LILI REINHART: RIVERDALE, MENTAL HEALTH, & PERSONAL DAY

Summary

Podcast Summary: Not Skinny But Not Fat Episode: LILY REINHARDT: RIVERDALE, MENTAL HEALTH, & PERSONAL DAY
Release Date: October 29, 2024
Host: Amanda Hirsch

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Introduction

In this engaging episode of Not Skinny But Not Fat, host Amanda Hirsch welcomes actress Lily Reinhardt, best known for her role in Riverdale. Amanda expresses her excitement about having Lily on the show, highlighting her admiration for Lily's journey in the acting world and her openness about important topics like body image and mental health.

Life on Riverdale and Vancouver Experience

Lily Reinhardt delves into her seven-year tenure on Riverdale, discussing the bittersweet emotions surrounding the show's conclusion. She shares insights into the demanding schedule, spending approximately nine months each year filming in Vancouver.

Lily Reinhardt [01:26]: "The last episode was hell to shoot because I was so emotional."

Lily elaborates on the camaraderie developed among the predominantly non-Canadian cast members, describing their time in Vancouver as a “trauma bond” due to the shared experience of relocating and adapting to a new environment. She also touches on the misconceptions about actors being supported financially by studios, clarifying that she managed her own living expenses with residences in both Los Angeles and Vancouver.

Early Acting Career and Personal Background

Amanda prompts Lily to discuss her journey before Riverdale, revealing that Lily began acting at the age of 12. Lily recounts her early experiences in theater and minor roles, including a memorable appearance on Law & Order: SVU where she played a teenage killer.

Lily Reinhardt [05:23]: "I was a 14-year-old killer. That's a good spoiler alert for those who haven't seen."

Growing up in Ohio, Lily describes the challenges of auditioning from afar, with her supportive mother driving eight hours to New York for auditions. This unwavering support played a crucial role in Lily's pursuit of an acting career.

Lily Reinhardt [05:50]: "My whole life was there. And, you know, my cast became our family there because none of us, most of us, none of the lead cast were from Canada."

Mental Health and Anxiety

A significant portion of the conversation revolves around Lily's struggles with anxiety, which began in her early teens. She candidly discusses her experiences with therapy, panic attacks, and long-term medication usage.

Lily Reinhardt [12:00]: "I had to go through however many months of this Accutane that makes your body hurt, that makes you swollen, that makes you..."

Lily shares her journey of managing anxiety through various treatments, including psychotherapy and medication. She reflects on the challenges of being on SSRIs from a young age and her recent efforts to adjust her treatment plan in search of what truly works for her mental health.

Lily Reinhardt [15:05]: "I realized that it wasn't working and I, you know, being put on an antidepressant at such a young age..."

Amanda and Lily discuss coping mechanisms, such as emotional eating and mindfulness techniques like grounding exercises. Lily emphasizes the importance of being proactive about mental health and finding support systems that understand her experiences.

Relationships and Support Systems

Lily opens up about her current relationship, highlighting the mutual understanding and support between her and her boyfriend, who also navigates anxiety.

Lily Reinhardt [38:18]: "He also has anxiety. He does, yeah. So he understands."

She appreciates his natural ability to help her during anxious moments without needing to explicitly ask for help, showcasing the strength of their partnership.

Transition to Hollywood and Securing Riverdale

After a challenging stint in Los Angeles, where Lily worked two jobs to make ends meet, she recounts her decision to return to LA a second time. This move proved pivotal when she landed her role on Riverdale just a month after relocating.

Lily Reinhardt [31:17]: "I moved to LA when I was 18 and I filmed two movies... and then a month later, I booked Riverdale."

Lily credits her unwavering focus and commitment to acting for her success, aligning with Will Ferrell's philosophy of having no plan B. Her persistence paid off, leading to a stable and fulfilling role that significantly shaped her career.

Coping with Anxiety on Set

Despite the stability of her role on Riverdale, Lily discusses how filming in a new environment like Vancouver initially heightened her anxiety. However, as she settled into the routine, her love for acting helped mitigate some of the stress.

Lily Reinhardt [35:26]: "I've been on every decision that's been made and worked with experts. We have a team of... and she's an amazing esthetician."

She also touches upon the challenges of maintaining self-image and dealing with skin issues like acne while in the public eye, emphasizing the mental toll of constant scrutiny and pressure to maintain a flawless appearance.

Health Issues and Starting a Skincare Brand

Lily reveals her personal battle with acne, including her experiences with Accutane and the subsequent resurgence of her skin issues. This journey inspired her to develop her own skincare line, aimed at providing trustworthy and non-acne-triggering products.

Lily Reinhardt [50:11]: "We need this. Like people, consumers, me, I need this. I need a line that I can completely trust that isn't going to screw up my face."

She discusses the meticulous process of formulating her products, collaborating with dermatologists and estheticians to ensure effectiveness and safety. Lily's commitment to creating a brand that addresses her struggles with acne is driven by a desire to help others facing similar challenges.

Conclusion

Amanda and Lily conclude the episode by celebrating Lily's achievements and resilience. Lily expresses optimism for the future, particularly as she approaches her thirties, believing it will bring greater happiness and personal growth.

Lily Reinhardt [43:31]: "I have a feeling my third year, my 30s will be much happier than my 20s."

Amanda commends Lily for her transparency and dedication to mental health advocacy, highlighting the positive impact of her openness on her listeners.

Notable Quotes

• Lily Reinhardt [05:23]: "I was a 14-year-old killer. That's a good spoiler alert for those who haven't seen."
• Lily Reinhardt [12:00]: "I had to go through however many months of this Accutane that makes your body hurt, that makes you swollen..."
• Lily Reinhardt [15:05]: "I realized that it wasn't working and I, you know, being put on an antidepressant at such a young age..."

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This episode offers a profound look into Lily Reinhardt's life beyond her on-screen persona, shedding light on the realities of acting, mental health struggles, and personal growth. Through her candid conversation with Amanda Hirsch, listeners gain valuable insights into balancing a demanding career with personal well-being.

Transcript

[Amanda Hirsch]

The following podcast is a Dear Media production. Welcome back to the Not Skinny But Not Fat podcast. I'm your host, Amanda Hirsch, and I still can't believe that I get to chat with some of my favorite stars from my very own podcast, where you'll feel like you're just talking shit with your best friends in your living room. You guys, I'm so excited today. Yeah. Diving right in.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Let's dive in.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Lily Reinhardt is here.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

I so have people on the pod, obviously. And then there are people that come on the pod that I'm, like, super excited about because I followed their journey, and that's how I feel with you.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Thank you.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Like, I watched Riverdale when it came out, which was 21. I think it aired in 2017, so 1,000 years ago.

[Lily Reinhardt]

A thousand years?

[Amanda Hirsch]

Seven years.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Seven seasons. Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Wow. Seven years. And I remember back then, like, reading about you and. And everything you did to become an actor, and that was really inspiring. And then followed you throughout and saw you share about, you know, body image, mental health, like, all these things. So super excited to have you on today.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Because of all that.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Happy to be here.

[Amanda Hirsch]

So Riverdale.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Okay.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Sad or happy when it ended?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Oh, very sad.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I mean, it was like a very. Entirely bittersweet. But the last episode was hell to shoot because I was so emotional. And I mean, it's, you know, seven years is a long time. And it's was nine months out of the year for seven years and nine.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Months out of the year in Vancouver, shooting.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Living.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Living. Yeah. My whole life was there. And, you know, my cast became. We're family there because none of us, most of us, none of the lead cast were from Canada. So we all just had to kind of uproot our lives and go there. And that's, you know, why we. We became family there. And it was like a trauma bond, almost, like, because you're being, you know, your whole say hello, move to Canada, and here you figure it out. But, I mean, a cast do that all the time. I think people. A lot of people assume, like. Like, no. When you're a series regular, usually on a show, you move there and you're.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Either in, like, Atlanta, Georgia.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Or like, you pay.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Like, people are like, oh, they put you up. It's like, no, no, I pay rent. Like, I'm paying rent in Canada.

[Amanda Hirsch]

You do?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah. It's like I had two at a home in LA and a Vancouver apartment.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Did all of you live in the same apartment building at one point?

[Lily Reinhardt]

1, 2, 3, 4. Like, four of us did, but I hopped. I went to. I lived in three different places over the course of seven years.

[Amanda Hirsch]

That's actually wild.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

It's like, you get this role, it's a huge deal to you, but then you don't think about that, and they're like, oh, I have to move, and people don't think about it. You're right, because it would totally be something I would, like, complain about.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

But then it's also, like, a huge. People would be like, what? You got this series. Regular CW show. Such a hit.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah. Well, it's always so funny. Like, the way that they. I was on a phone. The phone call with my team, and before you test for a role, you usually. They. You sign the contract so you get it all kind of sorted before. So once you book the role, you're not like, I want a billion dollars, so you do it beforehand. And I remember being on the phone with my lawyer, and I was like, oh, shoot. You know, at the Warner Brothers lot, and he's like, no, no, it's in Vancouver. I was like, oh, okay. And, like, it took me. I was 19 and, like, took me a second to realize that I'd be shooting there. And obviously, I had no idea that the show would go on for seven years.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Right.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I had no idea. But it was. Yeah, it was a bit jarring to hear that. But Vancouver is a lovely place.

[Amanda Hirsch]

It.

[Lily Reinhardt]

It rains a lot. I enjoy the rain, but, like, it rained a lot, and sometimes it was. I already have depression, so it was a little bit tricky sometimes. And Vancouver is a very outdoorsy. Like, people go there and they hike. They want to be outside, and I'm like. To be inside, usually.

[Amanda Hirsch]

So you're not an outdoorsy gal?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Not really. But I, like, I really enjoyed my nice. I lived in a beautiful high rise, and my nice, like, rainy nights in Vancouver in my cozy little apartment. I miss it sometimes.

[Amanda Hirsch]

For sure.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

But maybe were you also ready to, like, move on with your career and make a change?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Absolutely. Seven years is a long time.

[Amanda Hirsch]

So like, 19 to 26.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Those are also, like, formative years. Yeah, very.

[Amanda Hirsch]

So tell me about before getting the role. Because, like I said, I remember. I remember kind of your story, but for people that are listening that. That don't know about.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah, I. I mean, I've been acting since I was 12. I think a lot of people don't realize that because I wasn't a child star. I wasn't. People didn't know who I was. But I've been acting since I was 12. I grew up doing theater and then I did like a PBS pilot when I was 12 and then did lawn or like my Law and Order svu. Everyone checks Law and Order off their list. And I did my s. What were you? I was the killer.

[Amanda Hirsch]

I was a baby killer.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I was a 14 year old killer.

[Amanda Hirsch]

That's a good spoiler alert for those who haven't seen.

[Lily Reinhardt]

It's the twist. It's the twist in my episode.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Twist it.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Oh, I know. I was like psycho little bitch and that.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Oh, yeah, that's good.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah, it was good.

[Amanda Hirsch]

But you grew up in Ohio, right? So how were you auditioning and stuff?

[Lily Reinhardt]

So I was self taping and I had. My mom would drive me eight hours from Ohio to New York for. For auditions.

[Amanda Hirsch]

So she was supportive.

[Lily Reinhardt]

The best, best parents.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Wow. Why drive and I'll fly.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Money.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Money.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah. And we would use my dad's like work hotel points to stay outside the city in new the night before and then drive in. My mom would be driving her blue minivan on the streets of New York. God bless her, truly.

[Amanda Hirsch]

And was she not working at the time that she could do it?

[Lily Reinhardt]

No, at the time she was not. So she. Yeah, she was able. She was able to do it and so wouldn't be here without my mother. Obviously, like, obviously in my career also would not be here without her.

[Amanda Hirsch]

But how did you know that? Like, what sparked your interest in this world?

[Lily Reinhardt]

I was a really performative little kid. I was doing skits for my family. I loved to make them laugh. Like, I made everyone listen to me sing on Christmas day. I was like, here I am singing the Cindy Lou who song from Grinch and you're gonna listen to me. And I made my own little videos. I got like a camera when I was 14 or 13 and started editing my own videos on Windows Movie Maker. I just loved it. I loved.

[Amanda Hirsch]

So you knew.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I loved movies. I went to my mom and I went to the movie theater a lot. So I just grew up in a household that really loved movies. The excitement of that. And I just was like a little theater kid. And I did dance. I tried sports. Horrible at them. So yeah, they were like, this is your avenue. And I had the passion for it. So luckily my parents were like, let's go for it. But without being stage parents, they were like the most supportive. Without being like, get in here.

[Amanda Hirsch]

You were pushing this.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah, for sure.

[Amanda Hirsch]

And they were just supporting.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I don't. Yeah. And to this day, always when I talk about this, I always forget I need to like go Back and ask my mom, actually, why did you do this for me? But I think it's because people would validate me, I guess, to.

[Amanda Hirsch]

To her, like, it wasn't like she can't sing for. It was like, they were, like.

[Lily Reinhardt]

They were like, your kid is really talented. And I think that gave her, like, you know, the.

[Amanda Hirsch]

That it could actually happen.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah. Because why would she think that it would actually happen for me?

[Amanda Hirsch]

Drive you from Ohio to New York? It's so nice to hear when parents. You're right. There's a. There's like a fine line or some sort of line between, like, stage parents who push kids that don't even want to in between parents that support a dream. Because I could see myself just as easily being like, great, we'll sign you up for, you know, acting at school. You know what I mean? Like, you could as easily not take it that seriously. But I guess it's like, okay, you see your kid making home tapes and learning how to edit or doing all these things.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Oh, wait.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Just kept getting validation from people and think. And that was really leading her to think, okay, this is worth something. And she's actually talented. Because everyone maybe. Maybe not think their. Their own kid is talented. Yeah, we'll get back to that. But, like, I feel like my mom knew I was talented, but hearing it from other people was. Was enough to. To make all those long trips for me.

[Amanda Hirsch]

And so when you got gigs, you would have to obviously not shoot in Ohio.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah, but I. Yeah, so there were times where, like, I stayed in New York for two weeks to shoot Law and Order, and I had my aunt come and stay with me at time, and it was so funny because my episode of Law and Order, my aunt was with me, and we were on set, and she goes, I wonder why there's so many police officers here. I wonder if something's going on. And someone was like, no, no, this is Law and Order. And those are. Those are extras. Those are actors.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Oh, my God. Do you remember, like, did it excite you?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Super scary and exciting. Yeah, very exciting. Very intimidating.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Like, did you want to be famous or did you want to work?

[Lily Reinhardt]

No, no. Yeah, I just wanted to work. And I hate the word sorry. No, no, no, it's okay. I just, like, it's such a. I feel it has a bad. And I feel. I feel it has a negative connotation, I guess. Maybe. Maybe it doesn't. To me, it's like celebrity and fame is just like, gross. So I don't like those two words. So I Don't ever refer to myself as.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah, obviously. Yeah, you're not being like as a famous person.

[Lily Reinhardt]

As a famous person. This is what I think.

[Amanda Hirsch]

No, but there are people that I've talked to that are like, from when I was little, like, yeah, I want.

[Lily Reinhardt]

It to be famous.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah. Just wanted to. And sometimes that manifesting just that had worked for them and they became, you know, tick tock stars or whatever.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah, yeah. No, I just wanted to act.

[Amanda Hirsch]

You wanted to act?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah, I just really wanted to act. I felt so comfortable doing it. I loved theater. I found such a community in theater with my, with people.

[Amanda Hirsch]

You're a theater kid.

[Lily Reinhardt]

But not. But kind of. Because I don't really love theater today. Like, I don't every time I'm in New York. I'm not like, let's see a musical. I'm not a super theater kid. But I did theater because it was the only real acting avenue I had in Cleveland, you know, in performing arts. So I just, that's how I pursued acting. And that's where my mother would get the validation that I was actually good at it. And that's where I found people that were like me, that loved doing this. And it also kind of heightened my anxiety because I felt so understood in this group of people who were like theater kids and then so misunderstood and alone at school. So it was a very big strange contrast and kind of like the birth of my major anxiety. When I was in like seventh grade really doing theater and feeling like the kids at my school just didn't. I was like, I have big dreams, I know what I want. And I'm around these 12 year olds who of course like don't know what, what they want to do. And I, and I just felt, I felt a big contrast between. It was like Hannah Montana. I've never compared myself to Hannah Montana. But like, I mean like the performing arts world and then just like everyday regular life.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Was, was kind of, you know, though.

[Amanda Hirsch]

You'Re saying something interesting because through therapy, I remember my therapist once told me that a lot of anxiety or all anxiety stems from inner conflict.

[Lily Reinhardt]

So that makes sense.

[Amanda Hirsch]

So if you're having this inner conflict of like, am I a 12 year old regular, you know, kid going to school or am I, you know, a working actor?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Like that could have been something inside.

[Lily Reinhardt]

That was like, oh, absolutely causing a lot of anxiety in a lot.

[Amanda Hirsch]

So you knew, did you know how to label the anxiety at that age or were you just like not feeling.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Great all the time? No, when I saw inside out and especially inside out, too. Most recently. I just thought how incredible that would have been to have seen that when I was 12 or 13 and understand what that was, because I had my first panic attack when I was on my first day of eighth grade, and I just had no idea what was wrong with me. And it was. And neither did my parents, because they were. It was like, you're not being bullied. You have friends. There's nothing wrong, but yet you feel this way. And. And so I. I didn't know either. And I wasn't just, like, shoved into therapy. It kind of took some time, but it was really confusing and hard, and I'm glad I.

[Amanda Hirsch]

So you were dealing with. Did that. Was it sort of anxiety attacks randomly throughout your life, or did you have, like, general anxiety of just dealing with it all the time?

[Lily Reinhardt]

I mean, I was a generally anxious kid in general. Like, I didn't do sleepovers. I was very attached to my home and to my mom. I didn't. Like. I always kind of felt strange around other kids my age. I just felt a little bit weird or a little bit like I couldn't connect fully with them. So I think it was just generalized social anxiety. And then once theater kind of came into my world and I really felt a big separation in my life between, oh, this is what I want to do for the rest of my life. And then, like, everyday life, being a school kid, that's when the anxiety just grew because I felt my passion growing and I felt such a distance between where I was in the world and where I wanted to be. So that's where the anxiety, I think, just really took over the day to day. Cried every day before school, begged my mom to let me be homeschooled. I would.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Did you ever end up being homeschooled for one semester?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Because I drove my parents crazy and they were like, fuck it, fine. You can be homeschooled for a semester. Because literally, I mean, I was unwell. I was using a heating pad on my forehead and saying I was sick in the morning, being like, look, I.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Have a. I hated it.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I absolutely hated school. And there was no real reason. It was just I literally wanted to be at home in the safety of my home with. With the anxiety that I felt. I. It was.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Do you remember if it was, like, physical?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Very physical. I mean, I was choking back tears for, like, four years of my life. At school, it was.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Did you not then. Was there a talk about meds?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah. I mean, I eventually saw a psychiatrist and saw a therapist in in tandem. And the therapist was like, you know, I think, yeah, maybe an anti anxiety medication is what you need. And, and I was on that medication for 14 years and.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Are you not on it anymore?

[Lily Reinhardt]

I got off it almost exactly a year ago and that was one of the hardest experiences.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Why did you want to get off?

[Lily Reinhardt]

I realized that it wasn't working and I, you know, being put on an antidepressant at such a young age, looking back on it, it's, it's like, was that really the right. Who's to say when you're. When I have so much anxiety.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Right.

[Lily Reinhardt]

And it helped ease the anxiety, like. Of course, course. But looking back, I mean, ultimately I was on a medication during the formative years of my life where like my brain and personality was developing. And so ultimately it probably wasn't that great for me mentally.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Did you feel better?

[Lily Reinhardt]

I felt better, but it kind of came. I tried to switch it when I was 16 to something more intense and I ended up going back to the first one, which is an ssri.

[Amanda Hirsch]

And Was it Zoloft or something?

[Lily Reinhardt]

It was Zoloft, yeah. And then Zoloft.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Girlies unite. Well, well, I'm still on Zoloft.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I got off of it a year ago.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

And it was.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Did you have the brain zaps?

[Lily Reinhardt]

I lost 20 pounds getting off of Zoloft. And kind of the months following dealing. There's other reasons why, but like a lot of health issues going on physically in my life. But I was so sick getting off that medication. It was. I weaned off for two months with a psychiatrist.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Like somebody was.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah, someone was overseeing it. I. But I, I wanted to do it.

[Amanda Hirsch]

I wanted, just wanted to.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I kind of. I was also at the point where I wanted to see who I was without it.

[Amanda Hirsch]

And how do you feel now?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Well, I've tried since then. So I went off of it and it was hard and we let a couple months go by and I'm talking to my doctor and I'm like, I think I'm just someone who needs meds and who needs. And that's fine. And I'm like, that's. I need help, my brain needs help. And we've tried a couple different ones this past year and still haven't found. So I just weaned off of my fifth one of this year that we tried. So now I'm on nothing and we'll eventually try something else. But yeah, been just journey to figure out because I don't want to go another 14 years on something that isn't really necessarily doing what? It's something what it's supposed to. Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

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[Lily Reinhardt]

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[Amanda Hirsch]

And we're back. Do you feel like your anxiety is something that. Because there's mental health stuff that I think you can sit down with your therapist and figure it out and be like, oh, my God, that is why I do that. Yeah, it's great. And it's enlightening. And you're like. Could tell you something about your personality.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

But personally, I felt like, with anxiety. Like, I asked you if yours was physical. It's because mine can be, like, very physical. Right. So it could start from, like, say, like, my stomach isn't feeling well. It can kind of like ride up and they'll be like, wait, is my heart beating? And then it could like. So that's not like sitting here talking about my parents divorce. That's literally my body. Yeah. Me. Yeah. You know, that's how I was as well. Okay. So with that, I feel like, so what helps, like therapy. Okay. We're saying maybe not dealing with it in the moment with other things can help. Right. If you learn. Because you were saying when you were little, you didn't. You were just like, what is this? So of course it helps to be like, it's anxiety. I'm not dying.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah. Like, I texted my mom.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah. All day long.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

When I was in school, like, on my little, like, razor, like, whatever.

[Amanda Hirsch]

The orange phone was being like, something. I'm dying, just.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah. And she was very much there for me, but also was so confused. Like, just did not understand why I felt this way. And I can imagine they don't.

[Amanda Hirsch]

They didn't. Your parents didn't. Didn't experience those things.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I mean, they definitely. I think everyone in the world has experienced anxiety, but they weren't on medications themselves. And I didn't have, like, a diagnosis that they also were like, oh, I understand this.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I was also just so young and nothing was, quote, wrong. So it was just.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Did you do all the tests, like, the CTs, dress, like, were you trying to figure out if there was Something wrong?

[Lily Reinhardt]

No. I mean, I just went to therapy and my therapist, who was really lovely woman, I think just told my parents, she just, this is just anxiety and it's normal. And was also telling me that I remember telling her, like, trying to lie to my therapist to be like, sorry, my nose, my eyes are really. I gotta. I have allergies and was like dabbing my tears and I mean, I was like 12.

[Amanda Hirsch]

I, like, didn't know that I was practicing your acting.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I didn't know that I could cry safely in a space with like a stranger that I was still getting to know, you know?

[Amanda Hirsch]

So throughout this. And you're trying to. You want to be an actor.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

And is that affecting your anxiety? Like, getting roles, not getting roles, like having a lull in jobs?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Well, it was like every audition was, this has to be it. And the pressure of that has actually caused me a lot of PTSD from whenever I still get auditions. I hate auditions most. I think a lot of actors do, but I have the anxiety left over from when I was a kid and when I was just experiencing these opportunities for the first time, thinking, oh, my God, this is it. Like, this is the chance that I'm going to get and I'm going to, you know, another chance. Like, this isn't going to come back for another year, for months. So I would just. It would cause me so much stress because I wanted it so bad. But during that time, I had signed with and found a manager and an agent through my travels to New York and through the little jobs that I did when I was like 14, 16. So I found a manager and agent, which is the hardest, like, the hardest stuff get right.

[Amanda Hirsch]

People don't realize, like, you need to, like, have stuff to get that. So you're not getting it because you're, like, cute.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah, I'm sure it happens to some people, but, yeah, certainly didn't happen for me. Like, yeah, I had to go to these open auditions and finally book something that got the attention of my manager, who then brought me to my agent and et cetera.

[Amanda Hirsch]

So was it before Riverdale that you were thinking of giving up or when did you move to la? Cause you tried to move to LA and then came back at some point.

[Lily Reinhardt]

No, I moved to LA when I was 18 and I filmed two movies when I moved to LA, but I just didn't make any money. And so I was there for five months or six months and I worked two jobs. So, you know, not enough money.

[Amanda Hirsch]

And what, like waitressing?

[Lily Reinhardt]

No, no, I worked those jobs I tried to work elsewhere.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Not good at it.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I had a huge panic attack. I got a job at Buca di Beppo at Universal City. The city. I don't even know if it's still there. Universal CityWalk. Okay, the Buca di Beppo there, or was it.

[Amanda Hirsch]

What is the Buca de Beppo?

[Lily Reinhardt]

You don't know what a Buca?

[Amanda Hirsch]

No, I'm not. I'm in New York. We don't have Buca Beppos. Sorry. You know what it is? What is it?

[Lily Reinhardt]

I don't know. I grew up. That was like my New Year's Eve. Our family went to or no new Christmas Eve. Like Bukitabo. It's a family style.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Like an Olive Garden vibe.

[Lily Reinhardt]

No, no, not at all. It's a family style Italian.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Okay.

[Lily Reinhardt]

For sure. And it has like crazy fun decor.

[Amanda Hirsch]

So you were a waitress for a second.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Didn't even, couldn't even, couldn't. Got the job. They were like, you need to find a black button down long sleeve shirt and non slip shoes by this date. And I was like, okay. I didn't have a car in la, so I was ubering.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Not have a. Oh, you were ubering.

[Lily Reinhardt]

It was ubering because I was broke.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah, no, but I'm saying how do you get around LA?

[Lily Reinhardt]

You Uber. So I was 18, booked, got this job, was ubering to Marshalls, trying to find, trying to find a black button down long sleeve shirt. For some reason at this point on this day was impossible. Couldn't find it. Had to Uber to Target. Didn't have it. Uber to Ross, Dress for less. Couldn't find it. Every uber ride is $20, right? I don't have any money. I just spent $90 on Skechers non slip shoes.

[Amanda Hirsch]

For what?

[Lily Reinhardt]

For Buca Beppo and for the job. For the job.

[Amanda Hirsch]

So much investment.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I'm on my Uber. I can't find the. I can't find the shirt. Can't find a shirt. Ubering back to my place where I was staying. I was living in a room in a shared in a home that like seven other people were living in. I threw up in the Skechers bag in the back of the Uber from like panic and car sickness. Still, still returned to the shoes though, because the vomit only got in the bag and not on the shoes. So we're good there. And I got to my room, I got literally a brown paper bag and was doing the like hyperventilating in and out of the brown paper bag. I skyped my mother because I, I Don't know why I didn't use my time. Yeah, it was, though Skyped my mom. I said, I'm. I need to come home. I need to come home. I can't be here. Like, I'm so physically ill. I.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Were you friends with any other people in the house? Like, did you have friends?

[Lily Reinhardt]

No, no, they were older.

[Amanda Hirsch]

How'd you find this house?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Westsiderentals.com I believe. Would you also need to pay, like, $30 to join? Which I had to, like, be like, guess I'm paying $30. I had a bad living situation. I was living in downtown Burbank with a woman and her son and her. She was the biggest stage mom I've ever. She's. I have trauma from this woman and her son. I was. I would, like, overhear her working on scenes with him, and she was, like, abusing her child for not getting his lines right. I. Lily. I had to leave. I had to leave. I left that apartment also. Was just in, like, one little room in. In this shared apartment. So I went to a shared house with, like, seven people and shared. Shared a bathroom with so many people. It was really bad.

[Amanda Hirsch]

You know what's really nice about your story? You know what's really nice about all these horrible things that happened to you that you're not an fo baby.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

And.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah. No, I'm saying, like, there's so much.

[Amanda Hirsch]

There's just a lot. I feel like we find out every day. I'll be like, oh, my God, you guys, that person is acting. And, I mean, the whole nappa baby conversation is kind of over. And I'm over it too. But it is, you know, interesting and refreshing and. And real to hear a story of someone that wanted to become an actor and had to do the, like. Had to do the, like, live out of your car. Did you live out of your car ever?

[Lily Reinhardt]

No, but I was definitely apartment hopping.

[Amanda Hirsch]

I mean, that sounds bad enough. The shared room with the abusive mom.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I mean, that was insane. She was.

[Amanda Hirsch]

When you Skyped your mom and you're like, mom, I'm in this situation. Was she like, come.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yes, home. Yeah, she was very much. She said if she was like, lil, this is where you're at. You can absolutely come home at. Dad and I are here. And I said, okay, I'm coming home. And I went back home. So I was still 18. I went back to my retail job at Pier 1 Imports and love Pier 1.

[Amanda Hirsch]

It closed. It closed, fuckers.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Well, I would have trauma going in that store anyways. Smelling those candles oh, my God. But I went back to that job, went back to therapy, and then moved back to LA when I was 19. And a month.

[Amanda Hirsch]

You were like, I'm going to give it a go again.

[Lily Reinhardt]

A month later, I booked Riverdale. Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Wow. What made you give it the second go? Like you knew you were gonna do it.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I knew I was going to.

[Amanda Hirsch]

You just needed that.

[Lily Reinhardt]

It was. It was always. And I think Will Ferrell said this, actually, but he was, like, there. He never had a plan B. Yeah. Someone did say, I thought it was Will Ferrell. Whatever. You can. I can be wrong about that.

[Amanda Hirsch]

No. You know who it is. That's funny.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I think Wilfrid.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Maybe Bill, an SNL guy, too. Peter who?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Bill Hader.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

But I think Will said something like that. He was like, no, I. There was never going to be a plan B because this is what I'm going to do. And that's exactly how I felt. And I said when I moved back to LA the second time, if in a year I'm unhappy pursuing this, I will go to makeup school to be, like, a special effects makeup artist.

[Amanda Hirsch]

And then you got Riverdale.

[Lily Reinhardt]

And then I got Riverdale.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Wow.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Saved me. Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

And it saved you. So getting Riverdale when you got it, was it kind of like, was the feeling the same as when he booked those movies, or did you have a. Did you know?

[Lily Reinhardt]

No, I knew this was. I was like, it's a cw.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah. Show. Which is.

[Lily Reinhardt]

You know, you're like, it's gonna be huge. Hopefully.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Because you film the pilot and then people kind of scare you along the way. They're like, you have to give at the table read. Give it your all. Because you can be fired after the table read, or you got to be, you know, nice. You got to be on your best behavior and give it your all during all these things, because you can still get fired or even you can be recast after the pilot. So it's kind of like, just do your. Do your damn best.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

But I had the best time, you know, shooting the pilot and making friends with these people and.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah. And it could have gone the wrong. It could have gone. You know, if you're all you said about Vancouver and living with all these people, they became your best friends. Like, they could have been awful people.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

And then you would have had the worst time of your life.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah. And. But you actually became experience.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Right. But you actually. You, Madeleine and Cammie are. You're actually. Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Very close. Yeah. Yeah. And so thank God. Yeah. Them. And we were all in it. We were all in it together.

[Amanda Hirsch]

We were all in together in the sense. And nobody came in like a megastar kind of.

[Lily Reinhardt]

No, we had like famous people guest starring. Yeah, but there was never.

[Amanda Hirsch]

There wasn't like a crazy hierarchy or like.

[Lily Reinhardt]

No, yeah, no, there was never.

[Amanda Hirsch]

You really were like in it together.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah, we were.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Do you have a group chat, the three of you?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Oh, yeah. Yes, we do.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Are you doing a Halloween costume again this year?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Not this year, it's.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Halloween's coming up.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I know, I know. I. I don't have it in me this year.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Physically.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Just because I'm three years. Yeah. Just some health stuff. Like I'm just not well.

[Amanda Hirsch]

I hope you're okay.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I will find out.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Okay.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Well, it's just there's a lot of autoimmune issues happening and always like that.

[Amanda Hirsch]

For like, don't you feel sometimes like everything's connected with the doctors just aren't onto it yet? Like, I just feel like when there's like autoimmune, there's also like mental health stuff. It all kind of like.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Well, stress together on your body kills you. It kills your body. Stress and anxiety and fear and living and having PTSD or, you know, having trauma, it just, it lives in your body. And I think it's absolutely. Whether it's the cause of or exacerbated by my, you know, my mental health problems, but my physical health has taken a beating because of it for sure. So just the last couple months, in the last year, I've been on a big health journey to try and get better. And so I just like, truly out of this year, the Halloween, I was like, I don't want to commit to something and then on the day not be able to leave my couch.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Because that's just the state that I'm in right now.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

So you're going to give yourself that, that like. And I'm lucky.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I have the space and I have the opportunity and I have, you know, I live in a city with good doctors, so I'm getting it sorted.

[Amanda Hirsch]

When you are getting a job like Riverdale, does that make your anxiety worse? Does it make it better? Like, are you like less anxious because you're doing what you love?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah. I mean, I had, I had a panic attack when I got to Vancouver for the first time, shooting the pilot. I'd never been to Canada before. Not that I'm like, it's like a three hour plane ride from la, but I think I was just overwhelming. It's overwhelming.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

But Once you're in it, anybody go.

[Amanda Hirsch]

With you on the first. Like, did you're.

[Lily Reinhardt]

No. No, but I. It was.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

It's just because it's overwhelming in a new environment, and as someone with anxiety, it was just, like, overwhelming.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah. New things are not the vibe.

[Lily Reinhardt]

But it was. But it was good. And I was so lucky to have a consistent acting job. Like, that's just the. That's what everyone dreams of. You want to be a working actor.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

And so I was so lucky.

[Amanda Hirsch]

You have a panic attack on set or like.

[Lily Reinhardt]

No, it was like, literally when I got to my hotel in Vancouver, it was like a moment to myself of. Of some panic, but then I got over it.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Okay, good. Yeah. You need to have. I saw your tik tok. We said before you love tik tok that you just had a little bit of a panic attack. I don't know when you posted that, but. Yeah, the cookies.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah. Because I'm an emotional eater.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah. That helps you with your anxiety or does it?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Well, it helps in a moment. It's like a dopamine hit.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

So when I'm sad or when I'm having anxiety, not in the moment. Like when I'm having a panic attack.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Right. Eating, I'm like, does that help? I'll try next time.

[Lily Reinhardt]

It's more so when I'm feeling down or really stressed or I feel something, like, physically building.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I start ordering food or making food or getting food because I need the emotional comfort that it brings me.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Well, you were saying in that TikTok that you did a few things. You said you called your mom.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I think I texted my mom. I texted my psychiatrist.

[Amanda Hirsch]

You did?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yes.

[Amanda Hirsch]

You were like, never mind. Back on the meds.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah. Well, no, I was trying. I think I was in the middle of trying something, but I always. I'm not one who just crawls away from it and hides. I am very proactive about my mental health, and I've always been. So I'm like, I don't want to feel like this.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I don't want anyone to feel like that. So I really try to be proactive. I became a Reiki master to try and help with my.

[Amanda Hirsch]

What's Reiki, exactly? Reiki is the body work.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah. It's like aligning your chakras and kind of helping move stuck energy in your body.

[Amanda Hirsch]

You know that when I talk about anxiety, I can, like, feel it.

[Lily Reinhardt]

100. And you, too, you, like, feel it.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Oh, it's so up. You also said in the thing. You said your Boyfriend was doing. What was it called when you like, name.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Oh, yeah, he was having me name, like the Five Senses.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Right.

[Lily Reinhardt]

What can you say?

[Amanda Hirsch]

Like, put your feet on the ground.

[Lily Reinhardt]

What can you see right now? What can you smell? And he was with me at. At the time, kind of helping me and like, holding my shoulders and trying to get me to like, make eye contact.

[Amanda Hirsch]

How does he know how to do that stuff? Like, did you.

[Lily Reinhardt]

He also has anxiety. He does, yeah. So he understands. And I have never asked him to do that, actually. And he. I've never told him, like, this is what I need when I'm going through that. But it was just like he was. He's a caretaker, so he.

[Amanda Hirsch]

That's awesome.

[Lily Reinhardt]

He was able to do that for me, which was lovely.

[Amanda Hirsch]

So I also saw that you, like I said he was in this video you share about your boyfriend, which is fun. I do, like, posed together. Your previous relationship with your ex from Riverdale, you were very mysterious about.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah, I mean, I think it was. It's hard because you're automatically put into a public sphere, so people die to see more content of you. And so I think it was more, you know, let's protect the privacy of it, rather. Now, you know, I'm not actively working with. With Jack, my boyfriend. And it was more of a work. I think it was just more of a let's protect the privacy and try to keep. You know, because we were a couple on the show, so people loved seeing us as a couple in real life. So this is, you know, this is very different. This is a relationship that I'm in that's not on a show where people are actively shipping our characters together.

[Amanda Hirsch]

We're still shipping you as a. Yeah, I get what you mean.

[Lily Reinhardt]

So we're just existing together and I. And I'm still not, like, overly. Yeah, I'm never. I'm never trying to over share, but he's a public figure as well, so I think it's just like we try to. It's just organic.

[Amanda Hirsch]

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[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Because I remember seeing you in Rebel and researching the actors and be like, they're 21. Like, they're such babies.

[Lily Reinhardt]

And I was 19.

[Amanda Hirsch]

And now you're 28. Crazy. Almost 30.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

You just had a birthday, right?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Stop. I'm not 30 yet.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Two more years. You're gonna love it.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I'm very. I think I'll be. I have a feeling my third year, my. My third years, my 30s will be much happier than my 20s.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah. I think I will just have sorted a lot out by then.

[Amanda Hirsch]

I think so, too. I think as. As a 30s. As a 30s, I'll tell you, it's a good place to be because you kind of. First of all, you. I feel like you've been saying since we started talking, like, you've been kind of an old soul since you were a kid, right?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

So it's not like you're like. Or did you have the 20? Were you wild at any stage?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Well, the. Like, not at all. Until I got onto Riverdale, and everyone else had been more of a college kid and had a college experience and liked to party and liked to go out, and I was so not that. And they definitely pulled me out of my shell, which in a lot of ways I was so thankful for. And. And even then, like, sometimes I would definitely be like, no, I'm not into that. I'm gonna go home. Or I'm not going out for drinks tonight. Like, just protecting. Because I just. I'm not. Like, I don't drink anymore.

[Amanda Hirsch]

You don't drink anymore?

[Lily Reinhardt]

No. And it's not like, sure, maybe I'll have a glass of champagne on New Year's Eve. But I'm so. I'm not. Like, I'm dead sober. But. Yeah, but I really just have chosen. I don't. I don't drink.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Does it not. It doesn't. It doesn't mesh well with. It doesn't match well with my brain with anything.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah. It's just like, you get, you know, the day after anxiety, after I drank, and I just don't find that it's the more you read about it and the more you learn about it, it's really bad for your brain. So I'm just protecting my body, especially going through so many health issues and, like, the last thing my body needs is. Yeah, a vodka soda.

[Amanda Hirsch]

So like I said, like, you share so much about these things that are important to you, which is a lot about mental health. You also talk about a lot about body image.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

As well as you shared about your acne.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Which is why.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

You're having a personal day. So I remember you sharing about your acne. And a lot of times I feel like people have said, like, well, that's not. How did you feel about that? When people kind of didn't take that as seriously because they felt like you don't really have, like, as bad acne.

[Lily Reinhardt]

As they, you know, people more so have that reaction about body positivity. Because when I would talk about body positivity. Positivity, they would say, shut up, you're skinny. And it's like, okay, I see where you're coming from.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

But you can never tell how someone looks at themselves.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

You just have no idea how someone sees themselves. I think every woman has. I can't speak for every woman. I know a lot of women that I know personally have body dysmorphia and look at themselves and see something that other people don't see. And I think being an actor, obviously, like, I get. So I'm so sick of seeing my own face. I don't like to look at my own face all day long. And when you're shooting something and people are holding mirrors in front of you and touching you up, it's like, God damn. Like, enough. I don't want to see my face all day long. It's, it's, it's annoying.

[Amanda Hirsch]

You're not a narcissist. Like, I'm sure there are actors that like seeing their face all day.

[Lily Reinhardt]

For sure.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah. Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

But I think there's just people in general that love seeing their face all day. But more so, you know, I dealt with. Because of these health issues the last few years, my. Was gaining weight on a certain season of Riverdale. And, you know, you're actively trying to figure out your health while working, while being on camera, while doing fittings, while all of a sudden the clothes need to be bigger. It's was just really challenging. And while also from the get go, you know, having breakouts, wearing makeup 16 hours a day. And my skin just suffered when, when I was, when I was doing that And I. It's hard when you're surrounded by people who have maybe not the most perfect skin, but, like, beautiful skin.

[Amanda Hirsch]

You felt like growing up, you didn't have beautiful skin.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Oh, I didn't. No.

[Amanda Hirsch]

You had, like.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I didn't have. But that's the thing. I never had severe acne, but I had acne, and it very much affected me. And I would get very large cystic. I still do pimples right in the middle of my forehead. A lot of people.

[Amanda Hirsch]

You don't have one right now.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I don't have one right now. So it's a good day. But my acne would come as cystic acne, and it would be large, painful, swelled up pimples that, like, literally, they're the ones that, like, change the shape of your face. Like, I would get the one in the middle of the forehead where, like, your whole forehead is then swollen.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Did you ever get one while you were shooting?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Oh, all the time. And it was makeup wood, and it was. Well, you. There's nothing you can do about it. So you have to literally. They have to, like, edit it out in post production.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Wow.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah. Or light you differently.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Or do something like that. But there's no. Like, if there's a camera right here, and I have a huge system.

[Amanda Hirsch]

So would you come to set that day being, like, got another guy?

[Lily Reinhardt]

It was bad. I would. It was immediately so much anxiety. Those days where I had a big pimple on my face and had to shoot were the worst days of shooting always. Because I knew I had to look at myself a million times a day. I knew there was going to be a camera in front of my face all day long. I knew I was going to feel paranoid. I would often do. I would ask my makeup artist if I could do my makeup in my trailer alone and not in the communal makeup trailer because I didn't want people to see me. So it was just very mentally horrible to do. It's horrible to deal with acne whether you're an actor or not. But, you know, but being on a camera where literally the whole show. It's a CW show. Like, everyone needs to look hot and perfect.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

And, you know, having to go over to the script supervisor and say, hey, can we make sure the editor edits out this large pimple?

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah. And you have to advocate for yourself.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Like the makeup artist. I definitely. I had a great makeup artist who would do it for me as well. But, like, making, you know, making sure that they follow. Followed through with it and that it happened. And and with that acne, it's not.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Like you can control it, which is probably what's so frustrating.

[Lily Reinhardt]

No, and I've definitely. I feel like. I feel one coming. The anxiety starts right there.

[Amanda Hirsch]

How do you feel like you feel.

[Lily Reinhardt]

It under your skin? Because I get the big under the skin ones. So, like, before the night before an event or the day before, I'll. I'll wake up in the middle of the night and touch my forehead and see if there's anything forming out of just, like, fear that I'm gonna wake up with a massive thing on my face.

[Amanda Hirsch]

So is this kind of your experience with acne? What led you to want to create your new skincare brand?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Well, the skin, yeah. I mean, it was more so a couple different things. I had been on Accutane twice.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Oh, I was gonna ask. Wow, that's a. That's like the. The most.

[Lily Reinhardt]

That's the thing that you can do.

[Amanda Hirsch]

That's the thing step to take. They scare you that it could light. Like. I mean, it has so many. You take.

[Lily Reinhardt]

You have to get your blood tested every month. You have to. They do not make it easy. You have to answer questions on a website every month. You have to, like, sign all these documents saying you're not going to get pregnant. You have to be on two forms of birth control.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Wow.

[Lily Reinhardt]

You have to. They do not make it easy. And every pill you take, there's like, a sign that says, like, it's a picture of a pregnant woman with an X over it. It's like, do not get pregnant. But, yeah, it's. It's kind of the big thing that you take to get rid of acne. And. And I did it once. My acne came back with a vengeance, which is like, I just went through however many months of this Accutane that makes your body hurt, that makes you swollen, that makes you. I had to apply chapstick every five minutes, like, because it dries everything. It's so bad for your body. And then I. My acne comes back with a. Like, literally with a vengeance. The worst it's ever looked. So I had to. So I was like, fuck it. I'm shooting Riverdale. I'm on set every day. I have to go on it again because I just can't. I can't deal with this any other way. So I went on it again and then went off of it. And after I went off of it is kind of when I. I started working with Sarah Ford, my esthetician in. In la, and I started working with her and she was like, well, because my acne again, even after Accutane, I was like getting these little bumps. And she was like, well, have you ever looked at the ingredients and what you're using and kind of sounds like the most obvious thing to do when you have acne. But I was like, oh, I didn't think I needed to, like, I didn't, I didn't think I needed to check the ingredients of skin care if it's meant for someone with acne or if it's whatever. You just think that you can trust these things and it turns out you really can't. And so I one night I like, I have, because I'm a product. I just have a lot of products and get sent a lot of products and I keep them. And I'm like, yay, look at my bathroom counter. Which is like horrifying. And I don't want anyone to ever see it because it's just full of. Well, not anymore. But so I went through all of my products that I was using consistently and looking up the ingredients on like these different websites.

[Amanda Hirsch]

The Yuka. I just downloaded the Yuka app.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah, there's the apps that do it. I mean, I was looking up these. Every skincare product I was using and it was all, you know, oh, this has 10 pore clogging ingredients. So I was throw it out or give it to like my one friend that I have who has perfect skin and anything. She can never use, like evil players. No, I'm like. Because I hate, I feel, you know, like wasteful. Throw away these products. I would give them to my mom because she doesn't have acne. So. But it was once I started checking the ingredients and kind of realizing how little product there was that existed that didn't have acne triggering ingredients. And so there were already kind of had been discussions at this time about me possibly starting a skincare line. But at that time it just felt a little bit more superficial. Like, okay, start a line because you can. And then it really became, oh, I'm going to start a line because I. We need this. Like people, consumers, me, I need this. I need a line that I can completely trust that isn't going to screw up my face.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

That I can know that when I'm traveling, when I'm. I can use it on a daily basis. It's not going to. Or I can offer it to a friend who has acne or even someone who doesn't and know that it's not going to break them out.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

So like Having something trustworthy was like my number one thing and the reason why I wanted to create the line.

[Amanda Hirsch]

How'd you come up with the name?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Oh, man. It was a process.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Hard.

[Lily Reinhardt]

It's so hard to come up with a name like naming. Everything is taken. Yeah. First of all, everything is taken. So, you know, we would think of something. I would love something. And then it would absolutely not be available. So I was sent. It was on a lit personal day. Was on a list of like.

[Amanda Hirsch]

So wait, did your esthetician hard work to say, is she your partner in this?

[Lily Reinhardt]

She's on my board of advisors.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Okay, cool.

[Lily Reinhardt]

So she. She's been a really great help with us in. In our. In our, you know, developing of products and will be helping us. Like, I love to.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Cleansing powder. I saw you do the tick tock. Yeah, it really looked like it. That's my favorite cleanse. Yeah, really?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Well, well, cleansing will a powder.

[Amanda Hirsch]

And I've never used a powder before.

[Lily Reinhardt]

A lot of people have it. Yeah, it's like the best form of cleanser because there's no preservatives because it's in a powder form. So it's. And I. And it's such like a silk. It's just such a nice experience. Powder cleanser. I get my palms wet first, like in the sink, and then you dump the powder on and then it's like this beautiful little lather on your face.

[Amanda Hirsch]

And has your skin been better since you started using your own product?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Literally the best it's ever.

[Amanda Hirsch]

I mean, it looks great.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Thank you.

[Amanda Hirsch]

But it's really great.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I like, also, I'm like, I feel so lucky and kind of can't believe it, but I'm like, yeah, truly, I would never create a brand or something. Like, I'm. This is isn't just something I pulled out of my ass. Like, this is something I. I use.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Intentional.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah, it's very intentional. And it's something that is so true to me and to my story. And I've been talking about my acne since Riverdale, since I booked Riverdale because I was trying to find community and validation a little bit by posting about my acne on Instagram and being like, hey, this pimple right now is causing me so much anxiety. And just posting that and seeing the response because I'm someone who very much needs to talk about my problems out loud and not even to just get like, I don't want people to be like, no, you look great. It's more so I want people to tell me that they're Experiencing it, too, so we can feel together.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Good. It's not. I always said, like, it's not. I remember when I first went on meds, and I'd be like, I'm the only one in the world, you know? And, like, why am I like this? Why me? And then you would see, like, I remember even seeing, like, Amanda Seyfried or something, being like, I'm on Lexapro, and I'm like, amanda Seyfried is on Lexa, bro. Like, so those things, like, help you feel not alone. So I'm sure the millions of followers that you have.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Seeing, like, okay, Lily, she's on Riverdale. She has this life that we all want. Okay. But she deals with. You're like, I'm mentally ill and physically ill and dealing with so much. And so it's really. I mean, it's not only helpful to other people, but it's a really great thing that you're doing. I'm so excited to try it. So there is the. The cleansing powder. There's a resurfacing peel. There's a mask that I saw you put on a lot. And there's an actual acne treatment.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yes.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Oh, in the moisturizer.

[Lily Reinhardt]

In the moisturizer.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

That's. That's an important one, because to try and find a moisturizer without poor clogging ingredients or fungal acne triggering ingredients, that's another one. That's a lot of. That's a thing that people are experiencing, and it's like a lot of, like, tiny, tiny little bumps on your forehead that, that, like, aren't really being treated with classic acne treatments. And it's really hard to get rid of, but that's a common thing. And finding products that have no fungal acne or just, like, pore clogging ingredients, finding a moisturizer that doesn't have.

[Amanda Hirsch]

That is nearly had, like, scientists.

[Lily Reinhardt]

So we created one.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Cool.

[Lily Reinhardt]

It's very cool.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Are you going to post you in, like, a lab coat and the.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I'm going to try not to do that, because I don't like that. I. I feel like that's like. It's like, look, I'm in a lab.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Look, I'm making it. No, because then people will be like, your hair is in a. You're mixing it wrong.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I'm not. Not a chemist, but we. But I've been. It's been three years.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Wow.

[Lily Reinhardt]

And I've been in every. I've been there for every decision that's been made and worked with experts. We Have a team of, you know, we have a board certified dermatologist and we have a Dr. Courtney or Dr. Mamina Taregano is our board certified dermatologist. And then we have Dr. Courtney Tracy, who's our mental health professional on our board of advisors. And then we have Sarah Ford, who's my esthetician who's know she does Ariana Grande and she does all these, these people in LA and she's an amazing esthetician. And so we, we crafted these and I have a wonderful CEO who's in the room.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Oh, I thought it was you. I was like, no, no, no.

[Lily Reinhardt]

I'm the founder. Founder.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Oh, you're the CEO? Oh, well, you didn't. When I came in, you didn't say, hey, I'm the CEO.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Sheila's the CEO. I love that we have just. I've surrounded myself with the best people for this. Obviously I'm not a chemist, but so like. But we've have found the best ones.

[Amanda Hirsch]

How does it feel to have a brand? You have a. Don't you have your own production company?

[Lily Reinhardt]

I do. I have my own production company.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Girl, you're killing it.

[Lily Reinhardt]

We're doing a lot.

[Amanda Hirsch]

You're doing a lot.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah.

[Amanda Hirsch]

That's amazing.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Thank you.

[Amanda Hirsch]

So what's one product? If we. Somebody had to buy one product, what's your fave?

[Lily Reinhardt]

Definitely, I mean if you have acne, I would say the, it would be our doing the work salad acid acne treatment because that is going to help clear and prevent breakouts and it makes your skin better over time.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yeah.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Like it. It has. We have ingredients in our skin care that make your skin better over time even if you don't have acne. So I love that. Yeah, it's very, it's lovely.

[Amanda Hirsch]

They're very.

[Lily Reinhardt]

And effective.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Yay. Well, I'm so happy for you.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Thank you.

[Amanda Hirsch]

And I hope that you feel good. Feel as good as you look at your mom thing. You feel as good as you look, truly. And I can't wait to see what you do next.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Thanks.

[Amanda Hirsch]

So thank you for coming on.

[Lily Reinhardt]

Yeah, thanks for having me.

[Amanda Hirsch]

Thank you guys so much for listening to this episode of Knott's Skinny But Not Fat. Follow me on Instagram at Not Skinny but Not Fat. Subscribe to the podcast so you don't miss any episodes. Rate the podcast that you love so much on Apple Podcast and write a little review. If you tell me you did, I'll give you a big virtual smoocharoo. Thank you guys so much for listening and I'll see you next Tuesday.

[Lily Reinhardt]

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