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Dear Permission to be Powerful Reader,

August 18, 2025, a French man named Jean Pormanove (JP) died live on Kick.

Viewers tuned in from around the world, while they…

“murdered someone slowly on camera.”

A few hours before his death, co-streamer “Naruto” (Owen Cenazandotti) coldly adds:

“Let him say on camera right now, if he dies tomorrow in the middle of a live show, it’s due to his shitty state of health and not to us.”

After Jean passed, Naruto posted on social media:

“Unfortunately, JP has left us. I love you, my brother, and we will miss you terribly.”

Regulators are considering penalties up to $49 million against Kick for failing to protect users.

Why did he stay?

JP didn’t stay because he enjoyed being a punching bag.

He knew better.

In a chilling pre-stream message, JP writes to his mother:

“Hi mom... I feel like I’m kidnapped with their shitty concept. I’m fed up. I want to get out of here...”

👉 He stayed for the same reason so many of us have stayed in toxic friendships, situationships, and relationships:

The hunger for acceptance was louder than self-respect.

I understand him.

I’ve stayed in places where I was treated like dirt.

I’ve laughed off insults.

I’ve swallowed disrespect.

I’ve clung to scraps of approval that never came.

Why would anyone stay with someone who treats them like chopped liver?

✅ Because guilt is stronger than anger.✅ Because the need to belong is stronger than the need for safety.✅ Because walking away feels like failure.

And that’s the trap Jean Pormanove lived in until it killed him.

What finally broke the spell for me was realizing this:

The only way those people felt “big” was by keeping me small.

Without me beneath them, their status collapsed.

Their “confidence” was fake—propped up by my submission.

That was the proof.

If their approval required my humiliation, their approval was worthless.

If they withheld acceptance to keep me chasing, then acceptance was never really on the table.

👉 Never go to a party where you’re not invited.

You’re not going to win over the crowd.

You’re only setting yourself up for rejection.

👉 And — I need you to listen closely on this one — NEVER dine at a restaurant where you’re on the menu.

Because the only people who want you there…

Are the ones who think you taste delicious.

Until next time,

Dancer, Writer, Buddhist.

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