Marty Solomon (11:21)
But I wouldn't have, in my mind thought, like, oh, that's the person I'm looking for. But they loved me. They invested in me. And as I just spent a little bit of time, I was like, oh, there's something very attractional about this thing that Jesus is doing in their life. And the problem with all of that was I loved all that. The problem was I struggled with it. It was like speaking a language that was my second language. It was like. And I've talked about this a lot on the podcast. Prayer has never been something that has come easy for me or that I just fall into naturally. Contemplation goes against my very cerebral book nerd nature. And so I struggled, but I pursued it because I knew what Jesus had done in the life of my mentors. They had helped me see what Jesus could do in my own life, and that's where I was. And then I think. I think. I mean, I'm not going to speak for God, but I feel like when I was ready, God was like, okay, let me introduce you to Ray van der Lijn, and let me send you over to Israel and Turkey. Now that you know what the resurrected Jesus is like in your personal life, let me give you all the nerdy, crazy stuff. And so I went over there and I can remember the lesson that changed my life was up above the ruins of Qumran, which is where the Essene community, we call them the Essenes, the Qumran community, whatever you want to call that group of people. There's a group of people, the sons of Zadok, that went out to the desert. It's where we found the Dead Sea Scrolls. And there was this big lesson on the text. And you can go back and listen. We can link the Essene episode in our show notes Brent, if people want to go back and review it. But there's this amazing episode, amazing lesson that Ray does up above Qumran, and it's all about the power of the text, and it's all about this community that gave themselves to, like, they were going to learn the text when nobody else was going to know the text. They were going to know the text. And when the world decided it was important enough to know the text again that they started asking. When they stood at the crossroads and they looked for the ancient paths and they asked where the good way was, they would ask. And there was going to be a group of people that was going to be ready, and they were going to say, we know because we've given our whole life to this. We know what the ancient paths are. They literally preserve the Bible and the Dead Sea Scrolls. Like, we literally talk about the Dead Sea Scrolls today. We talk about them for the gift that they are to us. This group of people, they committed themselves to knowing and to preserving and to writing down and to walking the path. And I remember Ray, I don't want to ruin the lesson in case anybody ever gets to experience it in person, but essentially, Ray gets to a point where he's like, where are they? Like today? Where are the Essenes? Where are the people that are that committed to being people of the text, to not just knowing about the Bible or reading books about the Bible or knowing a lot of theology? Where are the people that want to memorize the Bible, who want to know, who want to get the Bible in them, who want to plant those seeds deep and let them grow? Like, where are they? And I remember a few of us were just very moved. I remember one of my. One of my friends and co pastors standing at the top of the mountain, shouting into the valley, I want to be an Essene. And that's not my style. So I didn't shout at the top of my lungs, but Brent would probably laugh because he knows that I do shout at the top of my lungs. But I didn't that day. But I sat there with tears streaming down my cheeks saying, yeah, me too. I want to be an Essene. And I had a bunch of conversations with Ray about a lot of things. And eventually those conversations revolved around my own Jewish heritage and my own Jewish identity. And as I wrestled with this over those two years, Ray. I can remember Ray, we had a conversation over a meal. We had a conversation in an airport. And at some point, Ray said, marty, this is the mysterious call that God has between himself and his people. And then he stopped and he said, between himself and your people. This is your story. This is who you are. And this role that God's given you is something special. And it's a special role that nobody else has. And he says, you are this person who is supposed to know his text. Like a gentile should be able to walk up to you and grab you by your beard and Say, tell me about Torah, and you're the person who should be able to tell them anything they need to know about. You should know Torah. And I remember talking to Ray, like, wait, is this prayer? Like, it's not the kind of prayer my mentors taught me, but if I'm a part of a special thing that God's doing in the world, could this be prayer for me? Is this prayer? And Ray essentially had his own ways of saying, yes, this is what prayer looks like. This is what prayer can look like for you. I came back from those trips with a personal ownership and a fire that I've talked about in other episodes. When I talked about my spiritual disciplines in session seven, I talked about what that looked like. But this journey for me of the text has been this weird combination of my own mysticism, my own Jewish identity, which is my own and not everybody else's. My own story is not your story, but it was my story. My own belief in the spirit of God and how the Holy Spirit works, my cerebral nature, my contemplative belief and experience with prayer, and my commitment to scholarship, whether that's rogue scholarship or formal education, like what I'm pursuing now, when you put all of these things together that make me me. The text is where all these things collided, and I just found, like, this deep resonant, oh, this is who I am, and this is who God made me to be. And so the text has become the pillar for me, and I could just probably just ramble, and I should stop rambling. So we should get to the text. Brent, I gave you a list of my favorite text texts. How about that? Does that make any sense? My favorite text texts?