TANA HIT HER CAR! + GETTING OVER HEARTBREAK 💔 | NOT LOVELINE Ep 78

Summary

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Podcast Summary: Not Loveline Ep 78

Episode Title: "TANA HIT HER CAR! + GETTING OVER HEARTBREAK 💔"
Hosts: Tana Mongeau & Trisha Paytas
Date: July 27, 2026

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Episode Overview

This episode is a vibrant, candid catch-up between Tana and Trisha after not recording together for a month. They discuss recent personal mishaps (including Tana hitting her car), getting through heartbreak, festival news, gift-giving, breakup resilience, and the power of manifestation. As always, the conversation is full of chaotic humor, heartfelt advice, and relatable confessions about relationships, self-growth, and healing.

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Key Discussion Points & Insights

1. Manifestation, Retrograde, and “Words Are Power”

• Manifesting in Retrograde: Both hosts talk about experiencing a period where everything they say seems to come true—good or bad—leading to hyper-awareness of their words.

  • Quote: “Our words are power and, like, what you say ends up, like, coming true.” — Trisha (04:39)

• Personal Examples: Tana shares stories of bad things happening immediately after voicing fears or desires, like wanting to move out and then nearly being evacuated due to a fire.

• Lesson: Fine-tuning one’s speech to focus on the positive rather than fears; being careful with wishes and words.

  Memorable Moment [16:20]:
  Trisha: “Be so careful with words... everything you say and the way you say it, it's just like, yeah, I know.”

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2. Spilling on Life Updates — Festival News, Book Tours & More

• Both performing at a new festival (“For You Fest”) and only finding out after signing up that they’d both be headlining. They express both excitement and nervousness over solo versus joint performances.

  • Quote: “It’s always scary to do the first of its kind... but I had FOMO especially when I knew you were, like, headlining too.” — Trisha (07:28)

• Creativity on Stage: Tana discusses planning a “one-woman show” with comedy and impersonators, inspired by Sabrina Carpenter at Coachella and building an act for longevity.

  Highlight [12:26]:
  Tana: “That’s what I’m kind of going for, is I’m trying to do a set at this that, like, maybe ends up being something that I get to do other places... I’m excited.”

• Book Signing Tour: Trisha is busy signing thousands of books for pre-orders and planning her first memoir book tour, inviting Tana to moderate an event.

  • Quote: “I feel like you should come. Moderate. I will moderate the out of your book tour. I would love to.” — Tana (64:43)

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3. Purging, Downsizing & Material Minimalism

• Tana discusses wanting to move and downsize, realizing after a fire scare that possessions aren’t as important as safety and clarity. Both hosts agree that letting go of material things leads to feeling lighter and more organized.

  Relatable Moment [15:34]:
  Tana: "It made me realize how little we truly need, you know, like, the things that I'm actually looking to grab versus all of these things that could go to a better home."

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4. Driving Mishaps and Car Anxiety

• Tana’s Car Crash: She tells the full story of crashing her SUV into her own gate (19:09), her stress as a new LA driver, and feeling discouraged but grateful no one was hurt.

• Relatability: Trisha reassures her by sharing similar LA car mishaps (including selling cars after accidents for a clean slate).

  Notable Quote [20:32]:
  Tana: “Owning this car...I will definitely never, ever, ever own a car.”
  Trisha: “I always ruin cars...LA is tight, these things are hard parking spaces.”

• Discussion segues into how LA driving culture is intense, with left turns and parking being recurring stressors.

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5. WeHo & “The Abbey” Horror Stories

• Both recount negative experiences at the infamous LA gay club The Abbey—multiple friends have had phones stolen, been roofied, or noticed suspicious practices.

• Tana theorizes it’s often “an inside job” and jokes about launching an investigative docuseries with Lisa Rinna.

  Scathing Take [31:10]:
  Tana: “You can only see the cameras if you were roofied. Why is that a system you’ve set up?”
  Trisha: “Lisa Rinna really should spearhead a Netflix style documentary about all the things that have happened there...it’s very sinister.”

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6. Birthday Gifts, Friendship, and Material Bonds

• On-air, Trish gives Tana thoughtful gifts (notably, rare Maison Margiela polka-dot tabby flats), narrating the stressful search.
• They bond over how their friendship is reflected in their taste for niche and matching fashion items.
  • Heartfelt Acknowledgement [43:01]:
    Tana: “No one in my life caught me the Maison Margiela polka dot tabby flat... I wanted them so bad.”

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7. Breakups, Heartbreak, and Healing

• Tana emotionally describes supporting a friend through her first major heartbreak, while both hosts give non-expert—but thoughtful—advice about moving past pain.

  • Key Takeaways:
    • First heartbreak feels unendurable, but it’s often the necessary prelude to meeting the right person.
    • “Trash takes itself out”—sometimes the worst breakups are blessings in disguise.

  Uplifting Reflection [75:43]:
  Tana: “A little part of you...maybe dies there...but it’s the best thing ever when the trash takes itself out and eventually you get to the place...Thank God that lizard cheated on me. Thank God. I wish they cheated on me sooner.”

• Trisha emphasizes the importance of waiting for the right partner; recounts gratitude that things didn’t work out with previous partners.

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8. Self-Improvement: Fitness, Sobriety, Health

• Both open up about prioritizing health, from starting pilates/running, hormonal balance (GLP-1s), and how physical strength improves mental health.
• Tana reflects on celebrating her second sober birthday, sharing how difficult but rewarding it is to give up alcohol on important occasions.
  • Quote [39:49]:
    Tana: “It’s only my second sober birthday. I would always drink on my birthday and then try to go back to sobriety...eventually I gave that up and decided I wanted a sober life, obviously.”

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9. Love, Relationships, and Raising Standards

• Both stress that good men do exist, encouraging listeners not to settle and to stay open to love even after heartbreak.

  • Trisha’s relationship wisdom: “You should never have to bend yourself or anything...Don’t settle. The right one is out there.”

  Affirming Moment [85:04]:
  Tana: “You just find someone, and your whole life changes...Even if you could show Trisha and Tana old footage of us now...in our pink and so happy...it bleeds into everything.”

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Memorable Quotes & Time Stamps

• On manifestation & being careful what you say:
  “Everything I say, good or bad, is coming true in this retrograde.” — Tana ([04:49])
• On driving mishaps:
  “I crashed my pink Bentley into my gate...I just sold it. Bad energy, get it away from me.” — Trisha ([20:32])
• On heartbreak:
  “Thank God that lizard cheated on me...Now I can kind of giggle—on some, that's someone else's son, that's someone else's problem.” — Tana ([76:48])
• On friendship & gifts:
  "No one in my life caught me the Maison Margiela polka dot tabby flat... I wanted them so bad." — Tana ([43:01])
• On evolving through pain:
  "A little part of you...maybe dies there...but it’s the best thing ever when the trash takes itself out." — Tana ([75:43])
• On ‘The Abbey’ and LA night life:
  “Why do you guys have a phone case lot? Why do you not clean these up?” — Tana ([32:23])
• On staying open to love:
  "You physically cannot let someone scorn you, no matter how hard it is. You cannot let someone scorn you against the idea of love." — Tana ([79:50])

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Noteworthy Segments & Timestamps

• Festival & Book Tour Planning: [05:28 – 13:00]
• Manifestation Fails/Retrograde Stories: [14:06 – 18:00]
• LA Driving & Tana’s Car Accident: [17:50 – 24:00]
• Gift Exchange & Friendship: [36:26 – 50:00]
• Breakups & Heartbreak Advice: [72:01 – 85:00]
• Sobriety & Birthday Reflection: [39:47 – 40:38]
• ‘The Abbey’ Phone Theft and Nightlife Risks: [29:04 – 34:56]
• Love, Standards, and Happy Endings: [84:14 – 85:22]

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Podcast Tone & Style

The episode is raw, fast-paced, humorous, and supportive—filled with candid moments of vulnerability, off-topic tangents, sentimental gift-giving, and deeply personal revelations. Tana and Trisha balance self-deprecating humor with genuine encouragement for each other and their listeners, emphasizing self-love, honest friendship, and believing in second chances.

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Summary Takeaways

• Be mindful of your words—they might manifest more than you expect.
• Bad luck and heartbreak can sometimes be blessings in disguise.
• Don’t minimize your standards in love—good partners exist.
• Letting go (of stuff and people) creates space for new, better things.
• Friendship is about showing up, even with polka-dot hoof shoes.

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Next time: The hosts will return with listener questions and more recklessly honest stories about love and life. And maybe matching leopard wedges.

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Transcript

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[B]

Why [e-mail] where I look back at, like, someone cheating on me and shattering my heart. And now I can be like, literally, thank God that lizard cheated on me.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

You can think that this person is literally the love of your life and they can be a completely different person. I like my goosebumps even right now. I'm just so devastated for her and I love her so, so much.

[A]

We have a new hotline number. Call us today. Ask us any questions about love or life or anything in between, and we will do a full episode edited, you guys, because we love taking the call so much. I don't know if it's gonna be calls in this episode because we haven't seen each other a month. But the next one, we're gonna do so many calls. So call this number. It's new. Get them while it's fresh. Yeah, we'll see in there.

[B]

Give us a lore drop. Tell us some crazy. We're so back.

[A]

We're so back.

[B]

Happy July.

[A]

Happy birthday. Happy cancer season. To everyone watching it is July, my favorite month.

[B]

Oh, my God. It was just Aquaman's birthday.

[A]

It was Aquaman's birthday. Your birthday?

[B]

Yes. Me and Aquaman are close. We're close in birthdays.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

Yes.

[A]

Personality.

[B]

Oh, my God. Aquaman and I do have a lot in common.

[A]

I feel like. That's right. Yeah, you always. Because I remember when he was born, you came with an Aquaman. I still have the Aquaman shirt you got us from Amazon. That's like a vintage one. And I was just like, oh, I love this. I love the support for Aquaman Forever

[B]

for July as they get older. And older. I like, yearn for the, like. I hate that our kids are going to be so Age gap. But we slay.

[A]

That's true. They're gonna be us. It might be like a 10 year gap. That'd actually be cute. Cause they could babysit your kids.

[B]

Oh, my God.

[A]

Thank God. No, it's gonna be great, actually. No, it's actually everything. One of my really good friends, Ari, has a daughter that's 10 years older. Exactly. Than Malibu. And they get like. They're really cute. She comes to her birthday party and she, like, plays with her and, like, does all this stuff in the pool.

[B]

You also like Kardashian, your birthday parties. Like, you. I was looking at Aquaman's birthday across your story. Like, your outfit. First of all, you looked insane. Like, just mogging. Thank you.

[A]

I was Queen Atlanta. It was Nicole Kidman, who plays Aquaman's mom in the movie. And she is such a little bad, but so cute.

[B]

And like, just the decor and like, everything.

[A]

Thanks. I have a really good party planner, which I've used for literally 15 years. We were talking about, like, how we, like, keep the same people in our lives for so long, and I'm just such a creature of habits. I've used them for, like, literally 15 years. They're amazing. And then when our wedding came around, I was like, I need someone. Bougie or I need a celebrity, whatever. And I was just like. So I ended up starting, like, triple, quadruple, 10 times what we would pay for, like, a birthday party. And it was just, like, horrible. And I was like, damn. And I always tell her, because they're so good and they've been the same people there for, like, 15 years, and they always do our party. So slay for such a good deal. And so, like, that. I was like, damn, I really should have. They're like. They're like, well, there's always an anniversary. Because I was like, I really should have had you guys done our wedding. Because they would have. They're just really good at, like, executing.

[B]

Can you guys please, like, around and do, like, an anniversary wedding?

[A]

I wanted to do it this year. I said five years. Let's do it. I guess it's 10 years because I

[B]

have FOMO that I didn't attend your wedding.

[A]

Oh, my. You probably were invited because we did invite everyone. I think I invited Joey Graceffa. I was thinking I was inviting everybody.

[B]

No, I must have got lost in the mail because I would have been there.

[A]

I guess we were. I guess we weren't really. Yeah. Because we have the podcast or anything.

[B]

Yeah, I know.

[A]

Why do I feel like we did,

[B]

like, the black dress in person? Like, was the black dress in person insane? It was so gag.

[A]

Yeah, it was. That was definitely like a Christine Quinn. I was so inspired by her the year before. She had, like, a black. She had a black. What was a Galila Ha dress. And it was, like, so bouge. And yeah, I was into My Chemical Romance. It's still My Chemical Romance. And I was like, I'm gonna go down in the black parade in a black dress. I was like my emo. But I'm glad I did. I wanted to be different.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

Like, when you get married, do you think you'll be like, in a white dress or do you think you're gonna be like a bikini or something?

[B]

I want to be barefoot. Yeah, I know that. I want to be barefoot.

[A]

And you have to. Pregnant.

[B]

No, just barefoot.

[A]

Okay, Wait, you're always like, I don't want to be pregnant. I want to be pregnant.

[B]

I don't want to be.

[A]

You manifested it. You just said everything.

[B]

You're right. Oh, my God.

[A]

You just said it.

[B]

We have to talk, you guys. I'm in.

[A]

I'm in.

[B]

Trisha. Pay to psychosis. Okay.

[A]

That's a great place to be.

[B]

No, it really, honestly is. But this retrograde, and I've always felt this way, like, our words are power and, like, what you say ends up, like, coming true. Of course.

[A]

But.

[B]

But during this retrograde, anything I say, everything I say, good or bad, is coming true. And I'm literally actively correcting myself. I sound like, split the movie at all times. Like, I'll say something negative and immediately be like, I didn't mean that. That was just a joke. Like, I'm just kidding. Like, I. Everything I say is coming true in this retrograde.

[A]

Wow. Is it.

[B]

What's a.

[A]

What's a good one that you can say that? Like, wow.

[B]

You might have to bleep it, but I want to tell you anyways. I kept. We. We had this running bit, Kyle and I. Well, people might know, but, like, we'll just bleep it. We have this running bit. Like, whenever I say something like silly or dumb or whatever, he'll be like, you're gonna. We've been saying that. Just reached out.

[A]

When are you going?

[B]

It's in November.

[A]

Wait, I'm going in November. What are you going? November 12th. Wait, wait, are we going at the same time?

[B]

Wait, I'm going.

[A]

Wait.

[B]

I love our lives. I'm not. They said, well, we have our festival, which we also have to talk about.

[A]

Oh, so it's a couple days before.

[B]

Yes. But they were trying to get me. Oh, okay.

[A]

A lineup of.

[B]

Yes.

[A]

I love it. No, I love. Oh, my God. Wait. That is so crazy. Oh, my God, that is so wild.

[B]

Were you gagged when you found out?

[A]

I. Yeah, of course. Well, yeah, it is such a big thing. And I've seen, obviously, like, other influencers do it. And you're just like. Because we talked about even on just Trish. And I was like, wow, that's really cool. And I always had, like, a little bit of bitterness. I was like, damn, that sounds, like, really cool. And then. Yeah, when I got it too, I just like, oh, my God.

[B]

Just like, so what? Like, it's hard. I'm really excited. I am. High school dropout.

[A]

Like, no, that's what it is. I like, called my dad because he wanted me to go to college so bad. I was just like, I never went, obviously. Well, I went for like, a two weeks and then I called him and I think he was just, like, so happy because it feels like such a big achievement. Oh, yeah. We're so aligned in November because then we're both doing the for you fast. Which is also crazy because we also both didn't know we were doing it. I think maybe I did text you because as always with, like, anybody, they're always like, if you're on board, they try to be like, well, Tana's doing it. Which is honestly, like, will get me. I'll be like, yes, let's go. So I was like, okay, that's cool, because it is new. And I didn't know. I was like, you just never know how things are going to be. But this one is also put on by, like, a really big festival company, which is a lot. They do a lot.

[B]

It's funny, I saw a TikTok where someone was kind of saying, like, tana's doing this festival. And, like, obviously Tanacon has happened and, like, all these things. And I'm like, it's not my festival. And I was, like, going to go in the comments and just like, this is not mine. Like, I just agreed to it. Whatever.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And I opened the comments and you had already commented and you were like, it's being put on by, like, a really reputable company. And I was like. I was like, that's my girl. That is my girl right here fighting for me in the comments because they.

[A]

They have a list. I'm kind of drawing a blank now because I'm So, like, it's a hard thing, but there was a list of, like, really big ones. They do. It's like a little pools. I don't know if they do level positive, but they do a lot of big ones like that.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

So that's why I was like, oh, okay. Yeah, it's definitely, like, legit. It's just like a first of its kind. It's always scary to do the first of its kind. But then I had fomo, especially when I knew you were, like, headlining too. I was like, well, I'm gonna do

[B]

it your fun lineup. Because it is just like, mainly girls

[A]

and gays and it's Quinn, It's Caleb and Drew. It's Owen, Theo. Yeah, it really is girl. Girls and gays, which we love.

[B]

It's gonna be so fun.

[A]

I'm black mix alter. You are? Wait, why? I nervous?

[B]

Well, you're. You're you and you're just beautiful at everything you do. Like, you're obviously gonna do like, a music fun. Like, I already know, like, I want to. I can't wait to attend your set.

[A]

Yeah, we're right by. We're back to back. At least we're not the same time that we're gonna be the same things. We're different stages.

[B]

Like, no one would be at my shit. I would never let that happen.

[A]

No, first of all, that's not true. I know. It is a crazy. It is a crazy stack lineup because it's like Caleb and Drew is on the podcast stage, then it's like me on the music stage after, and then it's you back on the podcast stage. So it is a good little bounce, which is good.

[B]

The thing that made me a little, like, scary scared. Not. I don't even want to say that. I don't want to manifest.

[A]

You're manifesting everything. Yeah.

[B]

I'm actually very excited. And we're going to kill it and it's going to be great, but that no one else is going at the same time as me. So a. That means they're, like, going to be the people who, like, just are already there and go.

[A]

Right.

[B]

Which I always get, like, super nervous about.

[A]

But honestly, no, but they'll be there all day. And so they're probably going to be like, oh, well, we might as well. We have to stay. Like, you're the headliner. Headline. You know what I mean? So it's like they're like, we're going to stay and they'll be so excited for it. They're going to be so, so Stoked. You're. And you are so good on stage. One thing I learned from the Not Loveline show is you're so good at just being on stage. Like, I feel like I constantly have to be doing something and having people out there. And like, you're good at just literally, like, exist. You could. You literally sit and people are so engaged. Whatever. I would say, like, I was very much, like, up because I just feel like, I don't know, I feel like I'm boring or whatever.

[B]

You were up at our show. I was invite or flight at our show.

[A]

No, you were. But that's what I'm saying. Your presence is so good. You did that at the cancel show too, when I came to your show. And that's why I wanted to even do this because, damn, you're so good at literally just like, being there. It's like me, I feel like I need to, like, perform or like, do something stupid, outrageous or something.

[B]

You give the people what they want, though. Like, there were so many moments during our show, especially with my tooth being in so much pain. And I know I'm dragging.

[A]

And I'm saying, this was the day you're allowed to. You're in pain.

[B]

I feel like I'm dragging it, so I'll shut up. But you are just so good at, like, you know what I mean, Making the crowd. So I. There was something that you did that was like so funny. You, like, you got up to do something. Like, we were sitting.

[A]

Do you know what I'm talking about?

[B]

We were sitting and talking stupid.

[A]

I'm sure I was doing a lot of stupid stuff because I get nervous.

[B]

No, you were really funny. It was so funny. And I'm like, blanking on. I can't remember what it was, but you like, got up to do like a dance move or like something that you. And I was just like. I saw the clip of that and I was like, your presence on stage is just unmatched. You do give the people, like, and it's so fun. There's a part of me that is like, I wish we were doing our thing together, but I'm excited for us to get to see each other's thing.

[A]

No, I'm excited for that too because it's at the end of my book tour. I'm doing like a two week book tour for November 1st and that's the very end. So I'm doing like a book signing.

[B]

I want to come in your carry on. I want to come to your book tour.

[A]

That school we're doing that's part of it bit. And then again, be in New York for like a week and stuff like that. So it's gonna be. I'm so excited. And then that. And then my Trishmas will start November 1st. So I think what I'm gonna do is I'm gonna do like a little bit of my Trishmas set there. Because it's like an hour long. I think we have to do a set. And I was like, usually when I do festivals, it's like 15 minutes. And I was like, okay, hour long set.

[B]

I'm really. I want, like, pyrotechnics. Like, I want all the. All the things I was just gonna say. Not in a Kirk way. I want pyrotechnics in a non Kirk way.

[A]

I don't know if there is one anymore.

[B]

I know she kind of took that from us. Yeah.

[A]

Excited to see what you do. I think you're, like, so creative, and after seeing the show too, like, all the graphics, all the games, all the stuff you play is, like, really fun.

[B]

Helped me write it without knowing that's what I'm gonna say about my set. Is there something that you.

[A]

Oh, you did it already.

[B]

No, but I'm starting to do it. I want to be super ahead, and I want to make sure it's like, absolutely perfect months in advance.

[A]

I'm so excited. Are you gonna bring guests? Are you gonna do it solo?

[B]

I haven't actually decided that in full. I kind of want to, like, solo. There will be guests, but I don't. I might want to have, like, almost actors, if that makes sense. That's what I'm saying.

[A]

Sabrina Carpenter and Coachella, kind of.

[B]

But, like. Okay, I want to bleep the name.

[A]

Okay.

[B]

But like, I want to have, like a impersonator. Like, I. If that tells you anything of what I'm. What I think I'm doing.

[A]

I can't even imagine. A little History of Tana. Maybe a little Tana past.

[B]

I'll say this. You have to bleep the item too. But I want people on. Like, I think I'm gonna. I think I'm gonna play into a joke that it should be like a

[A]

little one woman show. With the way that's going, you could have a whole. Okay, I'm excited. I love this for you. I love this idea because I think it's also. I love how, like, different and unique it is. You know?

[B]

You know what I'm trying to do, I think.

[A]

I don't know. I do.

[B]

Okay. Obviously we can bleep it. But, like, I want to play into, like. Like a. Like, almost like a you. And you gave me this idea. More comedy. More comedy than, like, actual.

[A]

Oh, my God, that's gonna be so good. I feel like someone will, like, pick it up, and you're gonna be.

[B]

And then I'm gonna be touring, and you are never escaping it. Oh, my God.

[A]

That'd be actually everything, though. You tour for, like, two years with it. Because it's like, when you put on that show and you have it together. Oh, my God. I feel like that'd be huge.

[B]

That's what I'm kind of going for is I'm trying to do a set at this that, like, maybe ends up being something that I get to do other places and stuff. So I'm excited. Smart.

[A]

That's so smart. That's how I was treating it too. I was like, well, you know, I'm doing Churchma something. Maybe it's like a little tester, Like a little thing for Trishma, see how the stuff works out. That's so smart, though. Yours is completely different, which I really love. I love. I love the idea of that concept. Like, I've always, like. And you're having, like, someone help you.

[B]

You, really, like, push. Because I always thought, like, no, I'll never do anything like that. And then after seeing kind of people's comments and questions about me doing it, and then, like, X, you always saying, like, I don't know. It's something. I want some veins.

[A]

That is gonna be so fun and so funny. Oh, my God. Are you gonna do, like, a little wireless mic moment? Are you gonna, like.

[B]

I should.

[A]

I love when people do that. That's so fun. I want to wire that. America Kirk.

[B]

Does she have a wireless mic?

[A]

I think it's Britney Spears. Okay, let me.

[B]

Yes, that's what I'm going for.

[A]

Always. I don't really watch Eric Kirk on the regular. I just hear him going out to the pyrotechnic.

[B]

Pyrotechnics are. We need to take them back.

[A]

Yeah. To the good side claim of those.

[B]

Yes. Yeah, whatever. And I might, you know, and her little blazer pantsuits. Like, sometimes I'll put on, like, a blazer with a matching pant now. And I'm like, am I?

[A]

Can I tell you? Same like a gold sequin blazer and pant. I'm like, I used to always get those from fashion Nova. And I was like, I can't do it anymore. It's too close to the.

[B]

The Kirk nation.

[A]

How did we get here started crazy. We went a crazy route, but we are very light. I'm very excited for that. Oh my God. It's gonna be a fun end of the year. That's why even now it's kind of like a super slow period for me. But I love it because we're. We're so line too. We're both like in our organizing era, our purging era. And it feels so. I feel so light. Like, most probably tell you like when I'm like when I'm done purging, like it takes like eight. I do it for eight hours. Like in a day. I feel like so light, so clear. My head, my space, everything's like. Yeah, like everything just feels so amazing.

[B]

So the other day, and this goes to the manifestation, like, bad thing happened kind of. But like, whatever. I was on the phone with my real estate agent and I've told you this and I'm kind of maybe looking to move and figure it out. I just think that I got the house in an era where I was a maximalist and over consumption and all these things. And I think it's a big, beautiful home that like a big beautiful family would absolutely love. And I want to downsize and stuff. So I was talking to my real estate agent about that and I'm on the phone. I'm literally going, get me out of this house. Like, it's not my house. Like it's someone. It's not my house. It's not my beef. But I sounded so Team Bryce. I can't.

[A]

But a grown up version. Not my house.

[B]

Yeah, it's not my house. But no. Yeah, I was telling her all that. And the second I get off my phone, I'm literally going, get me out of this house, please. Like I just said someone else's. Like, I'm very grateful to have it, but I think that this is someone else's. The second I hang up from the call, my phone starts going and I'm like, what? Like the alert noise. And I look down, there's a fire down the street. The wind's blowing in the direction of my house. Like there's. There's a reservoir. And it's like the reservoir normally saves us in the fires because they'll be on the other side and then they can use. It's on the other side. It's next to my house. I'm in the zone of the fire. Not even like other zones. So I immediately just start evacuating like as we do and have to. When was this? This was Like, a couple days ago. And I'm like, why? When I said, get me out of this house, this is not what I meant. This is not what I meant.

[A]

Oh, my God.

[B]

I'm like. But it made me realize how little we truly need, you know, like, the things that I'm actually looking to grab versus all of these things that could go to a better home. So I took it as a positive. I took it as a, you know, thank God nothing happened.

[A]

No one.

[B]

No one's house. Nothing bad happened. Like, they put it out very fast, but I was just like, wow. Yeah. Like, I just don't need any of these things. And it's put me on this giant purge and just trying to be.

[A]

It's better for, like, clarity, too. Like, well, I think we'll always like things. Like, I love things. I love, like, gifts. I love everything that. But I think it is, like, thinking, like, yeah, what makes you happy and, like, what is, like, serving you and all that stuff. Like, that. Which I think. And, like, that's, like, a great mind. That is crazy. That's giving me, like, one wish. Willow. Where you're like, yes, I want to be out. And then it's like, well, here you go.

[B]

Yes. And it's like, not the way I asked at all. Like, can I alter my wish?

[A]

So careful with words. I, like, learned that so much as everything you say and the way you say it, it's just like, yeah, I know.

[B]

And it's. This retrograde has really just been every single thing I say. And I'm. I'm trying. I'm channeling you so hard. And you know I can lean negative in a joking way.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

And I think that it's. That it's none of that.

[A]

But I, I, I. Someone. I don't know if it was, like, Jay Shady or one of those people. They're like, even if you say something about yourself joking, the universe doesn't know you're joking. So if you're just like, I'm a fat piece of universe, like, that's what it is. But I really do think, like, yeah, I think what you say is, I, I mean, at this point, everyone has to believe that when people are like, no. It's actually so insane if you don't believe that your words are so, so, so, so true.

[B]

And I just, like, I'm wanting to be so careful and so positive, and I do sound, like, split the movie genuinely all the time where I'll, like, say the thing and redo it, but I'm channeling you in that regard our words hold. So that was such a big lesson.

[A]

Yeah. Even little. Little things in life where it's like. Like I used to say all the

[B]

time, like, I'm so tired.

[A]

I'm so tired. And then it's just like, I feel like universe gave me more things to be tired from. And then I was, like, making myself more tired where it's just like. So instead of saying, like, I'm tired, like, I'm just, like, happy to be awake. I'm happy to have the energy today. And I feel like it does really switch things around.

[B]

No, it does. And you taught me that. I. I did not know anything about that or care about that or live like that until I met you. And in moments like this, especially right now, I'm like, I'm channeling Trisha and just, like, don't say the stupid thing. And sometimes even the negative thing that happens to you is redirection or protecting you from something that could be even, like, hitting my car. Like, the whole car ride home before I had hit my car.

[A]

Have you talked about this anywhere yet?

[B]

No.

[A]

Oh, my gosh. Okay. Yes. So I didn't see the video. Moses saw the video. I was like, there's video of it. Like, I didn't. I had not seen the video until, like, we talked. I was like, oh, my gosh. This was. This was. It wasn't crazy because it happened to me. So.

[B]

And it happens at home. And, like, I'm grateful for that, that it happened at home and everyone was safe. But the whole ride home, I'm literally talking to Megan. I'm like, I just want to drive as safe as possible so nothing bad happens. Like, I just want to make sure I'm the best driver on planet Earth. And then like, even just the way I was saying that, I almost feel like I quite literally manifested that happening. And I need to be so.

[A]

But you were saying I'm the safest driver.

[B]

I was saying I need to be. And like, oh, I'd had this conversation with Mokoa about, like, a potential driving instructor, and he had said, like, you just don't want anything bad to happen, like, to the car or to you or to anyone. And, like, I was kind of talking about that, which is a true sentiment. But I think that just saying it and then it, like, yeah, immediately happening,

[A]

just like, redirecting it to be like, I'm such a good driver.

[B]

Yes.

[A]

Like, all good things happen to me in this car instead of, like, that word bad. Universe was like, here's something bad.

[B]

Exactly. Like, Literally fine tuning what I'm especially cuz I've pulled into my driveway like a million times. What happened it honestly what it is and I knew this is that Ashley has her car in the driveway. And then I chose to buy a boat.

[A]

They are huge.

[B]

Was a choice for sure. And I was, I wanted the boat because I was like, this is safer. This is bigger. This is not an actual boat for people.

[A]

It's an suv.

[B]

It is not. It's not a pontoon on the water. But yeah, she's a very, very, very long front of the car. And I'd been knowing this that she has her car in our driveway. It is a two car driveway but for like two smaller sedans and like good Parkers and like that's. And I'd been meaning to just like move her car to another location around the house that it could be parked at. And I hadn't. And I just was trying to not because that was my fear is like hitting the edge of her car. Yeah. But in reality that probably would have been better than like up my whole gate, the whole side of my car.

[A]

What happened? Is it fixed? Did you get a fix? You're like, I'm just gonna keep a little dent there.

[B]

No. You're actually so funny because Trisha made me feel so much better. Obviously I was beating myself up and so discouraged on driving and just like very sad and like especially with the whole conversations that I'd been having prior. It just felt very defeating. And like in Hawaii I am a great driver. And then LA is just so stressful, difficult and people tight. Yeah. And then a boat like it just. The combo is fierce. But I was texting you and you ended up being like, I crashed my pink Bentley into my gate. And who doesn't do this? And you made me feel so. But you're hilarious by the way, because I asked you after, I was like, oh, did you do insurance or cash pay for the value of the car? You go, I just sold it.

[A]

I sold it. I was like, I don't want this car. Bad energy, get it away from me. I just, I guess like what? Mine was also like an older Bentley. It was like this pink one. It was kind like of but like it was like older. And I was like, just get rid. I did that with the Lamborghini. When my Lamborghini was stolen. I'm like, get rid of it. Someone else has driven it. I just, I'm like very get rid of it. Which is why I lose so much money, which is why I lease my Cars, which is why I also get, like, more. I wouldn't say more affordable, but, like, you know, I'll never buy cars. Oh, did you buy yours?

[B]

Yes.

[A]

Oh, yeah.

[B]

I was going to lease it, and things just happen, and that's like, a whole conversation that no one really cares about. But owning this car, like, I will definitely never, ever, ever own a car.

[A]

I guess there's, like, pros and cons. When I talk to, like, my glam people, they drive so much, and, like, you know, it's better if you own the car if you're driving a lot. I don't know. I don't drive that much. I always want new cars, so I'm like, it's better for me, at least, because I was losing so much money on cars. But I don't know. I think there's, like, pros and cons,

[B]

and I just think I'm learning all of this. Unfortunately, no one ever taught me anything about any of this, and I'm just doing my best and trying to learn. And my logic towards having such a nice car was like, that had I been driving for so long, I would have funneled through so many cars that it would have ended up kind of totaling that price.

[A]

And I wanted to, like, girl math.

[B]

I like it girl math for sure.

[A]

That's true, though.

[B]

And like, all the things. Hindsight, I should have gotten a smaller car. Just learning.

[A]

But it's a safe car. It's a nice car. But I think also just the pressure sometimes when people, like, know you're driving, like. Or when I know I'm driving something expensive or something like that, you're just like. You're more scared to, like, ruin it. But my. When I got my call it in my pink Rolls Royce, the day I got it, I. Oh, what did I do? Did I open the. The garage? Smashed. I opened. Did I open it? And it smashed on the garage and scratched it because it was, like, too high. And I know how high my garage was. And so I just, like, the day I get home, I went to go get something out of the back, and it's like. And it just, like, scraped the pink paint with the factory colon because I was like, it's such a nice car. I'm gonna keep it nice. I'm not gonna ruin it like my other cars.

[B]

That's how I feel.

[A]

I always ruin cars. I've always gotten to accidents, like you said, too, at home. My first one was my Bug in Hollywood in Highland. My Beetle Bug. And remember that one? That one, I hit a parked Car, like, literally I was just backing out of the parking garage, which was a tight parking garage, but I just packed out and I scraped my entire one and it had this, the biggest dent and it was like paint is scraped off the biggest debt. And it's my neighbor's car that I hit. And I just moved my third day in la. Like, I just moved from Illinois and I didn't know to say anything. I was too scared. So I just didn't say anything to that car. And then I get a knock on my apartment door. He's like, your paint is all over my car. Did you hit it?

[B]

And I was like, pink, mind you as well.

[A]

But it was like. And it was like, I was like, oh. He's like, you know it's illegal to do a hit and run here in California. And I was like, I just moved here. Like, I'm so sorry. I don't know what to do. Like, it was, it was so awful. So I think it's, it's, it's not just you, it's these also. LA is tight. These, these things are hard parking spaces

[B]

and why I thought I needed the mega size is beyond me. But yeah, at the same time, I also think that the second I get my license, I will revert back to being a passenger princess. Wait, why?

[A]

Why do you think that in LA

[B]

at least, like, and yes, like, obviously I can go to Starbucks around the corner. And it's about having the freedom if you want to and the safety of if I need to, I can. Those are. I prefer like face tuning a photo while Mokoa slays C. He's been driving his whole life. Like, I, I do love driving.

[A]

Like guys like, where I. We always like fight. I'm like, I'll drive. Like, I just, I always want to drive when it's like long distance.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

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[A]

Yeah, I mean that makes sense. It's also like you said, like a lot of girls just like to ride.

[B]

Yeah. And so there's so much to just think about. Like even like when you make left turns, I don't know if this is a California thing or if it's an everywhere thing. I'm. I'm learning. Like you're in an intersection, you're making a left turn the way you're supposed to yield and come out into the intersection until like the cars are done going so that you can turn the, like that like a game of crossy road. It's a hell skates. And then like just in la, obviously there's no, there's no lulls in traffic for you to then make the left turn. So you're waiting for the yellow light and then everyone's pissed. And then also people are like, how far do you go out to yield? I'm losing, I can't do this anymore.

[A]

Like, and people also like, they take the yellow light is like speed up. Like red light is almost like, okay, you're going to make it. It's like, no, it's a frickin red light. So you're just have to be so cautious. That does get everyone. My mom got, she's like, she was like professional driver. She drive bus driver. She was like bus driver. Her Whole life for the Olympics. Her schools, all stuff like that. And she. That's how she got in. Her big accident was the left turn. And it was like, I don't know, someone hit her, whatever. But it was like this huge accident shot when I was like 18.

[B]

She's not made for left turns.

[A]

No. Who the hell wants to do a left turn? It's like some people just take rights only.

[B]

And the way in Los Angeles, like on Ventura, right? So like not. Not on like a freeway on Ventura. People are just switching lanes every three seconds to go. And I sh. You not 0.1 second faster to their destination. It's like, why is your blinker on? Well, you were just in front of me. You were just in that lane. You're back in this lane just to get to the inevitable red light. I know it's always going to exist.

[A]

And then you see them there. Yeah, you see them at the red light. You're like, what the hell?

[B]

We're both at the light. Why did you just put me through Blinker Palooza? Like, I can't.

[A]

Well, everyone says that. And so many kids. I think there was statistic lately that, like, no one is. Like, when I was a kid, like, oh, my God, 16, my 16th birthday, I was at the DMV. Like, everyone's getting it, but people in LA just do not get their license. Like, people do not want their license. They don't want to drive. Because you really don't have to. I mean, you don't have to with like Uber and car services and stuff like that. I mean, we've been taking so many car services because mostly because of parking. We both love to drive, but it's also like going into Hollywood, going to an event. It's like, who the hell wants to park? A nice car will get. You know, people flag it and try to like, steal it or whatever.

[B]

And my little GTA chase. Like, I. Oh, yeah, you talked about.

[A]

Oh, you did talk. Oh, we did. Oh, we posted it today at the car chase. I was like, we talked about that. That on here. Did you talk about it on your brand safe?

[B]

I did, I did.

[A]

Okay. Yeah. That was a crazy story. That one was wild.

[B]

LA is, you know, it's fierce.

[A]

That wasn't crazy when I told Moses story, like right after we were finished filming. And I'm like, I've never ever heard ever of this happening. Like, you do have such a crazy life, which makes me think that, like, you were just meant to be a entertainer, a storyteller.

[B]

I loved you making it positive. You got there. She was fine. Thank you.

[A]

Thank you. Because I did a reason. There's a reason for the chaos. And I really think it's like, it's your job and it's like. And not chaos in a good way too. Because it's like, you do have crazy happen to you.

[B]

And a lot of times, like, you know, it's. It's made me be able to handle anything. And it is fun to tell a story and like, as long as everyone is safe and healthy and happy, like, that's all that truly matters. Even like, Meg, she was in weho the other night and she got her.

[A]

Our.

[B]

One of our phones, like, stolen at the Abbey. And we can't stop with the Abby.

[A]

Like, Abby is what Lisa Renner just did a tick tock about. It needs to be shut down. Did you see it? Like a recent one. This actually needs to be shut down because something else crazy happened at the.

[B]

She got roofied at the Abbey. She got roofied.

[A]

But I think someone else did. I think one of her daughter's friends or something like that. Why is this place, like, not shut down? She's been like, actively trying to get that place shut down. Like, I'm. It's cursed.

[B]

I want to call Lisa Rinna. And I would love to be a part of that with her because I'm so. Because. And this is my opinion and an alleged statement, but I believe that everything bad that happens there. This is my personal opinion, is an inside job. The phone, stealing, the roofing. Because I. The only time I ever got roofied there. Which is one too many, right?

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

But I ordered a White Claw behind the bar and I hadn't drank anything that day. And this was also at a time where I drank a lot. Like, I. One White Claw does not do anything. Did not do anything to Tina. Right. She needed a 24 pack.

[A]

Was that your alter ego?

[B]

They. Yes.

[A]

I love that.

[B]

And they cracked the White Claw behind the bar. I sat there with my friends with it in my hand. I never set drinks down. Like, even in my drinking days. I've always been that person where, like, I know that that is. You don't set your drink down as a woman or anyone. But.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Ever. Yeah. And they hand me the White Claw. I drink the one White Claw and I was immediately roofied. So, like, you knew.

[A]

Right way.

[B]

Yes. Like, and just like. And then obviously I stayed out because that's who I was at the time. But also, who you are on roofies is not who you are at all.

[A]

Like.

[B]

Yeah, but it Was a white claw handed to me from the bar. So it's like, how, how did that happen? Yeah, yeah. And then Meg just went back with her stolen phone, right? And she goes, can I please see the cameras? And she didn't say anything to them about anything other than her stolen phone. She goes, can I please see the cameras? And they go, you can only see the cameras if you were roofied.

[A]

Oh my God.

[B]

Why is that a system you've set up? Why is that a system you've set up? And why is that crazy? And like you have to call the police and say you were roofing. You can only see. But like, why? Like, how do you feel Comfor will still running an establishment. Then they take her out to the parking lot of the Abbey and it's a lot, an entire car space lot slew on the ground of phone cases. Cuz like, obviously when thieves steal your phone, they immediately take the case off so that it's like less detectable to be yours and less problems and whatever. Like, why do you guys have a phone case lot? Why do you don't clean these up? Why wasn't Meg to see it? Like, it's Madame Tussaud. Like it's a museum and you're supposed to like, like, oh, do you see your case here?

[A]

Like, was that why they wanted you to identify the case?

[B]

Yes, to see like, whatever. And her case wasn't there, but like. And then the location immediately now is in like some random country overseas.

[A]

Oh, you didn't even turn the location off and.

[B]

Yeah, and then overseas.

[A]

Damn. Someone took it and just booked a flight.

[B]

And so then Ty was telling me yesterday that because he had his phone stolen at the Abbey too. And like that happened to him. Same thing. It was overseas immediately. And then we have another friend, like just want to tie his friends. Like same thing where it's like, it's a ring. Like it's a ring of people who go and do that there. Like to make money. They make 200 bucks a phone. I've been like deep diving.

[A]

Wow. And it's like.

[B]

Which is really funny to me because I think that a lot of people, unfortunately, but it's like the truth. It's a bad situation. Would pay 200 to have their phone back. Right?

[A]

Do you think that's an option? Like, was that an option for you guys?

[B]

Like, like just the thief.

[A]

Of course, of course.

[B]

Saying like. But that's what they make when they go do this.

[A]

They should sell it back to the person. They should steal the phone and sell back because like you said, I would pay anything to have a phone back. Yeah.

[B]

But obviously they just want to get caught. So it's like they're doing it for 200 bucks a phone to, like everyone else.

[A]

Information.

[B]

Ty found out this information when he. He. Because Ty's like, he's funny.

[A]

He's.

[B]

He's very funny in the regard that like, he's had his phone stolen twice, but both times, like, he was putting up flyers downtown LA one time for a phone. Like, he will do. He will go the full mile. You know what I mean? So he was like on a deep dive for like, what happened.

[A]

It's the worst when you, like, lose your phone. Oh my gosh. That's so insane. That is such a crazy thing to be like, here's the phone cases. And like you said, why are they leaving back there?

[B]

Yeah, I just, I'm like, so can I say I hate the Abbey without getting sued?

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

I think that's my opinion that I hate the Abby. I look to Moses.

[A]

I'm like, can I say the lawyer over there? You do a docu series? Docuseries are so big right now. I feel like you do a docu series into the Abbey and just like interview everyone who's like, lost a phone. Got it.

[B]

It's just like me, Lisa Rinna, and like some gay who's had their phone stolen 34 times.

[A]

I feel like there's like 5,000 gays that would be a part of it. Just do like a quick one.

[B]

Would be like an interesting. Lisa Rinna really should spearhead like a Netflix style documentary about all the things that have happened there. Because it is just like, like it's very sinister if you think about it too. Like, it's a part of all the gay bars and everyone goes there to have like fun and camaraderie and feel safe.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And it's like the amount of I know easily 150 people who've been roofied.

[A]

That is crazy. That is wild. And it's such an establishment. Like, it's such a la, like, staple. And like everyone goes there, like you said.

[B]

And it's always funny too, because Meg was she on her tangent, she was like, I didn't even want to go there. And I was like, it's so funny too, because every time I've ever been gone to the Abbey, I don't. It's always like the last stop and someone else is so drunk that they want to go. And then you're like, I don't want to go here. Because everyone Gets roofied here and stolen from here, and then you're there, and then it happens to you, and it's like an la. Literal rite of passage.

[A]

Well, I guess that's the moral is maybe stay away from the abbey, in our opinion.

[B]

Yeah. Yes, that's in our opinion.

[A]

Yes. I know. We, unfortunately, has become a little bit unsafe, which used to be, like, so safe. Yeah. We've had a lot of, like, friends with hate crimes.

[B]

I know some of the most fun nights of my life with my gays feeling so safe. Safe were in WeHo. The most unsafe thing that was happening was me. Like, I was so drunk that I was, like, I was the one, like, causing the unsafety.

[A]

That was me, too. Just hitting on every gay guy I could find. They're probably. Get this witch out of here. Like, let me not be that dumb. But it was fun.

[B]

Yeah, it was.

[A]

And they were fun for a while, although. Because I always want to go back because I do think it'd be, like, such a key. Because it is like, you know, we love our gays, and it's just like, it's so fun to just walk down WeHo and feel like, yeah, people love you. Won't throw tomatoes at you.

[B]

Yes. And won't throw tomatoes at you. So. And just. Yeah. Like, not having to deal with. With all the things that come with straight men.

[A]

You know that part. Well, stay safe out there. Gays and girls with the abbey. I guess everyone's just. No one's safe.

[B]

It's just sad. I want to talk about this.

[A]

Happy birthday. I know. We talk about your birthday. Happy birthday. Well, you know. Okay.

[B]

You're so sweet.

[A]

Oh, my God. I really, really wanted to get you. I had, like, a dream present. I was asking Amari. I was asking your stylist. I was asking, oh, Justine into the mix. Yes. Because Amari's like, well, Justine has this. I was like. I called her. I was like, I want it. I'll tell you the whole, like, lore of it. But. And then I had Oscar in Vegas, and. But he was the wrong print. Because Oscar, a gay, but sometimes doesn't know the fashion. Like purses. I was like, it needs to be a certain print. And it was like. It was the print, but it was the wrong one.

[B]

You said Oscar.

[A]

Well, he was kind of browsing. And then he's like, wait, they have one left. And I was, like, so gagged. I'm like, get it. Put me on the phone. Like, whatever, at all costs. But it was the wrong print. Anyways, I'll tell You that. Because I really want to get you something. But then Amara gave me a backup option because I was like, I cannot find this freaking thing. I was calling, like, I said, like, Justine, she was, like, trying to find all these places. No way. Because there was one you wanted. I was like. So she was, like, trying, and I was really, really trying. I was like, why is this so hard? So Amari gave me a backup. I hope I got the right. Okay. One is from, like, me. Just, like, I liked it for you. One is, like, Amari's like, she likes these. But then I got them, and I'm like, I hope these are the right ones.

[B]

You are so funny.

[A]

I don't know if these are.

[B]

I just want to say you. There could literally be, like, pickles and peanut butter in this, and I would be eternally grateful for you and just who you are. And I love how we do each other's birthdays. We've always been so sweet. We both love gift giving, and it's so sweet.

[A]

Can I be honest? I'm a really bad gift car most of the time.

[B]

No, you're not.

[A]

I know I am. I'm embarrassed by gifts usually. Like, I. You know, I don't even give Moses, my sister. I don't give anyone gifts. They'll get me gifts. Like, little gifts. I. I'm actually bad at it.

[B]

So funny. Because I walk into my closet every day, and on one shelf, I have a beautiful, sparkling Bottega bag that is. I would. It's so nice. I can't believe someone would ever buy it for me.

[A]

You.

[B]

My little orange Miu Miu crochet bag that I take on every beach trip ever. And then at the top of my closet, untouchable only for special occasions, is my Adam Sandler Zohan bag.

[A]

And I got rid of that one. I poshed that one. My version of it. Yeah.

[B]

No way.

[A]

Yeah. I was like, I can't.

[B]

I will keep that bag until I die.

[A]

You have, like, Chanel's and Birkins. You can't have, like, a.

[B]

No, I will keep that bag until I die. It's actually funny. Even, like, in. In comparison to, like, the Birkins, I feel like I get more compliments on that bag, and then I get to look at whoever compliments me on the bag and. And go, Trisha Paytas gave it to me. And they're like, so. Yeah.

[A]

Do they know? Do they care?

[B]

Yes. Every time. Every time they care. Even if it's, like, an old man, though, who, like, loves Adam Sandler. I'll be like, yeah, Trisha Paytas got it for me.

[A]

That's so funny. He's like, I don't know her.

[B]

I'm like, look her up.

[A]

Can I tell you though, when we go to Malibu and stuff, everyone stopped me over at the Adam Sandler because we have the same one. That was. The whole thing is like, I had two of those purses. So I was like, oh, my God, you have to take it. Because I have two of those purses. And literally same. Like, everyone would compliment that bag. Like, I love this bag so much.

[B]

And I'm like, no, it's the sickest bag in the world.

[A]

I love it. So my poshmark, if you want one, it's there. I gotta tell my mom to up the price. Cause she's like, you gotta let me know when you wear something because it ups the value.

[B]

She is so funny. That is so funny.

[A]

She's always like, oh, okay.

[B]

I love it and I love you. And I also will say this birthday, it was a very strange birthday of my life. Honestly, Amari, actually the other day, I think he was like, I think this was your, like, saddest birthday that I've ever seen you have. Which, I mean. And she's dragging it, but the tooth, it put a wrench in my mental state and like, just, you know, my. But what I will say is, even though I was so sad and obviously when you're laying in bed like that too, just in pain and kind of, you do a lot of reflecting about your life. And, you know, I was reflecting about a. What I want this next year to look like. And just the end of your twenties are also very interesting because I feel like every year you've grown like five years to like even just who I was at 27 to who I am now. And. And there's uncomfortability in that as well, you know, like anxiety almost in like, I don't know who I am. And I'm fully. And I'm figuring this out and who I was a year ago is so different from who I am now. And then also sober birthdays. And like, this is only my second sober birthday.

[A]

Really. Wow.

[B]

Because I would always drink on my birthday and then try to go back to sobriety. And then eventually I gave that up and decided I wanted a sober life, obviously.

[A]

Wow, that's amazing.

[B]

It's. And it's great because, you know, alcoholism, me would be like, you can't be sober on your birthday. That's no fun.

[A]

You give yourself a day drunk for

[B]

three months after and be like, nope, you're just an alcoholic, you have to go sober. But yeah, just figuring out whatever. It was a lot. But the one thing that made it so special was the people in my life. And just. Even your text and just like just everyone just that I love so much was the thing that was so prevalent to me because it was like when everything else is stripped away mental state wise. I'm so grateful for this. Like family and just the friends I've cultivated and like just how amazing they are for trying to make me feel as special as possible on my day. So this means so much more than just a gift. It's like loving me and wanting me to feel special. So thank you.

[A]

Yeah, of course, of course. I hope, I hope you like it this first one. That's why I'm saying this might be Amari's. Like he gave me the name but not a picture. So when I went to go google the name, I'm like, you're. I don't know if these are you. That's what. I'm very nervous from you.

[B]

Like I love anything from you.

[A]

Okay.

[B]

I also open presents like a six year old.

[A]

So I also wrap, I wrap these myself. By the way. I never wrapped present in my life. So I wrapped him for you and I wrapped. I was gonna have Moses do it but I was like, let me wrap him down here. Let me not be so proud of you. Yeah, I've never wrapped a gift so it does look also like a 6 year old.

[B]

You did good.

[A]

And some bluey leftovers.

[B]

The bluey is sending me.

[A]

That was the Father's day. This was for you. This is the birthday because this was. I was just gonna get this. I hope these are like something cute. Like I'm so nervous.

[B]

I'm like, ooh, Margiela, do you know?

[A]

I don't know. I didn't know this brand. I didn't know the style. I knew nothing. I was like, are you sure these are something okay.

[B]

I love the people in my life so much like you even just willing like you just going to swipe for some you don't even know about. Cuz Amari said, I love it. It's so sweet.

[A]

And I shout out to Amari because I like if I go to Darien for Oscar, if I go to anything, they're like, no, you don't have to do anything. No, I'm so. I literally, I always tell people, you should have said that. No, no, no. I appreciate cuz I said to him, I'm like Whatever it is. Like, whatever it is. Like, I will get. If she wants another Rolls Royce. Like, I will get, like, whatever it is. Like, like, don't. Whatever. So I literally was. And I appreciate him because so many people literally are like, no, no, I'm

[B]

gonna go beat him. No, no.

[A]

But then. No, but then Daniel will be like, oh, he loves this desk, for one. I'm like, what else? Like, another shelf. Like, what else do you need? Because, like, people are very polite. And I'm like, no, no, like, especially the people. I have, like, four people in my life. So I'm like, okay, the four people in my life. I can. You know, I love being one of the four. So I hope this is so. It's the right pattern, right?

[B]

Oh, my God, you are so.

[A]

And. And the size. I had to get your size.

[B]

My big ass size.

[A]

I did ask Justine's size. I was like, okay, what's the size? I'm gonna be sick.

[B]

I'm gonna be sick.

[A]

Is this the right one?

[B]

Yes, I'm gonna be. Are you sure? I'm going to be sick. I'm going to be sick. I love you so much. And obviously you're just listening to Amari on some, like, random crazy thing that you don't know about. I'm. The face is off camera. Like, what the is wrong with her? No, I'm gonna be sick.

[A]

Are you sure? I'm.

[B]

You know what's actually really, really, really funny, too. And this is gonna make me sound like a toddler brat, but I was like, wow. No one in my life caught me. The Mason Margiela polka dot tabby flat.

[A]

Maybe they knew because I told them I was gonna get. Maybe he knew. Cause it was like, before Vegas. Cause I wanted to get you something in Vegas. So it was like, before Vegas. And can I say it was completely sold out except for your size. Like, it literally was like, your size. Exactly. Because I said to Justine, I'm like, are you sure she's not this size? And that was exactly. And that was it. So I was like, oh, my God. I know, I know.

[B]

It's such a me thing to want so bad. I know. Like, I've lost the plot sometimes.

[A]

This is the one.

[B]

This is the Mason Margiela tabby flat in polka dot. They make in. They make an opaque version and they make a clear version. It's funny. A lot of people have been reaching out to me, saying, I have the clear version. Do you want it? I don't want the clear version.

[A]

Are you sure? I have receipts. I Have all of it. Okay. Are you sure? You totally can.

[B]

I'm gonna be sick.

[A]

Okay. These are crazy shoes.

[B]

But no. They are so crazy. They are. But as you can tell, I'm in my colorful area.

[A]

Yeah. I do love the color that you've been doing. I hope it fits. I think this is the 10 perfectly.

[B]

I am the 10.

[A]

Yay. Are you sure? Maybe it'll stretch it. Okay.

[B]

Yes. Okay.

[A]

You kinda look cute in em.

[B]

I'm sick.

[A]

So is the big toe here. And these are the other toes. Oh, my God. That is such a funny shoe. The shape, the. I'm like, I hope this is the right one. Literally.

[B]

I'm hot. My ears are hot. I'm like, oh, my God. I wanted them so bad. They are also so hard to find. And you're so sweet.

[A]

Okay, good.

[B]

No. You have no idea how much I love these.

[A]

Okay, good.

[B]

My little polka dot hoof

[A]

was giving clown, but I was like, you know what? If you want.

[B]

This is actually a really funny thing. I like, have no context about.

[A]

Right.

[B]

Because you're like, what do you mean? She wants a polka dot hoof flat and I want. I want them so I have them.

[A]

I was so confused. I was like, okay. And then he didn't send me a picture and it was like, during Vegas and we're flying there. Everything was just like, yeah, I gotta get these because they're the last one ones. So I was like, I have to get them. But thank you so much to Brooklyn Bedding for sponsoring this episode of Not Loveline. We're about to get that set upgrade, everybody. We are getting a bed. As you all know, Ms. Tana Marie Mojo over here has that scoliosis and it's only getting worse by these humpty Dumpty chairs. It.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

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[B]

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[A]

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[B]

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[A]

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[A]

That's their tagline. You're good with the taglines today.

[B]

You're so sweet. That is really funny too because I can just imagine you being like, are you sure? I see why you had your like whole.

[A]

Cuz I've never seen you wear something like that. I was like, okay, period.

[B]

I'm literally a sick. Thank you so much. Especially just for, for like, you know what I mean? Like I, I can imagine you swiping for this and being like, what the am I swiping for? And oh my God, it was so random.

[A]

But I, and I never heard of the brand. I never heard of anything. But I was like, all right, period.

[B]

You should honestly obviously like, well, I don't know if you actually want to be hooved up, it's very niche.

[A]

But why the hoof?

[B]

It's their signature. And then a lot of brands, like even Steve Madden remade it like, it became. Because flats are very in right now. So the hoofs has become a little more. And it's very. You either like the hoof or you're

[A]

like, it's more comfy or just a style. It's just an aesthetic.

[B]

It's kind of just a style. I do kind of like having my big toe, like, separated.

[A]

You do? Okay.

[B]

It's kind of nice, but, like, I just. Oh, my God, I love them so much. And they're so comfortable. You can, like, walk a mile in these.

[A]

Wait, really? Because I was like, oh, I don't know if those are gonna be comfy.

[B]

No. And like, with a jean and, like, a little white tank, I'm gonna be so fun. I love them and I love you and thank you so much. It's so thoughtful and just so sweet to me. Again, I keep repeating myself with the idea of you being a cool. What the. But, like, I'm gonna swipe, because I think she would.

[A]

And I love, and I love. I love when people just tell me exactly what they want. Like, my sister, she. I think I got her Four Seasons betting one year. I'm like, just tell me what you wanted to back. And she wanted to dice for Christmas. I'm like, just tell me because. And same thing with Moses. It's like, I'm just so tired of giving gifts that people, like, don't want or, like, will not use. Like, give me what you want.

[B]

Same. I'm a big. Like, I. Tell me what you want or I'm gonna do something insane and then we won't know. And, like, it's so real. Oh, my God.

[A]

This one's more like, I just.

[B]

I can't believe you did more than this.

[A]

Well, this one I had. This one we're matching. But, you know, I just. That's why I was like, oh, wait, I gotta get. I think I was on a shoe kit.

[B]

Louie paper. I love you.

[A]

We had some leftover I was gonna do because that one came as, like, an afterthought.

[B]

No, I did wrapped it myself.

[A]

I felt very proud. I was like, wow, I should be filming this. I've never wrapped anything. Yes. Okay. I hope you like these. You influenced me. Okay. You'll see. You, like, influenced me. And then I was like, on a kick of these now, like, I'm obsessed with these shoes now.

[B]

You'll See? You'll see. You'll see. Oh, no. We might have a problem.

[A]

Wait, do you have the same ones?

[B]

I think I might. Wait, no, do you.

[A]

I have the receipt.

[B]

Wait, but do you want to know something really funny?

[A]

Do the same. If we're doing.

[B]

If we're. If we're being funny right now you have these. You got these.

[A]

No way. Oh, no.

[B]

But can I tell you something? I just bought myself these, but I bought them a size too big. So now I'm returning mine and keeping yours.

[A]

Are they the right size? Let me see.

[B]

Are they a 40?

[A]

Yeah, I think they're a 40.

[B]

And I bought a 41 and I'm returning my 41. So you.

[A]

I got actually.

[B]

How funny.

[A]

Oh my God, that is so funny.

[B]

No, I literally told Meg two days ago. I go, I love these shoes so much. I just got them and like I got them too big and I have to return them. So now like you.

[A]

Okay, good. Because I don't keep receipts. No, I don't have receipts.

[B]

We're quite literally so connected. Like how funny that is. How funny.

[A]

Is it funny that I just went

[B]

to get these and got them in the wrong size and then you went and got them for me and got them for me in the right size. And I love the shape.

[A]

I have them too. So I was like, oh my God, we're gonna be matching with between leopard, not Loveline.

[B]

Yes. And I love that you are in a wedge era.

[A]

Yes. Because, well, I do love the ones you got me. Even though. Oh yeah, those are wedges and they

[B]

fit me and I can wear them.

[A]

Yay. Okay, good. I love the Gucci ones. You got me.

[B]

Strange.

[A]

That is crazy.

[B]

No, like, that's like we are so. This is such a testament to you and I being so psychically connected.

[A]

That is crazy. That is wild.

[B]

I just bought these and then bought the wrong size and then you bought me the right size. Like that. Think about how, like there's so many shoes in the world.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Like there's so many shoes on the

[A]

leopard wedge sandal and I love them.

[B]

Oh, good.

[A]

Okay. I'm so glad.

[B]

I literally saw these in the store and I was like, I think they made. It's funny, I actually said you. I was like, I. Cuz I didn't know if you liked wedges, but in

[A]

the store I was like, love wedges.

[B]

Yes. Cuz they're comfier.

[A]

It's the only letters coming back. Cuz like wedges were big when I was like 18. And then they're like Ew, wedges are the worst. And like I'm so happy they're coming back cuz they're so much more comfortable.

[B]

You're my soulmate.

[A]

I love weds.

[B]

Like you're. We're crashing cars into gates and we're falling in love with the same shoes at the same time.

[A]

And I got the black Capri because of you off Amazon. Yeah, that would look so cute.

[B]

We should fully match. Next episode Thursday. Oh my God.

[A]

Black Capri, leopard sandals. Yes. I'm down.

[B]

So cute.

[A]

Oh my God, I love that.

[B]

I love you.

[A]

I love you too.

[B]

Like no, you're the sweetest from a while ago.

[A]

Well, the whole story. What I wanted to get you was the Dalmatian bag. And Amari. Cuz I was like. And Mari told me I was like, no. And that's what I wanted from the beginning. Because I was like, I asked what style first? Before I even asked him what gift. I was like, what style this bag he want? And he's. I sent him pictures, like probably this one. So then I asked you.

[B]

We did not.

[A]

I was like, which one do you want? And then I was like, okay. So then I was like looking, the one was in Dubai. But then you told me like Justine had found one. So I was like, justine, I need this bag. And she's like, oh my God, that one sold. Let me find you another one. And then they started up quoting, so it was like the 10k. Then it was like 20k. And I was like, at that point you can get a Birkin. And I was like, yeah, cuz someone

[B]

quoted you 20 for that bag.

[A]

Justine was trying to find another one. And it was like 20k or something. Because I was like, oh, like okay. It was just going up and up.

[B]

You didn't do that.

[A]

No, cuz I really, really want to get it. I. I loved it too. Honestly, I loved that bag. And I was like, no, no, we have have to find this bag. And then I became obsessed. And well, those are like nothing compared to the Dalmatians.

[B]

I love them. Can I say this? I love this 10 times more than the Dalmatian.

[A]

Wait, no, no.

[B]

I wanted these.

[A]

I'm still gonna find you the Dalmatian because I love it too. Well then Oscar was at the Crystals and he's like, they have the Dalmatian bag. And I didn't even ask him to look for. He's like, they have the doll. Because we talked about on just Trish. We talked about Michaela Guerrero getting it as Tana loves it. So now I Feel like, I love this bag. Like, I need to get this bag. Because at first, when we first looked at it, remember on the podcast, I was literally like, that's like the ugliest bag I've ever seen. When I didn't know you wanted. Then I saw Michaela. Then I saw you. I. And I was like, I think I want this bag. And I was like, I want this bag. So then when we. Whatever. But then I was your birthday, and I was like, no, let me get this bag for her. Like, whatever, if there's only one left. And he's like, there's one Dalmatian bag.

[B]

I was like, no.

[A]

I was like, oh my God. Like, literally buy it, like, whatever it is. But that's not called Dalmatian. That one. This. There was. There's another Dalmatian print in Chanel that's like gray. And he sent it to me and

[B]

I was like, wait, I want to see.

[A]

It was so. It was actually like, I'm so happy

[B]

you didn't like, do be insane.

[A]

I wanted to be insane, but I was like, God, that really is like, like a bargain. Like, I could feel like a car,

[B]

which I now need. Mine's in the shop.

[A]

Like, no, wait, what are you driving? Are you not driving the.

[B]

I have my convertible, so.

[A]

Okay, how's that does it? And you can drive it on the freeway.

[B]

It's giving golf cart. It's giving golf cart. And like, there are bugs in my teeth, but like, I'm vibing.

[A]

I love golf cart. This is the one he sent me. I was like, that is not the Dalmatian that we're talking about.

[B]

Yeah, and this is like, like 101

[A]

Dalmatians and very like, I.

[B]

You know what? That bag, the. The shape of that bag to me is a bean. It's is like grandmother. Yeah, like I'm. I'm.

[A]

I'm a. I would have a little candy in there. No, it was not cute. I was like, never. I don't want that.

[B]

Yeah, you made the right. You made beyond the right.

[A]

Yeah, but I really. I'm still gonna be on lookout so one day for Christmas. You better still have that Dalmatian bag, cuz I'm still on lookout for it. But 20k for Chanel is crazy. I was like, you guys, no, cuz

[B]

that's also the resale. Like that's those people who go in and buy it for the market price and then they're making a bunch of money. I'm like, I tried it.

[A]

The day after you told me she Got one for you at the price you told me, and I was like, I'm just gonna do it.

[B]

It is a burger working. And, like, not. It's such a. Like, out of. I'll shut up. But, like, right. There's a certain price point where, like, the second you buy that dalmatian bag, especially me with my lash glue and buffalo sauce, that. Depreciating.

[A]

Yeah. Yeah.

[B]

Like, Whereas, like, if you're spending that, you want it to be on something that appreciates. So I'm so glad you did.

[A]

And you're such a Birkin girl. I know we were saying earlier that you love, like, a Chanel, but I'm like, you're such a Birkin girl.

[B]

Honestly, I'm. I'm done now because I got Isabella one, and that was fun.

[A]

I love that. I know. I was like, you're being a Kayla Aguero. Everyone. She's, like, taking her to Chanel. Everyone taking Birkins. I do love that. I know. I do love it, because I think purse girls get it. You're either a purse girl, like, or you're not. It's like a collector seeing so many of my purses. I'll tell you. Like, I buy so many purses, and they're literally just, like, on display. Like, I don't even wear them. That's why even this one, I was like, I should probably start wearing these bags. I have, like, five pink Chanels that I never wear, but they're just so beautiful, and I love looking at them. They're like art pieces to me.

[B]

They are like, it's 100. Even the other day, when I had to evacuate, that was. I was just ripping purses off Chanel, like, hucking them, literally, because I was like, these are my assets in my collection. Yeah, My thing. And, you know, now I'm in my. I'm not trying to buy anymore anything. I'm in my, you know, minimalist de hoarding era.

[A]

I do love. Yeah, I did. But sometimes. Sometimes a cute shoe. You need a cute shoe. I'm the same way. I do love saving money.

[B]

I actually can't get over the fact that I bought these and they were the wrong size, and then you bought them for me in the right size as well. Like, that's just, like, so, like, connected. And we're matching.

[A]

I know. I can't wait to match on. On Thursday. We'll wear them.

[B]

Yes. They're so. And they're so comfy, and they're so cute.

[A]

Might be the last day we have these chairs, too.

[B]

Wait you know what I'm realizing actually, too, is I think mine are tight, bigger, and these are. Do they, like, maybe now I actually just have both. I don't know.

[A]

Do you have tiger print one?

[B]

I'm losing my mind. I don't know anymore.

[A]

I do love all the mismatched leopard. That's my favorite thing, is having different leopard fabrics. I think we're gonna. Our bed will still be the headboard of, like, these, but we'll have, like, a bed. And we're so sponsored by a bed,

[B]

so I'm so excited.

[A]

And we told them, too. The sponsor came, and I was like, that we just need, like, an honest review from you and Tana. And I was like, well, actually, that bed will be our set, actually, so we'll take it. Thank you.

[B]

No. And it's like, the perfect ad read. It's like I'm laying on it right now, and I'm obsessed. I'm so excited for it.

[A]

This for your bed.

[B]

I literally had a dream about our bed the other night, and I brought Buster and he cuddled.

[A]

Oh, that's right. Yeah. Buster Keen.

[B]

Yes. She goes, is Buster's name Buster Keaton? And I go, no. But now that's his new nickname forever. It's Buster Brown.

[A]

Nickname is.

[B]

Yes.

[A]

It's longer than the actual name.

[B]

Well, yes, but I love giving a silly nickname. So I'm gonna be like, I'm going to Auntie Trisha's Buster Keaton. Like, that's all. Use it.

[A]

You should come over more often.

[B]

He's honestly becoming so good. He's finally getting to the point where I can bring him here and not be ashamed. Ashamed. Pissing on the floor or something. Like, he's actually, like. He's training is really good. He's doing really good. We've been training him so much, and he's just so sweet. And he's like a little lap dog. Like, even in brand safes now. Every time I shoot a brand safe now, he comes and he sits for the whole podcast. I'm like, you. You're literally like a camera. Like, you know what you're doing.

[A]

That's so cute. So he's, like, loving it. He's loving all of it. His life.

[B]

Yes. So sweet.

[A]

He's in the bed with you at night?

[B]

Yes, Every night. He cuddles with us. He loves the beach. We've been taking to the beach more. And he, like, gets manic on the beach. He wants to, like, run a million miles. So it's making me run. It's kind of, like, you with the kids. How, like, you were like, I want to run. I'm like, I have to run.

[A]

We literally do it at the beach. We have one of those Volkswagen little trolleys, and I, like, I run with them. So I'm. Because we're going to do a marathon. We're doing. We're doing half marathon. What are we doing? We're doing a half marathon.

[B]

What?

[A]

And so we've been, like, training because. What is that, like, 13 miles or something like that? So we've been, like, training for it. So now, like, take the kids at the beach. And I'm like, running. I'm like, literally like a horse. Like, it's, like, on me, and I'm just, like, running with them. Like, like. You want do a marathon?

[B]

I can't say no.

[A]

How many miles have you done? Do you know? Do you know how many you can do in, like, a.

[B]

In my. At my absolute most fit, it was like, three.

[A]

Oh, okay, great. That's good. You can build up.

[B]

It's Trisha.

[A]

If you're at the beach running with your doctor, you should get a Fitbit. So you see how, like, you're probably running more than you think. You probably are doing more miles than you think.

[B]

This is so funny.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Because literally yesterday, Moa's friends was talking about an iron man, and then he asked me, he was like, tana, would you ever do an iron man? And I literally go, no, but I would do a marathon if, like, the right thing asked me. This is what I mean with the retrograde. Like, I literally said that yesterday I would do. I was like, I would do a marathon if the right situation came about. And then I'm. You can do it your house today, and you do it. You're looking at me saying, do you want to do a marathon?

[A]

Oh, my God, you should do it. That'd be so much fun. Oh, my God, it is so strange.

[B]

It's down to anything that's set out loud. I will absolutely do it.

[A]

Crazy, because you just said you were right running on the beach, which is, like, very hard. And if you're running around with your dog, like, just. You're probably doing more miles than you even think. You're probably doing even more than three miles. Like, you're lying.

[B]

I have to do it now. Oh, my God.

[A]

Yeah. That'd be so much fun. And, Jimmy, you're invited to. I haven't told you yet. I tell Oscar. She's like, do you want to do a marathon? Like, I don't know. I'm just trying to get everyone to do a marathon so it'd be really.

[B]

And that's so like, inspiring and just like motivational. Like, I really. That was a big wake up call for me across my wisdom teeth as well. Like, I was just, I couldn't like, walk. Like I was in so much pain and just all the medicines and stuff. Like, Nicole was having to walk me to the bathroom and back and like, I couldn't talk. I couldn't do anything for myself. And it made me really realize, like, just the immense gratitude that I have for walking and talking and eating and chewing and all of these things. And I should. I take it for granted I do not do anything to like, maintain my health. And like, you know, I bat like my knees hurt. It's like, maybe you should be doing like sponges, like, you know, and just same.

[A]

I feel like you have like one body because I was just like, whatever. And I think when you're like young, you get away with whatever. You don't have to size.

[B]

You need that food.

[A]

But the older you get and obviously you're still very like young.

[B]

But a lot of it's caught up to me. Like I treated my body horribly for 28 years, you know.

[A]

No, same, same. It was the same. And I finally was just like, yeah, I couldn't even make it up the stairs. I couldn't carry my kids. Like, I just hurt to like, sit. Like, I was just like, I'm in pain sitting. And I was like, this is. Yeah.

[B]

And you feel so much better now, huh?

[A]

So much better. Obviously the GLP one has reduced my inflammation, but now I'm able to like, do Pilates and running and everything.

[B]

Like, that's another one I'm turning to make right now. Meg, you. I want to start going to Pilates with her. I'm me inviting myself to your.

[A]

You should. Maya always ask about you. My instructor, she like always loves to be the girl you met at Gucci, works there. Like, you know, they, they always are. Like, you should bring Tana because we can do doubles together. Like it's a, it's. It's like a private session, which I like because I don't like to be like with other people because I just get like so self conscious. But it's like a private session. But like you, she'll do double so she can do us both at the same time.

[B]

And I want to start with the evening ones that she does. Like the later or afternoon ones.

[A]

They're. Yeah, 4:30. But I can't even ask if there's like a 5:30.

[B]

No, that's fine. I know I won't make like a 11aM or higher. Mine's usually 9 until I'm more fit, until I'm more.

[A]

Like once a week is great. And it reduces, like, inflammation, helps your back pain. This is not like the one we went to where it's like cardio. It's like, literally, you're, like, laying there and everything is core strength. I feel so, like, strong like it is. It's such a crazy thing.

[B]

And that's like, that. Yes. So much of my scoliosis, I think would even just be better if my core strength was better for my posture. And, like, thousand. What this. She's dragging it. What I've done, what I've done to my jaw, what this has done to my jaw, I've tmd J. So then that affects my neck, and that's the way the whole, like, body works, you know. So then that affects my spine. So then, like, that effect. My scoliosis is just so much worse right now because of the jaw. And it's like, I just want to be doing all the things.

[A]

And if you tell her that stuff, like, I threw out my back. Like, I don't know, like, two months ago, I threw it out, like, just like, lifting my kid. And I was like, oh, my God, my back was in so much money. I'm like, I shouldn't even go to Pilates. But if you want to come, like, it might help. And honestly, like, after two sessions, I could, like, walk again. Like, I threw my back so much that I couldn't even even, like, sit up. Like, you were there when it happened. I literally was, like, trying to grab Elvis and I couldn't. I thought I was, like, paralyzed. I was like, holy. And so I went to. I went to the Pilates and she, like, literally. So if you tell her, like, something's wrong or not right or whatever, she can, like, fix it. It's like, because she's. She's going to school for, like, muscles and all this. I don't know. Whatever. What do you ever go to school for? But she's like, in her graduate.

[B]

No, but I love that. And I need. Even my chiropractor always is like, if you were just doing rowing motions more, you'd be in less, like, extreme neck pain. And then I'll, like, be at my house, like, trying to run. But it's like an instructor doctor.

[A]

That's.

[B]

Yeah, it's so important, just your physical health and maintaining it. And that's a big like 28 lesson for me.

[A]

Yeah, that's my 38. It's very much like I have a whole quality of life again where I'm just like standing and like, yes. Laughing and running and yes.

[B]

I hate feeling weak. I hate feeling out of breath. I hate like, I shouldn't feel. It's not about how you look even.

[A]

No, no, no.

[B]

Like it's. It's literally about like I want to be stronger. So I'm excited to do that. Oh my God.

[A]

Do it.

[B]

Why?

[A]

I'm every. And I never make miss. Although this week she's not there, so I'm missing. But like everyone's on. Everyone's goes on vacation on the summer. Like everyone's gone. I was just like, damn. Which I guess is why it's like slow. Which again, I appreciate.

[B]

But yeah, it's gonna be great.

[A]

It's been. It's been great. And I love your Cheesecake Factory meals.

[B]

Oh my God, my Cheesecake Factory nails.

[A]

This is crazy that it actually is the menu.

[B]

It looks just like the menu. I know so well. So I saw a striped photo on Pinterest. I was like, let me get it. And then I kind of just. We were like freestyling the colors a little bit. And then I looked down and I'm like, oh my God, I have the Cheesecake Factory menu on my nails. And. And like it's kind of become this whole bit. Cuz I love stripes right now anyhow. Like, I keep buying striped shoes and stripe. Like my whole house is the Cheesecake Factory.

[A]

Like, you love this colorful era you're in. I mean even this, like, I would

[B]

just normally would never. I don't know if it's like being healed ex just like, yeah, you're just. I love. Yeah. Always an all black girly. And like, I don't resonate with that as much anymore. Sometimes you want to be in all black and stuff, but I used to be all black in like a sad way. And like today anyway, especially just because I've been at home and going to a lot of doctor's appointments and all these things right now, like, I just have been wearing like sweats and like just big T shirts. And I was like, I'm gonna come to Trisha's all color. No, I love how I feel when I'm here.

[A]

I literally thought you were like doing like a press run before this. And it looks so cute on your foot too. I was like, oh my God, I love it so much.

[B]

I love you so much.

[A]

You need to go To Cheesecake Factory. Before that. You change nails.

[B]

Don't get a little. Oh, my gosh, we should go.

[A]

Yeah, a little. Okay.

[B]

I would love to. I want a Buffalo Blast. That's the thing. I'm not really. Everyone's like, cheesecake Factory nails. And I'm like, you know what? I love Cheesecake Factory. So I'm just. And I hate getting my nails done, so I'm not switching anything first.

[A]

I love Cheesecake Factory. I think this is just slay. Like, I love their menu. I love their menu items.

[B]

Yeah. Like, at least my. I. I love Outback and all. I really do. But, like, if my nails were giving Outback Steakhouse, I like bloom an onion. I'd probably have to change them.

[A]

Like, I'll brow with, like, long words on it.

[B]

Tell me, what else do we have to talk about?

[A]

I think that's. I mean, that's pretty much. Like I said, it's been kind of. I've been signing books. I sign books for like three hours a day. And it's like, oh, my God. I feel like I. I think I've, like, so many.

[B]

Do you have them all here? Like, are you doing it in the house?

[A]

Yes, it's actually right behind this wall. I had to clear this out so I could start signing. That's why I paused the headshots. Like, I was doing a headshot here, my sister's helping with, and had to pause them because I was like, I'm gonna be signing for the rest of my life these books. Which is great because that means, like, the people, like, pre order the book and stuff like that. But it's also just.

[B]

So these are all like, pre orders. That's so cool for you to physically see, like, how many people want it.

[A]

And it's like, it's me doing it. I've been, like, filming myself because I'm like, I don't ever anyone think that it's just been like a stamp, you know? Like, this is like, literally me sitting there for three hours a day until my arm feels.

[B]

Book tours are also so fun. Like. Like, I feel like. Have you ever done a book tour?

[A]

No. Have you?

[B]

No.

[A]

Wait, how do you know about them? I don't know anything about them.

[B]

I just like, you see people on books or like Jeanette McCurdy or like, whenever. I love memoirs too, so they're like, that's my favorite thing to read. So I feel like I always notice when the memoir that I'm reading, like, if I. If the person is on a book tour, I've never been to one either.

[A]

Like, I've never gotten a book because, you know, you have to have. You have someone like moderate with you and you should come.

[B]

Moderate. I will moderate the out of your book tour. I would love to.

[A]

Yeah, I'm really excited for it.

[B]

It's. I just think it's so fun. Like you're sitting at the table and you're talking about your writing and like,

[A]

have you been to a book signing?

[B]

No. Never.

[A]

Oh, I used to do them all the time as a kid. So I have like pictures of me going to Pamela Anderson's for her Star and Starstruck. I would go. And she was just so like, she is just like so cute and just like, she's like, thank you. And you're just like. And you like lean over the table like this. I want to be one where I can like stand up because I think leaning over the table at book signings is so awkward when literally like, if you're there and you're like signing and I'm like, oh my gosh, thank you so much for my book. And it's like, let's take a picture. And you're like, yeah. And they don't ever stand up and maybe it's for time, but I swear to God, I'm not going to let them do that to me because I'm like, I. All my. I met Michael Madsen, I met Pamela Anderson. I met all these people and it's just like me like lounging back while they're like tiny and little blind. Oh, I would look tiny. So maybe I was a behind it.

[B]

Was it Pamela wrote a book like before her most recent one.

[A]

Yeah, she did one called Star and Starstruck and it was about girl named Star who moved to Hollywood and was like at the Playboy Mansion. And like it was basically her life and met Tommy Lee. But it, she like changed the names of everybody. But it's like her life story. She gets like discovered at a baseball game. It's super sexual. So I read it when I was like a teenager and I remember and she's like naked on the COVID and she just has like stars. And then she did Starstruck where she's like naked on a motorcycle.

[B]

I love her. I'm always obsessed with her, but I think I just go like, I love her. I just like, right? Even I ordered a big ass print of her on Tick Tock Shop and it's upset. You did this to me. I know, I know.

[A]

Moses just opened Tik Tok shop. Something he's like, what's this camo? And it was so ugly. I was like, I don't know. It's probably Tik Tok Shop. Like, I probably thought it looked so cute on Tik Tok Shop and I got it.

[B]

You. You changed me. I was not. I was avoiding it at all costs. And then obviously, whenever you do anything,

[A]

I start doing it.

[B]

No. And now I'm a Tik Tok Shop girl. Unfortunately, I just can't stop buying things.

[A]

This is Tik Tok Shop. Like, I am. I'm like, always. I don't even think it's real bb. I feel like it's a BB knockoff or something.

[B]

You should start sending me links. Like, send me the link to that.

[A]

I usually link it in my store because I'm like, I'm gonna do a Tick Tock on it. And I never end up doing. Sometimes I do a TikToks on it, but I'm always like, I will. I usually, like, link them so I don't forget, but I will also use the link.

[B]

It's so cute. I want.

[A]

I make no money on TikTok Shop. Everyone's like, I make 30,000amonth. I literally make. I'm not getting like $10. And people are buying the stuff that I sell. So I'm just like, it's such a.

[B]

It's such an interesting game. I actually have been. Because obviously, with me, like, actually buying stuff from it and using it and liking it. Like, just certain things I've discovered in the past few months where I like, absolutely love this product or this thing. And I did get a on Tick Tock Shop and I like to talk about my things and whatever. So I started to really, like, research the game of, like, you know, people make a lot of money on it.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

But the people who make a lot of money on it are the people who. That's their whole account. You know what I mean? Like, where it's like, every video is Tick Tock Shop. And then you have to be like. Because some items have super high commission and some like. Yeah, it's like, it's.

[A]

I see. So that makes sense. Like, what? Because some of mine is like a 30 cents for a commission or something.

[B]

Yeah. A lot of times, like, it's funny, like, I did this I eyeliner stamp pen and I love it. Like, I've been using it. It like stamps your wing liner.

[A]

I've seen that. Yeah.

[B]

And I ordered that and I like, made a TikTok about it. And I was getting so many comments like, de Influenced. Your. Your wing looks like de influenced. Which I like is. And they're like, oh, my God, the bills must be low. And like, whatever.

[A]

And I was like, that is weird. That.

[B]

But then I made a lot of money on that video. And then I was like, wait, like, I love this. And I made money. Like, why wouldn't I do them?

[A]

So funny. Because I'm the same way. I make no money. But I'm like, I'm gonna link it. Cause that's kind of fun. Like, I just like, like love going on TikTok and someone has that link there. I'm like, I'm buying it because I buy so much off Tick Tock shop. I don't shop anywhere else. And I'm just like, I'm just gonna do it because I think it's kind of fun and kind of.

[B]

I know. I, I like, I, I do. As long as you're being authentic, like, if it's actually something you're wearing and something that you like, like, why not like it?

[A]

People know if you're. If I wear something ugly, you're gonna be like, you don't wear that. But if it's like something cute. I got so many compliments on this day in there. I'm like, oh, it's literally a Tick Tock shop.

[B]

I don't.

[A]

It could be a knockoff of bb. I don't think they make stuff like this, but I'm like, it's so cute though.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

And I want feel, multi everything. I know I was gonna get your lip combo, your road lip combo. I was like, okay, I'm gonna buy this. And Alexis Oakley bought her tank top today that she always is selling on her. I don't know what it is, though. It's like, you know, people like link things on their story. Is it like an affiliate link or they're just being like, cool?

[B]

They're like, here, just affiliate.

[A]

Okay.

[B]

For 85% of the time. People I, I like recently went down the rabbit hole of that as well. And it's like, Britney has a lot of people on her roster who make like, influencers and like, not even necessarily macro influencers. Like, she has a person. I don't want to, like, out the person, but I think they have 400,000 Instagram followers and they make like 200 grand a month on links. On. On affiliate links. It's nuts.

[A]

And like, so it's like a higher percentage or something. If it's on Instagram, then probably TikTok.

[B]

Yes, it's. Well, there's. There's services like Shop mine, different services, services that creators sign up for. And then lots of stores like Aloe or stores like Sephora are available on these services to make a commission. And I. I really do honestly like it as so long as you're. You. It's products you really use and love. Like, that's why I was. I started linking my road because people

[A]

kept the road afterwards. And then right after, it was Alexis. And then I bought her tank top. But tell me why the tank tops were more expensive than the road.

[B]

Oh, my God.

[A]

65 for one white tank top. And I didn't recognize the brand of the CFSB or something. I'm like, what the hell is this, csb?

[B]

I will say that Alexis's tank top game is unmatched. Like, she does always find. Yeah, she has the good snatchy boobies.

[A]

Two white, two black dink ducks. Like, I always can use a good basic tank. And then it was like 300. Like, Jesus. I was like, she's making you.

[B]

Because, like, you're Trisha Paytas and you could send one singular DM and they would love to gift you. Right.

[A]

I literally thought it was, like, Amazon or something. I was like, I'm gonna get some of these tank tops and I should look. I should look. I don't.

[B]

You know, my friend actually texted me the other day. A young reaper, Heather, she does the airbrush stuff.

[A]

Okay.

[B]

And she was like, trisha placed an order. Like, I'm. And I. I was laughing because I just know you. She's like, trisha placed an order. She got a hello Kitty tank top. So I'm gonna, like, throw in a bunch of other stuff. I'm so excited, Heather. And I love her. She's the best. She made customs for me for a long time. Oh, I didn't know it was. I was just laughing because I was like, I know. Trisha doesn't even know she ordered this hello Kitty tank top. Never do.

[A]

No. I literally am, like, buying stuff from Instagram, Etsy, wherever. If someone's selling me something, I'm, like, buying it somewhere for sure. But I'm posing a lot too. I'm posing, I try to posh, and then I try and use that money to, yes, buy more things, but I'm trying to buy less things because I had to just have a crazy purse

[B]

dead in the eye. When you say we're trying to wear

[A]

a date out with cameras, and I feel a little more nervous. I'm all like, oh, but I'm not buying as much as I used to

[B]

so I'm just like, Moses and McCoy are so similar. Like, I was just laughing so hard. We were having a kid camera off camera, off conversation. That's how much I've been podcasting lately. An off camera conversation. And you were saying something that was so me, like, you know what I mean? Like, yes. Like, this is doing so well and I'm making money and I use it to shop. And then obviously, like girl math. You know, if I'm. If you're using the money to keep shopping, you're. You're not profiting. Like, that's the truth. But I'm sitting here and I'm like, yes, girl, that's the way. And Moses is like, we're breaking, like. And I was like, I feel like I just watched me and Mokoa, like, through a lens. Like, that's exactly for sure when it comes.

[A]

He's so good with finances. And it's good, it's actually a good thing because you're like, so good with finances. But it's just like, like, when we get our taxes back, oh my God, we have money for taxes and we have a little bit in savings. Okay. But it also means we spent this much. I'm like, why do you know in the negative? I mean, we have savings, we paid the taxes. Who cares what we spent? Like, I was like, we saved. We saved this year, which is the first and ever since we've known each other six years. I put us a million in debt. I was like, this is, this is a win.

[B]

No, you know, we're the same, same person.

[A]

Look at the positive of that. I can spend a little if we saved a little. You know, it's.

[B]

No, it's. You and I are exactly the same. And it's so funny. I think it's so good though, to have the balance. I'm trying to be, you know what I'm trying to be. And it's hard. So a friend of mine, a close friend of mine right now is going through a breakup. And it is just. And it's kind of her, like, first serious one. And it's just been devastating, like, and the mama bear in me wants to go kill the other person. And, you know, just, I've been having her kind of stay at my house and just really taking care of her. And we were even talking about it, like, how girl breakups are so different than, like, guys just go have a beer with the boys. But like, girl breakups is like, you go to your friend's house and they're forcing you to eat you know, and, like, it's. It's really. It's one of those where she's just so heartbroken, and it's. It kills me because I would die for her. Like, just watching it and watching what happened to her, it's. I. I feel murderous about it. Like, truly. And obviously my innate reaction is to be like, I hate men. Like, I hate men. And you can think that this person is literally the love of your life and they can be a completely different person. And I like my goosebumps even right now. I'm just so devastated for her, and I love her so, so much. But in talking to her, I have been trying to remind her so deeply that getting your heart broken by your first love, first of all, is just the worst thing in the entire world. And it scars you forever because you are so naive to it, and, you know, it's. You don't know the world of that right away and stuff. But also, I'm so grateful for getting my heart broken by my first love. Right. And I'm sure you are, too, and all of those things because it led us to our people. And I've been trying to remind her so deeply that, like, you are one step, one, you know, away from this person that you're going to marry. It might be four more relationships, but that's what this served you as, and that there are good men in the world. That's the thing I'm trying to work on so hard, because we do do that. You know, we love to be like, all men are awful, and so many men are awful. But then we also sit in these chairs saying, all men are awful, while we both have found the absolute exception to that rule and that that person is out there for everyone. So I've been trying to harp a little less on the awful men in the world and focus more on the fact that there are so many good ones.

[A]

That's true. I always tell people that because they're like, well, you're so lucky there's no one like a Moses or like a moko or whatever like that. And I was like, actually, there are, like, I know, Ari with Adriana. I know there's so many girls in my life that actually have really good relationships with men. I. And I'm like, yeah, I think it does get into the all men are awful. But then there are those good ones that you see.

[B]

And I'm not gonna, like, say that to her while she's in this state of despair, because it's not the truth.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Like, I'm not gonna look at you and say, you're never gonna find your husband because it's so easy to love you and you're such an amazing person. And like, there is someone out there that will feel that way in eternity and just for all of you too. That's the thing. It's like, I don't wanna like, speak for her any breakup, but it's the worst to like, I don't know, be in a relationship where you feel like you have to like, be a certain way for someone to love you. And I like, I'm so excited for her to find the beauty of like someone loving you for as you are

[A]

and you're worse and you're ugly and everything like that. No, it is. I was always not myself in every relationship. I always cater to what they wanted me to be or what I should be or what I try to be, or not seeing my family, like anything that you know, very much like that. And then it's like when I met Moses and it was just like, I didn't have to do anything. I met him, I'm like, literally it was quarantine. So like ugliest, like no extensions, no anything, like zits all over my face. Like my heaviest, like doing crazy work, like all this stuff like that. Also just not getting help. So it's like you meet someone at your worst and you're like, damn, they really like, like me for this. And you'll find someone that is true about heartbreak. And this will be our relationship advice for today's episode is like, it really is. It's the worst. It's the worst. When I went through my. I had like two really bad breakups and I really was like, I will never get better. I just, it was like never like to me, I was never like suicidal. It was just like, I'm never gonna get better. I'm always going to just hate my life and be depressed and like, there's no hope for me. But then you meet someone and that

[B]

part of you does, like, I was saying this to her. Like there is a little part of you and who you were in that relationship. And it's kind of morbid to say and I, maybe I need to think of better verbiage. But like there is a party that maybe dies there, right? Like that, that like a little part of you. Maybe it's the naivety, maybe it's the trusting, maybe it's the second chances, maybe it's looking at all things with rose colored glasses and. And like that version of you that just like hadn't felt that pain yet. Like she might stay there, you know, and that there's a pain of that and going forward with that. But it's just like it's the best thing ever when the trash takes itself out and eventually you get to the place. I was literally saying this to her too. Like, and this is not necessarily her scenario, but just I equate it to mine where I look back at like someone cheating on me and shattering my heart. And now I can be like, literally, thank God that lizard cheated on me. Thank God. I wish they cheated on me sooner. I wish they cheated on me worse. So I didn't try to forgive them. I, I like thank God like that they did this awful thing that felt so awful and permanent because it wasn't. And now I can kind of giggle on some, that's someone else's son, that's someone else's problem.

[A]

Exactly. And maybe they'll find their right match. I always think that too. Like, maybe they're not even the worst person. Maybe they find someone that's like their perfect match, whatever, good for them. But then when you find your perfect match, I think the same thing. I was like, I tell them all the time. I try to have kids with like literally everybody. I was trying to have kids with people I knew for like a week. Like I was always just like, I wouldn't want a baby kid. So I was, yeah, I was trying to have a baby with anyone. And obviously like my long term relationships or like my longer relationships are a year or whatever, but I was trying to have a baby with them too. And it's just like, thank I was very much, thank God. I'm like, if I would have babies with anyone else, and I mean this so wholeheartedly and it's not really a knock on them, it's just more like they did nothing for me that I would have had like been raising the baby all by myself and like I would have gone insane. I probably would have given like my babies up for adoption because that's how hard postpartum was, was for me. And I had like the most supportive husband. And then the guys I was with, they just couldn't. And maybe they didn't like me, maybe they didn't have the capacity. Maybe they were busy, maybe they didn't want to. Whatever the reasons were, they never did anything for me. I was like looking back as God, they never did one, one thing for me. And to like if I would had a baby without any of those. And I was trying so hard. Oh My God, it would have been. I, I, I would have lost custody of my kids or something like that, because I could never have done it without Moses. And I think there would have. That was like God's timing. It was like, you have to wait. Because I was trying to have a baby with everybody and it didn't work.

[B]

And it's so crazy the way the universe works. I actually, to my friend going through the breakup, I keep personifying her like Moses or Makoa. Like, I keep. Because she just, you know, obviously when you're going through the breakup, you're kind of saying the things that you're feeling where it's like, what if I never find the person? What if I. So obviously, as she continues to kind of say these things to me, I literally had to give the person a name. I named him Stephen.

[A]

And I was like, would you manifest that? What did you mean, Steven?

[B]

No, literally, I was like, if your husband actually ends up being named Steven, like, I'm Raven Baxter. But I was like, you're gonna find Steven. Like, you're. The reason this went so badly was so that you could become a different person for Steven. Like, so that you could become a different person to date someone else, Learn more lessons so that eventually when you meet Steven, you will be the fully blossomed and perfect version of yourself for that person. But, like, obviously I sound insane, like, saying Stephen to her all day, but I'm like, steven, Steven's coming, Steven's coming.

[A]

And I feel like that's so real because also, too, I was such a self sabotager. And I kept, like, sabotaging the relationship. And I did sabotage my relationships for sure. So a lot of it fell on me. And so I'll take the blame for that. But I knew when I met Moses, like, I cannot self sabotage. I can and I did.

[B]

That's exactly how I felt.

[A]

But it's very much like, stop doing this. You do this with everyone. You push them away. There's a reason. They're like, you're too crazy. I have to block you, everyone. I've never been dumped. I've always just been blocked. Like, never once had they, like, this isn't working. Maybe they didn't. I was just like, no, I don't know what happened. But like, it always was blocked. And so I was like, I cannot. And Moses did block me. For our first summer, he did block me, but he unblocked me, which was good. Meant to be, but. But it was like your vows.

[B]

You're like, and thank you for unblocking

[A]

you were the first person to unblock me after I called him 5000.

[B]

That's a really funny vow. Like, I will always unblock you to block do us part.

[A]

Should have been your vows.

[B]

That should have been the thing, but

[A]

it is true, and you just. You will meet the right one. And I always say, if you want to meet the right. If you want to be. Want to meet somebody, you will find somebody. And some people are totally happy being single. And I always think, like, oh, if you're really happy being single, like, be single for sure. But I think if you want to, you have to. Like, it will happen. You also have to say it, because I used to be like, I don't want to meet anybody, whatever. And then it's like. But then I had to start saying, no, I actually do.

[B]

I was just available for love. That's always my biggest breakup advice, too, is you physically cannot let someone scorn you, no matter how hard it is. It's an active fight that you have to literally fight every day, but you cannot let someone scorn you against the idea of love. She said to me that she saw this quote that's really been helping her where basically two people were podcasting or talking about, like, a breakup or, like, unrequited love or being the person who, like, didn't do anything wrong in the relationship. And the guy was saying a quote, and he was saying his advice is, the person who is in love always wins. And I thought that was so beautiful, because it's, like. It's so true, no matter how often awful. And I was saying this to her, too. Like, you showed yourself your capacity of love and how beautiful you can be to someone else, and, like, how loyal you can be, how loving. And you can never lose that, because that's. That's gonna be for your Stephen. That's gonna be for your person. And that's not to say that the next five people might all be awful in different ways, but you just can't give up. And it all goes back to Pamela Anderson. Like, she is the perfect example of that.

[A]

She loves love, and she always says that she was. I love love. And I. I. I do, too. When I look back, I had some miserable relationships, but I always do think I was happiest when I had, like, a partner, even if they hated me, I was like, I was the one in love. You loved love, and I was having fun.

[B]

And then you almost look back, and you're like, the good thing about that relationship wasn't that other lizard. It was me. Yeah, it Was I brought all the good. I brought all the fun. I brought all the love. I planned the things so I had.

[A]

I'd never traveled before, so I was like, oh, I want to travel and stuff. And it's like, yeah. Like, I thought because I was, like, in love, but it, like, made me want to do. Do things that, yeah, I wanted to do and, like, live life.

[B]

Yes. And that was always you. And you still brought that, like, fun energy into your next things. And that's just the thing you can't lose, you know?

[A]

And then you find someone who appreciates

[B]

it and loves it and loves you at all of you. It's just like, if you're in where you feel like you have to be this one version of you to keep the person, like, run, don't walk, diva.

[A]

No. 100%. You should have to ever bend yourself or anything. I know, I know. Must have been cooking, like, so healthy for me, like, every meal. Like, literally dinner. Like, it'll be like, lunch. I'm like, can I have chicken fajitas? You know what I mean? Like, these sizzling fajitas. And I just, like, cry thinking about it because I'm just like, oh, I feel. So I sent you something today. There was, like, a Instagram of this girl who lost, like, she lost, like, 150 pounds. And she, like, me when, like, the right wrong guy was loving me versus when the right guy. And she just, like this, like, natural, healthy glow up. And it's like, yes. I, like, put in the work and stuff like that, but I never had someone, like, learn to cook my healthy, like, meals for me. Like, here's all, like, a healthy.

[B]

And mind you, all the little bowls, too. And, like, the bougieness. I am been, like, gagging. Literally gagging.

[A]

I wanted a chicken lettuce wrap I was craving with chicken lettuce wrap.

[B]

And he's like, that sounds so good.

[A]

Do you like chicken? Oh, my God. Okay. We have to make them. Okay. Also, me just craving them because I'm like. I'm, like, finding any excuse to. His chicken lettuce wraps. The crispy chicken he makes. The panko, the. The seasoning, the. The. The. The crispy lettuce.

[B]

Oh, my God, it's so good.

[A]

He homemade. What was it? What's it called? The white stuff. What's the white stuff? He homemade Caesar. The sauce. Oh, my. It was so good. Good. It was. And I was. Oh, my. I was. And I hate salad. And I was eating salad by the bowl. It was so good because the leaves were so Crispy. The dressing was so good, and I was just like. It was in the wrap. But then I was also, like, eating this. It was the best thing. He literally never made it before he made it for the first time because I was, like, just craving it, and so. Yes. Oh, my God.

[B]

So sweet. Like, even last night, we were, like, all watching the Devil Wears Prada in my movie theater. Like, all my girls and gays, we were watching the new one, and, like, Nicole was doing laundry and obviously didn't want to watch the Double War, but he still, like, brought down snacks for all of us. Like. Like, I think it's so sweet. Like, the. I don't know, the way that they love service. Yes. And just, like, to be thoughtful for, like, even something that has nothing to do with you. Like, maybe you're not craving the chicken lettuce wrap or, like, you don't want to watch the Devil wear Prada. But, like, you always. You know what I mean? Just.

[A]

No, he always will. He'll be like, what do you want tonight for dinner? What do you want this? I'm like, we can. You can order tonight. Like, you could have something. Because I just, like, he's cooking so much. And for my family, my dad, he'll look like a different thing for my stepmom and a different thing for my dad and different thing for the kids and different thing for me. So he's cooking, like, five dinners. I'm like, you know what? Maybe we can just, like, chill tonight

[B]

and, like, showing your babies. Like. Like Moses is actively just showing every day, especially to the girls, like, that this is how a woman should be loved. And that is, like, just so beautiful to me because they will carry that into, like, it'll be like, I want nothing less than what my mom and dad are.

[A]

Oh, a thousand percent. They smile. They giggle every time we hug and kiss. And then they try to come in the hug, too. They get, like, so excited. They giggle so much because we don't do it too often in front of them, but, like, we'll hug or something, and then they'll just, like, like, want to come out and, like, hug, too, and they giggle and they laugh and they're kind of like, what is that? We were dancing in front of them the other day, and it was just like a movie, and they were just, like, giggling so much, and I'm like, It was. Yeah, it's just a good feeling because I never had a guy do, like I said, literally anything for me. So then someone, like, bending over backwards, doing the most. I'M just like.

[B]

But your daughters are just gonna. They're. They're born into the standard that you created by, like, making sure and the universe had your back as well, of just waiting for the right one. I just. I don't know. I've been feeling that, like, just because I've been so close to this breakup that's happening in front of me right now, and I. I've been even just to all the girls watching, I feel so maternal to, like, say, like, if you're in the wrong thing, like, the right thing is out there. And, like, don't put up with that.

[A]

Don't.

[B]

You know? No. Yeah.

[A]

Don't, don't, don't. Definitely don't settle. Don't settle. The right one is out there. You will find a perfect match. And I always say that. I always say, I'll put me in the. It's like, if I can find anyone, if I can find someone. I was so fast. Yes. You would think no one would be compatible or would love you or want to do things for you, respect you. Like, I was. I'm talking about me, not you.

[B]

No.

[A]

I don't know.

[B]

I felt the same way.

[A]

And you do. You just find someone, and it, like, your whole life changes.

[B]

It really does. Even, like. Even just the way you carry yourself. Like, even if you could go show Trisha and Tana, like, old Trisha and Tana this, like, footage, and we're, like, in our pink and so happy and talking and laughing and, like, celebrating birthdays, and we have such a healthy friendship and healthy life. It bleeds into everything. Like, you know it does it really?

[A]

What do you watch in. You're like, the pink walls? I'm like. I tell everybody. I'm like, that was literally Moses. He, like, went to the store. He's like, these should be pink. And I was like, okay, we have, like, pink glitter walls. When you walk into, like, the bottom, it was 100 him. And I was like, love it.

[B]

That is so insane. I loved.

[A]

This next one will do a lot. Me too. I know. We haven't seen each other in, like, a month.

[B]

I know. And it just. It feels. I'm slowly getting my sparkle back, and there's no better place to do it than here. So, so glad.

[A]

I know we actually had quite a few stacked up. And then you were like, let's do one. And I was like, okay, anytime. Because I'm here. And I was just like, anytime you want to come.

[B]

The jaw is not moving for eight hours yet, which is so funny. Like, just Universally that, like, talking is my job and I'm having like a talking problem with what's going on.

[A]

But you hear about Rosanna too? Pansino.

[B]

No, what she has.

[A]

She started her podcast and she had her 40th birthday on like a boat or yacht or something. She fell and broke her jaw and she can't talk for six to eight weeks. Like, she had to stop her podcast. Like, it's really. She was showing pictures.

[B]

Pictures.

[A]

It's really bad. It was really awful. And I was just like that.

[B]

The. The mouth. It's so scary.

[A]

It's so scary.

[B]

So even when I couldn't, because I. I could only open my mouth for like, like almost two weeks to the width of my fingernail and like that. And I stuck like this. And I was. You having to use text to speech for some days and stuff, like to Makoa and stuff. And it just made me feel for anyone who's ever been in that situation in their life. Life. And weirdly, I was watching so much Grey's Anatomy, obviously in the episode I was on, like Meredith, the main character, she was having that happen. She had to have her jaw wired shut. And I was just like, it's so detrimental because it's your connection to the world and food and eating and I want to.

[A]

The podcast and your. I felt so bad.

[B]

My anxiety.

[A]

Yeah. That's when you, like, realize what's important. It's like to not be able to do the thing that you're. You're good at and what you love doing, which is like talking. That's your job. That's everything. Like that. It's like. But then also eating. She said the same thing. She has to eat through a drink, through a straw. She's already tiny as it. I just felt.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

So bad. And then it's kind of the same thing with yours. And I was just like, oh, my God. Like, I. You take it for Grant. You just take things for granted, like you said, until you just don't.

[B]

That actually is so, so, so sad. Like, obviously I had my Rosanna moment and stuff, but regardless of that, prayers for a recovery for her. That's so, so, so devastating.

[A]

No. And she was sharing photos. And I think, like, I'm always appreciative when people share hard times. That's why I said, like, even with your tooth, like, I feel like you should. Moses was. He's left again. But, like, he was talking about how his was traumatic. His wisdom tooth. He told you about it? Whatever. And I think the same thing with Rosanna like, her posting those pictures kind of, like, puts things in perspective. I've had to stop my podcast for, like, six to eight weeks. Obviously, she doesn't have a choice in it. She can't talk and stuff like that. But I would mentally spiral. It's like, it's my. My whole being as I do it after giving birth. Everything that. So even just say I.

[B]

Like, there was, like, days where I couldn't even, like, look at McColle and say, like, thank you. Or, like, I love you. And like, it just, like, no. Like, it was rattling to my mind. And my OCD is very medical as well. Like, my. That's where I really spiral. So I just, like. And again, I don't want to keep dragging it out. And I think on my podcast, I was a little too tangent y about it. And, like. And there's just. There are so many people who were kind of commenting me, like, I had a perfect recovery, and I was, like, so happy for them. I don't want. But I think it was good that a lot of people were commenting that, because 1. I look back now at the podcast I did, and the one thing that I was feeling was, like, I don't want to discourage people. Like, if something. Something bad is happening in your mouth, it can go to your brain and kill you. That's why I got mine out. It is so bad. And I do feel like I. I definitely walked the line of being like, don't get it out. And that's not the truth. I. My headspace was just a little dark.

[A]

Yeah. You. While you were in pain, it was a traumatic thing. Like, what you say in pain should be held against you. I always think that after surgeries, after giving birth, like, Taylor, Frank, Paul's talking about that all right now, too. It's like you were filming me when I was, like, two months postpartum. Like, what. What did you expect? You know what I mean? Same thing when you're in a distress.

[B]

You. Yeah, it's not you. And I, like, sobbed for weeks.

[A]

You were open.

[B]

Literally just like, oh, my God. Like, I. Because that was my biggest fear of just, like, doing something that was so not me or anything, you know? And, like, I'm just very, very, very grateful for everyone around me for being so loving and kind and supportive. And honestly, they were all very funny. Even when I was in my, like, state of the. Just, like, losing my mind. Everyone was so, like. Like, Nicole would just be giggling. He'd be like, tennis, it's gonna be okay. Like, I love you. He almost Brought the, like, levity to it.

[A]

I love that. And that's what people. I don't understand. I think people understand, like, relationship dynamics sometimes, too, where they're like, how could you be me? Like, I. With my state gate with Moses? Like, how could you be mean to Moses? And, like, I don't think they understand, one, the relationship dynamic. And two, like, what I was going through, too, which was like, postpartum. I mean, that's, like, what we shared. This to be, like, open to be like, you're not alone going through this, and then people use it against you.

[B]

Sometimes even, like, if I, like, say something in a bitchy tone to Mokoa, I will start sobbing. Yeah. I. I've worked so hard to ensure that I want to be nothing.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

But amazing to this person who is so amazing to me.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Yeah. We. It's crazy, though, just as life goes on. I was saying this last night randomly. We were all in the bathroom together, me, Makoa, and Buster. Like, I was going pee, and I was like, he just came with me, and we were, like, laughing about that. And then he went pee, and I, like, stayed in there. We were laughing, and I was literally, like. I said something where I was just like, this is my family. Like, you know, like. Like, it becomes. The longer time goes on, it feels so familial. Like, just like, it's your partner. And it's not like, it's like, you're my brother, you know, but, like, it's

[A]

like, no, it's your. It's. It is your family. It's your new family. And, like, it's kind of. Sometimes it's sex. I'm close with my family, obviously, but sometimes you do more in your other family because you're like, oh, this is my family. This is my priority now. And it's beautiful. But it's also sad, too, because obviously you should put your spouse before parents and siblings and stuff like that. But it does. Also sad, but from someone who comes from, like, a home, that maybe it was, like, not as ideal. Like, it is probably nice to have this, like, new form, this new lineage.

[B]

It is. And even, like, Mokoa's mom, like, we were just messaging the other day, laughing, and I was like, I'm just so grateful. Obviously, there is some morning, too, though, even, like, Isabella moving away, like, you do as you get older, you know, you. You become the family with your partner. But it's so cool. I'm just so, so, so grateful for him.

[A]

Yeah. And nine, too. I'm very at the era where I. I'm just like. Because I always am on the side TikTok like the divorce came out of nowhere. So I'm always just like, let me be extra. Because it's always the partner doing less. I'm like, let me do more. Because over the weekend I'm like, thank you. We did it. And he's like, yeah, we did. We were a good team. I'm like, I know I don't do as much as you, but I'm trying.

[B]

That's what I mean. Whenever I say me and Makora are a good team, it's like, it's giving 60, 40. I'm 40.

[A]

I know.

[B]

the.

[A]

At the. At the birthday party, Ari's like my makeup friend. She's like. And my friend, she's just like, you're such a good mom. Cuz she didn't see me a lot with the kids. You're such a good mom. And I was like, I feel like it's. But moment says does all her stuff so I get to be school. She's. No, but you did really good too. So it's. It is a 60 40. I'll take 6040 and you have a 60 40. Thank you so much.

[B]

Thank you so much for watching us. We could go on for hours and we will be back next week doing that.

[A]

Yes. Well, and we'll answer questions. We have. We have good questions.

[B]

Yes. We have a new number.

[A]

Yes. Oh, my gosh, yes.

[B]

Call us.

[A]

Call us at the new number.

[B]

Call us, beep us, and we'll be over on the Patreon saying things we probably shouldn't.

[A]

Patreon. See you guys.