Part 2: Celebrity "Orgasm" Expert Force SA Victims To Recreate Their Original Assault To 'Heal'

Summary

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Rotten Mango: Episode Summary

Podcast: Rotten Mango
Host: Stephanie Soo
Episode: Part 2: Celebrity “Orgasm” Expert Force SA Victims To Recreate Their Original Assault To ‘Heal’
Date: February 5, 2026

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Episode Overview

In this intense and disturbing deep dive, Stephanie Soo continues the two-part exploration of the “OneTaste” cult and its controversial “orgasmic meditation” practices, led by founder Nicole Daedone. This episode (“Part 2”) focuses on the group’s darkest abuses, particularly towards survivors of sexual assault (SA), exposing the layers of psychological manipulation, coerced sexual activity masquerading as “therapy,” and systemic victim-blaming fostered by Daedone and her inner circle. Stephanie also peels back Daedone’s complex and troubling history, her theories justifying abuse, and the reckless pursuit of power and profit wrapped in faux-feminist “empowerment” rhetoric.

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Main Discussion Points & Insights

1. “Nobody is a victim”: Nicole Daedone’s Core Philosophy

• Nicole evokes shock by telling trainees: “Nobody’s a victim ... The problem with the victim story is it takes away your power.”
  [02:00]

• She asserts that women can “deflect” assaults by being “100% turned on,” going so far as to mock the trauma of survivors with T-shirts reading, “I got r-worded and all I got was a victim’s story.”
  Notable Quotes

  • Nicole Daedone: “I r-worded someone, and all I got was a perpetrator story.” [03:32]

• Stephanie points out the dangerous implication: “She thinks it’s also kind of a woman’s fault that men are out here r-wording people...She’s also saying through the power of OM ... you can protect yourself against r-wording. Not because people are going to stop, but because there’s nothing left to r-word.”
  [03:45]

2. OneTaste’s Legal Troubles — and Limitations

• Nicole Daedone convicted for “forced labor conspiracy” (coercing employees into sexual acts), but not for trafficking or explicit SA charges.
  [05:05]

• Stephanie observes the public’s disappointment: “A lot of people wish she was charged with trafficking instead, but this is, I think, just how the laws are set up.”
  [05:31]

3. “Aversion Therapy” — Boundary-Smashing Abuse

• OneTaste “aversion therapy” required members to perform sexual acts with people or in ways that disgusted them, on the theory that “aversion equals unpotentiated turn-on.”
  [07:00]

• Members describe being “assigned” to have sex with hundreds of unwanted partners (“200 men in 200 days”) as a “high achievement.”

  • OneTaste’s official line: “Members who chose to explore their aversions did so voluntarily and were never pressured ... activities were suggestions, not instructions.”
    [10:35]

• Stephanie is blunt: “Giving assignments and teaching members that they should ignore their own personal preferences and boundaries ... if you can’t trust your own boundaries, you’re going to have to trust Nicole.”
  [11:30]

4. Retraumatizing Survivors: “Healing” by Recreating Assaults

• Daedone posited that trauma is “just stuck in the body that needs discharge” — thus, more trauma meant more “potential for discharge,” making “fucked up people” prime candidates for OM.
  [12:26]

• Explicitly, survivors are made to relive their original assaults under the guise of “aversion therapy” and supposed catharsis.

  • Example: A member forced to be surrounded by a group chanting “you’re so beautiful” while recreating her original assault scenario, leading to her “fully hyperventilating and [being] gutted.”
    [22:15]

  • “If you didn’t want to sleep with all these people, the person managing your assignment would go download Tinder, Bumble ... tell their employee ... here’s when, here’s where, go do this and report back to me.”
    [18:20]

• Stephanie: “It’s even more trauma. So you just keep trying to keep going with it because it can’t be for nothing.”
  [20:19]

5. Skillful Violation & Elimination of Consent

• Onetaste promoted the notion of “skillful violation” — pushing past stated boundaries for another’s “growth.”

  • “You’re not really violating what she wants, you’re violating what she says she wants.”
    [36:16]

• “Consent” was systematically undermined.

  • “Consent means ‘not right now’... If a guy is attracted to a woman, she says no, but he still feels attraction, it’s because she’s putting out signals ... He should keep trying because something is clearly there.”
    [36:25]

• Women were told: “We want it more than you could possibly fathom...We are quite literally starved for the feeling of O’s in our bodies.”
  [37:09]

6. Victim-Blaming and Perpetrator Sympathy

• Nicole argued: “When you get to the root of what’s called a perpetrator, it’s an unbearable desire to love through all of the terribly, terribly inaccurate methods they’ve been given ... My experience is it’s just pure love.”
  [32:50]

• On men’s violence: “She thinks that they are dealing with a lot ... their beast in them ... and that they probably have a beast ... She thinks SA is very complicated.”
  [30:44]

7. Elite Access, Exploitation, and Manipulation

• OneTaste expanded to major cities with “communal living" and “OM Moms” overseeing residences.
  [17:04]

• Members were often sent to sleep with wealthy investors, with “priest/priestess” rituals staged for elite backers — directly exploiting members sexually for business deals.
  [67:45]

• Nicole’s techniques evolved to appeal to and manipulate tech bros, wealthy investors, and celebrity circles, meticulously changing her messaging depending on the audience.
  [40:01]

8. Nicole’s Upbringing and Extreme Views

• Nicole’s background: Abandonment by her father, who was later convicted of child molestation. Nicole minimized and re-framed the abuse, blaming herself and denying moral wrongdoing on her father’s part.

  • “I never took on the idea that he was a bad person ... his only crime ... was that he was too fourth-dimensional...”
    [64:15]

• Nicole’s “origin story” blurred reality and philosophy, often changing details to suit her current narrative.
  [59:36]

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Notable Quotes & Moments (w/ Timestamps)

• Nicole Daedone, on victimhood:
  “I r-worded someone, and all I got was a perpetrator story.”
  [03:32]

• Stephanie, on OneTaste’s pressure:
  “You are lying to yourself that you don’t want to have intimate relations with Mark. So if you’re constantly lying to yourself, who are you going to trust? Well, you’re going to have to trust Nicole.”
  [11:30]

• Nicole, on trauma:
  “Trauma is just stuff that’s stuck in the body that needs discharge. So ... the more trauma you have, the more potential for discharge you have. It’s awesome.”
  [12:30]

• Account of forced SA reenactment:
  “She said that she was fully hyperventilating and it gutted her ... She needed to push through because she was told over and over again this would be her final breakthrough.”
  [22:17]

• Nicole, on perpetrators:
  “My experience is that when you get to the root of what’s called a perpetrator, it’s this unbearable desire to love through all of the terribly, terribly inaccurate methods they’ve been given ... it’s just pure love.”
  [32:50]

• Nicole, revealing her real business model:
  “You can’t sell God. You can get God on Amazon. What I’m selling is sex. Because you still can’t get that.”
  [79:13]

• Nicole, on her father’s child abuse:
  “I never took on the idea that he was a bad person ... his only crime ... was that he was so expansive and fourth dimensional that he couldn’t confine himself into the arbitrary laws of the third dimension.”
  [64:15]

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Key Takeaways

• Abuse as “Wellness”

Nicole Daedone and her loyalists preyed on survivors’ vulnerabilities, weaponizing pseudo-spiritual language, sexualized “assignments,” and outright victim-blaming to entrap members further into the cult.

• Systemic Traumatization

SA survivors were compelled to reenact traumas under the guise of therapy and catharsis, deepening psychological wounds, and suppressing autonomy.

• Manipulation for Profit and Power

Nicole’s ever-shifting narrative and embrace of “skillful violation” created a high-control environment designed for exploitation, all while seducing wealthy backers who enabled the organization’s growth.

• Dangerous Ideologies

Daedone’s dismissal of consent and reframing of victimization as “spiritual empowerment” is both psychologically and physically dangerous, with deeply misogynistic underpinnings disguised as female sexual liberation.

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The Episode’s Tone

Stephanie Soo maintains a tone that is unflinchingly direct, darkly humorous, and emotionally resonant. She balances the absurdities of Nicole’s rhetoric with blunt, critical insights (“She’s just going on Fetlife and looking up the biggest kinks that exist and is just like, let me incorporate them...”), highlighting the alarming reality behind OneTaste’s glossy, “empowering” façade.

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For Listeners

This episode unpacks both the overt and covert abuses that occurred at OneTaste, interrogating the systems of psychological warfare and sexual coercion that allowed it to thrive. Stephanie’s deep dive draws hard lines between healing and harm, asking hard questions about the darker side of wellness culture.

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Transcript

[A]

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[B]

I know I got r worded, and all I got is victim story.

[A]

And she's, like, smiling into the crowd. She's like, I know people are shocked. They're gasping in the crowd. And she's like, I know this is crazy. Or it could be like, I r worded someone, and all I got was a perpetrator story.

[B]

So she doesn't believe in rape?

[A]

No, she believes it happens, but she thinks it's psychologically deeper than that. Like the fact that men are word. She doesn't think it's just like, these men need to be locked up and, like, snip, snip. She thinks that it's also kind of a woman's fault that men are out here r wording people. Wow. She's also saying through the power of om her meditative practice and paying for her courses, of course you can protect yourself against r wording. Not because people are going to stop r wording, but because there is nothing left to r word. So how can they r word you? I will say that there are still very wealthy people connected to Onetaste and the original group. Even though they seem to keep changing their names. They also seem quite litigious, which I've never been opposed to. A little legal scuffle, Especially the idea of seeing a ton of the people that we talk about in a deposition. I think that would bring me a great sense of adrenaline and excitement, and it would just make my week and year. But just so that we could be extra cautious. I do have to note that these are just allegations moving forward. Nicole Daydone is rotting, sorry, sitting at MDC Brooklyn. But she hasn't been charged of these crimes outright. She has been convicted of forced labor conspiracy, which does include sexual labor for the defendant's benefit, as well as coercion of performing sexual acts. Acts, but it doesn't outright include essay.

[B]

Wait, so again, what does she charge for?

[A]

Again, you said forced labor conspiracy, which means that you're running a company and you're coercing your employees to perform sexual acts. You are having sexual labor for your benefit as the employer. However, she has not been convicted outright of facilitating essay or just essay in general.

[B]

Does she have a case pending or.

[A]

No.

[B]

Oh, this is it.

[A]

Yeah, this is it. So these are just, legally speaking, just allegations. As of right now, though, I don't personally think a lot of netizens question any of the victim's stories. In fact, a lot of people wish that she was charged with trafficking instead. But this is, I think, just like the ways that the laws are set up. So with that in mind, let's talk about the darker side of onetaste. Have you ever heard of aversion therapy? I feel like there's so many different therapies. There's exposure therapy, there's now aversion therapy. And it goes something like this. A guy named Mark from onetaste is really, really freaking upset. He feels like he's a victim of. I mean, honestly, he doesn't know how to put it into words. Okay, well, try, Mark. Try to put it into words. Mark tells everyone he's really upset because two girls from onetaste barged into his room and offered themselves up to him. They were like, can we just do you? And they both start going down on him down there. Like, both of them at the same time. And they're like, okay, so that's essay. If you didn't want it. And Mark is like, okay, but here's the thing. I did want it. Like, at the time, I loved it. It was great. It was phenomenal. Okay, so what's the problem? Okay, the problem is afterwards I overheard the girls talking about how Mark was their aversion therapy. The girls were told by higher ups at onetaste to find the most disgusting, filthiest, ugliest animal on the planet and then have intimate relations with him. Like, find the person where the idea of that person, even the visual idea of that person is going to make you want to throw up, bend over, and vomit into a toilet, go find them and have intimate relations with them. Aversion therapy at one taste is when you do the most disgusting thing you can think of in an attempt to get off on it. Yeah. It's putting it simply. It's a lot more twisted and complicated than that. One taste coaches. And the amount of aversion you have equals the amount of desire that's there. Opposite sides of the same coin. What the coaching program would say. Our preferences are just repetitive devices that enslave us in eternal mediocrity. But we're usually too chicken shit to step into a different terrain. Basically, why do you think you're so turned off by something? Perhaps it's because you're actually so turned on by it, but mentally you don't want to accept that idea that this is something that you like. One former member describes it like this. And this is potentially going to be a controversial statement, but in a certain way for people who have closed down. It's like you get that fix one way or another, right? So if you determine you don't want that fix in an explicit way, so they're saying, like maybe you've convinced yourself or society has convinced yourself that watching X rated videos is disgusting, it's vile, it's morally corrupt. Right? Then you have a tendency to, to then go and get it by sort of a mental fixation on it. So you develop these strong, super strong anti X rated video fixation that becomes your life's work. You're protesting, you're writing blog articles on it. It gives you a way to engage with this thing that you kind of really need. Basically, aversion is unpotentiated. Turn on, explore it. Today it's described more bluntly by one member who says basically it was, quote, a broad term for energy. By performing intimate acts that you don't want to or doing them with people that you find disgusting. Like that was just aversion therapy. There's nothing deep about it. Officially, they start referring to it as unconditional sex and onetaste starts leaning heavily into this. Higher up members of onetaste start giving out assignments to those underneath them. So this is like your manager at work telling you you have a new assignment. These assignments typically revolve around doing everything possible to get rid of your version of certain things, your aversion to certain things, acts or people, just obliterating any sort of personal boundary that you have. One former member was told to have as many intimate relations with random people that she found to be super disgusting and ugly that she ultimately did not want to have intimate relations with. But in 200 days, they forced her to have intimate relations with 200 different men. And this was presented to onetaste members as a high achievement. She has reached a new level of connection and being turned on. It should be noted, I will say legally that onetaste claims that everybody was into it. Everybody consented. Nobody was forced into an assignment. Quote. Members who chose to explore their aversions did so voluntarily and were never pressured and incentivized. The activities were always suggestions and not instructions. But they would also have these seminars where Nicole would get up there or another higher up at onetaste would get up there and they would just look so prim and proper. Something we play with at onetaste is perhaps no means not right now. So the best thing I can tell you is keep going. And know that if she, the woman of your interest, is still on your mind even after she brutally rejected you out of the blue and you can't believe it, she might still want you.

[B]

So Nicole is just coming up with these, yeah, Nicole.

[A]

Like, she'll wake up and have a new idea. And then all of a sudden, it becomes the new psychological method to become more connected. Connected to what? Each other, within yourself. I don't really know. I mean, at some point she just sounds like she is my late grandmother who had Alzheimer's. Like, the ramblings are just nonsensical. One former member says, you would have situations where you would have to have intimate relations with x amount of people every week, even if you didn't want to. Or some people were assigned to do a BJ every day with a different person even if they didn't want to. I mean, basically giving assignments and teaching members that they should ignore their own personal preferences and boundaries and that if they can't, they can't even trust their own boundaries. They're just lying to themselves. You are lying to yourself that you don't want to have intimate relations with Mark. So if you're constantly lying to yourself, who are you going to trust? Well, you're going to have to trust Nicole. And this is what Nicole has to say. We human beings have a universal tendency to loathe what is in our best interest always. And Nicole believes that aversion therapy mixed with oming is the cure to trauma created by SA. She's like, basically, this is her message. Look around. Everyone has SA trauma. It seems like every woman you meet is so trauma. Okay, why is that our fault? Right? But she's like, look at all these Women that you meet. And guess what? They're still traumatized, they're still miserable, they still don't want to own, they don't feel comfortable in their bodies. So what we're going to do is we're going to do omniscient so they can get comfortable in their body, and then we're going to do aversion therapy so that they can get over the trauma of their essay. She's like promising to sell freedom to the most vulnerable people.

[B]

Yeah. So this quote unquote therapy target audience is SA victims.

[A]

Yes. She says, we know experientially trauma is just stuff that's stuck in the body that needs discharge. So in a sense, almost like the more trauma you have, the more potential for discharge you have. It's awesome. So all of you fucked up people have trauma, tremendous potential. That's our message. How do you get the trauma out? Nicole says you ohm a lot. Whatever is in there begins to come out. You don't make it come out. You create enough heat that it becomes to come out naturally. When it begins to come out naturally, you ensure that you don't block it. She says that you have to release all of this trauma or else when you're in the positive version, okay, or the negative flip side that most of us live in, which is trying to avoid danger, that keeps you in a place where danger keeps happening. See, danger doesn't come towards the thing that have agency, that have the capacity to send energy out. Danger comes when. Danger comes when it perceives that there's something that will receive it. She's almost insinuating that victims are asking for it because they put out the type of energy into the world where they are inviting danger. She says, in terms of protecting our bodies. When I say this, you know, it's controversial. People don't like it. But in many, many, many studies, they really wanted to understand what had some people be assaulted more than others. So what they did was they spoke to assailants, abusers, violators, and they said, how do you choose who you go after? How do you choose who you go after? They said, I go after people who feel like victims and people who don't seem to be aware of their surroundings. And second thing, there's a certain kind of righteousness that people have. Everybody will mess with you nowadays, there's trolls everywhere, but there's a kind of righteousness where you have communicated that you will not back down no matter what.

[B]

What, what does that mean?

[A]

She's just saying if you are turned on and connected through copious amounts of om. Then you will be stronger and more confident and you will carry yourself with an energy that's like, hey, I don't fuck around. One survivor of childhood essay who.

[B]

That's crazy. Like, she went to rapists and say, hey, how do you pick your target?

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And they're like, see, this is why we should listen to rapists.

[A]

Yeah. Or it's like, hey, we should round them up and do the thing out back.

[B]

That's crazy.

[A]

One Survivor childhood essay who joined OneTaste. She was inspired because she said that she always had a hard time connecting intimately. Which is. Which is obviously like a part of trauma when you've been through childhood essay. And she said that. But because of that past trauma, she meets Rachel, who is the head of sales at onetaste. She's like Nicole's right hand woman. She's the only other one that gets charged by Edny. The eastern district of New York. Yeah, there's. It's very complicated. Also, the reason that a lot of people have not heard about this case as much, I think, is because it actually started trial May 2025, exactly when Diddy's trial started. And it was almost like concurrent trials of very similar rhetoric of very similar things happening. And then ultimately she got it worse than Diddy and she put out all these statements about how this was a gender disparity, this was the double standard for women. Yeah. And it was like, no, I think that jury pool was just fucking ass for Diddy's trial. But whatever. My opinion doesn't matter here. Right. Anyway, Nicole said that she was always inspired because she always had a hard time connecting intimately because of her past trauma.

[B]

Oh, I'm like, how many people is in one taste at this point?

[A]

Oh, gosh, just their high membership that was costing like $16,000. They sold close to 2,000, I believe, if I'm not mistaken. And then that's just the people who paid for that tier of membership. There were so many people who came in for months at a time, took day courses. They were spread out all over. They opened up locations in New York, Texas, Atlanta, Los Angeles. Like, they had locations everywhere. Her whole dream was to make it like yogurt land menchies. She wanted franchisees all over the United States.

[B]

So when you go in, it's just like a big yoga room. Is that what it is? Yeah.

[A]

But most of the cities, they didn't even have yoga rooms. They just had communal living.

[B]

Once they open, people are living there.

[A]

Yeah, it would be interesting. So they would find a collection of people that were really into om and then they would open up their own One Taste headquarters in each city. And it would just be like a giant house that everybody lives in.

[B]

It's a residential house.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Oh, really?

[A]

Yeah. Huh. Would it be like a commercial slash living space? It really depended on the place. And a bunch of people would live there. It would be communal living and One Taste. For the longest time, they were the ones signing the leases. Eventually, because of all of the SA allegations that started coming out, Nicole was like, I don't want to be on the lease anymore. She doesn't care. It doesn't seem like she cares that people are getting SA'd within her organization. She just doesn't want to be on the lease because there's legal liability. Yeah. It's a whole thing. And then they start creating OM moms. OM Mom. M O M, like mother. Right. They would be the ones in charge of each location. So it's kind of like. Like strip clubs have moms. That's what they call it. Where you're like in charge of that location and you take care of all the girls there. But they would do that with One Taste.

[B]

So crazy.

[A]

What? So they had locations in every single major city? Yeah. Like this was a full fledged business. It's crazy because it sounds like a little. Okay, you're so crazy, lady. You probably have like five employees. But no, this is like a full fledged. They were listed on Top 100 Fastest Growing Startups by Inc. Magazine at one point. So they were trying to go mainstream their headquarters. Okay, we're gonna get there. You'll see where their headquarters is. But anyway, so this, this woman says that she was inspired because she always had a hard time connecting intimately. And Rachel, one of the OneTaste head staff members, head of sales, she's like, I went through the same exact thing and OM cured it. So she's like, okay, I'm gonna join. And she joins. And her name is Aries. Aries sister says, I just saw all the light slowly drain from her eyes. She describes it as these people would tell her that she needed to go sleep with all these guys or she needed to own five times a day to release herself from the trauma of her childhood. I mean, they would even go as far with these assignments for aversion therapy. If you didn't want to sleep with all these people, the person managing your assignment would go download Tinder, Bumble match with random men, chat with them and tell them, hey, I just want to do you find a place, find a time. And they would tell their employee, basically, hey, go to this hotel at 6 o'. Clock. This is the man you're going to sleep with and report back to me. This is why it's so crazy, because no one even gets anything out of that.

[B]

Right, right, right. That's what I know.

[A]

Yeah. It's not like they're going and going on a website for escorting in these major cities where it's like, hey, I have a client who's going to pay $200 to us. You go and sleep with them. It was genuinely just like a dude on Tinder.

[B]

So this is like a form of control on these girls.

[A]

Yeah. It's like you make them so vulnerable and dependent. And then also a lot of victims of one taste were saying it's almost this idea of like they just push you and push you to do the most effed up thing. And then once you do it, if you walk back on it, it's hard for humans to do that because then this miserable thing that you did was all for nothing. It wasn't for growth, it wasn't for healing yourself. It was. It just becomes another horrendous thing where you've been manipulated.

[B]

It's even more trauma though.

[A]

Yeah. So you just keep trying to keep going with it because it can't be for nothing.

[B]

Yeah. Wow.

[A]

There's just a lot of cruel mental torture embedded in all of this. Another member says that she was assigned by Nicole to sleep with every single man that lived in their shared living quarters. And she also had to sleep with this guy named Jeff, which naturally makes her freak out. And she tells Nicole, Jeff looks exactly like my older male relative that essayed me when I was a kid. So I don't think that I want to have intimate relations with someone who looked exactly like my childhood abuser. And that's the entire reason that she joined Onetaste was because of all this trauma, because of this male relative that she couldn't get over. And she says that, I mean, she can't do this. She felt out of touch from her body. It just. She can't do it. We don't know what Nicole said to her, but she said that ultimately she slept with Jeff. And it was.

[B]

Nicole probably said, this is exactly why you need to. You must.

[A]

Yeah. And she said it was the hardest thing that she ever had to do, but she did it because she fully trusted Nicole. And here's what Nicole is drilling into them day in, day out. Nicole would reiterate that the worst thing that can happen to somebody is to be a victim. She says, quote, the worst thing that happens is that you freeze into an identity and frozen in that identity is a very clear perception that's projected onto you. Now, some signifiers of darkness tend to be kind, you know, kind of like a chaos. And we associate chaos with darkness itself. My experience is that when you're actually in alignment with chaos, it's not that dark. It's not chaotic at all. It's actually awesome. Another member was forced to recreate her essay incident. She was r worded while her perpetrator kept telling her, you're so beautiful. So Onetaste allegedly set up a situation in which she would be performing on a man and a whole group of Onetaste members would would be standing in a circle around them and they would all say in unison, you're so beautiful. You're so beautiful. You're so beautiful.

[B]

How did she describe that?

[A]

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Additional terms apply. CMIT mobile.com. In another incident, it's alleged that Nicole was getting fed up with a female member's anxiety. So let's call her Ashley. Nicole hates that Ashley is anxious, so she sets up an essay session. Basically. I mean, I don't really know what else to call it that's my opinion. She pulls a guy to the side, whispers something to this guy's ear, and is like, hey, go om with Ashley. She's like whispering, ashley sees this. And then the guy walks up to Ashley and is like, hey, Nicole wants me to have an om with you. So they go do an om, and the man starts doing things down there that are not part of an om. And Ashley did not consent to it, but she says she couldn't voice out no because she didn't want to disappoint Nicole. And she saw Nicole talking to him, so she just assumed this is what she needed. She said, I totally disassociated. I mean, it was really damaging. It felt like being r worded, and yet I didn't tell him to stop. It's not even just re traumatizing SA victims, but it's also encouraging them to be victims repeatedly in new, various settings. For example, part of Aries life at one taste was to let her boyfriend beat her. And this was like a common reoccurring thing. She wrote later in her therapy journal that she sent to her sister, whom she shared this with Netflix. She writes, I woke up today filled with rage. Rage at my boyfriend, rage at he punched me in the face and he split my lip and bruised my eye. At first I was shocked and we had fought so many times before. I never thought he would go that far. I found little sympathy. This, I was told, was my fault. I forced him to do it. His beast was only fulfilling what my body had asked him to do. Since I was a survivor of childhood domestic violence, this was my pattern and what my body was asking for. He was only doing what my body asked. And now I was shaming and blaming him for doing what I had asked. I looked around the room at one taste, all eyes were downcast. Nobody was willing to stand up for me. I never spoke again about the other times he hit me or dragged me around. Looking back now, I can't believe I stuck through it. I so wanted to believe he would change. I was told that sometimes our soulmates must do violent things to help us grow. It was only a way to condone violence. They did not want me to. One, go to the authorities. Two, have my boyfriend leave and take his money with him. This evening, this community member let his beast out. He picked me up, pinned my arms to the side, and began to shake me in front of everyone. Nobody did anything as he screamed at me how he would like to r word me, me, beat me, use me. That he knew where I Slept and he would find me in the night. I was reprimanded afterwards for showing fear in the face of a beast. A true turned on woman would have taken his beast cry for help with grace and love.

[B]

So what is this guy's behavior? Is this just a violent dude?

[A]

Yeah, I mean, these are all.

[B]

So this wasn't part of the quote unquote therapy that they are all doing together.

[A]

Nicolette actually joined multiple cults before she started One taste. So Nicole was part of. Well, okay, you know what? I don't think they're that litigious. Okay, there's two cults, there's Morehouse, and then there is another cult, which seems a little bit scarier. But both of them, they were all doing deliberate O's. So they did the thing before Om. Like she took om from their practices. Remember she met up with the guy at the party before she wanted to become a Buddhist, apparently. And then he was like, let me teach you something. And that was the deliberate O. So that was the practice. And both of these organizations were run by two different men. And these men were just basically cult leaders. So they would have this thing where they would invite other men to join and then they would all just like beat the woman there, beat them into submission. And they would say things like, well, I'm only beating you because you're asking me for it. You didn't say it verbally, but whatever you did in your actions and the way that your energy is translating to me, you asked me to beat you and you can't get mad at me for doing what you asked. And Nicole, she's so psychotic. Okay. But apparently she took a lot of pride in the fact that no man ever beat her in these cults. She's special. Yeah. So she then puts this practice, I guess it attracts a lot of men and it keeps men staying because they feel like they're being seen as the masculine, violent criminals that they want to be. I'm sure it's not. I mean, I'm not saying all men are attracted to this type of practice, but I'm saying it's very specific type of men who are going to want to stay longer in environments like this.

[B]

So has she said anything to the men? Like, what does she say to men who try to essay woman?

[A]

She thinks that they're all just big little crybabies.

[B]

What does that mean? Mean, like, if a man wants to.

[A]

Essay a woman, she thinks that they are dealing with a lot and that they probably have a beast in them that they were never allowed to express that caused them to do this. She thinks SA is very complicated. She thinks a lot of men have shitty times in society which lead them to essay people and you know what. But good for her. I hope she keeps this energy up at MDC Brooklyn, cuz that's all I have to say. You know, in another situation, and this is confirmed to some degree by Onetaste, they've been aggressively denying all wrongdoing and everything else. But there's this incident where one executive of Onetaste just repeatedly started slapping his girlfriend in front of company employees over and over again during a fight. He was fired and then promptly rehired. Onetaste says the incident itself was unacceptable. However, they rehired him because they believe in rehabilitation, but they firmly stand that they do not promote or tolerate violence. Someone needs to send Nicole a fucking dictionary. You'd have to send it to MDC Brooklyn because that's where she is. But like, I don't think she understands what words are. Nicole didn't just hate the idea of victims being traumatized and not wanting to feel danger and having natural fear responses and PTSD of being put in unsafe situations. She hates that we have this notion that perpetrators are bad people. She says, my experience is that when you get to the root of what's called a perpetrator, it's this unbearable desire to love through all of the terribly, terribly inaccurate methods that they've been given. Does that make sense? Like if you picture what, you know, those sticks in a river and it just keeps pummeling up against something, it doesn't have a natural way to flow. That's really the experience of what we call a perpetrator. My experience is that it's just pure love. My experience of what we call a victim is a desire for pure release, pure surrender, pure freedom. Also, if you just need another reason to not listen to Nicole, she says as proof that chaos is the only way to grow, that you have to be in a constant state of chaos to actually achieve a higher purpose. That's the key to enlightenment. Like this is an actually unhinged woman. One former member says that two members were caught fighting by the manager of the company who. Who told them to leave and don't come back until they've both done it with each other. One former member says, I mean, the whole point was, quote, if you're having really very strong feelings, negative feelings about somebody, like have an om with them. They say om is very different from sex and that we don't wait until we're in the mood or turned on. Rather, we use OM to turn us on, to stroke our desire to awaken our libido. So we take it on as a practice. We may set a regular time. We even OM in the middle of a fight because we know as much as we hate our partner right now and want nothing to do with with them. Fifteen minutes from now, we're likely feeling a lot better, and the conversation will go very differently. I genuinely think that she needed a way to control a lot of the members, but also up the ante nonstop. I think she got off on keeping people in a heightened state of anxiety and emotions. Her ex husband, because she was married at one point long, ditched him before one taste becomes big. But the ex husband says Nicole actually had this thing where she was fascinated by what she could get people to do. Sometimes she just wanted people to do things just to see if she could get them to do it. Like, she's not even getting anything out of it. But, like, if she's like, hey, go jump off the roof. She got pure joy, allegedly, from just watching someone listen to her like that.

[B]

That's the control thing, right?

[A]

It just loves the control. Because none of this makes sense. A lot of the times when you have traffickers, they either find a lot of of sexual enjoyment in the exploitation, or they get financial exploitation. Like this is. Eventually it does become financial for Nicole, but like all of this, it doesn't make any sense. Why spend so much energy and resources of all of these people doing these assignments, meeting people in hotels from Tinder, forcing them to do things with each other that they don't want to do?

[B]

Is she also doing all of these things as well?

[A]

Oh, no, she's. She probably says she is, but she's not.

[B]

Interesting.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

So she's not doing OM or whatever.

[A]

As OM gets bigger and bigger, the more powerful one taste becomes. She is the only female stroker. She stops getting strokes. In fact, a lot of people who left said she used to own with them a lot, and eventually she just stopped asking for ohms.

[B]

Huh. Why is that interesting? Like, she's trying to set herself apart now.

[A]

Yeah. She was told by a previous cult member or cult leader that the leader cannot be too close to the pack because that's how they get eaten alive. Yeah. No, she's very sick and twisted because the next thing that she starts encouraging people is to employ skillful violation. Members of onetaste are taught that they need to learn how to discern when to push past someone's stated preferences for the sake of that person's growth, not even for yourself. If you had to be forced to make it sound legal, it would be. It's a moment of connection where you know that what this person deeply desires, they know what they deeply desire, but they're too ashamed or too scared or too nervous to tell you, so you just go ahead and do it to fulfill their greatest desire. One member describes it as, you're not really violating what she wants, you're violating what she says she wants.

[B]

So, like, full on essay.

[A]

Yeah, like a very roundabout way of just describing essay.

[B]

So what is consent? Is there consent to them?

[A]

No, there's no such thing as consent means.

[B]

Not right now.

[A]

Exactly. Oh, there's this, like, this whole thing where if a guy is attracted to a woman, she says, no, but he still feels attraction. It's because she's putting out signals. So she might not even know that she's attracted to him, but he should keep trying because something is clearly there. He would not feel attracted to a woman unless the woman is sending out these signals. Signals.

[B]

Interesting. Yeah, that's interesting. Like, so what if a person is quote, unquote, attracted to Nicole, then can she say no?

[A]

Yeah, yeah. Nothing ever applies to Nicole. That's crazy. And she also is, like, sitting in there complaining about jail. And I think that she should just work on staying connected with her fellow cellmates. Very weird of her. This is all made even more tricky by the fact that Nicole says that the main difference is that a lot of men think that women don't want to have intimate activities. That's like a whole thing in society. It's like women always say, no, I have a headache. No, I don't want to do this. No, I'm tired. She says, do not believe us if we say we don't want intimate relations. We want it more than you guys could possibly fathom. We are quite literally starved for the feeling of O's in our bodies. But we haven't been given permission to discover the unique sensations of our own O. So we don't know how to order what we desire in this. We need your help. Skillful violation relies on at least three pillars of belief. The first being the women are meant to explore and delight men. Nicole says, once you see that, everything changes. And the thing to understand is this. Okay, I'm built for hospitality. I'm not built for submission, Although I like to explore, you know? And I am not built to be a warrior. I am built to delight. And so my natural desire is to say yes. I don't Know what she's saying? She's just saying that, like, women have a natural desire to please and to say yes. And second, that women have been suppressed for so long that they need men or other women who are more turned on to guide them to their deepest desires. Furthermore, women are the ultimate responsibility for everything. So this is where it gets sick and twisted. Nicole realizes the past two cults that she was in, they never made it mainstream because a guy sitting there telling you about how women can be empowered is the dumbest thing alive. No one's going to buy it. Women aren't going to buy it. You're not going to end up on the COVID of Forbes. You are only going to do that if you're a woman telling women what they need. So she sells this message that women are the most powerful beings on the planet. We're more powerful than men. Okay? But. But with power comes great responsibility. One former member says one taste was encouraging women to appreciate the predatorial nature of male sexuality. Because basically Nicole is saying women are the ones emitting these signals consciously, subconsciously. We are telling men to catcall us, basically. We're like sending out the vibes. We're sending out our aura and our energy, and then they are acting on it because they can't resist the energy of women.

[B]

So she's saying anything, everything is your fault, basically.

[A]

Yeah. Which is, like, not really female empowerment. Yeah. She would say things like, you know, men are just responding. It all starts with the woman. They are the cause of everything. And she would say things like, we have to understand that with equal rights comes equal responsibility, and women aren't willing to take equal responsibility, how is she.

[B]

Like, sharing these messages?

[A]

She's so good about it. If she has a lot of new members and they're very basic, regular, schmegular tech bros and tech couples that come in. It's very watered down. It's the PR package of we just want women to feel connected to their partners, to achieve connectedness within, and to feel empowered to do more exploratory things in the bedroom. And this is how we're going to reignite the steam in your relationship. And then once people get more and more in, she starts upping the ante. So aversion therapy, skillful violation. These are things that she would tell people that we know that this works, but it's like being a wizard, being a witch. That's what they called it. Okay. The Muggles out there would want to burn us at the stake if they knew what we were doing. But that's the magic. Like, only the people who know and see the magic have the magic. So we can't go out there and talk. Talk about it with the Muggles.

[B]

She said, this is you. You're listening to me, but don't tell this to anybody.

[A]

Yeah. And they're like. I mean, she's like, you can, but they're gonna look at you like you're crazy. Because the Muggles don't get it. They would also think that normal people who don't get it are zombies. They're asleep. They're coasting through life, watching TV on the weekends, being half alive, half connected, having no pure connections within themselves or with other people. People. So it's like, it depends on which tier of people that you're talking about. And she's got a lot of podcasts, I will say more. So in the early years, she was crazier.

[B]

What do you mean she was crazier?

[A]

Yeah. Even just, like, publicly, she was crazier. She would just say things to bigger classes of just like. But then as the world gets more mainstream. Yeah, yeah. She starts toning it down, and everything becomes, like, wishy washy connected with spiritualness. Like, she. She starts talking about Eros.

[B]

Like, what's Eros?

[A]

It's like she pulls from Buddhists and yogis and tantric teachers. Like, she starts making it kind of, you know, like, more spiritual. But which I have nothing against spirituality. I think it's beautiful. It's just like hers is not spirituality. It's just like, mashing together words. Like, it doesn't make any sense. So she gets a little bit crazier. She has all of this hidden. And for the first time ever, they have their big inner circle scandal. It doesn't make it to the mainstream news outlets or even to the world outside of OneTaste. But this causes a huge rift inside the Onetaste community because at this point, it's. There's so many states that have One Taste headquarters. There's so many different cities. They have this online hub that you go to with all the OneTaste members from New York, Los Angeles, San Francisco, Atlanta, Texas, and they all start writing. And there's this one post that starts going viral. She is a student who bought into the coaching program. She's probably already spent, like, $10,000. She's gonna stay at the communal residence until she finishes the coaching program. And she's there in Texas training for the course that she paid for. She's in her assigned bedroom working on her laptop. When a trained coach not even a fellow trainee, a trained coach, slams open the door without knocking, walks up to her bed and just starts grabbing her chest. She tells him, I'm working. I don't want this stop. He tells her, quote, I bet this isn't the worst interruption from work you've had. He leaves, but then he promptly returns, waving his finger in front of her face. I don't know. Asking like, like she's like, what are you doing? Seeing if you'll touch my finger. This is the beginning of your turn on. She tells him, no. Eventually he leaves again and she goes to try and lock the door, but there's no lock. She's of course, terrified. And she writes on the forum, this is not a safe place. Which is absolutely valid. One taste seemingly was not a safe place. I mean, they have shared living spaces, communal living, and it's been alleged where at one point a man who was convicted and let go of killing his girlfriend, somehow he's free, was allowed to join this communal living space. Another time, a man accused of essaying children was allowed to be interviewed by onetaste. But this incident causes a huge stir in the own community. Not in the outside world, but everyone. It's like a shake up. You would think that Nicole and om all the executives are like, we gotta pump the brakes. But one of Nicole's inner circle executives, so why.

[B]

Yes, like, why is it a shakeup? Why are people reacting so aggressively even within the community?

[A]

I think that it was a lot of newer people in the community that took it really seriously because of course they should. And then a lot of people that have been in onetaste for a really long time, and Nicole's inner executives, they start adding fuel to the fire. They don't just say like, hey guys, we're handling the situation, we got it under control. They start saying things like, look, as a woman, the easier thing for me to do is say I was violated. That way I don't have to look at my part in it. People love the story of violation. We drink it up like water. It keeps women broken. It allows everyone else to feel good because they want to rescue women. In the meantime, we shame and blame the men for showing any signs of desire, for being creepy. It's not that men are bad and women are good. It's that I'm the one, as a woman, who knows how to tend to these unbelievably powerful forces that need, need incredible care, nurturance, strength, power, everything that a mother has. I'm the one who knows how to hold that power as a mother, not as a father who's doing his thing, but somebody who understands the ramifications of this power. So a lot of, like, the younger onetast members. Younger as in newer, they hear this and they're like, okay, I gotta go.

[B]

So before it was all, like, theoretical.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

But when this actually happened within the community.

[A]

Community, yeah.

[B]

They're like, yeah.

[A]

And you have to remember that San Francisco, especially, is a huge hub for freedom in that aspect. So they had the Lusty lady, which is now defunct, and actually Nicole used to work there. It's a strip club where. It was the first unionized strip club in the U.S. they also have kink.com headquartered on the same, like, street that all of the massive tech companies like Uber and Twitter are. Yeah. So they have, like. They have huge BDSM communities. Actually, one of the communal living centers called the Warehouse, the original one in San Francisco, once one tastes left, it is now like a play dungeon where you can come in and, like, get strapped up to the crosses and, like, you know, so they have, like, a. So I think a lot of people went in thinking, like, oh, this is kind of like role playing, maybe. Like, okay, yeah, I don't want it. But, like, you know, like, maybe it's sad and, like, everybody is a consenting adult at the end of the day, but.

[B]

So people are, like, experimenting and learning and just.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

But instead they're like, hey, if you get groped, that's your fault.

[A]

Yeah. Yeah. And then I think a lot of the newer members were like, what?

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

What do you mean?

[B]

Yeah, so there's no consent here.

[A]

Yeah, like, I gotta go. So then it caused this huge rift inside of the community. They also had something called going off the rails, which basically just means essay. And typically, an older stroker will just use an om with a younger woman as a way to just fully essay them.

[B]

They promote that, or they.

[A]

No, but they would just call it. Instead of saying it's essay, you need to go to the police. They would just say, oh, he went off the rails. It's just you're going off the rails. And it's encouraged for guys to let their beast out. So women letting their beast out means having intimate relations with as many men as possible that they don't want to have intimate relations with. And for men, it's doing whatever the fuck they want. Which is further evidenced by a male member. He's doing this introduction video for one taste, and he's asked to describe his intimate life. And, like, I think this is Why? A lot of Nicole's teachings start heavily leaning this way because I think this is the community that is giving her money. He says, there's a lot of anger in my intimate life, and there's also a lot of sweetness. But with one taste, I'm hoping to bring in even more anger. And Nicole promotes that idea by saying, for us, pause and hesitation are the worst. Hesitation costs everything, and so is withdrawal during play. Withdrawal during play is cruel because it doesn't mean you can't pause. Pause is deliberate withdrawal just drags another person's nervous system around. So she's basically saying, if you are in the midst of intimate relations, and you're like, hey, I can't do this anymore. I don't want to do this anymore. You are cruel. Don't do that. You can even just say, if you get stuck, you can say, oh, I'm stuck because my pride is here. Oh, I'm stuck because the next thing I would say or would do would make me far too vulnerable, and I'm terrified of what it would mean. So if you profoundly, you know, if you want profound erotic play, fast and smooth is the most fun. And you can only get there by continuing to move through these blocks as you go. Boundaries are blocks that you have to push through. And she says, you know, this is back when she was in the adult entertainment industry, right when she was working at, like, the Lusty Lady. She says, I had a regular, and he wanted to strangle me. His beast was locked in there, and it hadn't had a place for expression. And I just happened to love beast, beast. I had to surrender so deep that I could absorb him all the way in. And invariably, all of a sudden, it hit this point, and he just started bawling, and that was all. And he paid me a lot of money to just come strangle me and cry, and that was it. And we think, you know, they're so tough, but they're just little love bugs. They're crying. They're just our little companions that want to love us.

[B]

Is she the world's biggest pick?

[A]

Me? Yeah, I think so. I hope she gets picked a lot at MDC Brooklyn because she's so desperate to be picked.

[B]

That's crazy.

[A]

He wants to strangle women. He is not a love bug. He is hopefully just someone who is exploring intimate interests while practicing safely. Although I think that is too much benefit for the doubt. I think he could just be a criminal. Nicole continues, they're just tough because they're met with fear. Nicole's messaging Is bluntly, a turned on woman says yes more often. And that's a good thing. And we know this because, let's say a woman complains. She says there's a secret and it's this. Behind every woman's complaint is a desire. The complaint is like this moat around her palace, her castle of hunger. No, she's crazy. I mean, Nicole may argue that my interpretation is incorrect, but those are ultimately the words coming out of her own mouth. And on that note, she even says in class that essay is a complex issue. Not in the sense that essay culture exists. The justice system blames victims, that society at large blames victims. It's not complex in that way. It's complex because essay and assaulters are not just perpetrators. She says there is a rage that lives. And so you see this rage that lives in women and we all here are fairly familiar with it. But there's a rage that lives in men, that you can't win the game. She says they have no dignity, these men. They're groveling for sexless sex and groveling for a drop of anything. And that is humiliating. And that's why I say essay is a very complex thing. That's why it's complex. You have to look at the conditions of a starving person being tricked by somebody selling food that doesn't nourish.

[B]

Yet again, she sounds just like one of those male podcasts. Yeah, no, I like exactly the same stuff. Stuff she's saying.

[A]

Yeah, she's like the girl with the list. Like she sounds exactly like a male podcaster. Yeah, and she also for someone who claims to be bisexual, and I say claims, not because I like to question people's sexuality, but she claims this. She fudgeing hates lesbians. I don't know how else to put it. One victim says she was told nonstop at one taste. Side note, she's into women, she's not into men, she's a lesbian. And they straight up tell her to her face, if you're not hungry for for cock, you're not connected with your true inner self. All women are hungry for cock. Even if you're gay, you're hungry for cock. They start pressuring her to have intimate relations with men, encouraging her that if she can just contact the part of her that is hungry for the cock, she will be unstoppable and truly powerful in this world. The stuff that is being taught, enforced and pushed on vulnerable members at onetaste are so confusing in the sense that, I mean, later it's going to make sense because Nicole will Want these members to be intimately open so that she can exploit them and have them sleep with investors for the company. That's her ultimate aim. It seems it's downright evil, but it makes sense in the traditional way of like, okay, that's usually how we see these things unfold. People start these organizations to essentially traffic women so that they can get financial gain. But as of right now, people are like, what is she even getting out of this? What the hell is wrong with Nicole?

[B]

Do we know the investors or.

[A]

Yes. Yeah. And some of them are huge names. One of them that she was courting that I don't think did anything with any members of One Taste, but she really, like, they were in conversations with Nicole of investing in One Taste or having some sort of partnership with One Taste. One was the founder of Zappos, who sold Zappos for like a billion dollars or something crazy to Amazon.

[B]

Right. So he was talking about investing, but no allegation yet?

[A]

No. There was no allegations that he essayed anyone in One Taste. I don't know if he has any allegations. I wouldn't be surprised considering what's going on with Epstein's list. Everybody's in there. Wellness gurus are in there. Like, everybody in their mom and dad is in there. So I don't know. But as of what I can see from One Taste members, they were sent to Las Vegas to constantly court him and, like, having these business meetings and talking about the benefits of om. But I don't think that he was catered to in that sense. And then ultimately he did not want to because he wanted to keep a squeaky clean image. Yeah.

[B]

Really? That's his reason.

[A]

Yeah. I think he was trying to do something with Vegas where he was gonna. I don't know if he was trying to persuade purchase, like, do a development in Vegas, which it was crazy because he was basically saying that even One Taste is too much for Vegas. We're talking about Vegas.

[B]

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

[A]

So he's like, I gotta keep my image if I want to win this. I think he was, like, bidding for a development or something interesting. And a lot of this stuff is not even particularly marketable to the masses. Nobody's gonna listen to a wellness podcast that talks like this. I would say maybe like 10 of what Nicole says is like every other male podcaster, but, like, the other 90% is kind of crazy.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

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[B]

She met the Buddhist.

[A]

Yeah. Who was like, let me rub you down there. And it was a spiritual awakening. So then she just. I mean, that is evidence enough for me to not believe a single thing that comes out of her mouth. But it seems that she worked at the Lusty lady for a little bit of time. She starts picking up shifts and according to one ex boyfriend of hers that was with her at the time, she gets into high end escorting where she bragged about how every time she was with a man, she would practice cold ra reading, AKA trying to figure out quickly what the guy secretly wanted from her. Because when she first meets them, they would all act tough and they would all act like, you know, I'm just here because my buddy told me to be here and she's trying to read. Oh, like you want to be spanked, you want to be leashed up like a dog. She gathers quote, I learned that my erotic power is the greatest resource that I have. Later, onetaste members would learn cold reading. They would stand in a circle with one person at the center and people would blurt out what they see, trying to get a reaction such as, I see somebody who has never felt turned on. I see a 10 year old girl who was never loved, like trying to cold read and practice what Nicole would do. Nicole's ex husband says she just would play around socially with people, mess with their heads. Guys especially a friend of mine was like, oh, she's a monster, she's a monster. You stay away from her. And of course that led to him getting married to her because, you know, he found that very intriguing. Side note, I do think that their marriage was doomed for failure since the beginning. They get married when she's just starting one taste and she doesn't even tell him that one taste is based off of oming. Like he has no clue. He thinks that she's just starting a wellness company and she would do these very weird things where she would just treat him like shit. She would get in a hot tub with a bunch of members and then just lead him around like a dog. But the leaf is the ding dong. Like just kind of like just very humiliating things. Other members, eventually, once he does find out what oming is, they just saw him as disposable. Like he would walk into a room and there is his wife Nicole, just oming with other people. And he doesn't really. Someone straight up called him a throwaway person and eventually they do get divorced. But he does provide a lot of insight into her life. Life. Reportedly from other sources. She had her very first sugar daddy when she was 16 years old. She had a strong liking for meth. She would sprinkle meth into a tiny little square of tissue paper and then swallow the tissue paper whole. I don't know how accurate that is. But another ex of her says she just has this energy, good or bad, but she fills up the entire room. But probably the most enlightening part of Nicole's past is her relationship with her dad. Nicole's dad leaves the family when she's a few years old. He just, like, leaves Nicole and her mom to be a single mom. Nicole says during this lecture, you know, my dad was child molester. He had experiences with young girls, and he used me as bait. And so that exact behavior, like, whoa, me colluding with somebody who could cause harm, I got that seed out. I got free. I could forgive everybody in that whole experience. I don't know what she's saying, right? But I will say that Nicole probably has a lot of unresolved trauma in terms of her dad. Once he leaves the family, he starts a whole new family. He never comes to see Nicole, and she idolizes this man, thinks that her dad basically walks on water. She would do this thing where she would blast his favorite songs, sing them out loud because she thought that she could bewitch him to come drive around the corner and come visit her. He would visit very rarely. Once in a while, occasionally. And at one point, in college, she admits to her friends that he was essaying her when she was a child. And then eventually he was convicted of essaying other children that he had had. And she says, you know, my dad died in prison for 52 counts of child molestation. And I never took on the idea that he was a bad person. I took on the idea that he was just so expansive and fourth dimensional that he couldn't confine himself into the arbitrary laws of the third dimension. That his only crime in my mind. Mind. And now other people may have different ideas. Is that what she said? Yeah, is that, you know, he just was fourth dimensional. She says she saw a married family guy cheating with a video actress. She saw a religious leader sleeping with, you know, his own students. And you would use the word R word. But, like, she says, F U C, K. Right? And she's like, but really what I think is happening, it's just all nature. And maybe that's another shirt. Nature happens. Instead of saying, like, wow, these artificial constructs kind of suck ass, and even the most excited people in our culture cannot abide by them. Maybe we should look at the laws we've created.

[B]

The laws were created against child essay. Right.

[A]

She also starts telling people that the child essay that happened to her as a child was her fault because she seduced her father. Father. She says, that she was so hungry for his attention that when she was six years old, she burst into the restroom when he was using it and declared that she loved him and wanted to marry him. And she would constantly sneak peeks at his private parts. Oh, she also says that as a young child she would, like, try to climb on her dad and she felt exhilarated by the friction of the things. And then she said that even as a teenager, all of her boyfriends that she would have intimate relations with, at the end of the day, she imagined them to be her father instead.

[B]

That is some crazy stuff she's saying.

[A]

Yeah. But somehow all of this gets buried and all that makes it to the mainstream media is just Nicole's Looney Tune teachings that seem mostly harmless. So like I said, she just knows her audience really well.

[B]

So these are she told to her very inner interview.

[A]

Yeah. Or like in the very beginning she would say these things when she would just say all sorts of things. And then now it's like once she got the attention of the New York Times, once she got the attention of all these celebrities, she starts really toning it down.

[B]

Wasn't she married to a very successful tech person in the beginning?

[A]

They weren't married, they were just dating. And more on him later because. Because he's in a lot of the court documents. And we're gonna go through the trial in part two, and the trial is crazy. She was charged in edny, which is in Brooklyn. And same time as Diddy's trial, she also is repped by really powerful attorneys. One of them who repped R. Kelly, Harvey Weinstein, she would say some crazy shit. She was just straight up victim blaming.

[B]

She was testifying.

[A]

No, the attorney was just victim blaming through her cross examination to the point where the judge was like, hey, so all of you guys are insane. They put like the DOJ symbol and put a swastika over it. Yeah, they're crazy. Not. Not the attorneys. Don't sue me. Not the attorneys. But Nicole's side.

[B]

Okay.

[A]

Yeah. Also also, the Nicole and Rachel right now are trying to get part of the last pardons of when Trump leaves office. This time around, they've been courting a lot of right wing media sources and they have connections to who is called the pardon czar, who is like the person closest to Trump that's like in charge of all the pardons, basically. So, wow, that's all gonna be in part two.

[B]

So she must make a lot of money, right, from hiring all these top attorneys.

[A]

Yeah, she cashed out on one taste before it went down, she sold one taste to OneTaste. Members were very wealthy. And at one point, the guy who married the heiress of the Wrigley's chewing gum, like the chewing gum that everybody chews.

[B]

Huh?

[A]

He was part of One Taste. Like, she was attracting a lot of wealthy people. So I'm sure she has a lot of money. And even during the trial, it's just like Diddy. And when I was reading it, I was like, oh, this is so odd that it was happening at the same time. She would do the exact same things that Diddy would do. She would turn to her supporters who are filling up the pews, and she would put her hand on her chest and like, bow at them and like, mouth, thank you, thank you. And I'm like, oh, so they're all the same. Okay, what's happening? She just knows her audience. She knows exactly what to do. If she gets a group of tech investors or tech people that want to join One Taste, but, like, she knows they're not here to. Okay, so you've got the regular tech channel dudes who probably are not so great attracting companionship. Remember, like I was talking about earlier? So they pay and they want to see things happen. They want to learn how to attract members of the opposite gender so that they can go on dates. You've got that group and then you've got the tech bros that just want to see some nasty stuff. And she would cater to them too. She eventually starts hosting priest and priestess of orgasm rituals where, quote, it's described as. Described as this. There was this ritual where seven highest ranking women in one taste got up on seven tables on a stage with only black veils on their faces. They were totally unclothed from the head down, which is not an Om thing. Remember Om? You just take down your pants and then seven men would come up and stroke the woman. And then every few minutes they would all rotate. And the seven men were exalted as important men in the Om community. They were the priests of Omni. Usually these guys had plenty of money. That's basically what it is. So it almost becomes like this ritualistic element that I guess a lot of people are into. They also called it magic school. You pay $15,000. And to put it lightly, some people said it's kind of more like a sex party. You know, you watch people become priestess and priests of Om. And those who know Nicole say, you know, ultimately she was a show man. She would also, like, if she thinks you're into this, there was one where they Would have snakes. They would bring in snakes, and there would be a lot of women that were naked and the snakes would just like, writhe on their bodies. So really, she caters.

[B]

She's doing whatever.

[A]

She's doing whatever. If you have money and you sit down, she's doing whatever she thinks that you like. Right? But all of this is hidden from mainstream journalism. To them, she just shows. I mean, she shows spiritual nothings. That's what I want to call it. This is a segment I like to call do you know what she's talking about? Nicole says, I am of the belief that each one of us has a blueprint inside. What's the purpose of this life? The potential, the purpose of this life first is for you to learn to read your particular blueprint and then develop the courage to live that blueprint. And then you become permission for everyone else to live their blueprint. Does that make sense? No, it doesn't, Nicole. She says, so I have a very deep, embedded, clear blueprint. I talk about it. I talk about all the crazy shit with pride in, you know, in the pride that I have is that that is me. And then I'm going to live it out. In no way do I ever want you to believe. Believe. That's a prescription for you. I'm much more interested in semantics. It's called description versus prescription. I'm much more interested in discovering what's in there than how do we have. You have that. Whatever it is, I'm going into a coma. The One Taste website also says, learning to live unconditionally means learning to live without attachments to the form the energy wants to move in. I'm not saying that that is conceptually dumb. In fact, it's a beautiful concept derived from Buddhist values. I'm just saying, why would you take something so deep and regurgitate it in a way that is so dumb? Perhaps it exceeds my level of comprehension of the English language. Even though I would like to say that I think I have a solid, basic grasp. I've been mastering the art of talking for at least two decades. A better phrasing could have easily been, living unconditionally means letting go of needing life to look a certain way. Instead, you allow experiences to flow naturally however they manifest. That's it. Okay? Sense has re entered our brains. And then, of course, there are other things that I guess also just make sense, but it's goofy. The only way to build steady attention in the face of protest is to stay firmly rooted in power. Power is located in the neutral location of sensation between fin and clitoris. We keep that spot open with our attention and relate to the spot, not to the person. We cannot afford to relate to the individual without the mediator of the in between sensation. Or else we will fall into the personal, which appears as doubt in ourselves.

[B]

That's crazy.

[A]

No. Yeah, I. Those are literally. I feel like you're having an awakening. He says, I'm suddenly. English is my primary language now.

[B]

Wow.

[A]

Yeah. In one article written by Nicole, it's called the poison to medic medicine list. Which I guess the whole thing that she's trying to say is go outside and do this. You can get medicine out of poison. It's just like random excerpts. And again, while the general message seems okay, she seems unhinged. She writes, walk into a Safeway supermarket. Imagine that you've entered nirvana and the name is code for refuge in the world. The great beyond is right there. The guy pricing the Cheerios, he is a D deity. The oranges offer the nectar of the gods. The fluorescent lighting is pristine luminosity. You've entered the legendary palace. They've all been there all along and they are so happy to see you.

[B]

It's like a middle schooler writing a fanfic.

[A]

Yeah. This is so insane. I don't even know what to say. But somehow it works. Hiding the unhinged and self selling spiritual nothings. At this point, it's gaining traction. They have a following. Nicole has seduced powerful wealthy men to support one taste. They have initially pretty horrendous non existent earnings. Even with those non existent earnings, they have the powerful backers. That's how they open up a yoga studio in San Francisco. That's like the first headquarters. It's a two story building and it looks like, you know those fancy concrete perfume shops in la? You walk in, everything is concrete and wood. And then you have a display of like five glass bottles and it's all like $200 sandalwood scented eau de parfums. That's exactly what the space looks like. It's that feeling. It's airy, it's sunny. But then everybody just like gets naked and starts doing it. And then you just hear moaning, radiating and echoing off the concrete walls. Welcome to the Onetaste Urban Retreat Center. The grand opening. They have burlesque dancers. Dancers. Maybe they're like performative interpretive dancers. Because at one point they take off all their clothes and then they just start cutting into it with scissors. I don't know what that's supposed to mean. So it's like Sanctum the club, but also meets Erewhon esque smoothies and wheatgrass shots, meets a yoga center, unclothed yoga om sessions, poetry nights, workshops, community building events. They would have something called the temple of Sacrifice, Sirens where it's a night you come in, you pay entrance fee. Female employees are going to dress up in hot outfits. You purchase a ticket at the door and they give you attention. They'll blindfold you, give you a food tasting experience. They have foot washing stations for these women to wash feet, which is kind of biblical, I guess. I don't know. She's like just going on fetlife and looking up the biggest kinks that exist and is just like, let me incorporate them to every single event. They do sushi on a nude woman, but because this is a full fledged llc, it doesn't meet the health code. So they had to completely saran wrap her body, which I imagine looks even more sinister looking. So she's like completely saran wrapped. And then they put the sushi on top of the saran wrap. I'm like that. They have an event called the Joy of Chest where it's just like hundreds of pictures of chests and top layers as hostesses walking around and this booth that you can walk up to where you can quote, come on in and get felt up. So I imagine they have employees that are. That you can feel so like these.

[B]

Things just attract all the rich tech founders.

[A]

And it seems like this attracts the okay earning tech people, the tech founders. It seems like Nicole, Nicole gets them. And I will say Nicole is charismatic. And I think the thing that Nicole has is probably what Lauren Sanchez has, which is like, I think that's what everyone says about Lauren Sanchez. She's not what people think is the most attractive woman in the world. And they think that Jeff Bezos could have every woman in the world. So why Lauren Sanchez? I think both of them are very good at talking to guys, but not in the like do whatever you want type of way, I guess. I think that she has some sort of allure with these tech founders.

[B]

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

[A]

It's actually, you know, back in the day they called them cortison. And I say that because Nicole was very into the idea of being or having modern day courtesans. So back in the day you have concubines. Concubines are just mistresses. Typically they came from lower backgrounds. They would just live in a residence where a wealthy man would come in and you're like a mistress. Your duty is to bear children and be Ready for this husband. But you're not like the wife. You're not the one living in the main house and living with jewels and all these things. And then you had courtesans. These women typically came from better backgrounds. They were typically highly educated, they were well informed of the arts, and they were essentially very, very high end yacht girls, essentially. So they know how to conversate. They know how to go watch a play and talk about Shakespearean ideologies and all these things and have these in depth conversations with wealthy men. They can be like intellectually stimulating, but ultimately, like, there is a transaction happening.

[B]

Right?

[A]

So I think Nicole got a lot of inspiration from that. That's the vibe I get. But Nicole would say, this is why this place is called Onetaste. Once you've tasted being inside of yourself and knowing yourself, there is some part of your soul that will always crawl to get back. But how do you make money from that? $10 for a guy to walk in and touch someone's chest and then walk out. You're not gonna get massive conversions to even pay for this type of warehouse. Is she only going to sit there and gather all these tech founders and investors or is she going to do something else? According to one former member, they had a conversation with Nicole and they said, quote, I looked at her and I said, you're starting a religion, aren't you? And she goes, yeah, I want to start a religion. But the thing is, you can't sell God. You can get God on Amazon. What I'm selling is sex. Because you still can't get that.

[B]

What is that?

[A]

That mean she is going to start using the members. And that is where I leave you with part one. Because the next step, she's going to up the ante. She's going to victimize the members even further. She's going to get a lot more investors. She's going to start making a lot of money. She's even going to move the headquarters of Onetaste right across the street from Uber, Twitter and Dole Be. It's going to get big and it's going to get bad. That is part one of the OneTaste cult. What are your thoughts so far? Leave it in the comments. Stay safe and I'll see you in the next one. Hey, everybody, it's Babs. I am so excited to tell you about Birch Lane, a brand that shares my passion for classic style and joyful living. Their classic furniture and decor helps you celebrate it all. From big holiday gatherings to everyday moments at home, each piece is carefully crafted and delivered fast and free so you can celebrate what matters most. Shop my hand picked Birch Lane Collection and more classic [e-mail].