best do not believe that Frederick has changed at all. According to his mother, he is a, quote, liar and will never change. His uncle Jean Luc Drawart said he agreed, saying, you can't just reinvent yourself as a father. You're not a dad for six days or six months. It's not a character, it's a reality.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
And that's that.
Ash
And that's it.
Elena
That's the. That on that.
Ash
Holy shit.
Elena
What a wild thing that played out here.
Ash
The real, like, loser in all of this. Like, the person who lost is Nicholas.
Elena
Yeah, he's lost still.
Ash
And he's almost lost in the story.
Elena
He is.
Ash
You know what I mean? Like, it's like no matter what, the story became something so different. And it's like when you really boil it down, you're like, what happened to that 13 year old boy that day?
Elena
And it doesn't really. It didn't seem like there was like a lot of investigation that happened.
Ash
That's the thing. I'm like, why are we not figuring out what happened to him?
Elena
And I think there wasn't a lot of investigation because they were like, oh, he ran away. He had ran away before, so.
Ash
And it's like, yeah, okay, that doesn't mean that they. And it's like, yeah, he ran away and he obviously came back. Yeah, you're telling me that Kid just ran away and never came back. Never popped up anywhere.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
Ever.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
Like, Nicholas Barclay just does not exist anymore.
Elena
I don't know what happened to him. Obviously, I don't think he ran away.
Ash
I don't know.
Elena
I think somebody did something bad to him. Whether it was somebody who did it, like while he was walking home.
Ash
Yeah. It could easily be a stranger.
Elena
You know, the FBI could be right to suspect the family who know, like, I don't know.
Ash
That's the FBI suspecting.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
That something was closer to home here.
Elena
That's on the FBI. That's on.
Ash
That's on the FBI.
Elena
I'm not, I'm definitely not the Federal Bureau of Investigations.
Ash
You know, I, I too am not the Federal Bureau of Investigations.
Elena
Would you tell me if you were?
Ash
I would. I. The day I become the Federal Bureau of Investigations, I will absolutely update you.
Elena
On a text really quick. Thank you so much.
Ash
Right when it happens.
Elena
That's super great.
Ash
I'll throw it on my Instagram.
Elena
Perfect. I won't see it.
Ash
Yeah, you won't see it, but everybody listening will.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
This is a strange story.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
An upsetting story. And no one wins.
Elena
No.
Ash
In this story, which is like very sad.
Elena
Something, I forget what you said earlier, but like, like you or you were saying, he just gets lost in the story. The other thing is he maybe wouldn't have gotten so lost in this story if Frederick hadn't done what he did.
Ash
He absolutely wouldn't.
Elena
Cold cases get investigated all the time.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
Three years into that, they might have found something if they continued looking. But they thought he had came, that they, they thought he had come home. And then when they realized it wasn't him, they had a whole other situation to deal with.
Ash
But they were having to deal with. Okay, is this him or not?
Elena
Right.
Ash
And it's like, and that's precious time they could have spent looking into this case.
Elena
And he's just gone. Nicholas is just gone now.
Ash
And then by that point, the family's angry and upset.
Elena
And then some of them have.
Ash
I think some of them are pushing back on, on like investigations. And it's like, you've really lost the sauce here. And it' like again, there's a 13 year old boy who went missing.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
That just is gone, gone in this whole thing. And it's just the Frederick show.
Elena
Hopefully someday they can, you know, like, reopen up an investigation and figure out what happened.
Ash
Like, we always know what happened to him.
Elena
Cold case is never cold. And like, no, they're not a 13 year old should never go missing and not be found. That's the thing that's up.
Ash
Come on. It's like somebody knows something.
Elena
It's just sad that I think in his 13 years of life, he like. Like he didn't get to be happy.
Ash
It sounds like he didn't get a lot of. To be. To be a kid.
Elena
Yeah.
Ash
You know. Yeah.
Elena
Sad case.
Ash
It is a sad case.
Elena
And you know, Frederick's childhood is sad too. Maybe. Maybe. Well, he wasn't. He was in those homes. So that's true. You know, like that's facts.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
So that's sad that he had to be put into homes for sure. It's just a sad case all around.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
Don't impersonate people. Okay. Okay.
Ash
Don't do that.
Elena
Like, unless it's for like, like impersonating like Kermit the Frog's voice.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
Do voice impersonations. Those are fun.
Ash
Yeah, those are fun.
Elena
And I like not like other not missing children. I don't have to tell you that.
Ash
Yeah.
Elena
Turn this off and seek help.
Ash
Yeah, that should really go without saying.
Elena
All right, well, we hope you keep listening and we hope you keep it weird, but not so weird that you don't take our advice and not impersonate missing children. Yeah, just like be cool. Don't be all uncool.
Ash
Don't be all uncool.
Elena
Not just living Sam.
Ash
Foreign.
Elena
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Morbid Episode 680: Frederick Bourdin and the Disappearance of Nicholas Barclay
Release Date: June 12, 2025
In this chilling episode of Morbid, hosts Ash and Elena delve into the perplexing and tragic case of Nicholas Barclay—a 13-year-old boy who mysteriously disappeared in 1994 and whose return three years later under dubious circumstances would unravel a web of deception and unanswered questions.
June 1994 marks the day Nicholas Barclay vanished after an argument with his mother, Beverly Dollarhyde. According to Elena, "A few hours later, after his friends had gone, like all gone home, Nicholas called the house to ask his mother to pick him up. But his half-brother Jason picked up the phone and told him that their mom was sleeping and he didn't want to have to wake her up" (07:07). This initial dismissal left Nicholas to walk home alone, and despite his troubled past of running away, his disappearance soon shifted from a possible runaway incident to a suspected ordeal of foul play.
Three years after his disappearance, in fall 1997, the family received an unexpected call from the U.S. Embassy in Spain stating that Nicholas had been found in a children's home and was eager to return home (09:42). Elated yet cautious, Nicholas's sister, Carrie Gibson, traveled to Spain to reunite with him. However, discrepancies soon emerged:
Private Investigator Charlie Parker became pivotal in uncovering the truth. While observing a local news interview with the man claiming to be Nicholas, Parker noticed inconsistencies between the man in front of him and an old photograph of the real Nicholas, particularly focusing on the ears—a feature that remains unchanged throughout one's life (25:29).
Upon requesting a high-resolution photograph for comparison, Parker discovered stark differences, leading him to conclude that the individual was not the missing boy but an impostor. This revelation was confirmed when the man admitted, during a breakfast meeting, "she's not my mother and you know it" (34:41).
Further investigation revealed that the impostor was Frederick Bourdin, a 25-year-old French man with a history of impersonating others. His elaborate scheme involved:
Frederick Bourdin's troubled past laid the foundation for his deceptive behaviors:
Elena notes, "He had this way of making you connect with him. And they described Frederick as a, quote, precocious and captivating child who had an extraordinary imagination and visual sense, drawing wild, beautiful comic strips" (42:00). However, his inclination towards deceit eventually morphed into criminality.
Despite evidence suggesting the family's possible involvement in Nicholas's disappearance, Beverly and her son Frederick remained uncooperative:
The family's unwavering belief in Frederick's true identity complicated the investigation, transforming them from grieving relatives into obstacles in uncovering the truth.
In September 1998, Frederick pleaded guilty to perjury and obtaining and possessing false documents, receiving a six-year sentence—three times the recommended penalty for his charges (66:04). Upon his release, he was deported back to France, where he resumed his life of deception, marrying and fathering five children under another assumed identity.
Despite the exposure of Frederick Bourdin's impersonation, Nicholas Barclay remains missing. The FBI and investigators continue to suspect that the family knew more about his disappearance than they revealed, but concrete evidence remains elusive. As Ash poignantly reflects, "You can't just pretend that that's not weird...like a 13 year old boy who went missing. That just is gone, gone in this whole thing" (68:38).
The case of Frederick Bourdin and the disappearance of Nicholas Barclay underscores the profound impact of deception intertwined with personal tragedy. While Frederick's manipulative actions have been brought to light, the true fate of Nicholas remains a haunting unresolved mystery, leaving a family shattered and a community searching for answers.
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