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Adjective used to describe an individual whose.
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Spirit is unyielding, unconstrained. One who navigates life on their own terms, effortlessly. They do not always show up on time, but when they arrive, you notice an individual confident in their contradictions. They know the rules, but behave as.
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If they do not exist.
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I feel like people really are obsessed and delusional and like they need help. You make whole accounts to post about me. Whole fake accounts. If I block, like I'll block somebody. And people like, oh, you blocked me cuz you're scary. No, I blocked you cuz you're annoying.
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What is up, everyone? I'm your host alanized and this is Noche de Pendejadas, your favorite podcast turn talk show. And on the Yo Trigo atus influencers favoritos para platicar y PO s Vanestar Super Emocidos escuchar? Iber. So without any further ado, please help me welcome my guest tonight. Maya.
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Hello, guys. My name is Maya. I'm 18 years old. I was born and raised in Houston. I'm the oldest sibling of three and I'm Maya.
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And you do a little bit of everything, girl, you're on social media, people love you. And I'm so excited to have you here with us today because amigas ustes a histavane los commentarios que trainos a la Maya Trainolas. And we finally made it happen. I discovered you this year. I think around maybe like a couple months ago, I started following you. And as soon as I started following you, I feel like you start even coming up even more on my for you page. I love your videos where you're just eating with your family and you can hear like everything going on in the background. Those are no, but they're so addictive cuz I'm like, girl, what is going on? Turn the camera around. I'm very chees moo you guys. So I really do like to like know what's going on and I'm so excited because I know a lot of people at home have asked for this to happen. I think there was like a time where everyone was commenting like Maya, Maya, I don't know if you saw like.
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Getting mentioned a lot like what the is this?
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And why do they want me to go on this podcast? But I'm so excited that we made this happen. You landed in LA yesterday and let me just tell you guys, I've been keeping up with her stories and she's been a busy girl the last 24 hours. Tell us a little bit more about how was your day? Waking up the day that you flew in, how was it like flying, landing, going to a party, waking up today. What have you been doing these last 24 hours?
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Okay. The night before was one of my friends birthday. We had went to the club. I got home like at 5 in the morning, sorry mom. And then my mom woke me up and said, you're gonna have to go to work for me. I had to take your brother to a baseball game. So I woke up at 8am and then I left a little bit early, like around 1. I started getting ready. I did my makeup, my hair, I put on my clothes and then I started packing all my last minute stuff, just a little stuff, my makeup, my hair stuff. I went to my friend's house and then we both drove to the airport together. We were supposed to leave at 7:55 but we ended up leaving at like 9, 9:30. Plane got delayed. So as soon as we landed, if you know Alabama Barker, she invited me to a party and I was like, dang, like I really want to see her. I was like, I don't know if I don't, I'm gonna make it. And then we started like putting it in our maps and it was like, oh, it's an hour away. And she was like, no, still come. So straight from the airport we took our luggages and everything to the party.
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We got even check into the hotel.
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We had called the hotel and the hotel was like, no, it's fine. You don't have a time to check in. You just have to put a car down for a deposit when you get here just in case anything in the room happens. And yeah, you don't have a time to come check in. So we went straight to the party. So we weren't. Because I think it was like an hour, an hour away. And the traffic was I think like really bad. Especially by the airport. It was really bad. So we just went straight over there and then we kept our luggages in the house and then we went to the party. We left the party like around Three, we took an Uber back to the hotel. And then we got home, we laid in bed, and we probably went to sleep like at 4:45, 4:50.
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And then you got up really early. This.
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Yeah, we got up like at 9, I think we got up like at 9am and then we were like, what should we do? And then I posted on my story and people were like putting a bunch of suggestions. And then we looked it up on Tick Tock and the girl popped up. There was like a La La Land there. There was a bunch of food places there. So we were like, okay, we're gonna go get something to eat. We're gonna go get, you know, go see, go explore, go shopping. We got some La La Land. We ate at this Italian place. Everything was good, it was nice, it was cutesy. I love the weather here because, like, in Houston it's so hot.
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Humid hot or just.
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No, it's humid hot and it's like already October, so you would think it would be cold by now, but it's like not. It's like 90 degrees still and it's hot, it's sweaty, it's, it's yucky. But over here it's like cold. And I love the cold weather, so I don't feel cold at all. Like, I was out yesterday in little shorts and even this morning about.
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No, you guys, I saw her and I was like, all right, girl, she is out and about. I even had text her this morning because I was like, okay, you know what? She's not from, like the area. She's not from Cali. So I don't know if she knows how bad LA traffic gets.
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Yeah.
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So I was like, hey, how are you doing on time? Do you want to push it back a little bit? Because where we film you guys, we're a little bit off from la. We're in Orange County. So I feel like people think like, oh, we're in la, everything's closed. But I'm like, no, mama. Like, with traffic, you're catching like a two hour drive.
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There was like places that were like, literally right by each other. And it said from here to here, it was 45 minutes. And I was like, oh, my God. But we ended up getting there like around maybe 11 something. We Uber there was a little far. It was like 45 minutes, 49 minutes. And then we got there, we ate, and then we started shopping. And by the time, you know, it was like two something. We were like, yeah, let's leave. Because the traffic yesterday was really bad too. So we were like, okay, let's leave. And we left, like, something. We went to Zara, we bought some clothes, we found like these glittery Hollywood. I think it was. No, it was said Los Angeles. It was like two pieces. I bought one more thing, I think. Oh, it was like a shirt and it's like it had like silver gold lining on it and it said la. But yeah, we didn't find anything else. But we left like at 250 and we didn't even make it back back to the hotel to like 4, 24 30.
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I love it. You guys. Can we also get a commotion for our matching outfits? This was not plan. Also, I haven't gotten glam for the podcast in over a month and a half. And today I was like, you know what? I know you're a glam girly. I feel like you're always ready, which I love. So I was like, you know what? I gotta match Maya and I gotta get ready myself to you guys. I'm so excited to have you here with us today because I feel like whenever I sit down with the guests, I feel like I always get to, like, know them on a deeper level. And I know everyone at home also wants to know a little bit more about Maya. So without any further ado, let's go ahead and jump into the cheese. Ma Amigas, let's go ahead and start with the beginning of time.
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Ah.
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I'm like Jesus Christ. Bc.
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No, I'm kidding.
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No, but I want to go back to the beginning for you, you know, what was your childhood like? Comora tun Fancia. Tell us a little bit more about what did Maya like doing as a little girl?
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Okay, so when I was little, I remember my mom going to work. The things that I remember the most, I don't know if it's just because it was too cold in the morning. I was a baby, but my mom used to take me, like, cold show hours, like at 5 in the morning at my grandma's house. We lived at my grandma's house. We had no ac, no heater, no anything. And she would take me cold showers and get me ready. I would say, with my grandma or when I had daycare, my grandpa would take me to daycare on his bike. He had like a little basket in the back of his bike, and I would sit in the back of the bike. And I remember one time from daycare, they had called my mom actually, and there was like, there's this man here, but he doesn't have a car and he's trying to pick up Maya and My mom was like, yeah, that's my dad. That's her grandpa. He's picking her up. And I would just ride the bike. It was probably like a 10 minute bike from my grandma's house. But yeah, she would get me ready in the mornings. I would take cold showers. My mom always did my hair. I don't know if that's something. Like, I just carried along the years to always keep my hair done, keep myself together. But my mom always used to braid my hair, do my hair. My mom would work. She worked at Fiesta, actually. Is that like a restaurant? It's like a grocery store. Oh, okay. Okay.
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Is it like a Houston thing?
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Yeah, yeah, I think there's like a couple in Houston.
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What was it like growing up in Houston? Because I've had a couple h town people come on the podcast and I feel like everyone always says that Houston's.
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The place to be now. Like, Houston, there's a lot of things that you can do, a lot of things. You know, sometimes people say, like, oh, like when you live somewhere for a very long time, you kind of get bored of it. But I don't think I've ever gotten bored of Houston. I think, you know, there's like a lot of stuff, like I find new stuff to do every day in Houston. Like, there's a lot of things, you know.
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Do you want to stay in Houston, like forever? Do you have plans to, like, eventually?
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I always said, like, if I was ever to move somewhere else, I would want to move to New York or Florida. Yeah, that's where I've always, like, fast paced. That's. I feel like I like that though. Like, we just moved houses and where we moved, it's so much more like, quiet. There's no traffic. Like at night time you can hear like everything and stuff like that.
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Too peaceful for you?
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Yeah. Like, I like the noise, I like to, I like not sleeping, I like being outside, stuff like that.
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Do you like walking a lot or no? Because I feel like in New York, like, you have to like, love walking.
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Actually, when we went to Vegas, we went to Vegas, I think last year in the summer, and we did a lot of walking, but I just can't stand the heat. Like, I hate the heat. I hate the hot weather. I can't do it. Like, I, I, this weather outside right now, I love it. Like, this is the weather that I would want to. But that's another thing with New York. They, it's cold all the time. It's snow that's too cold.
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The times I've gone. Okay, so I've been in New York a couple times, but I feel like every single time I've gone, it's always during the holidays because I feel like it's always like a vibe. And there was one time, time it was so cold. Scenic. You guys, I'm not even exaggerating. It was so cold that even just walking, I ended up getting. What is it called when you get like kind of like a cold burn, like on your nipple? I think from like, how cold it was like the shirt was literally like scraping my nipple. Nipple.
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You guys like hypothermia?
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No, no hypothermia. I think it was like, just so cold that the cold was almost freezing my shirt.
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Oh my God. So when it would be like, it was like stiff.
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Yeah, so it was like so stiff. Scraping my nipple off. You gu angle. But it does get so cold. You know what's crazy? Now that you think about it, I feel like I should be more appreciative of California weather because there is times where I'm like, oh, my God, it's so ass. But then I've been to Texas.
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It's horrible.
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Florida's horrible. It's fucking humid. Like, you just go outside straight out of shower and you're like, why am I sweating?
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It wasn't Vegas. It was like hot heat. Like, I felt like a heater was pointing right at me in Vegas. But in Houston it's like that too. Like, and it'll rain, it'll be cold, and then it'll be sunny the next day and then it'll. Like, the weather doesn't have like, just one pace. It's all different every day.
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You wouldn't ever want to move to like, la, Especially now that you're doing like, social media, maybe.
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I mean, I don't know. It's something I would think about, but the traffic is definitely like, eh. Like I don't want to, but I don't know. I. I love to drive, but I don't like to sit in traffic. So I don't know if I would be able to do the traffic.
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Is traffic as bad in Houston? I saw. Not as bad as girl, this is nothing.
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This is. No, no, no. This is horrible. This is horrible. This is worse compared. We were just talking to the Uber driver in the car and he was like, like, everywhere is an hour drive from here to here. If it's this close to each other, it's 30 minutes still. So yeah, I don't.
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You're for me, you guys.
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So it's so it's. It's worse.
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Traffic is crazy. I'm like, I'm not about to be stuck in traffic for hours, you know, of you growing up more. How was your relationship like with your parents growing up? Would you consider yourself more of, like, mommy's girl or a daddy's girl?
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I would consider myself a daddy's girl. Over the years, me and my mom's relationship has gotten stronger recently. But when I was little. Well, not when I was little. When I was, like, you know, my little, like, teenage years and stuff like that. Sometimes my mom was strict, like, but now that I think about it and I think back, like, she was strict for a reason, you know? And I'm grateful that she was strict because I feel like if she wasn't, then I would just be out here doing anything. But, you know, sometimes when she. When she was strict, I would feel like, oh, like, I would go behind her back or I would lie. And I, like, I regret it all the time because she would always tell me, like, maya, there's a time for everything. Maya, don't do that. Maya, you need to do this. Maya, that's not right. Maya this, Maya that. But, you know, and all the time, I would be like, you know, she's just talking. Like, it would just go one ear out the other. But now I understand where she's coming from when she says there's a time for everything. You know, now I'm older now I get to do certain different things, but I have built a strong relationship with my mom. I feel like I was, you know, closer with my mom, but I've always been like, my dad is the person like that I could come to when I'm talking. Like, you know, sometimes people be like, oh, like, they don't want to talk to their dad about boys and stuff like that. Like, I would tell my dad, like, you know who I'm talking to, and he'd be like, man, get the fuck out of here.
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But are you more open with your dad or your mom about, like, things like that?
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I feel like my mom, but. But it's not to the point. It's not like I can't tell my dad things about certain things. I could still tell him, but I think I'm closer to my dad. But me and my mom have gotten very, very close. I've seen her go through more things and stuff like that.
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You were telling me this morning, actually, we got on a phone call how you were telling me that when your parents had you, they were fairly young, and at the Beginning, they weren't living together. Each of them was living with each of their par. And during that time, you know, you saw your mom struggle a lot, you know, trying to make ends meet, trying to really make it happen for you. Tell us a little bit more about what you remember about during that time.
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So I remember my dad telling me he used to work at Wendy's. My mom used to work at Fiesta, like I said, and she, you know, probably made, like, minimum wage. I remember, like, one time my mom, she got mad because she would, you know, she already had little money as it is, and she would, like, buy me, like, food, and she would put it in the fridge, and the people in my grandma's house would eat the food, and she would be like, mad. That's Maya's food.
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B
And y' all are eating $5, and.
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Y' all are eating it. And then I remember we ended up. We actually ended up moving to. In a little apartment behind my grandma's house. It was like a one bedroom, one restroom. It was very small.
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B
Like a studio.
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Yes, yes, yes. It was very, very small. I remember, like, the mattress being on the floor and stuff like that. I definitely feel like my siblings, especially the two younger ones, I feel like they have it way better. They have it made, you know, And a lot of people say, like, oh, like, you don't know what it's like like to, like, struggle. You don't know what it's like to do this. You don't know. But I've, like, watched my mom struggle and me watching both my mom and my dad. My dad, he has never called off of work. He used to work in the oil field before they had their businesses or whatever. He used to work in the oil field. And he would work seven days a week. He would leave at 6 in the morning, come home at 6, 7, 8, sometimes 9pm he would come home late. And I've seen him work, and he would never, ever, ever call off from work. So I don't know them, you know, working. I feel like they work very hard to where they get. I watch them strug. I've watched them, you know, be poor. I've watched them go through, like. Yeah. And it's just, you know, growing up.
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In a situation like that, I feel like as kids, it's almost like normal. You don't really think too much about it. Like, oh, maybe when you were super young, you're like, oh, I don't even know what being poor or rich means. Like, I'm here with my mom. We're Happy. It's good. But I'm sure at one point you started, like, to realize, like, oh, shit, like, we're actually struggling. Like, my mom's trying to, like, make happen.
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And that's another thing. When my mom put me in cheer. She put me in cheer when I was little. And cheer was expensive. Competitive cheer was expensive. The uniforms, the hair, the bows, the trips, you know, it was out of town, it was here, it was there, and it was a thousand dollars a month and stuff like that. And my mom didn't have that kind of money, so, you know, she would work and work and work, you know, to pay that or whatever to, you know, because cheering was something that I was. I love to do. Like, I've been doing it since I was little. Like I said, like, I've watched her, you know, try to, you know, make ends meet and. Mm. This episode is brought to you by Marshall's, where you never have to compromise between quality and price. The buyers of Marshalls hustle hard working to bring you great deals on brand name and designer pieces because Marshalls believes everyone deserves access to the good stuff.
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That's why you rack. Do you remember the moment your parents started living together? What was your reaction? You're like, oh, my God, I'm finally gonna have both my parents under this same roof. And what was that like for your parents? How did their life change? Like, what did they started doing that started making them kind of better themselves in life?
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I really can't tell you. I don't remember when they moved in together. I know it was before. I think it was before my. The older brother. I think he was already born. I want to say he was already born. You know, it was nice. We moved into a house all together. When we moved into that house, my dad was working in the oil field and my mom was working at a middle school, I believe.
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Yeah, you've seen your parents work their asses off to be able to provide and give you what you have Today, do you feel like seeing them struggle and seeing them go through those hardships in life, do you feel like that almost motivated you now as an adult? Like, oh, shit, you know what I mean? Like, I gotta work hard, too, if I want to have the good things in life.
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Yes. I definitely feel like my mom and my dad have always told me, like, we're gonna pave the way for you, but you have to put in work, too. You have to help. And I feel like people don't understand that. Like, being an oldest sibling is a lot. Like, you have to take up responsibility as if you were maybe like a second mom, as if you were, you know, and it's sometimes, like, when I was a little bit younger, I used to be like, why am I taking care of these kids? Like, they're not mine. Like. And I feel like me being an older sibling, I actually don't want kids. I feel like I've taken care of kids my whole life. And not that it's a bad thing. Those are my siblings. I don't feel like people be like, oh, babysitting. But to me, it's not babysitting like that. I'm a big sister, so that's what that is. But I feel like my mom and my dad, like, I watched it them, you know, I've watched them work hard. I watched them wake up early, stay up late, and, you know, get to where they are now. So I feel like they. They deserve everything they have. And I feel like, as my. My part as a daughter, if they're gonna give me everything, you know, I want and I need. I try to do my part when my mom's like, maya, I need you to do this. Maya, I need you to do this. Sometimes I do get lazy, and, you know, my mom gets on me like, maya, you need. You need to step it up. You need to get it together. You need to do this, you need to do that. But I don't blame her because she puts in work everywhere. So both of them put in work everywhere. My mom and my dad both didn't put in work everywhere. And I feel like I owe it to them, you know, Like, I do my job. I should do my job as a daughter. That way, you know, they can continue to provide for me, continue to provide for me and my siblings. My mom, my dad have always told me that they're gonna, you know, pave the way for me. And as long as I do what I'm supposed to do, I take care of my business, I hustle, I help them, I Go to work with them. I do whatever they need me to do, you know, they're gonna continue to provide for me as long as I want. My mom told I could live in her house forever. My dad told me he'll provide for me for the rest of my life as long as I'm, you know, doing what needs to be done, putting work in with them. People see what you post and people say, like, oh, you have everything handed to you. You don't know what it's like to work. My parents, businesses, I don't put them out there because, you know, the Internet is hateful. You know, people have bad and ugly intentions. But I don't tell people, oh, well, I've been working with my mom and my dad at their businesses since I was 10. People don't know that. But I don't tell people that, you know, not because. Because I don't owe an explanation to anybody. And people be like, oh, you don't know what it's like to work. You don't know what it's like to go, go clocking. You don'. Like, I can't even tell you the mornings and the. I was waking up at 10 years, 10 years old, at 5, 4 in the morning with my mom, my dad, to go to work. You know, the people don't see that, and people just, oh, you have everything handed to you. It's all, you know, it's all daddy's money, mommy's money. And, you know, you do nothing. You just sit there. You don't know what it's like to work. Everything's handed to you. And it's. That's not the case. But does that ever get to you.
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When people say that? Like, is there sometimes you're like, oh, my God, I'm. I gotta bite my tongue. But I'm so close to going off on them. How do you feel when people say things like that?
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A
I just feel like I know personally, like, what goes on behind the scenes. Like, I seen everything, you know, behind the scenes. I do think about it. Or sometimes I'll tell my dad or my mom about it and my dad will be like, him, like, you, you. You know what we do. You know how things work. You know what you do. You know what me and your mom do? Like, it's, it's nothing them. Like, you don't have to. You don't owe anybody an explanation. Like, there will be times where I sit there and go back and forth with somebody, and my dad will be like, stop going back and forth with them. Like, They're. They're. No matter how much you try to explain it to them, explain to them the work you put in. No matter what you tell them, they're gonna always, you know, know, think what they want to say what they want to. And he's like, you don't owe it to them. You. You know the work you put in. You know, the work we put in so that. That doesn't matter to them. You don't have to explain or get to nobody's level to explain to them. You know, the work you put in.
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And your dad's right, you know, I feel like you don't owe anyone any explanation as long as you know what you do and what you've been through. Esos tolo quin porta. I want to go back a bit to you being the oldest sibling, you know, Oya mente nos. This is. That Being the oldest has came with a lot of responsibilities, maybe some responsibilities that you growing up, you're like, oh, my God, what do to fucking get this responsibility, you know, I want to be a child, too, but now I'm over here taking care of my siblings or whatever it was. What were the responsibilities growing up that maybe at the time you didn't understand, or what was it like being an older sister growing up?
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Me and my brother are five years apart. Me and my little sister are 10 years apart, and me and my youngest brother are 12 years apart. So first, my brother, you know, was born. As I got a little bit older, I remember staying at the house with him, like, by myself. I'm a little bit more advanced for my age. My mom and my dad used to go to work, and I used to take care of my brother at home on the weekends or, you know, whatever it was. When they had my little sister, my brother was, like, upset because he wanted a brother, and he was like, I'm gonna make my little sister clean my room, and I'm gonna do this, and I'm gonna boss her around. And it didn't go that way. She bosses him around. But I feel like, as an older sister, you have a lot of responsibilities. You know, you have to kind of be a role model for your siblings. My brother and my sister, you have to kind of guide them in the right direction. My brother, he's 13, and he's very lazy. He's very. I'll do it when I get to it. I don't feel like doing it or he'll forget or, you know, whatever the case is. But I tell him, like, I was seven years Old doing laundry, washing dishes, sweeping the house, cleaning counters, cleaning up the whole house. Like the whole house was my responsibility to clean the restrooms, everything. And I feel like that's like a thing in like Mexican households. Like, you clean every day. You clean. Deep clean on Sundays, deep clean on Mondays, whatever. My mom are the only ones that like clean around the house. All my siblings are lazy. But I, I tell them like, you have, you have responsibilities too. But I feel like as an older sister, you kind of just have to take that responsibility on and just, you know, do the, do the laundry, do the dishes, do whatever it is, you know, my mom comes home and she gets, and it's me, but you know, I tell my siblings like, y' all are here too. Y' all need to help. Y' all need a. It's not a one person job. Like, it's six of us that live here. The least y' all could do is help do something, do some laundry, help separate some clothes, wash the dishes, like do something, something. If you didn't do something, do anything, sweep Swiffer, mop something.
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B
Like, get the.
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A
Up from the time my brother, he sleeps in until like 12, but I feel like now he's a little bit more helpful. And my mom, like, when she's very like, lenient and she just kind of leaves him alone, he'll just like drift off and do whatever until she's like, until I start yelling and going crazy. Y' all gonna get up and clean and, you know, this and this and that. But I feel like as an older sister, you have a lot of responsibilities. I feel like that's another reason why my parents are like, they, they give me a lot of what I want and what I need. Because I do my part as an older, older sister. I've, I've always done my part. I take care of them, you know, as a sister should. I don't feel like that's a job. I feel like that, that those are my siblings. You know, that's what I'm supposed to do. I feel like now that I've been the oldest sibling for going on 12 years, I don't want kids. I feel like kids are just like, everybody's kids are cute, but I don't want no baby of my own. I can't imagine myself with kids. I can barely take care of my little, little brother.
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B
I feel like that's a very thing with the older siblings, especially those that take care or almost take on that parent role with their siblings. They're like, I've had Enough, girl. Do you feel like now you're like, especially since you're overage, you're like, you know what? Now I want to enjoy, girl. I ain't got to be on mommy duty right now.
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A
Yeah. Yeah, that's exactly how I feel. I feel like, sorry, mom, but when I decide to move out and be outside 24 7, she's gonna have to find a babysitter. But I don't. I don't mind taking care of my siblings. Like, I. I've never minded it. I just feel like I can't have kids of my own. I don't feel like I would be able to wake up and take care of a baby crying in the middle of the night. Like, that's not something I want to do or, you know, feel like doing. And, you know, people say, like, oh, you're gonna change your mind and stuff like that. And maybe I will, but, like, kids are like, but I'll deal with that.
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B
Change of mind later.
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A
Now I just, you know, want to live my life. You know, I'm good with the siblings I have. You know, they stress me enough, so it's okay as it is.
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B
And I feel like you're still so young, you know what I mean? Because I feel especially because there will be people that will be like, oh, she says she'll never want to have kids. And then, let's say 10 years from now, you. And they're going to be like, oh, my gosh, she lied. No, mi amor. People just change over time. And maybe, you know, after you've been outside for 10 years, you're like, maybe I want to settle down, girl. Maybe I want a family now. But there's no rush.
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A
Maybe down the line, I will change. Change my mind. But I feel like being an older sister, I think it gets talked about a lot. A lot of people say, oh, I don't think it gets talked about enough. But I. I follow or I've. Maybe because I am older sister, a lot of it pops up on my for you page, like, you know, being older sister this, being an older sister that. But I feel like in return of being a good older sister, you know, I get it. In return for my parents, they, you know, provide for me back. And I feel like that's.
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B
And also older siblings, I feel like once they get older, they're gonna see, like, oh, my sister would do this for us. My sister sacrificed. Sacrifice this to be able to be there for us. Like, she helped my parents raise us. I feel like everything like you, like your mom said, Everything with its time. Your siblings will be like, wow, I'm so glad that I have a sister that cares.
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A
Yeah, they should be.
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B
I'm like, get it together. I'll talk to your siblings. I'm like, I know, but I swear to God, I feel like they will appreciate it. If not now, eventually, you know, I want to talk about you in middle school, high school. What was that like for you? You know, were you the popular girl, the outcast? Were you Pelone? How was Mia like in school?
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A
Middle school? Like, I was very. Like, I used to wear bows in middle school. Like, you know, I don't know if, like, bows were a thing, but I used to wear, like, big bows.
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B
Hey, jjosiwa bows.
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A
Yes.
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B
Okay.
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A
Like, I used to wear, like, big bows. Like, I would do a little side part with my bow on the side. I feel like, because I was very. I don't know if innocent is a word, but there was, like, girls that used to bully me. But it was like, it was. There wasn't a reason behind it. Like, I was like, girl, like, what? Like, it was. You know, people be like, oh, she's just jealous. And you'd be like, yeah, but, you know, you also did something to piss her off. Like, I really didn't do nothing to piss these girls off. There was this one girl, and she used to, like, get her older cousins or older. I don't even know what they were. I don't even think they were her blood cousins. I just. There were some boys that she hung around, and she used to get them, like, to charge me up when I was, like, walking the track by myself or when I was walking in the hallways. Like, she would get them to tell me stuff or make fun of me, like, about, like, little stuff. Like, I. I really don't remember, but I just remember her, like, using her older cousins, and they were bo. And I'm like, as a boy, like, why are you. You know, you're messing with a little girl? Like, I said to my face, right? She would just say anything. Like, she would call me, like, childish or, like, I don't. Maybe it's. It's because I wore bows, but I was always, like, put together, you know? Like, I always had my hair done. My mom always kept my hair done. I was always put together, I don't think. Yeah. And I. I don't know. Maybe I don't know what it was because I really didn't do anything to her. I know it wasn't about a boy because we definitely didn't hang around the same crowds. I remember one time she had like grabbed like a Paleta, my backpack. My grandpa had just brought me them from Mexico. So I would take them like to school or whatever. She brought one and like took it out the wrapper, licked it and you know, me and my mom used to be like, oh, like just ignore it. But she licked it and she like threw it at me. And I was like, my mom always used to be like, oh, like ignore it. Like you have to ignore it, just walk away. Like, you know, like just be the bigger person. But after a while my mom realized like, no, you're gonna have to like, you know, fight. But I don't think we like realized that till I got in high school. Like, you know, you can't let people walk over you. You can't let people crazy. Like now I don't hold grudges or I think like people were still young so I don't really hold grudges against, you know, certain people. But I feel like once, once I got to high school now I, I hold grudges cuz I'm like, you know, what you were doing even in middle school. But like the girls or whatever that you know, didn't like me or used to talk mess or stop talking to me or about a boy or whatever it was. I feel like we were all young but at the same time, like, you know what you're doing. I feel like, you know, how you act, you know what's right from wrong and, and it was no reason. Like I was like, maybe you know, to me, like when people act a certain way, I don't judge them because I feel like maybe they have stuff going on at home. Like you don't know, maybe they don't get attention at home. Maybe you know, something's wrong outside of school and this is where they have to, you know, make themselves feel bigger, make themselves feel, you know, more or whatever it is. But I used to think of it that way. I was like, damn. Well, maybe she just got something going on at home and she's taking it out on me. But I would just walk away and never did I fight her. Never did you know any. I never found nobody in middle school. There was girls that, you know, had little. But you know, it's middle school. But I never fought anybody in middle school. I never, My mom would just be like, walk away, walk away. But over the years, like to little girls like, or girls that follow me, like I would, you know, advise like, you don't let nobody walk over you. You don't let nobody bully you. You don't let nobody tell you about yourself. You don't let nobody tell you anything. I feel like when you let people walk over there, they're going to continue to do it until you handle it a certain way or two. Until you, you know, take, take measures for them to stop. They're not going to leave you alone. It's going to keep happening. It's going to keep happening. It's going to keep happening. You know, you keep doing you, but you also have to defend yourself. You can't let nobody walk over you because they're going to continue to do it over and over and over and over again.
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B
Do you feel like during that time before you started almost like standing up for yourself during middle school? Do you feel like this episode is.
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Up to you to find out? Getting bullied would affect your like mental health. Would it also maybe affect your confidence? Like, oh my God, what's wrong with me? Why are these people bullying me or making me feel like I'm this or that? How would that make you feel?
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A
I don't think it would affect my confidence cuz I. There was really like nothing wrong with me and I didn't do anything to her. Like there was no purpose behind it and I was just, just like there was really no purpose. Like I guess she just wanted to feel like bigger, older. She wanted to, you know, impress the people she was around. It really wasn't anything like that. And it wasn't just her. It was like, multiple girls. Like, I remember them and, you know, it sticks with me. Like, I remember it, but I don't think it affected my confidence. But I just think, like, I did used to go home, and I used to, you know, sometimes I would go home crying. Like, I was still little, and I was just like, I don't understand. Like, I didn't even do nothing. Like, she's just doing this or this. This girl's just doing this, or this girl said this. And I do remember, you know, coming home and crying sometime. But it. I didn't feel like there was anything wrong with me. I felt like it was something wrong with them. But at the end of the day, like, that still, like, bothers somebody. And my mom would be like, don't cry. Like, that's not a reason to cry. And, you know, the school wouldn't. They really wouldn't do anything about it. I feel like it's always like that. But I don't feel like nobody's ever messed with my confidence because I know what I am, I know what I do and how I behave. And I just think it was more of, like, I was like, oh, it's a you problem. That's not a me problem. And. And I would just walk away, like my mom would say. But I would advise, you know, little girls, like, you don't walk away. You have to stand up for yourself.
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B
And I feel like that is very important. Like you said earlier, I feel like the more you let people almost step on you, you're going to become a fucking floor girl. Like, they're going to fucking be like, oh, well, this one's. I'm like, I have dusty feet. Let me dust myself off and it's up to you. And I feel like sometimes it can be scary because, you know, obviously we're children. And you're like, oh, my God. God, this bully. Like, what if he beats me up? But I feel like even just by standing up, it's gonna give them like a. Oh, shit. Like, this is a person not to fuck with. Do you remember, like, the first time maybe that you stood up to, like, a bully?
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A
So my freshman year of high school, I had a lot of. A lot of senior friends. I joined sports when I got to high school, and all my friends were seniors, Most of them were seniors. I would go out with them and, you know, those were my friends. And when there would be, like, there was a girl that I used to not like. And I mean, of course it was over a boy and we never fought, but she would. You know, that's kind of when my TikTok, like, I had, like, small videos here and there that would blow up and, you know, I was with this boy or whatever, and then I guess she was messing with the boy and I found out. And, you know, it wasn't more so to her, but it was like she knew. And, you know, it was just like little, like, you know, little high school drama, like, here and there. And one time I remember her, like, bumping into me, like, in lunch. And actually, one of the. She was friends with a girl that I'm, like, super close with now, but, like, we used to not like each other. I remember, like, she bumped into me, and then she had said, like, something under her breath, and I was like, like, what did you say? She tried to, like, flip it on me, and then I was like, oh, okay. Like, you know, like. Like, don't. And I feel like, because I would, like, let things slide or I never told anything or confronted her because I'm not a confrontational person. Like, I'm not going to sit there and confront you if you don't come tell me nothing. I'm not going to bother you. If you leave me alone, I'm gonna leave you alone. But I remember, you know, she bumped into me, and then I said something to her, and she said something to me, and she tried to flip it on me. And then I was like, okay, and walked away. And then she started, you know, once she started getting all loud and everything when I was walking around, I was like, all right, girl, you had all in the face. And it was like, girl, bye.
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B
Like, you ain't gonna do nothing. Keep walking.
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A
And then after that, I feel like she, like, left it alone. Like, once I was like, okay, you know, even if I'm not really, like, on that type of timing or I don't want to fight you, but, you know, I told you, and now you may. I made it clear to you, like, I know what you do it. And, you know, I'm not gonna sit there and let you do whatever you do. And then I would post, like, tick tocks. And, you know, girls love making the shoe fit. Like, that's just. Everybody wants the shoe to fit on them. And she'll be like, oh, people are sending me this. And I'm like, okay. Like, what does that have to do with me? Like, is your at on the screen anywhere? Is your name anywhere? Like, I'm confused. And she was like, people are sending to me. Nobody sent it to you. You were stalking. But. And I was just like, okay. And I would go back and forth with her and she was like, oh, that she was gonna get her people to beat me up. And I was like, okay. Like, I'll be waiting, babes.
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B
I'll be waiting.
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A
And you know, nothing ever happened, high school. Like, it was just stuff like that. And then, yeah, I don't know where she ended up.
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B
I don't know what the fuck she's doing nowadays. And it's crazy because I feel like sometimes especially I feel like it's very a thing among girls. I don't know what it is. Maybe it's like girls might feel threatened by other girls even. I've seen some of my girlfriends, like, oh, that girl hates me for no fucking reason. Like, she just fucking hates me because I'm me. And it's like, girl, why are you so fucking.
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A
That's exactly how I feel. And I'm like, I'm a such a. Like a white person. Like, why this? Why? Like, what is the reason? Like, I'm trying to get to the root of the problem and there's never any root. Like, it's just, oh, like, I just don't like you. I just don't like the way you act. I just don't like this. And I'm like, what? Like what? Like that doesn't have a reason. Babe, you have to have a reason. Like, but, you know, now it's just like, okay, it's whatever. But I don't know, like, it's just that really is the way it is. And girls, you know, are petty about boys and, you know, things like that. And sometimes, you know, I get it. Like, you know, certain things are certain things, but I feel like if you don't even try to understand, like, both sides, and you're just there like, oh, I don't like her. And it's just like, you just look.
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B
Like a hating ass bitch. Like, I get it if you have problems because I feel like even sometimes it's like, girl, we've never even exchanged anyone change a conversation. Like, why the fuck do you hate me?
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A
Right? That's how I feel sometimes. Like, even with social media, like, oh.
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B
You up for social media comments?
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A
I just feel like sometimes people are like, oh, I don't like her. But it's like, okay, give me five reasons why you don't like me. And you're like, yeah, exactly. Like, you know, reason. Not even one. Like, you don't like me.
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B
People.
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A
I feel like sometimes people are like, oh, I don't like her cuz she acts stuck up or she thinks she's all that, but it's like I never said I was all that. I never belittled anybody. You feel that way. I don't feel that way. And you feel like that. That's how you know when somebody's like, oh, she thinks she's all that and you know, she moves this kind of way. No, you think I'm all that and you think I move this kind of way and you're watching me too much and you need to just, you know.
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B
Like, I don't even know what's up with you. You know too much about me.
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A
And to me I feel like I'm such a girl's girl. Like I just wish I could be friends with everybody and I'm such a friendly person. And along the years I've realized like, you know, having a small circle is okay, having a little group of friends is okay. You know, I used to want all the friends in the world, but I realized, you know, sometimes people only for friends with you because you, you benefit them and you know, you kind of learn that along the way. But I, like I said I used to be, want to be friends with everybody. There was some times where, like I said I was friends with seniors and when it came to the bullying and stuff, like, I remember one of my friends, she went up to the girl and was like, you need to stop. Like you need to stop with her. You need to leave her alone. Like, I'm not gonna tell you again. And the girl like brushed it off because she was older and she was just like, okay, girl. But it's like girls pick and choose who they want to, you know, act froggy with. And I was like. And I, I'm, I mean, I've always been like small, little short.
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B
Yeah, you are super short. Do your followers know that?
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A
I don't know. She. Yeah, I'm four. Well, it's five on my ID. I'm five feet on my ID, but I'm like 4 11.
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B
So they always want to pick the little one.
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A
Yeah, yeah, I was just like, you know, and, but it's always been like that. Like I feel like girls pick and choose who they want to, you know, get, you know, like buck with. But you're like, but stop choosing me. That's what I'm saying. I feel like people try to, oh, she thinks she's this, she thinks she's that. But it's like, girl, get to know me a little bit and we can be friends.
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B
But you Know what's so funny? I got a comment today. It was, like, in my YouTube vlog, and I don't know why people think I claim to be this, like, fucking Spanish fucking dictionary just because I speak English and Spanish really well. Someone left me a comment because I didn't know how to say tripod in Spanish. And in the vlog, we were making fun of it, and they're like, saying, like, oh, tripitas. And you can't even. You don't even know how to say it in Spanish. Like, when did I say? Or when did I show you?
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A
Yeah, you think that. Like, that's not a me problem. That's a you. You're making up stuff in your head and running with it. Like, never did I say that. Never. Those words came out your mouth, not mine. Like, I get if I was just walking around here like, oh, yeah, all of y'. All. Y' all are this, and I'm better than all the other. But it's like, that's exactly what they see. And I'm like, no. Like, when did you hear that? And, you know, my mom has always taught me, you know, be nice to everyone. You don't know what everybody's going through. Treat people how you want to be treated. I feel like that's simple stuff, though. Like, you don't have to tell nobody that. Like, you should know if you're act. If I'm acting mean, I'm gonna know I'm acting mean. Because if I'm acting mean, it takes more effort to be mean than it does to be nice. So I feel like you, you know, and I'm. I'm not a mean person at all. I'm very sweet. I'm. Like I said, I'm not confrontational. Lately. I have been a little confrontational because people just a little too comfortable, you know, too comfortable. And I have to, you know, like, step in and defend myself. Sometimes I feel like a lot of people are like, oh, you don't have to explain yourself. You don't have to defend yourself. These people don't know you. But it's like, you're not about to bully me. Like, you're not about to, you know, sit here and tell me what I am or call me this or call me that and think you're just going to get away with it because you're, you know, behind a little account. Like, you know, like, you ain't going.
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B
To tell me who I am, especially if you don't know me. You know, you mentioned that you started cheer at 4 years old. And it went all the way up until high school till you got kicked off the team. Before we get to that, Chisme, tell us a little bit more. How did you get introduced to cheer at 4 years old? What do you remember about those early days of cheering and what made you fall in love with the sport to where you wanted to continue doing it up until high school?
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A
So I feel like there's always been that, like, controversy, like, oh, cheer isn't a real sport. But cheer has literally, like, I feel like that's, you know, where I got into the athletic. You know, it was competitive cheer. So, you know, you tumble, you stunt, you do all kinds of things. You back flip, hip jump, getting stunts. And I was a flyer. Like I said, I started when I was little. We used to compete. We used to go out of town to Galveston, you know, little trips here and there. It would be on weekends. We would spend all day at competitions. And when I got to middle school, I think I stopped doing competitive cheer some time around elementary because, you know, it. It. It got like, too much, like at school. Then I had cheer and I had this and I had that. So I stopped, I think, in, like, my last year of elementary, I really don't remember. I got to middle school. Middle school, I tried out for. I don't think we were allowed to cheer. Sixth grade. I think it was, like, a role in the district or something. I tried out seventh grade. I made it. I think you have to try out every year. So I tried out both years, and I made it. And, you know, you being able to tell them. I took, like, the. The skills that I had from competitive cheer, and I feel like competitive cheer is way harder than, you know, school cheer. School cheer is still hard, but, you know, competitive cheer was way worse. Like, why was I 7 years old, conditioning outside? I had this coach, and she used to scream and she used to yell and she used to throw chairs across. And I feel like, no, like Abby lee, but, like, 10 times worse. Like, we would go outside and we would condition, like, in the. If. If somebody would, like, drop a stunt or, like, drop somebody on the floor, everybody go outside and, you know, the sun would be beaming on the concrete, and we would do bear crawls across the whole alley of the back of the. You know, wherever we were cheering at the studio, we would just do bear crawls, including me, even though I fell. That was like. It's a group thing. So, you know, we would all condition. I was sitting there conditioning for hours. We would run around the gym. We Would condition. There was times where we came to practice just to condition. You know, it was punishment if somebody did something, if I did something. And it was all like, it's a group thing. So if one person does something, everybody does something. But she would yell, she would scream. But to me, it was like, like, I kind of like her. Like, I love her. Like, I still remember her very, very vividly. And I remember that whole studio, everybody was so, like, loving. Like, when it was. When it was good, it was good. And. And, you know, when she yelled and screamed, that was just the type of person she is. I don't feel like it, like, really affected anybody, but she would yell, scream, throw chairs across the room, and just things like that.
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B
I think, like, to be the best at what you do, you kind of have to train and also be kind of hard on yourself.
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A
I feel like when coaches are, like, nice and sweet, like, your team's not going to get any.
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B
That's why you all keep losing.
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A
One of my brother's baseball team, I'll be telling him, like, I'll be losing because that coach be letting you all do whatever. But, you know, that's not my business.
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B
You keep losing, bro.
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A
But you can definitely tell. Yeah, you could definitely tell the difference between coaches that, you know, are disciplined and, you know, they don't play that. And you can tell the difference in teams like that. But I feel like she was a very, very good coach, regardless of her screaming, throwing chairs, yelling, doing whatever she was doing.
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B
Like, I learned what I had to learn.
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A
Yeah.
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B
In high school, you continued doing cheer, and you tell us that you loved it so much, you know, before getting kicked off the team, do you remember when you, you know, that love started becoming almost like, oh, like, I don't even want to go because, you know, this is going on in cheer or there's dramas with girls or whatever it was. Was there any, like, you know, before getting kicked off, was there a point where you started seeing a shift?
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A
So ninth grade year, if we tried out for the cheer team, we had, like, freshman JV and varsity. And I think for ninth graders, you can. You have to be a freshman or you have to be on jv. And for me, like, I didn't want that. Like, I was like, no. So my ninth grade year, I didn't cheer. I just played soccer and basketball. You know, I try to be involved still in some kind of sport. Like, I was like, I'm gonna do something like, you know, if I'm not doing. I played soccer a couple years in my Life too. So soccer was really what I wanted to do. And then basketball just came along. I played it in middle school, but I feel like in middle school, like sports aren't really that serious. You know, you're still training and, you know, being athletic and being productive. But it's not the same as like high school and stuff. I think I tried out the end of my ninth grade year, going into my 10th grade year and you know, I made the team. I was super excited. I feel like, like I said, like when you're able to tumble, jump, you have skills. Especially skills that I've carried on from all the years. Like I never stopped cheering. I mean, I took that one year off, but that's because I didn't want to be like, I wanted to be like in the football stadium. I didn't want to be outside on the benches at school. I was like super, super nervous. But I made the team. I made varsity. I was excited, you know, I didn't want to go in there like, oh, I got this, you know, I got it. It's whatever because, you know, sometimes you can jinx yourself. But I went in there, you know, and I did what I was supposed to do. I'm not very shy, so I feel like me, you know, having to go. Cuz we had to do like tryouts and it was like two people or three people and they would put you in groups and one was in front of the other or like y' all were next to each other but y' all couldn't see each other. You couldn't copy nobody really. So you were just, you know, trying out and that's how they, you know, graded you and took whatever you were doing. I had fun. And that's really where my tik tok started, like blowing up. I would make videos doing dancing videos in cheer. Not really like the vlogs stuff, but I would just make like dancing videos, like trending little trends. I would do like little videos and put text on them. And there was like one time like when we played another school and then I was like, I did like a tick tock, like, oh, like y' all lost or whatever. It started going viral. But I feel like doing cheer and you know, tik toks in school is really what, you know, started when I started going viral for my junior year. I've always had enjoyed cheering. I think like the football games were my favorite. Like being in, able to tumble, coming out when the football players are coming out. Like that was like my favorite part. And you know, having a big Group of, like, girls. I was excited for that part, like, until I wasn't. And you just kind of learn, like, everybody's not the same. Everybody doesn't have the same intentions. Not everybody's nice. Some girls are mean, some girls are ugly, and some girls, you know, after a while, it didn't seem like a hobby anymore. It seemed more of like, oh, I have to show up and do this, I have to do that. I. Like, it was just more draining. It was more, if somebody does something, everybody gets repercussions for it. But it just kind of started feeling like a job. Like I'm at school, then I'm at a job. You know, when you're on a cheer team, I feel like I've learned that from, like, competitive cheer. You know, you're supposed to feel like you have a big group of sisters, you have a big group of love. You have like a coach who does this for you but also does this for you. And it started like, not to feel like that anymore. It started to feel like girls were arguing with each other. Girls didn't like each other. Things would happen and behind closed doors, things would happen in the locker room. And it was just like, this doesn't feel like yours anymore. It feels like I hate each other. Things like that. Or it would be like little things. And I'm not saying, you know, my coach was just like the worst person in the world, but there was, like, things that I remember or like, that stuck to me. Like things that she said that started just kind of catching me off guard. Like, I didn't like what you said. I didn't like that. I didn't like this.
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B
What would she tell you?
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A
One time we were talking like we were in a group. We would only get fed for football games and not for basketball games. We had all talked about, like, all putting in so we get fed for basketball games. And that same conversation, we were about talking, talking about getting new bows or shirts or something. And we were like, oh, like, if everybody pitches in this. Because she was like, oh, we don't have money for that. I threw that idea. Like, maybe if everybody, you know, pitches in a little bit, we can get new bowls or we can get fed for basketball games. And she was like, tell your parents to pay for it since they have money. And I was like, girl, girl, like, these are not things that I told her she would, like, watch my tick tock and stuff like that. And it was just like, to me, it wasn't like, oh, I, I like watching you. Like, it was like Girl, I'm nosy. What's up? Like, you know, it was little things like that. Like, she used to always say, like, little subliminals about my parents having money. And to me, I didn't like that. Not only did I not like that, but I was like, you don't know, like, anybody else's situation. What if you make another girl feel a certain way? Like, what if that makes somebody else, you know, think something different? You know? And it's just. It was just like, I feel like that's not something you say.
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B
And she stayed in front of like.
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A
Yeah, like, we were in a big group sitting down on the floor, and she would like, oh, well, you tell your parents they have money. And I was like, girl, you don't know that.
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B
You were telling me today that the final straw was you getting in a fight. Tell us a little bit more about that. How did that start? How did the fight initiate?
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A
So a little bit before that, I had got, like, probation, like, suspension for, like, two weeks. We had, like, a game at the stadium, and we were, like, early to the game, and we were all playing and, you know, like, we were all running around making tiktoks and stuff. And there was like a. A tray of raw cookie dough, like, in the concession stand. And, like, me and two other girls took, like, raw cookie dough off of the concession stand. We ended up, like, getting in trouble for it. And it was, like, funny, but it wasn't funny. Like, it, like. Like, yeah, I shouldn't have done that. But it was just like, it is what it is. I already did it. And we ended up, you know, getting in trouble. I ended up paying for the cookies somehow. That what happened? I think a little bit like before, I had got into the fight, but once I got into the fight, right after that, I think I got suspended from school. And it was like, right before Christmas break. So I was suspended, like, two days, and then it was Christmas break, so I didn't come back to school till after Christmas break. That's all I was thinking about. Like, damn, like, cheer. Like, what about cheer? Like, I fought like, I'm going get. I'm going to get kicked off the team. But I was like. I was more like, I'm going to get suspended. I didn't, like, think I was going to get kicked off the team.
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B
And you fought like another cheerleader?
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A
No, no, it was just another girl. It was just another girl that I fought. It was another girl. Girl that I fought. And when I fought her, I just felt like I had to you know, like defend myself. It is what it is. It wasn't gonna stop unless I did something. And that was my first fight I have ever gotten into. It was like trending around tick tock a while back. I don't know if you've seen it, but that's crazy cuz somebody really like made a whole account and like put the girl's name, they put blank and Maya's fight and they posted the video and I'm like, girl, what type of cloud Jason are you trying to do?
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B
They literally made a whole, like a whole year later.
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A
Yeah, like two years later. And I was like, okay. But after I got into the fight, like that's all I was thinking about. I was like, damn. Like, what am I gonna do? I was expecting a text from her or a call from her or anything from her. Cause I feel like, you know, as a coach, like, yes, I was wrong. Yes, I shouldn't have had fought. Yes, I should have thought about what I did before I did it. But I felt like as a coach, like I was expecting her to reach out. And you know, I wasn't too sure. I was like, oh, well, should. Should I reach out? Another thing was like, she had like favorites. Like it was discipline she would do here and not there. She would discipline you for this, but she wouldn't discipline somebody else for this. And there was instances. There was like girls that got caught smoking. A girl slapped a girl in the locker room and a girl stole somebody's stuff and nobody would get consequences for that. Or some people would. And then you had the favorites and nothing would happen. And it's like, girl, if I did that, you would have suspended me. So I'm confused. And I texted one of the chair captains who was one of the favorites or whatever. I texted her and I was like, hey, like, do you. Do you think I'm gonna be kicked off the team? Like, did she tell you anything? And she was like, no, I don't think so. But she says something. She's gonna give out letters to everybody. Something, something, something. She kind of cut it short. And I was just like, whatever that means. Like, okay. And then I got back to school. When you're an athlete, like you have athletics for a certain period. I got to athletics. We did whatever we supposed to do. I don't even know if we practiced that day, but we were in the gym or whatever and she still hadn't said a word to me. She hadn't spoken to me, Mind you, it' yeah. And I haven't heard anything Three weeks almost, and I haven't heard anything. You haven't, you know, said anything. And I'm just like. Like, I was scared. Like, I was like. Like, the silent treatment is the worst treatment, but it's like, at some point you have to tell me, like, what's going on. Like, I know I'm not just going to get no consequence for this. After that, she ended up, like, pulling me to the side, and she was like, let me talk to you. And she started talking to me. You know, as a coach, I feel like, yes, you. You. You're supposed to give out consequences. But she started telling me, like, I'm a waste of talent. And she was like, you. You were doing. You should have thought about it before you did it. There's so many girls that want to be here and that could take your spot. And to me, it was like, so take it. Like, to me, like, I'm not gonna be somewhere I'm not wanted. I'm not gonna. And to me, like, I think about that, and I'm just like. Like, for her to tell me, like, oh, I'm a waste of talent. Like, I feel like I was very talented at what I did. So for her to be like, oh, you're a waste of talent. Like, that stuck with me. And after the conversation, she actually. It was undecided if I was going to be kicking kicked off or not. She was like, keep this conversation to yourself. I don't want to hear it from nobody else. Nobody. And she was like, not even your mom.
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B
That's the first person. I'm a top girl, girl.
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A
I'm gonna go home and tell her right now. What, you mean as soon as I get in the car?
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B
Yeah.
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A
So I. I didn't even make it to the car. I called my mom. I was crying. I was like, I don't know what this means. But she told me this and that, and, like, everything she said, like, it had stuck with me. Like, I'm like. I just kept, like, thinking, like, damn, I'm always the talent. Like. Like that. Like.
- [55:27]
B
And then she had already been weird.
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A
Yeah. Like, I feel like no other girls, like, had gotten, you know, certain treatment like that. So I was like, like, no, like, that. That's not fair. But I was just like, you know, it is what it is. I ended up telling my mom. My mom was so mad, she ended up, like, writing an email, and she was like, basically, like, telling her, like, you need to, like, just say what's gonna happen if she's gonna get kicked off? Like, just Just say that. Like, there's no reason for you to drag it on there. No reasoning for you to be saying these things. And she never responded to the email. She sent out her own email to my mom, and she sent out, like, I think I got delivered a letter in class or something, basically saying, like, I was kicked off the team. And I was like. Like, I was crying, like, And I feel like that moment in my life was such. Like, I never felt, like, depressed or anything, but it was just like. Like, I was going through a lot at that moment.
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B
Especially because you had been cheering since fourth grade, since four years old. Yeah, it's okay.
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A
That point in my life, I was just like. So, like, I felt like, damn, like, what am I gonna do now? Like, it wasn't anything like. And a while back, I remember her saying about when I had first joined the cheer team, she had talked about, like, a girl, like, mentioning. And she would throw, like, subs, I guess it was a girl that used to be on the cheer team, and she, like, was posting on Tik Tok, like, about how the cheer team was toxic and this, this and that. But it really was, like, it didn't feel like it would feel like a girl's thing anymore. It felt like, oh, you're forced to come here. You're forced to do that. You're forced to do this. But after she told me, like, oh, like, I was dismissed from the team, I was like, like, that's not. That's not fair. Like, and that's not something I want. Like, I still want to be on the team, but obviously I'm not going to be somewhere I'm not wanted. My mom was like, no. And. And, you know, she. She requested a meeting with the principal. She requested a meeting with the athletic director. She text. She emailed the district. Like, she was very, very upset. And as much as I was upset, she was upset, too. She ended up getting a meeting with the principal. And she kind of talked about things like, these type of things happen behind closed doors. Girls fight in the locker rooms. Girls do this, Girls smoking. Girls are doing this, girls are doing that. And I just felt like, singled out. Like, yes, I'm not playing, like, victim to, like, oh, I did nothing. I was an angel. And, you know, I got kicked off for no reason. But it was also like, if you're gonna discipline somebody, fine, but do it across the board with everybody. You know, everybody should be the same. Everybody should get treated the same. And it wasn't like that. It was just like, no, you did that. Bye. She did end up getting a meeting with the principal, but after that, she never heard from them again. She never. Nobody ever reached back out to her. My school's communication was bad when the whole fighting stuff happened, when the whole. When girls were bullying me or when my mom needed to get in touch with teachers or grades or anything, like, there was no communic. They sucked. They never followed up with anything. I ended up talking to my counselor. My counselor, I would say, was the only, like, the only adult that was, like, working there that actually, like, helped me and helped me talked about things. She was giving me people's numbers of upper districts, like, who to talk to and who to tell this to and who to tell that to. You know, things like that. And she was very, very, very helpful with all the stuff and information she would give me. And my mom, she would call, she would update my mom, she would update me. My mom ended up contacting the athletic director of my school. He ended up pulling me to the side to talk to me because brought up, you know, other girls. She was like, I'm gonna take it to the district. Since y' all don't want to do anything about it, let's take it somewhere where it's gonna get handled. She wrote a long email, basically saying, like, I'm gonna do this. I'm gonna do that. I'm gonna do this. You have this. And she attached pictures, emails, proofs, receipts.
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B
Yeah.
- [59:01]
A
And he pulled me to the side one day and was basically telling me, like, I'm gonna have to kiss my coach's ass for a big apology letter. I'm gonna say, like, I was wrong. I shouldn't have had. Did that. I won't do anything like that anymore. Anymore. Just basically writing this letter out to her. If I was to write a letter, like, that wouldn't even be me. Like, I wouldn't be. That wouldn't be sincere. Like, I would have apologized if things would have went about a different way. But after you tell somebody, like, oh, you're a waste of talent. You don't deserve to be here. You know, there's girls that are wishing they were in your spot, and they can take it. There's girls that want your spot, and they can take it, or, you know, those kind of things stick with me. Like, I've never had a coach. Like, I've had coaches say some crazy things, like. But never anything, like, you know, to devalue. Yeah. Like, I. I took it. Like, I still think it deep with me, like. Like, there's just some things that you don't say if you're going to say. I mean, if, like, you could put them a different way. Yeah, Like, I still think about that. Like, I still remember the conversation and how she was telling me, like, everything and how I was feeling. I remember crying in her face too. Like, it was just like it really, you know, bothered me. And I feel like maybe if I didn't go home and tell my mom, maybe I wouldn't have had kicked off the team. Maybe it was like my mom's message to her that, like, pushed her off the edge and was like, no, you're gone. Like, and I was going to lower myself to do that. And then it wasn't even a guarantee that I was still going to be on the team. It was just going to be like, I'm here, but it's not a guarantee. And I know even if I was to get back on the team, it wouldn't be like the same vibes. It would be even more animosity. It would be more weird. You know, we've already exchanged words. We have already, you know, did this and did that and my mom, like, never got a response. And, you know, she. She was like, if you really want to be on the team, like, I'm just going to keep pushing it. But at that point I was just like, it's not even going to be the same. Like, clearly I' not wanted. Clearly I'm not like, there. Clearly, you know, it's. It's something there. And, you know, I feel like maybe God has other plans for me and they're not this. So maybe it was like a blessing in disguise. But I feel like that point in my life was such a bad part of my life. Like, it was taking a toll on my mental. It was just like, it was. It was really bad for me. Like, I just. I feel like I wasn't myself. I wasn't happy. I wasn't. I was going through a lot. I was trying to, you know, handle my emotions, emotions and just, you know, I still had to, like, show up and be a person. I started to go to school. I still had to do this, I still had to do that. And yeah, you know, you were telling.
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B
Me this morning that your senior year you moved, you know, high schools. What was that like? What was the reason why you decided to move, you know, your last year of high school? And what was your experience going into like a whole brand new high school, going in as a senior.
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A
So a little bit afterwards, like in January, I believe I want to say it was like, the end of January, I got into another fight with the same girl. Even, like, the coaches, like, it was coming back for me that the cheerleaders. Like, that the coaches were still talking about me. Like, oh, there she goes again. Like, she's doing this and she's doing that. And I feel like those were coaches that would, like, talk about, like. Like, girls. It kind of made it seem like, are you my coach or are you in competition? Like, you know, it was just things like that. Like, why are you comparing yourself? Why are you. You talking about. I feel like adults that do that are weird. Like, you're an adult talking about children, and that's. To me, that's weird. And it's. Especially if it's in a bad or negative way. I got into another fight. And like, I said, like, that whole. From, like, the end of December to, like, January, February, I. I wasn't myself. I wasn't happy. It was just like, I have to do this. I have to go to school. I have to. And it was draining. Like, I didn't. I didn't want to do it anymore. And I was tired. The administration was not doing anything. The APs wouldn't do nothing. The principal. People didn't care. Nobody cared about anything. So I remember one day at school, like, there was, like, eight fights in one day. And I'm like, girl, like, y' all got nothing under control. And, you know, it is what it is. I needed to move, and I didn't tell anybody that I was transferring schools. I just transferred my mom. Well, I was. But actually, when my mom withdrew me, she kind of went up there and, like, caused a little scene. But she was like. She came up there and she was like, I'm gonna withdraw my daughter. And they were like, oh, what school is she going to? And my mom was like, she's dropping out. Like, she told her. She told him she's dropping out. And, you know, that looks bad on there. And, you know, they're missing out on money. You know, it got. It has to get reported to the district. And they're like, well, what do you. What do you mean she's dropping out? Like, what do you mean? And then, like, the two APs from my grade and the grade before me came down, and they were like, you know, like, I don't think dropping out is the best option. Like, are you sure this is what you want to do? My. And all the time, I'm like, girl, mom going to another school. But I let my mom, you know, handle it. They wanted to care now. They were like, no. Like, what do you feel like we need to do differently? And it's like, it's too late for all of that. Like, girl, I asked you for that months ago. They were like, oh, I can send you. I can email you some online schools if you want to, like, do school from home. Do you think you could homeschool her? And they were just trying to find, like, different alternatives, but it was like, it was too late for that already. So my mom would drew them. She didn't tell them what school I was going to. She didn't tell them anything. You know, eventually they're gonna have to pull my transcripts and stuff, but she just told them that, and, you know, they were. They were, like, upset. They were trying to, you know, get to it, but it was like, it was too late for all of that. So I ended up transferring, and I was scared, but I'm like. I said, like, I was. I'm a very social person. And also, I had a lot of friends. Like, I had a lot of people I talked to.
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B
Was it like a school within the same district?
- [64:09]
A
No, no, no, no. It was a whole different district. But once I moved schools, I feel like that's when I finally realized, like, people will literally only be friends with you because you benefit them. After I moved, I don't feel like anybody called me. Not. Not that anybody owes it to me, but I feel like if you're my friend, you know, some of y' all were riding in my car. Some of y'. All. Y' all were going to lunch with me. Some of y', all, I was playing a little Uber, and, you know, going here and there with y', all, and it's like, I left. So I'm not a little Uber no more. So now y' all don't need to call me. I don't need to text me. And to me, like, that kind of, like, rubbed me the wrong way. There was a lot of people that I talked to that I no longer talk to anymore. And I just kind of started, like, cutting everybody off. I feel like I'm not one of here. When I transferred, people texted me, like, oh, you moved, and this, this and that. But after a while, nobody, like, really cared, like. Or the people I thought were my. My friends didn't really check up on. I wasn't benefiting them anymore. They didn't need me. They didn't need to talk to me. And I get, you know, friends have this. I always tell, like, my friends, like, I don't want you to ever feel like, you know, pushing you away or I'm not talking to you. I feel like everybody has their own life. But we were still in school, and it was like, when I was in school with y', all, y' all were texting me, calling me, talking to me every day. And now, like, I'm not there. Like, now it's. I'm not beneficial to y', all, so y' all don't need me no more. So when I moved schools, it was kind of like. Like, I'm scared. Like, you know, but like I said, I was a very social person. I was on Tik Tok already. I feel like I still hadn't reached 100k followers, but I was, you know, I was somewhere. I remember being stuck at, like, 70K for, like, a very long time. But once I transferred, I was like, I think I'm gonna make new friends. Like, I feel like I'm gonna be okay. I ended up, you know, making a couple of friends. I went to a party and made some more friends. You know, I'm a very social person. So I was talking to everybody. I was getting to know people, and it really wasn't hard. Hard for me. And then, you know, when the next school year came in, I made even more friends and more people that I talked to. And these people, like, you know, now that we've graduated high school, they still, you know, interact with my stuff. They still post. Like, they still, you know, show me love. And I feel like I appreciate those friends because I feel like friends feel like. Or some people feel like, well, she has that following. She doesn't need my attention. But to me, I look out, like, for my friends. Like, that's the. Like, I'm looking for. That's the comment I'm looking for. That's who I want to, you know, I want to share, you know, my life with, my experiences with and things like that. So after I moved, I feel like. Like, I would honestly say, like, I have wrote in plenty of essays about, like, that being one of the biggest changes in my life and one of the best decisions I have ever made. And to me, it was scary. Like, I spent three years at a whole high school just to transfer. My fourth year, like, what if I don't have any friends? What if I can't do this? What if I don't do that? You know, to me, I wanted to cheer, too, but I wasn't able to year. It was too late for tryouts. So I was like, damn. But I feel like that was one of the best decisions I've ever made. Like, I don't regret it. Like, I feel like that was the best thing. The administration was so much better. You know, it was happy, it was, everybody cared. When I got there, the administrator was talking to me like, you know, they, they cared like, and it was. Yes, you can see the difference. Yes, yes, yes, yes. And it was like they were, they were strict, but it wasn't like a bad strict. Like they, they care about their students. Yeah, yeah. And you could just see like the big difference, the big change. They, you know, would send my mom emails, they would communicate, they would text her and things like that. And that's, you know, as a mom, like, I feel like that's something that you want for your children. Like you want to be updated. You want to. And she never got that over there, but over here, you know, she was updated. She was doing this. And I was started to get more involved. I got more friends. I would go to football games. My senior year was like, it was a good year. I met my boyfriend, like, things like that. And you know, it was just, it was, it was good.
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B
Talking about social media, no squinters. That during that time is when you started doing social media. Do you remember like the first moment that you realized like, oh shit, I'm kind of popping off and if I really put myself into this 100%, I can actually make this a full time job.
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A
After I moved, I just seen like my TikTok, just like June, like my dancing videos. Like I have more friends to make tiktoks with. You know, I started doing my little get ready with me's and things like that. And you know, I just started seeing like my followers following grow more. I've seen, you know, people interact and I, to me, I like that. Like, like I said, like, I feel like having a lot of friends was a good thing, but I feel like having like social media friends is like, you know, you have a bunch of little friends. Like I think of like all the people that follow me. Like, we're all best friends. Yeah. And you see that's what I love. But like that's why I like to, you know, interact with them and talk to them back. That's why when people are like, oh, like she stuck up. She thinks she's all that and it's that girl. If I was that type of person, I doubt all these people would be, you know, the way they are for me or you know, they would, they wouldn't have my back the way they have it. If you know, I didn't care if I wasn't, you know, nice or, you know, things like that. Like, people don't like ugly people. After I started doing my little get ready, people were like, oh, I want to see more of this. I want to see more of that. I want to see more of this. I want to see more of that. But I think what really, like, built my platform was like, my dancing videos. And then also, like, you know, I would do little training videos and with, like, money or with my car, stuff like that. And people would be like, oh, like, that's where the whole daddy's money thing came along. And people were like, oh, you don't work for nothing. You're this, you're that, you're this, you're that. But that's what my following really started taking off when I got to, you know, my senior year and I started posting dancing videos, things like that, football games, get ready with me to go here, get ready with me to go there. And I felt like that's where it all started. Yeah.
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B
You know, I feel like the TikTok comments can sometimes be super brutal. You're super young still, you know, has there ever been a moment where you've gotten, like, maybe some backlash or maybe a lot of comments over a certain thing where it's made you feel bad about yourself?
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A
Yeah. Last year, like, in November, December, I used to weigh, like 150, and a lot of people would be like, oh, like, they would call me, like, fat and stuff, and I would just be like. And like, I didn't really see it until, like. Like, my mom would kind of tell me sometimes. But I feel like my mom was telling me because she knew, like. Like, you know.
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B
Yeah.
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A
And she would just be like, like, maya, you're gaining weight. But I didn't see it because I feel like you don't. You kind of don't see it on yourself. Yeah, you don't really notice it. But also, I wasn't in sports anymore. Like, I had just moved. It was too late for sports for my senior year, so I wasn't active and athletic as I was anymore. You know, I could still sit here and, you know, do a backflip across the room. But, you know, like, I wasn't. I wasn't in sports anymore. I feel like that's where like, the, oh, she's fat started coming along. And I feel like that's what people said because it's like, there's nothing you can really say about me. Like, you know, you can't Say like, oh, she's, she's ugly. Or, oh, she's, she's mean, or, oh, she's this, she's that. So it's like, okay, let's call her fat. And then after that, like, I kind of was like, you know what? Like, let me, you know, make something out of it. So then I was like, okay, like, I'm gonna start losing weight. And a lot of girls like, now, like, text me like, how did you do this? And how did you do that? And, you know, now I weigh, like, 135.
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B
Congrats.
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A
Thank you. And, you know, people still call me fat, but I'm like, I feel like I've came a long way, and, you know, I worked for it. And, you know, you don't just lose that many pounds overnight.
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B
So do you feel with the weight you've lost, it's almost kind of rebuilt your confidence? Because I'm sure at one point you're like, oh, my God. Because I used to be 321 pounds, right? Yeah, I used to be really big. And back when I started doing YouTube, I've been doing this for, like, 10 years almost. You're like, damn, you're old. No, I am pretty old. I'm almost pushing 30. But what I'm saying is I used to get a lot of the comments of, like, he's fat. Oh, my God. Fat, fat, fat, fat, fat. Lost weight. And it really did change my perspective because I feel like even though I knew I was big, when I would see those comments, I'd be like, oh, like, so it is true. It's almost a confirmation. Like, oh, it's not just me thinking, you know, but then after I lost it, I feel like I started regaining my confidence. Did that happen to you?
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A
And I feel like, no. I feel like I've always had confidence, but it would make me feel like, damn, like I'm fat. Like, you'd have to tell me that. But, like, you know, and it was just like, those comments really don't bother me, because I know I put in the work to losing away. Like, I look back at my old videos and I'm like, damn, girl, you was a little big. But now I see myself like, I'm not as big as I used to be. I don't look how I used to look. Like, I've gotten older, too. I've matured in the face. I've matured, you know, But I also. I didn't realize it. And when, you know, people are. People are ugly. You know, people just say anything do anything. They make you feel any kind of way, and they don't care. Like, social media. Social media. But I feel like I've built, like, that wall up. Like, to me, comments don't really get to me. And I feel like when they were at that time when everybody was like, oh, you're fat. And I just kind of turned it into, like, a. Let me make something out of this, okay? If I'm fat, let me, like, you know, let me drag it a little bit. And they would be like, oh, like, you have all the money. You can have all the money, but you're still fat. And I was like, okay. Like, so now and then when I lost weight, like, people were like, oh. Like, people would just say anything like, oh, she thinks because she lost all this weight, she could act like this or she can do this. And it's like, girl, like, first you were mad because I was. Now I'm not, and now it's still.
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B
A problem, and they're gonna find something mad about.
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A
And, you know, I feel like people still try to, like, drag me or be like, oh, like, she's still fat or she's still this or she's still that. But, like, I've came a long way, and I'm, like, proud of myself. I feel like, you know, I've. I put in the work to lose all that way. Y' all didn't put in the work to. To lose the weight. Y' all didn't, you know, go to the gym. Y' all didn't eat right. Y' all didn't, you know, and it took. It took months, I think November, December, January, February. Really? I started seeing progress, like, in February, March, and I was preparing, you know, up to my 18th birthday was coming up, so I was like, I gotta get it together. I gotta, you know, get in shape. I gotta. And I did exactly that. And I lost all that weight. And I was, you know, and I was like, yeah. And it was still a problem, though. It was just.
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B
And it's always gonna be a problem, you know, obviously, being on social media and, you know, you've mentioned that every single time someone kind of says something about you, you kind of like to address it, or you kind of like to shut down the rumor.
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A
I feel like I address, like, I do address, like, a lot of things, and people are like, oh, like, you don't need to address yourself. You don't need to prove anything to anybody. Or sometimes I'll just reply comments to, like, put you on the spot. And now, like, you felt like Being ugly. So now I put you on the spot, and now you have to turn your comments off. You know, some things like that. Because sometimes I'm like, you're not about to bully me. Like, you're not about to tell me, oh, there was this, like, one incident where this girl, like, was like, oh, like, she's fat. She's built like this. And, you know, I put her on blast. And now her comments are not regular no more. But that's not my problem. Like, you know, I didn't provoke you. I didn't say anything for you. You just found my video and commented that. Like, what in your right mind when you comment. Yeah. Or like, I'll be on live and people will be like, oh, you're fat and you know. Or you'll. You're this or you're that. You go to their page and it's like, you have no dad. Your baby daddy's gone, you're struggling, and you're worried about the wrong things. And a lot of the comments that I see, it's like, older people. Like, I see a lot of, like, older people or older people with kids that always have something to say. So it's like, you're older, so I don't really expect you to.
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B
Worried about 18.
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A
Yeah, right. Like, and I feel like people don't understand. Understand that. Like, people. I'm still 18. I'm freshly 18. I just turned 18 in May. And I feel like people don't, like, realize that. But I'm also a teenage girl. Like, if you think that I'm not gonna go back and forth with you and you said something crazy to me is crazy, because, you know, sometimes I do have to take it there and, you know, and people. I say something mad, and people will be like, oh, you always bring up money. Well, obviously, I'm not gonna bring up my personality. Obviously, if you're commenting those kind of things, my personality is already better than you. I clearly. If you're projecting your insecurities onto me, like, I don't have. What do you want me to say to you? Like, and they're, oh, well, you. You always bring up money, or you bring up this or you bring up that, and it's just like. Or after I address them or after I say something to them, they'll be like, oh, she stuck up. Oh, she thinks she's better. She thinks she's this. And it's like, people expect you to receive, like, backlash or receive ugly comments and just shut up. Like, that's not the way things work. Yeah, like, that's. That. That's not how life works. And, you know, to me, it's like, I've never, you know, had anybody, like, say anything to me in real life. So it's like, y' all act real froggy in them comments, but y' all would never. In real life, y' all would never. And to me, it's just like, okay. And, you know, I would look crazy arguing with somebody on a fake account. Like, you made a whole fake account. And I've always, like, expressed this, but I feel like people really are obsessed and delusional and, like, they need help. You make whole accounts to post about me. Whole fake accounts. If I block, like, I'll block somebody. And people like, oh, you blocked me because you're scary. No, I blocked you because I'm not gonna let you bother me. And my comments in my phone, I see your comment, and you want me to just leave? You leave it there. And, you know, people, a lot of people like ugly comments, and I'm like, oh, so y' all all agree with. I wish I could see who likes comment so I can block all of y', all. But people will be like, oh, she blocked me because she's scary. No, I blocked you because you're annoying. Like, you continue to comment. I've had, like, girls that I blocked, and they come off a backup account. Then I blocked them on there, they come off another account, and then I block them on there, and they'll go to my Instagram and be like, oh, you blocked me. You're a scary ass. This, this, and that. I'm like, damn, I'm a. Like, you don't even know me. Like, you know things like that. But I just feel like people don't know you. So if people don't like you and people don't care to hear your side or what you have to say, or they don't like that you respond back and say something back, and all sudden, you're the evil person, or you're the ugly person, or you. You said this, and you think you're better than everybody. You always bring up money and this, this and that, but it's like, people don't have a reason to not like me. I've never did anything to nobody. I don't talk about nobody, you know, and sometimes I do story times, and they get taken all the way out of, and they. It gets messy, and it's like, y' all want me to do story times, but when I do them, you know, y', all, I. I get Backlash. Like, y' all are like, oh, she's always doing this or she's always doing that. But to me, like, I don't see. See nobody get that type of, like, backlight. When I see people doing story times, I see people in the comments, like, agreeing and stuff like that. Yeah. Laughing. And it's like, I have that too. But I also have like, a big group of girls that are like, oh, we know who's the mad one. Or you did this wrong or you did that. And I'm like, damn. Like, I can't even share no stories with y'. All. Y' all take everything. So, like, and every time I do, like, a trend or a video, like with money or anything like that, people just like, oh, you're not humble. Oh, you flex your money and you're not this and you're not that. But to me, I understand the word humble, but you're not going to tell me because I'm doing a trend that everybody else is doing. I go to everybody else's video, y' all not telling them anything, but it's like, oh, cuz it's me doing it. Y' all don't like it. So it's like, you know, but I just follow trends. I do a certain trend and everybody will be like, like, they'll take it too. Yeah. Like, if I'm talking directly to them and I'm like, if I was being direct, you have a little at. At the bot, you know, I'm gonna send you the video. And, you know, but it's like, these videos aren't at y'. All. Like, this is my life. This is my phone, this is my video, this is my page. I post what I want, I do what I want, I say what I want, and y' all just like, take it. And it'll be people that, like, don't follow me or, you know, people that just say anything. Like, I have made a video and it was like an audio where, like, it was like, I'm your inspiration. And everybody was like, you're not but this and you're not but that. Or be humble. God will take it all away from you if you don't sit the down. Like, people say ugly things like that. And it's just like, I don't feel like I'm a ugly person. I've never belittled anybody. I've never made fun of nobody's situation because, like I said, like, I. I know what it's like to, you know, be in that position. I've. I know. And people are like, oh, you don't have to clock in. You don't know anything about networking. And it's like I do, but you know, sometimes I don't, like I don't have to explain that to you. And even though I do, no matter how many times I tell somebody like oh, I do this or I do that, I remember somebody in my comments was like saying like, oh, what does she do for work? And then somebody was like, she works with her parents. And then somebody was like, that's not a job. And I was like, so what? I'm just waking up at five in the morning for no reason and going punching in and for nothing. Like that's not a job. Like what, what do you mean? Like stupid. Like that doesn't make any sense to me because it's like I'm literally telling you and showing you and you're still like that's not a job.
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B
Like I feel like with social media you'll never win. You know, like I've said, I, I've experienced the trolls I used very much like that. I used to. But you know what, I've said this so many times before. I used to always address shit. But people used to be like, oh my God, don't give them what they want. I'm like, no baby, I'm getting content out of their stupid ass comment. Like if I'm addressing it, it's because I want to make them look stupid and because I need a fucking video to post Babies girl, like imma use you stupid.
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A
Yeah, right.
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B
Even if you sit the down and explain to them detail by detail showing them everything, people are going to run with whatever more entertaining in their head. So I feel like with social media you're never going to.
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A
You can't make nobody understand you. You can't make nobody like, oh well, you know, I'm this type of person. I could sit there and you know, hold your hand and show you proof and tell you this and tell you that. And it's like if you don't like me, you're still not going to understand me. You're still not going to want to understand me. So it's like I can't, you know, I can't make you if people don't like you, people don't like you. But to me, like what just like blows my mind is people like hate, hate my guys. People say ugly things. People have messaged my mom ugly things. People have texted their business accounts before saying ugly things. Like things like that. And to me, like, it's crazy like, people are crazy. Like, people are crazy. And I'm just like, wow. Like, people are like, have lost their mind. And, like, I didn't do anything for nobody to. Like, I didn't do anything to y'. All. Like, are y' all okay? Like, I never said anything. And people are like, People just don't like her because she thinks she's all that. Like, no, you think that. Like, I don't. I. I don't know how else to put it, like, in words, but to me, it just. It's sick. Like, sometimes my mom, she, you know, she recently. I don't know if you've ever, like, seen her videos pop up, but she's a cookie ones. Yeah. My mom, you know, she says, like, she does it because, like, when people go to my videos, like, my dinner videos, like, I'm very family oriented. You know, when I sit down when I eat dinner with my family, like, you hear everybody talking in the background saying their little 1, 2. And people will be like, oh, like, your mom needs to do videos. Your mom needs to do that.
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B
I want to see that recipe. Because you were eating. I don't know what it was. Someone was like, what? Can we get the recipe?
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A
Like, my mom posted it. Yeah. Like, she's made canisa, tostadas, menudo, posole. Like, you know, she's always in the kitchen, so she cooks and. And then, you know, I feel like a lot of, you know, Mexican households, I'm very family oriented. Like, I know a lot of people, a lot of my friends, like, they don't sit at the dinner table and, you know, eat with their family. But, like, for us, like, we do that every single day. Like, every single day. We. We've always do that. We've always done that. We've always, you know, sat down and eaten together as a family. You know, now, like, I. When I go outside a little bit more, I don't get to attend the family dinners. But we. That's something we do. You try now.
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B
As you get older, then it becomes more. More difficult. You know, you mentioned that you really do have, like, hardcore haters, but you also do have a lot of girls and just people that love you. What do you want to say to those that show you love, support you, and are always riding hard for you in the comments?
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A
Because I see them, girl, I appreciate everybody. I love everybody. When I, like, read comments and, you know, tell people things, like, after I hit my, like, 500k, I really, like, took it all in and, you know, you know, like, realize, like, These people, like, love me. Like, a lot of people hate me. But I feel like a lot more people love me. And the people that know who I am, the people who have met me in real life, the people who have talked to me, the people who I've had conversations with, the people that I've DM back, I just. I appreciate everybody. Like, my words don't express it enough. You know, I never thought, like, oh, influencing or content creating was something that I wanted to do. It's just something that I just started doing, and then it just, like, took off. Like, it just. And I was like, okay. Like, I like this, you know, And I like, you know, like I said, I like having friends. I like being able to talk to people. I love whoever loves me. Like, I love them. And people be like, oh, like, I read comments. I do go through comments. I go through t pages about me. I go and read and this and this and that. And they'll be like, oh, you're definitely somebody who don't know you. Reply, I do know her now. Well, like, you know, it's like, I see you. Like, I see you. I like, I like comments. I like. I. I be. I be in the mess and the drama, too, you know, and when people say, like, oh, you. You're riding so hard for somebody that doesn't care about you or don't know you, but it's like, I do care about you. And I, you know, I do love y'. All. I do care for y'.
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B
All.
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A
I appreciate y'. All because, you know, I wouldn't be right here where I'm sitting at without, you know, everybody who loves and supports me. Yeah, I couldn't thank them enough.
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B
I love it, you guys see, you know, because, you know, like, we've mentioned, and I also do want to, you know, say that I don't want choosing guys, especially, like, for the viewers that might not be familiar with your content. Like, because sometimes, you know, because you do get a lot of hate. You know what I mean? Like, we're. We're highlighting it because it is something that you deal with on the daily, but you're also so loved. And shout out to everyone you know who has commented to bring her on the podcast. Because I really have enjoyed this conversation. To finish off, where do you see yourself in the next five years? Where does Maya see herself? 18, 19, 20, 21? Gen 2, 23.
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A
At 25, I see myself traveling, taking trips. I see myself way far from what I am now. I feel like I've came a very, very Long way. But I still have a very long way to go. You know, there's a lot of things that go on behind the scenes and things in works that you know, I like I said like there's a lot of negativity and you know, now I've kind of learned like you don't put, you shouldn't put things out there, you know, because people, people have bad intentions, people have bad juju and you just, you don't, you have to sometimes keep things private and then when it happens, it happens. I do see myself content creating long term. It's something I do enjoy. I do enjoy just pulling my phone out and recording and sharing my life with other people. Like I said, like I'm a very over sharing person. Sometimes I overshare a little too much. But it's something that I enjoy doing. I am in school right now. I want to be a lawyer. So aside from all of that, that's still something that I want to do.
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B
How's school for that going?
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A
Well, I actually just started, my classes start next week actually. Yeah. So. But I'm excited, a little bit scared. I'm a little bit of both, like.
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B
A little bit of everything. I'm so excited to have had this conversation with you. If you know we'll run this episode back up in another five years to see what you've done then. And I know every single one of these goals that you have for yourself you will accomplish, you know, and I'm so excited to see how far you make it. If you guys have not followed her on her social medias, make sure you guys do. I will leave them on the screen as well as down below future episode. And with that being said, thank you so much for coming.
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A
Thank you for having me and thank.
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B
You guys so much for watching and we'll see you guys in the next one. Bye guys. Yay. You is so good. And Doug, here we have the Limu emu in its natural habitat helping people customize their car insurance and save hundreds with Liberty Mutual. Fascinating. It's accompanied by his natural outcome ally Doug. Limu is that guy with the binoculars watching us.
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