The ∞actualinfinity Podcast with Steve Mattus
Episode: Intro
Date: February 1, 2025
Episode Overview
The premiere of The ∞actualinfinity Podcast sets the tone for a radically authentic exploration of human consciousness, self-acceptance, and the chaos of existence as a neurodivergent, trauma-aware human in today's world. Host Steve Mattus rejects conventional self-help tropes, proposing instead a deeply raw, unfiltered invitation "into presence"—to come as you are, abandon fixing, and embrace the messiness of living awake, embodied, and real. This is a show for seekers, mystics, sensitive souls, entrepreneurs, and anyone "operating on a different frequency" who craves community and truth.
Key Discussion Points & Insights
1. Not Another Self Help Podcast
- Steve opens the episode by firmly distancing his show from generic self-improvement formats.
- “Let me be direct about what this is and isn’t. This isn’t another self help podcast trying to fix you or to make your life better. You’re not broken. Your life is exactly as it is.” (00:15)
- The focus: presence over fixing, direct experience over solutions.
- “What this is is an invitation into presence, into knowingly being that loving awareness that you already are, but that we spend so much time trying to escape and pursue.” (00:28)
2. Raw Autobiographical Honesty
- Steve introduces himself as “an autistic, gay, twice exceptional man” who has survived trauma, masking, addiction, and recovery.
- “Through profound experiences with early sexual abuse, religious trauma, drug addiction, recovery, I’ve discovered something essential—that there is nothing to fix, to change, or to transcend. There is only being.” (00:58)
- The guiding insight: True freedom emerges from radical self-acceptance, not striving to repair or transcend experience.
3. Embracing the Full Human Experience
- The podcast promises to traverse all aspects of life—trauma, neurodivergence, business, sex, relationships, and the “dirty nuts and bolts experience” of being embodied.
- “We’re going to talk about trauma and we’re going to talk about neurodivergence and about business and about sex and about relationships and about the dirty nuts and bolts experience that we have of being a human in a body with a mind, living in a world that is full of chaos and beauty.” (01:27)
- Key ethos: Nothing sanitized, nothing perfumed, full embrace of the 'wild fucking ride.'
4. Consciousness in Community
- Listeners can expect conversation between a diverse set of voices—“seekers, explorers, awakened, or just on a path of some sort.”
- Laughter, sharing “the cosmic joke,” and practicing presence together are core elements.
- “Because when consciousness meets consciousness, when heart meets heart, when love meets love, something magical happens.” (02:04)
5. Commitment to Radical Realness
- Steve vows:
- No “spiritual bypassing”
- No “toxic positivity”
- No pretending “the relative experience doesn’t matter”
- Focused instead on “honest exploration of what it means to knowingly be awareness while navigating this human experience.” (02:25)
6. Welcoming All—Without Conditions
- “Whether you’re neurodivergent or not, spiritually inclined or not, you are welcome here. All of your experience is welcome here. Your messiness is welcome here. Your beauty and your power is welcome here.” (03:00)
- Radical inclusivity: The show is for anyone seeking to belong with their complexity, intensity, and truth.
7. Structure & Release Schedule
- There’s no rigid schedule:
- "I’m not going to commit to you. I’m going to do it every week, because if I’m having a bad week, I’m not going to do it. Or. Or maybe I will do it, especially when I’m having a bad week, because we want to keep it real, right? I don’t know. I might do two podcasts a day, or I might do two podcasts a month. I have no idea. How could I possibly know? Nor am I going to commit myself in a way that causes me potential harm." (03:17)
- Invitation to subscribe and be present with whatever comes up.
Notable Quotes & Memorable Moments
“You’re not broken. Your life is exactly as it is.”
– Steve Mattus, 00:17
“There is nothing to fix, to change, or to transcend. There is only being.”
– Steve Mattus, 01:04
“We’re going to talk about trauma ... the dirty nuts and bolts experience that we have of being a human in a body with a mind, living in a world that is full of chaos and beauty.”
– Steve Mattus, 01:28
“No spiritual bypassing, no toxic positivity, no pretending that the relative experience doesn’t matter.”
– Steve Mattus, 02:27
“All of your experience is welcome here. Your messiness is welcome here. Your beauty and your power is welcome here.”
– Steve Mattus, 03:01
“What if it’s okay if you’re just present and aware and willing to be with whatever comes up in this next moment?”
– Steve Mattus, 03:43
“Above all else, I wish you more love, not less. Always.”
– Steve Mattus, 04:04
Important Segments & Timestamps
- 00:00 — Welcome and clarity about the podcast’s purpose
- 00:28 — Invitation to presence, not self-fixing
- 00:58 — Steve’s bio and surviving traumatic experiences
- 01:27 — Full-spectrum human experience, nothing off-limits
- 02:04 — The magic when presence meets presence
- 02:25 — Radical realness: no bypassing or positive veneer
- 03:00 — Radical welcome for all listeners
- 03:17 — Fluid structure and refusal to self-harm for consistency
- 03:43 — What if just being present is enough?
- 04:04 — Signature sign-off: “more love, not less. Always.”
Tone & Language
Unfiltered, direct, and intimate; explicit in both language and depth of feeling (“messy fucking experience,” “wild fucking ride”). The host speaks both with compassion and a sense of cosmic irreverence—a blend of sacred and profane that sets a bold, welcoming temperament.
Closing Sentiment
Steve leaves listeners with a simple but profound wish:
“Above all else, I wish you more love, not less. Always. Are you ready? Let’s do this thing.” (04:04)
In summary: This is an open invitation to show up as you are, own your story, and dive into deep, real conversations about the beauty and chaos of human existence—without edits, performance, or shame. If you’ve ever felt “too much” or “different,” this might just be the spiritual home you’ve been seeking.