Jessi Draper Is in the Hot Seat

Summary

Not Skinny But Not Fat

Episode: Jessi Draper Is in the Hot Seat

Host: Amanda Hirsch
Guest: Jessi Nagati Korra (Secret Lives of Mormon Wives)
Date: November 21, 2025

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Episode Overview

This juicy episode features Amanda Hirsch deep-diving with Jessi Nagati Korra, one of the breakout stars from the Hulu reality series "Secret Lives of Mormon Wives." Season 3’s shocking drama centered around Jessi: her affair with Marciano, fallout with castmates like Demi, and the very public unraveling of her marriage to Jordan. The conversation is raw and honest, unpacking how reality phenomena spill into real life, how Jessi’s business and relationships have been affected, and the complicated sisterhood of Utah influencer culture.

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Main Discussion Points & Insights

1. Season 3: All About Jessi

• Amanda reveals she booked Jessi for the podcast before watching the Season 3 screeners, only to discover Jessi is the center of the season’s drama.
  • "Every single episode...had a huge story. There was no, like, filler episode. You know what I mean?" (A, 01:16)
• Jessi describes being thrust from a “side character” to the main storyline unexpectedly with the exposure of her affair.
  • “You always, like, you're like, oh, you know, when are you going to be a main character? And it's like -- not this way.” (B, 05:01)

2. Fallout From the Affair

• Jessi and Amanda discuss how the affair with Marciano surfaced and exploded (especially the confrontation by Layla at an influencer event).
  • “She knew what was about to happen. She knew and I didn’t.” (B, 05:31)
• On reality TV’s authenticity:
  • “That’s when you know it’s like, legit legit, slash, it’s still a reality show.” (A, 03:46)
• Jessi says she felt truly blindsided by Layla, but her friend genuinely didn’t expect the situation to be real.
• The “Cialis” story and Marciano’s oversharing, which became a point of laughter/shock among the cast.
  • “He said that on the call?…He said that was gross too. I was like, what?!” (B, 07:34)

3. Jessi’s Marriage: Behind the Scenes

• Jessi opens up about her marriage struggles, emotional abuse, and the fallout from the affair:
  • “I had been emotionally abused for about four years...not to make it okay...but I just was in such a dark headspace.” (B, 11:43)
• Jessi and Jordan kept the affair secret for six months before it became public; they only disclosed separation publicly after confronting the reality that it would be revealed.
• On whether the cheating was a “cry for help”:
  • “I did like, do it as, like, a cry for help. Like, I was like, maybe if I do this, I can get out of what I’m in.” (B, 12:06)
• Post-scandal, Jessi and Jordan separated for 90 days and have since reconciled, crediting therapy and public accountability for their growth.

4. Public Perception & Masculinity

• Amanda and Jessi talk about audience reactions and the gendered narrative of cheating, especially as Jessi was the breadwinner after Jordan quit his job:
  • “I feel like men need, like, work as a sense of identity...he stopped working...and I feel like it just threatened his ego.” (B, 25:03)
• On emasculation:
  • “It was almost like you didn’t care about me. It was just, like, the idea of me. And he’s realized that.” (B, 29:20)

5. Influencer Culture, Money, and Marriages

• The Utah influencer scene is examined—the unique blend of reality TV fame, influencer marriages, and gender roles.
• Several husbands, including Jordan, have left traditional jobs; not all adapt well.
  • “They don’t want to be full time dads either. Like, they want to have their cake and eat it too sometimes.” (B, 25:39)
• Jessi’s success with her hair extension business (Jay Z Styles) and dynamics with other cast members who leverage her services.

6. Friendship Fallout, Villain Arcs & Cast Dynamics

• Amanda and Jessi talk cast relationships:
  • Jessi’s friendship with Demi officially ended before the affair was public; their deeper issues began in Season 1.
  • Demi’s "villain" role this season is dissected.
  • Whitney’s journey from disliked to "queen" of the audience; proof cast trajectories can change with edit and time.
  • "Honestly, good for Whitney for sticking with it and not just running away." (A, 55:15)
• On whether Jessi could be friends with Demi again:
  • “Never. We tried for a minute...I hit a point where I’m like, okay, I’m actually done.” (B, 59:00)

7. Mom Talk/Mormonism/Utah Culture

• Influence of Mormon culture, perfectionism, and the rapid pace of relationships/divorce in Utah.
• "Everyone gets married young and very quickly, like, within six months." (B, 63:53)
• Cosmetic enhancements are discussed openly: Jessi shares details about her nose tweak and laser treatments, and the pressures of beauty in Utah.

8. Show Business: Dancing with the Stars, Bachelorette, and Beyond

• Whitney and Jen’s stints on Dancing with the Stars—discussion of backstage dynamics and audience support.
• Taylor becoming the next Bachelorette and the anticipation/fears about how she’ll break the mold:
  • “She doesn’t follow rules, so we’ll see...it’s going to be like Taylor’s version of the Bachelorette.” (B, 59:49)

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Notable Quotes and Memorable Moments

• On Being Thrust Into the Spotlight:
  • “I have to just own it. Like, I have to tell it.” – Jessi (05:13)
• On Reality TV and Truth Coming Out:
  • "On reality TV, you can't have secrets, and the truth will always come out, even if it takes a few seasons. Like, I've learned that the hard way." – Jessi (08:26)
• On Marriage Breakdown:
  • "For sure cheating. But I had been emotionally abused for about four years." – Jessi (11:43)
• On Public Pressure and Appearance:
  • "It was the hate I got after...You look old. You look like a man. You are so ugly. Like, it was really flooded. Yeah." – Jessi (49:51)
• On Gender Dynamics and Emasculation:
  • "I feel like men need, like, work as sense of identity and it gives them purpose. And he stopped working..." – Jessi (25:03)
• On the Cost of Fame:
  • “Being public, you see yourself from this angle and that angle and you're like, oh.” – Amanda (50:23)
• On Villainy and Agency:
  • “It's either lean in or go home...at this point, you're, like, a beautiful villain.” – Amanda (37:23)
• On the Culture of Perfection:
  • “Perfectionism and Mormonism: We all love to, like, look perfect and sound perfect and act perfect...which benefits my business.” – Jessi (49:27)
• On Personal Growth:
  • “You have to own it. But she also does not care about money, which I love about Taylor.” – Jessi (35:27)
• On Utah Marriages:
  • “There's a thing called, like, Ring by Spring...if you meet someone in the fall, you're married by spring.” – Jessi (63:53)

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Timestamps for Key Segments

| Time | Topic
|-----------|------------------------------------------------| | 00:01 | Amanda introduces Jessi and the background of the drama-filled Season 3
| 03:52 | Transition from supporting cast to main character; being “in the hot seat”
| 05:19 | Layla’s confrontation and filming realities
| 06:52 | Fallout, friend betrayals, the affair goes public
| 11:10 | Jessi opens up about marriage struggles and emotional abuse
| 12:08 | Rebuilding the marriage, therapy, and family reactions
| 13:34 | Coping with public reaction, audience perception
| 25:00 | Jordan’s feelings of emasculation and breadwinner challenges
| 31:20 | How Jordan discovered the affair
| 35:09 | Taylor as the “leader,” friendship dynamics
| 46:00 | Business ups and downs from show visibility
| 49:36 | Cosmetic tweaks and beauty standards
| 53:47 | Whitney and Jen on Dancing with the Stars
| 59:09 | Taylor as The Bachelorette; production secrets
| 61:06 | Utah influencer event culture, influencer “mole” drama
| 62:23 | Jessi’s first marriage and divorce; Utah’s marriage culture
| 64:08 | Mormonism, leaving the church
| 65:33 | Hair industry “rivalry” (Hair by Chrissy)
| 66:34 | Episode wrap-up, Jessi reflects on future drama

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Tone and Style

• Conversational, candid, sometimes irreverent but always warm.
• Amanda leans into both fangirling and hard-hitting questions.
• Jessi is notably honest, self-aware, and avoids sugar-coating difficult experiences.
• Much of the humor comes from Amanda’s side comments or reactions to reality TV absurdities.

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Final Thoughts

This episode delivers everything fans want: juicy reality TV backstory, heartfelt reflection, and unfiltered inside scoops. Jessi owns up to her choices and pain, contextualizes them in the echo chamber of Utah’s influencer culture, and, with Amanda’s supportive but probing questioning, highlights both the glamor—and the cost—of public vulnerability.

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Transcript

[A]

The following podcast is a Dear Media production. Welcome back to the Not Skinny But Not Fat podcast. I'm your host, Amanda Hirsch, and I still can't believe that I get to chat with some of my favorite stars on my very own podcast, where you'll feel like you're just talking shit with your best friends in your living room. Welcome to a new episode of Not Skinned But Not Fat. I'm your host, Amanda. How are you doing? I'm so excited for today's episode because the tea is hot. The tea is piping. I mean, Secret Lives of Mormon Wives came back, and it came back better than ever. I think this was the best season to me, I mean, obviously, the first season was like, whoa. The drama had opened on a body cam, like, so good, right? But, like, third season, my jaw was dropped. Every single episode. It was like I wasn't even on my phone. Okay. I was just, like, watching in shock. I feel like every episode had a huge story. There was no, like, filler episode. You know what I mean? Like, it was good. And I am so happy to have Jesse on today to talk about the scandal of. Of everything that went down on season three that I wasn't expecting, as. As you hear me tell her, because I went into watching the screeners not knowing what the season was going to be about, but I had already booked Jesse for the show because I haven't had her on, and I wanted to chat with her. Then I was like, damn, this whole season is about everything that went down with Jesse. If you guys don't know. Secret Lives of Mormon Wives on Hulu. Amazing show, amazing reality tv. Highly recommend. But, I mean, if you're listening, you're. You're fudgeing. You're watching. So it went from Demi and Marciano having an alleged affair to Jesse and Marciano having an alleged. What is everyone finding in Marciano? Like, it really beats me. Like, I'm sorry, but, like, how is it always the guy that you don't understand? Like, you're like, wait, what? That's who we're all losing our panties over? So Jesse confirms that you did have an affair with Marciano. Obviously no longer friends with Demi, obviously. Drama of the wazoo. Her husband is filming you. You know all this Jordan, while he is feeling emasculated and you know everything that's happening. Anyway, crazy season. So happy to have Jesse on to get to talk to her about where they're at now, how she's feeling about it all, why she did what she did. We get into details. We get into it. We get into it. So let's. Let's. Let's jump right into today's episode. So enjoy my episode with Jesse Nagati Korra from. From Secret Lives of Mormon Wives.

[B]

I'm excited.

[A]

There she is. You're the only one that hasn't been on. Almost.

[B]

No. Really?

[A]

Not. Not really. Not really. Not really.

[B]

You've had Macy.

[A]

No, I've had only, like, three.

[B]

Oh, okay. I'm like, you've had cool ones, but.

[A]

I feel like you should have been on because we, like, follow each other for a while. Like, you're so nice online, and then.

[B]

I've listened to you for years, so I'm, like, honored to be here. Like, I love you. I think you tagged us in a story when Taylor had the CMA drama happen in real life.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And I. I remember seeing something and I was like, oh, my gosh, she knows who we are.

[A]

Oh, my God, stop. And I was like, wait, she should have been on. She should have been on. So then we schedule this before I watch the show.

[B]

Oh, you've seen it now. Ooh, I'm scared.

[A]

No, because I'm just thinking, like, in my mind, I didn't know you're going to be the drama this season. And I was just like, yeah, like, let's have Jesse on. I haven't had her on. Like, we've been friends online. Like, no big deal. You know? I mean, like, it'll be fun. It'll be late. We'll talk about other people. You know what I mean? Then it's like, boom. Like, I didn't even go into it expecting that.

[B]

I didn't either. It just happened.

[A]

But it was. You were in the hot. You guys love to say this. You guys love to say mom talk. Yep.

[B]

And hot seat and accountability. It's all. Those are the words.

[A]

Those are the fucking words. Hot seat this season.

[B]

Yeah. Unfortunately.

[A]

From the get. Yeah, from the minute.

[B]

Yeah. I mean, like, cliffhanger of two. Honestly, cliffhanger of two and then going straight into season three. Yeah.

[A]

So when I press play on season three. Yeah.

[B]

Tell me your thoughts.

[A]

But I think I know this is your life. So take this in, like, viewer watching a show versus, like, me and you. Do you get what I mean?

[B]

No.

[A]

Totally. Watching a show, best season. You know what I mean? Yeah. What a season. Yeah.

[B]

It was crazy.

[A]

It was crazy. So many different elements to, like, the craziness and layers and I. I mean, your situation. And then Demi and Whitney not being on, then coming on and. And then the Taylor stuff. A little bit at the end, so there's a lot there. Yeah, but you are a main storyline this season.

[B]

Yeah, I've been, like, kind of a side character for the first two seasons. And you always, like, you're like, oh, you know, when. When are you going to be a main character? And it's like, not this way. That's not what I wanted. I did not think this was all going to come out, so it was definitely not intentional. But once it came out, it's like I have to just own it. Like, I have to tell it.

[A]

Okay. But let's, like, break fourth wall as much as we can.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

Leila confronts you.

[B]

Yes.

[A]

At this influencer event, by the way. I'm so into this shit. But, like, you came out of your car. You could have went into your car, but her camera was set up in your. In her car.

[B]

She knew what was about to happen.

[A]

She knew and I didn't.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

Oh, my God, those kinds of moments.

[B]

I was like, you guys.

[A]

Because it's like, that's when you know it's like, legit. Legit, slash. It's still a reality show, so the camera's got to be set up. You know what I mean?

[B]

But I was really blindsided. Like, that was genuinely. I was finding out in that moment. It was like, the worst night of my life.

[A]

But how do you then, like, let's just talk about the Layla situation. Like, we get that it's reality show, you understand it, but she gave you no warning about. So how does that feel? Like, as a friend, to bring it.

[B]

Up in real life, it kind of sucked because I was like, damn. Like, this is a big situation and we're close enough where I thought she would have, like, called me, been like, hey, this is what's going on.

[A]

Because I.

[B]

Because let's be honest, I would have played the game still. Like, if she had given me a heads up, I could have still been like, maybe it wouldn't have been as authentic and raw.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

But I thought she would have told me. But I talked to her about it after, and she was like, I was terrified because, like, it was such a big deal. And she also didn't know if it was true. So she goes, I genuinely thought I was going to confront you, and you're going to be like, what? And deny it or say it was false. So I think in her head, she was like, oh, this isn't even real. And then I told her it was.

[A]

And she was like, oh, I see what you're saying. Yeah, okay. That's a Good fallback. To be like, I thought you would be like, this isn't even true, and then it wouldn't destroy your life. Yeah, but. Yeah, but.

[B]

But it was. It was. I mean, not to the extent of what he said, but yes. I don't think she expected there to be any validity.

[A]

And then there was. And then you call him.

[B]

Oh, I was so mad. I was like, call him now. Like, he knows he's lying. Like, it was crazy. And then for him to double down and be like, I knew she was gonna do that. What the Is.

[A]

I took a Cialis.

[B]

So embarrassed.

[A]

Okay, so is that a, like, Viagra vibe?

[B]

Yes, but I didn't know that. So when he was saying it in real life, the weekend this happened, he was saying he took that, and I thought it was just a drug. So I'm like, oh, he's on drugs. Like, he's doing something crazy. And then when we were filming, it came up that he took this, and I was like, ew. Like, I had no clue.

[A]

Maybe this is what guys are doing nowadays.

[B]

They must be, like, 30.

[A]

Yeah. And he said that on the call?

[B]

Yes, he said on the call. And so we all made fun of.

[A]

Him saying in the boxers.

[B]

He said that was gross too. I was like, what? Like, he said all these details that I had never heard. And, like, that sounded like a cop out to me.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And I was like, what is happening? Because the last time I talked to him, he was not doubling down on this. It was like, very much like, I have your back.

[A]

Like, so you were gonna keep this under wraps.

[B]

Yes.

[A]

So. So why did he. How did it happen that he went to talk to Layla?

[B]

I think it was. She reached out to him to try to figure out the Demi stuff because we knew something there.

[A]

Was she.

[B]

So Demi was, like, lying, and we knew it. So Le was like, well, I'm friends with Marciano. I went to the villa. Like, I'm gonna ask him. And she saw he was in town, so she's like, I'm gonna meet up with him. And I think she kind of took it upon herself to have a moment, you know, and did not expect what was gonna happen.

[A]

What do you think about the demise stuff now? Like, what's your take on it? Like, what happened there? Because there we got no answers. Really? Still?

[B]

Yeah. I feel like I have an opinion of what happened based off of, like, what I saw. I was there for a lot of it. The receipts I've seen, she's still doubling down on a certain narrative, and I don't Agree with the narrative. But I just feel like on reality tv, you can't have secrets, and the truth will always come out, even if it takes a few seasons. Like, I've learned that the hard way, so I feel like eventually we'll know the truth.

[A]

But you were going to go to the grave with this when it was Marciano stuff.

[B]

Oh, yeah.

[A]

By the way, when I heard these rumors. Because there were rumors right when it happened.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

I would have been like, nah, I think everyone did. Right.

[B]

But you know what's weird? The rumors were like, oh, they were making out at TomTom. We never did that. The kiss happened in my hotel room. So the.

[A]

How do you think the rumors are?

[B]

I think we were just seen together. We were with Brock and Shayna, and then it looked probably like a double date. And we were kind of flirty because that's, like, the night it happened. So I maybe assume people were just like, oh, they look flirty. Something must have happened.

[A]

Did Sheena know about this?

[B]

She didn't know from me. I later found out he had told her that night, and I didn't know that. So, like, for months, she knew, and I had no idea.

[A]

And she didn't confront you about it?

[B]

No. Yeah.

[A]

How was Marciano so involved with everyone?

[B]

I don't know. Like, and it's all my fault. Like, I shouldn't have fell for it, but I was in such a weird place mentally, that I just. I always say it could have been anyone. Like, I was just looking for validation in, like, a shitty situation I was in. Like, confidence was beaten down. Not that it's okay, but, like, it wasn't him. It was just, like, someone being nice to me and, like, giving me attention. And that was something I hadn't had in my marriage. So for me, I look back and I'm like, what was I thinking?

[A]

What does he do? Is he, like, really good at the game?

[B]

Is he, like, charming good?

[A]

A good flir.

[B]

Yeah, he's charming. He's, like, a nice guy. He shows interest.

[A]

He said he has feelings for you on the show now.

[B]

He did? Yeah.

[A]

He said, like, I still, like, have I. I care about her a lot or. He said something to that extent?

[B]

Yeah, he. He did. It was interesting because it lasted two weeks. Like, it wasn't long enough to, like, fall in love with someone.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

But, I mean, I confided to him about my marriage, so, like, we did, like, get close, but not to the point where, like, I would say, like, oh, I'm in love with him, or I have feelings but, yeah, he. Sheena told me later. She was like, oh, he made it something. He was, like, moving to Utah. I was like, whoa, whoa, whoa. Like, that's definitely not what happened.

[A]

So it started the night of the. Tom. Tom.

[B]

Yes.

[A]

And then you go back home, you and Jordan are separated, not you're having trouble or what was happening.

[B]

Okay, so this is an interesting tidbit. So Jordan knew two weeks after it happened. So for six months, Jordan and I knew about this, did not tell anyone. We were working through it on our own. And he told me during that time. He said, if anyone ever finds out about this, let's just say we were separated because then it's easier. And I think he was embarrassed and, like, didn't want to be. I think in the season, he's like, I'm emasculated.

[A]

Right?

[B]

He was just embarrassed. So he said that. So when Layla confronted me, I panicked, and I was like, jordan's gonna want me to say we were separated. That was the plan if this ever came out. So I panicked and I said that. And then the next day, I cleared it up with Leila because I went home to Jordan, and I was told him, and he's like, oh, we should just tell the truth. I'm like, no, you're right. But I didn't know what else to say in the moment. So I tell Layla the next day. It might have been off camera that we weren't really separated, but they kept in that I said that. So I was like, wait. Kind of nice for me, because the narrative sounds better, but it's not true.

[A]

So you were together?

[B]

We were together, but we were struggling.

[A]

It was, like, cheating.

[B]

It was for sure cheating. But I had been emotionally abused for about four years. Like, it was a really bad situation, and not to make it okay. Like, I take full accountability, but there's that buzzword again. But I just was in such a dark headspace. Like, I was beaten down. My confidence was gone, and I honestly did, like, do it as, like, a cry for help. Like, I was like, maybe if I do this, I can get out of what I'm in to do.

[A]

Did you get out? Where are you at now?

[B]

We were separated for 90 days, and we're back together now. And I will say, as weird as it is, it kind of needed to happen because it forced us to, like, look at ourselves and be like, this has to change. And we've been in therapy, and it's getting better, so I'm. I'm feeling hopeful about that, and we'll see what happens? But we're definitely working through it.

[A]

How does he feel about you, about seeing the show? Cuz you talk about being emotionally abused. You tell the girls kind of what happened with Marciano. Like, we see how Jordan is handling this in real time. Not too well. No obvious, like, goes without saying. Like, it's a hard situation. But now he's seeing this back.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

So what's happened? Is it worse for him now? What's going on?

[B]

I would say it was hard, obviously, when he found out, then we dealt with it for six months, and then my cast found out. So then we had to film. So it kind of reopened the wound.

[A]

Right.

[B]

So you see all that? And then I would say, like, watching the show back, we made an agreement not to watch it with each other because we knew we were honest with each other. Like, I talked about this, I said this. But watching it could be triggering. So we watched a few episodes together, not the whole thing. And he had done a lot of therapy at that point, so I feel like he actually handled it way better than I thought he was going to. But having the public know, like, the show comes out tomorrow as we're filming this, and no one's seen it yet, so we actually have no idea what the reaction will be. People could hate me. They could hate him. I have no idea. I'm sure I'll get a lot of hate. I'm prepared for it, but I just. I have no idea how that'll, like, affect us.

[A]

Jesse, I have to say, you owned it really quick.

[B]

Thanks.

[A]

And I was noticing what everybody was saying about you, because at the beginning, it was like, you didn't show up to something. And it was like, Jesse's never sick. Jesse always shows up. Jesse, you know, everything is always perfect with Jesse. Like, you never know anything's going on. Nothing ever looks wrong. She's sick, she's there. And I was like, damn, that's a lot to live up to. No.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

You know what I mean?

[B]

Yeah. So it's the business owner in me. Like, I have no choice, you know, Like, I'm a mom, I'm a business owner. I have to show up. And I'm good at putting the mask on, too, because I, like, numbed in my marriage with what was going on. So I would, like, be in this abusive situation and then have to, like, put on a happy face and go film or go work, you know?

[A]

So no one ever knew anything was up with you?

[B]

Not really. My family, like, knew. Like, they picked up on it, but I didn't Confide in people the way I have now.

[A]

So your mom, who's here. Yeah. Such a cutie. Looks amazing. Great jeans. Yes. She said on the show, I'm surprised it didn't happen sooner. Or it should have happened sooner.

[B]

Should have left him sooner.

[A]

Right. So how does she feel about reconciling?

[B]

My family was so supportive. Like, they definitely felt like I deserved better. And when I told them about what happened, they weren't really that surprised because they were like, yeah, like, something was going to happen at some point. Like, look how he treated you. But the reconciling, I think they. We have two kids. Like, I think they were like, if that's what's gonna, you know, work for you guys, then do it. Like, that's obviously the choice everyone would want. And my family is really close with his family, so it would actually be really hard if, like, we ended up getting divorced because they're best friends. We have a good thing going outside of the toxicity. But they had seen us a whole therapy. That was a weird sentence to say. I'm like, the people around us are great. It's just us that we said.

[A]

What you. You chose not to really describe the emotional abuse. Yeah. You're labeling it, but, like, can you give us any? Yeah. What were you going through?

[B]

It was just a lot of, like, belittling, control, name calling, talking down. Just, like, breaking my confidence. Like, it. I don't think he even realized it fully what he had done to me until we were in therapy and now he realizes it. But, yeah, I think that that scene where he's yelling at me on the couch, Just imagine, like, if he's willing to do that on camera, how it.

[A]

Was behind the scenes when you were crying.

[B]

Yeah. So that's just kind of what it.

[A]

Was like, a lot.

[B]

So it was hard.

[A]

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[B]

Yeah.

[A]

I was feeling like maybe part of you. Like you said you are glad that it happened but like you were kind of like maybe there was an inkling in you that was okay with it all blowing up because then you can get out 100% but then you're not out.

[B]

Yeah. I think it was like the reality of like they didn't show much of our separation but we had a hotel where he would go for two nights. I would go and we filmed. And like it was the reality of co parenting and doing it alone and how our two kids were affected. And I think it just hit me like this is really hard and really scary and it would be my second divorce and I want to make sure like I want to walk away from this with no regrets. And we're also filming a show so like we're in a separation but we also have to film together and talk about this every day. That's not a normal separation.

[A]

Right.

[B]

So it was almost like we didn't really give ourselves a chance to process it. So I was like cameras are going down. I actually now feel like I can try to make this work and See, and give it my all. And if it doesn't work out a year from now. I tried. So I'm kind of like in that mindset where I'm like, doing that and he knows that, like, we're both aware of the situation where we're like, we're going to make it work and we're going to try for our kids and for us. And if it doesn't work, we gave it our all. And if it does, great. Like, it's a marriage. You don't want to give up that easily.

[A]

Right.

[B]

But yeah.

[A]

Is he over it? Like, has he forgiven you?

[B]

Yes and no. I feel like he still holds on to some resentment, which is human.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And especially with the show coming out, it's triggering, you know?

[A]

Right. But are you scared for how he's gonna handle or, like, if he's gonna see go down a tick tock web of people being like, he should leave her? Like, I've been trying to warn him. Okay.

[B]

Like, you're gonna see things online that may, like, sway you.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And I. I think he, like, thinks he is gonna handle it well. And maybe he will. But I also know that, like, going into getting hate online, you always think it's going to be fine and it's harder than you expect.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

So I don't know. I am a little worried because he hasn't dealt with that before, whereas I'm kind of used to it. Like.

[A]

Right.

[B]

A show. You always.

[A]

I mean, they have dad talk now. Now.

[B]

Yeah. The business at stake.

[A]

Is that a thing?

[B]

No, it really is.

[A]

They have shirts.

[B]

Yes. They have merch.

[A]

They.

[B]

What's going on? I mean, him and Dakota in love. I always tease them. I'm like, really? Just best, best, best friends.

[A]

How do you feel about that? Do you like Dakota?

[B]

Okay. Yeah. So Dakota's made dumb decision right there.

[A]

Really? I forgot he open. Yeah. He was like, I can't believe you didn't tell me sooner. Like brothers.

[B]

Yes. Oh, they're obsessed with each other. Like, he stayed in our hotel room here, like the first night we got here. Like, slept on the pullout couch.

[A]

Oh, my God.

[B]

No, I actually really like Dakota. He's a good guy. He's just made some dumb decisions.

[A]

Like, he's not a good partner. Maybe.

[B]

And I don't think he's good for Taylor. I think they should not be together. But I love Taylor and I love Dakota. Obviously. Taylor's my girl. Like, she's who my loyalties with. But I actually do think Dakota is a really good person. He's just. He's got to get it together, you know?

[A]

That's so funny. They became so close, like, because of the show.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

Is that how they met?

[B]

They met first season. Yeah. So they just, like, got really close and they just confided in each other, especially with this. And then Dakota and Taylor, like, Jordan would be there for him, so they kind of, like, trauma bonded, I'm sure, like, over me and Taylor.

[A]

It was it. Isn't it scary for you guys? Like, even Michaela is having some issues on the show, which I didn't know.

[B]

Until I really watched it back. It was so sad.

[A]

She's so vulnerable and opens up about everything she's been through, but the marriage part, and then it's like, who's safe?

[B]

No one. Not in Utah.

[A]

What is hap. Not in Utah. On a reality TV show like that, too. What is going on?

[B]

Well, I think hers is a lot of childhood trauma that I think she's just now dealing with. And when you're on a show, you have to face a lot of your emotions, so they come to the surface.

[A]

Right.

[B]

So I think that was mainly her thing. I do think her and Jace are solid.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Every marriage goes through things, and that's such a real struggle with what she went through and. But Jace is such a good guy. He really is.

[A]

Yeah. He does seem like a really sweet guy. Also, just a general question about these dads.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

Because we talked about the emasculating issue with Jordan. Somebody mentioned on the show that he feels a type of way about you making more money.

[B]

Yeah. Yeah.

[A]

Have you noticed that, like, in your marriage?

[B]

Yeah. I feel like men need, like, work as, like, a sense of identity and it gives them purpose. And he stopped working, like, two or three years ago, and I've been the one bringing in the money and having some success, and I feel like it just threatened his ego. Not in, like, a way he was even aware of, but I think it really just rocked his, like, Persona. Like, he's like, who am I? What am I doing? You know? And I think Zach went through it similarly with Jen in season one. And maybe it's something with the church, but just being raised that, like, the man's the head of the household and they take care of the family and they're the breadwinner.

[A]

Right. But so many of these, the dads aren't. No, they're all, like, leaning into this influencer life. Right.

[B]

But they also don't want to be full time dads either. Like, they want to have their cake and Eat it too, sometimes.

[A]

Because. Well said. Connor said he left his job.

[B]

Yeah, I think they all have. Honestly, they all have every.

[A]

Why? Because you girls are making money. And they're like, we don't have to.

[B]

Well, that. And we film the show, and you have to just kind of be available at all times. So it would be hard for someone to have a 9 to 5.

[A]

And they were having regular, Regular jobs.

[B]

Jordan would sell solar, and he would go to California, to Chicago, to Texas, and he'd be gone for, like, the whole summer. Summer. And so that was hard for me once I had my second baby, and I was also, like, running three businesses. I was like, you cannot be gone. And I. I was making enough money, so it didn't matter. He actually quit his job before the show, so that was before.

[A]

But, well, everyone said, by the way, your house is gorgeous.

[B]

Oh, thank you.

[A]

And I feel like the girls make comments sometimes. To me. Made a comment about last season or something. She was like, well, Jesse doesn't have to worry about money because, like, she's.

[B]

She sits on an empire.

[A]

Yeah. And Layla made a comment to Jordan, like, are you paying her for, like, staying at the house? Yeah. What. What did he feel about that comment?

[B]

Oh, he hates it. And him and Layla kind of butted heads this season with her having an opinion. So I think he was, like, annoyed. But I think that, yeah, it just affects, like, his masculinity. Like, it's really funny. But for me, I'm like, as long as one of us is providing.

[A]

So it doesn't. The question is, does it take away anything from how you feel about him? Like, like, if. If he's not working or, like, whatever. Yeah. Do you feel like that affects kind of your attraction to him or.

[B]

In the beginning, especially because he quit and, like, I had a hand in that because I was like, I have two kids. I can't have you gone.

[A]

Right.

[B]

So, like, I needed him to quit, but I thought he would, like, maybe find something. But then the show came out, and it was hard because, like, our schedules were crazy. But there was a period of time where, like, he has a golf membership to, like, a country club, and he just was golfing all day, every day. And I was like, okay, like, this needs to change. So I will say now, with dad talk, like, he. He is, like, doing things that, like, help us, you know, like, he's getting some brand deals. Like, okay, I'm usually attached to them, so I will be honest. Like, he's not getting them without me. Sorry, Jordan. But, like, he's doing some things to bring in money, and he's doing something that he enjoys and he likes doing the show. Maybe after the third season, he's not so sure, but he's doing something now. And also, I gave him, like, when we moved into the new house, I was like, now you're in charge of the house. Like, anything with the house. So, like, he's taken that on, and that helps me.

[A]

So it's hard because when I was watching it, he did mention the. The feeling emasculated part.

[B]

Yes.

[A]

And what I was wondering with him, like, what do you think, like, was his reaction and hurt more about what you did and, like, you're my wife, you know? Or was how much was an ego thing? Because, like, by the way, he's not alone in this. This isn't a Jordan then thing. Men have huge egos. Yeah. Like, I don't think my husband would forgive me if I cheated on him, to be honest.

[B]

Oh, yeah.

[A]

Like, he wouldn't.

[B]

And also, like, if he cheated on me, I would have slashed his tires. So, like, to be fair, it's like, a totally real reaction.

[A]

Yeah, it's a totally real reaction. But just the way he was talking about feeling emasculated, like, how big was that, do you think, for him, versus, like, you know, if nobody knew, for instance.

[B]

No, that was a big part of it. Watching it back, especially, like, I felt that way in the moment, but watching it back, I think he said it, like, 10 times, and I was like, okay, so I actually think that was huge. He was just embarrassed of being emasculated. But I always told him, I'm like, it doesn't feel genuine when you talk about it because the energy doesn't match. Like, you're saying you're so sad, but then the ego comes out. So I do feel like that was a huge thing. And in therapy, like, I brought that up a lot. So, like, anything I say now, like, I've said to him.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And I was very honest. I was like, that was so unattractive because it was almost like you didn't care about me. It was just, like, the idea of me. And he's realized that. So we've definitely talked that through. And I think that was. You're, like, spot on.

[A]

Yeah. Okay. Well, I do really wish you guys to work it out. If it's meant to happen.

[B]

Yes. I mean, we have two kids, so I really do hope. And I will say, like, he's grown a lot and he's made a lot of changes that six Months ago, he couldn't have been this person. So I think watching yourself back and having it happen publicly, it kind of holds you accountable. So it's been good. Like, as weird as that sounds, like we needed it.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

But we'll see.

[A]

You know, he probably doesn't like you saying that.

[B]

No, he said this needed to happen.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Not necessarily the cheating, but, like, our dynamic coming to light. Like, people knowing about how he treated me, like that needed to come out.

[A]

Like, he realizes that how he treated you wasn't okay. Yeah, like, he gets that.

[B]

I hope so. I mean, he does, but I think that he's really realized it. Just the last couple months of, like, having. Seeing the episodes, talking about it more, that's really, I think, what made him realize.

[A]

I can't wait to see how he's gonna feel when it all comes out.

[B]

I know.

[A]

Which, by the way, it's gonna be out by the time our episode comes out.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

So. But wait, so when you guys went out to TomTom and everything happened, did he ask you, what are these rumors about? Yeah.

[B]

Oh, yeah. So, okay, the rumors came out, like, maybe a week later, like, a few days later. And, yeah, I just laughed him off. I was like, we were out together. Like, you knew it. Like, whatever. And he. I remember we were at a restaurant when one of the drama videos came out about it. And I remember Jordan was like, you should, like. I think he was kind of onto it. So he was like, you should text him and, like, see what he says about this. And I was like, oh, no. So I, like, had to text him real quick and be like, I'm about to text you. Just pretend. So I. That I texted him, and I was like, oh, we just saw these rumors. Isn't it crazy? And he Marciano responded and was like, oh, yeah, that's so stupid. Like. And so, like, that covered me for a minute. But again, the affair only lasted two weeks, so that was one weekend. The next week, it was over. And then when he did find out, obviously, he was like, I. I had a feeling, like, he knew.

[A]

He said, how did you decide to.

[B]

Tell him he found out? He went through my phone.

[A]

Oh, he went through your phone. So you weren't deleting?

[B]

No, I should have. Wait, did I. No, I think I had. I deleted, like, occasionally. But, like, and I was in such a weird headspace. Like, I wasn't trying to be sneaky. It was just happening. So I wasn't doing, like, anything to really prevent it, which is, again, a cry for help, I think.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

I don't. Maybe. Yeah. I feel like maybe I wanted to get caught because I was, like, so miserable. But no, he. He went through my phone and found out, and it was really bad, and.

[A]

All hell broke loose.

[B]

Yes. But again, I'm so glad he found out. Two weeks in before it, like, spirals, you know?

[A]

So when he found out, is that when you cut it off?

[B]

Yes.

[A]

Okay.

[B]

Yes, I was.

[A]

That's when you were like, we can't speak anymore.

[B]

Yes. And then we didn't talk again until we filmed and we. I saw him with, like, the lie detector, and there were still some unresolved feelings. Like, I think I was a little too nice to him.

[A]

You were.

[B]

I was. For sure. I'm like, I'm gonna.

[A]

You were like, get it? You were, like, vibing. Yeah, I know you were vibing.

[B]

There was a reason. But also, watching back, I was so embarrassed. I was like, ew.

[A]

What was the reason? What do you mean?

[B]

I wanted him to take the lie detector, so I had to, like, butter him up so he would be willing. I also wanted to know the truth about why he lied, what Demi really did. Like, I just had so many questions.

[A]

What answers did we get? Let's recap.

[B]

What.

[A]

What answers did we get?

[B]

Well, he told us they kissed, which she denies, so who knows?

[A]

But he's also a liar.

[B]

He's also a liar. So he screwed himself over by lying about me because no one believes anything.

[A]

Right.

[B]

But he also told me that she had coerced. And they had been talking for a while to, like, have my story come out. And he showed me all the text messages. Like, I got actually a lot of information. A lot of the receipts I had at the reunion, I had those. But also, like, there were some unresolved feelings. I'm not going to lie. Like, it was, like, the first time I'd seen him since it all ended. And even though we had ended badly and, like, it needed to end. Like, I had confided in him about my marriage with Jordan because there was no one else I could talk to.

[A]

And he's, like, a good person to talk to him.

[B]

No, he's not. But I needed something.

[A]

Okay.

[B]

Yeah. Because at the time, I didn't feel like I could talk to my friends or family because then they would, like. They knew, obviously, from, like, viewing things, but if I opened up, it would be really hard to go back. And I was just trying to pretend it was all good.

[A]

So.

[B]

So he was an unbiased third party that I could just talk to. And so I Had a little connection with him because of that.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And so I. There were still some unresolved things, but not that I was in love with him. I just. I hadn't seen him in so long.

[A]

It was like seeing, like, an ex of some sort.

[B]

Yeah. And looking back, I was in a weird headspace. I genuinely thought I was getting divorced. Like, it was really bad with me and Jordan. You saw him yell at me when I go home. That's how it was every day. So, yeah, I was in a weird headspace.

[A]

You wish you weren't as nice to him.

[B]

Yeah. Yeah. Especially with, like, how he lied about me. Like, I was so pissed. I wish I would have been a little harsher and, like, said my truth. Yeah.

[A]

And what was his reason for lying? That's what I don't get.

[B]

I think, to me, was definitely coercing him and to, like, this will get the heat off of her. And I think he had feelings for her, too. So he was like, oh, what the hell. Oh, for sure. Yeah. He was, like, in love with her at the Village.

[A]

Really?

[B]

Yes. Like, it was very known to everyone.

[A]

So somebody mentioned this. I don't know if it was Taylor, one of the other wives, women said, like, they wouldn't want to be his, like, number two.

[B]

Oh, yeah. Taylor was like, well, if he. She. He chose to. Me first, I wouldn't want to be number two.

[A]

So how do you feel about that, though?

[B]

That's Taylor's trauma talking, because she was, like, Dakota's second choice with all the other girls, he chose over her, you know? So I knew where that was coming from with Taylor. But for me, again, it wasn't about Marciano or him. Like, you're not even hurt.

[A]

You weren't like, you don't care that he had a thing for.

[B]

No, it was just someone giving me attention, and I needed that because I.

[A]

Could tell that you don't care.

[B]

No.

[A]

Unless you're, like, literally a robot.

[B]

Not jealous at all.

[A]

I.

[B]

Not a jealous person at all.

[A]

I could tell.

[B]

I just was like, whatever. So.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Yeah. There were reasons.

[A]

I think Taylor really nails it. Like, yeah, like, you two and her. Like, she says it how it is. Like, you guys chose her to be the leader.

[B]

She is our leader, officially. Yes.

[A]

The leader of mom talk. But she does talk. Like, she makes her love life kind of mistakes. Maybe sometimes, but she owns it. Talks a lot of sense. Like.

[B]

Yeah. And it's the only way. Like, on reality, you can't have secrets. So, like, you have to own it.

[A]

You know, you have to Own it.

[B]

But she also does not care about money, which I love about Taylor.

[A]

That is.

[B]

Like, she would never throw someone under the bus for that. Whereas Demi might.

[A]

Demi wanted three times.

[B]

Yes.

[A]

Whitney comes back to the show for the Dancing with the Stars opportunity. Pops back up. Pops right up. Yeah. Was that. What was that? So you guys thought going into it, Whitney and Demi are not filming.

[B]

They're out.

[A]

They're out.

[B]

They both had literally, like, we're officially done. Like, Connor sent Jordan a text. Like, we feel so good about our decision. We're not coming back. Like, we thought they were done, done.

[A]

And then they get the email.

[B]

Yes, she was coerced back.

[A]

For sure.

[B]

She was coerced back, and we were dying. Like, when she came back, I was just like, yeah, I'm here for that. Like, I think that's why Taylor was like, what? Like, we were all like. And we were a little hurt. Cause we're like, you're not here for the friendships. Like, you don't care about that. And she's like, no. So we were like, okay.

[A]

But she changed her tune after that. She did.

[B]

It was a defense mechanism.

[A]

So you believe that you think that she does care about you guys?

[B]

Yes, I think she was really hurt. And just like, I was the Bill in season one. Like, I. These girls hurt me. Like, obviously, her feelings were valid, but I think that she was just trying to have, like, a tough exterior to not get.

[A]

You do?

[B]

Yeah, I do.

[A]

And why do you think Demetan come back?

[B]

She didn't want to get caught in her lies.

[A]

Yeah. Yeah.

[B]

100. And she's stubborn. Like, she wants more money. She thinks she's worthy of it. She. She was a fan favorite, and that went straight to her head. Like, I saw.

[A]

What is this fan favorite mean? Because that's. I don't think that was said anywhere.

[B]

Okay, so what it was is on top the ranking. Did you ever see that filter?

[A]

No.

[B]

No, you didn't?

[A]

Oh, no. It was brutal.

[B]

So people had a ranking of us 1 through 10, and they would rank our faces as their favorite to least favorite. And she was always number one.

[A]

Like, it was filter as a filter.

[B]

It was like, it was a game they would play where they would, like, take the head and knock it over to, like, the spot they wanted it in. And it was either her. Taylor always number one. So I think that just, like, skyrocketed her confidence, and she came into season two very different. Like, it was an overnight switch, and.

[A]

Now she's a master villainess. Yes.

[B]

And I don't know if she'll ever be able to drop that title because I think season three made her look worse than two.

[A]

It's either lean in or go home.

[B]

And maybe that's what she's doing. Maybe she thinks it will get her more money.

[A]

No, but, like, I think at this point, you're, like, a beautiful villain.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

And like rocket and just rock it.

[B]

Because, yeah, I think that might be her strategy now. Who knows? But Demi thinks she's right. That's the weird thing is, like, she's not trying to be a villain, maybe, but, like, she.

[A]

She is convinced. Like, she does have a very.

[B]

Like, she's very eloquent and she's very passionate. So you believe her. Like, is there. Does that scene in there where she, like, talks to Whitney and Whitney, like, believes her, and then Whitney goes home and talks? No wonder about when she's like, yeah. And then she goes home and she's, like, talking to her. She's like, wait. And then she doordashed him food and figuring it out in real time. Like, you can see how Demi manipulates people. It happened to me a lot.

[A]

You were close with her, actually.

[B]

Yeah, totally.

[A]

Yeah. So would you say the friendship fell out because of Marciano stuff or. It goes deeper than that.

[B]

Started with Contract season one, and then the hair drama, and we actually ended our friendship before the Marciano stuff came to be, so we were already done. And then she found out about it because she had a conversation with Marciano and Sheena. They were having like a three way phone call, and I think he told her on the phone call and we were already done. But then she heard about it, and that's when she was like, oh. And I think that's why she was willing to take it public because we weren't friends anymore. And that just really, like, put the nail in the coffin.

[A]

It really sounded on the show like her and Marciano have, like, a relationship.

[B]

Thank you. Yes, it does. Like, doesn't it?

[A]

Like, like they talk all the time.

[B]

I mean, did you see that scene where Layla's confronting her and she's, like, scrolling through all her texts with him? It was like a novel. But she's like, no, no, nothing happened. I'm like, you don't talk to another man that much if nothing happened.

[A]

But her husband seems like he would be pretty, like, on top of it. So what do you think is going on there?

[B]

I think she can be very convincing.

[A]

Oh, you do?

[B]

I do.

[A]

And do you think he. You think he believes her about everything that went down? No.

[B]

Actually, after the villa, he, like, came to Jordan at the gym a few times because they work out together, and he was very like, I'm sick to my stomach. Do you think something happened? Like, he kept asking, and then there was a day where we were all hanging out at my house, and he asked Taylor the same thing. He was like, I just feel like something's off.

[A]

And what did everybody say?

[B]

Well, at the time, we were all just like, no, nothing happened because we were friends with her. And I. I was definitely, like, covering my true thoughts on that at the moment. But, no, I think he knew. But now that it's gotten to this point, I think he's just like, maybe they have, like, a truth pact of, like, we'll just cover each other. Like, I don't know. I'm just saying that. But, like, I think he does buy it now, which is interesting.

[A]

Do you think she could ever come back to Mom Talk?

[B]

I'm gonna try to be professional if she does, like, if she ever wants to, like, be in Mom Talk again. No one's really that close with her outside of Whitney, so she could. I'll. I'll be around her if I need to, but it just sucks when you have to fight with a co worker. Like, you saw us at that Hydro Jug event. Like, I'm screaming at her. I'm sure it would get to that.

[A]

No, when she. Listen, like I said this season, you guys, if you haven't binged at all, but if you're listening, you probably did already. When she goes like this to you.

[B]

It was so surreal, right?

[A]

What? I had to rewind. Yeah.

[B]

And it's been in every trailer. It's so funny because it's so unbelievable.

[A]

I didn't even see it in the trailer. Glad I got to experience.

[B]

Well, the fact that we were in, like, what, tea party dresses and we were at the Grand America, like, it was such. Not the, like, vibe.

[A]

Savage. Like, I don't. I don't even know the word for what she does. Like, that moment of, like, this in a fucking dress. Yes.

[B]

I felt like I was, like, out of my body watching that. It was the weirdest thing.

[A]

And then also when she told Layla, like, I'm about to go live. I'm about to.

[B]

I'm go live about Jesse.

[A]

Oh, my God. I was getting, like, heart palpitations.

[B]

I thought that was going to happen. Like, Layla called me, and I was like, it's over tonight. And this was before anyone knew the season had even come out.

[A]

She was about to go live.

[B]

Yeah, she was. I don't know what stopped her. I'm not sure. But.

[A]

Well, the producer came over.

[B]

Yeah. And they were like, no, no, no.

[A]

This season, that's how you know this is all real. Right.

[B]

That and like that air hump scene. Like someone filmed on an iPhone. Our cameras weren't even there. Like, thank God they caught it. But, like, that's real. Like, it's so real. It sucks that it's real.

[A]

That was crazy. Like, you can never be friends with her again after something like that.

[B]

Never. Like, we tried for a minute. Like, you'll see at the end of the season, like, we come together and everyone, like, apologizes.

[A]

They didn't give us episode 10.

[B]

You didn't see it. Yes. You need to watch. And I will say, like, at that point, I was so exhausted of, like, my marriage falling apart, separation, fighting with Demi, I was like, I'm just going to try to, like, put it to the side.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Then a few months later, I saw her true colors again. So I'm like, I'm done with you. Like, I'll never, ever be her friend again.

[A]

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[B]

Yeah.

[A]

With you. You were friends.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

At that point.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

So that's crazy.

[B]

Best friends. Yeah.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And I hadn't done her hair yet when she said that, so she didn't even know. That's what was wild to me.

[A]

How does it work if they come to you? Do they get it for freezes if they post? But they don't have to post. Not.

[B]

I mean they don't really. Sometimes. Sometimes they do. Sometimes the girls are good at it. Sometimes they forget, which is fine. But I feel like I am the one. I said it in season two, like, free extensions, free color, freestyling. I style their hair on girls trips. I'm always doing the hair.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And I love doing it, so I'm not complaining. But when something like that happens with, to me, it's like, oh, like, were you just taking advantage then? Because you asked me to style your hair every other day. Yeah, she got free wash and styles at my hair school and she would take advantage of that, like, three times a week. And so I'm like, why? It was just shocking.

[A]

What is the, like, advantages and disadvantages of having your business, like, showcase on the show? Like, advantages, visibility. People know about it, but it gets caught up in, like, drama.

[B]

Yes.

[A]

Like, people talk about it's good, not good. This season we had Layla's issue, which you were so understanding about.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

And is understandable. But again, it, like, comes up and you said, yeah, I'm learning this still. But so how do you feel about, like, the business being there's like, pros and cons.

[B]

The pro is that Jay Z Styles is the only landmark on Secret Lives that you can go visit. Like, people stop in and take pictures. And we film our confessionals there at the warehouse. So people get to see us sometimes. Like, we're usually there. So people love that. And it's been great for the business. Like, season one came out. Our curling iron sold out in 24 hours. It was great. But yeah, the downsides are when people attack it or say bad things. Like, it scares me and I'm so protective of it. It's my family. Like, it's our family business. We built this from nothing. And I employ literally all my family. My dad's my business partner. So when someone attacks it, it doesn't just feel like they're attacking my source of income. It's my family. And it's something we've all worked really hard for. So that's why I, like, get emotional about it.

[A]

No, of course. So do you ever think, like, was it worth it to. To have it, like, on the show?

[B]

Yeah, it was worth it. Like, I. What it's done for my stylist. Like, they're all so busy now. It's worth it. But it sucks when I feel like I have to defend it when I'm pretty well respected in the industry. Like, I've been teaching hair classes for seven years. Like, I. I mean, I had a multimillion dollar business before the show, so it wasn't just an overnight Success because of the show.

[A]

Right.

[B]

So I just get defensive. Cause I'm like, I've worked for 10 years for this. Like, you know.

[A]

Do you still do hair?

[B]

I do occasionally. There is no way I could take clients now.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And so that's hard. But I do it for content. I do the girl's hair. I do friends and family occasionally. But now it's fun for me.

[A]

Like you do your own.

[B]

I do. Or my mom does it, which is.

[A]

Oh, yeah, I did see your mom doing my hair.

[B]

This whole press tour, it's been nice.

[A]

Okay. And you've done something different with the hair.

[B]

Yes.

[A]

You took out a lot of extensions or something. I like it.

[B]

Thank you. I like it lighter. Fake. Karen. But in season two, I think I had like 24 inches and it was really long. And I'm five two, so that was kind of.

[A]

Right. Right. Like, it's a height thing.

[B]

Yes.

[A]

Like, when you're taller, maybe you could do longer.

[B]

Yes. Because 24 inches is here on you, whereas on me it's like, here.

[A]

Right. But you did maybe like a tick tock or a story or something when you had none in. Right?

[B]

Yes, I've done a lot. Yeah. And my hair's actually grown quite a bit because I've been like, I was dark for a while, so not having lightener on it was helpful.

[A]

Right.

[B]

And then I went blonde again. But it's gotten a lot healthier than it used to be.

[A]

But everyone has extensions. Everyone in Utah or everywhere.

[B]

Utah is such a vain state. Like, there is how many salons on our corner? Like, 52 salons on our street. I swear, like, everyone's getting lashes, Botox, hair. It's just a thing in our culture. So it's like perfectionism and Mormonism.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

We all love to, like, look perfect and sound perfect and act perfect.

[A]

Right.

[B]

Which benefits my business. I love it.

[A]

But you also opened up about other cosmetic stuff.

[B]

Yes. Yeah.

[A]

What did you do? Oh, God, not nostrils.

[B]

Yes. I tucked them. It's not a full nose job. They just like, kind of flared a little and I just tucked them in.

[A]

Are you happy with it?

[B]

So happy.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Yes.

[A]

You were like, my nostrils flare too much.

[B]

Yeah, I was just like, they're a little too wide.

[A]

Did this start because of watching yourself on camera?

[B]

Honestly, not even watching myself. It was the hate I got after I got so many hate comments. You look old. You look like a man. Like, you are so ugly. Like, it was really flooded. Yeah. And I had a lot of filler. Looking back, I'm like, Oh, I do look old. And I dissolved it all.

[A]

Okay.

[B]

That made a huge difference. So I did. I did start to feel self conscious because of the comments I got.

[A]

But that's terrible.

[B]

Thank you. I mean, just part of being on tv, people are so mean. But it's like every woman has insecurities, right?

[A]

But when you're public and when you're public and then it does happen that you see yourself from this angle and that angle and you're like, oh, so you thought your nostrils flared too much? Nobody tried to talk you out of it and say, I'm sure my mom did.

[B]

She's like, you're beautiful. Yeah, thanks, Mom. But I just. It was actually always an insecurity of mine. I feel like it was a little too wide. So I went to the doctor. My husband got a hair transplant through this doctor. And I just was in Jordan's appointment with him and just asked him about it and he's like, oh, you don't even need a nail job. We could just tuck it. It's like a 10 minute procedure. And I was like, oh, I didn't have to get put under. It was very minor. Oh, yeah, it was really quick.

[A]

You didn't have to get put under. No lack of trying to picture it just like our. Do they have to detach and then attach?

[B]

Do you see, like, these little lines just like very subtle right there, like, barely. I know it's really subtle, but like. Yeah, they literally just like cut a little bit and sewed it down. So it was crazy. Oh, and also I got the CO2 laser.

[A]

Okay.

[B]

I heard of my face off. I looked like a raisin. And I did the nose at the same time because we had three weeks off filming, so I was like, I'm going to do it now. And then they pick back up. And I still kind of had, like, CO2 aftermath.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

So in the first episode, I think you, like, my face is, like, so red when I'm talking to Jordan.

[A]

Oh, right. It was.

[B]

It looked like I had, like, so much acne. And that was the CO2 laser. Because I had no idea that was going to be happening. I'm like, I wouldn't have done it.

[A]

With the CO2 laser. I heard that, like, people were like, wait till you're older. People said that because they really, like, I love it. Yeah.

[B]

It, like, just made my skin, like, softer and brighter. It just takes off the first layer of it. So it's not like it, like, helps with aging, but, like, it just makes you look like more refreshed.

[A]

Okay.

[B]

It was great. So I've done that. The nose, I did an under eye pinch. Very subtle as well.

[A]

What is that?

[B]

Basically the same thing as the nose. It's not a full bl. They just take a tiny bit. You don't have to be put under. And just like, if you have bags or like loose skin, it just tightens it a little.

[A]

It does look really tight.

[B]

Thanks. I'm really tired right now, so it probably looks terrible, but.

[A]

No, it looks good.

[B]

But yeah, just minor tweaks that I feel like have helped me. I don't think I'll ever go overboard. Like, I don't want to be getting 20 plastic surgeries or anything, but they've helped me a little bit with my confidence. And you know what? A lot of celebrities do this and they just don't talk about it.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And so I feel like it's good to be transparent. So people don't just have this, like, unattainable expectation of beauty.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

But a lot of celebrities are, like, talking about it now. It's kind of a trend.

[A]

Like, I mean, Kris Jenner talked about it. She's 70, but we don't have to be expected. Right. But we don't have, like, young actresses that obviously did something.

[B]

When you interviewed her, was it after the facelift?

[A]

Right.

[B]

Did she look amazing?

[A]

Amazing.

[B]

I, like, see her and I'm like, you're 35.

[A]

Like, so this is what I say. Like, she doesn't look 35, you know, but. Yeah, but she looks amazing.

[B]

Great for 70.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Well, I will say I met Chloe. I think you guys see it in the season. We met Chloe and Scott at the Unreal event.

[A]

Oh, my God. Taylor told him that he was Dakota.

[B]

Oh, yeah. She's like, we have a Laura. Yeah.

[A]

I was like, oh, my God.

[B]

Oh, my God. I don't know if I would say maybe, but I will say Chloe looks like a filter. Like, in person. You've met her.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

She was so beautiful. I was like, I thought it was.

[A]

And so tall.

[B]

But you're so pretty.

[A]

She probably hovered over you like crazy.

[B]

I'm five two. She's like, not five two.

[A]

Oh, my God. Okay.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

Okay. Whitney.

[B]

Oh, Whitney.

[A]

Whitney. And Dancing with the Stars. So when both of them got into Dancing with the Stars, Jen and Whitney, you guys all were there supporting. Yeah. But then we watched a season and we see every. So catch me up to speed.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

So friends? Not friends.

[B]

So, okay. So you. I guess you don't see the last episode yet.

[A]

Okay. Where we all come together.

[B]

A little bit. We have, like, a little get together where Whitney admits, like, it was a defense mechanism. And, like, I do love you guys, and I want to be a part of this.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

So there had been a lot of progress since, you know, the season was filmed, but, yeah. No, I'm so proud of Whitney. Like, she is killing it. This is her calling. She is meant to be an entertainer. Yeah. Me and Whitney are great. We went to Europe together. I think she did your podcast right after Europe.

[A]

Okay.

[B]

And I'm not gonna lie. And we both said this to each other. Like, we got paired for that, and we were like, oh, great.

[A]

Like, what? Got paired to go to Europe.

[B]

To go to Europe for our press tour for season two. And it was just me and her.

[A]

And you were like, what?

[B]

And I was like, I'm not really friends with Whitney. Like, season two ended kind of awkward. Like, I don't know. But we had the best time, and we got really close, and it changed our friendship. I felt like. And. Yeah. And then she quit, so I was like, oh, dang. And then she came back, and we were a little hurt because of, you know, I'm only here for this opportunity, which felt a little weird.

[A]

Right.

[B]

But then she explained it. Things were fine. And Whitney, deep down, I think she's just misunderstood. I really do.

[A]

And I think she's getting so much love now. Yes.

[B]

Which is great.

[A]

I mean, the thing is that it made me think about is, like, and this should make any, you know, new reality star, maybe even Demi. Yeah. Have some hope. But things can turn around for you.

[B]

The audience changes their thoughts very quickly.

[A]

I will say, like, the audience hated Whitney. Yes. And now. And now she's their queen. Yes.

[B]

Which, honestly, good for Whitney for sticking with it and not just running away.

[A]

And, you know, and also not giving a saying. Like, I want to do Dancing with the Stars.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

Love me or hate me. And she kept on being her the whole time.

[B]

Yeah, she did.

[A]

She just got them to love her.

[B]

Yep. And that just kind of shows you that the audience can be fickle at times.

[A]

The audience. Do you think she's gonna win?

[B]

I think she's a really good chance. I know she'll make it to the finale. Like, she is so talented.

[A]

Like, it's crazy that you're saying this, because I'm literally flashing back to her saying that she got, like, extensions in the last episode. When. The last episode. And then she said, it's not Jay Z. I refuse.

[B]

She did shape me a little bit, actually. Watching that back, I was like, Damn. Why am I supporting her? Because she did shave my business. Just kidding. I will say, at that time, things were still a little up and down with Whitney and me. And then also she's back best friends with Demi, so she is buying what Demi's selling at the time. But, yeah, I did see that, and I was like, damn.

[A]

And what do you think about Jen on Dancing with the Stars?

[B]

I was so sad when she got voted off. We were there in the audience, so it was, like, kind of.

[A]

Do you think it was, like, bittersweet?

[B]

I do. I feel like she should have made it at least a few more weeks. And, yeah, for, you know, being postpartum, like, she made it seven weeks. That's incredible. I know she was really shocked and, like, sad, and it's been sad, but she also, like, honestly needed a break, so I'm really happy she's been able to have some down time. But she's so talented, too. And I love seeing, like, Jen's element is, like, when they did the dance a thon on the Halloween episode, and she got to just, like, let loose. That's her element. Not so much, like, trained stuff that was new to her, but just, like, having fun with it. So I hope she gets to do more with that type of thing.

[A]

Were you guys jealous when they got the Dancing with the Stars?

[B]

No. Well, I don't know if everyone wasn't, but I think you see me interview for it.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

I was like, don't give it to me.

[A]

No. You were literally like, nope, nope. Don't dance. Nope. Just for fun on TikTok, I was like, are you trying to get this woman?

[B]

No, I wasn't. And also, we knew it was, like, Whitney and Jen's dream. So, like, I would never been, like, give it to me. But also, I would be so embarrassed. I would go home night one. I would be like, when Kim Kardashian did it and, like, she didn't go very far. That would be me. Like, I'm not.

[A]

You didn't want to, but maybe the.

[B]

Other girl said, you know, I could see Taylor maybe doing it after being Bachelorette. Don't they usually do that?

[A]

Wait, let's get to the Bachelor in a second. But who auditioned? No. Who said that they started negotiating the contract with, like, an acting role?

[B]

Whitney.

[A]

Is that a thing she did that she, like, give me a different role on Hulu?

[B]

Yeah, she wanted with Disney. She wanted to come back Season three. Demi wanted more money. Whitney wanted to have a scripted role on Disney.

[A]

How does it get to all of you. Like, what? People are negotiating. You don't have your own lawyers.

[B]

No, we do. Some of us share one. He doesn't tell us things. We talk amongst ourselves. Like, maybe Whitney said it to Connor. Connor said it to Jordan.

[A]

Oh, my God.

[B]

I'm sure that's what happened. But she owned it. She admitted it.

[A]

She was like, yeah, yeah.

[B]

She's like, yeah, I wanted that. Honestly, I will say Whitney, like, she goes for what she wants, so she probably will get one one day.

[A]

Like, honestly, we're gonna see her.

[B]

And yeah, she is an actress. Like, she is good.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Honestly, I'm like, why are you on reality? Go, like, be a star. Like, she's so great at what she does.

[A]

You guys look at the support over here.

[B]

No, I love Whitney. I really do.

[A]

She loves Whitney. Okay.

[B]

I know that's weird with our history, but, like, I really, I love Whitney.

[A]

But she would talk the same about you right now.

[B]

I would hope so. I just saw her the other day, like, and, yeah, like, she gave me her Dancing with the Stars tickets last week. Like, I, I. I think she would.

[A]

So everyone but Demi, you're good with. Yes.

[B]

Yes. Oh, yeah. 100. Yeah. Sorry. I was just saying that because it's awkward. But everyone also is probably in the similar boat with Demi. Like, Whitney's the only one friends with her. The girls are cordial. Like, if they see her, they'll say hi. But no one's, like, friends with Demi.

[A]

And would you say hi?

[B]

No. I saw her at Dancing the Stars. We sat at the same table. Didn't even look at her.

[A]

Stop. She's.

[B]

Yeah, too. I've been burned too many times.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

I think a lot of people are like, why do you keep going back? But I have to learn my lessons, like, five times.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Like, my marriage is the same way. I'm like, I gotta learn the hard way. But, yeah, I never again. I hit a point where I'm like, okay, I'm actually done.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And that's. That point has come.

[A]

And Taylor being the bachelorette, how did you guys react to that?

[B]

Yeah, I was with her when she got it, and, like, it was so cool because she has never seen the show, which I think is endearing. Like, she's seen, like, here and there, but I grew up watching it, so explaining it to her, like, this is a rose ceremony. Like, it was cool to kind of, like, see, like, her journey getting there.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

So I'm just so excited for her filming. Yeah. She's doing it right now, so it's been weird because she's not around and, like, our leader's gone. Fearless leader.

[A]

Somebody's going to take over the mom leadership.

[B]

I'm like, who's coming for the position?

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

But no, she's going to, like, I always joke it's going to be like Taylor's version of the Bachelorette. Like, it's going to go wrong.

[A]

Oh, for sure it's going to go wrong.

[B]

She doesn't follow rules, so we'll see.

[A]

But I think that, that, like, if I had to guess.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

That was the direction. You know what I mean?

[B]

They knew what they were getting to.

[A]

Spice it up and not have the same old thing.

[B]

Yeah. And I think that was the best choice they could have made. Like, Taylor is so unapologetically herself.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

She is such a good friend, such a good person and she's gonna, like, be really inspiring. Like, I'm sure it'll be messy at times, but she genuinely just wants to find someone to love her and she deserves that. I'm so excited for her.

[A]

It's gonna be. I know. I'm just wondering, like, who's gonna move to Utah with her?

[B]

I think all the guys, like, had to be willing. I'm sure. Like, I'm like, well, they announced her as the Bachelorette, Right. So they knew what they were getting into. And I'm sure as she's talking to them, I would assume she'd be like, if you're not willing to. She can't move. She has two baby daddies.

[A]

Jen moved to la.

[B]

I think she. Yeah. I don't know what her long term plan is, but I think she's there still. Yeah, we'll see. I hope she comes back, though. Like. Yeah, it's funny because her and Whitney have been so MIA like, honestly, the whole series. Like, it's like they're gone and then LA and then they quit. Or like, Jen left.

[A]

Right.

[B]

So I hope we have a season again sometime in the future where we're all back.

[A]

Are you filming right now?

[B]

We're always filming.

[A]

Always, always filming.

[B]

It's.

[A]

Oh, my God. And these like, influencer events.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

I have to ask because, like, yes, of course I know about. But you guys go to a bunch.

[B]

Utah's like, breeding ground.

[A]

Like a mom talk requirement. No. To attend.

[B]

No, not really. But if it's a brand you've worked with or you love or like your friends are throwing. Yeah, but there's a lot of influencers in Utah.

[A]

That's so crazy.

[B]

Mommy blogging, like, kind of started in Utah. You know what I mean like Rachel Purcell, like, did you know that is like there's a bunch of mommy bloggers. And it just kind of turned into what it is.

[A]

I got you. Yeah. Did we ever find out who the mole was?

[B]

No, I actually forgot about that. Yeah, that was really weird. We.

[A]

We thought it was Miranda now.

[B]

Yes, I will say when, like the two months me and Demi were talking again, I. We asked her about Brett driving by and she was like, no, that was fully me, like, sending him to drive by because, like, I was going crazy. Like, I was like, not in mom talk. And I wanted to know what's going on. So she like genuinely like, made him.

[A]

Drive by your house?

[B]

Yeah. Was it. Was that in there, like the footage of him driving by? Yeah, she owned it. She was like, yeah, I made him do that. I was like, oh, okay.

[A]

Isn't that weird?

[B]

Yeah, a little.

[A]

Miranda is really great.

[B]

I love Miranda.

[A]

Miranda seems like so like with it and gets it and like level headed and she's so mature. She's great.

[B]

I love Miranda. Nothing bad to say about her ever.

[A]

She is really great.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

Also, I wanted to ask just about your first divorce.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

Because you said it really quickly on the show. You said, I'm about to be divorced twice.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

Did you ever talk about your first divorce?

[B]

I've talked about it with my friends. I don't know if I ever made it on the show. But yeah, I was divorced. I was married for five years and it was ironic because me and Jordan were at five years when we separated. So I was like, it's the five year curse. Like, I can't make it past five years. But yeah, I was divorced and that sucks. Like it. It's always hard going through that, especially when you've been someone you. I got married at 22 and I got divorced at 27. So I was like, pretty young.

[A]

You get married young. He's the Z and the Jay Z. Yes.

[B]

So then I named my son Jagger Zane so that I could have like a new meaning for Jay Z.

[A]

Okay, got it.

[B]

Yeah, he was the Z. And yeah, I haven't talked to him. He's remarried, I think, and happy. So I'm happy for him. But it was a traumatic experience and I jumped into Jordan very quickly. And I think that's another reason we struggled is I just was like head first. Didn't even recover from my divorce, really. I just got remarried. I. I was divorced in December, married by March. So it was very fast.

[A]

What?

[B]

Yeah, I mean, were you pregnant shortly after?

[A]

Yeah, shortly after.

[B]

Yes. So that is wild. Very quick. It was. It was insane. So I didn't have time to process. So, like, honestly, during my separation with Jordan, I was processing my first divorce at the same time because it, like, brought up all those wounds where I was like, whoa. Like, I didn't even deal with this.

[A]

And also, you and Jordan didn't have time to, like, fully know each other. So what was the. Is it. What was the rush on getting married?

[B]

It's just Utah. Like, everyone does that. Like, there's a thing called, like, Ring by Spring where, like, if you meet someone in the fall, you're married by spring. It's crazy. It's like the BYU culture. Everyone gets married young and very quickly, like, within six months.

[A]

And you kind of left the church.

[B]

Yeah, after my first marriage, because of the divorce, kind of like, his family was very Mormon, and I felt shamed a lot for that because I grew up with my dad not being active and my mom was. So I just kind of felt like I was never good enough. And the culture can be very judgmental in Utah with Mormonism. And I just really realized it in my marriage, and I was like, oh, I don't know if I want this. So I left after that, and I have friends, family, employees who are Mormon, love it so much. And I was Mormon for 25 years, but I just kind of, like, the older I got was like, I don't know if this is for me. We're crazy in Utah.

[A]

We really are.

[B]

You really are. Yeah, we are.

[A]

Like, it's like you're about to offer laughing gas at Jay Z. I know.

[B]

I'm like, getting your extensions in. That hurts. Have some. Not a bad idea. Maybe that's my next move. Honestly, that could be a hilarious. Have you ever had extensions?

[A]

I have not.

[B]

Okay. Because it can hurt.

[A]

My hair's, like, thick.

[B]

Yeah, you don't need them. But when you get them sewn in, like, you're a little tender. The first couple days.

[A]

No, it looked, by the way, like, I was like, oh, my God. Like, that's a lot.

[B]

When Layla got hers.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Hers was more intense than what we do because she's ethnic. But, yeah, it was an intense process. That's why I wanted to look under the hood when I was like, can I see?

[A]

I know. You're so cute. You're like, let me just see how they did it. I want to learn. I was. Have you since. Yeah, I actually.

[B]

I met with her hairstylist. She came to my salon, and I gave her a tour. She taught me Some things. I taught her some things, and it was, like, really cool. So it was. It was a good, like, learning moment. Full circle.

[A]

There's another hair stylist. Hair by Chrissy.

[B]

Yes.

[A]

Do you have hairstyling beef?

[B]

People compare us a lot.

[A]

Why?

[B]

Because she's in Arizona, I'm in Utah, so we're like Jay Z and Hair by Chrissy. Like, her habit salon is the name of her salon. And, like, they just compare us a lot.

[A]

Like who?

[B]

Like the Internet, the hair industry. Oh. Because I've been in that forever. You know, I will say, like, Chrissy's been one of my idols. Like, I went to a few of her classes back in the day. I love her. Like, I know her and her husband.

[A]

And you're honored to be compared.

[B]

Yes, totally. I. I don't know how she feels about me, but I. I think she's great.

[A]

So she's either she's media trained or she's fudgeing good me.

[B]

You know, I just. I genuinely. Like, I was one of her biggest fans, really, coming up in my career.

[A]

That's amazing. So that's like. That must feel good to be.

[B]

It's a compliment.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Again, I don't know how she feels about me. Like, yeah, competition's always hard. And Macy. Michaela did go to her, and then they started coming to me, so I don't know if, like, that caused any issues, but she is talented and, like, she's built something crazy amazing, so.

[A]

Well, Hair by Chrissy. If you hear this, say something nice.

[B]

I love you, Chrissy.

[A]

Thank you for coming on finally. Thank you for having me. I hope that everything's good.

[B]

Thank you. Excited to see better, but it's coming out tomorrow, so I could be saying something different in a week.

[A]

I'm going to be hurting my loins.

[B]

Yeah, I love that.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Yeah, I love that. Let's do it.

[A]

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[B]

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