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Alan Ice
What is up everyone? I'm your host, Alan Ice and this is Noche de Pendejadas, your favorite podcast turned talk show. And on the yo trego atus influencers paraplaticar y PO s. Please help me welcome tonight's guest, Fabio Guerra.
Fabio Guerra
Hello.
Alan Ice
Hello. Have you been. I'm excited to have you back on the show today.
Fabio Guerra
Hey bro, it's a pleasure to be here, boy. Last time I was here was two years ago.
Alan Ice
Two years ago. And it's those mil veintidos amigas. If you guys want the exact date. June 17, 2022.
Fabio Guerra
Oh, that's the exact date.
Alan Ice
The exact date when the video was uploaded. You were a taken man at the time. Yeah, you were barely starting your music. I really did feel like I needed to catch up with you.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, yeah.
Alan Ice
Though he was here two years ago for an interview. You actually opened up in the beginning of this season for the musical performance. Let me just tell you guys something funny. Last week, Fabio was actually supposed to be here. Last week's boutique. I saw Fabio that night and I was like, don't get too drunk, Fabio. And look at who's appointment. Tell me why. After leaving the place party, I was drunk, calling Fabio. Yeah, like, bro, I can't make it.
Fabio Guerra
Bro, I can't make it.
Alan Ice
And he didn't answer. I. I'm sure you were probably already not.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, bro, yeah, I was sacked already, bro.
Alan Ice
Earlier than me. He was like, okay, I need to go to sleep. And he woke up to my text messages. Amigas of me telling him.
Fabio Guerra
Bro, it's been a, it's been a pretty hectic weekend, bro. It's been a lot going on, bro. I feel like, I feel like October is the month with the most parties the whole year, bro.
Alan Ice
I feel like even today, you guys, I had like a four day weekend. The Tanto Pinchas. Well, yeah. Is it the first of the month?
Fabio Guerra
The fourth? Yeah.
Alan Ice
But we're here. But I'm so excited to have you here.
Fabio Guerra
Well, my name is Fabio Guerra. I'm 22 years old, I reside in Los Angeles. I was born and raised in Honduras, came to the US and pursuing the American dream of my family, I ended up moving to la. My family stayed in Denver and I developed a really, really, really, really strong passion for music. And that's what I dedicated myself to do to this day.
Alan Ice
So we're gonna start that I love starting with how was Fabio growing up? Quintanos.
Fabio Guerra
At the beginning, the beginning, beginning of my childhood, that's when like I gained conscience, you know, like the day that you, like, you suddenly start living, you're like, what the. I'm alive. I was in San Pedro Sula in Honduras, which is Central America, a country that is this big. I was living in the Tierra Vivia. My grandma, my grandpa, my tio, my tia, my mom and my dad and my chicken, my pet chicken, Felipe, all in the same house. And it was like a two room house, so it was freaking packed. There's a lot of violence over there in Honduras and it's very dangerous.
Alan Ice
Did you at like a young age, grass, you guys were struggling, like, bro.
Fabio Guerra
I was like, oh, I remember, I remember, I remember, bro, I remember. So at some point I knew that My dad was him, right? At some point, like, I just knew my dad was like suited up every day like driving a sick ass Chevy. Like he had a. Like, bro, like I never, I never really abused that though. Like, I never really like asked for, for hella like my, my dad would just spoil me. But I remember one day, bro, it's so crazy. I remember one day and my. I asked him, I asked my dad if he could buy me a pack of gum and he said, no right now, son. Like we're going through it right now. And I was like, oh, okay. And like I remember from that day on, I never really asked for nothing anymore. And I just saw my parents struggle, bro, because it started getting bad. Like it started getting. My dad is a lawyer, okay? Yeah, my dad's a lawyer. He's graduated lawyer Honduras, no. And used to work for which is like a super big company. He was involved into the whole government politics. I didn't know. I don't know about that, bro. To be honest. I just know he was important. Like he was an important man. He was on the news type that made him pay a really big price, bro. Like, bro, your chiquito in a restaurant, bro. We're just eating with my family and doing it, bro. With guns. And like my dad grabs me, he starts running, we go into a room, he traps me, he breaks a fan, he grabs the tool when he's there on a door. I see like, like crazy.
Alan Ice
Waiting for some to go down. Yes, bro, like crazy, bro.
Fabio Guerra
Andor just started getting crazy, bro. And, and, and there was like a lot of like aviam muchos, altos, tipo, casuals, imuchos get up for him. And where I was at because my dad used to go to a car wash over there. And then they used to get drunk over there with the homies and they watch their cars, whatever. And I would just be there like a. Eating Doritos and drinking orange juices. Like unlimited ones, you know, like puta. One day I eat, bro. They opened the gate for a car. Just one guy is driving. The car is a red truck. He pulls in, he gets into the washing station. There was no one else on the car, just one person. Then all four doors open and four pull out with guns, bro. Oh, and every, like all, everyone to the floor. Hey, bro, my dad, bro. And I'm just there like, like, what.
Alan Ice
Was it like for you as a kid? That scar you? What was that like for you, bro?
Fabio Guerra
Turbulent, bro. Because I'm a kid, like I don't have no power. Like I don't know. I. I can do more than just tell my dad, stop going there. But he still would go, bro. Like, yeah, until. Until that. You know, like, until something like that happened. Because I saw it, bro. Like, I saw my dad with a gun pointed at his head. Like, I see, like, telling him, give me everything. There's this one guy because Juliana locoarnada. And then my dala Julian puta dal el dinero, bro. Like, the fuck are you doing?
Alan Ice
Like.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah.
Alan Ice
And what were you doing at that point?
Fabio Guerra
I was just there. I was kid, bro. Like, I'm like, yeah, bro. Like, I'm just there. Like.
Alan Ice
That'S crazy. You know, growing up. Expectations he has. Growing up, did you feel like you had certain expectations or should have feel because you knew your dad was an important man growing up all the time, bro.
Fabio Guerra
Like, and. And I knew it too. I was always a smart kid, bro. And I was like. I was like a little troll. Like a little clown.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
And my mom would ask me. She would be like, bro, my mom says that when I was little, they asked me a question like. Like, one of those like. Like kids, like, psychiatrist. Like. Like, what were you doing before you got here, Fabio? As a kid, I was like, donde? That's what I said. Little. Yeah, but from little, I said that. But my mom never agreed with it. Like, they were like, no, no, no, no, no. And then. And then I started telling them slowly, like, I don't really like doctors. I don't really. Like, they were like. So then, like, you know what I liked? I like journalism.
Alan Ice
Okay.
Fabio Guerra
I like. More like, I would love to be, like, a news reporter. Like, that's what I like. But then they would say, oh, de jalinero. Always on my dreams, bro. Like, always.
Alan Ice
Like, how would that make you feel as a kid? That I feel like for a lot of Latinos, it almost is unachievable, right? Like, aves uno de Paris, mijo. Very high.
Fabio Guerra
Yes.
Alan Ice
What was that like for you? Like, oh, like, I want to be this momentos.
Fabio Guerra
Well, like. Like, the pressure, it kind of, like, developed over time, right? Because when I was in Honduras, which is when I was 13 and. And younger, I wasn't really thinking about that, right? Like, I wasn't thinking. I was just thinking that my parents were gonna pay for my college as soon as I get out of high school. Like, they're paying for my school, whatever. So, like, I didn't really have to do. But it wasn't until everything that went down went down, and then security started popping, bro. Bro, we used to ask us for live fee. Like, if you don't pay a fee.
Alan Ice
Damn.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, bro.
Alan Ice
Okay, Is that like, normal? Like, crime vibes over there in Honduras.
Fabio Guerra
Is so normal, bro. Like, everyone pays a life fee. Like, if you have a. A good job and you're respected, bro, like, you never really know, but you just know that you don't want to know who the they are.
Alan Ice
You're like, just pay up.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, bro. Here they will go to the gate of the house because they had. I had a gate in the house with like a bunch of like, squares. Go put. Get the envelope. Yeah, the envelope with money inside. Like, gracias.
Alan Ice
She's already developed for years.
Fabio Guerra
She was in ninth grade and I was in seventh grade. Like, she was like, what, like 16 and I was 12. Yeah, right.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
I didn't like her. And then I made it known to the boys in the class and they were like, ah, bro, like, it's like.
Alan Ice
And what would you say in that moment?
Fabio Guerra
And I was like, bro, no, I just don't like her. All the boys, bro, I'm like, bro, like, what I don't like.
Alan Ice
And do they know about that or no?
Fabio Guerra
If I knew that this motherfucker's already, like, bullied me. Like, I don't want to. I don't want to be homies with none of these, bro. I swear, bro.
Alan Ice
Like, so for you, when they told you that news, you were like, you know what?
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, I was like. I was like, you know what? I'm down. We took the decision as a family. Even though I was really young, we really were united, bro. Like, we were really, like, together. And they asked me like, hey, son, I think this is the best for us. What do you think? And I was like, yes, let's do it. Because I would see it, bro. Like, I saw my mom getting, bro, like, from her purse, like, some medicines, bro.
Alan Ice
Like, they would just do it.
Fabio Guerra
Bro. Like, I swear, bro, it's so, so absurd.
Alan Ice
Is it Absur crazy. So you guys make this decision of coming to the United States. What was it like in the early moments? And what were some, like, cultural differences? And what really was the hardest thing for you to adapt to Aqui?
Fabio Guerra
The change wasn't easy, bro. Like, nothing was easy. The leaving over there to Honduras, from Honduras to me wasn't really hard, though. I remember, bro, it's so weird to think about it, but I didn't even cry, bro. Like, I saw my grandma, my grandpa, my cousin, my tio. Everyone lined up like, balling because we're leaving, bro. And I'm just there, like, like, peace. I'm just like, like, literally, like, like my prima ila que la mo. I fucking love her so much, bro. Like, she's fucking balling and I'm just like, consoling her without crying. Like, whatever. That wasn't hard. When I came to the U.S. that's when it started getting hard, bro. As soon as I. As soon as we landed in Denver, that's when I was like, whoa. Right? Whenever I came to the US different plan, and I trip out. I was like, whoa. Like, what is the Spanish? Yeah, and he's from Honduras, but he's like, he's been here for years, right?
Alan Ice
He adapted to the.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, he's. He's from here, you know, he's like. He's like. He's like. Like, that's what I. That's what it sounded like to me, right? Yeah, it's like, whoa, bro. Like, no mamas. I don't know when to use no mames or the simplest words, bro. That was the first struggle, like, the first challenge. Like, whoa. Like, if I speak Spanish to these people, it's not the same Spanish as me. I hope I find onduranos here so that I could, like, use my.
Alan Ice
My vocabulary.
Fabio Guerra
Like, I never really grew up with them. I kind of met them when I came to the U.S. they have been here for 30 years. So like, so they correcto, correcto, correcto. That was like a. Like a very shocking. Culturally very shocking, right? That was one of. One of the challenges, like, to try to fit in with my own kind. It was kind of like. It was kind of scary. It was kind of like, challenging. And the biggest challenge, bro, was adapting to the actual culture. Like, I'm in the US, bro. Like, this is the gringos country. Like, they speak English here. Like, no said na men. Like, can I number one type shit? You're like, what? Number one what?
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Fabio Guerra
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Alan Ice
Right, Bob?
Fabio Guerra
Yes. And it gets messy and we are not afraid to be wrong. So please join us over here at silverbriery. Available anywhere you get your podcast. You can listen and subscribe for free. For free, honey. I see, bro, like consistently everywhere I would go, bro. Like, bro, that, that was so stressful, bro, because I had to be there with my phone like, like looking it up while I'm in the, while I'm in line to. At the donut shop or whatever. Like, can I have a donut of chocolate? Like, what again? Yes, bro. But like, I had to, like, I had to pull through and I like, can I have a chocolate donut and a coffee, please? Oh, yes, yes, yes. Oh, hell yeah. She understood. Like, put on my head. That was one that started before it got worse because then I started going to high school. Yeah, if we're gonna put holy. Going to high school was so crazy, bro.
Alan Ice
Do you remember the first day?
Fabio Guerra
Yes, bro. I remember I went to freshman academy, like before going to the actual days of high school. Went to freshman academy. And when I pulled up, I saw everyone. Everyone looked Hispanic. Everyone was Mexican, right? Like, all the Hispanics in the area, they were all Mexican and, and Latino. So it's like, oh, hell yeah. Like what? Yeah, hey, a little bit, bro. Because they look like, they look like they speak Spanish, bro. But you talk to them like they're.
Alan Ice
You Know majority of their life they were.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, yeah. Me and me thinking oh this probably came from Mexico too. No, they grew up here. They like they speak more English than Spanish. Like they don't owe me no Spanish, bro. And so that me up a lot, bro. Because this literally looks like a cactus and he don't even say nothing in Spanish. You know, it's like whoa. Like so shocking, bro. Like crazy. And okay. And then on Freshman academy, like Freshman academy was a couple of weeks from the first day. And then during those two weeks I was, I was waiting like when am I gonna get my uniform? Like when am I gonna get my, my uniform for the school? There's no uniforms. Everyone dresses how they want. I used to have a. I would think that it was going to be like a sick ass gringo uniform. Like I see with like right Jody. Oh shit. Like I don't know like what my uniform is. Just go with normal clothes.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
Put up with my, with the highest drip I had, bro. Bro, I pulled up with with a pair of Champion Roshis. Those are the shoes I had. Like I had Champion Roshi's. I had this brand called Avias. I had some Crocs bro, that looked like Converse.
Alan Ice
And keep in mind you guys and E Tempo Champion wasn't as big as it was now. I think at the time was at Walmart.
Fabio Guerra
Yes.
Alan Ice
Champions used to be Walmart and Payless.
Fabio Guerra
I got on my Payless. Yeah. And so the first days of school I pulled up with those brands, right? And like Nayanda.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
Yes.
Alan Ice
Yeah, yeah.
Fabio Guerra
Like I went with like a pair of like, of like this material but shorts and they were red and a fucking gray shirt and brown Crocs with white socks.
Alan Ice
Oh shit.
Fabio Guerra
Mahe. Like I came into the first group of kids, they were like what are those? And I'm just like, I don't know what the they're saying until like until like later I started like oh, what are those? It's a meme. Memes. It's like oh, what are those? And then I started noticing what they would wear. Everyone, bro, same outfit, all white Air forces, saggy jeans.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
White T shirts and chains that are.
Alan Ice
Like what was that like for you? Did you feel like instantly you're like oh my God, I have to change my wardrobe to fit in or what was that like for you?
Fabio Guerra
I wish I could. I wanted to. I wish I could. I wish I could have what they have. But I'm coming from, from Honduras immigrating, bro. Like, like before leaving Honduras completely, bro. Like, like like, yeah, bro. Like, we were struggling to pay my. The lament. Like, my mom didn't have enough. She started, like, getting into debt a lot, a lot of debt. With credit cards, asking for prestamos pinche, bro. Puta mimami, brochata. We were living in my Tio Manuel's house for like three months.
Alan Ice
And for your parents, like, did you guys struggle a lot growing up?
Fabio Guerra
I remember, bro, I tripped out, bro, because I was used to seeing my dad with a suit.
Alan Ice
Yeah, right.
Fabio Guerra
And with a sick ass watch and sick ass shoes. Yeah, I see like a bien rasulao, like tomando whiskey tol dia.
Alan Ice
Like lvb.
Fabio Guerra
You know, bro, like, you know, like the people that open up the doors for here in the us, Bro, they were very welcoming, very charming, very happy, very open, very understanding. And that helped us, bro. Like, that helped us a lot to see how much mental backup I had from the people that were receiving us here. But still, it was tough from seeing my dad with his titles and my mom being in college and all of this and bro, and then to coming home, like.
Alan Ice
Whatever you had to do to get bro.
Fabio Guerra
Because.
Alan Ice
Because, you know, like, not the press.
Fabio Guerra
No, no, no. You gotta go work, you gotta make.
Alan Ice
Money, which is crazy.
Fabio Guerra
Yes, bro. Crazy, bro. Crazy, Crazy, crazy, crazy. But I never, never, never, like, I never felt like less. I always felt like more. Yeah, I was like, if they knew.
Alan Ice
What was your mentality like growing up, you know, bien mente, you tell us que vesa to papa going from being an avogado alien, bien respectado. And then seeing them come over here and you see them struggle, you know, doing things that, you know, Ayala Mejor and Honduras Nun Cavieran. Did that put you in a mindset of like, you know what?
Fabio Guerra
Like 100, bro. 100. I never felt like les, though, I swear, bro. Because even. Even with. With my dad's position had changed that drastically, bro, I will still see my dad being so well spoken, and he would have topic of conversation with whoever, bro. And no matter who, bro, like, my dad knows everything, bro. Like, he knows so much. Like, he's so smart. So I would always see that. And I'm like, yeah, you know? And I would see that and I'd be like, puta. Like, Joe, Joe, like, with that entitlement, you know, like, oh, like, I need to be the one that puts up for the family. But I did have like a. Like, I knew that I didn't want to be what he was. What he was. I didn't want to be a Lawyer. And I didn't want to be a doctor. And I know that they left Honduras literally because they couldn't afford to keep paying my education so that I could come here and have education.
Alan Ice
Did your dreams in that moment change?
Fabio Guerra
Yes.
Alan Ice
Because you're like, fudge. That seems so far off. I need to get something. Need to think about something else that can get us out of this. Or what was that mindset?
Fabio Guerra
To be honest, there wasn't. There wasn't really a lot of like, Like. Like, actual pressure when I was going to high school because high school was so easy, bro. Like, oh, my God, bro. Like, I cannot believe over here in high school struggle, bro. Like, if you're in high school right now and you have Fs, puta, bro. Like, bro, get out. Like, if you're getting Fs right now, that means you don't give a about from school, bro. So do something else, bro. Because school is the easiest over ever, bro. Over here, right? Like, puta, bro. That is hard. Hard as. So hard. And then I come. Then I see the system, and I'm like, yo, this is mid. Like, this is ass. So during high school, I didn't really feel any pressure. It was the same thing as. As when I was little. Like, high school.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
It wasn't until the moment for how your life changed. Yeah.
Alan Ice
Where you're like, you know what? Maybe this dream doesn't seem too far.
Fabio Guerra
Claro.
Alan Ice
You know.
Fabio Guerra
Like, you know, obviously high school. I remember I. I saw an interview of this one rapper. I forgot his name, that he said that he recorded his first song on an iPhone on the headphones. I was like, okay, bet you're like.
Alan Ice
I have these headphones.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah. The same ones that he was talking about. And then I plugged them and I made my first song. I was like, whoa, it's so fire. And then I showed my. My homie. His name was Carlo. He's like. He's like, no, mama way. You did this? You wrote this? Yes, bro.
Alan Ice
So in school, you known more of, like, the singer. I don't know if you guys have ever seen in lunch. Was that you in high school, too?
Fabio Guerra
In high school?
Alan Ice
So you wouldn't put out shows? How you put out shows now in every part.
Fabio Guerra
No, no, no, no, no. But I wouldn't. I wouldn't, bro. No, bro, no. Because I was still very, like, foreign, bro. Like, bro, in high school, bro. Like the foreign kid. The. You know, So I was, like, very marginalized in a way, you know, I was like, very put to the side. And. And I was. I was popular, right. Because of that, but not because I was cool, you know?
Alan Ice
How did that make you feel? Did you almost ever feel at any point in your high school years that you felt like you kind of had to hide who Fabio truly was to kind of fit in with these kids?
Fabio Guerra
Of course, bro. I lied about where, bro. I said that I was from Spain.
Alan Ice
I remember. Yeah, Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
I had to say I was from Madrid because whenever I would say I was from Honduras, they'll be like, ah, oh, no, no, I'm from Madrid, though. It's like, oh, swear. So you like Real Madrid? You with Cristiano Ronaldo? I was like, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, that's my homie. Yeah.
Alan Ice
So then you started playing soccer? I mean, in high school.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, you know, like, it, like, you know, like, bro, it didn't start till like, 11th grade, bro. And I really like rapping and freestyling. And I remember. Come here, freestyle. I'll give you a word. Whatever the.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
And then. And they would cheer him up, but they would laugh, like, laughing.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
It's not until I got out of high school that I noticed. I'm like, oh, bro, they were just laughing.
Alan Ice
They're trolling.
Fabio Guerra
They were trolling me. They did not believe. They did not believe in me. Nobody did, bro. No one did. Like, I know. I. I don't know. No one in high school that believed in me, bro. Except my homie Carlos and my homie Kevin. It's one of those, like, only those two, bro. Then everyone else, bro. They would hear the songs. They would, like, every time they would talk to me, they would reference them as. As. As a joke. Not as in like, serious. Like, you know. And to me, I sounded so fire, bro. And I was so excited to keep going, bro. I remember I thought he was my homie. And I remember I was showing him a song one time and I literally, bro, showing him a song this really said be like, bro, that sucks. Honestly, quit.
Alan Ice
And that was like your hardest work, like, your proudest.
Fabio Guerra
Yes. Like, so deep against the government and against, like, the system and like. And I showed him, and he's like. He's like, bro, that sucks. Honestly, bro, stop.
Alan Ice
What happened in that moment for you?
Fabio Guerra
I was like. I was like. I was like, you don't like it, bro. It's like, nah, bro, that is ass. Hi, bald.
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Fabio Guerra
It's like, like, damn, bro, I really thought it was good.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
And he's like, nah, bro, honestly, quit. Like the. That's the only hater I've ever met in my life, bro.
Alan Ice
He told you straight up?
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, like, straight up. Like that.
Alan Ice
Did that make you ever, like, think about it? Like, oh, maybe I should quit?
Fabio Guerra
Of course. But then I saw this, like.
Alan Ice
Yeah, you should quit.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, like, you should quit. Like, he was literally like, the. Where's my hug at, bro?
Alan Ice
Okay, okay.
Fabio Guerra
And telling me like, that I'm ass in my music. It's like, like, you know, like Alejandro, all the boys that. With me, like, in front of me on my face, like, they would be talking the most behind my back, bro. And I know that and I know it, and I sensed it, but whatever my head, like, it's.
Alan Ice
Did anyone ever try to start, like, problemas physically? Like, did you ever get in a fight in high school?
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, yeah. And physical education, bro. And I lost. And then this was like, you're a. And I was like, what? I pushed him like, you're a bitch. And then he punched me in the face and I was like, fucking 80s. Like, pijaso, bro. Like, then the teacher got in between. And then we got sent home and he had a cast.
Alan Ice
What was it like when you got home? Like, did your parents stay?
Fabio Guerra
Oh, no, no, no, no. My dad was like. My dad was going crazy at the teachers. The is up with y'all. Like, is up with the system. Yeah, yeah, yeah. And my dad cussing out the teacher. Like.
Alan Ice
What was it like after?
Fabio Guerra
I'm sorry.
Alan Ice
I'm sorry.
Fabio Guerra
Sorry, bro. Yeah, bro. It's like, okay, bro, that's good, bro. You're gonna pinch your cast or whatever. But, you know, lesson learned, bro.
Alan Ice
You know, was there any, like, struggles mentally or actual physical struggles that you went through, you know, that maybe people don't know about that you feel like, oh, like, I can't believe I went through that.
Fabio Guerra
Well, I do have a problem, bro. And to this day that I'm still trying to work on, bro.
Alan Ice
How many did you date in high school?
Fabio Guerra
Didn't date, but my crushes, you know, my. My things, you know, like, that's what. That's what feeds me, like, seeing that I'm treating her good and that she feels good.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
You know, I don't know. I don't know more than that. But, like, I don't know. I don't know nothing else than loving fully.
Alan Ice
So what was like, your first heartbreak in high school? Did you have a point in high school where you're like, oh, I think I was really feeling this girl?
Fabio Guerra
Did I play you? Which one hurt you the most? Like, now that I think back of her, like, I'm imagining me in that moment, thinking. Thinking what I felt, right? Like, feeling what I felt like, puta. Like, so I forgot who told her that I had a crush on her. Into what I found out that she had said, like, oh, yeah, he's. He's handsome too. Oh, my God, yes, bro. In my. The way that I would express my feelings, bro, it has never been. What fits with the generation, bro, because I'm very comoted.
Alan Ice
Or play me.
Fabio Guerra
Take my virginity type. Like, please.
Alan Ice
Was that, like, your first time?
Fabio Guerra
Oh, okay. It was like a. It was like a. Like we. We still had a really good friendship. Because, bro, I swear, bro, everyone likes to be friends with me, bro. Like. Like amigo. Like, intimo. Like, you know, like, you know what you do today. Whatever the. Just give me a kiss. Be like, no.
Alan Ice
Hella hard to get.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, yeah, but, like, hella hard to get, but. But she always said. She always said to me that she didn't want to break my heart because she knew what she was up to. Like, she knew what she liked to do with guys, and she knew that I was different. And so she never let me continue. Guess what, like, what David put them. I'm name dropping all these right here. I hope. I hope y'all don't. Damn. Sorry.
Alan Ice
Just don't out yourself out.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, don't say you're that. There's a million Davids.
Alan Ice
Yeah, don't say you're that David.
Fabio Guerra
I love you guys, bro, but this is just like looking back in time, bro. Like, this don't matter no more. But I remember she called me. She told me. I kicked it with them. Like, he's like, swear. I'm like, my heart dropped. Yeah. And then what happened? Be like, oh, f. I don't know what happened. Did you guys kiss? I was ready to, like, feel the kiss. I feel the stab of the. Yeah. Like, no, we. It's like, no way.
Alan Ice
You're like, I've been trying this time. Oh, what did you say in that moment?
Fabio Guerra
I was like, swear.
Alan Ice
How was it?
Fabio Guerra
No way.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
I saw fire.
Alan Ice
Like, trying to not act heartbroken, obviously. Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
He may say yes. How did it happen? He just pulled over, just kicking it. We started kissing, and we made out, and we. We just swear.
Alan Ice
You're like, swear to God.
Fabio Guerra
Bro. That's a misconception that people have. Like, I, bro. Like.
Alan Ice
Multiple times. Oh, me. That's crazy. You kind of, like, laid off of her or what? Like.
Fabio Guerra
Some. Like, some, bro. What did she say? Like, I was just. I just started distancing myself. I was like, wow. Like, I need to know my worth, bro.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
Can't be chasing a girl that doesn't want nothing with me, knowing that I want everything with her.
Alan Ice
Growing up, how was your relationship with your parents? Do you feel like you were more of a daddy's boy, a mommy's boy that can really, really, like, tell us and show us how your relationship with your parents was growing up?
Fabio Guerra
I feel like growing up, it was very seasonal because not. Not seasonal. It was very 50. 50. Like, one day mama's boy, one day daddy's boy. I. I was really close to both of them. I learned a lot from both of them, bro. Like, my. My family, my mom and my daughter are very, very, very people of principles, you know? Like, and always gave me advice that. That made sense at that age, you know? Like, they, like, I. I always understood everything that they wanted, and I was very close to both of them. And I don't know. I don't have anything specific to say about neither of. Of what. Of what they told me ever. But I just know that to this day, bro, my aspiration of. Of a man is to be as half of what my dad is or, like, I want to be like my dad. And every time I'm at a party, bro, Holding a beer, I feel like my dad. And every time I make people laugh, and every time I'm. I'm, like, shining in between people, I think of my dad, and I'm like, bro, is this. Is this him? Is this not me? Like, he's the one that. That got me this Personality like my dad. My hero, bro. Like, no say, bro. Like, me and my dad and me and my mom are very close, bro.
Alan Ice
Do you feel like growing up, do you feel like they understood who you really were? Or do you feel like kind of keep things from them because you knew that they wouldn't understand you if. So.
Fabio Guerra
My parents, bro, were very strict, and they got strict as when we came to the US to the point that I couldn't do nothing of. Of what the normal kids would do over here, bro. At all. No. Like, who's gonna pick you up? Who were the parents? Like, bro, like, you think, like, I have to introduce to their parents for him to take me to McDonald's, bro, you know? Yeah, but that's how it was, bro. No matter how I live, bro, they wanted me to. To have the best grades, which I did. Yeah, it wasn't even that hard. But they swore that. That I was so smart and so this. And like, I'm like, not really. Like, it's just easy as over here, bro. Like, full ride. Like, I got a full ride scholarship, bro, for the Metropolitan State University in Denver, bro. Like.
Alan Ice
So you went to college?
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, I went to college for a year.
Alan Ice
How was that?
Fabio Guerra
Fire, bro. It was fire. Like, looking back at it, like, I wish I still learned. Like, I wish I still went to classes to learn. I love. I love learning, bro. Like, I love learning. The only thing that was me up and in college is that that's not what I wanted to do in that moment, bro. Because I was so into, bro. No way. I'm 18. I gotta attempt music. I gotta attempt going famous. That's my dream.
Alan Ice
Yeah, that's what I wanted. Doing the vlogs with your ex at the time.
Fabio Guerra
Yes, yes, yes. But when I was in college, like.
Alan Ice
Oh, I'm getting attention, bro.
Fabio Guerra
Bro, it was crazy. Like, there was like, those were the first days that I was. That I started to. To get attention, bro, in college. Because I remember, bro, one time we were at the Starbucks in college, and they had a field trip from, like, high schoolers. My head, like, out of the. Out of all the field trip, probably, like, no, say, like five kids or 10 kids knew us or something. But since they were in a big group, all those kids that knew us came. So the whole school came, and the Starbucks was packed. There was like 200 kids, bro. Like, and now. And it was just me and my homie Carlos, like, because we went to college. I was in high school still. Starbucks general, bro. Like, the whole Starbucks packed my head. And I'M going to college and I'm studying political sciences. I hated that, bro. Like, I hated that, bro. But my dad wanted me to be a lawyer so bad.
Alan Ice
So you're like, it.
Fabio Guerra
I had to be. I had to study political sciences because my dad would be, like, so proud. But then I started seeing this. But, like, this attention, like, yesterday. Like, wow, see, Obio photo.
Alan Ice
Like, that's when it sinked in.
Fabio Guerra
Like, whoa. And then after that, my reputation around the college grew because they're like, bro, do y'all see that crowd over there at Starbucks? They're like, yeah. What was that, bro? Is that kid Fabio from online? Yeah, from. From tick tock. From YouTube, whatever that. Whatever they said, it's that kid Fabio. Like, yeah. And then I started, bro, and I started just getting attention. Like, I just started getting noticed. Like, people would ask me for pictures. I would be sitting, literally doing my homework. Fabio, can I take a picture with you? I'll be like, yeah, of course. And then that's when I started bugging my parents even more and more. Even before I went to college, I would bug them. I don't want to go to college.
Alan Ice
What was the reaction when you finally were like, you know what? Mom and dad for myself.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah.
Alan Ice
What was it like when you finally told him.
Fabio Guerra
Oh, no, that's local. You swear? Hell no.
Alan Ice
Get your ass back to school.
Fabio Guerra
Get your ass back to school. Okay, okay, mommy. Like, always giving me motivation to, like, do both.
Alan Ice
But, like, I knew that I focus on this. Yes. Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
But I. I know that I couldn't turn myself fully to right to what I wanted to do because college took a lot of time, bro. Like, 20 page essays of I don't give a about, bro. Sitting down in a political science class. I see, bro.
Alan Ice
Like, you're like, I don't know what the I'm writing.
Fabio Guerra
I see. I see, bro. Like, literally in classes, like, I see, bro. I see, bro. Yeah, that was my experience in college, bro. Looking back at it, I'm like, ah, school is beautiful, bro. Like, I love. I love that.
Alan Ice
Right?
Fabio Guerra
But in that moment, that was not my headspace, bro. Like, I needed to make music. And I told them so many times, please stop. Like.
Alan Ice
You were starting to see the bigger picture.
Fabio Guerra
Yes, bro. Like, I remember I paid 50 bucks for the beat. I dropped it. And then the first month, they're like a thousand two hundred or something like that. My first, like, one of my first songs that got paid.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
I wonder, like, if. I wonder if they thought that those a thousand two hundred was the Equal from all the time that I've been talking to them about it.
Alan Ice
Yeah, but it was really, like, just that one song.
Fabio Guerra
That's our one song. Like, you know, like, they. They probably thought that I've been saving this or something, you know? But it was. It was pretty quick. Like, it was like, oh, like I dropped the song. And then in a month, like, I never got paid.
Alan Ice
And you only paid 50 bucks to.
Fabio Guerra
Make it to the beat. Yeah.
Alan Ice
That's crazy. What was it like, you know? Okay.
Fabio Guerra
That's what kept on, like, feeding my ego onto, like, not be scared of telling my parents, like, I don't want to go to school because my parents were scary, bro. My parents were. My parents were really strict, bro. In high school, one time, bro, I pulled up with a design on my haircut, bro. Bro, I remember I came. I was so excited. I was like, oh, the sick ass fade. I was like. Because the transition from lawyer to this and all that was taking a toll. Yeah. He was struggling mentally. So, like, like. And I'm like. I'm like. He looks at me like. He's like.
Alan Ice
Your mom.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, my mom and my mom, like, keep us. And I'm like. I'm like. I'm like. And I'm like. I'm like a heartbeat.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
I remember. But he took him. He took me to the room, and he pointed at me, like, in the face. I see like, Serkita. Like.
Alan Ice
Did you take it off?
Fabio Guerra
No, bro. I'm taking middle school. I was just quiet. Like, we get to the school, you're like, yeah. I'm like, no, nothing on that. Remember that day, he put. He. He put like, $3 of gas taking me to school. Like, there would be a lot of. There would be a lot of mornings like that. Like, we will go to the gas station and put $4,5 bucks of gas.
Alan Ice
Just to get to wherever the.
Fabio Guerra
Just to get. Yeah, yeah. To work and back. Like, say, like $6, $7 here. Gracias. I'm like. And just look at him. I'm like.
Alan Ice
At least he, like, knew his wrongs.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah.
Alan Ice
You know what I mean? At least he accepted. Even if it's a day like, I feel like all parents.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah. Okay. I was a disappointment to the family that. That I'm becoming dazed that I'm turning into a vago, that I'm afraid that I look like a pand. Like, yeah, bro. Like, that's the type of parents that I had. So telling them that I didn't want to go to college was a challenge consistently. Like, But I never gave up. I kept on telling him, like, I don't want it. I don't want this. At first they would. Right at first. Like, for the amount of times that I mentioned it to them, they started piping down. So like, every time I would say it again, different answer. Like, you know, they hit me up one time for a sound promo for. For a song the Becky G May hit. Okay, man, I had a 400 for a tick tock and then I did it and then I started selling, selling it to my parents. I'm like, look, mom, I made 400 in 15 seconds. Because the tick tock was 15 seconds. That kind of kept on feeding their head, right? Like, oh, like maybe he is right. Whatever. I kept on doing my thing while at the same time telling them that I wanted to make music. I kept going to college and. And all that time they, they started allowing more and more. More things, you know, like slowly, slowly, slowly. Like, like they let me pierce my ears. I bought my own car.
Alan Ice
Bro.
Fabio Guerra
My parents, I would be at pa's house at 6pm, cuss the out. Like.
Alan Ice
Oh.
Fabio Guerra
That'S what they wanted. Just for me to be home. Whatever, bro. All of that went through a process. Even Dito Dios. I don't know how to say.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
All the school shut down. Remember? Everything went online. And since everything went online, I started telling my parents.
Alan Ice
It's hard.
Fabio Guerra
That's just hard. Like, I wanna. I love school. I love school, mom in person. But in person, I can't do this. I feel like I'm wasting my time. Be like, yeah, right, okay. I'm like.
Alan Ice
That'S all I need.
Fabio Guerra
That's all I need. Like, I just. Just give me that after a year is up and like, you're not gonna want me to go back. Like, you're. You are not gonna want me to go back. You're gonna see. Yeah, because I believed in me, bro. Bro. And don't say porfine. Buy the full ride.
Alan Ice
Like, how was that?
Fabio Guerra
Letting go. Letting go of a full ride, bro. Like, I just didn't go back. Yeah, I just went for a year.
Alan Ice
Did that hurt you at that moment? Being like, oh, like, I really do have a full ride. This costs.
Fabio Guerra
Nah, I didn't. I didn't give a. Bro. I didn't give a. Because if I needed to get another scholarship, I could. Yeah, because look at my grades then you have 3.8 GPA then. Yeah, like, you know, like, I had good references from all the teachers. I did my AP classes. I was good as as soccer, like.
Alan Ice
You had a lot going on.
Fabio Guerra
Yes.
Alan Ice
I'll be at top again.
Fabio Guerra
And if I, and if I can't come to the Metropolitan State University, then I'll go to the community college like a year later.
Alan Ice
Were you doing good already? When you're, when that year of time frame came by where your parents like, okay, what was that like? Did you really think about that one year where you're like, oh my God, my year is coming up. Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
Oh, no, bro, it was, it was fire, bro. Like, like, oh my God, bro, that year was the best year because that's when like Kobe was, was hidden, right? And everyone was home.
Alan Ice
So then they were consuming all this content, bro.
Fabio Guerra
Oh my God, bro. I posted my first tick tock during the pandemic. I posted it and then I woke up and it had 70, 000 views. Oh, for your first video, right?
Alan Ice
Yeah, like zero followers at the time.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, like woke up with like a thousand, two thousand followers, Something like that. What the. Yeah, it was like, it was a skit, bro. You see me, how I am, bro?
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
Can you imagine, like, can you imagine this, this guy, but 17, 18, like younger, like, like more free, like more no guidance. Like he's just grabbing a phone and doing something. I remember the, the first skit, bro. Like, I was just scrolling on tick tock for the first time and I see like the type of content that I would get. I told Powder stuff her ass with some pillows and then film me right here. And I open the door and I do my eyes like that. Then I focus on her ass, I zoom it and then I go like this and I slap it. It goes viral. Like, I just, I just knew like what, I just knew like a piece of content. Like, I just knew what to, what to do, bro. No sepa. And it was so easy, bro. Like fascilia. I was like, ah, bro, this is bots. I, I, it got to the point that I thought it wasn't real, bro. The first week on TikTok, like 50k followers, I was like, it's just easy, bro. Like, like, I'm not famous, bro. Like, there's, there's no way these are real people. This is a stupid.
Alan Ice
We see that number and we're sometimes like, well, that's just a number.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah.
Alan Ice
Realize that that's a person. 50, 000 people is a lot.
Fabio Guerra
I thought it was bots. Yeah, I didn't think it was real people. I thought it was like, like, like tick tock algorithm. Like, like fake numbers. Like, like a video Game. I thought it was ca. 50k followers in a week. Or. Or there's no way. I just went viral by saying some stupid. Like, you know what I would do, bro? For my skits, a lot, I would translate the jokes that I knew in Spanish into English.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
So, like, I would just do those same jokes, but in English.
Alan Ice
And at the time, was your accent very strong?
Fabio Guerra
Yeah.
Alan Ice
So you knew that that was gonna cause, like, people to stop.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah. Where you from? I didn't. I didn't even watch Tick Tock myself.
Alan Ice
Yeah, you just created.
Fabio Guerra
I was just creative because. Because I wasn't really a content creator, bro. Like, I was a musician. I like to listen to music and I like to write lyrics and do rap. And this was very new to me. And I had no idea that it was so Easy to get 70k views in a video. So I just didn't take it serious, you know, it was. Whatever. It wasn't until we kept on going, right? Right. Then we opened a YouTube channel together with Pal, and the first video that we posted got a million views.
Alan Ice
Oh, the first one.
Fabio Guerra
The first video on YouTube. A million views. And I was like, wait, a million views on YouTube is not easy, though.
Alan Ice
Yeah, no, that's what I'm saying. That's crazy.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, that's like, for the first video. That's not easy. These are not bots. Then that's when I was like, oh, these are not bots. No, there's no way this translated into this.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
Like, whoa. We just kept on doing Tick Tocks, bro. Metro piece of shit. You got an Android. Well, at least I don't have a dad. I have a dad. Whatever the. That TikTok. 7.6 million likes on Tick Tock. On Tick Tock, bro. I got like a million followers in, like, two days. I went from like 200K to, like 1.2 million.
Alan Ice
What?
Fabio Guerra
In, like, two days?
Alan Ice
Was that, like, crazy for you, bro? It was.
Fabio Guerra
It was crazy and it still felt fake. This is not real, bro. Like, I'm just. I'm. I. I wasn't confident on him that I was him. Yeah. But I. But.
Alan Ice
But it was certainly.
Fabio Guerra
I want him like, whoa. Like, oh.
Alan Ice
Like.
Fabio Guerra
No fire. Like, I did not miss bro at all. Like, like every tik tok that I. That I did. Viral. Viral, viral, viral.
Alan Ice
You're like, oh, this is real.
Fabio Guerra
Wow. Like, there is no way. There is no way, bro. Like, I'm living. I'm making a living off of this. And then Covid hit for real, bro. Like.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
My whole family Was here with my mom, my dad, my brother, my grandma, my grandpa and Denver.
Alan Ice
They were scared.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah. And my dad like, my dad like, like looking at the window, like total dramatically, you know, in. My mom put a mask on and I went to Walmart and I got like six bottles of Mucinex. I got my grandpa like a finger scanner for his, for his bread, for whatever the. It was trending to get one for viejitos. And Covid, I got one of those, like an inhaler, like a oxygen diapers, you know, in case.
Alan Ice
That was an expensive ass. Walmart.
Fabio Guerra
Yes, bro. Like, and I'm like the pizza from Little Scissors. And then they call everyone like, all the bottles of Mucinex, all the medicine, all the food. And my dad starts crying too. My, like, my grandma, my grandpa, like, I feel like a hero.
Alan Ice
You're like, I saved the day today.
Fabio Guerra
Yes, bro. Like I said, I. I did, bro. Like.
Alan Ice
I feel like that's how it always is. I first started doing social media.
Fabio Guerra
Like, like, you know, like it's sunk in like most people's minds now. They understand, oh, it's because there's ads, it's because there's companies, it's because they pay the ads and whatever the views. Like, you know, it does make sense that they get paid for these views. But los muertos fros, you only know until you go and like, like put a hand on it that you know that it's real. Exactly. So it's understandable, bro. Like, like, I look back at it, I don't blame my parents for not believing in me until they saw the proof, right? So, bro, like, thankfully, bro, I never went back to college.
Alan Ice
They, you know, you come to LA now, you know, you guys have a little hiccups, you know, with the content house. Los Angeles, what was that like for you? Los Angeles? Was it hard to adapt? And if so, what was the hardest thing to adapt to? The LA life, bro.
Fabio Guerra
Just living without my parents, bro. And like, I didn't know. I was a kid, bro. I moved out of 17. Like the first time I moved out to The Conte was 17. Then I came back and then we came back and I was 18, right? But still, bro, 18, like, I, I didn't, I didn't know what it was, bro. Like, it was like really, like up to me now. Yeah, up to me. And pal, like, whatever we wanted to do, we were going to do it.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
And we were doing good. Like, we were doing amazing. Like, all the videos were doing good. Like, every. Everything was doing amazing. But it wasn't. It wasn't really about the content. It was more, like, about, like, oh, like, yeah.
Alan Ice
Like, yeah, no one.
Fabio Guerra
Like, yeah, like snow. Videographer David, Jocelyn, Samantha, Devin. Like, I landed in that circle, right? But they were, like, very recent. Like, I. Those were my friends in the moment, but they were the same age as me, bro.
Alan Ice
Like, you guys still trying to figure it out?
Fabio Guerra
Yes, bro. Like. Like, wow. Like, put on my head. This is your house. Yeah, exactly. Like, you know, still, bro. Yeah, you know, like, I was like. That was, like, very, like, whoa, bro. Like, I'm alone. We'll talk to my parents every day. And my parents were like, bro, me and my family are, like, very, like, very, very, very tight, bro. There wasn't one phone call that I could talk to my mom without her starting to cry.
Alan Ice
Did you ever feel like, you know what? I think I want to go back home? Or did you ever be like, yeah, what? I'm here for a reason and I'm gonna do this?
Fabio Guerra
I always thought that, like, in my head, said I never manifested it, though. Like, I never took action. I never did. I never even said a word.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
And when my. When my mom would tell me and my dad would tell me, like, bro, all I wanted to say, bro, was yes, please, because, bro, living over here, like, wasn't easy for. For me and Paul, bro. Like, we were young, too. That caused a lot of arguments, a lot of headaches, a lot of fevers, you know, like. Like, because we're so young, we don't know what the we're doing. And so it sounded so good. Like, yes, I knew that I had a dream, bro. And I know that I was in la, and I know that all the artists that blew up came to la, they wanted to come here. And I'm here and I'm this young. I'mma keep my parents happy because I'm there. But, like, like, where's that? Like, where is that? Like, where. Like, how is. How are you going to give me that? Like, I need this. Like, I need to leave.
Alan Ice
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Fabio Guerra
Yeah.
Alan Ice
You know, a lot of the time, you know, it's women. The perspective of a guy, you know, Because I feel like that's a very different perspective. Quiero can. How was it like for you when it came down, you know, to the breakup? Where was your head space when you're like, oh, like, this relationship that I've had for so long, you guys have gotten so far together, and for it to, like, just rupture and just end. What was that like for you? The. Your healing journey?
Fabio Guerra
Muy complicada. Like, very. Oof, bro. Very, very heavy, bro. Because my only person that I had was that girl. Right, right. And the business kid. YouTube, bro. YouTube. No YouTube. You know, so, like, my whole life, bro, the partner that I chose to. To go into this journey with and the channel on the line, bro. Well, it's historia. We took the decision. We separated. I tripped out, bro, For. For a second, but I was tripping out. Like, I thought that my manager at the time had my back because she had told me, yeah, we're gonna take care of you. We're gonna keep on giving you money. They would manage the. The. The. The.
Alan Ice
The couple's channel.
Fabio Guerra
The couple's channel. Like, you know, like, they would give us brandos that fit. Yeah. Like, it's not really the. The image that brands.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
Like, to pick, you know, and even more if I didn't really have a boom in the career yet, like, you know, I had to make no noise. Right. Like, you know, like.
Alan Ice
You'Re able to stand alone. What you're trying to say, you're like, oh, like, it's Fabio and pal.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah.
Alan Ice
Not Fabio. Yeah. So you're like, where the.
Fabio Guerra
And it was. It was tough, bro. It was a lot of. A lot of lonely nights, bro. Kai. I fell into, like. Into, like, very, like, ugly vices. Like.
Alan Ice
Like getting into the party life to distract yourself.
Fabio Guerra
No need to get out on party life. Life by myself.
Alan Ice
Oh, like, lonely. Just smoking your ass away.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, bro. Like, high as. Do you feel like you would do.
Alan Ice
That to disassociate from what really was going on in your life?
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, 100. Because I would just get high and get on the computer and. And I just love putting the headphones on and making music, making songs. And especially because the genres, the genre that I was pursuing back then wasn't corridos, wasn't singing. It was rap, trap, reggaeton, which is a beat that you download from the Internet headphones and then auto tune at 100 and everything sounds beautiful. It's so like.
Alan Ice
And you really just had to write.
Fabio Guerra
Out what you feel doing high as my. To the point that I'm like just like a zombie headphones. Whatever the right.
Alan Ice
No, I can imagine. Because YouTube checks are good.
Fabio Guerra
They were good checks and you guys.
Alan Ice
Were getting good ass views.
Fabio Guerra
Yes, bro, yes. We were averaging 500k, 600k brand deals were fat. The, the Tik Tok brand deals were fat. The Instagram brands were fat. Like momento but momento. Like I got into the crypto things. I lost a lot of money there. But mid whatever and, and familiar.
Alan Ice
You were just like a stando to. Yeah, it's here forever.
Fabio Guerra
This is forever. Whatever, whatever. Every day. You're not just high as like making songs. And yeah, I, I would generate money though, like from my music and my views, but it wouldn't be as. As much and it wouldn't be as consistent as it was when I had the channel. Right.
Alan Ice
And then also when you're dropping music westa to drop.
Fabio Guerra
You know, see in my head like.
Alan Ice
Videos and everything, bro.
Fabio Guerra
Yes, bro. Because back then I would get the license for. For, for a beat on YouTube. It was 400, right. Then I had to get it to send mixed and master. I will send them to Argentina because they're cheaper over there. I will send it to an Engineer over there. 200. Still 200, bro.
Alan Ice
Was there ever a moment where you were like putting more into it than what you were getting gaining?
Fabio Guerra
Most of the time.
Alan Ice
Most of the time you loved what you did.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, I didn't care. I didn't care. Like, like I just, I was just betting on myself. I was just gambling that there was gonna be a song that was gonna make me money at some point. Maybe not this one, maybe not the next one. Maybe the next one. Because you know, obviously music doesn't change your life until you hit a song that gets like 100 million views. Because 100 million views at once, bro, anywhere in YouTube and tick tock. That's a lot. So I get 100, 100 million plays on a song, bro. I still would spend what I had to spend for the product to came out how I wanted it, no matter if it didn't recoup. Because I know that two, three songs after.
Alan Ice
@ the beginning, you were smoking a lot. Just associating. Did you have a moment where you're like, the emotions and everything from the breakup caught up to. And you're like, you know what? Get over this. What was that moment for you, bro? Oh, yeah. You look completely different. And you never posted that video. Just for you.
Fabio Guerra
In one of those. And one of those highest moments, dissociation moments, moments that I was, like, looking at myself in the camera, bro. I want to be top one global. How the am I going to get like that, bro? Let's go. Look at the top one global. Who was. Who was top one global right there. Some. That just looks shiny.
Alan Ice
What did you do to start making yourself feel better emotionally and physically?
Fabio Guerra
Throw away the. The stizzy and just looked at myself every day and like, bro, you know you got it.
Alan Ice
Damn. He looks like he's going through it.
Fabio Guerra
I started, like, finding the way to market them. Started figuring it out. Like, I knew what to say.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
In the songs, I knew what to do to, like, bring attention.
Alan Ice
Do you feel like music saved you.
Fabio Guerra
Through your heartbreak, bro? Yes, bro. Yeah, bro. Oh, my goodness, bro. If I didn't have music while I was going through all of this, I thought about it, bro. Bro, I would look over. I would look at the balcony of my apartment. I would be like, rehab. And none of that. Like, I would analyze. I would look down, be like, what angle here? No, I can't do this. No, this. This is my life. I do what I want. Crazy, bro. Like, struggle, bro.
Alan Ice
Do you feel like it was harder because you were also living the breakup not just in your private life.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, bro. But online. The. The. Yes, bro.
Alan Ice
Like, did that make it harder for you to process, like, your feelings because you were seeing everything online and you're like, what? The people don't know nothing.
Fabio Guerra
They don't know nothing. The comments. The comments will be like. Like, bro, the comments would be like power over there, glowing. And look at this guy.
Alan Ice
How did that make you feel?
Fabio Guerra
Like. Like wanting to kill myself. But, like, most importantly.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
Made me feel like I wanted to make another song. Maybe we can try again. I went through that.
Alan Ice
Take you back to that?
Fabio Guerra
It takes me back. Yeah. Oh, my God.
Alan Ice
That you were going through. They thought you were just.
Fabio Guerra
They were just making music. Yeah. Like, you know. You know, I feel like it was hard for them to start taking me serious as a musician because I came from being a. A YouTuber, a tick tocker, a pranker. Yeah.
Alan Ice
You were trolling.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, bro. Like, people just wouldn't take me serious, bro. Like, the quality. I swear. I swear. My life, bro. Like, I never. I've never dropped a bad song, bro. Like, for. If you were to listen to me for the first time, I don't have a song that you would listen to me, and you would. And you wouldn't want to listen to something else to see what's up. I swear, bro, like, they don't take me serious because they see me going through it, you know? Like, they see me, like, a break. I'm like, all right, bro.
Alan Ice
Like, what he's trying to monetize.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, yeah, like, yes, bro. Like, you know, like, he's trying to. He's doing too much.
Alan Ice
But that was your way of, like, telling.
Fabio Guerra
That was really. That's really, like. That's really my way of life, bro. My lifestyle is music, bro. I. There's not a day that I can't go without listening to music. Music. Yeah, bro. And I listen to whatever song I did last night. Like, you know. You know, I understand that it's hard for them to adapt because I haven't had the time in music that I had doing YouTube. So it's just a matter of time.
Alan Ice
So they go based off what they would say.
Fabio Guerra
They go based off of, like, my followers didn't become my followers, but from music, like, majority, right? Like, I had 3.5 million followers, bro. When I broke up with POW, I had, like, 2.9 or something like that. So, like, I only really have, like, 600,000 new people that are there for music. But since I found the balance now, I do whatever. But, like, I could do this right now, and then tomorrow I could do a cooking show, and then next day, concert, you know?
Alan Ice
Like, I love that about you because I feel like. I feel like you're just always, like, doing what you love, no matter what. The con el, really turning it up. And people live for it because they see your passion for it. You know, a little bit about the breakup. You know, cuando's going through it, and rightfully so, you know, you were going through really bad depression. You were going through a lot of things. But, you know, you go through everything, and you really start to analyze and be like, you know what? I went through all of this positive things, or I saw new insights. What were things that. After, you know, you were. Or during your healing process that you're like, you know what? Maybe this is what I needed.
Fabio Guerra
So many things, so many beautiful things, so many positive things that I think of today thanks to what I went through right now. My Lindo, bro. Bro, there's nothing. Nothing compares, bro, to listening to the song that means so much to you being saying word by word by someone else.
Alan Ice
Yeah. Oh my God.
Fabio Guerra
Father, can I take a picture of you? I love your music.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
Oh my goodness. Like, yes. Like, that's what I want. I want you to like my music. That's what I like. Like, you know, I like. I like that you come and recognize me for my music. He like, oh, yeah, what song? Oh my God, bro. Like, that just gave me the fuel, right? Like.
Alan Ice
Like gave you purpose.
Fabio Guerra
Exactly. Gave me purpose. Like I have people that want me, that, that. That need me, that.
Alan Ice
And believe in that.
Fabio Guerra
Believe in me. You know? Like, it's not. It's not. You know, I got like my. I got like my empowerment. Like my. My fa. Empowerment. I started to feel like Fabio, bro, that, like, obviously relationship lifestyle is different. A single lifestyle, you know, as a relationship, then you got to be a little more laid back, got to be with your girl. You got to. You know what I'm saying? Like, you got to follow the standards. I love that.
Alan Ice
I feel like if you would have stayed in the relationship, do you feel like you wouldn't have had not just personal growth, but career growth?
Fabio Guerra
No. At all. I would have stayed doing the YouTube channel, which. It was fun to me, but it's not.
Alan Ice
What.
Fabio Guerra
It's not what? That wasn't my calling, bro. And I'mma be 100% honest with you, bro. In the YouTube channel. My. My participation on the YouTube channel wasn't more than appearing on the video then just being the. The personality, right? Like being.
Alan Ice
Being f. I would do more of the work.
Fabio Guerra
Pa will do the. The editing, you know? Like, the editing is big, bro. Like, pow, pow would be there for six hours. I don't know about editing. And I. Bro, the YouTube channel started.
Alan Ice
Because of Pa. Yeah, that was her job.
Fabio Guerra
Pa. Pa wanted to do YouTube. And she's like, let's start a couple's channel. Like. And I told her, no, it's going to interfere with my music. Yeah, it's like, no, it's not.
Alan Ice
Like if anything help you. Yeah, yeah.
Fabio Guerra
She's like, no, cuz you, you. Because look, this is how it is. You grow your platform first and then you use it for something else, babe. I was like, I don't know. Because. Because at that moment I wanted to do rap or whatever. So she convinced me to open the channel in my head. Like, I was doing that because initially that was Pal's dream. And she's the One that wanted to come to la.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
She's the one that had the idea. And she's the one that had been telling her mom, according to her mom, since she was four.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
That she wanted to be a millionaire at 16 and she wanted to move to LA and live in a mansion. That's what. That's what she grew up to be like, you know, that's what she is now. That was her dream, like.
Alan Ice
Which is. Do you ever look at that and do you ever feel not just happy for yourself, but also.
Fabio Guerra
Bro, it's like an honor to see. See this girl in the middle of all the girls, and that's my ex.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
I feel proud. Like, I'm like, wow, bro. Like, J rocks.
Alan Ice
And you respect her for always. Like, it is very inspiring to see.
Fabio Guerra
You know, also, I feel like you.
Alan Ice
Also downplay yourself a lot, you know, because I've seen interviews, I've seen. You know, I love the way you talk about pow. I love her, you know, she has done a lot of growth. You know what I mean? It's great that I'm seeing you guys both flourish in different ways. But also at the end of the day, it's like you guys are flourishing in the ways that you guys have for yourself, like the mentality. Like, you want to be a star, you want be, you know, an artist, and you're going that way.
Fabio Guerra
You know what I mean? Michael Jackson, bro. I understand what it is like to have a dream, and I understand what it is like to get closer and closer and closer to it. So just seeing it makes me happy. Not even just for her, for everyone, bro. Like.
Alan Ice
I love that for you and for everyone who's surrounded by you, because there's a little bit of advice. Anyone watching at home, you know, nos cuentas. Everything you've gone through, you know, your depression, your healing journey, and where you are today, what piece of advice can you give anyone, whether that's a girl or a guy watching us right now that maybe is going through a really hard breakup and Al Kuiris at the end of the tunnel, what would you tell them?
Fabio Guerra
Hey, bro. Or asis8 believe in yourself. I know that you know how you want to be. I know that you feel sad right now, but I know that you know that you don't want to be sad. And your mood, your humor, your, like, your way of thinking is your decision. Because me and you could be walking right now and we both step on dog. You could get mad as, like, oh, I stepped on dog. My life, bro. I Just bought the shoes and I could be like. Like, no perspective. So if you're going through. Through a heartbreak, wow, I'm not worth.
Alan Ice
I think it is a lot of perspective.
Fabio Guerra
Yes, bro.
Alan Ice
A.
Fabio Guerra
You decide though. You decide, bro. Like, I feel like a lot. A lot of the time people decide based on what they think. The. The scheme is, like, whatever, like everyone else will do. But at the end, it's really on you, bro. Like, it's really on you. It doesn't. It doesn't matter what other people think.
Alan Ice
Like, no one's going to come, you know, Take control. Put yourself in the p. Not the passenger seat. Put yourself in the driver's seat and take control of your life.
Fabio Guerra
Yes, bro. 100%, bro. Like.
Alan Ice
Just get the up. Like, get defeated by that.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah.
Alan Ice
And it's like, no. And I'm gonna get wherever the I need to get.
Fabio Guerra
Yes.
Alan Ice
And I love that.
Fabio Guerra
Yes, bro.
Alan Ice
Gracias for opening up the way you've opened up already. I feel like a lot of the things you've talked about, a lot of you, like sitting down and really talking about your feelings. You were on a podcast and that podcast was live. That made the Internet go crazy. If you feel comfortable and also let us know what was your reaction when you saw the Internet going crazy?
Fabio Guerra
He, bro, yeah, Snow's podcast is different because you're drinking buzz balls. And then I forget that I'm doing this, bro. I'm just looking at her like talking.
Alan Ice
And you forget your life.
Fabio Guerra
And I forget that I'm live, bro. And she's a. She's an artist, she's a musician. She understands. She was asking me about how do I come up with my songs. Right? We were talking about that and then she asked me, but I don't believe you, cuz you have a song called. Called Ombre Casado.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
And then Jo like, ah, no, no, no. Like, she's like, what? And I'm like, what? Oh my God. Oh my God. Oh, oh, oh, oh. I don't know what to do. I was just literally being honest with her, bro. Like, my. All of my songs, bro, come from a muse of something that happened, bro. As a car photo at my environment and making songs about that.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
And bro, I was in Argentina with top producers, like top, bro. And I was like, let's get. I want a song. I want a song called Ombre Ca. Like a dramatic ass song. Like, like, the only reason why I said it is because I was being honest, bro. That's my muse, bro. The way that I always played off the song to explain to people was like, yeah.
Alan Ice
So no one ever was, like, questioning.
Fabio Guerra
No, no, no, no. They would just be like, wow, like.
Alan Ice
What year did you guys get married?
Fabio Guerra
When we came to the. To LA. Yeah. 2021.
Alan Ice
Oh. Did you ever make the breakup harder for you?
Fabio Guerra
Like, you know, it wasn' just sentimental at this point. At this point, it was a lot of. A lot of papers, a lot of, like, real life, like, oh, bro, like.
Alan Ice
Like this serious.
Fabio Guerra
Like, bro, like, what the. You know? Like, holy. And there was no necessity to. To say that ever, like, could have went about my life. I'm not with her anymore. Just doing her thing. I'm doing my thing.
Alan Ice
It was just a breakup. Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah. Like, people just thought that we were dating, we broke up, but we were married. And I'm not ashamed of it because it's the truth for you to get to know me. I just tell you the truth. Like, you know, I just. I just say what my life is. And she wanted to know why I have a song called Ombre Casado. And it's because.
Alan Ice
And it's a moment, though, when you saw. Because it was live. Right.
Fabio Guerra
How many people were watching live, did.
Alan Ice
You think in a moment? Oh, my God, I hope no one clipped this. Like, yeah, bro, I get out of the Internet, the whole world's talking about it.
Fabio Guerra
There was a. A stage on social media that I would do stuff for social media. Right, Right. But at this point, bro, like, this past years. Like, this past year and a half, ponele. Like, I changed the mentality. Like, you're not supposed to fake the funk.
Alan Ice
Yeah, you're.
Fabio Guerra
You're just. You're just as good as you are. You know, Snow asked me, like, do you want him to take it off the podcast? I'm like, yeah, yeah. Like, I'm not gonna be ashamed. I'm not gonna play. I'm not gonna try to, like, be like, oh, no, no, no, no, no, guys, no. Like, I'm not gonna try to lie.
Alan Ice
Because it's gonna look obvious.
Fabio Guerra
It's gonna look obvious that I'm trying to lie and say, no, I'm just kidding. No, no, no, I'm not married. Then I lose legitimacy because then now my song that is put on the. On the line of being legit or not. It's. It's on me, on the moment. So. No, no, no, leave it. It's fine. Fine. After. After the calls or whatever. And she told me, like, you want to take it off of the podcast? I'm like, yes, please. Like, in 30 minutes, 300k views.
Alan Ice
And it was already up.
Fabio Guerra
It was already out there before we.
Alan Ice
Even got to the editing part.
Fabio Guerra
Yes, bro. Like.
Alan Ice
The season premiere. You. Bella came on here, which I love. Bella. Bella came on here that you ghosted her months later, actually, who you actually dissed in that song. Why did you ghost her? And what was that like when she was. Oh, who made that call? We're like, hey, let's do a video. Me, you, and your ex. And the intern is going to go wild, bro.
Fabio Guerra
Look, bro, I was live one day, day on Tick Tock and she sent me a bunch of gifts. But I. I hadn't been keeping up with her. Like, I didn't even follow her. Nor was this at the beginning.
Alan Ice
Was this at the beginning when you guys first met, right? Like, how you guys started talking?
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, yeah. I was like, I had never talked to her before, bro, like at all. And I was live. And then she sent me a bunch of gifts and then the child's like, Bella's here. Oh my God. What is Bella doing here? Bella. Bella. Bella. I was like, who the is Bella? Like, I don't. There's a million Bellas, right? Yeah, I know of Bella and Anthony or whatever, but I didn't think it was her. More like like 10, 10 hats. Like, oh, is this Bella? Oh, thank you, Bella. Thank you so much for the gifts. Hop off the live. Let's collab. I'm like, oh, yeah, let's collab. And then I go to her page and I see that she had just broken up with Anthony. And I'm like, oh, perfect. Yeah, I bet, like, bet. Like, it's going to be fun. It's going to be fun. Like, I know that people are going to wild out. They're going to be like, yeah.
Alan Ice
So the initial plan was like, we're gonna make content. Make it look like we're talking.
Fabio Guerra
Not even that we're. That we're gonna make content. Like we're talking, bro. Cuz the audios that we posted at the beginning were just like, like general audios. Like, they weren't even like insinuating anything. And. And we. And I always caption it like, my friend, my bestie, my n. Because I had came from. I had came from jrocks not that long ago. And that was real. Like, that was a real thing, you know?
Alan Ice
So that was real.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah. J rock the me. Like, like, so the last thing that I wanted to do is bring a relationship in social media. I just, I just thought it was a collab, you know? It was fun. And it's gonna. It's gonna bring my numbers up or whatever. Like, business.
Alan Ice
This is gonna go big, but, like.
Fabio Guerra
You know, it's straight up business, bro. She knew too. Like, she knew that it was just a business collab because she would pull up, we would talk. All right, let's film. Let's do it. Let's do it. Whatever. I didn't want a relationship, you know? Like, it was just. Yeah, for fun. For the funsies. For the content. She knew too. I didn't really ghost her. I didn't. I didn't. Like, when you think of ghosting someone, what do you think of? Like, I just stop answering. I'll say I had said to her that we're gonna kick it before I left to Miami, but I'm not thinking that this girl is not my girlfriend or nothing. Like, yeah, yeah, yeah. Like, I just couldn't, bro. Like, I had to go to Miami in, like, two days. Like, I didn't think she was gonna take that to. To heart, you know? Like, I didn't think that she thought that, you know, Miami. In Miami, I saw her that she went live. She was on a. Live with some guy, some DJ guy. Like, I like, all up on him on live. And I was like, ah, no mame business. Like, she's up everything. Because now. Like. Okay.
Alan Ice
And you guys lost complete communication.
Fabio Guerra
Yes, but. But not in a. Not in a. Not in a malicious way. Not as in like, you. I don't want to talk to you. It was. It was just like, you know, we just didn't text. Like, it was fine. Like, there was no beef or nothing. Like, she's doing her thing. And. And. And before. Before. That's. Before that happened, bro. All the beef had gone on already, like, with the baby daddy, whatever. I already had talked my whatever. And the song hadn't dropped it. And then all of that happened, and the song was on the way, had to release. So I. I had called her. I'm like, yo, how you been told? Yeah, what's up with. With your new boyfriend? Like, ah, don't be like, stop. Like, n. It's cool. Like. Like, I'm not. It's just that I still wanted to drop the song, but I wanted to get the okay from you because, you know, I don't want to. I don't want to put out a song that is going to affect you if you have an actual relationship with someone, whatever. So she's like, no, do it. I was like, how. I was thinking, supposedly it was a things Moved on. But I still wanted to drop the song. And that's how it went.
Alan Ice
Yeah. Yeah, fool.
Fabio Guerra
If. If. If. If me and her would be. Was to be together still. Still, like, making content and collabing or whatever. And I had dropped the song, bro. Like, me and Bella average, like 600, 700k likes, like, whatever. Time moved on, right? And she told me to pull up, and I was like, all right, let's do it. Like, she collab with her because she publicly broke up with him. Whatever. So I go and I do it. She gives me the idea that Anthony's 10 minutes away and that he wants to. He wants to meet. He wants to squash the beef. I'm like, oh, for real? No, I feel like we should stretch it out. Like, we should do it in a week. Like, right now we should be. Me and you. Be like, oh. But he's like, 10 minutes. It I. Right. I kind of got set up. She knew. She knew that she was gonna. Yeah, she knew that she was gonna call both of us and then do the collab or whatever. And I was chill. I was like, yeah, bro. Like, whatever. Like, the beef was so long ago, and if he's gonna pull up and wanting to beat my ass, I'm.
Alan Ice
Like, he's tall.
Fabio Guerra
You know.
Alan Ice
Awkward at first. You're like, oh, my God, I don't know what's going to go down.
Fabio Guerra
No, not even, bro. Cuz I'm telling you, bro, like, you can't be walking with fear. Like, you can't. You can't live, like, thinking that something is going to happen because then it's going to happen.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
So. All right, tell him to pull up. He pulled up. And I'm like, sitting on my phone. I'm like. I look at him, like, I'm like. Like this first thing he says, he's like, hey, bro, first of all, bro, no hard feelings. Like that. To me, he has, like, a deep ass voice. No hard feelings.
Alan Ice
And I'm like, very monotone, right?
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, like. Like, notina sento. Like, you know, he's like, hey, bro, first of all, I just want to tell you, no hard feelings in. And I'm like. And I smile at him. I'm like, bro, no hard feelings, bro. How are you? Hey, you're tall as bro. He's like, he was shy.
Alan Ice
Yeah, yeah.
Fabio Guerra
Like, you're tall as, bro. But, like, how you been? Good, bro. I've been good. Well, how. What the are you doing right now? You were 10 minutes away. Be like, I think he said something about dropping off his son. Whatever. Like, we just got cool as. And then we're like, all right, so what do you guys want to do? Let's film a video. Be like, okay, let's film. Let's film. Let's do it. He filmed his YouTube video. We did a tik tok. And then. And then there I am, like, thinking.
Alan Ice
Yeah, she's gorgeous. She is really nice. I love her.
Fabio Guerra
I thought we were good. She has. She had already, like, talked about her ex on social media. I was like, oh, she's not gonna go back.
Alan Ice
Yeah. And you're like.
Fabio Guerra
I'm like, okay. Still, like, no hard feelings. I got. Whatever. What's up with you? Like, I thought. I thought you guys broke up. It's like, she doesn't know what to say. I'm like, I'm just playing with you. I understand what it is. Whatever. And that's what. At Mary's.
Alan Ice
Okay.
Fabio Guerra
Huh? Marries. And I'm like. I'm like, hey, where's your boyfriend? He's like, be like, you swear? I'm like, what? What do you mean? I really didn't know, like, we broke up again. I'm like, again, what will happen?
Alan Ice
I have a chance now. Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
Just laughing with her, you know, like, about it and, like, trolling, but healthy.
Alan Ice
You know.
Fabio Guerra
I. I felt empathy. I was like, no way. That's up.
Alan Ice
Yeah. You're like, I would not do that to you.
Fabio Guerra
I would not do that to you.
Alan Ice
And I feel like you are always in some. You know, because I feel like I see you either trolling, I see you either going on clips. I see Fabio always on some. What's a rumor or even a scandal that you know is true that makes you laugh or kind of. Or. Or kind of makes you think you're like, nothing from the trut. What's something that you've heard about yourself that you're like, either or, like.
Fabio Guerra
And they know how I am, so I do cocaine.
Alan Ice
They say that about me, too. I've been publicly. And I've said it so many times that I got weight loss surgery.
Fabio Guerra
Yes. Type.
Alan Ice
So when they say you do cocaine, what?
Fabio Guerra
Because. Because I'm so. Because I'm so, like, energetic. Because I'm up. But that's me. Like, that's my. That's my tempo.
Alan Ice
Do you. I, like, set that to rest. I'm like, he's like, he. Like, I didn't think that question was coming. You're like, no, you kind of do Fabio. No, but you got that a lot then.
Fabio Guerra
Yes, bro. There was a Season where, bro, I'm pretty up tempo, like.
Alan Ice
Period. And I feel like that's exactly how I feel, you guys. Jackie, I actually just got a comment, like, two days ago. They're like, alan looks like he's on coke, like, with the little snake snowflakes. And I'm like, I know. You know what's funny? I think they say that about me because after my weight loss, I will say, you guys, I feel like my bone features got. Obviously got tightened up, so my eye socket is very. If you ever come touch me, like, you can see that. You can feel the bone. So then imagine you look all skinny. My eyes are very open. Yeah, I look like I'm on some.
Fabio Guerra
No one has said nothing lately, though. No one has ever commented. But I remember there was a season.
Alan Ice
Do you ever let the bad comments get to you?
Fabio Guerra
Never, bro.
Alan Ice
Never.
Fabio Guerra
Oh, no, no, no, no. To. To be like how I am today, I had to go through a lot, bro. I remember the first time that he got to my head was one time that I dyed my hair fully blonde. Bond.
Alan Ice
Yeah.
Fabio Guerra
I was so happy. I was so happy, bro. Like, oh, my goodness. Like, oh, like, I look like a Super Saiyan. Like, I'm like a cartoon. Go post a video. Oh, my God. All the comments go back to black. You're ugly as. You look ugly. You look like this. You look like that. But I suspend.
Alan Ice
Oh.
Fabio Guerra
Oh, my God.
Alan Ice
Because of the comments.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah.
Alan Ice
Oh.
Fabio Guerra
Like, you know social media. But you do whatever you say. Whatever. They took it bad, bro. I remember, for example, bro, we. We caught the social media when. When cancel culture was pretty big. I got canceled for so much, bro. For so much, bro. And I would let the comments get to me, and I would delete videos and I would.
Alan Ice
Gives you anxiety.
Fabio Guerra
It gives you anxiety, bro. You don't know what to say. I saw point. You know, if you do social media don't give a. Like, you know, like, I know that none of the comments are real, bro. Like, I know. I know what's true, you know? And I know my goals, and I know where I'm. Where I'm aspiring to be. So nothing of what they could ever say to me gets to me, bro. Comments like, I'm gonna lie. This is fire. Sounds better on mute. This is trash, guys. Stay in school. Put the fries in the bag, bro. Like.
Alan Ice
And you're like, damn, do I suck this?
Fabio Guerra
Damn, bro. Am I. No, no. It never got to me. Like, damn, do I suck this bad? Because I always knew that I was goated. I always knew that I'm goaded. I just know that they. That they didn't understand.
Alan Ice
They didn't appreciate you.
Fabio Guerra
They didn't appreciate it. But because. Because I know my, like, my first songs like, like that, like. Like, you know, like, that's how I started. So, yeah, none of those comments ever got to me to the point to want to make me stop. What. What they did make me feel like I was like, puta. But, like, am I ever going to blow up because people don't like me, but I'm it. Like, I'm gonna still go. I know. I got it.
Alan Ice
We've talked a lot about, you know, to escandalos, how you. And then we've also talked about your music that you were just starting, you know, really focusing on your music. This has been something you've always wanted. But I feel like in the last two years, you've evolved so much as a person. Y comun artista, yo quiero que enos cuentes. So how do you feel like, you know, your artistry has evolved over the last two years? And what is your vision? Que tute miras orendia for yourself in the future?
Fabio Guerra
It has been a process, bro. I remember making songs at the beginning that were cap. Like, lying, like, out of my ass like, that I wasn't about. Yeah, that wasn't real. Like, shut the upper.
Alan Ice
Yeah, yeah.
Fabio Guerra
Over the years, I learned, bro. Like, I found. I really found the. The beauty in making songs that. That you actually relate to. 6:00am wow.
Alan Ice
Yeah, real.
Fabio Guerra
Real, bro. It became. It became my life. Making music became my life.
Alan Ice
Yeah. How did you choose? You know, at the beginning, you were doing a lot of rap differently. You know, you're doing a whole other genre to find, you know, your sound. What was that like? And what was like, you know what? I want to do corridos. I want this to be my genre that you've evolved, even your sound over the years.
Fabio Guerra
The first time I ever did a corridor was because the comments, bro. Like, the comments. Fabio, please do a corridor. Please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, bro. And. And. And most of the people that watch me are the demographic is Mexican, American or Mexican. So it made sense and put break up first. First Mexican original song that I did was. It got me started into monetizing music, into, like, living off of songs. Like, I never thought that I could sing, bro, because I was always a rapper. Like 180, like, full on transition, bro. I met my manager, he told me, yes, bro, like, uses your genre. You sound so much better on Top of a guitar and no auto to no effects than on a sick ass.
Alan Ice
Can I say that though? I honestly feel like your actual singing voice sounds better than like anything you tweak with. You actually go into the studio and I say that you guys, because I saw that when we performed here, like I was like wow, this is so good. And when you're like, oh, can I master? And I was like, oh yeah, sure. And I was like dude, this sounds great.
Fabio Guerra
Thank you bro. Thank you. It took time though. Like, you know, I didn't know, like I didn't know that I could sing bro, like at all. Like cuz that's not what I wanted to do. I wanted to be a rapper. Yeah, you know, like though, like. And majority of people came to the agreement that he sings good with the autotune. And I started noticing and I was like, all right, bet. Then I'm gonna give you guys that. And then I started giving them that. And then I started to see the feedback and wow. Oh my God, this guy. When are you gonna have your concert, bro? Like man, bro, like my demographics for the longest was 50. 50, 50 boys, 50 girls and, and. And ultimo, bro, I'm like 70, 30. Oh see bro, sign for K4K. As I forget, I forget, I forget like a stir. And then I had that momentum of. Of people just watching me as I was already doing what I was already doing, which was just promo my songs.
Alan Ice
So it just brought in a whole new audience.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, it just brought a bunch of people and they started watching me do what I had been doing for the past 100 Tik Toks, you know, and whatever they saw first they took in, they took in and they started seeing what was behind and everything was music related. Everything. And then when I started posting again, new stuff, music related, like vasas.
Alan Ice
You know, coming from being, you know, an influencer, YouTuber, TikToker. How do you feel like all that knowledge that you learned from, you know, the beginning of your social media career, how do you feel like that has changed the approach? You know, you even do music. Do you feel like it's helped you out earlier? I feel like the way you promote your music is so good. Like I have not seen anyone be so into his music. I. And you know, you come out with hella trends. Like just with the song that we did a little tik tok to, you came out with like different. Five. Five different concepts. Even the one with the car I literally thought you were going to get. I was like, no, my stay away.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, yeah, he's doing, going crazy.
Alan Ice
I was like, I know Casim, but that was so cool. Like the concept of like everything you do. Do you feel like that helped you being an influencer first, helped you a lot?
Fabio Guerra
Yes, bro. Like, you know, it's like, it's kind of like a, like a sacrifice, right? Like I, like I had to go through this whole influencer stage and not being taken serious as an artist so that I could learn how to create content, bro. Because I feel like I'm a master. Like I, I know what to do, bro. If I don't post a tik tok every day, bro, it's says music video. It's Monday again. I only have one tik tok left. That one is for today. So then today I wake up. That's thanks, that's thanks to, to that, bro. To being an influencer for so long. To understanding what, what the, the, the.
Alan Ice
The people want to see.
Fabio Guerra
Yeah, what the people want to see. Like what, what's algorithmic, algorithmically correct? What will go on the. For you? What would do this? What would. You know? So many artists, they're so good at making music. And, and I've seen artists, bro, that have gone from like, from their 100,000 listeners to, to the big leagues. And then once they're in the big league, it was just luck. It wasn't, it wasn't work.
Alan Ice
How important is it for you to make that jump from being seen or just, you know, being an influencer, Tik tocker to making that jump to being an actual, you know, mainstream artist.
Fabio Guerra
Bro.
Alan Ice
Period.
Fabio Guerra
Okay, Your listeners went down chilling as you go to the gym. Take care about yourself. Take care of your own body. You're going to figure it out, bro. You know what to do. You know, you could go and film a tik Tok on, you know, you could do it. Yeah, come down, down, just do it like yeah, on Tik Tok.
Alan Ice
And we see a lot of artists nowadays go from being tik tockers to blown up artists. Like main staging the main stages of festivals.
Fabio Guerra
Claro, bro. So me plan, bro. Like my plan to get there is just keep going. I don't have, I don't have, I don't have any intention of stopping. Especially because I do aspire to have mansions and, and cars and, and all that. But that's not what fills me. That's not my fuel. My fuel is to make music, to create, to enjoy this process, to, to have my mom right now in mama. Like that's what fills me up. Knowing that they have hope, that they don't lose it. Like, that they know that their son is doing what he wants. Take it in. Look.
Alan Ice
It was like an I made it moment flow.
Fabio Guerra
Like, it was like, whoa, my mother is here. Here. Like, where the did I get this money to pay this rent this month? Where the did I get the money to pay my car? Where the did I get. When did I get here? Like, when. When did this happen? And when did it become so beautiful? When did it feel so good? It's just so fulfilling, bro, to know that I'm where I want to be. Like, I have so many goals. I always know what to say. I always know what to say, bro, like, bro, like, we went to Halloween, Pelo. That's so much to talk about. Like, you're like, I'm going to give.
Alan Ice
You guys a vlog, but in music.
Fabio Guerra
Exactly, exactly. Like, like, bro, like, think about. We were at a. We were at a. At a. At a party full of beautiful women. Like, to me, as an artist, beautiful women, woman in. In disguises, getting drunk, having fun.
Alan Ice
What would that song look like?
Fabio Guerra
I mean, that freestyle.
Alan Ice
Putting in the effort. You, what musical artists influence your sounds? Who would that be? Okay, okay.
Fabio Guerra
El Nata. El Peso said, all the mainstream. All the mainstream choreos. I just see these. I'm like, puta. Like, I want to be like that. I want to be like these. I want to catch up to them. I know that whenever I'm around their circle, they're not going to want to keep me away. They're going to want to keep me close. They're going to. They're going to see what I have.
Alan Ice
And it's going to happen, and I'm so excited. Happening. You know what I mean? Even just sitting here, I feel like, just in general compared to, like, the one we had two years ago is so different, you guys. Fabio. And I'm like, oh. Like, he really is here because he has a purpose, and he knows that purpose that I always end up with. Whether that's personally, professionally.
Fabio Guerra
Bro, that's what I see myself in five years, bro, after that's gonna happen.
Alan Ice
I just want to say. I really do want to say appreciate you and just kind of today, I swear to God, you guys, and I'm really happy that I got to, like, know a little bit more about you. Don't forget, no, don't forget Al Fabio on all his social medias, which I'll leave down below as well as on the screen, so you guys won't miss any future episodes. And and with that being said, do you want to say anything before we get going? And with that being said, you guys. Bye guys.
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Podcast Title: Noche de Pendejadas with Alannized
Episode: Fabio Guerra Talks All: Honduras, Breakup, Marriage, Music, CHISME & MORE!!
Release Date: November 8, 2024
In this episode of Noche de Pendejadas with Alannized, host Alannized welcomes Fabio Guerra, a 22-year-old influencer and musician originally from Honduras, now residing in Los Angeles. Fabio shares his journey from a tumultuous childhood in Honduras to navigating the complexities of fame and personal relationships in the United States.
Fabio opens up about his early life in San Pedro Sula, Honduras, highlighting the challenges of growing up in a violent and densely populated environment. He recounts living in a cramped two-room house with his extended family, including his grandparents and pet chicken, Felipe. The pervasive violence in Honduras deeply impacted his childhood.
Fabio Guerra [05:07]: "I was living in Tierra Viva with my grandma, grandpa, aunt, uncle, mom, dad, and Felipe, all in the same two-room house. It was freaking packed and very dangerous."
At the age of 17, Fabio and his family moved to Denver, Colorado, pursuing the American dream. The transition was not easy, especially adapting to a different dialect and cultural norms.
Fabio Guerra [15:54]: "The change wasn't easy. Coming to the US was when it started getting hard. Adapting to the actual culture was the biggest challenge."
He struggled with the differences in Spanish dialects and felt isolated from his Honduran peers who had been in the US for much longer.
Fabio's father, a respected lawyer in Honduras, had high expectations for his education. Initially, Fabio attended Metropolitan State University in Denver on a full-ride scholarship, studying political science to align with his father's wishes. However, the pressures mounted as his family's financial situation worsened after moving to the US.
Fabio Guerra [30:23]: "I knew I didn't want to be a lawyer or a doctor. I realized I needed to pursue something else to help my family."
Eventually, Fabio decided to leave college after one year to focus on his passion for music, a decision met with resistance from his strict parents.
During the COVID-19 pandemic, Fabio began leveraging social media platforms like TikTok and YouTube to launch his music career. His first TikTok went viral, garnering 70,000 views overnight, which was a turning point in his journey.
Fabio Guerra [60:12]: "I posted my first TikTok during the pandemic and woke up to 70,000 views. I thought it was bots, but it was real people."
This rapid growth allowed him to gain a substantial following, which he later converted into a dedicated music fanbase. Fabio emphasized the importance of understanding social media algorithms, which he credits for effectively promoting his music.
Fabio Guerra [126:22]: "Being an influencer first helped me master what people want to see. It made promoting my music so much easier."
Fabio candidly discusses a two-year-long, public marriage and subsequent breakup with his partner, which was both a personal and professional challenge. The breakup affected his mental health, leading him to engage in unhealthy behaviors as coping mechanisms.
Fabio Guerra [74:25]: "My healing journey was very complicated and heavy. I fell into ugly vices to distract myself."
Despite the pain, Fabio found solace in music, which became his primary means of emotional expression and healing.
Fabio Guerra [84:07]: "Music saved me through my heartbreak. Without it, I don't know where I'd be."
Fabio highlights how creating authentic music helped him overcome depression and regain his sense of purpose. He transitioned from using auto-tuned rap to producing more heartfelt corridos, aligning his music with his true emotions and experiences.
Fabio Guerra [120:16]: "Making music became my life. It allowed me to create songs that I truly relate to."
This evolution not only enhanced his artistry but also deepened his connection with his audience, who began to appreciate his genuine storytelling.
Over the past two years, Fabio has significantly evolved as an artist. He moved from being perceived primarily as a YouTuber and TikToker to establishing himself as a serious musician. This shift was facilitated by his understanding of content creation and social media dynamics.
Fabio Guerra [123:43]: "Being an influencer first helped me understand how to create content that resonates, which was crucial for my music career."
He continually adapts his musical style, blending genres like rap, trap, and reggaeton to craft a unique sound that appeals to a broad audience.
Looking ahead, Fabio aspires to solidify his presence in the mainstream music industry. He envisions performing at major festivals and expanding his fanbase while maintaining his authenticity.
Fabio Guerra [125:21]: "I plan to keep going and never stop. My fuel is to make music and enjoy the process."
He also emphasizes the importance of staying true to oneself and leveraging his social media expertise to further his career.
Fabio Guerra [126:22]: "Understanding what people want to see and creating content that aligns with that has been instrumental in my growth as an artist."
Fabio Guerra's journey is a testament to resilience and the power of authentic self-expression. From a challenging upbringing in Honduras to navigating the highs and lows of social media fame, Fabio has harnessed his experiences to fuel his passion for music. His story offers valuable insights into overcoming adversity, the importance of staying true to one's dreams, and the transformative role of creativity in personal growth.
Notable Quotes:
Fabio Guerra [05:07]: "I was living in Tierra Viva with my grandma, grandpa, aunt, uncle, mom, dad, and Felipe, all in the same two-room house. It was freaking packed and very dangerous."
Fabio Guerra [15:54]: "The change wasn't easy. Coming to the US was when it started getting hard. Adapting to the actual culture was the biggest challenge."
Fabio Guerra [30:23]: "I knew I didn't want to be a lawyer or a doctor. I realized I needed to pursue something else to help my family."
Fabio Guerra [60:12]: "I posted my first TikTok during the pandemic and woke up to 70,000 views. I thought it was bots, but it was real people."
Fabio Guerra [84:07]: "Music saved me through my heartbreak. Without it, I don't know where I'd be."
Fabio Guerra [126:22]: "Being an influencer first helped me master what people want to see. It made promoting my music so much easier."
Stay tuned for more episodes of Noche de Pendejadas with Alannized, where Alannized continues to bring you inside looks at the latest industry drama, influencer projects, scandals, and all things chisme.