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Beware the Redwood Bureau. A secret organization which captures and researches creatures and objects that defy explanation. Their reckless procedures have led to countless innocent lives lost. I am Agent Conroy. I worked for the Redwood Bureau. But I have escaped them to leak their reports to the unsuspecting public. You have the right to know.
A (1:13)
Okay, so. Yeah, this is Sam again. Second personal operations log or whatever. We gotta market this shit or something. I don't know. Conroy wants these to be proof. And I get it. If you're gonna claim the world is full of things that don't belong in it, you kinda have to show receipts. I guess last time I ended the log a bit dramatically, to say the least. I. I don't know. I guess I got carried away. I was just in the moment, you know? And a bunch of crazy shit happened. And I was feeling. Well, I don't really know how I feel, to be honest. Conroy told me a listener said I was like an anime protagonist, which actually made me laugh out loud. I've never considered myself anything more than just another nine to fiver. But I guess that's not true anymore. Then I thought, man, this anime fucking sucks. Seriously, you guys don't even know. This eye thing, it's not good. We're not meant to be in one body like this. And after what happened with those ghouls when it did whatever it did, things happened after that to my body. You wouldn't believe me if I told you how I. No, that's probably not a good idea, actually. The Bureau is definitely listening. The eye. I'm sure everyone wants to know about the damn eye. Well, it's open right now. Just a slit. Like it's pretending to sleep while it watches me judging. About wasting my time on this. I can switch to its perspective if I just. Ah, shit. I'll never get used to that. Stop looking at me. Fucking Mike Wazowski. I'm alone tonight. Well, you know what I mean. I'm never really alone anymore, but alone in the sense that Conroy isn't here. And Rhys, Vic, and the others aren't here, which means there's nobody to give me some task or training exercise or just five minutes of conversation that makes me forget that nothing is normal anymore. It's just me, a cheap folding chair, a table that wobbles anytime you look at it, and the eye and the memory, which keeps replaying on a loop like my mind is trying to punish me for something. So before I start forgetting details of what happened tonight, I'll just dump the story. I didn't walk into that building as the same guy from the beginning of the first log. I walked in as someone who already knows his body can do things it shouldn't be able to do and who was terrified not only of what that means for him, but what it could mean for those around him. After the tunnel job, the ghouls, after the screaming, and the part where I learned my body is connected to things and places that, well, things have been different, I can still feel somewhere deep under the bone. Like my body remembers having extra limbs and resents the fact that they're not there right now. There's this itch between my shoulder blades that isn't something you can scratch away. It's like it comes from my soul or the eye's soul, if it even has one, and if those two things are even separate at this point. And yeah, I check more than I want to admit. I catch myself in mirrors, lifting my shirt like I'm going to find a seam or a zipper or a little sticker that says, congratulations, asshole. Enjoy your new limbs. But all I ever see is normal skin with a normal amount of damage, which should be comforting, except I can feel it when there's a lull, when Conroy thinks we can stay somewhere for longer than 48 hours without catching the Bureau's attention. We train. Reese runs me through drills until my hands stop shaking for the wrong reasons and start shaking for the right ones, like muscle fatigue and pain. Vic beats the shit out of me pretty much any chance she gets, looking for my weaknesses and breaking them down until they stop being weak. But it's working. And I'm getting better. I can tell I'm getting better because sometimes I'll catch myself moving without thinking, clearing corners, controlling my breathing, doing things automatically. And instead of feeling proud, I feel afraid. I feel afraid because the eye seems to like it when I move like that. It tightens in my chest when I hesitate, and sometimes it opens a little wider when danger gets close, like it's leaning forward to watch or maybe waiting for its turn. That brings me to a recent case, this one I didn't record because it wasn't my op. Not really. I was there. But I was there in the way a trainee is there. Watching, learning, trying not to be a liability. This Christmas tree thing. If I describe it plainly, it sounds like I'm making it up, and I wish I was. But the simplest truth is that we walked into a house that felt like a greenhouse for rot and murder. The air was warm and wet, like the walls were sweating. And the smell was this chemical meat stink that climbed into the back of your throat and stayed there. We found a man in a back room who wasn't just sick. He was filled with the insides of his family. And I guess they did it themselves because of some parasite. Conroy didn't hesitate. He didn't do the thing people do where they say, hey, buddy, can you hear me? And pretend the world is still kind enough to do something for him. He ended it fast. Because whatever was happening to that man wasn't fixable. That day was a hard lesson on what mercy looks like in Conroy's world. It isn't comfort. It isn't hand holding. It's decisive and calculated. And then we burn the house. Because we don't let things like this happen again if we can help it. I thought that was going to be the worst smell I ever carried away from a job. Tonight proved me wrong. When I got close to the building tonight and the air shifted from abandoned factory to something living died here and didn't stop, my brain immediately flashed back to that house. Not the details or the imagery, just the category of wrongness. That same moment where you realize you crossed a line that you didn't see until your foot was already on the other side. Conroy had texted me a location and two sentences. Recon only. Confirm and leave. No dramatic warning. No file. No, no. This is what you're walking into. Because whatever this was, it hadn't made its way into any official channels. It was just disappearances. Not the kind that hit the news either, but the kind that vanish into the cracks. Because the people who went missing aren't the kind anyone prints. Flyers for. Scrappers, Urbex kids, people who sleep under bridges. People who don't have anyone with enough free time or money to become a persistent pain in the ass about it. Our guy noticed the same place orbiting the disappearances. A derelict industrial site on the edge of a nowhere town that kept popping up. And it wasn't enough to justify pulling everyone off what they were doing because Reese was tied up and Vic was tied up and Conroy was juggling fires the way he always does, although I kinda think he sets just as many fires as he finds. The whole point of sending me was that it was supposed to be the kind of job where the new guy can be useful and build confidence without getting himself killed like he almost did on his first mission. I drove out alone. The road was empty. The sky was moonless, clouds hanging low enough that it felt like the world was being pressed down. My headlights didn't reach far enough, and every tree line looked like a mouth ready to swallow me whole. The building showed up like a stain on the horizon, big and dead and quiet. It wasn't the cinematic kind of abandoned where there's graffiti and sketchy people are loitering about. It looked like it died and everyone, for the most part, just knew to stay away. Brick walls, busted windows, loading bays with doors hanging crooked, half torn. Signage with missing letters so the name didn't mean anything anymore. I parked a ways off, killed the engine, and sat there for a second with my hands on the wheel, listening. There was no distant traffic, no insects, no birds close by, just wind moving through the broken structure, making a thin whistling sound that came and went like ragged breathing. That should have been my first sign. I checked my gear, kept it light as Conroy told me. Pistol, spare mags, knife, light backup light gloves, mask, evidence bag, no rifle because I wasn't supposed to be going to war. I was supposed to look, confirm, and leave like a good little trainee. I moved across the lot slowly, staying off anything that would crunch, and I found signs of people quickly enough. A cigarette butt that looked recent, a crushed energy drink can, and footprints in the dirt near the loading bay. Then I got closer and the air shifted. Subtle at first, like walking past a dumpster in summer, except it wasn't garbage. It was sour and wet, with a faint metallic edge that made my tongue want to spit. The eye opened wider and I felt that little tightening sensation in my chest. Leave, it said, with no explanation, no elaboration, no danger or threat like the command itself should have been enough. I froze with my hand on the edge of the loading bay door and listened hard, trying to find whatever it had detected. I didn't hear anything, and that, more than anything, made me want to prove it wrong. Shut up, I whispered and stepped inside. I hadn't confirmed anything yet. The factory swallowed my light like it was hungry for it. The air inside was cooler and stale and every sound I made came back at me, which made me move even slower. My flashlight caught the outlines of dead machinery and rusted frames and conveyors that looked like skeletons. The smell intensified in stages. At first it was the human stink of someone living. Rough sweat, old piss, mold soaked in something worse, and for a minute my brain does what it always does and tries to hand me an easy explanation. Squatters, a drug den, illegal dumping. Then I saw the drag marks. Dark streaks across dust that hadn't settled over yet, smears that didn't match shoes or tires, like heavy things had been pulled through the building again and again to the same place. I crouched, touched one with a gloved finger, lifted my hand into the beam and stared at the sticky brown red sheen that told me what it was. Immediately my brain tried one last time to give me a soft answer. An animal carcass. Some idiot dragging a deer, Something explainable. And then the air shifted again and the smell climbed into a category that animals don't make and people don't create by accident, that sweet, sick rod of tissue that's dead but isn't done being used. I stood there in the dark and realized I'd already gone too far to pretend this was nothing. That's when I should have turned around. That's when I should have texted Conroy, told him the building wasn't empty, and left. But I didn't, because somewhere deeper inside the factory I heard a sound, wet and choking, like someone trying to cough with their throat full, and my stupid human brain did the most human thing it could possibly do. In that moment it thought, shit, someone's alive. They need help. The wet choking noise wasn't loud and it wasn't moving around the building like someone wandering. It stayed in one place, repeating in a way that made my stomach tighten. I moved deeper with my pistol up and my light tight, telling myself I was still doing reconciliation. I was just confirming human presence, and all the while the smell kept getting thicker until it turned into something bodily and wrong. It came in one hard shift near a stairwell, like stepping from cold air into a warm room full of rot, and it was bile and waste and infection layered together in a way that didn't belong in a place that was supposed to be empty. It caught in the back of my throat and my eyes watered, and I remember thinking that if there really was someone alive in here, they weren't going to be alive much longer. The drag marks were clearer up the stairs, darker and fresher in the dust. It wasn't laid out for me, obviously, but the truth was simple. And ugly. This wasn't an accident, and it wasn't a one time event. Halfway down a narrow corridor of old office doors, the eye opened wider in my chest and I felt that familiar tightening again. Exit, it said. It didn't raise its voice, and the calmness of it in that moment made me more uneasy than if it had screamed. I'm almost done, I whispered, and even as I said it, I knew I was lying, because the truth was done didn't really mean anything in the situation.
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