Hi! I am Parul. My ancestors are from South Asia, I was born on Turtle Island in Tkaronto, and I currently live on the island of Bali in Indonesia. I use poetry, prose, poetic frames to unravel entanglements of our thoughts, feelings and experiences. Call it an evolving decolonization practice that is liberating the many intelligences our existence contains.☝🏽 I read you this newsletter, or you can read it yourself! 👇🏽

a thought on resistance

resistance of breaking out of a patternof doing something new of holding yourself tenderly it is not unsafe, it is just unfamiliar

beyond the fears calcified within there is wonder a beautiful place beyond the layers of painof desires to escape

breathe deepas I tell you a story of me, and of you

you are of ancient origin a craton of the earth stabilityis your birthrightit is found deep within the crust of the earththe essence of your body

stability is not a stateit is a knowingsurviving cycles of merging and rifting of continents of self

meridians of energy in the bodyholographic to the energy of mother earth like a vast musical instrument we must harmonize the frequencythat is out of tuneout of balance

there is a discomfort perhaps you feel it that unmistakable stain

a subtle anxiety of a new terrain the rawness of disbelief in the happenings around us in the existence and fullness of our reality

the evident gaps in oneself is a mirror of the fracturesin our cities in our systems

in the untethered feeling of separationthe creeping of loneliness piercesour worthiness

oscillating between self acceptance and self resentmentdarling, i know you may be tired

tired of breaking and mending

it may feel endlessi assure you these are simply chapters

know that you are held in love through this journeyfor the love of the sun who will never leave your sideas long as you open your eyesthe love of the earthwhose moist surface is ready to hold all of what you unearth for the love of the moon and starswho reflect the expanding universe

it is but in a place of lossthat we recall the very nature of impermanencethe hidden beauty of luminosity in lossis blindingat times we look away yet the light has come to wash away

the loose layers of selfthe facade of beingthat cracks at this brightness giving space for lightto recede the borders of our armour

this memory is braided into youthis feeling is sunken in and forever you shall walk different

imagine healing oneselfalso heals and holds the other this is not a fallacy

imagine the boldness of your being at full essence orchestrates healingfor the sounds of our thoughtsour dreamhopesdisillusions are the sounds that make all realities

gently rock the feelings of resistance for they want to unravel at your tender touch

the lightest touch gives the greatest gifts and the magic belowit wants to flow

like a river along the mountainside a redwood treeso deeply rooted in thee intertwining yourself like the mycelium of the earth the treasure that we can see the brightness that you can beas magical as we can see

Much love 💙💛💚Parul // @parulbee

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