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Daysi Dukes: Dark Childhood, Adoption, Pregnancy, Motherhood, CHISME & MORE
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Well, if you don't take her, I'm going to have to get rid of her. I was scared. I'm. I'm just a child. I'm like, what do you mean get rid of me? Like, I've been here. Like, you brought me here. Like, what do you mean get rid.
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What is up, everyone? I'm your host, Alanized, and this is Noche de Pindejadas, your favorite podcast turned talk show. And on the other influencers, para platicar y PO s. So without any further ado, please help me welcome my guest tonight, Daisy Doom.
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Hi, guys. Guys,
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how are you? Welcome to the podcast.
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Thank you for having me. I'm so grateful and thankful.
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I am so excited. And I feel like today we really are going to be able to know a little bit more about Daisy. How has your trip out here been? Like, I know you landed from Houston everywhere.
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So yesterday I landed here. But the way that the Houston airport is right now, it's so chaotic. I was like, why do I pay for clear. Like, why do I pay for it? It really upset me. But at the end of the day, we got here safe and sound and that's what I wanted. Then we got here and we went straight to just seeing the city. I got a car and I was like, babe, let's just go.
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You got a convertible too, right?
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Yes, I saw. I thought I was loud.
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I was like, damn, who picked her up?
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It was my side piece, you know, and now I'm just learning it was Jesse. Everything has just been such a good time. LA has showed me a good time so far. I got two more days. What are you gonna show me now?
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You know, how was the Hannah Montana? A pop up.
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Because I saw you went, I went. But the line was thick. First of all, I thought the line ended like right there by the grove. No, the line wrapped around the parking lot, around the grove. That. No, he was just like, babe, I'm not waiting. I was like, okay. And then we just left.
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Because I think today the episode is dropping, right? I saw a couple friends. They went to, like, the premiere, and, like, they're out there. And I was like, oh, my God, I can't wait to get home. But I'm so excited. For maybe anyone at home.
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Okay, you guys. So my name is Daisy. I go by Daisy Dukes on social media. That's how some of y' all may know me. I'm from Nicaragua, Managua. Born and raised there for a little bit, and I live in Houston. I have a baby. I'm 22 years old. I feel like I'm just the baddest. I don't know. That's just how I feel. What else can I say? I like to travel. I am a mommy first and a baby next. And, yeah,
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With their childhood, their upbringing. How was Daisy growing up? More of your upbringing.
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So I was born and raised in Nicaragua by my great great grandmother. So I guess my grandma died, which I'm named after her, when I was really little. I think maybe I was five. And she passed away. My mom, my biological mom, she left me my siblings in Nicaragua, and she came here to the United States to obviously do what everybody else is trying to do and just find a better upcoming, you know, just to have a better opportunity and just to get that life. You know what I'm saying? So she came here and I never met her. I was a baby when she came here, you know. And then when I was in Nicaragua, I was raised on an island. It's called, like, if, you know, you know, I hope that my. All my Nicaraguans, like, hello, like, put it up for the flag, please. When I was there, it's a third world country, so it's very poor. I lived very poor. Everything out there was very poor. My mom was here trying to get a life. She remarried here. Whatever, whatever. When I was in Nicaragua, like I said, I was raised by my great, great grandma. Very poor. And I don't know how my mom made her way here, but she ended up getting me and my siblings from La Isla in Nicaragua. She brought us here. Like, she was a horrible mom. She was very abusive, mind you. When she came to the United States and I was in Nicaragua, I never met her. I was a baby. When you have a very traumatic experiences or experience, your mind tends to forget a lot of things. It's called like a trauma block or something. I have a lot of Trauma block. And it's certain things that now happen on my day to day life that if something triggers it, I'll remember something briefly, but I can't remember a full story, you know. And when she brought us here, I think I was eight. Nicaragua just. I don't really want to get too much into it, but I was molested by people that should have took care of me and so was my brother. Like it was just a very rough. I. I don't know, I can't explain it, but just know it was a very rough upcoming in Nicaragua. And my grandmother that raised me, like I said, she's my great great grandmother, she had like a disease where, you know, I don't know what it's called, but your legs.
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Arthritis?
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No, it's not arthritis, but your legs and your arms, they get like really big and inflamed. You can't explain it. And then it tends to more often and they end up getting very big to where they don't go down. She lost the ability to walk. So I was essentially taking care of my abuela and my siblings, you know what I'm saying? Like I've always been the older sister without being the oldest.
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How did that feel, you know, being so young because no s cuentas that you didn't even come to the states until you were eight years old, so you were taking care of your siblings and your grandma by seven. How did that feel? What was like your day to day life? Like you would wake up, make sure your grandma was good, your siblings were fed. What was like your day to day life in Nicaragua?
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It was very hard. It shaped me to and who I am today. But I feel like it was very hard essentially because my brother is very, very, very gay. And in Nicaragua at the time, like social media wasn't a thing. Whatever, whatever. He used to get bullied so bad. Mind you, I don't feel like it was his fault what happened to him. And I don't want to get too much into that, but growing up I had to kind of take care of him so people wouldn't try to bully him. Because in Nicaragua that's very prone. Like, especially if you're a gay teenager, they try to come for you, they try to laugh at you, make you laugh and stalk. And we already didn't have much and we didn't have nobody to advocate. Like I said, my couldn't do much. My grandma couldn't walk out. Like, hey, Dan went past that, you know what I'm saying? So that had to become me. I feel like it took a toll on me, but it made me very strong. I don't want to say manly. Yes, strong, like very. Like, I just always have my guard up. I always just want to make sure, like, no one's being auded out. I don't like nobody being bullied, nobody being talked about. That's just who I am, though, now. But I feel like that shaped me. You know, they say, like, very masculine. That's the word I'm looking for. I feel like I grew up very masculine. So I'm a half sibling of my siblings. My oldest and my younger sibling, they have the same father, and then I have a different father. My youngest sister to the island, which is the island in Nicaragua, and when she got took to the island, they kind of raised her as her own. So she got raised as like a only child. Basically was me and my oldest brother and I basically had to take care of him. I would see my sister here and then. But we also have a disconnect because she had a whole different family that took care of her. I don't want to say I resent her. I don't think that's the word. I just feel like it was more
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like, you guys live different lives.
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Yeah. Like, she lived a more fortunate life, you know, as a child, like, how do you have so many dolls? And then, like, I don't have no dolls. She would get every party, I wouldn't. And it's like, as a child, it made me feel a type of way. But then at day, that's my sister. You can't. You can't really. We were dealt those cards, you know, my mom left us, like, what could
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we do, you know, at 8 years old or whoever told you the news, like, mija, te vasa ir. Palos esta unidos. Te vasa con to mama. At the time, you didn't even know your mom. Were you excited at the beginning, before you found out? She was like a mean lady, you know? What was that feeling? What was that like for you that you got to see your mom for the first time in person?
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Wow. I feel like no one's ever asked me that, not even a therapist. I was kind of relieved, like, oh, I'm going to meet this lady. Like, this is the lady that says that she's sending money. My grandma speaks highly of her. In my mind, I'm like, she's probably the best mom ever. She's probably so amazing. But also behind me, I was very upset because I was leaving my grandma. You know what I'm saying, like, the person that I've known, mind you, she's very old at the time, she's in a wheelchair. All I could think was, like, who's going to take care of her? Who's going to roll her to the iglesia? Like, you know, just things like that. I know that me leaving was probably going to take a toll on her. Like, I was her little girl. I don't know if you're raised by a grandma. I feel like, you know, it's different than be raised by your. Some people are even like, have a mom present, but they're raised by their grandma and your grandma, baby. Like I said, I. I had to take care of my brother. So just see my brother be so excited to go see his mom because he met his mom, you know, he met his mom up to like 6 years of age because he's older than me. So just seeing how excited he was, I wasn't as excited. I want to say I was more sad and scared because I was leaving my mom. My mom was my great grandma that would be interested. It was just hard, Honestly, mentally, it was very hard. But mind you, I'm just little, I'm young, so it's like I was just like crying, sobbing, and saying bye to my grandma. My grandma couldn't even get up to hug me. Like she's in a wheelchair.
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Do you remember what was the first interaction with you and your mom?
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Actually, I do. She. So we got off the plane, me and my brother. We came on a plane. I don't know how she did it. And I would say that even though she's a horrible person and a nasty demeanor and a bad mom and very abusive because she's gonna watch this. I just want to say that's something that she always used to throw in our faces, like, you know what I'm saying? Like, she always put it in our face. And I would say that's the one thing that I would say I'm grateful for. And she didn't bring me here. Just like anything she brough here on a plane, me and my brother, you know. So I do want to say I'm thankful for that, but I feel like no child should be have to being said that like, you left me there to get better here. And then that's like she just didn't
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have to do that about that relationship. If you feel comfortable, you know. No s that your mom was very abusive verbally, maybe even physically, you know, what was that like living with her? And did you have a Moment where you were like, damn. Like, yo, stop being emotional. To maybe have a relationship with my mom at this point, I want to go back, and I wish I never would have left the island. Like, did you have a moment where you're kind of like, why the fuck did I come out here?
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Yeah. So when we first got off the plane, I remember my brother just ran to her. He knew his mom to a certain point where she left. And I bet she explained to him, like, I'm leaving to find a better life, whatever. And I remember when I got off the plane, I was like, I was just walking, like, scared. Like, my brother ran to her. I was just walking scared. She, like, just hugged me and I was just like. Like, okay, like, whatever. Right? When we got off the plane, we went to somebody's house in Miami. So I lived in Miami first, then somewh named Wharton, and then somewhere in Indian town in Florida. When we were in Miami, she took us to some friend's house. And I remember just being, like, dissociating, like, I don't really know what's going on. I can't really explain the feeling. My brother was so happy. She kept talking to him. She kept asking me questions like, how are you? I was just confused because at the end of the day, she was a stranger to me, you know? And, like, her demeanor coming off of it, she was like, mind you, I had just met you. Like, why are you talking to me? Like, you know, instead of trying to win you over, she should have been just a little more softer. Mind you, my brother, like, she always did this thing where she would pin me and my brother against each other kind of to like, okay, whenever she goes, do something, you come and tell me, and then we'll figure it out from there. Like, and then whenever she'll be mad at him. So my brother was very excited, right? And then a little bit after that where we seen that he was excited, she started to say, like, oh, I'm an erado. He would do, like, little stuff that she just wouldn't like. And she would. She was just started being mean to him. She just started being so mean. Like, stop doing your lips like that. That. Pick the cup up like this. Don't bend over like that. Just like little things that a child, even a teenager. My brother's a teenager. You shouldn't be saying to your teenager. You know what I'm saying? Like, get that passa, bro. Like, just chill like you just met us. So that's really. The first interaction was just like, she was mean I was confused. I just met you. Then you started being mean to my brother. So it's just very like, what's going on here? And then after that, he started going to school. I want to say the abuse first started with my brother. And I know my brother's gonna see this, and I just want to point out, like, a little tribute to him. Like, I know you love her, and I know that things have been very hard ever since you were little because all you wanted was that motherly love after you feel like society was against you and that's why you cling to her. But I just want to say you didn't deserve nothing that happened to you. And I pray that everything turns out well for you. I pray that you find a husband, a family. And I feel like I want you to live that life that you solely deserve. That's what I'm gonna say. But let me get into that. The abuse really did start with my brother. That's. I feel like that's where my mom kind of started to lose her marbles at the time. It was like 2012. I want to say, like, around that time, my brother started going to school. He was going to junior high. I don't know if you guys remember, but that used to be the Sperry era and Vans era. And he always want to wear little shorts with Sperries. Like, that's what he wanted. Also, she remarried when he got here to a full on Mexican. He's from Michoacan. I don't know if you guys know, but a lot of men, which is going to sound bad, especially Hispanic men, they're very mad. So if you don't do what they say and you don't cook, food's not done when you get home. Like, it's always something, you know? And she also had two other kids here with him. So when we came here, we also had siblings. I forgot to mention that we had siblings that we had to kind of get accustomed to. Whatever. She started seeing that he was just very amano and she just hated it because that's her firstborn. That's. She feels like, that's not how I left you. Yeah, she had a lot of. What's it called in Rencor?
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I think it's called resentment.
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Yeah, she had resentment. Like, she was just very mean to him at first. She did not put her hands on me or nothing. And then my brother kind of started to come home and he'll be like, oh, I want to be on the cheerleading squad. That's probably when the abuse Started, I feel like my brother, after she started kind of beating on him. Like, she'll hit him with, like, bamboo sandals. She'll hit him with spoons. Like, the bamboo spoons. She had a thing for bamboo. I don't know. I don't know if you guys know, but Hispanic men, they have, like, these belts, a sinto. And they. And they're either made of hay. They could be regular leather, but they're like leather.
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And they have, like, the designs. They're stitched on designs, two types.
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And then there's some that's like, hey. And she will get those belts and hit him. Like, you will see the marks on his back. Like, it was really bad. I felt bad because she wasn't doing it to me.
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Would you do anything at the time?
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I. I couldn't. Like, I was like, I told you she would pin me against him. And now looking at that, she was manipulating her own child show like, oh, also. So when we lived with her, her and her kid, the other kids that had a dad, they would have their own rooms. And she would make me and my brother sleep on the floor in the same room. So we never had beds, and we never had, like, rooms where we just had our own rooms. No, me and my brother shared a room. She would be like, oh, what did Dayton do? Where did Dayton go? And she'd be like, if you tell me, I'll give you this. Or, if you tell me, you can watch tv. Me and my brother were not allowed to sit and watch TV ever. We had to have the house clean. If she went around and she went like this. And she'll see like this. A beating if she'll go. And when she came back, the TV wasn't on Telemundo or. Or Univision. She'll know we were watching tv. And then there she goes beating on us. Like, she's just very mean. I don't know. But she'll be like, oh, what was Nathan talking about last night? And I'll let you watch tv. So she'll just try to manipulate me into telling on him. Now looking back at it, it's like, I would never do that to my child. That's not love. And she was wrong. Point blank period. But at the time, I would tell on my brother to get some TV time, you know? And like, as a child, I have a son now. I don't know. What. What, like, what do you mean? Was your sister watching tv? Let me beat you. Like, you know, like, that just doesn't make sense.
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It sounds crazy. Yeah.
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But so she started beating on him and then her husband started getting mad. Like her husband started getting mad that he would do like little like mannerisms like that were like women mannerisms. The beatings really started with me and him when her husband started getting in the middle, like he was just really evil too, like me. But at the same time I have to understand because that's how he grew up. He didn't grow up seeing like oh, little gay boys that he didn't grow up like that. So like I said, they're very machistas. Point blank period. The beatings really started when I got into middle school and she would make me and my sister braid our hair. So our hair had to be braided when we went to school and we had to have a chaqueta, a shirt, some pants. Like we couldn't ever come back home looking different than how we left or it would be like a whole thing. My brother started getting older. So when she would beat on him, he will grab his stuff and go to cheer practice because he still ended up being a cheerleader. He never let her stop, period. But that's why she was beating on him because she was like, I can't control you.
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Like, yes.
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Like she'll be so mad. She started even smoking cigarettes like cuz she was so like, you're putting yourself through this. Like, leave him alone.
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Yeah, like let him live his life,
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you know, once he started kind of like like, bro, why are you hitting me? I love you, mom. Like stop.
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Why have we asked our contractor we found on Angie.com to be our kid's legal guardian? Because he took such good care when redoing our basement that we knew we could trust him to care for our kids, all eight of them, should something happen to us. Are you my dad now?
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No, sorry. I do basements, connecting homeowners with skilled pros for over 30 years. Angie, the one you trust to find the ones you trust. Find pros for all your home projects@angie.com
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he would get his shit and go to practice, go to his friend's house, whatever. And so then the trauma started being on me, mind you. So at first, when we lived in Florida, the other sister I told you about, she wasn't here because her dad's family were like, you're not going to want to live with her. You're not going to want to experience that. So they never let her go. My mom did this whole thing. I don't know how she did it. She's a very good. A good manipulator, and she knows how to work her mouth to get whatever she wants. She always has. So I don't know how she did or what happened, but she ended up making police people go from Nicaragua, Managua, which is the city. I think she just made it seem like her child was getting kidnapped.
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Yeah.
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You know, in the island. And she was supposed to be based in Managua. And she made police in a whole big chaos to go get my sister from the island and bring. Put her on a place straight from my island to here.
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Yeah.
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When she first came, my mom, she was very. She was overweight. My sister was just a little chunky girl, mind you. She's just like, I was 12, so she was 11 when she first came. She was a chunky girl, you know, she's just. She's just chunky. Like, nothing was wrong with it. My mom didn't feed her. She would feed her straight, like they call it, like sopa de Chile. She would feed her that. So she'll have to go. Like, she'll feed her that. Yeah.
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Like laxity vibes.
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Yeah. And then she'll make her go. She'll run, run behind her in the car, and my sister will run and my mom would go in the car behind her, like, keep going. Why are you Stopping to make her lose weight, bro, mind you, like I told you. Remember what I told you she did to me when I first got. She was like, why are you not acting like you love me? As soon as my sister came from Nicaragua, she. My sister has definitely never, like, heard or nothing about my mom. She got here and straight, making her throw up, run every day probably for like three months. My sister got real skinny. Like, skinny. Like skinny bones, nothing else. Anyway, so then me and my sister started going to school together, right? So I told you how my sister got here. Why? So then my brother, at the time, he was fulfilling his dreams. Like, my mom couldn't tell him nothing. Like, nada. Like, when I say nothing, nothing. Like, she'll start trying to beat on him. He'll be like, okay, I'm leaving. By, like, you're not about to beat on me no more. More. So then she'll be angry and she'll be like, okay, Daisy, Stacy, wash the dishes. Wash the dishes. Let's go. And she'll purposely, like, come behind us, grab the dishes, and, like, act like something was wrong with the dishes to then grab the dishes and beat us with them. Like, she'll grab, like a plato, like a visio, right? And she'll grab it and she'll, like, she'll always go for our temples because they don't really bruise, but they hurt a lot. So she'll get the plate or the knife or whatever, and she'll just start going like this for me and my sister for no reason, I swear, no reason. Or. Or like I said, my sister was very skinny at the time. Usually when she'll be my sister, my sister would, like, fall to the ground. She'll, like, beat her on the floor, like, kick her in the head. Or when she'll be mad after, after, she'll felt like, some type of bad for either making us bleed or making us like. Like some type of sound. She'll be like, okay, now go to the corner. And she'll leave us there all night while she's watching tv. Like. And I remember this vividly because I think that was when De Losiellos would come on. Do you remember that? Like, when it first started? Yes, yes. So when that show would start to come on, she would either have me washing the dishes or cleaning up after. And it would either be my sister cleaning and I'm in the corner after she beat us or something like that. And then it got so bad that my brother wouldn't even come home. Like, I think that's what kind of started driving her to edge was her husband saying, oh, your son's this. And then my. Her son not caring, like he wasn't ever going to change for her, like he just wasn't. It started getting to a point where after, like, we're done cleaning and she'd already got her beatings in for us, whatever, she'll sit there and she'll make my sister and I either rub her feet or rub her head. And if we didn't do it how she wanted, or if she caught us looking at the tv. And I know because estos used to come out at 11, and it'll go out from 11 to 12, and then after that it'll be like some show that doesn't come on anymore. And that's how I remember it vividly. She'll make us sit there for hours, and if we ask to, like, go to sleep or we'll, like, start going to sleep, she would legitimately go get the cinto from her husband. Mind you, her husband works in the. I think it's not welding, but it's like blue collar.
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Okay, so construction.
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Construction, yeah. So he'll get up at 5, so she'll have us there. And. And like, he also used to beat her. He used to beat on her. So maybe that also brought, like, some of, like, the resentment towards him. And she'll take it on our kids, I don't know. But the crazy part is she never took it out on her other kids, just the ones that came from Nicaragua. But she'll go in there while he sleep, get the cinto and beat us. And they're like, oh, you ready to go to sleep? Okay, now you can go to sleep. After she done whooped us, after we done did this nice stuff, we can clean the kitchen. So when you get up in the morning to take your husband, make your husband's food, because she'll get up at 5, 4 in the morning, cook him food, pack it up, and then he'll go to work. You know, like, if, you know, you know, I feel like blue collar her wives and, you know, like, yeah, you know what I'm saying? Like, if, you know, you know. And a lot of people don't even know that about me. I don't know. Mostly maybe for like three hours. And then she'll wake us up to clean up the mess she done made again. And then we'll have to go to school. Okay, now let's get into how that shaped me. I don't know what to feel. I feel like that definitely did take A toll on my mental. And also took a toll, even though I didn't want it to, on my grind. I grind so hard. Like, my dream is to be able to. To just have so much to do one day. Just be able to sit down and enjoy with my family. Not feeling, like. Not feeling no resentment. Not feeling just, like, go by the pool. We ride bikes all through the town. Like, I feel like I just work so hard because it's like, ever since a little girl, the abuse came so hard on me that it was always about something being done or something being cleaned or some sort of service.
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Like, she took away your childhood, kind
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of, now you want to enjoy life. I feel like a maid. Like, sometimes she would make me and my sister Stacy be maids from the younger siblings. Like, oh, go wash your hands, hair. Go clean their butts. Make sure that they're folded. Their clothes is folded. She'll leave with them and go to Ross and Marshalls to go shopping, spin a bag. Because when her husband will go to work, he'll get good money. Like, it's good money.
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Yeah.
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And I remember, like, she'll come back and she'll be like, I didn't get y' all anything. Y' all don't deserve it. And I used to get so sad because it's like, yeah, like, we do so much for you, for everybody. It's like, why can't, you know? Like, why. Why don't we deserve, like, anything? We don't even deserve a hug. And then on Facebook, it used to be the saddest thing to me on Facebook, she used to paint, like, this picture that, like, to brag to the people back in Nicaragua, like. Like, just pictures. If we got something new, it was for a picture. Like, if we got a vestido or something, it was so we can go to the. To the misa looking good. She can take her picture and make it look on Instagram like she just did her biggest one. Like, that would just make me so sad because it's like, I don't even know you. I came here. You left me. Like, I deserve some type of mom, some type of dad, some type of bed. Then when my sister came, would all be sleeping on the floor. All of us be sleeping on the floor. We had the same pair of shoes for. For years. And she just would make it seem like she did so much for us and so much for her was her bringing us from another country to here. But it's like, you brought us here to mistreat us, to treat us horrible. You know what I'm saying to make
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us almost your slaves.
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We were. That's what we were. We were her slaves. And to this day, which you can talk about later, I've tried to rekindle just because I feel like I would always forever want that. Daisy, I'm sorry. And I love you, Miha. Like I love you and I'm sorry. She doesn't ever feel like she did anything wrong.
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Do you guys have a relationship, like to this day, day?
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No, we don't. So she's had cases of CPS and abuse because the teachers would look and like they'll see the bruises or they'll see us acting weird. She had it one time in Florida, she had it one time in Kentucky. And the last time she had it was in Texas. Texas does not play about kids. They don't play about their kids and they don't play about abuse. They will always take a kid and help them. That's why I love Houston, I love Texas and all the cases that she had. Whenever the police would get involved, she would just use like her words to manipulate them. Like, like she, she'll make it seem like we were doing something wrong or like we deserved it or like we will do it to ourselves or I'm
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just punishing them because they were bad
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kids or even not even punish. She'll make it seem like we were crazy, like we were doing it to ourselves or we were bad or it was just always some type of way that she just made it seem like it was us and nothing about her. She, she was never wrong, like ever. One of the things that I feel like whenever I do have a daughter and more kids, I will always try to do my best to make them feel like they're all equals, cuz they are. And whenever we lived in house with my other siblings, we weren't equals. We were their slaves. We were their maids. Everyone had their own room in a bed. And it's no way me, my sister and my brother will have to share one little room and I'll sleep on the floor. A towel at the time used to be my pillow and then another one laid down to be my bed and another one to cover with. Like we really lived a life that I feel like we, we lived even better in Nicaragua when we were poor. We at least had a little blanket and a bed.
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You know, know that, you know, you're adopted so you know, you go from living with your mom. How does the adoption come into your life? What happened that, you know, geared your life towards that way?
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I feel like, this is going to be such a sad podcast. Like, honestly. But I'mma tell it from where I got took to where I met my mom. And this is all praise to God. It's all about him. That's why I believe in him so much. Cuz I feel like my life changed. And I've had so many seasons reasons that it all plays into my life how it's supposed to because of him. The last time that she ever really abused us really, really bad, I was, I think on my last year of middle school, I used to get in trouble at school. Not like big trouble, but when people used to try to bully me, I used to really stand up for myself. I would never let nobody try to bully me or put me down because I was already down, you know, so it kind of hurt me more because you don't know what I'm going through at home. You don't know when I leave here what I'm going through. You're talking about my shoes, you're talking about my hair. You know what I'm saying? So I used to kind of like get picked on in school. And I remember it was this one time I got picked on really bad. The girl was talking about my eyebrows. I'm a very hairy girl, Very hairy. Like very luscious hair, very hairy. And she was talking about me just like, oh, you look like Angry Bird. Why doesn't your mom let you do your eyebrows? She just has you looking a mess all the time. Mind you, I'm in middle school. Most girls, that's when they start, like, their hygiene looking better, you know, they start caring more about their appearance. So at the time, I wasn't able to touch. I couldn't even shave, nothing. Like I told you, I went to school, school with the braid in my hair. And if I didn't come home, she was about to whoop my ass. Yeah, like, no ifs, I promise. No ifs. Answer. But. So this particular time, I was just over it with this girl. Like, she would just always pick on me. And then she'll do it on the bus. And one day, like we got off the bus, I was like, okay, I've had enough of this girl. Like, for like, she had me messed up. It was her stop. She gets off before me, I get off the next one. I put my foot out. She didn't fall. I wanted her to fall, so she didn't fall. So then I put my other foot out and then she kind of like tripped. And then she tripped into my seat. She started hitting Me, I started hitting the back, whatever. I. I don't know. I feel like if I get suspended longer than you, I won the fight. Like, yeah, I won. I don't care. So I got suspended for four days. Obviously they called my mom. It was a whole thing at home, I think, like, she grabbed a follow or something that day. I know I had, like, a lot of bruises on my back. She would always do, like, places where you couldn't tell, like, where you can put clothes on over. And every time it could be 90 degrees in Florida, we would have to wear a long sleeve on top of a regular shirt. So like, you know, like a T shirt and then long sleeve on there. She didn't play that and whatever. And then I got suspended off the bus for like a week. So she would make me walk from home to school. It was like a straight away. It was like maybe two miles every day. I had to get up and go to school, whatever. I was okay with that. After that, I feel like I just got so angry with, like, life. And mind you, I'm like, in middle school, I don't know, like 15. Not even 15. Like 13.
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Yeah.
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And like, so anytime somebody would say something, like, I have something back to say. Like, I was just getting tired of just the constant bullying at home, the constant bullying at school. Like, y' all don't even know me. Like, why y' all bullying me? Like, like, just chill. Like, just be kind. Like, it's just really no reason why we should be mean to each other at school. Like, I used to find school being my safe space. Anytime I got to school, I would take my hair out of the braid. I would. I would. And I'd just be like, oh, I. Like, I'm so cute. Like, I've always had luscious hair. I probably. When I was younger, I had way longer hair. I used to pass my butt. I used to just sit there and really think I was the baddest. And then I'll go home and quickly, like, put my hair in braid, take off the shirt. I would get to school, because in school you have to wear collar shirts. I'll take off the undershirt. She'll maybe put on and then. But like, I just. I just wanted to. I didn't have much. I had the same shoes, but I would see the other girls do, and I want to be like that.
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You wanted to feel better too? Yeah, yeah.
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Like, at school. At school. I wasn't being supervised by her at school. She's not telling me, like, oh, behave like this. You know what I'm saying? She wasn't there to bully me, but at school then I started getting more bullied. I was like, I'm coming here to get away from the bully. Y' all bullying me, too. So I started getting in trouble. I started talking back to teachers. Like, they used to, like, tell me, like, oh, I couldn't go to the restroom, and I used to want to go to the restroom to just run the house and talk to my friends. Like, the two little friends that I had. I would say there's two times that when we lived in two different places where I. I had a friend and they knew abuse, and they would try so hard to make me, like, feel loved. One of my friends, actually from Kentucky, where she was really beating us, really beating us at the time because it was a new place. She felt like nobody schools, didn't know nothing. I made this friend. Her name was Asia. And after I blew up on social media, she kind of found me. And then we kind of rekindled. She flew out here. We hung out, whatever. First of all, the ISS teacher knew me. His name was Mr. Banks. Shout out to Mr. Banks. The principal knew me. They always thought, like, I had so much charisma, and I was very talkative. They asked me personally. They were like, we want you to go. Go to something positive. We want to take you to an impromptu speaking where basically, they'll give you something to talk about, and you have 80 seconds to talk about it. And if you come out with a good dialogue and a good session, you win. It's like, it was a school thing. It was like an actual, like, scholar thing. I've always been very smart. When I came here, I Learned English in 6 months. Like, I've always just been very smart. And I always didn't want to have no shade. I never wanted to have that heavy accent, you know? You know, usually when you learn Spanish, you have that, like, heavy accent. I didn't want to have that. So I used to get on a Rosetta stone and just sit there and just everywhere, just sit there. Learn, learn, learn, learn, learn. So when they asked me to do that, I was so happy. I was like, somebody's seen, like, my potential. Somebody cares about me, even if it's just a teacher that doesn't know me for real. Even though they see me fighting and ISS they believe in me.
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You felt seen?
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Yeah, I felt seen because I wasn't being seen nowhere. I took the paperwork because it was like a school trip. So basically, you'd leave for two days you'd still go back home every night, but you'd leave from as soon as you got home to, like, eight at night. And then the bus would drop you off at your stop at home. And I took it to my mom and she had to sign it off because it's still a field trip. She ripped it up in my face and she said, you're good for nothing. You're not going nowhere. You don't deserve that. She was just mean, like. And I was so bummed out, man. Like, I won't even. I was so bummed out, like, damn. The only reason why I agreed and was like, I can do it. So you could be. She could be proud of me. And I could feel that sense of, like, you know what? Maybe she's not proud of me because she maybe feels like I'm not doing nothing.
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A
You wanted her to see what the teacher was saying.
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Yeah, Like, I was smart. Mind you, anywhere we went, if it wasn't, like, for the cleaning and stuff and she needed me, she'll take me. Because I was her translator. She didn't really know English like that. So anywhere she'll take me, she'll take me to the Western Union. She'd take me to her lawyers. One time she got in an accident. I was always the person on the phone talking for her, always. Because I've always been able to speak English fluently. After she did that, I'm not gonna lie to you. The next day was a day for us to go. I signed the paper myself. I will never forget. I had. I had these red pumas that she had got us, like, two years ago. I got the red pumas. I had this dress on. It had stripes. I probably got the picture somewhere on my Snapchat. I'll show it to you. I had a Snapchat because I had a little boyfriend and he knew what was going on at home. So he gave me a phone to talk to him. I didn't have no WI fi when I got home, but I had WI FI when I was at school so I could talk to him. I went that day. I won. I got third place. I didn't win first place, but I won. It was like, what, 16 kids and I got third place. That means that they thought I was good, you know, so. So she was probably at home wondering where I was. I came home. That was the worst beating of my life. She made me bleed. She had me on the floor. She was kicking me at one point. She was like, her whole body weight, both feet were on top of Me, Like, I don't. It was just a very excruciating experience for me. That night was probably the worst night that she ever beat me. I had a black eye. I had like this collarbone right here. Like, first of all, it's hard for your bones to bruise. You could tell this bone right here was bruised. My head was swollen. Like I said, I had a black eye. So first I got home. So first I was. I told the librarian. I forgot her name, but she'll probably remember. I told her I was like, I'm scared to go home because maybe she doesn't know where I've been all day. So she came with me to knock on the door. When she let me in the house, as soon as she closed the door, she started the beating right outside the door. And then she took it to the living room. She took it to the kitchen. Whole time she's beating the crap out of me. It wasn't like a normal beating. I. I don't want to really talk about it because I don't want to really it. But I remember it was horrible. Like, this whole time, her husband was right there eating his taco. Just eating, Eating his food. Like, nothing. The two other siblings, she did have them facing this way so they couldn't really see what she was doing, but they could obviously hear. And then my sister was washing dishes right here. Like I told you, we were either always washing dishes, rubbing her, or cleaning something. We were never just able to just be in our room and sleep. After that happened, I won't lie to you, it was kind of scary. She grabbed my sister and you know, a knife has the thing right here and then the handle. She grabbed the handle and I told you, she always went for our temples. I don't know why or what, but she grabbed my sister, flipped her over. My sister was a twig, so she was easy. She was like maybe 80 pounds. She wasn't even 90 pounds. She was like, did you know where she was going? Tell me right now. Or like I told you, she used to try to pin us against each other. So my sister ended up telling her, like, I did know, but she was just so happy to tell you. My sister got a bad beating too, but she didn't get it as bad because obviously she didn't go. You know what I'm saying? So then that day, the next day, school comes. I didn't go to school. That's never happened. She always made sure we attended school no matter what. I didn't go to school. But my sister, I was Just kind of confused, like, why am I not going to school? And then another day passed. I didn't go to school. I think it was Wednesday, mind you, all these times I had the black guy, whatever. Still to this day, she had me rubbing her feet, doing her head, cleaning up. And then she let my sister have it. Like, no, go to sleep, Stacy, you're good. Trying to make. Make us want to pin each other against each other, right?
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Like, you're the bad child. You, Stacy, you're good.
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Yeah. But even though she hated the both of us at the time. I don't know. That night on Thursday, I told my sister, I said, stacy, if I don't go to school by Friday, give this to Mr. Bank, my assess teacher. He was the only person that knew about the beatings. But I told him. I was like, please don't tell no one, because this has happened in three other states, and nobody does nothing. They give us right back. I was like, please, Mr. Banks, she's just going to move away to another state and just take it on us again.
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Is that scary for you to, like, be like, you know what? I'm going to take my chances, almost tell on her. But this can also result into, like,
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an even bigger beating because it happened. I've tried to tell on her before, and it just got flipped on me like I did something wrong. Like, I was the person, you know? You know? So I did everything. My sister. My sister was scared. She was like, daisy, I don't know if I can do it. Like, then if she finds out, you know what's going to happen. I was like, stacy, like, please, mind you, the day before we were on the phone, I told you I have a different dad than my siblings. She was on the phone with my dad. He lives in Miami. And he was telling. He was like, if you don't take her and you don't claim her, or else. Like, I felt like I was gonna. She was gonna kill me or something. So on Wednesday, when my sister got home from school, I told her. I was like, stacy, no. No. On Thursday. All that day on Thursday, I was with her. So we were in the car.
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and she was on the phone. That's. And then that same day, she made me pack up all of my stuff, like, everything. I was just like, why is she doing this? Like, I haven't gone to school in three days. Every time she beats us, we'll still go to school. I was just very confused. And so I gave it to my sister, Whatever, mind you, at the time of all of this happening, she was on the phone, my dad. And my dad was like, I'm not taking her like that. And she was like, well, if you don't take her, I'm gonna have to get rid of her. I was scared. I'm just a child. I'm like, what do you mean, get rid of me? Like, I've been like, you brought me here. Like, what do you mean, get rid of me? So that's what made me write the letter to Mr. Banks. And in the letter, I said to Mr. Banks, I said, Mr. Banks, if I don't come back to school by Friday, please. No, by Monday, please assume the worst. Something has either happened to me. I'm not safe. I'm scared. Anything that you can do to try to help me, I would really appreciate. Like, you know, I've always Told you no, but this is just it. Like, I'm scared. So then those three days were hell. And it was hell for everybody. It was hell, was hell for my brother. It was hell for my sister. It was hell for all of us. Like, she was just extra mean. But also, I think that weekend her husband did be her. He has a drinking problem, like a beer drinking problem. And I think he had beat her at one point. She was like. She packed all of us up in the car and acted like she was leaving. Obviously, she didn't go nowhere. Like, it's hard to leave domestic abuse, especially when you're in love or you have kids. Especially when he's a provider. Like, especially that when somebody's a provider, it's even harder to leave. But that's why all the girls watching this are young. Have your own money, have your own things. Don't depend on no man for nothing. Especially when it comes to you already having a baby. You always want to be your best self so you can be the best mom that you can be to your baby. Like, that's all I have to say to that. I'm not saying that what she did to me was justified, but I will say whenever women are put in a place where it's like A, B or C, and it's. They don't have nowhere to go, they tend to stay in a abuse. So that night, right, she. We came back, whatever, it was Monday, I didn't go to school. All of my stuff was packed up. Another thing. I don't know if you know, but I like makeup. I like doing makeup. I have all get ready with me page. I've always dreamed of having, like a vanity that I remember. She wouldn't give us nothing. So I would steal books from school and I would like, you know, the textbooks, the thick ones. I will like, maybe like every other week. Like, I'll steal one and I brought them home and I just. She'll ask about it. I was like, oh, I'm learning. Like, you know, they're just for school and I'll pile them up. And then my sister had like this, you know, the kitty mirrors that aren't like, real. Yeah, I was so dumb. But I just wanted something. I put the books and then I put the mirror, and that was my vanity. And now I can. I now have a whole page where I'm lucky enough to have four brands that send me pr and I'm getting more. But I'm just. I just want to say that don't stop your dreams either. Just because people in situations are different. Like, I've always dreamed of that, and then I made it reality. Now I have a whole beauty room. Whatever. I'm getting off topic. I just remember because I was thinking about the room. How, anyway, that day she had packed me up in the car, gave me some big glasses that covered up the black eye. Mind you, I'm still scared for my life this day because it's like she's talking about getting rid of me.
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Like, where am I gonna go?
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Where am I going? All of my bags are packed. Like, I was scared. And there. There's in other states, in Florida. It was a time when me and my sister told on her for beating us. Like we told together. She flipped the whole thing on us. It made it seem like we were bad kids. And they put us in an institution for bad kids. Mind you, she's the one doing the beating. And the Florida department believed that what she was saying was right. And my sister got put into a different facility. I got put into facilities. Facility. We were in there with kids that had somebody. We were in there with kids that steal from people. We were in there with kids that, like, have real life anger issues. And they're just there to have just a better positive outlook on life. But it's still like a jail without being in jail, if that makes sense. Like, it's more of a happy setting than a jail. We got put in there. So this time around, that was the only thing that was on my mind. I was like, okay, maybe it's the same thing as Florida, but this time my sister's not going. It's just me. Fast forward. We're pulling off. We lived in apartments, so it was like a way, just a one of road to get in and out of the apartments. As we're leaving out of the apartments, there's like three cop cars coming into the apartment. And we're leaving. And I'm just like, yes. Like, I'm so excited. I'm like, yes, I'm getting out of here. Yes. So then midway there, she's like, what could you have done? How could you have done it? And I'm just sitting there, like. So then I guess she got scared because she turned around. The police. Police were parked by where our apartment is. I was relieved in a way because I was like, damn, like, maybe like, I'm about to go. Like, I'm about to be safe. She's about to go to jail. Like, everything's gonna work out. The police officer, I remember her vividly. She had short hair. And a bright red lipstick. I don't remember her name or nothing. I was in the car. My brother was in the front seat. Mind you, my brother has always known about the abuse because after the abuse, kind of pivoted so much. He was still getting abused, but it was just like a. Okay. Like, it wasn't. It wasn't how she was beating us anymore. Because he was one. He was a boy. He was stronger than. Than us two. He would just get up and go like he was older, too. Yeah, he didn't get. Yeah, at the. At that time, he was like 18, I think. And he always kind of lied for her, vouch for her, because he. He knew her as a mom. And I think for him, he knew that version that took care of him long time ago, that he always tried to protect that because he wanted. He wanted that love from her. He wanted that affection, he wanted that acceptance from her. She gets back in the car after talking to the cop by herself. I'm in the car, she's talking to the cop. There's more cops, but they're not out the car. It's just the female cop right there. She comes back and she's like. Like, damn, like, I'm about to have to lie. The cop comes to my side. He's like, hi, Daisy. We're here because of a letter you wrote at school. It's just a. A farewell check. What's going on? And she was like, can you take the glasses for me? I was like, yeah. And she was like, who did that to you? And I was like, I did that to myself. And it started lying. She was like, mind you, my mom's right there. My. Like every. Like, she was right there. Like, why would I say anything in front of this lady? When the cop. Like. You know what I'm saying? Like, she obviously already told you something. You obviously already believed her story. So it's like, why would I ever see. Say anything? So then she starts asking me more question. I'm like, yeah, it was me. I did it to myself. I was just very angry. She was like, well, I can't leave you here. We have to take a ride to the social worker station. And the exact same thing you're telling me is what you have to tell them. So when we get there, my mom leaves. I roll with the police officer. The police officer is there. They start questioning us one by one. They start questioning my youngest siblings. Whenever you go into foster care, they ask you the same things, like, what do your parents do when you get in trouble at Home. What are your favorite meals to eat at home? Home, Mind you, I've heard these questions so much. Like, I already know them. If you're getting disciplined and you don't want to get disciplined like that, what do your parents do? Just questions that they ask the kids for, like just to get a feel for their home. So my mom was telling everybody what to say. She told my youngest brother, my second youngest sister. She told Stacy, which is my other sister. And Stacy always tried to ride with her only cuz she was scared, cuz she knew she didn't. She'll get beat. So then my oldest brother went. And my oldest brother, I just couldn't understand it. Like, I always like, at him. Like, what's wrong with you? She'll go, and he'll be like, this is lying. She steals from my mom. She's easy. She's ghetto. Like, she. He was just like. Like making it seem like everything I was saying was a lie. And I never understood it. I'm like, why are you doing this? Like, what have I ever done to you other than stick up for you when she'll be beating on you? Like, why are you like this towards me? Like, you see the type of pain that I'm in? You see the type of mom that she is towards me. Like, at that point I thought she was jealous. Like, I've always looked a. I've always had big lips and nose like that. She'd be like, she was mean. Like, what do you mean? I look like a pig? I'm your daughter. I look like. I thought I looked like you. I looked like a pig.
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Like, it doesn't make sense.
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Yes. And then she's very racist. She. I don't know if it's because my dad's part, what he is. Like, I don't know what is wrong with her, but she hated seeing me around black people. Like, always. Mind you, my son is half black. So it's like, we'll get into that later. Anyway, fast forward, everybody went before me, and then I was the one to go last. Because I think they always want to hear the victim last to see how everybody's stories correlate. Mind you, while they're talking, we're in like the main lobby. We can hear everything that they're asking and saying. I don't think that that's how that should be. Every time my youngest sibling said that we were playing baseball and he hit the ball and it hit me in the eye. My sister said that we were playing in the room and she had threw A brush at me. And then Stacy said that she doesn't know how I got it. I'm thinking, I'm like, is this supposed to be like off the record where nobody knows we're saying. Saying to you. So then when I go into the social worker, her name was Ms. Ashley. I said, they can hear everything we're saying. I don't want to talk right here. If I'm going to tell you my story, I want to tell you somewhere where she can't hear. And you have to promise me she's not going to get me. If she gets me, I'd rather not say anything. That's just issues. Like I know something's wrong. Nobody's story's making sense. Like, it's fine. She took me to the back room. I told her everything that happened that night. Everything I've told you is the same thing I've told her. And if we look it up, it's the same thing you're going to see on the report. Because the story I lived that day is so vivid. It was so crazy. It was so like. All I wanted from you that night was congratulations, Daisy. I'm so happy for you. I love your daughter. Like something, a hug, a kiss, something. That day was the last day I seen her, like on the record. Like after that day, I officially went into the system and I became a foster kid. After that it was maybe a year, not even a year, maybe five months. I was in a facility where kids, it's called Kids harbor, where kids go whenever. It's like a pending. Like either your parents rights are either going to get taken away or you're going to go back with them or you're going into foster care to find a foster.
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A
Like it's like in the process.
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B
Yeah, it's in the process. So it's like there's kids of all types. There's kids that did something. There's kids that are hiding from their parents because their parents sexually abused them. Like it was just everybody's story in there was different and we all had one thing in common. We just wanted to feel loved and safe. So everybody there, like the staff that works there. I also have a couple of staff now that message me and talk to me and an amazing time. I've always been very charismatic. I like talking to people. I like being around people. I've always been a leader. I've always been a leader because I feel like everything that I've been through, you know, so I've always had to kind of lead and I feel Like, a lot of people in the system, and especially at that facility, just fell in love with that. Like, I'm always very encouraging, whatever. After that month, since my mom wasn't beating the youngest children, they went back to her. They currently still live with her. My brother was of age, so he chose to stay with her. He was 18 at the time, so the only people that were left to go into the system was me and Stacy. When me and Stacey went into the system, she's only been in one foster home. In that foster home, we were both in there. And there's just things. Like, I said, I won't stand by. And it was just, like, a lot of weird stuff that the mom was doing. We were the first foster kids, too. She'll take her other kids to get ice cream, and then she'll tell them, like, oh, don't tell them I took you to get ice cream.
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Your first foster parents. Okay.
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B
So I'm sitting there, like, I thought this was supposed to be, like, a better place. Like, why is she doing that? Like, even if you told me, I would have not cared that much, you know? Like, after that, I decided. I told our social worker, I said, I don't want to live here anymore. This isn't the type of home or environment that I want to be around. Especially after I promised myself if I ever got. Got away from my mom. That was horrible to me. I wouldn't stand for anything. Like, you know, like, nothing. Nala. Like, if I was gonna go find the life that I wanted to live, it wasn't going to be something similar or less. No, it was going to be something better because that's what I wanted, you know? Well, my sister is not very vocal. She's a mojata. You know what that is?
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A
No. That sounds so familiar.
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B
So basically, like, she's the type of girl, like, she might not say it in the moment like, oh, this is bothering me, but she's gonna, like, use at her advantage, like, okay, this is what you're doing. This what I'm do. But I'm not like that. But. So she was okay with just being like, okay. Because here, mind you. Oh, that was one thing. We had our own rooms, our separate rooms. We had beds. We had paintings on the wall. We had dressers. We didn't have a tv, but they said that they were going to get us our phones. Like, we had everything that we. We had a Jack and Jill, so she had her own little mirror and sink. And, like, we. We've never had that. We've never Even had a bed.
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A
She like, wow.
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B
Like, yeah, like, this is. Oh. And then the house was two stories, like, okay, okay. I feel like. I feel like Annie, like from the movie Annie. This is amazing. But then I was like, this is amazing. But she's doing little weird stuff. That's not giving family oriented. If I want to be in a family oriented family, this is obviously not it. My sister was fine with it. She was like, then I'll be the oldest. Then, like. So my sister was looking at it at a different place. So I told her. I was like, stacy, I love you, but I can't stay here. So she stayed with that family. My sister has been with that family for almost 10 years now. And then she got a little boyfriend. Oh, wait. So then I went to another foster home. I've been in like eight foster homes in total around Houston. And in every foster home that I've been, one has been a totally different foster mom, totally different family, totally different area, totally different school. And along the way, I've always, like, met people. And that's another thing. I've played volleyball. Like, I love volleyball. I've played volleyball in many places. Every school I've tried out, whatever. So my sister now, she's kind of like out of the story for a little bit.
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Exit.
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B
Yeah, she was happy. She was living. She was the oldest, like, was living her business. I went to another foster home where I feel like this is taking so long, but it's, it's crucial. It's crucial to how I met my adoptive parents. I went to this foster home. They were two really elderly people. They had a very big house. One of them was out of the Marine and one of them was out of the Navy. They were like in their 80s. And all I could think about was I had a mom that had so much and could do so much, and she wasn't even willing to give me a hug. I meet these 80 something year old people that have dedicated their life to serving others and helping their country. And they had five kids. One of them was on dialysis, one of them, they had autism, but it was like very bad. And then they also had something with their joints, but the girl was five, so she had a mentality of a two year old, but she was five. They had adopted two African American kids. And then they had one kid that was amputated from the legs down. They still said, we're gonna take one more in. And I was that one more. I was just thinking, I was like, all this love these people got to give. And My own mom couldn't even get like to me, it was just so surreal. And they had a pool. I had my own. No, I didn't have my own room there. I had, I had to share the room with the girl that had dialysis, the girl that got adopted. So basically it was four girls, one room. But they tried their hardest with me because I don't know if they seen that, like I was so like, go oriented. Like the. Be like, okay, so what are your grades this week? And they seen A's and B's. They were like, nobody that lives here right now. Well, three of them were disabled and the other two that we adopted, they don't even care about their grades Then. I was always trying to help around the, like, I've always just been a leader and a helper. So after that, I think a week in with living with them, they gave me my, a phone. I was like, I got a phone here and they had service. I was so excited and so great. I had so much. I was like, yeah, I'm sharing with four other girls. But they didn't give me a phone. They said, daisy, you want to do volleyball? We'll pay for the classes, we'll pay for the everything. Like, mind you, these are 80 something year old people. There's people here that have so much love to give. And then eventually once you go into foster care and it's either my mom was either going to win us back or her rights were going to be terminated. Her rights got terminated. So I officially got asked, do you want to stay in foster care till you're 21 or do you want to get adopted? I'm not going to lie. I've always craved a family. I don't know. I've always craved a family and I wanted that bad. So I went to adopt. Adoption. So unfortunately, I had to leave that foster home. When I lived that foster home, I had a failed adoption. I don't really want to talk too much about them. After I went from that failed adoption, I went to another foster home. And she was very strict. Like it was a girl in there that had some sort of like sexual disease. And she'll be like, you can't drink out of this cup. And then she'll tell everybody her business. And then after she'll tell everybody her business, she'll buy like fruit and she'll be like, if you want to eat, you gotta wait till like I was in, in the military. Like all these girls are trying to get away from something that happened. And you're Talking about some. You can't eat at a certain time. You can't open her. You can't touch her door.
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It was like, too strict.
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B
Too strict. I wasn't doing that either. I was like, caseworker. I can't do this one either, please. Like, where else am I going? I was willing to take a risk anywhere until I found that family void that I wanted, that I didn't have. Then after that foster home, I went to another foster home in Humble, Texas, where I was living with four ghetto. And I'm not saying ghetto in a way. Like, that's like, oh, you're ghetto. Bye, girl. Like, you're too ghetto. Like, loud. No. They would go to school and literally give sloppy Toppy to people for a bag of chips. But that's because the woman that we were living with didn't really care. Like, they'll just. She'll let them do anything. And then she had a favorite. Like, she'll be like, oh, if you tell me what the other five are doing in the house, I'll give you some chips or you can leave or I'll pay for the movies or something. Like, she'll try to do that. And it just reminded me of my mom. I was like, she's trying to pin all these girls against each other. When all of these girls. Obviously, the girls that were doing that was two of them. The girls that were doing that had got some sort of sexual abuse within, you know what I'm saying? So it's because usually that's why people gravitate towards that. It just made me think, like, this lady doesn't give a fuck about them. The only thing that we had to eat was chili every week, ramen noodles or nachos. Like, why are we not sitting down? Having. Then we had roaches.
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A
And then you had that, like, great experience with older.
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B
With the people that, mind you, some foster parents that get foster kids is off for the money. Yeah. Solely for the money. So it's not even about the experience that I have with them. It was more about the thought that these people have lived most of their life giving back to people and they're still trying to help people. And then you got this lady that would steal the other girls clothes because she wanted to look. She was in her 30s, wanted to look younger. She's not doing nothing for the girls. All she's doing is literally getting the money and letting them live there and do whatever. Like, these girls are throwing their life away. One of them got arrested at school. I think they had tried to steal one of the teachers phones. Like, it was just too much in my head. I'm thinking, I'm like, they're doing this because the. The people that are supposed to be like, encouraging their lifestyles, healthy food, healthy, like just health, healthy is just in there like, okay, go do whatever you want.
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Care.
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B
They don't care. So that wasn't the foster home for me. Left that one in like three months. When I was in the first foster home, I don't know how I forgot this. There's this camp, it's called Love Fosters Hope. And they basically every summer, the whole month of June, every week here, one to like five, and then from like seven to 12. Then they do teenagers, which is like 12 to 18. But the boys and girls that are older can't hang with each other for obvious reasons. When I went to the first foster homes, they sent me there for that summer. That was. Was the best experience I've ever had. I already knew that God was in my life and I already knew that God loved me. Because all this stuff that I'm going through, I never lost hope that something better could come out of it. I've never lost hope. When I went to that foster camp, when I tell you, like, all those people that volunteer there are all solely volunteers for a week straight. They're not getting paid.
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A
Like, they want to be there.
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B
They want to be there. And it's a. It is for a church, but it's not soling me for just like one. Church is basically just people that know about it from churches and they volunteer to go there. The love that I feel, like all those kids feel, they do this thing where it's like on the last, last day, we go to a prom, they let us go shopping for dresses. They take us to lessons with men, like older men that obviously they're there to like be a father figure for a day. I can't explain it. I can't explain it. But they, they basically. And they also talk about. They're like, we do this to show you guys that there is men that will respect you. And if you guys had a lot of people in your life, especially like fathers or male figures that abused y'. All. Y' all know that we wish that you didn't have that happen to you. And we're here to show you a positive outlook on male relationships. After you leave, the first time you get assigned a cousin is what they call it. It's basically like your mentor while you're there, like, they'll go potty with you it's basically two campers per one cousin. Right? And they call you a cousin so you can form you comfortable talking to them like something's happening at home, you know what I'm saying?
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A
Like just more comfortable, like that sense of like family.
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B
Cuz everybody that probably goes is missing that. Like I keep saying on here, I always been the type of girl ever, even after everything that goes on in my life, to just want to be there and just talk. Yap, lead, love, care. So some people choose to have a mentor for when, after you leave the camp, they go and see you at your foster homes. They take you on like little lunch dates, little dinner date, like whatever, just to make you feel like you got more of a support system outside of the people that are just taking care of you that are not your family. So I had four people that wanted to mentor me after I left. One of those people ended up being my mom now that I'm adopted by. But the story is kind of crazy. All the four girls were fighting over me like no, we want to mentor her. Like I feel like I could just show her this. And Mama D was like, well I just feel like God strongly wants me to be her mentor. So Mama D called me. So I had a conversation. Mama D before I left that house, the one with the 80 year old parents. Yeah. And mind you, they gave me the phone so I can't just leave with the phone. So after I had that conversation with Mama D, I didn't get to talk to Mama D for that whole time because when she talked to me she was like, hi, like I'm your mentor. Do you remember me? I know I wasn't your cousin, but I wanted to be your mentor because of other reasons. Whatever, whatever. She was like in the same cabin as me. She called me before I left that house to go to the failed adoption and she was like, I just got pregnant so I don't think I'll be able to come see you for a couple of months. So I think she was like maybe five months pregnant. And when in those five months when she wasn't talking to me, I was going all around Houston. Remember I told you I about all these other foster homes? Like I probably didn't talk about two because it's just I don't want to even talk about those. So then I'm at the one with the lady that doesn't give a with that one. Since we lived with her, we really didn't have visitors. So she had came prior to Christmas time and we had went Somewhere it was like the ninja. You know the ninja. Like obstacle courses.
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A
Okay, okay. Like the bouncy houses.
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B
So she had took me there, but it was an event with the camp, so it was more of the cousins and it was their mentees. So it was the people that picked the cousin and then the cousin picked them, and then they were in there, like their mentor, outing, whatever. And she took me there and she was just asking me, like, oh, what are things that you want for Christmas? Like, what are things that you like at the time? I don't know if you guys know, but North Face puffer jackets were a thing and Uggs were a thing, right. And I never had either of those. So I asked her for that. And then I think I had asked her for. I think I wanted Lululemon. At the time, I didn't know, but she used to work at Lululemon. After that one time, she came from for Christmas and she came with Maria, which is the daughter that she had while I was out. So I didn't see her for a long time. And then she came on Christmas. She had just gave birth. She was maybe like 12 days post op from having a baby. So that's two weeks. Not even two weeks.
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A
Yeah.
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B
She came see me, and when she opened the trunk, it was some Uggs in there, a North Face jacket, and a couple of more like little trinkets, like, for Christmas. She was like, I know you don't have much, but this is what I wanted till this day. I still have those boots, jacket. I would never get rid of it. Like, even though they don't fit and I've never had nothing and you're telling me that you want me to have this, Like, I'm going to keep it and cherish it till they die, period. So fast forward, I went into the adoption portal again, and I was having to choose between five families. Whenever you go into the adoption portal, they just ask you, like, what are some things that you have to have in a family? And this was my chance. Like, I'm not, you know, I'm not doing these foster homes anymore. And if I'm going to get adopted by somebody and call them, telling my family, after this traumatic experience with my real mom, I have to choose wisely. So I tell them and I told them, we have to at least eat dinner as a family once a week. Like, we have to. I want my own room. Like, just my own space. I've never had that if I'm gonna get adopted. At 15, I was 14. No, I was a freshman so what
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A
is that, like, 14, 15?
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B
Yeah. So if I'm gonna get adopted as a freshman, I want my own room. Like, can I please. Just a bed, a closet. Just to myself. I've never had that. I wanted the family to. To not be very old, and I wanted the family to be very loving. Like, I wouldn't mind if they had other kids. I didn't care to be an only child as long as they were a loving family. Like, you know? And then last but not least, the only thing that I said I didn't want was really, like, older people like, that are about to die. Like, if you're gonna be my mom, can you please not go? Like, that's just it. Like, please don't go, lady. Like, please. Like, okay, so fast forward. I'm telling Mama D. Because now she came back. Now she see me, like, like, once a month taking me on outings. I think she took me to get, like, my first set of, like, acrylics. That was her. And I've always been obsessed with the color yellow and pink. So my first nails were, like, yellow. Like, she was the first person that took me out for my birthday. So we were doing, like, little outings, right? And in the midst of all of this, I was telling her, like, right now, I'm in the process of adoption. And the list came in other people that wanted to adopt me. It was four people. One of them were a lesbian couple with adoption dog. They lived, like, far away. One of them was a couple in Colorado. No kids. Oh, that's another thing. I said, big house. I wanted, like, a big house. No, no, no, I said that. I said my parents had to have money. That's what I said.
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A
Yeah, I'm done with this poor life.
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B
Yeah. I said, yeah. I said I wanted a paradise.
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A
Yeah.
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B
Like, I was tired, girl. I was tired. So fast forward, the people came in. Then I had a single, single gay guy. I didn't feel comfortable with that. Just because one, you're single and two is like, I want a mom, too. I don't want this family. Yeah. I didn't just want a dad, you know, like, no, Just like, I feel like everybody deserves their family. And I feel like just everyone deserves to just love, feel love, want to get.
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A
That's what you wanted.
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B
Whatever. Yeah. And then next, I think it was a family. I think I want to say in, like, Wyoming or, like, some state that I was just like, oh, am I going to be in a, like, country hillbilly? Like, I was like, this is not for me. And Then. Then there was the last family. It was a man and a guy. They had five kids. They had just gave birth to one of the kids, and he made a lot of money. They tell you that, but they're not allowed to show you pictures.
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A
Okay.
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B
Like, that's one thing that they can do. I don't know why they said he made a lot of money, but it didn't make sense because their house was so tiny. Like, he made a lot of money. He was a. What do you call it? A CFO to a big company.
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A
Okay?
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B
So he was the chief financial for, like, he was dealing with the money. I said I wanted money, so it makes sense. But they said he made money a of lot, lot of money. But they said that he had a little house with a lot of kids. But they did say they were like, you'll have your own room. So it made me feel like, okay, they have all this money, this little house, and five kids. What could they possibly want with me? Like, that just gots to give. They literally just love love. They love family. They're family oriented. They got to be having dinners together. Like, they have to. Five kids. You're not having no dinners together. Mind you, at the time, I was living with the lady that didn't give two nothings about us. And I remember I was living. I could show you. I want to show you videos.
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A
No, you're gonna have to send them to me so we can put.
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B
No, I'm gonna show you. I'm gonna show y'. All. And so on this side, I was roommates with a girl, and she was very artistic, had paintings. She was very rude. She was like. She just felt like she was just that. And like I said, I didn't have much. And at school, like, she had hella friends. Like, at school, she was like, she. I don't want to say she was popping because at the end, like, she was in foster care. Like, when you're in foster care and people know that about you at school, you have, like, a certain look. Like people either be like, oh, they feel bad for you, or they're like, she don't got nothing. Like, we can't. You know what I'm saying? And she was one of them girls that, like, had a group of friends. Like, they'll pick her up, go take her to the movies. Like, she had, like, purses, and she
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A
had, like, a good social life.
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B
Yeah, yeah. That's what it's called. Yeah. And then I remember, like, she was a little older than me, so I used to Try to mimic her. I would try to go thrifting. When I had, like, a little bit of money, I would, like, put them up. Like, I just tried to make it seem like I had stuff, even though I didn't really have nothing. Right. And I remember I called Mama D, and I'm only talking about what I had because the girl was, like, laying down when I called Mama D. Oh, Mama D. That's her name now. But I called my mentor at the time, and I was like, hi. I did it. And I called. I was b. I was like, hi. I finally did it. I chose my family. I'm so excited. I can't wait for you to see. Like, I'm. I'm kind of nervous. I. They haven't told me nothing. She just told me that she's going to put the approval in. And she was like, okay, what family did you choose? I was like, I picked the family with the ladies, little house. I was like, the husband makes a lot of money, and they have a lot of kids. And then, like, she just started crying. We started crying. I was like, why are you crying? Look, what's going on? She was like, daisy, I wasn't able to tell you, but I'm the family you just picked. So then it turned like a big thing, and then we're sitting there on the phone. I'm like, are you serious? So then I hang up, and I'm like, no. Like, she's lying. Like, this is not real, mind you. I treated her whenever. She was my mentor, like, my bestie. Like, I'll tell her, like, I'm dating this girl, you know? Yeah. Like, I'm dating this. At the time, I was dating a girl. I'm on the volleyball team. Like, I would just tell her everything. So hearing that this whole time that I've been venting to her about how stressed about. About finding the right family, this whole time, she was getting the paperwork done to be able to be my mom. No, she nada. I didn't know. I didn't know nothing.
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A
Literally fate.
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B
That's why I feel like everything that's happened up to this point is literally gone. I think, like, we talked again. I was like, why didn't you tell me? She was like, I wasn't allowed to. This is so crazy. Like, we just had, like, a moment, like a mom. We were crying. Whatever. Fast forward to that. Maybe like a week later. She was like, I'm getting approval right now. And boom. They brought me to Cali for a month. We had a beach house, mind you I've never met her and her husband. Like, I never met her kids. Only Maria, because she had to bring Maria. She was a baby. It was just crazy to me how then after she. We heard that I picked her and she picked me. It wasn't awkward at all. Cuz usually whenever you get adopted, you start off with phone calls. After phone calls, you. You do.
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A
Ease you in.
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B
Yeah. Everything's easy. And then you do visits, Then you do, like, outings. Then you do, like, stayovers. With her. We didn't have to do all that. That following week, she got the approval. She was like, we're taking you to Cali. I was like, what am I going to Cali for? Like, what's in Cali? I met, like, my grandparents, Pops and Grandma Alice. Now, Like, I just. It was just crazy. Like, now I'm in Cali. Look. Oh. But anyway, like, that following week, after we got the approval, they brought me here. We spent. They took me to Hollywood. They took me to Rodeo Drive. Like, they just. They were showing me things that I'm like, I'm not poor anymore. Yeah. I'm like. I'm like, is this real? Like, I have my own. Then I had my own room at the.
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A
At the beach house.
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B
At the beach house. Then on top of that, at the beach house, they had. I didn't know what Lululemon. And like, well, I knew Lululemon. I didn't know what Athleta was.
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A
Okay.
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B
She had got me a bathing suit from Athleta. Like, I just felt like I was her. I was like, they. They're not about to. To talk about me at school no more. Like, everything's litty, gritty. Like, yeah, we lit outside. We just had fun. We came to Cali and I. It was just so many different things. Like, so many conversations. Then after Cali, I was already in color. Like, I was just doing so many things that I never thought I could do.
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A
Like, your whole life changed.
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B
And then on top of that, it was like. I don't think that they ever wanted me to know this, but I think that the twins, because so I have sisters. So it's the twins, and then it's Sophie, which is under the twins, and then Maria, which I have, like, a joke. Maria, I feel like you were born into the family, but I was brought at the same time as you. So we're like, at the same time we were. Right.
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A
Twins.
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B
Yeah. Like, yeah, in a way. And then my mom and D. Just had another baby. Her name's Ruby. And at the time, Ruby Wasn't there. But I think that they moved the twins from that room and put them all into one room to where the girls were sharing. It was four of the girls, mind you, they're younger so I don't think they see anything about it. But they moved the girls from one room. It was a three bedroom house, it was really small. And then the door was yellow of the house, which was crazy. I'm like, that's my favorite color. Like, what's going on here? They made that room and they let me express myself within that room. Like it was just so magical to me. Honestly, I love that.
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A
And after hearing your whole story and everything you've gone through, I'm so glad that you eventually got your happy ending. You know, what piece of advice can you give anyone watching right now that has gone through anything similar or is currently going through, you know, not feeling loved by their biological parents or if they're in the system where they feel like maybe they will never find a family or the love they are looking for. What piece of advice can you give anyone watching?
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B
Well, first, like just a baseline. I feel like there's no such thing as a perfect family. I feel like there is toxic things within families. And that's when I feel like you need to make your choice. Whether this is the family that you want to stay in or do you want to find a family or what looks to you as family is not what's going to look to me as family. So if your family are your friend or even a co worker or something like that, then that's what it can be. But I don't know, advise nobody to stay in a toxic household at all because one, it will drain you and it will keep you from things that you don't know. You might have goals out there that as soon as you step out of that, you might get straight into your dream. Whatever it is, whatever your dream is, you can get into it. And then on top of that, there's no such thing as a small dream. I feel like if you can imagine it and you see somebody else do it, you can do it. Like whatever you want, you literally can't do, you just gotta do it. Like if you don't do it, how would you know if you could do it?
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A
Like, you know, thank you so much for opening up about your whole childhood and upbringing. All over social media. But it wasn't always that way. What made you get into social media? What in your mind was like, you know what? I feel like people might love to see me online Tell us a little bit about your upbringing on social media.
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B
Okay. I was in college. So after I graduated high school, I. I went to college. When I was in college, my account had, like, 1.5 million followers. It got deleted as soon as I got to college. I was like, bro, like, it's no way. Like, am I really. I went to school to be a social worker. Slash, it was either gonna be a social worker or a cardiothoracic surgeon. Card. Like a cardiologist, like, for the heart. Yeah, but they do the surgeries. But I kind of started to lean more into being a social worker, only because I was like, I can help so many kids. Probably how it really started was I would be at. Remember the house that I told you where the lady didn't give a. So I found a phone. Some. I don't even know where I found the phone. And I downloaded Tik Tok. It used to be Tik Tok and Dub Smash. And that was when Charlie d' Amelio started going viral. And it was like, renegade, Renegade, Renegade. I started doing the Renegade. I started dancing to all those songs back then, Tik Tok. Whether y' all like to say it or not, Tik Tok was more fun when you could. You could just dance, post, and not care about it and go viral. And that's. That's how I used to do it. I used to just. I used to post like 16 TikToks a day. 16 of me dancing. I used to dance in school. I used to dance in my volleyball outfit. I used to just dance all around. I just love dancing. I've always loved dancing. Anybody that's watching this, they can tell you I dance my whole pregnancy. My whole pregnancy. I just like dancing. That's how I blew up when I got adopted. Nobody. I didn't tell my story or nothing, but when I got adopted, I posted a video because, remember, she got. Got me from. Straight from the foster home where the lady didn't care. She got me and took me to Cali. Then after that, all we had to do was wait, like, five months, and then she adopted me. When she adopted me, I posted a video. And I've always just done little vlogs of just like, anything but that vlog. That day, it was just different. Like, the way I was recording, the way I was posting. And I probably can look it up. Wait, stay on the screen. We can do it real fast, just so you can see. I want to see, like, your raw reaction.
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A
Okay? Period.
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B
This was the video. It got, like, so many Views.
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A
Was that, like, your first viral moment where you're like, oh, I can possibly do this for, like, reals?
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B
Yes. Let me show you. That right there was, like, the video.
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A
Okay, let me see.
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B
Adopted check. Singing harm. It was November 22nd, the day I got adopted. Right. My son was born November 24, which I feel like. I don't know. I feel like everything in November was just, like, a moment. Like, my Grandma was born November 8th. I feel like everything just. I don't know. I just feel like everything in my life has happened in a sequence where it was all God's timing, and I can't rush it. Even now, when I get in my head, I'd be like, why are you rushing it? If he has literally everything you've ever, ever thought of, you've gotten, everything you've ever wanted, you've received, he's given it to you. So fast forward that adoption, that adoption video. Then that next day, I made a dance, and it was called, like, I Made a Dance for Thanksgiving. I don't know. I think. I think because I felt like that video got, like, 11 million views, and. And I was like, okay, so that video got 11 million views. The video before that was me, like, dancing. It goes rolly rolly rolly with a dabber and stick up your dab. And that one went viral. Got, like, 30. It didn't go as viral as the adoption. Because I feel like the adoption video was just, like, real wholesome.
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A
Yeah.
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B
Everyone agreed. Then the next video, it was a sound. It was like, you got yams, grams, potatoes, tomatoes. And I made a dance to it. It was just some lame dance. And then it went viral. And then I kept doing it, and it went viral. And then after that, I just ran with it. I kept making video. Then I started sharing my life on there, on how my dad. So a lot of people are really infatuated. Mama D. Like, so it was Mama Dee and Daisy. Like, I would make, like, little videos, like, just showing how different we were. I would make little videos because my parents are Caucasian, but I just feel like they're just very kind and very different, and I just love them to death. So Mama Dee and Daisy became, like, a thing. Like, right now, everybody's just like. We're like, if I was to talk with Mama D, they'll literally be like, mama D, Mama D, Mama D, Mama D. And just like every other teenager when I was in college and stuff, I would, like, not say mean things, but I just be like, don't ask about them. I'm not talking to them or stuff like that. Like, I'll throw a wrench like that. Like, you know, it's like normal teenage stuff. But Franklin. People know of Franklin of, like, in a not negative way, but in like a. He says, take my phone at 11 every night. And before he'll take my phone, I'll be like, guys, he's taking my. My job in high school. I'm like, he's taking my phone. I'm irritated. Like, okay, I'll see you guys tomorrow. And then I'll put the phone out. And then, like, you can see, like, him grabbing the phone, turning it off, and then he'll take it on. I'll post stuff like, I didn't mind. I've never been embarrassed or ashamed of anything. Nothing. I've never been embarrassed or ashamed. Then I'll get the phone in the morning and I'll be like, okay, now I'm gonna drink my kombucha. Like, they got me on drinking kombucha. They got me on, like, eating healthier things. Like, I just shared my authentic life on social media. Then I started playing volleyball, and it was crazy. Like, everyone knew that I got adopted again because of the video. They would come to my volleyball games and just picture. Everybody knew if my family came, because it'll be these five girls, then Franklin will probably have, like, his work suit on. Remember, he had. He works at a very, like, professional working job. So you gotta dress a certain way, and then you'll see. Mama did. Like, everything was just so chaotic. And I would share that. I would share everything. And that's what blew me up. Me just sharing my authentic life. Then I started doing, like, makeup videos. Like, not as much as I do them now, but I did makeup videos. And then I went to college. My account got deleted. I completely deleted. Nobody knew about me. I had a spam, but it just wasn't the same. Like, everyone knows when. Whenever you have an account, you're usually they're getting sound promos or you're getting products. Like, you know, like, you're. That's how you're making money. In college, I was dead broke. I had ended up getting this girlfriend. She was a basketball player. I've always liked basketball players very much. But anyways, that's not here or there. I was very skinny. I didn't have much to eat. One thing I will. At the time, I was very, like, resentful towards Mama D and Franklin because. Because whenever they got me into college, they just kind of dropped me off. I went to college for free. And you can go to college for free. When you're a foster. If you're a foster care, take advantage of that. Go to college for free. You have somewhere to stay. And even though the food might not be nice, you're. You're getting free food. Like, what are we talking about here? I went to college and I was dead broke. I barely had enough to eat. Mama D and Franklin were not giving me money. And I feel like at the time I'll be like, why? Like, how you adopt me and you're not even giving me money? Like, what's going on here? But they wanted me to learn that if I wanted to get the extra, like, money that you could get from school, it came with doing extra stuff in the college. You know what I'm saying? I feel like they wanted me to learn that. And I feel like the hustle, like they were trying to. Mind you, I've always been a hustler, but it just angered me. I was like, how you take me to Cali and then like now just dropping me off at college.
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A
Like, now we're back to the.
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B
It didn't make no sense. I was very little. Very, like, skinny, very little. Cuz I wasn't really eating. I had no money. The only thing I was doing in school at that time. I don't really smoke weed or anything, but I used to be around people that would like, have like eight blunts and rows rotation. I just like, I was like, lost, just skinny little on me. Just drinking and smoking every day. And that's also not healthy. Get up and stop hitting them pins and stop eating them cheetah. Like, I know right now, some of y' all watching, y' all got a Cheeto bag next to you with the pin by your bed. Like, stop doing that. Go touch some grass and be healthy. Like, I promise it's a thousand million more things to do than wasting your money on Cheetos in a pen. Like, I promise. But that's not here or there. Anyway. But anyway, I got into it with this girl in school. So in college I got into it because girls used to try to bully me. Like, I'm telling you. I don't know if I don't know what it is. Used to just be mad, but they used to just be angry. I don't know. I got into with this girl. And then after that, I was like, yeah, colleges is not for me. Like, these girls are more infatuated with having a social life and being in a sorority and having a sorority sister than actually Being like, a nice person that's going to school, I just didn't have time for it. Once I got into with them little girls about that sorority because they feel like they were. They were superior. I knew, like, school's probably not for me. So after that second year, I went freshman year, and then half a second year. And that second year, I stayed with my girlfriend. And then after that, I was like, I'm gonna work a job this summer, and I'm gonna start being on social media more the backup page. I'm gonna start being on that page, and I'm just gonna post, like, wig promos. So then I got into wig promos. I was like, I'm making so much money with this. At the time, it wasn't so much. I was making, like, maybe like, 250 installs. So I will sit there and I've always. You see all this? I've always had very th hair. When you wear a wig, if you don't flatten this out really well, it's gonna look like, yeah. And I already have a big head. Like, my head isn't edible. It's a big head, you know? So then. But I was hustling. I was like, okay, I'm gonna start getting these wigs sent to her house. I' ma sit. And then I turned her, like, her comedor and her chairs into like, a whole nother vanity table. And I would sit there, put the glue on, and then I just learned how to do my installs. I became friends with the this girl. And then at the time, me and her, like, got really close. And I would be driving from Nacogdoches, Texas, to Houston, and I would just be going back and forth. And then I just started. I was like, you know what? Like, if I hustle hard enough doing this wig stuff, posting it, and maybe you know what? I should really, like, start to try to do it up my price, save my money, and then get a cheap apartment and then really do it. I moved to Houston in west Dallas. Right there. I was like, if I'm gonna move to Houston, I'm gonna go out with a bang, y'. All. I got a two bedroom house. I literally only had, like, $3,000 to my name. I put that deposit down. After I put that deposit down, I had a nice little two bedroom. Guess what? The cemetery was my backyard and my balcony. But I had a good view of the city. I was like, what the heck? I'm like, this look. All the. Hi. All the dead people. Like, hi. Like, and I never felt Unsafe because I feel like I always have God with me. I mean, don't come messing with me now. And I was just living life, life. And after that I started meeting so many people. I was outside so much. Like when I say I was outside, I'm talking about I will go out tonight. I go sleep for two hours, get up, go out and go out day drinking, then go to sleep for a little bit. Then it was just like a non ending cycle, just going out, going. I'm like, Daisy, you said you was moving to Houston and get rich. What are you doing? So then after that I locked in for a little bit. Like locked in. And I was doing these pranks. I don't know if you've ever seen Daisy breaks a TV at Walmart. Did you ever see that? Basically I was going in public and I was doing these pranks on just random people. And the difference is that when YouTubers do it, it's staged and they bring people that do it for them and they make it seem like it's something I was really going in public and messing with these people. Guys, please forgive me. I was just trying to make it out. I was just trying to live up to the dream where I said, I'm not going to be broke no more. I was just trying to any type of way. And I was like, I'm a pretty girl, I'm funny and I'm about that. Like, I can, if I can, if I want something, I can do it. There's no limits to this. I ended up meeting my boyfriend Jesse, which he's in the back watching me. I ended up meeting him. I've always loved being outside. So every Monday I could walk across to this big park in Houston, which right now they're having like this whole thing where it's like a serial killer.
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A
Yes, like right now.
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B
Yes, like right now. They found like 14 bodies. Like, like, it's crazy. It's crazy. But I used to walk to that park every Monday and play sand volleyball with strangers. I didn't know the strangers were making a paint, but I just loved how people just got together and would go play volleyball. And I had the, I had a cameraman at the time. That's when I was taking YouTube very seriously. I was making good money from it, whatever. And I had this cameraman that was friends with my boyfriend right now, Jesse. And one day I guess they just talked or something and he was like, oh, pull up to the park. Whatever, whatever, whatever, whatever. Jesse pulled up to the park and as soon as I met him, Some stranger asked, mind you, this is my first time meeting him. Some stranger asked, and they were like, oh, who is this? I was like, this is my boyfriend. I had just met him, and after that day, he just became my boyfriend. He never left my life, and we've been together ever since. And no, at first. Okay, we went out to you. Let me just tell that story real quick. We went out. People don't even know this. So we met at a park, whatever, Whatever. The story gets deeper in or whatever. But it was. I was very adamant about, I don't like people in my house. I am like that till this day. I don't really, really like people at my house for various reasons. And one of them is, that's my energy. That's my safe space. And I know what it feels like to not have safety and space at your house. So when I got mine, I didn't watch other. Okay. My cameraman used to live with me because it was just easy. Like, okay, we get up. Let's go film. Let's go grind. Come on. We're on. We're on this. We're doing this. He wanted to bring Jesse to the house. I said no. He had told everyone that we were together. Like, he was lying to these everyone that came around in the influence of the community. My cameraman was me telling. Telling them that we were together. Me and my camera were not together. We were not together. So me. And we ended up going to this restaurant because I didn't want them in my house. And we were there. I told Jesse. I was like, why you haven't asked for my number? Like, why you haven't tried to talk to me? Like, what's going on here? And he was like, I thought y' all was together. I'm like, no, we're not together. And I took his phone. I was like, that's why you look better in person. Like, you don't look good on your pictures. And then every day after that, we've been together.
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A
That's crazy. I want to get more into that.
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B
People don't know that.
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A
So you guys kind of met, like, randomly.
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B
Yeah. It wasn't really a love story. I feel like it was so random, and I'm just so impulsive. I'm like, oh, you're fine. Like. And then I had kind of like, he was in my rebound or nothing, but I was with a girl at the time, and she was. It started to get very toxic. And we were long distance. She was playing basketball in West Virginia. And I just met him. He was New. He was tall. He played basketball. Like, he was handsome. I was just like, oh. And then not even that. And I'm like, like, where are you going? Like, ever since. Like, since I met him, that's. It's always been that. And then it became that. And then we had, like, a little toxic. I don't even want to talk about that. But we had a little toxic, like, rough patch. It only got on social media because I was. I'm very. I got very dramatic. Like, I told you, I've made. Said a lot of things and then a lot of things on social media that I don't want to say I'm not proud of, because at the end of the day, I don't regret anything, and I'm not embarrassed that nothing is part of my story. But I think it takes you to do it, to learn it.
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A
Yeah. It takes a toll, too, on your relationship once you put, like, negative out there.
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B
Yeah, it really does, because. And then you have all these negative opinions. And like, now, like, me and Jesse could, like, bicker about something. Like, he'll tell me, like, no, I don't think that. I'm like, well, I don't think that either. Like, and I'm always have a strong personality. And then people will be like, oh, she's bullying him. Oh, she hates him. Oh, they hate each other. And it's just, like, that's just not it. People are gonna go through stuff. People can bicker for five minutes and be fine the next. Like, you know, I think people online
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A
really take shit seriously. Like, it's like, yeah, we had a little wrong moment, or, like, yeah, we fought over this little thing. But, like, they grab on from that, and they swear they know the entirety of your relationship. They're like, oh, they're toxic. Or, oh, they don't love each other. And it's like, no, bro. Like, you guys got to see one snippet of a relationship and of our lives, and y' all swear y' all know what's up.
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B
Everyone's in, like, a parasocial relationship with us. Like, they act as if they're here every day. They act like, obviously in every relationship, obviously, you've been with your person almost 10 years, right? There is things that literally have happened, things that. That don't happen. Things happen behind the scenes, but at the end of the day, that's your person. That's who you cater to. That's who you. You know what I'm saying? Like, that's who you're vulnerable at the end of the day. And it's like, y' all don't see that. Y' all just take whatever y' all want to run with and just run with it. It's just like, it's never going to be that Obama.
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A
You guys have been together for a while now. How did you find out you were pregnant? Was this something that you're like, oh, my God, I'm. I haven't gotten my period. I might be pregnant. Tell us all about that, how you told him that you were pregnant.
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B
I think it was our very first time ever, like, being intimate together. And I, like, I told you, I don't really have a lot of people at my house or nothing. I just felt very comfortable with him. Whatever. I had this bottle of Hennessy and like, a jug, right? Just a jug. And it's just been sitting there like, it's been sitting in my fridge for like, maybe like, I want to say three months, just sitting there open. And, you know, as liquor ages, the stronger and more potent it gets. So that night we had one shot. We were up. Like, I won't lie to you, we were so up. And then we kept drinking and kept drinking. Like, we don't even remember anything other than just drinking that, like. And we will always tell this story because it's like we don't know what was in that Hennessy bottle or what was going on. But we just had such an amazing time till the sun came up. That's not even Yalls business. But that's just it. Then a little bit after that, we had one pregnancy scare. Just one, mind you. I don't. I've never took a plan B and I've never. What's the other thing people be doing?
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A
Like birth control?
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B
Yeah, no, I was on birth control. But no, not at the time. I was only on birth control up until I got with the girl. Cuz I was with the girl. I didn't need to be on birth control. So we were, we had one pregnancy scared. And I told him, I was like, jesse, I'm so scared. And he sat there by the bed. He was like, no, everything's going to be fine. Whatever, Whatever. Okay. So we weren't pregnant that time. So then another time came and it was around, I want to say Valentine's, and me and him had a very big argument because something had happened. Whatever, we were. We were. We were arguing. Whatever. Somehow we had made up. I think he was. I think he was begging me to get back together, actually.
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A
You're like, that's what it was.
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B
Yeah, that's that is what it was like. Yeah, that is. Cuz look at him. He was begging me to get back together. I was like, okay, fine. You know when you get back together with your person or whatever happens, like, y' all just have that. That time. So then, like two weeks later, we. I was like, okay, let me just take this. Like, what's going on here? And I take it and we're joking. I'm like, okay, I'm going. Just leave it there. Like. Like it's not going to say nothing. We pick it up and it says, I'm pregnant. Like, that's literally what happened. Like, we picked. He picked. No, I left it there. And then we walked away from it for, like, hours. Like we didn't care about the test, like, at all. And then he went over there. No, I think he had done that last time, too. Like, he acted like it said positive. He was like. I was like, no, bro, it's not. And so then this last time, he picked it up and he was like. And I didn't believe him. Cuz you did that. You're lying to me. Like, you're trying to get a reaction out of me. And it said, we're pregnant. And I don't even know what did. I don't even remember what we did after that. I really don't.
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A
Were you shocked? Was that something that you wanted to? Especially, you know, after everything you had gone with, like, your upbringing? Was becoming a mom, like, something that you, like, wanted at the time?
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B
I don't know. I. No, I was. I told you, I was outside every day, even with him. Like, I was keeping him a secret. Social media is so nasty. They will try to find out who you're messing with no matter what. There's so many nasty. So, like, I would still go outside and I will have him drive me and pick me up, and I'll be like, okay, like, I look like a little hooker. And I go lie. I'd be like, go drive up and then drop me off right here. I just walked the rest because I didn't want people to know that I was messing with him. Because in Houston especially, one, they like to jump on it, and two, they're very messy. Like, once you say you've messed with that person, they're going to try to go get. I didn't want to say it like that because it's not always the case, but most times, yeah. I don't know what it is about finding out somebody messes with somebody that wants other people to just go after them. That's really weird. I don't know. But I always say, if somebody's going, let them go. Somebody else going to come and they're going to stay, or everything that's meant to be is going to happen. As you've told. I've told my story. Everything that's going to happen is always going to happen. You know, I wasn't thinking about pregnancy and stuff, and I just kept thinking, like, I kept asking was, like, what are we going to do? Like, do you want to have this baby? And, like, ever since that day, he's always been adamant, like, if you want to keep it, we will be parents. And I will be a parent 1,000%. And that brings us to, like, now, let's get away from me learning I was a mom ever since I got pregnant. I wish I was pregnant now. I get. I got treated like a princess. Like, everything that I wanted, I would get. I don't know if it was a hormones or what, but I had a lot of negative things to say about Jesse at the time. And a lot of that stuff had to do with, like, hormones. And I feel like at the time, I just didn't know how to talk about that. I didn't know how. I also didn't have people that were, like, actually talking to me about it and, like, making me feel. Because sometimes the listening, even ear, is a hater, you know what I'm saying? And they don't really care. They just want to know your business to then talk about you. And when I was pregnant or whatever, it took me to see how people truly were towards me and how people truly are towards, like, baby daddies, I want to say, towards their girlfriends to see that I had it real good. Like, Jesse was there every day. Even if we argue, like, we argue about something, like, okay, leave my house. I don't want to talk to you. The next day, it would be a appointment to see the baby. And. And he'll be there, like, unless I didn't tell him or something. And he'll be like, okay, when are we going to the appointment? He never let me go without emotionally. He was there whenever we had our baby. You know, like, that's. They said that that's the hardest stages for parents whenever y' all first give birth to the baby. I never felt alone. And that's something that I'm very grateful for. And even if. Which I hope that me and Jesse will grow old together and travel the world together. Even if not, I will forever be grateful. Grateful for how he treated me when I was pregnant and even after I gave birth, our son Wisdom, like he's obsessed with his dad. Like obsessed. Like we wake up, like I, I literally do like the heavy like work in the mornings. Like in the mornings. Jesse is not a morning person. So Jesse would stay up at night and I'll be stuck with the baby in the morning and as soon as Wisdom wakes up. Dada. Where's Dada? Where's like every day? Like that's just how he is. He's just obsessed with his dad. Obviously he's obsessed with his mom too, but I don't, I don't know what it is. And I love that though, because I'm a very girly girl girl and I rather Wisdom be getting stuff from his dad than from me. You know what I'm saying? Like, cuz I'm, I'm always in my room like doing makeup and like sometimes when I let Wisdom in my room, Wisdom gets to trying to copy me because kids are sponges at this age. And there's nothing wrong with that. Like I already told you my story. Like there's nothing wrong with that. But I'm just grateful to have a,
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A
a father figure that can teach him.
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B
Not even a father figure. I don't even want to say a father figure. I want to say a man that likes to be a father. Because you can be a father figure. That doesn't mean you like to be a father. Jesse genuinely wants to be a father. And that's why I feel like if we get pregnant again, I'm keeping the baby and we're having a daughter. People be like, you just got your body. I don't care. Like if you're like, I'll get it done again if that's yes. Like if God wants me to have more kids and he wants my family to grow, you know, that's like I told you off camera, one of my biggest dreams is that to have a big family and to be able to just be a mom. And I have to worry about nothing. Just being a mom and just being a family, you know, I'm gonna say on this podcast and it's gonna stay on the Internet for forever. I'm so grateful for Jesse as a man. Like, as a father. Some men aren't doing it like that. Men, men are disgusting. I genuinely just love, like I see my friends and I see other people and I give props to people that have that father figure. But it's different when you really see somebody want to be a dad. Like when I was, I'm Gonna go back to, like, the first two days that we had the baby. I was very tired, but I was adamant. Like, I'm not going to sleep because I was breastfeeding at the time. And when you breastfeed, it has to be a certain schedule. And if I got up to feed the baby, he'll be right there. Like, he would not leave me sleep. And then if after I got done breastfeeding, I needed to sleep because I knew I got to feed again, he'll literally stay up the baby and then go to sleep and then wake right back up. He never complained about it. He never made me feel shitty about it. And then even when I was so big, he craved me. Even after I gave birth to the baby, he craved me. Mind you, I was really insecure because I had, like, you said, like, whenever you have a baby, after your pansa drops. And I had that. And I used to be so insecure. The Internet. Oh, the Internet made me feel so shitty, so shitty. And there's such horrible people for that. Because I'll sit there and eat. I love eating. I did. I would sit there and eat. And Jesse will feed me. Like, if he ate, I ate. We ate together, like, every day. We'd eat maybe, like, three times a day. Constant good meals. Not. No, like, little. Like McDonald's. No, I don't even eat McDonald's.
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A
Steak, mashed potatoes. Good food with shrimp.
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B
Like, I'm eating. And I will get seafood boils every week. That's my favorite food. Seafood boils every week. And he would make sure that I had that. You know what I'm saying? And then now, my little boy, wisdom, he eats everything. He doesn't turn down nothing. He's not a picky eater. He's good. He's a healthy boy. Like, I don't know. And I feel like whoever's watching this, you don't have to be a good parent to be a good parent. Being a good parent is literally just showing up every day. If you show up for your child every day, that's being a good parent. You don't have to know how to change a diaper. Everything is going to come once you see it, if that. That makes sense. Like, being a parent is not about, like, knowing no one knows what to do. Like, I. I never would have thought I was gonna be a young mom like I am today. I literally wake up sometimes, like, hungover. I'm like, I really.
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A
How am I gonna do it today?
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B
Yeah, Like, I really have a baby. Like, what's going on? But I show up anyway. Like, even when I'm stressed out, sad about something, you have to show up. That's what being a good parent is, showing up.
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A
Because you're human and you're gonna have bad days, you're gonna have good days. You know, I want to go ahead and talk a little bit more about, you know, the change that the women body goes through that I feel like a lot of people don't talk enough. You know, you're pregnant, you're getting bigger, you're carrying a baby, you're making life within your body, you know, But I'm sure that was a hard time for you, you know, mentally, where you're like, oh, my God, like, my body's changing very rapidly. How do you feel like that affected you? And if anyone is watching that is currently going to through that, what would you want to tell those mommies?
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B
Okay. Especially being on the Internet. It's already hard not being on the Internet, but being on the Internet, it drove me so crazy. It really did. Like, I am type of person that doesn't care, but I care a little. Yeah. And them, like, it was constant because I love being on Live. I love being alive. Because it's like real people saying real stuff right there and then. And you can see what they're saying. You can see, like it's just like more of an interaction. And they would be so much mean. Like, they would just be so nasty about my body. They'll talk about my arms, they'll talk about my chin. Like, they would just. And mind you, these are things that women go through when they get pregnant. Like, it's inevitable. That's how you got here. You're talking. But that's. What. What did your mom look when she was pregnant?
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A
Like, you know, exactly.
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B
I want to say right after I gave birth, like I said, Jesse made me feel like I was so beautiful. Like, he really made me feel like I was that girl. And I was £200. I was. I've never been that big. £200. Mind you, when he met me, I felt like I was already, like, on the thicker side. But 200 pounds is crazy. But it's not because that's. That's normal when you. But because I was on the Internet, they'll say such nasty stuff that'll make me feel like, damn, like, maybe you do look big. So then once I was able to go and I knew that wisdom was fine. Once he was able to, like, okay, I'm gonna go. Y' all stay here. I'm gonna leave him with you. And I've never had to question, like, Jesse being able to do anything as a father. So I was able to go. And I was like, I'm gonna start doing Pilates. And I started doing Pilates. I did Pilates for five months straight. I was eating clean. I'll maybe eat some fried chicken here and there because he'll order or something. But other than that, I was eating so clean and just don't. Grinding, grinding. I'm like, bro, why is my stomach not going down? Like, what's going on? But I was really losing weight. I was looking better, and people were still being nasty. Then everybody was like, oh, you're on Ozempic. You're on this, you're on that. And I was like, okay, bro, at this point, maybe I should just go, damn if I do it. Damn if I don't. Damn if I'm big. Damn if I'm little. Like, you're not gonna say anything Anyway. So then I went to Miami the first time. I don't even know why I went to Miami. Oh, I got my teeth done. No, I love Miami. I always go to Miami. I don't know why I went to Miami this particular time, but I went and Wisdom was like, three months. I took Wisdom with me. Me, Jesse and Wisdom were in Miami having a ball, and I was still a little bit on the bigger side. And that's when I was like, I'm gonna go put the deposit down to. To get my body done. Even if that is what you want to do after you give birth, don't let nobody be in your ear about doing it. One, it's a scary surgery, and two, it's a lot of money.
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A
Yeah.
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B
And three, even if you want to do it, just wait till after your baby's at least one. Like, I don't know. I think that was the biggest thing because I went to go put the deposit, and I could have got the surgery right there. And then, like, some doctors are willing to put your health at risk just because, one, they're money hungry. Three, and two, they're like, oh, she really wanted. She don't care. No, just wait. Spend that one year with your body, with yourself, eating healthy, working out, spending time with your baby, and then see if. Then you want to go and get your body done. Like, your body inevitably is gonna change. People are always saying, especially young girls that don't have babies. They're always like, why would I have a baby in my 20s? And that's fine. Like, you're entitled to your own opinion but at the end of the day, don't put others down that are having kids. Kids or that looked a little different than you, because that's not what you want to do with your life. You know what I'm saying? Like, then there's people that. When I wanted to get my body and, like, when I finally was like, I'm working out, I'm doing all this, they were like, but why do you want to go get your body done? Like, don't go do it. Then they go, turn around and do it, and they don't even have a baby. Like, you know what I'm saying?
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A
Like, or it'd be the same people that are hating are the same people that are.
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B
Why are you doing that?
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A
Well, because y' all were calling me big.
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B
Yes. Like, that's another thing. Your followers or people that support you, if you do social media, when something goes wrong, wrong, they're the same. The people talking stuff are the same. People that are gonna sit there and not do nothing to help you. So it's like, just do it anyway. Just do what you want to do at the end of the day. But as a mom, your body is gonna change. Like, when I was pregnant, I love my boobs. Like, that's something I'm talking about. Y' all see them?
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A
Yeah.
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B
I love. I love them that this is how they look. I was pregnant and I walk around, like, with a bra in my big old belly, and I'll be like, I look good, babe. Like, I'll be. I'll just be filling myself with my big butt. Like, I was £215 right before I gave birth. So this is how they looked. And then I decided, I was like, my baby needs the milk. Because whenever you give birth or whatever, the milk that they. You have, like, not even when you first give birth, but even right before you give birth and you can take it out. It's like medicine to your baby. It brings nutrients. It. It's all the good stuff that your body feeds that when you feed yourself, that you give yourself, but it's giving it to the baby.
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A
Yeah.
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And it's making the immune system better. So I decided I was like, okay, I'm a breastfeed. I breastfed. And they just droop down to my knees.
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A
So you're like, I need to go get them done. Because you recently got surgery, right?
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B
Like this year, I recently did just get it. Two months post op. I've been moving. Like, I'm like six months post up. But that's just how I am. I really got it. So whenever I start working out again, whenever I'm clear, which is actually next week, I can work out to my fullest because I, I'm a very athletic girl. I don't just like to sit around and do nothing. And when I was doing Pilates and really working out, I was really working out. I will get up if at 6 in the morning, change his diaper, put him back to sleep, leave him and his dad at home, and I'll go to Pilates, come back home, he's up and I'm. You know what I'm saying? Like, I had a routine going and that's really why I got surgery. So now when I go to the gym, I can enhance what I already have. It's not necessarily to like go be a scripper. Like people be trying to make it seem like I'm just trying to do this one through two and three. No, it's simply so now when I go to the gym, I'm not, I'm like, okay, like now my stomach's toning up. Now I can get abs. But it's a lot harder when you straight. I'm not saying go get surgery, guys, but it's a lot harder whenever you do it a thousand percent organically versus now. People are still going to be like, I'm gonna work my ass off in the gym and they're gonna be like, she got surgery. It doesn't matter because you went to go get surgery. But at the end of the day, I worked. I'm gonna work hard for it to make it look, look toned. Because originally, regardless of whatever people want to say, I worked out five months prior to surgery, point blank period. I did. And then after that, I've always been a. Not always, but when. Romans college, I was little, but ever since I've been on my own, I've been a thicker girl. My thighs have always been so thick, like always. So there goes cellulite. At the end of the day, it's normal. But that doesn't mean it's nothing that I can't fix and get rid of. You know what I'm saying? If I can improve myself, then I'm gonna do it.
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A
How important do you think, you know, as a mommy and as a first time mommy, you know that, you know, when women get pregnant or have their babies, it's very much like, oh yeah, there's no time for yourself. How important do you think it is for women to still, despite being a mom, still make time for themselves, still make time to get Ready, Feel pretty. Even though you're still seeing for your baby, but you're still prioritizing yourself, how important you do you think that is?
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B
I think it's so important because if you don't feel your best and you're not feeling like you're doing something for yourself, you're going to feel like you can't do something for your child.
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A
Yeah.
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B
Prime example. I told you a story about my mom. I told you I don't think that, oh, she was feeling like this, so she felt like that. So it was okay for her to do this. No, I do feel like because mentally this man was sitting there making her get up at 5 in the morning while still beating on her and drinking every day. It was taking a toll her body to where because she wasn't her best self mentally, I'm not saying it was okay. And I'm still going to always look for that apology within her. I feel like it had a lot to do on why she was abusing us and treating us so poorly and nasty. Mind you, once you see this podcast, she's going to call me a liar. And like that's still her story. You know what I'm saying? And it's just like mentally, she's just off. As a mom, you don't want to be mentally off because then you can't be mentally there for your child. If you're stuck in a toxic relationship relationship and you're constantly feeling like, oh, I'm not getting attention, I'm not getting love, then you're gonna go look, you're gonna go try finding it somewhere else. And then that's. Since you're trying to look for love somewhere else and focus on male attention, you're not going to be there for your baby. That's what I'm saying. Like even being in toxic relationships or somewhere, you don't feel loved, that's also not good because then mentally you can't be there how you need to be for your baby because you're worried about something else. If you feel like you look a mess all the time, you can't, I don't know, know. It makes me feel like whenever your house is clean, you think clear, right? So if my hair is done your last, whatever it is that makes you feel like you're doing something for yourself, do it. Because then it's going to make you think a little more clear when it comes to your baby and making just reasonable decisions. Point blank, period.
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A
And I agree, I agree because I feel like Semira Muncho you know that after women become mothers, you know, it's so easy to let yourself go, you know, because like, now you're consumed with like a whole new life. Especially like first time moms, they don't know, you know, like, what really comes with being a parent. But I'm glad that you're not letting that stop you because like you said, if you feel good, then you can be a great mom to your kids. If you're constantly feeling, you know, in a shitty place, then you're gonna be like, you're gonna reciprocate that, you know,
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B
you're not even gonna know that you're doing it.
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A
Yeah. And it's gonna become so natural. You're just gonna be abusive. Yeah.
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B
And not even that. Like, I know that some people, and I didn't want to sound insensitive, but some people don't have a good support system, so it might seem like it's hard. So whether that is just either asking a friend or even taking your baby with you to go do something, like, don't be ashamed to put other people, like if you're paying a hundred dollars or something to get something done, try to make it to where you can put your baby to sleep or you can have somebody watching for 10 minutes or something. Because at the end of the day, I know some people, people don't have that support system, you know, so it's like, I didn't want to sound insensitive saying that because I got lucky with my support system. You know, my boyfriend's family, it's five women, he was the only child. They all want a piece of my son. Like, like whoever. They all want to just take him and hang out with him. And I'm very grateful for that. So also, I just want to say this. People are often saying, like, oh, why are you always at the club? Why are you doing this? Why you be taking trips? If I can do something to feel like one, I'm being mentally, like, free. So then whenever I get back to my son, I feel, okay, I'm gonna do it. If I'm doing something that I feel like is gonna benefit me. Like, for example, he invited me on this podcast, right? And I physically couldn't bring wisdom. It wasn't like a trip where wisdom could come, but I feel like it was going to give me more exposure and I was gonna meet somebody that I feel like, oh, my God, he's cool. Like, why would I not. I'm gonna go do it. If I feel like this is gonna help me bring wisdom On a trip for a month to Puerto Rico to where you can just be at the beach. I'm gonna do it so people can keep on judging on any type of anything that you do. But at the end of the day, if you know what you're doing is right and you're not out here being shitty to people or making people feel bad, you're cool.
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A
To finish up the topic about motherhood and, you know, being a mom, you know, how do you feel now being able to create your own family now being, you know, almost in charge of like, you know what? Like I. I had this shitty upbringing. Like, I had a mom that I felt like never loved me. I was in and out of the system. Like, I was, you know, always going to, like, different homes. How do you feel now that you're in a place where you're like, you know what? Now it's up to me, like, the type of mom I want to be. Like, I'm creating a family. Is that like a full circle moment for you? Like you finally got your happy ending?
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B
It is, but it's also nerve wracking for me. Like, I know I don't want to sound negative, like responding it to it, but it makes me feel like sometimes if I say something or do something or like I just like panic. Like, Like I just know I don't want to be like this lady. If I pop wisdom or something afterwards, at the time I'd be like, what are you doing, bro? Like, stop. Like, I try to be stern and I think like my being too much, like I think it in my head. I don't say it out loud or anything, but it's like, am I being too much? Like I just have a thing where I don't want to feel like you overthink. No, not overthink. Like, I don't want to become the mom that I had because usually whenever, like they say that you don't want cycle, but you accidentally become the mom. Yeah, it's a very scary thing. But at the end of the day, I feel like I have to be able to know that I can parent my son and discipline him in a way where it's still like, stern. I shouldn't feel like that, but it's so shitty that I do because of my upbringing, you know, like, and I don't want to feel like that. And to answer the question, in general, I feel like it makes me happy knowing that anybody that's ever met my son, he's always there laughing. And it's just like, I don't know what I was as a child, but I know I didn't have much, but I feel like that's how I was as a child. So it makes me feel like maybe I'm seeing, I'm seeing little Daisy through wisdom, you know, like you're healing yourself through your son in a way. In a way I feel like maybe we have like the same personality when I was a kid, but now I get to do it the right way. I get to be able to just watch him grow into a man and then maybe if I have a daughter, I'll be able to really just live that full circle moment. And then I always think to myself, I know like we're just, I'm just talking, but I always think to myself whether me and his dad stay together, which I hope that we get married and grow old and like I said, travel the world. That's what people got to think about. What would be the healthiest way to go about a co parenting situation with my person? Because at the end of the day, the only thing that I care about is making sure that his mental and his upbringing is nothing like mine. It's just positive. Whatever it looks like, I just hope that it looks positive because these are the years that your kids have their core memories and their core memories are important because my core memories, I have a few and they're horrible, you know, So I always think about that like, what are his core memories? Is he going to remember that I threw him this big old party? Like I, I lowkey regret doing it? I threw him this big old party and he didn't even care, you know, so it's just like maybe that didn't work. So it's like what can work next time? So where his core memories are like amazing and when he thinks about mom and dad, he thinks about positive things. I know what he thinks about his dad. I, I just know it. He's going to think about nothing but great things because of how present his dad is, you know what I'm saying?
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A
And I think it is very real what you said earlier where like as a parent, you know, I'm not a parent, but I feel like if I've had a shitty childhood, like you said, you can either go two ways. You can either, you know, continue that cycle and be a shitty parent to like your child or you can be like, you know what? This is my time to get give my son or in the future my daughter everything I wish I would have wanted. You know, it's kind of like healing yourself as well, because you're like, you know, what? If I went through this, I don't want my kids to ever feel the way I felt when I was going through hardships, you know, And I feel like that's the goal. Like you said, being a parent doesn't come with rules. Being a parent doesn't always look perfect, but it's just that mindset of, like, you know what? I want to make sure that my kids is growing in a loving home and feels loved. That's all that matters, you know, which I've been loving this whole interview. You guys, We're gonna go ahead and finish up with a question I love to ask everyone. Where do you see yourself in the next five years? Whether that is, you know, career wise, you know, family wise. Where does Daisy see herself in the next five years?
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B
I'll be old.
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A
Her aunt be 27.
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B
That's.
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A
I'm like, that's old, man. I might be turning 28 in two days.
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B
Ah, Jesse's going to be 35 or 32. Let me see. I see myself married. I feel like by then, I don't want to say I've earned, but I feel like I've mentally been like, okay, I can maybe let somebody love me without sabotaging it. You know, I feel like I'll be married probably like two years married, period.
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A
Not five. Two.
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B
Yeah, two years married. But then I feel like I would have a daughter by then when I. One of my dreams is to at least for one year, travel either the country the whole year, or the world for the whole year and just experience different cultures, because I feel like experiencing one culture is going to limit your mind to no possibilities other than what you see. You know what I'm saying? If you see other people make possibilities out of nothing is going to change your mindset. I also feel like I'll have maybe five businesses, and I've have had invested at least like $500,000 into the same camp that I met Mama Dean. That's one of my dreams. That's always been one of my dreams, like, always. You can ask the director, because I've met her personally. Now, I know money doesn't really sound like much, but if I can have so much money to where I can help other people that needed the help when I. How I needed the help. I want to be able to do that, and I want to be able to do that while still being able to provide and do the things that I want to do with my family. That's literally my. My goal in life. Is to be able to help as many people that I can help to get out of the situation that they're in. And then last but not least, I'd have a quinceanera party. Like, I'll be grown but by the time maybe about 25, because I'd be like 15 again. Like, I never had a quince. I never really had like a big party like that. But maybe by 25 I'll have that party and I'll invite all the people that really genuinely care for me. And then, then last but not least, I'll have three little dogs. Milo will have siblings a I love that. And they'll be well trained.
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A
And all those goals that you have for yourself are going to become reality or even five years. I know you're going to make all those dreams happen. And I'm so happy that we had this conversation. Make sure you guys go ahead and follow her right now. I will leave all her links down below as well as on this so you guys can go ahead and follow her so you guys won't miss any future episodes. And with that being said, thank you so much for being here. Hi guys and thank you guys so much for watching. And we'll see you guys in the next one. Bye, guys.
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B
Bye guys.
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A
You did so good.
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B
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