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Episode: Alina Rose Talks All: Struggles, Daddy Issues, OF, Scammed for $800,000, Chisme & MORE!
Date: October 24, 2025
Host: Alannized
Guest: Alina Rose

Overview

This episode offers an unfiltered, intimate sit-down with creator, streamer, and OnlyFans entrepreneur Alina Rose. Alina opens up about her turbulent childhood marked by abuse and poverty, battles with bullying and self-image, her rebellious teenage years, and her unique rise to internet fame and financial independence. The conversation, held in candid Spanglish, explores cycles of generational trauma, personal responsibility, sex work's realities, finding confidence, being scammed in the creator economy, and Alina’s new passion for music.

Key Discussion Points & Insights

Alina’s Upbringing and Early Trauma

Timestamp: 06:01–18:54

• Raised in Sinaloa, Mexico: Alina recounts her abusive father, her mom’s struggle as a single parent, and feeling unwanted by both parents.
• Physical and emotional abuse: Early memories of being beaten by her father’s partners, witnessing domestic violence, and being neglected.
  • Alina: “I would cry to my mom, like, ‘one of his wives is hitting me.’ And like, I would get a broom and hit her back. I was probably three or four years old.” (06:22)
• Racism & colorism: Growing up darker-skinned than her siblings, her father questioned her paternity, further fracturing their bond.
• Body shaming & bullying: Alina describes constant ridicule from family and classmates about her appearance, leading to life-long self-esteem struggles.
  • “My own mom would tell me I'm ugly... So imagine your own mom telling you you're ugly too.” (09:27)
• Feelings of being a burden: Her mother’s frustration with her bed-wetting led to humiliation and more physical abuse, which Alina tries to contextualize with her mother’s own trauma.

Relationship with Her Parents

Timestamp: 11:57–19:30

• Strained, distant from father: Alina reveals feeling abandoned, resenting his lack of affection, and eventually cutting contact.
  • “All I remember is that my mom said he didn’t really love me… I waited all day for him to come and he never came because my brother wasn't there. It really hurt me and I got so much anger towards him and I hated him so much.” (12:19; 13:04)
• Grudge and forgiveness: Her brother forgave their father, but Alina admits she’s not ready, though she recognizes the value of letting go.
  • “I know I need to forgive him, and like, I do want to have just one last conversation for him... I don’t want to live my whole life, like, just being grudgeful.” (15:08)
• “Daddy Issues”: Alina explains her independence stems from never having a man/father to rely on, and a refusal to depend on men in adulthood.

Cycles of Poverty, Generational Hurt, and Self-Discovery

Timestamp: 19:30–35:14

• Mom’s sacrifice: Single mom in the U.S., working long hours in poverty, but still threw birthday parties to show love.
• Poverty as the norm: Alina reflects on not noticing they were poor until comparing with others but always had a place to stay and food thanks to her mother.
• Lack of emotional support: Parents’ idea of love mainly as providing, not nurturing. Depression was unrecognized and stigmatized.
  • “To her, she was just... making sure you guys are alive. Depression? What is that? Like, you better not cry.” (26:45–27:47)
• Mother-daughter relationship: Ongoing emotional distance and hurtful words; mother unable to take accountability for her actions.
  • “Have you ever talked to your mom about how she made you feel growing up?”
    “I have… but she always goes back to, ‘It's because you were this, you were that.’ Just admit your own wrongs, you know? Just own up to it.” (29:34)

Bullying, Mental Health Struggles, and Rebellion

Timestamp: 33:08–55:48

• School bullying: From first grade through high school, for appearance and later for being a ‘catfish’ online; attempts to find validation through makeup and dressing up.
  • “I was just that weird little girl that nobody liked, that they found annoying… Never popular.” (33:08)
• Fighting back: Describes getting into several fights in high school—initially out of self-defense, then as a way to cope with anger.
• Teenage mental health crises: Multiple suicide attempts, hospitalizations, and the struggle to communicate pain to family and therapists.
  • “I hated therapists… all they do is make my life worse.” (56:18)
• Escape in video games: Finds solace and her first real friendship online, giving her belonging she lacked in real life.

Self-Work, Healing, and Breaking the Cycle

Timestamp: 64:21–68:55

• Turning point at 18: Begins journaling, meditating, and self-reflection to break out of the “hurt people hurt people” cycle, especially toward her younger sister.
  • “I was so mean to her… and I didn’t realize how f***d up it was until I was 18… I want to show her what love is.” (65:40)
• No to therapy, yes to self-help: Discomfort with therapy leads her to rely heavily on books, podcasts, journaling, meditation, and motivational content.

Survival, Stripping, OnlyFans, and Being Scammed

Timestamp: 71:49–107:15

• Kicked out at 16, then again at 18: Forced into independence, moving between friends’ places, working dead-end jobs, and eventually turning to stripping for financial survival.
  • “I started looking into videos of stripping… I was like, I want to be a stripper, I want to make money.” (73:00)
• Brutal reality of sex work: Struggling to learn the trade, constant sexual harassment, and emotional toll—balanced by financial gains.
  • “I was getting sexually harassed every night… I was crying almost every night. I would go home crying.” (80:53)
• Building success and burnout: Supports entire family, gets caught in an expensive lifestyle, and faces the pressures of financially supporting loved ones.
• OnlyFans boom—and scam: Building her own account up to $20K/month, but later signs with an agency that takes an $800,000 cut.
  • “Turns out... they made a million, and you only took home 200k... I was dumb. I didn’t know any better.” (105:27–105:46)
• Regaining control: Leaves agency, operates independently with help of ex-girlfriend, again reaching six-figure success.

Navigating Social Media, Criticism & Manifestation

Timestamp: 107:15–118:28

• Dealing with hate: Online comments attack her looks and weight, leading to depression but ultimately to developing tough skin.
  • “Most of these people hating are kids, or people projecting… hurt people hurt people… you just have to be like, okay, I love myself.” (118:51)
• Manifestation: Strong belief in manifesting goals, which helped her recover from setbacks in income, confidence, and mental health.

Closing: Aspirations & Music

Timestamp: 119:20–121:56

• Teases music career: Alina shares a preview of a song, worked on with Scott Stories George, describes her early insecurity but current commitment to the craft.
  • “I see myself in the next five years being a really big singer and just doing a lot of big things, being super successful… and I’m gonna manifest this.” (121:56)

Notable Quotes & Memorable Moments

• On Healing:

  “Stop trying to victimize yourself… Start reading books about self-care, start meditating, start journaling, start saying things you could do better... Accountability is very important.”
  — Alina Rose (70:46)

• On Being Scammed by OnlyFans Management:

  “Turns out... they made a million, and you only took home 200k... Why the f*** did I not do 50/50 at least?... They literally robbed you from like $800,000. That’s crazy.”
  — Alina Rose & Alannized (105:27–105:51)

• On Self-Acceptance and Social Media Hate:

  “You’re never going to see successful people hating. They don’t have time for that... If you think I’m ugly, okay. You don’t like me? Okay… I love myself.”
  — Alina Rose (118:28–118:51)

Timestamps for Important Segments

| Segment | Timestamp | |-------------------------------------------|--------------------| | Intro to Alina Rose & Her Background | 01:35 – 05:42 | | Childhood Abuse and Parental Dynamics | 06:01 – 16:53 | | On "Daddy Issues" and Independence | 17:00 – 18:54 | | Mother’s Sacrifice, Poverty, Emotional Trauma | 19:30 – 29:34 | | School Bullying & Impact on Self-Worth | 33:08 – 40:13 | | Fights and Defiance in Teenage Years | 40:48 – 47:25 | | Kicked Out of Home, Survival Jobs | 49:20 – 54:15 | | Mental Hospital Experience | 53:46 – 61:05 | | Healing and Self-Help | 64:21 – 70:46 | | Kickstarted into Stripping & OF | 71:49 – 103:06 | | Scammed by Agency ($800K loss) | 103:06 – 107:15 | | Handling Fame, Manifestation | 107:15 – 118:51 | | Music Passion & Closing Remarks | 119:20 – 121:56 |

Tone & Language

The episode is raw and deeply honest, with Alina opening up about vulnerability and pain, but also about her hustle and hope. Alannized brings both empathy and lightness, shifting between heavy topics and humor (especially during moments about sex work or the “Wheel of Pendejadas” games not included in this summary). The conversation moves fluently between emotional Spanglish and unfiltered real talk, creating a space where chisme (“gossip”) and serious reflection coexist.

Conclusion

Alina’s journey, as told in this episode, moves from wounded child to empowered adult—showing the realities of generational trauma, the grit needed to survive as a young woman in the digital age, and the ongoing process of healing. It’s a must-listen for those interested in the intersection of internet fame, sex work, mental health, and Latino family dynamics.

Follow Alina Rose:

• Instagram, TikTok, Twitter: [@whoisalinarose]

Follow Alannized:

• Instagram, TikTok, Twitter: [@alannized]

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