Podcast
The ∞actualinfinity Podcast
Hosted by Steve Mattus · EN
**Warning: This isn't your typical podcast.**
If you're looking for another "5 steps to success" show, keep scrolling. But if you're ready to dive into the raw, messy truth of what it means to be gloriously, catastrophically human - you're in the right spot. If you consider yourself endlessly curious and willing to dive into the depths because that's meaningful, clarifying, and how your brain works - this is gonna be right up your alley.
Here's what we explore:
- The exquisite agony of being neurodivergent in a neurotypical world
- The delicious paradox of finding freedom within our nervous system's chaos
- The profound fucking beauty of divine love showing up as we learn to compassionately hold our traumatized experiences
- The wild dance between trauma, transcendence, and running a business
Each episode is an invitation to strip away the bullshit and discover what's actually true. Sometimes that means a 15-minute transmission that'll rewire your entire reality. Other times, it's a two-hour deep dive that'll leave you questioning everything you thought you knew about consciousness, business, and that persistent feeling that you're "too much."
Join consciousness explorer and ∞actualinfinity founder Steve Mattus as he weaves together:
- Ancient wisdom & cutting-edge neuroscience
- Mystical awakening & practical business strategy
- Raw vulnerability & unshakeable truth
- Divine love & human messiness
- Sacred spirituality & "holy fuck" moments of clarity
Whether he's flying solo or diving deep with fellow explorers, each episode is a rebellion against the sanitized, step-by-step success narrative that's left so many of us feeling hollow. Instead, we're creating space for something more real, more alive, more infinite.
This is for the "broken", the mystics, the ones who've always felt like they're operating on a different frequency. For the entrepreneurs who know there's more to business than bottom lines. For anyone who's ever wondered if their intensity, their complexity, their deepest truth might actually be their greatest gift - or simply needs someone to understand them say it's gonna be okay.
more love, not less - all-ways.💜™
Subscribe now and join us in the infinite exploration of what's possible when we stop trying to fix ourselves and start embracing the wild, beautiful, perfect messiness of who we already are.
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Episodes
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Finding Home in Your Nervous System: A New Approach to Attunement and Wellbeing
Oct 1900:23:10Summary readyIn this episode of the ∞actualinfinity Podcast, host Steve Mattus shares a deeply personal journey of transformation… moving from traditional business coaching to a new, attunement-based approach to nervous system wellbeing. Steve discusses the limitations of “regulation” and introduces the ANSEM Model, a holistic framework that honors the wisdom of our bodies, especially for neurodivergent and highly sensitive individuals.
SummaryI did it AGAIN! (Maybe don't publish this one?)
Feb 20, 202500:07:49Summary readyIn this raw and unfiltered episode, Steve embraces the 'madness' of authenticity, shedding professional polish to show up unmasked. He reflects on presence, consciousness, and love, sharing his journey of undoing performance and embracing reality—messy, real, and true.
SummaryStop Trying So Hard: My Perspective on Meditation
Feb 19, 202500:20:50Summary readyIn this intimate exploration, Steve challenges traditional meditation approaches with a radical invitation: stop trying so hard. Drawing from his own journey through trauma and spiritual seeking, he shares how true meditation isn't about achieving special states but recognizing the awareness we already are.
SummaryThe Cycle of Evasion and Pursuit
Feb 16, 202500:21:32Summary readyIn "The Cycle of Evasion and Pursuit," Steve explores the exhausting pattern of running from discomfort while chasing what we think will make us happy. Drawing from personal experiences with trauma and neurodivergence, he reveals how recognizing ourselves as awareness itself - rather than constantly seeking escape or relief - can transform our relationship with difficult experiences and break this cycle naturally. Find this episode, notes, and transcript on my website.
SummaryIntro
Feb 1, 202500:04:53Summary readyIn this debut episode of ∞actualinfinity, host Steve Mattus introduces a new kind of conversation about presence, awareness, and being lovingly conscious. Moving beyond traditional self-help and spiritual bypassing, this podcast explores what it means to knowingly be awareness while navigating the full spectrum of human experience. Steve shares his perspective as an autistic, gay, twice-exceptional man and sets the foundation for deep explorations of consciousness, neurodivergence, relationships, sexuality, trauma, business and everything that makes up our lived experience. This isn't about fixing or changing anything - it's an invitation to discover what's already here. Follow the podcast on your preferred platform to never miss an episode. more love, not less - all-ways.💜™
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