B (20:28)
You know, and the stress of being a special needs parent, like I talked about in the very beginning of this episode with, you know, Libby is an angel. And when John Paul passed, it just, I, I just shut down like it was. I couldn't even listen to that series when it came out. I couldn't listen to telepathy tapes because I knew Libby was going to be in there talking about John Paul passing away. And it was just heartbreaking. And I don't think it's really, it's hard to explain the kind of stress you go through as a special needs parent. And it's been a mirror to me of how much stress impacts our health, how much like our mental outlook and the little bitty things that we do all day, every day to cope with stress, deal with stress, impact our health negatively. And that's kind of what I was living in. You know, I grew up in a not so great stable home. Both my parents got sick when I was very young. I used food to cope, I used alcohol to cope. I used, you know, I was given pharmaceutical drugs to deal with depression and anxiety. And like that was it. You take the pill and then you just cope. You know, I never really was given Tools that were simple, easy to use and accessible. It was like, let's take this pill. You've had a hard day. Let's watch TV and Netflix and drink wine. And, you know, that created a lot of health issues for me, which I definitely have. Genetic predispositions to. Obesity, diabetes, all the, all these things. Depression, I mean, it's all down the family line, alcoholism. But what I didn't understand is that again, mitochondria, really, and how these mitochondria are working, functioning, and the signals that they're getting are going to impact all these other downstream things. What's been really foundational to me, yes, leptin. And leptin was the key, really, one of the big keys in my fertility journey. When I did decide to, like, shoot, I'm just going to brave it and have another one. I always wanted more kids. But, like, it's scary. Like, what I just talked about, I went through. I've been through a lot, you know, with my daughter. People just can't understand what you go through with a special needs child unless you have one. You know, it's. It's crazy and difficult. But we were like, okay, let's try this, you know, And I thought it was going to be some easy thing to get pregnant because I had been on a carnivore diet for two years because that helped to get rid of a lot of the IBS and the pcos. Like, it suppressed all those issues, which at the time I thought that was like, that's what we do. We just like squish it and we're good, right? Unfortunately, it wasn't a long term solution and it was not a fertility diet. I found that out the hard way. So after multiple miscarriages and trying to go the route of fertility treatments, all of that, which all failed, I was introduced to Dr. Jack Cruz. We had one conversation, that was it. I only talked to the man one time, and he said, you need to go outside in the morning and you need to learn about light. You need to learn about leptin. He said, learn about leptin and this is going to be the key for you to reclaiming fertility and health. And he said, this is it, right? And I took it to heart, you know, because I had tried all the other things, they weren't working. And I also. That's when I met Meredith and the Quantum Biology Collective and connected with a lot of those really amazing, lovely people, started studying Dr. Pollock's work. Veda, Austin. Like, there's a plethora of amazing people out there, quantum circadian just I could go on for days. And so I really dove into a lot of that work and changed my lifestyle. And the quickest thing I noticed from just getting out there in the morning sun every single morning, I was like, I'm doing it the first few days. I'm like, this is so stupid. Why am I doing this? But what do I have to lose? But I noticed within the first three days that after three days I wanted to keep doing it. Something in my brain, those neurotransmitters were really getting activated as I felt energy and I felt happiness. I felt because you do make dopamine and serotonin and UVA light, felt my appetite was more regulated. I started having more appropriate hunger in the morning. Like a lot of things in my body, a lot of systems just started turning on. And I was like, wow, this is crazy. And so of course, I continued to do it and I continued to study it and dive into it. And then I eventually started adding it into client protocols and working with clients and started shifting more towards this model and away from the standard model. That really was, you know, getting the job done in some situations, but leaving a lot of gaps for a lot of others. Really, on my own journey, continued to do these things. I started looking more at my mitochondria as one of the reasons why I was having an issue with pregnancy, getting pregnant, staying pregnant, and focused on how do I create better mitochondria. You know, how there's. You can create better mitochondria, there are things you can do. I started doing things like cold therapy, red light therapy. Of course, the morning light was foundational and then appropriate darkness at night. Because this is another fascinating piece of research with fertility and darkness and night. I did a post about this a few months ago. I believe it was in 2010. There was this large scale study that started that essentially showed that women for millennia had essentially had their menstrual cycles to sync up with the moon. Smartphones came out around 2010. Everybody had this glowing thing in their face. It was around 2010, but that stopped. There's a large scale study. I'll have to find it on my Instagram feed. Maybe I need to write about it again. But women stopped cycling with the moon when we introduced smartphones. And you got to think about that of like, what kind of an endocrine disruptor that is for people. Because when you look at it, when it, what you're doing is you're disrupting melatonin production, which can lead to estrogen dominance, which can lead to low progesterone, which can lead, you know, all these hormones that impact fertility and healthy cycles get disrupted through. What are you doing looking at your phone at night, Something that simple. And so it was just these very, very simple things that I did. And I was able to get pregnant with my son when at age 42, give birth at age 43. Completely different experience than with my daughter. Birth wise, pregnancy wise. Everything was just so much easier, better, Even though I was 28 with her and 42, 43 with him. Totally different experience. And I attribute a lot of that to what I do. And I also different experience postpartum. With postpartum depression, it's severely, severely with my daughter. Like, I was put on Zoloft again, of course, you know, let's go back to the drugs. With my son, I prioritized the things, the morning light and didn't have to be perfect because a newborn, it's like, how the heck do you just do a perfect sunrise routine? You just go out there when you wake up, you know, still prioritize tons of outdoor time. And again, the darkness at night is a little tricky, but it's. You do it with like, you know, little red light, red light panels and things like that. Little night lights. Still, still doable. Did not have postpartum depression with my son. So I feel like these tools are overlooked and they're so powerful for so many things.