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SOLACE: Soul + Grief
Hosted by Candee Lucas · EN
This podcast is sponsored by SOULPLUSGRACE serving the San José/Santa Cruz area, offering grief support and grief journeying with spirituality. I hope to help you travel through grief with God at your side.
"I am a trained Spiritual Director for those who seek to complete the 19th Annotation of St. Igantius’ spiritual exercises OR seek spiritual direction while grieving. I have also worked as a hospital/cemetery chaplain and grief doula. I believe all paths lead to God and that all traditions are due respect and honour. I take my sacred inspiration from all of my patients and companions–past, present and future; the Dalai Lama, James Tissot, St. John of the Cross, the Buddha, Saint Teresa of Ávila, and, of course, Íñigo who became known as St. Ignatius. I utilize art, poetry, music, aromatherapy, yoga, lectio divina, prayer and meditation in my self-work and work with others. I believe in creating a sacred space for listening; even in the most incongruous of surroundings."
BACKGROUND
- Jesuit Retreat Center, Los Altos, CA -- Pierre Favre Program, 3 year training to give the Spiritual Exercises of Saint Ignatius
- Centro de Espiritualidad de Loyola, Spain -- The Spiritual Exercises of St Ignatius of Loyola -- 30 Day Silent Retreat
- Center for Loss & Life Transition – Comprehensive Bereavement Skills Training (30 hrs) Ft. Collins, CO
- California State University Institute for Palliative Care--Palliative Care Chaplaincy Specialty Cert. (90 hrs)
- Sequoia Hospital, Redwood City, CA -- Clinical Pastoral Education
- 19th Annotation with Fumiaki Tosu, San Jose, CA, Spiritual Exercises of St. Ignatius
- Santa Clara University, Santa Clara, CA M.A. – Pastoral Ministries
CONTACT ME: candeelucas@soulplusgrace.com with questions to be answered in future episodes.
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The Horizon You Seek Is Already Here
1w ago00:12:02Tap to summarizeSend us Fan MailDeath can feel like a doorway into total uncertainty, especially when grief is fresh and your mind keeps searching for a clear picture of “where” your loved one is now. Take a different approach by leaning on Catholic theologian Karl Rahner and his claim that transcendence is not a special experience for a spiritual elite, but the basic shape of human consciousness. If you have ever felt pulled toward something infinite in the middle of ordinary life, Rahner would say you are already living that orientation, even before you can name it.According to Rahner’s 'Vorgriff auf esse', the idea that every act of knowing or loving happens against an unlimited horizon of being. From there, reframe Sheol and the intermediate state: not as a cosmic waiting room, but as a way to talk about whether the soul’s openness to the infinite is complete or still obscured. Rahner’s view of dying becomes less about relocation and more about fulfillment, the moment when the direction in which your life has been moving becomes definitive.As we build a bridge to Tibetan Buddhism and the Bardo Thodol, where the instructions around recognizing the clear light and resisting fearful projections also treat after-death “realms” as something deeply tied to mind and the death-preparation during life. Recognize the real differences without pretending they disappear: personal God versus emptiness, resurrection and the redemption of history versus rebirth or liberation, and Rahner’s enduring subject versus the no-self doctrine. If you’re navigating grief and searching for language that is honest, spacious, and practical, this conversation offers a way to trade afterlife maps for a deeper focus on consciousness, love, and the horizon we move toward.Subscribe for new Friday releases, share this with someone who’s asking hard questions, and leave a review so more grieving listeners can find the circle of support. What part of this comparison lands for you, and what still feels unresolved?Art, Artifacts, Fabric and Design: https://www.etsy.com/shop/vasonaArts?ref=seller-platform-mcnav and https://fineartamerica.com/profiles/candee-lucas and https://www.spoonflower.com/profiles/vasonaartsELECTRONIC BOOKS: 1000 IMAGES OF JESUS https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0F2SFH4Z6Music and sound effects today by: via Pixabay
Transcribe →A Shining In The Dark
2w ago00:14:22Tap to summarizeSend us Fan MailGrief can feel like wandering off the road without noticing, then looking up and realizing it’s dark and you don’t know how to get home. That’s the emotional weather we step into today as I share a short, dreamlike excerpt from John Fosse’s novel "A Shining", chosen because sometimes someone else’s words can carry what we can’t say out loud.The reading follows a son who sees his mother and father in the darkness and can’t tell whether he is remembering, imagining, or truly encountering them. He asks for answers, watches the night deepen, and finds himself alone again, listening for meaning in silence and wondering if God can be heard there at all. If you’re looking for spiritual comfort, bereavement support, and an honest companion for the grief journey, let this brief story be a steady hand for a few minutes.If this resonated, subscribe, share it with someone who needs a quiet place to land, and leave a review so more grieving listeners can find us.Art, Artifacts, Fabric and Design: https://www.etsy.com/shop/vasonaArts?ref=seller-platform-mcnav and https://fineartamerica.com/profiles/candee-lucas and https://www.spoonflower.com/profiles/vasonaartsELECTRONIC BOOKS: 1000 IMAGES OF JESUS https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0F2SFH4Z6Music and sound effects today by: via Pixabay
Transcribe →Afterlife
3w ago00:12:30Tap to summarizeSend us Fan MailA single word can quietly rewire an entire faith’s imagination of death. We start with Sheol, an ancient Hebrew concept that originally meant the realm of the dead, a shadowy destination shared by everyone rather than a place of reward and punishment. From there, we follow the translation trail that turns Sheol into Hades in Greek and infernum in Latin, and how that collapse of distinct ideas helps “hell” become a catchall in English, creating confusion that still shapes Christian afterlife theology today. We also talk through the major ways early Christianity reshapes Sheol: the harrowing of hell, the idea of an intermediate state, and the later distinction between a temporary abode of the dead and Gehenna as final judgment. Along the way, we name how different traditions handle these questions now, including purgatory, the grave as a metaphor, conscious waiting, and soul sleep. If you’ve ever wondered why Christians disagree so strongly about what happens after death, this language history is a big part of the answer. Then we widen the lens into comparative religion by bringing in the Tibetan Buddhist Bardo from the Bardo Thodol, often called The Tibetan Book of the Dead. We explore striking parallels with a Christian intermediate state, including transitional “between” space, imagery of reckoning, encounters with light or divine presence, and the role of prayers for the dead. And we get honest about the differences that matter: resurrection versus rebirth, a persistent soul versus no-self, and whether there is meaningful agency after death. If this kind of theology, grief support, and spiritual reflection helps you, subscribe, share the show with someone who’s curious, and leave a review so others can find it. What do you think: are Sheol and the Bardo pointing to the same threshold experience, or are they describing fundamentally different realities?Art, Artifacts, Fabric and Design: https://www.etsy.com/shop/vasonaArts?ref=seller-platform-mcnav and https://fineartamerica.com/profiles/candee-lucas and https://www.spoonflower.com/profiles/vasonaartsELECTRONIC BOOKS: 1000 IMAGES OF JESUS https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0F2SFH4Z6Music and sound effects today by: via Pixabay
Transcribe →Broken Faith? Sandi's Story Concludes
4w ago00:15:34Tap to summarizeSend us Fan MailGrief can change what you believe and how you talk to God, even if you never stop believing God exists. Candee sits down with Sandi Moran Brafford for a candid, tender conversation about faith after devastating loss: Sandi’s son died, and only a few months later her husband died too. What follows isn’t a clean spiritual comeback story. It’s the honest middle many people live in, where prayer feels different, trust feels risky, and your old religious instincts don’t fit the life you have now. Sandishares her path into Catholicism, from growing up with little formal religion to building a Catholic household, raising children in Catholic schools, and serving as a Eucharistic minister. We also talk about how disillusionment can start long before a death, including the shock of learning that a priest she trusted had harmed others. That kind of spiritual betrayal matters, because it changes the ground you stand on when grief hits. From there, we go straight to the hard questions: what happens when you make a bargain with God and it feels like God doesn’t keep His end? Sandi describes how her prayer life “contracts” rather than disappears, showing up in small rituals like saying a Hail Mary when she hears a siren and praying while making a bed with hospital corners. We explore why the saints can feel more accessible than God, why “I’ll pray for you” can sound hollow, and how forgiveness and attachment to God can remain even when the relationship feels clouded. If you’re searching for bereavement support, grief and faith resources, or a compassionate Catholic perspective on doubt, this conversation will meet you where you are. Subscribe for new Friday drops, share this with someone who’s hurting, and leave a review so more grieving listeners can find us.ATTEND MY SUMMER WORKSHOP ON "SOULFUL LISTENING" THROUGH THE MARKEY CENTER AT SANTA CLARA UNIVERSITY VIA ZOOM.https://events.scu.edu/markey-center/event/359741-soulful-listening-workshops-on-the-ministry-ofArt: https://www.etsy.com/shop/vasonaArts?ref=seller-platform-mcnavand https://fineartamerica.com/profiles/candee-lucashttps://www.amazon.com/dp/B0F2SFH4Z6Music and sound effects today by: via Pixabay
Transcribe →Grief Changes Shape: Sandi's Story Continued
Jun 1900:15:08Tap to summarizeSend us Fan MailGrief can be hard enough when it comes once, but what happens when it hits again before you can even catch your breath? We pick back up with SandI Moran Brafford, whose year of loss includes the death of her son and, just months later, the sudden death of her husband Jim after a stage four cancer diagnosis and a surgery that was supposed to “help.” The speed of it all leaves no room to plan, no room to process, and a lingering sense of shock that many people recognize but rarely say out loud.We talk about what support actually feels like on the ground, including the difference between a large widow/widower gathering and a more personal grief support program where people can open up over time. Sandi shares why telling your story matters, why some spaces feel scripted, and why honesty, especially around children, can cut through denial. We also touch the quiet regrets that can surface later, like wishing you had gotten more help for a family member who carried a traumatic piece of the loss.From grief food and autopilot workdays to getting lost in books just to stop thinking for a moment, we explore real coping strategies without shame. We also name a frustration many mourners share: workplaces that offer a few days of bereavement leave, then expect you to return “back to normal.” If you’re searching for grief support, bereavement resources, spiritual care, or simply a reminder that it’s never too late to reach out, this conversation offers companionship and clear-eyed hope. ATTEND MY SUMMER WORKSHOP ON "SOULFUL LISTENING" THROUGH THE MARKEY CENTER AT SANTA CLARA UNIVERSITY VIA ZOOM.https://events.scu.edu/markey-center/event/359741-soulful-listening-workshops-on-the-ministry-ofArt: https://www.etsy.com/shop/vasonaArts?ref=seller-platform-mcnavand https://fineartamerica.com/profiles/candee-lucashttps://www.amazon.com/dp/B0F2SFH4Z6Music and sound effects today by: via Pixabay
Transcribe →Sandi's Continuing Story
Jun 1200:12:51Tap to summarizeSend us Fan MailOne small decision can become a lifelong memory. I sit down with Sandi Moran Brafford as she returns to the days surrounding the sudden death of her youngest son, Rich, and tells the story with a honesty that’s both tender and blunt. She shares what it felt like to cancel a simple lunch plan because she was new at work, then wake up to a family emergency that would change everything. If you’ve lived through sudden loss, child loss, or complicated bereavement, you’ll recognize the shock, the numbness, and the way time turns surreal.We also talk about what happens after the phone calls and the gathering at the house when real life still demands you show up. Sandi describes grief at work in vivid, practical terms: crying on the drive in, slipping away to the bathroom, and returning to the schedule because bills don’t pause. Alongside the loss, she was finishing breast cancer radiation, adding physical exhaustion to emotional collapse, and she reflects on how compounded trauma can blur months into a haze.Marriage and grief come up too. Sandi explains how her husband Jim struggled to talk about Rich, not because he didn’t care, but because his grief lived in quieter places and small acts. That difference could have split them, yet it ultimately pulled them closer, offering a real-life look at how couples navigate different grieving styles.A turning point arrives with a “cheerbox” from Amanda the Panda, a grief support organization for children and families. That simple daily ritual opens a door to community, volunteering, and meaning-making through helping others carry their stories. ATTEND MY SUMMER WORKSHOP ON "SOULFUL LISTENING" THROUGH THE MARKEY CENTER AT SANTA CLARA UNIVERSITY VIA ZOOM.https://events.scu.edu/markey-center/event/359741-soulful-listening-workshops-on-the-ministry-ofArt: https://www.etsy.com/shop/vasonaArts?ref=seller-platform-mcnavand https://fineartamerica.com/profiles/candee-lucashttps://www.amazon.com/dp/B0F2SFH4Z6Music and sound effects today by: via Pixabay
Transcribe →The Little Griefs That Shape Us
Jun 500:12:42Tap to summarizeSend us Fan MailSome losses don’t arrive like a thunderclap. They slip in quietly when you realize you don’t live there anymore, you don’t talk to those friends anymore, or you’ve outgrown a version of life that once felt permanent. That kind of change can bring real grief, even when nothing “tragic” has happened. Spend time with words that help many people breathe again: readings from Khalil Gibran’s The Prophet --on Joy and Sorrow, and on Time. When Gibran writes that joy and sorrow are inseparable, it challenges the way we try to split our lives into neat categories. If you’re grieving, that tension may feel familiar: love makes life bigger, and loss makes it ache. Rather than treating sorrow as a problem to solve, explore how faith can help us hold both truths without breaking. Turn to Ecclesiastes 3 and its steady reminder that there is a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance. That wisdom gives us permission to be human, to recognize our memories, and to keep walking with God as time moves forward. ATTEND MY SUMMER WORKSHOP ON "SOULFUL LISTENING" THROUGH THE MARKEY CENTER AT SANTA CLARA UNIVERSITY VIA ZOOM.https://events.scu.edu/markey-center/event/359741-soulful-listening-workshops-on-the-ministry-ofArt: https://www.etsy.com/shop/vasonaArts?ref=seller-platform-mcnavand https://fineartamerica.com/profiles/candee-lucashttps://www.amazon.com/dp/B0F2SFH4Z6Music and sound effects today by: via Pixabay
Transcribe →Death Is Not Something That Happens To Other People with SANDI MORAN BRAFFORD
May 2900:12:23Tap to summarizeSend us Fan MailDeath has a brutal way of time-traveling us back to the losses we swear we’ve already “made peace with.” I’m joined by my friend of more than 60 years, Sandi Moran Brafford, a writer who has been blogging for decades about the stories we carry and the ones that break us open.Sandi reads a short, devastatingly honest blog post she calls “Sad Stories,” written after the loss of a dear friend and after hearing about a 19-year-old killed in a tragic car accident. Those fresh deaths reopen her own life-altering grief, including the death of her son, who died in his sleep at 30, and the memories that come rushing back with every funeral. Together we name the disorientation of grief, the way our culture tries to push death aside, and why walking into a church or funeral home can instantly plug us back into our own heartbreak.We also talk about what actually helps when grief gets loud: permission to cry, to talk, to tell stories, to say their names, and to stop performing courage so others won’t feel awkward. Sandi shares the real, tactile ways mourners cope, like holding onto a blanket or a shirt, and why those physical anchors can matter. If you’re looking for grief support, bereavement resources, and honest conversation about child loss, sudden death, and healing that isn’t linear, this one will meet you where you are. Subscribe, share this with someone who needs it, and leave a review so more grieving people can find this circle of support.Sandi's blog can be found at: https://sandimoranbrafford.blogspot.com/ATTEND MY SUMMER WORKSHOP ON "SOULFUL LISTENING" THROUGH THE MARKEY CENTER AT SANTA CLARA UNIVERSITY VIA ZOOM.https://events.scu.edu/markey-center/event/359741-soulful-listening-workshops-on-the-ministry-ofArt: https://www.etsy.com/shop/vasonaArts?ref=seller-platform-mcnavand https://fineartamerica.com/profiles/candee-lucashttps://www.amazon.com/dp/B0F2SFH4Z6Music and sound effects today by: via Pixabay
Transcribe →Grief Myths
May 2200:13:00Tap to summarizeSend us Fan MailGrief advice is everywhere, and a lot of it sounds comforting until you try to live inside it. We keep hearing that grief moves in stages, that time heals all wounds, that you have to “let go” to move on, that grief only counts when someone dies, and that strong people stay composed. Those ideas can turn a natural human response into a private test you feel like you’re failing.Here, we talk about why the five stages of grief became a cultural script, what Kübler-Ross actually meant, and why real bereavement is rarely linear. We challenge the hidden deadline inside “time heals” and name what tends to help more: attention, meaning-making, community, and steady presence, especially for prolonged grief.We also explore modern grief research on continuing bonds, the idea that maintaining an inner relationship with a loved one who died is often adaptive and deeply meaningful. Then we widen the lens to include disenfranchised grief: divorce, infertility, immigration, estrangement, job loss, and other losses that don’t get rituals, casseroles, or sympathy cards. Finally, we address stoicism and grief suppression, including how unfelt grief can migrate into the body, relationships, and coping behaviors, and why vulnerability is a form of courage.If you’re grieving, or you love someone who is, listen and share this with the person who needs gentleness more than advice. Subscribe, leave a review, and tell us: which grief myth has been hardest to shake?ATTEND MY SUMMER WORKSHOP ON "SOULFUL LISTENING" THROUGH THE MARKEY CENTER AT SANTA CLARA UNIVERSITY VIA ZOOM.https://events.scu.edu/markey-center/event/359741-soulful-listening-workshops-on-the-ministry-ofArt: https://www.etsy.com/shop/vasonaArts?ref=seller-platform-mcnavand https://fineartamerica.com/profiles/candee-lucashttps://www.amazon.com/dp/B0F2SFH4Z6Music and sound effects today by: via Pixabay
Transcribe →Death Across The Street
May 1500:12:46Tap to summarizeSend us Fan MailA line of fire trucks and police cars can feel like “something happening to someone else” until it’s parked on your own street; a stunned neighborhood, and a question that wouldn’t let go: what happened across the street, less than fifty yards from our ordinary lives?I share the story of a little boy who suffered in ways no child should, behind a house that looked like any other from the outside. As the details surface, we sit with the heartbreak of not knowing his name, the heaviness of realizing we couldn’t see what was hidden, and the complicated truth that the person who caused his death was also a child living in pain. It’s a meditation on grief, child loss, trauma, and the “why” questions that rise up when meaning feels impossible.Where was God in this? There are no easy answers, but the comfort of believing Jesus accompanies suffering, and acknowledging how inadequate words can be when love has been so visibly absent. If you’re searching for a grief podcast that’s honest, spiritual, and grounded, listen and take what you need for wherever you are in your grieving process. Subscribe, share this with someone who needs a place to land, and leave a review so more grieving listeners can find this circle of support.ATTEND MY SUMMER WORKSHOP ON "SOULFUL LISTENING" THROUGH THE MARKEY CENTER AT SANTA CLARA UNIVERSITY VIA ZOOM.https://events.scu.edu/markey-center/event/359741-soulful-listening-workshops-on-the-ministry-ofArt: https://www.etsy.com/shop/vasonaArts?ref=seller-platform-mcnavand https://fineartamerica.com/profiles/candee-lucashttps://www.amazon.com/dp/B0F2SFH4Z6Music and sound effects today by: via Pixabay
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