Podcast Summary: "Miranda Rae Talks All: Childhood, Bullying, Hospitalizations, CHISME & MORE!"
Episode Release Date: November 22, 2024
Host: Alannized
Guest: Miranda Rae
Podcast: Noche de Pendejadas with Alannized
Introduction
In this deeply personal episode of "Noche de Pendejadas with Alannized," host Alannized welcomes Miranda Rae, a prominent YouTuber and TikTok influencer with a substantial following of 8.4 million. The conversation delves into Miranda's tumultuous journey through childhood, experiences with bullying, severe mental health challenges, and her rise to social media prominence. Her candidness provides listeners with an intimate look at the struggles behind her online persona.
Early Life and Upbringing
Miranda Rae opens up about her upbringing, characterized by shyness and a strong attachment to her mother. Born in Long Island and raised in Queens before moving upstate New York, Miranda describes a childhood filled with family bonds but limited social interactions outside her immediate family.
Miranda Rae [09:48]: "I always grew up very shy... Around people I didn't know, I was closed off."
Miranda reflects on her early interactions, emphasizing her preference for family gatherings and close-knit relationships with her cousins.
Experiences with Bullying and Mental Health Struggles
A pivotal part of Miranda's story centers on her experiences with bullying during her teenage years. Beginning in middle school, Miranda was targeted online by a malicious peer who not only harassed her but also introduced her to self-harm behaviors.
Miranda Rae [31:31]: "She was like, how could you do this to her... I'm trying to help her out."
The relentless bullying led Miranda to struggle with depression, anxiety, and eventually self-harm. Her mental health deteriorated to the point where she had to seek emergency help, resulting in her first hospitalization at age 14.
Miranda Rae [36:25]: "That's the first time I went to the mental hospital. I went for like a week. It was hard..."
Hospitalizations and Recovery Attempts
Miranda describes her first stint in a mental hospital, detailing the challenges of being separated from her mother and confronting other patients with severe mental health issues. Despite her parents' supportive nature, the institutional environment left her feeling isolated and misunderstood.
Miranda Rae [45:04]: "Was that scary at that moment...? Yeah, I'm like hearing girls saying they want to kill people... I was just scared."
Her subsequent battles with an eating disorder intensified, leading to more hospitalizations. Miranda explains how her eating disorder progressed from self-restriction to severe malnutrition, culminating in a forced stay at a residential treatment center in Philadelphia.
Miranda Rae [54:35]: "I ended up being forced to go... They were gonna sedate me and force-feed me."
During her time in treatment, Miranda struggled with the loss of control and the rigid structure of the programs, which she felt did not address her needs holistically.
Miranda Rae [61:10]: "I ripped my tube... it was so not it."
Social Media Career and Influencer Life
Miranda's foray into social media began as a coping mechanism during her high school years. Inspired by YouTubers like Emma Chamberlain, she started creating content to find solace and connect with others.
Miranda Rae [91:36]: "I made that pact with myself that if this works out, I'm going to... I'm going to become a YouTuber."
Her initial content focused on humorous lifestyle vlogs and creative hair transformations, which gradually gained traction. Transitioning to TikTok allowed her to reach a broader audience with her distinctive slow-motion hair flip videos, aligning with popular trends like the "VSCO girl" aesthetic.
Miranda Rae [97:05]: "Slow mo dance videos... that's my niche."
Current Struggles with Eating Disorder and Relapse
Despite her online success, Miranda's personal struggles persisted. She candidly discusses her ongoing battle with an eating disorder, marked by periods of relapse that have significantly impacted her daily life, career, and relationships.
Miranda Rae [83:07]: "It affects everything in my life... relationships, friendships, and family. It's so lonely and hard."
Her reluctance to disclose the depth of her struggles stems from fear of judgment and triggering others. Miranda highlights the paradox of maintaining a bubbly online persona while grappling with internal turmoil.
Miranda Rae [87:25]: "My eating disorder is the only thing that are on my mind... making videos is the only thing that makes me happy."
Impact of Social Media and Future Outlook
Miranda reflects on the dual-edged sword of social media—while it provides a platform for connection and influence, it also exacerbates her mental health challenges. The pressure to maintain her image and the invasive nature of online comments contribute to her ongoing struggles.
Miranda Rae [81:14]: "Social media has made it a little hard to choose to get better... people are gonna say something."
Looking ahead, Miranda expresses a desire to continue creating content that brings joy to others while seeking genuine connections beyond her online presence. She emphasizes the importance of breaking stigmas around mental health and hopes to inspire others through her openness.
Miranda Rae [104:07]: "I want to make people happy... recovery is so hard, it's so beautiful, but also so difficult."
Conclusion
This episode offers a raw and honest portrayal of Miranda Rae's life beyond the influencer façade. Her journey through bullying, mental health struggles, and the challenges of maintaining an online persona serves as a poignant reminder of the complexities faced by public personalities. Miranda's story underscores the importance of mental health awareness and the impact of social media on personal well-being.
Miranda Rae [105:29]: "Thank you for having me and thank you for being so welcoming. This is my first podcast. You made me feel so welcome and so loved."
Listeners are left with a profound appreciation for Miranda's resilience and a deeper understanding of the often unseen battles waged by those in the public eye.
Notable Quotes:
- Miranda Rae [09:48]: "I always grew up very shy... Around people I didn't know, I was closed off."
- Miranda Rae [31:31]: "She was like, how could you do this to her... I'm trying to help her out."
- Miranda Rae [36:25]: "That's the first time I went to the mental hospital. I went for like a week. It was hard..."
- Miranda Rae [54:35]: "I ended up being forced to go... They were gonna sedate me and force-feed me."
- Miranda Rae [83:07]: "It affects everything in my life... relationships, friendships, and family. It's so lonely and hard."
- Miranda Rae [105:29]: "Thank you for having me and thank you for being so welcoming. This is my first podcast. You made me feel so welcome and so loved."
Follow Miranda Rae:
- Instagram: @mirandarae
- Twitter: @mirandarae
- TikTok: @mirandarae
Follow Alannized:
- Instagram, Twitter, & TikTok: @alannized
This summary captures the essence of the episode, highlighting Miranda Rae's personal journey, struggles, and triumphs. Her story serves as an inspiring testament to resilience and the importance of authenticity both online and offline.