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Holy shit. Everything does happen for a reason. I'm so happy I was bullied in high school because I would not be the confident, outspoken, delusional person that I am today if it wasn't for that. I'm so happy that I got cheated on because I wouldn't be this fuck men. I don't need them. I am self sufficient. I can do everything on my own. You won't be everyone's type and if you are, then you aren't original. If someone does not like you, that doesn't mean that there's something wrong with you. It's okay to be lonely. And you're only lonely if you don't love yourself. I don't even love myself 100%. I love who I am. Sometimes I'm still lonely. But you truly need to work on that self love to be able to get through any of the lonely, desperate times. In this birthday special, I'm breaking down 25 lessons I've learned in 25 years. Unfiltered, honest and probably a little too real. Hello everybody and welcome back to Tall Blonde everybody and welcome back to Tal Blonde. It is none other than my birthday today and if you haven't wished me happy birthday, you better right now. It's okay if you're a little late. I only will hold a bit of a grudge. But I'm hot and I'm 25. Okay, we are going to call this podcast 25 Hard Truths or Hot Healing in 25. In this birthday special, I'm breaking down 25 lessons I've learned in 25 years. Unfiltered, honest, and probably a little too real. From dating disasters and toxic relationships to learning how to love yourself and not see me losing myself in New York as that much of a problem. These are the truths I've collected on the way to becoming the woman I am today. So let's get into it. So we're starting off with one of the ones that probably made me who I am today. But the first is you won't be everyone's type. And if you are, then you aren't original. So this can go for, yes, friends, yes people in your life, but also for significant others. You do not have to be everyone's type. If someone does not like you, that doesn't mean that there's something wrong with you. It just means that if everyone likes you, you're just conforming and just being the person that they want from you. And that's not original. So be who you want and be okay with people not Liking you. You're not gonna be everyone's cup. Number two, if you live in delusion, you will make it happen. Believe in yourself. Push through the hard times. Because growth doesn't come from being comfortable. If I didn't live in the delusional world that I live in right now with, you know, thinking that people are gonna watch me online and what I need to say matters and thinking that then doing life coaching and having one on one sessions and all of that, then I wouldn't be where I am today. I wouldn't be making the money I have. I wouldn't have the brand I have of tall, blonde and Sarah Lauren. I wouldn't be anywhere because it wasn't working out in the beginning. People didn't believe in me, but I was delusional enough to just say to those around me, listen, I know I'm gonna get somewhere. Just be patient. It will work. And yes, I had nine to fives along the way. Yes, I had things that I didn't want to be doing, but I got here because I believed in it and I was delusional about it. And that's exactly how you should live your life. Number three, not everyone deserves access to you. Your time and your energy is valuable. These people right now are not what I need. Oh, what did I say these people were? Sorry. Okay, if you don't see me and you're not watching, I am reading these off of my notes. Like, I've written these all down and took time and I can't even understand what I read myself or I wrote myself. But I wanted this to actually be meaningful. So I put time and energy into this spot. Okay, so bear with me here, what I'm trying to say. Oh, yeah, yeah. Okay. So this was actually from my therapist. So I took some notes that I like had because every time I have a good point and I recommend you doing this, but I would start to, like create this document of just lessons and things that I wanted to take with me from therapy or my life coaching days. And I would write them into like this brief. So if I ever needed to look back at it or you go through a breakup, you go to that, you know, breakup slide or whatever it is. But after writing the. Not everyone deserves access to you. Your time and your energy is valuable. I wrote down a quote from my therapist. So she said, these people right now are not what I need at this time. They don't meet my needs. I am not sacrificing what I truly need in order to have a connection with these People. Now, this was about a friendship that was not benefiting me whatsoever. It was kind of just taking from me and taking from my energy and time. So I actually remember vividly about this. Like, I felt so lost because it was when I was living in New York and I didn't have my hometown friends and my, you know, team, my people. So I essentially, after this, I was like, no, you don't need to give access. You don't need to stretch yourself too thin just to be able to do what they need from you or give what they do. So it kind of made me realize that your energy and your time is valuable and you don't need to go see or do or hang out with whoever it was that you really don't. If they make your skin crawl, don't hang out with them. If you feel like it's a burden on your life, don't give access to them. And that's exactly what I meant by this. But at the end of the day, it's. You're not sacrificing who you are for other people. Number four, Some things just aren't worth the fight. Now, this took me a long time to understand because I am a fighter. I am a person that will think something and not give up on it. I feel like I'm wrong but strong sometimes. But it comes down to just, like, the worth of it. Like, sometimes if you're in a fight with a girl or a friend or a boyfriend or an ex boyfriend or whatever it is, someone in your life, a teammate, whatever, it's just not worth it. It's honestly probably bringing you more stress, more harm, more, you know, of your time just to be fighting with someone. If it's not even worth it, let it go, let it happen. Let it end up how it is. Do whatever, just do not fight. And it also makes you have the upper hand because if you're not going in with that, you know, rude, mad, angry feeling, then it shows that you don't care. Water off a duck's back, even if it is bugging you, but also somebody's bad response towards you or me has nothing to do with me or you. It has to do with them. So someone picking a fight with you and someone doing that or having or being mad at you at the end of the day, nine times out of 10, has so much more to do with them and what they're going through. Maybe they've had a tough day and maybe because you put your shoes on too slowly, they're picking a fight with you or you didn't turn the laptop off or whatever in your work setting. A lot of the times fights happen or people pick these fights because it's a response to who they are and something that's happening in their own life. Even the whole cheating thing, like with relationships and things like that, a lot of the time it's, you're not the problem. They just cannot or don't have it in them to be with one person. Or maybe they're jealous of you getting attention, so they feel the need to seek it, and that's on them. That's not on you. Number five, never fall in love with potential. See who they are in front of you and what they are delivering to you in that moment. So this one's kind of funny because this was also something I learned after many years of going back and forth with an ex. But I feel like as a woman, you overthink and you tend to, like, fall in love with. Okay, what could be like if you were just better, you didn't cheat on me, our life would be so good. But at the end of the day, it's what is right in front of you. What are they doing? Is he cheating on you? Okay, then that is what you're dealing with. You cannot wish and stay and hope that you're just gonna be with that person because hopefully in the future they're gonna get better or they're not gonna do these mistakes or whatever. It's face value. See what you're seeing. Understand what's right in front of you and hold them accountable to that, not their potential. Now moving on to friendships. Number six is female. Friendships are hard in your 20s. We expect them to feel our pain, be happy for our wins, and be our safe space. But everyone gets jealous sometimes. Sometimes people aren't able to have empathy for others. Sometimes people will never see it from your point of view because they haven't lived it themselves, and that's okay. But you know when to stand your ground and know when to just either pick that fight or have it noted in the back of your head. And when I'm saying female friendships are hard in your 20s, they're not just hard, they're fucking brutal. They are crazy. Like, I have had so many changes in friends. Some that I was friends with forever, that I don't even speak to anymore. Not that anything bad happened, but just, you know, we fell apart a bit. Or there's people that, you know, one day do something and you're just like, I do not understand. Like, I can't be Friends with someone like that, but you have to, or they're just jealous of you and what you're doing. And I've gotten that too, which is the scary kind, because they're preying on your downfall. But for that too, you have to understand what way you're gonna go about it. Are you gonna pick that fight? Are you just gonna say, you know what? Noted. I'm not gonna put that much time and energy into them, be that bigger person. Or are you gonna try to sit them down and explain and say, listen, this is how I feel and this is why I feel and have them try to put themselves into your point of view. But honestly, for some people, it's just not possible. But there are different avenues that you can try. And another thing that I just thought of, and I didn't even write down was for friendships. I think it's really easy, especially for me, to think of it literally in a sense of. I think of it in like. I think like the orbits where it's like a smaller circle and then there's bigger circles around it. So your small circle is like your best friend, your rider dies, or your even family can be your best friend. Who are people that you would call immediately when something happens or in a hard time, they would be there for you or you could tell anything to. They're a safe space. They're a vault for you. That is the people that you keep. And if they needed you, you go out of your way to help them. Then there's another ring where you have people that you know, you still tell things to when you're there for them, but they're not that first vault, like closest people to you. And then there's the ring around it is even further away from that. You know, you talk to them on sometimes or maybe you party with them on the weekends. It's okay to have friends in different avenues of your life. It's okay to have friends that are for different things. Maybe they're to party with on the weekend, maybe there to talk about relationship issues. Maybe they're there to work out with you. Maybe they're there to just giggle with. It's okay to have those friends, but you need. There's a huge importance on understanding that they're that type of friend and not expecting more from them because you will get disappointed. And that's just not needed. Number seven. It's okay to feel lost sometimes in life, in love, in career choices, in anything. So this is kind of funny because I so many times almost stopped. I almost didn't move back from New York to come to Toronto because I thought, okay, I'm never gonn so I'm never gonna be able to do social media full time. Full time. Like I'm just blowing up, I'm gonna fall through and this isn't gonna work for me. So I was like, okay, I'll just try to stay in New York. I can get a good job, make good money and I'll continue doing this on the side for how long I can. I was lost. I didn't wanna do that. Then I moved to Toronto. I was so lost. I had no freaking clue what I was gonna do. I was at a spot where I'm like, do I even do a podcast? Like, do I continue doing social media? Like, will people even listen? How long is am I just like on this? I'm peaking right now and then I'm going to be falling forever. You feel lost. And I did feel that I also had an ex boyfriend that I just moved back to Toronto not for, but like I saw him and I tried things with him again. That wasn't working. So I was alone again and everything was just lost. I was like, I want to give up everything what is happening, didn't know what to do in my life and that is okay. That was what, 24 for me? Yeah, last year, I guess so at 24 I was lost. I had no idea what to do. I almost gave up so many freaking times. But that's just how the world works and we're gonna get into growth. But my next one that I'm looking at is follow your goals and not your mood. And that ties in with the last one. But you do need to set goals for yourself and follow that. Because not every day you're gonna feel great about it. Not every day you're gonna be excited about what you want to do or what you're doing or your job or your family or your love life or anything. So it's very important, especially in those lost times, to have those goals. So you make sure that you're sticking to it even when you don't want to. You're still doing it. Whether it's working out or physical activity or work or applying to those jobs, whatever it is, you need to just tell yourself if you don't want to do it, follow your goals and not your mood. Because not every day your mood is great. Unfortunately not even mine. Some days I waking up as a raging bitch. But that is okay. Number nine, everything happens for a reason. Sometimes you will want to not believe it, but I promise it'll all make sense. So some people don't agree that everything happens for a reason. My mom is a big believer, so I think I just kind of fell like, just kind of came onto me from her. But I'm only 25, but like, holy shit, everything does happen for a reason. I am so happy. Of all the shitty things that happened in my life, I'm so happy. I was bullied in high school because I would not be the confident, outspoken, crazy, chaotic, delusional person that I am today if it wasn't for that. I'm so happy that I got cheated on because I wouldn't be this. Fuck men. I don't need them. I want them, but I don't need them. Energy. I am self sufficient. I can do everything on my own, but it's. I can take help when I need it, but I don't, I don't need it or when I want it, not when I need it. But everything happens for reasons like I had to go through those things to understand or have the point of view and experience that I do now. And I already know, hopefully not. But like if my daughter or my niece or my nephew or anyone were to go through something even remotely similar to what I went through, I now can put myself into their position. I now won't make decisions for them or tell them what to do, but I can give them guidance as to what, you know, I think is the right step or what they could try to do to get through that. And I also think it doesn't need to make sense right now. Cause it didn't at the time for me, especially when I went through all the crazy shit in my life. But it will in the future. And you just have to trust that it might never. But then at that point you won't even remember about it. But a lot of the times it will make sense or it'll just clue in and be like, oh my God, that was so. I'm so grateful that I went through that divorce or whatever it was. Number 10. Those who can make those tough decisions are strong people, do the hard thing and inspire other people. So this. I kind of came to conclusion when. And I'm a freak. Like my notes app is crazy. Like I had to go through so many of my notes to try to find all the quotes that I've written down or thought of that help me along the way because I just write them down. So I remember writing this down and this was the second that I moved back from New York to Toronto Because I'm like, I don't know what I even want to do. I don't know what the fuck's going to happen for me in Life. Like I'm 24, I should have this figured out. I all my friends are older so I kind of had a pressure that like they already had their full time jobs. They had, they knew what they were working up towards in career wise. And I was like, you know what, this is a tough decision to walk away from two and a half, three years of my life, putting it into making new friends, making a life for myself. But I think this is what's gonna make me happiest, at least for now and what I needed. So I made that tough decision and it wasn't easy, it was embarrassing. I thought people were going to judge me for it. I thought I was going to be like, oh yeah, she tried to make it, but she didn't. And I'm sure some people did talk shit and say that. But I inspired people to make that hard decision. I made a post about it and I was so scared to post it, but I'm so grateful I did because I got so many people messaging me being like, oh my gosh, either I've been living in a big city for so long, like I've been trying to do A, B and C and you just gave me the courage to move back home and do this that I've always wanted to do or whatever it was like make that change in their life. So make those tough decisions. They're not gonna be easy at the time, but they'll probably be worth it. And not a lot of people can make those tough decisions. So be the one to inspire others. Number 11 situations in your life can affect your self esteem. But you know more today than you did yesterday and you can handle it. So of course getting broken up with, getting someone ghost you, getting someone get you getting fired, whatever it may be, that's truly such a dagger to someone that's not 100 confident. And I truly don't even think anyone is 100 confident, but all those with me and my self confidence. But you have to understand that that is a way of life and that's something that happens along your journey. And that's it's not gonna be the first time and it's not gonna be the last time, I bet. But you have to understand that it's a bump in the road, it's gonna get better. You will question yourself. I remember one time after like I got ghosted, I was like looking in the mirror. And I'm like, what is it about me? Like, maybe he's just not attracted to me. Like, maybe I need to do A, B and C. Do I need to get something done to me? And that was me having a trigger and me thinking of so less of me than I actually was. But I remembered, no, you are who you are. You've came so far. I know more today than I did yesterday. And I'm gonna be okay. And I just have to learn to love myself again. And in that, you just do what you love. You know, if you. I honestly say this all the time, but look good, feel good, thing I worked out more. I did all these things to be able to be proud of myself. And that's what got me through it. 12. In order to get fully over someone, you not you have to get under someone else. I was literally just going to say that. But it is. In order to fully get over someone, you have to retrain your brain a different story or ending. So in order to fully get over someone, significant other, friendship, whatever, you have to retrain your brain to not see the future that you were envisioning or hoping with those people or that person. You have to create a new story. And that new story, you have to remind yourself all the time, or that new ending or that new, you know, future plans. So that that is your new goal, that's your new happy place, that's your new thing that you're working up to. You can't just keep going back to what could have been. And that was a very tough thing for me a lot of the times. Whether it's cause I held on to like friendships or breakups and things or like situations in my life. But once you start to remind yourself a different story or a different ending, it truly does help to just like keep you in check and keep you on the right track to do those new goals, new things to get to that new different story ending. Number 13. When someone shows you who they are, believe them. That doesn't even need to be explained. That's literally something that we all forget every single day. But if they did it once, they can do it again. Number 14. First time is an accident. Second time is a co. Might be a coincidence, not even is a coincidence. It might be, probably isn't, but it might be. And the third time, it's a pattern. And patterns are who they are. Whether that's cheating, whether that's being a shitty friend, whether that's lying to you, whether that's putting you in a shit position. Whether that's throwing you under the bus, if it happens more than once, it could continue into a pattern. And, yeah, like, of course, benefit of the doubt. Everything, accidents happen. But you do then have to consider, okay, was this a coincidence or is this a pattern? Because patterns is who someone is, especially over the age of 2015. It's not what happens to us. It's what we do with the situation we're dealt with. So I like to always think of agency, which is doing something about a bad situation. I think of it as, you know, grab a bull by its horn and just do it. But at the same time, if everything happens for a reason, it also is like you're dealt with a hand. Whether that is family dynamics, whether that is your looks, whether that is your physical stature or your physical ability to play a sport, you're dealt with that. So what are you gonna do with that situation or that hand? And that's what makes you a good person. Whether or not you, you know, do something good with it or even being bullied. Do you, you know, bully other people or do you. With that situation, you don't use it as revenge to try to get back at someone. You use it as, okay, I'm gonna be there for the people that need it, or I'm gonna be a voice for the people that are going through something that I went through for them. Truly, agency is one of my top values. Number 16. Find someone. That is your safe space. I cannot stress this enough. Like, you need a vault. You need someone that is your safe space that you can just rant to. You can say the most ruthless shit that will probably get you canceled, but you just need that safe space to vent. You might not even mean it, but you might just be in a heated moment and hate a girl or a guy or whatever it is, or hate your sister or brother or mother or dad for that given moment. Because something happened that you just need to vent. And you need to say things that you don't mean, but you just know that it isn't gonna get out. And it is a vault, and it's a safe, safe space. And you could always come to them for anything, and if you needed them, they would be there. You need to find that person. And it doesn't have to be a friend. Doesn't have to be, you know, a lifelong friend. It just has to be someone that you feel safe with. Like, I have a few. I have a friend. I have a sister. I have a brother. That is my. Like, my whole family is my vault, my safe Space. But also I have like a few friends that I consider that too. But it's so important because for a bit I didn't use those safe spaces. But that is what gets you through so many hard times. Number 17, look, learn how to show up as you are, your authentic and beautiful self. So stop trying to be the people that you see on Instagram. Stop trying to look like or act like or sound like, or live the same life as somebody, or follow the same eating day in my life as somebody else. You, you are you. There's nobody else. That is exactly you. Find your niche. Find what you're different at than a lot of other people. I'm delusional. I'm so outspoken. I get so involved with other people's issues. If I see them hurting, I'm like, let me be the bad guy. That's what's authentic about me. That's why I feel like I can have a voice. And that's what I want to portray on social media is just like giving my take, giving what I went through so that you don't have to. But that's me. That doesn't have to be you. You could be something totally different. And you shouldn't try to copy somebody else because you'll never be great at something if you're just copying. Number 18 is growth. So growth is what's the outcome and how do we self reflect? How do I improve the outcome for next time? So no insight means no change. If you don't reflect on yourself, you won't have the insight and therefore will never change for the better. So obviously growth doesn't come easy, but it's all about self reflection. Like, why did this happen to me? Even if it wasn't even your fault that something happened, you can still reflect. Okay, how could I have seen the signs earlier? Or how could I have made a change or a different way of communication or something that could have stopped this outcome from happening? And that self reflection and the people, some people honestly don't see anything wrong with their behavior or self reflect on anything that happened if it doesn't directly have to do with them, or even if it does directly have to do with them. And that's dangerous and that's like psychotic. But for the most of us, we should reflect and try to improve ourselves because that's growth, going through those things. And even if you didn't do the right thing, you might have fucked up, you might have been in the wrong 100%. But if you learn from it, then you're a Better person. And you'll be judged in the beginning, but then you'll be better for it. Number 19, I want a relationship, but I'm not desperate enough to not see someone for who they are. I'm not ignoring who you are and the character and the characteristics that I don't like in you. So you get out of relationship, you're desperate, you're lonely, you're kind of like, oh, my gosh, I miss having someone with me all the time. So you settle for somebody else. No, no, no, no. We cannot let that desperate, lonely measure in our life take away from seeing people for who they are. And, you know, like, it's okay to be lonely. And you're only lonely if you don't love yourself and people don't love themselves 100%. I don't even love myself 100%. I love who I am, but not, like, through and through. Sometimes I'm still lonely and whatever. But you, you truly need to work on that self love to be able to get through any of the lonely, desperate times. Or else you're just gonna settle. And I hate that word, but you're gonna settle for someone that isn't even at the same value or the same level as you. And there's nothing worse than that because they will bring you down and you will not reach your full potential in life. And that's just a sad life to live. Number 20, you don't know someone in a week or even two, so you can't know you love them or that they love you. This is for all the love bombers out there that either have been love bombed or have love bombed. Other people you do not know. Not even a month do you know if you love someone or you want to be with them or you want to date them or you love them unconditionally? Not even in a month, not even two, three month rule is how you know when you know someone. But, like, there's no way that you've seen them in tough times, good times, how they react to certain situations, what their values are, how are they with their mother? How are they with their siblings? How are they with people at a restaurant? You do not know all of those things. Their brain chemistry, what triggers them in a week. So how the fuck do you know that you love them or they love you? Like, do not fall for that trap and do not put that trap on others. Yeah, I've been through it. And yeah, that's why I know this now. And yeah, maybe I've. Since I've learned this, maybe I've fell a little bit for the trap before because I'm like, how do people not love me in a week or a day? But it's true, they don't know who you are. Maybe they fell in love with that version of you or that day or what you were wearing or how you looked, but they're not in love with who you are. 21. No apology means you have no respect for me. And I'm not even explaining that one. 22. When you hate someone, it's the opposite of love. It's the need for them to love you. When you stop hating someone, we are letting go of the need for them to love us. So this is very important because hate brings so much energy and draining to you. So it's almost like a way for me to remind myself, okay, I want to say I hate this person, but I don't even hate them because it's the opposite of love and there's no love there. So you just let it go. If they don't mean anything to you, why give them the time of day to even have part of you thinking or brewing up or boiling about them? So at that point you just have to say, no, I don't love them. So if hate is the opposite of love and you are waiting for the need for them to start loving you, then irrelevant. It's a write off, who cares? It's the opposite of love. So you could say you hate your ex boyfriend, okay? But then that just means that you are having a really tough time letting go because you miss the love that they gave you. So you don't. You feel nothing. You learn to numb that area. Yes, it'll come in waves, but like, not worth it. Not worth the hate, not worth the attitude, not worth even talking about them or shit talking them to other people. Not worth the breath. 23. If I'm tempted to go back to him, I need more distance. If any temptation comes up, I need to talk about it. It's like an unhealthy pattern. Don't have one cigarette if it makes you feel like you need to have the whole pack. This is also in therapy. I love my fucking therapist, but. And I meet with her every single Monday so she hopefully loves me too. Or else she just thinks I'm absolutely insane. But if you're tempted by something, maybe it's an addiction, maybe it's a person, maybe it's a thing that you're trying to steer away from. Don't even put yourself in the vicinity or anywhere of temptation because that Once you have a little glimpse, a little sea of them, a little taste of it, a little, you know, feeling good. Maybe they complimented you or whatever it is, or you see them with somebody else, or you see that they're looking good. It's a temptation. And you're gonna want it all, all back. So don't do it to yourself. Don't make yourself have that one cigarette just for. To feel better in that moment, to just become addicted again. Because you now feel as though you need the entire pack. It's not worth it. 24. You can't have love if you don't have trust. You can have a lot of lust, a lot of sex, but no love. If you don't trust someone, do not tell them you love them. Do not get into a relationship. It's gonna be the worst relationship of your life. Because trust is the backbone to anything ever. Friendship, family, love in your life, whatever it may be. You do not love someone if you can't trust them. Period. End of story. Have sex with them, but don't think you love them. Don't fall for them. Because if there's no trust, there's nothing. And last but not least, my favorite one. I was gonna say favorite one, but I don't, honestly. These are all my favorites, and I just wrote them in order of how it happened in my life. Because I thought, like, okay, year one, year two. But when I was one years old, I wasn't writing down whatever the fuck I had for number one. But last but not least, okay, we have to take people at their lowest denominator. If he cheated, do I want to date a cheater? Just like if you had an apartment that the water didn't work, would you still live in that apartment? Very literal, but this was said to me one time, and I was like, genius. Light bulb went off. Common denominator. What is it? Okay, he goes out every weekend, and you just can't deal with that. Okay, I. He is a guy that likes to go out every weekend without me, with his friends, and I don't see him on the weekends. Okay? Do you want to date someone that goes out on the weekends and never sees you? Then that's the common denominator. Don't just try to mask it with all the good. But that's what it is. Just like the cheater example that I gave. Because in my case, it was a cheater, but that's what it is. Think of it logically. Like, even if your apartment. I said running water, but if your apartment didn't have Lights, like that's another big thing. Like you obviously wouldn't live there. It's something that's just a non negotiable to you and you have to write those non negotiables out. And I know I just rambled and I know that that was probably a lot to take in, but I love my life now and I love where I've become. I'm definitely not perfect. My therapist is probably like on the edge of her seat every Monday when I come in. But I've come a long way. I think I see life a lot clearer now. I'm a bit more mature, still working on some things and I'm still a crazy psycho, but I'm okay with that. And I love who I am and I'm working on that self love journey and I'm here to help everyone go through it, get to where I am or get to even further than me, or just get to somewhere that they feel good and comfortable and happy about. So I hope that you guys took something from this video. This was compiled in years of therapy in life. So I'm glad that I wrote it out here for you and honestly, selfishly for me too, because now I can go back to it. And I think this is almost like a bible to me. But that is 25 years of chaos, clarity and character development. If even one of these lessons hits, then every heartbreak, friendship followed, or late night spiral was worth it. Thanks for being here with me. Whether you've been listening since the first episode, I think this is like 29 or 30, but I'm so happy and grateful that you guys did listen today. And here's to trusting the process, living delusionally and becoming the version of ourselves that we always dreamed of. I'm 25. I'm still figuring it out. And that's okay. I love you all and let's figure it out together. And I will see you next.