RAVEN + DOVE = DEATHLOVE

= GRIEF

= GONE FOREVER

= GRIEF

= THE ONLY THING WE KNOW WE IGNORE

= WHAT IF I SAID “YOU ARE DEAD MEAT?” YOU WOULD LAUGH

= WHAT IF I SAID “YOU WILL DIE A SLOW PAINFUL DEATH MAYBE?”

He gets up, he looks good, he stands there and strokes that one note. He is a man. A man who has seen the depths of the patterns of the universe. He’s “crazy” but she will love him, less than he loves her by default.

What if she loved him even though he was crazy? WHAT IS SHE LOVED HIM because he was crazy? Does that make her a crack addict? Maybe? Did he want to hurt her? Did he want to see how deep the bullet lay now after all that? He saw it and he stayed away for many days. She can never look at a magic eight ball the same again.

All the while she’s no half-truths, only naked lines and she’s caught between space and time. She’s been raped and she still wants love for everyone and she can forgive, even though the forgiveness he believed, was always owed to him.

What if she hugged him and said it was ok, would he allow it?

What if she had a cigarette lit it and smoked it and then he cried and she begged him for forgiveness and she was just going to love him and leave him, so what happened?

why did you never love me? Why did you ever love me? What don’t you love about me?! I just wanted to be free.

But we are freer than we think (foucault),

Well, if I could make a deal with God and get him to swap our places, I’d be running up that road, that hill, that building. Counting the seconds until there were no problems.

…..if i only could.

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