Keila Pacheco: Childhood Affected By Alcoholism, Single Mom, Dyslexia, Mukbangs, CHISME & MORE!

Summary

Noche de Pendejadas with Alannized

Episode: Keila Pacheco: Childhood Affected By Alcoholism, Single Mom, Dyslexia, Mukbangs, CHISME & MORE!
Release Date: June 12, 2026
Host: Alannized (@alannized)
Guest: Keila Pacheco

Episode Overview

In this heartfelt and candid episode, Alannized sits down with foodie influencer and mukbanger Keila Pacheco. Known for her viral eating videos, Keila opens up about growing up with a single mother, her father’s alcoholism, moving between Mexico and the U.S., dealing with dyslexia, and carving out a space for herself in the social media world. Their conversation—full of warmth, Spanglish, and real talk—dives into family, personal growth, and Keila’s journey to internet stardom, all while keeping the signature chisme and playful energy that Noche de Pendejadas delivers.

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Key Discussion Points & Insights

1. Keila’s Childhood & Family Dynamics

[03:39–12:25]

• Growing Up in San Diego: Keila, Mexican and Honduran, describes a vibrant childhood with her mom, aunt, and cousins, lacking technology and full of imaginative play.
• Relationship with Parents:
  • Strongly identifies as a “mommy’s girl”, with her mother as main support and confidante.
  • Her father was largely absent due to separation when she was one; “My dad was just a side character, I guess you could say. It was always just my mom.” (09:00)
• On Her Father’s Alcoholism:
  • Knew from an early age her father was a functioning alcoholic—this was normalized in her family.
  • “He was always like a drunk. I never really expected much from him...” (12:55)
  • Keila’s mother allowed visitation to maintain a father figure but Keila found it annoying and unimportant.
• Emotional Toll & Guilt:
  • Father-daughter events highlighted his absence.
  • Felt guilty asking her single mom for things, knowing the effort it took: "I would feel, like, so much guilt, like, asking or like wanting certain things, because she was the only one." (10:40)

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2. Navigating Addiction & Abuse

[12:25–24:58]

• Explaining Addiction:
  • Mom was “very honest”—no cover-ups about her father’s drinking.
  • Identified “switches” in her father’s personality—at times loving but sometimes verbally or physically abusive.
  • “He, like, hit me and...made me be against the wall for hours and hours until my mom got home.” (18:36)
• Keila’s Detachment:
  • Never attempted to intervene or plead with her father to change—felt he was mostly a stranger.
  • “I’m gonna sound really cold-hearted...but I just did not care...it was my mom. If that was my mom, I think that would have broke me.” (22:13)
• Father’s Final Departure:
  • Father moved back to Honduras during her middle school years; she visited once, describing surreal experiences and feeling more kinship with cousins than with him.
  • On his new life: acknowledges he’s now sober and has new children, but their contact remains minimal.

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3. Living with a Single Mom

[31:17–39:59]

• Financial Struggles:
  • Lived with limited means; mom worked hard to get whatever Keila needed, but couldn't cook (“She went straight from her house to being married with my dad and he was a cook. So she never learned to cook.” (32:21))
  • Developed love of fast food out of necessity (KFC $5 fill-up boxes).
• Moving to Tijuana:
  • After her mom was laid off, they moved in with her grandpa in TJ. Appreciated the familial support, even if the food and routine changed.
  • Maintained her U.S. schooling with daily border crossings—“the biggest shock to me was the food.” (36:11)
  • Eventually moved back to the U.S., bringing a rescued puppy that became her mom’s favorite.

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4. School, Dyslexia, and Fitting In

[40:32–48:06]

• Social Life:
  • Shy and quiet, struggled with friendship after cousin moved away.
  • Grew anxious when separated from mom—a recurring attachment theme.
  • Participated in ROTC but realized she didn’t fit the mold.
• Dyslexia Diagnosis:
  • Struggled academically until being diagnosed with dyslexia in middle school, which opened up more resources and support.
    • “If you feel like you have something wrong with you, just go get the help. Most schools have the resources for it...” (44:58)
  • Encourages others to ask for help: “No one really cares...what's more important is you getting that help and finally being able to understand things.” (48:34)
• Academic Performance:
  • Finished high school with a 3.5 GPA, joined honors English after accommodations.

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5. The Mukbang Journey & Viral Fame

[51:53–62:02]

• Early Hustle:
  • Started working young, craving financial independence after a modest upbringing.
  • Manifested her influencer dreams, began posting random content—first viral moment came with an In-N-Out mukbang video:
    • “I was like, I told you...I'm TikTok famous.” (53:44)
• Finding Her Niche:
  • Quickly leaned into mukbang content: “Once I saw that did good, I just kept doing the same type of videos over and over.” (55:36)
  • Chose food content smartly: “I'm glad it was food because...you are gonna most of the time, you stay in that bubble.” (55:45)
• Keeping Balance:
  • Shares she sticks to filming and eating out twice a week; stays active and keeps a disciplined schedule despite what viewers assume.
• Visibility & Diversification:
  • Launched a lifestyle page—found success (50 million views on a festival vlog).
  • Quit her stable hotel job after balancing work & content creation: “It was running me dry doing both at the same time. I was ready to quit and I was just like, you know what? Just do it. Just commit.” (62:25)

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6. Celebrity Collabs & Viral Moments

[66:04–68:29]

• Lizzo x Chili’s Collab:
  • Describes her excitement and disbelief when asked to film with Lizzo—“You never know who's watching your videos.” (66:04)
  • Praises Lizzo’s kindness and mentions gratitude to brands that uplift creators.
• Dream Collabs:
  • Names Jake Shane and Kylie Jenner as ideal mukbang partners.

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7. Mother’s Health Crisis & Caregiving

[69:42–78:08]

• Kidney Disease Battle:
  • Mom's chronic kidney issues culminated in an emergency last year—life-threatening infection and surgery.
  • Keila took on intense caretaking while working and managing her social media career:
    • “That's when I hit...being an only child, like, I never really cared until that point because I'm like, damn, I wish I had a sibling that could just help me right now.” (74:45)
• Keeping Up Appearances:
  • Navigated grief and anxiety while still producing content; worried about family perceptions:
    • “I was, like, really sad. I didn't talk about any of this online. I just didn't want to.” (77:14)
• Recovery:
  • Mom rebounded quickly—with characteristic stubbornness. Keila reflects on the stress and trauma, appreciating support from her stepdad.

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8. Love and Relationships

[79:19–83:33]

• How She Met Her Boyfriend:
  • High school acquaintances, reconnected on Snapchat after graduation.
  • He was “very quiet, more of a listener,” but they developed a strong, communicative partnership.
  • “He loves me more than anything, and I feel it. Everything he does, he does it with love.” (83:04)
• Relationship Strengths:
  • Emphasizes strong support, absence of jealousy, and open communication.

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9. Looking Forward

[83:46–84:58]

• Future Aspirations:
  • Keila remains open—hopes to have her own place, maybe engaged, but is focused on taking opportunities as they come.

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Notable Quotes & Memorable Moments

• “My dad was just a side character, I guess you could say.” — Keila (09:00)
• “No, I never asked him to stop drinking. I was just there because my mom forced me. She dropped me off at his house.” — Keila (22:13)
• “I'm glad it was food because...you are gonna, most of the time, stay in that bubble.” — Keila (55:45)
• “You never know who's watching your videos.” — Keila on Lizzo reaching out (66:04)
• “As soon as I found out [about the collab], we went to go take two shots, we needed to celebrate.” — Keila (68:12)
• “No one really cares...what's more important is you getting that help and finally being able to understand things.” — Keila on dyslexia (48:34)
• “He loves me more than anything, and I feel it. Everything he does, he does it with love.” — Keila on her boyfriend (83:04)
• On her mom's resilience: “This girl recovered like, so quick...She cannot stay still.” (75:31–76:02)

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Important Timestamps

• 02:57 – Keila’s intro, background
• 04:08 – Early childhood, shyness, “gordita” nickname
• 07:09 – Parental separation and family support
• 12:25 – Father's alcoholism, family perspective
• 18:36 – Physical and emotional abuse incident
• 22:13 – Emotional detachment from her father
• 24:07 – Dad leaves for Honduras, Keila’s first visit
• 31:17 – Single mom struggles and love for fast food
• 35:41 – Moving to Tijuana, daily border crossing
• 40:32 – Difficulty at school, social anxiety
• 44:58 – Dyslexia diagnosis, academic recovery
• 51:53 – Start of content creation journey, going viral
• 55:45 – Mukbangs as a niche and balancing eating
• 62:25 – Quitting her job for content full-time
• 66:04 – Lizzo/Chili’s collaboration
• 69:42 – Mother’s health scare, caretaker role
• 77:14 – Maintaining content amidst personal crisis
• 79:19 – Love story with her boyfriend
• 83:46 – Hopes for the future

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Final Thoughts

This episode stands out for its blend of vulnerability and humor. Keila’s story resonates beyond her TikTok success, touching on themes of resilience, chosen family, overcoming hardship, and the power of self-advocacy. Alannized’s inviting style ensures tough subjects are handled with honesty but also hope, making the conversation both sobering and inspiring for anyone navigating similar family or personal battles.

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[B]

Girl, let me tell you, it's been a pretty busy last couple of weeks. I guess I'll just touch up on today. I woke up 5am, went to the gym, got my workout in. Then we drove here and I'm here.

[A]

How long was the drive?

[B]

Like two hours.

[A]

With her lifestyle videos. For maybe anyone at home.

[B]

Okay, my name is Kayla Pacheco. I'm 24. I always forget I'm like 24 or 23. I'm 24. I'm from San Diego, born and raised in San Diego. I'm Mexican and Hondurania and yeah, I'm a mukbanger. I do social media, Tik tok and I post on Instagram too. Yeah, I'll just do anything that comes my way. Really.

[A]

We have to start from the beginning. I want to know a little bit more about your childhood como Era Kayla, growing up, how would you describe your personality? What were things you like to do?

[B]

Oh, man. Little Kayla and Kayla now are very similar in a way. I've always been very shy. I'm a big rule follower. Same love for food. I think that has to do with just, like, growing up as an only child, maybe because I didn't have as many, like, people at home to talk to. Yeah, I was always very shy, very quiet, very nervous all the time, very anxious. So, yeah.

[A]

What were hobbies you like doing? Just eating.

[B]

Just eating?

[A]

Like that's it?

[B]

Yes. My nickname was Gordita because I would always just be eating. That was my favorite thing to do. Make different food combinations, be playing around in the house, making up different stuff. During my time, there was still no iPads, no iPhones, so all you had to do was just play. I did grow up living with my mom and her sister and her two kids, so she had two daughters. One of them was my age, almost. She's one year younger than me, so most of my childhood is with her. All we would do is, like, mess around, play around, play outside, play cards. Like, now that I think about it, it's so crazy how we were just able to come up with all these things with no technology, you know, it's so crazy now, all these iPad kids. But, yeah, just play around. So growing up from, yeah, basically zero to, like, 8 years old, I grew up with my cousin, which I consider her my sister. We're very. She's probably, like, one of the people who knows me the best, like, in this life. And I'll always be very grateful that I had. I got to have her in my life, because if it wasn't for her, then I really would have been, like, a single, like, only child, which I feel like, would have been very difficult for me.

[A]

How was it like growing up in San Diego?

[B]

I mean, it was great. You're very close to the border, so you can always be going to tj. You're two hours away from la. My grandpa is actually living in tj. He's not from tj, so we'd go to TJ very often to go visit him. Yeah, I liked growing up in San Diego. It's very beautiful. Not as much traffic as. Oh, you know what?

[A]

I would think San Diego is very similar to, like, Santa Monica area. Yes, Santa Monica area.

[B]

Oh, my goodness. I just went to Santa Monica for the first time, like, last month, and I was like, oh, I like it. You're like, ooh, San Diego.

[A]

But in la, what did you do out there.

[B]

I actually came down here for the Lizzo collab. So I collaborated with Lizzo and I stayed a couple days extra, hung out with some other foodie friends down here and we just like went to dinner down there and I was like, I love this vibe. I still would not move though.

[A]

You like San Diego? That's like your hometown?

[B]

Yes. I cannot be away from my family.

[A]

I love it, you know, Familia cuenta no poquito mas de como relacion contus papas. Growing up, would you consider yourself a daddy's girl, a mommy's girl, and describe both of your relationship with each of your parents growing up?

[B]

Mommy's girl for sure. All the way even to today. Me and my mom are very close. She's my best friend. I was very, always very attached to my mom, not so much to my dad. I don't know what it was. Ever since I was little, my first memory, I was just like not vibing with him. I would always tell my mom, my mom and my dad are separated. They separated when I was around like 1 years old. And he would just be in and out of our lives or my life. My mom would always let him come back because she thought it would be important for me to have like that father figure. So like no matter what was going on between them, she always thought it was important like to put that aside and let him be here whenever he wanted to for me. And I would always just be like, no girl, like I just want to be with you. Like I don't want my dad around. I would like tolerate him, but like whenever he'd be around, I would just be annoyed. I remember him always being the same, like he was always an alcoholic, which I was thinking about, like is so crazy because I just always knew that, like I never discovered him drinking, you know, Like I just always grew up knowing he was an alcoholic and that's just who he was. Like, like he was a high functioning alcoholic because he was pretty normal up until like some points. But yeah, it was

[A]

so, you know about your dad's addiction. But before we get to that, you know, quiero blati caro poquito mas de la separation de tos papas, you know, no squintas that at 1 years old your parents separated, you know, what was that like for you growing up? You know, in que momento infancias cuenta. Like, you know what, I thought this was normal. I thought every parent, you know, goes in and out of your life. But no, this isn't normal. My parents aren't together. How was that explained to you? Or do you feel like it was something that you caught on, like, by yourself?

[B]

I feel like that was just like always how my life was. It was always my mom was my main person. Like, that was my mom and my dad. And my dad was just like a side character, I guess you could say. In my life, it was always just my mom. We had a huge support system, like I said, Said we lived with Mya, which was her sister. And growing up, my grandma would take care of me. You know, she was a single mom. She also had to go to work. So my grandma was always there. Like, there was always somebody there to take care of us. I think maybe I didn't feel it because I had so many people there for me, especially my mom. So. Yeah.

[A]

Did you ever question it, you know, growing up where, like, maybe when your dad would come around, he would annoy you, but before it got to that point, would you ever question yourself or question your mom? Like, hey, you know, I see my friends, I see my other family members. Would you ever question his whereabouts?

[B]

No, I would not question his whereabouts. I honestly didn't really care what he was up to. Like I said, I was pretty happy with what I had. I don't think it really hit me up until, you know, you grow up, you have those little father daughter dances and that's. And I was like, wow, I really don't have a dad. You know, Like, I would feel like the odd one out. Like, damn. But again, I always had someone to show up for me. Like, my Theo would go with me to those father daughter dances. But at the same time, it's like, it's not like, yeah, it's my uncle, not my dad, but I will always be grateful for everyone that was there for me and like, tried to give me the best childhood possible. But yeah, I feel like during those times or even like just like recently, which is kind of crazy. Like, I don't know, just thinking about it and thinking about, like, how different things would be if my dad was there. Like another parental figure, I guess. But I would say the first time was like going to the dances, the father daughter dances, and not having my dad there, you know. My mom did a very, very good job making sure that I was never, like missing anything. Like, anything I needed. She made sure to get it for me. I think the only thing was, like, knowing that she was the one that had to give me all of these things. I would feel like, so much guilt, like, asking or like wanting Certain things, because she was the only one. So I think in like, certain cases like that, like, wishing there was two to like, be able to give me these things instead of just one person. So I think I did feel that guilt of like, oh, she's working so hard and I just want like this like, like toy, you know? Yeah.

[A]

So your dad wasn't really like even present like that, like financially in your life.

[B]

In middle school, that's when he was just like completely gone. But before that, like elementary school probably when I was still little, he would like, give my mom money and provide financially. He always made pretty good money. So up until that point, he would like, help out or always give me money or always try to like, get close to me with things. And it wasn't until after where I would just like, feel guilty, like, oh, dang. Like, she has to like, be the one to like, provide me with all these things or like, if I, you know, just like asking for things that you see people at school with. So that's what would kind of make me feel guilty and be like, damn.

[A]

Nos cuentas un poquita. Your dad struggled with, you know, alcohol abuse. And you know, you were mentioning that for you growing up, it was almost like the normal, right? Like you would just wake up and your dad would be drinking or whenever you would see him, he would be actively drunk. What that day to day look like for you growing up with a dad that struggled with addiction? And you were like, oh, this is like an addiction that my dad struggles with.

[B]

Yeah. I always felt like my dad was different from everybody else just in the ways of like, you know, when someone gets drunk, they get a little bit more expressive about how they feel about you. So he'd always be like, I love you so much. You're my baby girl. I love you so much. But I would personally think that was just so annoying. And I think that's what would make me kind of like not want to be around him. Long as I can remember, he was just always like that. He was always like a drunk. I think it wasn't until like we were maybe like five, me and my cousin were like playing around in the house and he had said for some reason he was gonna stop drinking. And we were playing hide and seek or something and we like go hide behind the couch and there's like freaking 10 empty bottles of wine. And I was like, I was like, oh my gosh. First I was like, why would you just leave these here? But I was like, I never really expected much from him. Or like, expected really anything from him because I always did just rely on my mom. Like, that was my parent. And he was just there because he needed, like, some place to be. Like, he would just be in and out of the house, like, if he needed to stay there. So if he was there, I would just be like, oh, it's another roommate or something, you know.

[A]

How was his addiction explained to you? Growing? You know, as a parent, I have to be like, how was that explained? And how did you as a child, comprehend that at the time?

[B]

You know, I can't really remember. My mom has always been very honest with me about things that, like, happen. So, like, for example, my dad drinking and stuff, it was never a secret. It was always just like, oh, that's who he is. And that's always who he has been. I think even when my mom met him, he was already drinking, so it was just like. Like, that's who he is, you know, so it wasn't like anything crazy for me. It was already just like, that's life,

[A]

you know, I can relate a lot with you. They can relate to that. Growing up, you know, with an alcoholic parent. Yo, a platicado munchisimo de so about how, you know, my dad's addiction to alcohol really did affect me and her family growing up. I've talked about this and I know, but I feel like my dad, you know, maybe your dad would get very expression or very lovey dovey, but growing up, my dad would get very, very aggressive. Right. He was like an aggressive drunk. Or if we would, you know, react a certain way, He would just get very aggressive. So I feel like for me growing up, it really, you know, took me to a state of, like, being on edge. Right. And like your dad too. My dad was very much like Sal Travajo says, like, it was very much like a constant and an everyday thing for my dad. And I feel like as I started growing up and as I started understanding what starting something new isn't just hard, it's terrifying. So much work goes into this thing that you're not entirely sure will work out. And it can be hard to make that leap of faith. Trust me, I know. In the past, I've had a lash brand. I've launched Merch, and even. Even with this podcast. When I started this podcast, I wasn't even sure what I was doing. What if no one listens? What if no one sees my vision? Now I know that I was right in believing in myself and launching my podcast. Despite all fears and hesitations. It can also help when you have a partner like Shopify on your side to help. Shopify is the commerce platform behind millions of businesses around the world and 10% of all e commerce in the US from household whole names like Aloe Yoga and Rare Beauty to brands just getting started. Get started with your own design studio. With hundreds of ready to use templates, Shopify helps you build a beautiful online store that matches your brand style. Get the word out like you have a marketing team behind you. Easily create emails and social media campaigns wherever your customers are scrolling or strolling. Best yet, Shopify is your commerce experts with world class expertise in everything from managing inventory to international shipping to processes, returns and beyond. I love Shopify. Amigas por que emberda que si hace owning a business so easy. In the past when I've had my lash brand and also whenever I launch merch, I've always used Shopify Por que hace todos super fasiri. It's time to turn those what ifs into with Shopify today. Sign up for your $1 per month trial today at shopify.com Alan go to shopify.com Alan that is shopify.com. Ready to soundtrack your summer with Red

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[B]

So there was a couple of times where he would just kind of like. I don't know, it was just like a switch, I guess you can say, where he's one of those people that everybody likes. He's very easygoing, very chillaxed. But then there'd just be those moments where he kind of would just like something would like trigger him off. An example I can think of was like doing homework. I was struggling a lot with school when I was younger. I would struggle doing homework, being able to pay attention in class Being able to understand the material. So my mom or my dad would usually be the ones to do homework with us. But for, I guess, I don't know, maybe he wanted to be a dad this day. And he was like, let's do homework together. So we're doing homework. And he's, like, trying to have me answer this question, and I'm like, I don't know. And he's like, como no vases? Like, are you dumb? Like, whatever. Yes. It just, like, triggered something in him. I don't know if maybe he also had, like, trauma from this or. I don't know. And it just, like, set him off. And he, like, hit me and, like, made me being against the wall for hours and hours until my mom got home. And she got home, and she was like, what the fuck? Like, what are you doing? And I was just, like, against the wall for, like, the whole day just because I. I didn't understand the homework. Instead of just, like, being like, a normal person and being like, okay, like, what do you not get? Or, like, let's work through this. And just, like, a bunch of other things later in life where I think that was kind of, like, why I didn't want to be around him. I just always found, like, certain things kind of annoying. Like, he would, like, pinch me, like, out of, like, love and stuff like that, which I hated. And, yeah, like, the. Just, like, the constantly, like, crying and saying, I love you so much. I love you. Because in my head, I think I was just like, no, you don't.

[A]

Like, like, you're drunk.

[B]

Yeah. Like, if you did, you would have, like, been better and, like, not. Not, like, be weird.

[A]

Did you ever get to a point where you kind of had to, like, ask him, like, dad, please, like, I don't like seeing you like this. Stop drinking. Me and my siblings, you know, where we would ask my dad, like, please, dad, if you love us. Because, you know, at the end of the day, and I've said this before, even though I can sit down here and say, you know, that my dad was horrible emotionally, but, like, from what he knew how to be a parent, you know, back then. But I think for me, as a child, I wanted more than just the materialistic stuff when it really started affecting, you know, our home life, our family, and just, you know, me and my siblings, Diego Momento, where, you know, we would ask my dad, like, please, dad, like, stop drinking. Stop, you know, getting drunk every single day. Like, stop if you really love us. And my sister, too. My sister has always been. She's the only girl. So to my dad, she was always like, mija, mi nina, right? So getting a no from me was so easy. But for him to say no to my sister was hard. Me and my siblings, including my sister, And that really broke us and really hurt us because we're like, oh, damn. Like, hearing that from your own father, like, damn, you love this more than your kids, was really heartbreaking. Did you ever have a moment where, you know, you try to be like, dad, please, si me amasi nos quieres if you want to be a present father, por favor de gesto.

[B]

First of all, I can imagine, I can't even imagine how difficult that is. I'm gonna sound really cold hearted and like such a bitch, but I just did not care. For me, it was my mom. If that was my mom, I think that would have like, broke me. I would have just been in shambles. But the fact that it was my dad, the only reason why I would keep seeing him and try to have a relationship with him is because my mom wanted us to have a relationship so bad. Like, she really did put in that effort for me to like, have a relationship with him. But I was just always like, nope. Like, I don't care. I could care less if he was in my life or not. I don't know. I guess it's props to my mom. She was just like enough to be both for me personally, because it was just like I wasn't missing anything if he was was in there, but I also was fine. Yeah, if he was there, it was just like, for me it was like, whatever. Like he was just like another person in my life. Yeah. No, I never asked him to stop drinking. I was just there because my mom forced me. She dropped me off at his house.

[A]

But I feel like that goes a lot with. Because your parents were separated for you. It was so easy to be like, you know what? I'm not seeing you every single day in my life. And the days I'm seeing you, like, I'm not vibing with your vibe because you're drunk. I feel like for me it was a little different because it's like my parents, you know, in her childhood, never separated. So it was like we're constantly dealing with the. Because I'm like, oh my God, like, I already know he's coming home with his six pack. And by the time he's home, he probably already up like four or not even the six packs, the 12 packs, the six pack before he even got home. That, you know, after middle school, he stopped Being completely, you know, out of your life. How did that happen? You know, how did you feel in that moment? You know, from seeing him here and there and being like, oh, like, I have not seen my dad in so long.

[B]

Yeah. So I guess what you bring up makes a lot of sense. Like, it would have been different if my parents were together and he was a drunk, and then later on, they separated. But I think because from the beginning, he was just, like, always, like, a. Like, a side character, it was easier because I knew he wasn't always going to be there. My dad is from Honduras, and he would always go back and forth to Honduras. And, yeah, I guess around when I was in middle school, maybe still elementary, but I'm pretty sure it's middle school, he moved back to Honduras, and he never came back. And I remember as well when he gave me the hug and came and said goodbye, and he was like, oh, I'm not coming back to the United States. He did not like the US he loves being in Honduras. And so he just decided to move back, and he was not coming back. So I was like, okay, okay. I was like, okay.

[A]

Were you excited or were you, like, kind of like, you know what? This is good news, but also, like, in the future, it might be bad news for me because at the end of the day, he's my dad.

[B]

I think I still didn't understand, like, that he wasn't gonna come back. Like, because I was so used to him, like, being there every once in a while. Like, I don't think I understood that that was it. Like, if I wanted to go see him, I had to go to Honduras, which I did. My mom sent me to Honduras for, like, a month, I think, right after he moved. So I was like, in fifth grade. Oh, man. Man, it was crazy. First off, I still can't believe my mom let me go there. I always tell her this. I can't believe she let me go. I flew all the way to Honduras by myself. I remember I saw my dad at the airport when I landed, and I just cried. But I was like, I'm pretty sure I cried because I'm like, oh, my God. I was like, wow. Like, they have those little flight attendants with you, and, like, you're traveling, but still I was like, I don't even know where I am. So I get to Honduras, I get to meet all my cousins that I've never met before, and it was kind of crazy because we all look alike, and here with my family, I don't look like my family at all. I look exactly like my dad. So people would never even think I'm my mom's daughter because she's very light skinned. And then I was like, chunky and brown. They were like, whose daughter is this? But anytime they'd see me with my dad, I was like his twin. Getting to go to Honduras and seeing my cousins and seeing how they all look like me, I was like, damn, this is crazy. But they are all super sweet. And it was like really nice getting to meet all of them. I was in Honduras for about a month and it was very fun. He had built me a house there, so he was very excited for me to go see the house. And I was like, okay. Like, this is cool. But I'm like, damn, I want to be back with my mom. And I was having a lot of fun. It wasn't until like again, like the switches, like, he just goes crazy. For example, I had brought like some cute little skirts. I was still a little girl. I wake up or like, I'm a up and I smell fire. I go to the back of the house and he's burning all my skirts. And he's like, girl shouldn't be wearing little skirts like this or skirts like this because they're like below the knee. Because at this point we would still go to church and stuff. So none of my stuff was like above the knee. And I was like, like, my mom got me those. Like, I was so sad. I really liked those. And he would just do things like that or like, get my toys and like sell them and just be like. Or give them away and be like, oh, the other kids needed it more than you. And I'm like, like, that was my toy.

[A]

Like, my mom bought me that toy.

[B]

Just like walk back and like, my things would be gone. Or like, he would do things like that, like set my skirts on fire. Like, it was just like weird stuff like that.

[A]

Do you feel like that trip made you guys at least a little bit closer? Do you feel like that trip was almost like the, you know what? Like, this was the, you know, the final straw of like, oh, I see why I don't really care or want my dad in my life. Life.

[B]

I wouldn't say it made us that much closer, but I would say it made me like more excited to go back to Honduras because I did spend a lot of time with my cousins. And we would just like go walk around, be in nature, just be doing random stuff. And that was really fun. There's a lot of animals over there too. So most of the time I would spend it with my cousins or like my tia's houses and stuff like that. We did go back the next year, but this time my mom came with me and that was a much better, better experience. She really enjoyed it. After that, we haven't gone back. Well, I've been wanting to go back or like, maybe at some point I will because now I have more siblings from his side. Yeah, he ended up having more kids, which was crazy.

[A]

How's your guys's relationship now? Do you feel like now that you're an adult, you've tried to like, you know, rekindle that relationship? Do you guys talk often? Like, how's that relationship today day?

[B]

No, it's still the same. Like, maybe we'll talk on the phone once a year on my birthday. He'll call me and say happy birthday. And like, I'll talk to my little sister because she can speak now. I think she's like 5 years old and she like watches my videos, so that's really cute. And she's like, oh. And stuff like that, which is like super cute. But at the same time, I don't know, it's just so crazy. Well, now he doesn't drink, so it's so weird.

[A]

Like, it's like a different person talking

[B]

to him on the phone. And yeah, he's not drinking. Like, he's not like crying his feelings to me anymore. Like, he's just like, oh, how's your birthday? What are you doing? Where before it would have just been crying.

[A]

Has he tried to apologize for like, any of the things he's done?

[B]

He'll be like, oh, I know I wasn't always the best dad, but I love you and like, I'm your dad. Like, it's always like the same thing. Like, stay close to God, go to church. I'm your dad. Like, like, kind of like, you have to forgive me. Like, I'm. I gave, like, you're my blood type stuff. Or like, he'll want me to like, meet my siblings or like, go visit him. He does ask me to go, like, visit and see my siblings, but I don't know. It's a far. It's a far trip. Yeah, it's a far trip. And then it's just, I don't know. I don't know.

[A]

How's that been for you? You know, you're happy that he's no longer, you know, having this addiction, but does the thought ever cross your mind of like, damn, that sucks. Like, he other kids now and this little girl is getting a different Version of a dad that I maybe wish I would have had. Do you feel like now as you've gotten older, do you ever think about it, like, damn, I wish my dad could have gotten better when I was younger so I could have at least had a healthier, more present father?

[B]

Yeah, I did think about it at first because when he first told me he was having another kid, I was still a teenager. So I think I was a little bit triggered that. I was like, damn, now he's sober, he's gonna have another kid, he has a new girlfriend, like. But at the same time, I was very happy for him because he was very lonely his whole life. He was always, like, struggling with relationships and friends because he was a drunk. I think he was just always searching for like, that love, I don't know, or like that family, and he finally got it. So I feel like I mostly just feel really happy for him that he finally can have that growing up. I did feel really bad for him too.

[A]

I feel like it says a lot about you to the fact that, you know, you can. And it would be valid if you felt some type of way, like, damn, like you couldn't be the father I wish I wanted. But it says a lot about you that even though you've gone, he's put you through a lot of trauma. You've been like, you know what? At the end of the day, I'm glad he's grown. I'm glad he's doing better, not just for me, but for himself. Because, you know, Tamien como se muncho is his first time living. And maybe, you know, when he was going through all these addictions and going through all these things that would affect you too. Like, he was probably trying to figure out what the was going on with his life. So what was it like growing up with a single mom? Did you ever see her struggle or go through that? You now think about it like, oh, you know what? That was my mom trying to make ends meet. That was my mom really, you know, know. Did you ever see your mom struggle?

[B]

My mom is tough. She's never let me seen her cry. Let her, like, she's never let me see her be sad. I think that also has to do with me not being able to really show, like, any like, emotion or like, lovey dovey stuff like that. Like, even growing up, I was very, like, off put by, like, like affection. I would just be like, no, don't hug me. But my mom is very strong. We did obviously struggle financially because she wasn't making like, Crazy money. And she has to support herself and me, which I think is why I have such a big love for fast food. Because she also doesn't cook. She was 18 when she got married, so she went straight from her house to being married with my dad and he was a cook. So she never learned to cook. And she would try, but it was, would just be terrible. So we ate out every single day. That really did just develop a love for fast food for me especially because of the deals. Like I will always appreciate fast food deals. The biggest one I could Remember is like KFC. We would eat KFC every single day and get a $5 fill up box because we only had $5 each. Like it was just that or rotating from other places. But I would say that's what made me love fast food so much because I grew up eating it. I never ate at home. She made like anything I needed or wanted, she would get it for me. She always did a good job of making sure that I didn't know if she was like having a hard time or struggling, which I wish she did because I feel like,

[A]

I don't know, considerate. Do you feel like.

[B]

No. I was very like hyper aware of like making sure that I didn't ask for too much or like I knew of our situation.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

So I always tried to make sure not to like ask for like crazy things or like, like the new popular shoes. Still always tried to make sure to get me those things. I was always pretty aware of our situation. We didn't always have the best living situation. We would move a lot. I knew what to ask for and what not to ask for. I wasn't gonna be greedy and be like, give me this, you know. And I also wasn't a very like, difficult child. I was very easygoing where my mom was. I wanted to be like, I didn't care where I. I was as long as my mom was there. And I also never like talked back. I was very scared of my mom. Oh, she would have to be like, I'm gonna send you with your dad. That was. She wouldn't. She never laid a hand on me. She's never hit me. Her thing was just like, I'm gonna send you with your dad. And I'd be like, okay, no, I'm sorry. But I was never really bad up until like middle school, like when I was a teenager, you know, when you start trying to like do your thing. Yeah. I had a lot of anxiety, like I said. So I think I was, was just. You're a very yeah, very. Go with the flow. Whatever.

[A]

My mom said I would do that in middle school. You guys actually ended up moving from the US to Tijuana. Quinta, no poquito Mass. Why that happened? How was that news told to you? How did you react? You know, you know, I know Tijuana, it's very close by, but it's still a different country. What was that like for you, you know, in middle school? To be like, damn, like, I'm moving to another country. I might not see friends. Did you see your friends? Were you still going to school here or there?

[B]

I don't remember my mom telling me, like, we're gonna really move to Mexico. Like I feel like it just kind of happened. We moved to tj. My mom got laid off from her job and we had nowhere else to go. And thankfully my grandpa, he's always been there to help us and he was like, you can come live with me if you want to. So we went to go live with my grandpa. It wasn't foreign to me or anything because we would go visit him every weekend. So I already knew, knew what it was there, you know, like I knew his place, I knew I loved my grandpa.

[A]

Like it wasn't like a culture shock.

[B]

No. Like my grandpa was a father figure to me as well. So living with him was actually really fun. He would help me with my homework, he would do whatever I asked. Really. I would say the biggest shock to me was the food. Like I said we would eat out every day. So in tj, there's not a lot of fast food like that or you gotta drive a little bit far to get the fast food. So we would be eating stuff from the grocery store and I would. But even the groceries there taste different. And I was like, dang, like I don't like how this tastes. Cuz I'm used to only eating, I don't know, KFC and stuff like that. And I was like, I swear I lived off of the chicken nuggets until we moved back to the US because I just did not like home cooked food. Or one, my mom didn't cook, two, it was just like that was one of the only options to get there. So I remember only eating chicken nuggets. I did get into like novellas when I was there because it was only like cable TV and that's what was playing. I think it was called like mischie annuals or something. I don't, I don't even remember.

[A]

Is it the MTV one?

[B]

I can't remember, but it was something about A you know what?

[A]

It might be that novella. Yeah, that's where that song comes from. It's like the. Isn't Talia in that song? Song?

[B]

I have no clue.

[A]

But there is like a quinceanera noa. It's not the reality show that. Not the reality show. Right. It's more of like an actual noa.

[B]

It's like a TV show. Yeah, I was clocked into that every day after school. I had friends there too, like in the V. So it was like, honestly, it was fine for me. And I guess another thing that kind of sucked is you got to wake up super early to cross to make it on time. And sometimes they close down the border and you could be late. You could be waiting there for still

[A]

be coming to school over here.

[B]

Yeah. So we would cross in the morning. That was probably the hardest because you would have some really long days having to wake up super early, cross then, like, finish school and cross back. I was fine. Like I said, I was chill as long as my mom was there and I had food. I was like, I wasn't like, tripping, really. And I love my grandpa. So to me, that was just like, oh, this is cool.

[A]

How long did you guys live in

[B]

Mexico for maybe like a year max, until my mom was able to get another job and we could. Could like, afford to move back. When we did move back, it was like this little one bedroom apartment. Her room was the living room and my room was the room. And on top of that, I still decided to bring a dog home from Mexico. No, I. My mom let me hang out with one of my friends, and she was like, oh, I have, like, a puppy nobody wants. Do you want it? And I was like, yes. And I took it home. My mom picks me up, and I was like, don't be mad at me. And I was like, I got a puppy. And she was like.

[A]

She's like,

[B]

oh, my gosh. Like, what the hell? And she's like, okay, let's go to Walmart to get things for the dog. And yeah, I brought it home. And she's like, that thing better not have pulgas in it. I get home, I'm in my room and I'm playing with my little. My new little puppy. Tell me why I see something moving in her fur. I was like, you have to be joking me right now. I, like, go through her fur and she has pulgas. I was like, my mom is gonna kill me.

[A]

How did you tell her?

[B]

I didn't. I got them all out and I would just Like, I, like, picked them out, and then I showered her, and they were all gone, thankfully. But I was like, oh, my gosh. Like, I don't even know how my mom was okay with it. If I was my mom, I would have been like, girl, go get. Give that dog back.

[A]

Yeah, give it back to your friend.

[B]

Yes. But now we still have that dog. Eight years later. She's eight now. Now she ended up being best friends with my mom. Like, that's my mom's dog now. They're everywhere.

[A]

It's always like that. It's always when you bring a dog home, And it's always them that end up being most attached to the dogs. But it really is like that.

[B]

She's the queen of the house, like, above me and above my stepdad is my dog, or I guess her dog, kind of.

[A]

How were you in school? You know, were you the outcast? Were you popular? Were you shy? Were you aprendida?

[B]

I was very quiet and shy. So like I said, I was very close to my mom. So when I was younger, I kind of mentioned that I lived with my cousin, which I consider her my sister. So we were very close. And we were also very close in age. So going to school together, we could go to school at the same school, have lunch at the same time. So we would always be together, even at school. So once she moved away, I feel like it was very hard for me because I did not have any friends. And for the rest of, like, elementary, I really didn't have any friends, so I would just be by myself. I wasn't, like, cool or cute. I was, like, chubby and, like, ugly, and I was very awkward, so I couldn't make friends. So it was very hard for me. When my cousin left in middle school, my mom started working at a school, and she transferred me there. So once I got to middle school, I feel like I started to fit in a little bit better just because it was, like, a bilingual school. So it was a lot of. Of, like, it was more Mexican kids. So I feel like I would just, like, get along with them better. And I knew my mom was there, so once my cousin left, I grew, like, very anxious, and I would just, like, start crying in school thinking, like, something happened to my mom, and I would just start crying. And I was like, I need to leave. Like, I need to be with my mom. So that was, like, a big struggle that we had was, like, me being able to, like, be away, like, attachment issues. I had a lot of attachment issues, I think, because after that I was like, oh, I only have like, my mom. That was very hard. But I got over it. You grow up a little and I'm like, you go to the school she works at.

[A]

Literally, like, you follow her?

[B]

Yes, you follow her.

[A]

What did your mom do?

[B]

Front desk lady.

[A]

Oh, okay. Like at the, at the front office?

[B]

Yeah, she worked at the office.

[A]

So you'd be pulling up with her mom?

[B]

Yes. And then all the other office ladies, their kids also went to school. And we were all the same age, so we all went to school at the same time and would just like, visit our mom.

[A]

So you guys were just kicking at the office sometimes?

[B]

Yeah, but it was. Was like a much better experience. Once I moved schools in high school, I went back to, like, being very shy. I was so quiet. I was an ROTC kid.

[A]

O, that's good though. So you have a lot of discipline too? Because I know Andre, rotc, like, teaches a lot of, like, discipline.

[B]

Right. I guess you can say I was very committed. Like I said, I'm a big rule follower. So whatever, whatever a teacher or a parent or someone tells me to do, I do it. So I was very committed. I did not know that's what the weird kids did, kid. Like, I signed up before I even started high school. So once I found out, it was like, you're the weird kid.

[A]

That is very true, though.

[B]

You have the freshman orientation. I didn't even know what ROTC was, but I saw them going like, las vistolas. Knowing the morale. I was like, I need to do that. So I told my mom, I'm like, we need to sign me up for this class. And she's like, are you sure you want to do that, like? And I was like, yes, yes. I start. And I'm like, I did not know this was for, like, the weird kids. I stuck to it for like two years. And after I was like, oh, I can't do this anymore. I even went to, like, their summer camps and stuff. Like, I was in it. And I was just like, you know what, I'm tired cuz you have to wear your uniform to school also. And I was like, what was it

[A]

like Fridays, Like a certain day. That is crazy. Did you ever, like, when you were in ntc, did you ever have, like, thoughts of, like, you know what, I'm going to join the military? Because I know San Diego is a very, like, military city too.

[B]

I had the thought once, but then I was like, nah, I can't be doing all this, like, physical stuff. I was like, I'm not gonna make It And I was just like. I felt like I wasn't smart enough because they give you like practice tests too in rotc. And I was like, you gotta learn all of this. Yeah, like the rankings and stuff like that. I was like, ugh, I don't want to do this. So mostly it was just like physical wise. I was like, I'm not gonna be doing push ups and all of this. So I dropped after like two years of doing it. But honestly, I'm proud of myself for sticking to it for like two years.

[A]

How were you academically? Do you feel like you were smart? Did you have good grades? What was your favorite subject?

[B]

Yeah, I was pretty average. Like, I was an average student. I finished high school with like a 3.5. I think. I can't really remember in elementary or middle school. I did get diagnosed with dyslexia. So that helped a lot because after, after that they were able to help me and like, give me certain tools to be able to do better in school. And then once I got to high school, I was in honors English. So it really does help. So if you feel like you have something wrong with you, just go get the help. Most schools have the resources for it or really anywhere you can find help now online. It's so easy.

[A]

Was that scary for you prior to getting diagnosed with that? Was it scary? You're like, oh my God, what is going on with me? Why can't I. I get this? Why am I feeling this way? Was that like an internal struggle for you growing up?

[B]

Definitely. Because ever since I could remember, school was very hard for me. I just could not understand or comprehend anything. I was always daydreaming. I couldn't focus. Then the teachers brought it up to my mom and she's like, okay, this is something that we need to like, look more into. So they got me tested and then they're like, she has dyslexia. So we got got help for it and it was fine. I had like a little bit extra help, which I wasn't embarrassed to do. I feel like a lot of people think it's embarrassing, but what's embarrassing is like, you know, maybe I'm in high school and I still don't understand, like,

[A]

going into adulthood and you're like, like.

[B]

And I still don't know what I'm doing. So honestly, I'm so happy that I was able to get that help because I was able to start focusing more in class. I started understanding material because of the extra help. And then once I was in high school, I Was pretty much good. So I'm. I'm very grateful I was able to get.

[A]

What were things that they would help you with? Was it like a class or were, like, certain exercises?

[B]

Yeah, they give you, like, little things. I remember they gave me, like, a strip with, like, a line. So you're only reading one line at a time. I don't really remember exactly what we were doing, but it's like a group of kids, they, like, pull out of class for extra, extra support. And like, another thing is, like, I just cannot focus even to this day. It's very hard for me to focus or stay on track on a certain conversation, which I feel like some people have noticed in my videos. I'll bring something up, and then I'm on some. I'm on something else. Very hard for me to stay on track to this day. Or even dyslexia, too. I still have times where I just, like, read something completely different. And I'll read it and I'll read it, and I'll read it that way, too, and I'll talk about it in that way. And I. Then something just clicks in my head and I'm like, oh, my God, I was reading that wrong the whole time. Like, for example, the other day I was getting this cookie butter granola. I was so excited to eat this cookie butter granola. I go eat it. I'm like, this tastes like peanut butter. I look at the package and it says peanut butter, not cookie butter.

[A]

Cookie butter the whole time?

[B]

Yeah. Like, I read it multiple times because I was so excited to eat it, but it said peanut butter butter. So it's just like, things.

[A]

But your brain was, like, reading because you were probably so excited and thinking about the cookie butter.

[B]

Yes, if I get really excited, yeah.

[A]

That's crazy. What piece of advice, you know, can you give anyone watching that is currently struggling with that and feels ashamed or embarrassed to ask for help? What's wrong with me? Like, oh, my God. Like, maybe people might feel dumb, you know, to even ask for help or even might feel dumb. Like, what do you mean I'm reading it wrong. What piece of advice can you. Can you give anyone watching that feels that way and is scared to ask for help?

[B]

Yeah. You know what I feel like, especially now, it's, like, very hard to be able to ask for help. Or, like, step to the side and get that extra help because you're embarrassed. Even now, like, if I were to go back to school, I feel like I would be so much more embarrassed and, like, knowing what people think of me and at the end of the day, no one really cares. Yeah, like no one really cares. And what's more important is you getting that help and finally being able to like, understand things or like know what's wrong with you and like know what other things you could do to help yourself. Because at the end of the day, like, you not helping yourself isn't gonna help anyone else.

[A]

Like, and I feel like that's very true. I feel like as kids we have this mentality of like, what is my friend gonna think? What is my classmates gonna think? A lot of the time, you guys, as you grow older, I don't even know what the my classmates are doing right now. I don talk or know where life took a lot of my classmates. So like you said, really ask for help and want to do better for yourself. No one really cares a lot. Maybe they'll make fun of you, maybe they'll judge you. But it's like a lot of the time people that judge you are probably going through other themselves. So I'm glad that you know, got that extra help and are actively trying to like do better with that, you know, because like you said, a lot of people see tienne.

[B]

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[A]

You collabed with Lizzo. But before we get to that, What in you was like, you know what? I'm going to grab my phone, my camera, and I'm going to start recording myself. What were the early content creating days like? And what was your first viral moment where you're like, you know what? Like, if I continue doing this, I feel like I can maybe make a career or something out of this.

[B]

All right. I've always, like, loved money. Like, I think because I didn't grow up with a lot of it. Like, as soon as I was old enough to start working, I started working and I would blow all of my paychecks as I'm like, oh, I could, like, go buy whatever I want. You know, I don't got to pay bills or anything. So I would just blow all my paychecks. And working is exhausting. And my mom would always tell me, like, notre damages, like, you don't have to work yet. Like, just stay in high school and enjoy your high school school years. But I was like, no, I want money. I want to be able to, like, shop and stuff now. Going back. Yeah. I wish I would have waited until after high school because you're gonna work the rest of your life. And so I started working at a restaurant. After that, I worked, like, a random job and then I worked at a hotel. At the hotel. I loved working there, but it was long hours and I could see myself moving up there. Like, if you really commit and focus and, like, do a good job, you could actually move pretty high up and.

[A]

And like, like, being the manager.

[B]

Yeah, like, you could just keep moving up. Like, within that company. They loved promoting, so I knew I could have, like, a good career there. But I was just like, damn. Like, I don't want to be working all the time. I want to be like these girls that are always like, oh, I'm going to go get my nails done. And I was just like, I just want to film videos, go get my nails done and do, like, nothing all day. Like, I just want to. That's what I want to do. Like, I'm tired of working.

[A]

I want a chill life. Yeah.

[B]

Yeah, I was like, I'm tired of working. So one day, me and my boyfriend went to the park and. And we were like, writing down our manifestations and I put. I Will or I am going to be like an influencer or something like that. And I truly believed it. Like in my heart I was like, I'm gonna do this. At that point I still hadn't posted, but right after that I would just post like random stuff. I was just posting and posting and my family was like, oh my gosh, here goes Kayla again. Posting. One day we went to a baseball game and we got some food at the baseball game and the girl in front of us dropped it all on the floor. And I told my boyfriend, I was like, if that happens to me, I would just like leave. I was like, I'd be so embarrassed. I get my food and I also drop it everywhere. So I'm like, you guys have something wrong with your plates? Why is everyone dropping it? But then after that I was like, damn, like, I'm still hungry. So we went to In n Out after the baseball game. I was like, you know what, I'm just gonna record this too. Because at this point I was just recording and posting anything. So I recorded myself eating in and out and I posted it and the next day it had like 10,000 views. And I told my boyfriend. I was like, I told you. I was like, I did it. I made it. I was like, I'm Tik Tok famous. And he's like, all right now, like, calm down. Like, it's just like one video. Like, whatever. So once that happened, I was like, I gotta run with this. Like Deisoy. I was like, I gotta keep doing this. So the next day I went to Taco Bell and did the same exact thing that I did with In n Out with Taco, Taco Bell. And that did good too. So I was like, okay, I'm not a one hit wonder. So once I saw that did good, I just kept doing the same type of videos over and over. And I was like, okay, this is my niche. Like, I found my people. It was just so crazy. Under a year, I think I got a million followers. Like it was growing crazy. Like I could have never imagined that.

[A]

So to nuncato momento pensaces that you would be going viral for mukbangs. When you wrote down that manifestation, you never thought like, oh, it's gonna be a mukbanger. I'm gonna be viral for mukbang or

[B]

you just like influencer for anything. I was like, I'll do anything. Anything that takes off, I would have done it. But I'm glad it was food because I feel like once you go viral for something or like if you're posting something, you gotta really make sure it's what you like. Because I feel like you are gonna most of the time you stay in that bubble. So I'm glad it was food because like I said, I love fast food. It was just like something that I was already eating anyways.

[A]

And you make that food look so good. Like, you know what is one thing that I want to try that you're always posting your Dukesville videos, those burgers. Like, oh my God, is that only like a San Diego thing?

[B]

It is.

[A]

Okay, okay. Because I've like tried to look it up, you guys. I've seen so many of her videos because you go very often there, you know, And I'm like, oh my God, my boyfriend's a big burger person. I like burgers. But after weight loss surgery, I feel like you know me, because Even me, my OG fans know when I started doing social media, almost 10, no over 10 years ago, I started doing a lot of lifestyle videos where I first started makeup, then I went into lifestyle and what really started getting a lot of views from you were the mukbangs. But on YouTube, people loved watching me eat. I would even edit the thumbnail with you.

[B]

I think I would watch your videos. You would like do these giant like tostadas. I think I would watch those.

[A]

Oh my God, it was so long time ago. Like they miss my eating videos. But like I can't physically, like up like a whole ass burger like I would before. But every time I see you eat, I'm like, oh my God, no. And it literally is. But I used to always think about because mukbangs are like, what are the easiest for me videos to film. Because I'm like, regardless. Like I have to eat regardless, so might as well pop my phone out or my camera and film it and just eat right to me, I enjoyed those videos. Like, I love doing mukbangs, you know, mukbangs. In a spam of like less than a year, Comaras has to, to like, you know, stay in shape and still being able to eat all this, like

[B]

make food from the beginning, I do not care how many views I was getting or if I wanted to post. I would only film two videos a week or I would only eat out twice a week. I would never do more than that. I didn't. I don't care what's going on on my social media because that was like my cheat days. Apart from that, I would always eat healthy. So the mukbangs was like my cheat days. So I already had two days a week where I would eat, eat out. And then once I started doing mukbangs on Tick Tock, I was still keeping those two days. So two days I'll eat out, eat what I like, whatever I want. That's why I repeat a lot of the same things. Because, you guys, I'm not eating anything the whole week. So all week I'll just be craving Taco Bell. And I'm like, I'm sorry, but I want to eat some Taco Bell. You know, I work out six days a week, Pilates. Then I do some weightlifting, then I do an hour of cardio and, and eat at home five times a week.

[A]

So you're like super active. So it's not even like a fast metabolism thing.

[B]

No, I'll gain weight really easily.

[A]

I feel like during that time,

[B]

Sometimes some people are like, oh, you have a fast metabolism. I'm like, girl, I wish, because I gain weight really fast.

[A]

So you really are just putting in that work. Like, and people don't see it too much because like, they think. Do you feel like now as you've blown up with like the foodie stuff, do you feel like now it's like, fuck, like, I gotta eat out more than like the two times when you initially started, or do you still keep it at two times a week?

[B]

Yeah, I still keep it at two times a week. So I started doing the full eating videos because people kept thinking I was like spitting it out. I was like, what? I was like, I'm not. So I just started doing like the behind the scenes. So I'll do my ASMR video and then the one that I have in the background is just like, so you could see that I'm not spitting it out. And I just kept doing it. So. So then that got me like four videos a week. Oh, it's like, I don't really have to eat out more than that. Maybe sometimes if I have to do like an ad here or there and they I have to like record another video. But for the most part it's usually, yeah, just two times a week. The only thing that sucks is like, let's say I want to go to a nice dinner now that's already three times that I have to eat out. Or if like we're having birthdays and celebrations, I'm just like, damn, like not gonna have to eat out again. So that's like the only things that like kind of suck because I. I try not to do it more than that. So I find myself a lot of the time, not wanting to go out or not wanting to, like, go to a nice dinner or, like, go on a date. Because I'm like, nah, I can't eat.

[A]

You're like, I already ate twice. Yeah.

[B]

Which is good.

[A]

Which you would think, because, you know, like, your biggest platform. I know you have your lifestyle page, where I feel like that also levels it out where you're like, you know what, if they really love me and with me, like, and I' eating every day, they can still follow me on my lifestyle page, which I feel like helps out.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

But I'm sure it gets sometimes, like, you know what? Like, my eating videos are what goes, like, super viral. Like, what do I do? Do you feel like the lifestyle page helps out a lot with, like, content and visibility to where people are, like, constantly seeing you even if they're not seeing you eat?

[B]

Yeah. So I feel like a big goal of mine or something I always wanted was to do lifestyle and makeup, and I just never had the time on top of the mukbangs because I was still working full time. And on my days off is when I would go film the mukbangs. And obviously, if I'm at work all day, I can't be vlogging or, like, doing other videos. So once I quit my job, I was like, all right, now I don't have any excuse. Like, I have the time, like, you're gonna commit to this lifestyle page. And that same weekend that I quit my job, I went to this festival and I posted about it on my lifestyle page, and it went crazy. It got like 50 million views or something like that. And I was like, okay, like, this was my sign that I did the right thing, because I was like, this is crazy. So because of that festival, I ended up getting, like, a lot of followers for that second page. And it really just did motivate me even more to, like, keep going. And, yeah, it was insane.

[A]

You quit your job a couple months ago, but you had already been doing content creating for a while. What was that moment like for you? What in your mind was like, you know what I mean? I think I'm ready. I think I'm ready to take that leap of faith. Were you scared? Were you nervous? Were you, like, having second thoughts of, like, I quit yield. Social media is gone. What was that whole process like for you?

[B]

Yes, I feel like it was a bit harder for me because I've always struggled with, like, financial instability. So the fact that if I quit my job, like, social media money is never stable. Like, it's different every single month. So sure, maybe you can make good money this month, but next month you might not make the same amount. So that's what would scare me. And since I started TikTok, I was working full time, 10 hour shifts. And at first it was like, fine, and it was manageable. But as my account kept growing, I also. That meant it required more of me, like doing ads or like doing things like this. A lot of the times I would have to say no or pass up on it because I just didn't have the time because I was like, I'm gonna be at work all day. Like sometimes working like seven days a week or like six days, week a week. So I was like, I don't have the time. So I would pass up on a lot of opportunities. And then it got to the point where it was just like, damn, I'm passing up more than what I would ever get here, you know? It was very, very hard for me. I did not want to quit, but it was running me dry doing both at the same time. I was ready to quit and I was just like, you know what? Just do it. Just commit. Like, I had gotten a really good opportunity and I was like, I'm gonna take this as my sign. Like, just do it. Like, you can always come back because it's a very great company that I was working for. I worked at a hotel. Hotel, and it was a really good company. So I told my boss, I was like, I'm sorry, but I was like, I'm gonna quit. And he was like, what about part time? I was like, what? Like, that wasn't even like a option in my head because I was a manager, and as a manager, you're not allowed to work part time. And I was like, really? And he was like, yeah. So I'm forever grateful that he gave me that opportunity to be able to work part time. So I would work like two days a week, and then the rest I would be focusing on TikTok or like, you know, doing that kind of stuff. And for a long time time, it was fine. But then it got to the point where even those two days, because I was just genuinely busy. And you know what? I would always wonder, like, why are these influencers always saying they're so busy? Like, all you do is nothing all day. Like, honestly, like, it's nothing compared to an actual corporate job. I might just say this, but it is very time consuming. Like, you have like, let's say you have ads or like videos to film. You have to plan those Out. You have to, like, execute them. You have to go back and forth with, like, either your management or the brand. So it takes a lot of time. Time. And you have to be available at all times, which was the biggest thing. And I was never available.

[A]

I think it does take a lot of your time. I think, like you said, content creation isn't like a hard, laborious job, construction or a corporate job, but it does demand a lot of you because, like, at the end of the day, people love you. So you have to constantly be like, okay, what am I going to give people? What am I going to film? And sometimes filming can take long. Like, I feel like even for the podcast, I feel like, you know, it's so funny. A lot of people think that I'm constantly just partying, right? A lot of people think. If I'm not filming for Noche, I'm editing Noche. If I'm not doing anything with Noche de Pendejas, I'm editing my normal content, which is the alanized content. So I feel like it does demand a lot because you're like, oh, my God. Like, I have to, like, even if you're going through, you're like, I have to act like I'm okay on camera. I have to do this video. It, you know. You know social media. You mentioned it earlier. You collabed with Lizzo recently, which was so crazy. When I saw that on my feed, I was like, oh, my God, how did that come to be? What was going on in your head? Was it like, that I made it moment?

[B]

Oh, yes. I was like, what? I did not believe it when I found out about this. I was actually on a cruise with my boyfriend. We were having a time, and my manager's like, I need to call you. And I was like, okay. Like, usually when she says that, I'm like, okay, something good is cooking. So I was like, all right, call me right now. And she was like, so Liz is doing, like, this collab with Chili's, and she wants to do a mukbang with you. I was like, what? I was like, oh, my God, you're lying. I was like, this is insane. I was like, you never know who's watching your videos. Like, you really never know. And I was just shocked. And when I found out, I was just so happy. I was like, wow. I never thought I would be able to do something like this or, like, be in this position. Especially, like, one, not growing up the brightest. Two, not growing up with the best, like, financial situation to where, like, I have, like.

[A]

Like, the resources.

[B]

The resources to do certain things. I was just like, I never saw myself really being successful. Like, I never dreamed of being anything. The only thing I knew is that I want. Wanted to make money. Like, that was the only thing. I was like, I don't know. I don't know how I'm gonna do it. But when ever since I was little, I was like, I don't know how I'm gonna do it, but I'm gonna make money. Like, me and my mom are not gonna be like this forever. Like, so the fact that I finally got to that moment that I was like, wow, this is crazy. You know? Like, I just. Yes. I just couldn't believe it. Yeah. Meeting her and working with her was so cool. She is, like, the sweetest person ever. She was so kind, and I was very nervous, but, oh, my gosh, she just has, like, this aura about her that's just, like, so, like, warm and welcoming. Yeah. That whole experience was insane. I will also always be grateful for Chili's because they have, like, always gone above and beyond to, like, include me in, like, campaigns and stuff like that. So the whole thing was just super cool. I mean, as soon as I found out, like, we went to go take, like, two shots, we were like, we need to celebrate. Yeah. Yes.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

It was. It was insane.

[A]

That's so crazy, right? Like, that's like you said, you never really know who is watching. And it's crazy that, like, you can record a video and you're like, ah, you know what? Like, not give it. And that video can bring you that big opportunity.

[B]

Yes.

[A]

Who's, like, a mukbang or, like, a celebrity that you'd want to do, like, a mukbang with?

[B]

Okay. So Lizzo asked me the same thing, and I blanked. I. I was like, girl, I don't know. Don't ask me anything. You.

[A]

You.

[B]

I was like, I'm trying to keep it together right now. And I kept thinking about it. I don't know if you've seen his, like, podcast as well or, like, his videos, but Jake Shane, I was like, I feel like he would be very funny. Or Kylie Jenner.

[A]

Oh, that would be iconic.

[B]

I know.

[A]

I'm like, tag him down below Amigas, and let's make it happen. And I'm glad social media that, you know, is going amazing for you. And it's crazy, like you said, if you guys are watching this Amigas Aquarense, that no dream is too small, you know, for it. You know, you know, your relationship with your mom, you know, you guys had a really tough year last year before we get into that, you know. You know, when did her health issues start occurring? How did she get diet diagnosed? What was your first thought when she got diagnosed with these health issues?

[B]

So my mom has always had, like, a lot of health issues growing up. Like, it was just something that was, like, known, like, within the family. But she was always okay. She always had kidney problems or she would have, like, a bunch of kidney stones to the point where she would have to, like, get surgery to get them removed because it was just, like, so many. And that would always scare me more when I was younger because I'm like, dude, I don't got anyone else. Like, if my mom, like, passes or, like, something happens to her, like, what about me? So I was always very scared of that. I don't know if that made me be more attached to my mom because I was, like, scared of anything happening to her. And then almost exactly a year ago today, she just randomly started feeling, like, sick. Like, her stomach would hurt growing up if her side hurt. I'm like, okay, something's up with your kidneys. Like, you need to go to the doctor, because she had chronic kidney disease. And so I was like, always know, like, if she's, like, on her side, I'm like, okay, your kidney hurts. And so during this time, like, last year, she would just, like, be holding her side. But one thing about my mom, she does not like going to the hospital or to the doctor. So I feel like me and my stepdad would be like, no, like, just go to the doctor, check it out, make sure nothing's wrong. She's like, no, no, I'm fine. I'm fine. And then I would come home from work because I worked at night, so I would come home, like, at midnight, and she'd just be on the couch, like, curled up, and, like, for, like, a week. And we would keep telling her, like, go to the doctor. Like, something's not right. And she was like, no, I'm fine. Like, she just would not go. And so we're like, okay. And so since I work at night, I'm at home during the day, and my mom would live really close to work, so she would come home during her lunches, and she came home during her lunch, and she just did not look good. Like, she was, like, shaking, and she's like, oh. Like, I don't. She's like, yeah, I'm just gonna, like, push through and, like, finish this day of work. And I was like, you need to go to the Hospital, like, you do not look good. But my mom does not listen one thing. She does not let anyone tell her what to do. It doesn't matter what. Like, she will not listen to us. Then, like, five minutes later, she goes back to work. I get a conscience. Like, you know what? Like, take me to the doctor. Like, I really don't feel good. And so I was like, all right, let's go. So I rush her to the doctor, and then when she gets to the doctor, like, at this point, she was just not looking good at all. They couldn't figure out what was wrong with her. They just kept giving her a bunch of fluid and a bunch of fluid because she was super dehydrated. Then they find out a kidney stone got stuck in her kidney, and it was there for a long time to the point where it caused an infection. And then the infection got in her bloodstream out of nowhere. They're like, okay, we need to take her into stuff. Surgery. Like, the infection is in her bloodstream. If we don't do this right now, she's gonna die. Like, they're like, if you didn't bring her in right now, she probably would have just died on the couch.

[A]

What was that like for, you know, hearing that your mom could potentially pass away?

[B]

That was crazy, because I thought I was just taking her to the doctor. They're gonna be like, oh, you're fine. Like, just take this medication. I. It was like, 0 to 100. Like, I thought I was just taking her in. And then out of nowhere, they're like, we need to rush her to emergency surgery. And then in surgery, like, a bunch of things were happening. She got fluid in her lungs or something because of all the fluid she was taking because she was so dehydrated, basically. They didn't even know if she was gonna make it because they said, once the infection gets in your bloodstream, it's very hard for you to be able to recover. Me and my TIA were like, what the heck? Like, we just knew she was, like, feeling sick all week. We didn't know it was this bad. Like, we should have forced her, because she never listens to her body. Like, when she's sick, I think she's just scared to go to the doctor. But I was so scared. I was like, what the heck? Like, I couldn't comprehend. So since they rushed her into surgery, she was out a couple hours later. And this all happened within the same day. And she was like. Had to have, like, the breathing tubes. I'm pretty sure she had a stroke. As well when she went into surgery and immediately she wakes up and she has like the thing in her throat and she's like trying to leave. I'm like, like, lay down. Yeah. So then they were able to finally take it out and she's like, okay, I'm ready to go home. I was like, girl, you're staying here. Like, you can't leave. So they had to keep her in the hospital for like a couple days after that to see if she was going to be able to fight off the infection because it was still in her, in her bloodstream. And day by day she was like, able to fight it off. And all the doctors were honestly shocked that she was able to. And the whole time, like, going back from the hospital to going back home, I was just like, oh, my gosh, this is crazy. Like, I just cannot picture my life without my mom. Afterwards, it was like a long battle trying to get her to recover. So since she did get that fluid in her lungs, it was very hard for her to breathe. So she could barely walk, you know, because it would take a lot of breath. Then she had to have like this like IV thing for her medication. I don't even remember I blocked her a lot of this stuff out because I was like, this is really like the worst time of my life. I was like, so sad and stressed and someone else has to be there to give her her medication. So at this point, I was still going to work for the 10 hours. Then I was like, taking care of my mom and I had to be doing all her meal preps, all her, like, cooking, all her cleaning because she couldn't do any of it. And she also couldn't be just eating whatever because her kidneys were going to be super, super sensitive and doing the tick tock at the same time. Oh my gosh. I think that's when I hit. Being an only child, like, I never really cared until that point because I'm like, damn, I wish I had a sibling that could just like, help me right now and like, be able to take take care of her. And I can like, step out if I need to, like, go do something, you know? Yeah. That was like the only time I wish I had a sibling.

[A]

How is she doing now? Is she doing much better? Is she like, is it still, like something you guys have to constantly be doing, checking up on?

[B]

Yes. This girl recovered like, so quick. And of course she was supposed to be having like downtime. So after like a week, she was like, already ready to go because at the same time, when she got sick. We were moving, so we had just started moving. And of course, she was trying to move everything herself. Like, she cannot stay still. She just pushes herself too hard. Like, I think she just doesn't like people to see her weak side or, like, need help. It just made us even more stressed out because we're like, damn, we can't even trust you to be here at the house.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Yeah. Like, we can't, like, trust her to just sit down on the couch. Like, she has to be doing something. Yeah. That was the worst time ever. I was so stressed and scared and just, like, I don't even know. Then a week later, we had another cruise that year, so. Or not a week later. Like, a couple weeks later, we had our cruise, so I got to go on vacation, and that definitely helped a lot. And my stepdad was. Was there to, like, take care of her, but, wow, that was, like, a crazy time.

[A]

I'm glad she's doing so much better, but I'm sure it was, like, super scary for you, you know, comonos commentas that your mom means everything to you. So I'm sure Canes was momentos. You were, like, trying to help her, trying to be there, but you were also in your mind. You're like, what if this happens? You know, the thought of, like, I could potentially lose my mom was probably circling in your head. Come on. You know, you weren't super, super public online about what was going on, you know, in your life at that time. What was that like for you? You know, having to almost put up a front of, like, oh, everything's okay. Let me do my eating video all in. While, you know, dealing with almost losing your mom at the same time. Was it hard for you?

[B]

That was crazy, because I would still be doing my eating videos, and I was crying a lot at this time. I just remember I was, like, really sad. I didn't talk about any of this online. I just didn't want to. And so I would just, like, be acting like everything's fine, and I was just like, oh, my gosh, so sad. And I was just thinking, like, damn, my other family members are gonna be like, wow, she's over here eating while her mom is, like, dying and stuff. This is work for me.

[A]

Yeah. Yeah. Literally. Yeah.

[B]

That was, like, the only thing. But, yeah, I tried not to talk too much about it, or at all, actually, on online. And my mom is very private, and she doesn't like people knowing her business. I did ask her if it was okay if I could talk about this, and now it's okay. We got over this trauma. But it was also very traumatizing for her. Like having to like be so like vulnerable, I feel like was very hard as well. And basically dying.

[A]

Like it was scary. If it was scary for you, I'm sure it was also scary for her again.

[B]

And I still live at home with my parents. I live at home with my mom and my stepdad. So that was also like, damn. I was like, we're going to have to sell our home. I was like, where am I going to go? Like I could move out if I wanted to, but I just like living at home. So I was like, damn, what are we going to do? Like we just moved into this new place. Like we were all over the place. But yeah, I never want to think those thoughts ever again.

[A]

But I'm really happy. Because I feel like a lot of your audience in the background of your videos, Who made the first move? How did he ask you out?

[B]

Yeah, I feel like a lot of people actually ask us how we met or like how we started dating. And we've never really talked about it before, but we actually went to the same high school. We didn't start dating until maybe or like talking over a year after high school. I would say he just like hit me up on Snapchat. Snapchat. Like, oh no. So he would just. He texted me on Snapchat and he was like, hey. I was like. Because I did always think he was cute in school and I was like, no way. He texted me and I was like a kitty. And so we would like keep talking and we like started hanging out and I did think he was like really quiet. I was like, ooh, I don't know. I'm over here like. And he's just like, like not saying anything. So I was like, damn. Just. Does he even like like me or something? Yeah.

[A]

Like is he vibing with me? Yeah, yeah, yeah.

[B]

I know. That's just how he is. He's very quiet. He likes more listening. He was always just like very quiet. That's just how he is. But anyways, we kept hanging out for a long time after we like first started like texting and I honestly didn't even think we were gonna date or anything cuz I never saw him be serious with anyone else. I was like, why would it be be me? I just didn't think it would. And yeah, we just kept hanging out and I feel like the longer we did, he was just like, I don't know. What, you had a change of heart?

[A]

You're like, I don't know.

[B]

Yeah. He was like, damn, I need to keep this girl, I guess. But I did really, really like him. And I was just like, I don't know. We've been talking for so long. I kind of gave up hope because I was like, oh, he's never asked anyone else out and we've been talking for so long so it's not be to going, going to happen. And then I don't know, something just like he just started liking me. I don't know. This is time we don't talk about it. When he asked me out at this point, we've been talking for months and months. Maybe I felt it a little bit like he would ask me out, but I didn't think it was going to be here. We went to like this cute sunset spot. The sunset was perfect. Like we were on the edge of a mountain or like a cliff and every. Everything was just perfect. And he was just like, got up and he was like, will you be my girlfriend?

[A]

You're like, I thought you never asked. You're like, I was about to cut you off because you were taking too long.

[B]

And then he like shed a tear too, you know. But yeah, ever since then we've been inseparable. Like we're always together. If you see me, you'll see him. Yeah, we're just like best friends and I couldn't have asked for a better part partner. He's amazing. He's honestly helped me grow so much as a person and he's always supported me through anything I'm doing career wise too. Which is like so helpful when you have a partner that actually supports you and like wants you to move up. Like even when I was at the hotel, he would always be excited for me to like move up. I always knew I could count on him to just be there by my side. I feel like a lot of people in relationships struggle with their partners not being happy for them to move up or like do better with their life. They're like, why are you doing this? Why do you want to do this all of a sudden? You know? But that's never been the case. Yeah, he's my best friend. We never really have any bad arguments. I feel like most of the time we could tell each other how we're feeling and work on that, like whatever we are feeling. Honestly, I'm glad I, I stuck, I stuck with him through the quiet times.

[A]

What do you think is your why? You know, like that TikTok trend right now that's going super Popular. Where it's like, this is my boyfriend and he did. This is my why. What is like, your why?

[B]

Everything he does, anything I'll ask, I know he'll do it. He loves me more than anything I. And I feel it. Everything he does, he does it with love. And he never complains about anything I ask or say or I know I can, like, just talk to him for hours and he doesn't get annoyed or I can, like, pour my feelings out to him. He's very nice, and I also like that, like, he's very nice with other people.

[A]

Yeah, that's your why.

[B]

I love it.

[A]

I'm gonna finish off with the question. Whether that's relationship wise, career wise, family wise.

[B]

Oh, girl, I have no idea. You know, life is so crazy. I'm not even where I thought I would be one year ago today. I guess I would like to be moved out. I don't even know if I would still be doing food videos. I don't know. Biggest goal, moved out, maybe engaged. Like I said, I will do anything that comes my way. Anything that comes to me is for me. So I love it.

[A]

Caleb, for being here with us today, I really do appreciate your time and you giving me the ability to tell your story. I will leave all her links down below as well as on the screen so you guys won't miss any future episodes. And with that being said, thank you so much once again, and thank you guys so much for watching and we'll see you guys in the next one. Bye, guys.

[B]

You did so good. Thank you.