Faith, Doubt, and The A Team Pastor Mark Havel

Matthew 28:16-20

Now the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain to which Jesus had directed them. When they saw him, they worshiped him but some doubted. Jesus said to them, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Go therefore, and baptize all nations in the name of the Father, the +Son, and the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything that I’ve commanded you. And remember, I am with you always to the end of the age.”

“I love it when a plan comes together.” (Does anyone else remember the A-Team? Murdock … Hannibal … Mr. T as B.A. Baracus? It was a show from way back in the 1900’s.)

John Hannibal, was the leader of The A-Team who coined that phrase, or at least made it a pop-culture thing at the time – “I love it when a plan comes together.” I watched the show faithfully, but had to look it up to remember that the A-Team was a group of special forces, military guys, who had been wrongly accused and imprisoned for war-crimes they didn’t commit. After breaking out of prison, these good guys were simultaneously on the run from the military police AND finding ways to help people in need, as benevolent vigilantes.

Anyway, the phrase, “I love it when a plan comes together,” was funny because, The A-Team was this motley crew of mismatched misfits who joked and argued and got into all sorts of trouble and fights and shenanigans as they did their thing. They achieved their goals, rescued their people, accomplished their missions, made their escapes … barely … by the skin of their teeth … every time. And, at the end of every successful mission, their leader, John Hannibal, sucking on a log-sized cigar, would declare – as though it was his design and strategy all along – “I love it when a plan comes together.”

This phrase came to mind because our plans have been all over the place the last couple of months where this building project is concerned. Securing reliable bids, getting a loan approved, scheduling congregational meetings, then re-scheduling congregational meetings, and all the rest have landed us here on May 31st – which for all sorts of practical, logistical reasons – was the last best option for all that’s on our plate for today’s Annual Meeting.

Which led to the practical, holy need for this Unified Worship service – where we can all be together in one place at the same time – which just so happened to be Holy Trinity Sunday, which is the Church’s invitation to wrestle with and wonder about and celebrate the unity of God’s nature – the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit; the Triune God; three persons, equal in majesty; three in one and all the rest.

“I love it when a plan comes together.” (For a preaching pastor, this is kismet, serendipity, or it might just be the work of the Holy Spirit.)

And there’s also this Gospel reading where Jesus gives “The Great Commission” to “go and baptize and make disciples and remember.” But before all of that, what grabs my attention every time, is the notion that when the disciples showed up in Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go, “they worshiped him,” we’re told, “but some doubted.” They all worshiped him, but some doubted.

For my money, there’s not a more accurate description of what the church is up to, generally, in the world these days, and what we’re up to, very particularly as Partners in Mission at Cross of Grace, at this moment in time. They all worship, but some doubted.

“I love it when a plan comes together.”

I mean I’m glad we’re all here today – and that we show up week after week to worship. (… and to learn and to serve, too.) And I’m grateful to be reminded that, even with Jesus standing among his disciples, having done all that he’d promised he would do – up to and including rising from the dead – some of them still doubted. Some of them still weren’t sure. Some of them were still skeptical, cynical, afraid, maybe. Because that means we can be all of those things, too – and still be faithful. Because I’m right there with the doubters, more often than I’d like to admit.

I worry every year that General Fund commitments – never mind actual offerings – are going to show up in a way that supports and grows this ministry. I worry every year that Time and Talent offerings may or may not meet the needs of our nursery, a mowed lawn, a cleaned building, a Grace Quest program, and all the rest. And every time we’ve engaged a building project over the last 25 years at Cross of Grace – and this will be our fourth – I’ve worried that we are building too much, too soon, of the right spaces, for the right about amount of money.

And I worry most about you – and about whose doubts, discouragement, and disappointments are going to get the best of them.

But in spite of my doubts and my worries and my misgivings and concerns, I just keep showing up to this mountain I feel God has called us to. Maybe it’s foolish. Maybe it’s faith. I don’t know. But I just keep doing my best to worship and learn and serve, I mean. I doubt and I worship. I doubt and I learn. I doubt and I serve. And I do it all over and over and over again. And I’m grateful that so many of you join me for it, too.

Because I love it when a plan comes together … a plan only God can design, dictate, and deliver.

It’s a plan that looks like a wide welcome of love and affirmation for LGBTQ+ children of God – in a world and a faith that still doesn’t get it.

It’s plan that has helped to build over 100 houses in Fondwa, Haiti, right along with every square foot of facility we’ve built for ourselves around here.

It’s a plan that includes a voice for racial justice and equity that would otherwise be silent in a community that hasn’t heard all we have to say on the matter.

It’s a plan that has called us – as Partners in Mission – to baptize and confirm, to marry and bury, to feed and nourish, to party, pray, and otherwise walk together – by faith – through a world that can be so lonely and lost and without meaningful connection so much of the time.

It’s a plan that’s still in the making … a plan that’s still coming together … a plan that is messy and risky and cobbled together by an A Team of mismatched misfits and sinners, but full of beautiful things I doubt would happen otherwise, if Cross of Grace weren’t here continuing to grow, still building, and still sharing grace in the unique, bold, faithful ways God has called us to do.

And it’s a plan that will only come together if and when we seek to accomplish it BY God’s grace, FOR God’s glory, and GROUNDED in God’s love revealed in Jesus Christ, crucified and risen for the sake of the world we’re called to serve.

Amen