Lesly Karlette Talks All: Childhood, Public Breakup, Car Crash, CHISME & MORE!!

Summary

Podcast Summary: Lesly Karlette Talks All: Childhood, Public Breakup, Car Crash, CHISME & MORE!!

Episode Released on February 7, 2025 | Hosted by Alannized & Studio71

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1. Introduction

In this episode of Noche de Pendejadas with Alannized, host Alan Eist sits down with Lesly Karlette, a vibrant 24-year-old influencer from McAllen, Texas. The conversation delves deep into Lesly's personal life, career trajectory, family dynamics, and her experiences navigating the complexities of social media fame.

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2. Early Life and Family Background

Lesly shares her upbringing in McAllen, Texas, highlighting the influence of her strong-willed mother and the absence of her biological father until she turned 18. Raised primarily by her mother and stepfather, Lesly develops a resilient and fiery personality, often attributing her "loca" demeanor to her early family environment.

Lesly (02:36): "I've always been crazy. I've always been like that, and my mom was like, 'No, no, no.' She's like, 'Where do you get your attitude from?'"

Lesly discusses the challenges of blending into a household with multiple siblings from different parents, leading to a sense of not fully belonging. This dynamic fosters her independent spirit and shapes her approach to relationships and personal growth.

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3. Career Beginnings and Social Media Journey

Lesly's foray into social media began around the age of 19-20 on TikTok, where she initially used the platform as a digital diary, sharing candid moments of her personal life. Her authentic and unfiltered content quickly resonated with audiences, propelling her to fame with over 200,000 followers within a month of her first viral post.

Lesly (04:46): "I started off like that, like, bien loka, and then now you see me, you're like, oh, she's a little bit more calm."

Transitioning from traditional jobs at Texas Roadhouse and Ulta to becoming a full-time influencer, Lesly emphasizes her knack for entertainment and her ability to connect with audiences through relatable content and humorous skits.

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4. Personal Struggles and Growth

Lesly opens up about her struggles with mental health, including dealing with the pressures of social media, maintaining authenticity, and coping with past traumas. She reflects on her journey through weight loss surgery and multiple plastic surgeries, discussing the impact these decisions had on her self-image and overall well-being.

Lesly (14:11): "I've always been crazy. I've always been like super loud and strong because of my upbringing."

Despite facing backlash and criticism online, Lesly remains resilient, focusing on personal growth and self-care. She highlights the importance of time in healing and shares her methods of staying busy to cope with emotional turmoil.

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5. Relationship Breakup and Healing

A significant portion of the episode is dedicated to Lesly's tumultuous relationship with her boyfriend, Joey. Their public breakup, amplified by social media interactions, serves as a turning point in her personal and professional life. Lesly recounts a car crash incident during this period, which served as a wake-up call for her to reassess her priorities and mental health.

Lesly (57:25): "It was the biggest wake-up call, mind you."

The couple eventually reconciles after a period of no contact, finding balance through open communication and mutual understanding of each other's strengths and weaknesses. Lesly emphasizes the importance of balancing a strong personality with the ability to listen and support a partner.

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6. Insights on Social Media Influence

Lesly offers valuable insights into the influencer industry, stressing the significance of authenticity and genuine engagement over merely chasing follower counts. She advises content creators to diversify their platforms, emphasizing that success isn't limited to one medium.

Lesly (104:10): "There's enough people for everybody. Even if you have to learn a different language, do it and do it strong because your light will shine when it's supposed to shine."

She discusses the challenges of maintaining a positive online presence amidst negativity and highlights strategies for handling criticism without letting it affect personal well-being.

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7. Conclusion

Lesly Karlette's candid discussion on Noche de Pendejadas provides listeners with an intimate look into the life of a modern influencer grappling with personal demons, public scrutiny, and the relentless pace of social media fame. Her journey underscores the importance of self-acceptance, resilience, and the pursuit of authentic happiness beyond the digital facade.

Lesly (101:58): "Guys, there's enough followers. Trust me, there's enough people for everybody."

Through her story, Lesly encourages both aspiring influencers and everyday individuals to prioritize mental health, stay true to themselves, and navigate life's challenges with strength and grace.

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Notable Quotes:

• Lesly (02:36): "I've always been crazy. I've always been like that, and my mom was like, 'No, no, no.' She's like, 'Where do you get your attitude from?'"

• Lesly (14:11): "I've always been crazy. I've always been like super loud and strong because of my upbringing."

• Lesly (57:25): "It was the biggest wake-up call, mind you."

• Lesly (104:10): "There's enough people for everybody. Even if you have to learn a different language, do it and do it strong because your light will shine when it's supposed to shine."

• Lesly (101:58): "Guys, there's enough followers. Trust me, there's enough people for everybody."

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This episode offers a profound exploration of the intersection between personal struggles and public life, providing listeners with both inspiration and practical advice for managing their own lives and online personas.

Transcript

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[Leslie Carlos]

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[Moen]

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[Leslie Carlos]

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[Alan Eist]

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[Leslie Carlos]

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[Moen]

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[Leslie Carlos]

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[Moen]

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[Leslie Carlos]

I came home and as soon as I got off the car, I fainted.

[Alan Eist]

What is up, everyone? I'm your host Alan Eist, and this is no de Pendejadas, your favorite podcast turned talk show and influencers. Faborito. So with that being said, please help me welcome my guest tonight. Leslie Carlos. Welcome to the podcast.

[Leslie Carlos]

Absolutely. No, thank you for having me. I appreciate, appreciated so much. I caught me by surprise. No, I was like, wait, what?

[Alan Eist]

I like to interview not just people that they're constantly like, but also people that I'm like, no.

[Leslie Carlos]

She looks a little interesting.

[Alan Eist]

But I'm really excited.

[Leslie Carlos]

Like, I honestly, I try to keep myself super busy. I've been really into taking care of myself, like health wise. And now I'm like, get vitamins, get CMOs, get gym, get eating good. And I try, you know, my best. So that's what my life is now. Like.

[Alan Eist]

It's really hard though.

[Leslie Carlos]

No. Oh my God.

[Alan Eist]

Journey. What do you think is the hardest part about it?

[Leslie Carlos]

It's because, like the chips just talk to me. They're like Da Cheetos.

[Alan Eist]

They're like, hey, you're a chip girl. Same. I don't share this too much because then I feel like people will judge me. After getting weight loss surgery, I've gotten into a bad habit once again. Chips at night. Like when it comes to me chilling at night.

[Leslie Carlos]

And then I think I'm like, no.

[Alan Eist]

You know what's so funny? Like this week I was actually like kind of sad because for some reason we were out of limones. The only limones we had. You know, when they get a little.

[Leslie Carlos]

White, I still would have been like.

[Alan Eist]

You'Re like, the inside's still good. And like two days in a row we didn't have limones. And I remember I had these chips saved in my cabinet, and my boyfriend was like, babe, you don't need to eat chips today. And I'm like, I don't, but I want some. Yeah, to the grocery store. I think avocados.

[Leslie Carlos]

You don't want to just do the tree.

[Alan Eist]

Literally.

[Leslie Carlos]

You're gonna see me. You're gonna see us on TikTok. Hi, guys. Welcome to our lemon tree.

[Alan Eist]

Ah. We're like, we're gonna have a little treat. No, but I'm so excited.

[Leslie Carlos]

So my name is Desi carlette. I am 24 years old. I am from McAllen, Texas. That's South Texas, known as, like, the 956. I don't know if you heard it. Oh, my God, we're crazy over there. And I think there's where I started. I think because of how I was brought up, I came on full force de loca on Tick Tock. I would always talk on there. Everything. Like, it was like my diary, yo. Simple and sad. I'm like, do you know, like, the whole world is watching? And I didn't ever think of that. I was small. I think I started when I was, like, 20. To me, it's so chiquita.

[Alan Eist]

I don't know.

[Leslie Carlos]

I feel like it's so small. 20, 19 around there. And I remember I just went on there just talking and. And stuff, like, just about me, my personal life and stuff that I would go through and things that would happen with people I would go on dates with or I would go out. So I think it's like, oh, my God. Because I started off like that, like, bien, loka bien. And then now you see me, you're like, oh, she's. I'm a little bit more calm.

[Alan Eist]

Like, did you expect in those momentos de loca that, like, your life would be what it is today, or would you just be posting no mas pornomas?

[Leslie Carlos]

No, I already knew I was hurt. I was like. I already knew. I was kind of like, okay. Everybody would tell me, like, you're crazy, you're funny. And I'm like, what makes me funny is my trauma guys. Like, that's what it's. But I would be like. And I started to notice when people would be like, oh, like, I like watching you. Like, you're super entertaining. And I kind of grasp it with that. Like, then when they started saying, like, oh, you're entertain me, I. They know me second. I'm like, oh, that's what I do. Pay me because I'm good. At it.

[Alan Eist]

Like, I love your skits. I think people, like, you know what's so crazy, though? Because I did skits and skits. I feel like there's skits that, like, right away you're like, I know pinches, like, Torres, my morning, but I feel like your skits. And just, like, when you're in that, like, skip mode, it comes so natural to you. Like, I.

[Leslie Carlos]

Because I'm not acting. You know what I mean, though?

[Alan Eist]

Like, even though I'm sure you sit down, you're like, okay, we're gonna make a funny skit about this and that. Like, if I were to do that, they'd be like, I know. An award of worst actor ever. Literally, like, put your phone down. That's cringe y. Cringe. But I feel like. And I feel like that's another big reason why people feel so entertained. Because, like, it feels like.

[Leslie Carlos]

I mean, I've seen it with myself also, but I feel it's like that because either sometimes the skits are stuff that I've been through, and then sometimes it's just, like, the locura, like, that I come up with. So technically, it's still in my mind when I'm like, oh, my God. Did I just really come up with that? Like, is that really me? But yeah, I was like, that's how it started that I was just like, now that I'm thinking about it, I'm like, I don't know. I. But to be honest, the skits didn't happen till, like, later. Yeah, I started off on there because I used to be a server, and I started on there just. They would see me get ready for work. I was so mad. When I would work as a super amargada, I was like, oh, my God. And they would. You could see. And I would see it before I go watch my old videos. I'm like, who let me? Who let me? But now it is who I am, right? And it was who I was at the moment. I had so much attitude. I was real. Like, I. I didn't care about nothing. Naima Pudde. I thought I was me. I was like, I know who I am and this and that. And I was like, wow.

[Alan Eist]

Like, I love that, though. I feel like that makes the difference when it comes to, like, you know, your audience. La gente to the realness of an influencer.

[Leslie Carlos]

You know what I mean?

[Alan Eist]

Because Abbes says can be so stuck in the. Oh, my God. We have to live this perfect life. Like, we have to be like, al at all times is the Realness.

[Leslie Carlos]

They want to relate.

[Alan Eist]

Yes, they want to relate.

[Leslie Carlos]

I think in the beginning, cuz we think not a lot of people are watching us, so we're more comfortable. But now that I know that a lot of people are watching me, I'm.

[Alan Eist]

Kind of like, you're more careful. Yes. No, back then, you guys, I have privated over, I want to say like 400 YouTube videos.

[Leslie Carlos]

I can't private nothing because I feel like somebody will come out and be like, remember you did this?

[Alan Eist]

And I'm like, I'm like, yeah, but y'all didn't record at the time. Yeah.

[Leslie Carlos]

Oh, true, true.

[Alan Eist]

Because that was like five, six years ago. Yeah.

[Leslie Carlos]

The only thing that sucks about it is that some of my tick tocks that would go viral were me talking about stuff that I used to do.

[Alan Eist]

So I'm like, you're like, that's how they found me.

[Leslie Carlos]

It's not like I could come on there and be like, I could never ever come on here and be like, no, por. And like I'm like, no, I. No. Yeah, it's kind of long, so I'm like, okay. Yeah. So I know and I'm aware like of how I used to be, you know, stuff that, you know, my past mistakes or stuff that. Because I'm. No, I love that though.

[Alan Eist]

I love that because I feel like I'm exactly the same, you know, especially if you found me through the podcast. You guys, if you're not an og, like familia metiche, like member, then oblat. Do you remember how we met or when or where?

[Leslie Carlos]

Candy lover. Yes.

[Alan Eist]

I was literally telling her, you guys kind of like sink it in.

[Leslie Carlos]

Yeah, I didn't, I didn't.

[Alan Eist]

And my first impression, you guys was like, okay, I think we just kind of like, kind of. And my first impression was like, oh, like, did I hit someone? I looked back and I'm like, I.

[Leslie Carlos]

Think you don't act like you were like. Cuz I know. He was like, no, no, no.

[Alan Eist]

I looked to my back to see who like I hit, thinking that they were gon be like at my height. No, you guys see. No, I was like, oh, like, how's the weather down there?

[Leslie Carlos]

Are you okay?

[Alan Eist]

I'm like, did you smell my fork? Like it's a sun in here. No, but she is very short, you guys. And yeah, like, I did not expect.

[Leslie Carlos]

That everyone, everyone was like, oh my God. And it's because the way I carry myself and the way I guess I look on camera too, but I think it's just the way I carry myself in the way it, it's. It's a thing, guys, where the way you carry yourself, you were like, no, she's this big person. And then you look at me and I'm like, what? I'm like, yeah, like I'm still me, but you're just like. I was not and expecting that.

[Alan Eist]

For some reason I expected you like to be like 5, 5, 5, 6, 4, 11.

[Leslie Carlos]

Yeah, 4, 11. And where. Yeah.

[Alan Eist]

When did you stop growing?

[Leslie Carlos]

I think when I came out the womb. Honestly. I'm just kidding. I think, honestly middle school. I think like once I hit high school, I'm like, this is it like this babe.

[Alan Eist]

Do you like being a short girl though?

[Leslie Carlos]

Yes and no. The only times I don't is looking for pants or when in a picture. I love seeing those beautiful long legged girls when they're like, like I see con las legs and they're like, I'm like, girl, yes.

[Alan Eist]

Like that's what I want to be.

[Leslie Carlos]

Yeah, it was like, oh my God, this short. No. I don't know. Like, I love to see it. I think everyone's beautiful in their own way, of course, but I just feel like it's just so powerful. Like it's so powerful. I like, I put myself an example. They see me because they thought I was tall.

[Alan Eist]

I feel like people expect you to not be as short, but for some reason people expect me to be short. Like they meet me, they're like, oh my God, I didn't think you'd be that tall. And I'm like.

[Leslie Carlos]

You start getting a shorter fridge, everything shorter your house so you can look taller.

[Moen]

You're like, what do you mean?

[Alan Eist]

No, but I get that a lot. Do I look online like short or tall?

[Leslie Carlos]

Not to me. You look tall, right? Or maybe because I met you. I don't know.

[Alan Eist]

True, true, true. We met each other. But prior to that, what did you think? Like I was giving short vibes or like tall vibes?

[Leslie Carlos]

I think you medium, but not too, not too tall. But you are tall.

[Alan Eist]

I am tall. You guys. I'm over 6ft tall, so I feel like that's where people kind of get like what the. No skyscraper that I love starting with because I feel like it's super important, like your upbringing. How is Leslie growing up?

[Leslie Carlos]

Growing up as Leslie Carlet was. It was good. It was good. Not too bad because I didn't let it be bad with certain things. I know people would be like, oh my God, you went to that and you're okay. I guess I'm Okay. Like I don't know. I grew up with my mom 100. I love my mom so much. I know a lot of people saw like a little, you know, glimpse of that we might have not have a little fight, but a little discussion. She never went on and said anything but I mean it was out there that we had like a little interference which is okay. But I love my mom and I always said and I. And I know there's screen recordings where I said like my mom simply was my mom. My family's always going to be my family no matter what. Like esos mi familia. And it's not like I can just. Even if I move away, miles away. That's my blood, is their blood. But my mom raised me and my stepdad. My mom did everything for me. I was raised by so many women around me. My dad was already present. Honestly, I have a little bit of daddy issues. And people were like oh dad adds up. I do have a little bit of daddy issues. He was never present. I understood that once I actually got to meet him and stuff like that. And seeing his life because he does prior he did get remarried with. With somebody. And I have brothers and sisters obviously with them. So I met him and I met. I didn't get to meet him until I was like 18. I met him first. I know I would always sometimes talk to him on the phone. But one thing about my parents, they gave me the best they could. Even though at a young age I started working cuz I was like no. Like my parents are really old school. My mom especially super old school. Like yo like even to football game she'll be like like. But like no her main word. So she wasn't. No, I was. She is a little strict. D is a little. She know she. And I understand her though. Like I'm not a mom but I could just imagine I put myself in her shoes but young. That's why when you guys saw me, when they. You guys saw me on Tik Tok. The reason I was like cuz I was. I made my mom's life a little hard. Even though I already have three other sisters. And they made it hard for her too. But it's just. She was like I can't catch a break with these guys.

[Alan Eist]

Do you feel like that Locastes because of how strict your parents were growing up that you're like. Or have you've always been like tremenda?

[Leslie Carlos]

I can't even lie. I've always been crazy. I've always. My mom's like no, like, always. Like, it's just what I say, and that's it. She's like, I don't know where you get your attitude from.

[Alan Eist]

H. There.

[Leslie Carlos]

What do you think, honey? Like, yes, Because I was just raised by. So there's so many girls, like, my sisters around me. There's so many girls, and. And I grew. I think they don't realize that they taught me the way I am, which is good, but which is like, girl, you're supposed to be like that with life, not with us. And I guess, like, the way I was strong and the way you guys see me, with my attitude, with my mom, with my sisters, and no, you're not gonna tell. And I'm gonna do what I gotta do. And I always did. She was mad. When I first got my first job, I was. I first started working at Texas Roadhouse, and she was so mad. I remember she was so mad. But she still took me to my interview. And I just wanted. Always. I've always been like that and more. I think it was more because I was not. I mean, I was good in school. I wasn't too bad. Like, I was never really, like, PE or stuff like that. Maybe a little bit, but not too much. Not too like, you know, like. But I've always, like, you know, I just know the fiend. I've always been like that. I started working at such a young age. She couldn't believe it. She was just like. She was so my. She got over it. She's like that. I've learned that she. Come on, Ma. They get over it. They get over. They always get over. When I go in and I tell her, I'm like, oh, I got the job. She's like, okay. She's like. I was like. And she's like, okay.

[Alan Eist]

Growing up, you didn't have your biological dad in your life present till you were 18. Growing up, your biological dad in your life momento where you're like, look.

[Leslie Carlos]

Well, it sucks also, because I don't consider them my step sisters and maybe other. I don't know, because they. They have a different dad. Obviously. I have my dad and they have their dad. And so it did. Would, like, oh. Like, at my heart, like, when I would see them, like, oh, I'm gonna go to my dad's. And there was my sisters and my brother was. They were so sweet to me. They'll be like, no. Like, I was always invited to their Christmas or their. And it was good. But I mean, obviously, uno sempe. Like, it does hurt and it sucks. That my first heartbreak was my dad. Like, it sucks to. Oh. And I think that's why I'm so strong. And I'm like. And the way I am, like, it happened. Yeah. And that's the reason I'm like this. And it's the reason, which I appreciate that at a young age, I experienced that because I'm so strong. I'm so strong. Like, it sucks, but Nimodo. Like, I couldn't. And I wouldn't tell everybody. Like, everybody's like, why? You look like you have this perfect. I know it does look like. But I don't. But I don't like people to feel bad for me. There's no reason. Because everybody goes through things. Yeah. Like Nemo. So that's how it was. And it did hurt. So when I finally talked to him, I was like, you know, everyone asked, like, what was it? Like was. I know it wasn't my fault because you brought me to this world. I've always had that. My mom always says, like, I've always.

[Alan Eist]

Madura.

[Leslie Carlos]

Yes. Like, I always understood it. Not too much, but, like, I always understood, like, real life problems. Like, I see the Costas. I see. I understood, like, okay. Even though he still talked to me and told me why. Why. I feel like there's no excuse to ever leave your child behind, But I had to forgive him for myself, and I did, and I understood. And when I finally realized, when he explained to me, like, oh, why? I understood. I understood that if I was around him at a young age and with the person he was with and seeing my brothers and sisters from his inside and how they are right now and how they. What they've been through, I understood. I understood why I was not there. Because if I would have been there around my dad at a young age and around that environment that was going on, how he explained things to me. Yeah. I don't think I would have been who I was, and I think I would have had, like, so much worse pain, because I already have the pain of you not being there. So I think I'm okay. I was like, oh. When I finally. I was. But I wasn't healed. People are right when you guys. You. They see it through the lens, like, there's no way you can fake it where you can be like, no. Like, no. They would see it, and I would see the comments. They're like, why did she have so much attitude? Like, yes, I was funny. But they're like, what's wrong with you? Like, where's my dad? I was like, where's like why? Por que mi vi And I was always, always I think my whole life it was like why why why? Until low bv I understood why and then took Mexican as cos I was like when he told when he told me certain things and I saw it from my own eyes. Like I saw my brothers and sisters and what they went through and what they're going through right now.

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[Leslie Carlos]

I was like, oh, but I have my stepdad and I thank him so much. He took me in and he did what he could. But he. He still tells me like I know and it sucks that they. They feel it. Like they feel it. Like he told me like I know I don't feel in the shoes 100 again, I'm not your dad. But I was possibly and that a person doesn't have to do that. Like they don't have to. They don't. Like he's not responsible. And for him to care, it really meant a lot. Like, and that's because I was still kind of mean to him because cuz I was. I'm telling you, when I was young, Tenia you could see it in my old videos. I see it like I was so like so mad and mad at the world basically. Like when I first met him, I really thought that it was going to be like peace and oh no. So the questions that I wanted got answered and then I didn't realize that I had like pain. I'm like wait, like. But why like get the say yo. Like the excuses that like that he was saying. I'm like, but that no. Like it doesn't matter.

[Alan Eist]

Yeah.

[Leslie Carlos]

You. You need to be a parent and if you bring someone to this world, I'm very big on that. That's why I feel like I haven't had a baby because I feel like if I'm going to have a baby, I mean no one's ever prepared. But still, if you can prevent it, prevent it. Like if you're able to like still control the situation, control it. Like why would you bring a baby into this world? And you know that. I mean my mom did the most. But I'm. My mom's love and a dad's over two different things.

[Alan Eist]

Two different things.

[Leslie Carlos]

But my mom's love was more than enough. 100%. Like I love my mom and she did an. I think she did an amazing job. Ank I still like, you know, was kind of hard and stubborn and. But she understood. She never like she understood. She understand it but she was just like that's just. I can't take the pain away. Like I'm like, it's just something that I have to let her like live.

[Alan Eist]

You know, you didn't have a relationship with your dad, but you did have a present stepfather. Were you guys close growing up, or was it very much like. Like, what was that like?

[Leslie Carlos]

I feel like that's how I was. Which was because he didn't deserve that. He was just like, okay. Like, he was. But he was very good. You know, he's. There's a house full of girls. He knows how to deal with us now. Right. But he would just be like, okay. Like, he wouldn't step on my toes. What I liked is, like, between me and my mom. But I think because the one time he did, I was like, no. And he was like, well. And I'm like, oh, what? Kind of sorry. Like, but it's because, like, it's just right now that I realize it, like, I tell him, like, oh, I'm sorry. Like, he's like, no, no, you're good. Like, I understand. Like.

[Alan Eist]

Right. You're the only one that's not from your stepdad.

[Leslie Carlos]

Well, actually, my stepdad and my mom don't have no kids together. So to. In his eyes, I was his. His kid. Me and my brother. Because we were the babies. Because my other sister's already grown. So, like, he's like, no, like, you're mine. Like, I see you guys as. And he would. Even in any place, he'll be like, oh, this is my daughter. Oh, and this is. He would never say stepdaughter. This is my steps. No, he would be like, my daughter, my son. And, yeah, I still felt like I had it there, but I never let it be. I was always like, no, no, no, no. Because Leslie. Leslie. So I'm the youngest on my mom's side, and I'm the oldest on my dad's side. You get it? So that's how it is. So I'm the baby on my mom's side. Like, there's five, including me on my mom's side. So I have three sisters and one brother for my mom, and then for my dad, I have two sisters and one brother. Yeah.

[Alan Eist]

Yeah. I'm like, the family tree. Me putting it together, growing up.

[Leslie Carlos]

All of them. All of them. Until everybody started getting married. Like, I've always. Always been with my mom. Everyone's always at my mom's house. Like, when my mom's side, we've always. And then everybody. And then going back and forth. But, like, when I graduated, it was me and my brother.

[Alan Eist]

How was it like, you know, your relationship with your siblings? But what was that like growing up?

[Leslie Carlos]

Ah, we're all crazy. We have. So imagine me with my attitude. My sisters are 10 times worse than me, but I love them. A part of me is myself because of them. Be. I have to give it to them. Like, they're so strong, and they humble me all the time. Even right now, I'll be like, okay, and I'm still your sister. Like, he took it like those. Like, they humbled me to the max. I love them. They're super strong. They've. I've learned from their mistakes, too. The only reasons they've ever gotten mad at me is because they tell me. And they're like, didn't we tell you, pork? Like, and they're. They're. They're kind of young. They all have their life, but they're super strong women. That's just how we were raised. They're really hard on me, though. Sometimes they'll be like, I'll go through something that I will. Didn't we tell you? And I needed it.

[Alan Eist]

Yeah.

[Leslie Carlos]

Because mama will be like, oh, you'll say. And then. Then they're like, what's we told you? Like, what are you complaining about? And I think that's why I have that mindset. They're like, I don't know why she's like that. You guys. Like, you guys told me that. Like, I've seen my sisters go through so much that I learned completely in my. Imprinted in my mind that I've learned from them. Like, what are you going to do? Sit there and cry? Like, go. Keep going forward. And that's what you got to, too. So that's the biggest thing I've learned from them, and I appreciate them so much. It's very hard for all of us to get along a little bit sometimes. Like, we cannot be more than an hour in a room all together, because we'll be like. Because we have such strong attitudes, like, in our own way, like some bien. Like, they're strong and right.

[Alan Eist]

Like, it's very much like, you know, you guys are telling each other your.

[Leslie Carlos]

We're telling each other pornostovien. Like, we're not like ambideosas. We're not like you. I think it was because at any moment, we even tried to be a little bit jealous of each other. My mom's like, hey, stop. We're like, I act like I'm the only child. Like, I'm like, y'all don't matter to me. Like, but it was. I feel like it was. It wasn't too hard on myself. I love being alone. That's the thing. And I don't know if it's because I'm used to it or what it is. Maybe I have other issues, but I'm so used to being alone, and I like it. But honestly, my household was never quite quiet, even though they didn't live with us. We are. We need our mom for everything. That's the thing. That's, like, I think I am a mama's girl. Low key. Because anything my mom, like, even my sister, is my mom. My mom, my mom. And then we all tell each other, like, oh, you always need mom for everything. Well, you do, too. Like, my mom's there, pero she knows Iuda. But not to an extent. Like, she still lets us go through it. And I'll explain a little bit more. Like, she still let me go through things and be like, I can only save you when you're about to. Like, there's one. Like, okay, yeah, she. She lets me learn for sure. She's like.

[Alan Eist]

Literally, she's like, all right, girl.

[Leslie Carlos]

You'Re good.

[Alan Eist]

And like, high school, where you, like, the popular girl, were you more of the outcast?

[Leslie Carlos]

A little bit. Not too much, obviously. And I think there was. I wasn't. I was. I don't think I was popular, and I don't think I was an outcast. I think it was just in the middle. I would kind of mind my business but still be in the mix. Like, still. But I had my little things with some people where, you know, it. They made it a little hard for me or even family issues that I had in school because I have younger siblings that are in my age. All my cousins are kind of young, so we kind of. Some of them went to high school with me. Some of them did. I didn't. And I feel like that was. Oh, my God. Because personal would be in my school, too, so they would know, like, oh, you're fighting with your cousin. I'm like, okay. Like, everyone just knows this. But I think it was. It was high school was good. I. It was a little hard some. There was moments where I'm like, oh, my God, I don't want to be here. Like, girls would make it hard. I'm like, oh, you want to mess with me? Like, okay. They didn't go to the same high school. That was the thing. She was in a different high school. And it was so weird that we're beefing from a different, different high school. But, oh, yeah. Like, it was. Honestly, it's always like, boy stuff. Like, yeah, she was mad, and it was. It wasn't too crazy, though. It wasn't too. But we did end up fighting. But not in the school. Like, out like a park or something. And that was maybe it. But people did see. I know people were like, oh, yeah, high school. She was kind of crazy. I was. I was a little crazy. Yeah.

[Alan Eist]

You, like, see my voice?

[Leslie Carlos]

Yeah. I was really good in school, to be honest, but I was never in sports or nothing like that. That. Honestly, I was more like. I would take a purse to school, so I was like, dagger. I was that girl.

[Alan Eist]

Catching up in class. Doing your makeup in class.

[Leslie Carlos]

Yeah, I know. I'm like, oh, this is gonna. This is my. Taunting me right now. But I was her. Like, me with my little Michael Kors, my coach. Like, my baby shirt. Like, I was that girl. Like, man, I'm like, girl, how hard was it for you to get a backpack? Like, I don't know. My mom, I. I think that. I don't know why I was like that, but that's how I went.

[Alan Eist]

Did you have that, like, long brown bag? And you remember there was a time. I don't know. Wait, how old are you?

[Leslie Carlos]

I'm 24.

[Alan Eist]

Oh, we're about the same. About the same. I'm 26. So, yeah, there was a time. I don't know if you guys remember, but, I mean, I guess you guys, when girls started wearing bags to school, there was this really popular, like, brown leather bag, and it was like a bolster, and it was kind of like a. It was longer than a normal bag. Pero to us and misuela. Maybe. Maybe different locations.

[Leslie Carlos]

Mine was short order.

[Alan Eist]

Oh, oh, yours was like an actual purse?

[Leslie Carlos]

No, babe, it was an actual mom's purse. That was that. Yeah, no, yeah, I remember. I remember this. I had my little Michael Kors with my. The spirals. That little. What are they called? This? It's like a spiral. What is it?

[Alan Eist]

Binders.

[Leslie Carlos]

A binder. But the thin ones. The thin ones, not the big, bulky ones. A thin binder. I had paper in there in my notes and, like, a few things. A pencil, a pen. Most of the time, I would never have my pencil and pen. I'd be like, oh, just let me have one. Like, yeah, I wasn't really. Honestly, in school. Was just not.

[Alan Eist]

You were just going for the vibes?

[Leslie Carlos]

I was just going with the flow. Don't even know how I graduated, but I did. That was one of my mom saying, like, no, you're going to graduate. Like, And I'm like, okay, so I did graduate. And I did. But I I. I don't know how I did it, to be honest. I'm like, damn, I did it. I was that girl. I was very. I would still get ready every morning the same way everybody tells me, like, how do you. How do you have the energy to get up? I think it's just because I'm so used to my whole life. In high school, I would do my little BB cream, a little mascara, like, every morning. I've just always been.

[Alan Eist]

What time would you wake up for school?

[Leslie Carlos]

Super late. I was always late to the first period.

[Alan Eist]

I was over here thinking you would wake up at 5.

[Leslie Carlos]

Oh, no, babe, no. One thing about me, I'm getting myself.

[Alan Eist]

You're on your time.

[Leslie Carlos]

Yeah. Like, what is this? Like, yeah, yeah. Like, I was very much. Now that I'm thinking I was not. School was not in my head, which is bad. But I still graduated. And I even. I. When I graduated, I got on my. My certification for phlebotomy. So I still got, like. I still knew that I had to, like, oh, baby, like, life's gonna get you if you don't. Yeah. And I was still working. I think that I was like that because I was already working, like, as a. When I was already a freshman, I think I was already hosting at Texas Roadhouse. So I already knew, like, I had my own money and stuff. And I was like, what do I need this for? For, like. Which was bad. That was horrible that I thought like that. But I was like, do I really need this?

[Alan Eist]

You know what's so crazy, though? I think that happens a lot, especially when you get, like, a teen job. My sister Tam, her senior year, and she didn't graduate because, no, she started working, I think, her junior year because I feel like she became too obsessed with the, like, oh, I'm getting money. They're saying that there's an open shift, and it really does change your mentality to, like, you know what? But, like, maybe school ain't that important. Texas roadhouses, colleague. How did you get that job? What was that?

[Leslie Carlos]

Like, how did I. Oh, I got it from one of my prima shoes working there. And then I was like, hey, like, are they hiring? Like, yeah, I think I would see everybody work around me, too. Everybody in my family is such a hustler. Like, they all just work, like, regardless, they're going to get it. Yeah, they're going to get their money, regardless. So I've always been around that. I think I started off as a host. I just started from there, then a server, then to Gordon Writers, and then A bartender.

[Alan Eist]

What did you hate about it?

[Leslie Carlos]

Just. You learn that people ask the most stupid question ever. Like, what did you just ask me? Like, for example, I'll be like, oh, like, welcome to the house. What can I get for you? Can I start it off with any appetite? They're like, no, I'll just have a cheeseburger with no cheese. Oh, so you want a hamburger? No, I want the cheeseburger. Like, oh, my God. Stuff like that. Like, h. Okay, we're not. It's not clicking up there. At the end of the day, we are dealing with hangry people. We're dealing with people that are so hungry, they just want to eat and get out or eat and have a drink. And I get that. So it took me a while to understand. I'm like, why are these people so mad? And then my manager is like, honey, they're. They come here to eat.

[Alan Eist]

Did you ever have an altercation with, like, a client?

[Leslie Carlos]

Yes. I love Texas Red House. I don't even know. I was there for years. Probably like six years. So I don't even know. Like, it would be something. And then, like, they would be like, oh, let's see this. It's Leslie. Like, it's just Leslie at this point, they just let her. So one of the times was because they don't let you talk. I don't know. At certain jobs, you have to get to requirement that you have to upsell. Yeah, right. So you would have to talk in the beginning and upsell. Like, hey, you want an appetizer? You want a strawberry lemonade? Like, something like, you know. And she wasn't letting me talk, so she was talking above me. So I let her talk. And then I did my introduction. I was like, hey, can I get you started with anything? And she was like, a Coke? What's going on?

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[Leslie Carlos]

Can I get you started with anything? And we're going back at it. So like, I was gonna say I was doing my job. Like, girl, you didn't let me. And I was not having it either. I was like, well, girl, I have a life too and I'm mad. So what? I don't want to be here. Boy, she was there. And I guess she got bothered because I kept. She was like, she was just talking and talking and then my manager was like, well, she has to upsell. Like, I'm so sorry. Sorry. And she's like, I don't want her here. Fire her. Like, no mommy's way.

[Alan Eist]

She went to like the, the manager to complain.

[Leslie Carlos]

That's my job. What are you gonna do? Like, they're gonna come up to me like, what'd you do? While she doing my introduction. Like, you always told me to let me to be my mother. Like, I already knew. I was just being like, you're like.

[Alan Eist]

You can play this game. Yeah.

[Leslie Carlos]

Yeah. I was like. I was like, what am I doing wrong? Like, oh my God, what? My battery came to me. I'm like, oh, bro, I couldn't hold my laugh. And she's like, what did you do? And I'm like, well, it's cuz. She's like, well, not. She was to fire you. I'm firing me. Fire you.

[Alan Eist]

I'M like, did you get fired or.

[Leslie Carlos]

No, no. Like, she did all that. So they just made me go apologize to her. And I did.

[Alan Eist]

I didn't mind what you say. Did you just walk up to her? She's like, my manager.

[Leslie Carlos]

I'm sorry that you didn't let me do my job. No, I'm just kidding. I was like, no, I'm sorry. Like, maybe it was just miscommunication. Like, it's not, you know, what you think? Like, I was just trying to. And she just was not having it with me. She was like, no.

[Alan Eist]

You know, Even though, you know, you were giving her attitude back. Attitudes. You know I worked at the OC Fair, right? I remember we were very big on. The customer is always right. Like, that was our, like, logo. Like, no matter what, even if the customer sounds like a crazy maniac, like, they are always right. Not with me. Like, you're wrong.

[Leslie Carlos]

Ah, you're right at home, babe.

[Alan Eist]

Literally. And I remember there was this one person that made a whole argument. We used to sell, like, hot dogs this big, and. And, you know, for some reason, he comes with this much left, like, una mordida. And I'm not even exaggerating. He wanted his, like, refund. No, not even that. It wasn't good. This is too big to eat. Why would you guys sell something that is impossible to finish? I want my refund.

[Leslie Carlos]

Sorry, sir.

[Alan Eist]

And he was arguing, arguing, arguing. Yoko way. I know the customer is always right, but, like, this is ridiculous.

[Leslie Carlos]

I don't believe. I don't. I mean, I understand, like, as a. Like, an owner to a business, I understand it. Like, yeah, they have to be right because. So that we won't have problems, like, just. Just give it to them. Oh, no. But not with me. Especially when I have in a day, like, I come here every day. You think this is nothing new to me. So I knew she was not, like, having it with me. So. So I think that there has been a few, like, times I just. I was like, damn. I don't even know how much I lasted. But then I started, like, you learn how to just.

[Alan Eist]

Yeah, yeah. You're like, I'm only gonna see.

[Leslie Carlos]

Like, it was just on my day. So I just knew that I'm like, I'm coming here every day, so they have to. They have to understand, like, I'm. Here's my job every day. Like, you think I'm just like, what do you. So I just kind of understood it, and it kind of just was like, whatever.

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[Leslie Carlos]

The big thing too. What scared my mom. I was a resano perada, like from my first. My first baby. And I was so mad. I remember, I think it was because I was already making my own money and I was getting home late. You know, obviously there's where I started going out. Like I started partying and stuff. And my mom was not having it with me. She's like, no, like, okay. Like it's. It's so ugly. And I understand her. But me, in my mind, I didn't understand moment, you know, have a good time. Like, what's the problem? And she's like, what do you mean what's the problem? Like, I'll go to way. And I'm like, no, like nothing. No what's gonna happen? It's cuz we're so young. I swore I was like unstoppable. Like, girl. I'm like, okay, girl. So then I got in a fight with her. And I had a few friends that lived in. In Houston. And I was like, semiso fasil. Honestly, that in my mind, I think about a girl. You're Sierra, you're about to leave. You have such a good job. I did have so many years at Texas Roadhouse. I had also had a good relationship at Cheddar. Because I also worked at Cheddar at Ulta. Like I had three jobs.

[Alan Eist]

Oh, okay. Hustler.

[Leslie Carlos]

Yeah. I was trying. I was doing so good. Oh, but Lesi, she's like, oh, no, I don't want this right now. I literally went to my. Well, at the time I was already. I think I had just already let go of Ulta and I was just at Cheddar, Cheddar's and Texas Roadhouse. Cheddar was like, ah, come whenever you want. Cheddar's was super good with me too. They were like, just whenever you want, we'll get your schedule. I was like, okay. Texas Roadhouse was like, what are you doing? Because I think they saw me grow up. And I explained to the, like the head manager, I was like, hey. Like, I. I'm gonna leave. Like, why? And I told them. And I remember they were like, Leslie. And he knew. It was so crazy. He knew. He told me. He looked at me, he was like, you know what? I know you're having problems with your mom. I literally saw you grow up here, Leslie. Like, how are. What's wrong with you? Like, just. He said, go, go have fun. Go have fun. Go, go. We'll Be right here. They've. And I love. They were just so family to me. It's crazy how you grow. You work somewhere and you just create this bond. Like, literally my family, like, as much as them. As much I'll be like, oh, I hate this job.

[Alan Eist]

Like, you knew they cared for you.

[Leslie Carlos]

Yeah, they did. On a deeper level because they saw me, like, you know, as a. And they knew that I was crazy. They were just like, oh, my God, like, she's crazy. And there's where I was already kind of starting Tik tok too. And to me, so fasty. So I went to Houston and I got in a fight with my mom. I was like, no, I don't care. I just got. It's like a. Like I'm having like a normal week. I got up and left.

[Alan Eist]

I was like, oh, like after the fight, like, you're like, that's like a little argument.

[Leslie Carlos]

And I was like, yeah. Bye. Like, she was so mad. And I remember she was like. And I think they thought that I wasn't going to. To do it. And because they thought that I was going to do it, the more you tell me no, the more I wanted to do it. So then I ended up going to Houston, stay with my friend a little bit. Then I ended up getting into something so toxic, extremely toxic. Like a person that was not into good things, he wasn't doing good either. And I. So my mom found out that I was in something like that. Oh, my God. She was not happy with me. And I think that was a. Oh, my God. To hear your mom say, like, you don't think. I think that what's gonna happen to you? And I do remember, like, yes, I had money saved because I was always a hustler. So when I left, I had money saved. I was okay. I was not that dumb. You know, I left with money and stuff. But then I got into something, a situation like that, and it was. It was bad. And it was crazy to me because when my mom did pick me up, after everything I went through there to see her heartbreak. And I remember her looking at me, she's like. And I said, my car and money in my bank account. And she said, okay. And she was picking me up. She was picking me up.

[Alan Eist]

Like, basically, yeah, she was picking me.

[Leslie Carlos]

Up from Houston and the situation I was in or whatever. And she picked me up. And I remember, like, no one, no one on Tick Tock knew I was posting, like, nothing. Like, hey. And it was when one of my. I don't know if you've seen. I have different content. But I was the time I was drinking a Starbucks drink and I was like, oh, like this is my new. And they would just. That's what I was known for at the moment. And nobody knew anything. So when she picked me up and she told me so conquest. Like tell me, answer my question. I said I had a hundred dollars in my bank account and I didn't have my car because it was. Something had happened to my car. Then that bro. She. It was a reality check for me. I was like, wow. She's like establish us. She wanted the best for me. And just because we don't realize that we're so young. I think I didn't let her. I didn't let her. Like I didn't take the time to understand what she was trying to tell me. So it sucks that we have to live things. I had to live through so much that I didn't have to. I had so much trauma for no reason. Talking about like just toxic stuff like. And it's all fun and games. So it's actually toxic. Toxic. So your life is on the line till you help somebody out for nothing.

[Alan Eist]

Yeah.

[Leslie Carlos]

Just so that they can be like, well, sorry.

[Alan Eist]

Like figure it out. I just met someone.

[Leslie Carlos]

I met somebody. I mean people knew about a little bit. I met somebody and honestly I don't blame nobody. What I'm gonna say about this is that I put myself in that situation. The thing though that way I think about it is that it no one's fault fault but myself because no one put me in that situation. That's why if anything that I went through because you put yourself there. So I knew when I was going through stuff, I was like, baby girl, you did it to yourself. Like nobody. Like, yes, it's all happening, but you entered somebody else's life and you already knew. Sometimes you don't realize the person you're with and you obviously I just met the person. So. And I was so young and gullible. I believed everything. I guess you could say. Like I went through a lot at a young age that you're not supposed to go through. I feel like people who are like asados and stuff go through it and I went through something that it mentally I already. I already gone through things. I don't feel like I was. I don't feel like I could have gotten hurt more because to me papa. And then obviously I tell myself like, you can't keep hitting that weight around. Like, I would never go about my life. Like, oh my God, about my dad about my dad. No. But did it. Did I have issues that I needed to fix? Of course. And then that added to it and it was horrible. I feel like I would go to sleep crying every day, you know, know because stuff wasn't the way I wanted to. My life was in it going to. And then I had this whole tick tock like oh, Leslie's so funny. Like Leslie this. And at the time I was never personal with them there. Like yes, I would only go on there and say funny stories that happened to me in my life but I would never go on there. So as a quinta that when I left and I went back to my mom's house, they saw. They obviously see. They're like okay, she was just somewhere else and now she's here.

[Alan Eist]

Did they know you were in a relationship?

[Leslie Carlos]

Yeah, they did. They did. They kind of just blew it up were quick. They kind of were just like eh, like whatever. And I kind of just let it, let it. I didn't say nothing. I had no for reason for what my goal. When I left, when I left and I finally got to my room again, it felt so weird to me. I sat down in my room and I was like I'm back. I'm back here again and it's completely different. And obviously my followers on Tik Tok was I never stop my grind. No matter what I was going through, no matter if I was in my car crying by myself, no missing my family, no matter what. I was always hustling, posting and doing what I got to do because I was not about to do that. I felt like I was going so good and if I would have stopped, it would have. I was already worse. I was like, I'm going to make it even worse for myself. And this is what I wanted. I knew that I had goals and I wasn't going to let just because I was going through certain stuff. And it was very hard for me. It was super, super, super, super hard. I never think at a young age would ever want nobody to go through that. And the sad part about it is that because my mom told me, my sisters told me, they're like, you don't have to be in a situation like that. Like, like it was just super, super bad. They knew a lot of what was going on. A lot, a lot of red flags. Didn't see them apparently. I, I saw them but I felt like I think my breaking point was just where I told myself like girl, you gotta love yourself. You do. I feel like as a lot of us are like, oh, should we leave? Like, girl, leave, leave. Like, love yourself enough to leave. Like, why are you get. Why are you making yourself go through that? Like, don't do that to yourself. Like, and I love myself enough to be all right. Like, yeah, Leslie. Like, that's enough. Like, there's enough that it's been done to you that you're like, okay. Like, and I felt like I left okay. Like, I left good and everything was good and I left the way it should have been left. The only sad part about it was that I. I had to start over again. Peron. I was like, well, the one thing I like to say a lot to, to when they ask me, they're like, oh, should I go back? I'm like, no, go back. Cuz I went back so many times. You're going to learn your lesson. You ask just so you don't want to return. So it's mean. Go back if you can go back if you want to go back until you learn. That's what I tell everybody. Like, you have to go back. One thing that I learned so much is that I will not. If you're so stubborn, you're not going to learn to go through the worst moments in your life and you're like, we even question. You're like, oh, hold up. Like there's on. Like that's. And that's what my mom let me do. It's like, even though it hurt her, I know it hurt her like me, it hurt her. Like she was like, you're just so tired. Like, oh, I don't think I learned there, but I, I think finally I up there and I went back and I went back hard. Like, I went back and I. When I sat the next day on my route, when I went back the next day, I gave myself like a day. And then the next day, boom. I'm live. Hitting it every day on live. Because I only had 100 bucks. I'm like, girl, you still gotta, like, you gotta get yourself. Yeah. So I went back and boom. I remember there's like, damn time. Like, you can do this. I started making like 2, 000 on live like every week. I was like, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom. But we're talking about lives from like 6:00 in the afternoon to 4:00 in the morning. That's when life had just started booming and I was hitting it hard, keeping going. And then I started getting invited to LA trips and stuff like that. And then Toko that like four months after I went to this little party in la and I met Joey. There's. I met Joey at the time time we met through. We had a group of friends in common. I think it was at that party that we met that was like, oh. Like, we. Ever since that day, we kind of.

[Alan Eist]

Who made the first move? Like, I think.

[Leslie Carlos]

Who made the first move? I think it was both of us. Both of us. But more me a little bit because he's still a little shy. Like, I'm more like a little bit more, you know, out there. Yeah. Yeah.

[Alan Eist]

So you were, like, eyeing him down the whole time?

[Leslie Carlos]

I was like, yeah. So, no, I think I saw him walk out by himself at the party. And I was like, where is he going? And I. And I followed him. I was like, you're okay. Like, he looked like he was. And we kind of just. He was like, no, I think I'm just going to leave. I was like. And then we went to go eat after. Went to go eat tacos. And I remember we ate tacos in his truck and we talked, like, the whole night. We just talked. And. And then I realized the way he was. But the thing is, you realize he didn't. When we would go live together before, we kind of knew a little bit about. About each other. But the way we were online, we'll be like, ill. And I'm like, oh, you. Like, we were not. You could tell if you would have seen us on live. You'll be like, oh, it's not like. And it's so weird. I guess that's how things work because when we saw each other, we were.

[Alan Eist]

Like, you're like, okay. Yeah.

[Leslie Carlos]

So then when we find, like, I guess obviously when you get into a deeper conversation. So I started. It was like Joy was like a. A breath of fresh air for me, honestly, something completely different. So I felt like it was new to me. And I think what most caught my eye is that. That I would try. I'm gonna say try. I would try to be toxic. And he'll be, like, so unfazed. He'll be like, what's wrong with you? And I was like, Because I'm so used to being Toxica. Like, and. And so I'm not that Toxica, But I'm still like, you know, I still. I'm like. When I hear, like, a girl talking to him, I'm kind of like. I'm like, oh, hey, like, let me enter the cup. So when he tried to use just so. And it was so new to me, I'm like, oh, there is people like this. And I Had never met somebody like that where he was so unfazed. And he would actually talk about it. He'd be like, okay, well you don't talk about it. He would like me like okay, well like the clear like he wouldn't be the thing about it. He wouldn't be toxic back. You do realize we could talk about it. I'm like, oh, people talk. I'm like, oh, we can talk about it. So that's why I'm like, okay. That's why I wanted to explain first why like how Joey is just such a breath of fresh air to me and obviously I'm so used to it and especially to be because my mom, every. All my sisters. Everyone's toxic. I was like we're like and who. Who's and who you talking to? And if we don't know the female explicanos because what's up?

[Alan Eist]

Yeah.

[Leslie Carlos]

So that's what I'm just used to. So when I finally met it I was like, wow. So I think that's why it's. It worked out and it was there. We did have a little moment obviously where we had to take a break and it was more because we did. I'm telling you it was just so new to me. I mean you can compare years that of what I've known known and being toxic guy where you get who and showing up to places. Because that's what I was used to. Yeah. To finally being so when it was new to me. I think it was like a shock to me. So I started getting scared because I was like no, there's no way. Like there's no way. Like there's no. It's too good to be true. Like please up. Like I'm waiting for the focus. That's what I was used to. Like I'm waiting for the up. Like you either do something like use either cheating or porcablava or because we didn't get or something. You know. So I was like. Until like one day was like the smallest argument. And I guess because of I don't know if I was going through it or what. I was just like not having it. And I guess I didn't even talk like. Like we're having a normal. And usually, you know I do And I guess I got back to my old ways. God, to me. And I was like no. Like that's how it was. I was real even with guy like people before whoever I was talking to. I was real strong. Like I would rather look like even.

[Alan Eist]

If you were wrong.

[Leslie Carlos]

You were like yeah, like, no, like, I'm not wrong. You're wrong. Like, that's how I was. Yeah. Yeah. Like, that's how I've always been like that. Like, that's what I was used to. So I think my old ways kind of got to me where I didn't realize, like, hey, like, it's not like that, you know, and my mom, she. That's why me and my mom had an altercation. Because she was like, Leslie, like, you know, it's not like that. They had like, you know, talk about things like as like, he's a good guy and you know, mom, like, I was like, no, no, no, no. And it sucks that we don't realize that. Like, if you're not completely healed, it'll come out, babe. It's going to come out. You think it's not in there, but it's in there like Vasa. And I didn't realize, like, oh, shoot. Like. And well, in a whole week everyone saw like a. All of Tik Tok. They're like, what? And it just took for me, me one thing about that. I know that it can get somebody riled. Like, if my hands don't show in my mouth will, like, I'll go off. Like, I. I know I can. I know what I'm capable of.

[Alan Eist]

How was that? Like.

[Leslie Carlos]

Everybody was saying so much.

[Alan Eist]

You guys had like a very public breakup. What was going on? You were going through a real breakup, you know, like, not just in person, but online. But what was it like having to live this breakup, not just. Just in person, but also online?

[Leslie Carlos]

It was so horrible. Next time, like, let me just pick up the phone and call him. Like, babes, you don't got to do all that. I would have told myself, like, you know what? Like, there's no need for that. And I literally could have done that. And I don't know. I don't know. I think cuz I had so. I look at. I was so sad. I was like, what was going on with me? I look at myself. I was like, what? That whole week, I think it was just so much in one week. I think more because. Because it was too good to be true. I'm like, leslie, it's not always that bad. Come on. Like, I'm always just used to going through something that when I wasn't going through something, I was just like, yeah, like, where? And that's. That's horrible. And I knew that I needed help. I knew that I needed like, to fix myself, you know, obviously mine too. Like, girl, this is the bigger problem here is kind of you, like, you need your attitude the way you are. Like one is ninth, ninth. Basically that whole week was horrible. Oh my God. I just remember waking up and I was on Pancho's page. Everybody I was like, oh my God. Okay, say like what did I do? And it was just me just talking, like crashing, basically crashing out. And I remember I was like, I'll go live. That's all they would ask me about Joey.

[Alan Eist]

He hadn't been vocal online. No, it was just you yapping.

[Leslie Carlos]

I provoked it. Low key. Like it was me yapping low. But everybody else, obviously they noticed. Obviously they were going to ask like, hey. And obviously if I don't say nothing and see notice this or you better say right now. Y. If you go through something on the Internet, don't think you can go on there and say some half story. No, babe, you better go on the Internet if you're going to see a story and a full story with details. Because no, they will not. They will haunt you. They do not mess around. The Internet does not mess around. You better come with the story. And I. The crazy thing is that I already learned that like I already had known that if you're not going to say something fully, don't say it at all. So I already is like, girl, yes, yes. I was so mad. I think I was more mad at myself. Like, yeah, why Leslie? Why? But because I'm so stubborn and yolo and that whole week was horrible. Honestly. After that Poncho posted it. Cheese. My pages started posting it that week, I think like a day after I crashed. Oh my God. That had. Was the most biggest wake up call, mind you. Oh yeah, let me hold up. There's a part I'm missing here. Cuz it's like a. So then they post that I already already. I was already at my new apartment. I think there's where they knew already, like, oh, something serious is going on. Because I had just got a new apartment and I posted it. My mom was trying to make me understand like Leslie, like, mira, lasas bien mente Clara. Like fria Team Joy. Yeah, she loves Joy. Yeah. She was like, hey, like he's. And she. She has a point. I understand. Understood. Like my. When I'm mad and I'm worked on it when I'm mad. I'd rather just leave me alone. I'll calm down, not say nothing. Get off my phone. Yeah. Oh my God. Yeah. I was so mad. I had so. I was so mad like that. You know, Mr. Cavas, I was mad at everybody. I wasn't talking to my family. My mom, when she tried to even explain to me, like, hey, she was trying to make me understand. No, y'all know, mind you, we're having an argument. She was like, lala. I was like not hearing her, la la la. I was like, okay, well I'm gonna move out cuz my mom's like, my house, my rules, right? She was still serious with me. She wasn't playing, she wasn't messing around with me. She was telling me like. And I was like, oh, your house, your rules. Okay, well I'm gonna go get my own house. So I went to go get my own apartment. It took me like an. I don't know how I did this in two hours. I was already set, I was already in my apartment, mind you. I just took what was in my name, like, I didn't want to get her mad either. My mom's like, you have to look at the anything. I was like, okay. So I took my vanity, my TV and a few my clothes and stuff. But I didn't take my bed. Cuz obviously she got me the bed. So I was like. And then, yeah, so I had. I. The next day, I think I got my apartment. And the next day after my apartment, the light came on and then I think I believe I stayed my friends. And then I just woke up early. I didn't even sleep, to be honest. I slept like two, three hours and I was always on my phone. And then two, three hours I took a nap. And then the next morning I got up and went to go get a bed cash. I went to get stuff I needed for my house. And.

[Alan Eist]

And all of that happened during the breakup. Like everything was happening online.

[Leslie Carlos]

All of that happened in a week. I was already set in my apartment in a week. Not even like, probably like four days because I was so mad. I was like, okay. And I, Well, I'm always, I'm always big. I've always saved money, I've always been about my money. They've always. That's always been taught, save your money. So I got my things, whatever, and then, okay, boom. I'm sitting in my apartment thinking everything's chill. I'm like, oh, I can do this. Like, so then the next day I had a promo to do in Cali. So then I get up in the morning and I'm going to go to go get something. I stop on my friend's house. I leave my friend's house. Mind you, this whole thing of joy is still going on There's Jesus Pacers going, going and going. So then I'm driving. I try to realize that morning. I try to understand what was going on with me. I don't know if it was the Des Valadas. I don't know if it was because I was going through it. I don't know. But I was crying when I crashed. I'm not going to lie. I just remember driving. I don't think I was trying to do it to myself, to be honest. I don't. Honestly, I don't know what was going on with me. I just remember that I kept going. So the car in front of me, it was. The light was green. She stopped. And my head kept in sour. Leslie, like, why didn't you stop, too? I kept going, but I don't know why she stopped at the green light. So then the crash happens. I rear ended her from the back. My car's, like, small now, right? I had a Cadillac and I didn't have my seat belt on. But not having the seat belt saved me because my legs would have not been on my legs right now. I. I just remember that. Boom. And I went to the. My. My seat to the back. So I went like, yo, I guess the pressure. Because of the pressure, boom. Like, I even. I didn't even lay down. I basically. My whole body, like, it just to the back. I went to the back. So when I was in the back, I like, I guess I not. I fainted. And then I remember getting up and, like, just like blinking and then seeing this. The lady. I remember seeing the lady, but she never came to, like, check on me. And then I finally get off of the car, and I go to her and I'm like, estas bien, right? And she goes, yeah.

[Alan Eist]

Like, it was that bad.

[Leslie Carlos]

I'm like, okay, girl, but you can't. Well, first of all, I was like, okay, well, you can't go check on me. My head. I'm like, you couldn't even. Like, so what if I needed mouth to mouth? What's crazy to me? I guess, like, the adrenaline. They say I had never gone to something like that. I was so calm. I hugged her. I'm like. And she's like, see? And I hugged her. I'm like, she was crying and she, you know, like, she didn't have papers. She didn't have nothing. Like, you know, know. I was like, yola, like, don't worry. I was like. And she's like, no say. No say escape. And she didn't have. And I. I was. I knew I. I understood she was frustrated, she was mad and she was scared cuz the police were going to come. I'm like, no, like estabien. I knew that we could do an agreement. Like we can agree like on the side. Pull up.

[Alan Eist]

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

[Leslie Carlos]

And the C will be good. I was like, yos. Like that's fine. Like you don't got to do nothing. You're like you though. So she didn't have money to. My car was a total loss. I helped Dr. Tow her car back. I. I guess she went with the tow truck. I was gonna uber her, but she can go back to the. And I had a flight to catch, mind you, because I was already. Yeah, I had a flight to catch. So then I finally I get that situated and I'm still in. Like I'm calm the whole time, I'm calm. And I can't even call my mom because we're in a fight. Yeah. I felt so ugly. So the only person I called was my brother. The first person I called because he was still kind of my brother was the whole time. And I. His baby sister, then his head and he's. And I called him and I was like, hey. And he's like, were you okay? Like, you know. Yeah. He's like, keep going. Like they always tell me that's literally my family's thing. Keep going like. And I'm like, don't tell mom. And I just felt like it was going to be more heavy on my mom. Like though I just moved out and then boom. She almost like, so then watch. I still get home and I have to shower because I have to go catch. I'm still going to catch the flight. My friend's like, you're going to catch the flight.

[Alan Eist]

I'm like, so you weren't hurt?

[Leslie Carlos]

Like no. Watch. So then I get. I get. Finally get home and I have black tights on. So I can't see blood, mind you. I can't see blood. So I don't know what was going on. And I did feel like my legs kind of hurt, right? So then I finally. I took off my. My pants. Blood like everywhere. I had scratches. I have a one video that I posted when I posted my new car that my legs, you can see the bruises. But I had scratches and bruises like blood. And I was like, but that still didn't click in my mind. I'm like, well, they don't hurt. I told my friend. My friend's like, no, Leslie. Like, go get checked. I'm like, no, I'm okay. I'M okay. But I, I was. My legs are like. I would go like that to the, to the. Yes. And I was like, oh my God. But it was more like a scratch that I had that was blood, like coming out and I guess where my legs like pushed out. I still don't even know how that works. Still don't know how I was in the backseat. It was crazy. Finally I end up catching my flight and coming to Cali and Comosinada and I was still going live and no.

[Alan Eist]

One knew that I had next day.

[Leslie Carlos]

Yeah, the next day I get up and I'm like, oh, like now I feel it. My whole body hurt. My legs. I can barely walk, mind you, but I had to go do a promo and I was like, oh my God. Like, what am I going to do? And I doing. Yeah, I have friends still here in Cali. So one of, one of the. One of girls helped me and they were there for me. It was such. It was a horror. It was so sad. It was so sad that I. I don't wish that upon anybody. I did my best to help the senora.

[Alan Eist]

You guys were broken up for four months, right?

[Leslie Carlos]

Yes.

[Alan Eist]

Was it no contact broken up or were you guys still like low key talking?

[Leslie Carlos]

No, there was no contact. There was no contact.

[Alan Eist]

So not even when you guys were beefing it that week when you guys were like, oh, no.

[Leslie Carlos]

Yeah, I would send beautiful messages. We were talking about that. I was like, do you remember? He was like, yeah, I was going off, very much going off. I was mad. I was like, no. And my mom, like I blamed him for everything. Like it was both of us and everybody was just saying the most. Everyone was like, no, this, this, this. Everybody was just going off on whatever they thought get cheated. Always the first thing that they always say, no, it was just because I'm stubborn and I'm terrible and I need to understand things. That's why. And no, we didn't talk at all. But another nothing. Not a peep, nothing. Like he would never text me back. I was always the one that would text them on a random Tuesday be like, oh, I hate you. Like, I was so mad.

[Alan Eist]

Like, and no reply.

[Leslie Carlos]

No, I'm telling you, like, you probably already knew, but I, I knew that, that he, he, he does love me. Like, I know he does. He meant well. What happened when we started talking again, was a friend that we have in common. He was on FaceTime with him and I guess they were like playing around with him about me and then they, they brought me up or like or something happened that I was brought up. And then they add him to the FaceTime call and I guess they thought I wasn't gonna answer. Oh, I answered. I was like, hello. Yes, on the FaceTime call. Like, it was all three of us. It's like a merchant joint. FaceTime. Com. And we, we exchanged some nice words.

[Alan Eist]

So it was like crazy. It was your first time talking after the whole scandal.

[Leslie Carlos]

Yes, the. The first time talking about the whole scandal. And we needed it. We needed. Even if it was like that. I felt like everything happens for a reason. And I kept saying it. Well, I kept saying. I was like, no, I'm not going to get back with Joey on Live. That I know there's screen recordings. I was like, ew, no, Ill. No, I'm not gonna be like. And I'll tell everybody. But I knew. I knew that the reason I had such strong emotions because no, mom is not. Even when I broke up, other situations that I've gone through, I wasn't that passionate.

[Alan Eist]

Yeah.

[Leslie Carlos]

I didn't even say nothing about the other one. That they actually did something to me and that it was actually a serious problem. I didn't say nothing with this one. I. One little problem. And I was already. This is how I knew. I already knew, like, deep down for the. I was like, oh, my God.

[Alan Eist]

Like, so when you would go online and you would say all these things, would you get off and be like.

[Leslie Carlos]

No, no, no, no, no. You're like, no. And I. And I said what? I said, like. And I stand on it. And like, I said it. I said it in the moment. That's just how I felt in the moment, you know? And then if I saw him, I'll be like, well, if I could fight him, I probably would have. Like, I'm like, what's up? But no, I, I finally. We talked. And then after. We finally talked normal by ourselves, and then we started. We went out to eat and we talked and we. It was, it was baby steps very much. For like a whole month. We kind of baby steps vibes.

[Alan Eist]

Okay.

[Leslie Carlos]

No, nobody knew. Even my, the, even the people that didn't know that we talked. Nobody knew I'd be like, nah, he's there or not. But I was seeing him. And when I saw him, I was like, hi, my baby. Like, the feelings start coming back again. I was like, okay, I maybe do like him. And we kind of just talked about things. We finally come to an agreement. And I think just. It was a simple conversation that could have. It could have been before, like a Little bit sooner that we had the conversation, but I still felt like I needed to heal a lot and fix things more with my mom and stuff because it got really ugly. It did. And she means well, you know, I was very mad, but she means well. Like, I knew her point of trying to get me to understand. And I feel like I wanted him to understand me too, too. And he just. I. I think more what we needed to do is for me to communicate more. Like, to be like, hey, you know, not be so. And it's good. It's good to be independent. It's good to be a strong, you know, good girl. But sometimes, like, just let somebody take care of you, you know, like, just breathe. And I needed to breathe. He was like, I think that's what it is. We do balance each other out when it comes to stuff like that. Like, relationship wise. I think he does balance me out a lot. Like, he's more like, I can be screaming or doing them all, like, like, crazy me. And he'll be like, okay, you did. I'll be like, yeah.

[Alan Eist]

I think it also depends a lot on, like, knowing how to, like, go about situations, you know, because in my relationship, I feel like my boyfriend's very you, really? And I'm very Joey.

[Leslie Carlos]

And it's.

[Alan Eist]

Until, like, he'll like, about, like, something that doesn't need to be bitched about, and I'll be like, so chill. Right? And he'll be like, and he's getting mad that I'm so chill. And I'm like, okay, I just want you to, like, listen to yourself while you're getting this riled up. Is it worth it?

[Leslie Carlos]

Yeah.

[Alan Eist]

And he'll be like, no, no, no. But you don't get. I'm like, I get you, though. I get you.

[Leslie Carlos]

There's a way to talk about things.

[Alan Eist]

Yeah. Like, I think, you know, pinch, you know.

[Leslie Carlos]

I know, but I want to buy it.

[Alan Eist]

Did you grow up feeling always attacked or where do you think that?

[Leslie Carlos]

I think it's because I'm telling you, my. I think not attacked, but they're so strong. Like, like very.

[Alan Eist]

I feel like maybe you grew up very. Okay, maybe it's different with you and my boyfriend, but I always tell my boyfriend, like, you know, for so long, I always tell him, you know, like, I understand, you know, where your attitude or where, you know, this is coming from because he grew up, you know, con suma, being a single mom. Mom. The. The. His dad's side of the family would talk on the mom, you know, So I always tell my Boyfriend. I was like, you, there's a chaoticonosco. You're on attack mode. Whether it can be like something that can help you or not. Even if it doesn't need to be defender. You know what I mean? And he's like, you know what, babe? You're right.

[Leslie Carlos]

It is that I think. And also because where I'm from, also everyone's like that like, like, like calm down, you know, not everything's like, that's like coming from over there, from Texas and coming to California. Like you guys are like. And then Texas is like like super serious. Super like what's up? I mean, we're funny, we like, you know, but everybody over there is very like, like that, like. And I think it is. I don't know why we're like, I just noticed that me having a therapy session.

[Alan Eist]

You're like, why am I like this? You analyzing right now? No, I think it does kind of stem from childhood. You maybe you didn't feel like you had to defend yourself, but maybe like you said, you know, you and your siblings, you know, so maybe internally you're like, no, I need to have the last word. Like I need to be, you know, so it does come from a lot. So it's good that he's your balance and he's like. Or whatever, you know, Because I can be.

[Leslie Carlos]

I can be like super loud. But as soon as they're loud with me.

[Alan Eist]

Yeah.

[Leslie Carlos]

Oh, why are you screaming at me?

[Alan Eist]

So you're soft too.

[Leslie Carlos]

Why screaming at me? Like, he's like, you were just screaming at me. I'm like, yeah, but that's good. Scream.

[Alan Eist]

Yeah, but only me.

[Leslie Carlos]

And I think because I get my way with him too. I think that's like that. I mean, I've always gotten my way but like, I mean in a different way. Like he does it in like a calm way. And that's crazy because he hasn't really had like a lot of relationship. Like he's had probably like not a lot. Like I'm like his first very, very serious relationship. So I feel like he's. It's crazy how he. He dirty knows. Like he's like, okay. And it took a lot, it obviously took us for us to break up for him to understand. Cuz this time around he's more like he already knows. He knows me, he knows who I am, he knows what I want. And I think it was that too. That cuz I was so sure what I wanted. Yola. I crash out and it should be like that. Like girl, calm down. Like it's not that serious. It's not that deep. Like you need to. I think there's where I've always been like, okay, everything has its moments. It's. If it's not your. Also if it's not your time to shine, it's somebody else's time. Let them shine and your time will come to shine. Cuz when it's able for you to shine, you're going to shine big. You see, no spino esp. You know what I mean? So I think that's the biggest thing and I had to live through things and see no esp. Like learn it. Once you learn that everything's easy. Cuz something happens. You're like, like you see, like I had a whole crash and I then I was like, well I got to go do my job.

[Alan Eist]

Like how was your healing during those months before you actually started talking and getting back together? Did you prioritize any healing or you or were just more like no, he's wrong. Moving on.

[Leslie Carlos]

I just didn't think about it. Honestly. I'm very like when I, when I'm going through something, I start to tend to get myself really busy. I start to get busy, I start to do things. I started, you know, it's crazy. I honestly you could see like when we broke up, I was posting, I was going live a lot. I was doing what I got to do like and I did what I had to be done. The way I healed, I feel like was time heals. Nothing else healed me but time. Like nada. Like it was just El Kora and this. It needed to pass. Like I had to just process everything. Process and kind of just. And rethink about it. Be like, girl, you got out of something, you finally got somebody super good. And you like what is it? Like I needed to re. And I needed it. I feel like I needed to crash. I feel like I needed to live by myself. Completely by myself. Like I needed to understand life and I finally understood it. But the sad part about it is that I understood it when I was there like laying by myself. I'm my house. I understood that my. This is what my mom didn't want me. Like my family was like this is what we didn't want for you. But it was cuz I think cuz they. The more they told me no and my mom understood that. My mom learned with me. She's like yeah, yeah and it's worked and. And I'm like okay, maybe I shouldn't do that.

[Alan Eist]

You're like, maybe I should listen to that. You know what is true, though?

[Leslie Carlos]

It's.

[Alan Eist]

It's. It. You know, until you realize, me boyfriend tienes sister. Right, right. Like, and he wasn't. He wasn't. And we would tell her. I got to a point where I told my boyfriend, you guys are fighting with her.

[Leslie Carlos]

She's not processing those. The pro. The problem that she's supposed to be processing. Right. She's processing the problem that she has with you guys and not the actual problem. Yeah.

[Alan Eist]

Like, she's not realizing, like, you don't realize, like, oh, maybe that they're telling me that because, like, you said, okay for me to not go through a heartbeat.

[Leslie Carlos]

And it sucks that the first thing we think is, no, they just don't want me to be with them. No, honey, it's because they don't want you to go through it. But unfortunately, I think just going through things. But going the things helps you.

[Alan Eist]

Yeah.

[Leslie Carlos]

Like, it helps you. Like, a lot of the reason I don't ask myself no more why I'm like, neo. Because of that. I think I've been through so much that I'm like, okay, I get it.

[Alan Eist]

It gives you perspective, though. I think it's good. You know, AB says you have to go through. You have to. You know. You know, you have to go through that B. Because it does give you a different perspective. Like, even with my. You know, she went homeless with this guy. She did the most with him. But now when I talk to her, yeah, Obor. She's healed and everything. It's been so long. When I talk to her, I'm like, damn, dude, that's crazy. That, like, that's a part of your story, and that builds one character, and it gives you a different perspective that maybe I could never have. You know what I mean? Because I didn't go through any of the things that she went through, you know, Obame. You guys get back together. Momento. That you guys shock everyone that follows you guys. I started being like, wait, weren't they just.

[Leslie Carlos]

Weren't y'all just beeping? Honestly, the thing about the Internet, I have, like, this thick skin, and I care for two seconds like, yes, you'll see me respond sometimes to a comment. My mind, the way it works, guys, is that. And I'm like, see? Anyways, like. Like, my ADHD would just, like, catch. And I'm glad I have it, because if I were to sit there and be like, no, girl. Like, I'm not. Like, I'm done. There was a. I think when I was younger, but then I was like never. You're never gonna have them happy. And why do I care about these people? The only people I care about is the ones I see a lot. Like on my chat and when I. The people that follow me, that show me love, those are people. And I see it. Believe it or not, guys, you see people like when you see account, like I've seen this account a lot. Like they be liking my stuff a lot. Like I, I see it. So I'm like, no, I don't care. And I'm glad. I've always been like that. Like I don't care. I mean when I was young that's how I don't care. And I think it most it has to do with a lot of issues. Like I've been hurt so young that I'm just like, people are like, oh it's cuz she's and this and that babes. If I could sit there all day day and ask you guys to fix my life, I would. The thing is that there's going to be so many answers that I'm not gonna listen to nobody. Like I'm not. So it's hard. Like they see us go through big things. Like when I got back with Joey, I knew they. I was like, eh, I just don't care no more. Like it's my platform. You're. I think I. The way I see Tik Tok is that you go into my ca. My page. You're walking into my house. Yeah, that's my house. You're stepping in my house. My house. Welcome. See my life. And I really wish I could tell them more. I stopped obviously being a little bit more personal with them because oh my God, everyone. And I was fine with it. But when it's serious stuff that I know mentally I cannot mess with it right now. That's why there's certain things that I didn't say and they don't know because I'm like for what? Like that whole time when I was, the whole thing with Joey, I knew that when if I would have said that I crashed. I know that there was going to be people that are going to be like, like oh my God, no, that's not what we're going to do. Because no one thing about it too that I've learned is that I used to be on there and I, I know a lot of people see me, I used to go on there and go off on people and that's what I'm known for too. Like my response and I'll do it here and there I'll give them like a little what I've learned. I'm very strong and I'm with the fact that. Okay, I don't like you. Cheeto, does your water not run for not liking me? I'm so sorry. And for any girls watching this, when someone doesn't like you, babe, that's the energy they wasting you. I'm not going to waste my energy on why don't you like me and try to please you? Babe, I got bills to pay. I have a goals that I want to do. Is this going to help me go on a trip to Tokyo or Japan or somewhere to Paris? No babes. And if no. And if your water's still running in your house, you're okay with not liking me? You're fine. You're going to be okay. Like it's just certain things I'm. I think I'm too real sometimes I'm like damn. Like that's. They don't like to hear it which is good. But I, and also that I, I like to enter the back to the entertaining a little bit apart. I think that's what I want people to see me as. I'm there to entertain you guys. Like you don't got to like me and that's fine. I want people to laugh cuz you guys are very clear. But I, I want them to see me and to entertain. That's what I love to do. Like I think entertain the most that I can.

[Alan Eist]

They're wasting their time because. Because it literally does take a lot of money.

[Leslie Carlos]

I don't know if they notice but the most people that they don't like, the more they make money. I'm sorry, have you guys not noticed that the more you don't like a person, the more they make money? Even though you don't like it, just ignore it. If you don't like me, ignore it. Because the more you comment on my video, the more my video goes up, the more I get paid. Like they don't realize how it works. I'm like no. When you don't like somebody, just completely unfollow. You know what?

[Alan Eist]

Like my life is miserable Persona. Yeah. Sometimes you can, you know, because I'm that same type of person that like I'll read a comment, I'm like, like. But then I'm like ah, what? Whatever. I'm like I have interview tomorrow.

[Leslie Carlos]

Like it's, it's like that. Like that's just. And some people, unfortunately not everyone's like that.

[Alan Eist]

Yeah.

[Leslie Carlos]

And unfortunately some it's hard. So I think a lot of people are scared of social media. But see, if you're the type of person, babe, you'll make so much money on the Internet. If you do not give a. I guarantee you go on the Internet and you're going to make money. Because even at that, I'm still kind of aware. I'm like, I'm not. In the beginning, I was. That I didn't care, do everything, but now I'm more cautious because I'm like, okay, you still gotta think, like, how do you want to be perceived? And you gotta realize that it stays there forever. And you have to, like, you have to realize that you. We get paid, obviously, not for people liking us. We get paid for our views. It's up to you if you want to care for people to like you. Unfortunately, I care a little bit. To the point where I'm like, okay, I'm not going to make them that mad, but if I want to go on there, I know how to make them mad. But I don't do it because I just don't want to be there. I'm not there in that state of mind. I want to be happy. I want to just. I don't care about that right now. There's people doing it right now that are making people mad. I just want to be there to entertain. You got to think in your mind, like, k I said, and right now I'm in the stage of my life. Like, I don't want to piss off nobody. Maybe in the beginning I did a little bit, but now I just want to entertain, make them laugh. And it's because there's so much going on in the world that already that I'm like, okay, I just want to make you guys laugh, Forget a little bit. That's. I think that's how I've always thought of Tik Tok. That app is there to make us laugh.

[Alan Eist]

You know, you guys get back together when you guys get back together?

[Leslie Carlos]

Yesterday? No, I.

[Alan Eist]

Like, right now.

[Leslie Carlos]

Four hours ago. No, we got back to there, like, last year. Yes. Yeah, we were together New Year. Yeah, we were together New Year's. I think it's been a few months already. Yeah. Yeah, we got back together and we were talking for, like, a few months, and then I told him, like, like, what do you want to do? Like, are you sure? Are you sure you want to be with me? Like, is this something you want? You know, I know I'm not the easiest to deal with, but I mean, well, I mean, well, I just, you know, I'm A little rough on the edges. So he was like, no, I do. And I was like, okay. And then he asked me to be his girlfriend. I just told him that I wanted things to be serious. We might have not. Didn't write the first time, but this time I'm like, I want to do it serious. Even if so what? Let's do it again. Like, why? We have so much time in the world. We're both young. We have so much time. What else do we have to do? Like, this is what we do. And he was like, okay. So then he. He asked me to be his girlfriend on the beach. It was so beautiful. That was the most h. I loved it. I loved it. And now he shows me a. He was very. He was very serious with me in the beginning, like, when we first got together and I understand. Understand him. He was very like. And now I feel like he shows more his sweet side. Like, and then we decided, because we're always together, and I did have my apartment in Texas, and he has apartment here in Cali. He was like, you know what? Like, do you just want to, like, you know, move in together? And I was like, yeah. Like, I feel like it would be a good idea. We already had talked about it. I had brought it up, too. I would bring it up, too. Like, you know what it is? Like, I'm paying for an apartment for. In Texas. For what? What? Like, I just have it just there. And plus, I'm already good with my mom, and I already had fixing my mom, too, and. And they were good. So I felt like I was. It was just a good move. I was mainly always over here, too, with my friends or, you know, like. Or something. I was always say, like, you know, I was always here. Like, I was literally based here. And everybody would tell me, like, oh, why don't you just move out here anymore? I'm like, I don't know. Like, I just, you know. So then finally, like, I. I guess say so. Like, I was like, okay. And I was still hesitant. I was still like, like, I'm scared because this means that we're serious, which is fine. But I'm just like, are you? Like, I was more scared for him because me, I'm like, I'm here for a good time, not a long time. Like, I can't be waiting. I'm 24. Like, yes, I'm still young, but I'm like, let's go. Like, I'm very too. Like. Like, I don't got time to be was. I mean, you. I'm in love with you. You're in love with me? Might as well.

[Alan Eist]

If it works out, great. If not, we're hoping.

[Leslie Carlos]

Yeah. We don't got time to be wasting. I don't want to waste his time. He's. And he's big on that, too. His thing is, don't waste my time, and I won't waste years. And I'm big on that, too. Like, I've learned that, like, for what, like, what's up? So I just feel like if you have the opportunity to do it and you want to do it, of course they're going to be like, there's some, like, babes. You can't tell me something that I already didn't cross my mind. Like, damn, girl. That fast. Like, but I was already like, nah. Like, if I felt like, in my heart, like, it was good and I didn't have no red flags, and I felt like this and that.

[Alan Eist]

And, you know, surgery. You know, you've gotten two plastic surgeries. The first one in, which was when you were going through that very toxic relationship surgery. What was it like, you know, telling your parents that you were going to get this surgery? What was the reaction? And what was the day of.

[Leslie Carlos]

Oh, my mom was so mad. She was so mad. She was like, no, come with. Even though my. All my sisters have, like, something, something, if it's not their boobs or something. Then I was like, Then she was so mad. She was so against it. She was like, no, it's. You know. And obviously, the thing is where I live, Mexico's right there. Like, literally we're 20 minutes away. So you're. You're like, one day, oh, I just want to go get a rhinoplasty babe. Go. Like, you can get it done in a week. So SEO Fossi. And over there, it's like a tip. It's not good that it's a typical thing, but it is a typical thing over there to do your body. Like, which I think is. There's obviously bad things and there's good things. Right now I feel like it's a little bit more bad because there's so much going on and you just never know. I mean, you have to do your research. Good. So my first one was just, yeah, I didn't do my research that good. I mean, I went to my first doctor and then. But the process was just, oh, the difference between a BBL and a lipo is that a BBL is fat transfer from my back for my arms, for my. My legs, where I wanted, not all of It Just a little bit because I already. I already had. Like, if you go see my Tik Toks, they're still there, guys, if you guys want to see them. Like, I still had my corpo. It was just that they put a.

[Alan Eist]

Little bit more on, like enhancing it.

[Leslie Carlos]

Yeah, yeah. Oh, my God. But the fat transfer. Transfer. Oh, was so painful. So painful. I felt like, because your body's trying to grasp when you. I don't know what it was. I don't even. But I just felt like it was so painful. And then when me. And then that same day, I went home. You're not supposed to go home. But because I was. It was. My prima took me. I remember they had called me the day before. Literally, they. I didn't even know that I was going to get surgery the next day. Like, I wasn't mentally prepared because they called me. They're like, hey, we just have an opening tomorrow for five in the morning. Secret is venir. And I was like, okay, y'all. I was reckless. I was reckless. And I tell my mom. She's like, no, come on. I was like, no. I had. I had done everything already behind her back, like, doing everything. And she. When I told her, like, I was just gonna tell her like, hey, I'm gonna do it. She's like, no, no. And I still went. She was mad, but obviously she was worried, like. And I went. I came home and as soon as I got off the car, I fainted. I fainted. And my mom was just like, my prima. They were trying to wake me up. They got me finally to the bed. I don't remember the first day after. I don't remember.

[Alan Eist]

That's how much pain you were in.

[Leslie Carlos]

Pain. I kept fainting cuz I was losing so much blood. I was losing so much blood. No me mom. But she did it. Like, she saved me the estia. Like, take iron and eat this. Like, she. She's. She's done a few things to herself, so. And other people in my family, so it's not new to us. She didn't knew what to do, but she said that I. I was losing too much blood. And only because I think on Emia. So I was losing too much blood and girl, I was not having it. I was so scared. I remember that I would. I would get up to shower and I would see the water and then boom. Like it. You. You feel when you're going to think, what happened to this one? I know your ears pop. And then once my ear pop, I'm like, oh, my God, here I go.

[Alan Eist]

Boom.

[Leslie Carlos]

Well, my mom wouldn't let me. Like, like they would just take. It was my mom and my sister. Like I like every. My mom said like, like, like you know that, right? Like you understand what you just went through. And I'm like, no, yeah, I understand. It did scare me the first time because that has something. And then obviously I. I gained a little bit weight after my bbl, so I don't know why after I gained weight the first time with my bbl, my body was looking too ex and I didn't like it like my hips because I'm already like, why would I do that? I don't know why I did that. I guess curvy and I was just being nesty out to be honest. And I gained weight and then there's were recently I think like, like it's already. I'm already like on a year I got a lipo natural and I still feel like if you want to look sculpted, that's the way to go. But if you want to lose weight, people think that losing weight is like a lipo bbl, maybe a liposita. But the best thing that you can do to lose weight literally is probably the skinny shop. Like ozemtic or even weight loss surgery.

[Alan Eist]

Yes, I think you have have to like lose. I've always been. Cuz even prior to getting weight loss surgery, I wanted to do a bbl. But before that would be like, like I have a lot of fat, but I'm not going to look proportionate.

[Leslie Carlos]

There you go. There perfect words. Like girls don't realize that you don't. If you want to be like skinny or you want to your body a certain way, that's not the route to go. You're going to look like probably the same just sculpted. Literally the best way I can put it. I just. And a lot of people like, like to talk about it like oh no and this and that. No baby, because you're in your body only, you know. Like people don't know that Girls go, I know every girl goes through it. Like you don't. You don't feel pretty. Every girl wants a butt and it's fine. Like, and that's fine. And that's fine. Like I don't think it's bad. I think everybody should just do whatever they want to do. You're going to live with it for the rest of your life. So I understand them a lot. I mean I do it the right way. I do believe cuz I feel like a lot of girls can do it like oh, $2,000 for BBL. No, babe. No ma'am. Like I would honestly like wait. Cuz you still need your massages. You still need your fakas. The right.

[Alan Eist]

I think like a cheap price is like $10,000. No. In Mexico.

[Leslie Carlos]

No, I think a cheap price wives can still be like 7, 7, 8.

[Alan Eist]

But prior before the aftercare. No, because the after.

[Leslie Carlos]

Wait. Yeah, no, you're right. No, correct, you're right. Like you're gonna spend like 10 grand on everything for you to do everything fully right. Massages, everything. I feel like this time around, the second time it was more easy. It was super more easy. I already had gone through it. So I knew what to do. I knew what to mom was like, oh. And I'm like, no, I'm just gonna get lipo. Because I did gain a lot of away and I just wanted. I finally want to do it. But I knew that I already knew I'm going to get the lipo. I'm going to stick with it and then I'm going to still eat good and lose more weight. But I wanted to look more natural. I feel like my butt was ex. Not too much. A lot of people it still look kind of because I'm still like thick. Like I'm still go like I'm not gor. But I'm still a thick girl. And I, I never wanted to look too like too you know. And so me hips and what else do they do? And just regular light bone arms back. Like my legs a little bit and not now I just take care of myself. I eat good and that was the best thing I could. I was like, wow, I should have just done. Honestly, honestly, I'm gonna be real. Instead of getting my lipo, I should just ate good and gone to the gym because that's what I'm doing right now. I'm losing more weight than I did with the lipo. Oh, and then the first time I also got my. A lot of people tell me about my face. So I got the lipo papada guys and the beach Tom papada is your cheeks. They. They go in. They, they. They just numb this part and they take off your cheeks and they take off this. So my side profile like it was still there, but I wanted it to.

[Alan Eist]

Look like, yeah, I've gotten chin lipo, but I've never. I wanted to get at one point the beach of Tom. But I've heard it's like the recovery is painful, huh? Because even when you're eating like they make you eat like a Lot of soups or stuff like that. Because I looked into it and I was like, oh, like imagine is.

[Leslie Carlos]

Is that you have a cup cut. So, like. So you obviously can't eat, like, everything. But I feel like it was. I think what hurt me more. Yeah, I think that one hit me more than this one. The. This one wasn't that bad. But my cheeks, I think I felt. Because you're. It's in your mouth, like, there's where it goes to go down, you know? So I feel like it did hurt, but I still. I think I was eating pizza, which was. Rattled me like, three days, but I was so reckless with that. But I feel like that didn't hurt me. This or this didn't hurt me. I just got a lot of headaches.

[Alan Eist]

But it's just more like soreness. No, because when I got my chin lipo, it just felt. Felt like my whole face was, like, hard. I would touch myself. I'm like, I feel all tieso.

[Leslie Carlos]

No, no. And I still feel it right here. Like, I could still massage. I could still massage myself if I wanted to, but I feel a little hard because I didn't do the full massages. So that's bad that you're supposed to do all your massages, but I could feel it a little bit hard. But that's stuff that you could still, like, work on.

[Alan Eist]

It's, like, stuff. I think aftercare is very important. The reason why I didn't get the beach up to Mia, you know, I was actually gonna get it with my chin lipo, but I remember the doctor, Dr. Medico, that he's like, the people that get bitruptomia, or however you say it, are most likely gonna get facelifts, you know, when they get older. Because basically, if you take away the fat that's on this side to kind of keep the face lifted so with age. And I was like.

[Leslie Carlos]

I noticed that. And they. They did warn me. They had that talk with me, and I was like, okay, but still do it. Of course. Me.

[Alan Eist]

You're like, I'll have for a facelift later.

[Leslie Carlos]

I'm like, okay, so right now. But I feel like now that I'm losing weight, I see what they were talking about. Like, I look at my face, and I feel like it looks ex. They're like, oh, you did your cheekbones. Like, no, it's just what I did with my cheeks. And these are my natural cheekbones. Like, normally think, oh, I have a little bit of Botox. Okay, I have a little bit of Botox, but it's not like exact. I did the Botox like oh months ago. But because of that reason, because they were right, they. Because my face was like, like I don't know, it was like droops a.

[Alan Eist]

Little bit over 151 pounds. So I was like oh like, like it is crazy.

[Leslie Carlos]

So now we gotta maintain it with Botox. And that's why I'm like, there's no way. Mom was like, why are you doing that? I'm like, let me explain. Cuz I did a little mistake when I was young and I did. So now I have to put a. I don't have to like, it's just a preference. Like I. It's just something that I see on Misma, but I see a little bit of Boto. I have a little bit of Botox and just my lip filler and that's pretty much it.

[Alan Eist]

You know what I mean? But I do feel like surgery research that you've been doing this for a long time. But I want to know what inspired you primarily to be like, you know what? I'm going to start recording my. Myself.

[Leslie Carlos]

I think when I first posted. What did I post? I think it was just me talking. I. One post of me talking. I was saying something, I was bitching about something. It was something like. And then boom. After that I was like, oh, they like for me to talk. I was like, okay, that he wants talking. Boom. I started posting talking. I kind of learned it already. I started learning how to talk, do it. This was. I was like, wow. Like I, I quick. I blew up quick on there. I think I posted one and then like a month later I was already at like 200k.

[Alan Eist]

Oh yeah.

[Leslie Carlos]

I was already like, boom.

[Alan Eist]

Were you posting a lot?

[Leslie Carlos]

I was. Once I got that first one, I just like I kept going and going. Like before we could even go live. Like this is when Tik Tok was just barely like a thing and I started on there and I, I think when everybody first started talking, that's when I first started talking on there. When it wasn't like dantino more.

[Alan Eist]

What was like your first moment where you realized like, oh, like that you were like, you know what, I can do this full time.

[Leslie Carlos]

So I signed up. Right. You know when.

[Alan Eist]

Before the creative program.

[Leslie Carlos]

Yeah, I think it was right before the.

[Alan Eist]

I think it was like the first one.

[Leslie Carlos]

Yeah, it was like the first one. And I didn't know like I put it and then. Yeah, because I was still working. Like I still had my job. So I was like, I wasn't putting and Then one day time I went to go check, they're like, oh, like it would send you a notification. I went to go check, it said 8,000. I was like, you tell me. I'm sitting here talking about my life and I'm getting paid babes, this is it, this I. They should have never paid me cuz as I e. I kept going and going and going. It took me a while to get paid on there though. It took, I think you had, you had to have like it was like a different way of being over there on there. And then I was like when I first got paid, I got paid, I think cuz they wouldn't pay you the first day 8,000. They would give you like a thousand and then I think 2000. It depends how you would do that month. And then when there's where I started, I never gave up. I stopped for a minute and then when I went back again, that's when already the mini video started going back again. And then the lives I started going on there and I didn't stop. I just, I think when I saw that I had my first paycheck it was like a good 2000. I was like wow, that yeah, I mean 2000 and I'm like 1918 or no wait, I was like 1920. I was like o girl, I'm balling. Like it wasn't even something that I like I was taking it ser like I knew that I could make it serious. That's one thing about it that I knew that I could do it. I'm like oh girl, I can do this. Like I know I can't como so I like I knew it.

[Alan Eist]

And you know there's a momento. You kept going, you kept going. You're sitting at with the whole platform, career wise, personal in five years.

[Leslie Carlos]

I still want to be on there. I still want to entertain. I still want them to see my life. I still want them to see my mistakes. I don't want anything to change, to be honest. I want, I still want it how it is. I want to be able to live my life in whatever. Even if one day I know a lot of people are like oh like business, business wise. Honestly, I'd rather promote for these business for people that actually have like. I just feel like it's two different things. I still want to be here to help people promote their business. It would be nice to have my own but I just feel like I don't have that mindset. I still want to be the one to be like oh guys, look at this look at this, look at. I love to do that. Yeah, it's so crazy. Everyone's like, oh you, you might as well just make your own business. No, no, say, well, I like to do it for other people because I don't deal with the headache of other, other things. But I feel like I'm very good. I may not be good at having a business, but I am very good at promoting other people.

[Alan Eist]

You're a salesperson.

[Leslie Carlos]

I guess I am. Like you don't even think it, like, you know what I mean? So I'm very good at that. And I recently learned that too. That's something that I didn't know that I had before I went on there platic and doing stuff like that and more. Now YouTube, I hadn't started YouTube and now like I didn't even know. I didn't even think that I would like it. I never did YouTube because then I did, I started, did one update on my life and boom, like it went good. So I was like, okay. Like now I know like YouTube is.

[Alan Eist]

Where it's at though. I love YouTube.

[Leslie Carlos]

I didn't realize that. I didn't realize that people are like, no, we like for you to talk a lot. We don't like just for 10 seconds we want you to talk. I was like, oh, I didn't know that. And there's just, I think new things are coming to me that I didn't realize. I'm like, I was like, wait, Tik Tok it was, it's going good. Don't get me wrong. I, I appreciate Tik Tok so much but I, I feel like I needed to realize other things. Like girl, there's other platforms like you can do it on other things too. And I feel like it's a new door opening for me and I'm going to take it straightforward just how I did. Tik Tok. Even if I have like a few 10k or whatever, I could still start like the way I start. I feel like the way I started on Tik Tok, like Sola and by myself. I'm a self made person on there. I didn't need no one else to like, I didn't get off of anybody else's cloud. I didn't do nothing. I was self made and there is an email and I can do it again. I feel like I can do it anywhere else. What's the difference? Like you just if you put your mind to it.

[Alan Eist]

Influencer or content creator, you know, especially with Tick Tock, you know, you're a Tick Tocker and like, people that just do tick tock, they're like, well, but you really do as a content creator. One thing that I've always been very big. Even if you don't love the other platforms, you have to put your egg on all those baskets. Because.

[Leslie Carlos]

I think that was a wake up call too. But I feel like it's super hard even. I mean, few months back, I. I had that in my head where I was like, no, I want to. It was just me. I just want to push other platforms. I started pushing Facebook. I'm a little bit on there too. I started pushing YouTube. Oh, no, no, not YouTube yet. I started Facebook, Snapchat.

[Alan Eist]

And Instagram.

[Leslie Carlos]

Yes, Instagram too. I built my. I put my head to Instagram. I started. I worked that. I don't know. One thing about me is when I put my head on there, I'm boy, I. And then I was a little bit on Tik Tok and Now I'm on YouTube. You might not be able to do everything at once, but everything takes time and you just go one by one.

[Alan Eist]

And I think it is very important. You guys, I think you guys are always asking, you know, all at once.

[Leslie Carlos]

I don't think people realize this. I think that's why I feel like creators need to hear this and people need to hear this. Guys, there's enough followers. Yeah, everyone. There's no need to fight. Like, oh, she's cloud. There's no I. The whole cloud chasing things that a little like, oh, it doesn't sit right with me because I'm like, how do you know that in Spanish? There's. There's Spanish creators. Fully Spanish, there's fully English creators. And if you have both, you better work on both. Like, there's. There's a lot. There's so many people in this world, but just because you're not loud enough and they don't hear you, you need for people to hear you. There's enough people and people need to relate to you. Don't be scared. There's so many people. Like, oh, there's not gonna be. There's. There's gonna be people because there's enough people. Like, people don't realize that there's certain things that you go through. People don't realize that and just that there's enough out there. Trust me, there's enough people for everybody. Even if you have to learn a different language, even if whatever the case is, do it and do it just strong and just because your light's not shining bright right now. It will shine for you when it's supposed to shine, because if it shines when it's not supposed to shine, it's not going to shine. Right.

[Alan Eist]

So I think you also have to know not to give up and keep going. If your success is over here and you stop right here, you're never going to get to over here. So with that being said, amigas, thank you once again, thank you for having for being here with us today, our social medias down below, as well as on the screen, any future episodes. And once again, thank you so much.

[Leslie Carlos]

For being here, for having me. I appreciate it so much.

[Alan Eist]

And thank you guys so much for watching. And we'll see you guys in the next one. Bye, guys. Y good.