The Fire That Remains
Life in the Spirit After the Collapse of the Religious Self

Week IV — The Heart That Bears the World

Love, Intercession, and the Hidden Life in the Spirit

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Opening Invocation

O Heavenly King, Comforter, Spirit of Truth,
Who art everywhere present and fillest all things, Treasury of blessings and Giver of life,
Come and dwell in us,
Cleanse us from every impurity,
And save our souls, O Good One.

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I. The Return — But Nothing Is the Same

At the beginning, the Spirit leads a man inward.

Into exposure. Into poverty. Into silence.

And it can seem as though the path is one of withdrawal. A leaving behind.
A diminishing.
But this is not the end.

Because the same Spirit
who leads a man into the desert of his own heart leads him back again.

Not outward in the old way.
Not into activity rooted in self.
But into a different kind of presence.
The man returns to the world.
But he does not return as he was.
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II. The End of Living for Oneself
Something has been broken.
Quietly.
Deeply.
The constant reference to self.
The need to interpret everything in relation to oneself. The subtle movement of:

How does this affect me? What does this mean for me? Where do I stand?

These begin to loosen.

And with this
a space opens.

A freedom.

Where others can begin to exist without being filtered through the self.

This is the beginning of love. Not as an emotion.

Not as an effort.

But as a way of being.

“Love seeketh not her own.” (1 Corinthians 13:5)

And for the first time this is not an ideal.

It is something that begins to happen.

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III. The Heart Enlarged by the Spirit

The heart changes. Not outwardly.
Not visibly.
But in capacity.

It begins to hold more. Not by effort.
But by grace.
You begin to feel:

The weight of others. The pain of others.
The confusion of others.

Not in a way that overwhelms.
But in a way that includes.
The boundaries of the self soften. And the heart becomes... spacious.

“My heart is enlarged.” (Psalm 118/119) This is not sentimentality.
It is not emotionalism.
It is participation.

A sharing in something greater than yourself.

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IV. Intercession That Is Not Chosen

Prayer changes again.
Not in method.
But in direction.
Before, you struggled to pray.
Then prayer began to live within you. Now something else happens:
Others begin to appear in your prayer. Not because you decide to pray for them. But because they are given to you.

A face.
A name. A burden.

And it remains. Quietly. Persistently.

You carry them.

Sometimes without words.

Sometimes without understanding.

And this is intercession.

Not as an activity.

But as a participation in the love of Christ.

“I could wish that myself were accursed for my brethren...” (Romans 9:3) A love that does not calculate.
A love that bears.
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V. The Hidden Nature of This Life

And yet, outwardly, very little may change.

You may still live in the same place. Do the same tasks.
Speak with the same people.

There is no need to appear different. No need to manifest anything. Because this life is hidden.
Deep within.

And this hiddenness is essential.

Because the moment it becomes something seen something recognized
something affirmed

the old self begins to stir.

So the Spirit preserves this life in obscurity.

In simplicity.

In what appears to be ordinariness.

“Your life is hid with Christ in God.” (Colossians 3:3)

And this hiddenness is protection.

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VI. Love Without Self-Consciousness

There is a further purification. Even love becomes purified.

Because at first
we can become aware of loving.

We notice it.

We reflect on it.

We take some subtle satisfaction in it.

But here, even this begins to fall away.

Love becomes unselfconscious.

It acts
without referring back to itself.

It gives
without knowing that it gives.

It responds
without constructing meaning.

And this is freedom.

Because the self is no longer at the center even of what is good.

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VII. The Bearing of Suffering

As the heart expands
so does its capacity to suffer.

Not in a destructive way. But in a participatory way. You begin to feel more. To see more.

To carry more.

And yet
there is no resistance.

Because this suffering is no longer meaningless. It is no longer isolated.
It is held within something greater.
Within the life of Christ.

“Bear ye one another’s burdens, and so fulfil the law of Christ.” (Galatians 6:2) This is not something you choose.
It is something you are drawn into.
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VIII. The Absence of Claims

At this point
something remarkable appears.

Or rather
something disappears.

The need to claim anything.

You no longer need to:

Define your state. Explain your path. Assert your identity.

Even inwardly.

You do not need to know where you are.

You do not need to measure.

You do not need to conclude.

You simply live.

Before God.

With others.

And this simplicity is a great freedom.

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IX. The Life That Becomes Prayer

Everything begins to unify.
Prayer is no longer separate from life. Life is no longer separate from prayer.

Silence speaks.
Speech can remain rooted in silence. Action flows from stillness.

There is less division.
Less fragmentation.
More wholeness.
And this is not something you maintain. It is something given.

Sustained quietly.

By the Spirit.

“It is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me.” (Galatians 2:20)

Not as an idea.

But as a mystery slowly becoming real.

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X. Closing Exhortation

Do not seek this.

Do not attempt to become this.

Do not imitate what has been described.

Remain faithful
to what has been given to you.

Remain in poverty. Remain in prayer. Remain in truth.

And the Spirit will do His work.

Quietly.

Hidden.

Beyond your understanding.

And what will emerge
will not be something you have made.

But a life.

A heart.

Capable of bearing others.

Because it is held within Christ.

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Closing Prayer

Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God,
Thou who didst bear the sins of the world in Thy Body, grant us the grace
to bear one another in love.

Enlarge our hearts.
Purify our love.
Deliver us from ourselves.

And grant that, hidden in Thee, we may become a place where others are held
in Thy mercy.

For Thou art the Lover of mankind. Amen.