Gabe (90:09)
And when Troy had passed, I was out partying and I would party, like, with him and be around him. He was someone I was associated with. So that kind of was like, damn. Because I had started seeing him change his life around and stop being in, like, all the trouble, you know, because I known him, like, as a hot head, like a guy who was fighting and being crazy, even out there. And I started noticing him, like, him maturing, he got in a relationship, he's working a job, he had a car, you know, like, he started clean up his, you know, clean himself up, you know, And I was proud of him. And then I seen that he got shot, and I was like, what the, bro? Like, why does this keep happening? You know? And I got a little sad about it for, like, a couple months, and I kind of got over it and I started like, okay, I need to start being active again on social media. I need to stop being, you know, so quiet on social media, because when you go inactive for like a month, people will forget about you, you know, And I need to get my bills paid. I need to be, you know, doing what I'm supposed to be doing as a social media, like, influencer, you know, and posting content and doing stuff. And I know I let a lot of my followers down with my inactivity and just not being consistent. So I was like, I'm going to start doing it again. Started doing it again. And then in April, two my friends passed away again. Chris and Johnny had passed away. And I was really good friends with them for the last. I met them during my party, my party phase as well. But they were really good guys. They were never in trouble. They've always worked their jobs, always been to themselves. But I was with them, like, every other weekend in 2021, 2022, I was taking vacations with them. And, like, we would talk about moving in with each other, and I was supposed to move in with them at one point, but they ended up getting a different house. And they were, like, my best friends, though. And they. They were also friends with Mercedes as well. I didn't know that they were friends with her, but they knew her as well. So we kind of, like, could relate on that, her passing. And they also knew we're friends with Xavier as well, so we could relate on that, too. So I remember even telling them about it, like, how I was sad about it. And, you know, we'd hang out, we'd drink and stuff, and they would tell us, like, you know, come out with us more. You know, let's go to the casino. Because I had just turned 21 in April, and all of our birthdays were in April. We all turned 21 in April. So I was like, all right, I'll go to the casino. But during that time, I was still a little depressed, like, going through it. And I started realizing, I think I need to get a relationship with God, because I don't know who to turn to, who to run to or talk to, like, who can relate to me and listen to me, you know, vent with all these problems. And nothing is helping. No drugs. Like, nothing has helped me at all. No alcohol, nothing. No activities make me happy anymore. And I'm just, like. I was feeling really alone. So I started thinking, like, I need to ask for forgiveness for everything I've done and the way I've been living my life and try to clean my act up, you know? And I started telling Chris and Johnny about it. Like, I think I'm going to start going to church, and I need to, like, fix myself. And they were just looking at me like, what the fuck? You know, like. Like, who have you been telling them? Like, I want to go to college. Like, I want to do all these things. And they're like, is this the same person? You know? And they're like, well, that's good, man. I'm happy for you. And the crazy part is they actually worked at a funeral home, so their family owns a funeral home. And they would do, like, services. Yeah, services. Take the bodies, pick them up and stuff. So that's what they did for living. And they were very comfortable with the fact that, like, they're really comfortable with death because they've done services for their own family and friends, you know, so it was nothing new to them. You know, they're very comfortable with it, but I wasn't comfortable with it. So I Mean, I remember there'd be times that we would have conversations with them, and they would say, like, hey, if you were to ever pass, we can do your service, like, for a cheap price. And they would say, like, oh, I want to get cremated, or I want this. And I'm like, let's not talk about that. And I would, like, get, like, almost a panic attack of them saying, hey, when you die, die, we could get a casket and stuff for you and do this. And I'm like, no, I'm not dying. I'm not dying. You know? But it's so weird, like, that it was them, and it happened to be a car accident. They had gotten on the way to go pick up a body out, and they're driving from Arizona, I think, to Salt Lake City, and they had hit the back of, like, a truck. I think it had, like, propane or something in it. And it exploded basically on impact. And I know that Chris had. I think he had passed on impact. And then Johnny had went back to the car to try to pull him out, but he couldn't get him out. And then Johnny had died from his burns. And I remember the way I found out is I was on Instagram just laying in bed, and my friend Isaac, who was like, their best friend that I'm friends with, you know, posted a picture of them all together saying, like, I can't believe this is real. And it said, like, posted three minutes ago. I call Isaac, and I'm like, are you joking? And he was like, I'm not, bro. I wish I was. And he said, like, he posted only that Chris passed. So I get in my car, I call my girlfriend at the time. I'm like, johnny. Johnny. And Chris just passed, and I was just with them. Literally, like, the day before, I slept at their house. I slept at Chris's house. So I was just with him. And this is like, the day I'm telling him I'm gonna change my life and turn to God. That same day, I woke up, you know, did my thing. I think it was two days after they had passed. And I would think I was playing the game with him the night before. So. So it was just like, this isn't real. Why is this happening to me? And another. Like, another death. Yeah, another death. After I just told him, did you.
